#Cosmic blueprint

[julienelson]

New Moon in Gemini coming up on the 18th in the Southern Hemisphere

If you live in the Northern Hemisphere is the 17th June

This is a few days before the solstice. During the solstices the earth’s energy is more potent as she is activated with the dance of the solar and cosmic energies at play.

Gemini New Moon, Gemini Sun what we have is this airy sign kicking up its heels with spontaneity and excitement, learning and unlearning to support our personal growth.

In our Southern Hemisphere Winter is normally a time for slowing down and hibernating…Gemini’s charming and creative energy is encouraging you to lean into your curiosities. New beginnings, opportunities and offering you new experiences, to look at things differently and not limit yourself.

With Mercury in Gemini this is a good time to be mindul with your communication. Also mind how you communicate with yourself, be aware of your thoughts and feelings as Gemini can be a very busy star sign.

Mars and Neptune are also dancing with the Moon giving the energies of passion (Mars) and expansion (Neptune).

This is a time to stay in an optimistic and positive mindset. Allow your Imagination to be in creative flow.

Sometimes Gemini energy can cause us to over think and make choices too quickly. Use your breath (Air) to calm and centre yourself. If you are feeling a bit unearthed, bring some Vetiver inhalations into your day. There is nothing ethereal about Vetiver and she will help to keep your feet firmly planted on the ground.

Journaling can be wonderful during this time. Remember New Moons are a perfect time to dream big and call in your desires!

Try this New Moon aromatique Blend to align, centre, ground, focus and reflect:

Vetiver - Spearmint - Black Pepper - Rose

[bestworstcase]

i do think the key to how things will fall out regarding death on remnant is the jabberwalker, bc like

the brothers created death by creating him

the god of light, fearing they had disrupted the balance, tried to get rid of him. the god of darkness refused to countenance this, and they fought about it.

they leave the ever after. jabber remains, implying one of three possibilities: 1. dark ‘won’ the argument and both brothers agreed to let jabber live, 2. dark recreated jabber one last time in secret before they left, or 3. jabber came back later a la modern humans. given light’s general inflexibility my inclination is 2 or 3.

in any case the tree seems to accept jabber as part of the ever after and the presence of his figurine on the blacksmith’s worktable implies that he will continue to exist in some form.

during the creation of remnant, the brothers agree that death will be permanent. their reasons are not yet fully clear, but light was the only one concerned about enforcing this rule; i think it is almost certainly a rule that originated with the god of light.

“but balance cannot be restored by force or calculation; true balance finds its own equilibrium”

force = destroying jabber. calculation = creating a new world with permadeath.

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the god of light conceives of balance as a fragile order that must be meticulously maintained or else fall apart: his purpose, as he sees it, is to maintain order. everything he does comes from this. he cannot tolerate change because he lives in abject fear of ‘disrupting the balance’ again—as he believes they have already done once, by creating jabber.

so there is a certain narrative equivalency being drawn here between removing jabber and making death permanent for remnant. both decisions are predicated on a fundamental misunderstanding of what balance is.

thus the problem of death is not that it exists, per se. the problem is that death is the locus of light’s anxiety about change.

he first attempts to fix the ‘problem’ by getting rid of jabber, eliminating death. but he can’t, because dark won’t let him. so plan b is to leave the ever after and create a new world where death is part of the design—which isn’t contradictory at all if the intention is to prevent disruption of the existing order.

and something to keep in mind here is that 1. the cat and the jabberwalker were both deathless and unable to ascend, and 2. the brothers created death by mistake. for light these are crucial factors that must be accounted for in the new design. the only way to ensure that the disruptive introduction of death can never happen again is to include death from the start, transforming the accident into a deliberate choice.

which is all well and good except for one teeny, tiny wrinkle: for humans, death is not actually annihilative. they don’t simply cease to exist when they die.

i think it’s extremely likely that wasn’t supposed to happen. in a system where death is final and forever, spiritually immortal humans pose an obvious risk of disruption—and the ‘afterlife’ is evidently just permanent unconscious stasis, so it doesn’t seem like human souls were preserved for any purpose.

if your aim is to design an orderly system that can be maintained exactly as-is forever, and one of your core building blocks is that death is permanent, no exceptions, then why would you ever create beings capable of rising from the dead? you wouldn’t!

but once humans with immortal souls exist you’re sort of stuck with them, aren’t you? and i think that dilemma makes the most sense of why light’s afterlife is… like that. the souls of the dead ‘resting’ in everlasting oblivion in another realm that living humans cannot enter is the same in practice as annihilative death as long as every being capable of reaching the afterlife follows the stated rules.

the instant dark decides to make an exception, the whole system collapses. it reveals to salem that death isn’t inherently final or forever—that this is an arbitrary rule that the brothers decided, and one of them is open to the idea of changing those rules. then the gods make her immortal and light reprimands her for failing to understand how important his rules are (rules his brother just broke with no consequence except that light got mad), but ultimately what she learns is that the brothers are fallible and their rules can be changed. her rebellion is underpinned by this revelation.

the divine order suffers one small disruption and almost immediately, catastrophically fails, just as the god of light feared.

but that failure did not happen because of the disruption; the system failed because it was artificial. the brothers designed it a certain way and then light focused all of his efforts to keeping it that way, unchanging, forever—because their world wasn’t an ecosystem so much as it was a lawn in arizona. that lawn can only exist for as long as someone is doing the work to keep it on life support.

anyway the point i’m getting to is that remnant still isn’t in stable equilibrium, largely because of salem’s immortality and ozma’s reincarnations but also in the more general sense: the people of remnant are spiritually immortal but made to spend the vast majority of their existence essentially comatose because One God is afraid of change.

you can’t bring remnant into equilibrium by eliminating death: killing the jabberwalker isn’t the right answer. and you can’t restore balance by restoring the old system of divine rule and rigid adherence to the original design, because that system was a spindly papier-mâché machine that imploded the second somebody breathed on it wrong. and you can’t just yank the dead back to ameliorate your grief because that isn’t your choice to make, that’s an ethical position the narrative has made very clear.

which… really leaves changing the nature of the afterlife as the likeliest direction. death isn’t the problem, the afterlife of eternal stasis is. death isn’t the problem, light’s refusal to allow beings with immortal souls to keep going after their first life ends because the rules say death is final is the problem. because that finality is just… not reality. a person’s soul persists after death, ipso facto death isn’t the end.

but the reverse idea that death shouldn’t happen at all is not reality either. salem can’t die and her immortality is isolating and endlessly painful. ozma can’t stay dead and it’s eroded him down to a miserable shell of who he used to be. afterans choose to leave their memories behind when they ascend—nothing can happen to you in the tree except what you want to happen. without destruction, creation stagnates. death is part of life, not its enemy.

i doubt very much that the endgame here is for afteran ascension to be directly ported over into remnant—these are different worlds, different peoples, different systems, and while people from remnant can spiritually connect with the tree they are still fundamentally not part of it. afterans are emanations of the tree; humans and faunus are not. when afterans ascend they return to the roots of the tree and flow upward to blossom again from its crown, and that is, to put it mildly, not a system of reincarnation that physically makes sense for remnant, where things reproduce and have babies instead of new lives budding from the cosmic tree. if reincarnation brings equilibrium to remnant then it will presumably happen in a manner more natural to remnant’s people, and may not even involve passage through the tree at all.

it’s also not the only possibility: for example, there’s no reason that remnant’s afterlife has to be eternal sleep. it could just be… a new realm, a new world to live in after your life on remnant is ended. the brothers’ departure from the ever after into the boundless potential of the unknown is as likely a model as ascension. maybe remnant’s dead can’t return except by an act of god, but “gone from remnant forever” can coexist with the afterlife being… alive, as opposed to cold storage for inconveniently immortal souls.

basically the narrative setup isn’t toward rejecting death, it’s toward rejecting the state of affairs where you die and then millions of years later a god wakes you up and you have no awareness or memory of your existence since the moment of your death because you were kept unconscious until that god needed a servant. the point is that death isn’t the natural end of existence (because souls are immortal, on remnant as in the ever after) and remnant’s dead shouldn’t be held in stillness by light’s futile effort to make the facts of reality conform to his intended design.

the jabberwalker has existed for eons without bringing the ever after to ruin; the balance shifted, things changed a little, and life went on. remnant is existentially threatened by the factual reality of life-after-death only because light is so convinced of this danger that he is determined to prohibit it by any means necessary, including “demolish everything and start over from scratch.”

even a god can tilt at windmills.

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[astrolook]

🌑 Abusive Patterns in the Birth Chart: What to Look For 🌑

Astrology doesn’t cause abuse, but it can highlight where someone might experience hardships, power struggles, or toxic cycles. If you’ve been through abuse—whether from family, relationships, or outsiders—your chart may reflect those wounds. Here’s what to look for:

🔻 4th House & Moon Afflictions (Family Abuse) The 4th house rules home and upbringing. Tough placements here can indicate family struggles:

🖤 Saturn in the 4th – A strict, cold, or overly controlling home environment. I have seen this placements in some adopted children too.

🔥 Mars in the 4th – Conflict, violence, or anger in the household.

🖤 Pluto in the 4th – Power struggles, deep trauma, and possibly emotional or physical abuse. Sometimes this placement points to having a secret family or won't tell anyone about their family life.

🌑 Moon square/opposite Pluto, Saturn, or Mars – Emotional manipulation, neglect, or harsh discipline.

🔻 7th & 8th House Afflictions (Relationship Abuse) Toxic relationships often show up in the 7th (partnerships) or 8th (power dynamics, trauma):

🕷 Pluto in the 7th or 8th – Attracting intense, controlling partners; abusive power struggles.

Moon in the 8th - If afflicted, physical or emotional abuse from mother.

North Node in the 8th - If afflicted, substance abuse. Could even get arrested with harsh aspects.

⚡ Uranus square Venus or Moon – Unstable, chaotic relationships, sudden betrayals.

🔪 Mars square Venus – Passion meets aggression; partners who dominate or disrespect boundaries.

🖤 Saturn in the 7th (with harsh aspects) – Feeling stuck in restrictive, painful relationships. Dating is hard here.

🔻 12th House Shadows (Hidden Abuse, Outsiders & Trauma) The 12th house represents what’s hidden—secret enemies, subconscious wounds, and past-life karma:

👁 Pluto in the 12th – Deep psychological trauma, feeling trapped in unseen power struggles.

🚨 Mars in the 12th – Hidden aggression; abuse that’s hard to prove or confront.

🔮 Neptune in the 12th (with hard aspects) – Gas lighting, deception, or being taken advantage of.

🖤 Saturn in the 12th – Isolation, restriction, and suffering in silence.

🖤Sun in the 12th - Abuse from father-figures (not necessarily your father), abuse from teacher/professor, or from men in authoritative positions.

North Node in the 12th - If afflicted, alcohol or drug addictions.

🌿 Healing & Breaking Cycles 🌿 If you recognize these patterns in your chart, remember: Awareness is power. Astrology shows tendencies, but you are not bound by them. Seeking therapy, energy work, or inner healing can help break cycles. Strong placements also indicate resilience—many people with heavy Pluto or Saturn aspects rise from the ashes stronger than ever.

