#Emergency exits and the distance below I woke up so worried that the angels let go

[ohifonlyx33]

sorry i just had to get this out of my system

even though i've made a poste like this before, I am still struck by the depth and poetry of Ryan O'Neal's songs

Keep your chin up, as you untangle God From cold blood and bruises We are X-rays of something broken

Wrists get tired rewriting futures Our bodies beg us to be creatures of habit

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"Fast-forward motion Will gracefully show The flickering story That all of our sketches unfold."

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When we were young Our words were innocent Whiter than snow, Awkward and slow.

Now when we speak, We risk an avalanche. But that's not enough now To reroute our plans.

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Change is slow, but I feel it taking shape Folding over us like waves On origami ocean tides, we sway Like blueprints constantly being rearranged

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So we wrestle with it all The concept of grace And the faithful concrete As it breaks our fall.

Like firewood, Burning bright In the dead of winter, By only a flicker We cling to this life.

We study our story arcs: Inherently good, Or were we broken right from the start?

Our hesitant fingerprints Trace every mountain, Lace every valley Until we're convinced That we know it all by heart Every blade of grass Bears our mark, In the name of being brave, Though it's just another word for being afraid.

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While collecting the stars, I connected the dots: I don't know who I am, but now I know who I'm not I'm just a curious speck that got caught up in orbit

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No one can unring this bell Unsound this alarm, unbreak my heart new God knows, I am dissonance Waiting to be swiftly pulled into tune

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We'll build new traditions in place of the old Cause life without revision will silence our souls

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Stitch by stitch, I tear apart If brokenness is a form of art I must be a poster child prodigy

Thread by thread, I come apart If brokenness is a work of art Surely this must be my masterpiece

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I had the most vivid dream My feet had left the ground I was floating to heaven But I could only look down My mind was heavy Running ragged With worst-case scenarios Emergency exits And the distance below I woke up so worried that the angels let go

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Bodies fashioned out of dirt and dust For a moment, we get to be glorious Ice sculptures, adorned in light Sand castles built tall, in between the tides I'm stuck swimming in shadows down here It's been forever since I came up for air Flashlight in hand, determined to find Authenticity only poetry could even begin To try to describe

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It is the calm water In the middle of an anxious sea Where heavy clouds part and the sunrise starts A fire in the deepest part of me So I let go and in this moment I can breathe

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Where there is light, a shadow appears The cause and effect when life interferes The same rule applies to goodness and grief For in our great sorrow, we learn what joy means

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It all spills out Reckless but honest words leave out my mouth Like kerosene on a flame of doubt I couldn't make it right Alarms will sound But it's too late for holy water now Sooner or later the fire dies down I'll open up my eyes again And I'll try and find the image of God In mountains made of ash and clouds of smoke

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She drew in her first breath, I learned what love meant And my heart, reconciled all the darkness and light inside my chest

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You begged and begged for some kind of change Maybe they'd wake up tomorrow and regret the pain That they've passed down to you like DNA But no luck, no luck It seems only by the hand of God or death Will they truly change their silhouettes For a miracle or a consequence You wait and wait

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"You're alive, quit acting like you're dead" Like a mirror, it spoke so clear "Don't you recognize the reason why you're here? To be enchanted."

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A bright sunrise through shattered glass A fountain of youth slipping through the cracks I drag my feet through perfect sand Toward a future I no longer understand

In the water, we remember That nothing, even death Lasts forever I want to swim, I want to swim, I want to try To trust in the mercy of the merciless tide My mother taught me all will be reconciled God, what a gift to be my mother's child

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Just a little longer Everything will make sense Broken things will be remade But what about the meantime? How do I ignore the signs that one day Everything I love will fade? I'm too tired to fight In a civil war of faith

There's some kind of Heaven Just around the corner And all this pain will be replaced With unimaginable grace

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I am the sail, the plank The mast that breaks and gets replaced I am remade, repaired, reshaped But somehow, still the same Even after every cell in my body changed I know my name

[agentbaldwin]

ARTEMUS , A PLAYLIST.

