#Did anyone else find this weirdly romantic?

[oprahwinfreyjrjr]

Awww… I just noticed that Kimiko was wearing Frenchie’s jacket after he sawed off her leg. 🥹

[hexhomos]

little random but i really appreciate your dissections and analysis of Mel mainly bc the fandom either adore her and won't admit she is a flawed character and get over defensive when you call her out, or straight up hate her and make her out to be completely evil.

Mel is written as morally grey for a reason and when ppl try to act like she was morally correct in everything she did, it goes against the whole plot. yes, she regrets most of her actions by the end of the series and is left to deal with her family's leagacy and the weight of her actions, but that doesn't undo anything she did. and her eventually starting to care about Jayce doesn't just cancel out that she manipulated him (you'd think this would be obvious)

what bothers me the most i think is meljay shippers who say Jayce mistreated her and that Mel only ever helped and care about him and aided him in rising to power politically, and how she was so understanding of Jayce's and Viktor's friendship. yes, encouraging methods of political corruption in order to gain more power is so caring and kind of her! ❤️

Mel might've told Jayce to go spend time with Viktor after finding out he was ill, but the one time in the show she interacted with Viktor was... prejudiced to say the least. she never directly spoke to or answered Viktor, and the expression on her face any time she looked over at Viktor was so clearly full of dislike. it shocks me ppl still believe Mel and Viktor could get along and respect one another, especially romantically. no way.

anyways, sorry for the rant. just tired of how many bad takes there are in this fandom and very fond of your account lol

you are right and you SHOULD say it re: that oft repeated argument about her "only wanting what's best for him" bothers me so much. Its just... weirdly patronizing and spousing pro-piltover nationalism every time i see it being brought up. "She's doing what anyone would do/what is best for the city!" IDK MAN I AM NOT ROCKING WITH THAT. Im not an ubercapitalist. I don't think any of that was the good option actually lol. Probably I hate piltover too much to humor these arguments but from day 1 we are shown this is a city of immense class inequality in which the elite few holds all the power and all the profit gains at the cost of everyone else's submission and humanity. (Not for nothing: these are also the classic old guard Noxian tenets of supremacy. That's how they do colonization.)

The interactions Mel has with Jayce for majority of the series, before she watches that bomb come in and has her rapid onset change of heart, are her talking about how investors want his work and how she can use his discovery to advance this city (which is already built on exploitation!) or instigating his rise to power as a new ringleader for the council's rigged mercantile operations, and this is just not good or heroic in any way to me. This isn't love either, it's industrial convenience. The fact that she's conflicted by the end doesn't cancel these actions out! Jayce realizes that he's been used in ways he strongly disagrees with and any the affection in that dynamic vanishes instantly. The time he spends in isolation replaying his mistakes in that cave has an emphasis on mel/heimerdinger's voice on the council too, all of his regrets with blindly following someone else's vision or disappointing an idol he held in high regards.

And Jayce DOES care about the state of the cities, or he did before the writers forgot: He's the one who pleads for Zaun's independence at the end of season 1! He's the one who spent all his life trying to work towards improving the lives of common people, giving them the miracles they've been denied!

Viktor is a fucking nobody. He is extremely worthless in the eyes of the piltovan upper crust, only kept around on the merits working with Jayce have afforded him; and they still don't care. They're probably hoping he dies quicker. We *SEE* him being singled out and alienated during that weapons discussion where Mel is pleading for Jayce to think about "protecting his people" (only piltovans, never, ever zaunites- protecting piltovans against the zaunite menace.) and Viktor is set off at that whole exchange because it doesn't matter how loud he screams, these people can just tune him off and pretend he doesn't exist anyway. It's what they're used to doing. It drives me insane!!!!! His indignation is extremely under-explored and very inline with his act1 speech of feeling like an undesirable presence in piltover and having to push through with the grit of his teeth. It's open faced classism and I still see people pretending it didn't happen. Fandom makes all of these characters FAR less interesting by defanging them. The heart is in the friction and in the ugliness of them fucking up because they have very, very different conceptions of "utopia" - and some of those utopias require the death of the other characters present.

A lot of the Arcane character arcs have to do with realizing the above, and weighing if the sacrifice is worth the risk. Sometimes it turns out their utopias were shit.

[luv-lock]

⸻ ʙ ʟ ᴏ ᴏ ᴅ ʏ ʜ ᴇ ᴀ ʀ ᴛ ⸻

Pairing: Wade Wilson x Fem Reader

Headcanon: how would he be when he's obsessed?

Note: English is not my first language. Hope you enjoy!

Wade notices you during a routine grocery run, of all places. You’re just minding your own business, deciding between two brands of pasta, when you laugh softly at a joke the store clerk makes. That laugh? It’s like Cupid’s arrow. Except Cupid’s been replaced by Deadpool, and instead of an arrow, he’s throwing knives.

At first, Wade convinces himself it’s just a harmless crush. "She’s just a cute, innocent civilian! Nothing to see here, folks!" But then you smile at him one day when he’s pretending to be lost in the store (he’s not lost, he’s following you), and that smile? Yeah, it’s burned into his brain like a bad tattoo. It’s over for him.

Obsession kicks in faster than a chimichanga order at his favorite food truck. Wade starts shadowing you. He calls it "protective surveillance." Others might call it stalking. To him, it’s romantic. He knows where you work, your favorite coffee order, your pet’s name, and, oh yeah, your emergency contact info because he’s totally hacked into your phone. "It’s not creepy if it’s for love, right?"

Wade leaves little “gifts” for you. At first, it’s innocent: a bouquet of flowers mysteriously delivered to your desk at work, with a card signed “Your Secret Admirer xoxo.” Then it escalates: tickets to your favorite band (how does he know??), a sweater in your exact size, and, uh…a suspiciously clean skull with a note: "He was thinking bad things about you. You’re welcome. Love, Wade. P.S. Hope you like bone décor!"

When you finally meet him in full Deadpool gear (because of course he crashes your evening walk to "rescue" you from a totally harmless raccoon), Wade is… well, Wade. He’s charming in that over-the-top, inappropriate way. He cracks jokes faster than you can process them, and you can’t decide if he’s insane, hilarious, or terrifying. (Spoiler: He’s all three.)

Wade doesn’t see himself as a villain in your story. He sees himself as your knight in bloody armor. He’s convinced the world is full of people who don’t appreciate you the way he does. He’s not above breaking into your apartment to leave notes of affirmation or making you dinner (which you find out about when you come home to a table set with candles and a smug Deadpool sitting in your chair). "I’m like Martha Stewart, but hotter, funnier, and with a body count!"

He adores you. Like, worships the ground you walk on. You are, in Wade’s mind, the single greatest thing that’s ever happened in his miserable life. He talks to himself (breaking fourth wall) about you constantly—sometimes out loud, even in public. "Did you see her today? She wore that cute little sweater I like. God, I’d kill for her. Wait, I already did! Add another tally to the scoreboard, baby!"

Wade is insanely jealous. He doesn’t see you as property, exactly—more like a priceless artifact that no one else should touch. If anyone flirts with you, they’re immediately labeled as “a problem.” And Wade? Wade solves problems. Permanently. Sometimes with a grenade.

Despite his insanity, Wade genuinely tries to make you happy. He tones down the murder (a little) when you make it clear you’re not into the whole “blood and guts” thing. He’ll still threaten anyone who looks at you wrong, but hey, progress, right?

Wade's softer side shines through in quiet moments. He’ll hold you close when you’re upset, whispering (weirdly comforting) jokes in your ear. He’ll memorize all your favorite things, so he can surprise you with them when you’ve had a bad day. He may be psychotic, but his love is as real as it gets.

But make no mistake: Wade will do anything to keep you by his side. He’ll manipulate, scheme, and murder his way through any obstacle standing between you and "happily ever after." And if you ever tried to leave him? Oh, honey. Don’t even think about it. "We’re meant to be together, Y/N. Like peanut butter and jelly. Like chimichangas and guac. Like…me and you. Forever. Whether you like it or not."

Obsessed Wade is intense. He’s equal parts terrifying and oddly endearing, which makes him a constant rollercoaster of chaos. At the end of the day, his love is as messy and unpredictable as he is—but hey, at least he’ll make sure you’re never bored.

𝒍𝒖𝒗-𝒍𝒐𝒄𝒌 ☆ 𝒅𝒐𝒏'𝒕 𝒄𝒐𝒑𝒚, 𝒕𝒓𝒂𝒏𝒔𝒍𝒂𝒕𝒆 𝒐𝒓 𝒖𝒔𝒆 𝒂𝒏𝒚 𝒐𝒇 𝒎𝒚 𝒘𝒐𝒓𝒌𝒔 𝒉𝒆𝒓𝒆 𝒐𝒓 𝒂𝒏𝒚 𝒐𝒕𝒉𝒆𝒓 𝒘𝒆𝒃𝒔𝒊𝒕𝒆𝒔.

[jinxs-gf]

songs explain what I can’t.

best friend!jinx x musician!reader

summary: you’re writing a song to confess your feelings to your best friend. only it does the opposite and your best friend believes her feelings for you are unrequited.

content, warnings: pics have nothing to do w readers appearance. modern au, reader is in a band, slight misunderstanding

word count: 1.1k

a.n. another request!! thank you <3

Jinx watches as you announce a newly written song. You seem more nervous and jittery than you'd usually be when performing a new project for the first time. It makes Jinx anxious for you, wishing she could soothe away your clear distress. Only you wouldn't let her.

For the past few months you'd been trying to make the perfect song. At least that's what it felt like to her. You shut her down every time she asked about it.

Her best friend subtly pushed her away. And it was tearing her apart.

You were—are everything to her. She’s never loved someone as strongly as she loves you. Never been loved as strongly as you love her. Though you two feel different types of love. Yours more platonic compared to hers…

You two shared everything with each other. Secrets that hadn’t been uttered to anyone else, delicate touches and words of intimacy.

Jinx wasn’t sure where the line was between platonic and romantic. A friend and a partner.

She’s never truly had anyone that filled both those categories. So how was she supposed to know how to distinguish the two?

She came to the conclusion that your actions were merely platonic, convincing herself that no one could ever really like—love her enough to want something more.

And she was okay with that (not really).

The song you’re presenting a sound she hasn't heard before, at least not from you. It was softer and sweeter than your usual punk-rockish sound. And in another life she'd love it. But in this one?

Jinx hears the song and gets...sad. Because there's a name in there and it isn't hers. you're singing about being in love with a woman that isn't jinx. And now she isn't sure what to feel. What to think. Because-

She convinced herself that she was just fine with you thinking of her as a friend. But the song was about falling in love with a close friend. It seemed like a clear homage to your friendship. It sounded like it was a song written about her. Blue hair described and all. And it references moments only the two of you have shared. Yet you sing another name.

Why would you hide this from her? Why wouldn’t you let her in on this person? Why why why…

Jinx would praise you and claim to love the song once it was over. Your routine after a performance was to run to her and engulf her in a big hug. Pouring all your adrenaline into the arms of your best friend. A hug that was oh so welcomed.

Her tattooed arms would squeeze you, while she hung onto the cloud of your affection and scent. A scent she’d admit she was probably weirdly obsessed with…

While you talked her ear off about how amazing the audience made you feel. Jinx loved listening to your post-performance talk sessions.

Every damn time without fail.

She’s not sure she can handle you going into detail about this new song though. It would surely break her. It’s okay, she reassures herself. Just try. Try to be supportive about this. Like you always do.

She holds her breath the moment the set is over. And as expected, you run down the stage and straight to her.

