#Change! Getter 3

[selketshaula]

シブすぎるゲッターと石川先生 by あやちゅ

[crackheadass]

i dont typically give a shit about how many likes my art gets but i kinda busted my ass to finish a big pinup piece in time for valentines day and it got 2 likes... i average a strong 9 to 10 what the heck man.

[theladybrownstarot]

Pick-A-Card : Why will your future spouse choose you ? ✧°•

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✧ Pile 1.

Namaste pile 1 ! Let's begin with your reading:

Your future spouse choose you because among all you were the one who didn't pay a lot attention to his charm and ignored him ,according to them you seem to be playing to get hard. I see that you two have similar thoughts making you compatible all around with each other also I see that they already thought to choose you long before you even know them but they didn't knew how to approach you and confess their feeling . I'm getting that they are someone who are new and someone you don't know at all most probably. This is hilarious and cute at the same time because you are in their thoughts everytime , they feel that undeniable connection with you . I see some south-east or north guy/girl in this reading too and possibly that you may have short to medium hair or wear specs or they may have sharp eyes and wear specs- an extra information chanelled . Your future spouse actually feels safe with you emotionally ; respecting and understanding them like no one ever did before. They feel to immerse with you only and around you they can open up fully without any insecurity. There's this sharp clarity about you they have that they want you only in their life , no matter what happens so wow go getter energy .

✧ Pile 2

Namaste pile 2 ! Let's get with your reading:

The first thing that I chanelled I was very funny like you had be someone that might be or will be the one who will be a lot pressured by your future spouse to handle their errands like this person needs you like mostly to get their work done or they will just throw some work on you and that's the first main reason why they had choose you- they want to depend on someone because they are lazy and dramatic as hell. At the same time I see that do respect you a lot and admire you for you being you and letting them grow with you this is the vision that they basically have about you. You are their litreal trophy or that jackpot . I see that they may self esteem issues but you had be helping them up to change totally. I see that this person might be an over achiever and at some not a lot recognised for their hardwork and because of this they ended up loosing a lot in life but you will or got them up. They choose you because you directed and supported them a lot in their harsh times . They believe in themselves more when you are with them , they will that they would achieve the whole world by being with you also they had be a bit rebellious and masculine person for same .

✧ Pile 3.

Namaste pile 3 ! Let's get with your reading :

They had literally state so many reason like they love you unconditionally for sure ! The cards just felt out like wonders everytime I was shuffling. You are blessed for sure . I feel that after you met your spouse either one of you met with some financial gains and changes as per what I can sense and say . Your future spouse choose you because you healed them emotionally basically from their experiences and the traumas they had , you showed them the light and hope altogether. They already saw the signs around again when and after they met making them sure out of no where that you had be the one who won't leave him . This pile has got some very emotional energy . I Channeled a hindi song - jeena sikha diya marna sikha diya . I'm getting that they were outcasted in their life and no one accepted them other than you because you had a pure heart and I also heard black magic for you or him . They chose you because you complete them .

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[rememberwren]

/•Harmless Fun•\

Part One | Part Two | Part Three | Part Four | Part Five | Part Six | Further Parts

Exactly what it says on the tin. Established ghoap, bringing in fem!reader roommate. Poor writing. Reader has had any identifying features removed, but she owns a Ford Fiesta. Take that as you will. Just testing to see if there is interest in a lighthearted fun sexy fic like this. 🩶

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“Remember. You’re desperate,” you muttered to yourself looking at your reflection in the rearview mirror of your tiny Ford Fiesta. The ink might as well still be fresh on the ad your roommate printed off for you (the perfect symbol of her guilt for moving back in with her boyfriend and forcing you to find a new apartment and new roommates in the first place).

The ad reads as thus: WANTED: ANY GENDER WELCOME to fill the second bedroom in a 2b/2ba 1290sq ft apartment. DOWNTOWN. In-building laundry. Utilities and rent split EVENLY amongst 3. NO FASCISTS, NO HOMOPHOBES.

It was the most promising ad you had seen after days of scouring the internet in your every spare moment (usually reserved for those moments when you were on break during shifts, feet and back aching, hating your life OR at the end of a long day when the post-sunset depression hit with all the force of a typhoon). Any two people who were against fascism and homophobia were alright in your book. As for the finer details—well. You were desperate. You were going to have to overlook any skeletons in their closets, as long as those skeletons weren’t literal.

I’m texting about the apartment downtown. Is this the right number?

Yeah, you’ve got it. Nice to text ya. You’re interested?

Very. Is there somewhere we could meet to discuss the details?

We don’t mind showing the apartment. Got a few others coming to see it as well. You cursed up a storm reading over that particular text, so much so that your roommate’s boyfriend knocked angrily on the thin walls separating your bedrooms. Scowling, you knocked back—a little too angry to be mistaken for conciliatory. You blamed that bastard for your troubles in the first place.

I’ll see it ASAP, if that’s okay.

Go-getter. How soon can you be here?

Which is how you found yourself in the parking lot of the building, hastily combing hairs back into place, hoping for some semblance of presentability. If only there was a way to hide the desperation in your eyes…

The apartment complex itself is everything you could have hoped for. It even has an indoor pool, which is a step up from the facilities offered at your own apartment. The rent is a little higher than what you were pulling at your old place, but you think you can manage it if you cut back on excess frivolities. And any joy. (Joy costs)

There’s a doorman even—an honest to god doorman! He instructs you on the way to the elevators, and you take them up to the top floor, feeling your ears pop from the change in altitude. By the time you’re standing in front of their door, your knees are knocking together, terrified of who you might be meeting. Even more terrified that they might not like you, that they might say no—

—and the door opens, shattering any expectation you have. The man standing there is undoubtedly, ungodly, unseemly, obscenely hot. His head nearly brushes the frame of the door, blond hair wild and mussed, like he’s just had the fuck of his life. He’s thick, too, muscles on muscles along his corded forearms, bared by the dark tee that stretches across his chest.

He is pale and dark eyed and frowning down at you so sternly that you are convinced you have knocked on the wrong door. God help you. It’s all an honest mistake—but then his gravelly, softly-accented voice says: “You’re here about the apartment?”

Your heart nearly stops. This is the person who owns the apartment? How could you be expected to live alongside this behemoth? Just as you are about to tuck tail and run, a hand grips the man’s shoulder and gently tugs him aside and another specimen—two of them! two!—appears. This one has his hair cropped in a Mohawk, his eyes a deep drown-worthy blue. A few inches shorter, he is just as impressive shape. He beams at you.

“Well!” he says, leaning on the door frame in a way that fetchingly shows off the cut muscles of his arm and chest. His voice is accented too, something rougher, different than the taller man’s. “You aren’t what I was expecting. Unless yer just a wee fascist.”

You blink. You had been thinking the very same. Your hackles rise on instinct, bristling in preemptive outrage. “What’s that supposed to mean?”

“We’ve had a type answering the ad,” the other man says dryly. “Johnny doesn’t mean nothing. Come in—if you’re still interested in the apartment.”

It crosses your mind that this is perhaps foolish: entering an apartment of strange men, regardless of how you had left the address with your roommate and specified a time to check in with her. But you’re desperate. So you slip in after them, Johnny making ample room for you to move past him in the doorway.

When you do, you smell his shower gel, something woodsy. You say a prayer that you aren’t drooling.

Your eyes roam over the open-concept apartment. The living room and kitchen are combined, larger than you might have imagined. It is homier, too, for a place where two men live: there are pictures along the walls, potted plants in the corners and on the desk, and an easel overlooking the balcony in the corner, an oil half-rendering of the view outside.

It is tidy. It smells nice. It is owned by two of the hottest men you’ve ever had the pleasure of seeing.

“I want it,” you blurt out.

Johnny laughs. “Sure ya do. Let us show you everything and then we’ll talk.”

You barely manage to contain your impatience as they lead you room to room. The guest room is empty, except for some boxes that Johnny hastily promises can be moved. The closets have no skeletons (you check). You would have your own bathroom. The more you see, the more convinced you are that this would be an ideal apartment regardless of who was offering it to you, but the frequent banter between the two men (Johnny and Simon you find out) is so entertaining and inviting that it’s hard not to feel like they want you—to be their third. Roommate that is.

After every nook and cranny of the apartment has been seen, they seat themselves on the loveseat and you on the adjacent armchair, your fingers interlaced like a businesswoman about to make the deal of her lifetime.

“I still want the room,” you admit. Johnny smiles, an expression that you sense comes easily to his face. His smile falls a little when you continue: “I just have one question. Why the vacancy?”

Simon takes a measured breath. The silence grows thick as they share a glance, communicating silently in a way that only two who have known each other—who have been through things with each other—can. At length, he says: “We’re ex-military. Disabled.”

That explained the cane Johnny had been using to move around the apartment.

“The benefits were excellent until recently, when we saw a generous…cut to our monthly pay.”

You frown. “That’s terrible. Why would they do that?”

Johnny gives a breathless little laugh. His hand comes down slowly to rest on Simon’s knee. You stare, unsure what you are seeing. “Well, it happens…when you get married.”

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“That explains a lot,” your roommate says when you spill every little detail after driving home. By the time you arrive, her insufferable boyfriend is gone for the night (thank God) so it is just the two of you, like the good old days. “Namely why two men in a two bedroom apartment are looking for a roommate.”

“I didn’t even think of it,” you groan, palming at your eyes. “Am I homophobic?”

“No, just desperate and wishful,” she teases. She has no idea how accurate she is. It’s been years—literal years since you’ve been with anyone of substance. In the meantime, you’d been happy to settle for your fingers and your toys, but there was the occasional itch that only a cock could scratch in you. Figuratively. “This is a good thing though. The last thing you need is getting tangled up with your new roommates. That’s a recipe for disaster.”

“Instead I’ll be in the middle of their marital bliss. Or lack of, depending on the day,” you suggest dryly. But you aren’t even sure how much you believe your own words. Simon and Johnny said they had been together for nearly ten years, and more than their words, you had seen them with your own eyes—the way they gravitated to each other, the way their eyes were never far from each other. The way they roasted each other so good-naturedly. They seemed like a couple who were past their seven year itch, who had grown older and comfortable with each other. They seemed like they had their shit together.

Did it make you terrible that you still wanted to be pinned between them like a bug in a science project?

“Then tell them no,” she says, sitting on the edge of your bed. You see the guilt in her eyes, and it makes you just a little vindicated. Which makes you feel terrible. “You’ll find something. I promise. You could always stay with us until you do—“

“God no. No offense.”

“None taken. I think.”

You sigh. You nudge her with your foot. “Alright, out, I need to think.”

But it takes such little thought when Johnny (affectionately added to your phone) messages not ten minutes later.

I don’t want to rush ya, but another person asked to see the apartment. Should I show them?

No way, you text. That room is mine.

[uyuforu]

Pick-a-Card: Your Future Spouse

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Pile 1 - ₊˚⊹♡

Ekta Oracle: The medicine; The bunny; The arts; The road + The mind

Celeste Astrokiff Oracle: Winter; Aries; The man; Treason + Pluto

Original Tarot de Marseille: The tower; 3 of pentacles; 7 of swords; Queen of wands; The moon reversed; 5 of pentacles reversed + The lovers

Botticelli Tarot de Marseille: 8 of wands; The lovers; 5 of cups; 6 of pentacles; Ace of wands; 10 of wands + The stars

Lenormand Oracle: The choice; The fox; The well; The ink; The howls; The storks + The ring

Love Languages Oracles: A place to live; The unsaid; To be peaceful; Social medias + Wing of change

𓆞𓆝 𓆟 Don't forget that it's a general reading so take what resonates. If you don't resonate with this pile, you can choose another one. If you don't resonate with any of the piles, it just means there is no messages for you today. Don't take informations you are not comfortable with, and take care of yourself 𓆞 𓆝 𓆟

-> Just starting with the reading and I can feel it right there, you and your FS are soulmates. This is a divine union, a protected relationship, and nothing was a coincidence in your meeting. It seems like this person will make you very much happy, you will feel blessed to have them in your life. You will feel so much lucky, it seems like this person was the magical cure you needed in your life. Now, I don't see a Prince Charming kind of vibe, I see this as an angel here helping you grow and evolve, and just being your daily dose of sunshine. This person will help you motivate yourself on life, they will be such a good supporter, even your number one fan. I feel like you might even become a leader or just even more motivated in your projects because of them. They will help you out to realize and use all of your inner potential. You might often run from reality, finishing your tasks or projects, or just refuse to be too serious, and this person will help you accept reality. They will help you realize this is not such a bad world as you may think it is. They may even help you be more stable in your life, they will literally be a wake up call from the universe. You will feel so thankful for the universe to have them by your side.

-> It's definitely a planned meeting, divinely organized. You may have been lovers in a past life too, so it will fee like you already know this person who you meet them. Some of you may have met this person before, and so you know them already. Some didn't meet them already. This person will help you a lot regarding your career. They could be a future or current co-worker of yours, but it doesn't seem like this detail really matters. What matters is that this person will make you develop all of your big potentials in your career. You will feel very successful because of this person, and you will definitely have a lot of money. This could also mean they are successful and so have any contacts, they will help you a lot with all the resources they have.

-> This person could be born in winter or spring, or you could meet them at that time. Aries, Capricorn, Aquarius, Pisces, Sagittarius, Gemini, Scorpio are important signs here. Your FS could appear quite cold and distant at first, but they have a very warm heart. They are someone who fight for what they want, they are not scared to make a move or change things, they will get what they want. Very ambitious. A go-getter. Very. masculine energy. They could be scared of treason too, could have enemies. So they might protect their back often, to earn their trust you need to prove yourself. This person might be a fast talker, or they just walk very fast. They have a very quick energy. They could work in the arts, medical fields. They are not scared how long the road is, for them the destination is what matter the most. Also, they don't care because they will run there lol. They are very quick minded and very smart too, could be a very logical person too. Very mature person. I feel like they are very stable in their life. You could meet them on social medias, or they are active on social medias. Social medias seem important here. This person will be your home, and you could feel like home from the first time you meet them. Even if this person seem very busy, it seems like they are not stressed, and they will also help you with that too.

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Pile 2 - ₊˚⊹♡

Ekta Oracle: The time; The ribbon; The balance; The mind + The knight

Celeste Astrokiff Oracle: Treason; Saturn; The guide; Earth reversed + 3H reversed

Original Tarot de Marseille: The tower reversed; 7 of cups; The hanged man reversed; The pope; Ace of wands reversed; The chariot + King of pentacles reversed

Botticelli Tarot de Marseille: 7 of cups reversed; The hang man; Queen of cups; Ace of pentacles; The empress; The hermit + King of wands reversed

Lenormand Oracle: The ship; The ink; The dices; The knight; The woman; The man + The cross

Love Languages Oracles: Trickery; The impediments; The key of destiny; To feel attractive + The reconciliation

𓆞𓆝 𓆟 Don't forget that it's a general reading so take what resonates. If you don't resonate with this pile, you can choose another one. If you don't resonate with any of the piles, it just means there is no messages for you today. Don't take informations you are not comfortable with, and take care of yourself 𓆞 𓆝 𓆟

-> There is a very masculine vibe from this pile, and it feels cold, distant, and very logical. That person is someone who value timing, and being patient. They could have a lot of wisdom and think patience is the real thing in life. So they could be slow, or just a person who is considered slow, but only by rushed people. They don't car much about other people. This person is very logical, they don't work with their hearts but mostly with their head. The could be a lawyer too, or work with Justice, the government, something similar to that. I think this person is very collected, they are not emotional or don't show their emotions that easily. When I pulled the first card, I got such a Capricorn & Saturn energy, so funny that I got the Saturn card too, it's a confirmation. This person is attached to their routine, and they don't like changements. They may also loving that everything is balance, and living an healthy lifestyle is important to them. They could appear older, or are older than you. I don't think this person is spiritual, but they are guided, and they may feel it but it doesn't seem like an awaken soul. This person is also an introvert for sure. They may feel awkward with strangers and don't open up easily at all.

