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hogwartslegacyreactions2 · 10 months ago

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Hello there glad to see you have your blog back may I ask for an reaction of the HLC +professors with an MC who has their right side of their face burned and their right arm gone from the battle of the final resptory (btw fig is alive the f.f.f must stay alive aka Father. Figure. Fig)

A/N: I made MC's situation part of the canon game ending, with the exception of Fig. F.F.F.F!(Father Figure Fig Forever!) Cut because long

HLC REACT TO MC BEING PERMANENTLY DISFIGURED

WARNING: physical and mental trauma, end game spoilers

The final battle with Ranrok had left MC with more than just emotional scars. The whole right side of their face was marred and their right eyes was entirely blackened. Jagged bright red scars ran across MC's chest from their shoulder to their abdomen and their right arm was completely gone. Due to the nature of the dark magic that damaged MC's body, these scars would never heal even with magic.

MC had been in the hospital wing for several days, Head Nurse Blainey taking care of them personally. MC would drift in and out of consciousness, in and out of pain, and in and out of bouts of screaming. They would see that dragon every time they closed their eyes. The last thing they remember was a grand bright light in their last ditch effort to contain the dark magic after Ranrok fell. They didn't know that they were successful and everything is all right. Hogwarts is safe. Their friends are safe.

After three days of intensive healing, MC finally started coming around. They could awake long enough to have short conversations. Nurse Blainey notified the staff immediately and word eventually spread to the students that MC was alive.

SEBASTIAN SALLOW: He doesn't give a rat's ass if the hospital wing is off limits at the moment. Threaten him with points taken away, detention or even expulsion, he is going to see MC. He sprints to their bed and goes to hold their hand. But it isn't there. He's shaken and kneel's next to them before he falls down.

"You're alright...you're alive." He was at a loss for words. The last time he had conversed with MC, he had been thanking them for not sending him to Azkaban. They were one of the few friends he had left, and here they were, lying in the hospital wing with half their body blown off. He wasn't sure what to do, and that bothered him.

OMINIS GAUNT: He doesn't quite go running to MC. He's still on the fence about them. He does eventually visit them to at least wish them well. He doesn't fully understand what happened to them. They never extensively explained the whole ancient magic thing to him. As far as most anyone at the school knows, there was a goblin attack and it took half the professors and MC to fight them off.

ANNE SALLOW: She doesn't hear about MC personally. Just that there was a serious incident at Hogwarts through the Daily Prophet. She was far away from Hogwarts valley. Trying to find peace away from Feldcroft.

IMELDA REYES: She sits casually next to MC and looks them over, they're still covered in bandages. "Those goblins really did a number on you." She notices their missing arm. "I wouldn't worry about that too much. There are quite a few amputee quidditch players. You'll have to learn how to rebalance, though. I can teach you."

NATSAI ONAI: She brings them a bottle of butterbeer. She figured it would be a nice change of pace from just water. "I'm sorry I wasn't there, MC." MC told her not to apologize. They wouldn't want to risk this happening to her. She'd already taken the torture curse for them.

GARRETH WEASLEY: He brings some sweets as a get well present. He's horrified by what's happened to them. He's never heard of injuries so extensive that magic couldn't heal. It must have been some intense dark magic. The next time he's in the library, he's looking up potions that could regrow limbs.

LEANDER PREWETT: He visits along with Lucan, he was nervous to see them by himself. Wasn't sure what he'd say. They weren't exactly close, but he was worried when he heard about what happened to them. Even brought them some flowers he picked out on the flying lawn. He hopes they're able to attend the final feast at the end of the year.

AMIT THAKKAR: He tries to comfort MC by telling them that they won't have to worry about missing notes for astronomy. They're welcome to all of his. Not much he can do about their O.W.L's though. They are getting an extension on the exams, right? MC really can't be expected to go through all of this and then immediately take exams.

EVERETT CLOPTON: He doesn't see them until they're out of the hospital wing. When he does, he nearly jumps out of his skin. They look awful! Sorry. That came out before he could stop it. He'll bombard them with questions over what happened to them. All he's been hearing are rumors and they range from MC fighting an entire goblin army single-handedly to giant flobberworms causing earthquakes under Hogwarts.

