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Does Eddie just date women to have a babysitter?
#First Ana during the blackout#now Marisol while he's out on his man-dates#Just admit you like men Eddie#And pay Carla to watch him#Spoilers#911#911 spoilers#Buddie#Eddie Diaz#Evan Buck Buckley
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I love how in 8x05 we see the start of Tommy's journey to be integrated into the 118 family. Something we haven't seen happen with any of the LI of Eddie or Buck (who are coincidentally the only ones who'd ever had to deal with LI outside the 118 family since it existed the way it does now).
We were reminded of the friendship between Tommy and Eddie this episode for everyone who forgot how that went in 7x04 and somehow missed the fact in 8x01 when Tommy was there for Chris' birthday as someone who actively helped prepare the decorations and not just some random and out-of-place guest. The only time in the past when we saw anyone trying to be integrated into the Buckley-Diaz dynamic was with Taylor. In the first scene of that (Treasure Hunt) Eddie was clearly the third wheel in the situation. In the second scene of that Taylor and Eddie's discomfort was so glaring it hurt.
This time with Tommy, though, all three bounced off of each other, interacting in a very easy and open way. No one was left out of the scene, even when Tommy and Eddie fell over themselves laughing about Buck believing he was cursed.
There has only been one time (other than Abby, but that's a different story) when they tried to show either Buck or Eddie's LIs interact with the 118 family group. That was when Ana came to the 118 during the blackout. And what we got from that scene was how uncomfortable Eddie was with having her in that space, foreshadowing even more where that relationship was heading.
This time with Tommy, though, no one was uncomfortable with him being at the hospital while they all waited for news about Denny. We also saw another moment of the Eddie and Tommy friendship. And we saw Tommy sitting in the middle of the group with the way Buck and he were seated.
And yes, sure, we were also reminded that Tommy isn't (yet!) fully part of the group when everyone got the text from Hen. But in the whole context of the episode, that moment actually has two purposes: First, it leads Buck to understand how he can lift his curse. (You know guys, this would be a proper point to use the term "plot device" ;) ) Two, it's prime foreshadowing that we're heading into the journey of Tommy fully integrating into the group, more than he already was with the placing in the waiting room.
Not feeling as a part of any group has been a recurring theme for Tommy in season 7 and season 8. And considering we how saw Hen and Chimney going out for drinks with Tommy in the flashbacks of season 2, Tommy and Chimney excitedly playing off of each other with movie quotes, and Hen throwing him the kind of party she likes to throw for her friends, it's something I think Tommy feels about himself without it being quite true. I think it might very well be something we'll learn more about, and hopefully, even something we'll see Tommy overcome with the support of Buck and Eddie and the 118 family.
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Okay, this is kind of long, but just hear me out:
I keep seeing people say Eddie saying he ‘moves too fast’ seems out of character, but I don’t think I agree.
For one, he proposed to Shanon after she got pregnant, and when she came back in his life he immediately started sleeping with her and immediately moved to re-propose when he thought she was pregnant again.
With Ana, he did take things slower at first, but he did introduce her to Chris pretty quickly (at least I think so). Though, I will admit he didn’t introduce her without thinking about it because he did go to Bobby and Athena for advice. However, after he introduced Ana to Chris, they seemed to get a lot more serious fairly quickly. They hadn’t even said ‘I love you’ before Ana was stepping into this sort of ‘motherly’ role. After all, she was over at Eddie’s house cooking meals (ex: the dinner with/ Carla) and she looked after Chris for days during the blackout, when Abuela or Pepa could have helped out. Eddie described it as a “ready-made family”, which for me translates to ‘things went too fast and got way too serious before I knew it’. When he realized just how serious things were getting, he started panicking. She was enveloped enough in their life that Chris thought they would get married someday. And when the reality caught up to him that he was building this family unit with a woman he didn’t love, couldn’t love, it scared him and he broke it off.
Then he rushed things with M*risol and he freaked out again. The whole (admittedly stupid) nun storyline was there to show us that Eddie didn’t know anything about this woman (and that he has catholic guilt), yet he asked her to move in before he even said I love you. Why? Well, it goes back to Eddie’s age-old enemy: obligation.
For one, he feels obligated to have this permanent mother figure in Christopher’s life (and someone on here made a great post about how Eddie’s decision to ask M*risol to move in tied back to Chris’s storyline in 7x01 which I agree with with 100%). I also know that Eddie has never had a healthy romantic relationship in his life. He has never gotten with a woman without something pushing him to do it. With Shannon, it was a teen pregnancy and the church. With Ana, it was his (well-meaning) friends who pushed him to move on from Shannon. With M*risol, it was Pepa (with good intentions) who pushed him to start dating again, otherwise he might end up alone.
Marrying someone is something one does because one loves someone. Eddie proposed because he was afraid of what the church would think. Letting someone step into a mother-like role in a child’s life is something one does when one loves someone. Eddie did it because he was afraid he and Christopher were never going to be able to move on from Shannon. One asks someone to move in because they love them. Eddie did it because he was scared of having someone else walk out of his and Chris’s life.
Eddie has never followed his heart when it comes to his relationships with women. He has never dated someone casually before. He always tries to commit way before his heart is in it. He goes through these really long stints of being single, followed by relationships that do, admittedly, move really fast. He thinks he’s following his gut, but in truth, he’s following his misguided sense of duty.
The only time Eddie has made a serious commitment that wasn’t born out of obligation, was when he wrote Buck into his will. No one told him to do that. He did that because he wanted the best for Chris, sure, but more so because Eddie doesn’t trust anyone as much as he trusts Buck. And he did that knowing that his parents would disapprove. He did it despite his obligations to his blood family. Eddie followed his heart and tied himself and his son to Buck for the rest of their lives. (And notice how Buck has been a borderline co-parent to Chris for years, and that has never freaked Eddie out before)
So, yeah, I think he does move too fast in his relationships with women because he always takes serious steps before he develops serious feelings for these women. And he probably knows, deep down, that he’ll never be able to develop serious, romantic feelings for women. This is why he jumps into the deep end, because if he doesn’t, then he’ll never get there.
He has wants. He’s just not ready to acknowledge them yet. So, for now, he’ll just keep on doing what he feels he’s obligated to do.
#eddie diaz#911#911 on abc#911 abc#christopher diaz#evan buck buckely#buddie#evan buckley#911 season 7
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I'm curious with what our showrunners choose to show about a Buddie, onscreen vs offscreen.
(I mean aside from actors' availability, time constraints, etc etc which technically leave you no choice)
We actually saw the scenes where Shannon reunited with Eddie for the first time, and yet we have the scene immediately preceding the Santa's elf moment, where Eddie fumbles with explanations to Buck about Eddie needed her help for applying Chris into school and how they just ended up in bed, without planning to.
And of course we have the tsunami scenes. We watched a three-episode natural disaster and then we watch how Eddie recounts what happened and how much he appreciates Buck.
Other instances:
Eddie getting bailed out of jail --- Eddie yells at Buck about it, in the infamous grocery store scene
Eddie's panic attack at the store --- he recounts the incident to Buck during the blackout
Marisol being a nun --- the entire firestation gym conversation
Eddie is having second Marisol to break up with him --- the scene at Buck's kitchen, before Buck came out to Eddie
Eddie meeting Kim --- repeated to Buck with the who-what-when-where, plus why Eddie is drawn to her, in his kitchen when Buck came withe the brownies
Kim coming to Eddie'a house, Chris and Marisol walking in on Eddie and Kim --- recounted word for word, with a bonus of a breathless, defeated "Thank's for coming"
And maybe more scenes that I can't articulate very well right now
Why does the audience need to witness Eddie giving Buck a play-by-play of what happened? Of course one of the reasons may be exposition: have Eddie basically recap some things so the audience can grasp the severity of the situation. Other characters also do that. But it seems to me that our mains do that to other people, as a way to move the plot along. Hen would "recap" things that are going on with him to Athena all the time. Hen and Karen would worriedly talk about Mara to Maddie, hence retrieving Mara's 911 call. May would vent to Eddie about Claudette. And so on.
It could be my desperate Buddie-endgame wishful thinking, but I feel like when Eddie does this to Buck, we the audience just sees that Eddie would basically tell Buck everything. Of course Buck ends up giving his two cents and then Eddie breaks up with Ana or go to therapy or what have you, but we get front seat at watching Eddie do one of the most uncomfortable things that he knows: confiding bluntly that he wants Buck's help. Like showrunners deliberately want us to see the Eddie will come to Buck, or have Buck to come to him, and of course he'll have Buck back also, that's a given.
On the other hand, these things are tucked neatly off-screen or maybe in a deleted scene somewhere:
Eddie going to his attorney to change his will to include Buck
The first instance where Eddie asks Buck to watch Chris (I mean there's gotta be a first time, right? As protective as Eddie is, he will take leaving Chris with Buck lightly. It must've happened many times before 3x01, where Eddie basically thrusts Chris into Buck's hands then goes to work
Buck establishing his relationship with Taylor after Eddie got shot
The ride home from the equine therapy. God I'd love to be inside their car for that one
Chimney apologizing to Buck for punching him
Buck apologizing to Eddie for injuring him at basketball
Et cetera.
It's just fascinating to me.