Except your hug feels less excited…

Was it because of the person you wrote about in your song? Have you been pulling away because of them?

“So…what did you think?”

Jinx responds, overly enthusiastic, “amazing! Just like always. You sure have a way with words.” And the last bit sounded bitter.

It left a bad taste in your mouth.

You wince, “really? Was it that bad?” You feel the need to explain yourself, “listen, I’m sorry I’ve been pulling away. But I needed the song to be good. I needed to get my point across and I didn’t want you to find out because it would ruin-”

Jinx is aware that the last thing you need right now is attitude, but finds herself rolling her eyes anyways. Your words make her feel like you know how she feels towards you, and that makes her feel exposed.

She grows defensive.

“Didn’t want me to find out because what? Any excuse you try to give me won’t be a good enough answer. You should’ve just told me about this girl you’re so infatuated with instead of keeping secrets.”

You gape at her, your band mates had awkwardly ushered the crowd away, sensing the tension before the argument even started.

“I- what girl? Jinx, the song is about you.”

“…What?”

“I know the song doesn’t explicitly name you, but I thought it was…obvious. I don’t know.”

The song was about falling in love with a close friend. That close friend being her. You were singing about her. You’re in love with her.

Well at least that’s been cleared up but…Jinx still feels defensive. If not a little offended.

"Why not? You don't want people to know you love me?"

"Of course I want people to! But I didn't want you to know. Up until now I thought we were just friends and that...that's all you wanted from me. I thought that y’know, this would be a cool confession. If you hated it I could just be like ‘hey no worries, the song isn’t about you anyways’.” You shrug helplessly.

"Silly goose. Of course I want you as more than a friend! What about the endless gifts I handmade? And how touchy-feely I am? That's all reserved specifically for you."

"Well I don't know how you are around your other friends!"

"I don't have other friends."

"Oh...how was I-"

She gives you no time to formulate a sentence. Usually you'd be annoyed at your best friend for interrupting you, but when she does it like this? By kissing you? Yeah you could get around to liking it.

And Jinx would normally be annoyed at your rambling only because she couldn't shut you up with a kiss. Yes she loved listening to you talk but sometimes you needed to slow down a bit.

And she could finally do that.

It was hungry, she refused to pull away. Allowing herself to practically eat you alive after all the pining she’s had to endure, thinking it was all one sided. It left your breathless, she seemed pretty keen on not letting you go.

You reluctantly pull away, trying to give yourself time to process everything. So much has happened in so little time.

She chases your lips, clearly not satisfied with the time she’s had with her lips on yours.

You give yourself about 5 seconds to cool off from the very dizzying kiss before you're rambling again.

"I don't exactly feel special anymore. I thought you chose to hang out with me because you loved me more than your other friends. Now-"

"Shut up," and she's kissing you again.

hey jinx lovers :P it’s good to be back

[bunnigumi]

can you do drabbles of best friend (fwb) gumi (*´-`) (i love ur work and aesthetic btw (´ｰ｀) )

cw. megumi x reader , friends with benefits , first time , possessiveness

an. i think i got carried away... i sooooo love this trope hehe. and thank you, nonnie! ^w^ (not carefully proofread)

Hey, 'Gumi, remember how I said you owe me one?

Fwb!Megumi isn't startled when you casually ask him if he can take your virginity.

Honestly, you were partially joking, but when he agrees with that static expression like you didn't just ask your best friend to be your first time, you're taken by surprise. You really didn't think he'd entertain your idea. Anticipating a huff, him brushing it off as a joke

You were expecting a more touch-and-go experience: He fucks you, you can claim you're no longer a virgin, and that's that. But he really takes the time to get you all worked up and desperate, telling you that your first should be your most memorable. It's just the rules.

And it was supposed to be a one time thing, you swear! But after that, nothing could get you off as good as he did.

Fwb!Megumi can't help the teasing smile on his expression when you tell him that you want to have sex again, Didn't realize we were friends with benefits now.

You can't even begin to explain how degrading it feels to go back on your own word, but you've been so pent up and had no one other than him to help... He seriously ruinied your ability to orgasm.

He teaches you the reins the second time around. How to touch him, The tip is the most sensitive. And tighten your grip, it's better. How to ride him, Fuck... yeah, that's it, letting go of your waist he leans back into the pillows, keep moving your hips like that.

It's way better than highschool sex-ed, that's for sure.

Fwb!Megumi is weirdly intimate—not that it's a bad thing. He's always had a romantic streak, even if he denies the fact.

It's in how he kisses you, not with hunger or pure lust. In the way he holds your hands and leaves marks on your neck that are hard to hide. Even if you whine about it, he'll still do it.

He has your other friends wondering who'd be giving them to you since you weren't in a relationship with anyone.

When you need a little cheering up, Fwb!Megumi starts offering a little more than just emotional support.

You're on your elbows and knees, back arched, face buried into his pillow. Avoiding his face so that he wouldn't have to see the makeup running down your own. Even though hes seen you in way worse states, somehow it's more embarrassing when he's inside you.

Your date had stood you up. Megumi knew how excited you were for it. Barging into his place, carrying tons of outfits in your arms. Showing them off. Asking him for his input, what you should wear. Which dress flaunts your body off best.

He told you that you'd look great in anything, but you urged that you should look perfect, and as your best friend, it's his obligation.

Fwb!Megumi likes to be a bit rough with you when you're sad like this. Feel-better-sex, as he jokes.

Tight enough with his grab on your hips to leave bruises, He finds that you forget about the pain better when you have a greater sensation to focus on. Dopamine's your favorite drug.

And he wont admit this either, but he's real possessive over you. As your best friend, he knows that you deserve more than the world.

Frankly, he likes the idea of keeping you all to himself; its practically why he agreed to your request in the first place.

He won't make you flip over so he can see your face while he fucks you missionary, but he really wants to see the pleasure wash over your face. To see how he can only make you feel good like this.

Pounding you from the back so hard that you forget the name of the douche who stood you up is good on it's own. Theres enough proof of his worth to you in how your cries are that of satisfaction, and not the kind caused by stupid boys who don't deserve to even look at you.

No one else should get to experience how your cunt tightens around him as your about to cum. Hear the way you moan out him name wantonly. See how you push back onto him when he tries to pull out, insisting that he stay inside you for just a little longer.

There's one more thing Fwb!Megumi won't tell you either; he really, really loves this arrangement.

[running-with-kn1ves]

Hi! What do you think would happen if there was a disease that turned people into yanderes and the reader is immune? So she’s the only sane one, which everyone around her falls in love (romantically and platonically) and turns obsessive?

Hrmm I'd like to take a different approach to this than the original *yandere apocolypse* of which I was thinking. Just wrote down some odd thoughts for this one!

Perhaps two thirds of the world has been inflicted with this specific disease-- making this new population become violent, deranged and utterly--obsessively, in love.

There's the beginning stages of violence and death of course, causing a great chunk of the world to go mad as some yanderes who must share a darling cannot do so. Celebrities, idols, and your local barista who's friends with everyone in town, are constantly in a tug of war battle between their yanderes.

But life seems to somewhat settle down. Everyone still functions as they would in society-- going to the bank and paying their taxes, remaining at their 9 to 5 jobs. But there are far more murders, laws are no longer followed; the daytime has become just as dangerous as the night.

Our dear reader, a cashier for a chain grocery store, has so blessedly not been affected by this newfound disease. They know their residence in a large city and with a social job would not leave them unharmed by this new change to the world. So, they begin to attend support groups for 'darlings,' the victims and (mostly) sane population that has been left. At first the other victims were people they had never seen before, seemingly innocent and normal people who just wanted to go on with their lives. They all seemed to lead a much harder living, with their unending stalkers and vicious pursuers that made them sob for hours as everyone else listened to their woes.

Reader had yet to be targeted, of which offers them a sliver of relief-- until they fear perhaps they have been affected by the disease. But their life continues, without any impulse or desire to snatch anyone up, and without any stalkers or murderers on their trail. Life is almost, weirdly, normal.

They don't watch the news anymore, they go home before it gets dark, and refuse to take any extra shifts with anyone who's been affected by the outbreak. They continue to go to the meetings, out of solidarity and precaution in case they begin to hear footsteps behind them when walking from home or find eyes peeping behind their curtains. However, the support group seemed to have slowly begun to change. Its regular members were beginning to dwindle, less and less showing up regularly. And, there seemed to be an addition of.... hostility, amongst the newer members.

The support group "leader", a man who has thrown reader off since day one, seemed to be far more invested in hearing their experiences with these "attackers" as he called them. As was everyone else, of which were slowly becoming vaguely familiar faces. Not familiar enough to mention it, but to the point where it was beginning to get eerie.

It wasn't until they went to their next shift for work, did they realize why everyone seemed so odd. Customer after customer came up, all purchasing odds and ends that could be suspicious if one paid close enough attention. But all that reader could focus on, was how the eyes of each person seemed to linger upon them, taking notice of their loose work shirt and unkempt hair. It was a common sound to hear heavy breathing from the other side of the counter, odd compliments on how beautiful their eyes were, or deafening silence from customers that didn't utter a word but stared in complete captivity. The next support group meeting, those nameless faces seemed to be far more recognizable. At this point, the original members of which reader had originally met, were nowehere to be found. All that remained, were the uncomfortably familiar customers, and the oddly charismatic leader.

Every eye seemed to be on them, each waiting for them to speak on their experience. But despite the creepy, lustful gazes and hateful glares at one another, there was some form of supportiveness that came from the group. They gave reassuring pats and squeezes, some getting a little handsier than others.

There were a few that reader recognized more than others: the silent, dark haired man that came to their register everyday, the businesswoman who always seemed to loosen her scowl once she saw them, and the couple who seemed a tad more than "friendly." Out of all of them though, reader felt the most reassurance from the group leader-- the man who seemed to dote on them like a parent would, though there was still fear over his constantly nagging questions and downward stare behind his glasses.

It was once reader decided to stop showing up to the increasingly more recent group sessions, did things start to turn sideways. There would constantly be a knock at the door, asking why they weren't there, if something was wrong, if a stalker had gotten to them. But it wasnt until recently did they feel they were being watched, followed, stalked.

Things started to go missing, from their favorite pair of underwear to little knickknacks kept on their desk. Reader had never felt the effects of the disease and its victims, but ever since the uncomfortable shift in the support group, life hadn't been the same.

One fateful afternoon, there came another series of knocks. Reader couldn't take it anymore, and had long given up on answering the door. The knocking continued, however. Thered be a pause, a moment of hesitation, before the pounding began again. Muffled voices could be heard outside readers front door, and suddenly there grew a great fear in their chest.

Not long after, the knocking seemed to occur in other areas around the house. The backdoor echoed as glass was banged on, the windows of their bedroom seemingly pressured by fists that begged to be let in. Their name was called from outside, small and booming voices all begging to be let in, promising that they were only there to help.

Reader covered their ears, crawling under the blankets and rocking themselves to the hope that the noise would go away. And eventually, It did-- only to be replaced with the sound of shattering glass and rushed footsteps.

[hollowed-theory-hall]

Can you talk about your thoughts on hinny? I have no problem with people shipping it but to me personally it just doesn't work. It feels like Rowling tried too hard or maybe just wasn't good at writing romance and messed it up. Maybe it was too rushed? The ship doesn't work for me but I'd love to hear your views.

Okay, sorry it took a while to answer this, I actually have a lot of thoughts and I have posts on some of them that I hope to get out soon-ish. I also wanted to go back to the books to make sure I'm not talking out of my ass. But I don't like Hinny, never did. And my reasons are kinda divided into three categories.