✨ You are not your trauma—you are your transformation. ✨

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[liviawildrose]

𝐠𝐚𝐦𝐞 𝐨𝐟 𝐥𝐢𝐟𝐞

read this to transform your life

hey guys! today, we’re diving into something that can literally transform the next 20 years of your life. why? because pluto has officially entered aquarius, and let me tell you, this is huge. if you’ve got aquarius anywhere in your birth chart like i do, you’re probably already feeling that intense energy—the urge to level up, get things done, and completely reinvent yourself. i mean, look at me: this is my second vlog today and i’ve been non-stop posting since yesterday. it’s like this cosmic shift has supercharged me, and i know it can do the same for you.

but don’t worry, even if you’re not an aquarius, this energy is hitting everyone in some way. so whether you’re ready for it or not, pluto in aquarius is here, and it’s bringing transformation on a massive scale. now, this blog is part of my series called the “game of life”, but since this pluto shift is so major, i’ve decided to make this a crossover between the two themes. we’re going to talk about how to actually use this energy to change your life, level up, and play the long game to completely transform the next 20 years and beyond. so, if you’re ready to tap into this cosmic power and take control of your future, follow along because this blog might just change your life.

just before we dive in, i want you guys to check out a blog i posted a couple of weeks ago—it’s all about the first steps to getting your shit together. it’s a great starting point for understanding how to lay the groundwork for your transformation journey. if you haven’t seen it yet, head over to blog “first steps” and give it a read. trust me, it’ll help you get a solid foundation before you dive into the next level of this process.

avatar

okay, now that you’ve got your basics down from the previous blog, let me introduce you to the game of life. this is where things get fun. first, we’re going to focus on creating your avatar. now, if you’ve read that earlier blog, you’ll remember i talked about building an alter ego. for example, mine is called livia wildrose. she’s my vision of absolute perfection the version of me i aspire to be. this is your chance to go wild. grab a journal and start designing your alter ego and how her life is. i don’t care how crazy, bold, or unrealistic it might seem this is your imagery of perfection. who is she? how does she look? how does she act? what does her life look like? write it all down. get creative draw her, make a mood board, whatever feels right. this is your blueprint. now, here’s the twist: in the game of life, you are the avatar. your current self, with all your flaws and strengths, is the player in this game. your mission? to become your alter ego. think of it like this: your avatar (you) might not have everything your alter ego has right now. maybe she’s more confident, more successful, smarter, richer, or better-looking. but that’s okay because she represents your end goal. every step you take toward embodying her, every choice that aligns you closer to her energy, earns you points in the game of life. the idea is to bridge the gap between who you are now (your avatar) and who you want to be (your alter ego). every time you make progress whether it’s a mindset shift, a small win, or a big milestone you’re leveling up. this is how you win the game.

for example, let’s say your alter ego is this ultra-rich, world-famous singer, idol, and total icon. she’s confident, magnetic, and lives her dream life effortlessly. that’s your end goal that’s your alter ego. now, your job is to build her. create her personality, her habits, her lifestyle, her goals, and most importantly, her mindset. think about it what kind of mindset does she have? does she radiate confidence? does she have unshakable discipline? does she take no for an answer, or does she turn every rejection into motivation? for me, my alter ego, livia wildrose, has a queen-like, goddess-like mindset. that means every single brick life throws at me, i’m gonna build a castle out of it. scratch that i’m gonna build a shrine. nothing breaks me; i only get stronger, wiser, and better. that’s how livia wildrose operates, and that’s what drives me every single day.

imagine you’re playing a game where you have to build a village from scratch. when you start, you don’t just dive in blindly—you go around and observe how other players have built their villages. you notice their strengths, but also their flaws. maybe someone’s village is too cluttered, or their defenses are weak, or their farms are in the wrong spots. you take mental notes: ‘okay, that’s not my vibe. i’m not gonna do that.’ this also brings me to the point that learn from other peoples mistake too. my friend right now is going through a very tough break up. and the guy is being a total asshole. and the more she talk about the relationship to me how it was, and we try to get the cues like “oh we could’ve realised back then when he said this particular thing” that he is not the one. (the fact he was a total sexist asshole) i realised that when i get into a relationship, and if i see my future boyfriend having these traits, i will leave. why? because I learnt from her mistakes of letting things slide, and not noticing the minor red flags that later became worse.

(back to the topic) then, you create an image of your ideal village in your head. you don’t copy anyone, but you take inspiration. you think, ‘this is my aesthetic, this is how i want my village to function.’ you make a mental note of all the details where the farms will go, where the population will live, how everything will flow. and then you start building, step by step, upgrading, improving, and making decisions based on the vision you created. now apply that same concept to your life. create an ideal version of yourself (alter ego) in your head. imagine your ideal life, your ideal personality, your dream self. think about who she is, how she thinks, how she acts, what her daily habits are. don’t just copy someone else’s life take inspiration. maybe you admire someone’s confidence but not their style, or their work ethic but not their priorities. fine. make mental notes and adjust it to fit your vibe. every time you make a decision or work to improve yourself (your current avatar), use that ideal version of yourself as a guide. ask yourself, ‘what would she do? how would she handle this? what choice aligns me closer to her?’ take inspiration from her and let her energy fuel every upgrade you make. step by step, you’ll start building a life that’s completely aligned with the vision you’ve dreamed of. for example in pubg. the end goal is to become a conqueror so what you do every single time when you play that game is make sure that you’re good with your teammates, you get the most kills, you win every single match, because that is what will bring you to your end goal.

the bars of life

1. health bar

health is the foundation, the core, the absolute main bar. without health, nothing else matters. it’s like playing a survival game if your health is low, you’re dead in the water, right? you can’t progress, you can’t fight, you can’t level up. every single step in your journey starts with taking care of your body and mind. health is everything. make sure you’re eating right, sleeping enough, working out, and keeping your mind in a positive, stable place. the healthier you are, the more you’ll be able to conquer in all aspects of life. keep this bar maxed out, or you won’t even have the energy to fight for your dreams.

2. physical bar

now, let’s talk about the physical bar. this is all about how your body looks and feels. how’s your physique? toned? fit? are you putting in the work to make sure your body is in shape, or are you letting it slide? it’s not just about the gym though—it’s about how you present yourself. do your clothes flatter your body type? are you dressing in a way that highlights your best features? are your nails done, your hair styled, your makeup light but on point? when you walk into a room, does your physical presence demand attention and admiration? this is about taking pride in your appearance and making sure your physicality aligns with the highest version of yourself. everything from your posture to the way you dress, this is how people will notice you. own it.

3. mental bar

the mental bar is all about your mindset, emotional health, and mental well-being. how do you show up in the world every day? what is your internal dialogue like? are you a powerhouse of positivity and productivity, or are you letting negative thoughts control you? this bar is about building a mindset that propels you forward, no matter what life throws at you. like i always say, every single brick life throws at me, i will build a castle out of it—or a shrine. i don’t care what happens, it’s all fuel for my fire. this is the mental toughness you need to develop to grow.

if you’re facing challenges—whether it’s dealing with stress, anxiety, or depression—take care of your mental health. if you need a therapist, get one. if journaling helps you unpack emotions and thoughts, make it a habit. every step you take to improve your mental health is a step toward leveling up your life. every time you choose a positive, productive mindset, you’re not just surviving—you’re thriving. strengthen this bar, and everything else in life becomes more manageable.

your mental bar is not just about surviving the chaos—it’s about learning to navigate it with grace, strength, and an unbreakable belief in your ability to create your dream life.

4. spiritual bar

the spiritual bar is your path to alignment with yourself and the universe. this is where you connect with your higher self, your energy, and your beliefs. spirituality isn’t just about religion—though it can be if that’s part of your journey. it’s about meditating, doing yoga (especially Kundalini, like i mentioned), and tuning into the deepest parts of yourself. when you start aligning your chakras and balancing your energies, you’re strengthening this bar. it’s about connecting to something greater than yourself—whether that’s through rituals, prayer, or mindfulness practices. this is the bar that ensures your spirit is nurtured, your energy is clean, and your soul is grounded. if you’re in tune with yourself and aligned with your truth, you can face anything the world throws at you.

5. financial bar

now, let’s talk about the financial bar. this is where you track your wealth, your earning capacity, and how financially empowered you are. how’s your financial situation? are you getting paid what you’re worth? are you bringing in new streams of income? every single time you land a promotion, secure a new deal, or create another source of income, this bar rises. even small wins matter—getting that side hustle going, saving a little extra this month, investing in yourself. all these things count. this bar is about actively working toward your financial freedom and success. if you’re serious about leveling up in life, this bar has to be taken seriously. wealth isn’t just about money—it’s about abundance in every area of your life. when you strengthen this bar, you give yourself the power to live the life you want

6. career bar

the career bar is all about progression, ambition, and success in your professional life. every time you take a step forward—whether it’s landing a promotion, launching a side hustle, or expanding your business—it’s a win for your career bar. it’s not just about the outcome, but about the process too. when you learn a new skill to level up in your field, or when you push yourself to take on more responsibility, this bar grows. every single action you take to further your career—no matter how small—contributes to building the empire you want. it’s about building something that lasts and ensuring that your career serves as the foundation for the life you envision.

7. social bar

the social bar is about how you connect and interact with others. it includes your relationships with family, friends, lovers, and colleagues, as well as your social media presence. every time you make a meaningful connection, whether it’s through a new friendship or strengthening bonds with existing relationships, your social bar grows. it also covers your social media footprint—every time you post something, earn followers, or engage with your audience, you’re building your social presence. the way you show up in the world, the vibe you put out, and how others perceive you are all part of this bar. what’s important is that you’re intentional about your social connections. it’s not just about quantity, but quality. how do you carry yourself? how do people feel around you? remember, you can always adjust the way you’re perceived by adjusting how you act. we’ll dive deeper into how you can shift your social presence to your advantage later on.

8. legacy bar

the legacy bar is about the impact you leave behind and how you’re remembered. while you might not need to focus on this too much at 17 (like me too), it’s still something that will guide your actions as you grow older. your legacy is like the final level of your life game—it’s the impression you leave on others, the tangible and intangible things you pass on to the next generation. think about it like this: your legacy could be how generous you were. maybe you donate to charities, help the less fortunate, or fund scholarships. maybe you leave behind a family with strong values, or set up a business that supports others and creates opportunities. or even, it’s the homes you buy and the wealth you build that your kids will inherit. that’s a form of legacy too—creating something that endures, that your children or loved ones can benefit from long after you’re gone.

you want to make sure you’re giving back—whether it’s in terms of charity, helping your community, or creating something that continues to benefit people beyond your time here. it’s about living with intention, creating something greater than yourself, and making sure that when people look back, they say, “wow, she did something good.” when I think of my legacy, I want to be known for making an impact on my country, helping its economy grow, and providing jobs. so, always think about the ripple effect your actions will have not just on yourself but on the world around you, long after you’re gone.

9. environmental bar

okay, so let’s talk about your environmental bar. this is pretty much everything around you: where you live, who you hang out with, and what you’re consuming—whether it’s people, media, or food. your environment shapes you more than you think. if you live in clutter, your brain gets cluttered. if you’re surrounded by negative energy or toxic people, guess what? that negativity starts rubbing off on you. toxicity? it’s contagious. trust me. this is why i always say: your environment is EVERYTHING. let’s say you’re stuck in a place where people are draining your energy, or your room looks like a hurricane hit it—what’s happening? your life starts feeling chaotic. but if you clean up your space, set boundaries with toxic people, and start surrounding yourself with supportive, positive vibes, you’ll see that your life follows suit. if you’re surrounded by success-driven people, guess what happens? you start moving differently too.

for example, i know my current living situation is toxic. but, once i move out, that’s going to be my environmental grace. i’ll finally have the space to thrive, away from negative energy. maybe for you, it’s as simple as clearing your workspace or unfollowing people on social media who bring you down. the key is that you’re actively creating a good environment for your growth. declutter, move people who don’t vibe with you, and make sure everything you interact with is aligned with your goals.

10. fun and recreation bar

listen, life isn’t just about hustling and grinding, okay? it’s also about having fun. and don’t let anyone tell you otherwise. people always forget that joy and peace are important parts of growth. hobbies, fun experiences, and doing things that bring you relaxation and joy are just as vital as your career or health bar. sure, you might not make money from every hobby, but if it brings you peace or helps you unwind, then it’s worth it.

like me, i might not be making millions off of drawing, but damn, it’s relaxing. it’s something that i look back on and feel proud of. the point is, don’t skip out on fun. go out with friends, explore new things, travel, dance, create. don’t just work to live—live to enjoy it. make time for meaningful parties, exploring new places, or just learning something new for fun. trust me, it will make you feel whole. it’s the only life we’ve got, so might as well enjoy it. while also being productive (im sorry had to add this 😭)

11. intelligence bar

okay, this one should be obvious, but let me make it clear: your intelligence bar should always be leveling up. this is the bar for everything you do to expand your mind, whether it’s learning a new skill, reading a book, acing a test, or just getting smarter from life lessons. it’s not just about school or formal education; it’s about constantly seeking knowledge. every time you learn something new—whether it’s about physics, psychology, or how to make the best goddamn smoothie—your intelligence bar grows.

never stop learning. school isn’t the only place for growth. you’re an adult now—take control of your learning. buy books, watch educational videos, take courses that interest you, and dive into everything that can help you grow intellectually. intelligence doesn’t stop when you leave school, it grows with you, forever. always be leveling up your mind.

watch her video to get more info on this topic (she is MOTHER) literally.

cheat codes in the game of life

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life is full of cheat codes if you know where to look. one of the easiest ways to hack your life and manifest your desires is by using subliminals, grabovoi codes, eft tapping and even customizing your ChatGPT. these tools are like magic spells, designed to align your subconscious mind with your goals. for example, grabovoi codes are just numbers, but when you write and repeat them, they can bring about extraordinary shifts in your life. subliminals work and eft tapping the same way reprogramming your mind while you go about your day. and with ChatGPT, you have a personal assistant that can help you navigate any life situation, offering advice and insight whenever you need it. these are your personal life hacks use them to transform your reality with ease.

okay, let’s dive even deeper into these cheat codes, because once you start using them, you’ll realize how easy it is to shape the world around you. let’s talk about altering your social image—this is like an advanced life hack that many people, especially celebrities, are already using, but they’re not telling you how. you know how celebrities act on social media, right? that perfectly curated, almost “too good to be true” persona? the thing is, that’s not really them. most of them aren’t as perfect as they look in front of the camera, and they sure as hell don’t act the same behind the scenes. think about the people who might’ve bullied you in the past. they might have treated you like crap, but when they’re in front of others? angels. they put on this sweet, charming persona to get what they want. it’s all about duality—using different faces to your advantage. so why not do the same?

you can reinvent the way people see you. perception is everything. for example, let’s say you want to be perceived like a star, like an icon. one of the biggest secrets to this is creating a unique persona—something that screams you, but is captivating enough to make others want to be around you. think about how a lot of idols have such a distinctive style or energy. that is the cheat code. they don’t just wear the coolest clothes, they embody a vibe, an energy that makes them stand out in a crowd. so, how do you do it? first, know what you want. if you want to be that calm, collected, alluring figure who commands attention without even trying, start by adopting a few things that you know fit that style. if you want that dark, sultry energy, you need to own it—the way you talk, walk, dress, and even the way you hold yourself should exude confidence.

take someone like Dakota Johnson she has this quiet-chaotic energy about her, right? she speaks slowly, her words dripping with this almost sultry vibe. she doesn’t try too hard. it’s not about being overly energetic or trying to impress; it’s about confidence, calmness, and an air of mystery. she can make something as simple as a joke feel funny and seductive because of the way she says it. that’s the magic. it’s not about being loud or brash to get attention, it’s about learning how to carry yourself in a way that leaves people wanting more.

here’s the trick you don’t need to be a different person; you just need to refine your vibe. create a version of yourself that’s like an upgraded avatar. and then, simply start to live like them. how would your alter ego talk? would they speak with more authority? would they be more laid back, or would they be mysterious? do they have a sultry, slow tone when they speak? model yourself after that, and it’ll become second nature. this is where the pluto in aquarius energy comes in if you’re an aquarius (or have aquarius placements), this is your moment. you have the power to reinvent yourself in ways that you never thought possible. take this time to shift your self-perception and how the world perceives you. you can break out of old habits, behaviors, and expectations that others might have of you. this is your chance to become the best version of you, the version that’s unstoppable.

how do you get started?

