#Esther rambles

[esther-on-fire]

predictably, i am absolutely feral about the new sleater-kinney record

[crabsnpersimmons]

exam 5 for me... tomorrow!

honestly have been feeling really nervous for this exam since my classmates have either failed it or just barely passed. and i had less time to study this time around because i rushed to book the exam.

so i drew this little encouragement early cuz i need the reminder that no matter what happens tomorrow, i did what i could and i didn't compromise on my boundaries—and that is its own victory.

and i hope that you'll be reminded to celebrate your own big and small victories too!

"You are nervous and that's okay! You did your best! You set boundaries! You took breaks! We're so proud of you, Starlight! Whatever happens, we'll always be here, cheering you on!"

[dead-enby-detective]

I wonder how much this scene plays a role in Monty choosing to target Edwin over Charles after Esther sends him to befriend the boys and then later how it impacts him falling for Edwin.

Edwin is the first one to enter so he’s the first one Monty sees.

Monty doesn’t crow when Edwin enters the house but waits until Charles enters. Does he already like Edwin better? Did he see Edwin and see something special?

Charles immediately responds to the crowing by telling him to hush. Did Charles’s words stick with him after Esther gave him a human body and mind and feelings? Were his feelings hurt or was he just annoyed by it?

Edwin pulls his gloves off as he passes Monty’s cage, does he think about that after becoming human? The way Edwin takes off a piece of his armor right before going into danger?

After Edwin tell his partner he believes in Charles’s ability to open the lock, Monty crows, and Charles sasses back. Edwin pays him no mind. Does that frustrate him, later when he’s human?

After Charles opens the lock, Edwin is the one who figures out that cabinet is a trick door.

I may not like Esther but she is clever. Was Monty learning from her the entire time he was her familiar? Does he take after her in that way? Always learning, always being wanting to be clever?

Monty, is shown soon after becoming human, to have a vast knowledge of zodiac signs. Did he learn all that in that short time span or was some of it things he’s taken in from Esther over the years? How much had he learned from her, from her spells, her books over the years?

Was he “raised” to appreciate cleverness even as a crow? Did he admire Edwin’s cleverness from the beginning?

Did he become human and immediately think back to when they first entered the house and wonder if Edwin would appreciate cleverness in return? Would appreciate the opportunity to learn something new from him? Hoped that they could be clever together?

There’s just so much to this scene from Monty’s perspective that I think we should consider.

Did he ever wonder if he was clever enough, would it be enough for Edwin to give him a chance?

Like he said, he never asked to be human… did he hope that, when the time came, with all his cleverness, that Edwin would understand that?

That he had never really had a chance in the first place?

[anxious-witch]

Okay, maybe I am way off with this, but doesn't Cat King seem to adhere by very specific set of rules? Which yeah, duh, he is a trickster, but what I mean is, he can't seem to be able to initiate any action?

We know he kept an eye on the boys and Crystal even before he met them, I'd wager even before Edwin leashed his cat. But he didn't approach until Edwin did so, as if Edwin activated it that way. And sure, we could say it was because he messed with one of his subjects and while I am sure there is truth in that, it's a THEME.

He has eyes everywhere. I don't buy it for a second that he didn't immediately know who Monty is. So why not tell Edwin and the rest immediately? Could be to see where this will go, but it doesn't feel that way. Why would he let Monty flirt with Edwin, if he could stop him? Even after Monty kisses Edwin, the Cat King doesn't appear. Why? Because Monty isn't hurting Edwin yet. The kiss, as awkward as it was, does seem to be genuine on Monty's part.

No. The Cat King only gets involved when Monty is actively working to betray Edwin. Only then he can swoop in, give away Monty's secret and steal his kiss as payback.

Generally, it seems he has to somehow mirror the actions taken? A leash for a leash, a kiss for a kiss, a betrayal for a betrayal.

Also, the bit with Esther. He says "magic doesn't work on me", and yet he doesn't try to use magic on Esther in turn. Is it because she cannot use magic on him, he can't as well? Which renders him powerless against her.

She uses a loophole to kill him, aka she kills him by force since she cannot do so by magic. And what does he do? He can't use magic against her but he can give Crystal a secret loophole on how to kill Esther. He can tell her about he deal with Lilith.

Also as this post points out, as much as he gets into Edwin's space, when Edwin moves towards him, he pulls back. Furthermore, the only two times Edwin invades his space (ie in the forest when he tells him "this is all that you are" and in the last episode when he kisses him) Cat King seems almost frozen. As if he is bound to see how far Edwin is going to take the action before he can react.

I wonder if he can kiss him at all, without Edwin initating first. With Monty, he could, because it was payback for stealing Edwin's kiss. But he didn't harm him further. Why? Unless he is somehow bound to some unknown set of rules.

Idk. I just thought it was an interesting pattern

[psalm40speakstome]

Dongfang Qingcang: my emotions are dead, I can use hellfire, I feel nothing ever

Also Dongfang Qingcang: gave Orchid back her hair within minutes of meeting her because she was crying

[vizual-static]

I got a comment on crow fic that made me think about Esther’s relationship to Monty as a familiar: In some media (*cough* WBN pod *cough*), a familiar can be a part of a witch’s personality or soul that she chooses to externalize in order to better serve her station or be better at witchcraft. So it’s not just a loyal pet or a little magic animal helper, but an actual manifestation of some part of her.

So now I kinda like the idea that after being betrayed by her husband, Esther chose to remove her desire for love and put it in a familiar so that she herself never has to suffer the hurt again, and she can be more cut-throat and cruel without worrying about feeling shitty over the social ostracization or lack of connection for hundreds of years. (This works well too since crows are social creatures.)