track one... ARSONIST'S LULLABY , HOZIER

when i was a child, i heard voices / some would sing and some would scream / you soon find you have few choices / i learned the voices died with me

track two... OLD MAN , CHASE JOHANSON

and i am the element of fire, the presence of flame! / and i've watched all our gods cheat the people for personal gain! / i was lost i was found, above and below ground / and i know the answers, they hide in the sound of

track three... BODY , MOTHER MOTHER

i've grown tired of this body / cumbersome and heavy body / i've grown tired of this body / fall apart without me body

track four... I'M NOT OK , WEATHERS

too many issues, so i wouldn't blame you / bearer of bad news, i've got no excuse / i talk to myself, self / i think i need help, help

track five... SISYPHUS , ANDREW BIRD

sisyphys peered into the mist / a stone's throw from the precipice, paused / did he jump or did he fall as he gazed into the maw of the morning mist?

track six... RAMBLINGS OF A LUNATIC , BEARS IN TREES

maybe this is the result of me finally accepting that i'll be alone forever / that i deserve forgetting / it's a pointless endeavor, and maybe it's upsetting / but i've never felt more comfortable in the concept with things ending

track seven... GRAVE DIGGER , MATT MAESON

colors blend / they're all black and white / god damnit, i can not bend / i'm all shriveled inside.

track eight... A SADNESS RUNS THROUGH HIM , THE HOOSIERS

people are puppets held together with string / there's a beautiful sadness that runs through him / as he asks me to pray to the god he doesn't believe in

track nine... THE GUARDIAN (ELLIE'S SONG) , SHAWN JAMES

kill or be killed, what a way to live and die? / i just can't see this cycle ever ending / how can i correct the damage done / when i can't feel the consequences of my recourse?

track ten... SIX , SLEEPING AT LAST

my mind was heavy / running ragged with worst case scenarios / emergency exits and the distance below / i woke up so worried that the angels let go

[ash--eiji]

🥹💞💞💞

No problem 😭! This has been brewing inside me for MONTHS 🥲

Not to rub MORE salt in the wound, but Two and Six by Sleeping at Last also reminds me SO MUCH of Eiji and Ash.

Here are some of my favorite bits <333

"Sweetheart, you look a little tired. When did you last eat? Come in and make yourself right at home, stay as long as you need. Tell me, is something wrong? If something's wrong, you can count on me. You know I'll take my heart clean apart if it helps yours beat. It's okay if you can't find the words. Let me take your coat and this weight off of your shoulders."

"I just want to love you, to love you, to love you well. I just wanna learn how to somehow to be loved myself."

"And what a privilege it is to love. A great honor to hold you up."

"I will love you without a single string attached."

- Two

"I had the most vivid dream. My feet left the ground. I was floating to heaven, but I could only look down. My mind was heavy and ragged with worst case scenarios. Emergency exits and the distance below. I woke up so worried that the angels let go."

"Oh God, I'm so tired...of being afraid."

"What would it feel like to put this baggage down? If I'm being honest, I'm not sure I know how. I wanna take shelter but I'm ready, ready to fight. Somewhere in the middle, I feel a little paralyzed. Maybe I'm stronger than I realized."

"I wanna believe... No, I choose to believe, that I was made to become a sanctuary."

"With a vigilant heart, I push into the dark, and I learn to breathe deep and make peace with the stars."

- Six

still processing the events of banana fish, but first love/late spring is ash’s pov and francis forever is eiji’s pov ngl

[liathgray]

Capra scribbles ft ed WITH GLASSES and this song.

(Thanks @bakuwhoa ! You broke me)

[spacedvance]

I had the most vivid dream. My feet left the ground. I was floating to heaven, but I could only look down. My mind was heavy, run ragged with worst-case scenarios. Emergency exits and the distance below. I woke up so worried that the angels let go.

Hey you guys know that one dream about meeting god? Yeah, me too. Hi Percy, my beloved vent character. I'm actually surprised how good this one came out, considering it's like 4am. Song lyrics belong to Six by Sleeping at Last, a fantastic band that I cannot stop recommending.

[winter-came]

okay, Sleeping at last exists, and they produced songs that are titled with numbers. (you know where i am going). and because I am obssesed with TUA, of course I saw possibility. I picked out lyrics out of each song that,in my opinion, do fit quite well with the characters.

