#ESPECIALLY if its to some random ass dude we’ve never met and its just a timeskip like boom haha hes married now!

[oflgtfol]

saw the pics where everyones older for vld and like. idk why. im just annoyed. just seeing these screenshots like i dont know anything abt s8 but just seeing these 2 screenshots are making me so angry el oh el

[havenesa-sera-fina]

Hidden Marks [5: Drunk Confession]

Summary: Wrapping his own arms around her shoulders, Namjoon pulled her in, resting his head on the crown of her head, his heart beating steadily, which Sera heard and smiled to herself. Even with his odd lengthy limbs, they fit together perfectly, "Sera, I'm falling in love with you, that I want to convince you not to go, but I trust you. I just want you to be happy, to never cry over us again. I can't promise you that if you choose to stay with us, everything will be rainbows and sunshine, but I promise you that we won't give up on you, on this relationship. We're not perfect like everyone thinks we are, we're not the perfect bunch of soulmates, we have problems as a group and individuals, secrets that we all keep, burdens that we try to carry on our own. Though we all have each other, to fall back on when things get brought, and that includes you now. We're soulmates, so if anything happens, don't be scared to tell us.

(Poly BTS/OT7 x Reader/OC)

College Au / Soulmate Au

Disclaimer: Bts isn't my or any real life people (obviously.) Any other characters are my though. This is my story so do not republish this anywhere or I will report.

There maybe some triggers, but I will address them within the chapters.

Sources: Wattpad

Word count: 2466

"Canada ain't real and that's the tea sis." I pronounced randomly, walking side by side with Baekhyun through the fairground. Cotton candy in one hand, and beer in another.

It was a Saturday, so the fairground was packed with people, but it didn't stop us and our crazy antics. We've been here for only an hour, and we've moved onto our third cup of beer. Considering the fair was close to the college, there were a ton of uni students, all with the same idea to just get drunk tonight.

I invited Kimie to join us, after an awkward discussion of, 'if I was alright or not.' It ended up with me apologizing and Kimie just saying she was glad that I'm alright. She ended up declining as she was tired from the week that was filled with nothing best tests for her.

Somewhere in the week, I did end up calling the hospital to get more medicine, after embarrassingly explained what had happened. They offered therapy for me, but I declined as I knew therapy wouldn't help me. Because I already knew the types of questions and suggestions they were gonna tell me.

I haven't talked to Lilia yet and managed to just straight up ignore her boyfriends, which wasn't hard. We had no classes together and pretty sure we were all majoring in different things.

So it was just Baekhyun and me, and I was fine with that.

"Are you drunk already darling?" Baekhyun snorted, chugging down the rest of his beer and disposing of the cup in a nearby trash can, "We literally visited Canada for our high school senior trip dumb ass."

"It's all a ruse and Russia created Canada to watch over the US."

At that, we both giggled like little girls, feeling buzzed from the alcohol and the night just started, "Nothing in this world is real!" I yelled out, garnering a few weird looks from the older people at the fair, "it's all figments of our imagination!"

He bumped shoulders with me slightly, "Shut up you drunk."

Baekhyun was always a mean drunk.

It didn't take long for the hours to go by, with Baekhyun and I got a beer and more beer along with food, getting on rides and luckily not throwing up. There were attempts to play some carnival games, but that just ended up with me throwing a ball at him.

"What the hell you bitch!" Baekhyun yelled after I somehow threw the ball at him instead of in front of me at the plates, "my beer!" Sadly the impact caused him to drop his beer.

The vendors were staring at the two college students with amusement, not upset by the ruckus they were causing.

"Shut up you pink starburst," I yelled back, only to giggle. I was more than buzzed and tipsy, and this was always the best feeling as I bid the cute vendor guy goodbye, before dragging Baekhyun away, "I'll buy you more."

We were walking a little out of line, leaning against each other for support as we laughed over the most random things, our drunk mind thinking a blue cotton candy was worthy of laughing our ass off.

So drunk that we ended up bumping into someone.

A numbing feeling came over me, but I ignored it, the alcohol did its job to hide the feelings I didn't want to confront.

I met the most enchanting gray eyes I've ever seen, and couldn't help but giggle as I felt Baekhyun lean more of his weight against me, causing me to stumble, "Funny seeing you here Taetae!" My voice slurred slightly, as I raised my half-drunk beer up to him, "want to get fucked up with us?"

Taehyung stared amusingly at Sera, how some pieces of her light brown hair stuck to her face due to sweat. A pair of beautiful amber eyes stared at him, finally looked at him, even if it was through a drunken haze as a playful smirk played at her lips. His heart never pounded this painfully, but his eyes flickered to where Baekhyun was all but wrapped around her side and he wanted to tear them apart.

"How much did you drink exactly Noona?" He asked, voice dipped slightly when he said Noona, his eyes never leaving Sera's as she didn't bother to look away either, "you're never this friendly."

"Don't be silly! We're so much closer than you think," she then pushed the beer into his hands, along with an uneaten churro she bought few moments before they bumped into each other, "You should get drunk with us, Hyunnies beginning to get boring."

"Shut up you bitch!"

Sera didn't take offense to Baekhyun, as she slightly detached herself from him and looked back up at Taehyung, who stared on with slight fascination. He liked the way her cheeks flushed slightly, and wanted her to just keep staring at him, "You sure you ain't drunk already?"

"Not even buzzed! Where's Lilia anyway, why ain't you with her?"

Truth be told, Lilia and his six soulmates were somewhere in this fairground. They had all went together, but he and Lilia still weren't in talking terms, and not being able to stand the tense atmosphere, he excused himself from the group. Jungkook offered to accompany him, but he stated he wanted to be alone, before walking off.

"Let's not worry about her," he mumbled, before mentally saying fuck it, and chugging down the rest of Sera's beer, "lets gets fucked up tonight."

Both Baekhyun and Sera cheered at his words, as the pink-haired boy quickly went to get more beer.

Sera, the alcohol influencing her, instantly attached herself to Taehyung's side, "Taetae let's go on the Ferris wheel okay? Hyunnie and I haven't been on there yet."

Taehyung wasn't use to this, wasn't use to her being so friendly and close to him.

Sera had always been so cold and distant towards him and his other her soulmates, barely even muttering a word when any of them were near, let alone invite him or the others to get wasted with her. To have her so close, to feel her breathing as she wrapped her arms around one of his, a drunken smile on her lips. She was a drunken beauty, despite always, in general, being beautiful in his eyes, especially now she didn't have a blank expression on her face, and was now staring at him with so much.

It caused something to stir within him.

Even in his head was telling him that this wasn't right, that he had his soulmates and his girlfriend somewhere in this fairground. That he should push her away and go back to his group, but his soul was telling him to stay. That this was where he belonged.

"Yeah," he breathed in, just basking in her presence because he knew, once Sera was sober again, she would never look at him the way she is now, "anything you want."

Baekhyun came back, and seemed unfazed by the clingy Sera, and pushed a beer into each of their hands, and took the churro from Taehyung, "Hurry up dude, you got catching up to do."

Grinning slightly, just for this night, Taehyung would be selfish and indulge himself. Because while his head was screaming at him that this was all wrong, he never felt so sure with Sera holding onto him.

*****

"Fucking shit I'm gonna throw up," Taehyung frowned, leaning against a tree as he gulped down the rest of his water, "What time is it," he grumbled.

"Like 3 am," Baekhyun replied, patting the other man back in slight comfort.

They passed the stage of being stupid drunks, to being sober drunks. Not saying stupid shit and stumbling on their words, but still marking poor life decisions and most likely will not remember the type of drunk. The best type of drunk stage to just have a deep and philosophical discussion. Make confessions, because it'll be a miracle if any of them remembers what transpired.

Groaning, I looked down at the two boys on the ground, making myself comfy on top of the jungle gym I managed to climb. The cool air somewhat calming down the heat I felt as I gazed at Taehyung. Despite his need to throw up, I couldn't help but find him enchanting, especially underneath the moonlight.

The fair had closed three hours ago, and the three of us had jumped all over the place. To a bar for more drinks, a convenience store, onto college campus where we ran away quickly when we saw a security guard. Which we wouldn't have even gotten in trouble because we were students, but we're stupid drunks. Then we ended up at Baekhyun's apartment to get his car keys, but we were smart enough and just raided his kitchen, and now we found ourselves at a park in whom no gods nowhere. My phone luckily still at 20% as Baekhyun's at 80% because he was smart enough to charge it at the convenience store as we ate to our heart's content.

"You comfy over there cutie?" Taehyung called out, gray eyes meeting with clashing amber ones, a hint of amusement in them as he began to walk towards the jungle gym as well.

"You can't come up here if you're going to throw up!" I laughed, watching as he stumbled his way up the stairs, Baekhyun following him. My mark burning slightly, but not in an unpleasant way, as the alcohol in my system telling me everything was fine. My reasoning long gone as I accepted Taehyung company for tonight or morning or whatever.

"Jesus, we're going to get alcohol poisoning," Baekhyun groaned, as the two boys finally reached the top, where Sera was and seated themselves, "Where even are we?"

"Some park."

"No shit Sherlock."

"Taetae! Hyunnie's being mean! He's always a mean bitchy drunk."

The man in the middle only laughed, sounding like bells and causing my cheeks to flush, "come here cutie, I'll protect yah," he held out his hands and made grabbing motions towards me.

My heart skipped a beat with how adorably handsome he looked. Somewhere in the haze of the alcohol, my mind was telling me to stop, that I would regret this later, but my soul was telling me that I belonged in his arms.

So I listened to my soul and all but lunged into his arms. Instantly they wrapped around me securely, and while he reeked of alcohol, there was still a faint cinnamon smell to him as I buried my face into his chest. He was so warm compared to the chilly air night, and I didn't ever want to move away from here.

"I'm gonna gag," Baekhyun spoke somewhere in the background, before pulling out his phone and snapping a picture of the two. For later uses as in to blackmail Sera with whenever he wanted free food and possibly gossip with Kimie. Like he'll ever go behind Sera's back and expose her secret.

He was a mean drunk, but not a bastard of a drunk.

"I should," I mumbled, finding some reason within myself, and began to push myself away from Taehyung. While it felt so right and comforting to be in his arms, I knew it was wrong, "Lilia's my friend..."

Something in Taehyung panicked as he felt Sera pull away from him, causing him to tighten his grip and pull her back. Burying his nose in her soft hair, he breathed in her blueberry scented hair wash, "Lilia isn't my soulmate," he spoke, voice husky and deep, "Plus, all she's been doing is talking shit about you all week, I don't think she sees you as a friend anymore."

I should be bothered by his words, tell him he was wrong and try to defend my friendship.

