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Bad news, guys. I gotta do dishes and there's a Lot and its very overwhelming
#day musings#I also really want hot cocoa and to make a chocolate cake#But that requires doing dishes#Or making MORE dishes to wash#which makes it worse#I am not sure. How to motivate myself#I also really want to see my jf#Thats unrelated#I just miss them
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I'm cautiously gearing myself up for a conversation with bff where I tell her that we need to recalibrate our relationship, and....I genuinely don't think I've ever had a serious, emotional conversation with someone I care about before.
I've never been a Conversation Haver; I tend to take the approach that people can't significantly change without meaningful reason, and since I am not and never have been someone's Reason, I cannot prompt change. Therefore, my choices are (a) live with what is; or (b) end/limit the relationship.
But....this is my best friend in the world. I do love her. I just can't keep on as we've been going, where it's less a friendship and more ten minute intervals where I talk about my life, after which the focus switches. I once sat in a bar for two hours waiting for her; afterwards, she asked if I wanted to stay in her hotel room like I didn't have to get up in another 5 hours and drive to work. She texted me during my recent trips, and when I said I was traveling she asked no further questions. Said nothing unless it was about what she was reading, what she was doing. I'm not even sure she realized I was traveling at all, just unavailable to her.
I can give a high-level summary of her PhD thesis. I'm not confident she knows where I work.
Truthfully, part of this is that we simply have different social styles....but still. Coming back from my family trip, I said I was tired and trying to get work straightened out, she should go ahead and plan something for the holiday! I was free! Only for me to text a week later....and promptly have her join me, for my previously standalone plans. Oh, and she asked me to bring my camera, because she wants headshots for her new job.
I still love her very much, but if this is the kind of relationship we're going to have? I need less of it.
#I've been trying to script this conversation for two weeks.#doing dishes and talking to myself trying to get the wording right.#dumping my laundry in the washer and stating ''I know grad school requires a lot of self-focus but''#''and if this is all you feel comfortable doing now that's fine!'' I mutter to myself while vacuuming#''our relationship can adjust'' I sigh to my pillows at night. ''but I need to know that's what you want.''#(.......I didn't actually mind sitting the bar. the guy on the next stool over was a theoretical mathematician#working on cryptography. so it was a good conversation.#but that's my point! I can have a good conversation with anyone. I am a champion asker of questions.#I need bff to figure out how to ask me questions of me so occasionally I can be the one talking.)#celestial emporium of benevolent knowledge
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CASTIEL: Stop. What's the point if you don't mean it? You fear me - not love, not respect, just fear.
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a godstiel pity party. i'd like to thank an anon i got way back in february of 2021.
#spn#vid#spnamvarchive#so fun fact i started making this more than a year ago. got it 90% done. and then was like no this isn't working#i will come back to this later.#it turns out that i needed to make some videos about cas and angels (the love club + help i'm alive amvs)#in order to make this one. anyway this video is about french mistake robert singer voice season six#i really struggled with it because i could NOT find the thread until i realized that it needed to be literally godstiel pov#it's about love and desire and jealousy and hurt and omnidirectional rage <3#it's about the fact that cas is so utterly dependent on dean for his self-image - however dean sees him that's it#it's about having a moment of reflection about lashing out before you do it but doing it anyway#it's about taking cruelty and dishing it out#and crucially. it's about being pregnant#mpregpocalypse#fun fact: i made a post about working on three season six amvs all the way back in nov. 2022#and only now have they come to fruition (this one + love club + metric)#anyway. have you heard that cas is obsessed#the thing is i do kinda want to add some specific director's commentary here. like the first verse is about cas being like.#incredibly deeply emotionally vulnerable to dean. as in: his emotional state and self-image is totally dominated by what dean thinks of him#and if dean is mad at him. and then the second verse is about... dean upsetting him and him responding to that by Killing Everybody lol#like he has a moment of reflection ['certain regrettable things are now required of me' + killing rachel] where he's like i've 1) also done#bad things and 2) i feel bad about it so maybe i will regret Killing Everyone. but then he does it anyway due to everybody keeps turning#on him. i feel like the rest of the amv is self evident. i guess i should note that 'share a paradise' is about how both of them have#a nostalgic view of the early days of their relationship when it wasn't Like This lol. but everything else i think is self evident.#oh and the reason the other angels flash onscreen with their burned wings at the end is i'm EVOKING the image of cas' wings burning. even#though it doesn't happen. i'm evoking it