One (Luther) -> I, I want to sing a song worth singing, I'll write an anthem worth repeating I, I want to feel the transformation, A melody of reformation, The list goes on forever, Of all the ways I could be better, in my mind, As if I could earn God's favour, given time, Or at least congratulations, Now, I have learned my lesson, The price of this so called perfection is everything, I've spent my whole life searching desperately, To find out that grace requires nothing of me

Two (Diego) -> my note: this one is sweet one but i still think it fits because we all know that Diego is big softie under all of his attitude. -> Tell me, is something wrong? If something's wrong, you can count on me, You know I'll take my heart clean apart if it helps yours beat, I will love you with every single thing I have, Like a tidal wave, I'll make a mess or calm waters, if that serves you best, I will love you without any strings attached, You can take the oxygen straight out of my own chest, And maybe one day I will get around to fixing myself too, I don't even know where to start, Already tired of trying to recall when it all fell apart, I just want to love you, to love you, to love you well, I just want to learn how, somehow, to be loved myself

Three (Allison) -> my note: this is basically entire song, sorry -> Maybe I've done enough, And your golden child grew up, Maybe this trophy isn't real love, And with or without it I'm good enough, And I finally see myself, Through the eyes of no one else, It's so exhausting on this silver screen, Where I play the role of anyone but me, And I finally see myself, Unabridged and overwhelmed, A mess of a story I'm ashamed to tell, But I'm slowly learning how to break this spell, And I finally see myself, Now I only want what's real, To let my heart feel what it feels, Gold, silver, or bronze hold no value here, Where work and rest are equally revered, I only want what's real, I set aside the highlight reel, And leave my greatest failures on display with an asterisk, Worthy of love anyway

Four (Klaus) -> I'm turning out the lights, To remember how to see, Until a renaissance takes place, And resuscitates the color of paint and divinity, Bodies fashioned out of dirt and dust, For a moment we get to be glorious, Maybe my heart needs to break to be sure, One day I'll wear it all on my sleeve, But I've fallen in love with a ghost, I lost my balance when I needed it most, And this blurry photograph is proof, Who, what I'm not sure, but it feels like truth, I'm stuck swimming in shadows down here, It's been forever, since I came up for air

Five (Five) -> this was the first one i stumbled upon and here we are -> I want to watch the universe expand, I want to break it into pieces small enough to understand, And put it all back together again, It feels like an out of body experience, But something gets lost from a safe distance, Now I can't put my mind to rest, And I can't help but second guess, A white flag waves in the dark between my head and my heart, My armor falls apart, As if I could let myself be seen, even deeply known, Like I was already brave enough to let go, And now I want to generously lose this energy, That I've been hanging onto so desperately, I finally feel the universe expand, It's hidden in heartbeats, Exhales and in the hope of open hands

Six (Ben) -> my note: Also almost entire thing, but I couldn't help it. And the whole time I imagined THAT scene with him and vanya soo don't do that :) -> I had the most vivid dream, My feet had left the ground, I was floating to heaven, But I could only look down, My mind was heavy, Running ragged with worst case scenarios, Emergency exits and the distance below, I woke up so worried that the angels let go, Oh God I'm so tired of being afraid, What would it feel like to put this baggage down? If I'm being honest, I'm not sure I'd know how, I want to believe, No, I choose to believe that I was made to become a sanctuary, With a vigilant heart, I'll push into the dark, But I'll learn to breathe deep, And make peace with the stars, Is it courage or faith to show up every day? To trust that there will be light, Always waiting behind, Even the darkest of nights, And no matter what, Somehow we'll be okay, Don't be afraid

Seven (Vanya) -> tbh I was a bit disappointed in this one ( my poor girl) but I was too deep into this, soo -> How wonderful to see a smile on your face, It costs farewell tears for a welcome-home parade, A secret handshake between me and my one life, I'll find the silver lining no matter what the price, But I want to be here, Truly be here, To watch the ones that I love bloom, And I want to make room, To love them through and through and through, And through the slow and barren seasons too, I feel hope, Deep in my bones, Tomorrow will be beautiful

and that's it. idk if I finally became insane or what but here is the post. enjoy!

[lovecolibri]

SaL anon here and since yesterday we did the painful past let's do hopeful future today (I say as if that isn't 80% of the songs we talk about) and talk about Six. This is another song that feels like it was made for Malex. The first two verses make me think of Michael's fear of abandonment followed by Alex's need for security, and how those fears effect their behavior. But the lyrics let those fears go, so they "choose to believe I was made to be a sanctuary". S3 let them be each other's home!

