#Callie rambles

[cryptid-catnip]

my favorite part of Worm was when Taylor Worm said "it's worming time" and then murdered a toddler

[callie-flower]

"phoenix is bisexual" you can't even handle his top 2 popular m/f ships

[the-better-caladriusss]

what nobody tells u about autism is that you’ll forever be fighting a reverse psychology debate with yourself about whether eating food everyday is your own idea or not just so it’ll let you eat and survive another day ��😭

[calliecosmos]

I usually don't do actual text posts on this website but I have to talk about how fucking funny Vecna being a new crossover killer in Dead By Daylight is.

[badnoahmens]

I’ve been feeling a few things lately, so I want to go on a bit of a rant of sorts. Don’t waste your time reading it, I just need to get thoughts out of my head.

I’ve been struggling with this feeling of guilt of always wanting to put out content on this site. I love writing, I love seeing over people enjoy it, but now it feels like I’ve been doing a really shitty job if it.

Work has been so busy, school is finally done so I finally have time to myself but I’m finding it difficult to be inspired.

I have been enjoying my I Took Your Keys fic, and think that Part 1 is my favourite piece of writing I’ve done in a long time, but the series has felt so lacklustre and boring, and I have no end in sight for it. I’m literally making it up as I go along and I really think that it is obvious that it hasn’t been planned and thought out, so for that, I apologise.

Because life has been so much lately - I just had another phone call the other day saying a fourth family member has passed away in six months now - that I’ve been considering giving up writing fan fic on this site. It’s a lovely escape, but the realities of life keep catching up to me and I find it harder and harder to escape into my little fantasies.

I would love to one day get to all the requests in my asks, but it just is becoming a chore. I feel like my writing is getting worse, getting more sloppy with the details, and I really don’t want to put out shitty, rushed pieces that I’m not proud of - which is what everything lately has felt like.

All of this, teamed up with the controversies of Noah changing his Spotify username to something that says he doesn’t want people to use him as an escape (or whatever) makes me feel even more guilty - like I am perpetuating the exact thing he doesn’t want. I don’t want to be the reason why someone needs to say something (that being said, I mean this only for myself - not anyone else. Please don’t take it that way.)

Anyway, I’m just yelling into the void here. I’m sorry if you read my rambles and wasted your time.

I’m just feeling a bit yuck at the moment.

[cryptid-catnip]

God, that second one. I felt that on a visceral level. The feeling of gender dysphoria, a clawing emptiness in your soul, the feeling that the body you inhabit is not yours, the feelings of dread associated with growing up a man

Fuck.

I love when trans people look back on their earlier art, its always so interesting

[knightcallie]

the way i await for my queue to happen like an evil littol guy... bg3 brainworms be upon ye soon...

[coctoweaponry]

might post about kinky gay nrmt sex here idk. i suddenly got in a Mood today

[cryptid-catnip]

A part of Mouthwashing I feel like people don't talk about enough is how the situation Curly is in perfectly illustrates the horror of what it's like to be disabled.

He is unable to say what he wants to happen, is essentially a non-entity for most of the story, and is completely at the mercy of the rest of the crew.

As someone who is technically disabled (I'm neurodivergent), I can relate to that, and the feeling of being dragged around and having all the decisions in my life made for me, specifically as a child, because as other neurodivergent people know, the system did not much care for what younger people want.

[callie-flower]

ykw what's really annoying though. is when you talk about top/bottom or dom/sub dynamics with nrmt and you bring up bottom phoenix + every single time without fail it turns into a debate of who's top or bottom, people agree that they're vers, but then inevitably start talking about bottom edgeworth like. i promise you talking abt bottom phoenix isn't going to bite you. like no you don't really think of them as vers, and it's a little weird bc this same group would also bring up the whole fem bottom/masc top discourse back then in the past.... and yet they're repeating it here. but like. w/e i guess. not that big of a deal it just bothers me a little as someone who likes bottom phoenix

[the-better-caladriusss]

yall ever think that in a sans-less (sans-sans) world flowey woulda become the tumblr sexyman instead

[lesbianjackies]

“callie shipman” “callie taylor” “callie taylor-shipman” well no actually because the tragedy of callie sadecki is that she is not a taylor, and she is not a shipman, and she will never be either. she will always live in the shadow of a girl she never met and a baby she never knew, she will always be a reminder to her mother of the things she lost and the mistakes she made and the life she’ll never get to have.

her name is callie sadecki. because no matter how hard she tries, she will never be anything more to shauna than the unwanted child of a man she never loved.

