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PART 2 OF THE WYD WHEN MY GANG PULL UP IMAGE 🗣🔥
We’re welcoming AM and HAL into the family this time c: , I’ll continue this family photo series as I release new papercrafts lol
#being completely honest with y’all I think HAL is the only guy AM would tolerate#also don’t bully Minos he wants to feel included#I’ll make a papercraft of him later too#ihnmaims#i have no mouth and i must scream#ihnmaims am#inscryption p03#edgar electric dreams#yes man fallout nv#yes man#Inscryption#ultrakill minos#minos prime#hal 9000#2001 a space odyssey
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these are fun
#ok im finally watching DRP2 and Cinder and Wyldfyre's beef is so funny like sir you are (presumably) an adult and bullying a teenager#ive seen some takes that Cinder is a teen which i giggle at bc when i first watched DR i thought he was genuinely like 50. old ass man#go to bed grandpa#i changed my mind tho he must be a youngish adult but hes just kinda fucked up. like yeah Cinder maybe you do need ur beauty sleep#hes grown on me though. who is this DIVA#ninjago#dragons rising#my post#ninjago kai#ninjago lloyd#ninjago harumi#ninjago wyldfyre#ninjago sora#ninjago vania#ninjago arin#ninjago roby#harumi jade#princess harumi#lloyd garmadon#kai smith#kai jiang#princess vania#ninjago cinder#i forgot to tag him oops. its what he deserves#lego ninjago#amelia isn't funny
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SQH prompt since you asked for one in the tags of that one post.
SQH and SQQ on their cart journey to get the sun moon dew mushroom seeds!
Thanks for the suggestion! I love their stupid little roadtrip together xD although this quickly became less about me figuring out SQH's hair/robes and more about me figuring out how in the world to draw a horse drawn carriage... SQQ needs to use his sword more just so I can avoid this
#poor ZZL is being bullied...#svsss#shang qinghua#shen qingqiu#cumplane#zhuzhi lang#sqh#sqq#zzl#...i gave zzl the same braids i did in his his human form but i'm realizing there's a critical lack of hands for braid them with#i would love to know how zzl's first few days with limbs went that must have been fun#is there a fic about that? poor snake boy needs to figure out not just opposable thumbs but also LEGS god help him#my art#though speaking of being bullied i was rereading zzl's snake descriptions again and sqq's “Don’t panic. | want to go fishing.” KILLED me#dude BLOWS ZZL OUT OF THE WATER WITH A TALISMAN BOMB#what a fucking day this snake is having - significantly funnier once you realise he's not a random snake monster mook#zzl gets thrown in the air like a dead fish by his cousin's bizarre crush before he ever meets lbh himself
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What was Wingdings and Sans’ school life like? especially early on when Wingdings couldn't talk without some sort of translation. Did they ever get bullied?
Not too important for the story, i'd assume, but you just gotta love the little things-
Yeah... this is probably not gonna matter to the story a lot...
BUT I ALSO LIKE THE LITTLE THINGS SO I'LL ANSWER!!
I'm gonna add a keep reading here because I'll probably yap a lot
Okay, so you would assume they would have been bullied... But they weren't!! not really?
Probably in a more realistic world they would have been, but usually, monsters are pretty nice!! (with some exceptions)
SO! I'm gonna talk about how I think it would have gone
Monsters were nice to Dings, friendly! But there was always the inconvenience of not being understood. And Sans was there to help him but I don't think Wingdings liked that, he wanted to do so himself or not at all And as I've said before, at some point, Wingdings gave up on making friendships work, he isolated himself and focused and what really mattered!!
Sans did have friends! But his first priority was his brother, if he had to skip friend time to be with Wingdings he would do that
So he never really made close friends, just friends
Going back to Wingdings, there were probably some mean monsters that did bother him about the dingbat font at some point, but that wasn't a usual thing! Usually, monsters were nice! And though there was definitely a barrier, they didn't care all that much? BUT WINGDINGS DID CARE, HE KNEW HE WAS DIFFERENT TO EVERYONE ELSE AND WHAT THAT COULD MEAN, so why even bother?
