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embers-scheduled-disappointing · 9 months ago

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id slightly like a hug

won't get a really nice one for a while

#from a certain person #but we haven't spoke that much recently #But I need to get a life outside #And stop overthinking shit #ember's pwecious thoughts

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poorly-drawn-mdzs · 1 month ago

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Have you seen my little lad?

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#poorly drawn mdzs #mdzs #wei wuxian #jin zixun #Everytime I have to write his name I feel like I'm running outside in a blood rain trying not to get wet. Misspelling it feels so inevitabl #But so far so good! He doesn't have too many more appearances before he gets Cheesed.#Dear god I love it when characters go on the war path for someone they care about.#And I love it even more when you have an ambiguity between personal debt and genuine act of selflessness.#WWX saving WN is purposefully messy! Like a lot of our real life reasons for how we act - there isn't a clear single cause or answer.#Sometimes we forget that we are a collection of experiences and learnt reactions.#Sometimes we forget that what we see on the surface is not the point to address. Everyone is more complex than we think. Even yourself.#And yet...it always comes back to love doesn't it? Attachment styles and self-esteem and bonds and relationships to others.#Everything comes back to love and our perceptions of it.#WWX is on a self-destructive war path and he will absorb as much damage as he can for those he feels obligated and attached to.#Does it make him feel needed? Does it give him purpose? Does it ease anxieties of the past? I do not think there is an answer.

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mohntilyet · 2 months ago

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continued rook-lucanis sketches from the last week or so <3

#if it looks like i only draw lucanis its untrue. im actually cutting out a lot of rook backstory specific doodles. ..#<- guy who can only draw either her rook or lucanis rn #the other companions i will get to you. neve especially lord in heaven #lucanis dellamorte #rookanis #rook #tyche laidir #spite #my art #dragon age #dav spoilers #anyways anyone else really think that rialto bay is just so romantic with how it bridges antiva and rivain i personally cant stop thinking!#i need to have this game i need to understand what becomes of rook and him. a woman who loves the sea so dearly that lucanis suddenly #cannot bear to take her away from it. lucanis who could not imagine his life outside the crows and how could she ask he leave illario behin #two people so obsessed with their job and their lives that even their endearments relate to it #two people who love their birthrights. which one of them is supposed to be able to give that up?#desperately need something bittersweet AND BEFORE I JINX IT I DONT MEAN IN A TRAITOR WAY.#there is a reason i named their playlist pregrieving

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blueskittlesart · 2 months ago

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*sigh* thoughts on Nintendo's botw/totk timeline shenanigans and tomfoolery?

tbh. my maybe-unpopular opinion is that the timeline is only important when a game's place on the timeline seriously informs the way their narrative progresses. the problem is that before botw we almost NEVER got games where it didn't matter. it matters for skyward sword because it's the beginning, and it matters for tp/ww/alttp (and their respective sequels) because the choices the hero of time makes explicitly inform the narrative of those games in one way or another. it matters which timeline we're in for those games because these cycles we're seeing are close enough to oot's cycle that they're still feeling the effects of his choices. botw, however, takes place at minimum 10 thousand years after oot, so its place on the timeline actually functionally means nothing. botw is completely divorced from the hero of time & his story, so what he does is a nonissue in the context of botw link and zelda's story. thus, which timeline botw happens in is a nonissue. honestly I kind of liked the idea that it happened in all of them. i think there's a cool idea of inevitability that can be played with there. but the point is that the timeline exists to enhance and fill in the lore of games that need it, and botw/totk don't really need it because the devs finally realized they could make a game without the hero of time in it.