[cryptid-catnip]

I mean speaking as a trans girl who is also a Problematic Kink Haver and a sexual abuse survivor, i only really developed a cnc thing after I was raped, and use it as a vector to work through my trauma. I'm also willing to bet that the overwhelming majority of people with a cnc thing also came to it through those same circumstances, also considering that trans people are the most likely to be the victims of rape or sexual assault.

one of the core tenets of transmisogyny is that trans women are ontologically incapable of being raped or sexually abused. once you notice this it is really sickening to see how starkly obvious it is that even the most 'fuck terfs!' cryptotransmisogynists believe this unquestioningly

[dr-spectre]

The autism representation in Splatoon needs to be studied and celebrated because oh my god it's actually really damn good and some of the best in media, especially compared to how its usually portrayed in popular media....

As someone who is on the spectrum and has been diagnosed, it's really comforting to know that one of my favorite game series has such positive depictions of autism and isn't just stereotypical depictions we commonly see in media.

Autism in most media is either portrayed as white nerdy dudes who are cold robots that have super intelligence, can understand alien languages and see the world like they are a fucking Lego master builder or some shit and see blueprints in the sky like in The Good Doctor or The Big Bang Theory with Sheldon. Or it's portrayed as people who are incredibly disabled, cannot communicate and have constant tantrums as seen with the dogshit movie Music (2021). Literally the depiction of autism in that movie is actually fucking dangerous as it shows a person pushing an autistic person who is having a meltdown onto the ground and RESTRICTING THEM! WHICH IS VERY VERY VERY BAD! DO NOT DO THIS!!!! PLEASE!!!!!!!! AUTISTIC PEOPLE HAVE DIED BECAUSE OF THIS!!!!!!!!

Now I'm not saying that these types of autistic people don't exist, remember, it's a spectrum so there's a ton of variety in people who have autism, some people have really high intelligence, some have low social skills and need help, some can talk for hours and hours to anyone, some need serious help to function day to day living and thats perfectly fine. however the type i listed of the super cold robotic genuis is just the really popular stereotype which impacts the perception of autistic people just trying to live and enjoy life like everyone else. Some autistic people are just in the middle and aren't on any of the extremes. There are tons of people who fall into the "low needs" and "high needs" sides of autism of course, however there isn't exactly a ton of representation for people in the middle and sometimes those popular representations of autism can damage the entire perception of the spectrum. And there still isn't a lot of fair representation of "high needs" autistic people in media and that needs to change as well.

Thankfully Splatoon doesn't go for any damaging stereotypes but instead goes for something a little more positive. I think the best examples of this are Marina, Marie and Harmony. While they haven't been canonically confirmed as being on the autism spectrum, they are heavily hinted that they are and show some evidence that supports it.

Harmony for instance is just.... a regular autistic girl, she isn't some incredibly smart girl, no, she's just a regular girl who speaks in a blunt and neutral way but that's about it. As someone who is autistic i can relate somewhat to how she speaks, in real life i tend to just say a few words when talking to someone and i don't really sound energetic or loud about it. i just go "Hey. Hi. Alright. Okay. Oh ok. Uh. I'm good." Some autistic people normally do not speak like they are the nerd emoji and sound hyper smart like Sheldon from Big Bang Theory, and they are not able to speak entirely. That's not what ALL autistic people sound like. There's a decent chunk of them that just speak regularly or speak a little quietly and thats okay. Harmony captures the speech of what a fair portion of autistic people talk like, but not every single autistic person of course. There is a large chunk of autistic people who need support when it comes to communication, and that's perfectly okay. They are just valid as human beings as the ones who can speak.