#my convoluted 9-1-1 Buddie headcanon#evan buckley#911 on abc#eddie diaz#buck x eddie#previously 911 on fox#christopher diaz heavily implied#buddie meta
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Oh, Edmundo, you enigma.
Edmundo Diaz's love life has left 911 viewers, or at least some, scratching their heads for six seasons.
If Buck and Natalia began seeing each other before Eddie even asked Marisol on a date, and it seems Buck and Natalia were not a long-term couple based on the Eddie's verbiage and snarkiness after Buck admits they broke up then just how long was Eddie dating Marisol before he asked that woman to move in?
Bobby called Buck out for finding himself in relationships without knowing how he got there. I think Bobby needs to give Eddie the same speech. Let's look at the history:
Shannon hits on him. He accepts. She gets pregnant. They marry. I am still not convinced Eddie was in love with her. I think he loved her in some way, but not that way. After they had Christopher, he loved her as the mother of his child. That's it.
He introduced Ana to Christopher quickly. Remember, she took care of Christopher during the blackout. So, we know Eddie has a history of pushing women into the role of partner/parent much too soon.
Marisol was helping him supervise Christopher's dates and being asked to move in within what may be a few months? Why? Based on canon, it is obvious Eddie knew next to nothing about Marisol other than she would babysit Christopher and when Christopher was away they could play.
We all talk about Buck's issues, but Eddie's romantic history puts the "fun" in dysfunctional.
Everything we know about Eddie's romantic history is one giant crimson flag. He has never pursued a woman for normal reasons, such as thinking she is pretty, liking her personality, or just plain attraction. The woman either pursued him or made it clear they were interested if he wanted them. (They were thirsty. Remember that parent-teacher conference with Ana?) Even before he met his blind dates he knew it wouldn't work out. How do you know the person isn't your type before you ever meet them? When he reached the point of moving from casual to focused with Ana and Marisol, he found a reason to run. Every time. He even admits he used the military to escape his wife and son.
Eddie's behavior is not that of the usual heterosexual, allosexual man in his teens, twenties, and thirties that you encounter. The man NEVER looks at women and he is surrounded by beautiful women. He only pays attention when a woman blatantly hits on him, or someone tells him he should be pursuing a woman. We've seen Chimney, Buck, and Bobby turn their heads for a woman and flirt, but never Eddie.
I think there are only a few possible reasons Eddie's behavior is odd.
He's demisexual. He only experiences true attraction once an emotional bond has been created. That may explain why his "attraction" to Shannon endured, even in the face of all of the evidence that they were terrible together. They were friends first. Personally, I think she was his comfort zone. He knew her and being with her would give Christopher the family he thought his son deserved.
He's asexual. I don't think that is the case. I think he enjoys intimacy, but getting to the point of genuine enjoyment and connection is not happening with the women he dates.
He's not into women but doesn't know or doesn't want to know. This is a very real possibility. Eddie may not realize being into men is an option. His background may have prevented it from being an option in the past. When you consider where he was raised, the doctrine of his faith back then, his career path, etc., being gay may never have been an option. So, he forced himself to find women he could make an attempt to build a life with, he actively repressed his real attraction, or he just didn't know he was into men. It would explain why he feels he is "performing" on dates with women and how he knew before the date they weren't his type.
Eddie is not the stable guy who has his stuff together. Eddie and Buck bonded because they are both messes. Buck is just open with how messed up he is. Eddie hides it.
(I have numerous allosexual, heterosexual male figures in my life and have had them in my life forever. Please believe me when I tell you I know more about how they behave and think than I ever wanted to. Sometimes, when they were sharing way more than I wanted to hear, I was hoping the neuralizer from MIB would suddenly become real.)
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After making all the sets showcasing the parallels between BuckTommy and all of Buck’s past failed relationships - what do you think that foreshadows about how BuckTommy will break up? So you think it will follow a pattern similar to one or more of his past breakups? Do you think it will have Buck realizing that he’s not off the hamster wheel just because he’s learned that he also likes men? How do you see that playing out?
Okay, here's the thing, Tommy parallels everyone. Including Ana and Kim and I'm sure that if I push the definitions of what a parallel is I could maybe find something with Marisol too, so it makes it harder to predict something. But focusing on Buck's relationships and how those go, Buck has two off-screen breakups. That creates some wiggle room in the pattern because we only have a throwaway line about the relationship ending. But as someone pointed out, I can't find the post right now, Buck's relationships end with what started it. If you simplify it enough the one with Abby starts and ends because Abby needs something to feel better, but Buck was Abby's love interest, not the other way around, so she bends the rules a bit. Ali and Buck meet because of the job and during their first date Buck even asks if she didn't just ask him out because of it and it ends because she can't handle it. Taylor wanted to get ahead on her job so much so that their first argument is brought up when they break up, because she did it once again. And Natalia started and ended because of Buck's death. There's also the way that both breakups we see come from Buck. If we consider the letter to Abby a breakup. But points in common between Buck's journey into letting go of Abby and breaking up with Taylor include: Buck talking to someone external in avoidance, talking to Bobby about how bad things are going in 204 vs talking to Eddie about how bad things are going in 518, Buck talking to someone external who will trigger the acceptance, talking to Carla in 207 vs talking to Maddie in 518, Buck also spends a length of time avoiding the actual problem until the thread snaps. His problems with Taylor didn't start at the story about Jonah, it was just the last drop, and his problems with Abby were more than her refusal to talk to him. A lot of people are oversimplifying what gets bt together to Eddie, and while, yes, it is, Buck doesn't know that. With Ali, Taylor, and Natalia, even Abby, that key problem is something he knows. He asks Ali if it's about the job. He gets into an argument with Taylor about her attitude, with Natalia, he even tells Eddie she just wanted to ask more about his death. And the whole thing about Buck and his relationship with Abby was Buck learning to provide her with something. So I'm gonna on a limb here and say it will be about Bobby somehow. They meet because they need to save bathena, the talk before the kiss also involves Tommy talking about being jealous of Buck's spot in the family the 118 created after he left, which was brought up again during the dinner in 710. Gerrard being back is the perfect opening for cracks to start happening in their relationship and given how unbending and dry Tommy has been so far, them clashing because Tommy's approach to Gerrard was complacency and Buck doesn't know how to stand down when the people he loves are hurt, so would fit the breakup pattern. Especially because Tommy actually was there to excuse Buck from hurting someone while Buck was fully ready to take the responsibility, he just wasn't sure how to do it yet. I am also expecting s5 parallels, and my main spec right now is an opening disaster that mirrors the blackout aka forces the team to move into one place for a longer time, so I'm kinda expecting some sort of conversation with Eddie that will mirror the panic attacks one where he's in denial and a conversation with Chim or Hen that snaps him out of it and leads to the breakup. Also, the whole thing with the hamster wheel is that Buck doesn't know he's in one. And dating the same gender will come with its own set of issues that Buck won't see because it's outside what he's used to. So, maybe, someone can call Buck out on how he's repeating his patterns, maybe a callback to the truck conversation in 509 with Bobby telling him "you're still not talking to the people you date, kid" or something along those lines and push him into action. I also think that the show having Buck say with all the letters that he sees Bobby as a his father will probably have repercussions.
But, yeah, tldr is my current theory is that the 118 will cause the breakup.
There's always the possibility of it ending offscreen too. It could go anyway.
#i dont know tho#im just going of patterns#we dont know anything about the new season yet i cant make real predictions#911#i really need a tag for asks#anon 😌#anti bucktommy#911 speculation
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the nighttime fear (see it coming from the edge of the room)
Edit: Now on ao3 here.
Buck cleans Eddie’s room.
He doesn’t plan to necessarily, but after several hours of sitting up with Eddie and talking and making plans, Eddie finally falls asleep on the couch and Buck—
He’s full of restless energy, still feeling the echo of the pure terror that ripped through him the instant he heard Christopher’s panicked voice on the other end of the phone—Something’s wrong with dad. The ice that froze his veins and stole his breath when he broke through the door and saw only wreckage.
He can’t leave—not only because he promised both Eddie and Christopher that he wouldn’t, but because wild horses couldn’t drag him out of this house after that—but neither can he sit and watch Eddie sleep, tracking the rise and fall of his chest as a reminder that the worst case scenario that flickered through Buck’s mind in blind fear when he first stepped across the threshold of Eddie’s bedroom hadn’t come to pass.
So. Quietly, methodically, Buck gathers up a broom and garbage bags and pulls on gloves and steps back into the wreckage. And he cleans.
He hasn’t spent a lot of time in Eddie’s bedroom. Oh, he’s been inside before—grabbing clothes for Eddie when he was being discharged from the hospital, a handful of times in the aftermath when Eddie needed a lot of help—but Buck always had a very specific reason before, a narrowly defined task to complete. And even during Eddie’s recovery, if they could accomplish whatever needed to be done in the bathroom or living room, they did. He’s never really allowed himself to simply take it in, to look closely, to think about it. He’s never stepped inside without explicit permission before.
He’s never even considered it. It’s…Eddie’s bedroom. Private, personal, with a door that locks, unlike Buck’s which is out in the open for anyone to see, anyone to reach if they just walk up the stairs to the loft. Intimate. Untouchable.
