#Embarrassing infodump sorry I have autism

[4arconinoma]

Started looking at more spider images/videos/facts recently to rid myself of my vague fear of them and started with tarantulas because they seemed the scariest

Now I have a full on tarantula hyperfixation

[junowritings]

Hello. I was wondering if I could get a Baldurs Gate 3 match up?

Specifically with one of the men I am a gay transmasc man(only pronouns I don't use are she/her). I generally have a more masc style but even though I identify as trans masc I don't bind that often. I hate wearing dresses though. Like I hate them with a passion. I have autism, adhd, anxiety, and depression. I often love infodumping to close family and friends. I love cats and have 4 of them(they are all my babies). I love listening to those around me talk about their interests, and I, in turn, love to share my own interests. I am easily overstimulated, though, and can shut down equally as easily. I enjoy doing what's called parallel play where I and another person, we each do our own thing but still enjoy each other's company. I love singing and can play multiple instruments, including cello and piano. I get easily embarrassed when singing around those close to me, though. I am hypersensitive to most touch, sound, and smells. I'm currently unemployed due to my mental health issues but I one day would like to be a veterinarian technician. I am easily distracted and have a really bad memory(it's my adhd)

Sorry if I over shared, I just wanted to give you stuff to work with if that makes sense

That's no problem at all hun! Thanks for the info it was a big help in deciding who I think the best fit for you would be! Which is,,,

It’s almost fitting how well you and Rolan end up complementing one another.

Your love is kindled quietly at first, especially if it’s back at the Grove or the inn. Rolan’s dealing with personal struggles himself around that time especially in concern with his life and the lives of his family. And he’s certainly not blind to your own struggles either - catches glimpses of the days where even you are overwhelmed by the hands fate deals you. And yet you always keep moving forward, overcoming each day even when it feels as though the weight of the world upon your shoulders could suffocate. He’d be a fool not to realize that his feelings for you go far beyond mere respect.

PLEASE listen to this guy talk; he could talk for Faerun about his interests and pursuits if you’ll allow him the chance to. Of course Cal and Lia put up with his ramblings, and have for years - but they’re his siblings so every conversation is full of teasing grins and the ‘here he goes again’ to playfully remind him when he may have been getting carried away. It’s different with you. You’ve always been a willing ear, even when he’s admittedly been at his worst; providing a welcome confidant who seems to actually listen. He often teasingly bemoans that it took so long to finally find someone who appreciates his knowledge, a perfect actor of the furrowed brow and mock dismayed sigh that will have you grinning and rolling your eyes every time. But in all seriousness, Rolan deeply appreciates that you’re willing to indulge him in his thoughts and interests, a fact he often chides himself for not telling you more often.

Given how often you allow him to ramble it’s only fair that Rolan allows you the same - is what he says, but we both know damn well that he could listen to you talk about how paint dries and sit through the entire thing if that’s what interests you. He’s content to listen to you explain your current interests to him while he works and reorganizes - you’ll realize quickly he’s not one for sitting still for overlong if there’s something to keep his hands busy. Rest assured that Rolan’s always listening to you though, as any time you trail off or pause he’ll stop what he’s doing to encourage you to continue. Can never stop himself from adding to the conversation in some way - it’s a bad habit since he can never get the timing right and sometimes butts right in mid conversation, but the guy’s got his heart in the right place. Rolan’s the kind of partner that wants you to feel like he really appreciates the stuff that you appreciate, which he does by learning about them precisely so he can talk to you about them. It’s a sweet gesture, especially if your interests end up leading him down the proverbial rabbit hole of information he previously had no idea about.

Listen, Rolan is basically one big cat himself - you have to earn his trust and others may think he comes off too prickly and closed off. But once they love you? That’s it, it’s for life. So once your cats get used to having him around, they will absolutely love him. Well, more specifically the cats LOVE his tail. The poor tielfing’s tail is literally a walking cat toy, and it really doesn’t help that he rarely keeps it still idly swaying it from side to side as he goes about his day. You’re going to have to get used to hearing a familiar shout of surprise somewhere in the house followed by Rolan coming to find you with the offending cat in tow, cradled in his arms like a petulant fluffy child. Since you’re the cat-parent he seems to think you’ll somehow be able to convince your cats to give him some reprieve - a nice thought, but you both know that will never happen.

He’ll give you your space when you’re feeling overstimulated. Rolan understands probably better than most that the worst thing to do when it all becomes too much is to be surrounded by things and people that will only exacerbate the situation. He only hopes that you’ll come to him once you’ve taken the time to ground yourself, to see that you’re doing alright or to let him know if there’s anything else that you require. After taking over Ramazith’s tower there’s not a single room in the place off limits to you. Just pick a room and it’s yours for whatever you please; and if you need a place of comfort to hide yourself away without the worry of being disturbed this man will bend the place backwards to accommodate that for you. In his eyes it’s the very least that he can do to provide you a fraction of the comfort and security that you give him.

Rolan’s the kind of partner that would benefit the most from parallel play, especially with his tendency to keep himself occupied. To exist in the same place as the one you care for, doing separate things whilst also enjoying one another’s company? Rolan can think of nothing better, especially on the days when he’d just like to unwind and do his own thing in your company. If you’re comfortable with the touch and you’re each doing your own thing within close proximity he’ll drape his tail across your lap or around your hip, giving the occasional brush to your side like an unspoken appreciation for your presence in these little stolen moments. 

Rolan’s not going to push you to perform or sing in front of any audience, including his own if you express your discomfort at the prospect; he respects your privacy and will always give you space to indulge in your musical pursuits away from prying eyes. On that note though he’s got excellent hearing, so he’s been privy to catching the tail end of some of your practices without strictly meaning to. More than once he’ll idle himself nearby the room where you’re performing, enraptured momentarily by the beautiful sounds you create through your voice or the gentle thrum of your instruments. It’s no wonder he’s enraptured, so much so that he’s had to catch himself and scramble to make himself look as though he hadn’t spent the past few minutes listening to your music more than a few times once you’ve stopped performing. 

If you do decide to ever perform around Rolan though, especially in his presence he gets uncharacteristically quiet, listening to you sing or play with a reverent silence you wouldn’t expect from the usually snarky tiefling. Hell if you knew it only took this to render him speechless you may have done it sooner - just don’t tell him that though or he’ll go dark red right up to his ears. Rolan will absolutely boast about your musical prowess to anyone who’s around to hear.  He wants everyone to know just how talented and skilled his wonderful partner is, enough that his siblings will probably start begging you to reign him in..

Rolan is absolutely a help with your bad memory and tendency to get distracted; this guys had experience. I mean, look at his relationship with his siblings - trust me, all of them have got keeping you focused in the bag. Most of the time. Rolan is always there to remind you of important things you’ve forgotten - remembering important dates, reminding you where you last put down something that you’ve misplaced; he’s a lifesaver in a pinch and saves you a lot of headache trying to wrack your brain over these things. Granted he will sometimes joke in good fun about how he can add personal calendar and tracker to his expansive repertoire, and sigh about the things that he does for love. But a quick kiss or the soft brush of a hand against his cheek abruptly nips that teasing in the bud, and you’ll have him on the forgetful side as he leans into your touch.

[neurodiverse-clones]

Ok so I know I already requested and I don't want to come across as rude or anything

But

I absolutely love your headcanons and was kinda curious if you could do some badbatch headcanons where they try to help Echo with his autism?

Thanks

HI hello yes! Sorry it took me way longer to respond to this than your first ask, it’s the ADHD 😅 But for sure! And don’t worry, asking me to share headcanons doesn’t come across as rude. The enthusiasm makes me happy!

One thing I think about the Bad Batch is that they’re all a little autism coded—Hunter’s sensory stuff, Tech’s special interests, Crosshair’s tendency toward a flat affect, Wrecker sometimes missing social cues—so I feel like they all help in different ways! (I also feel like Tech and Wrecker are a bit ADHD coded, which will come back later.)