This song is so dreamy in an old-Hollywood sounding way. It's been awhile since I've listened to this song that I forgot how much I love it. And yes, the lyrics are so good for Malex!

i had the most vivid dream... my feet had left the ground,     i was floating to heaven but i could only look down. my mind was heavy, running ragged with worst case scenarios, emergency exits and the distance below. i woke up so worried that the angels let go. oh God i’m so tired of being afraid.

Okay, so this first verse gives me such big "Michael thinking about leaving Earth" vibes, and him still only being able to look down for Alex and thinking about all that could go wrong if he's not around, and then like you said, his fear of abandonment and what if he gets to this new planet and still doesn't find a home there? Because his "home" isn't a place, it's Alex. 😭 Plus, that line "oh God i’m so tired of being afraid" is so on point for both Michael and Alex 😭😭😭 It is time to move past the fear! Come on season 3, bring them some happiness!

what would it feel like to put this baggage down? if i’m being honest, i’m not sure i’d know how. i want to take shelter but i’m ready, ready to fight and somewhere in the middle i feel a little paralyzed- but maybe i’m stronger than i realize

Oof oof oof. This verse hits me hard in my Alex feels. How he has carried the weight of what his dad did to Michael (and to him, but ya know, what he wants doesn't matter) and the years of push and pull where he feels himself taking what he can get from Michael and knowing he can't stay. And "i want to take shelter but i’m ready, ready to fight" fits with him seeking Michael out, finding shelter with him but also the way they still couldn't communicate and ended up fighting, but it's also so true for how Alex has lived so much of his life. Wanting to have somewhere safe, a place to be allowed to have his feelings (something he found in making music), but because of his dad and the abuse he faced at home he was always on edge, always guarded, and prepared to fight. And I love the next line "and somewhere in the middle i feel a little paralyzed" which really hits me in my Pilot Kiss feels. The vibe there of being scared, and angry, and hurt, and also looking for safety, and confirmation that the other is still okay...uuuuugh. It hurts! And then, Ryan has the audacity to finish that sentence with "but maybe i'm stronger than i realize" and if that isn't Alex Manes, I don't know what is. This is already so long, but I have to say that this verse gives me a lot of Michael vibes too, because he's also carried the weight of what Isobel did, and hiding it from her AND from Alex, and hiding who (what) he is from Alex. I also think of baby Michael and Max and Isobel finding him at Foster Ranch and him being so ready to fight 😭😭😭 and how as teens Alex offered him shelter. Plus Alex leaning in to kiss him that first time and him feeling paralyzed but then realizing and going after what he wants. Uuuuugh, these two!!

i want to believe no, i choose to believe that i was made to become a sanctuary. fear won’t go away but i can keep it at bay and these invisible walls just might keep us safe. with a vigilant heart, i’ll push into the dark but i’ll learn to breathe deep and make peace with the stars. is it courage or faith to show up everyday? to trust that there will be light always waiting behind even the darkest of nights

The emotion in his voice in this bit kills me. And there are sooo many good lines here! I love the wanting, no choosing to believe, which is a good theme for Malex since they have both been victims of circumstances and other people's hatred and it is time for them to take back control of their lives and what they want. "i was made to become a sanctuary" is just another version of "home can be a person" and I love that for them, with the added imagery of safety conjured by the word "sanctuary". And the idea that the fear may never leave them (catch me side-eyeing Forrest and his "pissing off homophobes is fun!" rhetoric), but they can lean on each other and their sanctuary to keep it at bay. The imagery of "with a vigilant heart, i'll push into the dark but i'll learn to breathe deep and make peace with the stars" is so beautiful (especially because anything space-related is automatically giving me Michael feels) and then it just doesn't stop and Ryan hits you "is it courage or faith to show up everyday? to trust that there will be light always waiting behind even the darkest of nights" and it's just a punch right to the soul. What a beautiful sentiment! It makes me think of Alex and his belief that people can be good, even after all the horrors he's seen, and Michael and the soft, gentle way he is with the people he loves, even after all the things he's been through. This was supposed to be a hopeful song, and it is but it's also reduced me to tears.

and no matter what, somehow we’ll be okay. don’t be afraid.

Ryan bringing it all back around and ending with a message of hope which is such a good message for Malex. "somehow we'll be okay. don't be afraid". (also, if we don't get a moment where they are trapped and one of them is injured and there is a "we're gonna be okay, you're gonna be okay. Don't worry about me/don't be afraid" then what is even the point of anything?)

