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[dandyshucks]

posting here bc theres less ppl following me on this blog compared to main FDJSKL but it is thundering (and therefore lightning is striking as well) currently and we've been in an intense heatwave and there's evac alerts and orders all around the area and i've just kind of been like 🧍‍♂️ for the past couple weeks trying to be chill about it bc this is the fourth or fifth year in a row of this so i am somewhat used to it but also aough :( also now i have an expensive drawing tablet that i would not be able to buy a new one of so i am trying to figure out if i should include it in my grab-n-go evac bag... its so big though and would take up so much room but RRRGHHH I DUNNO i hate these sorts of decisions 😭😭😭

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[sheikfangirl]

Just wanted to ask, did you see the new Zelda Lego set? What do you think of the BOTW Zelda/Link minifigures?

Hey it's a nice coincidence you are asking @nintendofan4ever, I was actually on my way to make a post about the Lego set 😂

Something to know about me in real life: I am a Lego enthusiast, and I do have a decent collection. (That's a couple of my models, but my 8yo son's collection is bigger) 🤭

Yup! I saw the Deku Tree Lego set alright! I fact, I was happy to finally see pictures without watermarks because the set actually leaked online last year and Lego groups were talking a lot about it.

The mini figs? They are GLORIOUS!! Gotta love Lego Zelink my friend! Their hair, accessories....The little Sheikah slate, the Shields. My only nitpick is their hand color. I think they should be colored like their gloves. I might switch them if i actually buy the set. Yeah...i dont know if i'll get it. I expected the retail price to be expensive but 400$ CAD?! It's insane for the amount of pieces...the majority of them being leaves. I got enough Lego xp to know this set will be quick to build... Also, since the set leaked last year, i have kept ALL my Lego VIP reward points for THIS SET. I got freakin 10 000++ points and it is still overpriced. But i waaaant iiiiiiitttttt! It's really a fight between my heart and my reason, i don't know who will win yet.

...but one of the reason i want the Deku Tree Set is that its also a set from my upcoming 18 pages Zelink comic: "The Message", a title that is absolutely not spoiling the plot, right? 😂

I now have an official deadline to release it publicly. I have to beat the Lego set hahaha. I will want to see stop motion versions of my damn comic!

Here is another teaser, just for fun! It's ugly rough sketches time!

Cheers!

[eemoo1o-animoo]

10 Grelle-based paraphernalia that I found on eBay, in no particular order but my subjective deeming of relevance or importance

Possibly part one of a series? Perhaps?

If so, then I probably won’t contain it to only eBay, and I’m going off of what comes up for someone who’s based in the UK, so maybe there’s more or less stuff available if you’re in other countries due to shipping limitations, etc.? But eBay at the moment is my main source, and I’m only doing this — work that anyone can do, nothing exceptionally thorough or insightful — because I’m just a little bored, and I know Grelle is the most valued in the fandom and TSOGTR hasn’t been writing itself for the past year and a quarter, so why would it start now?

This is written at 3AM-6AM on 29/8/2024, so if this is found long after this date then there’s a chance my sources have already been bought out or deleted for whatever reason.

1.

Grell Sutcliff Funko Pop 18 Kuroshitsuji Black Butler POP! Vinyl Anime Figure

At the time of writing this, there are no bids for this and so the price remains at £21.99 (item and shipping). The current bid is due to end on ≈1/9/2024. Wait for the last second to bid one pence higher than the asking price and you’re golden.

I actually have one of these, but it was gifted to me, and so I don’t know how much mine was sold for, but seeing as the four Black Butler Funko Pops have been vaulted and are sold for way higher in other places online, I think this is a pretty good deal.

(Fun fact, the person who gifted her to me as well as tracked down other cheap listings for the other three called her Greta. Consistently. So. Greta. Greta Sutcliff.)

As we can see from the item’s pictures, the figure has been taken out of its box, at the very least just to be show-cased or inspected, but it does appear to come with the box. Here is a listing on Amazon (9.99 GBP, excluding shipping) for 10 Funko Pop display sleeves that should match the item’s measurements.

The current conversions for this item’s price (18.99 GBP) are as follow:

25.06 USD

36.91 AUD

33.77 CAD

22.52 Euro

2,103.26 INR

855,31 Turkish Lira

39.92 NZD

3,623.33 Yen

Obviously I’m not including every conversion in here, only the most obvious/prevalent. If your country’s currency isn’t here, then my apologies, and feel free to bring it to my attention (with currency named) so that I may add it to any future episodes to this possible series, or to edit this post back with the conversions of that time.

