#Glad to see all the Staci love recently

[brookiidookiii]

diehard Staci haters are so confusing lol like I get not caring for her. She’s not an interesting character but people who hate her with a passion are so strange. Girl what did she do to you all she did was talk a bit too much. Is she really worthy of her being your least favorite character when max and beardo are right there. All she did was talk too much and go bald she was not that bad

[womendeservehumanity]

So I’ve encountered incel tiktok and it’s reminded me that sympathy for men is futile

So this video shows up on my fyp and it reminds me that I do truly hate men only a fraction as much as they hate women because I actually felt bad for this guy. To sum the video up since tumblr only lets you upload one video, he responds to this comment by saying he was given a horrible set of cards. He’s ugly, short, low iq. And that he’s bound to be working wagie jobs for the rest of his life. I’m thinking that he’s just one of the many members of the working class tired of an existence that seems pointless. But then I look through the comments on this video and he keeps completely dismissing any comments calling him good looking or saying that it gets better as cope. And that’s when I start thinking yeah this guy def is some blackpill woman hating loser

So I see he responded to a comment and this was the video. What a confirmation! This is rhetoric I see blackpillers/incels spew a lot recently because they literally just regurgitate the same shit in their echo chamber. There’s a meme that went viral that was like “women being able to detect autism in a guy vs women being able to detect a man that will abuse her”. It’s actually insane how much contempt males have for abused women because they only see them as potential matches that chose an abuser over them. They see it as some brutal confirmation that nice guys finish last because women would pick an abusive man over them. As if abusive males are coming up to women like “hey bitch I’m gonna beat the shit out of you come suck my dick” and women are like “ok 😍” when in reality they are very covert first opting to charm and love bomb a woman and once the security of a committed relationship is formed, that’s when the abuse happens.

Also these tards obviously don��t understand the psyche of abusers. They don’t enter relationships with the intention of beating women. That’s not their thought process when meeting a woman so acting like there’s a certain type to sniff out is disingenuous. I will say though. A lot of women do ignore red flags in a man because there ARE certain traits that abusers have. But a lot of that is due to women, from childhood, being conditioned to see the good in men despite major flaws and to give them chance after chance. It’s not because the guy is a tall Chad. Which is what they’re saying in the comments and it’s making my blood boil because the idea that the average abuser is this uber attractive, chiseled god is objectively untrue. Just watch the fucking news. But here are some of the replies to this video that genuinely made my stomach turn. Idk why I’m even shocked atp. I know how much men hate women but Jesus

And if you don’t know what total Stacy death means. Stacy = female version of Chad but incels tend to use it interchangeably with all women. And total Stacy death calls for the extermination of all Stacies (most likely women in general). This was originally inspired by white supremacists saying tnd which calls for the extermination of all black people

There were many more come comments but it was too exhausting to screenshot. I thought this guy was trolling because he’s actually not bad looking and literally looks like the average Mexican guy in Cali (who is also short lol) and they have no trouble dating. But I think he’s very off putting and has some type of social disorder. What I found so crazy is that all of the sane people telling this dude to stop being so self depreciating and fucking weird and then maybe he’d find a girl were getting dogpiled onto by his incel simps. That they’re lying and coping for saying he’s good looking. And you know what I’m glad he feels this way. I’m glad he’s given up on pursing women and as cruel as this sounds, I hope he stays true to his plan of k’ing himself in the future. One less danger to women.

But seriously “the blackpill” is some of the most birdbrained shit. It’s like “women want to date people they find attractive” and that’s supposed to be some type of mind blowing matrix-like truth. No fucking shit. Literally almost every human regardless of gender and sexuality operate with that idea. Did you go up to the women you went up to because you thought she had an oh so great personality? No you went up to her because she was attractive. Women are the ones that have to do the actual rejecting the most since they’re approached more often than not. But men literally select women they find attractive and disclude women they don’t. They just don’t have to be blatant about like women do. As someone who goes OUTSIDE and goes to college, most couples are average looking people dating average looking people because most people are average. It’s not a bunch of women with Chad while all the other men are left with no one. Hell if anything I’ve seen many above average women with average and straight up ugly males.

Anyways. It breaks my heart seeing the original video and all the women defending and supporting him. He’ll completely ignore that and focus on anecdotes that feed into his self depreciation and hatred of women. Women please stop extending kindness to males. The sympathy you feel for them is foreign when it comes to you. They’re literally in the comments calling women trying to reason with him that looks aren’t everything gaslighters and liars. There is nothing you can say to these males that will stop them from hating you. There is nothing you can say to them that will change their deluded minds. Instead of trying to “fix” them while they revel in the abuse and death of women, let them wallow away in self pity and pray they contribute to that rate 🙏

And radblr. Pls pls report this sick fuck’s account. I already blocked him but his username shows up in the video.

[jerzwriter]

This is a fictional answer to @tobias-carrick-appreciation-week's What Would Tobias Do? question for day 6: What would Tobias do if he was dating someone he was (surprisingly) really into, then he found out they were a porn actress. This has me changing his dating history, because this is officially part of my HC. lol I hope you enjoy this flashback to The Hopkins Years fic!

Book: Open Heart (Pre-Series / Johns Hopkins Years) Pairing: Tobias Carrick x F!OC Other: Ethan Ramsey Rating: Teen - maybe Mature to be safe. Nothing explicitly. Words: 3,027 (sorry...) Summary: Tobias Carrick wasn't known for taking relationships seriously - at this stage of his life - he was there for a good time, not for a long time. Then he meets Stacy, and things change. He's finally accepted that's OK when a secret from her past threatens to blow it apart. How will Tobias react to the news, and what impact does it have on the couple?

A/N: I have additional A/Ns at the end. But participating in @julychallenge Pink: Romance, Vulnerable Black: Attraction, The Unkonwn

Ethan stood over the stove wearing no more than his old, blue terry bathrobe. His disheveled hair, stubbly beard, and raspy voice all indicators of how raucous last night had been. The fact that he was standing and cooking could be considered a medical miracle in and of itself, or so it seemed, until Tobias emerged from his bedroom.

They had similar nights, but Tobias looked no worse for the wear. Already fully dressed, with a bright smile on his lips,  he waved to his friend and roommate as he continued a conversation on his phone.

“I’m making eggs. Do you want any?” Ethan hollered, but the question went ignored.

“It was great,” Tobias grinned. “I’m so glad you thought so, too.”

Ethan rolled his eyes as he tended to the eggs; this uncharacteristic behavior had become more common in recent weeks.

“Do you have plans today? No? Well, I was thinking of taking a drive to Kent Island. I’d love the company if you’d like to come along? All right... great! I’ll pick you up in an hour?”

Tobias sat at the kitchen counter, where breakfast awaited him. He didn’t say a word until the weight of Ethan’s stare became too much to ignore.  

“What?” he asked, almost annoyed.

“I took the liberty of making eggs for you,” Ethan scowled.

“So I see,” Tobias smiled. “Thank you.”  

“I asked you wanted any... of course, you didn’t answer.”

“You asked?” Tobias asked with confusion.

Normally, Ethan would have been annoyed, launching into a tirade about how Tobias doesn’t appreciate his contributions, but today, all he did was smile. It was a novel treat to see his roommate behaving this way.

“It’s Stacy... isn’t it?”

“What?” Tobias gasped, not willing to confess the obvious. “No! I’m just in a good mood, that’s all.”

“Yeah! Because of Stacy! No need to hide it; I can’t blame you at all. She is stunning.”

Tobias looked as bashful as he was proud; Ethan only wished he could be recording this.

“She is, isn’t she?” He replied with a grin.

“She’s also intelligent, funny, a great conversationalist....”

Tobias leaned back in his chair. His smug persona on full display.

“Most of my women are, Ethan...”

“Please,” Ethan scoffed. “Beautiful? Yes, but the rest... very debatable.”

Tobias chuckeled as he finished his eggs, but he didn’t argue Ethan’s point.

“It’s OK... you know... to like her more than for a night.”

“I know,” his friend replied matter-of-factly. “I’ve been seeing her a while now... and I’m taking her out again today. But thanks for the permission, buddy.”

Ethan shook his head. “What I meant is you can like her seriously. It’s all right to think long-term; it’s OK to consider commitment. You’re not getting any younger, and it’s not every day you find someone as special as Stacy.”

“Yes, Mom.” Tobias dismissed.

Tobias knew his friend was right; in fact, it’s all he had thought about since he met Stacy two months before. It scared the shit out of him, but if he was being honest, the prospect was a little less frightening each day.

“Well, I never said we’re getting serious,” he argued. “I...I’m just... I like her, you know?”

“I know,” Ethan grinned. “And you could do worse. Have fun at the beach,” He said with a smirk. “Should I expect you home late?”

