#Every Part of Ourselves
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The more I think about it, the more I question Arcane S2's politics and themes, which were so foundational to S1. Like, a tiny example [SPOILERS AHEAD]:
Singed wins. He gets exactly what he wants in the end. All his "efforts" are rewarded. What does that say about people who share his ideology of eugenics? He is the source of nearly every horrible thing and conflict that happened (Shimmer, the factory deaths, Jinx, Vander as Warwick, the corruption of Viktor), and he gets a happier ending than any other character. Not even a 'he got what he wanted but he has become completely unrecognizable/monstrous to his daughter' tag at the end. You can say they're setting him up and need to open his daughter to future shows, but the way you end a character's story says something about what you think about that character. What does it say when the eugenicist war criminal gets the happy ending he doesn't deserve?
#personal#delete later#and you can say “it's not that deep it's just what makes sense to end his character” but lets not kid ourselves#this past month people have been chattering about microexpressions in animation or metaphors and symbolism in interactions#and random props and set details. the end of a character's arc MEANS something thematically.#and it just feels offputting that the most unforgivable character wins while everyone else is dead or suffers alone#and don't give me that “sometimes the bad guy wins” look this is an extreme lol.#i would be fine with this outcome for singed if literally EVERY other character wasn't suffering. only singed got what he wanted#honestly fans who have been completely unwilling to consider negative analysis and criticisms of arcane annoy me so much#y'all chirp about how amazing it is that arcane is so political until the politics get weird. then it's a completely apolitical show#specifically the final “dirt under you fingernails” line. that felt so weird and offputting coming from vi#a part of this is definitely just reactionary anger at a fictional character. like. you caused untold amounts of suffering and agony#all for your daughter. fuck you you don't get your daughter
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#poorly drawn mdzs#mdzs#wei wuxian#wen chao#wen zhuliu#Apologies for how much I skipped in the last part of this episode.#I do love the scene of Jiang Cheng regaining his will to live and the ensuing scenes of Wei Wuxian seeing him off at the mountain base.#At the same time I very much want to keep pressing on with the story.#The notes I have are for scenes I did not draw:#I still think a lot about the symbolism of food in both consumption and giving - especially in regards to the Yunmeng Trio.#Prior to JC leaving we see WWX out buying food for him. Something that initially falls through as JC runs back to Lotus Pier.#But here it comes back full circle. WWX gives away a part of himself to be 'consumed' by Jiang Cheng.#It is about being led by desire (JC wanting revenge to losing his will to live to wanting his core back)#and about being bound by duty to do whatever it takes to see those desires through to the end.#JC can't eat until he has his desire to live back. WWX carves out his own ambitions to help another reach theirs.#And it isn't held up as noble! Not even once! He is routinely punished and criticized for this sacrifice.#Being thrown into the burial mounds really is just symbolism for how we can give away every scrap of ourselves to others-#-and find ourselves at rock bottom. Alone.#When you hollow yourself out it just leaves room for something else to fill it. Something worse.
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"Conrad's view has always kind of moved out - to think of bigger things and other people, to think of larger places. And in moving away, sometimes the things that up close are huge and horrifying, get just a little bit smaller, a little bit more right-sized, a little bit easier to manage."
#dimension 20#mentopolis#d20edit#mentopolis spoilers#alex song xia#conrad schintz#brennan lee mulligan#madam self loathing#mine **#kindness and seeing even traits like guilt & shame as *necessary* parts of ourselves#and how these *exact* traits work side by side with conscience ( ie. having a guilty conscience )#was Beautifully woven into this finale & alex knocked every interaction out of the Damn park#now i need to let my *own* “The Fix” rest ........
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Third Year Katsuki is definetly “too hot to handle.”
