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svubabes · 5 years ago

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Make It to Me - Sonny Carisi

Pairing: Sonny Carisi x Reader

Summary: Reader is getting ready for her wedding day, when she realizes she’s only marrying someone to suit her brother and father, Not the person who truly knows her soul.

ps sorry if this sucks i’m a lil rusty AND there will probs be a part two to this

You looked in the mirror, as your father William Dodds placed your grandmothers diamond necklace around your neck. He teared up at the sight of you, beautiful wedding gown, your mothers veil and his mothers necklace. He couldn’t help but let tears run down his face.

“Dad, save the water works. You’ll have to cry when you walk me down the isle.” He smiled and hugged you tightly. “I’ll let you finish getting ready. You look so beautiful honey.” You sighed as he walked out the door, flopping into the nearest chair possible. Finally, some piece and quiet. Who knew getting married would be so loud and busy? You looked at the ring on your hand, given to you by longtime boyfriend Matt Gomez. He was everything your father had wanted, top of his class in college, ivy league, lawyer for big pharmacies. Outstanding man, your father loved him. Your father loved him and so did Mike, but did you? On days, he was an incredible guy, but not for you. They always say make yourself happy first then worry about others, but what you had done here was please your family members, not yourself. If it was up to you, this would not be the man you would spend your life with. After a minute of quiet you knew someone was bound to bust in, but it was not who you expected/

“Sonny?” You questioned, surprised to see him after he said he wouldn’t be within a thousand miles of your wedding.

“Just listen to me. For once, please listen,” He struggled with the cracks in his voice. “I love you. Okay? I do, I love you so much (Y/N). You love me too, that’s why I can’t understand why you’re marrying this douche! Well, I do understand, he’s who your dad and brother want you with, not who you really love.” You stood in awe at everything he had said.

“Sonn-”

“Just let me finish and I’ll leave.” He shook his head, holding back tears, “I can’t keep how I feel for you a secret anymore. I can’t keep hurting myself just to keep everyone else at bay. You’re making a mistake, you should be marrying me. Not Matt, not in a million years should you be marrying him. He’s nothing like you. I am. We work on cases together, we get them solved, we go get coffee. Yours with extra ice and two shots of expresso so you can get a few more hours of day light. We’re a team, I notice the way you tap your pen on your chin three times and then switch to the table when you’re puzzled on something. I notice how you put the papers in the copy machine, only a few in a stack at a time. There’s so many things I love about you, so many things I notice. Does Matt notice those things?” You wondered, what did he notice about you? You began to wonder, but stopped yourself.

“Sonny, why wait till today? Why today of all fucking days would you tell me this?” He sat down on the near by bed in your dressing room.

“Cause, I thought the feeling would leave. I always wanted it to because I know your family hates me and would never want us to be together. I just couldn’t hold this in anymore. I love you, please don’t marry him.” Sonny begged, you were furious with him, at everything, timing, the world, all of it.

“Just go.” You mumbled, trying to hold back the tears.

‘What?” He asked, confused.

“Go!” You shouted at Sonny, “You can’t just come in here and do this to me and expected me to drop everything. Just go Sonny.” He hung his head down, but listened to what you wanted. He walked out quietly. You threw yourself back on the bed, letting any tears that had welled up out. You didn’t even care that you were ruining a $583 makeup look. The world was too heavy right now. There was so much to get off your chest. You walked outside, hoping you didn’t run into anyone on the way. You looked at the beautiful sunset, the people gathered in the yard, ready for you to walk down the isle. Just when you were lost in thought, you received a text from Sonny.

“I know you’re out there, we’re meant to be..”He texted your favorite song by Sam Smith. Still hoping to change your mind. Sonny was the only one you could imagine being at the end of the isle. You closed out your messages, sighing. You knew what had to be done and it was going to get done.

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floralparanormal · 4 years ago

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If It Makes You Happy // SVU // Rollisi

Rollins reluctantly plans on driving to Atlanta for her father's third wedding, but when her plus one cancels last minute, she catches Carisi staying late and he agrees to go with her instead. He's cautious, not wanting to get his hopes up, but it's always been about timing.

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navalcriminalimagines · 5 years ago

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Comfort zone - 1

Exhausted, you finally made it to your apartment after almost four days without coming back, sleeping and showering at the precinct. A particular difficult case kept you, Fin and your partner Sonny working nonstop, since Amanda and Olivia had to come home to take care of their children. “I could have a kid, just to have reason to go back home,” you laughed with Sonny in the middle of the night, beaten up because you could barely see the end of the case. But your partner made it very much easier, he is always there to cheer you up, see the good side of things, and sometimes you can just look in his eyes and feel like you’re looking at the ocean.

You texted your boyfriend to let him know you were finally done with the case, but you told him he didn’t have to wait if he was tired. But two things hit you after you closed the door; the small light coming from the living room and the bags packed in the hall. You took your shoes and coat off and walked straight to where Jeff were. “Night love,” you greeted him, “going somewhere?” you asked before giving him a peck on his lips.

