#Felt the e°mo°tions

[edeldoro]

*Her Shim Cheong mentioned* (Extremely altered and pitched Muppets tone) Yes

[toziers]

concerts are so embarrassing now with everyone constantly taking photos… like im here to listen to music i dont need my lesbian breakdown to be accidentally documented in the background of your obsessive fan photos let me rock in peace

[rinsoap]

˚ ༘ ♡⋆｡˚ ﾐ the big seijoh four's favourite artists!

✿²˖ ࣪ ➣ includes : oikawa tooru, iwaizumi hajime, matsukawa issei + hanamaki takahiro

note : sorry ive been inactive as hell w actual hcs or like. real works LMAOO i have been #depressed and #unmotivated LoL! anyways pls tell me u can see suna's influence on iwaizumi i hc that they r friends <33

oikawa tooru :

!!? KALI UCHIS STAN NEVER SPEAK 2 ME AGAIN. he LOVESSS her he is completely convinced isolation was specifically made to cater to him and his exact music taste delusional king fr!! and he gatekeeps her SO HARD like babes as much as i would like to be her top listener too, the 21,158,866 monthly listeners seem like they might be hard to beat 🤔

his favourite songs by kali uchis are :

tyrant - ft. jorgia smith on the isolation album.

i wish you roses (single).

loner on the por vida album.

!!? this artist is not a guilty pleasure no matter how many times he says he's sooo embarrassed he likes carly rae jepson. "omg stop don't tell people i like her that's humiliating omg stop i don't want people to know!!!!!!" he is a LIAR. he will publicly scream every single lyric to every single song she makes, IN FACT he will shamefully make tiktoks on public buses and shit, lip syncing to her songs on full volume (or at least he would if literally all of seijoh didn't tell him to shut the fuck up LMAO)

his favourite songs by carly rae jepson are :

call me maybe on the kiss album.

boy problems on the E•MO•TION album.

felt this way on the dedicated side b album.

!!? —✩⌗ HONORABLE SONG MENTIONS : good days by SZA. heart to heart by mac de marco. oh no! by marina and the diamonds. conceited by flo milli.

iwaizumi hajime :

!!? UGH ANOTHER AMAZING PERFECT TYLER THE CREATOR STAN. OOH I WANNA KISS ALL TYLER FANS ON THE HEAD I FREQUENTLY MAKE OUT W EVERY TYLER FAN EVER!! he's a very loyal listener, he knew him on vine bro like i said in pt 1, he introduced him to suna (while suna takes all the credit lol) he might even have a slight... fixation.. one might call it a.... crush.... but he will never admit it his ego is too big!!

his favourite songs by tyler the creator are :

A BOY IS A GUN on the IGOR album.

garden shed - ft. estelle on the flower boy album.

SWEET / I THOUGHT YOU WANTED TO DANCE - ft. brent faiyaz and fana hues on the CALL ME IF YOU GET LOST album.

!!? is it controversial to say he fucks w ice spice.. almost a little too much... he knows all the lyrics to munch which is def something he has in common with oikawa's music taste!!! like at this point they're like pavlov's dog, they are absolutely salivating every single time they hear "stop playin with em riot!"

his favourite songs by ice spice are :

bikini bottom (single).

princess diana on the like..? EP.

in ha mood (single).

!!?—✩⌗ HONORABLE SONG MENTIONS : she likes another boy by oscar lang. attention by new jeans. just a stranger by kali uchis and steve lacy. NASA by ariana grande.

matsukawa issei :

!!? unlike iwaizumi, he will admit his huge crush on brent faiyaz with his ENTIRE CHEST. brent faiyaz his love, his one and only (i am projecting!) <3 most of the content he consumes is brent faiyaz related tbh the algorithm knows him too well and before you ask the burning question on your mind, YES he did almost start a stan twitter in year one!!! makki will never let him live it down as if he didn't ACTUALLY start one for bruno mars..

his favourite songs by brent faiyaz are :

ADDICTIONS on the WASTELAND album.

what you heard (single) by sonder - technically still brent faiyaz.

talk 2 u on the sonder son album.

!!? he really should be ashamed he likes drake tbh. he physically could not compell himself to show anybody his spotify wrapped because almost all drake songs were in his top played. please never ever speak to him about the time he genuinely ugly cried to one dance. he will never elaborate and will probably go and sob to god's plan next.

his favourite songs by drake are :

way 2 sexy - ft. future and young thug on the certified lover boy album.

9 on the views album.

circo loco on the her loss album.

!!?—✩⌗ HONORABLE SONG MENTIONS : love is only a feeling by joey bada$$. small worlds by mac miller. awkward by SZA. finesse (remix) by bruno mars and cardi b.

hanamaki takahiro :

!!? ACTIVELY PUSHING THE MAKKI BRUNO MARS AGENDA!! fuck an evening with silk sonic he wants an evening with bruno 😭 all he is doing every day all day is praying bruno gets his heart broken again so he can drop another DELECTIBLE album!!!!! also him and iwa like to say that since makki is puerto rican and iwa is filipino, together they make one bruno mars <333 (this is a hc dont take it too srsly lol)

his favourite songs by bruno mars are :

that's what i like on the 24k magic album.

treasure on the unorthodox jukebox album.

after last night (with thunder cats & bootsy collins) on the an evening with silk sonic album.

!!? he is a dork and i am a dork soooo i'm gonna have to say he is a the living tombstone stan.... oikawa will go on full rants about how cringey 2020 was and how weird that video game animatronic type music is and he'll look over at makki and see the single tear roll down his face as he says he has no idea the music genre he's talking about 😭

his favourite songs by the living tombstone are :

my ordinary life (single).

drunk on the zero_one album.

jump up, super star! (single).

!!?—✩⌗ HONORABLE SONG MENTIONS : new person, same old mistakes by tame impala. your teeth in my neck by kali uchis. join us for a bite by JT music. ORANGE SODA by baby keem.