-> Now, do you know this person? Could be for some of you, but I don't think so to be honest. This person has quite a story to me. It seems like they got brokenhearted. I think they literally had some sort of treason in their life by their ex partner. This could be cheating, lies, have been manipulated, gaslighting, etc. But something similar. It deeply hurt your Future Spouse, and they feel blocked for relationships now. They feel like they should keep their heart guarded, and not let anyone in from now on. This experience literally crushed their heart and destroyed them. I think it was def a lesson for them, but it created a trauma. For them, it was the end. And once you have a trauma, it's very hard to face it again. Almost impossible for a while. And this person seems like they are walking away from it, but their pain is still there. Deeply, I think this person still wants to get married later, but is def super scared. They feel like giving up, and they feel like they should move on from this idea. It seems hard for them to actually let anyone else enter their heard again. Very pessimistic at this idea. To them, it seems like humans are no good, and everyone is full of bad intention. Pretty sure this person was either married or engaged, or at least it was a strong commitment, a serious one. It wasn't just a random partner, they actually thought the person who betrayed them was the one. So I think this person now is trying to move on, but it seems like they prefer to move on alone. They can see selfish, or just cold, awkward by other people who don't know them, because of what happened.

-> Now, let's talk about you! This is my favorite part of the reading. I told you this person was ready to give up on the relationships, but that's because they don't know you yet! The thing is, you'll enter this person's life like a savior, like a knight. You'll come and rescue them from the darkness. It's def something that is destined, like it's organized by the divine. You are the key to this person's heart. Now, will it be easy? No lol. But you will def change this person's opinion on marriage and relationships. This person has been broken and you'll help them collect the pieces and heal their heart. This person will start to see a different point of view in life and even in themselves, you'll help them being more confident. You'll help them believe in love again, because they will fall in love with you. You will def get married later. They will see you as a gentle soul, a romantic person, such a nice and sweet heart, you will be their sunshine. There is a lot of feminine energy to you, but could be also in their point of view. You will make them so happy, and they will literally worship you? Like seeing you as their queen/ king, their loved one, they will be so proud to have you by their side. They will learn a lot from you, and they will have so much respect for you, my god I have so much love right now in my heart :(((( You will help this person open up, so don't be surprised one day if they literally cry in front of you, it's literally the most beautiful thing that will happen. They will let it all out.

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Pile 3 - ₊˚⊹♡

Ekta Oracle: The bee; The link; The office; The couple; The man + The heart

Celeste Astrokiff Oracle: Uranus; Chiron reversed; New moon; Solar eclipse + The ruin

Original Tarot de Marseille: Ace of sword reversed; Temperance reversed; The strength; The pope; The devil reversed; The justice + 4 of cups reversed

Botticelli Tarot de Marseille: 5 of wands reversed; Death; Ace of cups; Jack of pentacles; The fool reversed; The empress; Jack of wands + The high priestess

Lenormand Oracle: The bridge; The book; The moon; The well; The lucky charm; The scythe + The swans

Love Languages Oracles: The unsaid; Magnetic relationship; Break-up Total Success + Cheating

𓆞𓆝 𓆟 Don't forget that it's a general reading so take what resonates. If you don't resonate with this pile, you can choose another one. If you don't resonate with any of the piles, it just means there is no messages for you today. Don't take informations you are not comfortable with, and take care of yourself 𓆞 𓆝 𓆟

-> This pile is pretty confusing to be honest. I think you know this person? And something happened with them. Here is what I'm seeing. This person is someone who is busy, they may work a lot, or just has a busy life. You guys had a good connection, you were very attached, and maybe still are today. You may have dated or be a couple before, or you could have had feelings for each other. You may have wanted or been in a relationship with this person. This person can be a man, or have masculine energy. But there is something that happened, like a fight? It's like someone suddenly can't do it anymore and just go away? (I have the image of people fighting and one just throw stuff off a table lol). You could have been coworkers too. Or you could still be. This person may also be like a butterfly style of person, meaning they like to visit a lot of different flowers... you know what I mean. It means they may not have been ready for a relationship before, they prefer to flirt with many people, go on many dates, enjoy being single like that. And it may have hurt you. If you were in a relationship, there could have been some sort of cheating?

-> So you guys are not talking right now, and if you were in a relationship, you broke up now. You guys had such a good and amazing chemistry, and even you remember that. But it seems like despite that, things just ended. I think there were some lies, if not cheating. This person lied to you about something, or avoided the truth. You could have done that too. Maybe also not being honest with each other's feelings. Someone could have cheated, or it felt like it. Or maybe someone thought the other cheated why it wasn't the case. In any ways, there is a separation now. And I think you are not talking at the moment. But, there are still hope. To be honest, it feels like the connection is not over (obviously, this is your future spouse) but what I mean is that you can even feel it. There is a feeling of still having hope, and still feeling the link. And it seems like the separation was meant for you both to realize what went wrong, and how can you fix it. Despite whatever happened, you still love this person and they still love you. You may be not talking, but you guys think about each other a lot.

-> I think this is a divine union, like you guys have a soul link, whatever it is. The "break-up" or separation was meant for you both to work on yourself. What triggered you in this connection is what you should work on. Any toxic patterns, any triggers, work on it. Heal and work on yourself. It seems like you think there is no hope for the connection, but there is still. It feels like something is about to start over, but with good intentions. Like as if there were a huge storm, and it needed to rain, and once the rain is over, there is sunshine. It feels like that. Starting over. You guys can't move on from each other. Now, it feels like this person will message you or contact you. You will not. I think this person is seeing you as their divine counter part. It could also be that once you start working on yourself, they may want to contact you. You will def receive a piece of information from this person, something you had no idea about. They may have kept a secret, or they may reveal what they really feel for you. Or it may also be unexpected contact or message. It seems like they will take a chance, like contacting you, and revealing something to you. And it's something you didn't expect. You really will not see that coming. I think there will be some sort of long term proposition, and you will accept it. You guys will see each other again, and there is high hope for reunion!

Thank you so much for reading, I hope you enjoyed, and don't forget to like (even comment your pile if you want) and follow for more content ⸜(｡˃ ᵕ ˂ )⸝♡

Pile 4 - ₊˚⊹♡

Ekta Oracle: The brain; The island; The 3 bamboos; The deer + The fire

Celeste Astrokiff Oracle: The happiness; 12H; Earth; North Node + 11H

Original Tarot de Marseille: 5 of pentacles; 7 of wands; 6 of pentacles; Ace of cups reversed; Temperance reversed; The hermit + The stars reversed

Botticelli Tarot de Marseille: The justice; Knight of wands; Jack of pentacles; 6 of wands; The judgment; Ten of cups + 5 of wands reversed

Lenormand Oracle: The scythe; The dices; The lucky charm; The sun; The ring; The doors + The man

Love Languages Oracles: Softness & Tender-sweet; Home; Total Success; Karmic Connection + The beginning

𓆞𓆝 𓆟 Don't forget that it's a general reading so take what resonates. If you don't resonate with this pile, you can choose another one. If you don't resonate with any of the piles, it just means there is no messages for you today. Don't take informations you are not comfortable with, and take care of yourself 𓆞 𓆝 𓆟

-> This person may be someone smart, someone who knows a lot, someone curious. They could also love to travel, and love to learn from this. They could also love to be alone, or the be in their own bubble, their own world. This person is pretty optimistic, and they could also have a lot of intuition. Could be a fire sign. Or could just be passionate. I also have the masculine energy here. But it's someone who has a balance energy. This person can be spiritual, or they could be religious. They feel a sort of link to a divine force. They could also be intuitive and connected, without actually calling it spiritual. I feel like they could also have a balanced natal chart, meaning the earth, air, water and fire energies are all balanced. They could be good at organizing their finances. Extrovert person. I don't think you know this person yet. This person works hard for their money, and they are someone right when it comes to work ethic. They will not lie, not cheat, and they want justice. They could work in something related to money or finances. They could also have their own business or their own company. They are good at handling stuff, tasks, projects, and they are hard working. A natural leader. And because they work good and make smart move, they can actually make any of their projects successful? This person is generous too when it comes to their money, and they know where to place it.

-> I don't think this person is focused on relationships right now, and I think they are single. They could have a hard time to balance their life between work and personal life, so I think it's unbalanced right now. Meaning they may spend too much time at work, and not enough with their loved one. It will be something you will teach them to do. Or remind them to do. They could have honestly lose hope about relationships? Or just felt like it's a waste of time. Despite that, I feel like they will be the one to give an offer, you guys could meet at work or related to money. When you meet, they could be the one asking you on a date, or just making you see they are interested. Of course, you will be in a relationship, obviously. But I think there is not resistance, I mean that you will also be interested. There is no games with this person. This will feel like a great love. A sort of love at first sight could happen too. But you guys will feel like you are in a fairytale. The honeymoon phase will be long for you. You will feel so at home with each other, this is definitely a divine connection. A lot of love and pda. And to be honest, you guys could be in a relationship together quite fast. And a proposal could also happen fast.

-> I think this person will ask you to marry them very fast, because they love you so much and they will just feel so euphoric about their feelings for you. They will just take a leap of faith, and ask you to marry them. But as I said, it will be fast. Like not even a year of dating? Pretty sure more fast than that. But you will hesitate. Not because you don't love them, you will LOVE that person. But it seems like you will be logical at that point, and may feel like it's too soon? You may say no, and this person will see that as hardship. They will feel sad about it. I don't think you will break up, this person will see that as a challenge. Mostly because everything turned out in their favor before, and you are the first hardship? Lol. They will wait again and make sure to ask again later...

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[cozycottagetarot]

Your First 'Argument' With Them

Notes:

This rather light hearted (save one pile) reading explores the cause and resolution of your first significant argument/fight/tiff with your person.

The energies for you and your person could be potentially switched. For a few piles it felt like the reaction could belong to swapped between the two of you.

This was one of those readings where a lot of info only sorted itself out as I did each section so you really have to stick with me on this one haha.

There's some brief language in pile 3 & 4.

This reading is for entertainment purposes only! ✨

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Pile 1

The Incident/Cause 

Cards: Two of Swords, The World, Queen of Swords, The Chariot 

Your first argument with your person is around a significant and potentially life changing decision that needs to be made. The decision can shape how you two move forward and close out a cycle but the conflict arises because you two have two opposing opinions or desires. There are a lot of different scenarios here however, so keep in mind the details will vary greatly from person to person. It could also be that one person is hesitant while the other is more self-assured. The other scenario I’m picking up on is maybe you (could be them) feel pressured by a time frame in what the decision needs to be made. Another situation that comes to me is being given an ultimatum. In general there’s an energy of stalling and needing to get moving. Sneaky ten of swords was hiding out in the deck! The vibes could be off and hurtful words exchanged. It could be a situation that makes or breaks the relationship.

The Resolution 

Cards: Ace of Wands, Five of Wands, Seven of Wands reversed, Three of Cups, Three of Pentacles 

This might get worse before it reaches a fiery climax and gets better. Quite honestly your person may become more intolerable and you might find yourself fighting to keep your cool. I don’t get a really intense fight though, just being majorly annoyed. You may both turn to your friends to get advice/help or a third party may help you both resolve the conflict. 

In the end, you and your person will try to come up with a solution that works for both of you. They may or may not confess their feelings for you… it depends on your relationship.

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Pile 2

The Incident/Cause 

Cards: Knight of Pentacles, The Lovers, Temperance, Knight of Swords, The Patient Witch, The Magician

The relationship is moving too slowly for someone. One person is comfortable with the pace and the other is like – “okay, um, what are we doing”. The relationship could be what each of you desires but one of you is more laid back and the other is a go-getter… very driven. I’m also getting a cancelled date and one person keeps saying “I want more”. Someone is spoiled by or wants to be spoiled with the other’s love and intention! The other person gives everything, just you know… slowly!

The Resolution 

Cards: Ten of Wands, Page of Swords, Good Luck (Wheel of Fortune) Five of Wands, Ten of Cups 

You two will eventually decide to stop making things so difficult for yourselves. You're only clashing because you can’t see you have to actively figure things out together. The resolution is that things will pick up the pace. It will require you both to turn within though as it seems like the resolution is internal work that in the end pushes you two forward. 

For one of you, it’s about opening up and being vulnerable while for the other it’s about realising you’re allowed to receive. Kind of like the disconnect comes from lack of give and take (it’s there but imbalance). So once that is realised internally it can create a more secure and faster-moving flow. 

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Pile 3

The Incident/Cause 

Cards: The Sun, Ace of Wands, King of Pentacles, The Chariot, Seven of Pentacles 

*If you were drawn to pile two I highly suggest checking that out!

I’ve been fighting for my life on this one Pile 3. I kept doing this pile looking for the source of the first (major) argument or even disagreement but the story wasn’t adding up to anything bad. You two may be a couple that works through disconnects (cause at the point that’s all I can call it) right away. The other piles had arguments with breaks but I get that vibe of you two always working to be on the same page or at least understand each other in the moment. 

But I still need to give you something so I decided to focus on the causes of general conflicts between you two. 

You two may have conflicts/disconnects over expectations of what your lives should look like and even that seems super mild. It’s like ‘maybe life should look like XYZ → but oh wait I’m actually happy with what I have’… you two may have to shed the stories you’ve been told and keep working on what you have together and individually because you’re happy. 

You guys might also be slow to get together as a couple. It felt like a waiting game in one of the previous pulls. Like you’re both hurt from previous experiences but also sure about your feelings for each other but unsure they’re reciprocated. So it’s a ‘will they won’t they’ kind of thing. You may run the risk of being “the one that got away”. 

How Are Conflicts Resolved

Cards: Ace of Cups, Five of Swords, Seven of Wands, Ten of Wands, Seven of Cups 

Conflicts may be so rare and few that you guys would definitely take it to heart. But I’m getting “I choose you you this lifetime and the next”. You two make a conscious decision to be in it together forever. You resolve conflicts through curiosity and a desire to understand each other. It’s like ‘this is the love of my life’ and “I don’t care, we’re getting through this together”. You naturally seek to understand each other and hold one another accountable. 

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Pile 4

‼️ Before you read: This pile has a theme of self confidence and possible anxiety/mental health issues.

The Incident/Cause 

Cards:  Queen of Wands reversed,m Ace of Wands, Good Luck Charm, Nine of Wands, Ten of Swords, Strength 

This feels a bit messy (post-reading– but not really lol)…  someone could have some self-confidence issues here. There’s also some energy of preferring to be alone rather than out with/around other people. 

This fight was ‘bound’ to happen, but at the same time, it’s in your hands? It’s more of a self-fulfilling prophecy. It also has this vibe of being manageable to out of control and needing intervention.  Someone, (likely you but this is one of those piles where the roles could be reversed), could have significant trauma or some anxiety/mental health issues going on. 