“Yea, at Kyle’s first,” he simply answered. You sat next to him on the couch. Jeff and you had known each other since you were little kids and you always been in love with him ever since.

“Kyle? Is he okay?” you got worried. Kyle is Jeff’s best friend since they are teenagers, so he is kind of your best friend too.

“Yes-yes, he is. It’s just-“ he stopped, searching for his words. No matter how tired you were, seeing your boyfriend like this, woke you up. You ran a hand through his long dark hair, and waited for him to talk. “We need a break, y/n,” he finally spoke. Your heart dropped in your chest. Why? Why does he want to have a break with you? Was he seeing someone else? Doesn’t he love you anymore? Jeff perfectly knows you and he knows your silence means you have one billion questions in your head right now. He softly takes your face in his head to force you to look at him. “I love you, y/n and I don’t have anyone else- but you do,” you were about to interject that he was so wrong but Jeff put his finger on your mouth before any sound came out. “Follow me in this, okay?” you nodded with tears in your eyes, “How long have we known each other? Over twenty years, right?” you nodded again, “So I think it’s safe to say that nobody knows you like I do. Which means I am one hundred percent sure when I say you’re in love with your work partner,”

“NO W-“ you tried to deny but Jeff always been able to anticipate your reactions.

“Shh, my love,” he sadly smiled, “it’s okay, I’m not mad. I know nothing happened with him, and maybe you’re rejecting your feelings, or don’t realize that it’s love but- I do know. I had doubts for a long time now but it hit me when I saw the two of you together. You look at him the way you used to look at me,” you could hear the tears in his voice and it was destroying you from the inside. The worst is that he isn’t wrong, even though you tried to deny it to yourself.

A silence field the air for several heavy seconds. You tried to hold back your tears the best you could by avoiding Jeff’s gaze. You never wanted to hurt him, you actually thought you could grow old with him, marry him, have kids with him. It’s been your plans since you were 6. The wedding was about to arrive, Jeff proposed to you 8 months ago and you happily said yes. Both of your jobs prevent you from focusing on the wedding or maybe you unconsciously tried to delay it, due to how you feel for Sonny? Jeff answered to some of your questions but others directly field their places. You thought your head was about to explode.

“When your father was at the hospital, I promised him to do anything to make you happy. I’m keeping this promise,” he stood up but bend over to kiss your forehead, “but of course, if this guy hurts you, I’ll take care of it. Cop or not, you know I don’t care,” he walked to the kitchen counter and slowly put his keys on it. This was the hardest thing he ever had to do.

“Don’t leave, J, please,” you cried and pleaded him. He came back on his heels to hug you one last time.

“You’re going to be fine, my love. I love you more than anything,”

The following days were horrible. You felt so embarrassed around Sonny and tried to spend less time with him but being partners made it difficult. Coming home at night to an empty apartment made you feel so lonely. You texted and called Jeff every now and then, he gently answered at first but finally asked you to give him some time. You felt worst. After three weeks, you finally accepted the idea that you were definitely in love with Sonny and you started to consider tell him about it. But you kept pulling it off. You could have done it during a ride, or a long night shift, or maybe when you had dinner together, or when he invited to have a drink. The moment you considered it the most was when he showed up at your place, too anxious about his law exams. But instead, you lied and told him he was lucky because Jeff was having a boys night out.

Sometimes you felt like maybe he loves you too but some other times, you simply felt like his little sister. None of this was helping. Two months after Jeff left the apartment, you were still pretending everything was doing good in your personal life.

The first person to notice something was off with you, were the least expected one. You were waiting for him in his office, to speak about a case. The door was opened and Rafael Barba saw you sadly focusing on your engagement ring. He only brought the subject after talking about the case. “Are you okay, detective?” he sincerely asked while you were about to leave his office.

You turned around to look at the ADA, “Yea, of course. Why?”

“Something’s different about you. You used to be the most smiling detective and now- you look more closed than your ADA,”

“More than him? Come on, he puts the level really high,” you tried to turn this serious conversation into a casual one.

“Less than before, actually. I heard that stupid SVU squad kinda changed him,” he confessed, “but- we are not talking about that great guy,” he smirked, “if you need to talk, you know where to find me, Y/L/N,”

“I just have to follow the smell of coffee or scotch,” you said before leaving his office.

If Rafael noticed it, the others must have too. But that night after work, instead of going to your dark and empty apartment, you drove to Rafael’s office. Every other office were closed, every one were gone, except this special lawyer. As if he knew you were coming, Rafael set a glass of scotch on his coffee table. You didn’t say anything at first, just sat on the couch and drunk the liquor. “That was for my boss,” he joked but the look on your face made him laugh. He moved from his desk and sat next to you with his own glass, “Tell me,”

“Jeff broke up with me- Two months ago,”

“Sorry to hear that,” he sincerely said, “why?”

“Because that man can read me like an open book, and he- he noticed something,”

“That you had an affair with Carisi?” you turned to face Rafael, shocked. “Oh come on, it’s obvious-“

“Nothing ever happened between me and Sonny!” you defended yourself, “I could never cheat on Jeff,”

“If you say so. What is that thing then?” you sighed and took a moment before telling him the truth.