From what Buck does remember, the room has always been kept meticulously clean, ordered, everything in its proper place. Even the clothes in the drawers—folded into neat squares and organized by article—Buck doesn’t imagine Eddie has ever run into the problem of not knowing where he put his favorite sweater or misplacing his socks. A locked box projecting perfect control. Just like the man who sleeps there.
Glass crunches under Buck’s shoes as he rights the unbroken lamp and he stops, his eyes sweeping over the room again. Something bubbles up in his throat—he’s not quite sure whether it’s bile or a bitter laugh.
Because he’s known, hasn’t he? He’s known all of Eddie’s control, all of his competence and strength and order, the lack of mess—so very different from the way Buck feels like his own head, his own life is nothing but barely managed chaos—somewhere Buck has known it’s an act. That this sort of break was inevitable. And yet—
And yet.
You don’t panic.
That’s what he said when Eddie admitted he had a panic attack during the blackout. And he said it without hesitation—a visceral, instinctive rejection of the idea that Eddie might not be okay.
You don’t panic.
He said it and he accepted it when Eddie insisted the only problem in his life was Ana. He said it and he stopped pushing and he buried the feeling that there was more going on. He told himself that he was projecting—that just because he wasn’t okay didn’t mean that Eddie wasn’t. And he kept telling himself that even as the signs started piling up.
Wild-eyed panic as Eddie performed compressions on a dead man and refused to let him go.
Desperation and despair as Eddie hit the side of a truck and begged to know what they were supposed to do after thinking they had lost two kids.
Eddie quitting his job.
Eddie telling him to move on even as the circles under his eyes grew darker.
You don’t panic.
Why? Why hadn’t he pushed harder? Why hadn’t he asked more questions? Why? Because he was afraid that if he pushed, he would lose Eddie completely? Or—
She’s the strong one. The one who has always taken care of you. But maybe this time she’s the one who needs taking care of.
Eddie’s face, raw and red with tears flickers behind his eyelids.
I pulled them out. But I didn’t save them.
—or maybe because the thought, the possibility—no, clearly the reality—of Eddie not being okay had been more terrifying than any other option.
Shame drops into Buck’s gut like a stone as he sweeps bits of glass and plaster and wood and twisted metal into a dustpan and dumps the lot into one of the garbage bags.
He had miscalculated. He had assumed that being there would be enough. That as long as Eddie knew he could come to him in a crisis, then he would.
Stupid—how long has he known this man? In all those years, has he ever known Eddie to voluntarily ask for help on his own behalf rather than Christopher’s?
He OD’d.
She shot herself. Last August.
It is bile that rises in Buck’s throat then, the words whispering in his head as he turns the corner around the bed and reaches for the baseball bat, abandoned on the floor where Buck had left it after gently pulling it from Eddie’s grip.
Because all of this can be fixed. Tipped over furniture can be moved upright. Picture frames and lamps can be replaced. Holes in the wall can be patched and painted over. Doors can be put back on their hinges. A room can be scrubbed and swept and vacuumed.
But Eddie can’t be replaced. And what if Christopher hadn’t been home? What if the impulse that led Eddie to take fists and a bat to his possessions had been just a little darker, a little more insular? What if Buck himself had been a little later?
There had been so much glass—
They’re all dead.
I pulled them out. But I didn’t save them.
I pulled him out.
I didn’t save him.
Should have gotten here sooner…
Buck swallows hard against the burning in his throat. He exhales a shuddering, heavy breath.
He cleans the room. Strips and remakes the bed. He takes the garbage bags to the dumpster. Tosses the bat for good measure.
Christopher doesn’t stir when Buck looks in on him. Eddie is still asleep on the couch.
Buck watches him. He looks…small. Like he had earlier—staring out the window, arms crossed, shoulders hunched, curling in on himself like a child trying to disappear.
Eddie’s always been physically smaller than him, albeit not by much. The difference so negligible that Buck rarely even notices. Especially because in his mind, Eddie is—has always been—so much more. Never truly brought low by anything, not even when he was lying in a hospital bed recovering from a gunshot wound.
And yet, he looks small now. Small and vulnerable and fragile. Buck’s struck with the urge to hold him.
Maybe this time she’s the one who needs taking care of.
He doesn’t. He’s unwilling to risk waking him. And maybe—
—maybe Buck isn’t quite sure they wouldn’t both shatter if he tried.
He goes back to Eddie’s room.
It’s not perfect. Not like before.
The treadmill is dented and twisted, and Buck still needs to plaster over the holes in the walls and replace the lock on the door. The bedsheets are wrinkled and missing a comforter because he wants to wash it to make sure he didn’t overlook any glass or splinters. He should vacuum, but doesn’t want to do that in the middle of the night.
It’s not perfect. Not even close. But it’s clean. And maybe that’s good enough for the moment.
I pulled them out. But I didn’t save them.
What are you afraid of?
That I’m never going to feel normal again.
Maybe she’s the one who needs taking care of.
Buck sinks down on the edge of the bed. He stares blankly at the holes in the wall, the faintest streaks of blood from Eddie’s scraped knuckles smearing the plaster, until he’s forced to blink.
He knows how that blood tastes. He’s had it in his mouth.
I pulled him out…
You’re the guy who likes to fix things.
You were always going to fail.
You don’t panic.
Buck closes his eyes.
Christopher is next door. Eddie is on the couch. They’re asleep. They don’t need anything from him right now except for him to be there when they wake.
And with that thought in mind, Buck puts his head in his hands. And he weeps.
#chapel writes#buddie#911 spoilers#evan buckley#I’m posting this on mobile because I’m at work but I’ll put it on ao3 later
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Buddie 503 meta
Before I get into things, just a small shoutout to Bobby & Buck’s bond and the progress we see in it: back in s1, when Bobby was going through rough times, Buck bluntly confronted him about it, and he shut everyone out, shoved Buck up against the wall and generally almost went off the deep end. This time, Buck is trying to check what’s going on in a far more gentle way, while Bobby actually tells his team what’s the matter, and they all end up helping him and Athena through it. IDK about you, but I loved this proof of how they’ve both grown during this show.
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“If it was Christopher, I’d be losing my mind,” says Eddie, and right away the camera pans to Buck, his co-parent. Chim and Hen are both parents with kids of their own, they could have agreed with or amplified what Eddie was saying, but instead we get a very agitated Buck. Probably because he knows better than anyone else on that team how much a person can love and lose their mind with worry over a child that is like their own even though they’re not biologically related to each other…
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Small moment, but Buck turns specifically to Eddie and even calls him by his name before he points up and indicates he wants to go upstairs, and Eddie’s all “yeah” and joins him without even thinking about it. It parallels the way their battlefield boyfriends bond started in 202, with Eddie leading back then and Buck following him to the higher floors of a collapsed building, no questions asked. I just love this reminder that three years down the line, this bond of theirs is still going so strong!
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Right after Hen says to Denny (on the phone), “I can’t wait to see you,” we get a shot of Eddie approaching Buck, who turns to him, smiling wide. Then he teasingly says to Eddie, “I thought you’d be the first one out the door. Christopher know you’re coming?” which shows that Eddie’s earlier remark actually registered more than we might have initially thought, despite how on edge Buck was, providing further evidence that Eddie and Chris always preoccupy him, even more than he shows. Which is already quite a lot.
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Thinking about 406, Eddie needed a pep talk from Bobby AND a series of events during their jinxed day, climaxing with the pretend-firefighter, on top of years of internalized expectations about what he’s supposed to do to provide his son with the right kind of family, in order to ask Ana out. But then comes the reverse, which is actually harder (as we see in the painful breakup scene), the reverse which goes against everything Eddie believes he should do for Chris, goes against the fact that Chris has already lost too many people he loves, against every nice moment he has had with this woman for almost a year... and yet he doesn’t need to be pushed into it by an alternative father figure or to have his job reflecting back to him some sudden realization. One chat with Buck, just thinking once about the pain that Buck had felt himself when he was in Ana’s position, and Eddie’s entire perspective changes enough that he’s ready to break up with Ana without any further prompting. On top of that, Eddie actually tells Buck he’s about to do that before he even talks to her, reassuring him that his words didn’t go unnoticed (just like Eddie’s words about Chris earlier in the ep didn’t go unheard). Buck is Eddie’s person, I repeat, in every way that counts, Buck is Eddie’s person. I swear, I feel like I should have a weekly “if this isn’t love, IDK what is” award…
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Buck’s reaction to Eddie still being there at the end of this shift made me recall ep 316, when Buck had no one to celebrate with after a daring rescue. He was so alone, he ended up not going home at all. Now here he is, at the end of the blackout, thinking he’ll be alone, and pleasantly surprised to see Eddie is still there. Not only that, Eddie then confides in him that he’s listening to Buck and is going to break up with Ana. Then, we see Buck going home. This time, unlike at the end of 316, he’s not supposed to be alone. But… he is. Instead of a partner, all he has is a figure on his screen.
