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PLEASSSSEEEE SOME MEL APPRECIATION!! I WANT SOME SMUTTY SWEATY SMUT WITH AFTERCARE PLSOSL
♱ insatiable. ♱
omg I LOVE THIS REQ!! TY!! + i am still alive, i promise! i've been lazy w/ writing but i'm getting back on the grind, TRUST!! 😏🤭...
(ALSO! i'm not ignoring your asks (i swear!!) i'm still trying to get to them all lol)
syp. messy tribbing with mel....
cw: nsfw content!!, tribbing/scissoring, dirty talk, sub-ish!mel, dom-ish!reader, praising/sweet sex, lil bit of teasing, lil bit nasty, vulgar language, AFTERCARE!!!
mel medarda is insatiable when it comes to you—completely, utterly, and truly insatiable.
mel is usually one to be perfectly put together. you marvel at how perfect she is; not a hair out of place, no stains on her designer clothing, and not a single piece of gold jewelry twisted or mismatched in any way. she takes pride in her appearance and how people view her as a spectacle; someone to admire and strive to be.
oh! what the people would think if they saw her now…
mel is perched comfortably above you, having found the perfect position to pin you down and grind her sloppy wet pussy against yours. her hands grip your shoulders while yours dig into her hips so she can't run. she’s propped one of your legs up on her shoulder to get as close as possible, mouth open wide in the shape of an O. she’s dripping wet, cunt sensitive, and stretched out from the various ways in which you fingered her, fucked her with the strap, and then some.
she still can’t get enough.
“god! f-fuck, you feel incredible. s-so good,” she’s repeating herself over and over, brain blurry and filled with only images of you and the way you make her fully feel. the way your pussy, which is almost as wet as hers, feels against her has her mind reeling.
your shared wetness is leaking down onto the bed, creating a large, cold wet spot below you. you're groaning at how her pussy kisses yours, a short string of cum gathering between you two each time you meet. her pace is slow, and calculated. like everything she does.
you laugh, enthralled at her desire, “yeah, baby? you fuckin’ like grinding your needy little cunt on me? after all the times you came? you’re all stretched out ‘n you’re still begging for more, ‘s cute.”
the tone in which she responds is nothing short of pleading.
“hmph. mhm! fuck yes, babe. i need you. need you to let me come all over you. wanna make a mess f’you."
“p-please…”
her need—her longing ignites a new sense of urgency in you. you need to make her gush, make her pussy cream over yours, and create something so fucking messy but still beautiful nevertheless.
you want to paint her in you.
you quicken your hips that hastily move upwards to meet hers and find your head lifting off of the bed to stare deeper into her eyes. your grip on her hips grows slightly painful. mel lets out an abrupt yelp, resembling a scream, signifying her surprise.
“keep goin’, melly. wanna feel that pussy cum. you’re gonna fucking make a mess all over me, princess.”
you continue.
“make yourself cum. gimme that shit, babe. yeeeah, gimme that pretty fuckin' pussy.”
she stills, hips stuttering and eyes rolling to the back of her skull.
“f-fuhh- oh my god! m’ cumming!”
“me too, baby, fuck! can feel you throbbing.”
and with those words alone, she’s gushing against you, clutching your leg in her hands in a silent scream and mouth wide open. she rides out her high, broken moans and cries falling from her lips, breaking her pleasure-induced silence.
“that’s it, melly, f-fuuuck. give it to me."
miraculously, her pussy is drenching your lower half in her cum—mixing with yours and it’s beautiful.
white clouds her vision, droplets of sweat dripping down her brows as she collapses on top of you. she quickly wraps her arms around you and she’s breathing heavily.
she’s definitely done for the night.
as she buries her head into your shoulder, your arms cage her in and wrap around her back. you break your own silence to praise her, worship her like she deserves.
“mm, good girl. you did so good for me, gorgeous.”
“you came so hard, didn’t you, baby?”
she nods, unable to speak.
“yeah, babe. you deserve it.”
mel then looks up, eyebrows furrowed and capturing your eyes with her fucked-out gaze. her lips part.
she inches closer to your lips, “kiss, please.”
“of course, c’mere.”
when you kiss her, you do it softly by cupping her smooth face in your hands and gently guiding her lips along yours. she can still taste herself on your tongue and that makes her close in even deeper, appreciating the closeness and intimacy of truly feeling herself within you.
you break the kiss to look at her, you smile and stifle a laugh at her disheveled state although you still see her as the most beautiful, magnificent gift the world could ever offer you.
“wha-what’s so funny!” she jokingly accuses you of nothing and everything all at once.
“nothing, you just- you’re beautiful, melly. i love you.”
“and, i love you, sweetheart.”
your smile deepens, “good. now let’s go shower.”
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lmk if y'all want more aftercare for future writings... i need to practice with it!!
#jinxvex#mel medarda#mel arcane#mel medarda smut#mel x reader#mel medara x reader#mel smut#arcane thoughts#arcane#arcane season 2#arcane smut#arcane x reader#wlw#wlw blog#wlw community#wlw post#sapphic#wlw concepts
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⋆˙⟡ Wishing. Katsuki Bakugou x Fem!Reader ⟡⋆˙
⋆.˚✮ Valentine’s Day story 5/14 ✮˚.⋆
Warnings; swearing (it’s Bakugou, obv), 3A Bakugou, post war, angst, pessimism, friends with benefits relationship, sexual mentions/actions.
Minors DNI
Enjoy pookies ✧˖°.
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Nsfw under the cut!
The sound of the bed under you filled your senses, the lewd slapping sound of skin on skin making your stomach churn. You arched your back as your classmate, Katsuki Bakugou, relentlessly slammed into your body, over and over and over.