[chronotopes]

big epiphany last night that probably belongs in the diary and not on tumblr

but between august 2022 and april 2023 i was for the most part living this almost severance-like* lifestyle where on weekends i was a living being with a girlfriend and somewhat of a circle of friends and hobbies and interests and on weekdays i was someone who went to work and did my job and talked to my parents. and that was about it. maybe from an outside perspective that sounds like ~codependency!~ but it really had to do a lot less with being in a moderate-distance relationship and a lot more to do with the freaky all-consuming emotional demands of my job, and parts of my life that had blown up in a big way just as jenny's school year started, leaving me... unable or unwilling, for the most part, to do things like writing and going places in that weird work-week haze. such a clear delineation between Feeling Alive vs Tomorrow And Tomorrow And Tomorrow seems horrible and unsettling in hindsight but it felt okay at the time. there was a certain very rhythmic predictability to it. the bad things didn't disappear on the weekends and the good things weren't unreachable on the weekdays but – for the most part at least – in each case, one felt so much more important and all consuming than the other. the point is it's a weird transition from that to living with jenny and having a job that, while not perfect, gives me a lot more mobility and free emotional energy and functional stability. while still being very far away, an hour to two hours to much more than that, from all of the other fixtures of our social circle. i think a lot of my most #kind of pathetic moments in the past few months, "weeping on car rides home from seeing friends because you're sleepy" type behavior, comes in part from that transition state. the concept of 'feeling like a real person' is no longer reserved for three nights out of the week but that means there's another real person there to see me when i'm #kind of pathetic rather than super fun. i mean jenny has always seen me be kind of pathetic but there's a difference between acute emotional distress and the kind of empty listlessness that comes from an important part of your life being two hours away from where you live. driving home in the dark or in early morning and trying to stay awake. i guess what i'm trying to say is that a) i should not read the fact that i'm no longer on and off crushingly unhappy as a signal that i have to be super fun all the time because nobody can be super fun all the time even when they're happy, and b) the expectation gap between being Super Fun and Kind Of Tired is not being read in bad faith by the people around me, and c) if i'm driving at the end of a long day and thinking "i'm pathetic and weird and unfunny and nobody likes me" the key word is at the end of a long day and things are probably fine. anyway i thought through this on 95 last night and then put on e mo tion for the first time in like years (thank you hanif) and actually found that SOMEHOW in the midst of how obsessed i was with that album back in the day it actually has bonus tracks i haven't heard. love again goes hard. thank you carly rae jepsen, i did and do love again and it rules.

*haven't seen the show so i'm basing this metaphor exclusively off of the basic premise

[kiss2012]

ok rwrb thoughts under the cut <3

tbh i had to watch most of this movie with one hand over my eye and i was not. even going to reread the book because i don’t actually care about it much anymore but about twenty or so minutes into the movie? i literally stopped it and skimmed half the book finished the movie and then finished the book. so it’s possible that this influenced my whole experience of the movie but i remembered the book super well anyway and either way i think the thing i would have been most mad about is HOW COULD THEY LEAVE OUT JUNE and who tf is miguel omg. imagine deciding to combine two women into one character just because they “play the same role in alex’s life” and then not even doing it that well. nora isn’t even IN this movie she doesn’t even have a CHARACTER they just shoehorn her and pez together and give them five min of screentime. bea doesnt even have much of a character either i also thought maybe she and nora were going to be friends but no that disappeared after the first 15min. and because june doesn’t exist and because rafael luna doesn’t exist and because nora barely exists (all of whom are the main poc characters in the book btw) alex’s character is not half as nuanced as it could be. his arc about realising he’s bi is totally missing which is great…also his actor’s enunciation was very puzzling at times but i forgive him because of all the times i got distracted staring at his eyelashes and he was good at times tho henry’s actor is probably the best actor in the movie (not a tall bar btw but he’s way better than uma thurman GIRL WHAT WERE YOU DOING WITH THAT ACCENT) and it’s not that they don’t have chemistry or fun sweet romcom moments it’s just that i’m missing so much. romance. im tired of modern romance novels and movies having their leads get together super fast without spending much time on characterization and without even having much capital R-romance in the first place. where is the e-mo-tion in the immortal words of miss carly rae jepsen…like why did they leave out so much of the emails i cannot believe i watched so many random voice-overs and they couldn’t include the emails. also the small random change that bothered me the most is that they changed their first meeting being rio at the olympics to the climate melbourne conference (?????) and made their whole relationship pre-movie a lot less interesting. umm they did good with the interview and their interactions pre and post the cake but then they abandoned all of that half an hour in. do think the physical comedy is always way more fun to watch in a visual medium like that cake scene was hilarious they were just worse at the emotional beats. guys they used bad reputation 😭😭😭😭 i had to pause at that point…i had to pause and recover for ages. the get low scene contained a lot of Choices. the Choices were all very interesting and im not sure what more can be said about them. the beginning was fairly solid then everything sort of went downhill felt like i was watching a train wreck. mildly entertaining and occasionally moving train wreck but regardless a train wreck. btw let no one claim the political commentary in the novel is good but at least it slightly exists. the politics in the movie are completely spineless and extremely confused. yes it’s an amazon prime royalty romcom so what can u expect but they just hovered on the threshold of criticism. when they didn’t actually show a crowd of people supporting them or w/e but just showed the reflection of them in the window i almost started laughing. alex’s speech at the end lacked any subtlety at all and made no sense (why tf would he make a speech coming out + explaining his relationship with henry Before he talked to henry or the royal family???) the script is like constantly having characters say really obvious things. shoutout to stephen fry’s line delivery at least. there was a perfume genius cover of can’t help falling in love (it was supposed to be your song that played there anyway???). what more can be said.

[vanadiumheart]

What’s your go-to CRJ song when you need a good cry?

I'm glad you asked me this! I am about to provide. Too much information

My sincerest answer (altho don't get it twisted, all of this is going to be sincere) is that 1. It depends on what you need to cry about or for! And 2. Straight up sometimes I will just start craving a particular song when I need it. Lyrics start leaking into my thoughts and that's how I know to go play that until I feel able to stop.

It also depends on your personal relationship to CRJ and her music. What hits for me may not feel the same for you.

All that being said, if you want more specifics by God have I got specifics for you....come this way nothing bad will happen I prommy

OK SO I made a haphazard list and then tried to sort them by Theme, more or less. Here we go.

First need to cry: Being a homosexuale, reconnecting w Jepsen and her music, Like, sheer beauty and Artistry

1. Boy Problems. Boy Problems is maybe My CRJ song. It and the accompanying music video are what made me realize I needed to listen to this artist. This needed to take up a good percentage of my brain. Returning to this song reminds me how Carly's music speaks to my heart. Also her little mullet and the sparkle dress? 😳

2. Joshua Tree sounds like looking up into the night sky

3. Felt This Way's chorus makes me feel like I'm being liquefied and if I turn wrong everything in my skull will pour out onto the ground (this is a positive e•mo•tion)

Honorable mention to Heartbeat, a sound like lavender and drinking ice water in the dark of night

Next need to cry: Unspeakable Fucking Heartache

These are all songs that I have personally needed to put on individual repeat until the howling inside me stopped for a while

1. For Sure. Do you ever go through your first lesbian breakup and you're afraid you're going to be lesbian alone forever and then CRJ has an album come out immediately after and it's speaking directly to you, Vada, you personally? Yeah....me neither...

2. Too Much. Is this too much? Am I too close? 'Cause--

3. Keep Away. Dear fucking god. What did she put in here. What did she put in this. If I suddenly go limp and my phone rolls delicately out of my slack hand and shatters on the floor, like I'm a dainty debutante that's been Poisoned in her Chambers. Know it was Carly, and I accept responsibility. She caught me slipping

Today's third and final cry: HEARTBREAK (assorted!)