Hunter would be the one to help Echo deal with sensory overload and to help him learn to prevent it, because he has the most experience with it. He probably has things that help, like noise-canceling earmuffs or headphones, weighted eye masks to help with visual overstimulation (personally I don’t like having lightweight masks over my eyes but heavy ones feel nice, hence headcanoning weighted masks for him too), maybe… not candles probably, but some sort of pleasantly-scented oil or something to help with bad tastes and smells. And I think he’d share these with Echo until Echo got his own collection.

Tech is a great buddy to have infodump sessions with and to learn that special interests are cool and good, and maybe to expand Echo’s list of special interests. Like, Tech obviously loves technology but he also CLEARLY loves linguistics—I think he would help Echo find things he enjoys outside of the regs to develop special interests in! And then he would listen to Echo infodump about his new interest, knowing that in a few minutes it’s his turn to talk about the 800 languages and dialects of this one planet they’ve never actually been to and Echo will listen to him right back.

Wrecker seems like he sometimes misses social cues. Whether that’s out of distraction (ADHD) or not understanding them (autism) is probably up to interpretation, I feel like there’s a little of both—but I bet that he would help when Echo felt embarrassed about missing or misunderstanding a social cue by taking the attention off of Echo. I say this because he seems willing to make himself look a little silly sometimes—I imagine he probably understands the embarrassment and uses his own personality to his advantage to help Echo out without having difficult or uncomfortable conversations about it.

Crosshair… I’m not sure how he would help really! Like, I know for the other BB members I kind of used the way they I felt they were autism coded as part of how they would help or at least understand Echo, and to an extent that’s true here too? Early on in Echo’s timeline (I’m thinking s1e5 Rookies) he seems to have a bit of a flat affect, and so Crosshair would understand that because he also has that. But I’ve personally never known another autist who was particularly disturbed by their flat affect? In fact, I know/follow several other autists who have a flat affect and personally I barely notice the difference between that and a “normal” affect. People mention it because it’s something some of us experience while others of us tend to be… the opposite but I don’t know what the phrase for that is. But some autists tend to use more inflection than the average allistic person does. Anyway, all this to say it’s something people in general are aware of and that we know affects autistic people, but unless it’s a little exaggerated (like in a voice acting situation) I personally don’t really notice and so I don’t know how it affects other people/causes distress.

THAT all said, I think he still supports Echo and helps him deal with other stuff. I don’t think any of them “stays in their lane,” as it were. They all help and support him in the ways that are most comfortable for them and sometimes those overlap! Even if it’s just “sitting in the same room while Echo has a meltdown/shutdown” I feel like Crosshair would support him because even though he’s a bit flatter and less physically affectionate than the rest of the Bad Batch, he definitely still loves his brothers. It’s just less obvious to us as viewers.

And Wrecker and Tech have lots of stim and fidget toys and advice! Stimming is a shared identifying trait between autism and ADHD but personally I associate some stims with my autism and some with my ADHD and most of the ones which require toys or tools are ADHD stims, which is why I personally feel like Tech and Wrecker’s ADHD coding lends itself to fidget toys rather than the autism coding. But that’s just me!

[thalassophis]

1. Who makes the other blush all the time and who finds it adorable?

I think they both make each other blush but not really in a cute bashful courtship way. More like an angry embarrassed way cuz they are always getting on each other's damn nerves

2. Who sings in the shower?

Cammy... Lupin (bonus answer)

4. Who embarrasses the other in public with kisses and pet names?

Again they are not doing this. Lupin does this (bonus answer)

5. Who curses, and who reprimands the other for it?

Jigen is always calling them bitches and Cameron is always saying to not call them bitches

6. What small quirks do they love about each other?

Cameron likes when Jigen starts smiling at people with malice. He likes to watch Jigen clean his guns too it's kind of like watching restoration YouTubers to him or people who build computers. The way he can just take them apart so easily especially the tiny parts. I don't know if this counts as a quirk but I'm writing it anyway. Also he likes when Jigen pulls his hat down or when he sits cross-legged in a gay way.

Jigen is always lowkey impressed when Cameron can really lock in and focus on something. Even though it's usually related to creepy forensics stuff or something... He is also lowkey maybe turned on by Cameron's detached medical way of describing things sometimes. Guys they're maladjusted I don't know what else to say...

7. Who makes the other laugh more?

They both make each other laugh. Usually over stupid shit though. It's low-brow guy humor

8. Who gets jealous easier?

They're both very jealous. Jigen kind of hypocritically jealous because he's aware of his own relationship priorities and that Cameron is like... lower than the others. JUST SPEAKING HONESTLY. FROM THE HEART... sorry

Then on the flip-side Cam tends to get jealous *because* of that hypocrisy... like why can't Jigen make time for him but he can make time for his other weird bfs. And Jigen still has the audacity to get mad at him for hanging out with Fujiko or something. Like it's just not right

9. How did they know they were right for each other?

They're not right for each other they broke up :( Then got back together. Then broke up. Then maybe got back together again. I don't know I'm thinking about it

10. Who brings up the subject of kids first?

Part of Jigen might *kind of* want a family, but I think he accepted a long time ago that's not happening. Unless one of his inexplicable bastard children is dropped at his doorstep. Even then I doubt he would be the father who stepped up, realistically. He's just... well if I'm being honest he's just a little too selfish.

Cameron's not interested in having kids.

11. Who's adorable when they're sleepy, and who gets grumpy and irritable

They are both awful

12. Who's more protective?

Jigen. We already know he's a drama queen who would die for anything

13. How do they express their feelings?

For Jigen it's probably small things. He'll throw a pack of cigarettes at you or feed you a delicious sandwich. But no fucking way is he saying that he loves you or that you're his boyfriend or something unless you like interrogate this out of him

Cam's a little nervous and tends to just be clingy or overly deferential to people he likes. But once he feels a little more comfortable he's very factual to the point about it. "I like you. I'd like to do this again. I want to make sure I'm not hurting your feelings" etc This is scary to Jigen, very weird and unusual

14. Where would they go on a 3am adventure?

Anywhere. Literally anywhere... but probably some shitty Denny's or like dangling upside down from a rope over a pit of snakes

17. Who picks flowers for the other?

Jigen then he gets too scared to give them to anyone and eats them or something

18. Which one wears the "I'm with stupid" t-shirt

Both. Pointing at eahc other. Or Lupin if he stands in the middle

19. Who's the better dancer?

Jigen I think. I think he has it in him

20. Who infodumps and who listens with heart eyes?

Again we all have autism here sir

[angelicspaceprince]

Genshin Impact HCs - S/O Infodumping

Prompt: How do the Genshin characters react to you infodumping about your special interest?  - Requested by @zhonglis-wifey​

Characters: Zhongli, Childe, Thoma, Scaramouche, Diluc, Kaeya, Venti, Albedo, Xiao, Kazuha.

Tags: Gender neutral reader, written about autism by an autistic with stuff about ADHD written by someone with ADHD so very much based off of personal experiences, I’m sorry if they do not match your own but I hope you get something out of it regardless! Spelling errors, as my tumblr does not pick up on them and I refuse to put it through google docs first - it’s too much of a pain to format afterwards 😭

CW: SI here stands for Special Interest, not Self Injury as an FYI. ADHD implied Childe (personal HC), Scaramouche being an ass (I tried to make it sweet but he’s a dick), nothing else majorly that I can think of

Thoma

Loves hearing you info dump whilst he’s working

His favourite time to ask you questions about your SI is when he’s cooking so he can listen as he slowly works on making sure everything he’s making is absolutely perfect for those he’s feeding

His favourite thing to do is to get you to talk about your SI too, because he loves the way you light up as you get more and more excited

He also makes a point of learning about your SI so he can talk to you about it and not just be a passive listener

He views it as another way to spend time with you, so he puts his all into it

And if he doesn’t understand something for whatever reason, he simply asks you to walk him through it.

If he sees something SI-related at the market, he will get it for you no matter the price

Same with if he hears anything about an SI-related event happening within Inazuma, he will pull as many strings as he has to in order to ensure the pair of you can go together

All in all, a very sweet boy

‘Hey I saw this when I went to the market today and thought you might like it! I’m not entirely sure what it is.... maybe you could explain it to me about it sometime? We could make it a date!’