#i really do have a love-hate relationship with this timeline #because it's FASCINATING lore. genuinely. and i think it carries over the themes of certain games REALLY well #but i also think it's indicative of a trend in loz's writing that has REALLY annoyed me for a long time #which is this intense need to cling to oot #and on a certain level i get it. that was your most successful game probably ever. and it was an AMAZING game.#and i think there's definitely some corporate profit maximization tied up in this too--oot was an insane commercial success therefore you'r #not allowed to make new games we need you to just remake oot forever and ever #and that really annoys me because it makes certain games feel disjointed at best and barely-coherent at worst.#i think the best zelda games on the market are the ones where the devs were allowed to really push what they were working with #oot. majora. botw. hell i'd even put minish cap in there #these are games that don't quite follow what was the standard zelda gameplay at their time of release. they were experimental in some way #whether that be with graphics or puzzle mechanics or open-world or the gameplay premise in its entirety. there's something NEW there #and because the devs of those games were given that level of freedom the gameplay really enforces the narrative. everything feels complete #and designed to work together. as opposed to gameplay that feels disjointed or fights against story beats. you know??#so I think that the willingness to allow botw and totk to exist independently from the timeline is good at the very least from a developmen #standpoint because it implies a willingness to. stop making shitty oot remakes and let developers do something interesting.#and yes i do very much fear that the next 20 years of zelda will be shitty BOTW remakes now #in which botw link appears and undergoes the most insane character assassination youve ever seen in your life #but im trying to be optimistic here. if botw/totk can exist outside the timeline then we may no longer be stuck in the remake death loop #and i'm taking eow as a good sign (so far) that we're out of the death loop!! because that game looks NOTHING like botw or oot.#fingers crossed!!#anyway sorry for the game dev rant but tldr timeline good except when it's bad #asks #zelda analysis

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slavhew · 4 months ago

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toodeee

everything is transient. only an easy to draw guy is forever

#gorillaz #2d #stuart pot #gorillaz 2d #admin draws #fanart #needed a palate cleanser from my current fixation. came back to my roots #lore that i dont really get to talk about a lot outside of dms is that gorillaz is like a cornerstone of my art lol esp post 2018 #ive had 4 main inspirations which are gorillaz phases 2-3. soul eater. homestuck. and a friend of mine. he knows who he is.#come to think of it 2018 is in some ways the year i really started drawing. 3/4 inspirations walked into my life that year #bc of this when i went to make a separate blog for art it became part of my username. slav-hewlett #ive had several dreams in which jamie hewlett just is there and gives me art advice and a few kind words. damon is usually there too #theyre a pack deal do not separate etc. those dreams are always really nice.#contrary to how much i draw 2d mudz is my favorite. its just that dear ol stu is very fun and much easier to draw #i should give murdoc a fair shot though. now that ive got the chops. theres been attempts thru the year but none were posted

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faaun · 7 months ago

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last night i got home kind of tipsy and very much in tears and my mother told me the force you exert to keep someone in your life is proportional to the force with which they will leave your life. if you have to fight tooth and claw to keep them, their leaving will be just as hard, just as harsh, and just as definite.

#she said it like a law. its just momentum.#also she told me to get a therapist and start archery ASAP bc i need to get it together #and also she said even granting that this person u were in love w was So Special . as in hot motorcycle-riding iranian masc lesbian in ldn #they arent the only one on earth and that once i start my proper adult life outside of studies etc etc i will probably no longer live in th #UK. she said most non straight iranians u would like have left the country anyway . where do you think they went? theyre out there #and also she asked me to imagine how many hot gay iranians there may be in italy or amsterdam or smth and i was like ok points 😭 maybe #ur right. anyway i was having a feeling of dread bc crying into the arms of ur strict asian mother while buzzed usually results in #death chaos destruction etc in the next few days but actually i think maybe she has genuinely changed as a person and the fear is #unwarranted #anyway i need to eat breakfast and study w the date person i met yesterday #they are so nice ??? genuinely so so sweet i dont feel attracted to them at all omg i genuinely think i have a thing for hot evil ppl 😭#but we could b besties . theyre a lot more romantic than the ex situationship person too like generally . ugh they should be perfect but #alas it appears i am shallow as fuck or potentially a lesbian actually #OH THEY MIGHT ALSO BE POTENTIALLY A LESBIAN BTW #i think i just tend to not date cis ppl entirely by accident #....feel free to rb if u want btw sorry for the rant

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un-monstre · 1 year ago

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Izzy is SO lucky that he works for Blackbeard and his job is to stand around looking menacing in black leather. Imagine if he was that intense about managing a gift shop.

#He needs to get a life outside work. I think we all could #ofmd

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mariana-oconnor · 1 year ago

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The fact that there is no dialogue with Karlach where Tav can suggest that she and Dammon maybe get to know each other a little better is tragic to me.

I want to set up my friend with the sweet tiefling blacksmith. LET ME SET THEM UP.