Tobias smiled like the Cheshire cat. “Maybe you shouldn’t expect me home at all.”

~~~~

Stacy heard Tobias’s car from nearly a block away. The beautiful weather meant his car’s roof was down, and Rhianna blaring from the speakers was the only calling card Stacy needed. She was already walking down her steps when he arrived, and God, she was a sight to see.

Tobias did his best to maintain his composure, but that was a tall task as she sauntered his way. Her long auburn hair glistened in the sunlight, and her white sundress hugged every curve. And that smile—innocent as an angel’s yet irresistibly inviting—left him utterly speechless, and Stacy didn’t miss a thing.

She hopped into the passenger seat with a giggle; not wasting a moment, she threw her arms around his neck, pulling him into a deep, passionate kiss, and her effect on the man was instant.

“Mmmm,” he growled. “You need to stop that, or we’ll never make it to the beach.”

“Oh, we’re going to the beach,” she insisted. “Of course... who knows what we’ll do on the beach.”

Tobias held her hand most of the drive; he was both astonished and ashamed of how he felt. How was he falling so hard that even Ethan saw it? At any other time, he would have cut off all contact at once to stop whatever crazy feeling was happening, but with Stacy, it was impossible.      

It wasn’t just her beauty or the way the sound of her voice drove him insane. It was her quick-witted sense of humor that often left him and everyone else in stitches. It was her tender heart, like the time Tobias had to cancel a reservation he called in a favor to make just so they could tend to a wounded bird she spotted on their way. It was her brilliant mind, the head of her class in biotechnology; she could talk him under the table. He encouraged her to go to medical school, but she had already planned another path in painstaking detail. He didn’t want to admit it, but she could well be the whole package... and he was nowhere near ready for that... but he was already enchanted, and there seemed to be no way to break free of Stacy’s spell.

“Have you ever been to Kent Island?”  he asked.

“No. But then, I’ve only been to the beach once since moving to Baltimore.”

“What?” Tobias was stunned. “You’ve been here two years and been to the beach once?”

Stacy shrugged. “We can’t all be you, dear!” she teased. “Some of us have to put in a lot of effort to stay at the top of our class... not to mention some of us have to work to pay for Hopkins.” 

“Hey, I didn’t mean any offense,” he said with a kiss on her hand. “But I’m hoping you’ll let me spoil you a little.”

“Oh, what do you have in mind?” she cooed.

“Do you mean today or more long-term,” he smiled.

With his eyes on the road, he hadn’t seen Stacy’s face. If the words surprised him, they surprised her even more.

“Uh, let’s stick to today... for now...”

“All right, how does a walk on the beach and dinner at a great little seafood place, I know of, sound? We could spend some time on the boardwalk and maybe give me a chance to win you a prize.”

Reaching over the console, she placed a kiss on his cheek. “And here I thought you were my prize.”

“You’re good for a man’s ego,” he beamed as she placed her head on his shoulder for the remainder of the ride.

The day went as planned... better than planned... neither could remember the last time they had such fun so effortlessly, and they didn’t want it to end. Tobias rented a room at a local bed and breakfast where little sleep was to be had. After making love the night through, they woke up and showered together, only to decide to use that comfortable be once more before getting in the car to return to Baltimore.

Tobias was beginning to push his fear aside, and the stupid grin on his face made that perfectly clear. He was so wrapped up in the pastel summer haze he found himself buried in that he didn’t notice how quiet Stacy had become. She left his car rather quickly when he dropped her off, but he chalked it up to being exhausted... after all, they hadn’t had much sleep.

When he walked into the apartment, Ethan looked up from his studies and smirked at his roommate.

“So, your day at the beach turned into a weekend at the beach, I see.”

“Did you miss me, boo?” Tobias teased.

“Hell no! I loved having the place to myself. It’s so much more spacious when your big head isn’t here.”

“Hahaha,” Tobias ?. “Like your head doesn’t take up a ton of space.”

“Oh, it does!” Ethan concurred. “That’s why it’s more comfortable when only one of us is home. So... are you ready to admit that you really like this one?”

“I don’t know what the fuck is wrong with me, bro... but I do... I haven't told anyone this, but Mandy called to hang out the other night, and you know what hang out with Mandy's mean... and I passed. I could have gone, but I passed. Who the hell am I?”

“It’s not the worst thing in the world,” Ethan chuckled.

“That’s the scary thing,” Tobias said with a yawn. “I’m starting to see that. I even mentioned it to Stacy this morning.”

“You what?”

“I told her I was falling for her and asked if she felt the same... I can actually see myself wanting... more with her.”

“Wow,” Ethan grinned. “If I knew this was going to happen, I would have added the earthquake rider to our rental insurance policy. Sure, the idea of an earthquake in Baltimore is far-fetched, but right now, not so much.”  

“Shut up,”  Tobias chuckled, heading toward his room. As enlightening as the conversation was, he was desperate for some shut-eye. And luckily, he got a little in before his doorbell rang several hours later.

Ethan had headed out to work, so Tobias wiped the sleep from his eyes as he groggily answered the door. Though he was delighted to see he was disturbing his sleep.

“Stacy,” he beamed. “I didn’t expect to see you again today?”

She bit on her lip, then a hesitant smile formed on her lips. “I hope it’s OK that I dropped by unannounced. I tried calling you, but....”

Tobias took the phone out of his pocket. “Sorry, I turned the ringer off so I could take a nap. But you’re always welcome, come,” he said, opening the door. “Come on in. What brings you by?”

After assuring they were alone, Stacy took a seat on the couch, holding Tobias’s hands in hers. “I came by to talk about... what you said this morning... about wanting more... with me.”

“Oh,” he replied, noticing her apprehension. “Well, if that’s not what you want, it’s OK, I didn’t mean to frighten....”

“Tobias,” she smiled, holding a finger to his lips. “Let me finish. The thing is... I do... want more with you, too... but I’m not so sure you’ll want more with me.”

“But I’m the one who...”

She shot a look in his direction, and he was silent again. “There’s something you should know first.”

Retrieving her phone from her purse, she pulled up a video, then closed her eyes -  pressing pause – both on the video and her conversation.

“Hey... are you all right?” Tobias asked, placing an arm around her shoulders. “If you don’t want to....”

“No,” she sighed, it’s important. “I hope... I hope you don’t hate me.”

She handed him the phone and watched as his eyes grew three sizes. There on that little screen was Stacy – his Stacy – naked and having a great time – with someone that definitely wasn’t him. Peeling his eyes away, he pressed stop and turned to her.

“All right, hon, I’m not going to be mad at you and an ex having a sex video... that’s nothing I’ll judge... but why the need to show it to me.”

“He’s not an ex,” she said with a deep sigh. “He’s an actor... just like me.”

A wrinkle appeared on Tobias’s brow, showing his utter confusion, and Stacy swallowed hard before she continued.

“See, if I tell you my screen name, you can Google me... and you’ll find a whole lot more where that came from... I... I’m a porn actress.”

His eyes grew again, and his face was ashen. “You’re an... oh,” he fumbled for words.

“Look, it’s not that I’m ashamed,” she continued. “It was a choice I made... a choice that allowed me to attend college, a choice that made going to Hopkins for my masters a reality. A choice that helped get my family out of poverty...though I never really told them why. I told them I won the lottery and, well... I didn’t.”

“Stace,” Tobias started, “You really don’t owe me any explanation, I....”

“You’re right,” she interrupted. “I didn’t... until this morning. If you want us to be serious – you have a right to know. You don’t deserve to learn by some jackass telling you he saw me in Throbbin’ Hood.”

Tobias lowered his eyes with a little chuckle. “Now I saw Throbbin’ Hood, and you were not in that,” he joked, not sure what to say.

“So you’re a connoisseur, and you’ve never seen my work,” she half smiled. “I don’t know if I’m relieved or insulted.”

“I... I’m not sure what to say,” Tobias faltered. “I mean, I don’t judge you; as a connoisseur, I’d have to be a pretty big asshole to judge you...”

“Well,” she chuckled sadly. “You’d be surprised... most connoisseurs are quite judgemental.”

“Well, I’m not,” he said, taking her hand. “It’s just....”

“It’s just I’m not exactly what you had in mind when thinking about something serious.”

“No! I didn’t say that!” He insisted. “It’s just... this is a bit of a surprise, and I, can I have some time to process it?”

“Sure,” Stacy grinned, leaning over and placing a peck on his cheek. “Take some time and let me know what you decide, but Tobias?”

“Yes?”

“If you decide you don’t want to go further because of this part of my past, I’ll be sad, of course, but I’ll be OK. The person I’m meant to be with... they won’t hold it against me, and if you do... then you’re not my person. I just thought it was only fair to let you know before things go any further between us.”

After a hug, Stacy headed home, leaving Tobias in a daze on the couch. She had told him her porn name, and he was caught between temptation and horror at the thought of searching for it. In the end, horror prevailed, and he put his phone away. He was still in a state of astonishment when Ethan arrived home, immediately noticing the change in his friend’s demeanor.

Tobias wasn’t about to break Stacy’s trust, but if there was anyone he could trust to keep this between them, it was Ethan, and he needed a trusted friend’s opinion. Ethan did his best to conceal his own shock at the news.

“It’s OK, buddy,” he half-smiled. “I think my jaw was on the floor when she told me, too.”

“It’s just that I... I didn’t see that coming,” Ethan sighed. “Wow... of all things. So, does it change how you feel?”

Tobias sat back thoughtfully, then shook his head. “I meant what I said; I’d have to be a total dick if I watch porn, but judge someone for making it.”

“Agreed,” Ethan nodded. “And while I’ve never been in porn....”

“Of course you haven’t,” Tobias teased, attempting to add levity to the conversation. “Who the hell would want to see you?”

“And while I’ve never been in porn,” Ethan repeated loudly, ignoring his friend’s interruption. “I understand what it’s like to be poor and not sure if you’ll be able to live your dreams. I’m not advocating nor judging the choices she made... but my advice to you is not to pursue things further unless you can really say you don’t care. She doesn’t deserve to be with someone who will hold it against her, even if it’s subconsciously.”

“I agree,” Tobias replied. “And the truth is, I don’t think I would.”

“There is one other thing to consider,” Ethan injected. “Your family. I don’t know how the Carricks would take to their heir dating a former porn star. Ultimately, it’s not their choice, but...”

“Oh, I’ve given that thought,” Tobias interrupted. “But I’m not exactly proposing; we haven’t gotten nearly to that point. In a way, the idea of pissing them off is rather enticing, but I don’t think that would be fair to her.”

“No, it wouldn’t be. At the end of the day, it’s your choice, but for what it’s worth, this conversation stays between us, and I, for one, won’t think of her any differently than I did this morning, and I certainly wouldn’t judge you.”

Tobias smiled the first genuine smile he had since Stacy had left earlier in the day. “Thanks, buddy. I appreciate you listening.”

The following day, it was Stacy’s turn to open the door to an unexpected visitor. She wasn’t sure if her heart was about to be filled with joy or break when she saw Tobias at the door. Which might be why she couldn’t utter a word.

“May I come in?” he finally asked.

“Yes, of course!” She muttered as he stepped into her front hall.

Noting her puffy eyes, Tobias wanted to put an end to her worrying as quickly as possible; that’s when he pulled the small bunch of flowers he had picked up on his way over from behind his back, and Stacy broke into tears.

“Hey, hey!” He said, pulling her close. “Yeah, they’re supermarket flowers, I could do better next time, but it was kind of an impulse decision.”

“Next time?” she asked with a cracked voice. “So these aren’t a consolation gift when you tell me you never want to see me again.”

“No,” he replied with a kiss to her forehead. “They’re an apology for causing you what I’m sure was a very stressful night. And they come with an invitation – could I take you to dinner  tonight?”

“So, you still want to see where this goes?” she smiled.

“I’m willing if you are,” he grinned, and she replied by running into his arms and sealing the deal with a kiss.

“So, where are we going to eat?” he smiled. “Your pick!”

“In that case, order in a pizza and a six-pack,” she beamed. “Because tonight, I want you all to myself.”

A/N 2: OK I feel like some of my Tobias readers will be disappointed because this isn't humorous. But even back in Hopkins, I think he was having a good time, but I don't think he was a total asshole. He wouldn't have judged her, and he would be a hypocrite knowing his body count was definitely much higher than hers. College Tobias? Maybe he would have been a bit more of an ass, but he was mature enough by this point to handle it better.

While I won't write more for the pairing, my HC is that they dated exclusively for a little while, and they were happy during that time. But eventually, split up. Toward the end of med school the competition between Tobias & Ethan was turning toxic, and that colored his world and impacted his decisions (usually, poorly). Further, Ethan and Vincenza had broken up, and Tobias was being her shoulder to lean on. He realized how strong his feelings for Vincenza were, and didn't feel it would be right to string Stacy along. Basically, he wasn't remotely ready for anything like this. Stacy was disappointed, but it was an amicable parting.

@choicesficwriterscreations @openheartfanfics

Tagging others separately.

[crystalninjaphoenix]

MerMay 2024 Day Twenty-Two The Last Resort

They didn’t want to meet at the Institute of Marine Biology, just in case someone from TridentCorp saw Lise heading there and thought it was suspicious. Luckily, the group soon found a location that would work for everyone. A small, rocky island just off the mainland. Too small and stony for the humans to do much on it. So one day, early in the morning, three boats gathered near it and humans stepped onto the ground.

Chase grabbed the rocky edge of the island and pulled himself onto it, sitting with his tail hanging off the side. Anti stayed in the water, but he didn’t hide away. Even as all the humans started gathering close by. “Well... it is... lovely to see you all again,” Lise said awkwardly.

“Uh, yeah, I guess,” Ollie replied.

Stacy and Roxy stood next to each other. The kids had wanted to come, too, but Stacy insisted they stay on the boat. She wanted to forbid them from coming, but knew that they had a knack for stowing away, so decided this was the second best thing. “So... h-how have they been?” Stacy asked.

“Your mermaid friends?” Lise asked.

“Merms,” Chase said.

Lise jumped. “Right, right. Um, merms. I... think they have been alright. More or less. There was an incident yesterday... They were, ah, doing an examination.” She shook her head, looking disgusted. “There was no need for the samples,” she muttered.

“Samples?!” Chase repeated, alarmed.

“They are more or less alright,” Lise insisted.

Anti growled. Chase instinctively lifted his tail out of the water, just in case the electric eel decided to pulse.

Lise looked over at Anti. “O-oh. You are... the eel from before. Ah, I am... sorry. About everything. W-we did not think you were, um...” She cleared her throat. “Glad to see that you are okay.”

Anti just stared at her. He nodded slowly, not saying anything. Despite being able to speak English ever since the transformation.

“Dr. Ester,” Roxy said. “Pardon my language, but how the hell did TridentCorp manage to kidnap five merms? Chase and Anti have told us there was an incident with a net, but why did they know to drop the net in the first place?!”

Lise winced. “We had tagged fish that we took in to study before, but recently we’d been experimenting with tags that give off radio waves. It seems that Chase and, ah... Anti?” She glanced at the two merms. “They had some of those. For a long time, I convinced others that we were content to know where they were, but Mr. Visser got impatient. He wanted another lifeform to show off, so he sent a seaplane to catch one of the radio signals. It was bad luck that they were all gathered together.”

“Lise,” Chase said. “What do we do? We have to get them out of there! Th-they’re my—my friends.”

“I know,” Lise said quietly.

“Uh... do you need a getaway vehicle?” Ollie asked. “I’m a great sailor. And I’ve probably already been seen by these guys, so like... no one else would get in trouble.”

Lise shook her head. “Security has been increased. All entrances to the C-SAHL are equipped with keycard scanners, and every inch from the dock to the building are covered in cameras. We have hired more personnel, too, and they have been told to be better safe than sorry with checking out violations.”

“Meaning... they check security breaches even if it’s some random guy causing an accident?” Ollie clarified.

“Exactly.” Lise reached into her bag. “I have with me some copies of the building blueprints.”

Stacy raised an eyebrow. “How did you get those?”

“I was in charge of building the whole thing. I had these before the security increased. But I have added markings where the cameras I know are. But I also know there are ones I have missed.” She spread them out on the rocky ground, and all the others gathered around. Even Anti grabbed onto the side of the rock and pulled himself up for a better look.

“What if you steal a keycard that we can use to get in?” Stacy asked.

“Not possible. We are instructed to keep them on us at all time, and if we somehow lose them, we go straight to security and they deactivate the card.”

Anti grumbled. “Why don’t we just fucking storm in?”

Lise looked at him in surprise. “We have up to one hundred security guards on-site, that’s why. We wouldn’t get far at all, especially if we have to take five merms out.”

“Overkill, much?” Roxy asked. “Alright. What if we...”

The group all talked for a while. The sun beat down on the rocky island, moving slowly through the sky. Every solution they came up with was rebutted by Lise’s explanation of their new security protocols. They couldn’t bust the five merms out in a grand heist. They couldn’t sneak them out one by one. They couldn’t replace the merms with some sort of decoys.

“We just... don’t have the resources,” Stacy finally concluded. “Even with the Institute helping. We can’t sneak them out.”

A grim silence fell. Chase glanced towards the boat Stacy and Roxy came on. He saw Sereia and Muirin duck under the railings—trying to hide how they were listening in. Maybe... if they could use some sort of magic... Those wish talismans, maybe? Chase opened his mouth to mention that—

“Why do they want merms, anyway?” Anti asked.

Lise looked at him. “Well... I always wanted to learn more about fish. They are incredible animals. So when I heard there were mermaids that might exist, I-I wanted to learn more about them, and protect them. But... that is not what TridentCorp as a whole wants. They are a business. They make money. Their scientific endeavors are all towards things that they can gain something from.” Her tone was decidedly bitter. “Their plan now that Visser has taken over the project is not to protect the merms. I believe they are working on some special aquarium plan. And seeing if there is anything else merms can do that they can sell.”

Chase’s stomach dropped. For a moment, he couldn’t say anything. But he cleared his throat and tried anyway. “And... if they make this aquarium... is there no way to stop them?”

Lise shook her head. “It will be very difficult.”

“Maybe... maybe our way to get the other five back,” Stacy said slowly, “is to find some way to stop the aquarium project.”

“How?” Ollie asked.

Chase sighed. “If we had more humans who could help, we could do it, I just know.”

Roxy coughed. “Well... the Institute already knows. It... wouldn’t be too hard for us to reach out to other similar organizations. Oceana, MarineBio, World Wildlife—I mean, merms aren’t wildlife, but it should be similar enough—”

“You want more humans to know about us?!” Anti blurted out, eyes wide and fear evident in his voice.

“Not all humans, just the ones who would help,” Roxy said.

“It could work,” Lise said slowly.

“But it’s only a matter of time before someone in one of those organizations spills the beans,” Stacy pointed out. “If we tell others, it will spread eventually.”