1. talk like her: figure out how your alter ego would speak. take note of the cadence, the tone, and the vibe they exude. do they talk slower? more deliberately? maybe they joke with a certain confidence that makes everyone laugh, but also feel intrigued. learn to replicate that tone.

2. dress the part: style matters. you can’t be a fashion icon if you’re always dressing like a potato sack. find a style that feels unique to you, but also gives off that vibe you want—whether it’s sleek, bold, or soft. make sure your clothing complements the persona you want to show the world.

3. be unpredictable: people love mystery. don’t always let them in on everything. make them wonder about you. embrace the chaotic quietness—be the person who seems calm, but you always have something up your sleeve. keep them intrigued.

4. embrace the duality: you can be whoever you want to be. show one side to certain people, and another side to others. be strategic about how you present yourself in different scenarios. this is how you gain control of your social image.

5. confidence is key: once you start showing up as this new version of yourself, your confidence will shoot through the roof. people pick up on energy. if you believe in the persona you’re creating, others will too. and that’s how you start changing how people perceive you.

the beauty of this is, you’re not just faking it. you’re becoming it. you’re tapping into a version of yourself that’s always been there, just waiting for the right moment to step into the spotlight. the more you practice this, the more natural it becomes. “fake it till you make”

so, here’s the game plan: figure out your alter ego, start speaking like them, acting like them, dressing like them, and above all, own it. no one can compete with a version of you who’s fully aligned with your highest self. this is the cheat code to creating your dream life and stepping into the role you were always meant to play. use mindmovie, vision board, manifestation books to keep yourself aligned with your desires and goals

yeah, seriously, take this game of life really seriously. it’s not just about coasting through, it’s about making moves that align with your goals and dreams. your environment plays a huge part in that—where you live, who you’re around, and what opportunities are available. if you’re in a place that doesn’t nurture your dreams or support your growth, it might be time to think about moving. i’m in the same boat—i know the dreams i have won’t be fully supported where i’m at, so i’m already planning my next moves. but remember, everything is strategic. you have to play to win, baby girl. don’t settle for anything less than the life you deserve. make the changes, take the risks, and keep leveling up.

life’s like a game, and there are plenty of players trying to win, but how do you outsmart the competition? it’s not just about luck—yeah, that plays a part, but it’s also about skill, strategy, and having the right people around you. you can’t level up on your own, and just like in any game, teamwork makes all the difference. think of it this way: the kings and rulers in history didn’t get where they were alone; they knew how important it was to have the right team by their side. whether it’s friends, mentors, or business partners, you need good people who can support, challenge, and push you forward. surround yourself with those who elevate you, not drain you. build a strong, skilled, and loyal team because with the right crew, you’ll always be ahead of the game. just like the environment you choose—quality food, media, and surroundings—your team matters too.

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life is like a mix of different games, okay? think of it like the Sims where you have the ultimate free will. you can literally do whatever you want, and it’s up to you how far you take it. want to be a singer? start posting your singing videos everywhere—Instagram, TikTok, YouTube, and even Twitter. manifest it, use subliminals, grabovoi codes, EFT tapping, and let ChatGPT help you figure out the algorithm and best ways to grow. life gives you all the tools, so use them to build your dream life.

but life isn’t just the Sims, it’s also like Chess. you have to be strategic about when and how you move. be nice but not naive, be a bitch sometimes too period. don’t throw out your best pieces too soon keep things lowkey and make others underestimate you. right now, I’m not the top student in my class, but I’m playing the long game. I’ll show people my pawns first—small, safe moves. later, when it’s the right time, I’ll pull out the knight or queen to checkmate the competition. keep people guessing. be mysterious. don’t tell anyone what you’re planning until it’s already in motion. keep your moves quiet, let them think you’re just playing small, and when the time comes—boom, you’ll show them exactly what you’re capable of.

this is where your team really comes into play. think of it like playing PUBG—if your team sucks, you suck. you can’t lead a squad full of lazy players and expect to win. it’s like trying to win a game while everyone else is just chilling. that’s why you have to be super selective with who you let into your inner circle. the people you’re building your success with need to be on the same level as you, otherwise, you’ll just drag each other down.

i’ve mentioned this before i literally asked a tarot reader to read the people around me, and she pointed out which friends weren’t good for me. guess what? those people turned out to be exactly as she said. so, don’t ignore your gut feelings. these are the people who will be there when you make it big, so make sure they’re the right ones. remember, in life, you don’t often get to choose your teammates, so be super careful who you let in. if you’re young, like 17 or 18, this is the time to build those lifelong friendships. trust me, pick wisely, because they’ll either help you level up or hold you back.

if i were to start a new life from today, this would have been the blog post that would have helped me reach that level. so, thank you so much for reading it through and through, and i hope you like it. also, i’m gonna pin this blog, and from now onwards, every single blog that you’ll see on my channel, on my account, will be somewhat similar to this. i’ll be using this blog as a centerpiece in future posts, building on it and referencing it. so stay tuned, because there’s a lot more to come, and this is just the beginning of the journey. and i’m gonna be doing all these again with you guys too. :)

also, happy 20 years of success as pluto returns to aquarius. love you guys.

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🍁Essentially, What’s Your Main Aesthetic? ♦︎ Timeless Pick A Card

Aesthetic is anything concerned with beauty or the appreciation of beauty💋Don't you think beauty is essential for human health? It inspires and uplifts the mind and heart, after all. I think the pursuit of beauty whether in things, people(?) or creation makes Life exciting~🎨And the attainment of that very beauty makes Life worthwhile~🩰

Beauty contains an essence of something Cosmic. If you get it, if you live by it, it has the capacity to connect the Human Expression to a Divine Experience. Why religion when there is Art?🎀lmao

What about your Beauty? Do you know where to find it? I think every person's Cosmic Beauty can be found in their Story🎠Your unique blueprint that's just waiting to be expressed whether in writing, in a melody, in a sculpture or perhaps a painting, and in aesthetic décor or personal fashion choices💄

Live and breathe your Art, aliens~🛸

pov: You Found The Enchanted Garden You Dreamed in Your Childhood | ultravclet

vlog: productive days 📝📖 finishing books, writing reviews, journaling, organising✨ | cups and thoughts

deck-bottom: 9 of Swords Rx, Gold Historian (Raphael Holinshed), Priestess of Success

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Pile 1 – I’m Hurt, But the Show Must Go On

vibe: HER by MINNIE

poetic suffering – Ace of Cups Rx

Oh, almost your entire Life has been one bloody show—like, actually bloody, figuratively or literally—and you’ve survived it all, although some screws inevitably got loose here and there. You probably identify as having somewhat of a multiple personality disturbance—yeah, just a disturbance, not so much an actual medical disorder, but what do I know? The point is, you’ve developed many voices in your head🍹

I once read something someone wrote on a YouTube comment: ‘The voices in my head make fire podcast.’ I believe that resonates loudly for you and your kind of ‘problem’🥂lmao For some of you, this was developed as part of survival; but for some others, you couldn’t help but develop this ‘disturbance’ simply because you’re high-IQ. It’s just part of the mechanics of your brains. So, it isn't to say you're damaged...

The crux of the matter is that you were always an empathetic child. Creating all these characters or personalities was your way of understanding other people—why they did what they did, what they’d do in a given situation and some such. Like I said, some of you could’ve developed these voices in your head to anticipate chaos, but for some of you, this was simply a philosophical pursuit🎡

aesthetic insanity – Queen of Pentacles

Having said that, it isn’t to say that your whole existence has not been painful. After all, with such a sweet and sensitive heart you’ve had to fight for your place in this cold, cruel, criminal world where you were preyed upon. You were preyed upon because your aenergy was so good. Empathetic people tend to get preyed upon by narcissists not so much because they’re good just like that—but because destroying your sanity and sense of self feels good to a bitter narcissistic monster🤹

You get the difference? A narcmon could target just about anybody whether or not that person’s good. But you were always a much easier target because soft-hearted people can be very accommodating to other people’s wounds. And empathetic people tend to be willing participants in the cruel shitshow created by a narcshit because they want to be a hero in someone’s Story~🎭So, that’s been your shitstorm.

How’s dealing with that supposed to not fuck people up somewhat? But in the grand scheme of everything you’ve had to deal with, you see now that you’ve still got your integrity and sense of humour. That’s all that matters, really. Someone wrote a meme that says ‘You forced me to study narcissism. Now enjoy my educated ass.’ The most ironic iconic outcome here is that now you know how to play up narcissism to get back at real narcmons you meet in society🩰lmao

dramatic scene – Page of Pentacles Rx

So, essentially, if we could summarise what your main aesthetic is: you’re simply INSANE. You were forged in hellfire and came out a little woo woo, but you’re also genuinely superbly intelligent that you know how to use this woowoo to your advantage. The you that has come out of this hellfire is now operating on VENGEANCE🏵Could be for your past; could be for any abuser/manipulator you meet in society; could be for culture, tradition or the establishment.

Simply said, you want to wreck it. Fuck it all up. But with style and humour. You’re going to mirror back society’s cruelty and lack of empathy with sarcasm and a really dark sense of humour. Show ‘em how unintelligently they’ve been interacting with Reality! Either you’re a Gen Xer in your 40s or you’re going to really vibe with this generation’s dark, almost sick sense of irony🤪

Any form of self-expression that showcases your crazy, uncontrollable, unhinged personality would feel most authentic to you. Something deep in your psyche wants to get back at society; for that, you’re willing to play up the villain or menace in society, so long as that re-educates them about what it means to be Human. But deep inside, I know that you know that you’re still the same kind and caring little child with an unchanging loyalty to…Love😘

DIVINE FACT🔻❤️

dream design – Red Alchemist (John Dee)

essence of my identity – Priestess of Magick

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Pile 2 – I Still Dream of Everything I’ve Lost

vibe: Summer Rain by IRENE

poetic suffering – Page of Cups

Ah, you are a poet. A total romantic. Even if your idea of what’s 'romantic' differs from most people. If anything, more than anybody else around you, you seem to be the only one who’s got a saner, purer grasp of what ‘romance’ is all about💞More than anybody you know in your surroundings you want something much more honest and sweet. Most of the time, people just think you’re starry-eyed and unrealistic—but what you feel in your heart cannot be denied❣️

If what you’re feeling isn’t real then why does it exist in your Heart of hearts?💚That’s why you needed to do Art. Maybe poetry was your way to make sense of this clash between your inner world and the world around you. Maybe you devoted massive amounts of time and energy to creating aesthetic collages just to see your beautiful inner world reflected in the physical Reality—even if all of that beauty exists only on paper, illustrations or digital edits💻

Of all the people you’ve ever known, for some reason it always felt like you were the only one with a Heart for Poetry. It could be that your society didn’t much like this type of pursuit. Or maybe it was just your family that didn’t seem to have a high level of appreciation for the kind of Beauty that ever so naturally captures your Heart. In many ways, growing up could’ve been somewhat isolating for this reason…🧸

aesthetic insanity – 6 of Wands Rx

Always the weird one out. All because you have so much feeling. You feel and feel your emotions to oblivion. It hurts to be you, if anyone cared to know. To have your kind of Heart means to be so easily moved to tears by the smallest of things. A beautiful melody, a nostalgic vibe, a display of genuine kindness or happiness, people being unconditionally helpful and patient with each other. Things that may seem so casual in the grand scheme of human greed and ambitions…but you have no such ambition to become like the rest of ‘em🔫