#BG3 #Baldur's Gate 3 #Karlach Cliffgate #Dammon #Karlach x Dammon #We've got a whole conversation about 'anyone in mind' for the kissing thing #but no way to suggest anyone #Wyll can absolutely join them #But he's got to sort out some daddy issues first #I also want to be able to suggest that Shadowheart and Lae'zel should get a room with only one bed #and sort out their differences the traditional fanfic way #But alas I cannot #Don't want to set Astarion up with anyone #I think he needs to work out who he is after 200 years of being a puppet before he jumps into a relationship #but if he wants to regain his bodily autonomy through life-affirming sex - he and Halsin could totally do that #And obviously Operation: Woo Wizard Get Library means that Gale is spoken for #I will have that library #Though if I weren't set on the library I'd definitely be on the 'Gale needs time before he throws himself into another relationship' train #Man needs to stop basing decisions on his partner's approval and learn to define himself outside of a relationship #He is Kenough #That is too many tags #Sorry #Qd

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jemmo · 7 months ago

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so gmmtv only does 3 genres of bl now: school, workplace and crime

#do they understand that like… adults can have relationships outside of their job???#not everything needs to be a hr violation you know #adults do know people outside of their workplace #and you can write interesting and thrilling stories about that #like I get it these shows are all about romanticising these parts of life we find boring ie school and work #but for once i wanna see adult bls that are outside of an office #like that’s not even what all work is give us range #gmmtv 2024

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dykedvonte · 12 days ago

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Something something perhaps the reason Curly lacks a truly undamaged ID where his face is visible is to represent how much damage Jimmy had already affected on him throughout their relationship and the way Curly obscured part of who he is and what he stood to unintentionally cater to this toxic influence in his life.

#I think there is something to say that most people draw post crash curly and may not have every drawn him pre crash #and I think it says something that we only really look at the characters substantially in relation to Jimmy and not their own merits #unless we are discussing how J I M M Y mischarcterizes them cause in this #since we don’t assign a face and identify to Curly’s actions outside of Jimmy until the end their is the question of how much we are viewing #them as separate entities rather than intertwined actions cause while the flipping #of who we play at shows them and parallels and in separable in terms of the story going down #they couldn’t be drastically more different in thinking and you only really realize that at the birthday scene where Curly felt the need to #take responsibility for something while Jimmy just felt the need to take #this is also more so me thinking about all the reason people think Curly and Jimmy could be friends but they are missing the point of Jimmy #and his dynamic there is nothing severely weird or sinister about Curly or his intentions it’s that he’s well meaning to a fault #he’s an average dude having a mid life crisis and Jimmy is a guy that takes advantage of good intentions like the idea #that curly has to be like Jimmy in some way personality humor morally is the exact sort of projection Jimmy wants #to happen and does like it’s the sad and real case that sometimes people just have friends like Jimmy that they can’t cut off for one reason #or another like it’s not highly philosophical people are friends with objective assholes but it’s less about them #and more about the person feeling some obligation to stay like I feel like crafting him into #being more morally grey is to just make it easier to be angrier or think someone with more of a backbone #could of done something but it’s not even that he was spineless he was just too distracted and sometimes that feel like cowardice like even #Swansea waited it’s just the sad truth of how people avoid people like Jimmy or setting them off #sometimes it just does more harm than good I just am so bored with all the takes #acting like there was a perfect man on that ship and that any one outside of Anya knew the exact type of guy Jimmy #was from the get go like the point is other men wouldn’t in rape culture but women and their victims already know #mouthwashing #mouthwashing game #curly mouthwashing #jimmy mouthwashing #throwing rocks at Jimmy

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sammygender · 5 months ago

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i’ve never been as angry on behalf of a character as i am for sam winchester