“Nothing happened but yeah, I’m in love with this stupid Italian,” you finally confessed. Saying it out loud for the first time made your heart beat faster.

“Good, Liv owns me 20 bucks,” he smiled at your angry face, “did you tell him? Because that’s all he was waiting for,”

“No way-“

“Y/N, how can you be that confident in the interrogation room or with gun but be so scared when it comes to men?”

No one at SVU knew the entire story between you and Jeff, so you decided to explain everything to Rafael. Jeff is the only man you ever been with, the only one you kissed and had sex with, the only one you dated. You never had to confess your feelings for him because things were meant to happen. You were 6 when you met and he was 7, your parents were friends. It’s like you’ve always known and love each other. He knows everything about you, your greatest qualities and your most shameful defaults but loves you anyway. You were scared to start all over again, and enter into the dating life. What if Sonny doesn’t like you outside work?

“Life starts when you got out off your comfort zone,” Rafael said, trying to be wise.

“Says the man that hasn’t date in years?” you laughed.

“Exactly, do you want to be like me at 47?”

Maybe Rafael wasn’t wrong.

Everyone was surrounding Sonny, as he was waiting for his results. Your partner looked so nervous, biting his nails, and moving uncontrollably his legs. You were standing right behind him and Rafael was next to you, smiling at how you were embarrassed. He gently took your hands and put them on Sonny’s shoulders. Your partner raised his head to look at you and smiled, he turned his attention back to his laptop and held one of your hands, until the results appeared. “I passed!” Sonny exclaimed. Amanda was the first to hug him since she was on the left, then Liv, then Fin fist bumped him and Rafael shook his hand. He faced you but took a moment before hugging you. It wasn’t a friendly hug, it was way more intense. “I’m so proud of you,” you whispered in his ear.

“I wouldn’t have done it without you,” he whispered back before kissing your cheek.

He let you go and some officers came to congratulate him too. Once Sonny was finally free, Amanda offered to have a drink after work to celebrate the new lawyer.

“Sorry guys, but I promised my girlfriend we’ll have a dinner celebration,” he smiled. He seemed so happy while you felt your heart falling apart. Rafael immediately looked at you and got closer when he saw you getting weak. He wrapped his arm around your waist to held you steady.

“You lucky man,” Fin laughed.

“And yet you don’t know what she promised me,” he winked at his coworker, you almost fainted from the pain in your chest. “Need some air,” you whispered to Rafael. He was the only one that could understand. While the ADA took you out after pretending, he needed a ride back to his office, you heard Amanda joking about how the Catholic boy changed. Once you were in the elevator, you cried in Rafael’s chest.

“I lost Jeff for this,” you angrily whispered to yourself.

To help you forgetting that Sonny had a girlfriend, Rafael invited you to his place to have a drink, dinner and watch some terrible movies. You accepted but it didn’t help that much. Rafael tried to controlled your drinking but at midnight, you drunkenly fell asleep on his couch. He decided to carry you to his bed, he took off your socks and your blazer to make as comfortable as possible, and he slept on his couch.

The following weeks, the loneliness was driving you crazy. You tried to contact Jeff without answers, you showed up one night at Kyle’s, and you learnt that Jeff was in Europe for his work and he wasn’t coming back soon. You never been alone like this before. You felt abandoned once again and that was your biggest fear since you’re twelve, when your mother left you and your dad without any goodbye. She just left with someone else and you never heard of her since then.

It’s been 6 years since it didn’t happen. 6 years since you had your last panic attack. All of those struggles and fears were coming back. You felt alone, abandoned and helpless. You wanted to call Jeff, only him knows how to help you during a panic attack. But he wasn’t there. Sonny wasn’t either. He was having great times with his girlfriend. You felt bad to bother him but you decided to call Rafael.

“y/n?” he answered after the second ring.

“Rafael, am I bothering you?” you asked, heavily breathing.

“Never, are you okay? I can hear you suffocated,” he got worried even more when he heard you sniffled.

“I’m fine-can you- can you just talk to me, please?”

“Y/N, tell me where you are, I’m on my way,”

He did as he said, Rafael arrived shortly after you called. He saw you sitting on a bench, in the middle of a park, knees up and head buried in them. He ran to you and wrapped you in his arms. He felt you shaking against him, he heard you crying. He had no idea what to do at this very moment, comforting people isn’t one of his talents.

“Do you want me to call someone? Take you somewhere?” he asked.

“Can you just keep holding me, please?”

You seemed so helpless; it broke his heart.

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inevitablemoment · 2 years ago

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itscarisi · 3 years ago

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We had a Rollins scene with a shirtless Amaro watching TV…where’s our at home Carisi moments??

I’m trying this whole patience thing but I’m not very good at it. I need my Rollisi fix 🥺

✨ Preferably with these lil smirks ✨

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cherylmontgomery · 3 years ago

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Jesse: Uncle Sonny, Billie has a question.

Carisi: Sure Jessie, what is it?