Zhongli

This man is a walking encyclopedia

Literally, the best person to have a discussion with regarding your SI

He will set aside time to talk to you about your SI as often as you request - he will even make a point of making a long lunch reservation at a restraunt of your choice to ensure you have space and time to info dump to him

Always answers your questions without any hesitation

Is always invested in your conversations too

He will remain quiet with a small smile as he listens to you info dump, content not to say a word unless you ask him for his opinion or knowledge on the subject

When he goes for walks, if he sees anything SI-related, he will bring it home for you and present it during one of your info-dumping sessions

He also loves it when you info dump when the pair of you are settling into bed of a night

He just enjoys hearing you talk as he holds you close and takes in every word you have for him

Also remembers every single word you say

All in all, a very good person to info dump to

‘Are you ready, dearest? We can begin our discussion as we walk to the restraunt, I’d hate to be late for our reservation and for it to cut our time short.’

Childe

Not gonna lie, it’s probably going to go over his head

He tries. He really does try.

The same way he listens to Anton when he talks about his SI, he does it for you

But, there is so much going on in his head, so sometimes mind just wanders and it’s hard for him to pay attention, especially if he’s had a long day forcing himself to pay attention to the long, boring harbinger meetings he’s expected to particpate in

Always apologises afterwards if he asks you to repeat yourself

And he gets embarrassed by his inability to concentrate on what you’re saying

He never admits it’s because he’s distracted by just how stunning you look when you get excited talking about your SI

He tries to teach himself a little about your SI though

He’s pulled favours to get tickets to events surrounding your SI, and pulled even more to get time off to attend it with you

He will shower you in gifts that are related to your SI too

He tries. He wants to do better to actually listen when you talk, and is finding ways to do that, but for now, all he can do is try

Boy has ADHD if y’all can’t pick up what I’m laying down and if you skipped the CW

‘Ah, what was that? I’m sorry, baby, I’ll try harder to pay attention this time. Let me make it up to you next time we are out, yeah?’

Albedo

This motherfucker takes notes

Everyone quiet, class is in session

He will remember everything you say, often bringing up previous conversations during your info dumps

Makes small comments with his thoughts throughout and listens if you go to correct him - this is your area of expertise afterall, he wants to learn from the master

Actively encourages your info dumping sessions when he’s working on an alchemy project

There have been a few times your info dumping sessions have actually helped him with his project, but he just enjoys hearing your voice and your excitement as he works

He still takes in every word you say, even if he seems distracted at the time

If there is a way to use alchemy to create stuff in regards to your SI, he will

If there isn’t, he will find a way

All-in-all, he loves hearing your excitement and learning from you

'Fascinating as always, sweetflower.’

Diluc

This man will stop everything he’s doing to listen if he has the chance

Another one who loves to listen as he works

Be it inspecting the vineyard or helping clean up Angel’s Share, having you follow or simply be in the room with him as you chatter away

Sometimes, he will just flat our ask you to talk about your SI, listening with a rare smile as you talk away

For him, it’s a comfort

He’s not awfully good at conversation, but he still wants to converse with you

This is an easy way for him to do just that

He will create a room at the winery for you to keep all of your items relating to your SI for safe keeping too, making sure that the staff know to treat your items with the utmost care

‘If it wouldn’t trouble you, liebling, I would love to hear you to continue our conversation from last night as I work.’

Kaeya

He will tease you about it

Lightly, of course

Mostly by asking if there will be a test afterwards, or if he needs to take notes

If it upsets you, he’ll apologise and try to make it up to you, explaining that he loves to hear you talk about the things that interest you

He will encourage you to talk about your SI for as long as possible as he simply watches with that cocky grin of his

If you ask him if he’s been listening, he will relay every fact you’ve given him before asking for more just to see you get excited again

He loves it when you info dump as he writes reports, to the point where he will bring you into work when his paperwork has piled up

If you get self-concious and start to slow down or stop your info-dump, he is quick to rectify that, encouraging you to continue with a more genuine smile and reassurance that it’s not annoying, he’s enjoying this time with you and simply hearing you talk about things you’re passionate about

Love smitten, just bad at showing it

‘Oh? Why did you stop? I enjoy hearing you talk as I work, especially when it’s about something that gets you so excited.’

Venti

Hearing you talk about your SI? Venti has, and will, write many a ballad in regards to how endlessly beautiful you look when you get start talking to him about your SI

He will simply lay there with you under the tree at Windrise as you talk and talk and talk, rarely offering his own two cents unless prompted, just to hear your musical voice become louder and more excited

To him, there is no clearer vision of heaven than spending this time with you

He will compose next to you as he listens, plotting his lyrics and music as he watches you in awe

Another love-smitten boy, only this one is a little clearer in showing it

In order to get him to come along to one of your info-dump sessions, you merely have to go to the Temple near Windrise and call his name. Together, you two walk to your designated spot as your conversation begins to flow

It’s harder to stop the conversation with Venti than any of the others in this list, he is just that good at drawing more information from you in order to spend even more time with you

‘Ah, is it that time again? Well then, come on! I’m excited to hear what you have for me this time.’

Xiao

Xiao is a listener before all else

He finds it relaxing to have your voice anchor him away from all of his pains and struggles that his karmic debt has forced him through

During particularly bad times, be it pain or flashbacks, you are his first point of call

It gets to the point where he doesn’t even have to ask for you to start talking, he just arrives and is clearly in distress so you sit him down in the most comfortable position the pair of you can get into and start talking and talking until he finally murmurs a small ‘thank you’ before he asks you to continue

He doesn’t quite understand why you are so passionate about your SI. To him, its just another fact of life or a distraction to the bigger picture

But, it makes you happy. And your happiness is his greatest priority, equalling his contract to Liyue

Will make you something that represents your SI, and it’s something that ends up becoming one of your more treasured items

'Here, I made it for you. I hope it’s to your satisfaction.’

Kazuha

Kazuha is also probably one of the best listeners by nature on this list

To him, to hear you talk about your SI is one of life’s greatest gifts

Has he written haikus about how your excitement makes him feel? Yes. He’s embarrassed Beidou with readings surrounding it many a time, to the point that she’s made him swear never to share them with you

Whether it’s on the Crux, or within Inazuma, or in Liyue during one of the ships many stops, Kazuha will always make time to hear you info-dump about your SI

He may not remember every fact, but he will remember every feeling, and that’s what’s most important to him

He is also one to encourage you to talk about your SI, loving how your eyes light up as you get ready to tell him everything you’ve learnt or thought about since your last info-dumping session

Again, another gift giver

If he sees something in the wild that reminds him of your SI, he will gift it to you and explain why it made him think of your SI

It’s another way for the pair of you to spend time with one another and he cherishes every moment

‘I’ll always have time to talk to you, maple leaf. What thoughts do you have to share with me today?’

Scaramouche

Listen. I love Scaramouche. I truly do. And I spent so long trying to make this kind and loving

But he’s an asshole

The first time you info dump, he’s going to be a dick about it

110% would say ‘do you ever shut up’ the first time it happens

Of course, it comes back to bite him on the ass when he finds that he actually misses your info dumping

It’s only happened the once and he’s already hooked on the way your excitement made him feel

He doesn’t come crawling back to you at first, he figures it’s only a matter of time before it happens again

But then days go by

And then weeks

And suddenly he realises that if he wants to experience that level of intamcy with you again, he’s going to have to talk to you about it

He wouldn’t apologise, simply asking for you to continue your conversation where you left off

When you act confused, he gets a little funny - his love language is being an ass, didn’t you know that?

It’s not until you finally explain that you talking about your SI is a deeply personal thing that you trusted him with that he realises just how badly he fucked up

He apologises, works on getting you comfortable to info-dump with him again but it takes time

And then? He listens. And listens. Every now and again, he will randomly bring up something you had said weeks prior during one of your info-dump sessions simply because the statement intrigued him enough that he keeps thinking about it

Another one who encourage you to info dump as he works. Hearing you talk makes all of his boring work go by so much faster

Once he appreciates what he nearly lost, he makes a point of never toeing that line again

Thanks you sometimes?? When you info dump? He just needed to hear your voice and to focus on something that wasn’t Fatui Business so he thanks you for distracting him with your lovely voice

‘You want me to do what? Say I’m wrong? But I- Fine. I’m sorry. I was wrong.’