“No—No!” Anti swam backwards through the water. “N-no!” He suddenly dived under, disappearing.

Chase watched him go, then turned back to the others. “I, uh... should keep an eye on him,” he said. “But for now... let’s consider that... a last resort?”

Stacy nodded gravely. “We’ll talk more about this later.”

Chase nodded back, then dove into the water and swam after Anti.

[fundielicious-simblr]

(AN: I've been seeing that a recent game update has wrecked havoc on people's games so I guess it's good I play offline, therefore never updating the game 😂. I got this idea randomly so I'm glad I found another reason to dig up old files. These next two side posts will serve as yearly round ups so that you can be reminded of what has happened in the sim-year that's come to a close. I will put the text for this under the cut for easier readability.)

Narrator: Family newsletters have been a thing for a while in this sims universe, the larger families (Allan's and Claire's) have used these to send out to friends and family who live quite a way away and are less technologically advanced. Casandra loves being able to write up and tell people about her ever-growing family, so this is easy businesss for her.

Text under here!

Collins Family Newsletter

Our family verse for the year was from Psalm 37:5,6 “Commit thy way unto the Lord; trust also in him; and he shall bring it to pass. And he shall bring forth thy righteousness as the light, and thy judgment as the noonday.”

To christen the new year, our son Charles and his wife Lorilee welcomed their first child, a boy they named Everett Collins. These two were ‘newlyweds until very recently, but that gauntlet was passed on swiftly and quickly. They live in a wonderful apartment around 30 minutes from us and are praying about buying their first property. Charles works the admin side of this plumbing business owned by a member of Newcrest Baptist, and Lorilee is now a devoted stay-at-home-mum.

This year we had precious Lana join the family! Parker and his beautiful bride were joined together in the Lord’s design on a wonderful spring day. Their courtship and engagement have been so sweet to watch, and they both made sure to honour the Lord and their parents during the whole process. They now live in the same apartment building as Charles and Lorilee and are praying they can buy a house in the near future. Parker continues to assist churches with their media, working mainly with the Newcrest Baptist media team; Lana has a ministry that aims to point young women towards the Lord in all they do.

Almost immediately after we got home from the wedding, Barrett and Kyleigh welcomed precious little Jackson Collins to the family. He joins older siblings Chloe, Allan Jr (AJ), Benjamin (Benji), Rose, Violet, Daisy, Marigold, Olivia, Preston, and Jefferson. Barrett and Kyleigh have trusted the Lord with the size of their family and he continues to bless them for their faithfulness! Kyleigh homeschools the children and Barrett works at an auto body shop, they are praying about adding an extension to their house. They recently announced that they’re expecting another baby that will join the family next autumn before Harvestfest - Praise the Lord!

In the summer Mason and Adalynn welcomed little Bethany Leonard to the family! She doesn’t know it yet but she’s a very blessed little girl - some would even say an answer to prayer! She joins 8 big brothers: Noah, Luke, Aaron, Paul, Joshua, Caleb, Jonah, and Titus. Bethany is doted on my all of her big brothers, as well as her delighted parents and their extended family. Adalynn continues to homeschool the boys whilst Mason works as a manager. They partake in ministry at Willowcreek Baptist, their home church, and are busy in the Lord’s work as a family.

Zoe and her husband Francisco announced to us recently that they’re expecting another little one next autumn! This blessing will join older siblings Javier Jr (JJ), and Cassie. Francisco continues to bravely serve in our country's military, and the family are a few months away from closing out their time in Windenburg. We thank the Lord for his mercy in keeping them safe daily as they make sacrifices to keep us all safe!

Maggie, her husband Shane, and their twins Iris and Arlo are thriving in San Myshuno, as are Reece, his wife Stacie and their kids Liam and Hazel. Both families attend a wonderful church that has an amazing ministries, one of which has them doing outreach to save the lives of the unborn! Their families are such a blessing to us and to those around them!

Beckett and Mandy are in Selvadorada and are thriving in the mission field! They came over for Harvestfest and enthralled us of wonderful stories of their work with the locals and about how so many people are getting saved and giving their lives to the Lord! They’re almost fluent in Selvadoradan simlish and send us such eye watering videos of them out in ministry reaching the hearts of the Lord and bringing souls to the Lord! We are so proud of them and their hearts for the Lord!

Amira, Thomas, and little Maya are doing wonderful in Windenburg! Little Maya is growing more and more daily, with her doting parents loving on her! Thomas continues working in accounting, with Amira caring for house and home. Priscilla, Felix, Andrew, and darling Grace are also thriving in Oasis Springs. Felix continues to work for his father, working to slowly change the country and bring it back to the Lord!

Onto those of us left at home; Allan continues in preaching at home and at various churches all over. We’ve had the blessing of being invited to various churches, tent meetings, revivals, and camps over the course of the year that have strengthened and blessed us more than we could ever express! In our travels we always try and see the kids if we happen to be passing by them on our travels. When we’re not being a preacher and preacher’s wife, we’re at home being parents and grandparents! This year we counted 55 people at our house for Harvestfest, including 30 grandbabies! We’ve been so greatly blessed by the Lord this year (like every year) that we can truly never even begin to repay the Lord for all the he’s done for us.

Macie, Annette, and Ashton are all making good use of themselves and the seasons of life that the Lord has them in. Macie spends all her free time in service to others, when she’s not helping with her local nieces and nephews, she’s providing child care to families at church. If she’s not local to Newcrest then no doubt she’s found herself on the staff of a camp, or helping a ministry with their outreach - aiding more hearts to turn toward salvation.

Annette has also positioned herself to serve others, in the recent past she’s spent her time babysitting and helping various families who need it. She’s recently been asked to join the admin team of a ministry run by a neighbouring church, so in the new year she’ll be working as an office assistant. It will be different, but it’s still an avenue of service to the Lord and she’s excited for this opportunity.

Ashton also likes to babysit in her free time, when she’s not home she’s travelling to see her siblings that live all over. She’s recently taken to baking and has found herself assisting a church member with a bakery often, with part of the proceeds going to support pregnancy care centres in our area!

As we close this year out, Allan and I are eternally grateful for all that the Lord has done for us and our family. We pray that this past year has been a time of worship, prayer, and togetherness. We also pray that this next year is full of the Lord’s mercies and blessings!

May you continue to be guided by the Lord's light,

Allan & Casandra Collins.

[mermaidsirennikita]

Recently read the wallflower series because I remembered you raving about it and I l loved it! Maybe not so much daisy but it wasn’t that bad. I somehow skipped over Annabelle’s book so I still have that but so far I think I liked the Again the Magic and It Happened One Autumn the best. wanted to know if you have any recs that matched the vibes of Aline and McKenna or Lillian and Westcliff

I'm glad you loved it! Minus Daisy lol. Honestly, I feel like a lot of people are a bit mid on her book. Me included. It's perfectly nice, but that's kind of just it... I wouldn't call the first three books in the series (four if you count Again the Magic) or the relationships perfectly nice.

Definitely reads Secrets of a Summer Night! It was honestly WAY better than I remembered when I revisited it recently. Simon's more on the McKenna side of Kleypas than the Matthew Swift side, if you catch my drift lol. And Annabelle is delightfully snobby.

So, I would definitely recommend checking out, as far as KLEYPAS books go:

Seduce Me at Sunrise. This is the second Hathaways book (and has guest appearances from Annabelle and Simon... the hero and heroine Do Things at their party... right in front of their damn salad...) and while the hero isn't an Industrialist Type, he is lower class than the heroine and they've known each other since childhood and been in love since they were teenagers, like Aline and McKenna.

Married by Morning. This is the fourth (?) Hathaways book, which I recommend on the Lillian/Westcliff side because Leo and Cat just go for each other's throats lol. You can even see it in Seduce a bit. He's not at all like Westcliff (if anything, he's more like Gideon) but the banter and heated sexual tension is right on the money.

Then Came You. This is older, and I call it "proto-Westcliff/Lillian" for a reason. Alex is a stiff, proper, and judgmental. Lily is wild, rebellious, and scandalous. They hate each other. In this case, he's also courting her sister and Lily is determined to make sure he doesn't marry her. So there's that!

And non-Lisa:

A Rogue by Any Other Name by Sarah MacLean is a good one for Again the Magic vibes. The hero and heroine were childhood friends, separated, and though it wasn't her fault, she's a key part of his revenge plot when he returns and so he forces her to marry him and kinda royally fucks up... which leads to a grovel, of course!

A Scoundrel of Her Own by Stacy Reid is another Again the Magic vibe. They knew each other as kids, she was rich and he was poor, they broke apart... Now, years later, her family is down on their luck and she's literally singing for their supper, and he's this wealthy success who sort of swoops in for partial revenge reasons.

The Duke Gets Even by Joanna Shupe for Westcliff and Lillian on steroids lol. One of my favorites of all time, the Duke of Lockwood is very proper in the streets and a freak in the sheets (for real) whereas Nellie is rebellious American new money and they try to one-up each other for like a year before finally hitting the mattress. Hard.

The Duke Gets Desperate by Diana Quincy. Another "uptight earl meets American woman who isn't impressed and they hate each other" book! In this case, the heroine also wants to monetize his ancient family home in order to offset the costs, lol. And he's HORRIFIED. It's so GAUCHE.

Wicked in His Arms by Stacy Reid. The one where he hates everything about her because she's flirty and a little unconventional! And he's stuffy and conventional! And so he has sex with her! Oops arrange the marriage!

[freedomfireflies]

I recently saw that Coldplay took a fan from the audience on stage and she played ‘green eyes’ on guitar with them. Could you maybe write something similar about Harry inviting the reader on stage when she had a sign that said if she could play ‘boyfriends’ or ‘Cherry’ or something with him?? <3

To the wonderful anon who requested this: I'm so sorry it took me so long to finish this, I have no idea if you're still around to see it, but thank you so much for taking the time to create such a cool idea and for entrusting me with it 😭 I hope I can do it justice!

You’re gonna murder Stacy Henderson.

You decide this as you’re walking up the short set of stairs that leads to the stage, ears ringing from the sound of thousands of fans anticipating your arrival.

You have no idea how you got here.

It all started back in the third grade, when on your first day of school, Stacy convinced you to climb to the top of the slide with her. 

At the time, the top of the slide was like Mount Everest to the third graders, but Stacy was convinced she could do it, so she grabbed your hand, and dragged you along with her.

Turns out, she couldn’t do it and chickened out on the second step up. You, however, weren’t as easily deterred and managed to make it to the top with a shout before you slid down.

It was the coolest thing you’d ever done. And you don’t think you would have done it without her.

Which is probably why she’s somehow been convincing you to do things you don’t want to do ever since. Like following her along like a lost puppy to a Harry Styles concert. 

But just going wasn’t good enough. She had to pick out the perfect boa, the perfect shoes to match her already perfect manicure, and last but not least…she had to make a sign.

With lots of glitter.

You were happy for her, really. She was just glowing, and it wasn’t all the highlighter she’d applied. She loved Harry more than anything and the minute he made eye contact with her sign, you could see her eyes just about blow out of her head.

He’d laughed when he read it. “You’re cherry sweet! I’d pick you every time!” 

It was a little dorky, but she’d spent all night perfecting it, and you were glad he found it amusing. 

“That’s very kind,” he’d said, hand over his heart. “I’d pick you, too.”

The stadium cheered, squealed, and nearly fainted at the sentiment before his head began to tilt. 

“Ah, I see we have a Jimi Hendrix fan,” he commented, nodding at her shirt. “Do you play? Or did you just like the shirt? Are you a poser?” 

He smirked to let her know he was teasing as the room laughed and she shook her head before she suddenly pointed at you. “No, it’s my friends’ shirt! She plays!” she yelled before his attention turned to you.

Fuck.

You’d felt your heart drop to your ass as the glorious and very tall man suddenly sidestepped his way a bit closer to your side of the pit. 

“Is that so?” he asked, sounding rather intrigued. “Do you play a lot of Hendrix songs?”

You felt the blood rush from your face as you forced yourself to speak. “Uh…sometimes. Depends on my mood, I guess.”

“Depends on the mood,” he repeated, nodding as he glanced out at the crowd. “Well, she’s not wrong there. Have you ever played anything a bit…softer?”

More cheering as you glanced at your friend, who looked like she was about to pass out from the excitement. 

“Yeah,” you finally answered, and he began to grin.

“Well, that is in-ter-est-ing,” he hummed, rather smugly as you began to feel your pulse race beneath your chest. “Say…speaking of picking…if it’s all right with your friend, how’s about you do something cherry sweet for us and come help out on this next song?”

The arena just about collapsed as the question hung in the air, the group of girls around you suddenly clamoring to get closer. And your ears filled with the sound of crying, screaming, and hollering until they just about bled.

You didn’t know what else to do. What else to say. You just…stared at him.

“Only if…you’re comfortable with it,” he was quick to clarify, hand raising into the air as if surrendering. “I know we’re no Jimi but…you know, we do our best. Mitch can make any solo his bitch.”

You would have laughed if you weren’t seconds away from hurling all over the floor.

“What do you say?” he asked as Stacy suddenly grabbed your arm. 

“You have to,” she hissed. “You have to, oh my god, he never does this. He never does this, you have to go. Say yes—no, say it to him!”

But you couldn’t say yes. Mostly because your tongue had gone numb but also because he wouldn’t have been able to hear you anyway, so…you nodded.

“Al right!” he exclaimed as if you’d just told him he won the lottery before he began to usher a security guard to come collect you. “She said yes, everyone!”

More cheering as you were led through the pit and toward the stage.

And now…here you are.

Seconds away from chucking a microphone stand at Stacy’s head.

You’ve never felt so many eyes on you at once. So many lights. It’s a wonder this man doesn’t pass out from exhaustionthe way he dances around in those long sleeves and pants. 

However, before you can truly succumb to the spiral you’re starting to find yourself in, Mitch and Harry jog their way to your side as somebody passes you a rather elegant looking electric guitar.

“Hey,” Mitch calls, offering a smile when he notices the panicked look on your face. “Don’t sweat it. Cherry’s the next song, it’s pretty simple. Just follow my lead and I’ll try not to fuck it up.”

You laugh weakly just as Harry skids his way to the huddle, rather peppy for someone who's been tap dancing all night.

“Hi,” he beams, and all you can do is blink as you finally see him. Up close and very personal. God, why is he so…structured? Has he always been this hot? “Sorry to put ya on the spot like that, I get a little…over-excited at times.”

Mitch snorts as if that’s the understatement of the year, and Harry lifts his middle finger into the air in retaliation.

You hear the arena cheer.

“Okay, s’really simple. Just come stand by me, yeah? It’ll be over in a flash, and they’ll sing so loud, you won’t really hear anything else, anyway,” he attempts to explain, and you nod. “So…if you fuck up, literally nobody will know. If that helps at all.”

“It does,” you admit, glancing back down at the instrument in your possession.

He watches you for a moment, as if pleased. “Okay, are you ready?”

“No,” you answer honestly, and both boys smirk. 

“Perfect.” With that, he offers a wink and begins to lead you toward the center of the stage, returning to his microphone as you and Mitch get settled off to the side. “All right, before we get started, let’s give a big hand for our very own rockstar!”

Again, the blood drains from your face as the entire room is forced to chant for you, and you quickly look around to find Stacy, who’s jumping up and down so fervently, you’re surprised she doesn’t just take flight.

Harry is handed his own guitar, making sure the strap is situated and his fingering is correct before he takes a deep breath, looks over at you and Mitch, and begins to play.

For the first few seconds, you’re terrified. Already commanding yourself not to mess up as he easily croons the lyrics that you’ve always found rather heartbreaking. Because of all the songs to fuck up, you’re thinking maybe this isn’t the one. 

But, as it turns out, he was right. It’s a pretty simple song, and with Mitch to your left, it’s not hard to follow along and find the right melody.

By the second verse, you begin to enjoy yourself, subconsciously mouthing the words as he gets to the chorus. 

He glances over at you from time to time, just to make sure you haven’t passed out (you assume), and always looks rather proud when he sees the way you’ve found your grove.

However, this time when he looks at you, his brow cocks up and you realize he’s watching you sing along.

You’re quick to clamp your mouth shut, eyes returning to the strings as you zero in on your performance.

You hear him smile as he begins to wrap up the song and before you know it…it’s over.

Both relieved and a little disappointed, you turn to return the guitar back to its rightful owner and return yourself down to the floor.

Where you belong.

But as you’re calling a quick goodbye to Mitch, you feel a large hand sweep down your back and encourage you to turn around.

You do, catching Harry’s bright smile as he suddenly leans in to whisper something in your ear.

The crowd continues to scream their enthusiasm as your eyes widen, a bit confused and rather flustered by Harry’s admittance.

When he’s through, he moves back and catches your eye, head tilting curiously as he awaits your response.

You nod.

With that, he laughs, winking once more before jogging backward toward the center of the stage to continue on with the show.

As if in a trance, you walk down the steps and let security bring you back to Stacy, who grabs onto you before anybody else getting ready to can.

“Oh my god, what did he say? No, wait, what did he smell like? No…no, tell me what he said first and then tell me what he smelled like,” she gushes, chest heaving as if she’s about to have a panic attack.

You roll your lips into your mouth, turning to glance over your shoulder at the stage as Harry serenades the audience with the next song on the list. “Turns out…you were right.”

He catches your eye.

And you grin.

“He’s not so bad after all.”

~ Full Masterlist

~ Other Harry Blurbs

[spidey-bie]

Have a spider-sona. Wanted to share. The kinda "rule" for them is to not be like spider-man. As far and different from spiderman to keep the message that anyone can wear the mask. For a franchise that says that, until the spiderverse comics came out, WHICH WAS INCREDIBLY RECENTLY BY THE FUCKING WAY. FOR A GUY WHO HAD BEEN GOING AROUND WITH DEADPOOL FOR 70 YEARS AND BEEN AROUND LONGER THEN FUCKING THAT. There were only copy and pasted peter parker white male middle aged men with bad relationships, or miles morales that wasn't given enough spotlight. Hate it, let's try something fucking new.