And you’re not just saying that in the joking way. Over the years combined with his fiery temper, fierce compassion, and firey explosions he’s also matured incredibly well. Not just his temper and his social skills — which are significantly better than when he started at UA — but also his looks. Katsuki Bakugou the resident badboy (good guy, really) heartthrob of Class 3-A; and let me tell you it’s both a pleasure and a significant amount of confusion to be on the receiving end of his affections. —————
And it happens most often, and most obviously in passings . . . The way he chins at you when you walk into the living room area on your way out to jog. Always those red eyes flickering up from his spot sprawled out on the couch, an arm thrown across the back as he twists and angles his body to look at you, “not bad. g’morning sleeping beauty.” He says, and you know he’s joking and poking fun at you because he’s already been up for a half-hour or so. And him commenting about your appearance is normal bc you used to come down with bed head back in your first year until he started commenting on it. So now you done your hair up in fun little ponytails and boxer braids by your vanity every morning. And the comments always makes you roll your eyes and smile, but your toes are involuntarily curling as you wave and head out the door — he means nothing by it. he wouldn’t. He couldn’t he’s Katsuki and you’re just you. —— It’s the days when you and the girls like to play outside in the grass by the dorm — playful sparing and floating around. Right under his nose because his dorm room balcony is right above the green space. And it’s as the shouts get louder that he peaks his head out (ready to yell at y’all to quiet down) that he sees you sparing again Pink Cheeks. And Katsuki will find his way to the railing and lean down to look at you. “Oi, you’re in trouble now.” And you can hear him. Glancing up and that angelic smirk graces your face as you huff and pin her down. Katsuki always barking out a “HA” or a “Atta’ girl. Better luck next time” depending on how it goes. —— The commentary this man must give from the balcony like it’s his job to help the girls under his balcony train, not just because he came out and got distracting by you being there. Noooooo never. —— It’s how touchy his is when you’re in the room or in the library, especially the library. He knows exactly where to find you. You never see it, but everyone else can watch the way he beelines it straight over to your table after he’s finished collecting the books he needs. Any other table in the place? Not even a glance. No chance because Katsuki is trying to sit next to his favorite girl. And you’re always just a little surprised and manage a startled hello when he silently pulls out a chair and plops down right next to you. Somehow Katsuki — for his size and quality combat boots — manages to tread the tile floors silently when he’s trying to find you. And after he’s plopped himself down it’s always his knee pressed against your leg. Or his elbow bumping into yours, or his fingers brushing against yours when he picks up the pen you’ve dropped or sneaks a snack of yours. And you’d have half the mind to think of taking two bc he seems to be addicted to your chocolate covered pretzels. And he always seems to have an extra of the exact kind of pen you like.
And he always offers to refill your water bottle when you stretch your arms above your head after an hour to go fill it back up. Big hand grabbing his own and swirling around the last inch of water saying he needs to go fill his up too — and instead your water bottle break turns into the two of you walking and chitchatting about your assignments as you take turns in the hall with the one good water bottle dispenser. The rest of the library rap with attention as they watch “the Katsuki” walk around with a girl.
—— OR how friendly he seems to get in the hall. Always stomping or mysteriously gliding through silently as you and the girls gossip. And instead of asking y’all to move like a normal person Katsuki just always bulldozes straight through you. Grumbling something under his breath which tickles the skin on the side of your cheek as he slides right past you. A warm palm on the small of your back and an audible “ ‘cuse me.” Or a fast and furious set of hands around your torso as he picks you up and goes past, setting you back down on your feet. And you’ve started customarily yelling, “ do I even weight anything to you?”
Your hands up and exasperated. You always look perfectly cute and flustered. And Katsuki has the audacity to turn over his shoulder and smirk down at you. Licking his lips before he does so, “nah, it’s like a couple of grapes.” Before the hot headed blonde speeds off to where he was going leaving you with a Katsuki induced butterfly indigestion and Mina just gaping at the interaction.
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And all the flirting he’s been doing, that you’ve been high-key trying to convince yourself that youre over-analyzing and thinking too much into it. Because COME ON it’s Katsuki freaking Bakugou and he’s literally sooo attractive it’s horrible, like seriously. Now Katsuki’s always saying off-handed comments to you about nearly everything you do. Except this time it’s a cut-and-dry compliment bc he’s moving around the gym behind you as you’re doing some sets with the barbell.
And you’ve only got one earbud in and that’s when you hear him say it. “sexy back.” and you blink bc you don’t think that’s what he said, but Katsuki’s path curls and circles in front of you as you lower the barbell back to your chest. — and oh my god he’s totally checking you out. Ruby red eyes delving straight along your midline and lingering at the sweat dripping between your cleavage from the power sets you’ve been working on.