Self-love is the issue and it causes a lot of worrying and isolation. It’s so hard to articulate this ‘softly’ which makes it even more challenging. Let's say Person A struggles but Person B can’t see why. In B’s eyes, A is the most gorgeous, passionate, fun, loving person ever. A and B may bicker a lot about the topic but I see this tension swelling and some hurtful things might be said. I think you two may also end up either taking space or separating for a little bit (like days more than weeks). 

The Resolution 

Cards: Page of Swords, Seven of Wands, Knight of Cups, Three of Swords, Queen of Swords, The Chariot 

Your person is going to want to hear your story. You two could end up having a bit of a heart-to-heart. They’re going to work with you to help you get yourself back to a good place again (so supporting you being your own rescuer). They’ll be your accountability partner and cheerleader along the way, standing by your side as you learn to step into your power again. It might happen faster than you think it will, but it doesn’t mean you won’t falter. But when you do you’ll bounce back quicker.

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[sativaonsaturn]

astro observations about my own placements

virgo sun

people who just get it. laugh at pretty much anything, may not smile much but definitely love to laugh. type of people who absolutely need to say “i told you so” even if it’s in a loving way. good at spending time alone; can hang but if the circumstances are not optimal, we will opt out 😂 definitely the type to do it ourselves if it’s not exactly the way we want (ex: dish at a restaurant isn’t as good as it could be, so we make it ourselves at home) also do not sleep on a virgo, we are silent killers 😂 i’ve found that we also really value people based on merit. so even if we don’t like someone, if they’re hard working or go getters we respect them just for that.

pisces moon

water moons in general experience real emotional rollercoasters. scorpio is like a storm of emotions, cancer like constant rolling waves and pisces like a back and forth between still waters and crashing waves. pisces moons are usually between extremes of numbness and deep feelings. this can vary from moment to moment, week to week, even years apart - especially when we master our emotions (as in being aware of emotions rather than being consumed by them) can be prone to putting others’ emotional needs before their own but can also disregard them and be cold. super intuitive; many have prophetic dreams, can read energies, know what others’ will say before they say it. also people close to us may feel like they’ll never truly know us as we have a tendency to be elusive.

libra mercury

The Diplomat. usually have pleasing voices and know how to talk to people, especially if it’s in the 1st house. great at conflict resolution; will hear everyone out and find a solution. also rely heavily on logic when communicating, really understanding people and want whatever will keep things balanced (can avoid conflict for this reason). like every libra placement, look at both sides of everything but i would say on the scale of indecisiveness it goes: 1. libra moon 2. libra mars 3. libra mercury.

leo venus

a love on fire. there are two sides to this: passion that burns hot and a fire that can get snuffed out just as fast. generous (in every sense) lovers to all loved ones, friends and romantic partners alike. fairly high standards, not as high as virgo venus but definitely know what we want. love to adorn ourselves with carefully picked jewelry, perfume, etc. like we pay extra attention to what complements us (including partners). on the same note, unless aspected negatively, a leo venus will never go for someone who doesn’t want them. we’re very big on being loved, wanted, desired and there’s a lot of pride to consider as well. so even if we really want someone, if it’s not reciprocated or we feel a void/ lacking, we’ll leave. (this goes for any kind of relationship) also very passionate in love, need that back in all our close relationships.. especially romantic.

sagittarius mars

strong minded, have unwavering values (my mercury helps balance this). as sag is ruled by the 9th house, i’ve found that it’s really important that i travel. whether it’s a weekend in another town or a week in another country, it’s essential to feeling sane and grounded. when i haven’t changed scenery for a while, i find that i become restless. new experiences can fill that gap too. like trying a new cuisine or getting a piercing. i find that we tend to view sex as a sport 😭 i personally don’t feel like this is a negative thing; with the right person this can make things more fun/ exciting. have predominant thighs/ hips - can be the fullest part of the body. we can get angry quite quickly but simmer down just as quick, esp if we get our points across or find a fulfilling outlet (like throwing things or working out). also HATE being told what to do. this isn’t to say we can’t take instruction but being given direction where it isn’t needed is a sure fire way to set us off.

sativaonsaturn 🍃🪐

[astrologydray]

♈️Aries Mc in the each of the degrees🐏

If you have an Aries Midheaven (MC), your public image, career, and life path are influenced by Aries’ bold, pioneering, and independent nature.

• 0° Aries (Aries Point) – A highly visible career path; could be a trailblazer or public figure. Natural leader.

• 1° Aries – Independent and action-driven; thrives in fast-paced careers like entrepreneurship, athletics, or leadership.

• 2° Aries – Bold and direct; succeeds by taking initiative. May have a competitive streak in their career.

• 3° Aries – Innovator with a strong desire for freedom. Prefers to work alone or be a pioneer in their field.

• 4° Aries – Needs to be the boss; struggles with authority. May excel in self-employment or leadership roles.

• 5° Aries – Fiery and ambitious; can rise quickly in a career but must learn patience to maintain success.

• 6° Aries – Driven by passion and excitement. Likely to change career paths multiple times.

• 7° Aries – A strong initiator but must develop follow-through. Could thrive in startups or high-energy fields.

• 8° Aries – Known for resilience and the ability to thrive under pressure. Might be drawn to emergency response, activism, or leadership.

• 9° Aries – Has a warrior spirit. May find success in military, law enforcement, or entrepreneurship.

• 10° Aries – Courageous and determined. Takes risks in career but usually lands on their feet.

• 11° Aries – Visionary and progressive; enjoys breaking new ground in their industry.

• 12° Aries – Magnetic and naturally attracts leadership roles. Must balance ego with teamwork.

• 13° Aries – Highly ambitious but needs discipline to stay consistent. Could be drawn to public speaking or politics.

• 14° Aries – A risk-taker who thrives in high-energy environments. Drawn to competitive industries.

• 15° Aries – A strong and direct communicator. Can excel in media, sports, or leadership.

• 16° Aries – Passionate about independence; struggles in traditional work settings. Best suited for entrepreneurial or freelance work.

• 17° Aries – Has a fighter’s spirit; overcomes obstacles with sheer willpower. Could be drawn to activism or defense work.

• 18° Aries – Very ambitious but must learn to pace themselves to avoid burnout.

• 19° Aries – Charismatic and fearless. People are naturally drawn to their confidence.

• 20° Aries – High-energy and impulsive. Could be an innovator in their field.

• 21° Aries – Wants to make a name for themselves. May have a “go big or go home” attitude.

• 22° Aries – Fiercely independent. Often finds success by taking risks others won’t.

• 23° Aries – A dynamic leader who thrives in competitive fields. Must learn to balance aggression with strategy.

• 24° Aries – A relentless go-getter. May achieve fame or recognition for their fearless approach.

• 25° Aries – Natural-born leader. Drawn to industries that require quick thinking and action.

• 26° Aries – Passionate and daring; often ahead of their time in their career approach.

• 27° Aries – Strong-willed and ambitious. Success often comes through self-reliance.

• 28° Aries – Impatient and bold; needs to learn discipline to sustain long-term success.

• 29° Aries (Anaretic Degree) – Extremely driven and competitive. This degree amplifies Aries energy, making them a force to be reckoned with in their career. Their path may be marked by rapid changes, sudden breakthroughs, or intense ambition.

[byuno-o]

ASTRO OBSERVATIONS I'VE OBSERVED.

NOTE: THESE ARE ANECDOTAL OBSERVATIONS; HENCE MIGHT NOT BE APPLICABLE TO EVERYONE. READERS' DISCRETION IS ADVICED, AND THIS IS FOR ENTERTAINMENT.

I have read somewhere that the degree you have on your sun sign is the most important degree off all, along with your rising sign. I am trying to look for the writer, if you might know them, do let me know. So, I have my sun in 23 degree, and I am 23 years old. A lot of things are getting weird and real for me this year. First of all, I am a huge people's person--you know, having many groups of friends and can't stay alone, I have stopped connecting with people since January. I feared voicing my opinions out loud, look at me, posting my stories and observations online and debating with a small group of friend on socially relevant topic. I used to laze around a lot, but I work almost every hour--and sleep for only 3-4 hours everyday and feel energized just thinking about finishing projects.

Regarding the degree of your rising sign, you'll go through a huge public change in the age your degree is in. It also tell the kind of power you might exude in the world.

Your mars is always going to help you during the times when you think you're alone. Try to learn more about it. I have mars in Libra in 7th house, and in times of need, despite never asking for help, i always end up with people who appear like angels--suddenly and only for help.

While your signs tell a lot about the what and when, when it comes to the houses, the degrees will tell you a lot about how. For example, a friend of mine has capricorn degree in Aries in first house, and although she is a go-getter, she is ruthless and very practical. She does not have the ill-temperament of an aries, unlike my other capricorn friend who is a total opposite of her. My other friend has her sun sign in a virgo degree. Her criticism hurts first but makes sense. And the self- talk she has with herself is diabolical.

Although I am pisces rising, almost nobody has ever talked about my eyes, but so many people do love my hands and feet--tell me I got cute feet and hands. Hehehehe.

I will always trust a virgo to go with a no-makeup, makeup look. They just look so ethereal, it almost hurts. My friend who has a virgo stellium in her 9th house looks like an angel. While her cousin has aries and pisces combination you bet, I got a RIhanna for a friend--not the looks but the personality.

My aquarius friend is the most humanitarian person i've ever met. She always participates in rallies, and debates and donates for ngos and everything. She makes me happy. People should be like her--world will become a beautiful place for future generation.

Almost all Leos hate copy cats, since their extraness--even the introverted ones have a unique extraness to them, makes them them. But they have to deal with copy cats at least once in their life, so they can uncover other aspects of themselves.

Pisces, if unevolved, can be manipulative, and can harm themselves. I have pisces friend who almost never accept credits for her hardwork, and always compares herself to others just so we can validate her.

Same goes for an unevovled scorpio sun. Do let me know if I wrong.

On the brighter side, Scorpio and Pisces are the most giving people I've ever met. They just makes my day better with their presence when they are not acting weird, of course.

I have immense respect for Capricorns and Virgos. They know how to keep business and personal life separate.

But they are very very sneaky. If they don't like you, you won't even know. They'd just cut ties with no explanation--communication problems. But they are confrontational when it comes to the hurt others have inflicted on them. Communication problems are what they need to work on in order for their loved ones to understand them, which actually might help them with their low self-esteem. You just cannot tell me, they don't suffer from that.

Gemini people are either the most intelligent person in the room, or the dumbest one--there's no in-between. My brother is a gemini who is very tech savvy, and created half of my tech related stuff without proper guidance or youtube. On the other hand, two of my school friends who were gemini, had problems with understanding basic stuff and we'd always help them after teachers left, and they'd feed with homemade food. I miss them.

Anyway, that's all for today. Do let me know what you think about these observations and yeah, let's discuss. I am learning about lilith placements and my friends are nice enough to let me read their charts.

[skylinesnsunshines]

pac: july messages -`♡´-

hi everyone! welcome to my first pac <3 today i will be channeling messages on your energy for july. please remember that this is all for entertainment purposes only and energies are subject to change, so if it doesn't resonate then it might not be the pile or reading for you. also remember that this is a general reading, so I'm channelling the energy of the collective rather than a specific individual. if you're after a personal reading click here to look at my prices and message me for details. without further ado! let's get started.

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pile 1 ~ knight of wands, 6 of wands rx, justice, hanged man rx

hello my pile 1's! i feel such a light energy for you all. immediately i channelled that you've successfully overcome a situation that has caused you anguish. it could have been a major situation/change for you, but you could feel like there are other things to worry about so you brush it off. spirit wants me to remind you to celebrate the small wins, and enjoy a victory while you can. life will always bring you unexpected events that can alter your focus, so staying in the present and reminding yourself to give yourself a pat on the back is necessary (you've come so far!). now, i feel like you have a lot of ideas and visions but you don't necessarily know the steps to achieve them. you might not enjoy planning due to you being easily overwhelmed, and you can even be a person who enjoys "winging it" as i'm hearing the phrase "fuck it we ball" LMAO. now your spontaneity and creativity are definitely something to be proud of, however, spirit's telling me to encourage you to break down your ideas and have them be more digestible so you can plan accordingly. i see that you have all the tools for success within yourself, but you need to be a bit more calculated in your journey to avoid burnout. remember to invite balance in your daily life, and remember that rest is as important as movement. you might feel frustration towards plans that don't come to fruition, but just remember that everything that is meant for you won't ever pass you. time is a construct and every person's timing is different, so please stop comparing yourself to others. learn to let your emotions flow and listen to your body, as i feel that some of you may have a tendency to pick yourself up and brush it off when met with failure. while your resilience is commendable, remember that you are not a robot and you are always allowed to sit in your sorrows and mourn. you are such a light in this world my pile 1's, and your resilience often inspires others to continue going on in life as well. remember that every experience is a learning lesson, and not everything is so black/white. you got this my superstars! remember who you are and the power you hold <3

channelled song: i feel good - pink sweat$

oracle cards: bridge - successfully overcoming a problem, knot - unsuccessful plans, unicorn - using your intuition to make beneficial changes

pile 2 ~ queen of swords, 8 of pentacles, page of cups rx, death

hello my pile 2's! you seem to be focusing on your grind and have a goal that you are working toward to complete by the end of the year. i just wanna say that you may be experiencing a change emerging within yourself, whether that'd be physical or mental. your aura seems to be changing and that stems from how you present and carry yourself. i hear the word "tunnel vision" which tells me that you are zoning in on a certain skill that will bring you a lot of emotional fulfilment. i can also see that some of you may be focusing on improving your confidence which will help you realise your worth and be more cutthroat of your time and energy. you are taking back your power and realising that you are the architect of your own life, and no one can take that away from you. you are the go-getters, trailblazers and leaders who are always learning and bettering yourself which is so amazing to see. just know that the more you work on yourself and understand your soul, you will automatically attract others who will be able to reciprocate your energy and have the same motivation for growth as you. love could be on the cards as well, but i don't see anything major as i feel like you want to fall in love with yourself first. i feel a sense of priority when it comes to your well-being, and that anyone who would want to be a part of your life needs to be an addition as you are already whole. not everybody is worth your time my pile 2's, and saving your energy for those who you prioritise is what matters the most <3

channelled song: aura - got7

oracle cards: target - a goal-oriented person, vase - secret admirer, horse - a short journey

pile 3 ~ page of wands, 3 of cups, 7 of wands rx, 8 of cups rx

hello pile 3's! before i even pulled the cards, i envisioned that this upcoming month may be one of celebration for you! i see some of you graduating or entering a new job or school that will aid in your growth (congratulations angels!). i feel like july could be a social month for you, i see that you could be entering a new environment that could bring you into a new friend group. i feel like you are embarking on a journey (wether that'd be physical or mental), and you are feeling unprepared yet excited. i see an image of someone carrying a bindle (?) and having a bittersweet feeling of moving on. some of you might have been reluctant to move on from a place or a person, but in your heart, you know that it's right for you. you are ready for this and you are prepared! don't sweat the small stuff. in the song i channelled a lyric that goes "just a little something that i think i deserve" and i feel that it could resonate with some of you. remember that you are deserving of great things and you are allowed to seek other experiences if you feel that your current circumstances do not aid you in your growth. in your new environment, you might encounter people who don't see eye to eye with you, and that's okay as spirit encourages you to stay true to yourself and not change for anyone. you've got a strong sense of self and you know yourself better than anyone, so don't feel the need to conform to "fit in" as you will attract someone like-minded that you will get along with. your energy is infectious, and you are destined to seek experiences that encourage you from breaking free of being a big fish in a small pond. i'm excited for you my pile 3's! you got this <3

channelled song: cake and candy - rupaul

oracle cards: bull - do not back down from opposition. show strength and fortitude, horse - short journey, chair filled - someone new is entering your life

so that’s it for the reading! let me know if you have any feedback, questions or requests! my askbox is always open for a chat as well <3 sending you love and light always :) hope you enjoyed!