However, I knew a long time ago we stopped becoming friends. We stopped being friends when I made the decision to keep my soulmates a secret from her. Maybe we stopped being friends a long time ago.

"She hates me because I killed her soulmate," I spoke bluntly, not being able to control my mouth and thoughts, "It's my fault why he's dead. That's why she took my own soulmates from me."

"Who's your soulmate cutie," his lips were close to my ear, as I felt his warm breath against my cheeks. It caused the most delightful shiver to run down my back, as my marks burn, not in pain, but in such an addicting feeling.

His hands went to my shoulders, before slowly trailing down my arm. So dangerously close to the very thing I kept hidden all these years. To the very thing I was so tired of hiding, "Won't you tell me, sweet Sera," his little nickname caused another shiver, "I always knew my little girlfriend was keeping secrets from us and I never liked it. Like she was trying to paint a different image of herself, that's far from reality."

The way he addressed Lilia as his girlfriend, I didn't like that at all as it caused me to feel a slight bitterness and jealousy. I should be Taehyung's girlfriend, not Lilia. I was his soulmate for crying out loud, I was all of their soulmates.

"You gave up on me," I mumbled, but I knew he heard, "If you just waited for one more year, you could have had all your seven soulmates."

"Is it really too late to find my other one? When she's so...so close."

"Shut up, you don't deserve me anymore. You gave up on waiting and began dating my best friend!" I raised my voice slightly and heard Baekhyun whine slightly in the background, "do you know how much it hurts to see all you guys together?"

Baekhyun, who knew he should shut Sera up, stop this discussion and pull the two away. However, he couldn't bring himself to, as he accepted being the third wheel as he went on his phone.

After all, all three have a better chance of getting alcohol poisoning then remembering anything that happened tonight.

Grumbling to himself, he scrolled through his contacts and clicked on a name: Nam fucking annoying Joon.

He didn't have a personal hatred towards Namjoon or any of the seven soulmates but didn't like them at the same time. They were the reasons why his friend was always in constant pain.

He grumbled slightly, then types away on the keyboard:

Hey it's Baekhyun. Come pick up your drunk boyfriend. We're at the park near the high school that's like ten miles away from the college. I'll send you our location.

Instantly he got a reply, to which he only rolled his eyes:

Why is he with you?

Ask him yourself. 

[palamig]

hi! i'm reading furuba and there's something i don't quite understand so can i ask you a little question? so after tooru fell and ended up in the hospital why does everyone acting so rude and accusatory towards kyo? saying it's his fault, he need to apologize etc. i suppose they are doing this to help (?) but it feels so hurtful... and overall i can't help but feel so sad for kyo during the progression of the story, people treat him so poorly and i barely see anyone actually being kind to him :(

Hello anon!! Thank you for this question!! The hospital arc is really the toughest one on kyo :( but it’s also the same arc that finally gave him a reality check. Kyo’s biggest flaw has always been that he’s too (unintentionally) self-absorbed with his issues. His struggle to deal and cope with his trauma has had a disastrous effect on his relationship with the people he interacts with like kyoko, kazuma (for that period in time he refused to let himself call kazuma as his dad), and to a really great extent yuki. It reached its peak at the hospital arc, when instead of accepting tohru’s feelings for him, kyo, blinded by a really awful mixture of guilt over kyoko’s death, his self loathing, and the sincere expectation that there was no other future for him except for being imprisoned for eternity, said some really terrible stuff to her

No one is truly, sincerely blaming kyo though. Cat boy really had too much stuff going in his head. The problem was, not only did kyo really really hurt tohru, because of his brooding, he ended up never going to the hospital to visit her at all. Whether or not for understandable reasons, it certainly pissed off a bunch of people. Yuki was the first one to confront him because at this point, he’s just fed up with kyo’s infinite problems.  Tohru fell from a cliff, sustained serious injuries, and is literally confined in a hospital!!!! Meanwhile kyo, the closest person to tohru, the person tohru’s so clearly in love with and vice versa “that it’s obvious even to a middle schooler”, is sulking around on the balcony like he was in some linkin park music video or something. Like what the fuck man!!!! What the fuk!

That’s how we got the oscar award winning Shut The Fuck Up scene on the balcony. Yuki got even more pissed when he found out that the reason why kyo didn’t go was because kyo blamed himself for tohru’s accident and he thought she’d be better off if he never came because all he ever did was hurt her. And honestly, if you’ve been watching your two housemates flirting and being gross like it’s no ones business for almost 2 years now, and you hear this kind of shit from one of them “im like..only hurting her dude…” you’d be super pissed too like im sorry kyo but its true

For the most part of the manga yuki’s been an unwilling spectator to most kyoru scenes, and a lot of people attribute this to him trying to understand the nature of his feelings for tohru—which is true! But when we finally get to the hospital scene, we also see that maybe a small part of that is also yuki’s slight frustration that he can’t make tohru happy the way kyo does. The Shut The Fuck Up Scene takes their mutual jealousy into its final form: because now it involves tohru.

At this point “jealous” isn’t the right term. More of, both of them sincerely believed that the other can treat tohru much better. But we see that this is an issue that affects yuki—their unwilling spectator—so much more, not only because of the way kyo hurt tohru, literally one of the most precious people to yuki, but also because of yuki’s awful history with kyo. A lot of people have already talked about this scene from the yuki and kyo perspective, so i’ll limit my discussion to what i believe is the kyoru aspect.

When Yuki kicks the wall and starts crying when he tells kyo “do you really think it would be the same if I were beside her?” — you know from the many panels we’ve seen of yuki watching kyoru flirting from afar or kyo noticing stuff about tohru yuki never noticed, he’d been thinking about this a lot. So kyo telling yuki that tohru would be much better off with him is, to yuki, a load of bull! fuckin! shit!. But poor cat baby is way too oblivious to notice just who exactly he was to tohru. To ignore tohru’s own feelings. How tohru sees him, and only him. There were some things only kyo can do. And the most effective way (possibly even the only way) to get stubborn kyo to finally understand it is thru some screaming and a nicely aimed punch on the face. Because this is no longer about kyo’s issues, this is also about tohru, her feelings, her loneliness,  her quiet struggle to fight for her favorite person and to save from his destiny as the cat. This scene was beautiful because yuki finally explodes, both for his own sake and for tohru’s.

And then there’s saki and arisa. I think saki and arisa were also rightfully pissed. Like, more than “rejecting” the girl u’ve been shamelessly flirting with for the last gazillion years, u just called tohru, the nicest purest kindest girl in the world “delusional” like boi???!? Let’s just say if kyo was just some other random guy he wouldn’t have come out of that confrontation at school alive. But because saki and arisa genuinely love kyo, they cut him some slack. While neither saki nor arisa knew about the curse and the imprisonment, both of them, especially saki (who has been reading kyo’s ~feelings~ since the first time they met) know that despite this one instance of him seriously hurting her feelings, kyo is a positive influence on tohru. There was really no other person for tohru than kyo. They wanted him to stop moping around and blaming himself. 

Saki told kyo that tohru wasn’t looking for an apology. What tohru really wanted was for him to return her feelings. Everyone and their mothers knows that kyoru is written in the stars; but kyo, way too absorbed with his issues, actively pushed her away, when he could have let her in. They wanted him to realize this for himself before they could let him see tohru again. And kyo knows deeply within himself that he needs to get his shit together. He didn’t need other people to figure that out for him, but what he does need is other people to drag his ass to finally get it done.

These three showed kyo some tough love during the hospital arc and i can understand why people might think kyo is getting too much bad treatment, especially in this arc. But personally i think these three did the right thing. Kyo needed to take a step back from the chaos in his mind and see the big picture; to see what he’s been desperately trying to avoid. Tohru’s out there ready to love him, and all he needed to do was to let her in. But cat boy is furiously stubborn there was really no other way to make him realize that than to be harsh on him

The hospital arc is one of my favorites because from there we see how kyo finds the courage to face the one person who was the root of all of his trauma—his biological dad—and come into terms with all of his complicated issues, even (and i really want to emphasize this) before akito told him that the cat room has been destroyed. He was willing to let go of his shackles to be with her, despite a future of being caged forever. All of it for tohru. So that when he finally saw her again, he’d be a man free from all the shit that had truly been imprisoning him all his life. So he could be with tohru, and she could be with him, with nothing holding them back.

Ahh there are so many more beautiful things about this arc but i hope this is a sufficient answer to your query!!

[lizzybeth1986]

Really, Really Slow Thoughts on TRR Book 3, Chapter 3

• This QT took two days. Because my pace has been sluggish. Because my thoughts on this chapter have been sluggish.

• This chapter is the only time in the entire series that I was barely invested. That’s only ever happened to be at the beginning of Book 1, and only because I didn’t think it would amount to anything beyond a Cinderella story. I haven’t been in that space with a single chapter in this book since Book 1,Chapter 8. I’m just…bored.

• Title: Allies among Enemies. Sounds very Kenna and Luther, no? But I doubt Kenna ever had to sit and play marriage counselor to a squabbling couple.

•

Esther asking all the relevant questions.

I mean, sure, Bertrand, I get it: I need to make a tour and that involves visiting other duchies, Justin thinks Madeleine would make a bomb press secretary, and I have to play matchmaker for her parents –

Wait what. Why do I need to resolve a personal fight because Madeleine’s parents? I know it’s all about reaching out and getting allies and making connections but playing armchair therapist just sounds extremely silly.

• I like that they’re carrying over the “house colours” strategy from TCaTF. Kenna occasionally did this during alliances, especially when meeting with the Nevrakis family.

•

So I have a dress “as green as Madeleine’s envy towards me and black as her shrivelled heart” (bomb analogy, Maxwell!). Buuuut I’m taking part in a court event. A formal ball. Why is the dress style more like what I wore in the club for Madeleine’s bachelorette and Liam’s bachelor party???

• Also can you imagine how awkward waltzing would look in this dress? Ballroom dresses are long and flowy for a reason. Part of the beauty of your twirl comes from how your skirt flows when you’re turning, esp in a dance like the Cordonian Waltz where the twirl is the highlight.

• So I’m supposed to ensure Adeleide comes for the wedding. Loooogically the story should make this easier on me because I already did the hard work of winning her over the last book right? Wrong. Because the story doesn’t care. It doesn’t care which Liam I chose, whether I’ve ever worn pepto bismol in my life or not, whether I charmed the pants off Adeleide (not literally). Nope. I still have to start from scratch (wouldn’t be the first time tho. I won over Kiara and Penelope in Book 1 only for them to ditch me next book [even though Penelope knew it wasn’t my fault. You owe me big, sister]).

• Soooo Godfrey, Madeleine’s dad, is an English nobleman. His marriage to Adeleide was a political alliance and he doesn’t actually give a shit about Cordonia unless his daughter is the goddamn country’s queen.