1. First Time is an easy one to offer. It's sad, it's straightforward, it still kind of makes you want to sing and dance even as you're sprawled out on your bed, informing the CRJ of your mind's eye that it is, in fact, the first time. Maybe the first time it's happened to anyone ever at all. Then again how did she write this if that was true.

2. The Sound. Ouuuughhhh. Righteous anger. Love IS more than telling me you want it!!!!!! And Carly can remind you that you deserve better

3. Roses. The music in Roses makes me want to writhe around on the ground, and you can shout the chorus along with her

Can you tell I'm losing steam...but we persist

4. Right Words Wrong Time is so good. It's an acceptance of sorrow--he's never going to be what she needs when she needs it. The end sounds like an angelic chorus demanding you leave. Augh.

5. I'll Be Your Girl is so fucking sad. It's angry and jealous and I always think of it in conjunction with Your Type, because where Your Type is about defying the desire to change to hold on to somebody, I'll Be Your Girl is about indulging in that feeling. It hurts to identify with it, stings just a little bit.

In conclusions

It's depends. I hope this answered your question! 💛

[dungeonsanddragonsfifthedition]

top five albums?

even better--i made a new topsters. because narrowing it down to 5 is hard.

i didn't let myself repeat artists otherwise there would be more goats (tallahassee especially but beat the champ is also up there lol) on here

album listing under the cut:

hospice - the antlers (ultimate crying album)

all hail west texas - the mountain goats (combines classic goats lo-fi with their more contemporary lyrical sensibilities. great to yell along with)

the money store - death grips (it's as good as every annoying music critic says it is)

dragon new warm mountain i believe in you - big thief (one of two very recent albums on here. adrienne lenker is a god.)

the age of adz - sufjan stevens (maybe not his best album objectively, but the subject matter hits hard.)

bury me at makeout creek - mitski (my first mitski album back in 2014, and still my favorite. defined my teenage years.)

igor - tyler, the creator (no one does it like tyler)

nebraska - bruce springsteen (along with purple rain, the two albums my mom played for me as a kid that have stuck around the longest. sorry prince i just have atlantic city stuck in my head rn!)

twin fantasy - car seat headrest (either version. will toledo and i are from the same general area so i'm automatically biased towards him and then he makes this fucking. gay opus.)

burn pymalion!!! a better guide to romance - the scary jokes (did things to my head when i was 18/19/20 and does things to my head still.)

comfort eagle - cake (GOOD ASS ALBUM WITH HORNS ON IT)

fetch the bolt cutters - fiona apple (c'mon)

the glow pt 2 - the microphones (other ultimate crying album)

dirty computer - janelle monáe (insane album. cohesive and beautiful. i love janelle's older stuff and i love age of pleasure but dirty computer is just fucking out of this world.)

e•mo•tion - carly rae jepsen (see my comment about death grips)

69 love songs - the magnetic fields (kind of cheating bc it's so long but. what can i say. it's a good album.)

10,000 gecs - 100 gecs (the newest album on here. i don't remember an album i've had as much fun listening to as this one. fuck all gec haters.)

depression cherry - beach house (best album to get high on the substance of your choice (including life if you don't partake in anything) to)

trick - alex g (alex g good)

my cute fiend sweet princess - kimya dawson (who else had their world rocked by the juno soundtrack at a young age)

remain in light - talking heads (along with stop making sense, which felt like cheating, the talking heads record we had in the house)

flood - they might be giants (tmbg is just plain good at what they do)

the crane wife - the decemberists (C'MON)

reddishness - girls rituals (not for everyone, but it hits for me. it might hit for you.)

pet sounds - the beach boys (it came down to this or blond by frank ocean lol. but i feel like you don't get blond without pet sounds. so.)

[kkrazy256]

AO3 wrapped!

Respond to this with what you would call the top 5 fanfics you’ve read in 2022. Any genre! Any ship! (Bonus points: if you’re a creator, make this a 5+1 and include your favorite fic you wrote in 2022!)

Then leave this in your friends’ asks too. Let’s give creators one more spotlight before the year ends, and share some of what we’ve enjoyed along the way!

Hiii mikey!! Had to go dig in bookmarks and deliberate how to narrow it down to five, that is so little to account for all the amazing ones I’ve read this year 😭 so I’ll try to put a few from different fandoms. 

TCW

politicians in my eyes by jaigeye. A Fox kills Palp fic, but I will know it as THE Fox kills Palp fic. This fic still lives in my head rent free all the time. It’s amazing. I remember reading it while listening to the accompanying playlist. A whole different experience. Remi’s writing is just, I can’t even explain it. Amazing amazing stuff. 

their days are darker by Cal. CAL FIC BELOVED. Thank you so much for hyping this fic up on the dash when it was ongoing. Because I would have never seen it. The first cal fic I read and how I got to meet Cal. Holding this most belovedly because e mo tions. 

Naruto

The Last Time I'll Abandon You by professor of naruto. Just holy shit. I’m in the process of re-reading it right after catching up because I can’t put my thoughts about it in words just yet. Because it’s just so so SO good. I went through the entire thing like, ‘oh god everything happens so much to him. Oh god someone PLEASE help him’ It’s :(((( I’m so emo. It’s so good. I love the way they’ve written each character, especially Rin. This fic hurts my heart and I love love love it.

Dance of the Dog God by Tartarun. AU where kks went rogue before Kannabi. And Obito adopts Naru and Sasuke. Cool exploration of how different everyone’s dynamics would be in this situation. Awesome mission arcs. The words they string together are breathtaking. Sometimes I just reread certain lines like wow. I need to print these words out and eat them. The worldbuilding of Uzushio is so so cool. Very highly recommended. 

Disco Elysium

10,000 Things According to Will by Lepak. Kim reconnecting with his Seolite heritage and all the mixed feelings that come with that. This one made me genuinely cry and feel so homesick. There were so many moments in this one where I had to stop and say, ‘hey, I’ve felt this. Hey, I’ve had this dish before’. Just very genuine and beautiful writing. 

+1 

My favorite this year of my own writing is Of Hair Dyes and Dolls  This was my first time writing Sabine and Rebels fic in general. But I really loved the way I wrote this. It felt like a little movie, and I’m so glad I was finally able to convey that grandpa granddaughter relationship between her and Remedy. 