Jesse: She wants to know if you’re her daddy…

Amanda: …

Carisi: …

Amanda: You tell your sister, if she has a question, she needs to come out here and ask it herself. OK?

Amanda: Dinner’s almost ready.

*Jesse runs out of the room*

Law and Order: Special Victims Unit 23x13 “If I Knew Then What I Know Now”

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garbagecanfics · 5 years ago

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Carisi x Reader: taking care of him when he’s sick (sfw)

A/N: kinda long, got a bit carried away but enjoy!

he was blowing his nose all night which kinda kept you up but who cares, “i feel bad he’s sick” you thought.

morning rolls around, you know he’s gonna fight you on going to work. you wake up to him getting dressed. which would be pretty sexy if he wasn’t also practically coughing up a lung.

“honey just stay home, you are way too sick to go in.”

“nah doll it’s ok, it’s probably just gonna be paperwork today which I can manage.”

“please just stay home, so I can take care of you.”

“no please don’t guilt me into staying home, i really need to get stuff done. I'm not even that sick.” famous last words.

“ok, but promise me if you get worse you come home, I know it’s just a cold, but you need to rest. make sure to drink lots of water.”

“alright, alright i gotta go. I should be home for dinner, if you want I can pick up some chinese on the way home from the place that you like?”

“you are too good to me, sonny carisi”

“I know doll, you deserve it. love ya bye!” right after he left you called your friend Barba.

“hey raf I was wondering if I could ask your mom for a favor?”

“weird way to start this call, but shoot.”

“sonny’s kinda sick and your mother's soup is incredible. the first time I had it, I was cured of things I didn't even know I had. I wanted to get some for sonny since he insisted on going to work today. is that alright?”

“yes of course. it just so happens I'm going to see her before I head into the office, I will ask her. anything else?”

“no that’s it, thank you so much raf. if you have time sometime later this week I would love to go out for drinks, we haven’t gone out in a while.”

“after this case, liv just called me. we’ll have to see.”

“ok thanks again i gotta go, love you raf. go solve that case and kick ass in court!”

“always Y/N. bye.”

You get dressed and go to the store. grabbing some cough syrup, cough drops, more tissues, herbal tea, honey, vaporub, bottled water, thermometer, tylenol and a toothbrush (to use when he’s not sick, so he can throw out the one he used while he was sick). you think “it’s insane we didn’t already have this stuff but it is what it is I guess. I hope he’s ok at work.” you laugh to yourself at the idea of him accidentally sneezing on his computer at work. you check out, get in the car and head home. as you’re driving you get a call from a number you don’t recognize. when you put everything you bought away you called it back. turns out it was Lucia, Rafael’s mom. turns out the soup was done. Raf gave her your number to call because he was too busy at work. You went over to her place and as soon as you stepped into the threshold you could smell the soup. it was going to take all of your self restraint to not eat it. you had to keep reminding yourself “its for sonny”. after you and lucia caught up you headed out, soup in hand. when you got back home you debated bringing the soup to the precinct for sonny since it’s almost lunch, but your train of thought got interuppted by sonny himself knocking and stumbling through the door.

“what happened, tough guy?” you asked mockingly. he smiled back sarcastically.

“i’m fine, lieu just sent me home. apparently I was bothering everyone with my nose blowing so she made me leave.” you tried so hard not to laugh, but you couldn’t help but laugh a little. “yeah, yeah laugh it up. so funny.” you stopped when you saw how actually hurt sonny was. cupping his face in your hand, you tried to get a smile out of him, but he was just too tired.

“I got you some stuff today that I think you’ll like.” he perked up really quick at that. he always loved surprises and presents no matter what they were.

“what did you get, doll?”

“just some stuff to help with your cold, including but not limited to: Lucia’s famous soup.” you could almost see his mouth start watering.

“you are too good to me doll.”

“i know.” luckily it was still pretty warm so you put some in a bowl for him and he almost inhaled it.

“relax sweetheart, no one’s gonna take it away. make sure to breathe.”

“i didn’t realize how hungry i was until I started. can I have some more? please?” he responded with food still in his mouth, almost begging.

“of course you can. how are you feeling?” he just shrugged off your question.

“dominick carisi jr. tell me how you’re feeling please, then you get your soup.” he looked almost dazed at the demand. he finally spilled and said he felt hot. it’s january. the apartment is pretty cold. you handed him the bowl of soup and he ate it almost as fast if not faster than the first. after he finished you helped him undress and into a shower. when he’s sick he’s not good at doing things so you got in the shower with him otherwise he’d just stand under the water until it went cold. not only that, you liked the closeness of him being sick brought you two. having to take care of him was nice and easy. you started by pulling him under the stream of water to wet his hair so you could wash it out. he was happily humming as you massaged his scalp with shampoo trying very carefully to not get it in his eyes as you also rinsed it out. after all the shampoo was out you put in conditioner to sit as you washed his body. surprisingly he didn’t get a boner the whole time. you had him rinse off his body as you did his hair. you dried him and yourself off when you got out. you picked out your favorite pajamas on him: one of his fordham law t-shirts (that you haven’t stolen) and flannel sweatpants.