[cas-backwards-tie]

Wonderstruck

Simon ‘Ghost’ Riley x Ex!Reader

Summary: Simon Riley finally takes it upon himself to check up on his childhood best friend and ex lover. He's been torturing himself reminiscing on your relationship and what went wrong for years now. Little does he know... you're in the same boat. Having seen someone today you swore was Simon on your way to work, you too, reflect on the past.

Words: 3.2k

Warnings: Cursing, Angst, Stalking(?),

Mentions of: Drinking, Smoking, Motorcycle Riding

A/N: I don't know why but I constantly am getting inspired by certain songs, or am reminded of certain characters, and all the lyrics were just screaming childhood best friends to estranged lovers, right person wrong time Simon Riley. Nevertheless, if you'd love to listen to some versions of the song which inspired me, here we are! Line divider credit: @saradika-graphics and I'd also love to thank @penelopepine for helping me with the ending <3

He knew it was a bad idea as soon as it'd crossed his mind, yet somehow he couldn't rid himself of it time and time again. That's how he found himself here; watching you cross the street, he can't help but notice the vintage band t-shirt you have on, frayed at the edges with the little strings of the hem coming undone that you've refused to cut off. In you hands you clutch a new phone, no doubt an upgrade from the last one he'd seen you with- though it's been a while.

As you mindlessly tuck a loose strand of hair behind your ear, he can't help the way his insides churn. You were always effortlessly beautiful; you never had to try for anything. Even now, the way you can walk across the busy cobblestone side streets of London in high heels without seemingly second-guessing yourself, body language still poised on guard and ready in case anyone tries anything, just like he'd taught you.

It's clear from your outfit and the lipstick you’re donning that you're attempting to sway the officials at work. Maybe trying for that promotion you’d always been talking about, but never had the gumption to make today the day. What’s different about today, he wonders. You'd always been a go-getter, and truthfully, it was something Simon admired about you. Even in the moments where he'd resented it the most, the constant pestering and prodding at him in an attempt to get him to move and drag him out of the holes his dug himself into...

Where would he be now if only he listened?

What if you knew better?

He couldn't deny that the thoughts kept him up at night while he was away. Though, admittedly, more often than not it was the string of random memories that he’d get glimpses of during the day. It’d always be at the worst times, too. Two weeks ago in Berlin he’d been clapping Kyle on the back, hoping he’ll get it together as he stumbled out the pub. While Soap had the camaraderie to slug half his mate’s weight over his broad shoulders, Simon found himself unable to help as his eyes were drawn in by a couple a few paces down the block.

“Bollocks!” He’d shouted out in frustration. Double-checking himself, he didn’t have a spare cap on him, and he knew he sure as hell didn’t bring an umbrella on your little last minute ‘trip’. Not that he’d really call walking down to the local Tesco for snacks late one summer evening a trip. ‘It’ll be an adventure! Just think of it like that.’ You’d persuaded him.

“What? Are you going to melt?” He hears you joke. As his brown eyes land on your face when you turn to meet his gaze, a few steps ahead of him down the road, he can’t help the smile that breaks out across his lips upon your laughter. Sure, you may both be a little drunk after spending the evening in and having a drink or two. But it doesn’t change the way he feels about you, if anything, it makes him even more keenly aware of the way you affect him.

“Maybe. Who knows?” He teases in responses, tugging his jacket up and over his head to shield himself from the cool summer rain. Despite the time, now he’ll most likely need a shower when you get home. As he jogs to catch up and bring you under his little makeshift cocoon, you do the unexpected.

It was you, of course… he should’ve known better, always testing him, pushing him. With a gentle drop of the plastic bag full of snacks upon the side of the road you’d been strolling down, he watches as you run into the empty street. The streetlights illuminate you in a hazy orangey-yellow light as you begin to spin and twirl, dancing in the street.

With a shake of his head, he’s left stunned once again by the vast difference of your personalities. Your jeans and t-shirt are starting to get damp and discolored, and there’s a taunting, displeased remark sitting on his tongue just waiting to be made. It’s the utter joyous smile on your face as you tip your head back and relinquish yourself to your fate that leaves him wonderstruck, he thinks.

“Come on, Simon!” You beckon, finally meeting his gaze once again with that familiar carefree, hopeful look behind your irises. With an outstretched hand, he knows he can’t deny you this… and really, there’s something inside him that tells him he doesn’t want to, either.

“It’s her, innit?” He hears his Captain’s voice call over his shoulder. Pulled from his memories, Simon dismisses Price with a nonchalant grunt. As the old man tries to place a hand on his shoulder he dodges it, realizing he’s been watching the couple for longer than he’d thought. With Soap and Gaz almost to the end of the block, Simon sighs before shrugging his shoulders to right his jacket and head off in their direction for backup.

That was a time when your playfulness been more easily taken and accepted without question. No fighting, no push back, resentments… maybe that was it: he’d stopped going with the flow. He’d stopped accepting the punches and started dodging and weaving your advances at fixing things and picking up where he left you. Because while it’s too late now, he’s finally realized it for what it is: he left you in the dark, he’s the one who pushed you away, closed himself off.

That night he’d curled up in the temporary bed he’d been assigned, more memories continued to consume him. The way you’d effortlessly ease his worries on nights he’d come home stressed, feathers ruffled from whatever petty drama went on during the day. Whether it was something the guys said that stuck with him, or something he couldn’t get out of his mind when he came back from deployment. Your kisses always seemed to be the cure, your love… or maybe it was just… you.

“You know furrowing your brows like that will cause wrinkles,” you inform him, reaching out to run gentle fingers over his bunched skin.

A grunt of acknowledgment leaves his lips. “More for me to worry about, hm?” While it’s all he says, his eyes are searching over your composure.

“No,” it leaves your lips without thought, “just something to think about, be mindful of. If you’re not upset, then why furrow them?” Voice quiet in the moonlit apartment, your fingers smooth out his brows gently as you admire him. “I read something the other day about how it’s possible our body informs our mental state. If you’re tensing all the time, it won’t help your stress, Si.”

He simply hums in response, doing nothing to stop you as you ghost your lips over his for a moment before planting a loving chaste kiss to his. While big and wide warm hands find the exposed bit of skin between the hem of your sleeping pants and the shirt you wear, it’s the unexpected cool sensation that elicits a muffled gasp. Your much smaller hands are sneaking up underneath his sweatshirt to explore his abdomen, caressing him like he were made of soft silk. Your lips meet again for a chaste kiss.

Then it’s turning into something more; you have to take it slow, your lips dancing against one another, his hand rubbing your back to let you know it’s alright. As you begin to run out of breath, it’s only when you pull away, lashes fluttering against his skin that you ask him. “You know I’d love you even with wrinkles, right?”

Taken aback, he can’t help but stare. Unsure how to respond or what to do, his lips part in search of words. “Is that so?” He finally questions, hand giving your side a soft squeeze.

“My favorite boy… I love you to the moon and back… scars and all. I always have, and I always will, Simon,” you whisper, ghosting his lips again before planting one on him, “I just hope you know that.”

And at the time, he swore he did. It’s odd, really, and he wouldn’t lie to himself about it either. Simon tried dating after you, he tried hooking up, he tried it all… but it never felt right. As many times as he replays the memory, he can never get past the feeling of home. With you, it felt like home. You never made him feel expendable, or worry of the abandonment he knew would inevitably come.

For years afterward he blamed you, he saw it as your fault that you left, you abandoned him… when, maybe, really it’s finally time he admits it was him. He made it a self-fulfilling prophecy, and there was nothing you could do.

It's on your way home from work that you see them; while waiting for the bus, there's a playground in the park a few meters away. Really, the idea that human nature is predictable is always laughable at first, but only after watching people and stepping back to become an observer you've noticed from time to time that... it's more than true. Even from a distance, the children in the park look happy... but that's not what catches your eye. There's a blonde boy, and a girl, much like yourself when you were younger, playing what you can only assume is something halfway between hide and seek and tag, considering the playground offers more space and obstacles than hiding spots.

Perhaps it's the joyous looks on their little faces, or the way they unabashedly play, carefree and unaware of the adult worries and burdens the world hangs above their heads, just waiting any day to drop upon their shoulders unexpectedly. However, you can't help but reminisce on the ways you'd spent your childhood playing games much like the one the children are playing in the distance with a boy, very similar to the one before you, loving life, content, happy, simply aspiring to be the best at finding your ultimate hiding spot.

The soft squeak of the wheels coming to a halt before you and the mechanical release of air as the doors open brings your attention back to the present. Before you know it, you're on the bus, unconsciously taking a seat along the windows, hoping, just maybe you'll catch a glimpse of them as the bus drives down the road down its route. Though as you pass, the sun is beginning to set in the distance, the children departing the playground their separate ways as dusk begins to take its toll and curfew sets in place. The whole time you'd been focused on yourself, it's entirely possible that your own boy wound up beating you at your own game, finding the best spot and hiding himself away from the rest of the world.

Maybe it's the fact that you could've sworn you'd seen someone that looked almost identical to Simon on your way to work this morning, but memories continue to plague your mind for the first time in months. All the weekends he'd spent over at your house doing aimlessly silly things to fill your time, from science projects, to playing 'warrior' outside, you never felt more alive than the time you two spent together.

"I'll keep ya safe, yeah? Nothin' to worry about," Simon insists, gently guiding you to the side of the vehicle. Despite going out with your friends to the city for dinner, you both were sober. It should be fine, it would be. You'd been with him a million times... how different could it be? He'd run it by you as many times as you'd asked.

You swear it's not a good idea, but you trust him to the ends of the Earth. With a look over your shoulder, his brown eyes are steady, not uncertain in his unwavering gaze as he nods in assurance. Swinging a leg over the seat, you're in front this time. Helmets in place, hands on the clutch and brakes, you make eye contact with Simon once more before he flicks both your visors down. "Ready?" You ask him.

"More than ready, Love," he quips. With a quick shove to the kickstand, balance (with Simon's help of course), and a rev of the engine, you start the motorcycle off slowly. Gloved hands around your waist, he gives you a gentle squeeze.

He was always pushing you out of your comfort zone, that one. It was the first time you'd driven his motorcycle, and while it'd been scary and daunting for the first fifteen minutes, you eventually got used to it and it blossomed into something freeing. You understood then why he likes it, and you'd never been more grateful for someone pushing you out of your bubble. While flashes of all the kisses, caresses, and intimate moments between the two of you start to effervesce, you force yourself to remember the last time you'd seen him.

With a lingering hug, you're hesitant to let him go. Even if you know it's necessary, it's still hard... it always has been. "You'll let me know when you get in, right?" You ask, searching his eyes. They stand out from the black warpaint, his uniform always made him look handsome, even if you couldn't imagine how intimidating seeing his actual attire would be in his enemies position.

A dismissive and irritated grunt meets your ears as he shrugs your hands off. He'd packed quickly, something he's been doing more recently; taking more and more jobs, you've begun worrying for his health, not that he'd talk about it, of course. "If I 'ave time."

While you weren't able to get all the details on this excursion, you did manage to get that it was essentially a 'clean-up' for him. He had to go in and make sure that the hostages they'd had a lead on were all rescued and no one was left behind, no assailants or informants lingering or hiding. You've known that his job is hard on him. Losing people can't be easy, especially when you feel like you could've done things differently and changed the ending to their stories. Yet, you also know that throwing yourself into work the way he's been doing without talking to anyone, simply managing to pass debrief counseling by whatever meter their measuring is... not working. Not anymore, at least.

"You're running from this! You won't even answ-" you shout, gesticulating as you do everything in your power to keep the anger and worry that's tightly wound wrapped up in your gut under control, not to let anymore of it seep out than already has.

"An' you're one to talk?! You don't get to interrogate me," he argues, rounding the couch to get closer. The dark circles under his eyes scream volumes, even if he's unwilling to acknowledge whatever's going on for him. "I deal with that enough in my line o' work. Don't-"

"Simon," you say, tone holding that familiar warning tone.

You'd gotten home safely and were able to change and make something to eat. The feelings haven't left the cavity of your chest, still lingering there, the way he always does. He may be 'Ghost' on the field, yet he still haunts your memories, always making you question whether or not you did the right thing. What if only you'd done more? What if you hadn't pushed him so much? It wasn't always in a bad way, either, in fact, most of the time you'd find yourself chuckling randomly at some inside joke only the two of you share, or something he'd find funny. The stolen sweaters and hoodies you know for a fact long ago washed away his scent. Even if you swear sometimes that you can smell the faint odor of cigarettes he used to smoke. In the city when you're out with the girls you'd find yourself fondly inhaling the smell whenever a stranger would be smoking one nearby.

You'd cursed him: Simon Riley. Yet, the aching inside you he left often made you feel like he there's some sense of closure he never fully gave you. The SAS would tell you that he'd get your letters, even if you stopped writing years ago a little while after the split. You never got a response, and you never really expected one. Simon never really was one for letter writing. It was the only way you felt like you could get that closure, that part of your life done with. Ultimately, it did help you move on in some way.

A sigh tumbles past your lips as you change the channel on the television, unsure what you really feel like watching. A reality comedy show is on, something of a local prank show. It wasn't the best show, really, but it's one you used to watch a lot as a kid, and thus, another reminder of him. This one makes you smile, nonetheless. It's a good memory; nostalgia envelopes you in the way that makes you crave times that felt easier. Just when you wrap yourself in your fuzzy blanket, there's a soft rapt at the door.

Heart accelerating, eyes widening slightly, you slowly rise from the couch. The television volume isn't on loud, and while there may be light coming from it to inform a stranger you're home, that isn't enough to say that you're alone. With slow and cautious steps, you approach the door, careful to check the window near the door from a vantage point you're unseen. It's a man in a black hoodie. Panic sets in and you turn to skillfully head back toward the couch in search of your phone with quiet and quick steps. That's when it strikes you.

With all pretenses abandoned, you rush to the door and fling it open, lips parted in shock and awe. "Simon?" Searching and attempting to scan the partially shielded face, you're able to see tufts of blonde hair lit from the porch light.

"I know you've no reason to-" he starts, hands removing themselves from his hoodie's pocket, "but please let me come in and explain."

"You came back," you whisper. It's more for yourself than him, and whether it's out of bewilderment, intuitive knowing, or a premonition; you were right.

As he takes a step forward and reaches out for you with shaky hands produced from the familiar black pocket of his hoodie, you don't retract. Slow and tentative movements on both ends, he grabs ahold of one hand, thumb consciously skirting back and forth repeatedly in a form of grounding and seeking comfort. "You were right," his deep voice rasps.