[thatlavenderblue]

So I am autistic and even though my autism (and especially the fact that I wasn't diagnosed as a child) had a big impact on my life, I don't really feel disabled. I have sensory issues but I can still function with them. I miss social cues and sometimes people get offended but I'm also very sensitive so I make sure that everyone feels okay so they aren't mad at me. I need to have very detailed explanations to understand things and I need to be guided when trying new things but people have always helped me when I was in need. I have executive dysfonction but people always cared for me and helped me get things done if needed. So I don't really feel disabled.

What I do feel though is restricted. Because of the ableist representation of autistic people in mediass my parents never noticed my autism which was obvious. I never had access to a diagnosis or accommodations. I grew up always restricting myself, never asking for help, never asking for what I need and never doing what I wanted to do because I knew I wasn't ''normal'' and I desperately wanted to fit in.

Even now, knowing that I am autistic and using accommodations, I still feel restricted. I'm still too embarrassed to infodump about my special interests to my ND friends even though I NEED to as a way to regulate myself. I'm too embarrassed to ask for help when I can't do something because of executive dysfonction. I'm too embarrassed to stim in public. I'm too embarrassed to tell new people that I am autistic. I'm scared that they'll think I'm weird, I don't want to annoy them.

I feel restricted by the way I was raised: in an ableist society where '' autism'' is almost a bad word. Growing up, the only representation of autistic people were played and written by neurotypicals. I felt like I should feel sorry for autistics. I am trying to free myself from internalised ableism, but it will take time.

I hope everyone is having a great day! Don't forget to unmask as soon as you're in a comfortable environment that allows you to<3

[mammoneymelon]

How the brothers would react to finding out that MC is autistic

before anyone says anything, i’m autistic and just really want some representation

TW for ableism! the boys are doing their best but no NT immediately knows everything about autism

it’s a bit random, but i headcanon that lucifer has misophonia, so it’s only a matter of time before a noisy/verbal stim starts to drive him up a wall

“what in the devildom are you doing?” he’d ask, eyebrows scrunched in frustration

you have no idea what he’s talking about; after all, you’ve just been sitting on your DDD playing some rhythm game

“what do you mean?”

“you’ve been making that noise for hours; cut it out before i have to go find the packing tape.”

you know him well enough to know he isn’t joking, so you nod and do your best to stop, ignoring the feeling of dread beginning to well up in your chest

you go back to your game, and soon enough, you’re back to ‘making that noise’

you see lucifer stand up, bringing your action to your attention.

“oh, sorry! i didn’t realize i was doing it again, sorry!”

“oh?” he asked, looking down at you. 

“it’s stimming. autistic people do it a lot more than others, and sometimes we don’t even notice it.” there’s a moment of silence but you realize you just told him something you hadn’t even told your human friends

“ah, yes, i do remember reading about that in your file. i didn’t want to say anything so as not to offend you.”

you shake your head. “dude! that’s personal business! i don’t like telling people.”

lucifer’s gaze seems to soften. “don’t fret, MC. i won’t tell a soul.”

and he doesn’t.

he also totally buys you quiet stim toys

it’s not long before mammon realizes you are terrible at reading the room

you have a terrible habit of cracking a joke at the worst time or saying the first thing that comes to your mind, even if it was at the expense of others

at first, mammon, mammon thought you were really brave. now, however, he sees that you just have no idea what you’re doing

currently, your knack for trouble had landed you in detention, something you’d gotten fairly used to in the human world. mammon was sitting next to you - he was paying for trying to defend you

“lucifer’s going to kill us. again.”

“and whose fault is that?”

“sorry,” you mumble. “it’s not like i was trying to get us here.”

“really? because it’s startin’ to seem like you are. not that i blame ya, if i were you i’d do anything to spend more time with the great mammon.” he gives you a smile, and you really hope that means he isn’t mad

“i really don’t like upsetting people, i just don’t really get tone? i didn’t even realize the teacher was mad until you stepped in. “

“dude, she was on the verge of killing ya! what do ya mean you “didn’t even realize”?

you pinch the bridge of your nose in frustration. “it’s part of a disorder i have. autism. i just don’t get some stuff that comes naturally to other people.”

“ohhh.” mammon slaps his head, feeling like an idiot. “sorry,” he murmurs, and you barely hear it

mammon, being, well, mammon, will probably forget.

it’s not that he doesn’t care! it’s just not something that comes up in conversation.

of course, when the two of you do talk about it, he picks up on the symptoms pretty quickly. he’s a pretty smart guy, and he’ll do anything and everything for his human

the two of you are working on a co-op dungeon while you talk about your current special interest

“wow, MC, you know a lot about this!”

“thanks,” you respond, and it hits you - you’ve been infodumping almost this whole time

“haha, yeah, blame it on the autism brain,” you joke absentmindedly, not really caring if he knew. you two were good friends, why would being neurodivergent make a difference?

levi, on the other hand, does a double take. being the gamer he is, he’d definitely heard the word used as an insult, but he’d never thought about anyone actually having autism - much less his best friend

“MC, you have autism?” he turns to you looking genuinely confused, his controller sitting, forgotten, in his lap

“um, yeah? it’s not really a big deal,” you say, shrugging

“yeah it is! i mean i knew you were pretty weird, since you hang out with me-” he stops mid-sentence, realizing his mistake. “NOT IN A BAD WAY, OF COURSE! ah sorry, i said something stupid, like always.”

you shake your head with a small smile. you can tell he’s trying. “trust me, i’ve heard much worse. you’re fine, levi.”

he glances up at you, face red from embarrassment, and your smile widens. “i mean, i don’t think like ‘normal’ people anyway, so yeah, i kinda am weird.”

once you leave his room, he’s at his pc, researching more vigorously that he’s ever done for a class

the more he learns, the more annoyed he gets at the complete misunderstanding of the disorder

ultimately, he just wants to make sure you feel supported and understood

you’re sitting in the library, doing your homework while satan looks over your essay, checking for errors

“oi, MC”

“what’s up?” you respond, still focused on your work

“are you scared of me?”

this prompts you to look up, focusing your eyes on his hands

“i was when i first came here, and i definitely would be scared if i really pissed you off, but no, i’m not scared of you. why do you ask?”

“you never look me in the eyes. or my brothers, actually.”

oh. you’d been hoping no one had noticed. “oh, i just don’t like eye contact. it makes me uncomfortable.” you return your eyes to your paper, hoping that was enough.

“how so?” 

so it wasn’t enough.

“i’m autistic, genius. i figured it was obvious by now.”

“oh. that makes sense.” that’s all he says, so you try to return your focus to your homework.

satan is probably the most comfortable talking to you about it. he’ll ask you questions about your personal experiences and make an effort to understand you better

one day you look over his shoulder to find him reading an article on masking on his DDD

he cares deeply for you, even if it’s hard for him to say so

asmo has wrangled you into yet another shopping trip

“MC, look at this!! you have to try it on!”

one look at the article of clothing and your face is already scrunching up

“absolutely not.”

“awe, why not?” he gives you the biggest puppy eyes and you sigh. he knows your weaknesses.

“the material. i hate it.”