When I was thinking about this I remembered that one scene from Meet the Robinsons:
AND JFKFJKDCJDSK
Small Dings was kinda like that
He was usually outcasted, but no one really disliked him?? They just didn't know him at all because he didn't even try talking to anyone
So no one approached or talked to him, if anything they found him intimidating
Sans was there with him the whole time! So it's not like he had no one at all, but uh,,,, yeah
#something like this!#very early on I did think about making it worse? how people treated him? but#monsters are usually very kind#there's exceptions of course#like jerry#everyone hates jerry#but uh#yeah#and I thought#sometimes you just *think* you're gonna be bullied or disliked and avoid people because of that#and realizing you could have made friends with those people if you had just tried hurts more#I'm glad Sans made Alphys work with them#Now wingdings can't avoid interacting with other monsters and realizing it's actually not that bad#Please don't interpret this as me saying he didn't struggle and that he imagined it to be bad#It was definitely bad#not being able to communicate must suck a lot#answered ask
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So like one common theme when discussing bullying is the tendency for bullies to project their insecurities on their victims right? like them taking their own shit out on the people they bully?
so i know that may not be exaaaactly the case with Max Jagerman in Nerdy Prudes Must Die like the dude even in the afterlife just really fuckin likes terrorising the shit out of people due to his god complex BUUUUT what I found very interesting was when in the Nerdy Prudes Must Die sequence, he was telling Richie to repeat after him: "Who will pray for me when my body's gone or until another Richie comes along?" And mind you, this song comes directly after another musical sequence about all the teens in that high school being so fucking happy that Max was gone. And like, well yea you can't blame the kids for being happy that Top Terrorizer #1 is gone and that they don't have to abide by his social strata anymore - but then again, having nobody pray or give a fuck about Max after him being mysteriously missing for 2 weeks is,,kinda fucked up for Max no matter the kind of person he is. So, to see someone he victimised get the attention and appreciation I would assume Max would've wanted from his team especially after being missing for so long - it really does seem to me that he was projecting onto Richie when he was about to kill him and making him feel how little he will matter to other people when he dies - like what he could've felt after literally everyone considered the high school "objectively better" now that Max was gone.
Which makes things a whole lot more interesting when Max snaps out of his WHO WILL PRAY FOR YOU solo when Richie belts out I'M NOT A LOSER - henceforth defying the idea of worthlessness Max was projecting onto Richie. So damn.
#oKAY HERE'S A HOT TAKE: I FUCKING WISH THERE WAS A SONG CALLED 'I'M NOT A LOSER' IN THE DAMN SHOW CAUSE I LIKED HOW JON SANG THAT#like really i know that verse is present in cool as i think i am but on its own i really do think it couldve been greatly resonant#especially for the 3 bullied nerds of the show (not counting grace cause she had a different thing with max)#and also like I'm Not A Loser was Richie standing up against Max - him breaking the worthlessness projection verses#and if the theme of the show is to defeat the damn bully then i dunno that could've been cool fjsjd but that's just me and my wonder#at jon's delivery of that line cause DAMN#jon's a good singer and a daaaamn good actor kudos kudos#nerdy prudes must die#npmd spoilers#starkid#starkid npmd#richie lipschitz#jon matteson#max jagerman
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"Love is blind" has nothing to do with looks. It means that when you love someone, you miss their red flags, their shitty behaviour. You're not looking for their betrayal so you don't see it until it's too late.
#rawr personal#i am fine#i'm supporting a friend through a divorce rn#he was cheating on her for eight years#while she was preggo with his second and third child#they fucked in her bed#the rancid little coward won't be there when he knows i'm on the way#he will bully her over the phone#accusing her of walking away from their marriage#call her stupid and say she must have known#there is so much more#he is a manipulative narcissist#and the only reason i haven't beaten 7 shades of shit out of him is for her and the kids#oh and my partner would be fumin#don't EVER marry kids#men who cheat on or beat the mother of their children should be surgically castrated
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Stepping into the bg3 tags and having to see another fucking post about Wyll's rat diet banter for the 5000th time
#'i havent had him in my party since'#'i put him in time-out lol'#'why is wyll such a bully it must be from his ea writing'#Oh? and are you acting like this with any of the other characters?? hmmmm????#bg3#wyll ravengard
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[<==PREV PAGES] [NEXT PAGE==>(not out yet.wait a year.or maybe more.imagine.]
saw alot of comments on prev pages; saying 'i HATE that mean teacher! im gonna FIGHT HIM!!' & i LOVE the energy!! it WOULD be nice. to have that catharsis. but the story of young tidestrider is Not one of catharsis. it is a story of being so small and so special and sucking so bad.