Disclaimer: I don't have anything against anyone who ships hinny, it's just really not my thing and I don't see it working with the way I see their characters.

And that's like the core of it. I just don't see Harry and Ginny as compatible on a character level. That and their relationship never really read as believable to me in the books.

The 3 categories I mentioned are:

Harry's character

Firstly, I think Harry is gay. Not bi, but gay. I think he was never actually attracted to a woman and I have a whole post to prove it. So, because that's how I read his character, I just can't really see him with any girl.

(Now, I don't think JKR intended for Harry to come off as gay, but he did)

Secondly, he never thought about Ginny, like, up until book 6, and even during large portions of book 6, he just isn't thinking about Ginny as a potential romantic interest. And when he does think about Ginny in the final two books it never reads like he really likes her. It reads like they decided they are dating, but I don't think Harry knows why he supposedly likes her. He just decided he does, but doesn't know why. It was kind of the same with Cho, where he said he had a crush on her and was nervous around her, but if you asked Harry what he likes about her, his answer would be: "Ehh...."

Like, Harry doesn't really seem to know why he's dating Ginny, and neither do I. It's just how it's written.

2. Ginny's character

So, this is again my opinion, but I don't like Ginny. I just don't like her character. I wish her off the page whenever she talks.

And, when it comes to shipping, for me, I need to find both the characters involved interesting and fun for me to explore to ship them together and care about the pairing. As I don't like Ginny and don't really care for her, I can't really ship her with anyone, not really. It's not even like I hate her (not the way I hate Dumbledore), I just find a lot of her actions and behavior iffy and she annoys me more often than not.

I'm not going to list everything I don't like about Ginny (some of it appears in the rest of this post). But her treatment of Fluer, for example, really soured her character to me. Like, sure, Ginny's young, but, she's 15, and by that point, I think she should take responsibility for being awful to Fluer who was nothing but nice to all of them. Envy is not a good look for Ginny.

3. How they are portrayed together

Like I mentioned in the Harry section, their romance just never really felt there to me. The descriptions were off and left me feeling annoyed at their scenes together more than anything else.

Again, I'm writing a more comprehensive post about it, but the gist of it is that Harry's thoughts about Ginny in books 6 and 7 are weirdly detached for a supposed crush at best or outright uncomfortable for me to read at worst.

Now, we know Harry can describe characters he finds attractive in greater detail. There is none of that detail with Ginny. He only mentioned her hair color and that her hair is long and smells nice. Like, he doesn't talk about her eye color, her facial structure, eye shape (like he does sometimes with characters he does find attractive) — nothing. He doesn't even call her pretty once! At least he referred to Cho Chang as pretty twice in the series.

In the books there is never a scene (not even one) that convinces me they should be together. Like, they have no chemistry. They kinda remind me of Ron and Lavender tbh. They make out and are present in the same space often, but they never talk. Not really. I don't think Ginny actually knows Harry all that well because he never honestly talks to her about anything real. They don't really have chemistry or a relationship, they're just together. At least, that's how I always saw them.

And yes, Harry has his jealousy moments (that are portrayed so weirdly I always narrow my eyes at them to make sure they were actually there, but that's a whole other post about Harry's chest monster of jealousy), but he still doesn't really explain what he finds in Ginny. He doesn't mention she's attractive or pretty at any point, nor does he mention anything he particularly likes about her personality (except that she doesn't weep like Cho and is good at Quidditch. Neither of which are particularly good basis for a relationship).

Like, Ginny mentions why she likes Harry and that she does multiple times. Harry by contrast, just feels so incredibly uninvolved in his own relationship, to me.

Also, personally, I just find the setup of their relationship iffy. Like Ginny outright says she never gave up on Hary and always knew they'd end up together. It means, that since she was 11 (or earlier), she was crushing on Harry, never gave up on her crush, and considered them ending up together fate. She dated other guys to make Harry jealous and pay attention to her, and that's just really gross. I don't like her long obsessive crush on Harry or her treatment of the other guys she dated on her way to get Harry.

Proof of that, for those wondering:

“I never really gave up on you,” she [Ginny] said. “Not really. I always hoped. . . . Hermione told me to get on with life, maybe go out with some other people, relax a bit around you, because I never used to be able to talk if you were in the room, remember? And she thought you might take a bit more notice if I was a bit more — myself.”

(Half-Blood Prince, page 647)

She literally said she dated other guys so Harry would take notice of her. That just grosses me out.

So, no, I don't like Hinny (or Ginny).

[carlos-in-glasses]

Fic Pride Friday - on a Saturday!

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@literateowl @ladytessa74 @liminalmemories21 🧡 And for giving me a reason to create a banner for non-WIP tag games.

Rules: Post your favourite line or passage from as many of your published works as you’d like. Let yourself feel proud of your creations! Tag as many people as you post snippets, so your fellow fic friends can be proud, too.

I've opted to share from three fics- Suddenly in the Silence, Where All This Love Comes From, and Wrestling Angels:

Suddenly, in the Silence:

"I think the closet is haunted," TK says, fumbling the buttons of his lapelled pajama shirt. Carlos faces the opposite side of the room. "But it's from Ikea." "Not that one." TK throws an arm towards the white pre-fab nothingy unit that had housed their pajamas. "I mean the old Reyes relic." "My dad's tatarabuelo built that," Carlos says defensively. And occupies it now, TK thinks but does not say. Instead, he opts for, "It might be fun to sleep in your old bedroom like we did that time before. Snuggled up in that creaky twin with your adorable horse comforter over us." "My old room," Carlos breathes a laugh, "Is the most haunted in this house." "With memories, though, not ghosts."

Where All This Love Comes From

A single tear slips from Carlos' eye. Years ago, there was a young man in New York City called TK Strand and he had no idea that in Austin, Texas, a stranger called Carlos Reyes was aching, yearning, pining for exactly him. He had no idea how loved he was going to be by someone he had yet to meet. He had no idea how wonderful he was as a person with or without a partner – but he was about to find out. That's why you have to keep living, Carlos thinks, so you can find out.

Wrestling Angels

But love is going to come into his life, and it won’t be what he’ll expect, because it’s going to be TK Strand, a firefighter who shows up in Austin from Manhattan following a relapse. He’s a little fierce and rough and moody and funny. He’ll bring disorder to the orderly life he’s about to work so hard to create for himself and himself alone. TK will cause him pain, and he’ll push TK’s buttons, and then it’s going to work out, and he’s going to marry him. And TK is going to be the one to ask. Love is going to be powerful, runaway, gutting, enormous – yet weirdly and utterly defined by the small moments as much as the major events. It’s going to feel physical and invisible, like storm winds that take his breath and knock him off his feet. He’s going to have sex. He’ll have it with a few guys before TK, and every time with each of those guys, it will be somewhere on a sliding scale of outright bad, awkward, embarrassing, mediocre, good, better, great, fantastic. With TK it will be different. Supercharged, mind-blowing, right from the start, and it will also be gentle, romantic, connective in a new way. It will always be a deeper experience than with anyone else. It’s going to mean something real every time, even from the beginning when TK insists that it’s not going to, and Carlos will pretend as much as he can that he doesn’t mind.

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[m00nbunny1]

A Little Retrospective: Selfshipping 💘

It's weird to hear that something I've been doing for as long as I can remember has a name, "selfshipping" as people online call it. Now I must admit, did anyone else get the feeling that it was never really accepted, or it was spoken in hushed whispers? Like actually having a crush on a character was fine, but SHIPPING!?!? Oh hell no. If you didn't ship that character with another character in universe, then you were gonna get called what was considered a death sentence years ago, "cringe". This same idea that was semi-planted was the reason why I've felt off about being so open with the fact I've technically done it for years.

Now, I gotta out myself, I am the type of person to read "X Readers", well actually, I've read them predominantly. Most of my fanfiction career is just me reading that, and the one off I find cool or interesting... But even that has at least some sort of stigma to it, it felt like. I also have to say that in certain spaces it truly felt weird to say: "Oh hey I like those goofy X Readers haha".

I feel as though it's sorta come across as odd to me why years ago, it was such a "taboo" thing, but maybe it wasn't, maybe I was just in the wrong fandoms for it. It's totally human to want love, romantic or platonic. People want a connection, so why is imagining a self insert so much of a bad thing? Getting a bit personal and saying that my reason was because I'm homeschooled, I dreamed of having someone to be my partner and having the romantic love high school sweethearts do. The heart-pounding, blush inducing love that would make me swoon, and I got that by having a fictional crush.

I'd like to end this here, because if I keep on going I might just go into a villain rant (joke by the way). One thing I have learned is that people seemingly are getting a bit more ok with the whole prospect, sorta. Another thing is that I'm slowly getting more confident in considering myself to be technically a selfshipper, and getting that confidence has actually been partially from my friends. My friends have been tagging me with certain things, and I'm eternally grateful for that, as it's weirdly helped with the internal stigma I've felt at the prospect of having a fictional crush on a character.... So thanks friends, if you see this! Other than that, I've been getting better, but undoing the blot of what was considered "weird and cringe" has been interesting, to say the least. Never stop being you though, that's all I can end this on.

[christinesficrecs]

Hey, this is my first time requesting some docs. I’m really craving some possessive Derek🥹 Sterek please

Sure!

it’s obvious, you’re oblivious by EvanesDust | 14.8K | Explicit

Derek’s new roommate is alpha bait but seems disinterested in everyone—especially Derek.

Stiles is suddenly popular, but can’t seem to catch the interest of the only alpha he actually likes.

…or the one where Stiles and Derek get paired together in room assignments and are secretly in love with the other.

I don't know why, but I guess it has something to do with you by LunaCanisLupus_22 | 17.8K | Explicit

The one where Stiles goes thrift shopping and steals an alpha's shirt. And gets a lot more than he bargains for.

The subtle seduction of Stiles Stilinski by DropsOfAddiction | 5.8K | Explicit

Derek waits, thinking it will only be a matter of when, not if. But nothing ever happens.

Stiles doesn’t jump him when they’re pressed close watching films on the couch, he doesn’t clumsily kiss him while wearing his stupid sombrero and he doesn’t grab Derek’s hand when they’re at the movies.

He doesn’t do any of the things that Derek had predicted he’d do.

In fact, he doesn’t do anything at all when it comes to Derek.

Derek’s not used to having to make the first move and it terrifies him; even with his limited romantic experience with a few homicidal women, they usually just took what they wanted from him.

Derek’s never wanted anyone like he wants Stiles and every time he sees him lately, it’s like it gets a tiny bit worse.

A Letter From Mom by StilesIsMySpiritAnimal | 32.9K | Explicit

After waking up at the age of 11 without any memories of his past Stiles spends eight years with his father in the tiny town of Shelter Cove, California. After his father’s death he receives a notice from a storage facility in some town called Beacon Hills. Stiles is confused and thinks the manager made a mistake until he finds a letter that should have been for his 18th birthday that his dad never gave him. It’s from his mother, who he has no memory of. Weirdly enough, her letter mentions Beacon Hills and some woman named Talia, who he’s supposed to trust. Confused and angry at his father, Stiles sets out for Beacon Hills anxious and determined to find out what his dad had been hiding from him all these years.

It’s (Not) a Cult by lhr111 | 56K | Explicit

Well Stiles, you told me a few weeks ago that you thought Derek was leading a cult.”

At that Derek whipped his head toward Stiles in shock. “You thought I was a cult leader?”