Your hand cautiously seeks his cheek beneath the shield of his hood. Fully expecting to meet the spandex material of his balaclava, you're surprised by the warmth of his skin underneath your gentle touch. Wrist pushing against the cotton hood, it gives way, revealing his face. Searching his deep brown eyes for any sign he's genuine... you're met with truth.

With a weak nod you turn, leaving the door to shut softly behind the two of you.

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[moooncats]

✿ PAC : Love Letter From Your Future Spouse ✿

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✿ Pile 1 ✿

Hello beautiful, did you miss me? I know that everything has been so hectic but I swear you are such a fighter. I love the way you have this no tolerance go getter attitude. You are truly my muse. You transform the most mundane things and make them into gold flecks that flutter into the air and it's just awe inspiring. I have searched all over the world, met many inspiring people in my life and none of them compare to you- you captivated me, lured me into your beautiful unique aura and I can never forget that moment. I knew then, that you had to be mine. I thank the heavens everyday because you are the person I get to wake up next to- what a blessing! I must have done a lot of good in my past life to meet you. It truly is a gift being in your presence! We mesh together perfectly, your hand in mine, our bodies intertwined. I can't believe that manifesting someone as yourself actually worked. Our vibrations match perfectly as we are in tuned with each other. Like a root deep underground, it's vast and everlasting. That is our love, we will grow stronger together and I am missing every second, minute, hour that I am away from you my love. I can't wait to make it back to you so we can start our forever life together, and we can do it all over again in another lifetime. Please wait for me goregous, I love you with all my hearts. Sending my love to you from every universe. I know you can feel its warmth. ♡ Yours truly. ♡

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✿ Pile 2 ✿

Hello goregous soulmate. I can't believe that it's that time of year again. I know you love letters from me and I've made you so many already but just know that every letter I write are my true authentic feelings. There is so much going on in my head everyday and most of it is because of you my goregous soulmate. You have encapsuled my love and intertwined it with your beautiful soul. I am forever grateful of your presence every day. You changed me so much and for the better. Before I was aimless in life, no drive, aspirations, no hope... then you came along. With your sunshine aura and I couldn't get enough of it. You are the light that guides my wandering soul out of the abyss. You are my forever muse. I can't wait to grow old with you and start that family we've always talked about, until then I have only my words to keep you going through these times. My will and determination to get us everything we deserve and need in life. You will never have to ask for more, anything you want you will have it my love. I love you so much goregous please don't ever change. ♡ Yours Truly. ♡

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✿ Pile 3 ✿

You're not mad at me are you? I know I've done a lot of things in this life that have made me feel regrettable, but this- this is the one that tops it all. I am human... we all make mistakes. Please don't fester any bad feelings for me my delicate little flower. You know I had you in mind the whole time and I thought it would be best for the both of us. Everything I ever do, my thoughts, my actions, my feelings; I always take you into consideration. You are my everything, my delicate flower that I must protect. I will do ANYTHING for you baby. You don't know how much you mean to me, the day we met was the best day of my life. I will never forget locking eyes with you for the first time. My heart instantly went into hyper drive, it just wouldn't stop. I knew then that you were the one. The way you move gracefully through the shit show that is life is just mesmerizing. Life has taken so much from you... from us. We are 2 souls who were once lost but when we get together, we become 2 partners intertwined and formed into 1 power couple. I know you know this my love, words can't express how much I feel about you. You are my muse, my world, my will to live. I won't lose you this time, not again. ♡ Yours Truly. ♡

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[lachesismoonmist]

JK Drabbles - One Shots

Here's a collection of One-Shot stories involving JK. JK as husband, JK as boyfriend, JK as lover.

Some of them are scenes I wrote which didn't make it into my eventual stories,but were such fun to write I wanted to share them.

Each story is saved as an individual chapter.

Enjoy!

Rating: Mature

Pairing: Jeon Jungkook / Reader Also posted on AO3

Masterlist for JK Drabbles - One Shots

#1 - Welcome Home #2 - Be My Slave #3 - Wait #4 - Days Without Incident

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!TRIGGER WARNING!: Verbal and emotional abuse of MC by husband. Very harsh and degrading language. If this is disturbing for you, please DO NOT read this chapter.

Also, there are thoughts of cheating. White lies, fake smiles, hidden pain are the norm as our MC struggles in her marriage.

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Chapter 4: Days Without Incident - JK as love interest

Scold Me

Days without incident: 0.  Every time you reset the counter to zero, you would either be in a state of shock, or felt like you’d just be trampled on. Or, you’d be beating yourself up over having not done something correctly.  You’d questioned yourself whether you made the right choices.  You doubted yourself, ashamed that you could be so thoughtless and inconsiderate.

No, this wasn’t about something happening at the workplace.  You didn’t work in a hazardous working environment, where those signs were put up to remind everyone to be safe.  Seeing the number of days increasing was supposed to motivate everyone to continue to be safe. If an accident took place, or someone got hurt, the counter would reset to zero.

This was about life with your husband. Kim Taehyung. You’d been married for three years.   When you first met, he had been warm, loving, kind.  He’d pursued you relentlessly, first, getting you to out with him, then getting you to marry him.  You admired his determination and go-getter spirit. Being in the performing arts yourself, you admired his creative spirit. His designs were breathtaking. 

Then things slowly changed.  He wasn’t very warm.  He wasn’t very loving.  He wasn’t very kind. 

He was the leading architect in one of the country’s top construction and property developers.  He was heavily involved in not just the planning, but also the construction for his projects.  Two of the buildings that now made up part of the city skyline were designed by him.   He’d won numerous awards for innovative yet stylish designs. 

Two and a half years ago, he took on a regional role, requiring him to travel every two weeks or so.  It was a promotion for him, one he’d worked very hard for.   So now his projects were much bigger, more complex.  A big part of his job required anticipating issues, potential derailers, putting in contingencies.  Best to put all the necessary plans in place to avoid problems, because once a problem surfaced mid-way it would be a whole lot more difficult and expensive to fix.  So, the initial planning was critical.  He had no tolerance for mistakes that could have been avoided with proper planning.  He was very hard on his subordinates for these sorts of hiccups.  You’d heard him shouting at one of them over the phone once.  It was not pleasant.

You, on the other hand, were more of a “go with the flow” kind of person. You did plan of course, but you were a bit less of a control freak.  Hey, shit happens.  Accidents happen.  People slip up.  Just deal with it when the time comes.  Whatever “mistake” made had happened already. No one could turn back time.  Instead, you focused on how to make the best of the situation.  Keep moving forward. 

Your husband wasn’t a very patient man to begin with.  But given the nature of his work, it got worse.  He’d snap at everything.  You taking too long to put on your shoes.  You forgetting to turn off the lights.  You not topping up the milk.  You forgetting that he’d changed his mind about dinner, and cooking the wrong dish.  Once you’d tried to mention that forgetting to turn off the light happened to everyone.  He countered that he’d told you so many times about it already.  He said he was sick of cleaning up after you.  That the reason he got upset was he’d already reminded you multiple times.  Yet you kept forgetting.  It had to be because you didn’t think what he said to you was important, or you just didn’t care.  You reassured him it was neither. You felt bad about it for the whole day.

It didn’t help that your memory was really terrible.  Your phone calendar was littered with entries, not just about events, but also reminders.  Anyone would have laughed at some of your reminders. You even had one to wish your in-laws “Happy Birthday”.  One year, you’d forgotten, which meant Tae also forgot since you were the one who remembered everyone’s birthdays.  What a tongue lashing you got.  Tae had pointed out angrily that you’d never forget your parent’s birthdays, but when it came to his parents, you didn’t care. You almost blurted out, “But they’re YOUR parents,” but you didn’t.  You didn’t want things to blow up even more. You just wanted the incident to be over.  You felt bad about it too, because he had been right when he said you’d never have forgotten your own parents’ birthdays.  What a horrible person you were! 

The worst thing was, you never knew when he’d snap.  It might have seemed like a trivial thing to you, but it would suddenly become a big issue and he’d erupt.  You felt like you were walking on eggshells. 

It wasn’t like that ALL the time.  You don’t think you would have been able to stay married to him if it were.  On days when he was in a very good mood, you could see the old him.  Fun, cheeky, loving.   More forgiving, patient and understanding.   On days like those, you were reminded why you fell in love with him in the first place.

When he was not in a good mood, best to stay away.  When he snapped, he became a whole different person.   If something went wrong, he’d fly off the handle.   Every time your phone lit up with a notification of a text or call from Tae, the first thing you felt was anxiety.  What had you forgotten this time?  Your mind would be racing a mile a minute, going over what you’d done recently to see if there was potentially anything that could have set him off.  You’d let out a little sigh of relief if the text or call wasn’t a tongue lashing. 

It was always your fault.  That fact was that he didn’t lift a finger to help around the house. You did everything. Since he didn’t do anything, that also meant he couldn’t do anything wrongly.  Whereas you, doing everything, had a higher chance of something “fucking something up”.

Because he came at you so aggressively, your first instinct was to defend yourself.  Your brain went into “flight or fight” mode and would get complete scrambled.  You learnt that there was a term for this:  ‘emotional flooding’.   A sudden and intense feeling of being overwhelmed by emotions. It can make it hard to think clearly or act. 

There were times when you’d try to explain why you did something a certain way.  You were often afraid to admit you’d forgotten something, instead, choosing to come up with a reason that could explain your behaviour, hoping he would buy it. 

Sometimes it would work.  Sometimes it didn’t.  When it didn’t, things would go downhill.  Sometimes things even exploded over text.

“You think I’m stupid?   You’re just making excuses.”

“You really need to know when to just shut the fuck up and stop digging a deeper hole for yourself.”

“What the fuck is wrong with you?”

“How could you have messed this up? You fucking swine.”

“Are you blind? Or is your head up your ass when you do things?  Your brains don’t work?”

“You make shit decisions.  Don’t you think you should have asked me?”

“Just deal with it yourself. Why do you have to come to me for every little decision?”

“Did you wake up today and ask yourself, ‘How can I fuck up Taehyung’s day today?’”

“This is just asshole behaviour.  You’re an asshole” (finger pointing).  “Get the fuck out of my face. I don’t want to see you.”

Some days you could brush off what he said and the anger he’d directed at you.  Most times he’d feel sorry afterwards, and he’d come to you with puppy dog eyes and say he was sorry.  But some days, you were shell shocked.  You felt horrible for doing whatever it was to him.  You couldn’t believe you had been that inconsiderate.  He had a right to be angry.

So the times when he snapped became incidents for you.  You started keeping track of how many days had passed between incidents.  The highest number you got was 15.

Some days you felt trapped.  Like you couldn’t just be yourself.  You’d dusted off you Kindle and started reading again. You used to be a voracious reader. You liked the quiet at night after having showered, before going to bed.  But Taehyung then complained that you weren’t spending time with him because you’d be reading on the sofa, while he’d gone into the bedroom to watch Netflix.  So, you didn’t read after you shower, sitting on the sofa.  You watched Netflix with him. He’d fall asleep before you did, snoring.  You’d turn on your phone light under your blanket and read for a short while before going to sleep.

Contrary to how everything else was going, the sex was good.  Taehyung was an attentive lover.  He worshiped your body, giving you multiple orgasms before he chased his.  In the last half year or so, he’d been a lot more tired with all the travelling, so sex didn’t happen so often, and didn’t last as long. There was less cuddling. But he always made sure you came first.  One thing you did notice was that you went down on him every time, but he hardly ever went down on you.  The last time had been some months ago, after a big fight.  He’d felt disconnected from you and had desperately wanted to bridge the gap. You were still reeling from the fight, but you let him eat you out.  You didn’t even come, but you made the appropriate noises and faked an orgasm.

Your BFF Jimin knew everything.  You’d confide in him whenever something happened.  He often told you that you didn’t have to live like this. He tried to make you see that this tantamounted to verbal and emotional abuse.  Tae was gaslighting you. You refused to listen. You had been the one to make Taehyung angry.  If you hadn’t done something wrong, he wouldn’t have gotten angry. 

Jimin despaired at ever being able to make you see things differently.  It didn’t help that he was working overseas at the moment, in a totally different time zone from you.

You’d sometimes recall moments when Tae showed affection.  There were so few.  They often happened when you were not alone.  You’d be out with friends, and he’d say things about how well you keep the house, how well you cook, and he’d hook an arm around you and kiss you on the forehead.  Or he’d proudly talk about how successful you were as a dancer, dancing with the National Ballet, but also doing modern dance with a small group of your dance friends.  Your group was getting noticed, and now often performed upon request at big events.  But all these nice things never happened when you were alone.  You’d find yourself thinking, why can’t he be that nice to me when we are alone too?  You felt like you were waiting for little crumbs of affection.  No prizes for guessing who had all the power in the relationship.

Jimin tried again to convince you that this was not how a marriage should work.  No wife should be afraid of getting a scolding from her husband.  No wife should have to accept such awful words thrown at her, albeit in a fit of anger, only to just forgive her husband when he looked contrite and said he was sorry.

So you started keeping a record of what had happened, and the things he had said.    At the back of your mind you agreed with Jimin.  You asked him for the contact of the lawyer who had handled his divorce.  You saved it, but didn’t call her. 

To escape the situation from home, you put in long hours at the dance studio.  Even on days when there was no rehearsal, you’d head in to help out with whatever needed help.  You started giving classes to the kids who wanted to learn ballet.

Not being at home, not being around Taehyung also meant your “Days with Incident” could continue to climb. It made you feel a little less stifled.

Spending more time at the studio also meant spending more time with your friends there. You were really close to the ones who were also doing modern dance with you.  There were two other women, Ara and Ji-a.  There were three men, Namjoon, Yoongi and Jungkook.  With them, you felt like your old self. You could just be you.  You didn’t have to tip toe around anyone.  Your friends had asked if it was tough that your husband was away so much.  You smiled and said no.  You knew he was busy, and he’d message or video-call you every day.  The first part was true. The second part was not.  Your friends all quipped that you guys were so lovey-dovey.  Namjoon made kissy faces at Ara, who pushed him away laughing. You’d just laughed along with them, a knot in your chest.

Tell Me

Jungkook had been observing you.  He noticed that there was a tightness in your expression when you talked about Taehyung.  You’d often paired with him for modern dance, so he thought he knew you pretty well. Your eyes would crinkle when you smiled.  Your cute dimples would appear.  If there was something you disliked you’d wrinkle your nose.   He knew what you looked like when you were relaxed and happy.  He’d picked up a slight change in your posture when anyone mentioned your husband.  A slight slouch, like you were trying to make yourself smaller.  A tightness around the shoulders.  Your face, a blank mask.  Eyes dull, instead of your usual animated, bright-eyes expression. He even thought he saw your eyes water once or twice, but he told himself he was imagining things.

Unbeknownst to you, your efforts at hiding your pain were not totally successful.  Jungkook knew something was wrong.  Jungkook had always felt drawn to you.  He remembered learning that you were married when you’d met a year and a half ago.  He’d been so disappointed that you weren’t available.  He liked everything about you.  How warm and caring you were.  How loyal you were to your friends.  You had a dry sense of humour and could be really cheeky.  Even if he didn’t know how nice you were, he’d might have fallen for you just by dancing with you. The love you had for dance and music. The dedication and effort you put into mastering your craft.   The fluid way you moved.  The graceful curve of your neck. The beautiful lines of your arms.  The way your lost yourself in the music and the moment. How your breath hitched just before he lifted you. 