Now let’s be clear. This show is rooting for women who care greatly about their jobs. This little TV Taylor bit is shown in the same ep which makes it clear that Athena compromises nothing: she cares about her career, her kids, her husband and even her ex-husband and his new bf, she somehow juggles more than her fair share, and even when a deranged criminal tries to tell her that she can’t have it all, that she can either do her job or save her son, she still manages to do both. Plus, Buck himself has been shown to think highly of people’s dedication to their work. So that bit with seeing Taylor on the screen, while Buck sarcastically lets out a “honey, I’m home,” it’s not a criticism of Taylor, it’s more to show that something isn’t working between the two of them, because in this specific relationship, with its specific dynamics and conflicting schedules, he’s lonely. He’s not getting out of it what he needs and if in 316 we saw he didn’t want to be lonely, here we see that Taylor is not an easy fix to that. Just like Eddie felt he needed a “mother” for Chris, but his relationship with Ana wasn’t an easy fix to that either.
Oliver has stated in an interview before the premiere aired that he was glad the addition of Taylor meant Buck would now have someone to come home to. And then we’re literally shown the exact opposite: in 501 Taylor is present in body, but absent in terms of where her focus lies, in 502 she’s fully absent and in 503 her TV persona is present just long enough and in such a way as to stress her absence. There is an issue in Buck and Taylor’s relationship, and they’re not talking about it, just like Eddie and Ana didn’t up until this ep. I made a parallel gif post out of this moment of both men being lonely because it’s seriously chilling how much these two men’s love lives are interconnected. Not only that, to a great degree we see that if they were just a little less oblivious, they could have seen that they give each other exactly what they each need: Eddie wants a co-parent to Chris that he can also love and that’s exactly Buck, while Buck is desperately longing for a home and a family to belong to, which is what Eddie has been giving him all along. Just kiss already, you morons!
Speaking of the breakup scene! There’s so much to say about it, including how much I’m in awe that it played exactly into how we’ve been reading the Eddie and Ana relationship all along... We thought Eddie was mostly after this woman because on paper she was perfect to form a family with, and he literally tells her he had an “idea of us” and that it was Christopher’s love for her that dictated him staying in this relationship; we thought Ana might have already figured out that something was wrong between them and indeed, we were now shown she did through Eddie suggesting maybe she should go home (he could have just meant he’s tired and needs to rest after the blackout, but her reaction and attempt to stay anyway say everything about her knowing the breakup was coming, and then she later confirms that when she reveals she had figured out why Eddie was really suffering panic attacks). I’m so happy for Eddie that he finally did something for himself! This was a major step for Eddie, for once in his life choosing his happiness over his sense of duty. At the same time, I find it telling that Eddie trying to send Ana home, while she attempts to stay, creates yet one more connection between the (currently dysfunctional) love lives of Buddie: what tells us that Buck’s relationship isn’t exactly working out is how absent his gf is, while we can see that Eddie’s relationship is about to break down when we realize his gf is too present. See, the show could have had Eddie breaking up with Ana in 503 without bringing Buck into it at all. Why have us see Eddie tell Buck about it when we’re about to watch it play out on our screen shortly after? It could have been just the breakup scene and that’s it. No telling Buck, def no need for that extremely short bit with Buck’s loneliness at home. Instead, we get a sequence of scenes that through their themes are all tied together: Eddie tells Buck he’s breaking up with Ana, then a big hint that Buck’s unhappy with Taylor, and finally Eddie evidently unhappy with Ana and breaking up with her. The inclusion of Buck, the theme of their parallel unhappy relationships and the fact that the specific issues they’re having actually constitute mirror images of each other, it’s like the choices the show has made with this breakup state: “this isn’t just Eddie’s story. It’s Buck’s as well.” Which is, once more, interesting.
~~~ Thank you so much to the incredible @judsonryder for these stunning gifs! Also, you should check out her Buck in orange on his bed parallel, I loved that we both thought of it and IMO, it plays into everything pointed out in this meta and complements it.
Also thank you to all you lovelies for every like, reply, kind tag and of course reblog, I’m always so happy and humbled to see people enjoying these posts, it contributes so much to my motivation! xoxox
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Buddie's Journey Through Season 5 - It's All About the Parallels
Carla saying in 4x13 that Eddie needed to follow his heart and not Christopher's after asking about his relationship with Ana...that story line (the relationship) could have easily been axed by the end of 4x14.
But instead the writers chose to keep Eddie's relationship with Ana going into season 5, which they immediately began to dismantle in 5x01, finishing up by 5x03. They chose to loop it into the bigger goal for the season: Eddie's character development.
The funny thing is, the writers also chose to give Buck a love interest in season 4 as well. They had brought Taylor back (just like they brought Ana back for Eddie in this same season) and made it clear that Buck was interested in being more than friends and their past casual hookups, which only gets fully addressed by the end of 4x14.
And another funny thing is at the end of 4x14, it's Buck bringing Eddie home from the hospital. It's Buck taking care of Christopher and staying in their house. (something they chose to show a contrast with in season 5 with Ana during the blackout, though we are never shown Ana and Christopher by themselves) It's Buck we see Eddie having the heart to heart with after the shooting, twice. Ana and Taylor are on the other side of the door in Eddie's home. (remember how odd it felt for Taylor to be there?) Buck and Eddie are on the opposite side until Eddie walks in while Buck remains at the threshold, watching everything.
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Then in season 5, Eddie and Ana's relationship fizzles out pretty quickly, and Eddie is on a journey of character development. This reaches its breaking/escalation point fairly quickly once Ana is gone. And who is called when this happens ? Buck. In a framing shot similar to when Ana called Buck about Eddie in 4x14, with stuff going on with Taylor and her relationship with Buck going on in the background at the same time.
"Ana. Everything okay?"
"Chris?"
In the first shot, things are not okay with Eddie. Yes, he survived but he hasn't woken up yet from the surgery. Buck is understandably wary when Ana calls. Before this moment, Taylor had just kissed him and then ran.
In the second shot, Buck picks up the phone, happy that Chris is calling. He has no idea what's going on and thinks Eddie and Chris are both okay, not expecting anything bad & no reason to be wary. Before this shot (a Madney sequence occurred before we see Eddie's breakdown & Chris reacting to it), Buck and Taylor talk about their relationship and about the kiss he shared with someone else.
And then lo and behold, a few episodes later, Buck and Taylor's relationship dissolves as well. In the same season as Eddie's did, after they both had returning love interests return in the same season (4), that both relationships didn't have the best starts. Two love interests they had history with that were not exactly stellar.
And in the same season they had Eddie's character development happening (more than the average per season) that turned into a major story line surrounding the season, as they did for Buck. Though Eddie's was a bit more overt and louder (if that makes sense), Buck's was present also.
These two were in the first romantic relationship they had since their previous partners: Shannon for Eddie and Ali for Buck (really more Abby because Ali didn't fully live together with Buck as she did or Taylor).
Both react to it slightly differently, but ultimately they never fully settle into it - thus, the beginning of the dismantling.
And the entire time they are going through all of this major character development , they lean on each other emotionally instead of giving their partners that chance to be there for them. And they continue this emotional support of one another until the end of the season. It doesn't mean we don't see them receiving support from others (such as Maddie for Buck) or giving support to others (such as Eddie for Bobby), but the one constant that is repeated throughout the season is Buck and Eddie.
Again
Again
Again
Again
and again
And they even had it in 5x01 and 5x02. Not to mention 5x06, 5x08, 5x10, and 5x11.