POPPY SWEETING: She's been handling all the beasts with Deek while MC has been away. When she goes to see them, she holds their good hand and tells them she's glad they're alright. If there's anything she can do for them, let her know.

LUCAN BRATTLBY: For what it's worth, he thinks battle scars are brilliant. Anyone looking at them will know that they've seen some shit and not to mess with them. He does hope they're left-handed though, relearning how to use your wand with your non-dominant hand is rough. It's like starting over.

ELEAZAR FIG: He's in the hospital wing as well, in the bed across from MC. His injuries weren't as extensive, but he would likely need to use a cane for the rest of his life. He took a rather nasty fall when the cliff crumbled. He's the first person after nurse Blainey to know that MC was going to be all right. As soon as he's able, he's in a chair next to their bed to greet them when they are fully cognitive again. He tells them that they did it. Ranrok is gone. The magic was resealed. They saved the world.

No matter what happens next for MC, he promises to be there for them through it. Even the powers of dark magic couldn't take him away from them.

MATILDA WEASLEY: She has a very long talk with Eleazar before MC is conscious. She's more than a little upset about all of this being kept from her until it was almost too late to stop Ranrok. She doesn't blame MC in the slightest, but gives Eleazar a verbal reckoning.

When MC awakens, she expresses her gratitude. Their bravery would make Godric himself proud. In light of their circumstances, they will receive an extension on their O.W.L's to give them time to heal and properly study for them, without the looming threat of the end of the world.

CHIYO KOGAWA: She wasn't in the cave, but stayed up in the school to make sure no goblins got close up top. She also praises them for their bravery. She's had more than her fair share of fights with dark wizards in the past. Going up against them is no easy feat for adults, let alone those still in school.

AESOP SHARP: He sees the scars. He sees MC's missing arm. It pains him to see this happen to them. Such life-changing injuries and memories. He knows exactly what they're going through. He can help them work through it, and hopefully avoid some of the mistakes he's made.

ABRAHAM RONEN: It breaks his heart to see MC like this. They were filled with so much life, now they can barely crack a smile without wincing in pain. He will do his damnedest to make sure they are still treated fairly by the staff and students. Anyone that so much as looks at MC wrong will know just how mean he can be.

MIRABEL GARLICK: She brings a bouncing bulb. The small plant starter is extremely entertaining when one is bored stuck in the hospital. Trust her on this. She wants MC to have something to play with while they have nothing to do. She tries not to look at the injuries. She doesn't want to make them uncomfortable by thinking she's staring.

MUDIWA ONAI: Not to be ironic, but she wishes she had seen this coming. Ranrok, the repository, the goblins, any of it. She wishes she could have warned MC. She was so distracted by her concern for her daughter and conforming to her new environment, she was blindsided by the future. She is so terribly sorry.

BAI HOWIN: She wants MC to know that losing a limb is not as much of a detriment in the wizarding world as it is in the Muggle world. She knows many a colleague that have had more than one limb ripped off or bitten off and are still perfectly capable members of society. They shouldn't worry too much.

DINAH HECAT: Like Sharp, she's all too aware of what MC is going through. The irreversible damage dark magic can take on one's mind and body can take their toll on even the strongest witch or wizard. MC needs support right away to avoid potential self-destruction.

CUTHBERT BINNS: He floats on by to wish MC good health. Although, should the worst have happened, the Hogwarts ghosts are always willing to welcome another into their ranks.

SATYAVATI SHAH: What they did was foolish. Defending Hogwarts should have been left to the staff and MC should have never been put in the position they were in. To be so scarred by life so young. It's tragic. She hopes this doesn't stop them from continuing their education to give themselves a strong foundation for a good life.

PHINEAS NIGELLUS BLACK: The paperwork to the ministry over this situation has been an absolute nightmare. The goblins getting past Hogwarts charms by going underneath it, half of his staff having to defend the place, and one of his students being horrifically injured made for a long report. He only complains behind closed doors. Even he's not such a horrible person to tell MC off while they're in the hospital.

