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greppelheks · 3 months ago

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Good day tomorrow: alone all day!

#I'm grateful for the people I have around me #I've been making myself do more stuff with people for the past few weeks #And I've been having fun and I've been feeling better because of it #And I'm grateful for the new experiences and memories #But God being around others is tiring #I'm happy to be completely alone for a full day #It's been..... two weeks since I've had a day with zero human interaction #Incredibly rare for me #But also something I'm happy about #Personal

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laugtherhyena · 3 months ago

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Okay so maybe the wrinkly split head devil isn't the Aging devil itself, since it being called aging definitelly feels like a mistranslation and and public safety wanting to erase old age by sacrificing the younger generation fits the point the chapter is trying to get across much nicer than if the devil was aging itself (+ if you think about it for 2 seconds erasing aging as a whole is a terrible fucking idea since no one will be able to grow anything anymore and people will be stuck as babies and kids forever whereas erasing old age should just make people not age past adulthood and probably cause people who are already elderly to just dissapear on the spot)

But that doesn't mean i'm keeping Cherryboy the exact same because if old age specifically is enough to achieve primal fear level then aging as a whole has gotta be one too. So hooray! someone's getting a slight revamp in the future :)

#i'm not changing his storyline in part one nor his design but his overall backstory will change slightly #but in his main design he is now the Aging fiend instead of straight up devil. i'll definitelly cook up a full devil design for him later #and you know him being a primal fear is fun because i had this idea that even after dying Cherry retains a sliver of his memories #from past iterations. if he is that strong of a devil then he can probably do that #and i can use this as an excuse to why i never made designs for him in hell :) i've got some fun ideas brewing #basic idea so far is that Cherry has a fascination with watching life (basically aging and its effects on living beings) even tho he has #hardly any attachment to life itself. dying is just a part of it same as growing old and such he doesn't feel anything when it happens #to other people and also himself #but being an enormously powerful devil in hell he can only watch this dance of life and death from afar as an outside observer #so after god knows how long he grows tired of sitting there in hell and kills himself to be reborn on earth #and immediatelly goes out of his way to become a fiend. severely weakening his strenght but bringing him closer to the lesser beings #by doing so. and now he can observe life from upclose and interact with the other creatures roaming around. which is something he finds #immense enjoyment in #think like a god that roleplays as a human every once in a while just because they're bored. and when they die they go back to godhood #so thats why all of Cherry's versions on earth are these dudes w animal skulls. little fiends #he can be strong and all-powerful when this life is over. and in hell he will look back at it quite fondly #csm #csm oc #chainsaw man #csm spoilers #csm part 2 #Cherry #hyena ramblings

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popstart · 4 months ago

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the moment people stop being comically against courtney is the day i stop making fun of them for being weird and wrong. stop being weird about a fictional character in ways that are hilariously stupid and ill stop calling you hilariously stupid

#people see my posts and vauge post about it saying UM WELL I DONT HATE COURTNEY SO WHY DID YOU SAY THAT #im not fucking talking about you oh my gOD IM SO TIRED OF SEEING IT. sorry i try to be normal but why have discussions around her regressed #like its gotten so much worse WHYYY OH MY GODDD. “omfg courtney fans always jump to courtney haters being misogynists”#no i jump to you being a fucking weirdo for caring so much which makes me raise my eyebrows #i literally enjoy other people having different opinions about characters i like and dislike bc everyone echoing me would be so boring #but people never like her for the valid reasons there are to dislike her and jump on her in crazy fucking ways. BEEE NORMALLL BE FUCKING N #ps talks #jesus fuck i try not to say shit like this over and over and over again because; again; i dont like seeing my own opinions everywhere #i dont want people to see my opinions and repeat it every 5 seconds even though i dont think i have that much influence #its just when i see people posting about my posts saying that im weird for defending a character so hard it drives me nuts bc #it feels like people lost the damn plot so hard. you have to reach so far to think i fucking care if people dislike courtney BECAUSE I DONT #IVE SAOID THIS 5 BILLION TIMES I ENJOY SEEING CHARACTERS IN DIFFERENT LIGHT. AS LONG AS YOUR OPINION ISNT FUCKING WEIRD #sorry im getting so annoyed i need to go to sleep i havent eaten anything in like 20 hours