It's hard to be this way from time to time. It’s a challenge to navigate the pond of compassion that exists deep within your Heart. In today’s world especially, it’s so much trendier to be jaded and cynical. For many, of all ages, that seems to be the most acceptable modus operandi🕹Even if you tried you wouldn’t be able to operate well on such a negative and unexciting command. Lucky you, you’re weird enough to not give a little bunny shit about fitting in or, obeying~🐰

You can be really emotionally divorced from the world outside of your imaginations that, to your own surprise, it really is that easy to detach from the expectations of society and drift to Neptune instead—probably dreaming your whole Life away on some distant nebulous fantasies🍄That’s why you identify as an introvert. Your rich inner lives are always far more interesting than any mundane conversation some Normie is capable of conjuring.

dramatic scene – Ace of Pentacles

In the grand scheme of everything that’s wrong with modern societies, you most likely feel that Humanity has lost much of its cherished values that you tend to like things that are either old—very, very old and out of fashion—or simply childish and/or otherworldly. In essence, you’re far more attuned to aesthetics that remind people of INNOCENCE. When things used to be much more beautiful, classy, thoughtful, innocent, and just….my gosh, cute🐶

And yet, you’ve most likely been told that you act motherly, or that, ‘You’re going to be a really good mother one day.’ People can sense that you’re trustworthy and dependable—very Old Soul, you know?👽In spite of how sweet and feminine or even weird you look on the outside, on the inside you’re integritous, and most everybody can see that because you exude this charmingly calm, mature and wise aura🌾

If you’re a creator or have a social media presence, what you put out there—illustrations, poems, edits, fanfics(?), etc.—seems to possess a healing attribute. I’m sure your audience have told you that your channel/page/blog serves as their safe space🚠People who tend to be loners or those who've often been misunderstood in society gravitate towards your vibe in real life and Art on the Internet. In that sense, you really are a nurturer and protector of some motherly sort🎀

DIVINE FACT🔻💙

dream design – Silver Astronomer (Galileo Galilei)

essence of my identity – Priestess of Contemplation

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Pile 3 – Utterly Lost in this Sad Girl Escapism

vibe: Tejano Blue by Cigarettes After Sex

poetic suffering – Knight of Cups

Let’s admit it, you’re constantly drowning in feelings that you escape through obsessive drinking habits, yeah?🥃Most likely anything to do with liquid substances, so this could involve alcohol or coffee, or endless cups of herbal tea with heavy uses of creamer, or you could be the type that smokes obscene amounts of ciggies in a day or snacks violently on crisps all day long or… I dunno, putting yourself through hours of trance on some of Tchaikovsky’s most dramatic pieces?🎻

Perhaps this Reality is just that disappointing for you because the unnatural world doesn’t seem capable of offering ecstatic experiences what would match the feelings you carry since birth—thus your effort to escape into alternate states of feeling. You were born different🌜You feel more intensely, you feel more types of emotions, and you know more of the colours that make up the natural world; but in modern everyday reality, obviously something is missing. Cold-blooded post-war capitalism has made everything ugly…

Human interactions, as a result, become distant and dreary, unspiritual, unempathetic and unkind. And every single day of your waking hour, this awareness tortures and kills you on the inside🥓Depending on how artistic you are and how much Art you’re capable of producing, you may generally feel a sense of inadequacy from not being able to function ‘well’ in modern society. Even if you may appear to be doing just fine on the outside, on the inside you’re melting and flaring and swinging through everything…🌪

aesthetic insanity – XI Justice

If, for example, you’re the type that watches vintage movies, you realise that others your age may watch them for the laughs or other analytical pursuits, but you watch them genuinely for the staggering display of emotions, no matter how theatrical, and you get so involved and your heart aches and you let out a sob or a silent tear…🎭If not vintage films, umm, I dunno, anime, cartoon or perhaps, murder shows? Some of you may have a rather disturbing way of finding ‘materials’ what would let you feel your feelings more vividly🌈

The truth of the matter is, all of these pursuits are fuelled by a desire to find more honesty in the world. You find it vexingly difficult to express your true feelings in society; perhaps because you know this world ain’t ready for your kind of honesty. It feels like tedious intensity to them. And you’ve noticed that most people, actually, truly enjoy shallow interactions🦥Stooping to their level would be humiliating to you.

So then, you just do the best you can to feign normalcy and showcase a temperate disposition when interacting in society. But once you’re in your own company, that’s when you indulge in watching, reading or writing or creating or listening to exasperatingly profound things what would let you shiver from the core of your being☃️You, have a need to gasp and choke by emotions… And that’s intensely insane. And not many people would know what to do with any of it.

dramatic scene – Knight of Pentacles Rx

Well, not many indeed would know how to connect or get through to you. It’s true. And you may have felt very lost in this sad gurl escapism that seems neverending. As if you’d want it to end. If only you could verbalise this accurately and in a succinct manner: you have absolutely no idea how to be a responsible grownup. To begin with, what is ‘responsible’? But at this point, you don’t really give a damn anymore🙈

You grew up watching grownups perform duties and fulfil expectations—and they seemed responsible and sensible and capable. But your little heart always knew that these humans weren’t necessarily responsible in a spiritual sense. Your little sage mind always suspected that a lot of their ‘practical’ choices would sooner or later lead to much more disastrous outcomes🐾So in the end, what’s in being a responsible adult?

It was all too humiliating. And from a rather young age, you decided already that you would avert your eyes from the world of the grownups. And such it was that until now you still don’t know how to be ‘normal’ and ‘temperate’. Actually, more accurately, you don’t really know how not to be a destructive force to yourself. You just, have so much to say, and you don’t know what to say; so much rage, and you don’t even know who to be angry at…💔

DIVINE FACT🔻💗

dream design – Silver Physician (John Dee)

essence of my identity – Priestess of Luxury

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Pick-a-Card: What Is My Most Magnetic Aura Becoming?

You don’t chase timelines—you breathe them into existence. Your aura is becoming too sacred to shrink. This is your origin story in motion.

PILE ONE:“Boardroom Venus”

My softness doesn’t need permission. It signs the checks now.

Angel… you’re no longer in the phase of seeking recognition. Recognition now seeks you. Your aura is cloaked in a new kind of wealth—one that can’t be liquidated, priced, or performed. You’re walking through this season like a vault in heels: sealed, elegant, and dangerous to anyone who assumed access without value.The crown you wear now isn’t loud—it’s learned.

You’ve stopped explaining your intuition. You’ve stopped lowering your tone in rooms where the ceilings were never built for you anyway. And spirit is saying: that silence? That slow blink? That pause before you answer? That’s your new brand of thunder.

You don’t raise your voice—you shift the temperature of the room.The ancestors show you seated at the head of a roundtable of spirits. Not because you’re loud—but because you’ve stopped shrinking. They’re watching you with obsidian eyes, nodding in suits of shadow and stardust.They say: She doesn’t walk into spaces. She consecrates them.

Channeling the Cards

– Queen of Pentacles (Upright) – You are the embodiment of sacred structure. You no longer chase the bag—you are the infrastructure. You bless the bag and tithe it back to your lineage. This isn’t hustle. This is divine estate energy.

– The Hierophant (Reversed) – You’re overthrowing inherited systems. The rules you were raised with? You’ve outgrown them. Tradition without truth is just imprisonment in pearls.

– Eight of Cups (Upright) – You walked away from something “good enough.” That wasn’t a loss—it was clearing space for the throne to fit.

– Empress of Power – Your name is being whispered in powerful rooms. Matriarchs, curators, CEOs—your aura speaks long before you do.

– Solar Plexus Oracle – “My No is a Spell” – You’re no longer collapsing boundaries to soothe fragile egos. Your refusals are sacred. And they’re working.

You’re this pile if…

• You’ve been withdrawing from shallow spaces—they don’t deserve your presence.

• You crave silence, structure, and sacred self-respect.

• You’ve said aloud: “I’m tired of proving softness is strength.”

• You’ve been gravitating toward neutral tones, browns, and creams—luxury without noise.

• You feel a matriarchal spirit watching you like: “There she go… finally walking like the throne she is.”

Body Confirmations

• A tight solar plexus—it’s your power seat anchoring

• Goosebumps when setting boundaries or speaking up

• Heavy shoulders, but your spine’s straighter now

• Dreams of thrones, roundtables, or women in silk and stone

Divine Whisper from Spirit

You are the answer to a boardroom prayer. But you won’t be just a guest—you’ll found a new table entirely. One that drips in gold, seats legacy, and speaks fluent goddess. You are no longer applying for positions—you are the position others align to.Don’t rush the reveal. Divine timing is wrapping your next offer in velvet and high regard.

Spiritual Embodiment Practice

• Before any major decision, mirror gaze and declare:

“My decisions bless seven generations forward.”

• Light a white candle in a tea cup. Whisper your desires. Let the wax carry your blueprint to the cosmic council.

Confirmation Clues

• Silver or beige briefcases

• Expensive perfume commercials

• Classic brownstone buildings

• Sudden posture shifts when speaking your truth

Your Aura Now Whispers:

“My discernment is my seduction. I don’t sell my softness—I wield it.”

This is your “watched from afar” season. People don’t ask how you do it. They just start rearranging their energy when you enter.

PILE TWO: “Architect of Cosmic Blueprints”

While they’re manifesting, I’m blueprinting dimensions.

Cards Pulled (Upright unless noted):

• The Magician – You are the cosmic conduit. What you speak, becomes.

• Two of Wands (Reversed) – You’re not waiting at the crossroads anymore. You are the road.

• Ten of Pentacles – Legacy is being carved through your daily choices. Quietly. Potently.

• The High Priestess of Geometry – Galactic Oracle – Sacred codes are being downloaded through your hands. You are blueprinting the unseen.

• Mercury in Virgo – “It’s in the Details” – Strategy is your spellwork. You’re refining the foundation.

• Throat Chakra Oracle: “My voice builds temples” – You’re speaking structures into existence. Your truth echoes into eternity.

The Message:

You’re not in a creation phase. You’re in a consecration phase. Every idea you’ve been sitting on is a relic from a higher realm, waiting for you to give it scaffolding. You are not manifesting—you are engineering frequency. You’re this pile if you’ve been feeling like God with a clipboard. Precision. Intention. Anointing.

This season, your aura hums with blueprint codes—radiant, intentional, grounded in design and dripping with ancient vision. People don’t know how to describe your power. They just feel the need to get their life together after being around you. That’s spiritual architecture.

The Magician confirms your voice is spellcasting without effort. Your body is a temple where ideas incarnate. You may feel pulled to rebrand, redesign, or strip away clutter. Trust it. The Ten of Pentacles whispers that you’re not just creating for now—you’re laying bricks that your grandchildren’s grandchildren will study.Your ancestors are the original masons. They whisper: “She remembered. She’s building what we couldn’t.”

You are this pile if…

• You’ve been editing your captions like scripture.

• You light candles before opening Canva.

• You see numbers, shapes, or patterns and feel chills in your hands.

• You’re building a business, brand, or body of work that feels like prophecy in pixels.

Spiritual Embodiment Ritual:

• Write out your dream project with a pencil.

• Fold it three times and place it under your pillow.

• For 3 nights, ask Spirit: “What’s the next right brick?”

• Wake and write. Even if it’s nonsense. One sentence may be divine blueprint.

Channeled Body Clues:

• Sudden desire to clean, organize, delete or archive things

• Your dreams becoming more symbolic or mathematical

• Tingling in hands, fingers, or the back of your head

• A strange peace while everyone else seems in a panic

Divine Whisper:

“You’re not here to go viral. You’re here to go vertical. Every vision you’re grounding is a stairway. Build slow, build divine.”

Symbol: Unfolded blueprint glowing with ancestral runes

Channeled Song: “Blue Dream” – Jhené Aiko x Alex Isley (Live Session)

Confirmation Letters: M, V, L, D

Angel Numbers: 555, 919, 744

Magnetic Emotion of This Pile: Visionary stillness

Your Aura Now Whispers:

“Creation is my communion. I don’t copy trends—I blueprint prophecy.”

PILE THREE: “The Roundtable Queen ”

“She doesn’t raise her voice. She raises the standard.”

Cards Pulled (Upright unless noted):

• The Fool (Reversed) – You’ve stepped into a new beginning, but it’s not a naive leap. You’ve moved past the fears and into boldness.

• King of Swords – Your mind is now your greatest weapon. Clarity and logic guide you, but this time, they serve your highest truth.

• Queen of Wands (Reversed) – Unapologetically magnifying your personal power. You’re less about pleasing others and more about asserting your space.