It felt so natural to have you in his arms.  Granted you were only there because the choreography required it.  But he relished the times when he got to hold you. 

He kept his thoughts to himself. Both the ones about you being unhappy, and the ones about him having a crush on you.  He told himself that he found ways to be around you because he enjoyed your company. Nothing more.

One evening, everyone had gone off after a late practice.  He’d gone to take a shower.  He thought he was alone, until he heard someone sniffling.   He followed the sound till reached the studio at the end.  He pushed the door open slowly and stuck his head in.  It was you.  You were sitting on the floor in a corner, sniffling. You were looking at your phone.

He felt an overwhelming need to comfort you.  He pushed the door open.  Your head shot up at the sound and you saw him.  You hastily dashed away your tears and put on a small smile.

“Oh hey, Jungkook.  I didn’t know you were still around.”

“Y/N, what’s wrong” he said, concern written all over his face.

“Oh, it’s nothing,” you gave me another fake smile, looking away nervously.

“Y/N, it’s not nothing,”  he said, sitting down next to you.  He could see you were trying to compose yourself and look calm, but you were gripping your phone really hard.

He decided now was the time to say something.

“Y/N, I know deep down you’re unhappy.  You’re fine most of the time, but I know that when we  mention Taehyung, you’re putting on a front.  You say things are good, but I see the tightness in your posture and the sadness in your eyes.  Your fake smiles are not fooling me.” He paused to put his finger under your chin to make you look at him.

“Tell me,” he said softly.

You wordlessly handed your phone over to him.  Your message app was open.  He read Taehyung’s messages:

“I really don’t know what goes on in that head of yours. Why can’t you think like a normal person?  Are you fucking retarded? No common sense or basic reasoning.  Do I have to draw a fucking map for you? I can't write a playbook of every fucking scenario if you don't use common sense.”

Jungkook’s blood boiled.  Who talks to their wife like that?   He looked at you, and saw you literally crumble in front of him.  You broke down.  You hunched over, sobs wrecking your entire body. You covered your face with your hands.

Jungkook reached out to gather you in his arms.  He pulled you against him.  You collapsed on him. Tears running down your face.  He didn’t say anything. He just held you.  He didn’t know how long you both sat on the floor like this.  It felt like a long time.  Eventually you cried yourself out and calmed down.

You sat up straight and wiped your face with your hand, taking a deep breath.  He reluctantly let you go.

“How long has this been going on?”  Jungkook asked quietly.

“Two years,” you whispered.

“What?!?” he shouted, making you jump.  He calmed himself and took your hand in his. “Tell me what’s going on, Y/N.”

You closed your eyes and took a deep breath.  You related how things had changed between you and your husband over the last two years.  Everything came gushing out.  Things you hadn’t even told Jimin. 

He frowned whenever you said it was your fault, you’d made him angry, you should have been more considerate.  He didn’t want to contradict you, so he kept silent.  The more you spoke, the more you deflated.  You looked so sad and vulnerable his heart broke.

He reached up to hold your face in his hands.  He rubbed him thumbs over your cheekbones, wiping away some of your tears.   “Y/N, there is nothing wrong with you.  So you forget things. Everyone forgets things. That’s no reason to go ballistic.”

His kindness made your tears flow even more.   You didn’t realise how long it had been since your husband had treated you with kindness.  Jungkook looked at you in alarm, not expecting you to cry harder.  He pulled you into his arms again, making soothing noises.  He rubbed your back gently.

Being in Jungkook’s arms felt so comforting.  For the first time in a long time, you felt like someone was really seeing you.  The real you. No pretences. No fake smile.  No lies.  Your arms snaked up around his neck and you moved closer.  You took deep calming breaths.   Jungkook gently shook you.

“Are you awake, Y/N?”

You laughed softly. “Of course I am. Did you think I fell asleep?”

“Well, you went quiet and were breathing deeply.  That was half an hour ago.”

You sat up in surprise. “What?  Half an hour? Oh, I’m so sorry, Jungkook!  I didn’t realise.”   You moved, wanting to stand up.

Jungkook took your face in his hands again, gently. “Y/N, it’s okay.  Don’t apologise.  I just wanted to make sure you’re okay.  Are you okay?” he looked at you, clearly concerned. 

You nodded.  You just realised Jungkook had a small mole under his lower lip.  Why hadn’t you noticed that before?   You looked into his big brown eyes. They were so warm.  Jungkook looked right back at you, but you saw his eyes dip briefly to your lips.  You pulled back, suddenly aware that your faces had been inching closer together.

“I should go,” you said, picking up your bag.  You looked at the clock on the studio wall. “Oh! It’s past midnight.  I can forget about the bus then. Looks like I have to get an Uber.” You said, pulling out your phone.

“No,” Jungkook said, taking your bag from you. “You’re coming with me. I’m driving you home.” His tone broached no argument.  He turned and left the studio, making you trot to keep up with him.

You didn’t talk on the ride home.   But it was not an awkward silence.  It was comfortable one.  Being in Jungkook’s presence was comforting.  You looked at his profile.  He was so handsome.  Those big doe eyes. The floppy hair. Strong jawline.  Muscular body.   He turned and smiled at you. You looked away, embarrassed at having been caught looking at him.  He noticed it.

“Go get some rest, Y/N.  Don’t think about things too much okay?  We can talk more tomorrow.  I’m here if you need anything.  Promise me you’ll get some rest.”

You nodded.  “Thanks, Jungkook,” you turned towards the door to pull the handle, but suddenly turned back and pressed a kiss to Jungkook’s cheek before you scurried out of the car.

Despite his worry for you, that made him smile for the entire drive home.

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You didn’t get a chance to talk to Jungkook.  You had a fever the next morning when you woke up. Your head was killing you, throat was sore, nose blocked.  Great. A flu.  You also had some ankle pain as you’d sprained your ankle quite badly the day before.  That text from Taehyung had made you completely forget about it until the pain got worse overnight.

Jungkook called to ask you if you were okay.  You reassured him that you were fine, and that you’d be back dancing the following week.  He told you not to worry about dancing and to rest so you could recover.

He texted you daily to check up on you.  He sent you funny videos of animals, knowing you liked animals.   His texts always made you smile.

Taehyung was extremely attentive and loving when he got home from his trip.  His wifey was sick.  Wifey had sprained her ankle. He bought you soup. He made sure you ate your meds. 

After you recovered, Taehyung continued to be very nice.  Days without incident, 18.  Maybe things were looking up.

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Now when you went for dance rehearsals, you felt a special bond with Jungkook.  Sometimes, he’d put a hand on your arm and look at you questioningly.  You’d nod at him and smile, assuring him you were okay.

When you danced, you felt so connected to him.  You were more aware now of his body moving around you, moving against you.  You enjoyed being close to him. Now he sent you home almost every day.   You didn’t kiss him on the cheek anymore, but you’d squeeze him arm as you said goodbye.

You started teaching a kid’s ballet class at the studio.  You needed a pianist, and Jungkook had volunteered.  The four-year olds were frightened of him at first, but he soon won them over. He was so good with kids!   Now they loved their “Uncle Kookie” and would make him pick them up and twirl them. After the class you would sometimes play the piano with Jungkook.  You’d taken lessons as well, all the way till you were in your teens.  It was fun.

That’s not to say things were all sunshine and roses.  There were still incidents at home. They weren’t as severe. But your incident counter never went beyond 8. Each time, the first person you texted about the troubles was not Jimin. It was Jungkook.  Once, Jungkook has asked you gently why you hadn’t considered leaving your husband. You said you couldn’t.  You said you knew Tae loved you.  When Jungkook asked if you love Tae, you couldn’t answer.   That gave you sleepless nights.  You didn’t know if you still loved Tae. While at home, you withdrew a little.  You’d smile when things were great.  But you always felt like you were waiting for the other shoe to drop.  You were mentally bracing yourself for the next incident.   It was exhausting. Tae on the other hand, didn’t notice anything amiss.

Your main source of comfort was, no surprise, Jungkook.  He listened to you.  He let you cry on his shoulder.  He held you when you needed a hug.  He went with you to catch the new Chris Hemsworth movie, where you gushed about the hero’s muscular chest and arms and glorious abs.  Jungkook insisted his were glorious as well, going as far as to lift his shirt to show you.  You’d laughed and told him not to flash everyone in the cinema.  But you silently admitted to yourself that Jungkook’s abs were indeed glorious.

Once you’d reached the studio early. Jungkook was alone in one of the studios rehearsing.  You stopped to watch.  He wasn’t wearing a shirt. His graceful dancer’s body moving lithely.  The muscles in his arms and legs prominent as he went through the movements.  His big hand running through his sweat slicked hair when he was done.   He looked up and saw you standing there at the window.  He saw you checking him out.  He smiled and waved at you, enjoying how your face turned red and you looked sheepish.

You’d move away quickly, breathing hard.  You tried to get thoughts of his magnificent body out of your mind. You weren’t very successful.

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Stay With Me

Days without incident: 3.  There will still altercations, but they were quite minor.  You continued to reset your incident counter each time and adding on to your record of the incidents.

It still disturbed you that you didn’t know if you still loved Tae.   He was not the first person who came to mind if you read a new book and wanted to gush about it.   When you wanted to try the sushi at the new restaurant that has just opened. When you needed company to watch a horror movie because they scared the bejesus out of you.  You’d camped out on Jungkook’s sofa, hiding under a blanket, only the top of your head and your eyes showing.  You spent more of the movie shrieking and hiding then actually watching it.  Jungkook laughed so hard at you he was tearing.  You’d pounded your fists on his shoulder telling him to stop laughing.  He’d put his arms around you to stop you from beating him.  Your faces were inches apart.  His lips looked so kissable.  His warm breath on your face.  You’d quickly stood up announcing you needed popcorn.  The moment had broken, and things went back to normal.

What was most disturbing of all, was what happened when you and Tae had sex.  Tae was still an attentive lover.  But when you closed your eyes, it wasn’t Tae’s face you saw.  It wasn’t Tae’s lips you wished were kissing your neck.  It was Jungkook’s.  You imagined that those muscular arms holding you were Jungkook’s.  That body that was rubbing against yours was Jungkook’s.  When you came, you made sure not to say any name.  Just in case you said Jungkook’s.

One day after rehearsal the gang had been talking about cheating.  Whether sex had to be involved before it was considered cheating.  There was something called “emotional cheating”.  Ara said a friend of hers had divorced his wife because the wife was cheating on him emotionally with a friend of his.  They hadn’t had sex.  But the wife had admitted that she felt she had more of connection with that friend. If she had raunchy dreams, she dreamt of that friend. Not her husband. Namjoon argued that nothing had happened.  It was only her thoughts and her dreams.

But Ara argued that the emotional connection between two people was one of the foundations of any relationship.   It was way important than sex.  Ara challenged Namjoon by asking him if he felt an emotional connection with every girl he’d slept with.  Namjoon had to concede the point. He’d had one-night stands where there was no emotional connection at all.  It was just sex.

The more you heard, the more disturbed you got.  Were you already emotionally cheating on Tae?   You thought of Jungkook when you were having sex with Tae, for crying out loud.   You didn’t know if you still loved Tae.

You carried on living life in this half-state.  You felt like you were living two lives.  There was your life with Tae.  Filled with anxiety.  Then there was your life with Jungkook.  Filled with adoration, admiration, respect. You wondered how long you could continue like this.

Then things came to a head two months later.   Tae was in between business trips. He was extremely on edge as there was some issue with his latest and biggest project.  You’d just come back from practice.  You hadn’t even put down your things.  He screamed that you hadn’t done something for him, and he flew off the handle.

“How could you be so inconsiderate?!?  How did hell could you have forgotten?!? Now it’s a total mess!! You fucking cunt!!”  He raised his hand, his face red, his blazing, looking as if he was going to strike you.

You flinched.  He stopped himself before his hand reached you.  His eyes widened in shock as he realised what he was about to do.

“Oh my god, Y/N,” he said, visibly shaken. “I’m sorry, I’m sorry, Honey.  I wasn’t going to hurt you.”

You were backing away slowly from him.  Your eyes wide open in fear.  Your face was white.  He moved forward towards you, reaching out to hold your hand but you flinched again.  Whimpering a little this time.

“I’m sorry, Y/N, I didn’t mean to scare you!   I didn’t mean it!”

You shook your head at him, then turn and fled.  You ran.  You ran like your life depended on it.  You left your apartment.  You heard Tae calling out your name. You ran down the stairs, not bothering to wait for the elevator.  You ran to the park just across from your apartment block.   You hid behind a tall clump of trees, terrified that Tae had followed you.

With shaking hands, you called Jungkook.  You were crying so hard Jungkook almost couldn’t make out you were saying. 

“Where are you? I’ll turn around and come get you.”

“Th…the park … across from my place,” you stuttered. “Hurry, Jungkook.”

Keeping watch on your apartment building, you saw Tae step out, his phone to his ear.  Thankfully he ran off down the street instead of crossing the road to the park.

Your phone rang.  Jungkook’s name appeared. “Y/N, I’m in the carpark. Where are you?” Jungkook sounded frantic.   You told him to stay put, and a few minutes later you were in his car.  You were shaking so hard.  You told Jungkook everything, your words tumbling over one another in your haste to tell him what had happened.

Jungkook’s face was red with anger.  As if the verbal and emotional abused weren’t good enough, Tae had almost added physical abuse into the mix as well. This time you needed no convincing.  You needed to end it.  For your own safety and sanity, you had to leave.

So you stayed at Jungkook’s.  You didn’t dare to return home.  Jimin tried going to your apartment to get some of your things, but Tae slammed the door in his face when Jimin refused to divulge where you were. 

You told you parents.  They showed up at your place. Tae had no choice but to let them in.  He begged them to tell him where you were. He needed to know you were safe he said.   Your mom reluctantly told him you were staying with a friend.

“Is it Jungkook?” Tae growled. “I knew it!   I knew she was having an affair!”

Tae reeled backwards suddenly after your mom slapped him hard across the face. 

“She is NOT having an affair,” your mom rebuked him.  “Thankfully she has friends who care about her. Now excuse me while I get her things.”  She stalked off to your bedroom.

Tae and your Dad glowered at each other.  Your Dad was keeping his anger in check. What he really wanted to do was pummel Tae to a pulp for treating you so badly.  He felt terrible that you’d been suffering for so long and they were only just finding about it now.

Your mom came back out with two large duffel bags.  She told your Dad to help pick up some boxes from inside the room as well.    She levelled a stern look at Tae. ” You’ll be hearing from her lawyers. And here,” she threw a small red velvet box at Tae.  He caught it, and his breath caught in his throat when he saw what was inside. The 1.5 carat engagement ring he had used to propose to you.  He‘d once jokingly said that if you ever left him, he wanted the ring back.  He never thought it would ever come to pass.

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You’d called the lawyer Jimin had recommended.  The paperwork had been filed.  Your also applied for a Personal Protection Order against Tae, just in case. 

You stayed indoors for about a week, not daring to venture out.  Jungkook stayed at home with you whenever he could.   He cooked your favourite food for you.  He let you babble when you need to rant.  He let you cry on his shoulder.  He held you when you had nightmares at night. 