His grunts mixed with your whiny moans, your nails digging into his shoulders and your legs pressed wide open for the blonde. “Fuck- Bakugou- oh god I’m so close-“ you threw your head back as a moan of pure ecstasy shot through the air of his old childhood bedroom.
“Me too, just hold on” he growled through gritted teeth, a low groan slipping passed his lips as his body lurched against yours.
Lust was a dangerous emotion, if you could even call it that.
However, the consequences of it seemed less scary than love, or at least that’s what you always told yourself.
Ever since middle school- hell, ever since you were little, you’d been told not to wear revealing clothes, not to spread your legs when sitting, not to let a boy too close, because all he wanted to do was get into your pants.
That was then though, back before you’d let yourself go. Back before you encountered an entire fucking war.
Stress, anger, frustration, anxiety, fear, depression. All of these emotions ran high through the one and only class A, a lot of the members suffering PTSD or varying other disorders thanks to the gruesome experiences that they endured thanks to the Paranormal Liberation Front.
That was no different for yourself.
You’d always been a bit of a train wreck anyway, so the emotions weren’t exactly new to you, but sometimes you just felt everything at once, and felt nothing at all.
“Bakugou! Bakugou!” You cried out, your legs trembling violently as you came for the third time, Bakugous teeth sinking into your neck and leaving dark purple-ish red marks that would no doubt be there the next day.
“Shut up” he growled against your skin, dragging his tongue over the bite mark he left you “you love this, and you know it, whore” and he wasn’t wrong.
Some sick part of you loved the pain from the biting, from his harsh words. It was Bakugou, you were used to it, it was grounding. The pain made you realize you were alive, mixing with that pleasure and creating a very addictive mixture.
Those negative emotions that usually got so pent up, that, not even sparring with someone built for endurance and to take a beating like Kirishima, could quell them away. That was scary for several reasons.
Having heavy emotions weighing on your heart like that was dangerous, after all, weren’t villains forged from broken people? Didn’t pain break people?
So having the physical pain to snap you out of the cloud of emotions and trauma was..reliving, and you knew Bakugou felt the same. He always encouraged biting, or scratching during sex. Was it masochistic? Probably. Did either of you care? Not really.
You two never took it too far though, and you both had a clear understanding of your limits when you set up your arrangement in the first place.
“Fuck-“ Bakugou panted heavily, looking down at the mess of you he’d made in his sheets. You both were sweaty, dark marks lining your neck and his shoulders. Your eyes were half lidded and watery, your jaw slack as you tried to catch your breath “that..was amazing..” you muttered breathlessly. Bakugou huffed and rolled his eyes “I know, moron.”
Ah right. Your arrangement.
You and Bakugou had established a mutual, physical relationship, one to ‘relieve stress.’ It was Bakugou who actually suggested it originally. He’d been extra angry, and not even Kirishima could get him to open up. Not that there was anything to talk about anyway. He was dealing with the aftermath of the war like everyone else, his method just affected other people in its execution.
You agreed, but for all the wrong reasons.
You needed the stress relief, sure, but there were deeper reasons, reasons that killed you.
The blonde had a softened a part of your cold heart you never figured could be softened, especially not by someone as prickly as him. But it was those rare moments of quiet with him, how considerate he was, how strong and devoted he was, how he’d grown and changed over the years.
You were in love with someone, who saw you as nothing more than a physical relief for himself.
Of course you knew there was more to it than that, but you dumbed it down to that extent to try and use it as snuff for the ember of love in your heart.
Love.
What a scary thought.
You sighed as the hot water of Bakugou’s fancy shower slowly slid down your body, his presence behind you, silently rubbing your skin clean with a washcloth. His hands were gently and firm. Callouses and a few scars littered his hands and arms, not looking horribly different from your tattered body.
You angled your head back as Bakugou carefully kneaded your shoulders, rubbing out the knots he’d put in place with his rough treatment of you, making sure not you touch any of the bite marks or hickeys he’d left on your skin.
It always felt amazing to have Bakugous hands on your skin, and his motions of gently kneading your tender breasts was incredibly soothing. You leaned back against him and let out a soft sigh, your eyes closing as he gently palmed your chest, being careful and tender with your body.
Despite what you thought about Bakugou, the truth was actually pretty different. Sure, Bakugou was hotheaded and incredibly brash, often raising his voice to anyone who pissed him off, no matter the status or position, you knew that. But you also knew a different side of him, the other part that was more soft, that he rarely ever showed, but sometimes you caught glimpses of.
The side that made you breakfast when you two had a long night, the side that cleaned your sore body in the shower, no words being shared between you. There didn’t need to be.
You got to see the side of him no one else did, but you were caught up in your delusional state of denial, partially because Bakugou had said he wanted no feelings attached to this arrangement, so why would he go back on that?
Your body slowly melted into the sheets as he placed you down on his bed, the pillows and blankets feeling amazing against your body. You didn’t even open your eyes as you felt Bakugou get into bed with you, pressing his chest against your back and closing any distance between you with his warm form.
A sigh escaped you and you closed your eyes, allowing him to spoon you from behind.
While you were wishing he loved you, he was wishing you saw how he expressed his love for you.
Two souls scared to be hurt.
It was unoriginal and the both of you knew it.
You were both too scared to be hurt again, and yet even as you laid in each others’ arms, you were both still in pain.
Ironic.
Blame it on the lust, blame it on the trauma, whatever floats your boat. But one thing is for sure.
The two of you were in way over your heads when it came to this love thing, and in even deeper with your ‘friend with benefits’ that neither of you were satisfied with.
Just..
