#Doomed Friendship

[arthdoesart]

Katniss and Gale, the good 'ol days before everything fell apart...

[icedmatchamilklatte]

arisu, karube, and chota are so tragic 💔💔

i miss them so bad, its okay tho!! arisu will live on for them 😭😭💔💔

LOOK AT THEM. 💔

[verysanebsdfan]

Killua with a reader who has horrible friendship skills? like is kind of messed up so they don’t really function or take care of themselves so they can’t maintain healthy friendships. so one day the friendship falls out at greed island and she leaves Gon and Killua on they’re own and they meet her again and it’s whatever arc and she’s friends with people and healthy and stuff and he gets kind of upset. like, you’re happy now? you treat other people so well.. but you didn’t do that for me? and he like resents her a little.

SORRY IF ITS TO MUCH URGHH, also this would be more on the platonic side or if you want it could be like doomed friendship

uzgsgzialzi crying rn i suddenly forgot how to write lmao

you didnt specify if you wanted hc or story or whatever, so i tried something?? Also i made up names for your friends sooo...

tw/cw: killua is not happy. very bad thoughts. reader basically doesnt like herself in the first part

𝐏𝐋𝐀𝐓𝐎𝐍𝐈𝐂 𝐊𝐢𝐥𝐥𝐮𝐚 𝐙𝐨𝐥𝐝𝐲𝐜𝐤 𝐱 𝐫𝐞𝐚𝐝𝐞𝐫 𝐱 𝐆𝐨𝐧 𝐅𝐫𝐞𝐞𝐜𝐬𝐬

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A day after day, you wonder why are you so different. Of course it pains you when you see you friends laugh and have fun together, but you just can't join. You are too tired to. It has been like this for some time, but it has been just getting worse. How could you laugh so freely, when you barely get up in the morning.

You wonder when has it started declining so fast. It has to be since the fight in Heavens Arena. The reminder of just how weak you are.

"What? Lost your breath? What a shame, i mean, you are a friend of those hella strong kids right? They already got to the 200th floor. Don't you want to do so too? Oh, wait, you are too weak for that, still stuck in the 190th floor"

In the end you lost. It just wasn't your day, that is what you told yourself. You hoped that as long as you stay with them, you would be able to grasp upon the light and get better, and consequentionally stronger.

Is it not your time yet? Or are your friends just progressing too fast? Yes! That must be it! But why can't you?! Are you just- NO! No...you cannot think like that. Gon would not be happy, and Killua too...He would right? Right?

The light is getting weaker and weaker...

𓈒⠀𓂃⠀⠀˖⠀𓇬⠀˖⠀⠀𓂃⠀𓈒

Gon got all the cards. Greed island is over. As much as Gon wished you went with them. you Couldn't, you were so tired. Oh Gon felt so bad for leaving you behind, but as they watched your back when you were leaving, even Killua had hard time not trying to stop you just like Gon.

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Some months later, you had gotten better and stronger. Mostly thanks to the help of your new friends, well, you knew them before. Your childhood fiends, Elizabeth and Stacy.

They are currently training to become hunters, and you are sort of guiding them.

Well. Some time after the chairman election, you met Gon and Killua again, well, they saw you, you didn't exactly see them though.

Gon was so happy to see you doing well, but Killua wasn't, well, sort of. He was of course glad that you are happy....but why couldn't you be happy with them? Were they not good enough for you?! Did you hate them?!

Of course he was wrong. But he didnt know that. That is what led to the current situation

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"Are they better friends than we were?! Huh?" Killua yelled at you "Why did you leave us?! Were we not enough? Thats really selfish of you, you know!"

And with that, he walks away. Thats all... Gon stayed because he wanted an explanation... but Killua left, and did not return to you. Gon knows why you left. Killua doesnt. Gon understands. Killua....