2.

Black Butler PVC Keychain Grell

The description of this listing says that this is officially licensed and from one reverse image search to find a bunch of listings across several websites for it, I’m inclined to believe that this is actually an official piece of merch and not a fan-made item that is being resold as I had originally thought it to be. (Wow, I’m such a knowledgable Black Butler fan. I know, I know.)

There’s not much to say on this other than the fact that it’s cute and I think a few pence has been shaved off from the original selling price, though I’m not too sure. I imagine it would have easily gone for 8.99 GBP, but again I’m not too sure; it’s 3AM after all and this isn’t a serious project for me.

The current conversions go as followed:

11.87 USD

17.47 AUD

15.99 CAD

10.66 Euro

996.15 INR

405,49 Turkish Lira

18.90 NZD

1,715.62 Yen

3.

Grelle Black Butler manga plushie Anime Soft Toy

It’s not the best price, I admit. If you’re looking for something cheaper then maybe go for the 5" plush, and there’s another listing on AnimeWare, but once tax and shipping get evolved it ends up being more or less the same price, anyway.

I think this is under the same line as Plushlois comes from, and to that I say: if someone buys her, will that come back? Will Grelle’s face be remade by @fancymeatcomputers, as @nullbutler’s Plushlois once had?

Anyway, she’s super cute. Her hair is a bit too saturated, but that’s not much to lament over, and she’s pricey, but is still far less expensive than any available Plushlois listing I could find (£52!! Usually!!).

Here are the current conversions:

39.61 USD

58.30 AUD

53.35 CAD

35.58 Euro

3,323.16 INR

1,351.58 Turkish Lira

63.01 NZD

5,727.47 Yen

4.

Black Butler Kuroshitsuji Grell Undertaker Anime two sided Pillow Case Cover 250

I’d originally listed another pillow for listing number four, which goes for the same price, but decided not to as Grelle is more prominent on this one.

Not much to say about this other than as far as I can tell it’s just the pillowcase and not a case and a pillow, but if you want to add a lil extra something to your Grelle shrine or limit your chances of finding a normie partner by having this as the centrepiece to your 20-something pillow statement on your romantic four-post bed.

Here are the current conversions:

7.91 USD

11.64 AUD

10.65 CAD

7.10 Euro

663.67 INR

269.94 Turkish Lira

12.58 NZD

1,143.54 Yen

5.

Black butler Grell Sutcliffe figure Kuroshitsuji SEGA PVC Scale Anime s01

Another shambolic price, I know. But out of all the non-Funko Pop Grelle figures listed, this is definitely the cheapest.

Out of all of the non-Funko Pop Black Butler figures, it’s far from it. I think the cheapest figures went to Ciel and Sebastian, but with a massive gap between the cheapest Ciel figure versus the cheapest Sebastian figure (there’s a lot of listings for this particular figure, all with free shipping and of similar prices). There’s also a listing that sells Sebastian and Grelle together with free postage, which would value each figure as far less than what this one figure is being sold for.

The current conversions (of 130.22 GBP) go as follows:

172.00 USD

252.73 AUD

231.50 CAD

154.48 Euro

14,430.37 INR

5,874.98 Turkish Lira

273.31 NZD

24,865.90 Yen

6.

Black Butler Grell Sutcliff Cosplay Costume Red Death Men Full Set Outfits New

I’m not much of cosplayer or a cosplay fan, but from the few full cosplays I found that range from £40-50, this seems like a good price.

There’s also a good few listings for Grelle-style shoes? The cheapest of which would be here. And both the shoes and the clothing come in men’s sizes, so it’s a match if you ask me.

The current conversions of the cosplay’s price are:

23.76 USD

34.92 AUD

31.98 CAD

21.34 Euro

1,993.77 INR

811.52 Turkish Lira

37.76 NZD

3,435.09 Yen

7.

Kuroshitsuji Black Butler Madam Red Angelina Dalles Anime Figurine - Play Arts

Look. I know this isn’t a Grelle figure, but I assume that most if not all Grelle fans are also Madame Red fans. And you have to admit that this is a damn good price for a figure of this type. In fact, I’d say this figure is the second cheapest, right behind the aforementioned Ciel figure.