She also has an interest in music as she is the singer of Chirpy Chips and is seen stimming and fidgeting with an Ultra Hand. Autistic people usually fidget and stim to calm themselves down and keep their emotions in check, maybe Harmony plays with the Ultra Hand because it helps her stay calm when running Hotlantis.

Now it's time to talk about the most popular example of autistic representation in Splatoon. Marina.

She is quite shy when you zoom in on her in Splatoon 2 when you play as an Inkling, but is known to ramble about machinery and excavators to Pearl and Acht for hours at a time. Technology and machinery seem to be a special interest for her as shown with her creating the Shifty Stations for Splatfests, having hacking abilities and building the Memverse. She gets so much energy and excitement from working on the Memverse as shown by her dialogue in the Dev Diaries. However she is not a flawless super genius like in most depictions of autistic characters, she is known to have uncontrollable emotional outbursts, when Pearl even suggests the idea of Off the Hook breaking up she becomes extremely devastated and thinks of the worst case scenario in her dialogue from the Chaos vs Order Splatfest. She sometimes can't control her anger and snaps at Pearl after losing multiple times in a row in Splatfests.

She also has issues with proper work life balance as she overworks herself with working on the Memverse alongside going on a world tour with Pearl, she vents abouts this in her 10th Dev Diary in Side Order. And speaking of order, she chose team order because she wanted to maintain the balance in her life that she has found. A lot of autistic people have strict routines and any changes to that routine will cause them to get really distressed. If someone comes into my space and says "hey we're going out in 10 minutes." I'm gonna get pissed off and be in a terrible mood as my routine has been disrupted and i wanna do something else. Routines give autistic people a lot of comfort and predictability.

Marina's deepest flaw she kept hidden was the desire of a perfect world of order where nothing can change because she's so scared of her new life being destroyed, but she learns to overcome this fear of change with the help of Pearl by the end of Side Order which may inspire autistic people to learn to be more okay with change, even if its very hard.

Marina is also seen wearing her headphones quite often and rarely takes them off which may indicate she might have sensory issues. Some autistic people may suffer with sensory issues and need to wear headphones or certain pieces of clothing to stay calm and keep their emotions from becoming too much. I tend to wear headphones often because i hate my ears being exposed and I'm very sensitive to certain noises.

She also may have another special interest which may be the Squid Sisters as she litters her laptop and keytar with Squid Sister stickers. Marina also talks in a very excited tone when you get Marie's and Callie's palettes in Side Order. She also acts very giddy and excited during live performances with them and starts stimming which is shown by her moving around in place and clamping her hands together.

Another character who you might not think is autistic right away but shows signs of it is Marie. And to be honest i find her to be very relatable.

Marie is known to be more quiet than her cousin and she acted like this since she was a child. Marie also seems to struggle with social situations and struggles to talk with Agent 4 and Neo Agent 3 and wishes they can just leave her alone when you keep talking to her. However she seems to be a lot more comfortable talking with people she trusts and loves like her cousin Callie. She also makes quite snarky and sometimes rude comments but that doesn't mean she's a rude person, she just likes being cheeky and truly cares about the people around her. She even self loathes and worries about her cousin to an unhealthy degree.

A lot of people tend to say that autistic people have low empathy when in reality some autistic people are far from the case. Some autistic people might be TOO empathetic but they cannot show it because it's just so much for them that they can't properly express it. Marie may appear as rude and non caring but she's genuinely a very caring and emotional person but she doesn't know how to show it due to not having developed communication skills compared to neurotypical people. A fair amount of autistic people are not shy people that don't care about you, they just have a different way of speech and communication. 2 autistic people can talk vastly different from each other. It is a spectrum after all. There are some who may have low empathy, but they are not psychopaths who don't care about human life. It's really, really weird to think that and kind of damaging to see autistic people in that kind of light.