Stiles will not be shamed. “Well, either you or Peter. Peter made more sense, but since he deferred to you that one time I was a little unsure. I mean, what else could I think with all the weird shit going on. You, hanging out with random high school seniors, doing secret things, ordering them around like you are their parent, them actually doing what you tell them. It’s really weird, okay?”

The Dynamics of Infatuation by AllTheseSquaresMakeACircle | 36.1K | Explicit

Stiles was slave. Then he wasn't. Ever since then, he's been stuck with the royal family. And if was being honest with himself, he did not entirely mind it.

The Darkness Fades Away by heartsdesire456 | 44.9K | Mature

After Derek is the one who saves Stiles from a terrible night gone wrong, they aren't the only ones forced to overcome barriers, break down walls, and try to rebuild their lives one step at a time.

Though, they are are the only ones doing it together.

Proximity by NadiaHart | 5.9K | Explicit

This was supposed to be a routine scouting mission. Go check out the creepy warehouse that suddenly appeared behind the abandoned movie theater off route 15; take some notes, maybe a photo or two. Do some basic recon and report back to the rest of the pack.

That is decidedly not what happened. And now, standing chest-to-chest, squished into a shipping crate with Derek, Stiles absently wonders where he went wrong.

He Gets Me High by talktowater | 11.5K | Explicit

Stiles and Derek act like a couple. But they're not. Seriously! Derek has a boyfriend and Stiles has a girlfriend. They're just friends, overly-attached and possessive friends, but that's it. Right?

When it all comes crumbling down by Littleredridinghunter | 216.1K

Stiles is recovering from the Nogitsune. Erica is the only one that is really there for him, Scott's too busy rekindling his relationship with Allison and Stiles feels like he's falling apart.

When a near-miss with a kelpie results in an encounter that he could never have predicted, Stiles begins to think his life might be getting back on track.

He's wrong.

Stiles' life is so messed up he can't even begin to explain it, maybe it's time for him to finally do something for himself and get out of Beacon Hills. But where will that path lead?

With Stiles involved, no doubt danger and death won't be far behind.

[hils79]

Hils Watches Mysterious Lotus Casebook - Ep 10

I swear to god if he ends up having to pretend to be his own fake twin brother I am going to die

I know this is about her symbolically letting go of the past but that was a nice sachet! If she didn't want it she could have just given it back

I get nervous whenever they mention how little time he has left

He really is pushing this. Is it not enough that Li Lianhua has an ex-husband and a new boyfriend, and that Qiao Wanmian is engaged to someone else? Let it go!

Oh no. Is he going to get mad that he didn't beat Li Xiangyi in a fair fight?

I do think that's true. He's happy to forgive anyone who hurt him, but he still blames himself for everything that happened 10 years ago.

Yeah, he's angry

People do love slamming him into walls and I support this habit

Yeah, I kind of assumed he knew. Actually at first I thought he was the one who did it.

Yeah, that's not going to work. He nearly keeled over just from throwing a sword at someone

This is weirdly romantic? He doesn't want to fight anyone else no matter how good they are

Well at least now he's on board with the 'stop Li Lianhua from dying' agenda. Good. If anyone is stubborn enough to find a cure for an incurable poison it's him.

I'm amazed it took this long for the guard puppy to show up

Dude, you literally try and fight everyone who annoys you

Has anyone made a gifset of all the times Li Lianhua has wagged his finger at someone? I feel like this is a thing that should exist

I love that this is the second time in about 10 minutes that he's used his poor health as an excuse to get out of a conversation he didn't want to have

Aww! He knows Fang Duobing won't let Di Feisheng kill him. Not that Di Feisheng wants to kill him. Quite the opposite, in fact

There are going to be some really awkward conversations when Fang Duobing finds out who Li Lianhua and A-Fei really are

That's very sweet but I thought he had no money

Haha! Oh no he stole Li Lianhua's money to pay for it.

You'd think he'd be used to it by now

Haha! He has no idea how much Li Lianhua lies

Oh, sweetie, you have no idea how much you don't know

That definitely doesn't sound made up at all

OMG they're looking for Count Rugen!

I love him

[sincerely-astra]

I saw your RTC content! So, can I ask the Yandere Choir (Everyone romantic, except Noel, Noel Platonic obv) with Penny Lamb? A post-cyclone au, where they all got revived and Jane was Penny again! Thanks, how your day was?

☁️Yandere Choir x Penny Lamb🌧️

I love Penny so much :)) My day has been pretty good though, thanks for asking!

⚠️WARNING: General yandere content!⚠️

Ocean O'Connell Rosenberg:

A light flashes bright in Ocean's vision, her body no longer holding onto her friends but instead to a metal bar in front of her. ...What was happening? Was- Was she actually alive? As her eyes open, the dark blue sky welcoming her back to Earth, Ocean stops herself letting out a panicked gasp.

Did she somehow resurrect herself and not Penny?! But, she can see Constance right beside her and she saw Penny walk into the light in that stupid warehouse... Where even was Penny??

She gets off the ride along with the others, all eagerly jumping off the ride as if it were some kind of disease, and her eyes immediately start sorting through the group to find Penny.

...

Ocean couldn't tell if it was nausea from the ride or what, but as soon as she caught sight of a slightly taller, green-eyed girl helping Ricky out of the cart, she felt an intense wave of butterflies zooms through her chest.

Girl is actually so whipped-

Not once through their years at St. Cassian did Ocean give this girl a glance after the first meeting, and she is seriously regretting that... She has no clue how Penny slipped through her memory or anyone else's for that matter.

Ocean quickly runs up to the girl and hugs her, her words going way too fast for Penny to understand.

Their relationship after the accident has been overall, super positive. Ocean tries to make up for lost time and talks to the girl way more frequently than before, noting down her likes and dislikes and whatever interesting quirks Ocean sees in her. As reserved as Penny is when making new relationships, she was really quick to warm up to Ocean considering... you know, Ocean sacrificing her one chance at life for her.

Speaking of which, Penny is always telling Ocean how grateful she is for that. She just feels like she can't say it enough, it's such a big sacrifice, one that she never could've imagined anyone making for her!

The only way she knows how to repay Ocean (other than saying thanks anytime she even glances in her direction) is to give her gifts and trinkets. She'll give her fun notebooks, fancy pens, stuffed animals, bracelets, and pretty much anything she thinks Ocean would like, even though Ocean is always saying that Penny doesn't have to.

Ocean isn't saying no to free stuff though.

A noticeable change to everyone in the choir is Ocean's behavior, the accident really made her reflect on herself and now that they have a chance to be alive again, she wasn't going to waste this opportunity to be a better person than she was before. She wants to be someone who deserves to be in the company of the amazing people she sees every day.

This doesn't mean she doesn't have bad days though... she is still learning.

On those kinds of days, Penny is pretty much the only one who can calm her down weirdly enough. She'll pull Ocean aside and let her breathe before they talk everything out, usually, it ends in Ocean going back and apologizing to everyone.

As much as Ocean doesn't want to admit it..., she's kind of jealous of Penny. She just thinks the girl is freaking pretty, smart, and literally everything she wants to be!

Well, she thinks she's jealous until after a particularly rough practice, where Ocean has to be calmed down by Penny, apologizing to the choir, etc, Penny goes up to Ocean and says that she's so proud of her.

Those words literally make Ocean want to ascend into heaven, oh my god.

Ocean didn't realize it, but from that moment on, she was head over heels for Penny. She would literally go after Penny's praise and chance she could and was practically begging for compliments, melting any time her wishes were granted.

Penny finds this adorable really and will not spare any compliment she can give the ginger, though she does have to restrain herself because Ocean will gloat about whatever Penny praised her for, for at least a week-

When Ocean finally figured out why her heart would beat so fast when Penny was in her general vicinity and why her cheeks would flare at the slightest touch, she freaked out a bit... She never could've seen herself as anything other than straight and now that it might be a possibility she's queer, she can't help but panic.

Lowkey tries to isolate herself from Penny, but cannot force herself to stay away for that long. it's literally impossible for her.

Penny is so oblivious to Ocean's feelings like she'll unintentionally get so close to her and be really affectionate. It makes Ocean want to scream and cry-

Ocean is not even subtle with her feelings either. She is literally telling everyone that they have a "special relationship" and that she's closer to Penny than anyone else... It really makes everyone so confused.

Girl might be a little delusional... actually, very delusional.

Anytime the pair go out, Ocean is convinced it's a date.

Penny also gets so confused about why people are avoiding her more often, unaware that Ocean's presence in her life pushes everyone else away as they don't want to anger her.

I mean, it doesn't affect her too much since she never was very popular- It just makes her a little uncomfortable getting looks while she walks past others at school.

Ocean is literally Penny's guard dog.

Like, she is defending Penny's honor to the fullest extent. Being the most successful girl in town comes with some liberties, you know?

Even if Ocean finds all of Penny's "fun facts" disturbing, she will listen to every single one.

I'm gonna be so honest when I say that Ocean had no idea that her feelings weren't normal when she started having a darker view of her and Penny's relationship. She's never been in a relationship before, nor has she ever been interested in this sort of thing, so she really has nothing to go off of...

She never found the idea of "nicely" telling people to stop speaking to Penny or telling Penny who she should and shouldn't be hanging out with weird. She knew what was best for her, Ocean didn't even want to begin to imagine all of the horrible things Penny would experience by speaking to the people she deemed "unsafe".

Sure, maybe spending her nights going through her stack of photos she totally didn't take of Penny was a little strange, but it wasn't like it was hurting anybody!

The same goes for keeping Penny after school hours to "tutor" her.

Yep, very normal.

...Penny would find it strange how she was the only one in the choir group who Ocean would make stay after school for tutoring and sometimes she had an eerie feeling bubble in her gut when Ocean would hold onto her wrist a little too tight, she's sure it's nothing to be worried about though. Ocean just had a special way of showing her friendship and Penny didn't want to squander that.

Plus, even if it was suffocating sometimes, she enjoyed actually being close to someone for a change.

Ocean would definitely force the teachers to give Penny better grades if her tutoring somehow didn't work out.

I can also see her trying way too hard to make up excuses of why Penny just has to come to her for any problem the girl may have.

Noel Gruber:

The first thing Noel can remember sensing in his afterlife was the distinct smell of carnival food, corndogs, cotton candy, funnel cake, and the whole 9-yards. It disgusted him honestly, why would the afterlife smell like the one thing that was literally associated with killing all of them? Would he seriously have to smell this forever??

He was quick to open his eyes, expecting to see whatever awaited him in the afterlife, but instead, he was met with a blue sky... In a fit of confusion, he looks down and sees it.

...

Oh my god, he's on the stupid roller coaster again!

Noel frantically looked around him, taking in the sights of the carnival, his friends, and himself, trying to see if this was some sick kind of purgatory. He could tell that wasn't the case though when Mischa looked in his direction with a bewildered expression. This was real.

The carts made it back to their starting point and everyone ran off, everyone equally confused and concerned. Noel himself stood back away from the rest of the choir for a moment, just trying to wrap his head around this whole situation. Was the afterlife they just experienced real? Was it some strange group hallucination? Did Penny ever make it back to the real world? He, and probably everyone else, had a ton of questions that he knew would never be answered.

So, taking a breath, he turned his attention off the metal floor they were all crowded on and took a look at everyone else. Counting off the people in his head, he could spot Ocean, Constance, Mischa, himself, Ricky, and finally someone he never had seen before.

She had dark, curly brown hair put into two French braids, tanned skin, freckles, and green eyes. 'That must be Penny,' he thought. The girl was by her cart, helping Ricky out with a nervous smile, his mouth swiftly exhaling a breath he didn't know he was holding in.