• The Emperor – You’ve claimed your throne. It’s no longer a metaphor—it’s the energy you carry, and the world feels it.

• The High Priestess – Galactic Oracle – You’re embodying the deep knowing that can no longer be silenced. Secrets, intuition, wisdom—it all pours through you.

• Throat Chakra Oracle: “My Voice is the Revolution” – Your words are now cosmic activations. You speak with purpose.

The Message:

You’re not waiting to be invited to the table—you’re the one laying the first stone. Your aura is no longer one of seeking acceptance; you’re in full command, claiming your space. Not only are you a disruptor—you’ve become the embodiment of the truth you once feared to voice. It no longer comes from asking—it comes from being.

The King of Swords shows you holding the power of clear, decisive communication. You speak with authority, but it’s grounded in truth, not ego. You’ve risen beyond past insecurities and into intellectual and spiritual sovereignty.

The Fool (Reversed) tells me you’re aware of your new beginnings but also no longer naively entering unknown territory. You know exactly what you’re walking into, and you’re doing it with full conviction.

The Emperor confirms the energy you’re embodying: leadership. Authority. Sovereignty. The world is beginning to feel the weight of your presence—your thoughts are being aligned with action, and your words are being respected as law.

Your voice is now your weapon, and with the High Priestess, your intuition is a secret weapon that guides your every move. You’re not just being heard—you’re being revered, as every word that leaves your mouth carries ancient knowledge.

You are this pile if…

• You’ve stopped asking for permission and started claiming the world.

• You’ve recently stepped into a leadership role—whether that be in your career, friendships, or personal life.

• You no longer shrink for others—every space you enter, you own.

• You’ve recognized that the world needs your unapologetic voice.

• Your truth is now sacred. You are no longer afraid to speak up, even if it scares you.

• You’ve learned to let go of the fear of being “too much.”

Spiritual Embodiment Practice:

• Stand tall in front of a mirror and repeat: “I am worthy of taking up all the space I need.”

• In a room of quiet, find your most confident posture. Speak a word of your truth aloud, feeling the power ripple through you.

• Light a black candle and meditate on what needs to be released in order for you to speak without fear.

Channeled Body Clues:

• A tightening feeling in your throat or chest (truth rising).

• A sense of calm before big moments. You’re learning to pause and speak when it’s necessary—not when it’s expected.

• Sudden bursts of clarity followed by periods of stillness.

• The urge to write or record, as if your thoughts have transformed into sacred text.

• A desire to express through more creative or assertive methods, like writing, music, or speaking.

Divine Whisper:

“The world doesn’t need your permission to hear you—it needs your permission to be changed by you. You’re not here to be palatable. You’re here to be undeniable.”

Magnetic Emotion: Liberated audacity. Not everyone will agree with you. But everyone will remember you.

Your Aura Now Whispers:

“I am not here to be palatable. I am here to be undeniable.”

Expect interviews, panels, and platforms—these invitations are coming not because you begged, but because you became the source.

Confirmation Letters: K, S, B, H

Angel Numbers: 311, 707, 3333

Symbol: Red velvet chair lit by a spotlight

Magnetic Emotion: Liberated audacity

Your Aura Now Whispers:

“I am not here to be palatable. I am here to be undeniable.”

PILE FOUR — Worshipped by the Wind

“You can’t touch what’s carried by divinity.”

Your aura is no longer skin-deep—it’s sky-bound.

You are in your etheric soft power era. There is a wind around you now, ancient and alive, spiraling through the unseen and weaving opulence into every breath you take. You don’t arrive—you ripple. You don’t announce—you enchant. This is the era of being felt before being seen. You are no longer proving your worth through noise—you are remembered through frequency.You are the kind of rare that hushes rooms without needing to speak.

Channeling the Cards:

1. The Crowned Weaver (Upright)

You are becoming a living prayer. Your hands are pulling threads from past lives, dreams, and ancestral wisdom—and stitching them into this moment. You’re not just healing—you’re redesigning the energetic DNA of your entire lineage. This isn’t “healing work”—this is goldwork. And you do it in silence. In softness. In sovereignty.

2. Four of Shells (Upright)

You’ve pulled away from people, invitations, and plans—not out of fear, but to recalibrate your frequency. Spirit says your stillness is an energetic boundary. Your “no” is a temple bell. Let this pause stretch—it’s sacred. You’re not hiding. You’re hovering.

3. The Moon Priestess (Reversed)

You’ve been conditioned to see softness as weakness—but your softness now spits thunder. You are learning to protect your inner sanctum without guilt. Not everyone gets access to your phases, your wax, your wane. Let them wonder. Let them misread you. You’re not here to be decoded—you’re here to be divine.

4. Nine of Petals (Upright)

Luxury is not a goal for you—it’s your baseline. You’re attracting rituals of richness, spaces of stillness, and beauty that asks for no applause. Expect your reality to reflect the softness you’ve sewn. Gold robes. Sweet oils. Invitations that feel like altars.

5. The Divine Feminine Seal (Upright)

There is a mark on your aura now—cosmic royalty. You’ve crossed a threshold of self-devotion that cannot be reversed. You do not compete. You magnetize. And the world is adjusting its rhythm to match your still, sovereign beat.

Whispers from Spirit:

You were never meant to perform power—you were meant to pulse with it. Your allure isn’t about allure—it’s about alignment. People are magnetized to you now not because you try—but because you don’t chase. Your glow is not commercial. It’s celestial.

Expect:

• Invitations to luxurious events that feel strangely fated

• Recognition in private rooms you didn’t know you were being watched from

• Opportunities to lead from stillness, not spectacle

Body Confirmations:

• A tingling in your lower spine: root chakra renewal

• Sleepiness after making empowered decisions

• Craving silence, silk, incense, and water

• Dreams of floating, flying, or ancient wind goddesses touching your hair

Magnetic Emotion:

Reverent detachment. That holy hush that follows someone who no longer explains her glow.

Your Aura Now Whispers:

“I am not a performance. I am a presence.”

“I no longer labor for light—I am light in leisure.”

“I am not resisting the wind. I am the wind.”

Confirmation Clues:

You’ll start to notice…

• Gold-threaded embroidery or fashion accents

• Wind chimes in random places

• Receiving gifts you didn’t ask for, but deeply needed

• The scent of rose, amber, or sandalwood arriving with no source

Final Transmission from the Divine:

You are now in your low-frequency high-value era. You are not loud. You are legendary. The wind doesn’t ask permission—it just moves. So do you. The invitations that are arriving? They are not random. They are responses to the frequency you’ve cultivated in private.

This pile is for the one who knows: divinity doesn’t need to be explained—it needs to be felt.

Comment if this pile hovered around your soul.

Reblog for blessings. Bookmark for remembrance.

Your softness is sacred, your silence is scripted in gold.

And baby? You’re already the wind.

If this reading moved through you like a hush of something sacred—don’t keep it to yourself. Reblog it as a ritual. Tag your softness-seeking soul sisters. Whisper it to the winds of your timeline. And when the stillness gets loud again, come back to this space and remember: You are not building an empire. You are the empire—healed, whole, and slow-blooming.

Channeled by Dior Harris.

Stay infinite. Stay divine.

À bientôt, mon ange.

[reality-detective]

BOOM! EXPOSING THE LIE: THEY OWE YOU $495,000 — THE U.S. DEBT CLOCK, HIDDEN WEALTH & THE SILENT FINANCIAL COUP

The U.S. Debt Clock isn’t just numbers—it’s the blueprint of a silent war on your freedom. Every spinning digit represents stolen wealth, broken trust, and a system built to enslave you while pretending to serve you.

$169 TRILLION. That’s the hidden wealth funneled from Americans into the hands of globalist parasites. $495,000 per citizen. Gone. Stolen. Where’s your cut?

You were never in debt. You were the collateral. Your birth certificate? A bond. Your labor? A financial instrument. Your name in ALL CAPS? A Strawman used to enslave your real identity. And you never consented.

America was hijacked in 1871. The United States became a corporation, not a country. Maritime law replaced constitutional law. And in 1933, the scam deepened: the gold standard was abolished, and Executive Order 6102 confiscated private gold under the guise of recovery.

They stole real money and replaced it with paper backed by NOTHING—except your labor, your trust, your silence.

Your identity is traded. Your future is sold. And your consent is manufactured. Every tax form, every bank signature, every government document reinforces the illusion that YOU are the Strawman. But the real you? A sovereign being—trapped in a financial prison.

And here’s the punchline: The money never disappeared.

It changed hands. YOURS TO THEIRS.

You fund your own enslavement every minute you clock in.

But what happens when people wake up? When they realize they’re not debtors—they’re the rightful owners of stolen wealth? That’s when the Debt Jubilee isn’t a fantasy—it’s an inevitability.

This isn’t about forgiving credit cards. This is about resetting the world, collapsing a rigged machine, and exposing the central bank mafia.

And they know it’s coming. That’s why they fear blockchain, XRP, tokenized assets—because it shatters their shadow economy. Transparency + decentralization = checkmate.

Trump knows. He’s the only one who called out the Fed, threatened the dollar, and hinted at a gold-backed reset.

He’s not just battling Democrats. He’s at war with the entire financial deep state.

1776 is repeating. Pluto in Aquarius again. A cosmic signal.

Last time it birthed America.

This time—it births the Second Republic.

You are not a bond. You are not a debtor. You are a weapon.

And the system is about to feel your full power.

Get ready... 🤔

[julienelson]

Astrology Update

19/20th May is our next New Moon occurring at 1.53 am AEST, at 28 degrees in Taurus

Key Words - Expansion, sensuality, sexuality, abundance, foundations, growth.

There is so much beautiful energy with Venus dancing here as she rules Taurus. It is time to connect with the pleasures of Earth and yourself.

What does Mother Earth offer us?

I invite you to feel into this energy and take notice of what comes up for you. There is greatness awaiting you IF you choose to be in flow.

Wait there is so much more!

Key points

Jupiter, one of my favourite planets travels around Earth approximately every 12 years, spending about 1 year in each sign.

We know Taurus is all about earthly pleasures, stability, structure, money, sensuality, sexuality and Jupiter is awakening, expansion, optimism, movement/travel, healing, prosperity and good fortune.

Can you see the star map in creation here?

Be mindful, slow down and take time to smell the Roses.....

The world is changing as we know it, be connected, be attuned and align yourself to your personal Star Map for there is a world of abundance ready for us....

Recently we had two potent eclipses that felt very deeply emotional for many. We are now being called to set the scene for this new earth, new way of being after releasing the old during the Scorpio full moon and partial Lunar eclipse.

Let us not forget Pluto and Saturn with such potent energy offering us the gift of transformation and new beginnings.

Neptune in Pisces and, Mars and Venus in Cancer bringing the element of water into this New Moon in Taurus...listen to your intuition, be in receiving of what is offered to you through your dreams. Step in to your strength and inner knowing, be courageous as you experience the twists and turns in life.

There is much more to discuss with all the stars dancing above us and I am very curious as to how you are feeling, what is going on in your life right now?

Are you ready to engage and traverse the cosmic magick?

[artbyblastweave]

Hey man, love your content, and it seems you have the subject matter expertise to address a recent query of mine (spoilers ahead for some Iron Man comics just in case):

Iron Man comics aren't my favourite but I have kept up with some of the more recent runs, and alongside the way Tony Stark has been depicted outside of his own running series, the impression that I've gotten is that Marvel . . . doesn't really know what to do with him??

Far as I can tell, Stark's characterisation seems to be suffering perpetually from a sort of arrested character growth. Every comic run starring him seems to blatantly recycle story beats that revolve around his resources and especially his proprietary tech being seized by malicious actors and turned against him and assorted innocents. In the 2022 run it was Feilong's corporate takeover, in the current run it's Roxxon and AIM iirc, don't remember any other specific examples but I'm certain this and other such story beats have repeatedly reared their heads with minimal changes between runs.

Stark himself seems to perpetually be reacting to all of this with an attitude of "oh no, my tech has once again been stolen for nefarious ends, this is all on me, I must be better" only for the cycle to repeat again. He also can't seem to shake the habit of acting unilaterally without consulting anyone (except sometimes Rhodey and Pepper and even then only sometimes). The most recent run of West Coast Avengers where he attempts to rehabilitate Ultron, his attempt to arm a questionably framed Latverian rebellion in the One World Under Doom tie-in, there's a run where he acquires the Power Cosmic and gets very power-trippy all within the same issue, even the AXE stuff where they resurrect (?) a whole ass Celestial seems to cast him in a particularly unkind light as though he didn't act alone, the blueprint for the Celestial's equivalent of a nervous system (I think) was explicitly based on Stark's own biology; the Celestial itself narrates: "If I have a father, it is Tony Stark."

