#Cloudy rambles

[agenderhyde]

video calls that end abruptly as jekyll doubles over in pain. texts sent and left on read, or not seen at all. utterson wondering why his husband keeps shutting him out and feeling helpless.

he finds his husband's lover(?) blackmailer(?) secret third thing(?) on social media and obsesses over his pages, trying to understand--the man is all about vice, a point he brags about in every photo, every post.

[the-cloudy-dreamer]

it was pointed out to me today that ( for various reasons) this could all been seen as a sequence and I honestly didn’t plan for it to be that way but now I cannot unsee it! The mind works in mysterious ways ( specially with blorbo fanart).

The year is wrapping up and I’m feeling happy to all the progress I’ve made as an artist—so I thought hey let’s put this all together so I have a post to go back to and remind myself of happy tidings 🖤

[cloudymistedskies]

HES SO CUTE I LOVE HIM WHQGNBTY6

I love the twins' mist patterns, the hilt of his sword, the paper planes, which is his hobby. AND GINKO, WHO HE LOVES AAAUBNNNNNBGGJWIWIWJWWW2 THE OUTFIT LOOKS SO PLEASING TO STARE AT TOO.....,,,,, Muichiro you make me insane

[i-like-gay-books]

i wish “hyperfixating on reading fanfics of the same two losers falling in love a thousand times” was a good reason to call off of work because oh boy

[my-strange-attraction]

I've been reading queer-specific books for a writing project I'm working on lately and yes it did include Fun Home and it was even better than the first time I read it (my fixation on certain panels of that comic really should've tipped me off to my lesbianism sooner) BUT also I read Gender Queer for the first time and OH MY GOD

Some panels I related to SO hard that I had to screenshot:

LITERALLY!!!!!!

This is actually always how I have experienced crushes and is why I was never able to identify them as such until very recently (because I just thought they were cool and I emulated everything they did). Also why I have almost never actually known any of my crushes very well if at all.

I have nothing to add or change here, this is literally my exact experience.

I watched an episode of Say Yes To The Dress when I was super young where like the main lady or whatever got breast cancer and had to chop hers and I thought this a lot in those years as mine got bigger. I like them for the most part now, especially since I've gotten more comfortable with the sexuality of my body, but there was a while when I wanted to have a flatter chest. I think if they grew any bigger I would be super uncomfy with them but my B cups are perfect for my genderfluid ass.

I got so much out of this book, which I didn't expect, really. Mostly I just included it in my list because my mc who I'm writing about is genderqueer and I wanted a resource on it to draw from (alongside my own experiences, of course). Even though my experience has been a lot different from Maia's, I really related to eir story in so many parts (none of these panels are even including the whole section e included about reading gay fiction and writing fanfic, like, bro, it's ME). Highly recommend, 5 star read for me.

[cloudypinkblink]

you know sayuri kinda looks like she has the dead mom hairstyle, kinda

so time to give masaru (and chika) some angst

aka sayuri dying and Masaru drops out of school to get a job and raise his sister, over working himself and having bad habits of caring more about others health than his own

Chika worries about her brother and the changed that happened to him since their mom death

Satsuma didn't know that sayuri died and when he finds that out plus masaru joining DATS he tries to be a parental figuur to him (like a dad or uncle)

I'm so glad someone finally mentioned this bc I've always thought that abt her hair LMAO Anyways I will give u my perspective w/ Sayuri's death, tho it's a LIL different from some of what you suggested, but I like the idea a lot and have thought about it before.

Firstly, I think Masaru and Chika do get financial support; Sayuri is a stay-at-home mom with two kids in the anime; I'm assuming DATS gave her money in compensation for Suguru's disappearance, especially considering Captain Satsuma and Suguru were friends, as well. So with her death (I'm just chalking it up to illness), the financial support fell to the kids- they get to keep their house and I think they both stubbornly want to so when Dad comes back, he knows where they are (bc mind u canon masaru is only 14; he's still just a kid, and is bound to have some childlike hope/logic) Masaru does drop out and start working- for two reasons. One - His temper and behavior is pretty bad in school- he struggles dealing with his grief, and eventually just can't deal with it anymore; he's getting into more serious fights and hurting other kids, and it has a negative effect on Chika so he just drops out. He was also failing because he almost never studied, just too stressed. Two - Part of him is afraid of what will happen if he doesn't provide or take care of Chika on his own; yes they've got the money, but what if it's limited? Furthermore- he wants her to have nice things. They're given enough to survive, but after losing both their parents, he wants Chika to be happy. Sure, he can't spoil her, but he likes being able to buy her nice things when he can.