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fernlessbastard · 7 months ago

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You guys aren't ready for the conversation of how Quackity sincerely loves bottoming

I'm not at all saying he wants to always bottom, I'd say he still prefers topping most of the time, but whenever he's down to get something up his ass, he's DOWN to get something up his ass, if you know what I mean

(the switching applies to position only, tho. I sincerely can't see him genuinely enjoying subbing, and neither can I see Wilbur actually domming unless they're both being influenced by years of internalised homophobia and patriarchy and all that bullshit, but even then it's just cringe and they're just both pretending it's not cause it's easier that way (and the sex itself isn't like, actively bad, not to mention that it provides some degree of an emotional connection which they both desperately crave), plus it's still basically vanilla just with a little bit of dirty talk - that's how i see them in Pogtopia (with Q bottoming - if you want another huge post on their Pogtopia dynamic let me know cause I have so many thoughts on it and how their traumas affected them and their relationship and how complicated it all was))

That being said, man's 10000% intensely fucking traumatised

(tw personal hc and following the logical path from canon implications idfk)(also exaggeration) like, if he were ACTIVELY evil and had ZERO (even personal) moral code, then the amount of anger he feels towards Schlatt for taking away the enjoyment of it is probably enough to ignore all ethics and torture Dream so utterly unimaginably he ends up violating entirety of the Geneva convention, and then having 50 new ones written specifically to condemn his actions, just to break every single one of those as well on the way, just so that Dream gives him the revival book so that he can re-kill Schlatt with his own hands

Also he absolutely re-traumatised himself with Karl and Sapnap cause he was for sure like "I shouldn't be having an intense panic attack right now, I'm going to push all my energy into pretending that everything's ok and that I don't want to cry and scream and rip my skin off. I'm just being silly and dramatic anyway ha ha" which just resulted in them unknowingly hurting him all over again. I take no criticism. Q's got MASSIVE communication issues when it comes to validating his feelings and Karl and Sapnap are "everything's fine"-ing way too much on the daily. And whole Quackity should work on his issues, it IS a partner's job to at least try to check up on the other(s) (and vice versa), and Karl and Sapnap clearly always preferred to ignore any hints that something might be wrong as a general life rule. The relationship was immaturely focused on "fun and good vibes" from the very start, so any bad topic obviously felt out of place. It started off with lack of communication and it died cause of it too.

That's also actually why I will always firmly stand by the fact that Wilbur (during las Nevadas era) is the only person with whom he could ever heal, btw (yes, including Charlie as a hypothetical romantic interest). Cause Schlatt's abusive, Karl and Sapnap "deserve better" in his eyes (so he pretends to be fine until shit hits the fan and everything falls apart)(that also applies to his hypothetical relationship with Charlie). But with Wilbur there's enough distance to feel safe and call out his bullshit without retaliation in form of abuse, and on the other hand he doesn't care to pretend to be perfect - hell, he probably purposefully shoves his issues onto the guy cause he's like "you think you're so strong and stubborn you can handle me??? You think???? Think again." (Wilbur does the same btw). They're purposefully trying to push each other away, destroy the "relationship", show each other just how fucked up they are. They're psycho-competitive. Even being the first one to be "too much" and get abandoned turns into a competition.

But it backfires. They bond. They're real with each other. They're stubborn, they're determined enough to stay just long enough to see each other's walls crack. And once they do, the feelings are quick to spill. They're each other's only people to be GENUINELY themselves with - no masks, no manipulation, no bullshit. Just themselves. And that's the first, CRUCIAL step to developing a healthy relationship (or at least healthier than all their other relationships).

So with Wilbur he probably only tries to bottom either once he ACTUALLY begins to feel like he could maybe try to reclaim it, or even if he tries it in a self-destructive way, (considering their history+patriarchy and shit) Wilbur'd know and care enough to realise Q's just trying to hurt himself. And as shitty as Wilbur can be sometimes, he's not a bad person - he'd stop Q if things'd go too far, or give him (at least a temporary) safe space to safely go through a breakdown without hurting himself like that. He wouldn't take advantage of such a low moment, and he would know enough to recognise it's a low moment in the first place.