• Hmm. So Madeleine is half Cordonian too. Jesus Christ for a country that doesn’t like foreigners very much, a lot of its major players seem to have at least one non-Cordonian parent: Liam (possibly), Madeleine, Drake, Hana…

• I was a little confused because Book 1 mentioned that Madeleine is “practically royalty” from her father’s side - but it’s possible that’s more a hint towards his English roots. I guess we can rule him out for who the enemy is rn because this dude genuinely doesn’t give a shit.

• So Liam, whose interactions with Godfrey have been few and far between and who admits he has never really met him in a social setting, is the one who provides us inputs on how to deal with the Duke. Turns out this advice is pretty helpful, coming from someone who barely knows the man.

•

Savour this moment, Liam stans. This - and the “we need to avoid this lack of crowd at our wedding” exchange, are the only times we will get to properly interact with him today.

• I know this decor looks like a piñata threw up over the ballroom but I love the purple and the soft lighting xD

• So the first event post Homecoming is super empty, which is quite dishearting. It’s enough to make even our resident bar-hopper Adeleide upset.

•

Is it just me or does “STOICISM RULEZ!!!” Regina sound like she gives zero fucks today? I mean sure it could just be her usual irritation around Adelaide but here even Constantine seems a little taken aback. And besides, it’s not the Krona duchy that needs anything from the Crown, it’s the Crown that needs something from them. Your arrogance doesn’t have any legs to stand on, Regina.

• Also idk but am I the only one getting a different vibe from Regina this book? In the debriefing meeting she wasn’t there at all, and this is someone who has been a part of every meeting we’ve seen in the books. Then she comes here, to an event where if anything SHE needs to be begging her cousin to come for her stepson’s/some random noblewoman’s wedding, and she’s busy making snappy comments about the appetizers (and let’s be honest, everyone else found their spread incredibly good. Even Drake. DRAKE)

• Madeleine’s dad is essentially Madeleine Sr.

• “Magic Friendship Dust” my ass.

• Madeleine’s reaction to this “be my press secretary” thing is “I told you so” followed by a resounding (implied) “fuck you”. What else were you expecting, Esther?

•

It’s great that they say this, but I would have preferred if they showed it. It really isn’t that hard. Show him talking independently to a noble or two (you don’t even have to show their faces) - winning some over and not managing to sway some others. The reason a lot of Liam fans are upset is that not only does the writing make weak excuses to keep him from working WITH the MC, we aren’t even given a proper glimpse of what he IS doing!

I’ll return to this point later, because I have a LOT to say 😠

• …cheeseburgers aren’t appetizers, Drake.

• I’d agree with you about the buffalo wings tho.

• Nomnom that pasta looks good.

• I’d betray me for a plate of truffled penne too, Esther.

•

Back in the essay I wrote on the Balcony Scene, I spoke of how Liam’s mother’s story seemed like a mirror to the MC’s (I mentioned that she might be a foreigner, though, and given that Neville and Drake make the comparison between the MC and her, and that her son is customizable by ethnicity, I still think there are chances that is true). Called it! xD

• Neville is still as big a creep as he ever was and this scene was extremely ugly, especially with regards to Drake. But it was also extremely powerful because the group gets to rally around and protect him, and show Neville that Drake has people who will support him no matter what. It was a scene I felt was needed because it gives you a much better idea of what Drake has had to deal with in court. (also I know he’s taking the tour coz he wants a wife [good luck getting one with THAT level of creepy, asshole!] but I’m suspicious about him following ppl he doesn’t even like around).

• This is also amazing buildup to the dancing scene. The version of the scene I got was automatically platonic, which I loved, and I got more comfortable with this scene than I have ever felt with any non-Liam-LI scene so far (you know how you keep stressing about accidental romance points? That).

• In my playthrough, Esther keeps it professional, gives him encouragement, teaches him how to glide using a mental image. Drake points out he needs to give Liam adequate support and he will need to actually prove himself to other nobles for that. As a romantic scene, it really shines (and indeed it should, given that the Cordonian waltz is primarily romantic) but it works very well on a platonic level too.

• I also really, really loved the comparison Drake made between his situation and hers: that the MC is proof that he can hold on to who he is even if he becomes a part of the nobility/has endured this much from them. Drake’s character arc is built heavily on his fear that being part of the nobility can change people, based on very valid experiences. We’ve seen in this chapter how desperately some nobles cling to their titles, almost using it to make up for their lack of personality (I’m looking at you, Neville and Godfrey). But he has proof all around him too, that you don’t need to lose who you are through a title. In a lot of ways this plays really well into his “letting go” arc as well.

• Okay so I went with Godfrey first. He’s talking to Liam, who again makes a disappearing act (I don’t mind, because the MC specifically stated she wanted to speak to the Duke alone). I’m not surprised Liam wasn’t making much headway. This is the second dude to dump Madeleine after all, and worse still he’s brother to the first dude to dump her. No wonder Liam’s sticking to safe subjects like choice of scotch!

• YIKES @ Godfrey’s constant harping of successes and defeats. Why don’t we talk about what a failure YOU are as a dad, Duke Karlington, since you’re only ever there for Madeleine to tell her what a failure she is!

• I like the exchange they show us between Adeleide and Regina before the MC steps in. Regina’s care and concern for Madeleine has pretty much been there from the beginning and for what it’s worth, it has been genuine.

• Oh man. I want to give Adeleide a hug and some champagne. I mean I don’t exactly envision her winning the “best mother” award anytime soon, but she’s trying. Perhaps a little too pushy and a little too focused on her own coping mechanisms, but still, she cares enough about Madeleine to want to be there for her no matter what. Which is more than I can say for Godfrey, who thinks being a father means paying an annual visit to his goddamn FAMILY and judges people for failing when he’s perhaps the biggest failure in the room.

• Waltz time!

• Though between Esther not having a twirly skirt and Drake having an injured shoulder I’m not sure they even looked that good.

• WTF ESTHER WHAT IS WRONG WITH YOU DOES THAT LOOK LIKE A MAN WHO IS IN ANY CONDITION TO MANAGE A LIFT

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HE’S NOT JOHNY CASTLE AND THIS ISN’T DIRTY DANCING. STOP PUTTING DRAKE IN A CORNER.

• AT LEAST BABY DIDN’T MAKE JOHNY LIFT HER ON AN INJURED ARM. AND AT LEAST THEY AGREED TO DO IT TOGETHER NOT SPRUNG IT ON HIM LIKE A FUCKING JACK-IN-THE-BOX.

• “He winces at the pressure on his arm, but smiles through it”. …damn I’m angry at my own MC now.

• Drinking game time!!

• I’m not going to comment much on the scene because it’s going to be part of my group scenes essay, but I *will* say I’m so happy Hana gets her due in this one. She really shines in terms of character development in this scene and she gets the best line this whole chapter xD xD xD

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• I think Hana has had this burn simmering in her pressure cooker ever since the bell-pepper episode in Shanghai 😂😂

• “You all know there’s more to me than liking whiskey, right?”

This is unfair and inaccurate, people. Of course there’s more. He likes cheeseburgers and pasta and greasy junk food too, cmon.

• I recall speaking not too long ago about how Madeleine and Hana had very different approaches to similar issues (family pressure, feeling like they are failures, broken engagements with men they didn’t love), and that Madeleine very possibly faced a lot of family pressure (I was wrong about the source being Adeleide, though). To me this forms part of why Hana can see Madeleine the way no one else can, and why it’s essential to have her around when Madeleine opens up.

• This doesn’t really change my opinion of Madeleine, though. It makes sense of some things, but in my mind nothing can really justify the sick pleasure Madeleine gets out of breaking people. She makes excuses for herself by calling it “not tiptoeing on other people’s fragile feelings”, but that would imply she was just being honest and not actively working towards making people feel like shit. In both Hana and Penelope’s cases she was actively working on making them feel like they were beneath her, and enjoying doing that. To me what she did, especially to Hana, was emotional abuse. Speaking ecstatically about “breaking” a human being who has harmed you in no way, is abusive. No more, no less.

• Please don’t tell me a Madeleine and Hana ship will be a thing now. No. Eww. I’d rather not pair Hana with someone who was actively trying to break her. I don’t care how much of a “crush” Madeleine seems to have.

• No matter how misguided Adeleide’s attempts to parent Madeleine are, to me she clearly wins the parenting stakes hands down. She may have made Madeleine feel like she couldn’t mourn what happened to her, but at least she views her daughter as more of a human being than a prize horse.

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Didn’t lie to get her way? Was saying “I’m allergic to chocolate and you could have killed me” just a figment of my imagination then???

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• You have to be fucking kidding me. The MC is a duchess now. The Beaumonts are supposed to be helping her. These three should be at the top of their itinerary right now, not throwing things together at the last minute every chapter. Isn’t this Unity Tour supposed to be about knowing your allies and enemies, and preparing accordingly? Being unprepared (somehow, barely) made sense to some extent in the first two books, but things are different now.

• Penelope next week! That woman owes us big time.

General Thoughts on this Chapter:

• Things I feel might come up in Penelope’s estate:

1. Penelope’s anxiety and her parents’ fears about sending her back to court

2. Personal issues within the family maybe? Perhaps Penelope’s desire to take up pet couture designing and her mother’s disapproval of the same might feature.

3. At some point there may be some sort of redemption arc for her where she gets reminded of her involvement in what happened to the MC earlier. Penelope clearly owes the MC a great debt for letting her off the hook so easily.

4. I’ll be damned if I have to play therapist for these people too 😠

• This whole idea of “meddling” is stupid. These people are adults. Grown people, who should be expected to know how to handle their own lives and talk to each other. The royalty/the MC shouldn’t be expected to babysit them. That’s not what we came here for.

• It stings even more when you take into account that the common public is feeling pretty terrified at the moment, and having their own, and here we are busy resolving the family squabbles of rich people.

• It highlights even more strongly what’s wrong with the whole idea of a Unity Tour. I’m hoping this “resolving-aristocrat-issues” thing won’t become a pattern because it’s beginning to look ridiculous.

• @ladynevrakis mentions in her excellent write-up on this week’s chapter that this chapter is a lot better if you’re a non-Liam shipper, and extremely frustrating if you are.

Correct on both counts. As the MC you’re just starting out as a noblewoman, and you will need all the support you can get. If you’re with Drake (especially Drake), Hana or Maxwell, you get plenty opportunities for support from all of them. With Liam, you barely get a few lines here and there before he’s completely MIA. There is no opportunity for Liam or his fiancee to talk properly, or work together as a team. And this house is unquestionably the toughest one, so why does the writing not give Liam any chance to truly be there for her when she needs it???