These conversations revolve around:
5x01 - Eddie's panic attack & Buck knowing something is wrong but Eddie not wanting to tell him
5x02 - Buck is concerned about Eddie's health & they talk about Eddie's relationship with Ana
5x04 - Buck has been punched by Chimney & he's upset
5x06 - a bonding traumatic event happens (them getting taken hostage) & Buck is clearly worried about both Eddie and Christopher during this event, which makes sense for the Buckley Diaz family setup, but they purposely gave us Buck's reaction to the gunshot (which links to the aftermath of what Eddie is struggling with this season to an extent which means this moment is about Eddie not Christopher or the will)
5x08 - Buck tells Eddie that they need to keep moving forward & trying to save people (in this episode, they work to rescue the kids -> doing a rescue together)
5x10 - Buck and Eddie talk about Christopher & why the nightmares are starting to happen again - this convo not only is related to Shannon & she is mentioned but this also leads to Eddie's decision later on to leave the 118 (which he then ends up finding out was not what Christopher wanted or the best decision for him) -> this is about Eddie
5x11 - Buck & Eddie talk in the kitchen about Eddie's new job & how he's faring (which Buck thinks he isn't too well & it turns out he's right)
5x13 - Eddie breaks down, Christopher calls Buck -> Buck finds Eddie in his room, gets Christopher settled & then talks to Eddie
5x14 - Buck talks to Eddie & Eddie wonders if everything they do as a first responder is worth it; Buck brings Christopher & Eddie to equine therapy where Buck shows Eddie that Charlie is there & he can see he's doing well, emphasizing that yes it's worth it
5x17 - Eddie talks to Buck as he packs for Christopher for their trip back to Texas, he talks about his father & the upcoming party
5x18 - Buck talks to Eddie about Bobby which then turns into the conversation about Taylor & her betrayal
Then notice how the physical seems to surround these emotional scenes:
5x01 - Eddie's panic attack/heart
5x02 - Eddie looks tired & his beginning panic attack
5x04 - Buck is icing his eye with ice from Chimney's punch; "Ice goes on the eye, bud"
5x06 - both B&E are taken hostage; Buck has been hit in the head by a gun; Eddie, Christopher, and Buck are all threatened to be shot; Eddie is pumping Mitchell's heart to keep him alive
5x08 - Eddie starts to have a panic attack but is able to ward it off after talking with Buck
5x10 - they're talking about Christopher's nightmare
5x11 - Eddie looks tired & unhappy and Buck notices
5x13 - Eddie takes a bat to his bedroom walls along with everything else
5x14 - Eddie is in therapy and feels exhausted/drained; during this convo, Eddie picks up two drawings of a heart, one which Buck admits he drew "I misunderstood the assignment" (how ironic since Buck is currently dealing with relationship troubles & that maybe he doesn't understand his own heart yet or the way it's supposed to be, hmm...); Eddie sees Charlie again, the boy he saved when he got shot
5x17 - in this episode, Ramon has what appears to be a heart attack but actually has something to do with his arteries (a la Eddie panic attack style)
5x18 - Eddie & Buck are patching up the wall together that he busted up with his bat back in 5x13
Then you have the three rescues they perform together after the blackout arc:
Kids (5x08)
Guy who is double-timing two wives where the line is said "Maybe I can fake amnesia, give myself some time to figure it out" in the same episode Buck is wondering what to get Taylor for Christmas & Eddie is struggling with what is happening with Christopher (5x10) [though this does not produce an emotional scene for either B or E, they still have their emotional connection moment later on in the episode]
Guy who is interested in Josh romantically (which is interesting timing since this episode is about Eddie finding himself again & on this end of the season, he is starting to separate himself from Christopher symbolically; also this episode featured the father/daughter dynamic of May & Bobby heavily, the brothers Chimney & Albert - guess which family dynamic that left? so it would make sense for it to be something related to Christopher/child for them rather than Josh's intended beau) [5x16]
Then you have the parallels of other pairings and characters/events happening around them:
Madney - this is a canon romantic pairing that is romantic in the first half of the season (5A) & is platonic/familial only in the second half of the season (5B) - in 5B after the breakup, we see both Maddie & Chimney attempting to co-parent their daughter while getting over each other and trying to move on after having a previous romantic relationship (sound familiar? see above)
Henren - a canon romantic pairing that has Eddie paralleling Karen and Buck paralleling Hen (5x15)
Bathena - a canon romantic pairing that Buddie gets paralled to in 5x09 with the "firefighter roleplay"
And that doesn't even begin to get into the parallels to other side romantic pairings like Clive/Toni and other relationships during emergencies.
Season 5 was all about moving Eddie into position, emotionally.
So now we have to wait to see if Buck will also be moved into position as well and go through his own emotional development. Because once that happens: checkmate.
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i just think it's interesting that...
[Image Description: Four gifs primarily of Eddie Diaz from 9-1-1.
ID 1: A scene from season 4 episode 8, Breaking Point. Eddie talks to Ana over video call on his laptop after Christopher gets mad at him when he tells him that they're dating. Text on the gif reads: "(talking to Ana) I don't want you going anywhere."
ID 2: A scene from season 5 episode 3, Desperate Measures. Eddie looks at Ana, planning to break up with her after she's been staying with Christopher for a couple of days during the blackout. Text on the gif reads "(breaking up with Ana) Maybe you should go home first."
ID 3: A scene from season 4 episode 8, Breaking Point. Buck kneels in front of Christopher in his apartment after Christopher tells him that he's tired of people he loves leaving. Text on the gif reads "And until that happens, you still got me. 'Cause I'm not going anywhere."
ID 4: A scene from season 4 episode 14, Survivors. Eddie tells Buck about his will. Text on the gif says "It's in my will if I die, you become Christopher's legal guardian."
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#911 spoilers#lines from breaking point that continue to haunt me#THE SAME EPISODE#anyways#i’m done now#eddie diaz#evan buckley#my gifs#parallels
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damn you look so happy now
She immediately turned around to find Christopher Diaz sitting at one of the café tables. He had grown so much since the last time she had seen him-- when he was sitting at his dining room table after the blackout and she had to say a goodbye she had seen coming. -or- Ana runs into the Buckley-Diaz family at a coffee shop 1.3k on ao3
Ana didn’t notice them right away. She’s not sure if they had just come in or if she was just distracted thinking about the back-to-back meetings she was set to endure today.
She had been standing in line at the coffee shop down the road from the school, waiting patiently to place her order, when the sound of familiar laughter cut through her thoughts. It had been years since she had heard that laugh, and while it was just the tiniest bit deeper and a little less loud, she would know it anywhere.
She immediately turned around to find Christopher Diaz sitting at one of the café tables. He had grown so much since the last time she had seen him-- when he was sitting at his dining room table after the blackout and she had to say a goodbye she had seen coming.
Ana was expecting to see either Eddie or Carla close by. Instead, standing next to the table was Buck. She really didn’t know Buck all too well. All of their interactions had come on the heels of Eddie being shot by the sniper, and then they had mostly been in passing as they traded off caretaker duties.
After all this time, Ana was not too big to admit that Buck had been a lifesaver during those months afterward. She was too small to support Eddie’s weight, which was necessary a lot of the time because he was nothing if not stubborn and hated being in one place for too long. So having Buck there to move him from room to room and hold him up in the shower had been a huge help. She also was not too big to finally admit that the emotion that formed in the pit of her stomach after that first week was jealousy.
She had watched the way that Buck moved through the Diaz’s lives. Not like her, a clear guest trying to fit herself into the life they already had, but like he had been a vital part of it for a long time now. The way he was in every corner of every facet of their very existence. From pictures hanging on the walls to the spare toothbrush that had been in the bathroom long before Eddie was shot.
Ana was still debating acknowledging the pair when she caught Buck’s eyes. Recognition flickered across his face but it was also clear he was hesitant about what to do. He rubbed the back of his neck with his right hand and raised his left hand in a half wave.
Before she could do anything in response the barista cleared his throat to let her know it was her turn to order. She turned to face him and ordered her latte with a faint blush coloring her cheeks. She quickly paid and moved over to where the orders came out. As she stood there, she resolved herself to go over and say hi. Buck had always been pleasant toward her and she did miss Christopher.
However, they beat her to it.
The faint clacking of Christopher’s crutches on the tiles was her only warning before she heard “Ana?”
She turned around and let her lips curve into a genuine smile.
“Christopher. It’s so good to see you. You’ve grown so much since the last time I saw you,” she replied cheerily. “And Buck.”
“Hi Ana,” Buck smiled sheepishly. He had a nervous energy about him and she wasn’t sure why exactly. She chalked it up simply to her being his best friend’s ex. “How have you been? Still assistant principal…ing?” He winced, clearly a bit flustered and embarrassed.
“I’ve been good, thanks. Yes, I’m still assistant principal, just at a new school,” she laughed lightly. “What about the two of you?”
Christopher immediately jumped in with stories of his last year of middle school and it was obvious Buck was happy to let him take over, watching him with the soft fondness Ana had grown used to seeing on Buck’s face when he was looking at a Diaz.
Ana listened intently but in the corner of her eye she watched Buck pull out his phone and begin typing. It was then that she saw the gold band on his ring finger. She remembered that Buck had been dating the red-headed reporter the last time she had seen him and filed it away to ask him about once Christopher was done with his stories.
The barista finally called Ana’s drink out and she excused herself to grab it from the counter. When she returned she looked at Buck and blew on her coffee as she asked, “I see you’re married. Is it to that reporter you had been dating?”
Buck’s entire face immediately flushed as he stuttered over his words. “A-actually, um, no. No, um--” but he was cut off by another very familiar voice.
“Babe! Sorry I’m late,” and Eddie Diaz, not seeing Ana, slid up to Buck’s side and planted a kiss on his cheek.
When Eddie did turn and notice Ana, a hundred emotions seemed to pass across his face, but she was too busy letting the pieces fall into place to really register it.
As she thought back it made perfect sense that Eddie would end up with Buck. The entire time they had dated it had felt like Eddie was just out of reach. Never fully in the moment-- or the relationship for that matter. Like he was standing behind a glass wall. How had she not realized that glass wall was Buck?
She watched Buck and Eddie exchange a look and could tell they were having an entire conversation with only their eyes. Just like they had always done.
She let them squirm for another second before she let herself smile. “Congratulations you two. How long have you been married?”
Buck’s shoulders relaxed and Eddie’s jaw untensed.
“Two years in May,” Eddie replied, wrapping an arm around Buck’s waist and grinning brighter than she had ever seen, as though he couldn’t help it.
“For their first anniversary Dad and I asked Buck to adopt me!” Christopher chimed in, clearly proud, causing Buck to somehow turn even redder.
“That’s so exciting,” she addressed Christopher then turned to look at the other two, “and I’m so happy for you both.”
A moment of silence fell between them until Buck spoke up. “Hey, Chris, it looks like someone stole our table. Why don’t you find another and save it. Dad and I will be right over.”
He nodded and said goodbye to Ana before turning to complete his mission.
Once Christopher was out of earshot, Eddie started speaking. “Ana--”
“Eddie,” she interrupted softly, “I mean it when I say I’m happy for you.” She blushed and looked down, “No snide comments or resentment this time.” Meeting his eyes again, she continued. “I know I wasn’t who you saw when you pictured a family. And I don’t blame you anymore. You already had a family.” She looked at Buck, then behind them at Christopher who had secured a table and was now playing on his phone. “I’m proud of you for figuring it out.”