Gwen Stacy is different in many universes but there's one consistency, They're always the goddamn love interest or they're not there at all to put in Mj. They're always straight cis-white women with middle-class standings. Let's be clear, This Gwen Stacy is a native american, Non-binary, and very sick of everyone's shit for longer then they will ever admit. Gwen Stacy is Aromantic. Gwen Stacy didn't come from a cop family, and they don't like them either.

"Gwen Stacy" chose the name Moxie, because the prowler gave it to them and Moxie is finally fucking glad to have someone around who sees what's inside of them for fucking once, instead of their academic career or "beauty." Moxie wasn't bitten by a radioactive spider. Moxie had a lab accident in one of her mother's workplaces with a condensed vial of radiated pink crab spider DNA from an experimental research program. The plan of this program was to test and see if they could produce enough spider-silk across a series of species via genetic selection. It was shut down due to health risks.

Realizing that they were changing was a slow process because they were already going through puberty. Once they realized, they shut down completely. To realize that you just got stuck with a health issue that there is no fucking cure for is traumatic. There's something I would like to highlight when talking about spiderman, when you change because of radiation taking apart the caps on the end of your dna strands, you don't pick the genes or even know if they're compatible. They just are there, and if they fuck you that's what happens. If you suddenly get high blood pressure or seizures, nobody can cure that anytime in your life time. It's like getting hit by a fucking truck, and laying on the side of road not knowing if you'll ever walk again or even get to see the ride to the hospital. It's scary, it makes you angry that it happened, and Gwen Stacy snapped like a twig mentally at this challenge. Everything that they ever thought was important, suddenly didn't matter anymore. They only thought of all those wasted years, and suddenly they couldn't be the gifted kid anymore. They were still their parent's child, and they sucked it up and kept going on even if it felt like they couldn't breath anymore.

The first thing that Moxie remembers after realizing their sense of identity is dead, is colour. All around them, all the time. Then, it was how easy it was to paint. Suddenly, they couldn't even put a paintbrush down. The first time they painted, they didn't stop until they ran out of things to put paint on. Walls, floor, ceiling. Their parents weren't happy, and understandably banned paint from the house. Having lived by someone else's rules for so long the ability to express was so overwhelming it was like needing to breath. They were 14. They continued living in this image, they went back to being a gifted kid, at 16 they went to college early. It was a goddamn blessing and the birth of their vigilante days. It felt like freedom to finally be away. It practically was. They said that they were going into an engineering program at a small-town foggy river town that was well-known for it's well-maintained ecosystem and as an extension, research and scientific hot-spots. The college was well funded, and what Moxie didn't tell them, was that it was also funded in it's art's program. Moxie went into art, lying about going into engineering.

The prowler is their guardian. Too young to be completely alone, and too independent to stay anywhere close enough for their parents to be able to easily come by; (A bit of resentment here, Moxie doesn't keep contact after college.) They trusted Aaron with the job. Moxie thrived, Like a sunflower finally getting a goddamn drop of water, they grew like a weed. They couldn't put down a brush. They might not have started at the same time as the other kids, but they practiced and put so much love into everything they created. They thrived.

"The pink painter" is the same of a vigilante that later resurfaced after stopping a false arrest/police brutality incident. The "Pink" part started from the Pink crab spiders vemon, which brings paralysis in things twice as big as them. They have no webs, they have their strength. They have the ability to fight things bigger then them, (Actual fact on real life pink crab spiders) the ability to splatoon themselves into colours and seemingly teleport, and a shit ton of rage. They find passion in everything they see, they graffiti and paint, tattoo, and anything that they can do to get creativity out. They run at 11, with an academically accurate, cold and distant dialect. They can't stop.

The basis of their story also comes with like, 60% of their villains ending up in a found family situation. 60% because you can't be friends or save everyone.

I love passion and drive for that you obviously have for Moxie. You're so right about how people like to portray Gwen Stacy. She's always a catalyst for someone never truly her own character. She exists for Peter to fall for her and then inevitably die so that Peter can either grow as Spiderman or get with MJ.

But Moxie is such a breath of fresh air (ASPEC OCS FTW). They're so interesting as a character. Like this sounds like a character I'd sit for days trying to pick apart and analyze. ALSO LOVE THE SPIDER FACTS AND INFORMATION. I love spiders sm.

Just say the words found family and you've already got me. If you ever develop them further or wanna share more about Moxie. Just feel free to send me an ask. I'm heavily invested in them now 😂

[amygdala-suzanna]

I'm gonna rant about my identity, trauma, girlfriends, Life Is Strange, and Gwen Stacy for a bit.

"nerdy middle-class trans-lesbian white-girl" is probably like the most inoffensive label someone could have. It probably even sounds fragile to a lot of people. But that is what I am.

I'm definitely not normal though, people often find my interests disturbing when I'm allowed to go on about them. Unhinged sadistic demons and gothic fantasy blade-wielding blood-covered warriors are certainly my favorite kind of characters to present myself as when given the opportunity to roleplay. My heart rate doubles when my girlfriend describes how they'd allow me to bite down on their neck. I love horror, being scared and being scary, and it's not pleasant to most, but that is what I like.

The thing that comforts me about being discomforting like that is that there's nothing for me to prove to anyone. Those close to me can just smile and laugh at my absurdity. Even better if they find it exciting. But, all my life with my parents I always feel like I have to prove something to them in order to justify asking for anything. This has carried over to my love life. I really struggle with asking my partners for anything. I developed a habit of avoiding confrontation with my parents by simply doing things based on my presumptions and hoping they'll be okay. It's pretty bad.

At four years old I had the displeasure of learning what I was. This was traumatizing, because I knew I was inside. In my dreams as a kid I always saw myself as a girl. When I learned that I was born a boy because of my body something broke inside me and I have been in and out of dissociation ever since. There used to be four alters in our system. The one that played the role of "boy" was evicted from the system some time in the 10th grade when we realized that there was serious gender dysphoria with the three other feminine alters inside and the masculine body. Sam fucking killed him and I'm glad she did.

When I came out to the then-girlfriend, she rejected me, hard. I had to spend like 4 hours on a phone call with her convincing her that I was the same person, unaware that I was lying to her more and more with every minute that passed. Because we were not the same, not remotely.

That relationship ended poorly. I still hate her for stealing my life for those 3 years. I hate that my experience playing Life Is Strange was with her, and I hated that she made me feel bad about wanting Max to kiss Chloe. Fuck her. I pored over so much Pricefield fanart that night and it made stronger impacts on my memory than anything you've ever done for me.

When I came out to my parents, of course, I had to prove it to them. They didn't believe me for the first two years, of course, they had to send me to a therapist who just told them exactly what I told them two years prior. Then they didn't believe her either and sent me to another one who came to the same conclusion. Guess fucking what, dad, I'm a woman and I always have been. Don't ever fucking say that you "lost" your son, you never had one, it was just a stupid fucking alter playing make-believe because it thought it had no other choice until Andrew told me he had a trans friend.

Fuck.

Watching the new Spiderverse recently and seeing Gwen's arc with her dad hit it perfectly for me. "Wow, look at this trans teenage girl who loves punk rock and lives in a world purveyed by a living watercolor painting that feels like a dream of color and melancholy and identity. She's just like me for real." I'm probably just like 90% of the other trans women seeing this in the theater in thinking that. I wonder how many other saw that aesthetic and were viscerally reminded of the overall aesthetic of Life Is Strange. Guess what, that's another story about a nerdy white girl with a savior complex trying to prove herself to everyone while just trying to be in love.

Teen white girls with identity crises and issues about proving themselves are not in short supply in American fiction by any means, but fuck it still hurts my heart seeing Gwen's dad come around to listening to her. I know my dad eventually came around just the same, but he didn't do it in a way that didn't hurt. I just wish it didn't hurt me and make be bitter and never want to go back home.

It would be really nice if I got to be the teenage girl I always wanted to be. I suppose that's what I'm doing now, in college. With the girlfriends and dates and all. It still hurts that Brynn decided she doesn't want to date a poly girl. I love her so much and I even enjoyed spending time with her family. I know we are still great friends, but that space between us does still make me sad. I'm grateful for Lil asking to be girlfriends just in time for Brynn to decide that, and Lil is really sweet and makes me really happy, but the sadness isn't gonna go away soon, I feel.

Melancholy helps get the emotions out at least. I think probably like two people will read this post until this point. Maybe Acorn if anyone. If you are here, you're a real friend, I knew I could count on you to pay attention to my stupid vent posts. Weird to find out here that Brynn isn't dating me anymore, isn't it. Oh well.

[sebstanaddict]

Always You

Chapter 23 - Tragic Symphony

Summary : A love story chronicling the love and life of Sebastian Stan and Female!Reader. Inspired by Sebastian Stan's recent love life.

In this chapter we'll find out what happens after Sebastian saw Nurse Stacy on the ground frothing at the mouth

Pairings : Sebastian Stan x Female!Reader

Chapters: 23 / 25 (added chapter count as I wrote more)

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Warning : fluff, violence

Word count : 6.3k

Well, I know what you're doing

Girl, I see what you're doing

I'm caught up in a dark emotion

I've given you all that's left of me

You're giving me a crazy notion

I'm falling for your tragic symphony

I'm caught up in a dark emotion

I'm falling for the trap you set for me

You're giving me a crazy notion

I'm falling for your tragic symphony

Uh-uh, your tragic symphony

You played me once, but I did it twice

I guess I'm taking my own bad advice

Woohoo, uh

Well, the lie you composed is intricate

But if it don't bleed then it ain't no cut

Well, I know what you're doing

Girl, I see what you're doing

Tragic Symphony - Hanson

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The Brooklyn Hospital Center, New York - March 2022

"Mr.Stan.. excuse me.. Mr.Stan? Are you alright?" The security officer waved his hand in front of Sebastian, snapping him back to the current moment.

He was still feeling shocked about what happened a couple of hours before. He and Y/n had somehow avoided a murder attempt. The cupcakes Shannon had sent them contained poison. Cyanide it seemed from the effects it had given nurse Stacy.

Nurse Stacy was thankfully alive. The doctors and nurses in the hospital acted quickly. They pumped out her stomach and gave her antidotes. She was still being cared for in the ICU but the doctors said she would live. He was so glad she would. He didn't know if he could handle the guilt if she didn't make it.

"I'm sorry. I'm just still shocked about what happened." Sebastian said, rubbing his hands on his face as he tried to release the anxiety he was feeling.

"I understand Mr.Stan. I'm really sorry but we had to call the police because this is a criminal matter. They're coming shortly and they would want to speak with you and your girlfriend if it's possible." The security officer said.

"Yes, of course, they can talk to me. But my girlfriend is in the isolation room in the ICU. She has Covid. I don't think the doctors are going to allow them in. She can barely speak anyway because of the oxygen mask she's wearing." Sebastian explained.

"I see. Well, perhaps they don't need to talk to her. I'm sure they don't want to risk catching Covid." the officer said.

"Yeah. They most likely don't want to. Besides, she's the victim and whatever they want to ask her I'll be able to answer." Sebastian said.

"Very well Mr.Stan. Thank you. We will let the police know where you are once they're here." The officer said.

"Thank you. I'm just going to wait here for them." Sebastian said, referring to the waiting area in front of the ICU where they were sitting.

The security officer nodded then left him alone. About half an hour later two police detectives from NYPD came. They asked Sebastian a series of questions. He told them all that he knew. He also insisted that the cupcakes were most likely not sent by Shannon even though the card on the box said so. There was no way Shannon would hurt them deliberately.

"Well Mr.Stan, if you think Shannon doesn't have anything to do with it, do you have any idea who does?" One of the police detectives asked.

His mind went straight to Ana. But he didn't have any proof of her involvement at all. Deep down he also wished it wasn't Ana who had tried to kill him and Y/n. He couldn't comprehend why she would go that far. It was one thing for her to be playing with threats, it was another when she actually acted upon those threats. He also didn't know what the ramifications would be like if he mentioned her name at all. So he decided to ask Emma first about it before saying anything.

"I'm sorry detective.. I have no idea. Y/n and I don't have enemies, at least as far as we are aware. So this is really shocking to us to know someone out there wants us dead." Sebastian said while looking straight at the detective's eyes.

"Very well Mr.Stan. If you have anything else to add, or maybe you can recall something that you haven't told us, you can contact us at this number." The detective said, giving him his name card.

"Of course detective.." Sebastian took the card and glanced at it. "Thomas." He continued and the detective nodded.

"By the way, we're going to take the cupcakes as evidence, we will bring them for investigation. There might be finger prints on it we can use to track down the person who sent it. We'll let you know if we find anything." The detective said.

"Thank you detective. I'll give you my assistant's number in case you need to contact me." Sebastian said. He then gave Edward's number to the detective.

"Thank you for your cooperation Mr.Stan." detective Thomas said as soon as Sebastian was done giving Edward's number.

Sebastian nodded then the detective left with his partner to interview the nurse that was on Nurse Stacy's side when she collapsed onto the floor.

Sebastian was still feeling shaken, so he decided to go to the cafeteria downstairs to eat breakfast and get some coffee. He realized he hadn't had breakfast and he was feeling slightly weak. At the cafeteria he ordered scrambled eggs with bacon and a cup of coffee. After he was done eating, he sipped his coffee while giving Shannon a call. He told her what had happened. Shannon was completely shocked upon hearing it. She had just arrived in New York and was about to visit him and Y/n when he called her.

"I'm just gonna change and freshen up then I'll come over there." Shannon said to him through the phone.

"Okay, I appreciate it Shannon. Thank you." He said.

About an hour later Shannon came and met Sebastian at the cafeteria. She looked visibly shaken while Sebastian recounted the story to her.

"Oh my God. I can't imagine if you or Y/n had eaten the cupcakes." She closed her mouth with her hand in shock.

"I know. I have a feeling Ana sent it." Sebastian said.

"I have the same feeling. I mean, we all know how much she hates Y/n. It's only logical to think she might have done it." Shannon said.

"Yes. I just.. still can't believe it." Sebastian said, sighing.

"You know what, I can probably ask Merida about it. She and I became rather close in LA." Shannon said as she pulled out her cellphone from her bag.

"What?! You're friends with Merida?" Sebastian asked, flabbergasted.

"Before you think negatively about it, she's actually nice. She doesn't know most of what Ana had done to you and Y/n. When I told her about it she was shocked." Shannon said.

"Are you sure she wasn't just acting?" Sebastian sneered.

"No, she really didn't know. I trust her." Shannon said.

"Well okay. I'll take your word for it. But if she's nice how come she let Ana send those poisoned cupcakes? She could have stopped her." Sebastian said.

"You know firsthand how Ana is. One way or another she gets what she wants." Shannon said.

"Yeah, you're right." Sebastian said, leaning back on the chair and taking a deep breath.

Shannon tried to call Merida but her phone was off, she was sent straight to voice mail.

"Hey Merida.. how are you? Sorry to bother you. But I have something important to ask you. Could you please contact me back? Thanks." Shannon said, leaving a message for Merida. She hoped Merida was okay and would contact her back.

"By the way, do you think I can see Y/n? I miss her so much!" Shannon said as she returned her cellphone back to her bag.

"I'll ask the nurses and doctor whether you can come in." Sebastian said.

"Thanks! I'm also curious about her baby bump!" Shannon said, smiling wide at him.

"Oh yeah, she's showing already." Sebastian smiled.

"And you're gonna love our baby. She's so responsive to our voices." He said proudly.

"Wait a minute. You're having a baby girl?!" Shannon squealed in delight.

"Ooops.. I forgot that we haven't told you yet about the gender of our baby." He clapped his forehead.

"Seb! You're gonna have a baby girl!" Shannon exclaimed in delight.

"Sshhh.. don't shout. I don't want the public to know yet. Obviously." He said while looking around the cafeteria, hoping no one had heard Shannon.

"Sorry, Seb. I'm just soo excited!" She said.

"Understandable." He smiled.

"By the way, do you want to go up now?" He asked.

"Oh sure!" She responded excitedly.

Sebastian finished the rest of his coffee then stood up. They then went to the ICU together.

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For the next couple of days Y/n's condition gradually became better. Her coughs were almost nonexistent. She didn't have fluid buildup anymore in her lungs, and her oxygen saturation had reached an average of 97%. So dr.Jake took off the CPAP machine from her and gave her regular oxygen supplementation. Since the CPAP mask was off her, the nasogastric tube was also taken off from her. So she was able to start eating solid food again.

As her condition became better, eventually she was moved out of the ICU to a regular ward. However, her PCR test still came back positive for Covid, so she was placed in an isolation room near the regular ward. Sebastian was able to visit her longer. The doctors allowed him to visit her three times a day, in the morning, noon and afternoon. In each visit he was allowed to stay for an hour. He was still required to wear protective gear but he was allowed to wear a long sleeved hospital gown with a separate head covering instead of a hazmat suit.

It was a Sunday morning when Sebastian visited Y/n. The horrible event of almost being poisoned felt so far away to him that he almost forgot about it. When he came in Y/n was eating her breakfast. Sebastian immediately came and sat on a chair next to her and insisted on feeding her even though Y/n was able to eat on her own.

"Seb, I can eat by myself, thank you." She said as she tried to snatch the fork Sebastian had taken from her hand earlier.

"No sweetheart, let me feed you. You just sit back and relax, conserve your energy. Okay?" Sebastian said, taking some of the scrambled eggs on her plate with the fork and putting it in front of her mouth.

Y/n finally gave up and opened her mouth, her face turned beet red as he fed her the scrambled eggs.

"You look cute when you blush." Sebastian said, making her blush even more.

"I love you, sweetie." He said as he gently caressed her cheek.

Y/n swallowed and smiled "I love you too Iubirea mea."

"Ooh.. someone's jealous." Y/n exclaimed suddenly as she felt her baby's kick inside her stomach.