Also the seller has the username “welsh lady”. Surely it’d basically be treason if I didn’t promote it.

The conversions of the item price (6.99 GBP) go as follows:

9.23 USD

13.57 AUD

12.43 CAD

8.29 Euro

774.85 INR

315.29 Turkish Lira

14.68 NZD

1,336.09 Yen

8.

USED Dolk Black Butler Book of Circus Grell Sutcliff Cast Doll 700mm Japan RARE

This is a fucking awful price. It hurts just to imagine buying this. However, it seems like a rare or custom-made doll, in a fancy box, and it was the only listing I could find of it, meaning it’s not a re-sell.

There’s not much to say — as you can see I ranked it pretty low on the relevancy scale, but I don’t know: maybe someone’s into this sort of thing, especially if it comes to Grelle.

The item prices are converted as follows:

2,805.52 USD

4,123.16 AUD

3,776.66 CAD

2,519.24 Euro

235,385.31 INR

95,779.75 Turkish Lira

4,458.47 NZD

405,826.75 Yen

9.

1 x playing card Black Butler Anime Sebastian Michaelis - Jack of Hearts ZT 85

For one playing card, to me this price seems ghastly. There’s also a Sebastian variant for the exact same price, but that’s all I can find in this style. The other listings for Black Butler playing cards aren’t in this style, coming wholly in colour with patterned frames. As far as I can see, on eBay there are only two listings for this type of playing card, and I’ve already linked them both to this post.

The current conversions of the item price (2.49 GBP) are:

3.29 USD

4.83 AUD

4.43 CAD

2.95 Euro

276.04 INR

112,34 Turkish Lira

5.23 NZD

476.23 Yen

10.

Black Butler Ceramic Mug Grell, Sebastian

There’s a more expensive mug with just Grelle on it that I’d contemplated listing here instead. (And, hey! From Germany, too. The TSOGTR imagery just won’t quit.) But this one is cheaper.

Besides, enough scrubbing with some iron wool will get rid of that ugly demon mug (no pun intended) in no time, surely!

The current conversions go as follows:

19.62 USD

28.84 AUD

26.41 CAD

17.62 Euro

1,646.22 INR

669,76 Turkish Lira

31.17 NZD

2,841.32 Yen

[choshasan]

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Like... why do you make it so fucking hard to buy stuff outside of your country?? I get it if it's like.. more niche merch like underground artists and stuff, they often won't really find an audiance outside of their homecountry, but like... when something is super popular globaly.. idk, maybe?? Try and sell some outside of the country???

This is absolutely NOOOOT a post directly directed at Hoyoverse and making it's merch fucking impossible to find online and me being really mad because I cannot for the life of me find how and where to buy the new HSR perfumes, specifically Aventurine's....... noooooo....... ahem....

But I often do face tgis issue with japanese and korean stuff, like.. trynna buy kpop albums is a hell, I always have to go through resellers on amazon and such,

If it's an older album, I just cannot get it at all, and lightsticks, other than BTS's they're impossible to find...

And like.. gods have I cried over not being able to find and order japanese merch..

I'm always glad when that worldshopping pop up comes up, cuz like, while it's gonna be 50$-75$ CAD more on my order, at least I'm getting my shit shipped...

But like fuck... espetially blue period.. it has such a big audiance outside of japan, yet, the collab merch is so hard to get.. I wasn't able to get shit from Burberry collab, converse collab nor the perfumes they released, and I wanted Hashida's so much.. :/

And figurines are the fucking worse..

It's always like do not order fakes!! They're made illegally!!

*proceeds to give zero ways to get them outside of japan* ... bruh.

Anyway.. I'm mad cuz after 7 years, I finished my Shawn Mendes perfume, and the two I've wanted (blue period & HSR) have both not had ways to be ordered outside of their homecountries... and if I wanted to rebuy my shawn mendes perfume, it was the 1st one when it released, so it'd be 150$ at least... so damn annoying... and me is frugal ✨️

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[crabsnpersimmons]

Hello there!

I'd like to know your advice on drawing tablets?

As in, what do you use for your digital art? Is there any you suggest?

I'm planning on getting one, but there are so many options, and I'd like to know your opinion and preference.

Thank you ^^

hi anon! thanks for the question!

i draw with a samsung galaxy tab s7!