At that Buck ducked his head while Eddie leveled her with a gentle look. “Thank you, Ana. I truly am sorry for how I treated you.”
She waved her hand dismissively. “Water under the bridge.” And at that moment her phone beeped, reminding her about the meeting she had in half an hour. “I really have to be going, but it was nice to see you all again.”
They exchanged goodbyes and Ana turned toward the door. When she reached it she paused for a moment to glance back, catching as Eddie kissed Buck softly, pulling away to look at him as though he had hung the stars.
She walked out of the coffee shop with a smile on her face.
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Infinitesimal Shift
Am I jumping on the Buddie stuck in an elevator bandwagon during the blackout? Absolutely I am.
- Buck is walking Eddie down to his truck from the apartment when the blackout happens.
- They're two hours out of a 36-hour shift and Eddie wanted to shower before picking Chris up from his Abuela's.
- Buck's apartment was closer to the station - not to mention Eddie had met Buck before their shift and carpooled in the Jeep.
- Either way, they're stuck between the second and third floor when the blackout strikes.
- The elevator lurches loudly, metal grinds and the boys plaster themselves against the wall as it jolts to a stop.
- They're both on their phones in an instant, no signal and the electronic alarm obviously isn't working.
- 'I think my landlord said there was a failsafe alarm built into these that works off its own battery,' Buck says, trying to pull off the panel.
- Eddie hums, sitting down with his back against the wall of the elevator, watching the blonde finally manage to get behind the panel.
- Buck's right, of course. They hear a ringing bell.
- 'Hopefully, landlord hears that and calls dispatch.'
- 'Dispatch? Who also probably have no power?'
- 'I did not think that far ahead.'
- Buck takes a seat next to Eddie and they sit in silence for a few minutes.
- Buck keeps looking at Eddie, making sure he isn't panicking. They've both had their share of small spaces, but he knows Eddie isn't quite over the well.
- Eddie can feel Buck's staring and makes a point to not look at him. If he looks at Buck then he'll smile and Eddie will smile back and all the feelings he's been ignoring dealing with will come out.
- He fails.
- In less than 30 seconds after thinking it.
- 'What?'
- 'Just making sure you're ok.'
- Because of course Buck's first concern is Eddie's well-being.
- 'Are you?'
- 'Coping,' he laughs weakly. 'Did you know we're more likely to die in a shark attack than an elevator?'
- 'Surely that's the other way around?'
- 'Yeah, I think it might be. I was just trying to lighten the mood.'
- And wow, Eddie thinks, I'm such a jerk.
- He'd gotten used to bantering around with Buck. Sarcasm disguising his endless fondness for the younger man.
- Now isn't the time.
- 'I'm glad I decided to walk you down, so you're not in the elevator alone,' Buck starts rambling. 'Not that I wouldn't have come to check up on you if you had gone alone. I would've run out the second everything went dark. Maybe we should've taken the stairs. I mean I know it was a joke 'cause that was your first shift back and you're not quite in the same shape you were a couple months ago and...'
- It's adorable. It is. It's all Eddie can think and focus on.
- He knows Buck is doing it as a distraction from their situation but right now it's making him fall more in love with the man.
- He has to do something. Say something.
- 'Ana and I broke up.'
- Buck stops short. He stares at Eddie for a bit and the older man shrinks under his gaze.
- Neither say anything for a while and Buck tries the failsafe alarm again.
- Eddie stares at Buck's back, straining his eyes at the height. He's trying to telepathically get Buck to speak because he doesn't want to have to explain.
- He doesn't know how to.
- It was an inevitable event.
- 'Not long after I was shot, actually. Maybe two weeks?'
- Buck spins on his heel and stares at him.
- 'You have been single for a month and a half? And you didn't think to tell me until we got stuck in here?'
- 'You were with Taylor?' Eddie knows it's a weak defense.
- 'Why does that matter?!' And Buck sees right through it.
- 'I don't know. I just thought that maybe you'd want to focus on your own love life for once, instead of getting dragged in to the end of mine. Again.'
- Buck is silent again, judging Eddie from the corner. Feeling out what he should say next.
- Except he doesn't.
- Silence again.
- Eddie complains a lot about needing peace and quiet, but now that he has it, he's not sure he wants it.
- He'd give anything for one of Buck's signature smiles right now.
- That hasn't happened since the elevator first stopped and god how long has it even been.
- Eddie checks his phone. An hour. It's been an hour.
- His background of Chris and Buck smiling and building Lego together mocks him.
- He realizes he would never have made Ana his background and isn't that what couples do?
- 'Hey Buck? What's your cell background?'
- 'You and Chris tackling that pancake stack at Ellie's your last birthday?'
- 'Not Taylor?'
- 'Why would it be Taylor?'
- 'Because she's your girlfriend?'
- 'She's not.'
- Buck sounds exasperated. Like he's had to explain multiple times.
- Eddie guesses he has, back before they were a thing. But he told Eddie she kissed him after he was shot and that the two were going to try dating.
- 'I thought...'
- 'You thought wrong. I couldn't. Don't like her like that anymore.'
- 'Wow you sound like one of Chris' friends with a crush,' it comes out before Eddie can stop it.
- Hurt fills Buck's eyes and Eddie has to look away. He can't deal with being the reason for it.
- 'And if I told you there's someone I'm in love with but can't have? There's someone who actually thinks I'm worthy and deserving of love? But for two months I thought they were taken and I couldn't keep hurting myself anymore so I thought I would move on?'
- Eddie gulps. He can't. He can't be talking about Eddie. Life doesn't work that way. Not for him.
- 'Except I couldn't. It's too soon. I still love him and I can't imagine life without him and now that I know he's single it's all I can think about. Us. How well we work together. How beautiful we could be. Do I sound like an adult again?'
- Buck's glaring but it doesn't have as big of an effect when there are tears in his eyes.
- 'Evan.'
- His face softens. He's smiling at Eddie again.
- Granted, Eddie may have taken some liberties with calling Buck by his first name.
- It was only reserved for serious conversations. Times when Buck needs to listen and believe what was coming out of Eddie's mouth.
- 'I love you, too.'
- 'You do?'
- 'How could I not? I broke up with Ana because I was trying to deal with my feelings for you. I wasn't sure, you know? You're such a big part of my and Chris' life and I was trying to rationalize it as appreciation for you. You do so much for us and never ask for anything in return. But I was wrong. It's love. It's been love for at least a year and I was just too afraid to accept it.'
- Buck just smiles, reaching out a hand.
- Eddie takes it easily.
- He leans into Buck's side, pulling the other's arm around him.
- He knows that Buck is feeling for a heartbeat, Eddie's listening for Buck's too.
- They stay like that until the doors creak open and Albert's face pops between the gap.
- 'Hey, they're not dead!'
- The team gets them out pretty easily and they both agree to come in on shift to help with the fall out of the blackout. It's mostly going to be driving around in the rig, trying to spot problems as they occur.
- Buck walks Eddie to his truck and grabs the extra LAFD hoodie he keeps in there for emergencies.
- The same hoodie that Eddie has stolen on some of the harder nights when he was alone.
- He realizes just how entangled Buck had become in the Diaz's lives. Buck keeps a change of clothes in the truck, Eddie keeps a set of his own in the Jeep.
- Buck has his own drawer at Eddie's house, but Eddie doesn't have anything at Buck's.
- Buck spends more time living on Eddie's couch than either of them spends in the apartment.
- Buck belongs at home. With Chris. With Eddie.
- 'You know, if you moved in with me, you wouldn't get caught in an elevator in a blackout again,' Eddie tries.
- 'Yeah?'
- 'Yeah.'
- Buck moving into the Diaz residence was an inevitable event.
- Eddie was right - the next blackout, Buck didn't get stuck in an elevator. He was surrounded by candles and blankets, cuddled up with his boyfriend and son.
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More 503 Buddie Thoughts
The second section of this post contains dialogue from the break up scene so it’s looonnggg.
The Locker Room Scene
The silent communication between Buck and Eddie in the locker room scene is making me feral. They said a lot verbally in the scene but the nonverbals were heavy and loud too! A string of feelings and acknowledgements hanging between them through their facial expressions and body language. Their faces screamed *i hear you, i feel you, and i see you*. Neither of them could quite stand in that feeling for too long even tho it’s what they both actually want. Both men had very vulnerable/open facial expressions in that scene - everything they felt in the moment played across their face at some point in the brief interaction. It was a moment of true presence and encounter between them, and it was glorious!
Also, in the opening of the scene buck leads with mentioning christopher and eddie getting home to him. i think it’s important to note that for the first time that we’ve seen (if memory serves) eddie refocuses away from chris and onto himself. That is huge given what just happened with Harry, which is why the lead into the locker room scene is Hen on the phone with Denny. It underscores the shift in focus that eddie has rn. He turns the focus to himself and the break up that he has to have with a*a. He chose his heart with buck’s help.
They are slowly coming into romantic alignment and i can’t frickin’ breathe!
The Break Up Scene
I really want to break down this scene bc eddie’s words but especially his body language were loud af here too.
Ana: You know. I thought that I would hate canned fruit, But it’s not bad. A little lime, some chili. Who’d have thought?