“actually take off your t-shirt.” you expected him to ask why but he didn’t.

“ok, im still pretty warm.”

“i got you some vaporub today so i’ll put some of that on your chest, if you don’t protest?”

“no that sounds good actually.” you both walk to the living room, you go to the kitchen to start the kettle to make tea and grab the stuff you bought. after starting the kettle you brought the bag into the livingroom.

“what’s all this doll?”

“just some things I picked up from the store today to help you out.”

you handed him the water and tylenol since he had a headache. turns out he didn’t drink water all day (big surprise). after he took the tylenol you took his temperature: 99º not bad. you pulled out the vaporub and scooped some out and put it on his exposed chest. he winced at first at the cold feeling, but eased into it after a few circles.

“i think you might be going a bit overboard Y/N” he remarked as you pulled out cough syrup and tissues.

“please just let me take care of you, I love you.”

“ok fine, but please relax a little. I love you too but you’re stressin me out a bit.”

“alright I’ll relax, I just want you to get better. it sounds selfish, but I want you to get better so I can kiss you.” as you finish he attempts to kiss you, but you put your hand up. “no no no, I’m not getting sick too.”

“aw come on doll i just want one kiss”

“i’ll kiss your cheek. is that a deal?”

“fine.” somewhat sulking he accepts the deal as the kettle goes off. you get up to go finish making his tea and bring it back for him setting it on the coffee table.

“what do you wanna watch babe?”

“anything you want doll i’m pretty tired. maybe……..” he mumbles something that you don’t quite catch.

“maybe what honey? i can’t hear you when you mumble.”

“maybe one of your disney movies?”

“you wanna watch a disney movie? you, dominick carisi jr? ok I won’t argue, but who are you and what have you done with my sunshine?” he slightly chuckles.

“sunshine? you’ve never called me that before doll?”

“sunshine because your the light of my life and play on of your name sonny. s o n n s h i n e, sunshine.”

“ah clever doll, i like it. I love you so much.”

“love you too” you look around for a disney stumbling upon hercules and pop it into the dvd player. you crawl between sonnys legs and lay your head on his chest, careful to not hit his crotch while pulling up a blanket. he falls asleep after 20 minutes of the movie. probably the cough syrup. after the movie finished you just stayed, laying and admiring him. your sleeping beauty. you fell asleep after a bit.

“hey doll” he murmered drowsily. you woke up to the sound of his staten island drone.

“hey honey how did you sleep?”

“pretty good, what time is it? you checked your phone.

“almost 5pm. ready for dinner?”

“yeah i can’t wait for more soup.” you get up slowly to not hurt him and stumble into the kitchen to reheat the soup, pulling down two bowls for you and sonny.

“sit up honey it’s pretty warm and I don’t want you to dump it down your chest.”

“ok fine.” after he sat up you gave him his soup. he once again inhaled it. god could this man eat. you sit down next to him to eat your bowl. after he finished you forced him once again to take cough medicine, drink water, and take some tylenol. he said he felt a bit better than earlier. after you finished you got up to reheat him another bowl. he didn’t ask for one but he didn’t have to. his face filled with pure glee when you returned with more. after finishing once again you both laid back down and watched more tv. he somehow stayed awake to binge all of the new stranger things episodes. after it finished you had to practically drag him to bed. it was hard since he had the height advantage, but with some convincing he got into bed. after a few minutes of laying on his chest you heard his heartbeat slow, knowing he was asleep and comfortable you moved over to your side to give him some space. somehow he felt you move and pulled you back. in the morning you woke up in his arms, him spooning you, feeling happy and safe.

@sweetcannolicarisi

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am-i-right-counselor · 7 years ago

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Somebody Else

Title: Somebody Else Pairings: Sonny Carisi/Reader Word Count: 2178 Summary: You and Sonny Carisi were friends…at least you thought so until a few weeks ago. Notes: I’ve been working on this for awhile! A big thank you to @carisiismyhomeboy and @of-salt-and-moon for all their help with this one. Read it on Ao3!

Nothing could take the smile off of your face. Not today. You were on your way to meet Sonny for lunch. You were actually on the way to his precinct since he’d been working really hard on a tough case lately. It was the only time he could see you this week, and you needed to see him. Needed to talk about what happened, and more importantly, why it happened.

Over the past few weeks your friendship had taken a turn. The two of you were always pretty close as friends. Not exactly best friends, but close. You didn’t need to see each other and hang out, but you would trust Sonny with anything. Sonny assured you of the same. The two of you had a rhythm, and it was enough for you. At least until two weeks ago.

Sonny had invited you out with the squad. You were supposed to just go out for dinner, but they had just won a major case and were going out to celebrate. He had never invited you out with them before–your hangouts were mostly one-on-one. You were intrigued. Sonny had told you so much about them, it would be great to finally put faces to all the names. Besides, you hadn’t had a night out in awhile, you needed to unwind.