"I love you too little bean.." Sebastian leaned closer to Y/n's stomach and spoke to his baby. He put his hand on her stomach and caressed it. He could feel the flutters and kicks of his baby, making him smile.

"Well someone is very energized today. I think she likes scrambled eggs, honey." He commented.

"She does this whenever she hears your voice, Iubirea mea." Y/n shrugged.

"I think she really is going to be daddy's girl. I'm kind of jealous." She frowned.

"Oh honey, you're her mom. You will have a special place in her heart. No doubt about it." He said, squeezing her hand in encouragement.

"I know Iubirea mea.. I was just joking." She winked making Sebastian laugh.

Sebastian continued feeding her breakfast while they chatted. They were planning on what to do after Y/n was discharged from the hospital. As it happened, Sebastian still had some events to attend in LA. He wanted to take Y/n with him to LA but Y/n wasn't sure she could travel just yet. However Sebastian wasn't going to let Y/n stay in her apartment by herself. So they decided to ask his mother whether Y/n could stay with her in Nyack while he was in LA. Y/n had decided to take a leave from her job as she wanted to focus on her pregnancy and gaining her health back, so she didn't need to stay in the city. His mother agreed of course and was very excited about it.

"Thank you so much, mom. We really appreciate it." Sebastian said on the phone to his mother.

"Yes, of course. I'll tell her." He continued.

"Okay, I'll talk to you later, mom. Bye." He said and he hung up.

"Well, she said yes and she sends her love to you and little bean." He said to Y/n.

"Oh that's great! I look forward to staying with your mom." She said in delight.

"You know, I'm guessing she's already thinking to make one of the guest rooms to become the nursery." He said, laughing.

"But we're not having our baby at your mom's, right? I don't want to burden your mom if we stay at her house too long. I mean, once you get back from LA we can go back and stay at either my apartment or yours." Y/n said in concern.

"Of course not, honey. I don't want to burden her either. We can go stay at my apartment. It has two rooms after all. We can turn one to become the nursery." Sebastian said.

"Yeah, you're right. I'm going to miss my place though. I mean, do you realize I've stayed there for 18 years. Almost as long as I've known you." She chuckled.

"Oh my, you're right. That place holds so many memories." He smiled as he reminisced on all of the times he spent there with her.

"It sure does. Do you think we can just keep renting it? Like turning it into a special place for the weekend, maybe?" She asked.

"Of course we can, honey. Whatever makes you happy, my love." Sebastian said as he gently caressed her cheek with his fingers.

"Thank you so much Iubirea mea." Y/n said, smiling widely.

Just then a nurse wearing protective gear and long sleeved hospital gown came in bringing some medicine.

"Good morning. Time for your medicine." The nurse said.

As it happened Y/n had finished all of her breakfast. So it was perfect timing to consume her medicine. The nurse put a small tray on the table next to Y/n's bed with several tablets on them. In addition to that she held a small glass vial with light blue liquid in it and a syringe.

"I'm sorry, what is that? I've never taken that before." Y/n said, referring to the light blue liquid.

"Oh it's just additional multivitamin the doctor had prescribed for you." The nurse said.

The nurse's voice sounded familiar to Sebastian. But he felt it wasn't the voice of any of the nurses he had met. The nurse took the light blue liquid with a syringe from the vial. Her hand was slightly shaking making him feel suspicious. He racked his brain hard trying to remember where he had heard that voice before.

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Brooklyn, New York - March 2022

Shannon was cooking some breakfast when her cellphone rang. She glanced at her cellphone which she had put on the dining table. She didn't recognize the number showing on her cellphone's screen. Wondering who could be calling her, she picked it up and put her cellphone between her shoulder and cheek while she flipped the pancake she was cooking on the pan.

"Hello."

"Hello.. Shannon.. it's Merida." The voice on the other line said.

"Merida? Hey, what's up?" Shannon said.

"Can we meet now? I have something important to tell you." Merida asked. She sounded a little nervous.

"Oh okay. Sure. Why don't you come over to my place?" Shannon responded.

"Okay. Can I have your address?" Merida asked.

"I'll send you the location on Google map." Shannon replied.

"Okay. I'll see you soon." Merida said.

"Yeah. See you, Merida." Shannon said.

Shannon wondered why Merida wanted to meet. After she contacted her from the hospital when she was visiting Y/n and Sebastian, Merida had responded by sending her a text message. Shannon asked her whether she knew anything about the poisoned cupcakes Y/n and Sebastian had received. Merida told her that she didn't know anything about that. She told Shannon that Ana and she had parted ways because she had a job to do back in Spain. Hence, she had no idea what Ana was up to. The fact that Merida suddenly called and asked to meet her was very strange. She also did it from a different number. She had a bad feeling about it. About an hour after that call, Merida came.

"So, what is it that you want to tell me Merida?" Shannon asked after she made Merida some tea and they both sat on the sofa in her living room.

"It's Ana, she.. she's planning on killing Y/n.." Merida said, her voice shook.

"I knew it! She sent those poisoned cupcakes didn't she?" Shannon asked.

"She did.. yeah. I'm sorry." Merida said, her head hung.

"Well what else is she planning? Do you know?" Shannon asked.

"She still has some left over cyanide from the cupcakes. I think she wants to somehow give it to Y/n directly." Merida replied.

"Oh no!" Shannon closed her mouth with her hand in surprise.

"I'm sorry. I was going to let you know about the cupcakes, but she took my cellphone. She didn't want me to contact you or Sebastian. I had to buy a new one." Merida said.

"Wait.. what? Since when did she keep your phone?" Shannon asked, flabbergasted.

"Since before we left from LA." Merida said.

"Oh no no no.. that means I've been talking with her all this time!" Shannon exclaimed.

"You what?" Merida asked in confusion.

"I tried contacting you a couple of days ago when I got back from LA. At first you didn't respond but then you texted me back. Wait, let me grab my phone." Shannon said and she stood up to pick her cellphone from the kitchen table.

"Here, you sent me these messages." Shannon showed her cellphone to Merida.

"I didn't send these. Ana did." Merida said after she studied the messages on Shannon's phone.

"Oh no! I told her where Y/n's room was. She asked just yesterday." Shannon clapped her forehead.

"Well we have to get there as soon as possible, and let Sebastian know. She could already be there by now! She left our apartment a couple of hours ago, saying she wanted to visit a friend. I thought she was going to see Jose." Merida said.

"Okay, let me call Seb." Shannon said.

Shannon opened the contacts on her cellphone and pressed on Sebastian's number. However, after waiting until the 10th ring Sebastian didn't answer.

"Let's just go there. I'm going to grab my jacket and we can go." Shannon said.

"Okay." Merida said as she stood up and walked toward the front door.

"I hope we can still safe her." Merida said as they went outside of Shannon's apartment.

"I hope so too!" Shannon exclaimed as they reached the sidewalk and she tried to hail a cab. Her heart pounded fast in her ribcage. If she was too late and anything happened to Y/n, she wouldn't forgive herself.

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The Brooklyn Hospital Center, New York - March 2022

"Are you new here? I feel I've never seen you come in here before." Sebastian asked as he studied the peculiar nurse.

"Oh yes.. I.. uh.. I'm usually down at the ER." The nurse said, sounding a little nervous.

The nurse was just about to inject the liquid into the IV bag connected to Y/n's arm when her sleeve slipped and her wrist was in full view. Sebastian saw it then. He recognized the expensive watch adorning the nurse's wrist. There was no one else he knew that would wear that watch. He stood up quickly and grabbed the nurse's hand before she had the chance to inject the liquid, knocking the syringe to the ground. He then grabbed her mask off her mouth and saw the face of the person he hated the most in the world.

"Ana!" Sebastian shouted as he held Ana's hand tight and dragged her away from Y/n.

"Ow! Seb, you're hurting me!" Ana complained as she tried to break away from Sebastian's grip.

"Me?! Hurting you?! What the h**l Ana! You're trying to hurt Y/n! It was also you who sent those cupcakes weren't you? I'm going to bring you to the police right now!" Sebastian said, dragging her toward the door.

"Oh no you don't. If you do I'll release that incriminating footage of you and Lily. And you can kiss your reputation good bye!" Ana threatened.

"Do you really think I care about that? You know I also have something of you that can ruin your reputation." Sebastian sneered.

"Oh, that video of me in Riyadh? It didn't show anything! Just me entering a room with a guy. No big deal. Didn't show me kissing him or anything, unlike your footage!" Ana shouted.

"Fine! Release it then! Release my footage then I'll take you to the police. You're still in a worst place then I ever will, Ana. I dare you.. release it!" Sebastian threatened, his face inches from hers, his voice raised in anger.

"Fine!" Ana said, huffing in anger. She twisted her hand so she was free from Sebastian's grip and pulled out her cellphone.

Sebastian stood back but kept on his guard. He wasn't going to let her leave just like that.

"Seb.. are you sure about this?" Y/n asked as she watched both of them from the bed, heart pounding in fear.

"Yeah, I don't care anymore. It's all gonna be okay, sweetheart, don't worry. Just stay there, okay?" Sebastian said, holding his hand up at her, trying to comfort her.

"Okay." Y/n nodded.

"Sweetheart..? You guys are pathetic.. " Ana snickered as she continued browsing through her cellphone.

"You're just jealous aren't you?" Sebastian sneered.

"You know what?! Yes, I am! I loved you, Seb. And since I can't be with you, I figured no one else can! That's why I needed to get rid of her!" Ana said, pointing toward Y/n.

"What?! That's not love Ana what you feel toward me. You're just not used to rejection. Are you? You need help, Ana." Sebastian said, his eyes widened as he realized how psychotic Ana was. But he couldn't help feeling a little sorry for her.

"No, I don't need help. I'm fine! Aha!" She shouted gleefully as she found the footage she was looking for.

After several moments she showed her cellphone screen to Sebastian. She had just posted on her Instagram story the video of him and Lily in that trailer back during the shooting of Pam and Tommy. He watched it in apprehension as the footage showed him and Lily sitting down on the chairs and rehearsing the lines from Pam and Tommy. He waited and waited, but the video ended when Lily had finished delivering her line. Ana heard that the video had ended and took back her cellphone from the front of Sebastian's face.

"Oh no no.. where is it?! Ugh! I can't believe it's gone!" Ana yelled in frustration.

"You don't have it anymore?" Sebastian asked, lowering his guard a little.

"It's f*****g gone! Ugh! Merida.. she must have changed the video." Ana huffed in frustation.

"Well.. well.. Merida really is nice after all." Sebastian said, shaking his head in disbelief.

He moved forward toward Ana, intending to take her hand and really bring her to the police, but Ana kicked him in the shin making him doubled over in pain. She slipped past him and ran out the door.

"Seb! Are you okay?" Y/n asked in concern while trying to get off the bed to help him.

"I'm fine, honey. Just stay there okay. I have to catch her!" Sebastian said as he walked limping toward the door.

"Okay, be careful Iubirea mea." Y/n said.

Sebastian nodded. As soon as the pain on his shin receded he started running out of the isolation room and out toward the hall. He looked around and saw a glimpse of Ana running toward the emergency stairs. He quickly took off in pursuit of her.

"Excuse me! Coming through!" He ran weaving through people trying to catch up to Ana, turning people's eyes toward him as he passed.

He opened the emergency stairs and looked down. He could hear footsteps down below. He ran down as quickly as he could, almost tripping on the stairs. He heard the door on the ground floor opened so he got out on the ground floor. As soon as he was out from the emergency stairs, he looked around but couldn't find her. There were so many people and they made it hard to find her. He decided to go outside to the parking lot. But no matter how hard he looked he still couldn't find her.

He put both hands on his head in frustration. He could not believe he lost her! He took a deep breath, trying to calm his racing heart. After a while and he felt calmer, he finally turned around and went back toward the isolation room, still reeling from what just happened.

About half an hour after he lost Ana, Shannon and Merida came. They were glad Y/n was okay and no one was hurt except Sebastian. But they also regretted not coming sooner. They probably could have helped in catching Ana.

"So, Merida.. did you change the video?" Sebastian asked curiously as they all sat down on the waiting room right outside the ward Y/n was in. Sebastian's visiting hours was over and Shannon and Merida weren't allowed in.

"I did, yeah. Back in LA. I've thought about it for a while. She needs to learn her lesson. She's had things handed to her on a silver platter and she couldn't accept that you are not falling for her. She had ideas about you and her. How she wanted your relationship to be like. But since you weren't cooperating, she felt she needed to do something so that you would. I told her all about karma and how what she has done will come back and bite her in the ass. But she wouldn't listen. So I thought I'd change that video to give her some lesson." Merida explained.

"Wow. Do you still have the original footage?" Sebastian asked.

"No, I deleted them all. She sent it to my phone and transferred it to her laptop. I've deleted them all back in LA." Merida responded.

"Oh good. So she has nothing against you now, Seb." Shannon said.

"Yeah. That's great! But the fact that she is still out there worries me. What if she came back and tried to hurt Y/n when I'm not around. She could clearly disguise herself and got into the isolation room in no problem. Even bringing Y/n's medicine with her." Sebastian said.

"I'm going to make sure she doesn't do that. I'm going to persuade her to come back to Spain and leave you and Y/n in peace. There is nothing else that she can do anyway. And I doubt she would want to risk getting into jail if she tried hurting Y/n again." Merida said.

"Thank you, Merida. I really appreciate it." Sebastian said.

"You're welcome, Seb. Just please don't report her to the police." Merida said.

"Okay, I won't. Just make sure she leaves New York as soon as possible." Sebastian said.

"I will. Don't worry about it. Well, I better get going. I'll see guys around..someday." Merida said.

"Yeah, see you around Merida, take care." Shannon said as she gave her a hug.

"Thanks Shannon. Thank you for trusting me." Merida said, hugging Shannon back.

"Of course." Shannon smiled.

"Thank you so much Merida, for all that you've done for me." Sebastian said as he shook her hand.

"You're welcome, Seb. I'm sorry for everything that you had to go through." Merida said.

"Thank you, Merida. Appreciate it." Sebastian nodded and let go of her hand.

After Merida left, Shannon left as well and Sebastian was left alone again at the hospital. He stayed in the waiting room, waiting for his next scheduled visit to see Y/n. His mind tried to process everything that had happened. He couldn't believe Ana had the guts to try and kill Y/n. He was still worried that Ana would try again. But Merida was right, Ana didn't have anything else against him. And if she tried hurting Y/n again, she risked getting caught and getting arrested. Surely she wasn't that reckless. After a while, he finally breathed a sigh of relief as it dawned on him that the nightmare he was in seemed to be finally over.

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The video that Ana posted on her Instagram story had become viral. She deleted it eventually but people reposted it so many times that it became viral. The fact it was showing Sebastian and Lily just rehearsing their lines turned it to be a good promotion for the show Pam and Tommy. It also became somewhat of a good thing for Ana. It showed her as a supportive girlfriend taking a recording of her boyfriend's work. Unfortunately it was not something Sebastian wanted. In the public eye they had not been seen together for months. Naturally some people thought they were over or at least were having some problems. The video Ana posted made people think they were getting back together. That was definitely not what Sebastian intended. He had wanted their relationship to just be forgotten by people. He had hoped people would forget about it and he could come out with his relationship with Y/n slowly. He and his team had to figure out a way to show that he was over with Ana, and simultaneously show that he was now seeing Y/n. But considering Y/n was pregnant and at the hospital, it was of course tricky.

"This whole public relations thing is a headache. I'm so tired of it Emma. Can't I just simply make a statement and be done with it? I don't think people would care much anyway." Sebastian sighed as he, Emma and Mick were having a meeting in his room at the hospital.

"That's where you're wrong, Seb. People..especially your fans, care about it. And we really have to be careful about our next steps. One wrong move and you could lose many fans." Emma said.

"Yeah.. tell me about it." Sebastian sneered, remembering the exact reason why he was stuck in this predicament in the first place was because he made one wrong move of signing up to do PR relationship with Ana.

"I'm just tired of all the lies Emma. I wish I could just tell people what I had with Ana was a lie. People would then get it why things had been weird with me and they would accept me seeing Y/n." Sebastian said.

"Seb, remember you're still tied with the contract until the end of March. You don't want to do anything to upset those at the top." Emma reminded him.

After Sebastian lashed out at his team and fired Josh, he had another meeting with Emma and Mick. Both had persuaded him to stay in the agency until after the contract with Ana was over while they looked at other agencies for him. The work that had been done for him in the agency were too extensive and would cause more problems if he changed his agency before the contract was over. After thinking everything over, he eventually agreed. The end of March was fast approaching anyway. He thought he could get by staying at the agency for a couple more weeks.

"Can't I just make a simple statement that Ana and I are over? That's it. Simple. I will not mention anything about us being PR. Won't mention anything about Y/n. Just a simple clarification so that people would stop speculating." Sebastian said.

"Okay, let's make that as our very last resort. But I think we still need to do other things first." Emma said.

"Hey, I have an idea. Why don't you do a pap walk showing you're alone. No, better yet, showing you're here in NYC but with a female friend. That would make people think you and Ana are over and she was just posting that old video to get your attention. Hoping you would come back to her so to speak. But by showing you're with another girl, it would inform people that you're not interested with her anymore." Mick suggested.

"Hmm.. good idea Mick. Who should I do it with though?" Sebastian asked.

"I want to do with Y/n but I obviously can't." Sebastian sighed.

"No, you can't and it's a bad idea too. People would see she's pregnant and they would see you as a cheater. Better go with someone else that people know is a good friend of yours." Emma said.

"Okay, I know. I can ask Adelina." Sebastian said, referring to his good friend Adelina, a fellow Romanian who he had been friends with for years. Most of his fans knew who she was and that he and Adelina were just friends.

"Oh right, that's a good idea. Is she in New York?" Mick asked.

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"I don't know, hopefully she is. I'll give her a call." Sebastian said.

Adelina was in fact in New York, so they asked her to help out. Thankfully she agreed. The next day they did the paparazzi shoot with her, showing him talking with her in front of a hotel with her. The next day the pictures were released along with an article in the Daily Mail. After the article and pictures came out, some of Sebastian's fans thought he and Ana was over, but some was still not convinced. Sebastian and his team decided to just leave it at that and wait until the contract was over before making a statement.