Complacent.
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Hello !! Sorry about the angsty piece, I was feeling the groove of the hopeless romantics and pessimism. I’m sorry if it feels a little off, I don’t think I’ve written for Bakugou ever, but I think I’ll read some fics and make a part two to this. Goodnight loves, drink some water and get some sleep.
~ Lex
#boku no hero academia#my hero academy fanfiction#my hero academia#my hero acadamy#bnha#bnha bakugou#bnha katsuki#bnha Bakugo katuski#bnha bakugo katsuki#bnha bakugo x reader#bnha bakugō#mha bakugou#mha katsuki bakugo#MhA Katsuki#mha kacchan#MhA Dynamight#mha x reader#mha smut#katsuki bakugou#bakugou katsuki#bakugou x reader#katsuki bakugo x reader#katsuki bakugo mha#bakugo katuski#katsuki x you#katsuki x y/n#katsukibakugou#bnha valentines#valentines 2025#valentines day writing
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ദ്ദി(ᵔᗜᵔ) selling my moots!! ୭ ˚. ᵎᵎ
got tagged by my lovely anna ( @chenlezip ) to sell my moots!!! (please take them. i beg you.) starting off withhhh...🥁🥁🥁!! ⋆˚࿔ @hanniescookie 𝜗𝜚˚⋆ price ... NOT FOR SALE. ( i will never sell my angel/my wife. ) pros: ⭑.ᐟ everything about her. ⭑.ᐟ EVERY. SINGLE. THING. cons: ⭑.ᐟ NONE!!!!!!!!!!!! ⭑.ᐟ i fear she's perfect and ethereal!! (a v good fear.) ⭑.ᐟ i wanna marry her. ⭑.ᐟ ...actually she'd sell every loved one of hers for jeonghan.. ⋆˚࿔ @starstrawb 𝜗𝜚˚⋆ price ... every last cent you have. pros: ⭑.ᐟ does silly dilly willy quizzes w me🤍🤍 ⭑.ᐟ WANTED TO BECOME MY JOSHUJI!!! YAYAYAYYAY!!! ⭑.ᐟ sends me gm and gn texts <3 ⭑.ᐟ will listen to you yap!!! cons: ⭑.ᐟ our timezones. ⭑.ᐟ she's too sweet. it disgusts me. ⋆˚࿔ @gyubakeries 𝜗𝜚˚⋆ price ... $0.99 pros: ⭑.ᐟ CARING AF!!!!! ⭑.ᐟ will listen to you yap pt2 !! ⭑.ᐟ will suddenly drop random lore ONLY if u drop random lore too!! ⭑.ᐟ if she yaps about mingyu, you better drop everything and listen. cons: ⭑.ᐟ will ruin you with her angst! ⭑.ᐟ and her fluff! ⭑.ᐟ SHE GETS A 0.99 ONLY BC OF GLIMPSE OF US GYU. she ruined me my god.
⋆˚࿔ @kwonienana 𝜗𝜚˚⋆ price ... FREE!!! no pros, and no cons. she is available for kidnapping until she releases a part two of unsent!woozi. ⋆˚࿔ @wonkierideul 𝜗𝜚˚⋆ price ... your whole lifespan! pros: ⭑.ᐟ she's a silly willy <3 ⭑.ᐟ literally has the cutest voice !! ⭑.ᐟ SHE'S SUCH A SILLY CUTIEEE ⭑.ᐟ (i love our vms hehe) ⭑.ᐟ the absolute LOVE OF MY LIFE ⭑.ᐟ pls i will never leave kie ever :( cons: ⭑.ᐟ if you have a shitty mic, dont become moots with her. ⭑.ᐟ CALLED MY PERFECTLY FINE CAPABLE GREAT QUALITY MIC SHITTY?!?! ⭑.ᐟ you could be yapping about the most emotional thing and she'd be like "you should hold my toes" ⭑.ᐟ SENT ME A WHOLE PARAGRAPH ABOUT WHY HOLDING TOES IS SO VULNERABLE?????????????? ⭑.ᐟ FORCES ME TO DOWNLOAD APPS?! ⭑.ᐟ secretly rlly freaky (not in THAT way.) ⋆˚࿔ @kissbyoon 𝜗𝜚˚⋆ price ... $979543625045926345923845923475234523452345 pros: ⭑.ᐟ when i slid into her dms SHE MATCHED MY FREAK RIGHT AWAY ⭑.ᐟ a silly willy, just like kie!!! ⭑.ᐟ said the italian language is sexy (yes. thats a pro.) cons: ⭑.ᐟ TRAUMATISED ME WITH A HORRIFYING REEL. (!!!) ⭑.ᐟ would do anything for jeonghan.... ⭑.ᐟ SAID SHE WOULD BLUSH IS JEONGHAN GIVES HER A SIDE EYE?????? ⋆˚࿔ @seokminfilm 𝜗𝜚˚⋆ price ... $21800 pros: ⭑.ᐟ will do any request u ask her too!! ⭑.ᐟ lowk just a chill guy ⭑.ᐟ SHE PUT ME AS ONE OF THE MAIN CHARACTERS IN HER FIC!!! :((((( ⭑.ᐟ (you havent answered my question. was mingyu down bad for yuna or not...) ⭑.ᐟ will make your heart melt!!! cons: ⭑.ᐟ idk man ⭑.ᐟ OH OH OH IDK WHERE MY DOWNBAD DK FIC IS 😀. ⭑.ᐟ yeah thats a con. ⭑.ᐟ giving u the silent treatment btw. ⭑.ᐟ i hope you're RYING right now. ⭑.ᐟ makes fun of my spelling errors.... to all my other moots: IM SORRYYY FOR NOT TAGGING!! maybe i'll do a part two <3!! to my moots i mentioned here: i hope you guys dont mind the tags!! and pls pls pls dont come after me... it was honestly rlly hard to think of cons... my mind was blank cause you all are so perfect!!!