[taylorswiftstylequestions]

Hi Sarah, I’m on a quest to get into Carly Rae Jepsen. I know a handful of her songs but her catalog is DEEP with all the b sides and deluxe tracks and I’m overwhelmed! I know she was one of your top artists of the year so I’d love to know some of your favorite CRJ tunes! Ty ☺️

Aww this is so cute! Carly is such a blast and I'll always have such love in my heart for her as a local girl <3

My faves:

Tug of War: "Heavy Lifting", "Worldly Matters", "Hotel Shampoos" (My nostalgic fave forever as this is when I became a fan. Definitely her debut/indie acoustic baby first album - all her other albums are BIG FUN DISCO POP)

EMOTION: "E-mo-tion", "All That", "Making The Most of the Night", "Your Type", "I Didn't Just Come Here To Dance"

Dedicated: "Too Much", "Automatically In Love", "Right Words Wrong Time"

Dedicated Side B: "Window", "Felt This Way", "Stay Away", "Heartbeat", "Fake Mona Lisa"

The Loneliest Time: "Surrender My Heart", "Talking To Yourself", "Bad Thing Twice", "The Loneliest Time", "Anxious"

[imathers]

Top 40: Carly Rae Jepsen — The Loneliest Time

I will probably never write a Carly Rae Jepsen record review. I just don’t know what I’d say. There’s plenty of music I love hugely and wholly where I’ve needed to write about it (even some cases where I think it turned out well!), but of artists who’s work I love as much as I love most of hers, she’s pretty unique in that I feel pretty “whereof one cannot speak one must pass over in silence” about her. Since at least E•MO•TION I’ve loved pretty much everything I’ve heard from her, and unlike most other acts (pop or not) I’ve felt that way about, it’s in a way that renders me just an uncritical listener of it. There isn’t anyone else where I’m excited for the new record not just for great new songs but to advance my understanding of the persona and the narrative and etc. (I know I do not know this person and I am not trying to be parasocial, but let’s just say the CRJ character that she sings in the voice of is one I care about a lot). Stan culture is, well, bad, but this particular artist is the closest I get to understanding the appeal of it.

This also means my response to her music is probably pretty boring. I loved all the pre-album singles! I loved the album the first time I heard it! I love it more now! This list is alphabetical, yes, but if I was trying to rank them this one would both be high but also somehow stand outside of that ranking - it’s just the new CRJ record, and I know how I feel about that.

[honeydew-tiger]

bro i am. i am just going to commit some crimes

[groovesnjams]

“Beach House” by Carly Rae Jepsen

DV:

Seven years ago we covered every weird song Carly Jepsen released in the runup to E*MO*TION, and now we’re going to do it again. Because it’s Carly, sure, but also because The Loneliest Time seems set to be one of the year’s oddest releases. “Western Wind” came packaged with a consistent aesthetic, a clear buildup, promo budget: everything Carly usually doesn’t have. It suggested a plan, a future. “Beach House” drops now, and it’s over two months later - with no notice, days after an album announcement but not coordinated with that announcement in any way. It’s a bouncy song, it sounds like late summer, and it has to do with how Carly Rae Jepsen has dated creeps and frauds and serial killers, each described in the same jaunty way and each voiced by an uncredited male chorus. “Beach House” is profoundly strange in the same way as “Store” or “Everything He Needs”: it sounds nothing like anything Carly has done before, and also nothing like any song a nominally-pop artist in 2022 should release. "Beach House” has got more in common with Ethel Cain - subtly horrifying even as it exhilarates - than it does with anything attempting to hit a popular mood, much less hit the charts. Back in the E*MO*TION era, Carly sounded like she was constantly topping herself; if Dedicated was a disappointment, it’s because it often felt like it confined itself to refining or tweaking what she’d done in the years before: only a half-step forward. So far, this era is as if she’s forging new pathways through a forest, marking them out and remaking them in her image. As if each single is a new discovery. It’s not not confusing - but I couldn’t be more thrilled.

MG:

I’m significantly less thrilled with “Beach House” than DV. What felt whimsical and free from artifice a few years ago has now settled into a fairly predictable carousel of misdirects and mismanagement. A recent profile with Nylon magazine reveals "[s]he sent her publisher some 30 to 40 songs she was considering for the album, which she narrowed down from a hundred song ideas through a ‘mad, scientific process’ involving charts and voting systems.” I can’t put into words how frustrating I find that detail, especially with a song like “Beach House” as the ersatz prize for Carly’s listeners. Her catalog is saturated with pure crap, but in the past I was able to write that off as the auteur’s vision because it appeared like there was no label oversight, no big, bad A&R man telling her what the single was. What’s now clear is that there’s significant effort behind her song selection (and probably her singles, her album promotion, her tours, her merch -- all of which are woeful compared to the rest of the pop market) and we could hear more songs like “Western Wind” if we weren’t so subject to album curation via raffle and bingo.

Ostensibly, “Beach House” is meant to fit with “Western Wind” into a broader theme of “loneliness” for her upcoming album, The Loneliest Time. In the above interview, Carly talks of grief and distance, of lack and inability, and of craziness and she attributes all these qualities to the loneliness of lockdown during the pandemic. But little, if any, of that shows up in the formulaic quirkiness of “Beach House.” In this song she cavorts from Malibu to Canada, hooks up with so many men she loses count, and then complains “boys around the world/ I want to believe that/ when your chase a girl/ it’s not just hunting season.” This is not a song about loneliness, it’s a song about choice paralysis, about being sat in front of a buffet filled with things you don’t want to touch, much less put in your mouth. For what it’s worth, very little of “Western Wind” (which I still love) speaks to anything I recognize as loneliness, either.

All of this rankles me, but Carly is unbothered, explaining “I don’t want to have to feel like I am one thing, and I don’t want my album to feel that way, either. So I think I’ve shut off this idea of cohesiveness. I’m the thread.” Then call the album Carly Rae Jepsen.

[paddingtonfan69]

A few summers ago I started every morning with a full e•mo•tion album listen before I would do anything else and honestly I should go back to that

First of all, your TASTE jumped out!!!

Second of all, you gotta go back to that!! Literally this morning I slapped that bad boy on, and today was such a typical mundane monday morning but then making the most of the night came on and I felt ALIVE and have been riding that high every since!!!

Also like, do not think anyone captures the euphoria and heartbreak involved in having a CRUSH quite like carly, specifically on this album like it blows my mind!! And the way she packages all these complex emotions (ha) into perfect bubble gum pop, it’s GENIUS I love her!!!

And there’s such a relatability to her lyrics in that, of course, in this moment I’m applying them to various fictional characters, but also I’ve had so many moments where her lyrics reflect things in my own life and I think that’s what makes a good song or album is how it takes an experience you think is so specific and puts it to words and music that can make you feel less alone, like someone else has been through this longing!!! It’s okay!!

Lol not me writing a novel here about our lord and savior carly rae jepsen but thank you so much for letting me indulge on this one!

[orange-waterfalls]

Can We Talk?

Bim Trimmer x m!reader

ty @just-bts-trash-00 for the request!

A/N: WHOOOOOOO BOY HOWDY, GUESS WHO'S BACK. It's been uh. A while. I'm sorry? School has been hectic and my mental health is SHIT, but i fucking finished it holy god. Anywaaaays, angst. Y'all remember Bim's crush on Matthias? Yeah that's the plot. It's pretty long and I think it's pretty shit but uh here I guess.

