#Deadlines help me deadlines make me work

[some-pers0n]

Snail in my ear is telling me to do weekly updates for my longfic again for the month of June like I did last year (I haven't updated since the beginning of March)

[kaijukebox]

Happy Christmas Eve, here’s yet another couple of messy HarryKims 🫶

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[opens-up-4-nobody]

Oh my adhd having students, I mean this in the most "I'm trying to help u pass this class" way possible: what the fuck am I supposed to do with you? And I mean that as an earnest question. If u have advice pls let me know.

[bleue-flora]

Well… my orginal ambition was to finish Musical Chairs before Halloween or at least get to 13, then it was just to get to chapter 10… but even that I have failed. Sorry, too many things going on I guess. In my defense 9 and 10 are written, though that’s thanks to my coauthor for these chapters @error-dream-was-found, which I commissioned to help me to make Techno’s pov kinda match that of Crow’s Nest so it feels consistent. :) Anyways, I figured though I might as well post a little snippet with my Halloween reference XD:

“Heeeeeeeh?!” He stares at the man, unable to form a response that wouldn’t question Punz’s sanity.

Seriously, though no sane person would think that it’s a good idea to let Dream anywhere in a 10 mile radius of the prison let alone live in it like some cozy retirement home. Not to mention tie his torturer to some chair and deliver him like some treat for Halloween that turned out to be a trick. An eye for an eye is all good and well but even that is going a bit too far. Someone really needs to revoke Punz’s therapy license, before he and Dream get any more bright ideas about how amazing it is to live in the boilin’ cell to overcome trauma via exposure therapy as if that ever works. No, the teletubby doesn’t need to live in his own personal torture box and he doesn’t need to torture his torturer to heal, he clearly just needs some ‘woof’ R'n'R and maybe a few potatos to defenestrate to help him de-stress.

In the end, he gives up and rubs his forehead, “I mean this in the nicest way possible, Punz, but jeez man, you are an idiot.”

[mgert-m]

I know its been a bit since you said what's the point if there's an official version but I have to ask. Do you like Aus? Do you like re imaginings? Do you like fanfiction? If yes to any of them then that's the point. Plays and what “official” change so often that really its kinda up to you to pick your favorite. I mean Epic makes so many changes to the Odyssey and there's people out there making animatics of scenes that are “official” as they're requested by Jorge but that doesn't stop them from having their own take. The best answer I can give to whats the point is because you love what it is and have ideas for what you love and that's beautiful

oh my god this is actually beautiful

i've been trying to come to terms to the fact that epic officially releasing doesn't mean the end of the world

i can keep making art and animatics after that happens

and this is honestly helping me in that

ill try to find the post where i said this stuff for some context

thanks anon

found it

[m1dnight-blu3]

someone please free me from the shackles of my ableist job so I can read my books, draw and write my silly little fics in PEACE

[apocalypticdemon]

I am so beyond ready to quit this job. Wednesday cannot come fast enough.

[adore-gregor]

Lol I keep on doing this, saying I'd come back to tumblr to only disappear again 😂😭

[servuscallidus]

the small historical note is turning into three pages of rushed historical info

[moonstruckdraws]

when you get all the motivation, inspiration, and consistency in the world to draw that you've been hoping to appear on Saturday but instead appears on a late Sunday afternoon to where you have to go to bed soon to be energized and productive enough to function in class

no? just me? okay.

[wutheringmights]

So.... new CTB is taking me a while. Yikes.

Sorry for the long wait, everybody. This past month and a half have been exhausting. I picked up Judo again, and I'm still adjusting not only to having it in my schedule, but to the number it does on my body. Plus there's just been a lot going on in my personal life between family and friend obligations, some original fiction projects I've started, and the beginning onset of my annual seasonal depression.

In short, I'm busy all the time. When I'm not busy, I'm freaking exhausted.

Right now, I'm going to say that next CTB will not be this weekend, but the one after. I still got a lot of work to do, but I think having a deadline will help kick my butt into gear.

Until then, thank you for your patience. Happy autumn!

[opens-up-4-nobody]

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[autism-corner]

whoever decided that a mental illness should have negative effects needs to DIE.

[scare-ard--sleigh]

ohhhhhhhhhh my goddddddddd and now the fucking t*ble t*nnis guy is passive aggressively up my ass : \

[houkagokappa]

I'm not doing well and I need help, but I don't know where I'm gonna get that or how I'll manage to ask for it.

All the classes I'm taking this period are self-studies and I cannot make myself do any work on my own. One class is a bit daunting, but none of the tasks I have are difficult, I just need to sit down to do them. What's keeping me from it, is mostly stress over my Master's thesis. I need to pick a topic, and I don't really know what to do.

My current options are

A project that sounds decent, for a supervisor whose style seems to fit me (they do weekly meetings and I think the structure would do me good), but the data has already been collected so I don't get to do any field work (which I'd like to do)

Come up with something relating to something a PhD student is working on relating to the same sites as in project 1 (for the same supervisor). I would get to do fieldwork, but the idea of what I'd do is vague so it's hard to say anything more about it, and I feel pressure coming up with something more concrete while I have zero ideas

A project for another supervisor, who described their style as "goal oriented", in the sense that they always want meetings to be efficient, which scared me a little (although they're a lovely person). However, they would offer a project that sounds more interesting to me, because it's on something I've worked with before, although that's also something I'm concerned over, since it might be better to broaden my horizons a little and work on different sites/with different people for a change. Also this project seemed like an afterthought to them and is not part of their main research, so I'm worried it might be a bit random?

Something else, for example I saw an advertisement for another project that sounds interesting, but I have no idea who the people behind it are. I could contact them for more info, or ask around for other projects (although I don't have a lot of time left since people want to know who'll be working for them this summer)

A fellow student empathized the importance of a good supervisor, my dad (who's a researcher in another field and has supervised others himself) suggests that the PhD student would make for a nice colleague, since they often have more time to help with things compared to PI's, while my sister (who knows nothing about what a thesis entails) insinuated that I shouldn't be so scared of the supervisor who was goal oriented, and said that she would pick them.

No one else that I've talked to has given me any suggestions on what direction I should go in.

I had a meeting with the supervisor for options 1 and 2 and I need to get back to them with an answer this week. Instead of thinking about it deeply I've been lying in bed, doing nothing at all these past 2 weeks. It doesn't help that I came back from our first meeting feeling like a failure for not having a clearer direction, not being able to reply to most of their questions of what I want to do, and for lacking some skills you NEED for your thesis, mainly when it comes to data analysing (and it's a bit iffy when and where I'm supposed to learn it properly). I'm worried about picking the wrong thing and not being able to complete my thesis because I lack the passion and motivation for it. I'm also having some mixed feelings over simply picking something and get it done, or picking something and having it be a nice stepping-stone for what I want to do next (not that I know what that'll be).

[thatrandombystander]

Oh bubble tea and pair of half stale donuts. You're the only thing between me and me quitting my fucking job right now.