Even if Jane looked nothing like Penny and Penny didn't act quite as clueless as Jane, just by looking at Penny he could feel all his memories of Jane rushing back. Mainly the gut-wrenching sadness that came from her song of not knowing who she was...

Thinking back on it, before the whole accident happened, he had romanticized death and tragedy for so long that it was all he thought he wanted... That it had to be better than working at a Taco Bell in the worst city in all of Saskatchewan.

Now that he's here though, he is so unbelievably grateful to be alive.

Noel didn't initially go up to Penny, since everyone was crowding her and he didn't want her to feel overwhelmed. Although it isn't his responsibility to know everyone in Uranium (even though he's pretty much forced to anyway) he still feels bad for never even attempting to get to know the girl, especially since she was in his choir group and all. So, as they all walked off the metal platform, wanting to get as far away from this fair as soon as possible, Noel made a plan right then and there that he would at least try to get to know Penny Lamb.

And he has been known to be quite a stubborn individual.

He first enacted his plan a few days after the accident (can he really call it that anymore?), by now everyone should be settled and he wouldn't be giving the poor girl a heart attack or anything. After digging up some info from Ocean, he learned that they had the same lunch which is where he first came up to her. She sat alone in the far corner of the cafeteria, just scrolling on her phone while Noel gave a quick greeting before sitting across from her.

He was very aware of how awkward this was going to be at the start. Penny didn't look like the type to be extremely extroverted, so he knew he would be the one making most of the conversation for a while. He started slow, asking some things about her and prompting her to do the same, making the conversation flow a bit more smoothly for the rest of lunch.

It was funny because, during their chat, Noel started noticing how similar they were. They had a lot of the same ideals, they were both hopeless romantics, and they both had an appreciation for the arts, it was so nice to finally be able to talk to someone who got him.

He just had this feeling in his chest that told him to keep her close.

Noel likes to show Penny his poems and she shows him her doll collection, Noel can't help but shiver to see her favorite doll though... One ironically named Jane and the one that replaced her head during their short afterlife. He really doesn't think he'll ever get used to it.

Eventually, when they both become better friends, Penny gets the courage to bring up Monique, making Noel's face immediately flush at the mere mention of her... At that point, he totally forgot about him sharing her life and he never would've imagined it would come back to haunt him like this. Still, he indulges Penny and answers whatever questions pops up into her head, slowly finding himself less embarrassed and more confident as she intently listens.

Penny also tries really hard to help Noel be more confident in himself, she doesn't understand how someone as interesting as Noel can be so outcasted by their peers. She finds it so frustrating!

Truly, Noel just finds her to be the sweetest thing and she quickly reaches best friend status with him.

If you thought Ocean was overprotective, Noel might even be worse...

Speaking of Ocean, Noel is either actively trying to one-up her or keep Penny away from her, which is pretty confusing for Penny since she thought their relationship was getting better-

And it is, when they are apart from Penny they act normal, it's just that Noel is subconsciously afraid that Ocean will steal Penny away from him since to him she is everything anyone could want. He's aware it's a strange thought process, but Ocean is (platonically of course) pretty, the student council president, top of her class, and so much more, why wouldn't Penny be attracted to that?

He is literally the older brother Penny never had despite being the same age, he will protect her and look fabulous doing it.

And pretty much being her older brother, he will ban her from dating whether she likes it or not. Penny will also have to get all her hangouts pre-approved by him first, for safety reasons of course.

Noel basically controls her whole social life (minus anything to do with Ezra or her foster parents).

Penny lowkey finds it suffocating but she does not want to hurt Noel's feelings, not to mention if she did bring it up he would guilt trip her or something of the sort.

They both have very frequent sleepovers where Noel will force her to watch The Blue Angel every. single. time. In turn, Noel is forced to have a makeover by Penny. (She'd probably use those children's makeup palettes and stuff as well-)

As far as yandere behavior goes, Noel is also a victim of the keeping photos of Penny habit... His though are taken mostly with her consent and are all taken in a pretty artistic way.

His behavior really grows from his love of tragedy and love for all things taboo, loving someone, whether platonically or romantically, in the most obsessive way a person can is just right up his alley. Penny deserves to be loved and cherished for who she is and he isn't willing to have anyone other than him do that for her.

They get each other, she understands him on a level on one else can, and Noel can't let that go, he can't let her go. He needs her.

Penny feels similarly to Noel in this, albeit to a way toned-down degree, she feels seen and understood by Noel. She never wishes to hurt him or have others hurt him..., so she's willing to overlook the pointed glares he gives to random classmates who come up to her and the obsessive poems that sound like they were written for someone very similar to her.

No matter what insults are thrown his way, he literally can't care less when Penny's opinion is the only one that matters to him.

Mischa Bachinski:

Mischa Bachinski, the angriest boy in town, was feeling a little strange… His eyes were shut tight and his arms wrapped around some other choir members even tighter. Were they dead now…? He was almost afraid to check. Almost.

But before his eyes can view whatever sights lie in the afterlife, his ears are immediately inundated with screaming voices, voices he knows all too well. Instinctively, he opens his eyes with his heart pounding inside his chest, threatening to escape as he is granted the horror of seeing The Cyclone again.

This time though, instead of seeing Ocean fly out of her cart or watching the blood splatter everywhere as a head rushes past him, the cart was slowly coming to a stop at the metal platform they all started from.

Was this some kind of sick joke? What kind of torture is it to believe you are dead, only to be woken up to the reality that it was all some weird dream??

Those were the questions running through Mischa's head as he practically jumped out of the cart and dashed straight to the one face he sure as hell didn't recognize, the one he was sure was Jane Doe, or, more accurately, Penny Lamb. He had questions and she was the one who went into the light right? So she must have answers!

As soon as Penny could even process what was happening, helping Ricky out of the cart on autopilot, she was immediately bombarded with questions from the tall Ukranian. She really couldn't understand a word he said..., making him repeat his questions more slowly only for her to not actually know the answers to them. Great.

That was all well in good though, because there was only one person he wanted to hear from right now, his beloved Talia.

The group walked off the metal platform as the drunk carney hurriedly rushed them off and Mischa grabbed his cell phone out of his back pocket, blinking a few times in surprise at the sheer number of notifications he had... all from Talia.

Call after call and text after text, Mischa could only really gather that she was upset with him for not answering her when she needed him. Even though he quickly started texting back, explaining the reason for his absence (minus the whole afterlife part), the damage had been done.

For days after, Mischa and Talia would have constant fights, sometimes over nothing and sometimes over something actually serious, to Mischa though, all of their fights were serious. It was really starting to get him irritated too, his safe space was now one filled with tension and it was just getting exhausting, so for once in their relationship, Mischa took a break away from Talia.

And to everyone's, including Mischa's, surprise it actually yielded positive results for Mischa. He was by no means a star student, but not being preoccupied with texting Talia all day helped him focus on his grades and actually show up to choir rehearsal on time. Maybe it was the fact that Talia and him were fighting, but he more than ever felt the determination to actually try and prove himself, prove himself to her that he was still worthy of her heart.

He even had the silliest thought that maybe he was rushing this whole marriage thing...

...

Well, maybe it isn't entirely untrue.

Marriage for so long has felt like his only reason to live, that one day he'll get the privilege to meet and marry the love of his life and it will all end just like that. And in a way, he still feels like that, but getting closer to the choir made his perspective shift a bit.

Sure, he still hates Uranium, but now he has an actual reason to start living his life away from that hell hole of a basement. His reason being the choir.

It was actually during one of their rehearsals were Mischa decided to actually go up and try to talk to Penny. They hadn't talked after the accident aside from a few quick greetings here and there, and as he's been told by everyone else, he needs to get better at opening up to people.

Mischa coming up and just casually talking to Penny was not on her bucket list. Granted, she's been given way more attention in the past few weeks since the accident, but she still found it so surreal that Mischa Bachinski would want to talk to her.

And yet here he was, indulging in all her weird science facts with the most attractive accent she's ever had the privilege of hearing...

Mischa being Mischa, was really interesting in all of the super gritty facts, like how rabies has a 100% fatality rate or how sea scorpions were once the size of great white sharks, if something was disturbing with the fact, chances are he's gonna wanna hear it.

This starts his trend of going up to Penny before classes start and getting his daily creepy trivia fact, discussing it with her, and going down rabbit holes of discussions.

Eventually, though, all good things turn sour and Talia ends up breaking up with Mischa, blocking him on all platforms without so much as an explanation. And when I tell you Mischa was freaking out, I mean freaking out, their sudden breakup was enough to give Mischa a full-on panic attack in the boy's restroom during lunch...

He was inconsolable for weeks after, causing all his good habits to end up right back to where they started and for him to snap at anyone who tried to help him. He hated dealing with people's scrutiny and he was sure he'd do something he'd regret if he heard it now.

It was only after practice on a practically rainy day that this changed.

Mischa was sat at his bus bench, staring off into space as he tried his best not to reach for his phone or do anything that reminded him of her, of his Talia who was no longer his. Normally his brain would start to spiral, blaming the whole thing on him and his "selfish actions" but he didn't get to do that when he felt the bench shifting to support the weight of another person who had sat next to him. His head snapped up, trying to see the individual who actually tried sitting next to him, only to see Penny Lamb.

He should've suspected what she was going to ask next, her voice coming out unsure and shaky as she asked him what was wrong.

Truthfully, he was going to tell her to leave him alone like he did with everyone else, but that caring look in her green eyes made it hard to say anything negative toward the girl... Against his best judgment, he confided in Penny and let everything out. He was kind of glad he did too, he's sure if he kept the hurt he felt from Talia in any longer, he would've just exploded with agony.

Hearing Mischa explain how much he truly loved Talia and hearing how she just left him, like their relationship was nothing more than a leaf in the wind, Penny really couldn't help but feel awful for Mischa. The longer the boy went on, the deeper her frown became.

Even though she wasn't good with social cues, she knew she had to do something to cheer him up, they were friends now after all. So, with blurting the first thing that came to her mind out, she asked Mischa if he'd like to spend the night at her house for a sleepover.

"It's just to take your mind off things..." Penny soon added as Mischa cautiously eyed her.

And once again, despite all odds, he couldn't say no to her.

He was really glad he said yes though because that's the exact moment he fell in love with Penny and he fell hard.

As he and Penny were sprawled out on her living room floor, watching some movie she had on VHS tape, his brown eyes turned to look over at her and just see the slightest smile on her pink lips making his chest flutter... In that moment, It just hits him how at peace he felt, it was the first time he felt peace in Uranium, the first time he felt peace like this since he was still with his mom.

Not once did he ever feel like this with Talia, not when they would send overdramatized paragraphs declaring their love for each other, not when he told her all about his life story and the best she could do was change the topic out of discomfort, and sure as hell not when he tried to fix whatever he did to make her fight him all the time after the accident.

There was never a moment where his heart was this calm, where his mind wasn't filled to the brim with destructive thoughts, or when he could truly look at someone and say he felt at home.

How could he let one girl keep him from seeing this?

Mischa would definitely act like Penny's boyfriend even if they aren't dating, he's very touchy and affectionate making everyone think they are a couple.

Penny was also pretty surprised by this change in Mischa's behavior, but she quickly got over it, thinking it was normal since she helped him get over his ex and all.

When Penny finds Mischa's YouTube channel, she will listen to every song in one sitting even if she doesn't understand most of them. She wants to be a supportive friend! She also leaves a few comments with support and some feedback, leaving Mischa with a strong sense of deja vu but also giving him a huge ego boost.