You said it best, "S3 let them be each other's home!"

[come-for-the-ships]

AHH OKAY NOBODY MIGHT GET THIS, BUT JUST HAD AN IDEA FOR A TOMMY DEATH ANIMATIC

It’s after he was just killed by dream and the song used is Six by Sleeping at Last

Specific lyrics that come to mind are:

“I was floating to heaven but I could only look down

My mind was heavy running ragged with worst case scenarios, emergency exits and the distance below

I woke up so worried as the angels let go

Oh god I’m so tired

Of being afraid

I wanna take shelter but I’m ready, ready to find somewhere in the middle

I feel a little bit paralyzed”

AND THENNNN when he starts to accept his death, or reunites with ghostbur/a scene of Wilbur comforting Tommy:

“I want to believe, no I choose to believe

That I was made to become a sanctuary

The fear won’t go away, but I can keep it at bay

These invisible walls might just keep us safe

I learn to breathe deep and make peace with the stars

Is it courage or faith, show up every day

Always waiting behind, even the dark is surprised

No matter what

Somehow I’ll be okay

Don’t be afraid”

[greylunar]

hi tal!! i’d genuinely call you one of my favorite ppl on the planet ☺️ so i’m a bit nervous reaching out to you again, but i’ve been listening to a lot more sleeping at last recently, which has brought me back to your uquiz. i listened to 4 on enneagram and felt a similar sense of being “known” as i did when i took your quiz & got ravenclaw. so i was wondering, is there a big correlation between your enneagram & your house? i’d assume there would be! (ty for millions of things!! bye! 💕)

Hello Madi!!! I super hope that I just haven’t gotten to your first ask yet, and that it didn’t just get lost somewhere in the interspace, since you seem absolutely lovely and I would hate to make you nervous even a little bit about anything, but especially about me not answering an ask. I’m,,, very bad at social media and the internet, in general, hehe and so I’ve been answering asks fairly sporadically and in less and less of a sensical order as time passes. I still have my goal of answering everyone, and I will not be shaken from it! It just might take me a while hehe. But I love you all and you all deserve the best answers I can give c: 

I’m so glad you’ve been listening to sleeping at last though! Funnily enough, my favorite songs by him aren’t on the enneagram album, but I love Mercury, Light, and Sun the most c: Funnily enough, I actually don’t know much about enneagram on its own, and for the most part I did the lyrics for each house based on gut interpretations of specific lines, rather than correlations between each type and house! Hehe I wish I was smart enough to know the intricacies of both and tie them together, but I can do you something hopefully as good which is to tell you what each Sleeping at Last song’s lyrics vibe with! 

One is interesting because I think the overall song could very easily be Gryffindor, but its the specific line  “The list goes on forever of all the ways I could be better in my mind, as if I could earn God's favor given time, or at least congratulations,” that makes this song Slytherin for me c:

Two is where we get into the limits of the sorting house system, or I guess more specifically where the enneagram and sorting house system don’t really categorize the same things. There is no house that is the house of love, or self-sacrifice, or anything like that, because those are much more universal traits and why this song kind of hits different for a lot of people. The line that I put in the uquiz was "I know exactly how your rule goes / Put my mask on first / No, I don't want to talk about myself / Tell me where it hurts / I just want to build you up, build you up / 'Til you're good as new / And maybe one day, I'll get around / To fixing myself, too," as a Hufflepuff line because,,, yeah. In a weird way though, I feel like two as a whole vibes with Ravenclaws who I think even more than puffs have a tendency to lose their sense of self when in love and when caring for others in their life just because they’re still curious as to who their self is, rather than being more sturdy in it like a hufflepuff.

Three yall this is it you’ve broken Slytherins down to their bare essentials

Four is my perfect Ravenclaw song and so I’m very excited to hear you are both a Ravenclaw and a four!! It’s really validating hehe and also the song itself is just so beautiful that I’m really glad you are able to listen to it and connect to it and feel seen and held by it, I know how important nine was for me so I’m just really glad that comfort comes your way through this song c:

Five I think balances the rather unconventional line between Gryffindor and Ravenclaw. It’s the want of certainty while being surrounded by the unknown of the Gryffindor, and the want of the unknown while being surrounded by certainty of the Ravenclaw. The sense of being outside a group even while part of them harbored by both houses, the emotional armor often built by both houses, and the hesitation of both to let people in. The sort of pent up energy of a Gryffindor or Ravenclaw not doing enough although they may not even know what their definition of enough is. 