Not to say that Monty doesn’t get to be a like, an autonomous character. But I do think his relationship to Esther, whether maternal/ familial or having started as a piece of her, colors everything else about his character.

[nocteacakes]

Over the past month I've become absolutely irrevocably completely insanely obsessed with love game in eastern fantasy and thus ding yuxi and .... I've fallen and I can't get up someone help.

I made a XHS account just to look at edits and fanart....I've watched him running to help Esther off the stage like 50 different times....

Currently watching Moonlight bc I need more of the two of them HELP

one of my friends said probly the reason I've gotten so obsessed is because he feels like a man written by a woman and IT FITS TBH. HOW DOES THIS MAN EXIST?!

[eatyourmaker]

The ocs I previously mentioned

Esther and Estella, the twin stars.

Both are dead, and have been sacrificed to the eyes

Now they cast a haunting presence over the town, mainly the old mansion on the hill, the forest and Skid's house.

They were traumatized in their death, and so often end up scaring people in accident by lashing out and causing some serious hauntings. But they're good girls at the end of the day and would get along well with Skid and Pump.

They have a crippling fear of adults though

I don't even have to state the source of inspiration for these two, y'all already know 😭

[raphs-rhapsody]

dbd promptober day 4 ~ light

[sparklesquarkles]

Habe letztens erneut Fluch des Geldes geschaut und auch wenn ich die Folge liebe können wir Mal über die ganzen Plotholes sprechen? Oder allgemein ein paar Dinge, die mir da aufgefallen sind.

Da wäre zum einen die Szene, in der Leo einfach fucking Heroin nimmt? So, mein lieber Kriminalhauptkommissar, das ist illegal, auch wenn du hier undercover unterwegs bist.

Wobei hier bei mir auch die Frage aufkam woher er so sicher Heroin am Geschmack erkennt? Was ist die Story dazu? Gibt's eine Vergangenheit oder ist das Teil der Ausbildung im Saarland?

Dann die Story mit Betty und dem Geld. So wie ich es (laut Google) verstanden habe muss man Bargeldbeträge ab 10.000€ bei Flügen innerhalb der EU beim Zoll anmelden, was hier sicherlich nicht getan wurde.

Diese ganz normale Tasche ging auf jeden Fall durch den Scan und das Geld wurde nicht bemerkt? Also selbst wenn ich mich nicht mit Mengen auskenne mussten die Leute dort doch sehen, dass das mehr als 10.000€ waren und dass Betty keine Genehmigung vom Zoll hatte? Wie kam sie also so easy in dieses Flugzeug?

Und dann der letzte Punkt: Die Flucht von Betty selbst. Sie haut mit dem gestohlenen Geld von Adam ab und fliegt von Saarbrücken aus. Adam und Leo wollten wahrscheinlich irgendwo gar nicht, dass Betty geschnappt wird, da sich so ihr Problem von zurückgeben oder nicht von selbst klärt.

Da frage ich mich nur wie Betty trotzdem einfach flüchten kann? Ich meine nicht nur Adam und Leo wissen, dass Betty in den ganzen Scheiß involviert war, da kann mir doch niemand sagen, dass die die einfach fliehen lassen? Also da hätten wir Esther, die zwar viel mitmacht, aber eine Verdächtige fliehen lassen? Kann ich mir bei ihr nicht vorstellen. Genauso irgendein Chef von denen. Da schaut sich doch safe irgendwer an, was in dem Fall passiert/ passiert ist und wundert sich dann, wieso diese Frau, die definitiv Dreck am Stecken hat einfach wegfliegen konnte.

Besonders weil alle Zielflughafen von Saarbrücken aus Auslieferungsabkommen mit Deutschland haben, was es also super einfach machen würde Betty in dem jeweiligen Land zu verhaften.

Okay, das musste mal raus.

Falls jemand weitere Gedanken zu der Folge (und den Potholes) hat gerne her damit.

[esther-on-fire]

wait WHAT-- imagine what could have been! goddamn it cis people

[sweetpea-sprite]

[not-equippedforthis]

adore rudyard being just....endearing to animals, for some reason (excluding esther here...unless). his best friend is a mouse called madeleine. he manages to win over chapman's dog without the slightest meaning to. type of person to meet a cat and it trails behind him for 5 blocks and hes like why are you FOLLOWING ME

[chialattea]

so, pentiment! great game. very normal about it. why the fuck didnt i get the option to elope with esther.

[meraki-yao]

I'm watching Dead Boy Detectives with my sister and

episode 1

Esther the Witch: "MONTY!!! JESUS!!! I'm trying to threaten some kids"

My sister: "Oh I genuinely forgot that Jesus was an exclamation and thought there was another bird named Jesus"

episode 2

*Esther doing witchcraft shit

My sister: "she gives me the vibes of a wine aunt who went to jail"

will update this list as we go

[pwettybbybunny]

Aventurine is the most tainted, insecure, broken, pathetic, suicidal, and mentally fucked bitch in the entire cast, lol. This man was meant for angst, not happy endings, never, he's my token hurt no/minimal comfort man,

Similarly, Sunday is just meant to be a yandere, i can never imagine this man to be normal, he to is fucked in head but in a more obsessive way. His need for power and control seeps in every aspect of his life. He needs everything to be perfect to be able to sleep at night, especially his relationship. Hence even in the most normal/non yandere coded scenario, he still remains borderline controlling, obsessive and demanding.

But, despite their differences both are the type to latch on the person they love, growing heavily dependent. Perhaps it be due the lack of a normal/healthy parental figure in their childhood or the lack of a normal family and companionship that's dependent on feelings and connections rather than merely transactional.

In the end they are both boys that craved to be genuinely loved and not be taken advantage of, and to be appreciated for who they truly are and not their facades.

Just in need of some true unadulterated love.