Mischa has a really bad habit of getting into fights to defend Penny, like, he has sent multiple kids to the hospital for her before. Even when Penny asks him to stop and that the bullying isn't that bad, Mischa will just shut that down. He honestly can't believe she would think that of herself, that she wasn't worth a few broken fingers for. To Mischa, he would gladly hurt a thousand more people if it meant she would be safe and happy.

One of Mischa's favorite pastimes is to legitimately stalk Penny's social media, even though she doesn't have much posted, her foster parents are shy about showing her and her brother off to the world. He has every photo he can find of her saved in his photos.

Man is so possessive of her, he really just wants to hold her all day and have her praise him. He could die a happy man then.

Mischa is probably the one person Penny is least suspicious of when it comes to being possessive or just showing any signs of concerning behavior. Her thought process is that everyone copes with breakups differently, not to mention when it's someone you thought you were going to get married to, so she really believes this is all his way of coping and he will eventually ease off.

She is very wrong in that though.

He is very likely planning to kidnap Penny after graduation and take her with him to Ukraine..., send help.

Ricky Potts:

Cold metal was all Ricky Potts could feel in his hands, no longer holding onto his friends but holding onto what seemed to be a metal bar. His mouth opened to ask what was happening before his heart just dropped... He couldn't speak anymore.

He knew immediately then that they were back to real life.

As the cart flew down the last set of tracks, he looked beside him to see a girl clinging to his body, one he had never seen before but he still pulled her close so she wouldn't be scared. If his hunch was right, he knew who this was supposed to be.

He knew the girl had to be Penny Lamb, or Jane Doe as he had known her for their short time in the afterlife.

Once the ride came to a stop, Penny repaid his kindness by helping him out of the cart and giving him a wobbly smile, as if she wasn't too sure what was happening either. Ricky quickly grabbed a notepad from his pocket to ask if she remembered what happened to which she nodded yes, but she didn't know why everyone was back...

That wasn't important though, not when they were back alive and memories of their "relationship" rushed to the forefront of Ricky's brain. He calls a "relationship" in air quotes because he never actually dared to go up to her..., he doubted she knew sign language anyway and people were quick to get bored or weirded out by him writing or using his AAC device.

He didn't want to risk the humiliation by a girl he thought was extremely pretty.

But at this moment, he finds himself talking to her freely, his hands slightly shaking as he writes down responses and Penny painterly waiting. It really makes him wish he got to do this earlier..., though seeing her green eyes now really takes on a whole new meaning for him and he can't stop the smile protruding on his lips.

Penny's attention was quickly taken though as the others rushed up to her as they were reasonably freaked out, pushing Ricky to the side. As much as he wants to get upset, he understands their confusion and opts to talk to Noel instead, making plans to talk to Penny later.

Over the next few days, the whole choir became a lot closer and they even ended up making a group chat!

At first, it was to be for choir purposes as dictated by Ocean, but that didn't last long as Noel and Mischa would talk about anything other than choir and Ricky just couldn't help but spam memes. He would feel slightly bad, but they made Penny laugh so that's all that mattered.

Plus, he got to have Penny's number, so it's a win-win situation. And trust me when I say that they are very frequent texters, like, Mischa and Talia level texters.

Penny tries to learn more sign language even if Ricky insists she doesn't have to do that, but she insists harder that Ricky should be able to just talk and not have to worry about writing anything down or using his AAC device.

They have ASL study sessions at his house now and Penny absolutely adores his cats.

This is also where Penny met Ricky's parents for the first time!

Where Ricky was extremely grateful that they didn't sign normal ASL but their own version of it, meaning Penny could not understand all of the embarrassing things they were teasing him about.

It is not fun to sit beside your crush while your mom teases you about her thinking you'll be a basement dweller all your life.

Penny was incredibly confused the whole time...

Ricky's favorite thing is when Penny and him will just exchange weird facts, his mostly being about space and hers being about animals. He will also research animal facts, just to try and impress her.

Ricky likes talking to her in ASL so no one else knows what they are talking about, it feels a lot more intimate and like they are the only two people in the room.

Despite how shy and reserved Penny is, she will undoubtedly protect Ricky from bullies, no one bullies her best friend and gets away with it!

Ricky will give Penny her first exposure to video games, probably with a Sonic game or something, and he finds her struggling adorable and also slightly frustrating.

Penny also teaches the others ASL, which Ricky is grateful for.

For pretty much all of his life, Zolar was Ricky's safe space from everyone, a world where no one ignored him and where he could actually be destined for greater things. Although he no longer finds himself drifting to Zolar as much as he used to, his mind still wanders there from time to time as he continues going through his intergalactic adventures.

And though no one exactly forgot how much Zolar meant to him, everyone else in the choir rarely, if ever, brought it up again after the accident. Except for, of course, Penny Lamb.

Ricky and Penny share English together, and on some winter day, Ricky doodled his OCs in his notebook while waiting for Penny to arrive, just some lighthearted sketches as he daydreamed. Lost in his thoughts, he hadn't noticed Penny standing right behind him overlooking all his drawings with curious eyes. She was quick to poke him on the shoulder and ask about it, causing Ricky to sheepishly smile while explaining exactly who they were.

Eventually, he started to ramble as the girl asked more and more questions, but she didn't mind, she actually quite enjoyed watching him get so passionate about what he loved. The way his hands quickly signed, making some of his words unintelligible to her, or how his smile went from being sheepish to full of life and excitement, or even how he'd sometimes glance to the side when trying to remember specific details, Penny loved it all.

And god does Ricky adore her all the same. This moment was really where he learned how much she meant to him as she smiled while listening to his nonsensical ramblings, he wished everyone could be as nice as she was.

He doesn't need anyone but her though.

Ricky is always actively trying to contribute to her doll collection, which Penny finds sweet. All the dolls he gives her have their own special place in her bedroom.

Ricky likes her having something to remind her of him as well.

They spend pretty much every lunch together and they walk together between classes.

Did I mention that he has a ton of pet names for her? Because he does. He could call her the generic ones like, "darling, sweetheart, and love" at one moment and then call her something like, "honeybunches, babycakes, and pookie wookie" the next, he loves seeing her cringe.

By far his favorite though is "My Savannah"

Ricky also has a Zolar OC named Savannah who is totally not based off of Penny, what- She's the love interest for his OC.

He has a ton of drawings of their characters together, most of them in a romantic connotation which Ricky would never let Penny see...

Even if he doesn't like to think it, he likes that Penny is sheltered cause it means she'll rely on him for stuff and he can teach her a ton of things.

He will befriend Ezra, and no questions will be asked. They are like two peas in a pod.

This also means though, that Ezra knows about Ricky's crush on Penny and while he questioned the boy's choices at first, he eventually moves on to just teasing Ricky. He teases all the time and at every bad time imaginable.

Ricky knows he really shouldn't, but every time he's at her house, he can't stop himself from taking something of hers to keep. He mostly likes taking shirts and hoodies since they smell like her.

He's so aware of how weird the habit is, but his heart literally feels like it's breaking if he can't be near her for long periods of time... (The shirts and hoodies will have cat hair all over them btw)

He is also prone to spamming her messages, he gets very clingy.

Ricky will absolutely buy her anything her heart desires, like, he's not even wealthy but god forbid you take him and Penny to the mall. Penny will literally be begging for him not to buy her anything else by the end of, she also really can't hold anything else.

If anyone else tries to do this with Penny though, he will make sure that it miraculously goes "missing."

Not going to lie, he can get incredibly smug when the other choir members are fighting over her since he feels that they have the closest relationship by far.

>:3 <- Literally his face the entire time.

Even if Ricky thinks he's slick with his yandere tendencies, it has definitely reached Penny to some capacity. She knows something is up but she just can't tell what... After all, her missing shirts and hoodies have to be going somewhere and the hoodies that she spots underneath Ricky's bed suspiciously look like the ones she lost...

She really feels like she's being delusional. :((

Even if Ricky often gets lost in his daydreams, he is also an incredibly observant person, meaning her knows everyone in the choir's weaknesses and what makes them tick. You can already see how he would use that kind of information to his advantage.

Ricky dreams of Penny often, they are mostly happy dreams about what their future could look like, but some are the complete opposite. Like, the ones where he was chosen to come back to life during the accident, and no one but him came back. Including Penny with her beautiful green eyes.

Those dreams make him want to keep her by his side forever.

Constance Blackwood:

Constance Blackwood hated the taste of metal, there was just something so grotesque and bitter about it that just made her want to spit it out every time. There weren't a lot of things she hated in the world but that was one of them.

It made her want to puke as it filled her mouth, her eyes shooting open to see why it was filling in the first place. 'Oh, my teeth were biting too hard into my lips, weird...'

'...Why and I on a roller coaster.'

It took about 10 minutes, getting off the ride, and getting to the dirt paths of the fall fairgrounds for Constance to actually register what was happening around her. She was alive and well.

She needed to hear her parent's voices at this very instant.

Constance wasn't even worried about why they were back in the first place, she just hurriedly grabbed her phone, dialed her dad's number, and called him. It was so hard to act like nothing had just happened, that she didn't die and had a chance of never seeing him, her mom, or her brother again. Through baited breaths, a small part of her hesitant that it was all some trick and that she really was dead, she managed to ask for her parents to come to get her.

They were confused but also quick to agree, she's pretty sure she freaked them out more by saying "I love you" for the first time in forever. She had to though, she now realized what she could've lost.

The girl took a deep breath, turning back to the rest of the choir as they talked about what had happened. This time though, instead of seeing the rosy-cheeked doll face she was all so used to seeing, she sees a brown-haired girl in the center of everyone.

That was not Jane, not the clueless girl who would follow her around with a headless doll or the one who sang with pure agony over her forgotten identity. This was, as she felt her memory rush back to her, Penny Lamb, the girl Ocean wished to come back to life right before they all got sent back here.

Even if she knew it was such a silly thought, she still was a little anxious around Penny... She knows she and Jane are two different individuals, but it's still hard to look at her without seeing Jane's lifeless doll eyes.

Funnily enough though, Penny was quick to flock to Constance when she needed to ask questions or when she just wanted to talk to another girl about stuff. Like Jane, she tended to follow Constance around, but this time Constance's anxiousness soon eased up.

She actually found herself liking to have Penny around, as much as she cared and loved Ocean, she wasn't exactly the easiest to vent to or talk about normal teenage drama with.

They have girl talks often!

Constance's little brother loves Penny and Ezra thinks Constance is one of the better friends Penny has made. They all have little outings where they'll go to the aquarium or the park from time to time.

Penny still tells animal facts to Constance, but she tries to tone down the scare factor which Constance appreciates.

Penny calls Constance "Connie" and Constance calls Penny "Pen".

They have a very affectionate friendship, they act like the sweetest old married couple even before Constance gains feelings for Penny. (This probably helped push her in that direction though)

They go to each other when they need to rant about the other choir members, mainly Constance since she's known them for longer and has a lot to say now that she's trying to be more true to herself.

They have a mini book club with just the two of them so they can nerd out on their favorite books. :)

Constance likes to bake for Penny and have Penny try out new recipes. The only thing is that Penny would never insult Constance's baking, so Constance never gets any accurate feedback-

Penny is lowkey so jealous of Constance's purple hair, that she will beg Constance to dye her hair too! Constance only lets Penny do the stuff that won't ruin her hair and that is only temporary though.

Penny dyed it purple to match Constance.

Okay so, they both know it's incredibly childish, but they will have tea parties where Penny will bring some of her dolls and Constance makes the sweets and tea. They both end up having so much fun that they long forget the initial awkwardness of it.