#jjjjeonww#yuna's yapper era!!#⸜(。˃ ᵕ ˂ )⸝♡wonkierideul♡#(๑'ᵕ'๑)⸝ ᥫ᭡noircheolsᥫ᭡#(๑˃̵ᴗ˂̵)و ᰔᩚkwonienanaᰔᩚ#(∩˃o˂∩) ᡣ𐭩chenlezipᡣ𐭩#(๑ ˃̵ᴗ˂̵) ღhanniescookieღ#(੭ ˊ^ˋ)੭ yuna's biggest fan!#ε(´。•᎑•`)っᰔgyubakeriesᰔ#( ˘ ³˘ ) ꨄseokminfilmꨄ#(„• ֊ •„)੭ ᡣ𐭩ྀིྀིkissbyoonᡣ𐭩ྀིྀི#yuna's moots!!#i love my moots hehe#theyre all so perfect :(#i wanna give them all a hug#ew wait no i dont i hate affection
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You can't just leave him to suffer all alone Makoto... ;w;
So this is essentially a role-reverse of this comic XD (idk why)
Makoto may be super moody and fussy when he catches the flu; but if Yuma catches the flu, he's super needy and clingy when delirious. And it looks like Makoto can't say no to him... x'D
I guess your work is going to have to wait after all. Now you better properly take care of your sick original! (just try not to get sick yourself hehe)
I know this comic is usually supposed to be heartwarming but...I made it more silly.
because they're silly lil' guys... x'D
Based on another skit from @foxes-in-love
#rain code#whumpcode#master detective archives: rain code#rain code spoilers#yuma kokohead#makoto kagutsuchi#makoyuma#pixeldoodles#my art#sick comfort#idk why I decided to make a reverse of this#but it was very silly#makoto just leaves the stuff for yuma to use on his own#only for yuma to beg him to stay… ;w;#makoto you can’t just leave him alone ;-;#your work can wait yuma's sick and needs you#not even the almighty CEO can say no to THAT face 🥺#he removed his suit so it wouldn’t get contaminated lol#also yes yuma is in makoto’s bed#i like to think when Yuma gets better he won’t remember a THING#God I love these two they are everything to me ;w;#sick post game yuma reverting back to wet napkin yuma x’DD#this is the makoto version cause the bg is purple :3#even the foxes roles are reversed in this comic x3#god its 5am I should sleep…
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I've watched Inception and The Wild Robot for the first time today. I'm fine! No, truly, I'm fine!
#i didnt Cry but i was p close for both LOL#i was actually trying to watch twr last night but#it was late .#i fell asleep .#like constantly#i was waking and sleeping waking and sleeping waking and sleeping#incredible movie though holy shit#roz ras and ra's i love u all now <333#raine's rambles#the wild robot#inception#inception was pretty cool#incredible visuals and the twist was insane ...#they rlly were just stacking dreams on dreams on dreams#speaking of dreams i got my first and only dreamzzz set today but that aint matter#tbh for inception i think my only issue was there was a part where it rlly just Drags for a bit to me at least .#its not that big of a deal tho#the scene w fischer getting that false idea planted in was so good it was such a nice resolution#it leaves you in two minds about the whole thing#on the one hand the heroes succeeded ! yeah !#on the other they have completely altered the course of Everything for this guy via a false notion#he may be happier but it was never true ...#and the thing w the spinner at the end. ..#ohh my god#can i just pretend i got the happy ending instead AUGHH...#good day for me today actually !#might have been my best one in a while...#not me YAPPING in the tags when i have a project to finish WHOOPS !!!
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what is your favorite thing about charles and your favorite thing about erik? separately, as in what you like most about their characters :]
a devious question this one is, my friend!!! it's hard enough for me to explain my thoughts cohesively, but having to pick ONE thing i particularly love is difficult. with characters like charles and erik, theres been so much done with their characters over the decades and so they have so many components to them that make them so interesting and fun to observe. BUT I TRY FOR YOU TODAY. under the cut i kinda ramble and the size of this text box makin me anxious
i think if i were to be simple and broad, what i enjoy most about charles is his determination to help others, even if he isn't really thanked and/or if people don't even like him. ofc, this isn't to say he hasn't done wrong- to be honest, the fact he does wrong/questionable things at times is another aspect of him i really enjoy, maybe because- broadly speaking- he's meant to be altruistic (intent vs outcome and all that). i don't know if that's super exciting to most people, but it is for me
as for erik, my reason for liking him is easier to explain tbh. To Be Simple And Broad, his progression from villain to antihero over the decades has been fun to observe (as much as i have so far anyhow) and analyze. i think to be a bit more specific, him using his rage and pain as justifications for his villainous actions is definitely what compels me the most: hurt people hurt and the sort, an idea i've always found interesting (something something vicious cycles and the like). yet now, he recognizes this wasn't really. A Just Thing To Do and is beginning to change that, which i enjoy
#snap chats#may you forgive me anon i always feel awkward explaining things AVELKJEAKLJ#i feel esp awkward cause i haven't read toooo much of the comics yet- like ive read. an ok amount so far krakoa wise#can you guys tell im fighting god himself to Not write a fuckin. NOVEL#im so sorry i have an over-explaining problem my mom was mean to me growing up but anyways#i definitely want to read more and more outside krakoa. the more i read the more im fascinated by these two and their history#but to continue my prattling. as if the three paragraphs above arent enough This Is Not A Thesis RELAX#i think a. 