Several days after the paparazzi shoot with Adelina, Y/n was discharged from the hospital. Her PCR test had miraculously turned out negative for Covid. She also didn't have any more symptoms. And she didn't need supplemental oxygen anymore.

It was her last day at the hospital and before they went home, they had an appointment to meet dr.Selena. Dr.Selena had advised them to do a 4D ultrasound scan to see the well-being of their baby. It was standard procedure to check whether there were any abnormalities in the growth of their baby considering how Y/n had been sick and exposed to a lot of drugs and procedures during her stay at the hospital. Sebastian was so excited to do the scan. A 4D ultrasound scan allowed them to see more clearly the shape of their baby, including the shape of her face. It even allowed them to see their baby moving in the womb, much like watching a video. He was really looking forward to see his baby. He hoped he could see her maybe smiling or sucking her thumb. It would be the cutest thing he had ever seen.

"Okay, let's see what your baby looks like." dr.Selena said as she moved the ultrasound transducer around Y/n's stomach.

Moments later Sebastian and Y/n could see what looked like a video of their baby on the screen. Her eyes were closed, she was curling in on herself and she seemed to be sucking her thumb.

"Oh my God. That's her.. " Y/n said, her voice shook as she looked at the face of their baby for the first time.

"Hey little bean, we're soo happy to finally see your face." Sebastian said as he leaned closer to Y/n's stomach, hoping their baby would hear him.

Just then their baby moved her leg and let go of her thumb. She then smiled.

"Iubirea mea.. did you see that?" Y/n squealed.

"I saw it.. yeah.. she's really beautiful." Sebastian said, feeling tears started to pool in his eyes.

"I think she has your nose, and your cleft chin." Y/n giggled.

"Oh my, I think she does." Sebastian said in awe as he looked closer at the monitor.

"She's gonna be the female version of you." Y/n commented.

"Oh no, I was hoping she would look more like you." Sebastian said.

"What are you talking about, Iubirea mea. It's better if she looks like you. She's going to grow up to look like your mom. She's going to be beautiful." Y/n said, squeezing Sebastian's hand.

"Well, when you put it that way, I guess I'm okay that she looks like me." Sebastian nodded.

"She's going to be a heart-breaker for sure." dr.Selena chimed in making Sebastian and Y/n laugh.

"Anyway, I need to see further into her, to see whether her central nervous system are developing normally and that there are no potential neurological problems considering what she had been through the past couple of weeks." dr.Selena said.

"Of course doctor." Sebastian nodded.

The ultrasound screen changed to show their baby's neurons and nervous system, looking like spider webs all over her body and head. It was mind blowing. Sebastian and Y/n's jaws dropped as they saw it. Dr. Selena studied them and made notes and after a while she concluded that their baby's nervous system was developing normally and there didn't seem to be any abnormalities with her. She rechecked their baby's movements and behavior and also concluded that she was developing normally. Sebastian and Y/n couldn't be more grateful upon knowing that fact.

"Thank you so much doctor for everything." Sebastian said as he shook dr.Selena's hand once the scan was over and they were leaving.

"You're very welcome Mr.Stan. I'm so happy to see that Y/n and your baby are healthy again." dr.Selena said.

"Thank you doctor. I really appreciate everything you have done for me since the very beginning." Y/n said, shaking dr.Selena's hand.

"You're very welcome Y/n. Don't forget to come for your monthly check-up. And don't forget to note the movements of your baby. Any time you feel she is less active or not active at all, contact us immediately." dr.Selena reminded Y/n.

"Of course, doctor. Thank you so much for reminding me." Y/n said.

After they got out of dr.Selena's examination room, they went to the cashier to pay. Most of the expenses were thankfully covered by Y/n's insurance. Sebastian only had to pay for his room and some items for Y/n that were not covered by her insurance. Having finished all their payment at the cashier, they went out of the hospital toward Sebastian's car. They had decided to stay at Y/n's apartment for the time being, until it was time for Sebastian to leave for LA.

Y/n was still feeling somewhat weak so she used a wheelchair. Sebastian was pushing her wheelchair on the deserted parking lot when he felt something hit him on the back of his head. His eyes saw stars and he felt a painful throbbing on the back of his head. It was so painful that he fell to the ground. He blacked out just as someone walked past him and grabbed Y/n's throat.

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Electricity Chapter 1

Summary: For the first time in her life, Melody Williams is moving out of her hometown to Minnesota where she got a job as a crime journalist for the Minnesota Daily. But this city does not only have a new job for her to offer. What will happen when she crosses paths with detective Walter Marshall? Heads up, a little electricity is involved ✨

Walter Marshall x Melody Williams (curvy OFC)

Warnings: none

Wordcount: 2.5k

A/N: So, I wrote something for the first time 👀 Pls be kind haha. This is written with a plus size/curvy OFC in mind because all my curvy babes, like me, deserve some love 😘 

“Thanks for calling me. I will call you back with my decision soon.” I hung up the phone and stared at it in my hand. A woman from the newspaper in the city a few towns over had just called, telling me they were offering me a job at their crime department. I sat at my desk at my current job, a local journalist for my hometown newspaper. I started working there during college and they offered a job after I finished. I happily accepted, because that meant I could move out of my lovely parents’ house and start my own life.

As I sat at my desk I realized I had never really left this town, and I had always fantasized what it would be like to live and work in a different town. I loved my hometown, don’t get me wrong, but it is small and everyone knows each other. Every day is basically the same here. Miss Johnson walks her dog at exact 3pm, the Millers go to the supermarket at 4pm to buy dinner and the whole town eats at Al’s diner every Sunday.

Also, the men in this town aren’t something to write home about. The decent men are taken by the perfect housewives and the ones who are left, are the type of guys who you don’t want to meet in a dark alley. And unfortunately, no nice men have decided to move here in the last couple of years. The only guy I dated (we were only together for a couple of months) decided I wasn’t good enough and eloped with a pretty, skinny blonde bitch.

While the town doesn’t seem to change, neither does my job. I have been covering the local news for a couple of years now, and it feels like I have been doing the same thing over and over again. Nothing really happens here, and honestly it makes me feel stuck at my job. I feel like my job and this place aren’t helping me to move further. I want to learn more and see something else than this town.

Still staring at the phone in my hand realization washed over me. This was my way out. This phone call could change everything. Not thinking twice, I called the woman (I had forgotten her name, Stacy apparently) back telling her I was accepting their offer. This was my chance of starting something new.

In the weeks after the call, I quit my job and started looking for a new place. Luckily, I found a cosy, affordable apartment. Not too big, not too small. Perfect for me and only me. Not wanting to wait, I moved in quickly with the help of my parents and made the place feel a little like home.

It was a cute apartment with one bedroom and a tiny kitchen. I had everything I needed. A comfy couch, my kettle, my books, a tv for my binge-watching nights and lots of cosy blankets and throw pillows.

After moving in and settling down, I finally had a chance to decorate the place with a lot of fairy lights and plants. I stood in the middle of the living area, wiping some sweat of my face after moving around some heavy plants. Yeah, this is starting to look like home. I thought as I looked around the living area, satisfied with the work I did.

I sat down on my couch and looked at the clock on the wall. It was 8pm. I was tired and hadn’t eaten yet. Tomorrow was my first day at the Minnesota Daily and I couldn’t wait. I was a little nervous, but because I was so tired, I didn’t have the energy to be too nervous or to make dinner.

I decided to make a grilled cheese sandwich and go to bed early. Tomorrow was the first day of a new start and I needed to look good. Might need a full 12 hours of sleep if I want to look a little decent, I thought to myself as I stared into the mirror and noticed my messy hair and the bags under my eyes.

After I ate my ‘dinner’ (I decided two grilled cheese sandwiches counted as dinner), I went to my bedroom and picked an outfit for tomorrow. A simple jeans and a baby blue blouse would do it. Afterwards I brushed my teeth and removed my make up. I put on my pyjamas and fell asleep as soon as my head hit my pillow.

After parking my car in the parking garage underneath the building the Minnesota Daily is located, I checked my make up one last time in the rear-view mirror. No uneven eyebrows and no smudges of mascara. Let’s go make a good first impression.

I stepped out of the car and grabbed my purse. I walked out of the parking garage and made my way to the front desk where I was greeted by a friendly older looking receptionist.

“Hi, I’m Melody! It is my first day here and I was told to ask for Stacy,” I said.

“Welcome dear! I’ll let Stacy know you’re here! She’ll be here in a sec,” she said with a smile. I nodded and looked around. People were walking in and out of the building, most of them talking on the phone. They all looked like they were in a rush.

Stacy appeared within a minute. She was taller than me, and I’m not exactly tiny, and her long brown hair was tied up in a bun. She walked towards me with her hand reached out and I quickly took it.

“Hi, you must be Melody! I’m Stacy, but everyone calls me Stace. Come, follow me, I’ll show you where we will be working!” she said while we walked to the elevator. While the elevator brought us to the 8th floor, she asked me how my new apartment was and if I liked the city. Before I knew it, the elevator reached the 8th floor.

“Everyone, pay attention! This is Melody and she will be joining our department as you all know,” Stacy practically yelled the second we left the elevator. I already saw some friendly faces looking at me. “Hi, I am Melody, but please call me Mel,” I said while Stacy walked over to a desk and started to introduce me to my new co-workers.

After I met everyone from the crime department, I made my way towards my new desk. Everyone seemed friendly and there was a relaxed atmosphere. Which was a little surprising to me considering this was the crime department. I looked around and thought: yeah, I made the right call to accept this offer.

Yet, I had no idea what this town had to offer me. Or better said, who.

In the first week I worked there I became friends with some of my co-workers. Carmen Garcia practically forced me to go to lunch with her and Gia Park on my first day. They had both been working at the Minnesota Daily for a couple of years now and they were one of the few women in the department. So, they were glad I was recruited to give them another ally in the office.

While we had lunch, they informed me about everything I needed to know. “You seriously need to stay away from creepy Greg, he works for the finance section. Make sure you never go down there alone. He always looks at women like he wants to drag them into an empty alley,” Gia said while pretending to throw up.

“Oh, he is the worst! But Megan, the receptionist, is the best ever. She is so sweet and kind. If you ever need anything, just ask her and she will help you,” Carmen added.

“Definitely! And if you ever need free tickets for a sports game, just let me know and we will visit the guys from the sport section,” Gia told me with a wink.

“I will keep all of this in mind,” I said while taking a sip from my cappuccino. “but tell me something about yourselves!”

Next thing I knew Carmen and Gia told me where they grew up, where they went to school and how they ended up working for the Minnesota Daily. I noticed how easy it was to talk to these girls and we had a good laugh while they told me about their most recent dating disasters. I nearly spilled my cappuccino not once or twice, but thrice while Carmen told me about how she escaped from one of her dates through the bathroom window.

During my first week I spend a lot of time with them. I helped them finish their articles and I got to know them pretty well. Carmen is tough, but sweet and straightforward, while Gia is soft and has a very short span of attention while working. She has visited my desk every half hour just to “catch up”. But I didn’t complain. It was nice to have them as my co-workers, although they began to feel more like friends.

It felt like my life fell into place again. I was making new friends, and I did a pretty good job so far.  Still, sometimes I forgot to do basis tasks like getting groceries. So now I was parking my car in the parking lot of the grocery store.

As soon as I stepped out, I felt the cold chilly air around me, making me pull my leather jacket closer around my body. Hastily I stepped through the doors of the store just a few minutes before they would close. Quickly I grabbed a basket, knowing I should grab a cart, and started to walk through the aisles.

It was quiet inside, just a few people were doing some last-minute shopping like me. I waved hello to the woman at the cash register as I made my way to the first aisle.

So just the basics, some bread, apples, veggies, chocolate. Hmm maybe no chocolate. Okay yes, some chocolate. I deserve it today. What else, milk and cereal obviously. Girl gotta eat some breakfast. I thought as I threw some products in my already way too full basket and made my way to the cereal aisle. I walked passed the apples and picked some up, holding them in my hands.

Walking through the aisle I stopped in front of the many boxes of cereal. Above me I noticed a flickering lightbulb, reminding me I still needed to watch the last episode of Stranger Things. Maybe I should watch it tonight.

Staring at all the different kinds of cereal, I couldn’t decide which one I wanted. After a minute of just staring at the boxes lost in my own world, I grabbed one.

Except, I suddenly wasn’t the only one. Quickly I turned around and bumped into a warm, broad chest which made me drop the apples I was carrying. “Oh shit,” I whispered before I looked up into the most beautiful blue eyes I had ever seen and stared at the man. He had a beard and dark, brown curls. One of the curls dangled in front of his eyes and I had to fight the urge to not wipe it out of his face.

“It didn’t look like you were going to make a decision soon, so I just grabbed the one I wanted,” he said while crouching down to pick up the fallen apples.

“Oh no, no it’s fine,” I stammered, completely overwhelmed by him. “I guess I was zoned out there for a moment.”

While he was picking up the apples, I decided to take a quick look at him. He was a tall, big man wearing a dark blue sweater. Damn it, he is gorgeous. Don’t mind bumping into him more often.. no don’t go there, pull yourself together! I thought as I felt my cheeks burning all of a sudden. I couldn’t even remember the last time I talked to a man this handsome. Get it together Mel.

As he stood up and handed me the apples, I noticed how tired he looked. There were dark circles underneath his eyes, making me wonder when it was the last time he had a decent amount of sleep. Or if he ever had a decent night of sleep.

“Thank you for picking these up,” I said while holding up the apples, making them almost fall again. His reflexes were fast as he grabbed my elbow, helping me keep the apples balanced. The warmth of his hand made my legs suddenly feel a little weak.

“No problem,” he chuckled tiredly making me smile a little. “Maybe you should have gotten a cart instead of a basket, might be easier,” he said while still holding onto my elbow. He pointed with his other hand to my basket that was way too full.  

“You are probably right, but my stubborn ass thought I could carry it all, so here we are,” I answered with a timed laugh, feeling a little embarrassed. He looked at me with those blue eyes and I noticed he had a “don’t mess with me” vibe, that somehow made me feel safe.

As I looked at his hand on my elbow, I suddenly became aware of how close he was. I could smell his musky cologne. He noticed I looked at his hand, and he abruptly let go of me while taking a step back. I immediately missed the warmth of his hand.

“I, uh, I need to go. Take care and don’t drop those again,” he told me with a small smile pointing at the apples in my hands. He grabbed his own basket and started to walk away. As he walked away, I took a good look of him. He was a very muscular man, and I took a mental picture of his ass because that was a sight I did not want to forget. I must tell Carmen and Gia about this.

“I can’t promise that, but I will try my hardest,” I laughed, knowing I would probably drop them again soon. “See you around?” I asked him. Surprised by my own boldness I nearly sank through the floor out of embarrassment.

He looked back at me with those beautiful blue eyes and I felt a spark of electricity going through my spine. “I hope so,” he said with a smirk before he shook his head and turned the corner leaving me speechless in the cereal aisle.

I stood there for another minute while coming back to my senses. My cheeks stopped burning and I realized I had not embarrassed myself that much. I smiled to myself and pictured the smirk he gave me in my head. Then the announcement that the store was about to close in a few minutes blared through the speakers, reminding me I still had to collect some groceries.

Quickly I grabbed the rest of the groceries and headed towards the cash register hoping to see him one more time. Unfortunately, he was nowhere to be found.

I paid for the groceries and walked to my car. Loading the groceries in the trunk I nearly dropped the apples again. Told you, I thought while closing the trunk. It was getting dark and colder outside so I wasted no more time and drove home.

While driving home I realized the mistake I made.

Damn, I should’ve asked his name.

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> Chapter two

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Spiderman Huh?

Peter Parker x reader

Word Count: 900

Warnings: nothing I don’t think 

Author’s Note: I am very excited to be posting this because 11 year old maya is literally over the moon with it. I hope you enjoy love! 

Requested: by anon, hey :) i saw that you would write for andrew garfield's spiderman and im here to request a fic (he's SO cute i love him)! could i request a soulmate au (i don't really have a preference for what kind) where they meet at a halloween party or something fluffy? thank you so much 💕

Summary: I used the first words of your soulmate is on your wrist AU! 

Genre: fluff

I don’t own these characters. They belong to author/director 

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Peter scratched his wrist where there was still a bandage from the night before. The bandage covered the clean letters of his soulmates' first words to him but he had them mesmerized; he didn’t need to have to see them.

‘Spiderman huh?’ The words dug into his brain. 

Class was dragging on and as he stared at the board in front of him he thought about the Halloween party that was going on that night. He thought about how he could go in full Spiderman get up if he wanted. Although it might be a dead give away because all the store bought costumes were bad knockoffs. Maybe he would buy one of those and wear them for irony purposes. He could even add the authentic web shooters if he wanted to. Although if he got drunk he might slip up and shoot someone in the face. Maybe-

“Parker!” Peter looked up, knocked out of his Halloween costume daze.

“Yeah?” The teacher looked directly at him, as did the rest of his class. He scratched the back of his neck.

“I asked you what you thought about Mary Shellys book,” the teacher said. 

You walked past the classroom that Peter was in quickly. You glanced inside, seeing the teacher look sternly at one of the kids but you couldn't figure out which one. You didn't care either way. You walked out the back door and to your car. You were glad no one caught you leaving but they honestly couldn’t expect you to stick on Halloween did they?

The party was tonight and you had to get your costume ready. You had decided to go as Spiderman, your recent obsession. You were collecting little bits of newspapers when he made it into the positive news and compiling them together. Plus, it was a cheap costume and you didn’t have to think too hard about it.

You got into your car and your sleeve hiked up, revealing the even lettering of the first words your soulmate would speak to you. You didn’t look at it. You knew what it said. ‘I like the outfit.’ 