• I can understand why he wasn’t there for the most part. In the Neville sequence he isn’t there precisely because the writers need to highlight how people treat Drake when Liam isn’t around (and to show what people say about Liam behind his back), and there is no way you could have Liam around in either the group scene or the final scene with the family without making things worse (daughter’s former fiancè, hello?). Plus if the MC is not engaged to him, it would look weird for him to be present at some of these conversations.

STILL, there were a whole range of ways you could write him without him actually being involved in the patch-up, and still do justice to his character:

1. Eat with the group: The group eating scene could have been a perfect time to have Liam come, speak about his progress with convincing ppl, bond with the group over the delicious spread, and leave before Neville enters.

2. Check in periodically: Liam is my MC’s fiancè. They are here together on their first tour as a couple. They’re doing this tour for his people and his country. She is a newcomer and it is essential he has her back. It wouldn’t have hurt to have him come in on occasion and ask her how she is holding up. It wouldn’t have taken more than a scene or two, really, and it could have worked perfectly both on a neutral and romantic level. If you’re going to make Drake such a huge presence in this chapter that you’d go the extra mile and write him two ways, you can very well do the same for Liam. It’s even more essential in his case because he is the King of Cordonia and pretty damn invested in making this tour work.

3. Have the MC notice what Liam was doing independent of her: The writing team is no stranger to writing conversations that don’t involve the MC’s presence at all. We know Liam was spending time speaking to the few nobles in attendance, but we’re never shown how he does this or whether he succeeds. I know he’s as hard at work as the MC is, but I don’t see what he’s doing. Could you really blame readers for thinking he is less involved, then?

4. The Little Things: A gentle touch here, a smile there if he’s your fiancè. Things you would do with your partner when you don’t have much time together but still want to show them they care.

It’s not like the writers don’t know how to involve Liam. They’ve done a really good job of this in the past. The entire social season saw Liam working behind the scenes to ensure the MC was protected and cared for, even when he couldn’t be involved. The engagement tour had him pitching in to help whenever it didn’t seem too suspicious to. In all these instances they kept in mind Liam’s role and limitations, and STILL managed to make him proactive.

The writers had plenty opportunity this chapter to have Liam be there for her in small ways, but hardly bothered to involve him. I appreciate wanting to make his interactions as neutral as possible but that doesn’t mean you don’t put any effort into writing him at all.

To add insult to serious injury, this chapter follows another one where the MC practically takes over Liam’s speech (post the video), leaving Liam with little space to do anything besides agreeing with her. It’s essential - now more than ever - to portray Liam as decisive and proactive, yet the writing has him take 10 steps backwards in terms of character development. The MC is his fiancèe/close friend now. She should be able to see him properly as a politician and a leader at this point. If that doesn’t get resolved soon, we’re in danger of screwing up an interesting character who has a lot of potential.

• I’m still holding out on this book, because it’s still early and I believe they can turn things around and ensure there is a fair balance between the LIs. They are taking what we say into consideration and they have worked hard to make our other LIs’ interactions with us as safe and platonic as possible. I think this is a matter of balance, and I still think they can manage to do a good job of it once they ensure there is a balance.

• But this chapter? I’m not going pretend I’m happy.

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Chapter 9 - Opening narration!

Alright so it has been ages since i last posted a chapter but i managed to finish this chapter last night so here you go.

Last time on Geneaology of the Holy War : Seliph wanted to help his loser cousin to retake his kingdom, and met a guy who pretended to be Lewyn’s kid. Blume got fried, but some dragon knights are attacking us, for some reason. So we - F!Lewyn - decided to invade their country!

Meath, which is, as the map points out but the narration doesn’t, in Thracia’s borders.

“so we conquered a castle from another country. What should we do? Retreat? They’re not part of the Empire, are they?”

Not “beyond Meath” Finn, Meath is a part of the draconknights’ kingdom! Who taught you how to read a map?

Rural? As in, opposed to the urbanised collective of free cities known as Miletos? And look, Travant has some sort of coalitiion with Arvis. Now that’s a piece news! Idk if Arvis wanted to conquer Thracia or if he just went the “fig it” route. Maybe Travant managed to fend off Blume’s forces for years so Arvis said we’re making a “fig it, you’re not a part of my empire but if you attack me i toast you” kind of alliance.

All of the states have been conquered though - some by Siggy, let’s not forget that. Like, Verdane and Augstria even if it wasn’t in the name of the Granvalle Empire but in the name of stupidity the Kingdom of Granvalle

Travant’s minions?! Come on Finn! Don’t call them like that :’(

Hey it’s tht guy who arrested Othin and Halvan because they looked like brigands and Finn didn’t raise a finger to get them out of this situation-

That guy oozes trust, i mean, have you seen him? As long as he doesn’t invite us to a party, i don’t see any reason not to trust that good Distler guy.

Loptyrian agent - like a secret agent? OTOH it’s funny because Travant needs a loptyrian agent to secure one of his castle - like what, he doesn’t have enough Thracian generals? “where’s that Dean guy? He has a broken prf lance! He kind of betrayed to run away with your son’s fiancée and some buffon in white!”

Showdown? Well, i’d call it invasion but...

No :’(   Othin’s grandma, how dare you! At least she seems to agree that this is an invasion...

ooh! Armed peasants? So do we canonically kill many Donnels or Ronans in this map?

Hm... I’d say for Leif because FE4 Leif really wants to kill Travant, but also because F!Lewyn wants Travant gone - well it’s all because of Travant, but you don’t storm a country to kill its king and then return to your own business, i mean it was what happened in Verdane and Agustria and we all know how it ended!

But i confess, there may be some tactical value in removing Arvis’ only ally from the chessboard.

“I fear i’m doing something stupid just like my dad did” “don’t worry Lord Seliph!”

I won’t kill civilians i mean i’m their princess damn it! 

Travant’s scolding Alty!

Oh that’s what Finn meant by “minion”! If only he knew what Arion was doing behind his back, or Alty herself...

... Well the guy charged and ignored her orders - granted that’s true, an entire platoon tried to attack Faval and died :’( Rip dead dracoknights.

You know what? That line from Alty could also be adressed to Quan in a Jugdral AU where Quan raised his daughter Alty and he continued to be an ass about food and tariffs.

They are proud but also desperate. Pride means nothing to an empty stomach, but without pride you’ll turn into people like the Northeners.

Alty asked a difficult question, one Arion never raised even once. Or maybe Arion thinks that they can’t change their situation, no matter how hard they try so being a “hyena” is the only way?

Young? She’s older than everyone in the LA, save for the people we’ve seen in the first gen!

Daw, who do you think you’re lying to, Travant? We’ve seen the father-daughter bonding family time in FE5 !

At least Travant’s willing to give her second chance? If Alty came back afterwards, would he go all Rudy like “only a fool gives third chances?” No, of course not, because Travant’s still a dad who loves his children! Maybe he’d have thrown her in a dungeon - or locked her in her room.

Granted, there’s no reason to slip again now, Meath is a Thracian Castle, she has to take it back!

Finally some obedience!

Hm... Well, Alty is young as in “not ready to be a ruler yet” but she’s older than our peeps who will inherit kingdoms at the end of the game... Are we headed for a disaster in post-war Jugdral? Oh yes.

Hannibal doesn’t like when random civilians are dying, nor does he like people who kill them for nothing. Of course he was going to disapprove.

Mmh...

Leif is backed up with a ton of people who want him dead (maybe Seliph wants to avenge the aunt no one talks about?), so he is a threat now, and he fears that Alty will join his side because blood>family?

En route with a new platoon of dracoknights!

Oh?

A truce with the people who conquered a castle - granted it was a base of operation because Thracia tried to conquer Manster - and who want your king dead? A truce with the son of the man who thought you were nothing but hyenas and continued to apply his stupid policies on food exportations? “i’ve met prince leif, he was a reasonable boy!” You met FE5!Leif General, not FE4!Leif...

A despicable choice, but a choice they had to do nonetheless, as Arion points out in FE5. If they wanted to continue to fight, they’d have ended up like Queen Rahna !

Well, you have a point, even if they were trying to retaliate to your attack on Manster. But invading a country is never a “proportionate way to retaliate”!

Because you killed Quan’n’Ethlyn or because F!Lewyn wants obedient little pawns in every corner of the continent to secure Seliph’s future reign?

Travant really doesn’t take well constructive criticism. What is he, a youtuber?

What kind of test? - But here we notice that Travant is indeed worried about turncloaks, i think he is sure Alty is going to switch sides now. Which she does :’(

He has no faith in the daughter he spent 17 years raising, so he has no faith in you. It’s totally uncalled, i know.

Because Travant is afraid, like Arion said. And because taking children hostage is his hobby!

but he was just rescued a few months ago from the Loptyr goons!

:’(

As this war is won? Well, Hannibal knows that he won’t see Corpul ever again!

ahahaha

Dude, we’re in FE4! Travant wants to believe you, just like i do, but we know it’s not the case!

It’s funny because this also applied to 1st gen Travant, he had a soft spot for Alty! Of course she was able to use the Gae Bolg so she was useful, but raising her to the status of a Princess when she could just’ve been another Faval? Travant is lying to himself in this chapter, it’s kind of adorable but also very sad.

stop it with the courtesies Distler, we’re talking about war!

Ah, i don’t think so. Seliph’s going to storm your castle as easily as Miletos fell to Hilda.

Travant trusts Distler though. Maybe he isn’t such a bad guy, or maybe he is a baddie but his only redeeming quality is to be loyal?

Yep, not a kind or a good guy, but a loyal one. Given how many turncloaks are around i’d say it’s Travant’s best guy.

Asking Distler to do what you couldn’t? Of course Gae Bolg etc but...

Reinforcements from Miletos! Yay!

He is not only a Loptyrian agent, but first and foremost an imperial agent, the one to ensure that the treaty between Arvis and Travant isn’t just some piece of paper but a real thing!

Come now! We’re not treacherous, we merely use the mountains to raise our avoid!

GG Seliph! But you forgot the part where Travant is allied with Arvis, and how he can backstab you just like Siggy/Quan experienced. Conquering his country though...

“Oh, so I can spare them? Maybe that’ll show them that we’re good willed and only want to kill Arvis!”

And here the famous “we’re already here we can’t go back now” or as the french proverb says “le vin est tiré il faut le boire”. Seliph doesn’t want to kill sad people :’( Well, given the opening narration, he is also fighting against peasants so...

“she’s my cousin!”

And instead of trying to explain things calmly to him, like August tried to do with Leif, F!Lewyn is pissed that his brainwashing isn’t working and uses the moral compass/weakling excuse “if you’re too weak then go home and let everyone die is it what you want?”

