#Dean got shot

[saturnneedsspace]

After Cas confesses his love, but before he pushes Dean away, he pulls something out from his trench coat and slips it into Dean's pocket. Cas pushes him down and gets taken by the Empty, followed by Billie, leaving Dean alone on the bunker floor. As he cries, he feels something push into his chest, so he reaches his hand into his flannel pocket and pulls out the mixtape. The one he had given Cas as a gift and a secret sort of love confession of his own, thinking Cas wouldn't understand it. But as he stared down at the tape over top that read 'Dean's top 13 Zeppelin traxx', he knew that Cas understood. And he feels his heart break even more. Cas knew. Cas knew how he felt, yet he never said anything until it was too late. They were both too stupid to understand and just tell each other.

As Dean held the mixtape firmly in his hands, shoulders shaking with his sobs, he noticed that something felt off about it. The texture was different. He would know. He had flipped the cassette over and over and over in his hands before giving it to Cas, trying to decide on what to say to the angel.

Dean used his sleeve to wipe the blurriness from his eyes so he could see what was wrong with it. It still took a few seconds to adjust, and when he saw the large crack down the center of the tape, he gasped and brought it closer to his face. More tears spilled down his face. Cas' last move was to give this back to him, to show him that he understood their love and reassured Dean that, though he never said it, he knew how much he had meant to him. And Dean had broken it. The last thing Cas had ever given him besides the bloody handprint forever imprinted on his coat.

But as Dean's hands held on, finergrtips rubbing over the surface again and again, desperate to feel some kind of comfort in his hopeless situation, he noticed something attached to the back of it. He sniffled, wiped his eyes again, and flipped it over. On the backside, there was a piece of paper taped there with his name written on it. He quickly ripped it off, causing the cassette to re-split in half, obvious that the piece of tape being all that held it together, and opened the note.

Hello, Dean.

I just wanted to write you this before I give back your tape and apologize for breaking it. I'm really really sorry. I know I'm not super good at apologies, but writing makes it a lot easier, so I'm writing it for you. I hope you'll forgive me. I didn't mean to break it. I know you spent a lot of time picking the songs specifically for me because you knew I'd like them, though I had trouble understanding some of the parts. I'll never understand why humans love music so much. It's so much noise and there's so much going on, but I know it's important to you, so I will learn to like it. I'm very sorry for breaking it. I don't ever take it out of my trench coat, just in case I need to listen to it during an emergency, and I fell onto it. :( Please forgive me, Dean. I'm very sorry.

As Dean read, he watched tear drops stain the paper. He laughed a little as he continued to cry, noting how the letter was the most characteristic Cas letter he could think of. And he was happy. So happy that he didn't break it himself. It was already broken.

Cas knew how much the weight of handing over a mixtape was, especially a Zeppelin one for Dean, and he acknowledged it. Dean squeezed the letter to his chest as he leaned back against the wall and continued to cry silently.

[calm-mysoul]

[megararefrog]

Ok hear me out

We are nearing an anniversary here on tumblr a ten year anniversary, this April 1st marks a decade since the GREAT MISHAPOCALPYS

and I think we should honor this momentous occasion but repeating it but not just here everywhere, twitter,insta,tictok, Reddit,

now you may ask why I would insite such a thing the simple answer is I feed on chaos I would thrive in it

so to sum it up

on April fools day I think we should all change our icons to this

Please repost

[crosnt]

its so fucking insane that not even 12 hours after sam "died" dean like immediately tried to kill himself like what the hell guys

and you dont even know which episode im talking about

[deanspunchingbag]

the way dean would have been such a good dad. he would have been so terrified he was doing to all wrong, and constantly trying to make sure he didn't turn into his dad. of course he would have his moments, make mistakes and get angry, but all parents do. but you know what he wouldn't do? forget a single birthday or holiday. he wouldn't miss a single ball game, recital, play, or anything between. he would be the type to wear a costume to school drop off if his kids were embarrassed to wear something. he would be so involved in the things they liked. learning about a new video game or movie series that was out. watching youtube videos on how to do hair for ballet. he would give a 30 minute speech before teaching them how to drive in the impala, and wouldn't even get mad if they accidentally slammed on the breaks or ran on the curb (but would frantically check every inch of the car once they got home). he would be the kind of parent he and sammy always wanted.

[rosewheresheshouldntbe]

> Rose: Confess to Kanaya!

Rose: I love you.

Kanaya: Y Yo Ati, Rose.

> Rose: Get swallowed by something that looks like Venom.

> Rose: Get sent to super hell!

> Kanaya: Have something very gay and homophobic happen to you.

Kanaya: ...

What an absolute diversity loss. You find yourself thinking "love loses!"

[define-bored]

Oh hey, Supernatural’s trending again! I wonder what could’ve-

[imaginethatsupernatural]

"Don't know if it's this 'Christmas spirit' they talk about or if it's spending time with you...,"

[nobodymitskigabriel]

The thing about Gabriel's death being pointless that tears me up is that it's LITERALLY a suicide. If it had been shot in a slightly less moronic way maybe it would look like him heroically sacrificing himself to give the Winchester's time, but as it stands, they literally just idley stood by while an extremely weakened Gabriel ran up to face Michael. Absolutely no shot.

Gabriel's trickster persona has always been a survival tactic. He chose to become someone who didn't need to face responsibility or destiny. He's not strong enough to deal with his family's fighting or to face them himself so he takes the easy road in life because it's easier for him to accept that he isn't part of the story than to believe that any of his choices matter. He kills people, and the fact that they're "bad" people probably has something to do with his resentment for Lucifer's corruption of humanity and serves as a way for him to manufacture moral superiority to other "monsters" but really he knows better. He kills people because he can. He's a low hitter and he'll find ways to hit even lower because trying to come up would force him to confront himself which is something he doesn't know how to do.

At some point, definitely the end of Unfinished Business, Gabriel does regret how he treated Sam and Dean, especially Sam. But he knows the things he's done are not the kind of things you can shrug and say "sorry bro" about. He abandoned heaven and by now nearly all the angels are dead. How is he supposed to face them? He's not a soldier and definitely not a leader. After what he's been through with Loki and Asmodeus, he's utterly sick of the Trickster path.

So what is there left for him to do?

[grinchwrapsupreme]

if there's one thing Good Girls loves it's opening a scene on a shot of Dean dissociating

[opens-up-4-nobody]

Ugh. Supernatural fans will write fanfics about Dean Winchester that are so heart shattering it tricks me into thinking I should rewatch Supernatural.

[mlobsters]

supernatural s3e3 bad day at black rock

points were made

[hakusins]

i'm about to eat my phone wHAT DO YOU MEAN IM 70 INTO PITY AND I STILL HAVEN'T GOTTEN HIS FUCKING !!!! WEAPON HBJERFJERBJHF IM GOING TO HAVE TO HIT THE FUCKING PITY?!??!?!?!

jiyan you must know i have never worked this hard for a wife before, please be grateful.

[butch--dean]

Ok honestly? S5 ep 10 abandon all hope top 10 episodes

[flugame-mp3]

SEASON NINE FINALE WAS WILD. I HAVE MANY MANY THOUGHTS. WHAT JUST HAPPENED. A FUCKING ROLLER COASTER FOR SURE

[typinggently]

I think the one thing that would stand in the way of Sam/fem!Dean is that Sammy does usually go for petite girls and Dean would be like. 5'7-5'9. That woman would be 180cm+ tall.