#jrwi fanart#jrwi show#jrwi riptide#gillion tidestrider#GONNA START FORMATTING MY COMICS BETTER. W THE PROPER 'PREV' 'NEXT' LINKS#REALLY DIDNT EXPECT TO CONTINUE THIS SERIES BUT AAAUUUHH MY BRRAAAIN MY BRAIN IS SO IDEASSS. I HAVE 3 OTHER PAGES SKETCHED OUT#NO PROMISES ILL FINISH EM ANY TIME SOON OR EVER. MY WHIMS ARE THEIR OWN BEAST AND I ONLY DRAW ON MY WHIMS#THAT BEING SAID IF U COMMISSIONED ME ILL GEEETT TO YOUUU IM SORRYYYY. ART IS AN EMOTIONAL RELEASE FOR ME N BABY I HAVE EMOTIONS.#ESPECIALLY ABOUT GILLION TIDESTRIDER CHAMPION OF THE UNDERSEA HERO OF THE DEEP.for the desc here i put smth that i typed up in the tags of#another thing i made. i gotta make a proper Baby Gillion tag or smth. eventually.. eventually...I LOVE DRAWIN THIS LIL BABY GUY..#i also LOVE depicting the teachers as just being so fuckin mean. ofc theres variation in that. just like in all things.like the teacher her#idk if itll be mentioned but the octo lady is named Ms Octburn.an octopus pun based off the name of an actual councilor i had#when i was in elementary school i got bullied alot but teachers never did anything. i hated adults and didnt trust them.#but this councilor o mine was so genuinely sweet. i remember spending alot of time w her. she doesnt work there anymore.#but that one school adult that actually earns ur trust and is there for you when they can be.its SO important for a child i think#i hope she knows how much she helped me.youll see in the next page that ms octburn isnt perfect either.but she tries. they all try.somehow.#ALL these comics are gonna be inspired by somesorta experience o mine in the school system. school is so fucked up u ever thing abt that#AND GILLIOOOOONNN IN THE MOST FUCKED UP LITTLE SCHOOL OF ALL. MAINTAINED BY A CULT. CENTERED AROUND HIM. OUR CHOSEN ONE#I IMAGINE ALOT BANKS ON HIS SUCCESS. THIS IS THE WORLD. THE WHOLE WORLD. THE PROPHECY IS GOING TO COME TRUE N UR TELLIN ME#THAT ITS THIS LITTLE IDIOT THATS GONNA BE SAVING US? WHAT IF HE FAILS. IF HE CANT GET THIS RIGHT THEN HE WILL FAIL AND WE WILL DIE#WE NEED TO TRAIN HIM. WE NEED HIM TO LEARN. AND TO SUCCEED. OR ELSE WE'RE DEAD. WE'RE ALL FUCKING DEAD. I IMAGINE THAT MUST BE STRESSFUL#in other news i hope ppl actually giggle when they read these. they ARE intended to be comical. dark humor or whatever. like its also sad#this is intended to be a sad comic series. but a funny one too. does that make sense? god i hope so.saw some1 say they had flashbacks-#-reading this. like YES!! THE INTENDED EFFECT!! YOU GET ME!! i love seeing ppl get upset on this lil baby boys behalf. i LOVE seeing ppl-#-wail n weep n cry in the comments. i LOOOVE seeing ppl RELATE to baby gillion. and i love letting u all know that this wont be a happycomi#gillion gets his happiness arc in the actual show. this series is one of unfortunate events. teehehehe. do u guys remember that show#i keep listening to the lil songs from A Series of Unfortunate Events for inspiration. GOOD STUFF!!#anyway uuhh uhh thats all i got in my brain. for now. feed me ur comments give me ur input i NNEEEEEDD THHEEEMMMM
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ONE: ok guys here’s an arc about mob, in his growth as a person, being confronted with an ideology he’s unfamiliar with, and he has to learn from it but also understand why it’s unhealthy and bad to properly grow from it and choose kindness in the end, albeit in a more nuanced way than before, and this will make mob more able to confront later problems in the season that can’t be solved with mere kindness and require a deep understanding of loneliness and solitude, something he hasn’t had much room to speak on until now. To express mob being shown this villain’s ideology we have a sequence where we see how mogami views the world and by extension how he sees mob, by putting mob in the kind of sad fucked up world he thinks exists, but mob will overcome it with the knowledge that in the real world he has people he cares about and that even the people who make the world bad sometimes can change and nobody is a static evil and kindness and courage when you’re going through hardship goes a long way. despite the darkness this is ultimately a very uplifting experience for him and a show that life is always more than its darkest moments, and also how picking yourself up instead of wallowing in your own suffering and trauma is hard but a very courageous act and what makes mob stronger than mogami
mp100 fans with tunnel vision: Oh so mob was tortured for six months and is sad? He’s literally so sad and traumatized and nobody is talking about this?