FFS I really hate that guy

Yes, especially how Seliph is now his majesty and you’re nothing but the former king of a country you couldn’t protect (Oifey doesn’t know about dragons) - asking questions and doubting is a good thing damn it! Of course Seliph is stressed, he is fighting against peasants - those very same peasants taking arms against an invader could have been Dimna, Tristan or Radney in another universe!

No they don’t know because you’re being an arrogant reptile and you’re not telling anyone the reasons why they need to be here. If you’re not telling their leader, i doubt you’re telling to useless people like Lester.

And how do you stop that? Surely it’d have been kind of useful to train the useless luggage you’ve been hauling around in light magic, or to give her a light tome? Or have you even tried to locate the Book of Naga?

No! The brainwash worked :’(

NO! You don’t find purpose in a fight, you have a purpose for fighting! You’re already supposed to have one wheh you’re fighting! How do you expect people to follow you after that? Are you soldiers even aware abuot Loptyr’s resurrection and the real reason why they need to go to Granvalle?

Damn that dragon

NO SIGGY WAS AT HIS BEST WHEN HE STARTED TO DOUBT DON’T FALL BACK TO CHAPTER 1-2!SIGGY SELIPH PLEASE 

What sight! GG Finn!

EDA WHO IS EDA I DON’T KNOW WAS SHE A PART OF MY ARMY THREE WEEKS AGO I FORGOT WELP

It’s so shiny, I’d recognise it everywhere! It’s the figging emblem of your flag Leif!

And here we go, the aura thing. I hope it’s developed in a jugdral remake, because gloating Julia being incognito or glowing Mareeta is really really plot breaking.

“i told you to stop with the S drinks!” Finn made the deduction everyone with the brain cells must have reached when they saw Alty with her dad’s lance.

you really think a holy weapon can be lost like that?

Just like you did with Nanna then?

So Leif had shreds of compassion/sympathy for Travant during a line. That’s good.

stop rubbing salt in the wounds Finn! and tbh, if Leif was in the desert, i doubt Travant would have killed him too. He’d be Arion lil’bro who’s afraid to ride a dragon!

You have being kind “letting her live” and being kind “make her a princess” - and you know what, i’m not sure Finn ever spent father-daughter bonding time with Nanna. Someone must have taught her how to ride but the game doesn’t show us a thing, heck Finn doesn’t want Leif to surrender when Nanna’s held hostage... But Finn is a knight, he doesn’t have the luxury to be a father.

somewhere, someone took care of a useless girl for no reason but she’ll be mysteriously revealed to be the only one able to kill Loptyr - it’ll be a coincidence!

maybe she won’t consider Quan’n’Ethlyn her parents? “we’re in FE4! it’ll work!”

She saw you for like 4 months before disappearing, but i’m sure she’ll remember you.

He will!

And Seliph promoted! Now he can be a useful unit!

Thank the pony Seliph!

[sweet-xoxo-thatcares]

Charles made me feel sick yesterday.

He called me around 6. So I texted him.

I told him my grandma passed, and he told me he found out his aunty passed like 3 hrs ago.

I was shocked and thought maybe that's reason why he called me, because he was in a bind...

But he said some awkward shit on the phone.

He said it in a joking manner, but now I know psychologically people joking about stuff like that actually are thinking about it.

He said "I need some stimulation and I think I know who's available." This was after he mentioned his sex drive and I told him how could you be horny right now after your aunty just passed?

He literally just told me she was the closest thing to his mother, since she passed when he was young.

He went on to say "I'm gonna get pregnant next year" I said nuh,uh. He said yes. It started to get weird because it was like he was insinuating that he would get me pregnant next year. And I didn't like that.

He still thinks I'm interested in him even after he was a dick to me and made a joke about how my life was on pause when I came to him for comfort about getting into a fight with my mom and getting kicked out. He was and still going through his toxicity and he still even joked about that on the phone, him being toxic.

He's loss several friends over the past 3 yrs we've been in contact. It's like whenever someone in his life passes he keeps tally, so he's suicidal, depressed, but also a jackass.

The last time I texted him was July 8th, and it's August now. He must still think I like him like I used to before. But after how he reacted and I saw how narcissistic he truly is, I realized this on and off thing is gonna keep going where he ignores my messages but only calls me at a random time when he feels like he needs me to be there for him.

I can't be that support pillow for him again. Especially after he has let me down so many times. I was very dry and nonchalant when he kept commenting stuff like "you're gonna get pregnant"

Cause he's said something like that before "I've been thinking about making you Mrs."

Or "im gonna get you pregnant if we have sex"

He said things jokingly, but after everything I've been through with fuckbois, getting used, being played and then seeing him flip on me after I accused him of being insensitive and saying how selfish he is....he definitely flipped it on me.

I blocked him after awhile because I wanted nothing to do with him. Like he's a jackass. Who calls somebody just to ignore their friend on the phone when their sharing a depressing moment, only for you to laugh at their pain like it's not serious and then laugh at Facebook posts cause you're bored or something.

Something told me not to call him back last night and I seen why. I was trying to be there for him and he turned it into a flirty thing, where he feels like he can just say anything because he thinks I still like him.

I'll keep keeping a safe distance for right now, because that's not cool or fair to me.

Out of the 3years I've known him, we've never met up since the first time he called me to audition to be an extra in his student film. I'm just gonna check him next time he starts bringing up weird shit like getting me pregnant. The call before this one, a month ago, he goes to say towards the end "I wanna say I love you"

But I'm like dude, "no, you dont" because all you've done so far is lusted after me and ignore my messages without response. And everytime I ever asked you to hang out somewhere you always made up some dumbass excuse, even as to go so far as to comment "you need to grow an ass" and then saying "it's not that hard" when I said I shouldn't have to be valued, plus my gluten wouldn't even grow that big of a size that you're probably thinking about. He's stupid.

If a but is already small and fat, at most it gets rounder and plumper, not donkey Kong size like the other black girls I know with natural big asses.

He wants to keep me at a distance, but wants me there when he sees fit....sounds familiar?

Yea, Terrell with a speck of Jay in there.

.Maybe he's just wanted some female attention, nothing serious in his intentions. It's just harmful for me to hear that he thinks I'm always gonna be available to him and that he gets to say whatever he feels like just because...

I gotta start putting my fut down and stop allowing him to say those things that makes me feel uncomfortable just because he likes me....sexually...

Cause for me to pick up the phone, expecting him to change when he just wants flirty talk is not gonna help. I actually thought he needed someone to confide in but he just keeps fucking it up.

Gotta let him be dry without me and just not care as much when he does these random monthly calls at random times. Then when I text, I'm ignored? Ridiculous....its like why bother .

A waste of time and energy. I won't be used by somebody like that again. I'm not gonna be a pillow for someone who doesn't make the same effort to talk to me right and not disrespect me.

[ourloveisforthelovely]

Things Done Differently 4

Warnings: RPF 

Link to previous chapter 3

Words; 2,825

Pairings: Richard Speight Jr. x OFC

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The following days went smoothly for Richard and Grace. They didn’t leave the house or the bed for the most part.

“These hormones of yours is really wearing me out sugar. Not that I am complaining. Six months of just using my hand was miserable.”

Richard said with a smile as he watched Grace pull on some clothes. Grace smirked as she tried to wiggle into a pair of leggings. With a sigh she gave up after a few tries.

“I blame you for this.”

She said with a smirk as Richard sat up watching her with an amused expression.

“I didn’t hear you complaining especial last night, middle of the night, and this morning.”

Grace rolled her eyes.  

“I’m not complaining silly. I never believed people when they said that when you get pregnant you turn into a horny mess. Well now look at me  you could bend me over whenever you want.”

Richard raised an eyebrow.

“In that case I better go buy me a supply of Viagra or something because sweetheart I’m not as young as I used to be.”

Grace raised an eyebrow.

“You haven’t needed any assistance so far. I have to run downtown and meet a client with my brother.”

Richard frowned.

“Ah gotta go meet Mr. Personality huh?”

Grace gave him a small frown.

“Rich, please. I know that you two don’t like each other.”

Richard held a hand up.

“Like isn’t a strong enough word darlin. More like hate each others guts and hope the other will drop dead.”

Grace pulled on a knee length sweater tucking it around her stomach. She had been so used to trying to find creative ways to hide her growing stomach the realization that she didn’t have to still hadn’t really kicked in.  

“Richard, I’m not asking much of you just please for our daughter, try to get along with Andrew. Like it or not he’s going to be a part of her life. He’s my business partner. Carmichael records isn’t

what it would be without my brother. I can’t do it all on my own.”

Richard frowned feeling guilty. He stood pulling on his jeans before going to Grace.

“Sugar I’m sorry. He just bugs me. You’re right our daughter doesn’t need all the drama. I’ll see you when you get home..”

He leaned down pressing a soft kiss to her lips. Her arms wrapped around his shoulder deepening the kiss. Richard sighed against her lips.

“And this is what led to you getting pregnant. You better get going. I don’t want your brother coming in here seeing me half naked.”

Grace turned with a smile walking out of the room.

Half and hour later Richard sat in the living room waiting for Rob, Matt, Jensen, Jared, and Ruth to show up. Tonight was the night that he was going to let some of his friends other than Rob in on his secret. Part of him was ready to get the news of Grace’s pregnancy out in the open so they could walk out in public and not feel like they had to hide everything. The other part wanted to keep his daughter as safe as possible. Even if she wasn’t born yet he wanted to keep from safe from all the sets of eyes in Nashville that would be on her once she was born. As popular as he and Grace were in the city it wouldn’t take long for news of the baby to circulate.  

Richard looked down at the magazine on the coffee table. Andrew and Grace was on the cover of Nashville Star magazine. Richard sighed looking at his girlfriend carefully. She was dressed in a loose black dress that clearly his her stomach. Richard sat down with a groan. He hated knowing that because of him she had gone to all those crazy lengths to hide her condition and was about to face a splurge of media attention when the truth came out.  

Looking at Andrew, Richard frowned. He knew that he had to find a way to get along with the oldest Carmichael. If there was anyone that could quiet some of the crazy that his and Grace’s totally unplanned pregnancy was about to cause it would be Andrew Carmichael. Even though Richard was annoyed at the even thought of going to Andrew to keep the reporters off of Grace he had a feeling he would be doing it. Sure Richard could put his two cents in on everything to the reporters but that would cause even more of a circus fest. Andrew could smooth things over. Richard had seen him do it plenty of times when it came to an artist who was going through a rough patch. Andrew could have made Britney Spears 2007 meltdown look sane.

The doorbell ringing pulled Richard from his thoughts. Looking down at his watch he was relieved to see that it was time for his friends to show up. Getting out of his head was the best thing at the moment. Getting up and walking to the door, Rob looking concerned as soon as Richard answered.