And it’s your owlish blink that’s got him flickering his eyes back up towards your face. A sheepish look flickering across his usually sharp features. He coughs into his fist, “What? You’ve never heard that compliment before?” And suddenly he’s stepping even closer as he reaches a hand right under your chin to grab the barbell — his natural musk of burnt carmel flinging itself into your senses. “Uh no,” you click your tongue against the roof of your mouth, “can’t say I have.” Katsuki flashes a bright white smile at you. “Can’t believe I’m the first person to tell ya’” he chuckles, breathy. Which is partially a lie. Your knuckles tighten white against the bar; except he’s really the one holding most of the weight now anyways. You voice in your throat supplies you with a choked sound. “ ‘M serious,” he confides, looking into your eyes, “been thinking it everyday since day one.” And he’s been saying it under his breath every time he walks past you because damn the way the muscles of your back perfectly cushion your spine and slim down to that waist of yours has his head spinning and he seriously can’t believe this is the first time you’re hearing it. “Keep up the good work.” he adds. The weight of the bar transferring back into your hands as he saunters off to his next station. The little skip in his step accentuating his small back and tight booty as he walks away from you. And it’s only every waking second for the next few days that your mind is gripping onto the sound of his gravely voice saying “sexy back” and you’d be damned if you let a man get you that worked up over such a silly little compliment, but come on!! It’s the senior king of sexy himself who called you that? What else is a girl supposed to do? and it’s then that you start or consider Katsuki’s really flirting a little more seriously, maybe you should look into what he’s doing just a little more.
#mysteriesmusing#bakugou katsuki#bakugou drabble#bakugou headcanons#katsuki bakugou#Oh my gosh#this image is so potent in my mind like 3rd Katsuki evening his head out and being able to sorta kinda flirt like this#Also baby boy being so incredibly whipped and thinking we’re so gorgeous that he has to consciously compliment us every time he walks past#mwah! such a good concept!!#also inspired bc I saw my back in the mirror at the gym today and I don’t like a lot of how my body looks but damn!#ig it’s the parts we don’t see about ourselves that we feel confident in. So lesson learned#be more confident girlies!!
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I like to think about Woodbine Chance. He made a dangerous, decisive, split-second choice to run from the reaping and was shot for it. That decision lead to Haymitch being taken to the Capital and cemented his role in the rebellion that took down Panem twenty-five years later.
Woodbine wasn’t thinking of that. Didn’t have it as a whisper in his mind, but he changed the course of history. He was killed, torn from the world, but that effect of his one rebellious action rippled throughout the lives of everyone around him. They could edit out Woodbine, but couldn’t erase his impact; couldn’t edit out Haymitch, put on that train and winning the quell, becoming a victor who helped make the Mockingjay.
Did his family know that and feel pride? Did they feel his presence years after his death, years after they had to stop talking about him, as they watched the Capital crumble? Did they cry, knowing that defining moment in Woodbine’s life, a life that was so entirely erased, couldn’t be taken away, but spread outward?
One choice and he changed the world.
#it’s this thing of all our little moments. our personal rebellionsstrengthen each other#contribute to the creation of something greater than ourselves#it looks so futile when we see it as just ourselves#but we exist in a continuum#small actions of individuals build up and contribute to the creation of a culture for change#so never say that you don’t matter. you do. you absolutely do#your actions matter.#I’d like to think some siblings some aunt or uncle or niece or nephew#they lived through the next 25 years#they lived through the bombing and rebellion and war and when they heard Haymitch had a part in it#every breath after was in the context that Woodbine died for something more#more than the principle of personal freedom; confined to the people in the square#he died for a free Panem#and they no longer resented who Haymitch had become as their victor#sotr#sotr spoilers#thg#thg spoilers#woodbine chance
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Thought about my childhood best friends!
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#Amphibia#marcy wu#anne boonchuy#sasha Waybright#sashannarcy#but also just me lol#It’s like there’s this gaping hole in me that grows ever wider every time I even mention their names#I had to stop talking to them for a while because I was. Unhealthily in love with them#we ball#We grow#we resist the urge to go back to the worse yet more emotionally deep parts of ourselves
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We always knew there'd be Haruka/Mahiru danger but HE KNOWS ABOUT US?