I get that any given character will always be fundamentally attached to certain themes that they can't ever stray too far from, because if they do then there's no point using that particular character, but it frustrates me that the way Marvel chooses to engage with Iron Man's particular themes is to have him just not learn his lessons over and over again. He's certainly not the only one suffering from this; off the top of my head whichever Hulk run came directly after Immortal Hulk seems to have barely followed up on or paid off anything that Al Ewing and co. set up. But for whatever reason out of all of them it's Iron Man who sticks out like a sore thumb to me specifically.

Any thoughts on all this? Is my analysis even critically sound? I hope it is but my knowledge of Iron Man and Marvel comics in general only extends so far; my observations are primarily from the last 2-3 years so I can't speak to what preceded that.

Your perception is absolutely correct. Iron Man flying too close to the sun and fucking up is basically the default beat, the thing that'll always be recognizably Iron Man to comic readers and moviegoers alike now that you can't spin him as an anticommunist playboy anymore; this was the backbone of the Civil War and Secret invasion arc, Johnathan Hickman's Avengers run leading into Secret Wars, and a whole bunch of stuff you just listed that I haven't been paying particularly close attention to. They've given him amnesia at least once in order to keep this cycle going. Maybe more than once.

Iron Man specifically has a couple unique storytelling problems that feed this cycle and contribute to the specific beats you've observed. First of which is that he's unique among superheroes in that a plurality of their audience are ideologically opposed to the existence of people like Tony Stark ; he's even more tightly tied to the playboy tech billionaire archetype than even Batman. This primes a lot of his contemporary storytelling to adopt an apologetic tone, and for a lot of his stories to sic him on even worse billionaires and magnates so the authors don't look like they've forgot about the negative effects of capitalism as commonly practiced.

I also think there's an argument to be made that the films specifically raised the saliency of the idea that Iron Man's Thing is getting caught in this cycle. It's not totally native to the films and the post-2007 comics seeking synergy with the films- see Demon in a Bottle and Armor Wars- but, in line with the realization that you can't make a weapons manufacturer an uncomplicated good guy in a post-GWOT post-cold war cultural context, the movies went really hard on the idea that he keeps fucking up and then overcompensating for previous fuckups in a way that generates new fuckups. The first movie is him trying to unfuck the damage he's done to the world as an arms dealer, Age of Ultron sees him produce Ultron directly and the Twins indirectly, Civil War has him back the Sokovia accords because he's projecting his own desire to be punished for the lack of oversight onto everyone else, Homecoming and Far from Home both have Spider-Man cleaning up villains generated by his business practices, and so on. They grafted on one of Hank Pym's big science-sins in order to reinforce this cycle, that's how committed they were to it.

In the movies this actually all mostly worked because there was an end to it. Not the most cohesive end, but he did die, and then there was a whole epilogue Spider-Man film wrestling with the idea that he was a complicated guy and that Peter shouldn't repeat his mistakes. Comic books don't have the luxury of a termination point; the arc can't conclude even in an unsatisfying way. They have to tread water. And if they have to tread water, best to do it in charted territory, with a type of story beat that'll be immediately recognizable to anyone just getting into the comics from the movies. Accessibility to the fabled "new reader" is an additional concern that contributes to this, with Iron Man and every other character; see also the TvTropes page on the Fleeting Demographic Rule, the gamble that they can get away with this kind of self-plagarism because the odds are good that the first time a casual reader encounters this kind of beat will be the only time they do so.

An additional element at play here, and one where I'm unsure of the long-term effects, is RDJ's departure from the movies. He's now been gone long enough that MCU Iron Man, even as late as Endgame, can be plausibly constructed as a nostalgia property. There is currently a wave of tweens who've plausibly never seen Iron Man headline in anything. This takes the pressure off of the comics to synergize with the movies, which is good on a level because some really dogshit stories happened as a result of that pressure, like Civil War 2. The flip side of that pressure is that there's nothing they specifically need the character to be doing, no A-list Hickman-headed Uberplot he has to play a key role in- I mean, he'll be there, but that'll be down to inertia. I think that lack of pressure will free up space for a new angle, but until someone comes up with that angle it might also encourage that same return to the mean.

What's going to pull him out of this is what pulls every character who ends up in this position out of it; someone genuinely invested will come along with a genuinely novel angle or approach, and their run will sell like hotcakes, become seminal, and eventually become another of the default beats that they constantly retread. After all, the first time they did a corporate takeover plot it probably hit really hard.

[astra-ravana]

The Dimensional Layers

The universe is believed to consist of multiple spiritual dimensions, each vibrating at different frequencies. These realms house various beings, from divine entities to restless spirits. While interpretations differ among mystics, shamans, and occultists, here’s an overview of commonly recognized dimensions and their inhabitants.

The Physical Realm

What It Is: The material world where humans, animals, and nature exist. This is the realm of tangible matter and linear time.

Beings Here: Humans, animals, plants, minerals.

The Ethereal Layer

What It Is: The subtle energy field that surrounds all physical beings, often associated with auras and chi. It’s where elemental consciousness begins to take shape.

Beings Here:

• Elementals – Nature spirits like fae, gnomes, and sylphs.

• Thought-Forms – Manifestations of collective consciousness.

The Astral Plane (Lower & Higher Astral)

What It Is: The dimension where thoughts, emotions, and spiritual energies take shape. Often visited in dreams, astral projection, and deep meditative states.

Beings Here:

• Ghosts & Spirits of the Dead – Earthbound spirits or those visiting the living.

• Lower Astral Entities – Shadow beings, trickster spirits, or negative thought-forms.

• Guides & Light Beings – Benevolent spirits that help seekers.

The Realm of Time & Thought

What It Is: A fluid, transitional space where time is nonlinear, and consciousness expands. Many spirit portals lead here.

Beings Here:

• Interdimensional Travelers – Spirits, ancestors, or astral projectors.

• Djinn & Trickster Spirits – Beings that influence reality and perception.

The Realm of Higher Consciousness

What It Is: The plane of enlightenment, where beings operate outside of material duality. It is associated with divine wisdom and unity consciousness.

Beings Here:

• Ascended Masters – Souls that have evolved beyond physical reincarnation

• Celestial Beings – Divine forces or deities

The Divine Blueprint (Akashic Realm)

What It Is: The plane of cosmic records and divine architecture. Here, reality is designed before manifesting in lower realms.

Beings Here:

• Keepers of the Akashic Records – Beings who maintain the history of all souls.

• Gods & Archetypal Forces – Higher aspects of deities and universal energies.

The Realm of Pure Light

What It Is: The domain of unity and divine love, where individuality dissolves into collective consciousness. This is often seen as the bridge between form and formlessness.

Beings Here:

• Seraphim & Divine Guardians – Pure light entities.

• High Cosmic Beings – Creators of universal structures.

The Unknowable Realms

What It Is: Dimensions that transcend human comprehension, where the universe’s fundamental forces originate.

Beings Here:

• The Source – The ultimate divine consciousness.

• Abstract Energy Beings – Forces that shape galaxies, reality, and existence itself.

Each dimension serves a different function in the grand design of existence. While some beings interact with the physical world, others remain in higher realms, guiding, protecting, or shaping reality. Mystics, witches, and spiritual seekers often attempt to access these dimensions through meditation, astral travel, or deep trance work. Understanding these realms can help in spiritual evolution, magick, and personal transformation.

[relationshipsafecute]

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[magic-shop-stories]

Can you make a Namjoon version of the pregnancy yoongi headcannon please?

💌 Reply:

Ahhh, thank you for this request! 🥹 Translating Yoongi’s blueprint into Namjoon’s universe was such a joy... and kinda healing to write tbh. If it’s too abstract, blame Joon... you know he’d turn parenthood into a TED Talk on existential botany. Hope this hits right for you, and that the brainrot is mutual (?) Let me know if you need tweaks! 💜 – c –

Kim Namjoon (RM) Pregnancy Headcanons x Reader

Warning: added a short mention of complication/ loss during pregnancy; brief mention of emotional vulnerability/complex feelings

🗿 How He Finds Out

you take the test alone first

needing quiet to process the enormity

the second line appears, you pace the bedroom

fingers brushing over his poetry books, his half-finished clay vase on the shelf...

Namjoon knocks softly after 15 minutes

"Love? You okay? You missed the Monstera’s watering time."

tries to jiggle the stuck door handle (his DIY fix last week)

fumbles with a paperclip

muttering

"Why do I always overtighten things…"

finally nudges the door open

finds you holding the test against your chest

glasses slide down his nose

he freezes

first words whispered like a haiku

"Are we... growing a universe?"

voice tender/ steady

=the way he reads letters at fan events

kneels carefully

avoiding the creaky floorboard

cradles your wrists

test between your joined hands

presses his lips to your temple

"However this goes... we’ll learn from it together."

🌿 Initial Reaction

Panic

spends the first night cross-referencing parenting books with peer-reviewed studies

highlighter in hand

scribbling notes in the margins of "The Hidden Life of Trees"

at 2 a.m. muttering about "epigenetic influences" and "sustainable bamboo diapers"

"Wait, prenatal sound exposure... should we play Debussy or traditional gugak?"

knocks over his bonsai while pacing

frets about "fetal stress responses"

creates a shared Google Drive titled "Project Sprout" before sunrise

Hidden Excitement

find him sketching a willow tree in his journal the next morning

branch roots morphing into tiny hands in the margins

you peek?

he slams it shut, cheeks pink

"Just... analyzing Fibonacci sequences in lotus pods."

later catches himself buying a single onesie

"For... a friend’s cousin!"

pattern: Van Gogh’s Starry Night with embroidered honeybees

you find the receipt tucked in his Walden pocket edition

"Fine. It’s… symbolic. Growth, y’know? Like haewon."

🌱 Worries

Fatherhood Fears

confesses at 2 a.m. over barley tea

steam curling like his restless thoughts

voice quiet

quoting Rilke: 

“Sometimes a man stands up during supper…”

trails off

fingers tracing the rim of his chipped moon-phase mug

“What if I… overwater them? Like my first bonsai.”

you find his journal open to a sketch of a tree split down the middle

one side labeled “Logic/Structure”

the other “Love/Chaos”

underlined in his blocky handwriting: 

“Can I be both roots and sunlight?”

finds him rereading Braiding Sweetgrass at dawn

circled passage:

“Parenting is an act of reciprocity with the future.”

Idol Life Stress

creates a Venn diagram titled “Cosmic Balance” during a flight

= Group Promotions | Prenatal Yoga | UNESCO Speech Drafts

mutters to his manager

“Can we route the Europe tour through Denmark?

Their parental leave policies could optimize…”

stares too long at ultrasound photos during Soundcheck

Jin catches him whispering to the grainy image

“Appa’s figuring it out. Like… how galaxies parent stars.”

forgets lyrics to Moonchild mid-concert

= first time ever

writes emails about “hologram tech for bedtime stories”

🌾 What He Does (Early Days)

Spoiling You

builds a custom "nest" in the sunniest corner of the house (and in his studio if you hang there)

hand-knotted hammock

handpicked field guides

"For our future botanist"

stocks the pantry with your cravings

hides your newfound aversions behind his kombucha SCOBY jars

leaves Post-its on the bathroom mirror:

"Remember: You’re already somebody’s ecosystem."

Overprepared

creates a bullet journal titled "Project Sprout: Phase One"

pages include: pressed gingko leaf tabs marking OB-GYN FAQs

also a graph comparing prenatal yoga studios

doodles of the baby

syncs a shared calendar called "Root Systems"

includes alerts like: ”3 PM: Hydrate (Y/N) + Water Ferns”*, ”7 PM: Debate Middle Names - Plato vs. Haneul?”, ”9:30 PM: Mandatory ‘The Martian’ Rewatch (Stress Relief)”

Hidden Romanticism

catches him playing "uhgood" on a tiny danso flute to your belly

"Early auditory exposure to heritage is… scientifically valid."

secretly starts a lullaby playlist titled "For When the Universe Feels Heavy" 

= curated mix of BTS instrumentals, rain sounds, and Maya Angelou recitations

forges a crib mobile from recycled mic parts and Hanji paper

each star inscribed with lines from his unpublished poems/lyrics:

"You, who will outlive all my words / Forgive me if I borrow the moon to explain your fingers."

🌌 Telling BTS

waits until the 12-week mark

citing "cosmic alignment"

hosts a "philosophy night" dinner

under the guise of discussing "existential metaphors in post-modern art"

sets the table with pressed flowers from his hikes and a centerpiece of his half-sculpted clay "symbol of life" (it’s a lopsided orb)

hides ultrasound printouts

inside Rilke poetry books

passes them out as "thought-provoking reading material"

Jungkook squints at the grainy image tucked between "Letters to a Young Poet"

"Hyung, is this… ? I see a baby... holding a galaxy?"

clears his throat

adjusting his glasses like a professor

"Actually, we’re… collaborating on a new project."

plays the heartbeat recording layered over his "SoundCloud experiment" 

mix of bamboo flute harmonies and his whispered sijo poem:

"Even the moon was once small / cupped in the sky’s dark palms..."