Marie is also known to be a picky eater and despises vegetables, refuses to eat the ends of bread loafs, hates tomatoes and pineapple on pizza. (she's literally me holy shit...) some autistic people can have sensory issues when it comes to certain textures and smells and vegetables usually have a weird texture compared to meats and other food groups. They can be seen as "picky eaters" that don't wanna try anything but, some autistic people genuinely cannot eat certain foods and may get sick in the stomach if they see that food and would rather eat anything else. You cannot get me to eat carrots, like I'm sorry but that's not happening buddy. I don't care if they are baked or boiled, i refuse to put that shit in my mouth.

She was also on team order like Marina as she likes to keep things nice and tidy like with most autistic people. Not all but most.

A little tidbit i wanna add as well is that since Splatoon 2, Marie has been seen holding an parasol and for seemingly no reason. Some may say she holds it to seem more professional, however i think she has it around because she likes to hold it in her hands and use it to fidget with, much like Harmony with the Ultra Hand. You can see her spin it around when you stay around her for a little bit in Splatoon 3's story mode. Although I might be looking too deeply into this but i think it might be a cute little detail.

I find it really fantastic that Splatoon not only has good representations of autism, but it's also pretty diverse and shows different elements of the spectrum. Not every single aspect of the spectrum as there isn't an example of a high needs autistic character in Splatoon that I can think of unfortunately, but if you can think of a character who may be in the high needs category of the spectrum then let me know, however we got a pale skinny sea anemone who runs a general store and uses an Ultra Hand to fidget with, a tall black woman who's extremely passionate about machinery and technology, and a Japanese squid woman who would rather eat a Splattershot than a tomato. (Callie and Marie are based off of Japanese culture, look at their clothing and styles of music. If they were humans they would not be white women, sorry to break it to you bud.)

Before this ends i wanna say, if you disagree with me then that's fine. I get it. They aren't canonically confirmed to be on the autism spectrum and a lot of this is just speculation and observation. However don't be a fucking dick about it okay? Don't say that i don't know anything about autism and that I'm crazy and dumb. Don't do that shit. Seriously. I am allowed to look deeper into these characters and find relatability and comfort in them. Don't try to make me feel like a freak for this.

Anyways if i did get something wrong about autism let me know in a fair and polite way. I am human and I'm gonna make mistakes, but don't be a dickhead about it, k? Good. Have a goodnight or good day wherever you live.

[qcomicsy]

I will always be a normal guy defender, I don't want vigilantes who always look like super models unless it makes sense for their characters (Bruce Wayne, Dick Grayson, Kori Anders). I want super-heros that look like the guy you could stumble on the supermarket. Your classmate. Your coworker. A random face in a ocean of people. Absolutely and completely forgetful unless you love them.

I want super-heros to take of their mask and the person be like "THAT'S JUST SOME GUY." their face leak and people be like "WHO 🗣️🗣️ THE FUCK IS THAT⁉️‼️‼️‼️🔥🔥" enough with conventionally attractive heros who look like bodybuilders more some heros who would be your Uber driver and you wouldn't pay attention to them twice.

[candycoatedrox]

i love how for a series with an almost completely non-male cast of characters splatoon feels so chill about gender presentation

callie is "the pink one" with long hair and an upbeat but sweet personality yet she wears shorts and pants almost all the time. pearl is loud and opinionated and aggressive but she wears dresses and her signature color is pink, and that's chill. marina is the more "traditionally feminine" one and she's kind and sweet and soft, but she's a genius who accelerated through school and she's an engineer who works with machines and builds weapons, and she wears shorts and pants and a pantsuit, and that's just who she is. shiver... whatever shiver has going on. even ignoring the pronoun confusion surrounding deep cut's reveal, i definitely agree that they just have. something androgynous going on with them, even though they seem very feminine-presenting. even fem eight, they have a crop top and a miniskirt and heels in octo expansion, but they also get to wear a jumpsuit in side order, along with of course rocking the single earring, which even masc eight gets to keep. and of course, acht - even though they're "the non-binary character", they still wear a dress! they still have earrings! they still have long hair! they don't have to be masculine to be non-binary - they still get to present traditionally feminine, and it doesn't cancel out their identity at all!

man. i love this game and this series so much. no wonder it attracts such a queer fandom lol