He works a few odd jobs- I think the last job he really worked before he ended up meeting Agumon and getting to DATS was at his friends shop- the one there is an episode about? But when it closed he lost it, and was inbetween work. He meets Agumon and Satsuma does recognize Masaru; he is aware of his situation, as Sayuri had asked him to make sure they're taken care of, but I guess he didn't realize how bad things had gotten on Masaru. Instead of Yoshino going to seek Masaru out, the Captain does personally, and tells him a bit about his dad and his relationship with Sayuri. He outright offers a job for Masaru at DATS, and it only gets solidified after Masaru is able to get Agumon to evolve. Satsuma also does this personally to allow Masaru to keep his privacy; it's his choice if he wants the others to know his personal situation. (Masaru doesn't outright talk about it, but he doesn't keep it a secret, either. It is what it is, but he does appreciate being able to tell them on his own)

(I believe in giving Masaru different hairstyle supremacy)

Masaru ofc takes it because he's able to work, and the pay is ggood enough that he feels a bit better about spending more time at home. Satsuma gives him mornings/early afternoons off, allowing Masaru to do housework, cook, etc., Masaru is also very grateful to Agumon- and instead of being hungry af for Sayuri's fried eggs, he obsesses over Masaru's. The companionship and someone to chat with while he does stuff helps Masaru, and he doesn't get nearly as restless anymore given his fights with Digimon make him feel more fulfilled. (There is a part of him that's terrified of something happening, leading him to leave Chika behind; I think he's very much more hesitant about going to the digital world, and needs her encouragement before he goes. As much as Masaru the son wants to find his dad and have a parent, Masaru the brother doesn't want to abandon Chika. I also don't think he goes to the digital world at the end of the series; sure their dad is back, but Masaru's been Chika's main parent figure. I don't think he has it in him to leave her.) While I didn't draw her, Yoshino is definitely really sympathetic, and often buys Masaru and Chika snacks, and gives him rides to places if she's not busy. It becomes a little routine for her and Masaru to go grocery shopping together, and Lalamon often points out how much better Masaru is at housework than Yoshino- obviously to tease and fluster her. She also tries to be there when Masaru has his off and down days- but they all kinda learn pretty quick to just... let him simmer for a bit, and he comes around on his own. Masaru is probably depressed, and it manifests as quiet, slow days, or in angry bursts where he doesn't understand his sadness. Touma and Masaru of course buttheads at first, though Touma is fairly shocked and surprised when he hears Masaru say he takes care of Chika himself because his parents are gone. Masaru doesn't beat around the bush, saying Mom passed away and Dad went missing. Of course they kinda butt heads still when the ever proud and abrasive Masaru doesn't like pity, but Touma, I think, opens up a bit and explains his "pity" is empathy, because his mom died, and his little sister is sick, so he gets it. While I definitely feel thats information Touma doesn't give lightly, I think it's because Touma is rather caring towards Chika too, and at least he had others to take care of him and take care of Relena in his absence. Satsuma does enlist in Touma's help in tutoring Masaru- it's soemthing they'll do in quiet evenings, though Yoshino often has to butt in to get Touma to tone down his genius speak to something a bit less overwhelming. This will be dubbed orphan AU in tags. I will definitely come back, but please ask/prompt more as well hehehe. I definitely want to explore Masaru's relationships w/ some of the adult figures in his life- Satsuma, Yoshino. And ofc how Ikuto would be different given it was Sayuri's motherly affection that had a big effect on him.

[bubblessunshinehoney]

I just finished Bride from Ali Hazelwood...and I'm hooked. I want to return in the story and rediscover their relationship...

Might also want to read more books like this 😊 does anyone have recommendations?

[another-undiagnosed-autistic]

I just realized that the reason I never related to any of the "clothes itchy, I have specific clothes needs and preferences" symptom of autism is because I just. Internalized it differently?? Instead of being incredibly averse to certain fabrics or styles, I've always gotten really really excited about fabrics and styles that I like, and then tried to replicate it in all the clothes I own. Fashion is also one of my special interests, which definitely contributes. But I think this is why the conversation about sensory repulsed vs sensory seeking is so important when talking about sensory processing disorder, because the perception of (white, male, 12yo) autism is often that we are sensorily repulsed to, well, everything. But sensory seeking is often more or less an equal part of spd.