#currently thinking about season four and five. absolutely fuckibg mental #the world literally reshapes itself around him to prove him wrong #its all framed as God. Sam was so stupid and selfish and reckless for drinking demon blood. He just liked the power of it and he chose a #DEMON over DEAN.#but. that’s not the story they tell in s4.#like even aside from every single other complexity. Sam is literally right. he has ZERO WAY of knowing that killing lilith is the final seal #AND DEAN DOESNT KNOW TJAT EITHER. like sam is literally right he can kill lilith and he does kill lilith. dean wants lilith dead just as #much. sam’s cardinal sin is disobeying dean and then the world flips around on him and plot twist sam and dean were both wrong all along and #killing lilith is what will bring back lucifer :)#but. it’s not framed like that either. it’s framed like SAM BROUGHT BACK LUCIFER BY KILLING LILITH WHILE HIGH ON DEMON BLOOD #dean you wanted to kill lilith too?????????#but. doesn’t matter dean despite being mostly motivated by jealous anger is retroactively proven to be Right #and sam is retroactively proven to be Wrong. he is bad #i just. jesus. sam’s not evil ever. he’s hardly even that fucking morally grey #and he still thinks there’s something wrong with him that he’s a freak that he’s inherently evil and needs to be purified #why?? cause of something fucked up that happened to him when he was a baby #and because he’s disobeyed his father and his brother and been angry at awful things that have happened to him #makes me feel fucking insane actually #no wonder narrative frames sam as evil no wonder he’s inherently marked as Bad by the forces in supernatural like even on a meta level #in supernatural gods just another shitty father. embodiment of the familial patriarch. and from sam’s very first moment on the show he’s in #opposition to that he’s ran away from john and he argues with dean. therefore he is evil #i don’t think my words r really making sense right now but. fucking hell #and sam is so swamped in guilt all of season five and he just fucking accepts that everything bad is his fault #and he gets tortured in the cage to save the fucking world and it’s STILL not enough. not to appease his own guilt and not to appease deans #anger at him. dean is still throwing his perceived violations back at him in like season nine!!#and whenever he tries to get out it’s treated as yet another Sin. narrative acts like sam thinking dean was dead and having a life outside #of hunting is The Worst Thing He Ever Did #worst sin sam ever commits in the eyes of the show is disobedience. Absolutely awful actually #spn #sam winchester

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poorly-drawn-mdzs · 1 year ago

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Introvert adoption

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#poorly drawn mdzs #mdzs #wei wuxian #wen ning #jiang cheng #(The actual name of this season 2 extra is 'First meeting with Wen Ning' but I ran out of space.)#I am obligated to try and wiggle in Wen Ning scenes whenever I can. Our baby boy needs his screentime to grow big and strong.#This whole scene is very good and does a lot to show us several important traits about wwx:#1) He has no hesitation to put his own face or life at risk to help someone (even if they have never met).#2) He does not care for what others say or think about him; he will do what he thinks is right.#And he is smart enough to think is is always right about his judgement. This will be a problem later.#I also think the silly energy in this scene is top notch.#Wen Ning is the wild chipmunk wwx managed to catch and wants to keep as a pet.#Jiang Cheng is gently easing this boy out of wwx's extrovert maw and saying 'put him back outside'.#Can you imagine being blindsided by the full force of wwx out of nowhere? Getting his support and then archery tips?#You're done. You've been caught in his snare and you aren't getting out.

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blighted-lights · 4 months ago

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"ravage lives" au where ravage asks buzzsaw to join her on the lost light when the rest of the crew makes the split-universe jump at the end of lost light. they sneak onto the ship last minute, knowing that there is a high likelihood that at least one version of themselves will never be able to return to their earth or cybertron ever again. (but it's not even their cybertron anymore, is it? it's functionalist cybertron). ravage and buzzsaw get a second chance at a new life away from everything that tied them to their past; every filled grave, every empty seat at the table, every hurt and failure and devastating loss.

it's a new chance for them, with new people, in a new universe. but it'll never feel as full or as right as it used to in their own.

(added an unrelated sketch of them bc i can >:))

#transformers #maccadam #maccadams #blight rambles #transformers idw #idw transformers #tf idw #tf idw1 #idw1 #ravage #tf ravage #mtmte ravage #idw ravage #transformers ravage #buzzsaw #tf buzzsaw #idw buzzsaw #transformers buzzsaw #cassetticons #tf cassettes #hey can you tell im normal about these two specifically can you tell #theyre all they have left... the last of the group. even if rumble and frenzy are still alive she and buzz are the last of their original #group. and they each lost “their person”. buzz lost laserbeak and rav lost soundwave. but at least they have each other #i need more of the cassettes being friends and caring about each other outside of their dynamic with soundwave please god #rav and buzz get their own room on the lost light. they spend most of their time with the scavangers or with drift or megatron #they return to as close to civilian life as they can. it doesnt last of course but for a while they are together and they are almost at #peace

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cator99 · 4 months ago

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out of curiosity, would you consider yourself butch?

used to be a blonde underweight twink and now I'm a based jock still got the chanel bag and the sick albeit matured mind of a suckpig to prove it so I'm gonna let you decide whether you wanna call me that word just cuz I got a pussy and short hair. I promise you that there have been enough advancements made in the art of lesbian sexual dynamics in the past 50 years to broaden the vocabulary used to describe the plethora of types of masculine females.