“Hey buddy! Didn’t know you bought a new house.”

Jensen said cheerfully as he walked in with Jared behind him. Matt grinned.

“Did you have someone decorate it for you or did you suddenly become awesome at interior decorating?”

Richard smirked as they sat down on the couch. Rob hadn’t out of ear shot before turning and looking at Richard.

“Is everything okay? You look stressed.”

Richard shrugged.

“Just a lot on my mind. I’ll be good.”

Rob didn’t look too believing as he walked to join Ruth on the couch. Taking a deep breath he decided just to let everything come out in the open. Feeling nervous around his friends was something that was not like him in the slightest. Anyone that knew Richard in the slightest knew that being shy or keeping secrets from his friends was not the man he was.

“So Rich what is with you?”

Jared asked with a smile. Richard sat down .

“So I uh…have a girlfriend.”

Jensen looked surprised and nodded with smile. Ruth clasped her hands together looking excited. She wasn’t about to say it but they had all been worried about Richard over the past few months. He had not been his normally cheery sarcastic self. Seeing him withdrawn and clearly acting when on stage was not her normal friend.

“Well that is wonderful dear! You have seemed so moody lately.”  

Richard nodded.

“She’s pregnant.”

The whole room went silent. Everyone looked between themselves before looking back to Richard. Matt tilted his head to the side.

“Come again?”

Jensen and Jared were mouthing what the fuck to each other before Jensen turned to Richard.

“We see what you have been doing!”

Matt meanwhile, was grinning.

“Is there something that you’ve forgotten to tell us and does it have something to do with all the hickeys you’ve been sporting? That’s right I see things because I am your friend! Wait a second! Rob did you know about this?”

Rob nodded hoping to keep everything as calm as possible. He was worried about Richard from the moment that he walked in the door. Jensen chuckled.

“Well that explains everything! Rob how in the hell did you keep this to yourself? I figured you would have blabbed by now.”

Jared got up and went to stand beside Richard.

“Rich probably threatened to kick his ass. Rob is the only one that threat will work on. He’s the only one smaller than Rich.”

Jared said with a smirk before resting his arm on the the top of Richard’s head. Richard quickly pushed Jared off with a frown while Rob crossed his arms over his chest.

“HEY!”

Rob squeaked. Having enough at the masculine ball breaking fest, Ruth stood up.

“Okay boys that is enough. Richard how far is she? How long have you been together?”

Richard looked up finally.

“She’s 6 ½ months. We’ve been together for over a year…just the past six months we were kind of broke up because I wanted to keep everything hush hush.”

Matt looked like he had just figured out a grand puzzle.

“SO that is why you were coming back to Nashville all the time! I knew that there was something that I was being left out of! I though that I was supposed to be in on this friendship. I feel so left out right now.”

Richard chuckled.

“Well I am sorry that you haven’t been included on the latest chapter of this train wreck called my life! If I could have….”

The sound of the door closing pulled Richard from this thoughts. He turned seeing Grace standing in the doorway. From the look on her face she had heard everything he had just said and wasn’t happy. Matt was the first one to say something. Matt looked awestruck looking at her. She was definitely as pretty as she was in all of the magazines.

“You’re Grace Carmichael.”

Grace smiled politely.

“You must be Matt.”

Matt grinned.

“You really are pregnant!”

Everyone looked at Matt like he was absolutely nuts. Richard rolled his eyes.

“Did you think I was lying?!”

Matt shrugged.

“Just thought you might have been trying to pull one over on us.”

Grace chuckled.

“Its nice to have met you all. I’m sorry to run but I have a plane to catch in two hours and have to pack. I hope to see you all again.”

Richard’s less than amused expression became even more grave.

“Plane?”

Grace’s green eyes went to her boyfriend.

“I have a meeting in Texas in the morning with a potential client. Andrew decided to just spring it on me an hour ago. I should be back the day after tomorrow.”

She turned with a smile before walking into the bedroom shutting the door. Once she was out of the room Jensen turned looking at Richard.

“Dude I think she heard what you said about your life being a train wreck.”

Richard ran a hand through his hair.

“Ya think? I didn’t mean it like that!”

Jensen shrugged innocently.

“You might not want to sit here and tell me. You may wanna go in there and talk to her.”

Richard groaned before turning and following his girlfriend into the bedroom. The last thing he wanted was to lose Grace all over again because he made some crazy comment that he didn’t need to make in the process.

Walking into the bedroom Grace stood putting random outfits into a suitcase. She didn’t even look up when he walked into the room cluing Richard in that she was upset.

“Grace, about what you heard sugar.”

Grace looked up before holding up her hand.

“You don’t have to explain.”

She wanted to say more but she didn’t. Grace wanted to let Richard know what she was feeling but that would just escalate to an argument. The last thing that she wanted before a trip to Texas was an argument with her boyfriend. She knew that if she wanted to keep Richard fussing at him was the last thing that she needed to be doing!

Richard hadn’t moved from his place by the door for a moment before going to sit on the bed.

“Grace, talk to me.”

Grace shook her head.

“There is nothing to say. Everything is fine.”

Richard ran a hand through his hair as she kept putting random clothing items in the partially full case.

“So are you coming back?”

Grace looked up.

“Of course.”

“You’re packing like you are about to run or something.”

Grace looked up again.

“I’m pregnant. I need lots of clothes. If I am not burning up one moment I am freezing to death  the next. That calls for a lot of material.”

Both were quiet for a moment before Richard spoke again.

“You know Grace I am an actor I can spot someone lying from 100 feet away. I know you head what I said and none of that pertained to you.”

Grace zipped her bag before looking up like nothing had happened.

“Okay.”

This was the point that Richard was beginning to get aggravated!

“Damn it Grace don’t do this! You are doing just what you used to! Instead of us talking about our problems you are just shoving them deeper and deeper into Pandora’s fucking box. Its like I can’t get you to trust me no matter what I do!”  

Grace froze at that. Her pretty face went sour like she had eaten a ton of sour Skittles. Turning and looking at Richard her green eye’s looked too much like Andrew’s for his liking.

“Fine, you wanna know what I thought when I heard you say that you’re life was a train wreck? I wanted to tell you to just leave. Just go like you did before and leave me to it. I tried to think that you were back here because you were actually in love with me and it wasn’t some sense of masculine duty because you got me pregnant now I am starting to think that I was right in the first place. I am not staying with someone who considers our child a mistake or contributing to what you call a train wreck.”

Richard looked totally floored by that one. He looked like someone had crept up behind him and yanked the rug he was standing on out from under him.

“What the hell?!!! I never called our daughter a mistake and I sure am not staying with you out of a sense of male pride!”

Grace narrowed her eyes.

“Calling it as I see it.”

She turned walking from the room without another word leaving Richard between shocked and furious! Grace meanwhile, knew everything that she said was wrong and she shouldn’t leave angry like this. She knew deep down Richard would never in the right mind mean the train wreck comment to be about her but she couldn’t help feeling hurt. Tomorrow she would probably regret everything that just happened but tonight she wanted to be miserable.

The next thought to enter Grace’s mind was she had to put on a grand act around Andrew. If her brother knew that she and Richard were already fighting that would do them no favors in the future. In fact, Andrew would probably just be hating Richard more than he already did. Putting on an act around Andrew was hard to do in the first place. Grace could only hope that her brother would buy her pregnant hormones as being the reason that she was upset. For the past six months if she started randomly crying or became irrationally angry Andrew would peak over his computer at her like a frightened church mouse. However, now that he knew Richard was back if Grace showed up with puffy swollen eyes from crying he wouldn’t hesitate to say it was Richard’s fault; pregnancy hormones be damned.

One of the shocking things with Andrew was he had been surprisingly tender with Grace in her “predicament.” Grace didn’t even remember him being this tender with Ashton when she as pregnant with his own children! This was probably what contributed to Ashton’s sudden dislike of Grace. She sure as hell didn’t let an opportunity to let Grace know of her displeasure.

“I couldn’t even get him to go get me food in the middle of the night. All you have to do is say that you are hungry and he will go running for you.”

Grace had been tempted to say that being her brother’s pet since the time that she was born definitely seemed to have its benefits as well as its disadvantages but she decided to remain silent on the matter. She wasn’t about to stir that pot in the disaster known as Andrew and Ashton: married couple.

Settling herself into her car, Grace looked down at her phone seeing her brother’s name on her iPhone’s screen.

“Nose like a god damn Doberman.”

She muttered before answering the phone.

“Hi Andrew.”

Her brother’s voice was instantly inquisitive.

“Have you been crying? What’s giant hole in his head done to you now?”

Grace winced.

“Richard didn’t do anything. I just…don’t want to leave him for a few days.”

Grace mentally congratulated herself on a good save as Andrew sounded grossed out.

“Forget I asked. I was just calling to see if you were on your way.”

Grace sighed, as she pulled onto the highway.

“I am. See you in fifteen.”

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thank you !

^^ dis gif isn't mine. but that's totally my face.

Here it is! This is my big dumb 'thank-you' post that I've been meaning to write. So if you weren't aware, I've actually closed this blog (aside from some random posts about Logan and a Batman Podcast - you should listen to it) due to some major, major problems with the DC fandom that I find toxic and quite frankly disgusting. But das stuff that sadly I can't change so I'm doing what's best for me and getting my ass outta here before my love for Batman is forever ruined by blind and immature fanboys.

i started writing bryce around about 2015. My first blog was called surgitisms but I changed it because someone made some burnbook callout about me copying someones url (I had no idea that blog existed rofl - surgit is latin for 'rise'). I then moved to rageinyourbones (shoutouts to joseph gordon levitt) where i spent most of my time, developing this character that wasn't even my idea - it was just a passing remark from a lovely actress by the name of Natalie Dormer. now as you're aware (and as i continually apologize for) i fucked up on that blog, and i've done my best to reach out and make amends with the people i offended (and they were super gracious and accepted my apology). but that negative bollocks aside, i grew up so much on that blog. i learned some amazing things about myself, i learned some bad things about myself, and most importantly i created a character that i personally believe is different to bruce wayne. i ended up headcannoning late at night, thinking about how she would act differently to bruce, about how she would interact with certain characters etc etc etc.

but what really made all the difference was the people i met.

you guys are fucking amazing. i mean lets be real - the tumblr rp community can be fucked sometimes. we've all seen it, but what i love is that we tend to (80% of the time) treat each other as real human beings and see that what we're really here for is just the love of these dumb fictional characters. they give us a break from the savagery of life and its endless woes. i am so, so so grateful and so so so blessed to have known the people i have on here. people whom i met on rageinyourbones and followed me across to here, and people whom i met here. holy bollocks im rambling - im just gonna tag some specific people who really really made my life on here so enjoyable. the rest i'll just lump into one big post because i'm lazy like that.