“but it would look so good on you~”

clearly, he’s not going to give up unless you explain yourself to him

“sure, for a couple seconds, until i have a complete meltdown,” you remark. “i’m autistic, so some textures just make me feel really bad.”

his mouth makes an ‘o’ shape, and then he goes back to looking confused. “i hadn’t even thought about that as a possibility! you should’ve said something earlier!”

he feels really bad about all the times he’s touched you without warning. he thought your shock was cute (and he still does), but he knows that autistic people sometimes dislike touch - he’s definitely had at least a couple autistic ‘partners’ in the past

he’s quite the observant demon, quickly picking up on sensations you d and don’t like. if you’re bothered by smells, he does his best to lay off on the perfume - granted, it’s a necessary part of his routine that he absolutely cannot give up completely. he lets you play with the dimmer in his room so you can find the amount of light that works best.

occasionally, he’ll have to tell you that he’s trying his absolute best to flirt and you are giving him nothing. you’re just like “oh shit i didn’t realize”

asmo’s just a sweetheart who wants you to be comfortable

beel unfortunately has to learn about your autism because of a situation out of your control

you’re in the gym, keeping him company while he works out

you’re searching his bag and you realize you don’t have your headphones

oh fuck.

you always bring your headphones to the gym; the sounds of televisions, music, people talking, weights clinking, treadmills rumbling... it’s too much

not to mention the stench of sweat and the florescent lights - truly an autistic person’s nightmare

you squeeze you eyes shut, but that only makes the noise worse. you’re surrounded by noise and you can’t stop it. it occurs to you that you’re no longer breathing properly but it’s just too loud and you’re so small

“MC?” beel’s voice is soft and filled with obvious concern. you open your eyes, seeing him kneeling in front of you. your eyes sting, and you realize you’re tearing up. “MC, are you alright?” 

all you can do is shake your head

“do you want to go home?” you nod, biting your lip as he stands up, making you feel even smaller.

he quickly packs his things into his bag and offers you a hand, helping you get up

he quickly escorts you outside, where you practically gulp for air. 

he waits patiently with you while you slowly ground yourself. 

“okay, let’s go home.” you explain sensory overload as you walk, then tell him about your autism

beel, like asmo, is very observant and he learns surprisingly fast. 

he’s also very protective of you. if someone triggers you, he won’t hesitate to tell them off before doing a grounding exercise with you

he’s basically you’re giant therapy demon and you love him for it

it’s becoming way too much. you’ve been masking heavily for months, monitoring your every move while doing your absolute best to thrive in a (literally) completely different universe than what you’re used to

you’re laying facedown on the couch, practically unable to move. you want to go to your room, but your body won’t let you

“mc?” you hear belphegor’s voice. “are you trying to imitate me?” he teases

you simply groan in response, not wanting to bother

for a moment he goes silent. then, you feel a hand on your shoulder

you jolt up, swiping his hand away as you let out a small shout. belphie’s eyes are widened in surprise

“don’t touch me! ...please,” you add as an afterthought, feeling bad for scaring him

he sits with you on the couch, taking care to leave space between the two of you. “what’s wrong?” you don’t respond. “mc?”

“burnout. too much. feel bad.”

belphie has absolutely no clue what that means, but he figures he knows something that might help.

“want to take a nap with me?”

you have to think about it before responding with a “sure” and slowly crawling into his arms (if that’s something you’re okay with)

it’s night when the two of you wake up. you still feel awful, but you can at least cope better.

once belphie’s more awake, he asks you what the hell happened

“two words: autistic shutdown”

“that doesn’t explain anything” - belphie really doesn’t know anything about humans

you do your best to explain - you were born with a brain that works a bit differently than most humans. some of the symptoms are an aversion to change and ‘odd’ behavior that’s difficult to hide. when you get too stressed, you just kinda ‘shut down’

he takes a bit to really understand, but once he does, he does his best to support you.

he falls asleep to your infodumping and you find it endearing

he gets good at recognizing when you’re starting to shut down and he always convinces you to take a break via a cuddly nap

[musings-from-mars]

I request some Weiss finding out she's on the spectrum after Ruby and Penny... open her eyes so to speak.

((Okay but neurodivergent!Weiss is so underrated and needs more love, thank you for requesting this!

Btw, instead of saying “on the spectrum,” it’s totally cool to just use “autistic,” or “neurodivergent” to be more broad. I’m not sure of the consensus among the wider autistic community, but “on the spectrum” has always felt like a euphemism to me, when there’s no need to dance around the word “autistic,” so feel free to use it! 😊 ))

Weiss wasn’t sure how she’d managed to get roped into hanging out with Ruby and Penny in the Beacon library so often, but with every passing “study date,” she’d become content with just sitting and listening to the two girls talk while Weiss read from a textbook or wrote an essay. Their chatter was great background noise, as Weiss had adapted to living with the rest of Team RWBY by managing to do everything with some sort of chaos going on in the background, and that included schoolwork. She didn’t really engage in conversation during these study dates, as Ruby and Penny were content with her company while Weiss did her best to be academically productive with her time.

Today, however, the topic of conversation tugged at Weiss’ attention. There was usually an intense focus that would overtake her when it came to studying, like she was viewing her crystal clear text book on a blurry background and nothing could breach her attention. But Ruby had said something to Penny that made Weiss’ ears burn:

“Oh yeah, I do that all the time!” Ruby said. “Like, it’s super embarrassing sometimes, but if some asks me about my weapon I’m like BLAGH! Word vomit.”

“Just like how I infodump about bugs,” Penny said with a bright smile. “They are so interesting, especially the kind that fly or are bioluminescent.”

“Yeah! I remember that time you infodumped about fireflies for, like, thirty minutes!”

Weiss looked up from her book and listened to the two for a moment. Infodump? “What’s infodump?”

Ruby turned, her silver eyes lighting up when she heard Weiss chime in. “Oh! It’s a thing that’s common with neurodivergent brains.” She made her point by pointing to her temple. “Something that captures your interest so much that you get the urge to just go on and on about it.”

“Neurodivergent?” Weiss asked.

“Like how I’m autistic,” Penny said with a nod, “And Ruby is autistic and has ADHD.”

“And dyslexia,” Ruby added.

“And dyslexia,” Penny agreed.

“My brain has trouble being a brain sometimes,” Ruby said with a grin.

“Ohhh, okay,” Weiss said with a nod, understanding a bit better now. “So when you, like, talk about Crescent Rose or fairy tales for a really long time, that’s you infodumping?”

“Yeah!” Ruby said. “It’s fun, like...writing an essay, just...saying it as it comes to you.”

Weiss glanced at her dust theory essay to her right. Or, well, her “outline” for her dust theory essay. It was more of just a piece of notebook paper for her to put word vomit while she...

Hang on...

“I think I’ve done that, actually,” Weiss admitted, remembering back to a couple days ago. She had just finished reading a book about dust theory. Not a required reading, but something she just picked up for fun (yes, she is a nerd and Weiss was content with that). Since she knew Pyrrha was super interested in dust theory as well, Weiss went to her and talked all about the book. Pyrrha had listened kindly and bounced questions off of Weiss, but Weiss had pretty much dominated that interaction. That realization really hit her when, after she had finished talking, Pyrrha had giggled and said, “Wow, when you get interested in something, you dive in 100-percent, huh? That’s cool!”

Weiss explained that example, and Ruby’s eyes seemed to sparkle under the library’s fluorescent lights. “That’s exactly what it’s like! Let’s see, uhm...okay, when you’re doing something that you really like, do you focus on it for hours on end without thinking about anything else?”

“Well, yeah,” Weiss said, never having thought much of it. She was just doing that a minute ago, of course.

“But like, hours,” Ruby reiterated. “And you focus so hard you forget to eat or drink or go to the bathroom because you literally can’t think about or do anything else.”

“I mean, doesn’t everyone do that?” Weiss asked with an uncertain shrug.

Ruby simply stared at her in response, her jaw hanging open.

“That actually is uncommon,” Penny chimed in, missing the confused tension that radiated off of Ruby. “What you are experiencing is called hyperfixation. It occurs when your brain locks onto a single source of mental stimulation that triggers your brain’s chemical reward system and maintains that focus for as long as it can in an effort to continue to reap rewards in the form of firing neurotransmitters. This can cause your conscious mind to miss other common bodily functions and signals, like hunger or the need to urinate.”

“You know a whole lot about things you can’t do yourself, Penny,” Ruby said, both as an observation and a compliment.

“Thank you! The organic person’s mind is complicated and fascinating!”

“Yeah...” Weiss agreed, absorbing all the information Penny had just given her, all about neurotransmitters and whatnot. “I do those things a lot, actually.”

Ruby then slammed her hands palms-down on to the table and trained her eyes on Weiss’ with a serious determination. “Does your brain’s immediate response to any form of rejection include an all-encompassing feeling of dread and a blazing hatred of your own existence that makes you want to punch the nearest wall and scream out the nearest window until your heart and/or voice gives out?”