Word count: 2.9k

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You hummed quietly as you fixed dinner for you and your boyfriend in the kitchen. Normally, you didn’t cook. Neither did Bim. Therefore, one of you had to be the cook in the relationship, and you supposed it had to be you. You couldn’t just get takeout until the end of time.

Well… maybe if you really wanted to.

But you didn’t. You wanted to cook for your boyfriend. He’d said something about “Jewish burgers” one day, and you didn’t know what that meant. At this point, you were too scared to ask. You’d found a recipe for shawarma, and he’d liked that shawarma place you went to the other day, so you were making shawarma. At least… you did your best.

You yawned and rubbed your eyes, quickly hissing because you somehow forgot there was a bunch of shit on your hands. You quickly turned the faucet on and put your eye under the stream to clean it out.

As you dried your face, you heard a car pull up to the driveway, along with three short honks. You smiled. Finally. You wiped your hands on a rag and turned around to greet your gameshow host.

“Honey, I’m home!” He said in a sing-songy voice as he looked around for you. He saw you leaning on the kitchen counter and smiled. He shrugged off his suit jacket and sat his bag down. He walked towards you with his arms open. You pushed yourself off of the counter and fell into him.

“Hi…” you whispered. He chuckled and held you tight.

“What’s up?” He sniffed the air. “And what’s cooking?”

“Shawarma…” you said, your voice muffled in his neck.

“And uh… what’s wrong?” You brought your head up and squinted at him. “Ah, of course. The process of making the shawarma. What else would it be?” You shoved your face back in his neck with a grunt of affirmation. He snorted and patted your back. He directed you towards the couch, where you plopped down on your back with a groan.

“Dinner…” you whined. He sat his phone on the coffee table and took his shoes off.

“I’ll finish it up.” He patted your stomach.

“Thank you…” He kissed your forehead and walked away, letting you have your rest. You felt kinda bad, he’d been working all day, and it must be tiring having to sound so happy all the time. Then again, YOU worked all day too, AND you tried to make dinner. Your small rest was earned.

You closed your eyes and sighed, relaxing into the sofa. You startled a bit at the notification sound coming from his phone.

“Bim, your phone… binged…” You called. Binged? Was that the word?

“I’ll be done in a minute.” He responded.

Dinged! That was it.

You glanced at the phone. It didn’t sound like his usual texting sound, and he didn’t have any games as far as you knew. Maybe it was an email.

Your curiosity got the better of you and you checked the lockscreen.

Yup! Email. From someone named… M? Who was that?

You shrugged and put it back down. None of your business.

Bim walked back into the living room holding two plates.

“Dinner is served!” He said in a bad English accent.

“Woo…” You cheered weakly and sat up. He put the plates on the table and went back towards the kitchen. “Oh, I bought wine earlier. The good shit, that Dark gets sometimes.”

“Damn, really? How much did that cost you?” He asked in disbelief.

“It was on sale.”

“Why would the good shit be on sale?”

“Some people just don’t have taste.” You smiled when you heard him laugh. He walked back in with two wine glasses and the bottle. “Oh, you have an email from someone named ‘M’.” He tensed up when he heard the name.

That’s… weird…

“O-Oh, uh… thanks…” He scrambled to grab his phone and shoved it in his pocket. You quirked an eyebrow at him. Suspicious…

“Uh… no problem…” He looked nervous as he poured wine for you two. You squinted at him a bit, wondering why he was so anxious. You trusted him, of course you did, but this was… weird.

You two sat and ate your dinner in silence. You kept trying to look at him but he avoided your eyes. When you finished your food, you poured more wine into your glass and downed it.

This was gonna be one of those days.

--

Yes, okay, you were drunk. Not blackout drunk, but drunk enough to not exactly know what was going on. You knew that Bim was a bit drunk as well and you two were laughing at… something… but other than that, you got nothing.

“I’m ju-I’m jus-I’m…” You paused and blinked a couple times to process your own words. “I’m just saying that Twilight coulda been sssssoooo much better… if the portag… protagonist… fuck’s her name again?”

“Bella?” Bim chuckled.

“That’s the bitch!” You slammed your hand down on the table. Bim wheezed. “If she’d just had… a little-a little more e-mo-tion, a little more person… personality… then Twilight coulda been better! But noooooo, she had ta be… the most person-boring person in cinematic history. Bull. shhhhhit.”

“Well, she’s… she needs to… young girls have to… relate to her!”

“Okay, but like… she’s a got-damn plank o’ wood.”

“Tha-hahahaha! That’s not fair!”

“She is! She never-she’s not-she-oh god, I’m drunk…” You squeezed your eyes shut and leaned forward, face angled at the floor in case you got nauseous.

“Yeah… me too…” He sighed.

“Hey, hey Bim?” You opened an eye and turned to him. He hummed in response. “Who’s ‘M’?” He tensed up again and you frowned.

“Uh, nobody. Nobody! D-Don’t worry about it!” He cleared his throat and shifted in his chair.

“Suspicious…” you mumbled.

“Huh?”

“Nothin’.”

You tilted your head at him, half trying to figure out who it could be(which was very difficult in your drunken state) and half trying to read his mind. You supposed he got kind of uncomfortable because he said:

“I’m gonna… go into my office… and check some things…” He stood up and shuffled into a small room that he’d claimed as his office. You sighed and sunk back into the couch, thinking about your options.

First step was communication. You tried to talk to him, but he was being evasive and didn’t honestly answer the question. Suspicious.

Second step was… looking around the house for clues as to who it was like you were Sherlock Holmes? Absolutely.

You brought yourself to your feet, only stumbling a little, and tiptoed to your shared bedroom. You closed the door behind you as softly as you could before walking over to the closet. You opened it and looked for a moment before deciding it wasn’t worth to actually move things around. You shut the door and moved to the drawers. If anything was gonna be anywhere, it would be in the sock drawer, right? You reached out and put your hand on the handle. You tugged a bit, cracking it open, just a little. Your brain kept telling you that you were already there, just get it over with.

But your heart(well… still your brain, but whatever) was telling you that you needed to trust your boyfriend if this relationship was going to work.

You sighed and shut the drawer, flopping face-first onto the bed.

Bim wasn’t the type to cheat. Well… you didn’t think so, anyways. You loved him and… well, you hoped he loved you. You were going to have faith in your boyfriend. No matter how curious you were.

You shifted around in the bed so you were laying in the correct direction. You were still on your stomach, and you closed your eyes, facing the wall opposite of the door.

After a few minutes, you heard the door quietly creak open. The lights turned off and you heard footsteps make their way towards the bed. You smiled a bit and turned your head to look at Bim. Your smile fell as you saw him open the sock drawer and pull a napkin out.