The night itself was pretty fun. You got along well with the squad, but that was no surprise. You had heard so much about them, it was like you knew them already. Still, it was nice to hear all the stories about Noah and Jessie from Liv and Rollins. Fin and Barba were great too, they were even more hilarious than you had imagined. Throughout the night you had caught Sonny staring at you just a little too long. It was here and there, but it was lingering for sure. You hadn’t thought anything of it, but he had definitely not looked at you that way before. The time went by quickly, and soon it was just you and Sonny left at the bar.

Now that it was just the two of you, you felt that easy silence you often shared. You rested your head on his shoulder. He had his arm around you, lightly stroking your arm. You were extremely comfortable cuddled up against him. The alcohol had taken its’ effect, but you wouldn’t have felt this at ease if it wasn’t Sonny. Pulling away slightly, you broke the silence first.

“It’s getting late, we should probably go home.”

Sonny didn’t say anything. His piercing blue eyes were locked with yours. Time seemed to stand still. In one smooth movement his hand cupped your face and his lips came crashing over yours. You were caught off guard, but you kissed him back. His tongue danced over your lips, inviting you to kiss him deeper. Sonny’s hands found their way to the hem of your shirt, tugging ever so lightly at it. As quick as it started, it stopped, Sonny moved back slightly. You were suddenly hyper-aware that you were in public. This time it was Sonny that spoke first.

“That was…” He ran his hand through his hair. You backed up a little further.

“Yeah…” You nodded and grabbed your purse. “We should get going…”

Sonny cleared his throat.

“Yeah, yeah, definitely.”

The two of you left the bar and made your own ways home, not speaking about what happened. Something had definitely changed between you two.

Since that night, all you could think about was what happened. A drunken makeout is a drunken makeout, but that was something else. The looks he gave you. The feel of his lips against yours. These thoughts came rushing through your mind. You had never really thought of Sonny in that way before, but had he thought of you that way?

Yes, he was pretty attractive, but that wasn’t what you admired about him. His heart and humanity despite seeing the worst in people all day–that was what you liked about him. Yet now… could he be something more than just your close friend?

It had been on your mind for weeks. Trying to think of examples of his intentions was starting to stress you out. It was past the border of over-thinking, but instead of going over every major moment between you two, you were determined to find some answers today. Not talking about it was not working for you, and you were planning on bringing it up today at lunch. Maybe even try and find out how he actually felt about you.

So lost in your thoughts, you didn’t see Rollins until you walked right into her on the precinct steps.

“Whoa, watch it there, girl!” Rollins laughed, and you couldn’t help but laugh yourself. “What’re you doing here?”

“I am so sorry, Amanda! I didn’t see you there!” Thankfully, you hadn’t dropped your food. “I’m meeting Sonny for lunch!”

“It’s alright! I’ll forgive you if you leave me some of that.” She pointed to your food. You grinned.

“I’ll leave you a plate at your desk!” You winked as you walked up the rest of the steps into the precinct.

Nervousness crept over you, but you shook it off as you walked towards Sonny’s desk. He smiled at you, looking exhausted. It was no surprise, he had mentioned working late hours on this particularly tough case lately, but it was nice to know he still could spare a smile for you. You placed the bag on the table.

“Veal parm sandwich! Just like you ordered!” “Thanks Doll, you’re the best! I hope you don’t mind eating here.” Sonny pulled you into a hug. His hugs were always comforting, his strong chest and arms never failed to make you feel at home.

Without meaning to, you took in his scent for the first time. It’s like you’ve always known his scent, but you’d never really paid attention. That faint hint of sweat mingled in with cedarwood and bergamot. You sat down at his desk.

“Of course I don’t mind. It’s nice to see where you work,” You pulled out the sandwiches and set them up. “Besides, you need to eat.” Sonny took a big bite out of his sandwich.

“Doll, I could always eat.” Or at least that’s what you thought you heard, it was hard to decipher Sonny when he had his mouth full.

It was a good thing that you had food, because trying to find an opening to bring up your feelings was hard. You let Sonny take the lead with the conversation; him talking about his workload was better than the inevitable word vomit you were going to unleash on him. Besides, it was nice to take in the details of Sonny eating. It’s like you had never seen him eat before. Even the way he wiped the corners of his mouth after every few bites seemed endearing to you. The last bites of your sandwich remained, and you still hadn’t said anything of what you had wanted.

Swirling your straw in your soda, you were about to say something when Sonny let out a huge burp. The two of you burst out into laughter so loud, you were surprised no one told you to shut up. You did catch Fin rolling his eyes at you in your peripheral. You hadn’t laughed that hard in a long time, tears were coming out of your eyes. Suddenly, Sonny’s laughter stopped. It was so abrupt, it snapped you out of your own laughter. He was looking towards the elevator.

“Wha–” you started to say, until you saw Sonny’s face. It was enough to stop you, not that you thought he had heard you, the way he was gazing. His face lit right up, in a way not even the sun could. His eyes softened. He simultaneously looked so serious and handsome. You couldn’t help but stare at him, though it was as if you didn’t exist.