Weiss stared back at Ruby with wide eyes. “I, uhh...” Then two seconds later, she had an answer, and her shoulders dropped along with her face, which settled into a begrudged but well-worn scowl directed in no particular direction. “Yeah. That was my entire childhood.”

“That’s depressing!” Penny said. “And also another common symptom called Rejection Sensitive Dysphoria.”

“It’s like regular rejection,” Ruby said. “Except more sensitive, and dysphoric!”

“I got that,” Weiss said with an understanding nod. “So...what I’m hearing is...I should see a professional.”

“Wrestler?” Ruby asked.

“Mental health professional,” Weiss corrected.

“Oh nice! Maybe you can be brain cousins with us!”

“Brain cousins?”

“ADHD and autism overlap in many ways and are often comorbid,” Penny noted. “But that does not actually make us related.”

“That would be super weird!” Ruby added.

Weiss looked down and nodded. “Okay. You two have given me a lot to think about.”

“Sorry about that,” Ruby said sympathetically.

“No, in a good way,” Weiss assured her.

“Oh!”

[iconsumeheadcanons]

persona characters autism headcanons!

hi im autistic and i started my day with sun so now im !!!!!!!!! some of these headcanons are from elsewhere on tumbr, but i dont know where :(((  so i am hoping someone out there knows that n that everybody knows that i love them <3

(also go check out mollypaup and i think hypeswap if you havent already! they post some good stuff autism+adhd hc too!!! i think.. oh! and thieves-in-the-palace!!!)

P5

Joker

there was some artwork from someone on tublr..where they pointed out that he doesnt really talk outside the metaverse so--hes hyperverbal as joker and just near nonverbal as akiren

he stims ALL THE TIME. that phone thing, the pencil thing, the little tappy tap of his foot, pulling at his bangs when hes embarrassed/smug. someone get him a fidget spinner. he’ll prob learn to do tricks with it

he probably sucks at focusing in class, like i know its just the game design but hes always surprised out of his daily “star out the window at the nearby office building” when his teachers ask him questions

mona mentions when the pt is at Wilton for the first time (after they run into shido) that joker eats like shit, and that could have multiple causes at the start of the story of course, but when i first played i thought that joker was a picky eater and that the variety (and amount of food) at the buffet would be an Ordeal...

tho mona makes that comment bc joker looked pale after having a little ptsd moment from shidos voice, but i didnt know that the first time i played

maybe when joker makes a face at ryuji putting so much ginger in his gyudon? joker probably does not like pickled ginger lol

his favortive foods are all spicy, which is why the curry he makes for his friends is always ‘overly spicy’, and why kasumi makes him a curry bento and joker kept going “...?” .... “....?!”

overly reflective glasses have been a great plus for him bc now he never has to make real eye contact every again!

mona Soft. play with Ann hair. maybe Braid. nice

puns (Gorou the Goroumet)

he has so many options to be straight up rude sometimes in game. he probably no clue on his own, which is why he defaults to Not Talking. people probably mention his constant scary face, which is just him being nonexpressive, squinting at all the fucking bright lights, and Tired

executive function who? we do everything last minute folks

high pain tolerance, which is why he was the kid that was always climbing trees in elementary school to get basketballs unstuck from the branches

his sixth sense lets him see treasure and possible places to climb/crawl bc 1. Shiny? Steal it. Steal it Now. and 2. Could i fit in that? Time to Find Out

probalby a bit of a klepto too oops. he’ll return it tho!! but he has to do it dramatically or he’ll die

cant sit properly to save his life

smells and touch are Great, they can keep him grounded when his brain goes off to police or dead rivals or guilt or

if a friend hung out with him and gave him total reigns of the agenda, he would choose to nap on the floor while his friend does something off to the side quietly

hyperfocuses on handy tasks (i.e. lockpicks, coffee brewing, cleaning, his part time jobs) and some things like movies and books. everything else is a tossup

his (normal) navigation app is his most used app bc he still doesnt know where hes going, even though he only goes to the same few places in the city

hates being sweaty, literally cannot stand it. probably double exhausted during the summer

but Needs Compression so hes often Struggling

Futaba

paraphrase from p5d “i have no motor skills so i cant play rhythm games :(” need i say more? (i will regardless)

echolalia all the time, from anime, memes, the PT

those headphones she wears all the time? noise cancelling ear protectors babey

only talks about her interests, “normal” talking is Not Easy, but she is still communicative w others despite her worries. shes not “hard to understand” at all but she feels the anxiety nonetheless

only talks informally, cannot talk ‘politely’ with out imitating someone around her

shes had meltdowns and anxiety attacks in game :( i relate so hard

Technology. thats it

def had an egypt phase that pops up every few months. probably came from yu-gi-oh

has Immune to Bright Lights buff.  joker is very jealous

“Time to make like a tree and leave!” and 30 other iterations

video game metaphors are the only ones that makes sense to her

probably relates hard to robot characters in anime for their general androgyny and confusion about human emotions and connections

probably gets told that shes “too smart to be on the spectrum” by teachers >:( she fails their classes on purpose

wakaba’s autistic too that just how it is

the Connection that she establishes with Joker is so Warm. my life goals include adopting an older brother like futaba has lsdkfjslkfj

also eater of 5 foods only, i mean, she brings cup ramen to the beach. i just really admire her...

hides in small spaces for comfort

doesnt she have like uhhhhh hyperthymesia or something like that?

Yusuke

art

his entire social link is learning how humans work, which i relate

talks seriously all the time

“sarcasm? who is that? are you saying I was sarcastic?...how?”

cant remember to take care of his body, and madarame did not help with that either

lot of uncomfortable staring, hes overdoing the eye contact thingy

infodumps all the time, doesnt know hes doing it

needs a lot of support even if he doesnt think he deserves it. no one ever complains about helping him out tho

visual stims my friends

he didnt know that you could look up pictures on the internet but he does know you can stream live videos of waterfalls and fluffy animales!!

I am certainly in the mood

for something salty today.

he and joker are scared of math. numbers do not interact

Yusuke, futaba, and akiren are a trio and i know this bc their first day of non-thievery interacts is Akiren clearing Futabas room w/o permission, futaba hyperfocusing on destroying medjed, and yusuke rearranging futabas figurines so they are more visually appealing

morgana is a support friend for all of them bc igor knows they need it

P4

Souji/Yu

yes, he mostly wears gray semi formal clothes bc parents tell him to, no, he will not changes this

Schedule or Death

“sorry, could you repeat that?” “huh? oh yeah, i was saying that--” “yeah that’d be cool.”

cats, fishing, he just likes to be quiet. you can literally spend a day at the beach just to think if you want, and that is what yu want

has a lot of scripts for things (of which he shares with nanako!) but if he runs out he just stops talking..

inaba is a godsend bc its so fucking quiet and warm

he Yearns to hold his friends hands, but he shies away from a lot of touch (excepting yosuke, teddie, and nanako)

Cooking and Cleaning makes the world better. he and joker vibe together with this

unlike akiren, he strong arms any executive dysfunction into Be Productive or Else. his punishment is feeling the pure anxiety of having to make up for ‘lost time’. (another symptom of his workaholic parents)

writes everything down, notes are very neat, has pages dedicated for bad doodles when hes not feeling his usual Super Classroom Focus

Cannot handle secondhand embarrassment (most often caused by yosuke) and will quietly slip away to random cats or origami folding

hungry, crunch crunch folks. probably needs chewelry bc he used to chew on his shirt collars when he was younger.

cleans up after everyone in the food court, constantly worries about them accidently hurting themselves. likely spends half of group conversations watching peoples hands

he canonically eats expired food, nanako plz help your brother

really clumsy, but people only notice after they decide that he is a cool person

video games are too chaotic for him

exhausted every night from the pure amount of masking he does, if a friend spends the night (or is like yosuke) they will know his more comfortable weirdo self (tho everyone knows hes a weirdo eventually)

hyperempathetic, sometimes just understands animals and children better than peeople his age or older

Yukiko

her jokes

she and souji get in ‘trouble’ together, she and joker commit crimes together

she and chie have to coordinate outfits, its important

actually understands metaphors, but does not understand people

like me, had no clue that creepy kid was flirting with her

she is very angry when she has meltdowns that might involve slamming doors and shouting. her parents call these ‘tantrums’ and ‘unfitting for a polite daughter’ but really thats because her meltdowns tend to be caused by arguments w her family after a long day of school and TV world traipsing

the metronome meme, except hers goes between Loudest Person in the Room to Quietest Pin Drop in the Planet. she is completely unaware of this

her atmosphere brightens when chie appears. that is not only the lesbian energy within her, but also because chie is like her Favorite Person

Cannot wear Pants. No (tho she wants to try it! but she puts them on and her soul instantly squashes)

happy flappy lesbian! watch out!