Peter walked into the party that night slowly. He was hoping that someone he knew would be there, despite the fact he figured he would have to get some punch and go. Maybe Gwen Stacy would be there. He had always wondered what her soulmate letters were. 

Peter walked up to the food table and looked over it. You glanced over at him, laughing at something one of your friends was saying. You noticed his costume, the same one you were wearing. 

“I’ll talk to you guys in a bit,” you said lowly and they nodded, letting you slink away. You walked over to him and stood beside him. He glanced over at you, noticing the costume.

“I like the outfit,” he said and you looked up at him, surprised to hear those words. You thought about your words carefully.

“Spiderman huh?” He halted and nodded stiffly, realizing those words. By the looks of his face you were hoping that those words had been the right words. Peter looked down at his shitty Walmart onesuit and realized he couldn’t get to his wrist without tearing the whole suit off. 

You realized that at the same time.

“Those are my…” you started and chuckled. “Those are my words. But I can’t show you.” He laughed and shook his head in disbelief.

“Same,” he said with a cute laugh.

“I’m Y/N,” you introduced. You held out your gloved hand and he shook it with his. 

“Peter Parker.” 

“Very nice to meet you Peter. You have great taste in costumes. Spiderman is so cool,” you said still in amazement that you had managed to meet your soulmate at a Halloween party in high school. Your heartbeat in your chest so loud you thought he might be able to hear it over the loud music and talking.

Peter nodded and looked away from you and then back at you as he laughed.

“I guess so,” he said and thought about telling you right then and there why that was so funny. You were his soulmate. You would figure it out here or there. But he waited. Not quite yet.

“You want some punch?” you asked and gestured to the food table. He nodded, happy that you could keep the conversation going.

“I would love some.”

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2020 Wrapped:

Rules: It’s time to love yourselves! Choose your 5-8 (ish) favorite works you created in the past year (fics, art, edits, etc.) and link them below to reflect on the amazing things you brought into the world in 2020. Tag as many writers/artists/etc. as you want (fan or original) so we can spread the love and link each other to awesome work!

Okay, so as you know, ya boi is verbose af, so apologies, but I could only whittle it down to a top 10 (and one honorable mention.) I like to think my work has improved with time, so the older ones may be a bit rough, but here are my favs from 2020 and why (from most recent to oldest.)  

1.) Southern Comfort-Bill Hader, Teddy Redbones (Doc Now)/OFC

Synopsis: Teddy Redbones viciously despises his political opponent Savannah Harrison...by day. At night, the two tear into each other madly, hiding their secret affair from the world and their feelings from one another.

Why I Love: Honestly when @martymcdie88mph sent me a request that just asked for ‘Teddy Redbones laying down pipe’ I never expected the first fic about him to get the response it did, much less for it to lead to two more requests. It’s provided me with immeasurable laughter and I’m so glad there are others out there down to bone this angry southern dom.

2.) Frozen Dreams-Conan O’Brien/OFC

Synopsis: Receiving bad news while on their Christmas vacation at the height of ‘The Tonight Show’ upset, Conan deals with his grief, assisted by his partner, Molly.

Why I Love: Writing some Conan super angst was so cathartic and beautiful. Thank you @stunninconan for making this request and giving me the opportunity to do so. Just want to cherish our ginger smokeshow and let him know how deeply he’s loved.

3.) Flickering Beauty-Bill Hader, Little Vivvy (Doc Now)/Partners of Multiple Genders

Synopsis: Little Vivvy is away from her family, and her wealth, for the first time in 1970’s New York. As she tries to make it as a dancer, Vivvy undergoes the early stages of her transition and stumbles upon the accepting Ball scene, as well as some struggles of being a trans woman trying to live an authentic life.

Why I Love: I wrote this piece for NaNoWriMo 2020 and I knew going into it I would largely be composing it for myself. Beforehand I considered doing something that might draw in more readers, Reddie perhaps, but I'm so glad I went with my heart because this story is incredibly meaningful to me and I will love Vivvy until the end of my days.

4.) Breathe Me-Bill Hader, Barry/OFC

Synopsis: Barry is back in Cleveland after his discharge, working for Fuches, deeply depressed and feeling hopeless. After running into his childhood friend Annie, he discovers she’s doing sex work and offers to help her financially. But Annie refuses, saying there’s only one way she’ll accept payment from Barry.

Why I Love: One of many ideas I’ve worked on this year with @martymcdie88mph, though arguably our best. I received a lot of positive feedback on this piece that made me feel good about myself, and I simply love the dynamic between these two hurting characters.

5.) Lost and Found-Bill Hader, Reddie

Synopsis: When Richie loses the engagement ring he bought for Eddie, he panics, searching everywhere but finding nothing. Coming across the ring while cleaning, Eddie devises a plan to surprise Richie.

Why I Love: This one was based on a prompt from @halefirewarrior and I just think it’s cute and sweet. And it’s resulted in a dozen or so strangers on the internet telling me to ‘shut the fuck up,’ which is always amusing.

6.) Harmonious Monsters-Bill Hader, Vince Blight/OFC

Synopsis: Sociopathic power couple Vince and Stacy Blight live a hedonistic, extravagant existence based on kinky sex and a mutual disregard for humanity. As their ten year anniversary approaches, Vince reflects on the saga of their relationship.

Why I Love: Pretty sure this one appeals just to me, ha. I had a ball writing it. Getting into the heads of these characters was ridiculously fun and smut-wise it includes some of my favorite things.

7.) In The Midnight Hour-Bill Hader RPF, Priest AU

Synopsis: When Father Bill Hader sees a struggling trans man named Troy attending the weekly free meal offered by the church, he discovers Troy is homeless, offering him a place to stay in the basement. As they get to know one another, Troy tempts Bill and tests his faith in ways he never thought possible.

Why I Love: Writing this one for @phantomofthegallifreyanopera was cathartic for me. As a queer trans man who was trapped in a fundamental Christian community for a time, it felt like sweet vengeance to be able to flex my Biblical Studies degree for the sake of gay p*rn (trust me, it’s completely useless otherwise) and it was fun to see Father Bill teased into sin 😈

8.) Harder, Better, Faster, Stronger-Bill Hader, The Alan (SNL)/OFC

Synopsis: When Lily comes home to find The Alan on her doorstep, she can’t imagine why her friend got her such a silly, extravagant gift. That is, until she discovers the Adult Expansion Pack.

Why I Love: I was nervous about publishing this one and almost didn’t. I truly didn’t think y’all would be on board. But thank fuck everyone in this fandom is kinky as shit and this became one of the fics for which I get praised the most. I loved writing it and I’m so here for cranking out more weird shit all day every day.

9.) If The World Was Ending-Bill Hader, Barry/OFC

Synopsis: Barry knows that tomorrow he is likely to die, the Chechens seeking vengeance for the massacre at the monastery. For his last night, he wants nothing more than to spend it with Valerie. The problem: Valerie and Barry broke up months before when she discovered his true profession. Barry begs Valerie to see him, and for one final time, he finds solace in her arms.

Why I Love: When @erdankely gave me their concept for this request, I was unreasonably excited. So damn cool. And I just sobbed while I wrote it. Such a sl*t for Barry super angst any day of the week. Love this one and I’m pretty proud of how it turned out, actually.

10.) Miles Apart Inside-Bill Hader, Robbie Wheadlan (Doc Now)/OFC

Synopsis: While he’s awaiting trial for murder, Robbie Wheadlan and his lover Abbi reflect on the saga of their relationship.

Why I Love: Not only was this a piece that made me fall hardcore in love with a murderer who was on screen for maybe 15 minutes and has no redeemable attributes, but it strengthened my friendship with @stunninconan and for that I am grateful.

Honorable Mention: Later That Night- Conan O’Brien/OFC

Synopsis: Conan meets author Gwendolyn who comes on his show to promote her book.

Why I Love: This is the first fic I published back in July. I’m sure I would cringe like crazy if I tried to read it now at all the edits it needs, but I’m so, so happy I decided to post it and kept writing and sharing. Without this almost 48k monster about my orange pompadoured beloved and all the kind feedback from everyone, I wouldn’t be where I am today. Thank you all!

And I spend my days doing nothing other than hammering out alphabet p*rn of my own, so I apologize that I don't know who to tag to keep this going because I shamefully never take time to read. But feel free to do your own if you have creations you would like to share!i

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Turn Off the Dark: Chapter 3

Hey y'all! Here's Chapter 3 of Turn of the Dark! I promise that Josie and Peter aren't going to be at odds much longer. I hope you enjoy this chapter!

Prologue

Chapter 1

Chapter 2

Josie readjusted her grip on the cake pan in her arms and opened the front door to her parent’s home. She could hear her father and brothers shouting at some game on the TV in the living room, and the faint sound of pots and pans being moved around from the kitchen.

“Hey! I’m here!” She called out to whoever was listening. The clamor in the house dulled for a moment, and she heard her mom call her into the kitchen.

She slipped off her shoes and headed toward the back of the house. As she passed the living room, she poked her head in and smiled at her dad and two brothers. Her smile faltered slightly when she saw the back of Peter Parker’s head sitting on the floor in front of the TV. He had never responded to her text, which she really hadn’t expected him to, so she was more than surprised to see him sat among her family. Before she had a chance to turn her gaze away, he turned around and made eye contact with her. He gave her a half-hearted smile and wave, before turning back to face forward.

Her younger brother Greyson jumped up from the couch and threw his arms around her. Even though he was two and a half years younger than her, he stood almost a foot taller than her at six feet four inches tall. He had gotten his height from his father. In fact, all three of the Butler boys were taller than six feet. Greyson just happened to be the tallest. Josie grinned at her brother and pinched his cheek-which she knew he hated.

“Hi, bubby! How’s everything out west?” Her brother rolled his eyes at his childhood nickname and shrugged his shoulders.

“It’s fine, I guess. Not nearly as exciting as here. But I mean, we knew that” He replied. Greyson was in his first year at Arizona State University on a basketball scholarship studying forensic science. Before he passed, Greyson had looked up to Captain Stacy, Gwen’s father and the chief of police in New York City. He inspired Greyson to pursue a degree in investigation. He was back in town visiting his family over his spring break. They missed him, but Josie knew that he was on the right path.

“I’m glad you don’t hate it, though. That would make me big sad for my little bro.” Josie ruffled his hair and he swatted her hand away. They playfully shoved each other for a bit before Josie’s mother called her name from the back of the house.

Shaking her head, Josie continued her journey to the kitchen. “There you are! I was starting to wonder if you had gotten lost on the way from the front door!” Her mother exclaimed pulling her into a hug. Josie smiled widely. Josie and her mother had always been incredibly close, even when she had been younger. She strove to always make her mom proud, and become an incredible woman like her.

“I brought a chocolate cake! I had some extra time on my hands today, so the frosting is homemade too!” Josie glanced proudly at the dish in her hands before placing it on the empty counter. She then turned her attention to the other woman occupying the kitchen and rushed over to her, pulling her into a tight embrace. “It’s so good to see you, Aunt May! I’m sorry I didn’t stop by the last time I was over, I ended up getting caught up with my mom and had to rush to the show!”

May Parker pulled away from Josie slightly, and held the young girl’s face in her hands, “Oh, it’s nothing to worry about now, dear. I’m so happy to see you. I’ve probably watched your performance on Good Morning America one hundred times by now. I am so proud of you!”

Josie smiled and followed her mom and Aunt May over to the kitchen table. Her mother poured her a glass of water and the three women began to catch up on their lives and enjoy each other’s company.

“Josie, I would love to come out and see your show soon! Any idea how much longer it’s going to run?” Aunt May eventually asked, turning to her surrogate niece with a smile.

“I’m not sure! We haven’t heard anything about it closing any time soon, so I hope we’re open for the foreseeable future. Do you want tickets? I’d be happy to get you one.” Josie replied. She hadn’t wanted to pressure the Parker matriarch into coming out to Manhattan alone to see her show, since she assumed Peter had little to no interest in coming out to support her as well.

“Of course! Peter and I would be happy to cheer you on! If your TV appearance was any indication, this is a show we won’t want to miss!” Aunt May smiled proudly at Josie, and Mrs. Butler chimed in.

“It really is something so special, May! Josephine truly is spectacular in this role. I’m sure you will absolutely love it!” Josie smiled at both women. Their conversation was interrupted by the sound of the kitchen timer going off, signaling that dinner was ready to be served. Josie felt her heart rate increase slightly, because she knew that once dinner was on the table she’d have to sit awkwardly in the same place with Peter. And she hated feeling awkward. Marian called to the men in the living room that it was time to eat, while May and Josie set the table.

The Butler men and Peter filed into the dining room and sat at their respective seats at the table. Ever since they had moved to New York, when they’d have the Parkers over for dinner, everyone sat in the same place every time. Sam at the head of the table with his wife to his right and his oldest son to his left. Josie always sat next to her mother, with her youngest brother beside her. Peter sat across from Josie next to his Aunt, and when he was alive, Ben Parker sat at the opposite head of the table furthest from Sam. Sam led the group in a quick blessing over the food, and then everyone dug in.

“Sweetheart, this pasta is so so good! Is this a new recipe?” Sam asked his wife. Marian nodded her head, and then there was silence again as people enjoyed their meals and allowed it time to digest. Eventually, May cleared her throat and turned to her nephew.

“Peter, honey, Josie offered to get us tickets to her show! Isn’t that so sweet of her?” Peter nodded slightly.

“Yeah, that’s uh, that’s great Aunt May.” He said without making eye contact with her.

Josie had a feeling that only one of those tickets would end up being used, but she held out hope that maybe she would be wrong.

Once everyone had finished eating their dinner, Marian served the cake Josie had brought over. She had only taken one bite before her father blurted out:

“So, did you guys hear Spider-Man saved Josie the other night?” She choked on the cake she had in her mouth, and everyone but her mother’s eyes grew wide in surprise. Josie looked down in embarrassment.

“Really?? Cool!” Tyler said. He was always excited to hear about Spider-Man. “What happened?” he asked.

She cleared her throat and set down her fork. She retold the story of her recent mugging attempt, and noticed Peter shift uncomfortably at the mention of Spider-Man’s heroics.

“Something wrong, Pete?” she asked him.

He shook his head quickly, “No. No. Just, ya know, I can’t imagine how scary that must have been for you.”

“Yeah, it was pretty wild. You know what’s funny, in the moment, I couldn’t think of anything else but how scared I was. But later? All I could think about was how great of a picture it would have been. Him up on that dumpster with the light from the street lamps on him. The pictures you take of him are always super impressive, Peter. I feel like you could really make some major money with those. Probably more than the Bugle pays you.” Josie laughed slightly at her father’s expense. He chuckled back and looked at Peter.

Peter mumbled a quiet thanks, which she wouldn’t have even caught if she hadn’t been looking at him. Josie scoffed lightly, and hummed softly, “Yeah no problem.” She stabbed at her slice of cake on her plate and shoved a bite into her mouth.

Everyone at the table awkwardly looked between the two “ex-best friends”, unsure of how to move on with the conversation. The silence only lasted a few seconds longer before Josie stood up suddenly.

“You know what? I don’t have to deal with this. I’m sorry Aunt May. I’ll try to stop by tomorrow morning after he leaves for the day to talk with you about the tickets. I need some air.” She glared at Peter, before pushing her chair back in and stomping toward the back yard. She grabbed a blanket from the shelf beside the door before slamming the door shut behind her, and plopping down into the porch swing.

May looked at Peter with a disapproving gaze, before standing up and offering to help Marian with the dishes. Peter also stood up quickly and without a word, marched out the front door and to his own house. The two women looked at each other.

“I’m so sorry about this Marian. I don’t know what’s gotten into him today. I knew that they hadn’t spoken in a while but I wasn’t aware that they were…angry with each other.” May excused herself apologetically and followed her nephew out the door.

After the door had closed behind her, the tense energy between the pair still hung in the air.

“What the heck just happened?” Sam asked to no one in particular.

Marian threw down the dishtowel that was hanging on her shoulder to the counter with determination. “I’m not sure,” she said, “but I’m sure as hell about to find out.”

[imanerdychubbyqueen]

One Night Stand  Sad Eyes x Black/Hispanic  Plus Size Reader!!

warnings: Smut 18+, choking, Angst. 

Please let me know what y’all think, I want to thank @multiyfandomgirl40​ and @lady-pswrld​ for their help, it means a lot. 

P.S. All my Ocs will be Black/Hispanic Plus Size, Because Plus Size Woman deserve love too!!. Here we go!!

There's some grammar mistakes, Beware!!!!

GIF Creator: @merakiaes​

 Ashanti was sitting on the toilet, staring at the pregnancy test she took just 5 minutes ago, she was glad her parents Dwayne and Stacy and her little brother  Jamal, weren’t home because if they were, they wouldn't have liked  the results that the pregnancy test showed. Standing up and putting the test on the piece of toilet paper she ripped from the toilet paper earlier, she washed her hands, grabbing the test and heading to her room. Closing her bedroom door, Ashanti places the test in her safety deposit box, before laying on the bed, as Ashanti turns over, cuddling with her pillow, wiping her tears away, she starts to think about that one night. 

Ashanti was on her bed watching The Vampire Diaries, as a celebration for herself, she recently graduated college with her Bachelors Degree in Software Engineering, a month ago and two days ago she got hired to work for Google at home, and since it was peaceful at home, she decided to order pizza and binge watch the diaries, but was interrupted by a call from her best friend of 15 years, Monica Guzman. 