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soyoudneverguess · 1 year ago

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SPOILERS THE SILT VERSES 36

This is a little bit of a live blog

HEART BROKEN HOLY FUCK

RELATIONSHIP ENDED WITH THE JOY OF HAYWARD AND CARPENTER FUCKING AROUND, RELATIONSHIP STARTED WITH THE TRAGEDY OF SEB AND DEV MY LOVES MY DARLINGS MY AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH MEAN MEAN MEAN YOU MOTHERFUCKERS ARE SO MEAN CANT THEY JUST BE HAPPY CANT THEY AKNDKDNFKEBDUEHFBKDLXNDHDJDBEJDBDJDNEBEBDNNDKDNDJDBDNDNDKKDKDKFKRKRBRJSJBDHDIEBJ DE IEKRJJDHJEE DE

Anyways, happiness is fleeting but “hold on Dev, I’m coming” for a man you’ve known for days who’ve you loved almost upon first sight.

HOLY HOLY HOLY HOLY SHIT HES ALIVE SEB IS SO POWERFUL SEB SEB SEB SEB SEB YOU FUCKING DID IT OH MY GOD MY LOVE DEV DEV DEV DEV DEV YOU MET A MAN AND HE FELL IN LOVE WITH YOU AND HE WENT INTO HELL FOR YOU AND SAVED YOUR SISTER AND AND AND EVERYTHING IS GOING TO BE OKAY NOW YOU KNOW EVERYTHING IS GOING TO BE BETTER FOR BOTH OF US

Oh bitch. Oh you fucking bitch. I’m. I. Yeah. It truly was too good to be real.

#tsv 36 #tsv spoilers #the silt verses #i’m going to kill someone #they were so good #two people taking shelter in the other #and in the end they both die.#perhaps this is simply a foreshadowing moment #you go off looking for a sibling. you find someone who you can take comfort in. who understands you.#but neither of you are safe. and the comfort you take in one another turns false. and you both are cursed after.#I would like to also see this episode as a way to view how the general public is feeling #they’re tired of gods. they’re tired of being prey. but if they don’t comply they are drafted and die. if they do die they’re dead anyway #it’s just the truth of this world.#you are prey. you will always be prey.#your death is only significant to you #and the ship that passed by in the night. that sunk trying to help.#carpenter admitted she was wrong this episode and it felt significant #ALSO ALSO ALSO #Dev was way more impactful on Seb then the other way around #Seb yearned for him. for company. to not be lonely.#Dev yearned for family. his most perfect world has him and his sister and his parents #there was no room for Seb #god #they died together. seb died to save dev. and yet

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sysig · 1 year ago

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He’s my little meow meow, my darling, my bbygirl (Patreon)

#Doodles #Commander Peepers #I'm soooooo normal about him you guys <3 So normal! <3 <3 #*Looking back over the other Little Guys I've collected* Hmmmmmmm Evil Xisuma and Spamton and Sableye and Rick Diggins #I think there might be a theme here #Just casually making Venn Diagrams in my head - Evil X has the red/black - Spamton is trans - Sableye has Gremlin energy - Rick is too tired #And those are just the ones I can think of lol - if you look I did the same stretchy pose with EX when I was still drawing him lol #The Stretch Pose is how you can tell if I like a character lol - they stretchin'? I am infatuated <3 #I mean I'm normal I'm totally normal lol #Also had to give him a bbygrl pose - I for the life of me cannot find it again but the reference is very strong in my mind's eye!#Not that I couldn't go for another one at some point lol ♪#Ugh the middle one lol - so that Word of God I mentioned in passing about female Watchdogs #I read it in passing as just a basic research of ''Oh here's what The Original Creator has to say alright neat''#Except that it Immediately made me itchy and I was like ''What. What brain this is not that big of a deal what are you doing''#And I was like ''No I'm being silly about this - just because I don't agree doesn't mean it's a big deal lol''#Except then I had stress dreams and woke up Weird the next day and the last time that happened I left a fandom #And the time before that I wrote 4 consecutive pages of 20-something panels in like 18 hours of consciousness - I have normal reactions lol #But I opted instead to vent to smol about it and she agreed with me so basically I'm just saying I'm correct lol /s #Personally Peepers doesn't strike me as misogynistic - he's very much an Equal Opportunity villain in my eyes!#And yeah I considered a lot of different angles around it but like - based on the text of WOY I just don't buy it #If it's not in the show it doesn't count! For all we know there might not even be any female Watchdogs! Lol #Would also lead to the equally-to-Spamton interesting question of How Does Trans Work in that kind of situation #I've definitely not already put a lot of thought into it don't look at me lol #Don't ask me to write an essay about both of those things I'll do it and where will that leave us lol #ANYway lol ♪ He's still the absolute funnest to draw in distress and discomfort <3 And kneeling! He makes me want to practice :D #I always feel like I can try again and do better! >:3c