'poignant' moment i think adds to what i like about charles too is that soliloquy where he recognizes people dont like him#yet he could always be worse- like if he's bad now to others imagine if he really just said Fuck It All#it's simple but so am i whaddyagonnadoboutit. i mean that point itself could be discussed but i'm trying to keep this brief bear with me#i so bad want to know what issue that's from tho all i know is that it's from krakoa but i neeeed the whole context#i think like. an additional bullet point to charles i also like is his loneliness#and i say this cause- I Say From My Amateur-Psychology Armchair- it's a component of why he's so earnest to help#but im keeping this point in the tags until i can confidently verify that with myself after some more reading#Unfortunately a favorite pass time of mine is psychoanalyzing characters like why else you think i major in psychology smh#im going to force myself to cap the post here because i ended up typing like 20 more tags just rambling#and as i said id like to keep this simple and clean !!!!! i have sat here for like four hours answering this ngl#ignore the fact half that time was spent getting distracted by solitaire and riffling cards ok I Am Very Easily Distracted#but fr when it comes to charles and erik- charles esp imo#i feel like i need to write a whole paper just so i can mention the nuances of the characters and like. EVERYTHING#because again six decades is A Lot of time for writing decisions to be made and for their characters to change over time#im a glazer but i wanna be a nuanced glazer yk. is that glazing at that point-- w/e anyway#its a lot. so today you will have to tolerate a very Blah answer from me which i must apologize for#down the line once ive read a comfortable amount more varying from multiple eras maybe ill revisit this question more in depth#as of right now tho .... chat i wanna get legion of x so bad i skimmed it and hhhhhhhhim gonna throw UP#i need to shake charles like a ragdoll BUT ANYWAY. bye bye for now lovelies !!!!!!!#please forgive me if i didnt answer your question efficiently ..#here i am saying i wanted to keep the tag count brief and yet !!! jesus christ. shut up My God I REACHED THE TAG LIMIT
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Day After Day | 日复一日
25k | T | Weilan | Case Fic, Undercover Married, Grief
Shen Wei swallows. “And this is why you asked me to—” he makes a vague gesture that means go undercover as your husband “—pretend with you.” Zhao Yunlan comes to a stop, eyes on Shen Wei. “That’s why the cover is a married couple. The reason I’m asking you is because there are no other options for people to go undercover with.” Shen Wei scoffs to give himself an excuse to look away. “You certainly know how to flatter someone, Zhao Yunlan.” Or: Four Haixingren disappear for two months after a stay at a romantic mountain retreat. Shen Wei and Zhao Yunlan book a weekend there to find out what happened.
it's finally here!!! my beloved fic for the 520 day guardian reverse exchange! this was written for trobadora, who gave me the most delicious set of ideas to fit into a story. it was so fun.
i have no idea how to describe this fic, frankly - this is, hands down, the most complex and most heartwrenching and most incredible thing i've ever written in my entire life.
here is a list of some things in it: a kiss, a mystery, a change of heart. old chinese people, dark energy world-building, lesbians, big-time character parallels, forgery of documents, rainstorms, rowboats, lollipop symbolism, [redacted], bedsharing, grading, the stupidest undercover name ever. zhao yunlan described with so many light metaphors. shen wei being the most shen wei i could make him.
read Day After Day | 日复一日 on ao3 here!
#guardian#weilan#zhao yunlan#shen wei#zhen hun#镇魂#banner post#520 day reverse exchange#man this fic is just so. its so. guys. i can't even say. this is SO personal and also SO a product of these exact two months of my life#truly this is just MY personal ideal weilan casefic that i lucked into being able to write as a gift fic#i remember talking to d in mid-april coming up w/ the case premise and they were like 'wow this will be complex to write' (paraphrased)#and i was like 'wow yeah ahaha. i love the idea though. maybe i'll just write one part' HAHAHHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA. haha. hah.#now that its done the last month and a half lowkey feels like a fever dream. the total count of hours i was literally sitting and writing i#a frankly alarming number when considering it happened in the context of a month#god this was SO FUCKING FUN though. i got to think SOOOOOOOO much about 1) including so much chinese stuff from my childhood in here#and 2) making references to chinese chengyu that i learned over the last four months of nonstop watching cdramas#and 3) soooooooooooooooo much additional meaning in the names of everybody and everything possible haha#anyway. mwah THANK YOU I LOVE YOU to everybody who is being so fucking niceys to me about this fic. i love you!! you are making me so happy#520 day fic 2024#<- if you want to see cut scenes from this / earlier versions of this fic. they are in this tag#my fic
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i have no friends who care about me because my personality is boring and understimulating and i have no selling point as a friend and i am being left behind
#negative.#sometimes it’s like. oh i wish people liked me as much as i like them. lmao.#‘we should hang out!!’ ‘we should call!!’ ‘we should play a game!!’ okay but please actually do it :((#i feel like i take so much time to show love and care but maybe i’m doing it wrong?? do i seem fake?? is there something off putting??#i need better friends both online and offline because i’m socially starved#w the exception of like. two people??#every time i try it devolves into generic small talk#and there’s that autistic feeling that i’m saying everything wrong. i’m doing it wrong. they’re giving me that look or their text format#has changed and i’m being wrong#i can’t break out of it. i’ve just stopped reaching out these past couple months and like. genuinely no one said a thing#can anyone please show that they even think about me. like. god.#i go through hell every single fucking day and i have attempted suicide more times in the last year than the last decade#i’m not seeking attention i just?? would love for someone to give a single fuck for once. oh god.#the csa trauma that was triggered this year has been eating me whole. no one knows and no one cares to know#i’ve told two people now total now. even as i’m telling them it feels like i’m dumping it on them and making them uncomfortable#i regret telling one of them. my closest irl friend. god. should’ve kept it in. i can’t stop doing everything wrong.#anyways. i think…. i am going to go cry for a while lmao#man this sucks. mannnnnn this sucks#anyways.txt#(not a vague. never a vague)