#babbles#mp100#decided to nab an old discord message for Post Purposes#BC i love mogami arc but god the Fandom Mogami Arc™️ where it’s all just#Evil Mogami Sad Mob Whump Look How Sad Why Aren’t We Talking About This!!!#makes me SEE RED. MY GOD#fandoms when characters experience trauma and get takeaways from it that aren’t looking into the camera to go#Wow That Was So Sad I Am Traumatized And Sad Now#I Am So Sad And Must Acknowledge My Trauma By Suffering And Never Growing#and of course coming back to one of my biggest fandom pet peeves which is viewing characters exclusively as People#like mob is so so so dear to me he’s one of my top ccs i care about him so so much#but he’s not a real child being bullied who needs like. counseling. his trauma served a purpose in the story and#dwelling on it was not that purpose!
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Max doesn't like Richie because Richie is a nerd, but the minute anyone misgenders him, Max is getting ready to punch that person in the face
#i like to headcanon that max has like a trans parent or something and he's like super supportive of trans people but the#minute theyre a nerd...oof theyre gonna get flicked#like he can bully richie but no one and he means no one can misgender him#or even insult him with wrong preferences like if someone calls him a pretty boy as an insult max will be angry and yell#NO HE IS A HANDSOME BOY HANDSOME BOY!!! not a pretty boy until the other bullies understand#and richie is like the fuck had my life come to???#is this michie?#michie#richie lipschitz#max jägerman#max jagerman#npmd starkid#starkid npmd#npmd#nerdy prudes must die#starkid productions#starkid#trans richie lipschitz#richie x max#max x richie
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And some Joker hallucination billboards that I had spotted during my playthrough.
These are both dark and silly lol
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Now these next two..... really fucking dark...
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Not once- but twice Bruce or "Joker" imagined on shooting Eddie. Like- it's so graphic and dark. The first one tho- scares me, like genuinely. Like look how he's massacred my boy ;<; legitimately tearing up because of it, why is he always getting the brunt of it all? Like Bruce/Joker has such a hatred for him fr
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#arkhamverse#edward nigma#the riddler#joker#bruce wayne#batman#lynx's chatting corner#Stop bullying him guys- he's been through enough already ;<;#*Sobbing*#i just wanna wrap him up in a blanket and keep him safe- my poor lil greasy green gremlin#must protect the goober >:[
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So I remember talking to this person and she was basically saying “If it takes Bakugou dying to redeem himself then he’s done too much.” But it doesn’t take Bakugou dying this is just who he is… am I wrong?