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askewhammer · 9 months ago

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"I hate smokers!!!" alright in what way. do you hate the smoke or..? oh you hate them as people. alright explain to me why you hate someone as a person who most likely has an addiction they likely cannot control. also is this hatred towards them also directed towards other people who have addictions with drugs, alcohol, gambling, etc? do you view them as people or do you dehumanize them. answer quickly

#seriously im so tired of people being like “we should understand addicts and support them!!!” and then pull a 180 and berate smokers #like just because smoking cigarettes are fairly common does NOT mean that it cant form into an addiction.#also don't pull up w the “i know smokers who smoke around other people inside!!!” i also know smokers that smoke outside no matter what #and i know smokers that stop smoking inside once you tell them to stop.#an addiction is an addiction and we shouldnt treat people terribly because of that addiction and we should instead help them #like god #and i get theres smokers that still smoke inside no matter what and act like dicks but theres still an addiction there buddy. yeah theyre #a bitch and you can justifiably talk shit right back at them bc talk shit get hit but dont invalidate their struggle #and also to group every smoker into a stereotype that theyre snotty dicks is dehumanizing as well #this post will probably flop considering how ppl on tumblr treat them

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gender-euphowrya · 6 months ago

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spell of explode all transphobes Activate

#god i'm tired fkfhdj #i just want some kind of like #Worldwide Rule where you're not allowed to talk about shit you know nothing about #like. oh you have an opinion on trans people ? how much do you know about the effects of hrt ?#can you cite an accurate statistic about the rate of detransition ? have you researched what puberty blockers are ?#have you met and talked to a transgender person before ? a psychologist who has worked with trans patients ?#can you give a broad definition of the word ''non-binary'' ? do you know what a pronoun is ? have you heard of stonewall ?#can you name even one trans man ?#fail any of those and Sorry you gotta shut up now you're not qualified for this conversation #apply to any topic. racism. the climate. palestine. fatphobia. etc #too many damn people are comfortable parading around their Terribly Uninformed takes for other dipshits to parrot and spread #like i'm sorry but if you can't even tell me what tucking is why should i listen ? why should anyone #like this isn't even in-depth understanding i'm demanding it's literally the fucking basics #at they very least. if you don't know shit. then fucking say so.#''i think __ but i'm not an expert and i could be wrong'' something like that #rather than ''I THINK __ FOR NO GOOD REASON JUST GUT FEELING AND I'LL NEVER CHANGE MY MIND''#just being louder than the people correcting your blatant misinformation doesn't fucking cut it. it shouldn't.

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volivolition · 6 months ago

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its been cool trying to come up with personal skills. Songbird (creative outlets like art and song) is currently being smothered with a pillow by Nightingale (rest, sleepiness, chronic fatigue)

#chemi chats #most of my skills have multiple names. Songbird is named after my choir days but she's also known as ''Bardling'' and ''Inkwell'' :]#Nightingale is also ''Chamomile'' when he's being sweet/''Nightshade'' when he's fucking Evil Fatigue Mode/''Lethargy'' in general #they are often. fighting with each other. because Songbird wants to art but whoops Nightshade is MAKING THE BODY SLEEPY. AGAIN.#a lot of them are opposed to each other actually. it's confliction central up in here babyyyy as skills love being hkjh #ough my god im so fucking. TIRED. anyway! ive got shit to do so chill out nightshade!! or like dont chill out. do the opposite of chill out #[Deadsprint running around banging pots and pans really loudly] WAKE UP!! WAKE UP!!!! ITS ART TIME!!!!#🕊️#🍵