Anyway once they figure all that out and Quackity's genuinely comfortable with it again, it's for sure not uncommon for him to enjoy some nice aggressive pounding, all the while having one hand in Wilbur's hair, pulling it to hold him close, and the other hand on Wilbur's neck, lightly choking him as they're intensely making out

All that to say Q's a massive sadist but he's also a huge massochist and he'll absolutely have Wilbur on a nice leash and call him a pathetic, desperate, horny dog or something like that as the man's (purposefully) sloppily thrusting in and out of him, causing the most "carnage" he can (Wilbur will be double fisting Quackity and Quackity will be just looking at him unfazed like "your hands are small" (they're not)/hj)

Oh btw to clarify [TW ok more direct talk of SA so please be careful and take care of yourselves]- yes, I'm absolutely saying Q got repeatedly SA'd by Schlatt throughout their relationship. The guy was canonically generally verbally and physically abusive, AND basically the whole point of his character is that he's like, the epitome of everything wrong with society. Add to that the sexual comments which were constantly used to demean, insult, and objectify Q, as well as Quackity's intense, palpitable discomfort which noticeably grows each time the topic comes up when they meet after Schlatt's death during Las Nevdas era, it's a pretty safe bet to assume Schlatt didn't stop at "just" verbal and physical violence. Sexual violence is almost a guarantee when you consider all that context - it's hardly even "reading between the lines". And you can't tell me that in our society that views being penetrated during sex as something negative, especially for men, while viewing penetrating someone as an act of "conquering" and "winning" and all that a character who's supposed to embody as many of this world's faults as possible wouldn't shove his dick where it's not wanted, even just purely to prove he can despite lack of consent.

#tbf i think it's low-key the human condition to enjoy penetration #like obviously there'll always be people who don't enjoy it for whatever reason (and that's perfectly valid)#but i think the majority of people enjoy/would enjoy it (looking at you cishet men with internalised misogyny/homophobia)#like literally going by the most common and normative anatomy of both afab and amab bodies most all of us have the parts to enjoy it #this may or may not be what you'll read in my gay people fanfiction #quackbur headcanons #anyway #tntduo #dsmp #tnt duo #quackbur #quackity #dream smp #tntblr #c!wilbur #c!wilbur soot #revivedbur #revivebur #las Nevadas #dsmp wilbur #fernless rants #fern rambles #ferns spicy art #anyway gonna get to art soon enough (?) I'm really sorry to all asks in my inbox I'm oniy finishing up a pretty hectic irl period

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justghostly-things · 3 months ago

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Why Mike Wheeler should get Vecna'd

I might need to rant about Mike Wheeler (to like the surprise of no one.) because if it's gonna be anyone its gotta be him, right? I don't think he is gonna die, or it's gonna be the exact same as it was for Max. (Simply because we have seen it before.) but I don't think it would be beneficial to Vecna any of the other characters.

and assuming that the Duffer brothers aren't just bad writers we know Mike has been acting weird for two whole seasons now. (I personally think it was worse in season 3 but it was still strange in season 4.) The show established him a certain way in season 1 then nailed it into the coffin that this is who he is in season 2 but then season 3 rolls around and he is just... Different. (An ass) Of course, we have our theories and analysis (thank you, to anyone who have compiled all the hints into one place what would we do without you 😭This or This or This)

but still.

Since we are talking about Stranger Things S4 and S5 there are a lot of uncomfortable topics that are going to be mentioned, I do not go into details. I barely mention it. I do not describe anything, but I do talk about the themes. Please stay safe while reading

We should look at this in three ways.

What it brings to the story

What advantage would it give Vecna (aka why would he want to Vecna them)

And how does it help the character

Let's talk about Max first. Because we can work out the logic with her and then try and translate it to other characters.

I think its import for this section to know that what Max has delt with is a very scary real thing. Many children have a very similar life as Max, and all I am going to do is talk about them from within the show. I will say is you are not a bad person because you wish death on someone who is hurting you. But from here on I am talking about Max from both her Pov and Vecna's. None of these things are my thought or feeling on the greater topic of abuse and dysfunctional families.

From a story perspective why was Max the one who got Vecna'd and not like, Dustin or Lucas? If you answered because she watched Billy die. Yes. Anyone who understands a progression of a story can figure out why it makes sense for Max to be Vecna'd. We create this guy who shows you your trauma reflected back at you and then kills you as seen in both Fred (Nancy's friend) and Chrissy.

Which of the main cast of characters just went through a trauma event just the season before? Max.