#milgram#i really thought wed be limited to the voices as a cool subtle way to mention discussions in canon#but if we really are a part of this separate from es.....#*fear*#im busy rn but when im back i want to make a post about how much i love this videos#challenging every decision -- its such a cool way to make us reflect on ourselves and society#rose posts
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i think my issue w a lot of umineko fandom takes is the lack of empathy in a story that was structured very much around empathizing with your explicitly shitty family
#people are really bad at empathizing with people they dont think deserve it. power to them but ryukishi definitely wanted you to empathize w#people like kinzo and george and etc. i wouldve said eva but who the hell doesnt love eva#and empathize doesnt have to mean anything other than the empathy itself. its not a justification or a statement of forgiveness#its simply an understanding and an acceptance. thats meant to bring you#the observer or the victim in sayo’s case. a sense of peace. and of course most importantly#LOVE#which is the healing element. and this was very much integral to the Point#just a ramble on why I really value every umineko character especially the worst ones lol#i mean in my own life. i have felt the power that comes with that kind of empathy and sometimes yes forgiveness#so it was a profound read for me on that level#its genuinely such a beautiful story. dont think a lot of authors have hit this note on the head like kishi does#ugh I could go on. because empathy is a huge part of it but theres also an important social commentary in that like#the worst person you know is like that because someone or something made them that way#the tragedy of thinking what ‘could have been’ the different sides of ourselves the way patriarchy harms the women firstly but also damages#the men so thoroughly and completely…#i dont see any evil in any of the characters theyre all human beings who are so realistic and doing what is their flawed best
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Talk Shop Tuesday: what’s the most important thing to you when it comes to characterization?
[Sorry I am so behind on these I have been so fucking busy] CHARACTERIZATION I LOVE YOU SO. What a good question!!!!! I get compliments on my characterization a lot so I should probably think about this. Also @lazuliquetzal chime in if you want because you're just as good at this.
There's a lot of important things. The most important, I think, is that the character has consistent internal logic. It's like worldbuilding or magic. Their actions don't have to be objectively logical, but they do have to be consistent. The character has a framework for understanding the world, a way of perceiving the world and how it works, and an idea of how they think other people work. Everything that happens in their lives is filtered through that. They have to feel like a real person making real decisions, not an instrument of the plot.
Something I like to do is to make their greatest strength their greatest flaw. I think in writing there's no 'good' or 'bad' character traits - no virtues or sins. I think character traits are neutral, and that they can be used to good or bad effect. I think we do things because of other things that have happened to us, and that these things have positive and negative consequences.
Obviously a character has to have consistent motivations and to change over time. A character shouldn't end the story in the same place where they started. Character focused stories ought to have your characters change throughout the story - Sherlock Holmes doesn't have to have moments of character growth but your slice of life character definitely should. I think the setting around them really helps - giving them foils really helps develop and flesh out both characters.
I feel like that's all pretty basic notes though. For me and characters, there's way more to it than that. It's hard to explain. I think I can only ask that you make the plot and tropes fit the characters, not the characters fit the plot and tropes. Fanfic has a horrible habit of making characters one dimensional and stripping away a lot of nuance to fit in with different slots in relationship dynamic, roles in a team dynamic, or niches in an AU. The character should come first. And love of god if you make their personality seme or uke I will come find you with my yaoi baseball bat.
Oh and the best character-building exercise is to figure out if the character would ever be a cannibal or not and I am barely joking.