Six. Y’all the ludicrous amount of character playlist six is on for me. The line I put in the quiz,"I wanna believe / No, I choose to believe / That I was made to become / A sanctuary....Is that courage or faith / To show up every day? / To trust that there will be light / Always waiting behind / Even the darkest of nights" is tagged as Hufflepuff and Gryffindor, but the second line from this song in the quiz "I had the most vivid dream / My feet had left the ground / I was floating to heaven / But I could only look down / My mind was heavy / Running ragged with worst case scenarios / Emergency exits and the distance below / I woke up so worried that the angels let go" is just so core Gryffindor and the entirety of the song as a whole is so Gryffindor that to call it anything else would be a travesty on my part. 

Seven. Oh wow hey the way my dyscalculic ass forgot about the number seven and just straight up did not put this song in the quiz. This is fine hehe. I mean, its Gryffindor, utterly. This song always reminds me of laugh drunk nights with my friend @sammansonn (ironically a Slytherin) trying to decide whether or not we’re gonna steal a shopping cart and singing a little too loud for passersby. I like to think we make each other braver, so maybe that’s why its Gryffindor.

Eight is the perfect example of the venn diagram overlap of Gryffindor and Slytherin. "Now you won't see all that I have to lose / And all I've lost in the fight to protect it / I won't let you in. I swore never again- I can't afford, no, I refuse to be rejected" vs “I want to break these bones 'til they're better I want to break them right and feel alive / You were wrong, you were wrong, you were wrong- My healing needed more than time” vs “I remember the minute. It was like a switch was flipped / I was just a kid who grew up strong enough / To pick this armor up / And suddenly it fit" vs "I'm all in, palms out, I'm at your mercy now and I'm ready to begin / I am strong, I am strong, I am strong enough to let you in. / I'll shake the ground with all my might / I will pull my whole heart up to the surface / For the innocent, for the vulnerable / I'll show up on the front lines with a purpose,”...like we can all see the transition from Slytherin to Gryffindor and the strange muddy middle ground of both their paths to healing. I really think the only difference between a Slytherin and a Gryffindor is what you’re trying to heal from and how you’re trying to do it.

Nine. Listen it could all be bias. But there’s not a single part of these lyrics that hit the part of me that’s a Hufflepuff on purpose. 

I hope that helped, and wasn’t way too much to read hehe. Thank you for asking, and even more for sharing your positivity and light with me, you made me smile today and I was really glad to come back and answer this ask. Have the best day ever Madi, and an even better day every one after that c:

[fairycosmos]

uhhhmmm I really dont know how to find that symbol for the shuffle ask so uh . Have this ~

gjfdkslfj you’re so cute bro 😊😊😩😩

six by sleeping at last WHEW

“i had the most vivid dream,my feet had left the ground.i was floating to heaven,but i could only look down.my mind was heavy,running ragged with worst case scenarios,emergency exits and the distance below.i woke up so worried that the angels let go..”oh god i’m so tiredof being afraid…”

[sexcherub]

Enneagram type six - The Loyalist

“I had the most vivid dream

My feet had left the ground

I was floating to heaven

But I could only look down

My mind was heavy

Running ragged with worst case scenarios

Emergency exits and the distance below

I woke up so worried that the angels let go

Oh God I'm so tired

Of being afraid

What would it feel like

To put this baggage down?

If I'm being honest

I'm not sure I'd know how

I want to take shelter but I'm ready, ready to fight

Somewhere in the middle I feel a little paralyzed

Maybe I'm stronger

Than I realize

I want to believe

No, I choose to believe

That I was made to become

A sanctuary

Fear won't go away

But I can keep it at bay

These invisible walls

Just might keep us safe

With a vigilant heart

I'll push into the dark

But I'll learn to breathe deep

And make peace with the stars

Is it courage or faith

To show up every day?