BUT if this is your first time drawing digitally, then it's a good idea to test out if you like it with cheaper options first (so you don't drop a whole lot of money on a hobby/medium of art you don't enjoy)

some suggestions:

if you have a smart phone, try drawing with your finger using free to use drawing apps like ibispaint X or HiPaint (i recommend HiPaint cuz the UI is a lot simpler and less overwhelming, but both have a good selection of tools. i wanna say ibispaint has better text tools tho and there's A LOT more tutorials and resources online) drawing digitally with your finger is different from drawing digitally with a pen AND drawing traditionally, but this is a good way to familiarize yourself with digital art tools. a very simple entry point if you already have a smart phone.

if you don't want to draw with your finger (understandable, i personally couldn't stand it) you can try simple drawing tablets, which are the tablets that you plug into your computer/laptop, come with a pen, but they don't have a screen you draw directly on. they're actually a lot more affordable nowadays (i saw some for under $50 CAD, which is WILD), so that’s a good starting option if you want to draw with a pen. with a pen, you have more control with line weights than you do with your finger, but it takes practice to get used to. it also takes some getting use to drawing on a tablet and looking at your monitor, but this is where i started haha. i still have my old bamboo wacom create drawing tablet. but nowadays, other brands like xp-pen and huion are very comparable to wacom, so definitely consider getting a cheaper one to try out first. of course, if you go with a drawing tablet, you'll need an art program on your computer. i've used photoshop and clip studio paint and they're very good, but probably overwhelming for people who are new to digital art (they are loaded with tools and you have to really familiarize yourself with the menus and everything). there are probably simpler options available... but i'm not as familiar with them. oh wait, i think there are some drawing tablets that can also connect with your smart phone too nowadays. man, that's so cool. that's probably a better option instead of purchasing photoshop or clip studio paint right off the bat.

if you REALLY want a screen display experience, try a cheaper general tablet. iPads are a popular option if you're comfortable with the Apple ecosystem (i'm not 😅) but they can be pricey PLUS you have to buy the Apple pen separately. for Android, I'm pretty sure even the Samsung Galaxy Tab S6 is a solid choice and it comes with a pen unlike an iPad. the SPen is built with Wacom tech, so you know it's quality. and while iPad has Procreate, HiPaint is available for Android and it's basically a Procreate clone (i explain more about HiPaint here) otherwise, ibisPaint X is also good and infinite painter is probably the most sophisticated free to use drawing app i've encountered (sophisticated as in it does a pretty good job at imitating traditional media in their brushes. it's cool, but the free version is very limited).

also if you like watching videos, Brad Colbow and Teoh on Tech on YouTube are great resources. they specifically review tech from an artist's perspective.

why i suggest testing it out is because if you're used to drawing traditionally, then switching to digital is a different experience. some artists can't get used to drawing digitally, and that's fine. that's why it's a good idea to test it out with a cheaper option first to see if you like it and to give yourself time to familiarize yourself with drawing apps/programs. i actually kinda hated drawing digitally at first. i didn't have the same level of control that i was used to with drawing traditionally. and overtime i made a lot of bad habits with my digital art that i had to unlearn by switching back to traditional art for a couple years (some bad habits like: relying on the Undo button to make "perfect" lines; trying to draw really fast because the pen glides over the screen unlike a pencil has friction against paper) so... give it a try and just let yourself have fun. don't worry about making anything perfect, just have fun!

[zomnommbie]

currently trying to figure out how i could digitalize the mask to be a 3d print/render so it makes cosplaying him a fuck ton easier lmao

at first i was gonna buy a mask and maybe do a repaint of it but the ones i found online, the absolute cheapest and closest to the movie mask was 60$ CAD.. and im a cheap bastard

there where also ones where they where 200$ CAD, and they where super accurate and cool i will admit but like, 200$ is insane, so out of spite i spent months on the one i have lmao

if i am able to digitalize it so anyone who has access to a 3d printer is able to have a cheaper alternative, would you be interested? i cant promise anything as im completely out of my depth here but im stubborn and dont want people to have to spend money on something that doesnt bring the satisfaction it should

sorry for the rant ♛

[kureffui]

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[lambment]

What drawing tablet do you use, and would you recommend it? I'm in the market for a new one, but I have NO idea what actually makes a good one, so I'm asking around

The vast majority of my posts are made with my 1st gen 12” ipad (with a paper feel screen protector) + procreate!