I think if this is all you take from season 4 you have fundamentally forgotten one important thing about Max getting Vecna'd. It isn't just about the trauma of her watching her brother die. No, Vecna specifically targets the fact that Max deep-down wished-for Billy to die, she used to fantasize about it. It isn't just survival guilt. And we are shown this visually through Fred who also has survival guilt. Their trauma is different because Max's guilt isn't just about surviving. That is why it had to be Max. Because all of the characters could feel some sort of Survival guilt. They have watched so many people die and get hurt. it reveals two things. One is how Max truly feels about Billy's death, and two it tells us more about what Vacna is actually doing in the vision. Because he isn't just trying to torture a traumatized Max to the point that she willing to just give up. it is showing Max some "ugly truth" about her to herself. Because that is what Vecna is. Or thinks he is. He sees the world as horrible and should be corrected and the only way to do that is by "starting over". This is him showing max what is "wrong" with her and killing her (so he can start her over/create a new her)

I feel like I need to rewatch season 3 again because I can't remember exactly but I think Max most likely played a big part in season 3 where she kept meddling with Possessed Billy. (Mike did too but we will get to that(this thing is gonna be long btw)) She showed that she is willing and able to mess up Vecna's plans.

(It is kinda a debated if it was just the Mind Flayer or if it was Vecna himself that possessed Billy (and Will in season 2) but for the purpose of this we will say that he at least knows the role that Max (and Mike) played in the mall fight.)

All of this to say from Vecna's Perspective, he sees a group of kids who keep getting in the way, And they are all close to El? And one of these kids has extreme guilt about Billy? Yeah of course he targets her. It is so useful. It'll get to El and the rest of the party. Making them weaker and affect them emotionally so they are more likely to react irrationally. It's so perfect for him. Literally Max says so in the show.

and Max, (I can tell some people aren't gonna be happy with me for this so just know I love max so much please, but) she up until season 4 was a bit of a weird character. She is a confusing character. Especially in season 2, she has a lot of character inconsistencies. This video explains all of what I am talking about in this section this really well. but she isn't really a main character until season 4. She plays more of a supporting role. Especially in season 3 where she is helping El find part of independence. And yes, we know Max has a hard home life and how Billy is an ass to her. We know this but we don't really understand it until season 4. She just feels like an inconsistent character up until this point. (you know who else is an inconsistent character-) Her getting Vecna'd shows us a direct shot into her head and we can start to piece together the truth of her character. We really get to understand why she is inconsistent. And how it isn't a flaw of the writing, it's Max being 13 and dealing with a terrible home life.

the best part about it is that there are clues all over that are screaming at us and I can tell you right now that there were probably so many children who saw themself in Max. And people who were screaming about how this is why! It's because of her home life! while the rest of us were just calling it inconsistent writing. And yes, I am gonna bring it up because this is exactly what we see with Mike Wheelers character. Because the truth is that we haven't seen the whole story, we have barely seen anything of Mike for the last two seasons. (mentally i know he is on screen I mean mentally) we just have a theory on what is going on in his head. and I think it would be a waste not to use Vecna to do the same thing they did for Max for Mike and this is ignoring all of the parallels the two characters have. this is just from a story point of view and omg can you tell how passionate I am about this??

Now do i think it is impossible for any of the other character to get Vecna'd? No? it would probably be more similar to how Nancy got Vecna'd. Mostly because if my other theory is correct (is this shameless self-promotion?) I don't think there is time for like all the character to get Vecna'd.

But yeah, lets talk about a few of the character and why I do or don't think they could get Vecna'd. I will try to make this quick.