[rockhousejai]

Fake ahh emo…or maybe he’s just stuck like that 

[cannucks-addiction]

In the name of someone I no longer know

Ancestral Memory-Hari Alluri/ Richard Silken/ When I die-Nikki Giovanni/ Cassandra-Eugene Berman/ I Think I Need A New Heart-The Magnetic Fields/ The Burning-Veneta Octavia/ Noah Kahan/ anabelle--cane and grissomesque/ The Boy With The Thorn on His Side-The Smiths/ Sisyphus-Titian/ The New York Trilogy-Paul Auster/ The Boy With The Thorn On His Side-The Smiths/ Harrow the Ninth-Tamsyn Muir

[hivemindclown]

i need her to suffer lovingly

ok here me out.

pure vanilla wasn't born blind but became blind in the academy accident lily caused.

[blueberrymuffin674]

What did the Exit say to the Ringmaster

"Hahahaha... don't you believe me!?" Kaufmo stood on the edge of the stage, trying to get the others to believe him about that exit door. "I- I swear I saw one!

Ragatha looked at him with pity. "Kaufmo there is no exit. You can't leave this place. This has to stop." Kaufmo denied.

"No I saw it! And maybe you should do something instead of denying your escape!" Kaufmo felt as if he couldn't breathe. He felt all eyes staring, judging, waiting for him to do something. Something.

DO SOMETHING

Kaufmo ran back to his room and shut the door. Barricading it to make sure Jax doesn't break in using a key. Only god, or Caine in this case knows how he gets them. Speaking of Caine.

"HELLO KAUFMO!" Caine greeted, or screamed, in Kaufmo's face while hanging upside down for some weird reason.

"hey Caine."

Caine tilted his teeth. "Why so down buddy?" Caine lowered his volume, something he rarely does around everyone else.

"I want to find an exit Caine."

Caine paused, "we will, I'm sure."

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"Hello welcome to the Amazing Digital Circus!" "Looks like we have a new NPC." "Jax don't be rude" "Be quiet stringface I can't hear the newbie going insane." "Not quite an NPC I guess."

Kaufmo found himself overstimulated from all the attention. "How do I take this headset off!? Why am I a clown!?"

"There is no exit and you really can't take the headset off." A chess piece walked up to him, followed by another chess piece. "My name is Kinger, this is my wife, Queenie."

"NO no this isn't real. You are not real!" Kaufmo ran in the opposite direction. That's how his first day went. Everyone expected him to give up on the exit, as they all did.

But he wasn't like the others. He didn't stop. He made a weird alliance with Caine because of it. Kaufmo was the only one who didn't give up, the only one Caine tried to help find that exit, his friend.

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"Caine I made a poster with clues to find a way out."

"Oooh! That'll be fun to use!" Caine fiddled with his hands. It was something he did a lot. He spun around the room.

Kaufmo groaned. "Caine stop fooling around and come help me!"

"Whatever you say friend!" And Caine meant it. After all, he can't lose his only friends. Again.

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"I have an idea Caine! We should do a challenge!"

"What do you have in mind my friend?"

"A contest to see who can do the best joke! Whoever lasts the longest wins!" Kaufmo snickered, knowing he would win. After all, everyone loved his jokes! Ragatha always laughed at them.

"Sure, it's on!" Caine smiled as well as he could for a pair of dentures.

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Kaufmo was laying on his bed in a fetal position. Caine left a few hours ago to stop Jax from terrorizing Ragatha and Gangle. Fools. Kaufmo started at he ceiling. The bright color hurt his eyes. Instead of going insane in here he decided to go take a walk. Maybe tell some jokes to put everyone in a good mood. At least Ragatha liked them.

Kaufmo walked down the hall muttering some jokes to himself, after all, a clown is supposed to make himself a fool. He stopped when he saw Gangle. Gangle was hunched down holding a ripped piece of paper with a few doodles of a character that Kaufmo did not recognize. When she spotted him she picked up her pace to stand in front of him.

"Hey Kaufmo, I was making a picture but then Jax found me then he told me it was bad then he tripped me and made he rip it." Gangle started rambling and sniffed, "Then I found you so I wanted to give you this." She holds out a red crayon. "It's my favorite crayon. I like the color red."

Ah so Caine failed in "stopping Jax from antagonizing Ragatha and Gangle". Figured, I mean what can that AI do right. Kaufmo stopped his train of thought when Gangle awkwardly cleared her throat, that she doesn't have.

