#FUCK me dude my hand hurts

[5hrignold]

reminder

[melit0n]

So, for all the time that I've listened to Sleep Token (been a hot minute now, jeeze) there have been three songs that I have avoided like the plague; Atlantic, Fall for Me and Missing Limbs. I haven't been avoiding them because they're bad, not at all, but because the first time I listened to them, they brought out a Hell of a lot for me. Never in my life had I had a song, let alone three, do that to me, so, I avoided them. Distraction and WTBB cause me enough pain, and these three inch out of the boundary for songs that just push me over the edge.

Even when I did my massive SFX post, I kind of zoned out when I listened to them, mainly focusing on little sounds rather than lyrics and breakdowns. In a weird way I dreaded listening to them again just because. Plus, one of my first ST posts on here is a clip of Fall for Me, which I heard, had to sit down for a minute at, posted it, and refused to look at again (bear with me here I know I'm sounding disastrously dramatic and overly sensitive).

So, today, I decided to take a little re-listen. And Christ Almighty I need a minute. Atlantic had my lying down on my floor having to take a moment, Fall for Me took me right back to one of my first relationships and Missing Limbs had me contemplating how I've loved and been loved. What the fuck man. You all will definitely be getting a little lyric analysis soon, but, here are some of my favourites so far;

- "Eyes like frozen planets, just orbiting the vacuum I am"

- "Flood me like Atlantic, weather me to nothing"

- "Echoing futures are the buckling sutures, that hold shut the wounds of the past"

- "Slowly I remember why I cannot pretend, that I never think of you and all this screaming silence; oh God I wish you were here"

- "The outer rounds of heaven don't keep up on the charm offensive anymore"

- "To swallow my desire and choke on it"

- "The blessings rain on battles in the heaven's arms"

- "I live like I've got missing limbs for you"

Like. Pen game is on POINT.

[janthonyfell]

hear me out- HEAR ME OUT.

Terzo in his white "He is" music video suit and Copia with his white suit, together just like Nihil and Imperator in the "Dance Macabre" music video, having that peculiar wedding and kissing while it's raining blood-

[nightgarla]

bitches from 2013 look at u like

[pumakaji64]

[pisshandkerchief]

if there's one thing I'm good at with art it's adding way too much fucking detail and making things harder for myself

[effervescent-fool]

i think i may have an allergy to a specific cleaning chemical because i switched from antibacterial swipes to oxiclean bathroom cleaner and my entire body got weak and shaky i felt like throwing up and i got short of breath

[cosmicdisastr]

don't you just love seeing 1 tiktok about something that can be wrong with your body that you resonate with which leads you down a rabbit hole of research and diagnosing yourself with a new thing that explains everything you've been dealing with but didn't have the words for but you don't want to bring up official diagnoses with your doctor bc you either can't afford the testing or you're afraid you wouldn't be believed and/or told you're wrong even though you KNOW something is wrong w you but dont have the mental energy to pursue it and so you just walk around with a bunch of shit in your head about things you may or may not have but cant/wont do anything about and scream

[rosicheeks]

🤕

[troglobite]

i love* when chronic pain flares up SUPER fucking bad for no discernible reason, completely canceling all plans and hopes i had for the day

*fucking loathe w my entire existence

[ajaxbread]

How my hospital visit went(I got my blood drawn)

[what-if-i-dee-eye-do]

I know I promised myself I wouldn't ever try to kill myself again but like. hee hoo

[sofarsogoodsowhat]

NOT FINISHED YET MY HAND GAVE UP ON ME BUT THIS IS THE FIRST REAL THING IVE DONE W JUST MY MACHINE

[alligaytorswamp]

hand update: everything still sucks

[loplainlointhemorning]

I’m in my Courtney love arc bc I don’t need a parent anymore in a relationship I need to be the Mom girlfriend so badly like if the lord would deliver onto me just a short little sensitive sweet boy I would go lioness mode I stg PLEASE I deserve it

[dixeyray]

Be me, forget to eat meals in a day because of the horrors and the hyperfixations.

Head starts hurting a bit. Try to make food. Standing makes the head hurt more. Goes back to the horrors that I can sit with.

Headpain goes away. Thinks now I should eat food. Stands up, headpain returns. Tries to muster through headpain to get food to make headpain leave permanently. Make the food.

Is too naseaus from headpain to eat food.

Goes to lay down. Headpain makes sleep not happen.

I want to kill the section of my brain that believe this is a meaningful way to get me to take care of my body.