“Jungkook, stay with me,” you’d begged him, crying.  “I don’t want to be alone. Please, Jungkook. Please, stay with me.”   Of course he stayed.  He put his arms around you, his front to your back.  He always waited till you fell asleep before he closed his eyes and settled down.  Sometimes you'd whimper in your sleep.  He'd shush you, stroking your hair.  Once you were having a nightmare. You tried to pry Jungkook's arms off you.  He quickly opened his arms as you thrashed.  Then you rolled towards him and curled up against his chest.  One had gripped his t-shirt. You pushed your face into his neck, breathing deeply.  He wrapped his arms around you, his nose nuzzling your hair.  He stroked your arm slowly. He felt you relax then fall back into a deep sleep.  His hands never wandered.  He respected you too much for that.  His protective instincts were in overdrive.  All he wanted to do was keep you safe.  He always woke up before you.  He had always been an early riser.  The other reason for getting out of bed first was sometimes his body would react to you, or he'd dream of you and wake up with an erection.  He always woke you up to a hearty breakfast and he’d watch you like a hawk to make sure you ate.

The one thing he didn’t let you do was talk to Tae.   Tae had been calling and messaging incessantly.  Jungkook could see you were affected by it, but you did not change your mind that you wanted out. 

On the first day you went back to the studio, Tae was waiting in the parking lot for you.  He looked terrible. Hair dishevelled.  Clothes rumpled, like he’d slept in them. Bags under his eyes. He called out to you, begging you to talk to him. 

When you saw him, all you felt was anger.  You asked yourself why you’d been in hiding for a week when you hadn’t done anything wrong.  You asked yourself why you gave this man so much power over you.  Enough was enough.  You stalked over to him.

Jungkook, startled, followed closely behind you.

“Y/N,” Tae sobbed. “Please, I’m sorry!  Give me another chance!” he begged, falling onto his knees.

“Why should i?” you said in a quiet but angry voice.  “You’ve been using me as punching bag for more than two years.  You made my life a living hell.”

“But Y/N, I love you!  You’re the best thing that ever happened to me!” Tae cried.

“It sure didn’t feel that way when you called me a swine and cunt!  Don’t you remember, Tae?   I didn’t have any fucking common sense.  I made stupid decisions.  I was an asshole, remember?” Your voice was getting louder and louder as your anger increased.

Tae was taken aback at how vicious you looked, eyes blazing.  You were literally spitting his words back at him.  He just knelt there with his mouth open.

“Well, you’re the worst thing that ever happened to me!  Just sign the damn divorce papers.  I never want to see or hear from you ever again, Kim Taehyung!”  You turned and walked away, leaving Tae there with tears streaming down his face.

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Eight Months Later

Your divorce had been finalised two months ago. You were still living at Jungkook’s.  You’d insisted on paying part of the rent, so that made you roommates. 

Jungkook watched you become more and more at ease each day.  Your smiles were always genuine now.  No more fake smiles plastered on your face.  You played the piano a lot more.  Besides reading, you’d taken to writing your own little, short stories as well. 

Once, Jungkook’s parents had dropped by Jungkook’s apartment. They were in town for business and had decided to surprise Jungkook.  You could see that Jungkook was close to his parents.  He was very respectful and often teased his father.  It was so heartwarming watching them together.  Jungkook’s mom joked that Jungkook would always be her baby.  Jungkook’s older brother was living overseas, so she really only had Jungkook to baby. 

This triggered a memory for you.  You’d once overheard Tae telling his mom off about something.  He told his mom she was being rude, and that he couldn’t believe how uncivilised she was being.  It didn’t strike you then, but looking back, that should have been a red flag.  If he could be that rude and disrespectful to his own mother, he could be rude and disrespectful to other people in his life as well.

Jungkook’s mom had seen the way Jungkook looked at you.  She knew her son had fallen for you.  She could see that you had feelings for him too.  She cornered him in the kitchen as he was preparing dinner.    You were chatting with his Dad in the living room, laughing at something funny your Dad had said.

“So…  when are you going to ask Y/N out, Kooka?”

“Mom!” Jungkook hissed, looking over to see if you were still out of earshot.  “She just got divorced!  I’m not going to push her. She needs her space.”

“Kooka,” his mom said patiently. “I can tell you have feelings for her.  And I can see she has feelings for you too.  I’ve seen the way she looks at you.  You two are so good together!  Have you even admitted to yourself that you have feelings for her?”

“Mooooom,” Jungkook said plaintively. “I know I have feelings for her. She kind, generous, beautiful and loyal. I think,… I think I have fallen in love with her.”

“I can see that Kooka,”  Jungkook’s mom said, patting Jungkook on the cheek.  “You should tell her how you feel.  Life’s too short for us not to be honest with the ones we love.”

“I don’t know, Mom.  Her divorce just got finalised.  I don’t want to pressure her into anything she’s not ready for.  Or she might just want more time for herself.”

“I get it, Kooka.  But I still think you should tell her how you feel.  If she’s not ready, let her tell you.  If she is, well, I think you’d be so happy together.”

“Ok, Mom.  Let me think about it. Thanks Mom,” Jungkook kissed his Mom on her forehead.

Jungkook and his mom didn’t know that you’d approached the kitchen to get more coffee for his Dad.  You were standing right outside the kitchen, mugs in hand and heard the conversation.  Jungkook was in love with you?  Your heart skipped a beat.  Were you ready for something new?  Even though your divorce had only been finalised two months ago, you felt that your marriage had broken down long before that.   Jungkook had been nothing but patient and kind through it all.  You made a plan to do something about it that night.

Jungkook’s parents had left. They were going back to the hotel, then driving back home in the morning.   Everything had been cleaned up and put away.  Jungkook wished you goodnight, hoping that you had a nice time with his parents.  You said you did, and that you had enjoyed spending time with them.

You took a shower, scrubbing your hair extra hard and taking your time to wash your body.  You blew you hair dry.  You knew Jungkook had just finished his shower because you could hear that the water had turned off.  You went to your wardrobe and picked out your shortest, sheerest nightie. It was white.  You hadn’t worn it since, well, since the first few months of your marriage.  You piled your hair into a messy bun, pinning it up.

You stood outside Jungkook’s room, hesitating.  Then you steeled yourself and knocked.

“Come in,” Jungkook called out.  He was shirtless, sitting up in bed with a book.  His mouth fell open when he saw you. His eyes roamed your body, noting that the nightie was short.  Your thighs were bare.  The nightie was sheer.  He could see the shape of your breasts and the pink shade of your nipples.   His eyes moved lower. He couldn’t see any underwear.  Were you bare under that nightie?  He felt his cock start to harden.

He sat there frozen.  You walked over to the bed, holding his heated gaze.  You took the book out of his hands, closed it and placed it on the beside table.   He looked up at you with wide eyes. 

“Jungkook,”  you placed your hand on his cheek.  “Do you want me?”

Jungkook gazed up at you with so much heat in his eyes, it made you shiver. “Yes,” he whispered reverently.  “I’ve always wanted you.  Right from the time when we first met and you split your milkshake on my shirt and….”

He stopped short when you leaned down and kissed him lightly on the lips.   You drew back, looking at him, gauging his reaction.  He grabbed you by the back of your neck and pulled you down to kiss you.  His lips hot and demanding.  He unpinned your hair, which fell in waves down your back.

You yelped when he grabbed you by the shoulders and somehow flipped you onto the bed so that he was on top.  He looked down at you, eyes dark with desire.  He slanted his lips over yours, his tongue slipping into your mouth.   This felt right.  This connection between you two, it hummed with every touch. 

He lay down on his side, his body still half pressing yours as he kissed you.  His hand moved from your shoulders to your collarbone, to the centre of your chest, then to your breasts.  He rubbed them through your nightie, feeling your nipples harden under his touch.  His hand moved lower, over your belly, your lower abs, to your mound. Yes, you weren’t wearing any panties.  He brushed his fingers over your lips.

“Mmm.. smooth,” he murmured in approval, as he trailed kisses along your cheek, down to your neck.   He dragged his fingers up and down your slit, applying pressure on your clit from the outside.  You moaned and rolled your hips, trying to make him go deeper into your core. But he took his fingers away.  He took hold of your nightie, pulling it up.  You shifted to allow him to remove it entirely.  He gazed down at you. He’d dreamed of having you in his bed.  Your hair fanned out over his pillow.  Your body bare, begging to be worshipped. “So beautiful,” he said softly, as he pressed kisses all over you.  Your shoulders, your chest, your breasts.  He took one nipple into his mouth, sucking and twirling his tongue around it.  His other big hand massaged the other breast, squeezing, rubbing, pinching and rolling the nipple.  Your back arched off the bed.

He continued kissing down your body, kissing every inch of you while his big hands continued squeezing your breasts and playing with your nipples.  When he reached your core, he pushed your legs wider apart.  “Hmm, look at that pretty pussy.”  He slid his hand down your inner thighs, spreading you open even more.  “Wanna taste.”  He placed the flat of his tongue and licked up your slit. 

You gasped. “Aaah,…. Kook……”

Jungkook smiled as flicked his tongue against your smooth plump lips. “Want more, Baby?”

“Yes, yes, Kook, more,” you rasped.

He pressed the flat of his tongue against your slit again, licking harder.  Which each pass, he pushed his tongue deeper into your folds.    When he reached your swollen clit, he circled around it with his tongue.  Your hips bucked as you gasped.  He flicked the tip of his tongue rapidly against the nub, holding your hips down with his hands.

“Hmmm, you’re so wet, Baby. Is this all for me?”

“Yes.. for you Kook, all for you,” you panted.

“Mmmmm.”  He continued licking your clit.  He slid one long finger into your hole.

“Aaaah……” you whimpered.

“That feel good, Baby?” he murmured against your hot flesh.  “How about this?”  He slid in another finger and stroked your walls.

His fingers were coated in your arousal.  He slid them in and out, stroking you in just the right way.  Faster. Harder.  He felt your walls start to pulse around his fingers.  You were close.  His fingers continued sliding in and out of you as he sucked on your clit. Lightly at first, then with increasing pressure.  When you peaked, he scraped your clit with his teeth as you mewled.  He slurped up your juices hungrily.

He stripped off his grey sweatpants then climbed up over you, smiling at your blissed-out look.  “I’m not done with you, Baby,” he said darkly.   He kissed you.  You moaned, tasting yourself on his lips and tongue.  You reached for his cock and gripped the hard, velvety length.  Jungkook was huge.  You’d seen a hint of it through the tights he wore while dancing, but you hadn’t dwelled on it, blushing when your thoughts went a bit wild. 

“Hmmm, so hard, Baby.  Is this all for me?” you threw the question back at him, smiling cheekily.  He grinned as he nuzzled your neck.  

“You like?  You like my hard cock?”

“Yeah, I like,” you said as you watched him take his cock and pump it a few times.  The throbbing between your thighs intensifying.

“Want you inside me,” you said, your voice deep with want.   

He leaned over you, positioning the head of his big, hard cock at your entrance. 

“How do you want it Baby?  Soft and slow? Or hard and fast?”  he asked as he rubbed the head of his cock against your clit.

“Hard and fast,” you panted, opening your legs wider.

He drove all the way in.  Your whole body bucked, not expecting him to slide himself into you so quickly and so smoothly.  He paused there for a while, letting you adjust.  He was a big boy after all.

“You okay?” he asked huskily.  You nodded.  He reached up, intertwined his fingers with yours, his other hand braced beside your body and he thrust forward hard.  He slid into you, his body pressing yours into the mattress.  His pelvic bone rubbing against your clit.  He drew back until only the tip of his cock was inside you, then he thrust into you again.  And again.  The sensations were overwhelming.  Whenever he was balls deep in you, the feeling of fullness was exquisite.  The feeling of closeness. Your clutched at his big shoulders, your nails digging into his flesh.   You ran your hands down his muscular back, relishing the feel of him.  You reached down to grip his ass, pulling him against you as he pounded into you.

“Am so close, Kook,” you groaned. Your muscles tensing up.  You could tell he was close too.

He thrust harder, so hard your whole body bounced.  “Come for me, Y/N.”

“Jungkook!” you cried as your orgasm gripped you, pulling you under.  Your body shuddered. Every nerve firing as he continued thrusting a few more times before he came too. “Fuck, Y/N, fuck!”  He spurted warm cum into you.

You continued clutching him, his weight pressing down on you.  You wanted to hold on to the closeness longer.  Him inside you.  Your legs wrapped around his hips.  He leaned down to kiss you, slowly and languidly this time.

He rolled you onto your sides as he kissed your face.  He gazed into your eyes, mesmerised by you.  He pushed your hair off your face.   He softened and slipped out of you.  You whined a little at the loss of feeling him inside you.  He pulled you close, kissing you on the lips. 

“You know, I might have dreamt about making love to you,” he laughed softly.  “You spread out on my bed.  You making the prettiest noises for me.  Gave me such a hard-on.  I had to take a cold shower and cum twice.”

“I might have dreamt of you too, Kook,” you smiled at him. 

“Really?  And what did you do after you’d dreamt of me?” he asked cheekily.

“This,” you said huskily, taking his hand and guiding it to your pussy. “And this” you added, as you squeezed your own breasts, rolling and pinching the nipples.  You threw your head back as you moaned. 

“Mmmm, I like where this is going,” he drawled as he pumped his fingers in and out of you.  “What else?”

“This.” You pushed him so he was lying on his back then scooted downwards, taking him into your mouth. 

“Aah!” he cried, not expecting you to take him all the way in so quickly.  His eyes rolled back at how you were licking the head of his cock. Sucking him hard while playing with his balls.   He came quickly, so turned on by the sight of your lips around his cock, you looking at him through your lashes.  You moaning when his cum filled your mouth and throat.

“And this,” you smiled evilly, gripping his cock, pumping it slowly till he was hard again.  Then you climbed onto him, straddling his hips.  You reared up on your knees as you moved so the tip of his cock was at your entrance.  Then holding his smouldering gaze, you impaled yourself on his cock.   He gripped your hips in surprise you as you slid down till you bottomed out.  Then you rode him. Hard.  He grabbed your ass, spreading your cheeks so that you could sit more squarely on him.  You reached up and squeezed your bouncing breasts, tugging and pinching your nipples. Your head thrown back in ecstasy.  He’d never seen anything sexier in his life.  When your movements became faster and more frenzied, he pressed a thumb against your clit while his other hand held your hip, hard enough to bruise.  He couldn’t hold back anymore.  Seeing you pleasure yourself on his cock had him coming hard.  You cried out too, sliding up and down him a few more times as you both came down from your highs.

He pulled you down so you were lying on top of him and kissed you deeply. 

“Can I ask you question, Kook?”

“Anything, Baby,” he said, stroking your face.

“Can I sleep here with you?” you asked him with a mischievous grin, making him laugh.

“Like I’m going to let you sleep anywhere else, Baby,” he said, pressing kisses all over your face and tickling you.

“Stop! Stop!” you cried, tears running down your face at laughing so hard.

“Okay, okay,” he conceded. “You can sleep here with me.  But I’m not sure how much sleep we’ll actually be getting,” he said darkly as he rolled you over, pinning you under him.

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Days without incident: 1,095.  Not that you were keeping track anymore.  That all ended that day you left your ex-husband.  Your current husband was putting the finishing touches on a crib.  He’d stubbornly refused to get someone to assemble it, insisting that he had to be the one to build the crib of his firstborn.