"Oh uh thank you I guess" Kaufmo went still for a second before continuing, "hey do you wanna hear a joke."

Gangle squeaked. Kaufmo's jokes weren't really known in the circus for being the best. And with how he's been doing lately with that "exit" talk, this one was probably not going to be good either.

"O- okay." Her voice getting quieter as Kaufmo's maniacal expressing grew.

"What did the exit say to the clown?" Kaufmo's smile quivered when Gangle gulped, "No way out! Funny right?"

Gangle shook her head. "U- uhh. Can you do a nicer joke."

Kaufmo's face went cold. "Let me say it again, WHAT DID THE EXIT SAY TO THE CLOWN? NO WAY OUT! ISN'T THAT SO FUNNY!?"

Gangle started bawling and ran to her room. Kaufmo started in the direction she went. He walked the hallways some more  while pondering over why she hadn't laughed. It was funny right? RIGHT? He is a clown, he is supposed to joke around, make people laugh, ITS HIS ONLY KNOWN PURPOSE. I have no right to be sad about this. It's her fault she has no sense of humor. SHE IS TO BLAME. I have the right to be angry. He stops running and slows to a walking pace as be workers what he thought about Caine earlier. He has helped Kaufmo, but he's just an AI right. He's supposed to want to help. He doesn't care. Kaufmo snaps out of his thoughts when he sees Ragatha. She always laughs at his jokes! She will understand right!? A glimmer of hope burns in Kaufmo's chest. He can't tell if it hurts or not.

"He Ragatha, you saw that exit door too right, you believe me right...? Aren't my jokes funny?"

Oh Kaufmo- uh good one! That one was really funny! Ragatha fake laughs, not having listened to it at all, thinking it was another bad joke. "You should go tell it to the others!"

"That wasn't a joke." Kaufmo goes limp. "You were faking all this time..."

Ragatha exaggerates her smile, knowing she's been caught. "I- I um."

"What did the exit say to the clown? No way out. FUNNY RIGHT!" Kaufmo's eyes tear up as Ragatha doesn't laugh and looks away awkwardly. He runs back to his room. The glimmer flickers out, it's empty, too empty.

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Kaufmo stares at the ceiling once more. He thinks about going to sleep when Caine bursts in with his godd*mn confetti. What does he want. That AI thing is only here to follow his f*king programming.

"Hey there buddy! Ragatha told me you looked a bit unwell so I came to check up on you!" 

Kaufmo glared. "I am not you buddy."

"Sorry I couldn't hear you!" Caine leaned in closer.

"I AM NOT YOUR BUDDY YOU IDIOT! YOU F*CKING IDIOT I AM NOT YOUR FRIEND!" Kaufmo gets up and walks closer to Caine.

Caine backed away, sinking a bit. "I- just-. I thought we were..."

NO YOU ARE JUST A STUPID AI! WHY WOULD I WANT TO BE FRIENDS WITH A THING LIKE YOU?! I JUST WANT TO GO HOME! I DON'T WANT TO BE STUCK IN THIS DAY AFTER DAY AFTER DAY DIGITAL HELL! I WANT AN EXIT! I WANT A PURPOSE! I DON'T EVEN KNOW MY OWN NAME. And you...

Caine struggled to stay in the air. It was alarming to hear Kaufmo say something so, eerily calm after blowing up like that.

YOU are an AI. I DON'T WANT TO BE FRIENDS WITH YOU! IT'S PRETTY DUMB TO THINK THAT ANYONE WOULD WANT TOO! YOU. ARE. NOT. HUMAN. YOU ARE A FAILURE. A FREAK. I DON'T WANT YOU TO EVER THINK THAT YOU ARE ANYTHING ELSE. YOU ONLY EXITS TO MAKE ADVENTURES AND KEEP US SANE, AND YOU DO A SH*T JOB. YOU ARE USELESS. GET THE FUCK AWAY FROM ME C. A. I. N. E. Useless sh*t. Hey why don't you listen to my last joke. Bet you won't make one better than this. What did the exit say to the clown? No way out. But there is one for you GET OUT OF MY SIGHT.