Reactions:

Jin

spills his makgeolli

laughing through half-tears

"Kim Namjoon, father?! Aigoo, the diapers’ll have PhDs!"

instantly Googles "baby-safe kimchi recipes"

"Important they respect fermentation science early."

Jungkook

silent for three full seconds

then leaps up, shaking Namjoon’s shoulders

"HYUNG. I’LL TEACH THEM HOW TO RIDE BIKES AND WRITE SONNETS!"

pauses, panicked

"Wait..which comes first?!"

Yoongi

nods slowly

eyes glinting

"Took you long enough."

slides a USB across the table

labeled "MixTape: Lullabies for Future Anarchists"

he already knew somehow, but kept silent

later, texts Namjoon

"You’ll suck less than you think."

Jimin

cradles your face

tearfully stern

"Uncle privileges include weekly dance lessons. Prenatal starts now."

demonstrates a "womb-friendly" body roll to Butter

Taehyung

holds the ultrasound to the lamplight

absolutely awed

"It’s abstract… like a Banksy!"

starts crooning Winter Bear to your belly

Hobi

immediately FaceTimes his mom for "emergency parenting tips" (as if it's his baby)

restructures your living room into a "positive vibes zone" with feng shui precision

jokes, lots of jokes

"First word has to be ‘J-Hooooope!’ Right? Right?"

Namjoon

tries to quote Kierkegaard on "the leap of faith"

voice cracks

collapses into silent tears when Jin speaks:

"Our leader’s leading a new squad."

later whispers to your belly

"You’ll have seven hearts before you even breathe."

Bonus

Group Chat Name: "The Epigenetics Committee"

Jin changes it to "Tiny Supreme Leader Support Squad"

Yoongi’s Gift

onesie printed with "I Survived Daechwita and All I Got Was This Sleep Deprivation"

Namjoon’s Realization

finds Jungkook asleep on your couch

he's asking you questions about pregnancy

Najoon cries again

posts on Weverse: "Love is a circular equation."

🌳 Telling His Family

visits Ilsan with a hand-painted onesie reading “Future Curator of Nature”

stuffed into a tote bag alongside his childhood pressed-flower collection

his sister answers the door

eyes darting to your bump

“Oppa. You didn’t… Oh my god.”

crushes you both in a hug

then sprints inside yelling (irony)

“Eomma! Appa! Namjoon finally did something cool!”

His Mom

emerges with a wooden spoon

freezes mid-scold about his “city-dust aura”

clasps her hands over her mouth

“Aigoo, my little mundungi…”

ushers you to the ondol floor

already reheating miyeok-guk

“You’re glowing! But Joon-ah...” 

pokes his bicep

“Are you meditating enough? Stress wrinkles age the baby’s aura.”

His Dad

nods stoically over tea

adjusts his reading glasses to study the ultrasound

clears his throat

presses a worn copy of Walden into Namjoon’s hands

margins filled with his own fatherly notes from ’93/94:

“Page 72: Joon cried here. Ask why.”

His Sister

drags you to his childhood bedroom

walls still plastered with dinosaur charts

“Here’s where he cried because T-rexes couldn’t hug properly.”

he was four

slides you a secret USB

“Namjoon’s 2008 Poetry... So Emo It’s Art, also blackmail material for when he’s being too philosopher-dad.”

Hidden Detail

in his old desk, finds a 3rd-grade “Nature Journal”

scribbled theories on “Why Rainbows Belong to Snails”

tucked between pages: a cicada shell labeled “First Heartbreak”

slips it into his bag

later placing it in the nursery

“Proof even confusion can molt into something beautiful.”

The Drive Home

his mom chases the car with a crate of homegrown ssuk and perilla leaves

“Boil the roots! It’ll make the baby’s cry less!”

sister texts: [Attachment: Namjoon age 7, sobbing into a melted ice cream]

🌿 Daily Life

Routine & Rituals

6:03 AM

wakes before dawn to simmer doenjang-jjigae with organic soybeans and kale (he's really trying, and it's not ending in a catastrophe)

leaves notes in calligraphy

“Nourishment is resistance — eat or I’ll recite Hegelian dialectics at you.”

adds doodles of scowling Brussels sprouts and a tiny Plato holding a fork

Post-Lunch Meditation

guides you through “forest bath” visualizations in your living room jungle

“Imagine your lungs as maple seeds… no, gently, you menace.”

his palms are warm and steady

pressing into your shoulders

“The iliac crest isn’t a metaphor, but today? Let’s pretend it is.”

Idol-Life Adjustments

converts his studio bookshelf into a “Zen Den”

matcha packets, lavender sachets, vintage Newton’s cradle for “stress diffusion”

texts PDogg:

“Postpone the feature... I’m optimizing circadian rhythms for two.”

secretly puts a prenatal Pilates ball in his studio

Chores

Laundry Wars

debates Jungkook over eco-detergent pH levels in the group chat

“Lavender is a neurotoxin to fetuses! Cite: Environmental Health Perspectives, 2019!”

Jungkook retaliates

“Hyung, your armpits are the real neurotoxin.”

(tho forget abpout this, I read about Dysfunction of the ABCCII gene, means asian sweat doesn't smell - god, I wish)

Culinary Experiments

attempts kimchi-jjigae

burns the first batch

blames “overzealous thermodynamic exchange”

his mom texts you her recipe with a note to Joon

“Stop intellectualizing the soup.”

Idol Life Impact

skips award show after-parties to chart the moon phases on your belly

writes lullabies sampling Whitman’s “Leaves of Grass” over Moonchild instrumentals

practices babywearing with a handwoven hemp sling

“Ergonomic and a statement against fast fashion.”

Quiet Moments

4:33 AM Playlist Crafting

curates “Symbiosis: A Prelude” 

= blend of bird migration recordings

RM’s trivia: love ad-libs + Yoongi’s Seesaw humming

hidden track: a poem he whispers to your belly nightly

“You are the first universe that ever knew me from the inside.”

Voice Memos

records The Alchemist chapters in English and Korean

apologizes to the bump after mispronouncing

“Forgive me... Appa’s still learning how to hold multiple worlds at once.”

Hidden Clumsiness

knocks over your Himalayan salt lamp (again)

while demonstrating “kangaroo care”

uses the debris to create a mosaic titled “Fragmented Enlightenment”

you find it later in the nursery

labeled “Lesson One: Beauty in Imperfection”

🌏 Public Announcement

Lead-Up

Media Lockdown

hires an eco-conscious cybersecurity firm to "reforest your digital footprint"

code name: "Project Photosynthesis" 

after Taehyung’s slip: "They’re our little sapling!"

convinces Big Hit to issue a statement about "protecting nascent ecosystems"

ARMY thinks it’s climate activism

ARMY Hints

wears a hand-carved gat (traditional hat) during a live

etched with "세상에서 가장 작은 별" (The World’s Tiniest Star)

ARMY deciphers it as a reference to his lyrics

trends #TinyConstellation

he “accidentally” leaves his journal open during a live

revealing a sketch of a tree root cradling a star

Reveal

three months postpartum

posts a watercolor painting on Weverse

his hand holding a seedling

roots entwined with his veins

caption: 

"ARMY, you taught me that growth is a dialogue between light and shadow. Now, I’ve been entrusted with a new dialect; the first breath of a forest I’ll never fully understand. Walk softly with us as we learn to whisper."

attaches a voice memo

= rain sounds, his spoken-word poem

"Dear Meteors Who Choose to Root"

ends with the baby’s coo harmonizing with a nightingale recording (Ilsan, 4:33 AM)

Aftermath

ARMY Reactions

trends #RootedInRM for 94 hours

ARMY plants 814,000 trees globally via "Kim Namjoon Forest Initiative"

donates $1.2M to UNESCO literacy programs "for futures untranslated"

Paparazzi Countermeasures

collaborates with a law firm to draft South Korea’s first "Right to Grow" digital privacy act

releases an anonymous ambient track

"Lens Crack Symphony" 

= field recordings of shuttering cameras dissolving into wind chimes

hosts a guerilla art exhibit

= blurred baby photos pixelated into Van Gogh’s Starry Night

titled "The Distance Between Love and Light"

Hidden Details

Journal Leak

later reveals the seedling painting used persimmon dye from his mom’s garden

Voice Memo Easter Egg

the nightingale recording is from his childhood Ilsan backyard

Law Impact

tabloid stalker photos drop 92%

paparazzi begin calling him "The Unphotographable"

🌱 When You Panic

Trigger

overhears a podcast debating "Nature vs. Nurture in Epigenetic Trauma" while sculpting clay in his studio

phrase like "generational echoes" lodges in his ribs like a splinter

clay cracks under his grip

shattering into jagged moons

Calm Facade, Storm Inside

finds you trembling after a nightmare

your hands clutching a parenting forum thread

cups your face

thumbs tracing the arc of your cheekbones like comet trails

voice steady but eyes galaxies-wide

"Even the oldest trees survived their first lightning strike. We’ll be the soil that grounds the burn."

Secret Meltdowns

sneaks to the balcony at 3 AM

recording a voice memo choked with static

"What if I… overcompensate? Love them too fiercely? Turn into Icarus’ sun?"

sends it to his therapist

texts you:

"Found this study on parental resilience . Want to co-author a rebuttal?"

Acts of Service

brews yuzu tea in his chipped moon-phase mug

one from your first museum date

"Emergency aesthetic intervention required."

dumps two baby socks on your lap

one printed with Kant’s Categorical Imperative

the other with "Ask Me About My Carbon Footprint".

"Which one says ‘I’m fiscally responsible but fun at parties’?"

Idol-Life Impact

skips a UN panel on sustainability

citing "an urgent planetary realignment."

spends the day building a "sensory sanctuary" 

hanging felt clouds, wind chimes tuned to Spring Day’s key

writes a 12-page letter to the baby instead of his keynote speech

"You’ll inherit a world I’ve criticized but still believe in. Forgive me for both."

Hidden Resilience

you find his studio desk littered with failed haiku

"My love is a net / Too many holes, too much sky / Catch nothing but light."

beside it, a single completed verse pinned under a geode

"You will know me / Not by the scars I hid / But the bridges I couldn’t stop building."

🌧️ If Something Goes Wrong (+ Loss)

Hospital Vigils

stands sentinel by your bed

reciting Mary Oliver poems to your IV drip

“Tell me, what is it you plan to do with your one wild and precious...” 

his voice fractures

bathes your wrists with rosewater from his mother’s garden

hands shaking

“In another universe, we’re still whole. Let’s… let’s borrow from there tonight.”

Guilt/Aftermath

spirals into annotating every parenting book with “Where did I fail?” in crimson ink

you find him at dawn

knee-deep in the backyard pond

he's planting lotus seeds “for unbloomed futures”

studio becomes a shrine of half-scribbled equations

Grief = (Regret x Time) ÷ Unsaid Words

“(Unsung Verse)”

composed at 4:33 AM on a detuned hotel piano during monsoon season

no lyrics

just the hum of rain against glass

single sustained G minor

files it under “Metamorphosis_Data”

encrypts it with a password even he forgets

Post Loss

cancels his Bottega collab/shoot

citing “a necessary erosion”

ARMY trends #StandWithRM

funding a forest reserve in Ilsan named “Seeds Grove.”

he visits

hangs a wind chime from a persimmon tree

“You would’ve loved the sound of rain here.”

Support System

Jin drags him to a pottery studio

slams clay onto a wheel

“Sculpt something that can’t be quantified.”

they sit until dawn

molding silent vases for flowers that never arrive

Jungkook leaves a bonsai sapling on your porch

“It’s okay if it wilts. We’ll grow it again.”

Namjoon keeps it alive

“See? We’re still learning.”

Yoongi mails a USB labeled “For When Words Are Too Loud” 

ambient tracks layered with Namjoon’s old laugh from 2014

Bonus

five years later, during his TED Talk on “The Ecology of Loss”

soft G minor chord seeps into his mic

his toddler "Haewon" toddles backstage

he freezes

“Apologies. My heart’s just… recalibrating its orbit.”

🌌 Gender Reveal

Reaction

ultrasound tech smiles

“Looks like a girl!”

Namjoon’s breath hitches

eyes pooling with constellations

“A daughter… She’ll rewrite every star.”

buys a sapling from the DMZ forest to plant in her name

“So she’ll always know where resilience grows.”

tech corrects

“Wait, no! ...it’s a boy!”

freezes

then grins like he’s solved the universe’s riddle

“A son? Then we’ll learn gravity anew.”

orders a hand-bound journal titled “Hypotheses on Joy” to fill with their future questions

Late-Night Promises

whispers to your belly while sketching the moon’s craters

“You’ll carve your own orbit. Be sculptor or storm. I’ll be your compass, never your cage.”

plays a mixtape of rainfall

“Rhythm isn’t in blood; it’s in the spaces between heartbeats.”

Hidden Rebellion

declines all gender-reveal sponsorships

donates the offers to a nonbinary youth arts fund

tweets a snippet of Audre Lorde’s “There is no hierarchy of oppression”

caption:

“Hierarchies are human-made. My child is a natural phenomenon.”