@fracturedportrait - harmony. i remember meeting you the first time. i remember it so clearly. you were so chill, so spunky (god i feel old using that word), and you had such a passion for your oc. i remember the first plot we had, the inspiration we shared... who knew that it was the beginning of my greatest friendship and my #1 OTP for bryce. you were the first person whom i ever actually spoke to off tumblr (remember when i called you?? and you heard my dumb aussie accent??). i remember legitimately getting teary over memes, i remember smiling so much during our threads, i remember (and still do) laugh about us talking about how our sin is like a lovely vintage of wine. your writing consistently, unimaginably, pushes and has pushed me to better mine. with every post you made, you helped improve my writing. you are such a blessing to me and i am not going to just let this stay as some dumb tumblr friendship. we'll face time, and i'll be sure to credit you when i'm on the red carpet with natalie dormer being like 'so what made you want to write this film about a female batman?'. i'll just be like 'yo there was this really cool chick who wrote a vampire and she told me to just write this film'.

@halysborn - SWAN. ho man. do you remember when i wrote that giant meta about how dick literally changed not just bryce's life, but bruce's? i firmly believe that dick is the most important character in bruce's life. and i mean i'm talking on the same level as alfred - even more. he's the TRUE son. the son whom saved him. like i just cry about how bruce says that line - 'sometimes i think i've never done any good in my life. then i look at dick and realize i'm wrong' or whatever that actual phrase is. i PHYSICALLY VOM WHEN PEOPLE SHIP THEM. but yo that's other stuff. what's important is that you have supported me selflessly and without strings. you've supported me here, you've supported me over on deshibcsara, you've just been a consistent rock, an unyielding foundation of encouragement. i still, and will NEVER delete that voice recording where you talk about me and my love for batman. it gives me such hope and reminds me that, yeah i fuck up, but i've at least affected someone else's life and how they see batman. my only regret is that i was so goddamn slow with replying to our stuff. and that was literally because i felt like you deserved nothing but my absolute best. you are incredible, and from one aussie to another, i love you brocookie!

@femmekill - could u pls stop spamming my facebook wall with memes?? SIKE I LIED. I FUCKING LOVE IT. my mum literally asked me the other night 'who is -insert your real name-?' and i was like 'oh thats my wife' and she was like '???' and i just said 'dont even BOTHER trying to understand'. you have been nothing but optimistic about me. you consistently, relentlessly see the good in me. i dont think there's ever been a time where like i've felt wronged by you? or at the very least felt like i was a burden to you? you never fail to spread positivity. even when you were feeling like shit and i tried to cheer you up, it's like you turned it on me and were like 'nah gus you're not cheering me up IM CHEERING YOU UP - thats how it works'. im so fucking whipped by you, because you're just such a blessing to my life. the day we shared FB's was like the day i realized 'WELP IM IN THIS MARRIAGE FOR LIFE NOW'. when it comes to your writing - i'm just breathless. the tumblr rp fandom does not deserve you. keep doing your thing man - don't ever let douchebag anons change that.

@marblebelow - I SINCERELY HOPE YOU STILL HAVE THE RECORDING OF ME SINGING 'THE CONFRONTATION'. especially with the 'DUN DUN DUN DUUUUUUN'. that shit is lit. yo but mikel really. the days of us writing together - writing fisk/bryce and then writing jim/bryce... i value it so much. you've taught me to pursue every little nuance in bryce's character. and i mean that - you ask me tiny little questions, and holy crap i end up going into a massive internal investigation. and worst of all (or best??) you jsut lavish me with genuine, kind words. i regret that we didnt get to write much more (both of us having major stress/overwhelmed issues), but dude, like, never stop being you - you have such overwhelming, unimaginable depths of creativity. even if you don't realize it, or feel like you don't, believe me - you do. it sounds like -- errr.... arrogant? but ive spent the last six years studying writing/fiction/film and just immersing myself in it so i feel like i have SOME credibility - you really really do have a gift.

@ivyworn - 'yes hello i'd like to report a murder? the victim is ME' aka this is what happens whenever we talk. so we never actually got to do much writing, but honestly? i literally feel like we did writing in the SPIRIT with all of our tumblr IMs and just the amount of shit talking we did. PUMA. LEST WE FORGET. PUMA. no but real talk, i was supposed to send you a birthday gift aka im still gonna get my ass onto paypal and do that SO DONT YOU LEAVE YOUR BLOG. AND YOU CANNOT SAY NO. i've never met anyone whom has such an in-depth love and understanding for ivy. i remember chatting about Cast Shadows with you and the level of complexitity between Batman and Ivy. i mentioned this but Batman/Ivy is literally my OTP for Bruce. i just think it is such an interesting avenue that no writer (post Cast Shadows) has explored. whenever we spoke, i had such a smile on my face, i cannot even begin to desribe it. i really really hope life goes well for you and treats you with the care and respect you DESERVE.

@psyclownsis @scarestress tags both blogs bc i have no idea where you are these days. so i already recorded that voice meme thing talking about you piri - but i literally just want to further express my admiration and gratitude for you. you've stuck by me, you've pulled me aside and been like 'oi gus you're being a douche stop it', and you've just supported me and taken such an interest in this dumb character i write that literally just blows me away. the fact that we barely write but i still feel so close to you and so valued by you is just a testament to the power of tumblr rp friendships. we don't NEED to write together to be friends and to respect and admire each other. AND LORD KNOWS i admire you. i admire your dedication, i admire your 'idgaf' attitude. and honestly i just admire your unrelenting loyalty to people.

because i've literally written an essay - the rest of these tags are people that i admire and love, even if we haven't had much chance to interact.

@agoodluthor | @gunkanjiima | @grincarved | @terrifiesthem | @tcmbraider | @truthpiety | @influencedbyfear | @inexactexpiration | @aftcrshocks | @fallencomrade | @geniusfuturist | @mangledgrin | @shewolveriine | @tragicloss | @unleashedjustice | @volchista | @widowscars 

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ANYWAY! I’mma gonna talk about my playthru of Digimon World Next Order, to distract me from the fact i’m rapidly approaching the ending and have to wait to sate my JRPG tastes on Persona 5 afterwards...

* it is really really REALLY REALLY really REALLy great to finally be able to play a game in the DW series as a female character. Holy SHIT, man this is overdue! And it isnt handled awfully like in Cyber Sleuth where everyone constantly calls you male and the character design is really oversexualized and doing weirdass poses for everything. There’s still a lil bit of ‘cliche girly option traits’ but seriously she’s like the least stereotyped design we’ve had in the games since Dusk and Dawn! She gets to wear SHORTS and A HOODIE! A hoodie that has an inexplicable hole in the back for some reason, but whatever! xD Also I actually like her version of the Protagonist Hair better, even tho I think its lame they colour coded them in the ol cliche genderedness. Boy character just has one streak of coloured hair at the front, but girl has a spiralling streak on the end of her ponytail that looks like a punk poison sort of fashion~! And it leaks pixels when she runs, and has a really nice glow effect that kinda makes it draw patterns as you swing her model around. Makes me wanna run in circlesssss~ Her dubbed voice is a bit boring cliche anime love interest tho, a bit squeaky after you’ve been hearing it for hours. But the dude is Like Every Shonen Hero Voice Ever, so i think its meant to be intentionally generic for both of them. I could swear he’s voiced by a bad Tai impersonator! XD Also I’m just kinda thankful cos every other girl in the plot gets a REALLY squeaky unbearable english voice, thank god protagonist is spared...

* its a lil bit of funnyness tho that for some reason the skill list is the only place where the translators forgot about the protagonist options. Like.. a LOT of Tamer Skills are weirdly gendered when it would have taken five seconds to change that. Why does it have to be stuff like ‘Cooking Boy’ and ‘Cooking Man’ instead of basic and advanced cooking? Especially cos the other one in between is called Gourmet Cooking...

* I love forever that so many of the virus type recruitable digimon are sweethearts of hugs and joy. Now THAT reminds me of the original Digimon World! Seriously I am SO GLAD that Literally The Same Myotismon has a sidequest about rescuing his precious myobrella so he won’t faint in the sun. or like.. if its not the same Myotismon then MAN he would totally be a great ship with the other equally helpless one in the first game XD He has a nice new function as a townsperson, instead of just being ‘a manager’ in the colloseum and never even being a fight. (That annoyed me as a kid! He just stands there!) Now he runs the card gallery, cos you collect ‘antique cards’ in this game and he restores them with his painting skillz. its a nice lil in-joke cos they’re all the original first trading card artworks from waaaaay back in the first season! And Piedmon is in this one too, yay! He’s actually like the only morally dubious virus type AT ALL, he talks like a cliche mwahaha mad scientist even as he does nothing particularly evil. His sidequest is a funny thing of playing hide and seek and he sucks at it. While yelling hammily about being an evil genius! And then he has quite a useful function in the town, he does a random effect on you once per day with his evil science, and it could be good or it could be bad, but if its bad he actually pays you compensation money for it! EVEN THE EVIL GUY IS TOO KIND And OH MAN I am so happy and sad for Skullgreymon! A good guy skullgreymon was always one of my ideas for a DW fangame, im so happy it happened for real! In this game Skullgreymon is a fashion designer with low self confidence, and you recruit them by finding weregarurumon who’s their biggest fan and becomes their first friend. Its so sweet! They never actually interact once you recruit them both tho, cos they work at different parts of the town. But im still gonna assume they keep in touch! Its also a shame skullgreymon doesnt actually run a fashion shop, cos there actually WAS a fashion shop in Digimon World Redigitize aka the one damn game we’ll never see dubbed T_T Instead skullgreymon gets this kinda depressing role of just standing around outside the entertainment area saying ‘i wish i could work with children but they’re always scared of me’, and then if you bring a newly hatched digimon to see them then they gain bonus stats from being terrified somehow?? NOOO WHERE IS THE OPTION TO TEACH MY CHILDREN THAT SKULLY IS A FRIEND