A well-dressed woman in a black trench coat was walking into the precinct. Her hair was perfectly pulled back into a plait, not a single one out of place. She had her hands in her pockets as she walked towards Sonny’s desk. All of his attention was on her. Wordlessly, he brushed by you and went towards her.

He pulled her into his arms, and placed a kiss on her forehead. Your heart sank right into your stomach. You were frozen in place, yet you wanted to be any place but here. All those weeks of agonizing how you had felt, how he had felt, yet clearly, however he felt for you, it wasn’t anything like he seemed to feel for this woman.

You knew you had to get out of there. Hastily, you gathered your things, not bothering to even throw out the garbage from your lunch. You couldn’t move faster if you had wanted to, and tried to avoid Sonny and his ‘friend.’ You got inside the elevator, but Sonny must have seen you because you could hear him calling after you.

“Wait! Wait!”

Thankfully, the elevator had closed in front of you before Sonny could get in. You felt yourself relax a little bit, but the tears were already starting to form. You weren’t sure what you were feeling exactly. Was it rage? Was it sadness? Either way, the tears were the only things that made sense.

As soon as the doors opened on the main floor, you shot out like a bat out of hell. You didn’t even see Sonny until you were down the steps and outside. You thought you had escaped him. He must have taken the stairs, damn his long legs. His hair was dishevelled, and there was a sheen on his forehead from the sweat.

“Stop! Stop!” he yelled out.

You bit down on your lip hard and tried to will the tears away. Sonny had caught up to you and placed a hand on your shoulder.

“Hey, you okay?” Bracing yourself, you turned around.

“I’m fine, Sonny.” He saw the tears in your eyes and furrowed his brows.

“Obviously not, Doll.” Sonny seemed concerned. “Why’d you leave without saying goodbye?”

Something had snapped within you.

“I didn’t think you’d notice if I left.” Stop, stop, stop. “You seemed preoccupied.” Too late.

“What? Of course I’d notice if you left! Why wouldn’t I?” He seemed genuinely confused.

“Why wouldn’t you? I don’t know, Sonny. You basically ignored me right when she walked in.” Your voice was laced with venom, but you couldn’t help yourself. That seemed to set him off.

“What does she have to do with anything?!” He crossed his arms. His stance seemed awfully defensive for someone so confused.

“All I know is that one moment we were having a nice lunch, and the next moment it’s like I’m not even there!” You didn’t mean to sound so argumentative, but the words were flowing out.

“She’s just a friend!” He was shifting his weight from foot to foot, his arms still crossed tight.

“Friends. Sure. Right. Okay, then what are we?” Oh, here we go, you thought to yourself.

“We’re friends too!” He scoffed. “Jeez, I thought you knew that?” His tone was incredulous. That answers that.

“I did… until you stuck your tongue down my throat a few weeks ago!” There. You said it. It was out there. You could see the gears turning in his head, but they clearly weren’t producing anything.

“That? We were drunk! That meant nothing!” You weren’t sure if he was trying to convince himself of that, or you. You pressed your lips into a tight line.

“Real nice, detective. You tell that to all the drunk victims that walk through those doors? ‘You were drunk! It meant nothing!’?” That was much meaner than you had intended; this was bringing out the worst in you, and you didn’t care.

“No. Obviously not.” There was a flint of anger in his eyes. “I think you’re blowing this a little out of proportion. It wasn’t my finest moment, but I thought we were on the same page.”

“No Sonny. We are not. I’m not the one that made the first move. I’m not the one that was staring at me all night. I guess I am the fool who thought that maybe you had felt something more for me.”

The tears had started to spill out at that moment. They weren’t tears of sadness, rather, they were tears of rage. Rage at yourself for all those weeks you had spent over analyzing what now seemed to be absolutely nothing. Rage at not saying anything sooner, or for stopping his advances all together. Rage, rightly or wrongly, at Sonny for being so flippant about this whole thing.

Sonny reached out to touch you, but you flinched back.

“Don’t touch me. Not now, not ever.”

You turned around and started walking away. A small part of you hoped that he would follow you, but you knew he wouldn’t. So you continued on, walking away from Sonny Carisi.

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Please Don't Leave Me (Barisi)

I'll have you know I only cried for 90% of the story while writing this. My heart is shattered. Read at your own risk.

Rafael and Sonny were like any other couple, besides the fact they both worked for NYPD. Rafael was so nervous when he asked Sonny to dinner on their first date which really threw Sonny off. That's right, Mister 'I play by the books in court' was nervous to ask his crush on a date.

The two kept their relationship quiet from the squad, but not as long as the ADA hoped. Sonny had rolled into work fifteen minutes late one day with hickeys all over his neck. When Amanda asked her partner about it, Sonny simply mumbled, "Fucking Raf. Like we're teenagers again." Amanda didn't know what she was more surprised about: hearing the goody two shoes Catholic boy swearing or hearing that he had sexual relationships with Barba.

Even though Amanda said she wouldn't say anything, she told Fin. Fin had already made fun of Sonny for the hickeys and began to tease Sonny about his relationship with Barba. By the time Barba showed up to talk about their current case, everyone including Liv knew about Sonny and Rafael's relationship. Annoyed about the questions about Sonny's hickeys, Rafael blurted out, 'Oh my God, shut the fuck up about my boyfriends hickeys. So we have sex, it's what couples do!' before returning to the discussion about the case.