Naoto

the pouty face. all the time lskdfjlasdkf

hes really snappy sometimes and i love that for him. he and akechi should fight just to see what would happen (please read Bang Bang Shoot Shoot on AO3)

“do not touch me or my hat, thank you”

no one has ever seen him shutdown and no one ever will (except for his grandpa)(and kanji)(and rise)

probably likes certain food textures and will stand for nothing less, probably feels embarrassed about his preferences with friends

constantly jumps between ‘everybody hates me so i should act like them so they dont hate me’ to ‘i refuse to be anything but very comfortable as myself, and i dont care that im making you upset sir’

he and souji are the king and queen of subtle stims, but for unhappy reasons :(

does not make jokes. cannot joke around. understand? yes, do? no.

loose clothes are the only good clothes, but all tags and obtrusive seams will be obliterated by kanji tatsumi

not very empathetic so he probably comes off as an asshole to strangers (like when he throws away his classmates confession letters without reading them) but he tries so hard to sound comforting when his buds are struggling.

his understanding of others emotions/reactions come from his learning as a detective, which seems cold+clinical to others, especially compared to souji, whos completely unexpressive but very introverted people person

P3

Hamuko/Minako/Kotone

big personality!! very people-oriented!! koromaru and her are buddies!! when shes having a real bad time, shes very quiet and expressions turn off

interrupts herself in the middle of conversations all the time. no one knows where shes coming from. her brains is thousands of km ahead of her body

bouncey legs, swingin arms, twirlly skirt, little somersaults! when will she stop? never!

very obvious music stims with her hands and arms! people are like “oh there she goes! happy as usual!” shes listening to minatos heavy metal playlist

switches from exhausted to excited within milliseconds. no one can predict, not even her

SEES has to ask her for context all the time cuz she’ll just continue shit from 2 weeks ago without warning

professionals will assume shes very childish bc of how chipper she is, but she is beyond mature for her age and only feels comfortable enough to have serious conversations if a person has proved themself able to handle it

collects every little thing. her room is a mess and she has to get rid of most of it every time she moves :(

hates cleaning! smells bad, feels bad hhhhhgggg

dont let mitsuru-senpai see her bedroom

gets lost in the middle of conversations with others bc shes thinking about a story connected to one(1) word that was said earlier

 no sense of time and place, she just sees her friends and goes “ah, this is the right place, then” but junpei and akihiko are also lost so now theyre all screwed

Minato/Makoto/Sakuya

no talkies, no walkies

his story in the movies is him literally learning how to function around people he cares for

doesnt get jokes, expressions, body language, empathy, subtlety, metaphors, physical contact, or eye contact. aigis is probably the only person he truly understands right away

he is still nice to people because he doesnt see a reason not to be, but also he has very limited energy so only his senpai and old people get his most polite-kindnesses

cannot describe feelings for the life of him. the team wont know hes injured or sick until hes passed out

everything is too loud, time to drown it out with my loud ass music

rocking and chewing stims, ryoji is the first person to point him out for these subtle stims (not accusingly of course, just general pure curiosity and love for the uniqueness of humanity)

likes to cover his face with whatever is available, lives like a bat in a dark dry cave

will wear anything that has pockets and his blue/gray/black palette

sleepy at all times bc he never has much energy

when he was younger he probably needed a lot of support, especially after his parents died, because he wouldnt communicate like a neurotypical and would shutdown for hours in the middle of school without warning. probably missed a lot of lessons and field trips out of pure overstimulation

eating at all times. no preference, just whatevers closest

his meltdowns probalby include humming whining noises and curling up in a ball, which makes people want to touch him, but that is the LAST thing he wants. put a blanket on him! play some music! do not talk and do not expect him to speak

aigis is the only person who can touch him normally bc her hands are cold and he likes cold

never nude, feels mmmmmmmmm without clothes and probalby wears a full robe in the hotsprings

will not do things that take more than one step w/o someone else walking him thru it, which Same

[toothyblowjob]

hi! i’m anon from mamoru (asking here cus asks aren’t on on ur sims blog) i’m really interested in your thoughts about incorporating disabilities into the sims, i’m trying to develop my own sims game cus fuck ea lol, and i’d really like to be as incorporating of disability as possible. thanks!

damn, my asks weren’t on? that sucks. i think i fixed it now, but i swear i already had them on...

anyway!!!

i’m looking at this more from a perspective of “how to make the sims 4 better” than like “how to make my own video game” and i don’t know much about coding or game development so idk how helpful some of this will be but hopefully some will?? infodump incoming!!! sorry if it’s not that coherent. i’ve bolded some keywords in case you want to only read sections pertaining to certain disabilities.

starting with canes, bc i use one and i wish my simself did: sims 3 had canes, but for some reason they were coded weird so only elders could use them (iirc modders weren’t even able to fix it?? wtf ea). plus ts4 has custom walkstyles, and your sim can hold things like umbrellas while walking, so it’s almost definitely possible to add canes and crutches.

adding walkers would probably be a very similar process, tho i can imagine there might be some issues w clipping? not that ea has ever given a single fuck about that lmao

i’m a little bit less sure how wheelchairs would work, but the best reference i can think of is the strollers from ts3, or maaaybe some of the smaller vehicles. i have a vague memory of like a bike or a hoverpad or something that you could ride everywhere and not just on the road, but idk. the main issue i can see is that certain animations and interactions would need to be a lot more flexible--eg, sims would need to be able to do things like cook or paint or give hugs while sitting down. i can also see it being a little tricky to animate “transfers” from like, a wheelchair to a desk chair or w/e. honestly i think this would be easier to implement in sims 4 than it would have been in sims 3, because ts4 at least allows you to multitask some things. idk, it would probably be on the harder side, but holy shit it would be so worth it.

and then for some reason when i think about wheelchair users in the sims i start to wonder how feasible it would be to include little people (i hope that’s the right term?). simmers have been wanting height sliders since at least ts3, but any time a modder tries to add one the animations start getting kinda wonky, and i don’t think anyone’s really considered a height slider that goes low enough to make sims with dwarfism. i KNOW there are non-sim games out there that use height sliders, but idk how tf they do it without giving everyone telekinesis.

there was a mod in sims 3 that added sliders for amputated limbs, but it was a purely cosmetic thing, so like, sims would still walk like they had two legs or write with their “missing” hand or w/e. ideally i’d love to see a way to give sims limb differences that actually affected how they went about their lives + gave them the option to use prosthetics. i found a set of running blades in the “shoe” category for sims 4, but like... if you give them to a sim they’ll still magically grow legs in the shower lol.

deafness i think ties into my desire for sims to be able to speak multiple languages. not all deaf people use sign language, of course, but it would be great if sims had the option. i guess languages would function like any other skills, and if two sims don’t have any languages in common, they won’t be able to communicate beyond very basic things. maybe if you wanted a deaf sim to be able to speak, you could hire a speech therapist, or purchase some sort of object for them to practice with. also, dyou remember the earbuds in ts3 that made it so like, you’d only hear the music when you selected the sim using earbuds? i think you could probably make it so that when a deaf sim is active the game volume is either much lower or completely off. then for things like hearing aids, you could equip them and the volume would get a little bit higher.

blindness could use a similar mechanic, but instead of everything being silent, everything would be very dark and low-contrast. maybe objects that were making noise or places your sim had been before would have more detail. blind sims could also use navigation canes that would like... light up the area immediately in front of them.

invisible disabilities, allergies, and neuropsychiatric conditions would probably be a bit easier to add. sims 4 has a “quirk” system for celebrities where certain actions can trigger your famous sims to develop new traits. 

i think the best example of how you could use this to make, for example, mental illnesses is the “emotion bomb” quirk. famous sims develop it after experiencing intense anger or sadness, and it basically makes them experience that emotion much more intensely. that’s already a symptom of a mental illness called bpd! so what if something like repeatedly being mean to a child sim had a 0.1% chance of causing them to develop bpd? or if having a powerful sad or tense moodlet had a 0.1% chance of causing them to develop depression? 