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ok let's catch up quickly
#so i went on a few dates w this guy. long hair beautiful face kinda looked like a girl (good) said yes ma'am when i told him to do smth#(also good) film student great at photography including candids. made a sheath of leather for a sword pin i have . et cetera.#he asked to cuddle and i was like iggg and then i felt Nothing and i was like ohhh yh ok ok yep lesbian#like he meets almost all my criteria but. yeahhh no . also at the end of that date he had some weird takes. anyway broke up w him and told#him actually im p sure im a lesbian (again) and he was like yk thats the second time this has happened to me this week but its ok bc ive#fallen for this girl from berlin. and then we cooked together. anyway . met a beautiful butch lowk in love w her. weve been on (1) date.#have two exams in a few days havent studied enough going to like end it all basically. my research partner kicked me off our research#(expected(it was always skinda sketchy)) which was devastating + it happened in a lidl 15 hours into a journey from bordeaux#to go back to the UK. my friends were kinda busy paying for baguettes but also they heard this whole exchange and are kinda mad at him#my friend of 10+ years is coming over in a few days. my evil ex situationship person that i decided to stay friends w because i kept#insisting they are a good friend and not evil and also extremely beautiful? turns out shockingly enough they were evil. tried to fix them#and then i realised due to their entire friendship group being ppl like me (Every Single One of their friends are ppl they met on dating#apps then led on then dumped and proposed staying friends w) and are collectively extremely attracted to them and not over them they#keep validating the most diabolical shit they say/do to hace a chance w them. they broke up w their ex and the way they keep leading#this poor girl on and making her heartbeeak worse and saying that they want more power over her and want her to beg for them back etc...MY#JAW HAD DROPPED esp bc i didnt even know the ex was in the picture BECAUSE ME AND ONE OF OUR FRIENDS (that they also dated) HAD JUSR SLEPT#NAKED TOGETHER IN THEIR BED W THEM. GIRL. anyway that is the least of the diabolical stuff they said but no we are moving onnn#this was b4 the beautiful butch btw. anyways . i have a mitski concert tmrw i think?? idek anymore#i used to have a crush on this guy very briefly and then it disappeared and then i realised if he fundementally changed everything abt#himself then maybe id like him but ofc i didnt tell him that but i still think abt it sometimes but anyway thats irrelevant now bc 99% sure#even if he did id still not find him attractive (lesbianism). please recommend good overnight moisturisers btw i have super dry skin#right. the friend of 10 yrs. we had a hard convo abt why she essentially bullied me in year 8 and it made me highly bitter but i also love#her and ik things are diff now its been like . Many Years . and shes going to stay a while I HAVE TWO EXAMS I DONT HAVE TIME but i love her#its fine. i think i might just switch into medicine and do the whole become a neurosurgeon thing (which was my plan B) bc plan A is looking#kinda impossible rn. I WANNA TALK MORE ABT WHAT THE EX SITUATIONSHIP PERSON SAID but i wont bc i dont wanna be too mean but also . MY GOD#i had a conversation w a philosopher friend about whether i have a moral responsibility to try to fix them bc unleashing this on society#feels wrong and he said 'probably but...run' so yeah im not talking to them atm. second date w beautiful butch on monday btw IDK WHAT TO#WEAR. she said she likes fems. im just gonna wear the shortest ralph lauren skirt i have w the cute leg warmers and hope 4 the best#its 1:15 AM im abt to drink coffee and start studying bc what the FUCK man. also almost finished watching the boys its very good#one of my best friends is struggling rn it is breaking my heart i want to take the burden from her i miss her very much
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Lmk doodle page that turned into a dragonfruit doodle page. I love them sm.
#lego monkie kid#dragonfruit shipping#mei lmk#red son#red son lmk#hope u guys know i do a big dramatic sigj before starting all the mandatory tags or whatever#i roll my eyes and sigh like someones dissapointed dad#i think these two r so cute tho. they jusg make each other worse lmao😭#everything is a competition between them. everything.#idk i started lmk w s3 and seeing them bond over the samadhi fire like chemically altered my brainwaves.#everything abt lmk did that to me tbh#like this show sees my absolute lack of a father figure and is like 'yeah.. yeah i think we're going to exploit that'#every time sweet calls mk kid or buddy or smth i just wanna dieeeeeeeeee aaaaa and pigsy? dont get me fucking started#WHEN HE CALLS MK SON???? GODSDDDDDHDKAH asbhddggfejehsbananshsduf u rh#AND MACAQUE???? OH MY GOD THATS IT THATS IT IM RETIRINGGG#he may have done horrible things i dont rlly care i wish that six eared monkey was my dad#what a fucking sentence. anyways. toddles. bye. goodnight. idfk love you
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wife. you kno w the deal.