It was a few weeks since that incident and they were all in court. The perp was in trial for sex trafficking of several kidnapped minors. Even though his DA knew he was guilty, she defended him the best to her ability. It was Rafael's turn to began questioning the perp. Without any flaws, the ADA tore the male apart. The perp was angry as he was returned to his seat. So angry that he managed to get a gun from the guard, shoot him dead before aiming the gun at Barba.

Barba stood there, frozen like a statue. Even when he heard the gun shot, he just stood there. He tried to force his body to move to the side or even duck, but he couldn't. He didn't register what had happened until the body that jumped in front of him fell to the ground. The perp was quickly tackled by a few officers, disarmed and handcuffed. Olivia was calling a bus to the courthouse as Barba looked down.

He stared in shock, as a few tears threatening his eyes, down at his boyfriend. Sonny was clutching his chest where the bullet had hit him. The rush of adrenaline finally hit Rafael as he tore his jacket off him and applied pressure to his boyfriend. People were talking around the two but Rafael heard nothing. He kept his green eyes connected to his lovers blue ones. Sonny chuckled some as he weakly held his hand against his boyfriends cheek.

"You took a bullet for me, why?" Rafael finally spoke, it not being any louder thank a whisper. Sonny chuckled and coughed some, blood coming out.

"I'm a cop, it's my duty to keep the people safe, Raf." Sonny told his boyfriend, his voice being no louder than Rafael's when he spoke. A few tears had managed to fall from Rafael's eyes.

"Y-you're an idiot, you know? Jumping in front of that god damn bullet. To save my sorry ass?" Rafael spoke to the other male. Sonny just chuckled as his eyes grew heavy.

"Babe, I-I'm not feeling too good." Sonny mumbled. Rafael moved his face closer to Sonny so he could hear him better.

"Just stay with me, Carisi. The ambulance is almost here." Rafael said as the faint sound of the siren was heard. Sonny's hand on Rafael's cheek moved. Sonny placed his hands on top of Rafael's hands and he held them as tightly as he could.

"Rafael, I just want you to know something if I don't make it." Sonny had said. Somehow, the male knew the if was a complete lie. Deep down, Rafael knew that, too.

"You can tell me anything, Sonny." Rafael said. A smile moved over the detectives lips. It was rare he heard his boyfriend call him by his nickname. It was always Carisi, every so often Barba would call him Dominick.

"Rafael, I just want you to know I love you." Sonny managed to say after a few moments of silence between the couple. A smile moved over Rafael's lips as he leaned down and pressed his forehead against his lovers.

"I love you, too, Dominick." Rafael said as he pressed his lips against Sonny's lips.

The kiss was nothing like one the two have shared in the past. It was slow and full of so much love and emotion. When Rafael had pulled away from the kiss, he didn't realize that his lover had his eyes closed and his chest was no longer rising or falling. Fear ran through the male's body as he realize what had happened.

"No... no, Dominick, wake up. P-please don't do this to me! God dammit, Dominick!" Rafael began shouting. It had caused both Amanda and Olivia to finally give their attention to the ADA. They kept looking and waiting for the EMTs to show up that they didn't realize Sonny's life was on the line.

The sight of seeing the all powerful Rafael Barba shattered, absolutely broke Amanda. She sat down on the bench and began to sob. She had just lost her partner and best friend. Olivia stood there and tried her best to keep it together, but it didn't work. She had turned to Fin and began to cry into his chest. Fin stood there and watched the entire scene, shedding only a few tears.

-- One week later --

The funeral for Detective Dominick Carisi Jr was extremely emotional. Sonny's mom was a crying mess along with his youngest sister, Bella. Amanda stood next to Olivia, who was standing next to Barba. Barba had taken the death of his boyfriend extremely hard, having to go to therapy. Olivia had suggested her therapist, whom has helped her through a lot since the whole William Lewis case.

It was well after they put the male to rest that Barba had left. He was there with Olivia, Amanda and Fin who refused to leave his side. The SVU squad were his best friends, and they all really needed each other after what happened. The four of them went to the closest bar to try to forget about what happened. No one could deal with the death of Sonny, not even Fin. The small group sat at the table in silence before Amanda sighed.

"Y'know, I'm going to miss him bringing us Cannoli's every Tuesday." Amanda had finally spoken. Fin and Olivia chuckled and quickly nodded.

"When I brought him onboard, I was skeptical. One of the best damn detectives I've worked with other the years." Olivia had spoken. Barba had slowly looked up from his scotch and slowly raised it.

"To Sonny." Rafael had spoke to the small group. They all raised their glasses, clinked them together, before taking a sip. Rafael knew he would be alright eventually.

Rafael, though, could never get the thought of Sonny off his mind. The only man he would ever love, saved his life. He literally jumped in front of him and took a bullet. If that wasn't true love, then I don't know what to tell you...

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