(side note: i can really easily picture something similar to the “dark form” for ts4 vampires being used for dissociative identity disorder. genetics would be consistent across all personality states, but they could have different traits and voices and clothing,)

certain conditions could also be present at birth, like autism or adhd. i actually have custom traits for these; they’re not perfect, but if you want to google them they might be a good reference. one little thing that i think would be neat is if autistic sims had idle “stimming” animations, like flapping their hands or spinning in a circle. the biggest problem, though, is that autism and adhd are highly variable and i’m not sure how to make it so that not all autistic sims have the same behaviors.

allergies i guess would have to have some sort of severity scale, and be triggered by a sim eating a certain food or petting a certain animal. i’d want the likelihood of a sim developing a particular allergy to be pretty low, but that’s just me lol. maybe sims with allergies could keep meds on hand to deal with the worst of their attacks?

actually, the allergies thing reminds me--diabetic sims! depending on which type, a sim could either be born with it or contract it later in life. i’m not totally familiar with how insulin works, but a sim could have a pump equipped to mitigate their symptoms, or take regular injections.

i have a custom trait in my game for chronically ill sims, which basically makes their energy deplete faster and sometimes gives them moodlets with little blurbs about their illness. this seems like a pretty good system for chronic illnesses, but obv it would vary a lot by which illness your sim has--eg, would you actually animate a sim with ehlers-dahnlos popping a joint out of their socket, or would you just give them an uncomfortable moodlet? in particular, though, i think the mechanic that makes elder sims unable to do most exercise would be great for sims with dysautonomia. 

also, i’ve mentioned some assistive devices already, but i think figuring out how treatment works would be a big deal. do sims have single-payer healthcare, or do they have to pay for everything themselves? can sims crowdfund their medicine? what kind of treatments/cures are available? are their side effects? some conditions don’t have cures irl, but maybe a sim can pay like $30k to a witch to make their fibromyalgia go away!

this is almost definitely more info than you wanted and i’m kinda embarrassed i wrote this much, but uh... here you go, a mostly stream-of-consciousness essay on disabilities in the sims! god i hope it’s readable

[preternatural-aura]

yo to address this, im just gonna make a post right now and link to it to respond to others when they comment instead of writing responses over and over

i use the term special interest, i am adhd and not autistic, i try my best to be respectful to people with different disabilities and experiences, but im putting my foot down here

special interest is much more specific than hyperfixation and to me has a much more positive connotation in relation to how i feel about the object of said special interest while hyperfocus and hyperfixation are much more neutral and even negative about the specifics

i am aware of the history of the term, but i personally do not believe that history is strictly specific to just autism, i also do not believe in or agree with the strong separation of adhd and autism or any diagnoses, really

a diagnosis is a set of symptoms that is assigned to a person should they fit the required criteria and it is not better explained by another diagnosis

a diagnosis should Not be a way of separating or dividing disabled people, it can be used as a way of quickly describing the general idea of what symptoms (or sometimes according to the individual, traits) are present but is not very specific

many of the same symptoms and traits crossover to other disorders (sometimes even mental and physical disabilities have same or similar symptoms/traits)

i dont believe there is a such thing as a symptom or trait being exclusive to a disorder, thats not how people work

i do, however, understand that the term special interest is more than a symptom or trait, that it carries weight and history, but i, again, do not believe that history is exclusively belonging to autism, but rather the many disabled people, especially children, mistreated through special ed programs, organizations, and parents/guardians, i believe that is shared with many disabled people, especially adhd people, there were likely many victims of said abuse who were adhd or had adhd and were misdiagnosed with autism, and many of the autistic victims were very likely both autistic and adhd

i also feel that the concept of things being exclusive to certain groups is a very toxic things that has been taken from other circumstances and applied to others that are unnecessary

the way i see, as long as someone is using a term (like queer or special interest) in a respectful way to identify with and/or use to describe their experience, then its okay, its not mocking or being disrespectful, im trying very hard not to be insensitive, but i cant sacrifice my mental health to do so,

this is something that is very important to me, special interest describes my experiences in a way that no other term has, it feels positive to me, and it fits me, it describes the things ive experienced and i like being able to catagorize those things, i dont want to hurt anyone by using this word, but it would hurt me to have it taken from me

i really do not mean any disrespect to those who disagree with me, i understand why you would want or feel like special interest is an autistic thing and not want allistics to use it but this word is important to me and im allowed to disagree, im not a bad person for using this word to describe my experiences, even if it was not forced on me, but many people, including autistic people, have not had that either, im allowed to wear it with pride and to feel excited and happy about this thing that may have previously been a source of embarrassment, i can now use words like infodump to describe my experience, my adhd made me feel like i was a bad person, lazy, rude, pretentious, annoying, and i know that many other people also feel like that, even if they dont have adhd

i love this term, the autistic community online was what helped me first start to feel good about myself for being like how i am, i learned a lot of terms to describe myself, meltdowns, shutdowns, burn outs, sensory overloads, stimming, and special interests, i didnt change when i was diagnosed with adhd, i still had all the things i had when i self diagnosed as autistic, and im not a bad person for wanting to keep these words, these words help me, much like how they may help you

ive also gotten things from the adhd community, though its much smaller, i want everyone to have access to these things, i want it to help them, too, and i want to allow this to myself, i dont want to discard all the good things i got from self diagnoses that were not right or that i no longer think i have, because those things helped, the coping skills and sense of community and pride helped, i dont want it taken away

and if after reading this, you still disagree, thats okay! but i do ask that you respect me and just avoid me, i will do my best to respect you while also respecting myself, neither of us are wrong, but it would be very upsetting to me to be argued with (i hae a hard time disconnecting from arguments and i apologize, im working on it) and i would appreciate it if you just blocked me, and please do not mock me, the people ive encountered so far with this post have not been bad about that, but it has happened to me with discourse and it is really mean and makes me feel bad, so please just dont? and if worst comes to worst, ill just block you, so far, you have all been quite respectful and i thank you for that

im sorry for the long post

tl;dr - discourse makes me feel bad (cuz ive got those Mental Illnesses tm) so if you really disagree with me, please just block me, i dont want to argue and this is important to me (just like it may be important to you) thank you

[autism-asks]

ONE: I've been looking at self diagnosis and I experience everything listed apart from special interests (although I do have a big interest in musicals and will rewatch the same ones 3-4 times a week and always watch new ones, but I don't really share this with anyone because I feel conscious that others do not like them and just feel embarrassed about it) but I also feel that I have lots of small interests that last for a week to a month and I will research a lot about them but then get bored

something going onTWO: Also I really don’t understand executive function. It is really complicated to understand and I just can’t comprehend it. However, I have dyslexia and dyscalcula, would this count as some type of executive function not working…? I’m not sure. Thank you if you reply :)

THREE: Sorry for sending this later than the others, but I just realised what I sent could have been really vague and I want to send something easy to understand. So, do you think I could still have autism even if I don’t relate to having a “special interest” because I understand a special interest as oversharing and info dumping and having only that one interest. Whereas I don’t relate to sharing at all and have multiple? And is dyslexia/dyscalcula related to autism/ executive function? 

Honestly anon this sounds like you do have a special interest. Infodumping is something that a lot of us experience in relation to special interests but it’s not a requirement. It’s also very possible to have special interests, that may or may not be related to each other. 

Because executive (dys)function is a very broad thing you asked about, for now I’m just going to link you to our resources, where we’ve got some information on that. If that doesn’t help, feel free to send in another, more specific ask once the inbox reopens.

Dyslexia and dyscalculia both are often comorbid with autism. 

-Wren