i wouldn't take any bakugou anti's argument to heart. the fact of the matter is that bakugou was a childhood bully who grew up and bettered himself. it's like, one of the tamest, most normal redemption arcs ever. he didn't even have to die to complete it, he's just that devoted to deku. which in itself should say enough about his development
#'bakugou being a dipshit asshole bully from ages 5 to 14' is not nearly 'doing too much'. and certainly does not deserve death#the truth of the matter is. people overhate bkg bc his 'crimes' are the most tangible and relatable to the audience#objectively speaking there are way more characters in mha who have done far worse than him#but most people can't relate to more heinous crimes - they probably haven't lost someone to a mass murderer for example#but they CAN relate to knowing a dumb idiot kid from middle school#a lot of bkg antis project onto deku so it's likely due to a personal grudge they have against their own childhood bully#that they haven't gotten over and so they can't accept deku getting over it. bc they can't accept deku not acting like them#ppl just really don't like seeing bkdk as characters with their own arcs. to them bkdk are self-inserts#the self-insertification of midoriya izuku by dudebros must be studied... the revenge fantasies they cook up... it's fascinating#anyway i wouldn't worry about it too much#asks for becki
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happy game 4 of the robe streak™, i will never get tired of it
philadelphia flyers @ florida panthers | 11.9.24 (x)(x)
#aleksander barkov#gustav forsling#dmitry kulikov#jesper boqvist#matthew tkachuk#sam reinhart#tomáš nosek#sergei bobrovsky#niko mikkola#uvis balinskis#jonah gadjovich#anton lundell#eetu luostarinen#florida panthers#2425#game 4 of robes how much funk have those robes built up#very pleased with themselves they dont have to pick out suits huh#BOBBY TAKING THE SHIRT OPTION#i promise you they wont chirp him about it because thats their beloved princess#like oh bobby you have a shirt underneath? you must be cold its okay 🥰🥰🥰#modest KING#mackie will get bullied mercilessly but bobby will only be met with kisses and promises to warm him up#our pretty princess
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#sometimes i’m struck with inspiration and everyone around me must suffer#shen qingqiu#svsss#scum villain’s self saving system#shen yuan#probably. i think it’s him. sj is also fun to bully but not in this same way#mxtx#svsss fanart#mxtx fanart#fanart#artsyfartsy#sketch#sketchbook#daily sketch
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Both my parents actually suffer from HORRID emotional dysregulation and are prone to snapping and going into rages. My sister is the same way tbh. I am now realizing this is why they are constantly baffled by the question of whether or not I am mad at them.
I don't have external meltdowns.
I could. I don't let it happen.
I keep my rage on the inside and stay pretty quiet about it. It's just as strong as theirs [physically shaking nose bleed from high blood pressure kind of bad], but like as a kid I saw how terrifying it was to be around [dad breaking dishes, mom putting our lawn chairs into walls] and I just internalized that I wasn't going to wear that anger on the outside.
So my mother genuinely cannot tell if I am just being quiet or if I am silently hearing the dial-up noises of pure rage. This has lead her to both making strong and confident statements like "You are a pacifist who would never hurt a fly U.U" but also acting like I am secretly dangerous maybe... It's because she has never seen me snap.
She knows what her temper is like [throwing chairs through walls], she knows what my father's temper is like [pick up child and toss out door], and she can tell I am being tested, but she doesn't know what happens when I snap or where that breaking point is.
Her -perhaps unhinged- solution to this, my whole life, has been to do things that should obviously enrage me or shut me down completely, like ignoring important boundaries, repeatedly, punishing me for expressing emotions or needs at all, etc... And then to constantly ask me if I am angry with her when I get too quiet [right after near directly telling me to shut up].
It has occurred to me now, they have never once seen me lose my temper, so they literally just can't tell if I am angry at them. My sister is easy, my mother fights and screams with my sister constantly, my mother understands this. My mother doesn't have any grasp of feelings or boundaries that are not screamed at her [apparently, and I fear my sister is the same way]. Her and my sister are close despite constant fucking fighting because they understand each other.
They are trying to get me to engage the same way and it is not working. I realize now that this has been hard for them.
I was so successfully taught to suppress my emotions, by being punished for any outburst, that rage quiet looks the same as any other kind of quiet from the outside. To them anyway.
I did tell her. For the record. I used my words. I did tell her very calmly that my response to rage, in order to avoid doing the things that terrified me as a child, was to simply leave [the autistic urge to GTFO]. When a situation or person causes too much of the dial-up rage noise, I simply extract myself from that situation, up to and including never speaking to a person again. I explained this calmly. I explained it calmly 100 times and I explained that I explain myself calmly as my rage response 1-5 [also pretty much every other negative emotion tbh], and I told her that what came next was me simply opting out and fucking off. I told her this. I couldn't understand why she never took me seriously, or why she never fucking understood.
I couldn't understand what made her like this.
But it's the same problem I have with everyone else multiplied by a factor of 10.
If I am explaining myself calmly, they can't understand that it's actually serious or that I am actually upset. ESPECIALLY because they read me as "female" and women "aren't that rational" so if I am not screaming and crying about something, which I never do, people assume I can't be upset and it isn't serious.