“Hello.” Ashanti says, after chewing the piece of pizza that was in her both.“Whats up Bitchh” Mariana  yells over the phone. “Nothing just chilling.” Ashanti pausing her show. “Well chilling time is over cause we are about to go to Oscars party.” Mariana picking her outfit, after looking thru her closet she decides on a pair of Levis 501 pants with a white crop top with  one of her boyfriend, Jokers Black and white flannels with air force ones and a gold chain, that Joker brought her for their 5 year anniversary. “Mari, really I don't like partying.” Ashanti silently  groans, moving from a lying position to a sitting up position. “SIS we just graduated college and we were both hired from  our dream jobs, if that isn't something to party about then i don't know what is.” Mariana  fixing her hair after getting dressed. “Mari I don't know.” Ashanti looking at her nails. “Sad Eyes is going to be there.” Monica convinces Ashanti. “So??, hie is dating Andrea Ramos' ' Ashanti mocking Andreas' voice. “ Not anymore, I don't think, Just pleasee comeee pretty please. '' Mariana begs. “Fineee.” Ashanti gives in. “Great, so Joker is picking me and my brother up first, so ill say about 30 minutes we should be at your place and also, wear something sexy!!” Mariana putting her on speaker. “I don't have anything Sexy!” Ashanti getting up from her bed and walking towards her closet. “Yes you do, you have the 2 piece yellow set, the one with a crop top and matching short skirt and wear you're black vans.” Mariana  instructs Asthanti. “Okay, I found It” Ashanti finds the 2 piece outfit under the chest box in her closet in the Ross shopping bag she hid from her dad. “Alright see you in 30.” Mariana  says. “Bye.” Ashanti replies , before ending the call. Picking up the box from her bed and heading to the kitchen, placing it in the fridge and closing the fridge door, she heads to the front door and the back door making sure they are both locked before heading back to her room and grabbing her black towel and running to the bathroom, locking the bathroom door once As Ashanti got inside, turning on the shower, she hangs up the towel while the shower gets hot before stepping inside shower, washing her body and wetting her hair since she washed it yesterday, she starts to rinse her off when she quickly remembers she needs to shave her legs, grabbing her men razor and her shaving cream she quickly but carefully starts to shave her legs, after spending 15 minutes in the shower, Ashanti turns off the shower, grabbing her towel drying off her body before exiting the shower, stepping on the mat and the towel they use on the floor. Reaching  the sink, She grabs her hair products from the sink cabinets that's located under the sink, and putting them next to the sink before getting up and opening and grabbing some gel spreading to her hair evenly, before checking the final result in the mirror, noticing she missed a few stands, Ashanti grabs a smaller amount than before playing the gel on those strands she miss before smiling at the end result, washing her hands, and putting her hair products away.

 Unlocking the door and jogs to her room, Ashanti quickly hangs up her towel, before walking to her outfit that was laying on her nightstand, grabbing her yellow lacy set, she brought from Torrid she quickly puts it on, then her skirt, crop top and finally her socks before putting her shoes on, Grabbing her lanyard which contain her house key and car key and her new Employee Id for Google, before shutting her tv off and fixing her queen size bed with black comforter set covering it. Taking a small glance around the room making sure everything was shut off and checking the bathroom, she heads outside opening and closing the door before locking it with her key. The minute she turned around Joker's car was already on the sidewalk waiting for her. “Hurryy upp” Mariana  yells, making Ashanti jog towards his car, getting inside once Sad Eyes steps out to let her in. “Thank you Joker for picking me up.” Ashanti yells. ‘You know I got you, you're family.” Joker says. Turning her attention to Sad Eyes, aka Angel Guzman, Mariana’s brother, she thinks about all the times he used to drive her and Mariana to the liquor store to get snacks for their sleepover, and how she would buy him a coke as a thank you, how he would smile at her making her blush like a schoolgirl, Mariana finally found out her best friend has a crush on her brother when Ashanti told her on a dare, of course like every girl who has a brother thinks EWW!! But later Mariana was glad it was her best friend, somebody who knows how to treat someone unlike Andrea Ramos. Ashanti didn't realize they were there until Sad Eyes tapped on her shoulder. “Are you coming Ash or are you going to sit in this car and stare off in the distance?” Sad Eyes chuckles. Seeing Sad Eyes giving both of his hands to help her out of the car made her start to feel like a schoolgirl over again. “They're here!! Freeridge newest College graduates Ashanti Turner and Mariana Guzman!!”Oscar Diaz, aka Spooky shouts out with a beer in the air in his left hand, once they made their appearance on Oscar's lawn. “Congratulations!! Proud of you!!” Oscar kissing both their foreheads before heading back to his Reina of 4 years Letty Mendez. “Gracias.” Both girls shout so he can hear them. Walking behind Joker and Mariana while Sad Eyes is walking beside her, she felt out of place, since some of Andrea's friends here giving her a glare once they saw her walking next to Sad Eyes. Sad Eyes must have felt her discomfort, grabbing her hand and bringing to his lips and giving it a kiss before saying “It will be okay, enjoy the party it's for you anyway, you and Mariana!!”. 2 hours have passed since arriving to the party  and after dancing with Mariana, shaking her ass, letting loose.

Ashanti decides to take a break for herself and grabs a Modelo and heads to the porch in front of Oscars front door, taking a seat and sipping here and there, Ashanti thinks back to the past how far she's overcome, but is interrupted by a voice. “Can I join you?” a voice asks, making Ashanti turning her head and looking up. “Oh sure, if you want?” Ashanti asks, regretting what she just said instantly hitting her forehead with the palm of her left hand. “You're cute” Sad Eyes chuckles, looking at how embarrassed she might have felt right now. “Me??’ Ashanti pointed to herself after looking around to make sure it was her he was talking about. “Yes you” Sad Eyes takes a sip of his beer. “You shouldn't be saying that stuff when you're with someone else .” Ashanti looks at Sad Eyes. “It's complicated.” Sad Eyes looking down at his shoes. “What do you mean complicated?” Ashanti uses air quotes for the word Complicated. “I feel like she's using me, to  buy her clothes and shoes or whatever she wants , and also to show off to other girls that she's with me, that I'm taken.” Sad Eyes looking up at Ashanti. “I'm sorry. “ Ashanti put a piece of strand of her curly hair in front of her face. “Don't be. It's not your fault.” Sad Eyes putting that strand of hair in front of her curly hair behind her ear “Don't hide your beautiful face Mamas.” Making Ashanti giggle. “Can I kiss you Ashanti Marie Turner?” Sad Eyes putting his hand under her chin making her look at him. “I don't think t-that's -” Ashanti stutters. “Please just this once.” Sad Eyes looks at her. Ashanti nods. Getting her confirmation, Sad Eyes craved more the minute his lips landed on hers, taking matters into his own hands he slowly leaned in again for a full blow kiss, after receiving a reaction from her he smirked slightly as his arms wrapped around her waist pulling her closer, Ashanti wraps her arms around his neck,  unhooking one arm from his neck, she places her hand on his right cheek, then her other hand on his left cheek, bringing him so much closer now, as both of these two were to focusing on fighting Dominance in this makeout session on the front porch, that they didn't hear Joker and Mariana coming towards them. “Are you guys  ready to go home??” Joker asks, while waving his arm that wasn't around Mariana's neck, making Sad Eyes and Ashanti pull away from each other quickly. “Did we interrupt Something?” Mariana smirked, as she can tell they were kissing by the way their lips were looking. “No,No” Both Ashanti and Sad Eyes say, shaking their heads. Monica nods her head, knowing they are lying. “You guys ready??” Joker asks one more time. “Yes” Ashanti and Sad Eyes both reply. Getting up from the porch and walking behind Joker and Mariana, Both Sad Eyes and Ashanti can feel the sexual tension rising as both of them walk beside each other. Getting in and sitting behind Sad Eyes Ashanti blushes at their little make out session. Parking next to the sidewalk in front of her house, Ashanti stepped out of Jokers car after giving Mariana her kisses on her cheek before patting Joker on the bed and stepping out once Sad Eyes got up and opened his door and stepping out, once she was finally out of the car, she looks at Sad Eyes and says as Mariana and Joker look at her, “Sad Eyes do you want to come in, my parents are gone and Jamal's at Ruby's for the night. “ fidgeting with her fingers, once she hears a car door open she looks up, seeing Sad Eyes standing in front of her and says” Yes!!” Sad Eyes chuckles, making Ashanti laugh, walking along the sidewalk towards her front door, they hear Joker scream “Use protection.” Making Mariana hit  him on his shoulder before pulling away and driving down the road, Reaching her door, Ashanti walks in front of Sad Eyes, enters her home, and turns around and watches Sad Eyes close the door and locks it before leading him to her bedroom, to watch a movie on Netflix.

Picking The Lodge as the movie they would watch , after she changes to her pink pajamas set, with a soft comfy tank top and a soft and comfy pair of shorts, Ashanti pulls back her covers and slips in and wait for Sad Eyes whos in the bathroom, to start the movie. Hearing the bathroom door open Ashanti pulls back the covers over her so she is mostly covered, and watches as Sad Eyes enters her room and closes and locks her bedroom door, before slipping in her bed next to her. “What are we watching?” Sad Eyes asks , looking at her tv with one of his arms behind his head, and the other one laying across her stomach. “It's called the Lodge, about a woman who babysits her boyfriend's kids while he has to go on a business trip I think.” Ashanti squinting one eye, trying to remember what it said for the movie description. Sad Eyes nods his head, taking in what Ashanti just said, before pressing play. Half an hour in the movie, Ashanti was laying down, with the covers covering her face, just to be prepared for the jump scares. Ashanti jumps as the scary scene pops up on scene, making her yelp and Sad Eyes chuckling, touching Ashanti thigh rubbing back and forth as sign that she's okay, feeling his hand move back and forth on her thigh, Ashanti starts to felt tingling down in her pussy , Ashanti was a virgin, but tonight she wouldn't be anymore. As Sad Eyes turned his attention away from the movie, looking at Ashanti as she was looking back at him, they both could feel the sexual tension, but before anything happened Sad Eyes said “One night, that's all i can offer you Ashanti.” Ashanti nods understanding this is a one-time thing. Sad Eyes turned to the body, laying on his side facing her, looking at her, putting his hand under Ashanti's chin, making her look up at him, leaning in Sad Eyes kisses her lips softly, Ashanti puts her hands behind his neck, Rubbing the back of his head up and down. Sad Eyes, moves from her lips to her neck, kissing it roughly, before sucking it, creating a hickey. Ashanti moans, tilting her head back at the movement, giving him more access's, which he granted. Removing her hands from his neck, moving them down his shirt until she reached the bottom of it, she pulls it up, signaling him to take it off, Sad Eyes stops sucking her neck, getting up from her, sitting up on his knees pulling the shirt over his head, throwing it across her room once it was fully off, before going back down sucking on her neck, kissing up from her neck down to her pussy, stopping it, once he reaches her skirt.Pulling her crop top up and exposing her yellow lacey bra, pulling the bra down freeing her breasts out, squeezing them, rubbing her nipples, pulling them as Sad Eyes places kisses from her neck to below her belly button before stopping in front of her skirt, making her tilt her head back, lifting her stomach. Looking up at Ashanti, Sad Eyes asks for permission to remove her shorts, threw his eyes putting his hands on her waist, once Ashanti gave him a nod as a yes, he wastes no time then pulling each side of the shorts down, until they reach her ankles, yanking them off of her, he throws it across the room. Looking back at Ashanti, Sad Eyes Pulls her legs apart from each other, before kissing her from ankles on both legs  to the inside of her thighs on both legs.pulling her underwear to the side, Sad Eyes looks at her one more time, sending her his sexiest smirk, before sticking his long tongue inside her pussy, diving in, putting his arms underneath, her thighs earning a squeal from Ashanti, pulling her closer to him, giving his tongue more access to her black/ pink pussy. Ashanti felt wave of pleasure hitting her, once Sad Eyes stuck his tongue inside of her. ”F-Fuck Angel” Ashanti moans, traveling her hands to her breast before squeezing them, playing with her nipples with her middle finger.”You like that mamas” Sad Eyes words sending a vibration through her body. ”Fuckkk you taste so good, You taste like strawberries my favorite.” He says, adding a finger while he licks her pussy. “A-Angel I’m about to cum!!” Ashanti moans, lifting her stomach up. ”Yeah, you gonna cum for papi, Fuck the more I taste you the harder I get” Sad Eyes feeling his boner growing each lick he licks.“Yeah??!! I want to feel you in my mouth!!, I want to taste you papi” Ashanti tilting her head back. "You will mamas, But first you gotta cum for papi, can you cum for papi??!!” Sad Eyes sticking his long thick fingers in her pussy moving in and out at a rapid pace. `Yes, Yes I can” Ashanti feeling her release coming. Ashanti's body starts to shake, as Sad Eyes sticks his tongue on her, slurping all of her juices in his mouth. Ashanti tries to calm down her breathing after feeling her first release, Sad Eyes looks over at her laughing a little bit. “How do you feel??” Sad Eyes, asks standing up, moving to her side of the bed. “Amazing but it’s your turn now” Ashanti gets on her knees, crawling towards Sad Eyes on the bed, reaching him Ashanti wraps her small , yellow manicured nails around his long thick cock, before looking up at him through her eyes lashes.``Your soo big” Ashanti looks down at his cock, moving her hand up and down, making Sad Eyes groan. “Stop teasing Ash, put it in your mouth baby, stop being a tease, show papi how deep you can swallow my cock!!” Sad Eyes looks down at her. Without a warning, Ashanti places his cock in her mouth, hitting the back of her throat moving her head up and down slowly at first before speeding up. Sad Eyes brings a hand to her hair, grabbing a fistful before moving her head faster and faster. “F-Fuck look at the good girl, how she can suck a cock just like a porn star!! I bet you mom and dad don’t know how much of a freak their daughter is huh??” Sad Eyes leaning his head back.Ashanti moans, sending vibrations to Sad Eyes body, looking down at her, he can see tears coming out of her eyes, making him almost releasing. F-Fuck baby, Your gonna make me release in your mouth.” “Do it” Ashanti mumbles, pulling Sad Eyes closer to her, grabbing the back of his thighs, pushing them forward towards her. “No, I want to feel how much of a freak you can be!” Sad Eyes, pulling his cock out of her mouth, Ashanti felt some spit drip down from her mouth to the floor. Sad Eyes picks her up, throwing her on her stomach, Ashanti already knows this position she saw it so many times on Pornhub, arching her body, waiting for him. Sad Eyes taking in the view, slowly hands his hands down from  her back to her ass, Smacking each ass cheeks until each ass cheeks is turning red before leaning forward, his top carefully lays on top of her off, whispering in her ear. “You are not allowed to cum until I do??!! Understand!! IF YOU DO, papi will destroy that tight little pussy of yours so rough, that you won’t be able to leave your bed for weeks.” Sad Eyes commands, kissing her cheek before grabbing her waist pulling her closer to him. Sad Eyes wasted no time and slammed into her, Ashanti moans the feeling of him going in and out making her throw her head back, grabbing a fistful of her hair, pounding into her fast and rough, Sad Eyes groans, feeling her clench around his cock like a little pornstar would, ”F-Fuck Ashanti who knew the little good girl had some bomb ass pussy.” Sad Eyes chuckles. ”Yess papi!!” Ashanti biting her lip, trying to hide her moan. ”Don't be shy, Let those moans out baby, let you're neighbors know who's fucking you so good!!” Sad Eyes wrapping his other hand around her neck, choking a little bit. ”F-Fuck Angel, I'm about to cumm” Ashanti whimpers. ”Dammm you love to be choked too, dammn you're a freak for sure!!, HOLD THAT SHIT UNDERSTAND!!” Sad Eyes grunts, feeling his release approaching. ”I-I-I can't hold it any longer” Ashanti cries in pleasure. ”FUCKK HERE IT COMES BABY!!” Sad Eyes, growls, spilling all his cum inside of her, painting her walls white ” Cum for papi.”Hearing Sad Eyes, giving her permission, Ashanti waiting no time cumming so hard she and his cum mixed together inside of her and on his cock. Pulling out of Ashanti, Sad Eyes watches as Her body lay flat, while she was still gripping the sheets, chuckling at the sight, before heading to the bathroom and grabbing a washcloth from her bathroom and wetting two towels from the sink and wiping himself before heading back to Ashanti wiping her down with the we towel before placing her under the covers, closing her bedroom door he heads back to the bed, laying next to her, he watches her turn over and look at him. ”What??!!” Sad Eyes laughs. ”Thank you for being my first.” Ashanti says, caressing his cheek. ”Wait you're joking right.” Sad Eyes gasps. ”No I'm not.” Ashanti shaking her head. Sad Eyes gets up and checks the covers, not seeing any blood, he pushes the blankets back, seeing a big red spot on the mattress. ”Fuck, why didn't you tell me??!!, I wouldn't have been so rough on you.” Sad Eyes exclaims. ”I knew if I did you wouldn't have done it, besides I wanted it rough. ” Ashanti taking the blankets off the bed. ”But the way you suck my cock and the stuff you did, people who aren't virgins Don't really do what you did.” putting his hands on his waist. ”There's porn websites like Pornhub, redtube.” Ashanti placed the old blankets in the hamper in her room, grabbing new sheets from her closet. ”Fuck, I don't know what to say” Sad Eyes helping her make the bed. ”Don't say anything, Don't beat yourself up, I love the way you fucked me, even if it's one night.” Ashanti placed a kiss on his cheek stepping on her tiptoes. ”Is it bad that I want another round but this time in you're shower?” Sad Eyes looks down at her. ”No, Because I was thinking the same thing.” Ashanti giggling. ”Well in that case.” picking her up, opening her bedroom door, walking her to the shower closing the door behind them, after making her bed. After they finished around 2, they finished round 3 in the kitchen, Sad Eyes fucking her over the sink. As the night processed, neither one of them didn't realize the risk of not using the protection. 

*Next Morning* 

Ashanti woke up, to her front door being opened, and closing, hearing her parents, brother's voice, she starts to panic thinking that Sad Eyes was still here, turning over and seeing the side he slept on empty, she calmed down, but she knew it was just for one night but she still felt a little upset that he did leave, even though she agreed to it. 

*ending* 

Ashanti knew how much fun it would be , inviting him in her home, but what she didn't know was how much drama would enter her life by having one night of fun. 

Ashanti looks at her phone, staring at the number she just typed in, debating on calling the person, Closing her eyes, she takes a deep breath, exhaling slowly, opening her eyes. She clicks on the phone icon before putting the phone to her ear, waiting for the other person to answer, after the phone rang for a second time someone picks it up. ”Hello?” The person on the other side of the phone call asks. 

”Hey it's me, can we meet up and talk, it's really important ” Ashanti tried not to sound upset. . ”Yeah, I'll come over tomorrow at 2 is that okay.” the other voice answers. ” See you then.” Ashanti replies before hanging up the phone, placing her phone by her side, looking at her fingers, letting the tears fall down her beautiful brown face. 

@thewarriorprincessxo​ @firebenderwolf​ @sincerelyasomebody​ @imaginetrahs​

[creativeskullcreations]

Hi uh I actually asked some questions before as anonymous cuz I didn’t have the app and I really like your blog! And I have two new questions specifically about HTaHHQ au. First off, do you see Nick Nack during the modern day being a cat dad? (Probably mostly a real cat or puppet one, u can choose). Cuz I can totally 100 percent see him as a cat dad, I just feel that sort of energy from him!! I mean we already have the resident dog mom. Secondly, what are ALL of the main characters (humans and puppets) favorite Pixar movie???? Sorry if this is a lot I’m just genuinely curious about your take on these ideas and thoughts.

Hi! Glad you’ve full joined the rest of us on this hellsite! :D

First question: Yes, I do actually. Nick is actually planned to get a kitten at some point in the series. There may be a whole episode about it, even.

Second question: Hoo boy I had not thought of that. Stacy’s used to be Toy Story, until a certain coup[le of toys ruined it for her. Now it’s A Bugs Life. Danny loves both Toy Story movies. Riley doesn’t have a favorite movie, but she did enjoy the scientific accuracy of Finding Nemo. Daisy also loved this movie for it’s themes of family.

Nick doesn’t have a favorite, he just likes the animation.

Mortimer doesn’t participate in Movie Night, as he’s usually too busy. He did like Toy Story though.

The Hand Puppets become obsessed with which ever movie they most recently saw, but Bonzai especially loved The Incredibles.