“Hi Bim.” you said. He screamed and shoved the napkin back in the drawer, slamming it shut. You blinked at him.

“H-Hi, darling, I-I didn’t know you were awake…” He stuttered.

“I was.” You raised your eyebrows.

“Well… I can see that…” He laughed nervously. You looked at his hand on the drawer.

“What were you looking at?” You asked.

Please tell me the truth, you begged in your head.

“Oh, uh… n-nothing important, haha…”

Dammit, Bim.

“Okay, well… come to bed?” You suggested. You smiled at him as best you could.

“Uh… I’m kinda busy…” He scratched his head. You frowned.

“Please?” You begged and held your arms out. He opened his mouth to oppose, but he decided to make eye contact for the first time tonight since dinner. He visibly relaxed and smiled at you, and you smiled back. He sighed and took his glasses off. You scooted over so he could climb in next to you. You wrapped your arms around him and snuggled into his chest.

“I love you…” you whispered. He didn’t say anything for a moment before he chuckled.

“I love you, too. Night, darling.”

“Good night.”

--

You woke up feeling cold. You reached out to your boyfriend, but he wasn’t there. You rolled over and looked at the time. 3:00 am. Jesus, what was Bim doing? You slowly stood up and got out of bed, still feeling very tired. You walked around for a bit, searching for your partner, before pausing.

Was he… talking to someone? At this hour?

You walked towards the bathroom, where Bim’s voice was coming from. You put an ear against the door, trying to listen.

“Why can’t he just leave me alone, why can’t he just let me live my life?!” He whisper-yelled. “I’m perfectly content with how I am now. He didn’t want me when I was available, and now I’m unavailable, and suddenly he loves me?! What kind of bullshit is that?!” You frowned, not knowing who he was talking to. You were worried because of how upset he sounded. You softly knocked on the door.

“Bim? You alright?” You asked quietly. You heard a small thump from inside and flinched.

“Y-Yeah! Just… Just give me a minute!” He yelled. You walked away from the door and looked into the office. You saw your jacket on the floor and scoffed. How’d that get there?

You walked to the other side of the room and grabbed it. As you were walking back, something caught your eye. Bim hadn’t turned the computer off. You figured you’d do it for him. As you went to click out of the open tab, you saw messages on the screen. From ‘M’.

M

Do you love me?

B

Sure

M

So, you’ll get me on your gameshow again?

B

I’ll try.

M

Oh. I see.

B

I’ll try my best. I’ll do anything for you.

M

Anything?

B

Yes

M

Leave your boyfriend

Hello?

Trimmer? You there?

Your vision started to blur and you were confused until you felt the tears start down your face. You were still drunk, right? That’s why you were so emotional.

Yep. That’s it. That’s the only reason.

You wiped your face and went back to the bathroom door. He was still talking, but more quietly so you didn’t really hear him. After a minute or two, he sighed and unlocked the bathroom door. You stepped away and leaned on the wall opposite the door. Bim walked out and yelped.

“Oh my God! Hi!” He laughed. “I-I didn’t know you were still out here, uh…” He looked at you and furrowed his eyebrows. “Your… eyes are kinda red… are you ok?” He reached out to touch your face but you avoided his hand.

“No, no. I’m fine. Just… need to use the… bathroom…” You said, managing to not have any voice cracks or slur any words. Nice.

“I… ok…” He dropped his hand and walked towards your bedroom. You went into the bathroom, shutting and locking it behind you. You hiccuped a bit before tears started streaming down your face. You leaned your forehead on the door, just letting it all out. You hadn’t cried in a while, that’s all.

That is the only reason.

You stood there and cried for a bit before walking over to the sink and looking at yourself in the mirror.

God, you were a mess.

Your eyes were all red and puffy, there were tear marks on your cheeks, you kept sniffling like a goddamn third grader.

And it… hurt.

Not just your eyes stinging from the tears. Although that hurt too.

The fact that he was hiding from you, that he wouldn’t talk to you, that he didn’t trust you.

You sighed and shut your eyes. You turned the faucet on, splashing water on your face, wiping all the evidence away.

You turned the water off and stared at your face, dripping wet, looking a bit shit.

“I’ll talk to him in the morning…” you promised yourself. You went back into your bedroom, finding Bim already asleep. You climbed in next to him, but didn’t hold him like you usually did. You curled up and turned away.

You’d talk to him in the morning.

--

You went to the living room after waking up and getting ready. You were supposed to go into work, but you told your boss you were having “family problems” and might come in later. You sat on the couch and watched a bit of tv while you waited for Bim to wake up. He had the day off, so he didn’t have to worry about anything. He was

You sat with your knees tucked in. You lifted your head a bit when you heard th shower turn on. You sighed and thought about what you were supposed to say.

Hi, Bim. I’m worried about you. Is there anything you want to tell me?

Hi, Bim. You’ve been acting weird recently. Everything ok?

Hi, Bim. I went through your messages. Are you cheating on me?

You groaned and buried your face in your hands. Why was this happening? Was he not happy? Were you doing something wrong?

As you were overthinking, the shower turned off. You uncovered your face and turned the TV off. You sat and waited for Bim to enter the living room.

Okay, just… tell him what happened.

Bim walked in wearing a T-Shirt and sweatpants. He went to the door and grabbed a jacket.

“We need more chicken, I’ll head to the store and-”

“Can we talk? Can you sit down for a second?” You interrupted. He froze halfway through putting his jacket on and stared at you.

“Um… okay…” He said slowly. He put the jacket on the back of his chair and sat. You sighed and put your legs down.

“Last night, when you were in the bathroom, I went into your office,” you explained. His eyes widened. Not a good sign.

“Why-Why did you do that?” His voice cracked as he spoke.

“I saw my jacket on the floor.” His face twitched into a scowl for a millisecond.

“Okay… and?”

“And… I figured I’d turn your computer off for you.” You avoided looking at him. “I s-saw some messages, and I wanted to ask-”

“I’m not cheating on you!” He claimed loudly. You blinked and looked at him. He looked scared. Kinda panicked.

“Okay…”

“I-I don’t like him anymore! That was like a joke message! I didn’t mean it, I just wanted to know if he actually felt anything for me, or if I was just being used by him! It was from a while ago! I-I know I shouldn’t have messaged him, I know a-and I’m sorry, but I don’t know why he’s messaging me again now! I want nothing to do with him I promise!” You hummed and looked away. You heard a shuffle before Bim appeared on his knees on the floor in front of you.

“Wha-Bim?” You flushed.

“Please, please, please believe me! I never wanted anyone but you! I just… It wasn’t recent, it was a while ago! I wanted to know if he ever actually liked me, and… I had you! There wasn't any reason to go back to him! And I don’t want to lose you! I-I can be better, I promise!”