[cloudy-skyes]

does anyone else get hotel insomnia or is it just me? i swear i can never sleep when i’m at a hotel

[agenderhyde]

"I'm not sure she's capable of real love--unless, of course, it's with Peter Capaldi, because that guy, he was the best Doctor." -- Michelle Gomez in the interviews for Big Finish's "Bad Apple Brigade"

[the-cloudy-dreamer]

taking the skrungly entities away from mr gaiman and putting them away on the top shelf until he learns to treat them better and writes them a happy ending (or the bottom of my sock drawer whatever they find comfiest)

[cloudymistedskies]

MariMui scenarios (Birthday edition!!)

(Okay yes, nobody celebrated their birthday in the Taisho era, but not a lot of ppl know that so im 😁😁😁)

It was Muichiro’s birthday. He didn’t realize it was until each hashira greeted him happy birthday, either in person or by letter. It wasn’t too important for him, at least that’s what he thinks. But he realize that Mari hasn’t said anything about his birthday. He didn’t see her, nor did he receive any letter from her.

It was a bit disappointing to him. Admittedly, he was hoping Mari would do something in his birthday. He spent the rest of the day training as usual. Then as he was about to call it a day and planned on patrolling, he sensed a presence and turned around, his expression slightly surprised when he sees the familiar brunette, with a cake in one hand and seemingly a present in another.

With a sheepish grin, she greeted: “..Happy birthday…?” She was hoping to sneak up on him as a surprise, but then again, he’s also a Hashira…

“I was thinking you’d forgotten about it.” Muichiro said, taking the cake from her hands as she was struggling to stay stable. Mari explained to him that she was having trouble due to their busy schedules and there was a delay making the cake. She was hoping to celebrate with him in the afternoon, but obviously, it didn’t occur.

Although not noticeable, Muichiro felt relieved and maybe even happy Mari remembered and even went out of her way to do all this for him. Unfortunately they couldn’t celebrate it around evening due to their nightly patrols, but the girl suggested they celebrate it tomorrow and spend some time making paper planes too. Muichiro agreed. After all, she was the one he was waiting for to spend time with for his special day.

THERE WILL BE ART SOON !!! IM STILL MAKING ITTTTT just writing this as compensation

Here is the promised MariMui content: @larz-barz @thewinterpillarhashira @bunskero @ramuunene @tinyperson00 @nimmie-nugget @kimetsu-chan @aceofstars0 @nothingtoseehere1-2-3 @muuumuiiii @rion-isnot-an-ai @pinkwisteria @kiiroibarathedragontamer @love-stvrs @risingscorchingsuns @your-local-halloween-black-cat

[i-like-gay-books]

someone tell me what the fuck to do now i just finished dark heir and i need to scream and flail around but its 1am and i have a 9am class tomorrow like bruhhhhh

[my-strange-attraction]

I need sapphic media recs NOW. Books preferred, but shows, webcomics, etc too. Just. Anything sapphic. Specifically cozy sapphic rather than sexy/ dramatic sapphic, but like. Also just give me your best recs, I've just not been good at finding good ones so far.

(I've been having my first crush that I've been aware of while it's happening, and I need an outlet for my pining other than writing gay yearning poetry and sharing crush posts to my close friends insta story on the off chance she'll see it)

[cloudypinkblink]

I’m having a poopy night so have my oc, Devin Seahorn :))

He’s one of my most special ocs <3 I made him in 2017, and he has like 700+ pieces on toyhouse bc I adore him so much LMAO

These are just some of my favorite pieces I’ve done recently!

Some fun little notes abt him~

-he loves coffee a lot!

-he is very smart!! Very quiet and meek though so it doesn’t show uwu

-very close with his siblings, but his older sister especially! Furthermore her partner is Devin’s best friend :))

-Has a service dog named coconuts <3

-fought w the devil and won

-enjoys plushies because thsy’re soft and cute so nice n comfy :)) his personal aesthetic otherwise is more plain

-he has some magic in him! His mom is a powerful witch who is bangin’ Mother Earth and you know what? They deserve.

-I love him he is so special to me if I ever were to get rid of him I’d simply disappear from this world.

Ty for listening he is so special to me I love him I love him I looove him

He also had one husband but now we decided he deserves TWO so now he has two husbands.

Sorry I just wasn’t feeling good I should be asleep but it made me feel more comfy to jsut chattsd abt him for a second :))

[bubblessunshinehoney]

Can we talk about that ....???😳🤭🤣