To trust that there will be light

Always waiting behind

Even the darkest of nights

And no matter what

Somehow we'll be okay

Don't be afraid”

[0030060]

           “ i was floating to heaven  /  but i could only look down  /  my mind was heavy  /       running ragged with worst-case scenarios  /  emergency exits and the distance below                                           i woke up so worried that the angels let go. “

              RP BLOG FOR THREE (3) AND SIX (6) OF NETFLIX’S ‘6 UNDERGROUND’

[enzoolardi]

task #001 –

Just did a bad thing’ by Bill Wurtz

I just did a bad thing I regret the thing I did And you’re wondering what it is Tell you what I did I did a bad thing I’m having a bad day It’s turning into a bad year All the things I’m supposed to do And the places I’m supposed to go Are canceled

I guess I just feel like’ by John Mayer

I guess I just feel like I guess I just feel like Nobody's honest Nobody's true Everyone's lying To make it on through I guess I just feel like I'm the same way, too

Atlas: Six’ by Sleeping at Last

I had the most vivid dream My feet had left the ground I was floating to heaven But I could only look down My mind was heavy Running ragged with worst case scenarios Emergency exits and the distance below I woke up so worried that the angels let go

Good things fall apart’ by Illenium & Jon Bellion

Tell me what you hate about me Whatever it is, I’m sorry Yeah, yeah, yeah, yeah, yeah, yeah I know I can be dramatic But everybody said we had it

7′ by Catfish and The Bottlemen

And I’d beg you But you know I’m never home And I love you but I need another year alone

3 nights’ by Dominic Fike

Feel like the least of all your problems You can reach me if you wanna Stay up tonight

Without fear’ by Dermot Kennedy

Lovin’ thoughts livin’ in my young mind Give this boy a beautiful view And tell him, “Without fear, now”

Falling’ by Trevor Daniel

My last made me feel like I would never try again But when I saw you, I felt something I never felt

Money’ by Klaas

Spend my money Like I’m living the dream My money Like I got nothing to fear I put my money where my mouth is I don’t give a shoot please Money Don’t mean nothing on me

We go up’ by LNY TNZ

'Cause we're gonna be among the stars tonight See, the only way is up We go up

Atlas: Three’ by Sleeping At Last

And I finally see myself Through the eyes of no one else It’s so exhausting on this silver screen Where I play the role of anyone but me

[ginkasei]