“Okay, h-how ‘bout we calm down-”

“I do love you, I-I do! But… if you don’t trust me anymore, that’s fine! I-I just want you to be happy and-”

“BIM!” You yelled. He looked up at you with misty eyes and a quivering lip. You shook your head with a small laugh.

“Wh-What’s so funny?” He sniffled.

“I’m not gonna leave you! I understand! You wanted to know if there was anything ever there, if he ever felt anything for you instead of just being a manipulative bastard.” You smirked.

“Yes! Exactly!” He nodded his head hard.

“You could’ve… said that. I would’ve understood…”

“You… You would have?”

“Bim, you’re an adult. Do you not know how to communicate?”

“Uh… not… really?” He furrowed his eyebrows.

“Okay, we’re gonna have to work on that, and I think you might have trust issues too… ” You shook your head.

“Do I need therapy?”

“Yeah, therapy’s good for this sort of thing.”

You moved forward and kissed his forehead. He wiped his eyes and kissed you gently.

“Are we gonna be okay?” He asked after pulling back. You leaned your forehead against his.

“Yeah… we’ll be okay?”

[myshyyangel]

'the playlist of my life'

I decided to make this list because, one, I've been feeling a little down lately, and I am under a lot of stress. Second, writing this much gets me thinking on something else. I decided to watch GOT7 doing this and I was like "huh I love these guys... " lol. But idk. Anyways.

"Perfect" by Selena Gomez.

I just love this track off of Selena's second studio album "Revival" (first if you dont count SD, as we don't), when I listen to it I just feel the emotions and because I went through a similar situation, I get the feeling. One of my favorite songs of all time.

"Void" & "Compass" by The Neighbourhood.

Both of these songs can describe my mood recently but aside from that. These songs put me through the moments that I really feel like shit. the vocals, the production and just the overall, is immaculate, tbh.

"Cut my lip" & "Leave the City" by Twenty One Pilots.

You see, Trench is one of my favorite albums of all times BUT these two tracks (bandito too) can get me. I can't tell y'all the many times that I have cried listening to these two songs.

"Slow Dancing in the Dark" by Joji

This song is just beautifully produced. And I heard it for the first time three days after this guy said that he really wasn't into "men". Weird, but hey. Anyway, this is a masterpiece.

me talking about guys in the next couple of songs:

"Life is too short" by Tinashe.

I had never been a fan of Tinashe until I heard this song. I so love this song and it just puts me in a good mood and makes you wanna move, BUT also, I just makes me wanna go to someone and kiss them just cause "life is too short baby".

"Gimme Love" by Carly Rae Jepsen.

I can honestly include any song off of E°MO°TION but this one is marked on me. I dedicated this song to my first "boyfriend/lover?" and I was, honestly, head over heels, until he fell in love with someone close to me. BUT I love this song regardless. A masterpiece.

"Girl Crush" by Little Big Town.

Well, If you read why Perfect by Selena is included here, then, here is the same reason. No further explanation. Plus, the song is SOOO GOOOOD.

"I Can't Stop Me" by TWICE.

I am an ONCE, and I can literally include a whole lot of songs From TWICE or EWO, but ICSM gets me. (Handle It, Say Something, Up No More, BTM, etc. Too) it just gets me in the move, the production is amazing and it lightnings me.

"Last Piece" & "Breathe" by GOT7.

The two songs that made me stan GOT7 and honestly, the production is just amazing. It makes me (just like ICSM) wanna move and bop my head to it.

"Souvenir" by Selena Gomez.

Well, I can include a whole bunch of Selena's songs cause I am a Selenator (OG 2009 babyyy) but, her recent work>>>. Love this song, the production, lyrics, vocals, everything.

"Don't forget about us" by Mariah Carey.

Same boy... I was really in love, i am telling y'all. This song reminds me of my ex(?), and honestly, i cant hate the song, so...

"Inside Your Mind" by The 1975.

I had a crush on someone and I really wanted to know what they felt for me but I couldn't find the words to kinda just say it. So I never did.

"Te Regalo" by Carla Morrison.

The lyrics man, I just cry everytime I listen to this.

"Sleepover" by Hayley Kiyoko.

Its just my gay anthem and there's nothing you can do about it. Crush culture.

"Wild" by Troye Sivan.

this just reminds me of my childhood and you guys know what I mean...

"This is what they say" by Carly Rae Jepsen.

Honestly, any song in "Dedicated" is pure perfection, AND I WON'T DEDICATE THOSE, EVER. Carly is like my icon. The whole vine of this album it just... i should listen to it before going to bed now just so that I can feel happy.

"I Always Wanna d!e (sometimes)" & "I Couldn't be More in Love with You" by The 1975.

I don't really listen to "IAWD(S)" often, but it is part of my life and I like to play "ICBMILWY" after just to remind myself that there's people out there that loves me and appreciate me.

Amyways, that was fun. LOL

I feel better

[annelisterofhalifax]

Northgate Hotel, laying a stone and burying a time-capsule

Sept[embe]r 26 1835

8

12 1/4

No kiss rain last night fr[om] bet[ween] 11 and 12 to aft[e]r 1 – rainy morn[in]g b[u]t n[o]t heavy r[ai]n till n[ea]r

9 t[he]n fair and F[ahrenheit] 55° - br[eak]f[a]st at 9 1/4   A getting off her speech for the first stone lay

ing and I writing out mine put on my new pelisse and had my hair done – Mar[ia]n

w[a]s to ha[ve] gone to t[h]e 1st stone lay[in]g, b[u]t g[o]t nerv[ou]s and staid at ho[me] – A-[Ann] and I off at 10 3/4

in my own carr[ia]ge w[i]th our 2 men beh[in]d, to N[orth]g[a]te hotel – n[o]t qui[te] ready

for us - beg[a]n look[in]g ov[e]r t[h]e draw[in]gs of N[orth]g[a]te and by mista[ke] kept t[h]e people wait[in]g and d[i]d n[o]t begin t[h]e

ceremony till ab[ou]t 11 3/4

w[hi]ch last[e]d ab[ou]t 1/4 h[ou]r – A-[Ann] d[i]d h[e]r part ver[y] well – t[h]e coins of t[h]e King’s reign

, W[illia]m iV, i.e a sov[erig]n, ½ d[itt]o, 1/2 crown shil[ling] and sixp[en]ce ( c[oul]d n[o]t get a 7/. [7 shillin]g piece ver[y] scarce – Swanns

t[h]e

bankers in York h[a]d on[l]y seen two of W[illia]m Iv 7/. pieces. were put int[o] a large

mouth[e]d green glass bot[tle] as als[o] an inscript[io]n engrav[e]d on sheet-lead and roll[e]d up

tight – t[h]e cork w[a]s dipp[e]d in tar, t[he]n put int[o] t[h]e neck of t[h]e bot[tle] and cov[ere]d ov[e]r w[i]th course

red wax – Sh[oul]d ha[ve] been hermatic[all]y seal[e]d b[u]t  mess[e]rs Harper and Husb[an]d c[oul]d n[o]t get

it done – h[a]d no blowpipe -  I s[ai]d I c[oul]d ha[ve] g[o]t it done at old Ch[arle]s How[ar]th’s – no!