Constance remembers the day she fell in love with Penny like it was yesterday... Penny had come over to have a study session with Constance, which is where they might actually study for 30 minutes and then spend the rest of the time hanging out, and while they walk into her home Constance excuses herself to the restroom for a moment. Upon coming back, she hears her brother's excited rambling all the way down the hall which she just knew was him bothering Penny about whatever he was hyper fixated on at the time. Her steps pick up to quickly round the corner and save Penny- Only to see her happily talking back with him, just as invested as he was in the conversation.

The scene really just made her heart melt... Seeing her best friend being so nice and accommodating to her younger brother, whom she cared for so much, really got her heart racing. She just knew she had to keep Penny around, she had to have her by her side for the rest of their lives, best friends side by side.

...

Only, best friend didn't sound quite right, in fact, the word made her heart sting like a heartbreak.

No, she knew she wanted to be more than that, she wanted to be her girlfriend, fiance, and everything in between.

When it comes to concealing her crush, unlike pretty much everyone in the choir, she is surprisingly slick with it. Like, until Constance directly confesses to her, Penny would have 0 clue Constance was in love with her.

Constance would treat her so well! She is the best when it comes to handling Penny's anxiety and she really loves helping Penny in her time of need. It makes her feel wanted and important.

Very much the mom friend who actually likes one of her friends but any flirty thing she does just comes off in a platonic kind of way

Constance is really trying here...

Constance is scared of dolls, so whenever she goes to Penny's house, Penny has to keep all her dolls in a closet.

Also because of that, they go to Constance's house way more than Penny's.

Constance uses the fact that they are good friends to be touchy.

Constance likes to write secret anonymous love letters and put them in Penny's locker for her to find, they are filled with some of the most cheesiest lines too. Constance really lets her heart bleed when it comes to those, she's okay with being cheesy if Penny will be cheesy with her.

She would totally send treats with the love letters too, but she's afraid it will give her away since Penny knows her baking all too well by now.

Constance's parents absolutely love Penny as well, like, they basically accepted her as their own daughter, much like Ocean. (They pretty much have adopted the whole choir at this rate-)

They know about Constance's crush too and really try to push Penny into realizing it, despite Constance's best wishes.

Picnic dates? Picnic dates.

They'll set it up at sunrise in the park so while they're eating they watch the sun go down and the stars slowly show themselves in the night sky. It will be dead silent too, as they are both just enjoying each other's company and watching the sky do its business.

They both like to share hoodies when it gets colder, mainly because Constance offered Penny her hoodie once and Penny forgot to give it back and instead just offered Constance one of hers.

She is silently bragging to Ricky that she managed to get Penny's hoodie without stealing it-

They call every night and end up talking on the phone for hours. Penny really likes it when it gets super late and they end up planning out their futures together, in a way, it makes her feel less anxious about what's to come.

She also thinks Constance's sleepy voice is adorable.

No lie, Constance has definitely written fanfiction about the two of them getting together- She never published it and the names are changed, but it is so obviously about them that it'd only take you a few lines of reading to realize it.

They would definitely make friendship bracelets together, the colors being the color of their eyes, so it's a mix of green and brown with the words "P+C=<3" made with beads that have letters and numbers on them. Constance cherishes this bracelet with her life and would actually have a full-on breakdown if she or someone else broke it.

Constance has a cat plushie she named Penny.

Constance has also fallen victim to stalking Penny's social media habit, but she only did it once and felt guilty afterward since it made her feel so icky.

It also didn't help that Penny has little to no photos of herself on any social media platform, so Constance really got nothing out of it other than feelings like a complete creep-

Penny and Constance have a shared music playlist together since Penny thinks it's interesting to see their different music tastes.

Uses her status as the "nicest girl in town" to get people to back away from Penny. It's not that anyone is threatened by Constance, it's just that if she so much as chooses to get them in trouble, the staff would be quick to suspend them.

She can really only handle so many romantic "rivals" at once, and the choir is literally her limit so she feels that she has to do that.

Constance would undoubtedly do anything Penny tells her to do, Penny could ask her to lick the ground and she would. Penny would rather die than do that though, which is one thing Constance likes about her so much, that she sees Constance as more than a people pleaser willing to do anything.

During their sleepovers, if Penny just so happened to fall asleep first, Constance would probably just watch Penny sleep for a while before turning in for the night. She just finds the way her chest slowly rises and falls and the way her hair is sprawled out against the pillow to be so beautiful...

She thinks Penny is ridiculously pretty.

Constance is so good at concealing these kinds of emotions that Penny genuinely would never have a clue that Constance feels this way about her. Plus, she would already have a hard time believing Constance loved her, if she was told how intensely those feelings actually were, she would just think she's being lied to.

Not that Constance would tell the truth on this kind of thing anyway.

Constance has really bad nightmares of Penny turning out to hate her, it's her worst fear, and every time she gets that same nightmare, she'll wake up with tears streaming down her face. She would probably also have a panic attack for a solid 30 minutes... It's really bad.

Penny will wake up in the morning with a ton of missed calls and messages from Constance telling her that she needs to hear her voice and it makes Penny feel so sorry that she didn't wake up in time.

There are so many times when she and Penny are hanging out and Constance just has to stop for a moment so her heart won't actually explode on her from beating so fast. Penny just brings out such an obsessive and great love within her that she literally makes her lose her breath.

This might be a concerning thought to have, but Constance is really grateful that they died on that roller coaster that day. It's what kickstarted their relationship after all and got her to see the amazing girl in front of her for what she's worth. She can't believe she spent so long blind to Penny, blind to how much she loves.

General/All together:

Penny frequently gets close to actually finding out why the choir acts the way they do but is always gaslit into thinking that she's just overthinking it.

Penny should be glad that this is after the accident, because before the accident, having them as yanderes would've been insufferable- For now, they are all at least somewhat tolerable.

Everyone in the group is aware of each other's feelings for Penny, which makes it really awkward that one of them flirts with her right in front of the others-

Ocean pretty much made everyone make a pact to not try to do anything too extreme with Penny while they are all still in school. Just so they have a lower chance of actually killing each other.

Group hangouts are so chaotic.

They are pretty much always at Constance's house, if they aren't it's because Ocean is forcing them to all go outside for a change.

They have a group chat that doesn't have Penny in it so they can talk about her. It's really there so they can make plans for if Penny finds out of them liking her or if there is some kind of emergency regarding her.

Penny is banned from going on any fair ride.

A/N: Guys, I seriously don't know why I made Mischa's so long- It makes the others look bad. :'/

[orelsemystery]

my OCs from Or Else! they're all normal and well-adjusted and soooo good at talking about their feelings.

Charles (upper left): former reporter, current assistant to Julian. wants to be a detective, a Romantic poet, a free spirit, a cloistered academic, a fantasy world hero, etc etc. is actually a socially anxious millennial.

Julian (upper right): private detective. used to be the star of a kid's TV show called Young Sherlock. doesn't seem to want anyone to mention that. is weirdly shy for someone whose job is to be nosy.

Piper (bottom left): grad student. watson to lu's holmes. they're not not an emotionally messy queer wracked with longing. they're not not increasingly conflicted about the cultish, dysfunctional state of their English department.

Lu (bottom right): grad student. big main character energy. unfortunately, is actually the "missing woman who becomes a cipher for everyone else to project on" type in this story. writes about erotic fanfiction and victorian ghosts. did she leave because she was too cool for school or did something more sinister take her away??

find the picrew here!

[quinnmorgendorffer]

gob x tony

Oh boy okay okay first of all thank you for asking and sorry for taking so long to reply!!!

anyway.....

I am not exaggerating or speaking hyperbolically when I say that Gob/Tony is truly one of the best modern, CANON gay romances ever put to film.

First off, you have Gob's whole backstory. He's the disappointment, the one who should be the one to inherit his dad's company but is too incompetent compared to his younger brother. It's, again, canon that he's kept around to commit crimes for his family, use his charm, and - this one is his own thought process - fuck people to help the business.

He's the unwanted son, the bullet in his parents' shotgun wedding, canonically his mom's least favorite child and definitely not that high on his dad's list, either. The man is desperate for love throughout the whole show, leading to him freaking out when he thinks his girlfriend doesn't appreciate his magical abilities or using his bachelor party to try to frame someone for murder just because his dad's the one planning it. He cries when he thinks his brother didn't listen to his CD! He just wants people to love and appreciate him and it never seems to work.

Then he meets Tony. And even in "Sword of Destiny", Tony is impressed by him! And Tony takes enough interest to come to his wedding illusion and seem vaguely impressed as well - and note that no one from his family came to the wedding at all except Tobias, and that was just because he got an acting gig!

And, though they both were faking at first, Tony listens to him. Tony doesn't judge him. Tony is just as ridiculous as him, is just as "same" as him, and obviously feels a need to be around him for more than the Fakeblock scam, just like how Gob obviously wants to be around him for more than just to ruin his career. After all, they're both disappointed and hurt when they think the other is straight, not just angry and mad they did this for nothing like you would think if they didn't have feelings for each other.

And Gob, the man who consistently tries to run away from his problems - including even Tony at first in the beginning of s5 - becomes someone who actually proposes that they go on the road together, that Tony runs away with him. And then when he finds out that Tony is still really alive, he's the one who tracks him down and brings him back to Newport Beach.

And Tony, someone shown to not give a damn about anybody - he surely isn't romantic with Sally and he was doing something with his brother's widow ("it's fucked up") - cares so much about Gob. He tries at first to gently let him down when he's denying his own feelings. He apologizes for "missing" their sex date. He doesn't laugh at Gob for getting his words mixed up ("branding each other's taint"), which most everyone else does to him whether he realizes it or not ("the matriarch, if you will" "sure, I will"). He even agreed to do the 2nd of July float, and I cannot believe someone as show-boat-y as Tony fucking Wonder, someone who has to be the center of attention, would do a combined magician act for just anyone. And that's not even getting into the look of pure fucking LOVE Tony gives Gob in the series finale or how he's the one to suggest "Just hands!" to him.

And, outside of the canon of the show, I've seen some people say it started as a homophobic joke and I truly do not believe that. From my knowledge, Mitch basically made Gob a magician because it was funny. And you know what's funnier than one magician? Two magicians! And since magic is still weirdly a man's world, of course a magician couple happens to be two men. Will Arnett even said the story is sweet and is about Gob finding a connection he's never had before. And since they were planting hints of Gob's sexuality for YEARS, I find it hard to believe they were trying to be homophobic in any way. (Though, tbh, I have to agree with Maeby that "Gay Gob is funny.")

Anyway, I'll stop there. But tl;dr, Blunder is a true fucking masterpiece of romance and I will take no critiques on that.

Send me a ship and I’ll give you my (brutally) honest opinion on it

[jaskiers-lutkulele-of-sex]

Follow up from Eddie's POV as a bathroom-shy camp counselor

So here's the thing- Steve kinda knew he was a freak. The summer before, the first summer he and Robin had worked together, Steve had taken ten on the last night of a week from hell (was he supposed to be finding campers as part of the very last counselor vs camper game? Yes. But if he never saw another camper again, it might have been too soon), and he'd ducked into one of the single occupancy bathrooms off the mess hall.

He'd pissed, maybe cried a little, washed his face, and was just trying to find the reserves to go back out, when the door burst open and Robin Buckley had thrown herself in, and slammed the door behind her, flopping dramatically up against it, like someone was following her.

They'd looked at each other, startled, started to laugh, and rapidly found themselves almost crying.

She eventually explained that she'd seen a moment to make a break for it, and had been hoping for, like, five minutes of solitude before she had to kill one of her girls.