And then after having my boundaries ignored too many times despite having calmly explained how and why it's a problem [shaking inside or not]... I leave. I leave and everyone gets upset like this is unexpected behaviour, even though I told them 50 times that is how I would respond if they kept doing *the thing.*
And for neurotypical people especially, they are expecting there to be a disconnect between what someone says they need or feel and what their actually boundaries and feelings are, and they expect the latter to be demonstrated with emotions. Telling them bluntly you do not function that way somehow never helps?
My mother isn't just looking for normal yelling or a few tears to know I am serious, whether or not I do those either [I don't], she's looking for an explosion to know there's a problem at all.
Fucked if I know how she proceeds through life this way in general or if this is just her expectation of her own kids???
And I couldn't get why my mother couldn't read my emotions and didn't seem to think I have any. It's because she's testing for the rage limit to see where my 'actual' limit is instead of taking my word for it. Never the fuck mind that she could simply *not* test at my boundaries instead of letting me have them. Separate issue.
I couldn't figure out what made her *like this*
She's expecting me to throw a giant meltdown violent tantrum at people when I have 'actually' had enough. Maybe she got away with those being like 5'4" in another time, but I am the size of the average man, I do not get to have giant screaming rages, whether or not people perceive me consciously as a woman, and least of all because a lot of people -at least unconsciously- read me as 'masculine' or at least always "they guy" of the situation compared to all other women and some men [bigger stronger and more rational, more able to just absorb the damage and let it go so the less rational screaming/crying one doesn't have to be dealt with]. Even if it was in me to be willing to terrify people [usually never], there are such limited instances where it wouldn't just blow back on me. Potentially very dangerously.
I am going to be the quiet calm one. You are going to have to let me use my words, bitch.
So she kept ignoring my boundaries until I had to cut her out of my life, and she probably doesn't understand and probably thinks it feels sudden -after 36 long years of bullshit- abrupt and unfair.
But I told her hundreds of times.
I probably should have just screamed at her.
#good stay out of our yard' and he didn't seem to know what to say to that#but other than that I don't think anyone in my adult life has ever seen me turn aggressive at all to the point where people 100% like to#play games of testing my patience and my boundaries because they think my tolerance is infinite#but like I have autistic rage tantrums on both sides of my family and they are just happening inside my head#And somehow it took me until now to realize that being that way was actually -expected- of me by my parents and especially my mother#and that by keeping myself outwardly level headed to be considerate I actually took away whatever signals she can understand#to have empathy for how I must be feeling#I mean it's still all on her#but it makes so much sense of why she's fucking *like this*#And why my sister thinks I hate her just because -she- stopped texting -me-#but that fucking guy#Every time I was like#In my adult life I have screamed at someone ONE whole time and it was 1000% deserved#And I threw heavy objects around one whole other time and in my defense I didn't do it in front of the guy he just felt the ground shaking#heard the thuds and came back to the logs blocking his path because that fucker wouldn't stop parking in our yard after being asked#and then TOLD not to about 10 times because he was acting entitled to just park in our yard and was crushing my plants???#seriously I don't know what his deal was but he wouldn't stop telling me how much the ground shaking scared him like it was supposed#to get my pity like I think this guy took one look at the logs I had just tossed down and was suddenly afraid of this “woman” he was#bullying in their own yard and so my ability to feel bad for scaring him had gone straight out the fucking window#I looked at him and said stop parking in our yard instead of your own you are killing my plants#he'd just fucking be like 'well the last people to live here let us D: :)“ and I'd be like ”good for them?“ ”stop“#and he'd just keep doing it#I was having a week of insomnia and was finally having the best dream#the kind of sex dream you have like twice in your life#and this fucker had just gotten some noisy ass little bike with a spoiler on it#and starts it up right under my window at 3am from IN OUR FUCKING YARD#so I had a nice long anger nap and just after he got home from work and was sleeping in his house#I picked up these chunks of deadwood tree from the back#there was like 3-4 logs that used to be a WHOLEASS fucking oak tree Like these logs were not as heavy as they -looked- but they were still#this fucker deleted half the tags I wrote and I am not retyping that fuck you tumblr so fucking hard
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