the mighty neineagram playlist

one - fjord stone 
i want to sing a song worth singing, 
i’ll write an anthem worth repeating. 
i want to feel the transformation,
 the melody of reformation. but the list goes on forever,
 of all the ways i could be better, in my mind.
 as if i could earn God’s favor given time, 
or at least “congratulations”… now, i have learned my lesson;
 the price of this so-called perfection is everything.
 i’ve spent my whole life searching desperately
 to find out that grace requires nothing of me. i’ll hold it all more loosely, 
and yet somehow much more dearly, 
‘cause i’ve spent my whole life searching desperately 
to find out that grace requires nothing. grace requires nothing of me. 
~ two - jester lavorre 
tell me, is something wrong? if something’s wrong 
you can count on me.
 you know i’ll take my heart clean apart, if it helps yours beat. it’s okay if you can’t find the words, 
let me take your coat
 and this weight off of your shoulders. i know exactly how the rule goes:
 put my mask on first.
 no, i don’t want to talk about myself- 
tell me where it hurts. i just want to build you up, build you up
 ’til you’re good as new
 and maybe one day i will get around to fixing myself too. and i just want to love you, to love you, to love you well. 
i just want to learn how, somehow, to be loved myself.
 ~ three - caleb widogast
 maybe i’ve done enough,
 and your golden child grew up. 
maybe this trophy isn’t real love-
 and with or without it, i’m good enough. for the first time i see an image of 
my brokenness utterly worthy of love.
 maybe i’ve done enough. i finally see myself. 
through the eyes of no one else. 
it’s so exhausting on this silver screen 
where i play the role of anyone but me. i finally see myself.
 unabridged and overwhelmed,
 a mess of a story i’m ashamed to tell,
 but i’m slowly learning how to break this spell.
 and i finally see myself. i only want what’s real- 
i set aside the highlight reel,
 and leave my greatest failures on display*
 (*worthy of love anyway)
 ~ four - caduceus clay
 as if God hid the building blocks 
of every beautiful thing
in this game of hide and seek
 i can’t help but think that ordinary has swallowed the key bodies fashioned out of dirt and dust
 for a moment we get to be glorious 
ice sculptures adorned in light
 sand castles built tall in between the tides one day i’ll wear it all on my sleeve
 the insignificant with the sacred unique this blurry photograph is proof
 of what i’m not sure but it feels like truth flashlight in hand determined to find
 authenticity only poetry could even begin to try to describe 
~ six - nott the brave
 i had the most vivid dream…
 my feet had left the ground, 
i was floating to heaven
 but i could only look down. my mind was heavy, 
running ragged with worst case scenarios,
 emergency exits and the distance below. 
i woke up so worried that the angels let go. oh God i’m so tired 
of being afraid. is that courage or faith 
to show up everyday?
 to trust that there will be light 
always waiting behind
 even the darkest of nights and no matter what, 
somehow we’ll be okay.
 don’t be afraid.
 ~ seven - mollymauk tealeaf
 how nice it’d be if we could try everything.
 i’m serious, let’s make a list and just begin.
 “what about danger?” so what. “what about risk?” 
let’s climb this mountain before we cross that bridge! how wonderful to see a smile on your face. 
it costs farewell tears for a welcome-home parade.
 a secret handshake between me and my one life:
 i’ll find the silver lining no matter what the price. let me tell you another secret of the trade-
 it feels like sinking when i’m standing in one place.
 so i look to the future and i book another flight. 
when everything feels heavy, i’ve learned to travel light. but i want to be here.
 truly. be. here. 
to watch the ones that i love bloom.
 and i want to make room 
to love them through and through and through.
 and through the slow and barren seasons too. and i’m ready, God i’m ready, oh i’m ready,
 restless and hungry, but i’m ready 
for whatever comes next.
 ~ eight - beauregard lionett
 i was just a kid who grew up strong enough 
to pick this armor up 
and suddenly it fit. now you won’t see all that i have to lose 
and all i’ve lost in the fight to protect it. 
i won’t let you in. i swore never again- 
i can’t afford, no, i refuse to be rejected. when i see fragile things, helpless things, broken things, 
i see the familiar. 
i was little, i was weak, i was perfect too,
 now i’m a broken mirror. i’m standing guard, i’m falling apart 
and all i want is to trust you.
 show me how to lay my sword down 
for long enough to let you through. for the innocent, for the vulnerable,
 i’ll show up on the front lines with a purpose.
 and i’ll give all i have, i’ll give my blood, i’ll give my sweat-
 an ocean of tears will spill for what is broken.
 i’m shattered porcelain, glued back together again, 
invincible like i’ve never been.
 ~

nine - yasha nydoorin
 still, i check my vital signs.
 choked up, i realize 
i’ve been less than half myself 
for more than half my life. so please show me what to do 
to restart this heart of mine. 
how do i forgive myself
 for losing so much time? wake up.
 roll up your sleeves. 
there’s a chain reaction
 in your heart,
 muscle memory
 remembering who you are. stand up.
 fall in love again and again and again.
 wage war on gravity. 
there’s so much
 worth fighting for,
 you’ll see. to know and love ourselves and others well 
is the most difficult and meaningful
 work we’ll ever do.
 ~

[darkheartvamp]

I had the most vivid dream My feet had left the ground I was floating to heaven But I could only look down My mind was heavy Running ragged with worst case scenarios Emergency exits and the distance below I woke up so worried that the angels let go Oh God I'm so tired Of being afraid #nature #Love #morning #goodmorning #naturewitch #natureshot (at Lone Oak, Kentucky) https://www.instagram.com/p/B4EtMvLBsVY/?igshid=14i6tlnbsyelr

[davidmorgado9]

I had the most vivid dream

My feet had left the ground

I was floating to heaven

But I could only look down

My mind was heavy

Running ragged with worst case scenarios

Emergency exits and the distance below

I woke up so worried that the angels let go

Oh, God, I'm so tired

Of being afraid

What would it feel like

To put this baggage down?

If I'm being honest

I'm not sure I'd know how

I want to take shelter but I'm ready, ready to fight

And somewhere in the middle I feel a little paralyzed

But maybe I'm stronger than I realize

I want to believe

No, I choose to believe

That I was made to become

A sanctuary

Fear won't go away

But I can keep it at bay

And these invisible walls

Just might keep us safe

With vigilant heart

I'll push into the dark

But I'll learn to breathe deep

And make peace with the stars

Is that courage or faith

To show up every day?

To trust that there will be light

Always waiting behind

Even the darkest of nights

And no matter what

Somehow we'll be okay

Don't be afraid.

#filtr1991 #beautifulworld