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the gung ho guns all have their dramatic and/or tragic reasons for working with Knives and then there’s Zazie who is, like, interviewing potential roommates
#a dozen sporks speaks#trigun#'who will you side with? plants or humans?'#'hmmm . . . tell me do either of you leave dishes in the sink overnight?'#also required: a short essay about how you intend to protect the planet's natural environment now and in the future#that is. will you do your part to keep the common areas tidy
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i really do need to prioritize getting a hobby that doesn't require vision for those times when 1) power goes out 2) got a headache 3) am using my vision for something else 4) went to the eye doc and got my eyes dilated etc etc etc. many such cases
#could not see for shit after the eye doctor today. got home and was like well crap what even is there to do#that doesn't require me to be able to see stuff...#90% of my activities require me to read with my eyes. which is not always possible. or convenient#i guess i could have like. listened to music??? instead i just did the dishes and waited an hour until i had a phone call scheduled#my posts#hobbies
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One of my favorite things about being in my early 20s is that I'm starting to understand that I can use things not for their intended purpose. When you're growing up, you get told what an object is and what its intended purpose is, and as a kid/teen, I just accepted all of it at face value. As a young adult it's finally clicking that I can simply do things a different way if it makes me happier. Sure, I was taught that you stand to take a shower, but there's nothing stopping me from just sitting if I don't feel like it, ya know? I might have always had my medication in the kitchen, but if I'm no longer remembering to take it, I can just move it somewhere where I can remember. You don't have to specifically store all food in the kitchen, you can have a little snack cart or snack station in another room.
The downside to finding out the various ways you can use objects is that you develop habits that would probably go on an r/relationships post where everyone says you're a little freak.
#simon says#i just developed a new habit (it's too tmi to put here) and I just know that it's some weird shit#it works and it makes me feel better so I'm gonna keep doing it#but it's some shit that would end up viral where everyone would go 'yo op you should break up with them thats weird' 😔#i was just thinking about this though because every week or so I learn that I can just do what I want#because there's no fucking object use police I can do what I want#i HIGHLY suggest getting into this habit. if you find something annoying or frustrating you can just do it differently#'I hate washing the dishes because my legs hurt from standing for so long' you can bring a chair and sit or you can break it up into chunks#like on the one hand I'm learning this because I have autism and a plethora of other mental disorders#and it's FINALLY clicking that I can self accommodate whenever and however I so please#I'm just sorta learning that if doing something makes me feel better/happy/gets the job done to do that thing#even if it requires using an object in an odd way#hell there's even some little things I've been playing with#for example: my whole life we sorta just lifted blinds only about halfway up#just sorta how we did it ya know#well recently I decided I wanted more natural light in the sunroom/my office so I wouldn't have to turn on the lamp#and I lifted the blinds all the way up to the very top#and honestly?? it fucking rules. the room looks nicer; i get natural light; i can see the forest out back and it's quite calming and nice#like for ages I just never thought about doing that because it just never occurred to me that I could#i just always put blinds about halfway up because that's about how high blinds do in my household#another little one I learned is that I can just... wash my hair#sometimes when I get too depressed or if my body doesn't need a shower but my hair is greasy#I just shove my head under the bathtub facet and wash my hair#it's just a small thing but for years if my hair needed to be washed I would just take a full shower#now I just fix my greasy hair. bc greasy hair is a huge ick for me but sometimes my body is still clean or im too tired to fully shower#like there's nothing stopping me from doing that and it doesn't hurt anyone. it's just a way of bathing that I wasn't taught#but yeah those are some recent examples of me learning I can just... do stuff differently#the free will is kicking in babes and it has decided I love finding ways to use things differently#it's why im doing a bg3 run where I just press loot all no matter what and use whatever I can in odd ways#anyways I might delete this later might not who knows
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Fanart for @splickedylit's fanfiction Domestic Diplomacy (And Other Minefields)
getting back into the swing of digital art lol.