#not me to her but her to me ykyk#being gross about love >>>>>>#sillyposting#my headphones#anyway onto the real post: =.= <- me#god i hate how much being around family can fucking eat at you.#i was doing. fine. good even.#but noooo i guess playing a few games during dinner for two hours means. no more emotions other than =.=#the fireworks are now too much for me and. grumpgrumpgrump#coping with this album tho. its nice.#hm.#moods like these suck because there is a very clear cause which i cant accept is the problem.#i just want to. be able to spend time with my family without negative side affects. and that already feels like asking for too much.#hm#it is very hard to. be so exhausted for no reason by the people youre supposed to love#and i think there is still something lingering from childhood there bc. surely if i loved them i would never feel this way?#surely i dont love them. and they shouldnt love a child that is made so tired by them.#hmm#you know the stuff. usual december thinkings =w=bb#i know. i know. i know. i know all the nuance. i do.#ok song time to forget everything ever now please :3c#Spotify
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pertaining to the idea of tenax’s band of strays i do think it’s touching that the kids are the ones who saved him and waited outside the door to make sure he’s okay. for all tenax claims to be harsh and cruel it’s a fine indicator of his character that the kids won’t rest without him and are there every time he’s in danger.
#AND I CAN’T FUCKING BELIEVE I HAD THEM STEALING THEIR WAY OMTO#THE PLATFORMS WHAT DO YOU MEANNNNNNN oh i love being right#also that all the kids are there watching when he kills the guy whose name i forget because i simply cannot hold names in my brain but the#evil one. who i was like oh thank GOD he died i was so sick of this plot he kept killing everyone & i screeched when he almost got claudia#something something calla saying ‘you’re not a child anymore’ about tenax’s cruelty to the brothers (which in my twisted narratives. sorry.#there’s only one scorpus who KNEW the child tenax was. the child he’s still healing and caring for. all of the children whose eyes he looks#into and sees a hurt that’s just like his? the children tenax saved whether he’ll admit it or not? scorpus saved him. and that’s all)#(also this is a terrible thing to say i knew it about but like. oh i knew it about the master of the house. tenax making sure NO ONE#touches the kids or does anything with them really but Claudia and him—the people he trusts which also now includes calla but he makes sure#it’s someone he knows. also do we have a claudia backstory??? or would i just get to invent a reason why she’s there and what she’s doing#and why she’s so loyal to tenax. did she also see the child he was and that’s why she’s so protective of him but also why she gets along#with calla so well because the two of them see how he’s festered in that. like calla fully has the rights here i think she should rip him a#new one for his lack of decency and good qualities he can be corrupt without being cruel y’know. and he should be called out on his#peter pan ass behavior you’re not a child!! there are such consequences!!! dream a little bigger a little kinder!!! change the dream you#made up with scorpus when you were a young angry teenager and make it fit who you are NOW. the life you want NOW not the life you thought#you should have & deserved. what did you learn from growing up. what changed. what do you need now & what do you want. not the same things#and i too wish that this was 30k and covered their entire backstory#BUT IN THE OPPOSITE DIRECTION of i also need it to be 100k canon-divergent (presumably. i’m only through episode eight. but i can’t imagine#that they will follow the plot EYE would write because they need to have a second season & you can’t have that without conflict which means#titus overthrown scorpus is gonna die metaphorically or literally etc etc the gold faction in shambles but technically triumphant with#domitian on the throne and tenax in a position of patrician power accepted into their society but still not equal and happy. whereas lmao#domitian you’re getting shipped off to some other city because your plot to overthrow titus failed and yet he is merciful enough he won’t#kill you he just sends you and hermes together (at which point over the months long journey you forgive and re-learn each other bc titus#didn’t know of the betrayal he thought it would be kind to send your (ex-)lover with you. do we see how this works perfectly) & tenax falls#back into the underworld where he now knows he belongs because blood is everything except when it isn’t. when he realizes what he has is#worth more. no matter if the blood he has is tainted or patrician the blood oath he swore with scorpus iron on their tongues means more.#calla’s split lip defending him and their winnings. kwaame’s blood on the hard packed sand of the arena fighting to stay alive and to come#home to them. the fire in aura’s cheeks when she laughs at ivy. SURPRISEEEE EVERY NARRATIVE IS A FOUND FAMILY I GUESS IT SPRUNG ON ME TOO.#and tenax doesn’t mind a little dirt and bribery every now and then. doesn’t aspire to former heights and shining brilliant out of shadows.#the gaudiness of gold &flash of fools’ dreams. YES CAN I FINALLY PLS GET MY BLACK FACTION TO REPLACE THE ILL-FATED GOLD THATLL COLLAPSE W/D
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im done w moving and out of the shitty apt w the shittier roommate (who did not let move out happen without adding as Much drama as possible) and have just. been feeling so much better. living w my two friends who actually communicate well and all work together on our needs and gah. so less stressed and anxious now!!! and also in a week kitty introductions have gotten farther than they ever did w shitty roommates kitties (they were kinda bullies, so we had to move glacial speed even w oregano cat expert) and just. thank u the universe things are so much better now
#only improvement would be if anjo Also lived here curse grad school!!!!!!#i moved out over a week ago but we just tuened in keys after cleaning day on sunday#and across just those two days bad roommate accused me of faking cleaning a part of something (that was not requested or clear)#tried to turn anjo against me by saying im a liar and manipulator and gaslighter (which. listen the last one i could say the fuckin same)#(which is also so funny bc anjo and i are so close. became codependent in a heart beat. why tf would u think anjo is gonna be on ur side)#then at the walkthru pointed out things that were damaged (which they are Alsonin on that security deposit what are u doing)#and the texted again accusing me of shit with a stupid fucking infographic on weaponized incompetance#thankfully like all of these i had my friends with me bc when infirst got there for cleaning i uhhhh had a panic attack lol#so i had good support thru everything and now never have to deal w them#its just. been So much lmao. and its so fucking nice how calm and smooth things have been#like i had that sort of shit. i in general am good at communicating and avoid shitty drama like this person#so its been So exhausting. but im done now thank god#and the new place is so much better and nicer and i love the friends im living w and Yeah :')
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I just need you to know I was reading your tags on the Sillinger/Fantilli Deadpool/Wolverine gifset going "YES THE EYE CONTACT! AND COLE'S WHOLE FACE JOURNEY! AND *OH MY GOD* ADAM'S HAND ALMOST BUT NOT GRIPPING AT COLE'S BICEP" like that near grip Adam took had me fainting like a fucking Victorian era man who saw a woman's bare ankles like W.H.A.T.
