#Friend Breakfast

[friendbreakfast]

Making this my official

YEARLY NEW YEARS SELF-RECAP POST

my YNYSRP, as it were. which is a very common word acronym, as you all know.

What does YNYSRP consist of, you ask?

It's nothing more than a tiny bit of a tradition I had on the dark, awful times of.... TWITTER *shudders* but only now have I given it a name.

Basically, what I do is, after 12am of New Years, I wrote a message to myself with my thoughts on the year that is ending, and schedule it to post at exactly 12am of the next New Years.

By the time I read it, I have forgotten what I wrote, and it kinda just brings me a big smile to read what past me was up to, as well as to check on my current progress in whatever goal/s I have made for that year, if any at all!

[cheezy-whizz]

Shout out to dysfunctional teenage friend groups from 80s movies, gotta be one of my favorite genders

[shotmrmiller]

Thinking about Kyle wanting to get with reader SOOOOOOO bad that he's very willing to ruin any potential relationship they might get into

But one of those times, the potential partner fully catches on and tries to warn reader that Kyle is manipulating them, but reader doesn't believe them because "Kyle wouldn't do that. He told me what a piece of shit you are."

giving cbf.

any time you show interest in someone new, kyle is there, undermining the potential relationship. he moves with the precision of a scalpel, every action calculated, deliberate. he's clever about it too, when planting seeds of doubt. a casual comment here, a seemingly innocent question there, all spoken with careful words to make you second-guess your choices. easily slips into conversations and steers them in the direction he wants.

when making plans, kyle's always there, finding excuses to be near you and inserting himself into them, all while keeping up the facade of a concerned friend. he's just worried, darlin'. you don't know the bloke and he's already trying to get you drunk. if you're that interested, let him come with. he'll keep an eye on you, just in case.

he's protective, you say. only keeps my well-being at heart.

no, he's possessive. jealous.

he wants to keep me safe.

he wants to keep you all for himself.

you don't see it because it's impossible to see what simply isn't there, but what you do see, is a glaring incompatibility. the audacity of a stranger pretending to know kyle better than you do. his ignorance is palpable and his nerve nothing short of astounding. you're done here.

"split the check, please."

kyle waits for you outside, shrugs his jacket off, and places it over you, the warm smell of him filling your senses. the gesture is familiar, comforting.

"terrible guy. should've never wasted my time with 'im." irritation bleeds from your stiff shoulders he rumbles a laugh, feeling it settle in your chest.

"'course not, darlin. told ya he's no good. i've got a sixth sense for these things, yknow."

[macksartblock]

fellas is it-

[softhe4rted]

on loneliness jenny slate / japanese breakfast, posing for cars / corinne von lebusa, big glow / dadushin / alejandra pizarnik, tr. me / fka twings, home with you / avocado_ibuprofen / fiona apple, left alone / anne carson, “the anthropology of water”, plainwater / kiki smith, free fall / alejandra pizarnik, diaries

[completelymindfucked]

When Dean feels neglected and unwanted, he puts a little bit of rat poison into the smoothies Sam likes to drink. Not enough to seriously hurt him! No, just enough to get Sammy sick and clingy. It makes him feel somewhat guilty until Sammy’s all nauseous and upset needing his big brother to take care of him and make him feel better.

[tahopo]

anons asked me how my cousland and surana knew each other: she was his childhood friend/healer/…… bully! lol

actual explanation under.

cousland was born very sick. it was generally thought he was housebound in highever and his grandfather’s bannorn at the storm coast because of the abundance of spindleweed there.

in truth, he was suffering from an illness that ran through his maternal line, rooted in the sanguinarian reaver culture fearchar and his ancestors heavily partook in. cousland’s assured infant death was prevented by a blood mage sworn to fealty and secrecy. he subsequently lived and grew up alongside the mage’s daughter, surana, who farmed spindleweed and was learned in healing.

surana was cousland’s only friend during his entire time in ferelden. surana herself was selectively mute. she could not speak to her own enraged, severe mother but was able to around cousland. much of this stifled expression and redirected anxiety was exhibited in their dynamic, with surana often domineering and tormenting him to maintain his attention. while their connection was fond, surana could not count on it to be unconditional. this was a very scared girl who saw time and time again his kind fail her kind. the story goes a little more complex but ultimately what happened was this: surana gave herself up to the circle, her mother was found dead, and cousland recovered.

[badassindistress]

In an effort to be the change I want to see in the world, I am hosting a historical underwear teaparty next month. Yesterday I amused myself by putting together combinations from my collection that my friends might like to wear

[malenjoyer]

Good morning 🙏🏼

I want to thank everyone their support with reblogging my stuff over the years and reblogging some of the context of the situation.

Tumblr and Instagram is filled with the most supportive people I’ve ever had the chance of meeting. The last time something like this happened, I didn’t have much support, not even from people I thought were close to me. It took me a year or two to be okay with being perceived again in fandoms. So I’m very grateful for everything.