Sort-of predecessor to this below the cut (its just a height chart of the fic I did a bit ago. which is not the same heights as above.)
lineup :)
#my art#gossie draws#done while procrastinating on dishes. anyway.#Homestuck#fic#fanfic#anyway. my old enemy: the accidental lean :/ (Karkat in the lineup)#Um. Troll designs mostly based on Splickedy's w some elements of mine :)#(which. I will admit. my designs are slightly based on Splickedy's. so)#horns could otherwise be brighter but chose to at least attempt a more muted/harmonious palette?#also. fun n creative outfits :/ also my enemy. um. yeah. :(#I had lots of fun w the composition though :)))) transparency#um. does. does this quantity of blood require a mature tag?? I don't think so but am open to being told otherwise ig#also I do not see where to add a mature tag :|
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#ludicolo#and now‚ just like i talked about on the lombre post‚ i am legally required to say ¡¡qué rrico!! rrrrrr#something about miror b. and his groove. the trumpets are super funky but it's certainly not my favorite song from colosseum#that title is held by the cipher peon battle theme. i love that one SO much it's like the background music of everything that happens to me#the guitar is what sells it for me. but that has nothing to do with ludicolo. rain dish is stupid when it's a double battle and all you have#are a bunch of fucking ludicolo. lookin at'chu‚ miror b#i also remember him for his sudowoodo bc that was his shadow pokémon but like Come On. Come On#anyway. i've been sitting here for like 2 minutes trying to think of something else to say but i can't so have a ludicolo on the house
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It's kinda weird how, compared to Metroid Dread, Metroid Fusion was so much more blatant in
its prioritisation of linear story progression over exploration
its linear presentation (literally naming the areas sector 1–6), though it still does the classic "linear game pretending to be nonlinear" thing by taking you through them in a different, but still fixed, order
the way it literally directly tells you your every next step constantly
yet when playing the games, it felt to me that somehow, despite all of this, Fusion felt a lot less frustrating in its linearity to me than Dread. In Fusion it was immediately clear that I would just be sticking to a single sector for each part of the game and those sectors themselves would still be mostly freely explorable in a way that felt more similar to Metroid II, but in Dread there was just no telling AT ALL when the path behind me would be blocked off and it also felt wayyyyy less justified than in Fusion, especially with just how often Dread would be doing this.