I neeeeed to write them omg.
ANON. ANON!!!! please. write them!!!!! and send me a link if/when you do 😇 i’ll prepare my fainting couch (the floor)
#shout out to the columbus blues org for last year deciding they were going to pair up adam and cole for all their nhl (???) playoff media#we really. i still have the world’s worst powerpoint presented by adam and cole in my drafts somewhere and i can’t post it#bc i wanted to make a fake PowerPoint to put on the screen as a joke & it was funny but i didn’t write it down before I went to bed so :/#liv in the replies#also like. what was up w/that nhl?? why them 😭 not complaining just so confused. adam hype wasn’t at its peak NOR was tate mcrae revenge#so they really were like. Hmmm. I like these two little freaks. this one is well-trained. let’s use him#like do you ever think about the blessing that the UMich social girlies bestow on nhl media teams by training all of these men so well.#they do not skip a SINGLE question they will be bullied into it they will give you an answer even if it’s stupid god bless.#adam fantilli#cole sillinger#columbus blue jackets#i REFUSE to admit defeat at the hands of the umich boys#worm. worm. WORM!!!#as we all know i don’t have the slightest idea who cole sillinger is irl but i DO want him to be involved with his teammates.#love thy goalie love thy stunning star prospect… OHHHHH NARRATIVE UNLOCKED OH NOOOOO COLE KNOWS HE’S NOT THAT GOOD SO HE TAKES CARE OF#EVERYONE ELSEEEEEE OH NOOOOOO this message brought to you a) by my elvis merzlikins agenda at all time so that whole sentence but b) by me#mid-realization trying to be like Cole’s not like. bad right you can’t say this but then remembering everyone pulling out his stats to do#him dirty while the whole tate mcrae breakup/release of details was going down and i was like oh actually. like he could be. ALSO on that#note which was so messy i do have to say that news was a shock bc i knew cole sillinger from years prior when everyone held him up like a#bug they pulled from under a rock like who is THIS after he sat front row at fashion week to support his gf so. the threads of this ALSO#come from the initial vision of ‘damn isn’t this a nice one?? a nice hockey??? like lmfaoooo you guys he’s the wag and loves it’) but. this#is also my failing as a storyteller that I love this and will put it in everything but. service kink accommodating for others to give what#he thinks he can’t to allow them to be better. also just. i watched him clean adam fantilli’s floors you can’t go up from that. ANYWAY
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I could play one of the most beautiful well crafted video games on the planet and it will never be as appealing to me as one that kind of sucks shit but has soooo much potential
#merlin.txt#just finished cyberpunk#i feel like they could have done sooo much more with the concepts they had#the game showed us a bit of everything in the world but i dont think they explored any one topic enough#and they pulled a ton of punches. the ending did not feel like this big 'grab your allies and fuck the corpos' thing it shouldve been#it was mostly just tying up johnnys loose end. one big loop. which i fuck with; but it wasnt rlly anticapitalist at all in that sense#i have a bunch of other thoughts on johnny but ill save it#but god. the beginning (act 1 and the first bits of act 2) where just soooo fucking good#and it rlly felt like it was going to gear up into this huge thing instead of just being one last hurrah for rogue and johnny#AUUUGHH theres just So Much Potential. goddamn#imo i think the major thing is that at some point it stopped being v's story. it was everyone elses#he has Very little agency. which is interesting but man this guy deserves better#when it comes down to it the game Is really shallow. whenever there is any sincerity in themes its very centrist#the fact is you dont rlly meet many characters in game who are Truly working to take down corps except for johnny and he doesnt rlly count#and if there Are its usually played for irony and laughs (looking at kerry) or theyre flat out kind of awful.#judys story is probably the best of the companions bc shes actively trying to help sex workers and its played very positively#i also think two of the main themes (letting go of the past; what it means to die) are Majorly helped by some incredible emotional beats#and w/o some just Really Really good scenes and good repetition of lines and motifs its very tropey.#ok i wasnt going to write a full thing. but let me be clear: i fucking loved this game. i would not be writing so much if i did not love it#the sun ending was Still soooo vindicating. v is still kicking and that's all that matters to me#(it helps that v is a Great protag like one of the Best voiced rpg protags next to hawke da2)#(which is kind of a funny comparison since i think both protags suffer from a lack of agency)#ok im done now
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guys I cannot believe I’m writing this but I had another dream abt linkedin boy. I appreciate gods commitment to sending me neon signs but I’m still not going to listen <3
#lee’s bullshit#genuinely how many times has this happened w out me remembering it.#twice in two weeks is. Certainly something.#I don’t rlly remember what happened this time just that he was in it.#so anyway yeah all of those ppl who said you never forget your first love are right bc it’s been seven years and I still think abt him#probably everyday again now. honestly it never rlly stopped it j submerged for a bit.#he’s one of those ppl that if he ever messaged me i would drop everything in a heartbeat#forever haunted by the fact we spoke briefly on snap when anyone who knows me knows full well I hate and am awkward using it </3#anyway. computer what’s the quickest way to send your crush of seven years prophetic dreams abt you still loving them. no freeways.#ngl he’s so smart if there was a way to do it that’s what these would be. GOD I need to be euthanized <3
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