bec[ause] it w[a]s n[o]t plate glass – t[h]e green glass too diffic[ul]t to fuse! t[h]e stone in

w[hi]ch t[h]e hole w[a]s made t[ha]t put t[h]e bot[tle] int[o] w[a]s a large sq[uare] piece of rough stone

fr[om] one of Stock’s quarries, wh[en]ce co[me]s t[h]e rest of t[h]e stone want[e]d, and form[e]d t[h]e foot[in]g of

t[h]e front corn[e]r, n[ear]est H[alifa]x, of t[h]e Casino – ov[e]r t[h]e foot[in]g w[a]s put a ver[y] large mass of grit stone

quarried at N[orth]g[a]te in dig[gin]g for t[h]e cellar, w[hi]ch they call[e]d t[h]e foundat[io]n stone – t[he]re m[u]st

ha[ve] been a hund[re]d peop[le] collect[e]d r[ou]nd t[h]e spot – 2 neatly dress[e]d young lad[ie]s? so[me] respect[able]

look[ing] men and t[h]e rest rabble – t[he]re w[a]s a lit[tle] crowd to push thro[ugh] to get int[o] t[h]e wall –

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  1835

Sept[embe]r

Vc

race – Mr Nelson jun[io]r and his men were in work[in]g costume – t[h]e bot[tl]e w[a]s held

in h[a]nd by A-[Ann] whi[le] she address[e]d Mr N-[Nelson] as foll[ow]s ‘ Mr Nelson, I ha[ve] been request[e]d

‘by my fr[ien]d Miss List[e]r, to lay t[h]e 1st stone of a casino, w[hi]ch will form a spac[iou]s and commod[atiou]s saloon

‘to be annex[e]d to t[h]e Northgate hotel – I will on[l]y add t[ha]t we hope and trust t[ha]t t[h]e und[er]tak[in]g

‘will prove an accommodate[io]n to t[h]e inhab[itan]ts of t[hi]s town and neighb[ourhoo]d, in wh[o]se prosper[it]y

‘we feel interest[e]d; t[ha]t it will be a gr[ea]t an accommodate[io]n to t[h]e pub[lic] at large, and t[ha]t it will

‘do cred[i]t to all t[h]e individ[ua]ls concern[e]d in its erect[io]n’ -  t[hi]s s[ai]d A-[Ann] deposit[e]d t[h]e bottle – 8 or

10 men low[ere]d d[o]wn and prop[erl]y plac[e]d ov[e]r it t[h]e foundat[io]n stone w[hi]ch A-[Ann] t[he]n ga[ve] 3 right

earnest strokes w[i]th her mallet, and I spo[ke] as foll[ow]s look[in]g now at Mr N-[Nelson] and now at t[h]e peop[le]

assembl[e]d r[ou]nd – Mr Nelson – my fr[ien]d Miss Walker h[a]s done us a gr[ea]t honour; and

‘I trust her good wishes will n[o]t be in vain – I am ver[y] anx[iou]s t[ha]t t[hi]s Casino

‘w[i[th its annex[e]d Hotel sh[oul]d be an accomm[oda[tion] to t[h]e pub[lic] at large, b[u]t mo[re] espec[iall]y to

‘t[hi]s my native town in whose prosper[it]y I ev[e]r ha[ve] felt, and ev[e]r shall feel, deeply

‘interest[e]d – I earnest[l]y hope t[ha]t t[hi]s work we are now begin[in]g, will do credit

‘to us all – may t[h]e voice of Discord be nev[e]r heard w[i]thin its walls, and may

‘persons of every shard of varying opin[io]n meet togeth[e]r here in amity and in charity,

‘and may none ever go away dissatisfied b[u]t s[u]ch, if s[u]ch t[he]re be, whom good cheer

‘and good humour can[no]t please!’ – I heard so[me]one of t[h]e crowd say ‘ver[y] well’ – A-[Ann]

and I hurr[ie]d b[a]ck int[o] t[h]e carr[ia]ge 3 cheers were given – Mr Harper ga[ve] us b[a]ck t[h]e silver trowel, and we dr[ove] off to call

on Mr and Mrs Musgrave at t[h]e vicarg vicarage – t[h]e inscript[io]n on t[h]e sheet-lead put

int[o] t[h]e bot[tle], writ[ten] by Mr Gray on Tues[day], w[a]s as foll[ow]s –                

                                                                                                                              sat 3/4 h[ou]r fr[om] 12.5 to 12.50 at t[h]e vic[ara]ge w[i]th Mr

The first stone                                                                                     and Mrs M-[Musgrave] I ment[ione]d A-[Ann]’s hav[in]g been lay[in]g t[h]e        

of a spacious Casino,                                                                       1st stone of t[h]e Casino – t[he]y, or rath[e]r Mrs M-[Musgrave],

w[hi]ch will be annex[e]d to                                                             let out t[he]re belief t[hs]t t[h]e th[in]g w[oul]d n[o]t ans[we]r – s[ai]d

a handsome pub[lic] hotel,                                                                 it w[a]s report[e]d Mr Carr of t[h]e White Swan had

to be erect[e]d at Halifax,                                                                   tak[e]n it – of w[hi]ch I s[ai]d I knew noth[in]g – I      

was laid on t[h]e 26th day of Septemb[e]r                                         m[o]st peop[le] th[in]k t[h]e th[in]g will be a losing concern, and laugh

A.D 1835,                                                                                           at me for so throw[in]g away my mon[e]y - nons

in t[h]e sixth year of t[h]e reign of King                                             venons – call[e]d at Mr Parker’s off[i]ce, - he

Will[ia]m iV,                                                                                       ca[me] to t[h]e carr[ia]ge door, to say t[h]e Suth[erlan]ds were to be

by Miss Ann Walker t[h]e younger,                                                   in H-[Halifax] we suppos[e]d at Mr P-[Parker]’s at 2 1/2 -

of Cliffhill, Yorkshire,                                                                       I ord[ere]d handbills to be put up ag[ain]st holly stealers

in t[h]e name and at t[h]e req[ue]st of                                                 and wood and young tree damages offer[in]g 10/. reward for each

her partic[ula]r friend,                                                                         one taken, or convict[io]n – ho[me] ab[ou]t 1 ½ - so[me]

Miss Anne Lister of Shibden Hall, Yorkshire,                                   whi[le] w[i]th mt a[un]t – repeated our speeches and amus[e]d her-

owner of t[h]e property.                                                                   f[ou]nd A-[Ann]’s quond[a]m Highland[e]r serv[an]t Ja[me]s co[me] to see her -