It took Jungkook a little longer than he’s expected, but now it was done.  He’d painted it white to match the lavender and white theme of the nursery.  He’d painted big white daisies on one wall.  On the other wall, he’d stuck a decal of a puppy ballerina, complete with white tutu and ballet shoes. It was adorable.  A light purple Jelly-Cat bunny sat in the crib now, waiting for the arrival of your little girl.

You’d made him go wash up and change for dinner at your parent’s place.  Jungkook’s parents had come over for dinner as well. Needless to say, they were all over the moon with excitement that they would be grandparents soon. Jungkook was on the sofa, showing them pictures of the crib he’d assembled and the decoration in the nursery room as they all oohed and aahed over how cute everything looked.  You stood in the kitchen doorway watching, smiling widely.  This was your future. Days without incident. Days filled with happiness.

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Who are you in their eyes? (PAC)

💭How does your friend, partner, crush, colleague, family member, or anyone in your mind view you? REMINDER! This is a general reading & purely their perception of you, take what resonates.

✨How to select your pile?✨

1. Slow your breathing, taking deep inhales. Focus on feeling present in your environment.

2. Looking from left to right, use your intuition to pick the pile meant for you (what you connect most with.)

3. Doesn't resonate? No worries! Pick another, it's message may be just right for you.

!!For Entertainment Purposes Only!!

Pile 1 -> Pile 2

Pile 3 -> Pile 4

🍃Pile 1 ;

Cards: 8 of Wands, Queen of Swords, Queen of Pentacles, King of Pentacles, 6 of Cups

The person in your mind could be someone from your past, perhaps a childhood friend, a classmate, or a family member. If not from your past, either you or them remind each other of a person you guys used to know, maybe they even perform a hobby you dropped, just something from the past. There is a lot of nostalgia here, and the reason why is because they possibly watched you grow up, or knew you from the past and reconnected again in the future, and they are shocked by how well you seem to be doing. The first thing I heard is "I'm so proud of you." They think you are somewhat of a go-getter, and most certainly financially stable. They perceive you as someone who invested a lot of time and effort in developing yourself. This energy feels so nice! They just think you're super mature, that you handle problems well, you're emotionally mature, etc. You just have your shit together, according to them. You may be able to "feel like a kid again", and overall have a lot of fun with this person, and they think the same. It's giving the vibe of "Wow, it's been that long, huh?" Overall, what they think of you is purely positive, and pretty lighthearted!

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🍀Pile 2 ;

Cards: 3 of swords, 10 of swords, Page of wands, Queen of Pentacles , 8 of Swords

They think you're STRONG. From perception, they think that you've gone through something completely heartbreaking and life-changing, then brushed off your knees and got going again. They think you have such a strong demeanor, like I'm hearing "After all that?" They sense that you've gone through something transformative, like they see that spark in your eyes to use your heartbreak as a reason to strive. This could be letting go of old habits and past traumas. They are honestly baffled how you can keep going. They think you endured a lot emotionally, or resurfaced from a pretty dark place. You're pretty financially okay to them, or near the path to being there. This person could actually be someone that helped you as you were going through your struggles, providing an opportunity for you. You're like a go-getter, not settling for anything other than what you deserve.

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🍀Pile 3 ;

Cards: Temperance, Page of Pentacles, 7 of Pentacles, 3 of Pentacles, The Emperor, Ace of Swords

The person you're thinking about may be a mentor, a teacher, or someone with experience and influence that gives you a lot of inspiration. I get very strongly that they passed down some intellect to you. They think you're starting out in a new field, but already low-key mastering it lmao. You're going to be pretty bloody quick to succeed. To them, you are pretty focused on yourself, perhaps focusing greatly on aligning your career to your passions, and working hard in all aspects of your life. I'm hearing "They have a lot of potential." so they view you as a person with a lot of skills and expect you to quickly master anything new. They think you are well-rounded and leading a pretty average lifestyle, actually. They think that you're certainly passionate, but not dreaming very big for your future. You're a balanced person in their eyes, very reliable. At first, they would think you're shy or socially awkward haha. They might even be shocked at your progress, like you'll outdo the master!

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🍀Pile 4 ;

Cards: 2 of Cups, Queen of Pentacles, Queen of Wands, Wheel of Fortune.

While shuffling your cards, a bunch flew out super quick! This person would form a strong opinion of you upon first meeting you, and if you know this person closely already, they would be quick to answer if someone asks what they think of you. You are someone that would've stood out for them, even in mind. They perceive you as someone sociable, seeing you around other people very often. They think you have a stable income or can afford to be leisurely and have fun, and that you were born privileged. They think you're pretty lucky tbh, I'm hearing "They won in life". I'm getting a vibe that this person may be insecure about their assets, or at least need to develop themselves emotionally. They think they are out of your league, and that you are going to be veryyyy different from them, like a whole different level. They think that you've got good habits, they idolize you a bit imho. Looking past that, they think that both you and them have a lot to learn from each other. They think you're steady in life, while also fun-loving. This could be a romantic interest, but this also applied well for platonic relationships!

~~🍃 You reached the end of the reading, 'till next time!

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SUNGHOON'S TWIN FLAME - A TAROT READING

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🫧‧₊˚⋅ n ¤ t ə ⋆ : : i am a self-taught tarot reader, and the interpretations i provide are personal. if anyone would like to share their own insights, i would be more than happy to hear them! please be kind <3

★2: in this reading, I will be talking about a person from the future and how their relationship will progress at the moment when they are already know each other; that's the twin flame that he's yet to meet. 👾

GENERAL READING ︻╦╤─

The Sun, The Emperor, The Star, Queen of Wands, 8 of Pentacles, The Chariot, The Tower, The High Priestess

There's an unmistakably regal air to this person. Yes, that's the first thing that came to mind, because she's literally exuding the vibes of a royalty. A 𖤓 Leo perhaps? She's carrying herself as a noble with dignity, and it's not only this but also the fact that she's conceited. Leos have a reputation for being conceited, but let's think AGAIN 🤓☝️ Leos do feel important, but it's usually because they want to change the world in some way to make it a better place. In our case, our twin flame is motivated by affection for people and often has big dreams and plans to make people happy. She is hard-working. After all, she is attracted to the good things in life and knows she has to work to get them, something she is doing at the moment. She most surely works in entertainment, just as Sunghoon, but in a different direction. She's quite emotive, so I bet she's an actress or a presenter.

But one thing about her is that she was not always a go-getter typa girl. In those past ~2-3 years she was in a languid mood that put her career under some sort of limitation. She used to sleep in, laze around, and luxuriate for long periods of time. However, this year she seems to have pulled herself together and gotten to work, and she's doing it with new determination and intensity. She's still early in her career, so I can suppose she's 20–23 years old. She tends to blow up and create herself a new image, and the fact that she's versatile enough to do that will help her thrive. Now (before too, I think) she is staring in something thriller-like with a lot of action, and she likes this genre so much. I got reminded of Sunghoon's acting in the UNTOLD Concept Cinema and his gun scene, and with that, I mean that she's having similar roles where she's the mean girl that has bad blood with the antagonist. And she fits in SO GOOD, her acting agenda is 🤌... Investigation drama? Yes. Something post-apocalyptic? Yes. Detective? Mhm! She also has experience playing in romance/teen romance movies/television series, so again, she must be extremely driven to stare in as many movies this year and get that bag in.

The worst thing you can do to her is accuse miss twin flame of bad intentions. Displaying behavior that makes her think you don't appreciate her runs a close second! She might become mighty hurt and pouty when others (especially her lover, so take notes Sunghoon ✍️) don't see her for the noble intentions she has.

And something I wanted to point out! In my Could Sunghoon date a foreigner post, the anon mentioned that they see Sunghoon as a Korean guy with traditional views on life, and as I said, he's not that traditional, at least in comparison to THIS young lady who has fixed views and may also appear conservative. She'll hold on to situations and people for a very long time before giving up completely, while Sunghoon is more of a "Meh, I'm done with A, B, and C... with all of them!"

And just as I thought, she's both idealistic and perfectionist, just like Sunghoon! She has a very noble inner code that she answers to. Although she appears rather confident on the surface, she can also be humble. She is the first to blame herself when something goes wrong. Once again, it's her self-importance at work, and this characteristic works in unexpected ways. Instead of being the conceited, self-absorbed show-offs of reputation, she can be very self-aware, self-conscious, and, yes, even humble.

ᡕᠵ᠊ᡃ࡚ࠢ࠘ ⸝່ࠡࠣ᠊߯᠆ࠣ࠘ᡁࠣ࠘᠊᠊ࠢ࠘𐡏~♡ So that's what we have so far...

Positive traits: She is masterful, brave, and competitive; she likes authority; and she aspires toward an ideal. She likes to give advice. She is honest, frank, loyal, open, and sincere. Possible issues: pride, vanity, arrogance, presumption, and disdain for others.

And from the Sun we go to the Moon... ☾𖤓

The Fool, The Knight of Wands, The Wheel of Fortune, The Page of Swords, 8 of Wands, Temperance, 3 of Cups, 7 of Swords

Sunghoon's ☾ is in Aquarius, and since they're quite similar, I can presume that it's the same thing for her, but I'm more inclined towards her being a Sagittarius ☾. ☾ Sagittarians, just like ☾ Aquarians, need personal freedom and space. She is extraordinarily happy and easygoing, as long as she doesn't feel caged in or cooped up. Also, Sagittarians have a simultaneous need for activity. Meeting new people, going out in the world, or traveling are all important to their well-being. She loves open spaces and, in her house, a roomy and bright environment. Eh, this girlie 😭 She easily forgets appointments or veers from her schedules, a bit irresponsible, hehe~ However, it is hard to stay angry at her for that! She is just too cheerful and upbeat while working with the crew, and her optimism is catchy. So outdoorsy! At the very least, she has a great love for friendly competition. When she gets tough, she gets moving. She doesn't like to be caught up in routine for too long, and she needs frequent escapes. She's such a dreamer as well <3 There's a blind faith that is admirable; she believes that everything will ultimately work out. She is not much for making detailed plans; she prefers to wing it and deal with whatever comes her way when it comes. She's very adaptable and generally on the go.

ᡕᠵ᠊ᡃ࡚ࠢ࠘ ⸝່ࠡࠣ᠊߯᠆ࠣ࠘ᡁࠣ࠘᠊᠊ࠢ࠘𐡏~♡ So what do we have now...

Positive traits: May like to throw herself into the unknown and into adventure; she is agile, tough, and enthusiastic. Attracted to long trips or discovering the unknown, she has a need for escape or flight and room for spontaneity. Possible issues: May take great risks by throwing herself into the unknown. Audacious, bold, and rebellious. Unable to stay in one place, she was always ready to risk everything to achieve her goal.

PERSONAL STYLE ! >.<

1. Vibrant maxi dress with bold patterns, statement earrings, comfortable sandals.

2. Tailored bright-colored blazer, casual tee, distressed jeans, standout necklace.

3. Jumpsuit, bangles, stylish yet comfortable shoes.

[ 𖹭 approximative representation ↗ and face card ⁀➴ˎˊ˗ ]

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Random Head cannons 2 🌼🥀

Characters: Savanaclaw + Octavinelle

CW: Mentions of first years, Leona accidentally commits arson, Ruggie is a klepto, platonic bromances with first years, little bit of violence in ruggie's, mentions of ED and body hcs in Azuls, mentions of slight nudity in Floyd's.

A/N: These two dorms are relatively small so I combined both into one post. Scarabia and Pomefiore will be condensed into one post as well.

Likes and reblogs are deeply appreciated <3 hope you enjoy!

Leona

MY MAN <3 me and Leona are married Crewel officiated our marriage. (I literally don't know what headcannons to give this man HELP)

I like to think because he is a prince all the staff did everything for him so him changing to NRC and not having any retainers I can imagine he tried cooking once and almost set the dorm on fire.

He had to adjust to doing normal things himself since they were always done for him so I can imagine he STRUGGLED when Ruggie wasn't there (Unless he paid someone to do laundry for him before Ruggie than idk)

Off topic but I saw this one post and it was like "It's okay to commit murder but never okay to hit your wife." yeah that's Leona.

He'd hype his wife up in a fight and when asked he'd be like "I was taking a nap"

(How do you fall asleep in 3 seconds sir teach me your ways it takes me hours to fall asleep)

He can also get high on catnip btw

Ruggie

My favorite klepto freeloader

I can imagine first year Ruggie stealing from a particularly rich person and he goofed up badly Leona stepped in and beat them up and was like Bruh how do you fuck that up I am not helping you the next time you fail.

So *sips tea* even Ruggie has said himself his jaw is strong enough to where he can bite through bone and he can eat the bones too. Ruggie is a little terrifying because is Jaw is insanely strong (Stronger than jack and Leona's combined) so Ruggie could bite someone out of defense to break their arm and his jaw would survive. I think he figured this out once because he had to defend himself either because he got into a fight or someone attacked him and he bite them breaking their bone nearly ripping their arm off.

Between Floyd and Ruggie I'd rather not get bit by either :skull:

Jack

I can imagine first years as a bonding activity go to the gym together from an admiration point Jacks body build is really nice he's a buff guy and he's proud of it so I can imagine he gives tips to the others especially Epel and Deuce.

I also can imagine Ace trying to do a push up or a rep competition (He's not winning). Jack and Sebek end up winning.

Weird head cannon but I can imagine locker room talk between the first years is them admiring Jacks body build in a platonic bro way if anyone else does it Ace is running his mouth on them :skull: "Damn jack you seem to be getter buffer every day" Jack shows no emotion on his face but he's secretly happy to be receiving the compliments

Azul

I like to think he still has a bit of a tummy. It is implied that he has have an ED due to being bullied and an ED is something really sad to think about as much as I don't want to admit it I believe he may have one :(

His parents are divorced and I think he considers his step dad his "real dad". Now I don't know if he gets visitation, but basically in his mind he already replaced his deadbeat dad (I named him Liam because of a tik tok)

Ursula Canonically has a younger sister named Morgana so with this logic I want to say Azul as a half-brother who is an Affair baby. (I say half because biologically if you share a same mother you are technically full, but because Liam is his bio dad and he had another son it's half) and because of Morgana's character I think Azul wants to get to know his brother however I think his brother despises him and refuses too. New oc coming up.

Jade

Moray Eels have shitty vision so Jade wears glasses at night but contacts in the day. Floyd has glasses but chooses not to wear them Jade most likely tries to convince him to wear contacts 50% of the time he doesn't.

My favorite head cannon about Pookie Jade is he grows poisonous flowers and Poisonous flowers are one of my favorite interests. He likes to grow Oleander, Belladonna (Deadly Nightshade), and Azaelea. I feel like if he had a better greenhouse he can grow poisonous shrooms as well. (NOW I'm not saying he kills people, but Mafia theory people)

Floyd

Whenever Octo trio go swimming in a public place or at a beach, lake, etc. Floyd accidentally flashes people and almosst got charged with Public indecency many times so he's been banned from swimming in public.

Shrimps and Moray's have symbiotic relationship so I can imagine if he takes a liking to someone and names them his Shrimpy I bet he'd get real happy if they groomed him via brushing his hair, cleaning him up, etc. He'd give them food and would be their protecter by default in short he'd be down bad.

I wouldn't be surprised if he has ended up in Juvie before and probably has but got bailed out.