#being called butch just reminds me of how much males have the freedom to navigate between male archetypes and how people pay attention to #the distinguishing features of these varying masculinities #but when a female is seen as masculine it all gets lumped under the “butch” category #her masculinity is seen as unnatural and therefore incapable of being considered genuine or taken at face value as it is with males.#its always brought into question instead of taken in consideration with the rest of the woman's life and experiences and her particularities #Hence... Butch is still being treated as though its a huge lesbian cultural phenomena instead of a specific niche thing #also i dont mean to invite the “you dont pass!!” anons again bc that idiot is missing my point entirely (which is that im truly not trying)#but the fact is that for the past 3 years i have found myself increasingly navigating the male social world #and discovering what it means to me as a female to have access to the ability to take my “masculinity” for granted... relax #forget about it #etc #i think thats entirely antithetical to the Butch thing which seems to rest on the tension of other peoples expectations of her #people broadly are more surprised to find out that im interested in women just as much as they're surprised that im a gym queen iykwim...#ive worked hard for this and now that ive gotten the Woman Social Role thing pretty much entirely out of the way i am living the dream #i think a large part of that is learning as a dyke to appropriate the language of gay men theres a reason their terminology had #staying power even when their scene was *literally* dying meanwhile all that seemed to survive from dyke spaces was butch n femme ??#its because theirs didnt necessitate the building and maintenance of a scene in order for the subculture to hold its head above water #their labels *largely* weren't predicated on their relationships to gender roles and its telling that for dykes it was #their labels rested on the need to simply show up anonymous n be able to easily flag whether they were looking to fuck or be fucked #alongside the set of circumstances under which they would be fucking or getting fucked or what have you #it all comes back to the restrictions of female social blah blah blah and i think the sooner we collectively set down what we see as our #responsibility as lesbians and as feminists to Be A Woman the sooner we can step outside of that #n start thinking clearly about our individual circumstances and the necessity of putting on your own oxygen mask first before helping others

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griem · 3 months ago

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ijbol idk man releasing screenshots of very polarizing things said in a private discord server between friends in a public "callout" post is #the most #tumblrific thing ive ever seen LOL.

#opinion 😱 in tags

#our life #gb patch #gb patch games #our life beginnings & always #i also think it should be acknowledged that the white queer 'experience' and the black queer 'experience' are totally different #bc there are multiple occasions where GBLady has recieved an ask where shes accused of Something bc of a super specific issue #this whole situation is just the biggest case of GetOverYourself ive ever seen icl #i think rose is entitled to their opinion as a black trans person + a person who previously identified as a trans man #i think its easy to attack rose as an inflammatory person who 'purposely incites discourse' bc they dont use that super-pacifying #everyone is welcome on my blog tone that if not used is immediately interpreted by white people as hostility and rudeness #i don't agree with a lot of their takes that ive seen on their blog that were allegedly posted BEFORE they became a sensitivity reader #but irdgaf #bc its their personal blog and theyre entitled to their opinion and i don't believe u get to feel insulted or slighted #or deem them as unprofessional and inflammatory just bc they didnt speak to u on their personal blog as Nicely as u wanted them to #i just think this all leads back to a growing sense of entitlement in the gb patch fan community #esp among the our life fans #just bc this is a deeply customizable game doesn't mean that the dev can customize Every Single Thing to ur liking #it also doesn't mean that ignorance on the devs part or the staffs part in most capacities is purposefully discriminatory in nature #like no offence but wdym 'ur hands are shaking and u need to get offline' bc of all of This... please grow up and go outside #also This is controversial but a lot of yall use the fact that GBLady is a white cis woman who happens to b writing stories #with a very diverse and nuanced cast to railroad ur ideals on how the characters should b written #and if they don't meet Your personal experience as a member of that marginalized community then They are automatically written incorrectly #again just a very entitled community IJBOL #idgaf if u disagree come and kill me over it 🤷🏾‍♀️#but also im very curious abt what people think !! 👁#i also dk how to phrase this but the white gb patch community also Reeks of this strange entitlement and i hate to say it but . . .#Sensitivity ??#they have this weird almost parasocial relationship with GBLady + this fantastical relationship with the characters themselves #LOL idk if anybody gets what i mean

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remarkablebookbean · 5 months ago

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Tbh if the mha villains end up dead without good conclusions I’m rioting

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