I also use an older model of a 25” wacom cintiq I got back in 2016 when I went to anim school. I wouldn’t consider this cost efficient if you are new to digital art tho, and would recommend a bamboo or intuos. I’ve also heard huion has pretty good tablets now though, and cheaper.

If you’re looking to buy:

I snagged the ipad for 100 CAD (a HUGE steal at the time) a couple years back off of a local online marketplace. I’m sure if you look on marketplaces for a used old Gen now, they should be relatively cheap. Just keep in mind the price of an Apple pen + planned obsolescence. (It’s lasted me all through college and now tho).

If you were looking for a cintiq, I would recommend contacting sellers after they’ve been displayed at conventions, they sell at a big discounted price because of sampling.

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Hi! I'm minionsdevil on AO3 and I'm opening fic commissions to help with vet care plus usual expenses with my dogs. I'll talk more about the whys and hows of this under the cut (it's long, like, SO long).

You can read more about the commissions here, and if you're brazilian or speak portuguese, I talk extensively about my fics and financial struggles we've been going through on bsky.

All of the details are on ko-fi and the carrd website.

What's happening: me and my fiancée (ex fiancée? currently kinda divorcing but only kinda, fiancée?) have been living together for three years and most of them have been a financial struggle because even when we're in good jobs we're in debt from when we weren't.

Around a year after we started living together I got a good job, around the same time we adopted Luna (the caramel dog in the pics below - we already had Sally, the black and white one). Home office, which was awesome. It started paying R$500 (like... USD $90) per month, which you must know it's NOTHING, but I got raises frequently and around may-june this year we were making with both our incomes R$ 6-7k (USD $ 1k - 1.2k) which, for brazilians it's a good - not rich, but good - income.

The thing is that we were working for my uncle.

It was abusive work, I worked about 14 nonstop hours most days, almost never had days off and even when I did I was working through them to deliver in impossible deadlines, he was always breathing down my neck as if I didn't do enough, and I know I work hard, do whatever I can AND can't to deliver stunning results and was severly underpaid (I worked like, 5 different roles - from marketing to CAD projects to software development to party planning to... whatever was on his mind, really).

BOTH of us were working for him. She left a governmental teaching assistant career to work for him on the promise that we would make more money. We kind of were, for like, a month. But she regretted very much leaving the guaranteed (you can't ever be laid off of governmental jobs here - unless you commit crimes) source of income she had. It was kind of an impulsive decision, but yeah, we did that.

We moved cities to work on site because he insisted we had to be there IMMEDIATELY after his offer to do our new job assignments (I was promoted to project manager - my job continued to be online only and it made no sense but there I was). This moving resulted in expenses that, according to law, since the BOSS insisted we moved for work, were meant to be paid by him. They weren't. We had to ask for a R$ 10k loan to deal with the moving, the break of lease contract we had, etc, that we never paid a single cent back because we became unemployed almost immediately after that. We moved away from my family (her family is already living far), we have no help, both our families are also financially fucked up.

He laid me off when I refused to work on what was already assigned as my day off for the FIRST TIME EVER. I never refused work, but I was SEVERELY burnt out, it was my brother's birthday, and it WAS my assigned day off. He laid me off through her, didn't even talk to me directly, so she quit to avoid going through that as well. Here in Brazil we have awesome laws about employment and I was owed compensation for that, but alas. I had to beg for my worked days of the month, imagine compensation for the layoff.

While all of that was happening we were spending a LOT with vet care for Luna, plus daycare (expensive as FUCK, mind you) because she has health issues that she literally can't be left alone. She has some kind of allergic issue that we have been trying a bunch of different treatments, paid for vet house visits, all kinds of expensive meds - and nothing works. We were also scammed in the meantime and generally dumb with our money.

So we became unemployed while our accounts were (still are, but worse) literally negative. We have been living off of credit cards and loans and now no bank will give us any loans or credit limits because we exceeded everything and haven't paid back. So yeah, we're thoroughly fucked.

Amanda, my (ex??????) fiancée is working with my cousin now, but is paid very little, and I am also working with my cousin, her husband and a college friend on website development projects - but I haven't had a single project paid yet. Just to be clear, Amanda makes R$ 1.5k monthly and our rent is almost R$ 1.3k. I make, with no guarantees, about R$1.2k. Just Luna and Sally's food is R$600 monthly, but also their meds, vitamins, ointments to keep Luna from literally scratching her skin off, is about R$600 more. What's left for the bills (R$ minimum 400), college (which I CAN'T drop off of unless I want to be unemployed forever, and it costs R$200) and our food (we used to spend about R$800 on that when we could)? What about our meds, when we need psychiatric treatment and I have a bunch of uterus problems? R$200 for all of that? It's literally not enough.