Canned fruit is not as good as fresh but you know whatever. She’s spruced up what was available in eddie’s kitchen, working with what she has/is provided by him, let’s face it during the blackout and beyond really, that’s not much. He’s not bringing his best with her, not really.
Chris: Yes!
Chris is smart and perceptive but also he has kid tastes. A*a has made do and he’s enjoying the fruits of her labor, more or less.
Eddie: It is all good. Great, actually. You didn’t have to cook all of this though.
It’s all by the recipe heteronormative society has set. It’s all good by that standard, but eddie’s not enjoying it quite as much as the “master chef” (society) said he would lol. In the second sentence it’s clear that he doesn’t want her to put in so much effort. I think it makes him feel more guilty, because he doesn’t have anything more that he can honestly offer her.
Chris: Let’s make brownies next.
Again, he’s enjoying the endless supply of treats from A*a, at least to a degree I think.
Ana: You know, I think we need to clean that kitchen first.
I think others have pointed it out but the messy kitchen is most def a visual rep of eddie. A*a is proposing that she and chris keep working on eddie and his (relationship/love life) mess.
Eddie: Maybe you should go home first. I mean, you’ve been stuck here for days. I’m sure you want to get back to your own place. Have some time for yourself.
This is eddie screaming in subtext that this is not a*a’s home. She does not fit here. She should go someplace where she belongs...which is not here. please leave. His literal words are just basic breakup prelude. not subtle but also not completely rude given the long shift he just worked and his gentle tone.
Ana: Right. Yeah. But I am not going to leave you with the disaster in the kitchen.
She can see the writing on the wall but she is resisting. she recognizes that the kitchen (eddie) is messy and needs some tlc. she’s trying to join eddie in denial that they have a problem in their relationship, but he’s over denying things at this point.
Chris: A disaster.
Chris KNOWS!!! He’s enjoying the a*a perks but he’s NOT OBLIVIOUS to the fact that his father is not quite okay. Dad’s in disarray and he kinda gets that on some level i think.
Ana: I’m sorry. I know this place is such a wreck.
We gotta remember, in this case/this episode of symbolism, the kitchen (eddie) was made messy/messier by a*a herself. The kitchen is normally functional, then she came along and joined in playing house thanks to the blackout which catalyzed eddie’s panic over ready-made family.
Eddie: Don’t worry about it.
Eddie fully knows that this whole situation is not actually her circus not her monkeys. It really is his problem, bc she’s good on paper.
Ana: Yeah, but you’ve been working nonstop, so you shouldn’t have to come home to this mess. Oh I bet the dishwasher is working now, right? You know what, I don’t know what I miss more, whether it’s the dishwasher or the refrigerator -
A*a knows eddie has been trying to sort things out, even if he’s been doing that poorly in regard to her needs/expectations. Now that he’s back home and talking to her, she hopes some little things are functioning between them again, at least enough so that she can stay. She sounds desperate at this point (which I don’t think is fair to her as a person/character, but she’s such a side character I don’t really care that much at the end of the day).
Eddie: Ana -
No, a*a, this is over. The kitchen is back to base level functioning, but not for you.
Ana: - Or, the air conditioning. It’s probably the air conditioning, definitely.
In 502 when buck had that talk with eddie, eddie was sweating bc the ac was out. Sweating is of course a symptom of panic as well. This is a fun parallel, bc a*a wants ac more than anything bc she then doesn’t have to face eddie’s underlying issues with her. they could just keep pretending together.
Eddie: Ana. Ana, stop - We need to talk.
Again, nope. We have to deal with this. A nice parallel. This breakup is mirroring eddie’s behavior during the talk with buck. He avoided that conversation and buck gently insisted. A*a avoided their conversation and eddie gently insisted.
Ana: Those four words.
She’s facing it, with salt.
Eddie: Maybe we should sit down?
Eddie wants to be good about it and create a solid space to have this conversation but a*a is struggling, understandably, bc she is more invested than eddie.
Ana: Why? You’re fine. You aren’t gonna pass out of anything. Your heart rate is not going up?
She knows about the panic and her role in it, but she’s avoidant and also sad/angry.
Eddie: What do you mean?
Stop. Pretending. eddie, are you seriously clueless that she’s NOT clueless??? I mean maybe...go off I guess.
Note that at this point, eddie scrunches his face and turns a little red. He honestly thought he was hiding something. I think he IS hiding “””something””” deep personal and meaningful to him, but it’s not really quite the aversion to a*a/what she represents. That part isn’t what’s buried inside him, the real culprit is deeper than that.
Ana: You know what I mean.
At this point, eddie places his hands on hips and drops his head down. He has to grapple with her knowing at least a part of what he’s been trying to hide.
I don’t want you to…to panic when you think about me.
Eddie crosses his arms and leans on the fridge, and returns to full eye contact. He is facing a*a and what she represents, but with crossing his arms he’s closing himself off to something deeper and more difficult. He’s not ready to explore what’s beneath it all, what fuels the urge to pretend in the first place. He only want’s to deal with ending this particular instance of pretending for now (i.e., being with a*a).
Or when you think about a future with me. I can’t - I can’t take that.
She’s hurting and this breakup is long overdue.
Eddie: I thought it would work.
Eddie’s arms stay crossed when he starts speaking and he makes intermittent but natural eye contact. Again, he’s still guarding the deeper issues that made him “think it would work”. He’s avoiding the core of the lie/decision to pretend in the first place.
I did. The idea of us. Chris loves you so much. I just thought that -
This line is huge. The IDEA!! It’s common in relationships of all kinds to have ideas about what should and should not be, who and how we should and should not be, waiting to feel something, waiting to not feel something, figuring things out. Eddie realized (thanks to buck) that chris’s love of a*a wasn’t enough to make eddie himself love her.
He’s not the same guy he was when he did mostly THE SAME THING with sh*nnon after she got pregnant and they decided to get married. I don’t doubt that eddie loved sh*nnon but there was always an excessive struggle within that love that had lots to do with who each of them was as a person and what they wanted/needed from each other.
Honestly, I don’t think repressed queer desires (which don’t necessarily have to have always been there, bc sometimes people just discover queer love!) on eddie’s part were their only problem in that marriage. Remember, eddie and sh*nnon never had trouble falling into bed, they had trouble being fully emotionally present with each other and true partners! They also had eddie’s sense of duty and the pressure to be a “provider” looming over them.
Ana: That eventually you would too?
She gets that eddie was faking it until he made it...but he never made it and now he has to fess up and end things.
Eddie: I should have said something sooner.
Eddie feels guilty about holding onto the relationship as he realized that it was not going to work. During this line, eddie sounds choked up and his eyes are a little damp. Again, the hints of guilt.
Ana: You probably should have.
A*a wishes eddie had spared her all this. At this point, eddie breaks eye contact and looks down into the space in front of him. He wishes the same thing.
Well I’m sorry about the mess,
She’s literally talking about the kitchen but symbolically talking about eddie himself. Again, a*a knows things got worse for eddie in many ways when they started dating.
During this line, eddie breathes out and closes his eyes. He’s noticeably uncomfortable and maybe still feeing that guilt. Eddie had been trying to hide the messiness of his real/deep feelings, and was succeeding for a little while. But when a*a came along with notions of ready-made family the lid was blown off of the deeper stuff. I’m hoping we get more into eddie’s “mess” over the course of the season.
but I guess it’s your mess now, right?
A*a wanted to help but couldn’t, and eddie doesn’t want her (to) anyway so she’s out. During a*a’s line, eddie looked away and honestly seemed uneasy in his own skin. Now he has to actually look at the deeper issues and feelings bc a*a isn’t their to distract from those anymore!
Eddie: Yeah, I guess it is.
He knows this mess is his but doesn’t want it. He kinda still wishes this mess wasn’t a thing he had to deal with. Like you do. Here eddie still looks uncomfortable, but manages eye contact again at the end of the moment. I think the eye contact signals that he really doesn’t blame her for anything. He know’s he was at fault, to the degree that this is something you would blame on someone. Honestly to me it just feels like growing pains. Staying would have been the real cruelty, breaking up is far better.
Ana: You’re an amazing father.
She knows that eddie is 100% invested in chris and puts chris first as much as he can, and she knows that he originally did all of this for chris. This feels like it’s part of her process of forgiving him for not saying anything sooner. At this point in the dialogue, eddie doesn’t respond to her touch on his arm, he remains closed off, guarding and protecting something.
I’m gonna - I’m gonna go say goodbye to him.
During this line eddie breaks eye contact again. He’s aware that he’s separating chris from someone chris likes.
Adios, Edmundo.
This part was SO INTERESTING TO ME. OMG! Here eddie accepted the face touch from a*a but his left cheek TWITCHED in the wake of it. He also accepted the cheek kiss too but exactly like it was from an IDEA, a distant concept that was dying away just beyond the reach of his desire. It was GLORIOUS! Ryan crushed that whole exchange.
Whew, yall. This season is crazy in terms of Buddie and we’re only three eps in!
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Hello! I really love your costume metas so much so I figured you'd be the person to ask: in the last episode when the team is hanging out, waiting for Ravi to get back with coffee, the flag patch on Eddie's uniform is frayed around the edges. Do you think this would be deliberate/a nod to how he's doing mentally, or just the uniform getting a lot of use? Diaz money trouble? I haven't paid a ton of attention to the patches in the past, but it seemed really noticeable in this scene.