* Anyway, my main digimon are (still) Hershey and Zephyr, and I love them! I’m still working on hoping to eventually get the full terriermon and lopmon canon digivolution lines with them, wow its hard. But I adore them no matter what form they take at the moment! I ended up loving them so much that i never raised any other digimon ever. i just rename them the same name every time they reincarnate, and pick the same eggs! I’ve gotten close to unlocking every single variation of the bunno brothers evo lines!! But it IS getting really annoying that you have to type the name manually every time, why no option to just stick with the previous name? DW1 had that and it was on way worse hardware! Oh, and its funny that I started off calling them the bunny brothers cos thats what they were in adventure 02, but then after playing the game for ages I’ve settled on headcanoning hershey as female and zephyr as nonbinary. And also I started off with the cliche personalities of sassy rebel terriermon and stoic lopmon like in Tamers, but Hershey ended up being the rebel instead and Zephyr is like a shonen hero cinnamon roll! They’re both equally sassy and eccentric tho XD I’m not quite sure yet what would be their ‘canon’ final mega forms that I wanna keep them in for the final boss and stuff. But hershey’s made me regain my appreciation of Ladydevimon after I stopped liking her as soon as I grew old enough to understand that most of her fans only liked her for being ‘a stripper’ :P Like.. she’s a really damn good design even without the fanservice?? I like her way more than devimon, myotismon and etc, I wish she’d gotten to be a major villain! i mean it sucks that devimon got to be one when she’s literally his evolved form. (And yes I am happy that it continues to be canon that ladydevimon can digivolve from devimon and the same for angewomon and angemon. DIGIMON AINT RESTRAINED BY HUMAN GENDER ROLES YO) So yeah anyway, I kinda headcanon Hershey as a hypothetical less skimpy redesign of LadyDevimon? or like.. if she got her own unique Mega form that kept a similar design, rather than just being retconned into lilithmon and rosemon’s evo lines. I just don’t think the skimpyness fits with Hershey’s personality but the rest of the design just has such a cool piratey thiefy type look?? And she’s like THE BEST monster girl in the franchise, she’s the only one who really gets to be monstery looking, even if she’s still an hourglass figure sex object. i mean i always thought it was meant to be a subversion of that?? She has that giant monster claw hand and is really vicious and powerful in battle! All her animations in the game are her shredding things with it and doing the classic dracula rise-from-the-grave when she’s knocked out, and just... ITS REALLY BADASS!! I didnt know how cool a fight with her could be, cos she just got that stupid ass fanservice joke slap fight in the anime... ANYWAY Ladydevimon is good I appreciate her I like her even though she’s in the general genre of fanservice digimon that I dislike. She’s like the one single one I dont hate! (Tho I still wish we had more than like.. two un-fanservice female digimon in the entire damn series) Buuuut I dont think her design quite fits Hershey even though she’s the digivolution I keep using ingame. Maybe if I can find a different Mega that I prefer, and make up a fanmade digivolution line? or I could do a fanart variation of the digimon...

* ANYWAY I kinda ended up headcanoning Hershey as a former member of the broken apart pirate crew in Mod Cape. Cos like.. what if your digimon had backstories of what their life was like before they met you! like Gatomon in Adventure, they were chosen to be partners to a destined hero but had to wait so long they’d become disillusioned. Cos when you meet em at the start of the game they’re mega level and only get poofed back into eggs cos of machinedramon’s attack. WHAT LIFE DID YOU LEAD WITHOUT ME. I AM HERE TO PROTECT YOU NOW AAAAAAA!! So yeah it would be cool to headcanon Hershey as a former highway bandit type character who has trouble adjusting to living in a city surrounded by happy innocent people and hugs. I dont see her as grumpy tho.. like, she’s kind of a bombastic trickster archetype but she’s still super cynical and ‘I only care about myself, anything else gets you hurt’. I was thinking maybe if I designed a fanmade mega for her she could be like a magician pirate zombie demon??? Like.. yknow piedmon is a deck of cards clown guy with those four daggers? i actually got Piedmon as her digivolution when she was a Ladydevimon and I was thinking MAN it could be so cool if we had like a zany zombie digimon who attacks by stabbing a sword through her own back! Like ‘watch me saw a woman in half’ XD A design where she has a load of weapons stuck in her and uses them to fight with! like how mummymon is a mummy + soldier in a leg brace design, hypothetical zombiemon could be a zombie + actual tragic assassination victim. Plus a magician. Or a clown. And ladydevimon. And a pirate. LOOK I JUST HAVE A LOT OF MUTUALLY CONTRADICTORY HEADCANONS OKAY xD

* I don’t really have as much development ideas for Zephyr yet, aside from that they’re Hershey’s more cheerful and positive sibling. But I see them as also being kinda creepy and battle-hungry and stuff? Like.. both these twins are total virus types, clown type, typical final villain type of acrobatic doom! And both are good guys deep down. But Zephyr is a more cinnamon roll type of good and Hershey is grumpy unwillingly dragged into goodness. And like.. Zephyr is a bit dotty and only accidentally creepy, not really understanding how to socialize properly. And probably they would be like ‘NO BIG SISTER, STEALING IS BAD’ *currently stabbing a guy* I think maybe my headcanon for Zeph might be that they were for some reason left completely alone while waiting for the protagonist? Hershey at least found some companionship with the pirates, even if she became super bitter after the team broke up. I think Zeph maybe started off as a wild forest mon that’d even forgotten how to speak, until by pure chance they bumped into their long lost twin sister and then met the protagonist. So like an innocent angel who’s all new to the city and excited about everything, but also kinda fighty and dangerous because of the same stuff that makes them innocent. I dunno, I might make them an angewomon or ophanimon to match with Hershey? Tho I wanted to make them both good guy virus types, it could be an equally interesting contrast to have a vicious battle-obsessed angel who’s the absolute opposite of softspoken fancyness! And I also kinda associate them with the colour green even though I ended up picking a grey themed digivolution for Hershey instead. But all of Terriermon’s natural digivolutions are all machiney and don’t suit this personality as much... I dunno, maybe I could make up another headcanon/variant type thing? Cos after all lopmon’s line gets two champion level forms and two megas but terriermon only has two recolours for the same ultimate level. Maybe even it out, lol! Or like, I’m thinking like.. what if Terriermon had a mega that suited Henry more? i was reading someone’s review where they said it was weird that pacifistic Henry got a giant robot specializing in attack while Rika got the humanoid pacifist digimon. And yeah, that IS totally weird! And it got me imagining what if Terriermon got a humanoid digivolution that was like a martial artist?? or maybe like a speedy superhero lookin armour thing! Like just a more humanoid rapidmon! or I dunno maybe if puppetmon is in this game then zephyr could be puppetmon. I miss puppetmon. puppetmon never got to be in ANY games except dusk and dawn! I WANNA SEE A 3D PUPPETMON YO!!

* Man I just spent this entire post rambling my headcanons for silent protagonist characters instead of actually talking about the game... aaaa...

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songs that make me think ‘bout ya:

now there’s a buncha songs on this playlist lmao BUT i’m makin’ a list of the ones i deem notable to give more context to ‘em for ya (&why i attach em to you .) maybe they’ll mean more to you because of it :) some of them are songs that have little things/sounds/verses/hooks that make me think of you, sometimes issa whole song, or it’s just a vibe it give me so here we go:

1. whoa (mind in awe) by x: [“Won't look back on my mind, Won't let bad out my shine, Won't let you cloud my mind (x2), All my days, I was cryin', All my lows, all my highs, Told my Mom, "I'm gon' shine" ] tbh this whole song gotta nice wholesome vibe to it but this part stick out to me the most. everybody been thru bad shit but you especially. but you never let someone block out your shine or cloud up your mind w negative bullshit, you’re strong & you’re positive about shit even when shit ain’t goin right. thru the lows & the highs, you gonna make sumn of yourself. regardless of your past & present trials and tribulations, you gonna shine bright.

2. let’s groove by E, W, & F: i bet you like why in the fuck do this nigga got let’s groove on here 😂 a long ass time ago i had this random ass dream that me & you were in the mf 70’s dancing to this shit, it was very vivid lmao

3. 911/mr lonely by tyler, the creator: not gon lie this part: [“Call me some time, Please bang my line, you know I'll answer Call me some time, Please bang my line”] & this part: [“Five car garage, Full tank of the gas, But that don't mean nothing, nothing, Nothin', nothin', without you shotgun in the passenger”] just cuz i be wantin to hear from you but ion know if you busy so i just don’t say shit. i could have everything in life but if you wasnt by my side, ion know if life gon hit the same no more

4. november by tyler, the creator: the whole song for this one. the last time i remember having a true “november” was with you .

5. awkward by tyler, the creator: the whole first verse is damn near to a t what age we were, how we met, etc. + this album came out freshman year & i was listening to it one time in the spring and as soon as it started you walked on the bus. so yea anyway, this a big 1 for me

6. summertime in paris by jaden smith (f. willow) & greece by drake: both of these beautiful in they own way i guess. with s.i.p., its more focused on the time of year and with greece, it’s more focused on flying out the country asap like drop everything and goin to go hangout and get away from the bullshit & get taken care of type shit. they both kinda serve the same purpose, i guess. i like em both a lot & dead would love to take you to paris one day

7. roll up by wiz khalifa: pretty simple, played this song nonstop one summer & that happened to be the summer me and you were talking and linked up at the ave’s :)

8. foldin clothes by j.cole: this song mean a lot to me cuz cole breaks down societal norms, standards, & expectations of both men and women. i care about you so much bruh that i’d cook and i’d fold clothes for ya, something that a lot of niggas don’t do. it’s such a simple thing but it can mean a lot depending on the context

9. slow down & easy by mac ayers: this guy real lowkey but i highly recommend him. the whole album has a car theme and i just feel like this a car ride for both of us. sometimes we take separate cars, sometimes we in the same care & lookin in a different direction, sometimes we at a stoplight or we get caught speeding, etc. it’s metaphoric, of course, but we’ve always passed each other on the street or rode in the car together. we always figured it out

10. 1 billion views by exo-sc (f. moon): [“보고 또 봐도 질리지 않어, 영원히 반복 재생하고 싶어, 저녁부터 until the dawn, 넌 나의 인생곡 10억”] which translates to: [“Even if I see you over and over I don’t get bored, I want to play you on repeat forever, From the evening until the dawn, You’re my best song 1 billion”] — idk if you even like kpop lmao i never got into it fr, i just really like this song but this is kinda easy to figure out i guess. i can make all the playlists i want to try to explain shit but YOU’RE the song i wanna hear all day

11. cause i love you by lenny williams: this song is a mf classic. there’s a theory that this dude actually starting tearing up in the booth when he was makin this song, that’s how in love he was with this woman. ayyyy i can’t sing like that but a lot of the stuff he was sayin i relate to you, specifically: [“And the tears were running down my face, And my friend told me, He said, ‘Lenny, you just oughta forget about her’, But I told my friend, I said, ‘You know, maybe you've never been in love like I've been in love, And maybe you've never felt the things that I've felt’....... “And then it got so bad, It got so bad, Till one time I thought I'd roll myself up, In a big ol' ball and die, And then I met you, darlin', And you smiled at me”] . this is definitely a song i’d wanna dance with you to, like late at night & just be w you

note: this don’t mean the other songs don’t matter or nothin! there are just some key ones i really like and wanted to delve into a lil bit! thanks for reading bruh & i hope you like the playlist, mamas 💗

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y. r.