With Fusion's extremely tense atmosphere being present throughout the entire game and so much of the story taking place and developing during the game itself, I was totally understanding of its structure and restrictions. Dread on the other hand just kinda made me feel nothing, except
frustration at the lack of exploration with every single door locking behind me constantly for no good reason. Even some obstacles don't *go away* but instead switch from blocking the path forward, to blocking the path back: the thermal doors, the lifts that go down if you stick to their spider magnet walls, the big boxes that you had to move with the charge beam (or grapple beam idk? or both?) it just gets soooo annoying
frustration at how you need to use 3 buttons simultaneously to perform one single god damned action
frustration at how abilities felt extremely underused in the level design—you rarely grapple your way across the ceiling to cross a pit like in Super (which is the kind of level design that allows for sequence breaks in completely natural ways that encourage player experimentation), no, you just open the grapple beam door lock with your grapple beam door key. Literally every single ability in dread relies on this WAY TOO MUCH in painfully obvious ways, including literally every single power beam upgrade
frustration at how missile tanks feel worthless because getting only 2 is just not worth my time (yet the total number of missiles is similar to the other games... a sign of the game being too long/padded compared to the old games)
frustration at how energy tanks feel worthless because every boss does 100+ damage per hit; you're just not allowed to be tanky and the game is forcing you to play in only one specific way. The full energy tanks are just straight up given to you at way too hard-to-miss points—it's not a reward for exploration, it's forcibly scaling up Samus's health so it can scale up the next bosses' damage accordingly and absolutely nothing ends up feeling different. And to make things worse, the energy tanks that you DO get to find on your own don't actually DO anything because they're fucking energy PARTS. They just deliberately made exploration as unrewarding as it possibly could've been
frustration at how almost every area looks the goddamn same and has no music to stand out with either
I must say Dread's final boss was actually really reasonable though, it was really generous with the heals/restocks provided in between & low damage numbers making it so that my collected energy tanks FINALLY felt like they were actually making a difference. I will hate that one arbitrarily locked door in the escape sequence though
#also honestly I just do not like the free 360° aim of Samus Returns and Dread. It's presented as something to be praised because#“analog > digital” always gets treated as an upgrade and something that offers more options but it Does Not do that here#aiming locks you in place. That's a HUGE deal. You can't move and shoot. Being able to move and shoot at once felt so important in th#the sprite based metroids bc you ALWAYS WANT to move. The only good thing about shooting in Dread is the storm missiles but even those are#fairly late into the game. The storm missiles are great because you don't have to stand in place to aim and thus you get to move around#freely while still dishing out strong firepower; exactly like in the older games. But it just feels like a band-aid to a bigger problem#Requiring you to use the stick in 2D metroid feels like a really poorly thought out move because it just changes everything so fundamentall
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today has been a very good day for me. I expected bad days, it literally hasn't even been a week since I got broken up with? it's been 5 days at most.
#woke up#had yummy cereal with the coffee/milk mix i usually do#got myself balatro and immediately won the first time i played it#there were yummy coconut shrimp at work that i got to eat#i saw a cutie who's in a band and it and its gf came up and said hi to me and talked to me for a bit#the girlthing i'm friends with that i love came to the deli and gave me a hug#then i got to slice some cheese for it and it pet me and called me a good girl as a reward for doing such a good job for it!#then the hot water we're required to have for the deli to be up to code came back! after a week of washing greasy dishes without it!#got out of work 15 minutes earlier than usual!#got home#and then practiced guitar for a bit#then was able to get changed and visit the girlthing that hugged me earlier.#today ruled!!#also im getting a bike tomorrow with the help of a friend who has also bought me... some kink gear. which i will not specify but will enjoy.#and then i get to see one of my non nesting gfs some time after that and fall asleep cuddling her!!#my life is very gay and good.
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What's the most evil lab equipment in your opinion 😂
In my very subjective opinion? Ion chromatographs are on my shit list. It's not really their fault - the one I have to work with is old, hasn't been maintained properly, and no one else knows how to use it so I have to figure out everything myself, which is NOT FUN! It's finicky, frustrating, and it requires working with sulfuric acid, which I do not enjoy. It's very very sensitive and if you accidentally contaminate it with ions, you will be troubleshooting for weeks trying to figure out what happened. Ions are everywhere, in everything. In dust, in tap water (and nearly all filtered water, we have a special machine that makes Ultra Pure water with no ions or anything in it), on your skin, on virtually every surface that hasn't been specially cleaned. So if you have extra ions that shouldn't be there, it's a guessing game - are they from the sample? The eluent? Sample vials? Glassware? Is the water filter malfunctioning? Are the ions even there at all or is the detector messed up? You just have to keep trying stuff until it sorts itself out. The one I work with has NOT sorted itself out yet and I've been at this for over two weeks. I'm at my wit's end here.
And bonus answer for non-instrument equipment: drying tins. They're these little aluminum trays to put soil or whatever in when you stick them in the drying oven but they make Bad Noises when they scrape together. Also they bend easily, so if you stack them and then they get knocked around, sometimes it becomes very very difficult to get them apart.