🌱 Labor & Delivery

Prep

packs a hospital bag weeks early

includes: hand-knit hemp blanket

worn copy of “The Prophet” for whispered readings

portable mini bonsai

“For biophilic stress reduction”

memorizes your birth plan like a thesis defense

color-coded tabs

debates delayed cord clamping using Harvard studies

defers when you snap mid-contraction

“Trust the forest to know its roots.”

During Labor

channels his lyrics count breaths

“Inhale… four… seven… exhale...”

fidgets in his pocket

reciting Rumi under his breath

when contractions peak, he presses his forehead to yours

voice cracking

“You’re the Big Bang happening again. Let it… let it supernova.”

white-knuckles the bedrail

snaps it twice 

First Hold

cuts the cord with tears in his eyes

hands steady but soul trembling

cradles the baby like a relic

awe-struck

speechless (for once)

“You… you’re the poem I could never finish.”

Jungkook finds him at dawn

sketching the baby’s hand in his journal

“Proof that softness can reshape calluses.”

Hidden Moments

Panic Peak

flees to the hospital garden

sobbing into his sleeves

returns with acorn seeds to plant in the baby’s name

BTS Support

Taehyung paints a watercolor of the birth chart stars

Jimin choreographs a “welcome dance” with hospital socks

Lockscreen Lore

photo of the baby

captioned “My First Co-Author”

🌍 Idol Life Challenges

Touring Adjustments

negotiates "modular tour schedules"

two-week blocks with carbon-neutral travel offsets

publishes a Weverse series: "Parenthood in 7 Languages" 

= from hotel lobbies, baby strapped to his chest in a hanbok-style sling

FaceTimes you whenever he isn't there

"Tell them Appa’s dismantling patriarchal systems and mastering bottle sterilization."

Backstage Innovations

designs a "Portable Ecosystem" bassinet

= soundproof, air-purified, with a mini-library of global folktales

staff catch him debating naptime schedules with his manager

"Melatonin cycles vs. timezone optimization… we need a third axis for emotional bandwidth."

producers receive track notes like:

"Bridge too jarring... Babys stress spiked during playback. Revise."

Privacy Protocols (after birth)

codename: "Project Metamorphosis" (BTS group chat) + "Symbiosis" (public filings)

threatens paparazzi with "a TED Talk on the ethics of voyeurism" instead of diss tracks

updates IG bio: "Curator of small wonders." 

archives old posts

replacing them with abstract clay sculptures titled "The Weight of New Gravity."

BTS Support System

Jin’s Uncle Duties

hosts Kimchi nights

teaches the baby to grip cabbage while lecturing on Kantian ethics

"Ethics are like fermentation... both require patience and good bacteria."

Hobi’s Playdates

creates "Microbeat Workshops"

tiny tambourines

sock-covered maracas

films a tutorial

"Dancing Through Sleep Deprivation: A 7-Step Guide to Joyful Survival."

Yoongi’s Stealth Care

slides a USB into Namjoon’s studio

"Parenting Lo-fi: 24/7 Lullaby Beats to Overthink To."

secretly buys noise-cancelling headphones sized for infants

"For when Bangtan’s chaos is too iconic."

Taehyung’s Art Therapy

paints the nursery ceiling like the Van Gogh Museum

replaces stars with ARMY bombs

"Aesthetic and culturally relevant. Teach them young."

Jungkook’s Training

leaves a mini "Future Golden Maknae" workout plan

"0-3 mos: Grip strength (finger holds) 4-6 mos: Core stability (tummy time to Dynamite BPM)"

Hidden Stress Tells

over-researches "infant sleep regression in multilingual households" at 3 AM (as if their was a serious coreelation)

wears mismatched socks during diaper crises

quotes Thoreau during meltdowns

"Simplify, simplify… but how, Henry?!

🌿 Bonus Headcanons

family dog in 3...2...1...

Nicknames/Nonsense

calls the baby “Haewon” (sun and garden) as a placeholder

“It’s just… phonetically efficient!”

secretly tests names via Scrabble tiles

arranging letters into constellations

when they cling to his leg during a Live, he dubs them

“For their relentless grip on my existential crises.”

Late Nights

falls asleep annotating “The Art of Parenting in a Climate Crisis” 

margin notes: 

“How to explain melting glaciers to a toddler? Start with snow cones.”

bookmarks tabs: “Raising Anti-Capitalist Kids in a Late-Stage World” and “Is My Guilt Biodegradable?”

First Studio Visit

lets them “remix” his track by banging a wooden spoon on his awards

samples the chaos into an interlude called “Symbiosis: Noise & Nuance.”

plays it during a UNICEF speech

“This is the sound of hope refusing to be tempo-locked.”

Hidden Sentimentality

writes their milestones in the margins of his Walden copy

”First steps: 10/7. Proof that wilderness walks are innate.”

teaches them to say “Annyeonghaseyo” to his bonsai collection

“Respect all roots, human or not.”

secretly saves their crayon scribbles as NFT art titled “Post-Human Abstract Expressionism.”

note [06/05/25] : he wouldn't, I was not aware of the environmental impact of NFT's when writing this. I have to thank the person asking me about this in this NFT REQUEST

[damn this took me soooo long, but can I borrow him? for a week? pls... bc my so called father is buying milk since 2002]

[astrolook]

👶✨The Cosmic Blueprint of Your Future Babies 👶✨

Note: This is based on the sidereal/Vedic chart only. These are all my personal observations and patterns I’ve noticed over the years.Drop a comment and let me know how it showed up in your life! I’d love to hear your experiences ✨

These are patterns I’ve noticed over the years, so they might or might not resonate with you because no single placement tells the full story. I’m just sharing possibilities and recurring themes I’ve seen.

🌀 Ketu (South Node) in the 5th

Seen in cases of identical twins, IVF, and same-sex relationships

Can also point to miscarriages or abortions

🔥 Mars in the 5th

Accidental pregnancy, emergency C-section, or single parenting

The child might have an androgynous appearance like sometimes boyish, sometimes delicate.

🌫️ Rahu (North Node) in the 7th

Second child may have a different father (e.g. step-sibling)

Also shows up in adoption, surrogacy, or non-traditional partnerships

🌙 Moon in the 5th

Often indicates a girl child

Child may struggle with weight in early years, but retains a youthful appearance into old age

☀️ Sun in the 11th

Points to adopting children from faraway places

Can also indicate giving birth far from your birthplace

🪐 Saturn / Saturn Rx in the 5th

Possible infertility especially in Aries, Gemini, Leo, Virgo

Children might come in the late 20's or 30's

C-sections, significant age gaps between children (4+ years), or in rare cases, childlessness

🔁 Jupiter Rx in the 5th

Indicates a delay in childbirth, typically late 20s or 30s

Still very capable of having children, the children may be less religious or traditional

🏠 Saturn in the 4th

At least one child may not get along with their siblings

💖 Sun/Venus in the 5th

Favorable for childbirth, unless they are conjunct Rahu, Ketu, or Saturn

🔁 5th Lord Retrograde

Often shows up as C-section births across the board

🏥 5th Lord in the 6th House

Suggests medical intervention like fertility treatments or C-sections

🕳️ 5th Lord in the 8th House

Indicates surgical deliveries or complications during childbirth

🌌 5th Lord in the 12th House

Rare cases of miscarriage, stillbirth, or children born abroad / mixed race

🌞🌀 Sun or Rahu in the 12th House

Child might be mixed race or born far from the mother’s birthplace

⚠️ Even though a woman’s chart usually gives strong clues about childbirth, for full accuracy, we have to check the partner’s chart too.

☀️🔥 Sun/Mars in the 7th

Often leads to delayed childbirth, like in the late 30s or 40s

🌀Uranus - Neptune conjunction in the 5th House

Twins or mixed race babies, unexpected pregnancy.

Now let's look at complex childbirth conditions and lemme know in the comments! Also overall chart needs to be analyzed as one placement cannot give away everything about childbirth.

Rahu + Moon/Ketu + Mercury in 5th - Neurodivergent Child

Mercury afflicted or in retrograde in 5th - Speech delay/learning disabilities

Saturn + Rahu in 5th House - Long term care for the child with chronic conditions

5th Lord in 6th with Malefics - Child with chronic ailments or severe illness

Mars + Saturn + Rahu in 5th - Behavioral difficulties or mental challenges.

Wanna go deeper into the layers of your placements? DM me for a complete astrology reading 🌙💬 and check out my pinned post for pricing + details 💫💸

Let’s decode your cosmic chaos together ⭐

[hrrtshape]

I feel like your a history nerd (cause your cool like that)

If sooooo, what are your history hyper fixations??

the vestal virgins. don’t even start with me. those girlies were literal flame influencers. imagine being so spiritually integral that your entire civilisation’s cosmic insurance policy hinges on your eternal virginity and how well you vibe with a sacred bonfire. like. yeah. sure. let’s casually tie state security to whether a teen in a linen dress looked at a boy too long. it’s giving girlhood as high-stakes diplomacy. they were twelve when they started. twelve. by fourteen i was collecting sylvia plath quotes and lying about my zodiac chart. they were holding rome in their bare hands. and the punishment for messing up was being buried alive??????! hello???? that’s not just history, that’s theatre. that’s artaud-core.

anyway. obviously marie antoinette and the entire rococo breakdown of cause-effect relationships. the aesthetics were louder than the economy. she blinked in satin and the peasants started drafting war manifestos. i don’t even care if she said “let them eat cake.” she lived like she did and that’s more iconic. it’s the performance of obliviousness. the blueprint of the nepo baby. the original tumblr girl but with better fabric and state-sanctioned nihilism. “i want a farm where i pretend to be a peasant” is so lana del rey coded. like that girl was not born, she was curated. she was camp. and then she got guillotined. which, okay....rude. i went to versailles and visited her little farm......GET ME MY GOWN AND CAKE

don't care enough about him but have to yap. napoleon’s entire arc is giving short king with delusions. i care about it in the way i care about greek tragedies. his whole thing was being so allergic to irrelevance that he crowned himself and then ruined everything. and then ruined it again. like a human molotov cocktail in epaulettes.

i’m sweating. i’m so right about this. please let me explain before i get hit by lightning or something.

also history isn’t real unless it involves at least one of the following:

a girl disguising herself as a boy to join a war. somebody writing a diary that outlives their body by four centuries. a rumour so good it destabilised a dynasty. fashion as both weapon and witness. a woman so compelling she was either labelled a witch or married off to stop a war.

also omfg i've been waiting for someone to bring up the judas/jesus twin flame evil little god complex of hitler and stalin but alas no one is here to validate my roman catholic shame spiral fascination with totalitarianism. like. i’m not defending anyone i’m just saying if i see a historical figure who had that much control over an entire continent’s existential dread i’m gonna want to know what their birth chart looks like. sue me

anyway, world war two. the moment. the theatre kid production of armageddon. it’s literally greek tragedy if everyone was chain-smoking and doing war crimes. like i look at the molotov-ribbentrop pact and it feels like two exes fake-dating to make poland jealous (and then killing it). and stalin, girl was camp (im allowed to say this, i live in fuckass LITHUANIA). moustache like a villain in a looney tunes short. sent people to gulags like he was playing monopoly. and hitler, ok sorry but hitler is the worst person ever and also the most literally on-the-nose character ever written. failed artist. mommy issues. vegetarian. thought he was the main character in a wagner opera but he was just a reddit incel with state funding

also like you cannot give me fascist architecture, military uniforms tailored by hugo boss, the rise of mass propaganda, and the literal invention of the nuclear bomb and expect me not to get a little bit girl-in-her-morbid-era about it. it’s not glamorisation it’s just. historically-induced psychosis. also the way world war 2 bled into literally every cultural product of the 20th century. film noir, came from it. existentialism, born. the EU, her. anime, somehow. the CIA, oops. barbie, yes

we’re not even gonna get into the psychological chaos of operation paperclip because i will start foaming. like imagine you’re truman and you just decided to drop the sun on a civilian population twice and now you’re hiring nazi scientists with a fake name and a smile. and meanwhile stalin’s doing trust falls with mao and inventing the cold war like it’s a competitive sport

the delusions of grandeur. the parades. the betrayal. the theatre of it all. like julius caesar but everyone has a gun and a god complex. and the girlies will say it’s insensitive to find it fascinating but honestly i think it’s more disrespectful to pretend it wasn’t the most deranged geopolitical fanfic ever written

so yeah. i watch ww2 documentaries like they’re telenovelas. i read about it like i’m trying to solve a murder that already happened. hitler and stalin as jesus and judas? absolutely. but reverse. both evil. both gay for power. one had a bunker meltdown, the other died mid-sentence like he was being smited by karma herself. it’s literally mythology. it’s literally a bible written in telegrams and blood

and that’s why i have 18 tabs open about the yalta conference and insomnia. thanks for coming to my bunker. please leave now