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enigmasandepiphanies · 1 year ago

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I think some of y'all (people in uni) were never 15 and read, "we accept the love we think we deserve" and sobbed while reading perks of being a wallflower and it shows

#gift giving is not a competition to some of us bestie #love is not conditional #dont make me overwhelmed by making our mutual friends bday a fucking competition #thank god her best friend also agrees and we are both her best friends so we know #but just why are people so #like this insecurity with love is so insane #people who want to see your love will see your love at the end of the day and if they don't keep being the lighthouse around please #anyway in other good news spoke to the cool batchmate i always wanted to talk more with and she was also like bro i love having convos with #you lets hangout and so we ate dinner walked and talked about history partition cultural stories my ex friend's bisexuality crisis which was #so similar to hers also takked about my cultural crisis family stories her firefly house urdu poetry her boyfriend my career pospects #so yayy i guess but so tired presentation was good prof questioned a lot cause he literally knows my source text authors its his friend in #uni and this girl said he'll take us out for drinks on last day of course so yayyyyyyy #my roomie and her bf constantly talk eh that is but i am gonna shower play my playlist till i sleep #today has been something but atleast i will have dinner with a new person tomorrow as well so yayyyy #life is just being very overwhelmed lately and i just hope people i love know that i love them and i am missing them even though #they live a floor above from me or live miles away too actually #eni life stories

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seventh-district · 12 days ago

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#vent #vent post #cw negative #Seven’s Public Diary #wish i wasn’t so fucking worthless and useless and stupid and selfish and mean #i am just so goddamn sick of my own bullshit. but i never change #i’m so tired of being weighed down by my 56492 mental illnesses. i don’t like being like this #my sleep schedule is so fucked up again and im tired of this constant cycle #this constant fight and endless effort to stay on a goddamn routine #all i want for christmas is a goddamn consistent sleep schedule #i hate sleeping through the day and being up all night but it’s like my body was fucking built for that or something #i don’t like it!! i want to be an early bird who goes to bed at 8pm and wakes up before the sun rises!!! but im the exact opposite!!!!!!!#i wish i just didn’t need to sleep at all. that would be the ideal. so many problems would be solved.#no i Really wish i just had the ability to fall asleep and wake up whenever i actually Want To instead of my body calling the shots #fell asleep at 9 this morning and im so mad that i didn’t get up when i was woken up at 11 #a 2hr nap would’ve been fine and i would’ve made it through the rest of the day and been able to fucking sleep again tonight #but noOOooOoOo i had to give in to the allure of my warm cozy bed and fall back asleep for 9 more goddamn hours #now once again im too awake and rested to be able to go back to sleep. but once morning rolls around im gonna be exhausted again #and i’ll either give in and attempt to take a ‘nap’ and it’ll turn into a 12hr sleep again #or i’ll have to like. walk laps around the fucking house just to keep myself awake through the day #and i’ll be super irritable as a result and make everyone around me miserable too #but everyone is already beyond fed up with my issues and behavior. rightly so i guess. so i lose either way #god there was so much stuff i was gonna/supposed to do today #i don’t know how much longer they’re gonna put up with me being such a deadbeat #you think that’d like. motivate me to get my shit together or something but no. i’m addicted to being unconscious i guess #sleep feels so fucking good. until i wake up. which is funny bc it’s all nightmares and stress dreams anyway. why do i even enjoy sleeping #i guess bc for the first few hours after waking up i experience some modicum of relief from my other mental illnesses’ symptoms #like a soft reset.#and it’s the Only thing that gets rid of my migraines so god forbid i get one of those bc then i Have to sleep regardless of the time of day #anyways! :) that’s enough whining for one vent post. time to go do something productive

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girlthativealwaysbeen · 14 days ago

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so tired of being a shitty bandaid for my parents' loneliness. like have u ever considered you passed your curse to me and some days i feel so lonely it's like i can't breathe around the emptiness in my chest????