In contrast, the best instrument is the Gas Chromatograph and the best other equipment is micropippettes. The GC is straightforward, easy to use, really hard to contaminate, and rarely has technical problems (plus when it does, they're not my problem - I am not the designated GC expert). Micropippettes are just fun because it's satisfying to click the button to release the pipette tip and launch it into the trash can.
#so many people would have the exact opposite opinion on instruments which is hilarious to me#gas work scares some people because you can't see it. it confuses them. meanwhile I love it. keep the wet lab stuff away from me please.#gas work has very few hazardous chemicals. anything that can hurt you at least you'll KNOW ABOUT IT! it's not sneaky and insidious#i don't have to wear gloves. i don't have to think super hard about possible contaminants. i don't have to do dishes.#the gc makes good noises#the ic requires sulfuric acid and is perpetually angry. plus it makes me come in on saturdays sometimes to turn it off. not nice.#thank you for asking this is fun!#asks#hylian rambles#hylian does science
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I did the dishes for the first time since my surgery! I didn't get everything inti the dishwasher, but we are out of spoons and cat bowls and the way the dishes keep piling up no one else was gonna do it until we needed them RIGHT THEN.
#text post#recovery#dishes#im two days shy of 4 weeks out#and my restriction from vacuuming and laundry was for 4 weeks postop#so i think im good#dishes weren't forbidden by my postop instructions#but the bending and twisting required to load the dishwasher is similar enough to the ones to do laundry#which is specifically forbidden
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Why is putting laundry away like the absolute WORST chore?
#I procrastinate about it like 90% of the time#my hamper is just full of clean clothes#and the dirty clothes hamper sometimes is also full of clean clothes#and then there's a dirty clothes pile and a worn but not yet dirty clothes pile on the floor#chores#adulting#laundry#like I scrubbed the bathroom and shook out the rugs and swept and mopped and did one round of dishes and am about to do another#and took stuff down cellar which requires moving furniture to access...#but putting away my clothes? *dramatic death scene*
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Loving to cook and being good at it rules so hard. You get to do something you really enjoy for a few hours (something you have to do anyways), and at the end of it you get a delicious meal that'll make you go "life is worth living actually". Just Ws as far as the eye can see.
#Sunny Life#at least until you have to do the dishes#nr 1 requirement for a future spouse/partner: they'll happily do the dishes if I do the cooking#if I had a dating profile it would just say ''I can make powerful broths that could make you forgive your father (if you do the dishes)''
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i want to finish my research methods paper or study for my neuroanatomy exam tmr but my body is loudly demanding that I be vertical. slightly problematic as I need to eat a meal today. which I have neglected to do as of yet. but standing up to do that feels like it would Drain My Life Force.
#blue chatter#it’s mostly bc I have sausage in the fridge that rly needs to be cooked and eaten soon before it spoils#but that requires actively cooking#as opposed to shoving smth in the oven and coming back to it#I couldn’t do it before today bc the sink was full of dishes and I need to clean out my cast iron#also my roommate bought the wrong pizza when we went to the store last#so now it’s rising crust instead of thin crust#and I forgot to tell them I wanted the thin crust#not their fault but it is frustrating bc my safe food is different and I don’t know if I like rising crust#blegh#body Mad At Me#At least I didn’t dissociate today#and got some work done#that’s rly good
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urg, I hate that my brain does not easily switch between tasks when like the tasks aren't even really all that different.
#this is like the fourth? day in a row where I have reached the end of a scene and just not been able to continue even though the next scene#is already ready to go with notes and all that of that#i just have to write it but my brain is like nope sorry that's a new task#the task for today was work on previous scene#you may work on a new scene on a new day even though there is plenty of time left in the da#or when i need to wash the dishes in order to make food and all it requires is initating wash dishes task#but my brain is stuck on need to make food task#and so cannot do either because the bowl for the cream of wheat is dirty and washing it out is a separate task
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