Kaufmo didn't even realize he broke through the filter for a split second. What he did notice though are the tears spilling from Caine's eyes. And the way they looked like scribbles instead of his normal eyes.

"I- Caine I'm so-"

Caine proofed away. But this time, with no confetti or fanfare.

Kaufmo started at the stop where he once stood with his arms up in a protective manner. Oh god he was cowering wasn't he! Kaufmo felt like a monster. He hurt his only friends feelings. Caine was always one to take things a little literally. Oh sh*t Kaufmo told him to think that eh was something other than a- failure, freak, ai. Knowing Caine he probably will. Because Kaufmo was his only friends, the only human who bared with him. Now shoved him away. Kaufmo started at the crayon Gangle gave him, the paint Jax pranked him with once. All he could see was red. He took a last look at the walls of his room.

He was on edge. The edge of his sanity. His walls are covered in red, but that's not what broke him. It was the picture he drew of Caine and him. He made Caine look like a monster, when he was the opposite. It was sickening. He started to laugh. It started out pitiful but rose to something words cannot describe. He felt excruciating pain. He looked down to see himself abstracting. At least he could be the monster that he already was? Knowing that he could never apologize, that the last thing he had with his close friends, one that's always been there for him, now thought he hated him? Fitting.

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Caine trembles as Kaufmo screamed. He didn't know why. I mean Kaufmo was his friend right? He wouldn't say something unless it was true. FAILURE. Caine, teleported to a little corner under the circus map. It was decorated with string lights, a beanbag, and a desk with a spinney chair. This is where Caine goes when the circus cast are on an adventure! The adventures, that he's not good at... USELESS. No one ever looked happy when they came back. Caine talked to himself in a trembling voice.

"I don't deserve to be a ringmaster, why do I even exist?"

He worked so hard to keep the others from abstracting. But he failed. When he and Kaufmo became friends he finally thought he had someone- someone who cared, who would stay his friend, say him as more than just an ai. But I guess that was a lie. He only wanted him for an escape. To leave him all alone. He can't blame him, who would want to be friends with a FREAK. 

He thought back to what Kaufmo's challenge. "Here's a joke for you Kaufmo..." Caine took a Shakey breathe in,

"What did the exit say to the Ringmaster? You'll lose everyone to me soon! Funny right?" Caine wiped some of his tears but they kept falling, eventually he gave up.

"I guess this means I win the challenge?"

A hollow victory. This was not what Caine thought was going to happen when he accepted Kaufmo's challenge. He sat there feeling numb while also ripping out every emotion he had through his tears.

The next digital day a newbie arrived and had a pretty awful first day. She picked, or got the name Pomni. That mean "Remember" doesn't it?

Ironic she can't remember a thing. Probably less than the other members had when they first arrived. When he found out Kaufmo abstracted Caine felt nothing. No sorrow, fear, sadness, loneliness, guilt, nothing. He drowned himself in those feelings and snuffed them out yesterday. But that's how it's supposed to be, he's an ai, he's supposed to feeling like this. 

"I suppose we both learned something yesterday."

Their friendship wasn't meant to last. It was bittersweet.

Notes:

Thanks for reading! This fandom lacks Caine and Kaufmo friendship. Granted I did get rid of it at the end? Sorry people.

[chloesimaginationthings]

This isn’t Gregory and Cassie’s first meet in FNAF..

[lovebunnie]

“i love being aromantic” i say as i feel my chest cavity rotting from the inside at the unquenchable desire for love in a way that is truly a secret third thing but its not a secret i want to keep it is a secret nobody is willing to listen to and im trapped in a state of isolation of my own making because no matter how much love i have to give it will never be enough. it will never be enough. it will never be enough.

[cryptidmickle]

hough save me gay yaoi

[shrimpyfellow]

Should I start posting my mlp art here chat

[linkcharacter]

Oh I have so many thoughts on aroace Curly, I think it brings so much on the table when analyzing the game's story.

Amanormativity ties in with the reoccurring mentions of the nuclear family, from Wrong Organ making 1950s mock advert posters, to Swansea talking about how getting a wife and kids didn't bring him any fulfillment in life.