Steve: Steve is very interesting and I kind of wanna make like a character analysis about him at some point (probably after I rewatch the show) but I think it could go either way. Steves whole arc for the whole show is to show us how someone can change. Steve started as an ass and has slowly been evolving to become a better person. And I think there is a place for Vecna to come into that but idk if he needs it. I think Steve's can jump over the last hoop by himself (unlike some people who haven't even started jumping... (Mike)) Overall I don't think it will tell us anything we don't already know about Steve, but I can see Vecna wanting to incapacity Steve because of his physical strength. Dustin: Again, I am not sure what more Dustin getting Vecna'd will tell us about Dustin. If anyone has any thoughts, please don't be scared to let me know. I can see Vecna also wanting to take out Dustin because of his smarts. So strategically I can see this being something Vecna would want to "Take out" (but i am not sure how strategic Vecna is? I certainly don't think it would be the main reason that he targets someone.) Lucas: Idk, I think it would be great to have Lucus be more import to the plot but if he is gonna get Vecna'd it's gonna be about Max and him "teaming" up with the Basketball? guys. (I say hesitantly because I don't remember what sport it was...) Which we don't need to be told he feels bad about because he told us. So, idk. I guess we can talk about Will as well: but it's really all the same thing, I don't know what new information we can learn if we see him getting Vecna'd. Sure, its angsty and that might be reason enough for some people, but I know if I was writing Season 5, I wouldn't even consider it. We know almost everything that is plaguing Will. We see almost everything first hand. And sure, we knew about Billy for Max but like I said it was more than just "she watched Billy die" and sure maybe there is something I just don't see or don't know. I just don't see reason for this poor boy to go through more. The other thing is I don't see why Vecna would want to not just kill but make Will suffer. Make him have a pain full death? If Vecna wanted Will dead, Will would be dead. its plain and simple. the amount of times Vecna had Will in his grasps? I don't believe it was just luck. I would actually love to see if there aren't times where Will could be in danger, or it would make more sense for the danger to target will but for some reason it didn't, and he came out unscathed? (if I notice anything in my rewatch I will add it here) but yeah. also, there is all the parallels between Will and Vecna, so I think Vecna sees himself in will, maybe like how he saw himself in El and maybe will try and recite him. Idk but it seems (to me at least) that Vecna has more planed than, make him suffer and then die, in store for will. This is a really good analysis and this I agreed with on why Will was probably not gonna get Vecna'd. But it is a really good (and funny) video so go check it out if you haven't.

all of this is making me want to do an analysis on Vecna/henry. I don't think he is a partially new kind of villain, but I think it would be fun to try and dive into his head.

Hopeful this is my last point where I finally get to talk about my boy Mike wheeler. This is a Mike wheeler safe place. (I say as I am about to make my point on why he should go through pain and torture next season.)

I kind of have talked about some of this but let's dive into more detail (like we did with Max) and talk about my three main points

What it brings to the story

What advantage would it give Vecna (aka why would he want to Vecna them)

And how does it help the character

I feel like the story has been building up to this for a long time actually. Not only with the stalker shots that Mike is shot in but everything we see about his character. From how much we have seen his character change between season 2 and 3, to how little we actually know about Mikes inner workings. Mike is a puzzle right now. He is surrounded by character who are at least decently written and at most complex and compelling. And he is a main character? Like if Mike was a Minor or supporting character (like Erica and arguably robin) it would be weird sure but at least expectable. But Mike was THE main character in the opening season. We learn the most about him. And we see a lot of the story threw his eyes. And what? Were just going to throw all of that away? Like it was nothing?

But! I bring up the point I made about Max again. About what she was like in season two, what our impression of Max as a character and how that changed in season 4. The reason her character acted like that was because of things we didn't have connections for until season 4. All the parts were laid out in front of us they just needed to be connected. Mike getting Vecna'd will literally connect the dots for us. it'll show us an obvious and clear answer for what is wrong with Mike. Because how, honestly, are they going to show us all of these complex things that has been haunting Mike without a Vecna vision? It's the last season. We do not have endless time to unpack everything that is happening inside his head. Especially if the season is going to be as busy as I expect. We have like 20 other character who needs screen time, and we are getting introduced to more characters? And we have to fight the big bad? and there is gonna be a time skip (I swear to whatever higher being there is if they try to pull a "all Mikes' problems got fixed over the time skip" bs I am gonna be on the news for homicide. no-one will ever hear the end of it, omg. i don't even care if Byler becomes cannon, there will be war.) point is this matter is delicate and Mike lips on the matter are sealed so tight. If he hasn't said a word about this in 3 years he isn't gonna talk about it now. He needs a push, and Vecna is going to push him down a flight of stairs.