All of that did a huge fucking number on our mental health, especially in mine as I was already severly depressed, always has been, and never managed to take care of it properly, so I became kind of... dead? Literally dead inside. Only coping through hyperfixating on iwtv, lol. Which is fun and all but doesn't fix shit. It affected our relationship and now we're kind of breaking up, perhaps temporarily until we take care of ourselves individually, perhaps not.

You can see how that's a lot going on.

So yeah, I literally haven't been in the rightest of minds to deal in creative work, but I have no way out - I have to open commissions to afford their food, meds and hopefully!!!! take them to a vet. Sally also has her problems, although they haven't been as much of an emergency as Luna's, like her teeth literally falling out from their roots. Luna scratches herself until she bleeds and we have to stay 24h breathing down her neck to stop her from that and from trying to kill Sally - which we think she does because she's terribly irritated with her allergies.

POINT IS, sorry for the bible, but like, we're so fucked. So if you can share this, if you know someone who'd pay for a cute little fic of their otp, and in the future (I'm returning to practice drawing) art commissions as well, please, share! I also accept donations as specified on the Carrd I made for this. I will report back on what I spend the money on if you want. And if you want to commission feel free to reach out wherever, here or bsky or directly on ko-fi! Rules are on the carrd.

Here are the babies that will be helped:

They're literally the loves of my life and we're trying really hard to take proper care of them, but life has been a b#tch.

Thank you for reading if you got here! <3

[trainsinanime]

I don't get loss.

I don’t get loss. The meme, I mean. The four panels with the lines in them. I’ve seen it plenty of times, but it confuses and befuddles me.

See, I know loss (the meme) from way back. I saw the original CAD comic in my RSS reader the day it first came out. I also saw the (now deleted) associated blog post, as well as the reactions e.g. by Cyanide and Happiness (which references said blog post) or Yahtzee Croshaw. It was a really big deal at the time, everybody who was into online comics had an opinion. 

And at most a month later I stopped thinking about it, and assumed everyone else had as well. Then many years later I was reintroduced to the meme, in its modern form, and I feel like knowing the context has ruined it for me. Posting the hieroglyphics version does not engage with the original controversy at all. It says nothing about Tim Buckley’s creepiness, about how out of left field it was, the reactions to it, anything. It’s just a thing people reproduce to signify group membership, just like… okay, all memes if we’re perfectly honest. I breadstick out here to have a good time and I’m feeling so color theory now. 

I guess there is no explanation, not really, the internet moves in mysterious ways and memes have always largely developed regardless of their context, just pure form giving meaning on its own. I just find this one so weird because I was there, and I know the context. 

Speaking of the context, here’s a highly controversial take: I don’t think the original comic was that bad. 

There’s definitely a valid critique that it centers the story of the man instead of the one who actually has the miscarriage (I can’t find that post again but it was a thing in the discussion back then). But the idea that it’s inherently wrong and bad to talk about heavy topics in video game webcomics? I don’t buy that. 

Now, a lot of that is because of context, again. Of all the video game webcomics, CAD was always the worst, not very funny, overly violent, kind of stupid. And its creator Tim Buckley has a horrid reputation. Sure, some of that is the usual “he banned me from his forum just because I said he sucks, how dare he!” whining that is so common on the internet even to this day (aside: If you ever complain about getting banned or blocked by someone, I will always assume you deserve it. Act like a grown-up and accept that some people just don’t want to talk to you). But it’s clear that he also did some really sketchy and inappropriate things, and to that extent his bad reputation seems well earned.

Putting a heavy topic in the middle of that mess was jarring, no doubt, but given the context that did feel a bit like the point. I think it could have worked if it had been a long term pivot to a generally more serious tone. It’s not like “more serious than CAD” was a high bar to clear. And a slow pivot to being slightly more serious is hardly unheard of, consider e.g. Scott Kurtz’s PvP.

However, Tim Buckley saw the reaction and decided to never do anything serious ever again, which helped cement this as the single worst comic ever, even though the vast majority of CAD’s archives are objectively worse in every single metric. And based on that reputation we get the loss meme of today.

And it just keeps weirding me out.