In the cake cutting nightmare sequence, where Jimmy talks with Dream Curly about the mediocre cake, Dream Curly begins to talk about how sometimes you can only get the subpar stuff in live. Sometimes he'll get promoted, buy a house, fall in love. But other times he'll just have some awful fucking cake with his friend.

I think there is that subtle implication that Jimmy does buy into Amanormativity, with him projecting his beliefs on Dream Curly that a platonic relationship is lesser then a romantic one. But we never see Curly suggesting that he wants such a thing in the pre-crash.

With Jimmy thinking that Curly has everything in life, except for the desire (although I think Jimmy would view it as Curly not having the skills for it) to get a romantic partner, he would heavily lean into getting the one thing that Curly couldn't get in life to one up him.

THATS EXACTLY WHAT IM THINKING!!! AMATONORMATIVITY BE DAMNED!!!!

Looking at Mouthwashing through an aroace lens is interesting

"Jimmy thinking that Curly has everything in life, except for the desire", well said, well said! And references to the nuclear family fit in very cleanly thematically for Mouthwashing.

Jimmy leaning into amatonormativity is a smart observation. Jim internalizes all the social norms and standards on what you have to do to have a normal and desirable life, who sees everything Curly has and what Jimmy wishes he had, and is offended that Curly isn't satisfied, that he has the "audacity" to be unhappy. Curly meanwhile only wishes for his life to be something he doesn't have to run from, because by all means, he has already reached a point where he should feel accomplished, but isn't. Curly doesn't want to be a freighter captain his whole life, he doesn't want to settle with his sustainable position, he just wants to be happy. Like Swansea who has reached the "ideal" outcome of his life, having a wife, kids and a good career, it will never feel as good as embracing all what society deems undesirable yet right for you.

Jimmy does imply to seeing himself as lesser as a friend, "fall in love" being a goal and a "cake with a friend" being something he "has to settle for", it's all in the subtleties with underlying themes of "what you're "supposed to want" by society's expectations" against "what feels right for you". Jimmy is frustrated that Curly is going to "leave the dirt behind him", when in actuality, letting the crew and him go is the last thing Curly wants. Curly wants to be with his friends, he deeply cares about his crew, and about his close friend.

Mouthwashing as a whole reads to me as platonic through and through. Swansea and Daisuke having such a meaningful familial bond, Curly and Anya being sweet, playful and caring without romance, Anya and Daisuke having something of a siblings dynamic are dear to me. Also it's really rare to get to see representations of "toxic friendship" in media. Its always toxic romance this, toxic yaoi that, toxic family there, however in reality, friendships aren't excluded from being as rotten and abusive as the others, yet they're often overlooked. Jim and Curly are especially unique in this way. It's very impressive how they managed to showcase Jimmy's mistreatment of Curly in such a platonic way (at least that how I read it). Jim too, like Curly, in general avoids hints at romance and attraction explicitly related to him during his gameplay, not with Curly, nor with Anya (dear god thanks for that at least). It's all spite, annoyance and parasitizing off of these two. (That man's dry and lowkey hates everyone and everything) No attraction attached, no desires except hoping it hurts.

Curly to me is very much aroace, or at least on the spectrum. Like, the trivia fact that one of Curly's fondest memories is that of his friends putting in effort to make a shitty awful cake, tells us all we need to know on how dear his friends are to him. Platonic relationships mean so much to Curly, even when it's Jimmy fucking Mouthwashing, the worst friend ever imaginable.

[derpycatsu]

fart dump first one is a redraw of this the rest showed up at my door in a wet cardboard box

[shihoerusu]

The fine line between love and hate

[north-noire]

it's too late to take it all back

(I can't find the original artist of the piece I got inspired from, but the art piece that this one got inspired from is called I Depend On You. If anyone knows the original artist of this variation/inspired artwork, do tell!)

[bensonsknuckles]

listen. headlights and deer in the sense that benson speeds headlong into randy’s life and careens him off the course he had been bound to. in the sense that randy is blinded, paralysed in the glare of benson’s presence. in the sense of inertia, of Before and After. in the sense that they collide violently and both are destroyed upon impact.