They sat on the floor, and they chatted, and they de-stressed for a moment...

And that started it. For the rest of that summer, they did their best to have overlapping downtime, overlapping activities, to pick each other's cabins for joint activities, and to hit the staff bathrooms in the evenings and chat a little, debrief on the day, while they brushed their teeth and stuff.

And at the end of the summer, at the end of an even more shit week (basically a skeleton crew of staff as almost half of them were down with the same virus or whatever that had been going around all summer.)

Steve and Robin were almost the last men standing, and at lunch they'd sat across from each other, and resisted the urge to lay their heads down on their arms, and looked at each other, and silently realized they both Also now had that stupid virus, but there was No One Else, so they were gonna have to suck it up and push through, and make it another 20 hours until the kids all went the fuck home.

So that night, slow and a bit loopy, and fucking desperate for the week to be over, they had sat down and leaned on each other and maybe even cried a bit, and talked.

And Robin had come out to him.

And Steve... hadn't been honest with her.

He thought he'd handled it well (really well, considering he'd been working his way up to being a little bit in love with her), and he was, like, very very honored that she felt like she could tell him, and he Did love her, he decided, even if it wasn't gonna be romantic, because he wanted the world for her, he wanted her to want someone who would be GOOD for her, and to her, and would think she was as like cool and neat and as special of a person as he did (and that was Not going to be Tammy Thompson, he was Very sure).

But what he hadn't done? Was say "me too."

Well, not that he was also a lesbian, but that he Also liked... well, he liked More Than Girls, he was pretty sure, and had for a long time maybe, and he wasn't completely sure what that was called, if it was, like, at all normal.

And that wasn't all.

Steve had a kink. Well, Steve had several, had had enough sex and spent enough time alone jerking off in his teenage hood to know about Several slightly less-common things he liked that most other folks didn't seem to...

But he had one Big Weird one. One that he'd never told anyone about, and never planned to, and actually had sort of figured was an ab... a bud... a burr nation or whatever, Wrong and Bad like liking boys was supposed to be...

Steve liked it when folks... well. He liked it when people he liked were... kind of desperate.

Growing up, he'd always been weirdly fascinated by stuff on TV like when someone was a prisoner and tied up and stuff, and they had to ask the bad guy to let them go so they could pee. Or where the good guys spiked the bad guys drink with laxatives, so the bad guy would have to stop chasing them and run to the bathroom, things like that.

He didn't know why he was so interested, but he had been, and in a way that felt like he instinctively should hide it, as instinctively as he hid that he liked to look at other boys sometimes.

At least part of his King Steve persona had been about being a person No One would suspect of being... perverted? No one looked at King Steve: Ladies Man and thought maybe he also kind of thought he'd like to touch another guy's dick. No one looked at King Steve: Perfect from hair to shoes, and thought maybe he also liked to put off going to the bathroom sometimes just to feel it build, to jerk off while desperate to piss, and let relieving himself afterwards feel kind of like coming a second time... that he'd like to get a partner that way- so full and worked up that they didn't know what was gonna happen first, and he'd be absolutely fine with it either way, as long as he could watch them struggle to hold on, to let go, to finally break and feel so blissful...

Anyway.

He'd said none of that to Robin.

Back in Hawkins, they'd stayed close, him driving her to school, her coming over to hang and watch movies sometimes in the evening... if she had wanted to pretend to date him or something, like, so people would have "proof" she liked boys, they couldn't have done a much better job.

And Steve... well. He didn't, like, come out? Exactly? But he... well at first he maybe Failed to Hide the part where sometimes he liked guys, but after, after he realized what he'd said one night, while they were watching one of his more action-type picks... well, she hadn't made a big deal out of it.

So.

So he stopped hiding that part.

And the other ... Well, Robin knew he'd had a pretty solid sex life there for a while, and although sometimes they talked about stuff (yeah, Steve knew they had a weird friendship, for a guy and a girl. Maybe weird for Anyone, but yeah probably weird for two people who weren't dating), but she sometimes made a big deal out of Too Much info (and sometimes pushed for more, fascinated), and he'd been pretty careful, he thought, to not give anything away.

... And then Eddie Munson signed up to play guitar all summer at Steve and Robin's camp.

Robin Clocked Steve Clocking Eddie as fast as it happened, and Steve was no sooner talking himself down from "oh shit, Munson's hot", than he was scowling at Robin as she suggestively wiggled eyebrows and meaningfully nodded her head and just generally made a nuisance of herself (And she had no legs to stand on- Steve Also Saw how tongue-tied and left-footed Robin kept getting around another new counselor, Chrissy Cunningham.)

And Steve thought he was doing all right, thought he was maybe covering for his slightly too-intense interest in Eddie... until the first break, until there were like eight of them and some weed and some beer, and a liiiiittle bit of harder stuff, and they were all winding down and taking the edge off in Quail Cabin, over on the girls' side.

And Eddie started squirming.

Eddie was kind of a squirrely dude, so Steve might not have even noticed (except that he Always Noticed certain behaviors), but it got worse and worse, and Eddie got quieter and quieter.

Steve couldn't figure out why Eddie hadn't excused himself. The girls had all been out at least once, and Steve thought every guy but Eddie had taken at least one opportunity to step out and pee on a tree, but there Eddie was, clearly uncomfortable, clearly not going to do anything about it.

Steve had kind of needed to take a shit for a little while, like, by no means urgently, but like he could if he needed to? And normally he would have just waited till they were all done and gone before bed (Or maybe not, if he had time to kind of enjoy the urgency a bit, later)

But, feeling bad about whatever Eddie's dilemma was, his Thing didn't really extend to people being Unhappy or whatever (In all his fantasies, the only thing he wanted his partners to feel was Relieved and Good, after), Steve excused himself down to the bathroom.

Maybe Eddie was freaked out by going out in the dark by himself? Seemed a little weird for the hellfire worshiping-the-devil dude, but people could surprise you. Steve certainly knew that.

Robin joined him, and Eddie did too, thank Jesus, but he got kind of... kind of cagey or something, when they got down to the girls bathroom.

Steve didn't hear him take a stall, but the almost-there affect or whatever had taken hold and Steve actually suddenly did have to go kinda bad, so he was momentarily just focused on that...

And after he was done, he could hear sinks running... But he didn't think...

And when he came out? Eddie looked bad. Eddie looked really bad.

Robin had clocked it too, and after Steve made her stop being a jerk and go away, Eddie had gone super white and made for the stall and basically fell down. Steve caught him, and helped him, and then in the rush realized that Eddie hadn't been able to latch the door

Steve thought Eddie definitely didn't want anyone to hear him, but he also probably didn't want anyone to walk in, so Steve just stood there awkwardly holding the door, and keeping himself focused on anything except for listening to Eddie practically moan with relief on the other side of the door.

Stupid crush. Stupid kink. Stupid dick getting inappropriately chubbed up.

Eventually, the sounds of Eddie seriously blowing up the toilet slowed, and then stopped (as did the, like, ecstatic moaning Steve had been guiltily committing to memory).

When Eddie emerged again, he was clearly embarrassed, but also just as clearly relieved , relaxed in a way he... well, he rarely was. And it looked good on him, the ease in his shoulders, the pink of exertion across his cheeks and nose... fuck this was definitely only making Steve's thing worse.

And Eddie admitting that he didn't like to go to the bathroom in public? Implying that he regularly held it longer than was comfortable to avoid that?

Fuck.

(Now, Steve did think this probably meant that Eddie didn't drink enough in the day, but that was probably an argument for another day)

So yeah, they chatted, and made amends, and Eddie splashed water on his face (and Steve failed at not watching the water drip down his neck, at noting how the damps made the hair around his face even curlier) and they headed back up to the cabin.

And when they ended the night? When Steve and Eddie finally parted ways?

There was definitely a new... rapport there. An intimacy maybe?

Steve wanted to take Eddie's little bashful grin and good night and fold them away into his breast pocket.

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WEIRDLY SPECIFIC QUESTIONS MEME

anonymously send a question or questions from below! credit taken from here

What's the lie you say most often?

How loosely or strictly do you use the word 'friend'?

How often do you show your genuine emotions to others?

What's a hobby you used to have that you miss?

Can you cry on command? If so, what do you think about to make it happen?

What's your favorite [insert anything] that you would never recommended to anyone before?

What would you yell in the middle of a crowd to find your best friend or romantic partner? What would they yell to find you?

How loose is your use of the phrase ‘I love you’?

Do you give tough love or gentle love most often? Which do you prefer to receive?

What fact do you excitedly tell everyone about at every opportunity?

If someone was impersonating you, what would your friends or family ask or do to tell the difference?

What's something that makes you laugh every single time? Be specific!

When do you fake a smile? How often?

How do you put out a candle?

What’s the most obvious difference between your behavior at home, at work, at school, with friends, and when you're alone?

What kinds of people do you have arguments with in your head?

What do you notice first in the mirror versus what most people first notice looking at you?

Who do you love truly, 100% unconditionally (if anyone)?

What would you do if stuck in a room with the person you've been avoiding?

Who do you like as a person but hate their work? Vice versa, whose work do you like but don't like the person?

What common etiquette do you disagree with? Do you still follow it?

What simple activity that most people do/can do scares you?

What do you feel guilty for that the other person doesn’t even remember?

Did you take a cookie from the cookie jar? What kind of cookie was it?

What subject or topic do you know a lot about that’s completely useless?

How would you respond to being fired by a good boss?

What’s the worst gift you ever received? How did you respond?

What do you tell people you want? What do you actually want?

How do you respond when someone doesn’t believe you?

When you make a mistake and feel bad, does the guilt differ when it’s personal versus when it’s professional?

When do you feel the most guilt? How do you respond to it?

If you committed one petty crime or misdemeanor, what would it be? Why?

How do you greet someone you dislike or hate?

How do you greet someone you like or love?

What is the smallest, morally questionable choice you’ve made?

Who do you keep in your life for professional gain? Is it for malicious intent?

What’s a secret you haven’t told serious romantic partners and don’t plan to tell?

What hobby are you good at in private, but bad at in front of others? Why?

Would you rather be invited to an event to feel included or be excluded from an event if you were not genuinely wanted there?

How do you respond to a loose handshake? What goes through your head?

What phrases, pronunciations, or mannerisms did you pick up from someone or somewhere else?

If invited to a TED Talk, what topic would you present on? What would the title of your presentation be?

What do you commonly misinterpret because of your own upbringing, environment, or biases? How do you respond when realizing the misunderstanding?

What language would be easiest for you to learn? Why?

What’s something unimportant or frivolous that you hate passionately?

Are you a listener or a talker? If you’re a listener, what makes you talk? If you’re a talker, what makes you listen?

Who have you forgotten about that remembers you very well?

Who would you say ‘yes’ to if invited to do something you abhorred or strongly didn’t want to do?

Would you eat something you find gross to be polite?

What belief, moral, or personality trait do you stand by that most wouldn't agree with?

What’s a phrase you say a lot?

Do you act on your immediate emotions, or do you wait for the facts before acting?

Who would/do you believe without question?

What’s your instinct in a fight, flight, freeze, or fawn situation?

What’s something you’re expected to enjoy based on your hobbies or profession that you actually dislike or hate?

If you’re scared, who do you want comfort from? Does this answer change depending on the type of fear?

What’s a simple daily activity or motion that you mess up often?

How many hobbies have you attempted to have over your lifetime? Is there a common theme?

*please do not interact if you are not a member in the group, this is for the use of our roleplay members. see the credit linked above for the original meme!