Hey Nonnie
Thank you so much for your lovely words about my costume meta 😊I always love hearing that people are enjoying them and thank you for such a great ask. 💜💜
It made me think about Eddies uniforms more generally since he joined the 118 in season 2 because he's gone through a fair bit of change - more so than anyone else in fact, so I'm going to use this ask as an opportunity to talk about his uniform more generally!
I did have to go back and do some rewatching, because I wanted to really look at his uniform choices as well as check everyone's patches to ensure that there weren't any other frayed or damaged ones. I can confirm this is the only instance of a patch looking less than immaculate and I'll come back to it, but first I want to comment on his uniform more generally.
We've gone from Eddie wearing his uniform tight fitting in the first half of season 2 (pay close attention to his sleeves in particular!)
to
The picture is especially interesting because as you can see, not only is the shirt a bit loose fitting, so to are his trousers - they are sitting far more baggy around his ankles than we see at any other time (I tried to get screen shots of the better fitting trousers but he's always moving too fast when we see him full length!) this is during his fighting arc - when everything is going a bit haywire for him as he's dealing with Shannons death and feels like he's lost his best friend.
The change to his t-shirts is also interesting, because they've also become baggy and almost oversized, particularly in season 4b & even more so in 5a.
Basically this change has happened since he starts dating Ana (make of that what you will!) The one of him above from 5x02 is telling (its not a great screenshot, but in my defence the blackout didn't make it easy!), he's post panic attack and pre breakup - the t-shirt is oversized as if the stress of it all is making him lose weight, its the most baggy we ever see his t-shirts, they become less baggy post his breakup, but we're still not back to the sexy tight t-shirt Eddie (maybe we will be in 5b to match in with his new sexy hair 😂) we saw in the beginning. Of course we know Ryan can drop and gain weight fairly easily for his fighting, but the costume team would be prepared for that - they'd be working with him and have different sized duplicates so that it wasn't too obvious if they weren't trying to tell a story through his clothes. They've always accommodated Olivers massing etc so we don't notice on the show when he's doing that - his uniform is always tight fit! (thank you Oliver and wardrobe 😎)
Now back to Eddies frayed patch:
I've zoomed in and out on this patch and spent a quite frankly ridiculous amount of time staring at it trying to figure out if it was badly sewn on, or if it was distressed by the breakdown department. I don't have anything conclusive, but i'm leaning more toward a deliberate breakdown because it looks to me more like some of the yellow gold embroidery silk of the patch itself has been pulled, rather than the stitches holding it in place!
I'm pretty sure it won't be as a result of money trouble etc, because I'm fairly certain that US fire departments (like their UK counterparts, which I have more knowledge of as I'm UK based and work with fire crews on a semi regular basis in my job!) provide their staff with their uniforms and they'll have a quota amount of shirts, trousers etc that they can have each year (its pretty common for uniform to get damaged on the job when you're a firefighter!), they'd just have to return the damaged items to get new ones. I also don't know if its the same in the US, (i'm assuming it may well be) but its fairly common for each station to launder uniforms in house (whether thats using a laundry collection service or actually having an on site service) because domestic machines aren't up to the levels of gunge and grime these uniforms are likely to come up against.
We'll have to see if Eddies patches continue to show signs of wear and tear to know for sure if its representative of his frayed mental state, but I wouldn't be surprised if it were. We know Eddie is getting worse mentally and it's a common trope to use in clothing in film and television. So its definitely something to be keeping an eye out for in the next episode and into 5b!
Thanks again for a great ask and I hope this has answered it (and a bit more!) like always, my inbox is open if anyone has any questions etc 💜💜
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Hey! I keep seeing you answering asks about Ana (I guess in S5) and I have missed the start. Is she coming back? Has it been confirmed?
Okay, so the sequence of events here was that I made a shitpost about Eddie and Ana breaking up in order to make a joke about Buck's past careers and "save a horse ride a cowboy" and then someone popped in to ask/gripe (fairly) about Ana's original "there's value in learning you don't like horses" line, which then spiralled into a whole thing.
As far as Ana coming back in season 5, I sort of answered (1) some (2) asks (3) about this last week.
Basically, we don't know anything official yet (at least that I've caught wind of) but she was posting Ana-esque videos on her Instagram, so it looks like there's an (unconfirmed - last I checked) chance that we will have to have her around for at least the first few episodes.
My personal hope is that we'll see her very briefly in 5x01 before the disaster to remind us that she exists, followed by the presumed two-part disaster episode in the blackout over 5x02 and 5x03 (assuming they're back to following the original structure from seasons 2 and 3) and somehow, plot events have led Eddie to the completion of the thought he came up with during 4x13's closing scene, and during the closing monologue, presumably delivered by Bobby, presumably about "finding the light" or "stepping into the light" or whatever "after the darkness is gone" theme they go with, we see in montage Eddie going to Ana's house and we don't actually hear their conversation but it's very clear from her face that he's Realised Some Things and is breaking up with her. This is my hope, and Fox if you want to borrow it, I will not be upset.
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I know everyone's speculating about Eddie getting trapped in an elevator during the blackout episode, but just imagine... Buck being the one trapped, maybe hurt, and Eddie going after him.
Buck and Eddie are off duty, just a day off that they spend at the mall. Eddie needs something for Ana's birthday (and has no clue what to get her, really) and Buck gets something for his niece and a couple of new shirts (Eddie certainly does not stare at Buck when he calls him into the cabin cause he's completely stuck in a shirt that is two sizes too small), when suddenly there are screams from one of the elevators. They run over just to find it stuck. Luckily it's in a position where it's still almost at their level, so they can open the door and actually get inside. Buck jumps in and helps the people get out, one by one, while Eddie offers a helping hand from outside. (No one sees him wince in pain when he reaches his hand out to an elder man. His shoulder is fine. No worries.)
When the last person is safe, it's Buck's turn to climb back out. Eddie reaches out his hand and -
The elevator drops with a terrifying, creaking sound, drops 10 feet or so and Buck vanishes from sight. Eddie can still see the elevator, it hasn't gone down completely, probably some safety mechanism, but Eddie has been in enough rescue missions to know that this doesn't mean anything. Safety mechanisms fail all the time. Eddie calls out for Buck, hurries to the lower level because maybe, maybe they're lucky and he just has to open the doors, and then he yells in frustration (and light panic, because Buck won't pick up his phone and of course there's always a crappy signal in an elevator, no worries, but...) and just as he's about to call 911, everything goes dark.
And still no sign of life from Buck.
He knows he should wait. But he can't reach 911 and he can't reach Buck and for a second or two he just stands frozen in the dark, the screams of the people around him become a background noise, and all he hears are his own words, "I'll always fight to come back to my family".
Part of his family is currently stuck in an elevator, a death trap suspended above an abyss by just some ridiculously thin metal ropes, some of which have apparently already broken, and maybe Buck's injured, too, and he thinks of all the times Buck's come to rescue him and of how much he needs this stupid, reckless guy in his life, and all these thoughts combined result in Eddie climbing down the elevator shaft in the dark with nothing but his phone flashlight guiding the way.
Somewhere, halfway down, he thinks he hears water trickling down the walls, and surely it's just his mind playing tricks on him, but he can't help holding his breath and swallowing against the rising panic. His shoulder screams at him and he grits his teeth every time he puts too much strain on it. But he can't let go. If he falls now, he'll fall onto the elevator and who knows if that'll make it crash for good and Buck -
There's bile rising in his throat. It's all horribly familiar and at some point he has to stop, somewhere in the middle between safety and danger, between safety and Buck, and then it's easy again.
It's Buck, after all.
Evan.
He reaches the top of the elevator and searches for the lock of the emergency exit.
"I'm coming for you!" Eddie calls out into the silence, unsure if Buck even hears him but calling out regardless, and manages to open the emergency exit to climb inside the elevator. "I'm coming down, Buck!" It's even darker in there, the jump takes more courage than he'd dare to admit, but then his feet reach the metal ground and his hand finds Buck's shoulder.
Buck is slumped against the wall, a trail of blood running down the side of his face, but he stirs slighly when Eddie shakes his shoulder.
The elevator creaks again.
Eddie feels Buck's hand clasping his.
"That was the most stupid stunt you've ever done, Eddie!"
He says it jokingly, voice slightly slurred, but there's something else in his voice that Eddie can't quite put his finger on.
"Well, how about I save your sorry ass for a change, huh?" His smile vanishes quickly, his tone becomes serious. "We can't lose you, Evan. So let's get you out of here."
The elevator creaks again.
(Followed either by both of them climbing up, or even Eddie carrying Buck on his back, or something goes wrong like the exit gets shut when something falls down and blocks the way and they end up sitting in the dark, taking turns in calming each other down when PTSD hits and just talking about what they'll do when they get out, though somehow none of these scenarios include Ana or Taylor, and bonus points if the 118 finally arrives and they can only get one out at a time and the elevator is seconds from crashing and both Eddie and Buck are self - sacrificial idiots in love who insist the other gets to go first.)
Or something like this. Well, guess I have a fanfic to write now.
#evan buckley#eddie diaz#buddie#911#911onfox#buck and eddie#story prompt#blackout#idiots in love#it's requited they're just idiots
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