#i don't mean for characterization to be the most important thing in my stuff bc that's a weird thing to be important#and i do think characters should be in service of the plot#but the plot and characters should be in service to each other#idk and i think who i am as a person seeps into this#i like people a lot. i like meeting different kinds of people.#i like meeting people from every place of all walks of life of all identities and types#even people i dont like i think enrich my understanding of people as a whole#every person is so fascinating and has an entire internal world that we aren't privvy to#if we limit our world to ourselves then our life will stay small and provincial forever#a lot of my characters are based off people i know; or even different facets of myself#or they're a way of showcasing a theme or vein of emotion in life that i often confront or struggle with#many of my characters are parts of me I don't like or am ashamed of#so it's a bit healing to showcase their messiness as people; to show them growing; and to forgive them for that messiness#people are each other's greatest source of pain and only source of pleasure i think
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my concept and general existence of gender doesn't exist but i'll watch or see something that just roots me firmly in loving being a gay man
#this happened some years ago when i watched the first (and only :/) season of...what was it. The New Normal?#the one with Andrew Rannells#anyway idk what it was about that show or Andrew in it but it was one of those euphoric moments#and i can't really tell you why because it's not something i can easily explain#my gender existence when given attention is this esoteric metaphysical thing#i am never fully just one thing unless something sparks it and most of the time parts are dormant#i am any and everything#every expression that exists within this rigid binary that somehow only has two sides#how can God exist and gender be limited to the either or?#like being limited by Boolean operators#we reduce ourselves like the limits of machines#we are machines though aren't we?#wow holy shit these tags marathon dashed away from the goddamn post where the fuck am I LMAO#hi did you get this far? do you love me? i love you
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#diana's music diary#good night I am tired#last night was fun but I am now so so tired#best trip of my life I even did a big writeup of everything that happened#I had a moment where I was becoming a sweet honey slimegirl that was bouncing back and forth from melting and reforming#felt like I was bouncing around time and space#felt like the universe accepted me as a part of itself as I accepted it as a part of me#I felt so loved by everything and everyone last night#I love you all 💛#let's love and take care of ourselves the rest of today (and every day after) so that we can all be good U^w^U#Youtube
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This spread took me two hours and 3 trips outside to collect flowers and packing tape :3 (can i tell you a secret? I even ripped a page out of a very old vintage book for the background!)
#journal spread#journal#art journal#journalling#grief journals#why do we give away every part of ourselves in trying to feel whole?#little are we wanting for love#love#floral#flower journal
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im sorry but i share a very special bond with matthew fairchild that just cannot be replicated with any other character
#like yeah. ben from nhie has helped me through a lot.#i grew up with lum and mendou.#tessa is the reason i didnt kill myswlf#but matthew? thats me. thats me thats me thats me.#and like my journey is mirroring his so closely#and has been since his introduction to tsc in 2015#this is the character i have grown alongside in exactly the way that he's growing#it is insane.#also hes like my best and steadiest friend#'hes fictional' and thats part of the reason why#he will always be with me and always be part of me#also ive loved him in every possible way. i had a crush on him before. i grew up. now hes my best friend and my son#but he always has been everything to me even if that changed shape over time#i just cannot describe the magnitude of my love for this character#he has done everything wrong in exactly rhe same way as i have#his emotional cracks are in the same places as mine are#we are both entering our find-ourselves-and-travel eras right now#we're like. the same kind of mentally ill#also we share the impenetrable disaster bi bond#idfk man#i cannot describe this
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if i was absolutely FORCED to go back in time to high school i think the one thing i would change would be. being more involved w the theatre kids
#sorry. introspection post time#watched the movie version of a show we did when i was a freshman and i got hit with a massive wave of. damn i kinda miss that tho#i was! head spotlight techie#and it was. so fun and i loved it sooo much i miss the burns on my arms i miss the ozone smell#i miss the clunky sound when u change color filters#i miss early rehersal practices where my job was to sit on the balcony with a copy of the script and make lighting note annotations#i miss sitting on the balcony with my legs dangling off the edge.#i dropped a flipflop one time and nearly clunked one of the leads on the head LMAO#we were friends tho so he just. picked my shoe up off the floor and waved it at me like a grouchy old man raving about kids on his lawn#and he didnt give it back to me until after practice LMAO#fuck dude........#and i learned all of the songs bc id be at every practice and would just like. sing to myself on the balcony bc nobody could hear me#ugm. we are not going to talk about my partner tech so she is just a big static filled void in all of these memories <3#we spent. so much time together and it was. hmmmmmmm. bc we were on the balcony by ourselves. no supervision no witnesses etc. she was. hm#anyway. happy memories only.#i miss my clunky old spotlight his name was megatron#i always kind of wished i had the abikity to try out even for like an understudy part bc i think i would have fun w that#but unfortunately high school was the bottomless pit of my mental illness and despair and etc#i did NOT have the mental fortitude to do that#but it always looked rlly fun.....#anyway this was entirely inspired by my remembering that anybodys from west side story existed#and like. thats the EXACT character i wouldve loved 2 play in hs#do u know jow much fun i had singing officer krupkie on the balcony. i wouldve nailed that shit#also it wouldve given me a better excuse to be friends w the drama club guys and not..... you know. the static filled void#anyway. hi. how r we all tonight. im finding myself nostalgic for the worst period of my life <3
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