I just wanted to post that I appreciate all of the asks and I’ve been reading all of them. I actually get anxious I’m spamming everyone too much so I probably won’t reply to everything. Please don’t feel pressured to support me financially, there’s is a free option on patreon to follow. I’ll post future project plans and occasional updates because I still love comics and I still love DC/Marvel. I do enjoy having people following along for my art/reading journey so I would always be okay with people just following for free. My brain is telling me this post is too long now so I will go 🙏🏼😭

[cheezy-whizz]

I hate that these are the characters I can relate to

[nothingbizzare]

Morning

[hiseyeisonthesparrow]

[through gritted teeth, with fists clenched]

When upon life's billows you are tempest-tossed, when you are discouraged, thinking all is lost, COUNT YOUR MANY BLESSINGS, NAME THEM ONE BY ONE, AND IT WILL SURPRISE YOU WHAT THE LORD HAS DONE-

[bestoftweets]

[vaguely-concerned]

I think the most defining thing about kremy as a person is that he desperately wants to be a man with a mustache -- while being physically, biologically incapable of producing hair follicles lol. like no wonder he takes to drag so much, that's basically most of what he's already doing with his outward identity! and the physical aspect of that is smaller, I feel, than what he's got going on psychologically. he's someone who doesn't want to be -- can't be? -- who and what he is, and who can't be what he wants to be because what he wants to be doesn't really exist, so he lives his life somewhere on the border between them. the almiraj might be no mirage, but the perfectly clever and charming and utterly untouchable version of kremy that kremy would like to be -- instead of the vulnerable neurotic mess of longing and fear and striving for control he clearly actually is -- absolutely is, I'm afraid. it's just a shadow on the wall with nothing real to cast it.

(all of this also goes into the many Gender and trans readings of him too, of course! men will say they’re fighting demons and the demons are trying to live up to a very specific brand of toxic masculinity they've sort of invented for themselves lol)  

the one deep down entrenched assumption we see kremy make again and again especially interpersonally is that if he's open with who he really is and what he feels or thinks at any given time, he would be revealed as fundamentally unacceptable and at best discarded and abandoned, at worst endangered. (it's literally spelled out with the cyclops in the witchlight carnival, but you see him go through this process all the time through the rest of the story too! being unable to lie or dissemble was a catastrophic event in this dude’s inner landscape. I’m sure that means nothing) and because he is also frequently kind of awful this assumption may not be entirely off base some of the time lol (deeply affectionate), but I think it comes from a much deeper place than that. kremy is ashamed of where he's from and who he's been -- that dirt poor wide-eyed kid from the swamp who saw all the fancy gentlemen in town and Wanted. wanted to be that, wanted to have that power, probably some confused sexuality want mixed up with it all as well for spice. wanted more than anything, perhaps, to BE something, because next to that he feels like nothing. which means abandoning the earnest kid who guilelessly loved unicorns and his meemaw and cooking without meaning to impress anyone and silly soft things in the swamp he came from while he went off to the big city and modeled himself after men like garou. (and his relationship with garou surely also had some effects on just how shifty he's become at intimacy too, aside from the building a facade of it all, that might be some secondary damage that was not his fault nor in his control at all)

even when he's acting seemingly shamelessly, he is fundamentally a shame-based psychology, is what I'm trying to get at. the only times he lets his thoughts and emotions out into the world unfiltered is when he's brought to a point of frustration where he throws up his hands and abandons manipulation or subtle machinations as an interpersonal tactic -- see: the several times he argues something with frost or gricko and then finally admits 'I literally don't actually care about this! you guys figure it out and deal with this if it matters so much to you I'm going to bed ffs' haha. his depression shines through when he’s too tired to hide it, especially in the later episodes. every open emotion is an admission he really didn't want to make and thinks is tactically disadvantageous for him. (and sometimes when he's being really for real he'll even admit to being worse than people gave him credit for, like when he admits he suspected mr. witch and mr. light were capable of doing something really really bad to torbek and handed him over anyway. kremy being that blunt and open is like. remarkable and also a sign that he's actually taking it seriously, for all that he's also revealing himself to be even more of an asshole than previously suspected lmao. that's not nothing, for kremy. BUT at the same time he is also the person who cried to see a unicorn broken and abused, and who saw something in gideon upon meeting him that no one else did or cared to at that time and offered him genuine companionship and support — as the story goes on he’s starting to admit to more things about himself, the bad and the good.)

all of which of course also is why he's having such a hard time being honest with gideon about how he feels (and the sheer immensity with which he feels it too, probably) -- that's incredibly vulnerable for a person who’s built himself up around the idea of never being vulnerable. ('i'm just a shadow, nothing you do can really touch or hurt me.') And yet if there’s peace and redemption to be found for kremy, if only within his own soul, between these versions of himself, I feel that discovering and accepting his own capacity for loving someone else so much that it transcends all selfishness or fear would be integral to it. (he loves gideon. So much it makes me a bit dizzy you guys)

[ghastlyaffairs]

for something as trivial and simple those feelings sure are hard to get rid of

also made a gif a version for fun + alt version with no tears under the cut

the gif is in very low resolution...this is a feature (i could make it bigger but that would require saving each frame individually and than glueing it all together. also i feel like low resolution suits it better. aesthetically and fits the mood)

[kjarlmarx]

the G and B in LGBT stands for gloria and barbie