I do feel like I am repeating myself but it's crazy how similar Mike and Max character are. Almost like they are shining bright neon lights saying like look at this! notice this! and I know I am not the only one to point this out. But like what was stated in this video, Mike is almost the perfect person to Vecna'd , he not only has a connection with both El and Will. He, as Will would put it, is "the heart" of the party. He is connected to all the other character in some way. And if taking Max out would of killed motivation/ made the party unstable imagine what killing Mike would do to them? Which is why I do believe in the Mike was the original four victim theory (I think I saw someone go into more detail, but I can't find it. If I do, I will update with both links)

Also, remember when I mentioned that both Mike and Max have meddled with Vecna's plot in season 3, I just think I should point out how in the gym scene where they trap Billy in the sauna it is Mike taunting Him. And in season 2 he was the one who figured out that Will was possessed. All I can think of for season 1 is that he took El in and formed a kindling with her, which isn't strong evidence but idk maybe Vecna gets jealous easily idk.

And I think to understand this last point I would recommend watching or reading threw the links I linked all the way at the top of this discussion. but I would urge you to watch this at the very least: This video

if you haven't caught on yet, I do believe the Vecna visions are going to reveal to the audience that Mike is gay and has been the whole time. aemiron-main has a very good theory on how I think this is gonna go, because that falls into the same thought bubble as Max's. Where I think the theme isn't just that he is dealing with internalised Homophobia but his guilt surrounding his queerness. which we can easily explore through a vision. and it explains why he has been acting this way, especially in season 3. Like, can you even think about what this poor kid is going though mentally because, your best friend, literally your person got possessed, you watched as they lead to your friends new dad's death? like you can do nothing? and you blame yourself because if you had stop being gay for two seconds just to notice that there is something off about him you could have saved everyone? YEah I would be an asshole as well. Honestly, I think all the clues are there we just Vecna to piece them together.

And even in the very unlikely situation where I and like every other Byler are wrong about Mike being gay. Mike getting Vecna'd can only mean positive things for his character.

I feel like I had another point to make but I genuinely can't remember what it was T_T so, if I remember I will update this. But that is my point. Mike wheeler is gay and will be tormented by demonic infused visions of him being gay in the next season. so, you know. like an average Tuesday for any queer.

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softxsuki · 2 years ago

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I feel like this is a weird request, and I just wanted to say before hand that I’m not in this situation anymore but sometimes I imagine something similar happened when it was in effect. Could you maybe write about the toman boys (as a group, as toman I mean) somehow finding out their friend is currently an active victim of sex trafficking? How they’d react to it and stuff? I think a lot of ppl dont realize a lot of times with kids it’s not being thrown in a cage or something, often they let you go to school and live a normal life too. If you feel the need to do research b4 writing BTW, I recommend watching some TIKTOKS by nicolegrows as she had a very similar experience to me

Toman with Reader Who is A Victim of Trafficking

DO NOT. I REPEAT. DO. NOT. READ THIS IF MENTIONS OF SEX TRAFFICKING WILL TRIGGER YOU!

Pairings: Toman x Gn!reader (platonic)

Warnings: mentions of sex trafficking, needing counseling for trauma/PTSD

Genre: Comfort

Post-Type: Headcanons

Word Count: 470

Summary: In which Toman finds out that you're actively a victim of sex trafficking

[A/N; Thanks for letting me know that this request was actually urgent. I just got a second today to write this. The best I could do was headcanons, because I physically couldn't write out a more detailed description of this scenario, but I hope it's helpful. You just said Toman, so I wrote how the gang as a whole would respond to finding out about this! I'm glad you made it through something as horrible as this. The world is a scary place.

cutting this here, incase anyone ignores my warnings. PROCEED WITH CAUTION PLS.

Okay well first of all, as soon as they find out that you’re in any kind of danger, Mikey commands everyone immediately to get into action to save you

You’re their friend; though not officially in the gang because they didn’t want to put you into any danger from the many enemies they have, you remained friendly with each other and hung out frequently

Baji was the one who noticed something strange, so he took matters into his own hands; he secretly followed you around and took note of any suspicious activity he saw from the people around you

But certain things made everything very clear and so he reported it all to Mikey right away, who them proceeded to act immediately

Their first step is taking you away from the people who are doing this to you–whether you’re aware of your situation or not; it doesn’t matter, they’re getting you out of there

It becomes a small operation, only the Captains and vice captains of the divisions along with Mikey and Draken are in charge of safely collecting you and ensuring that you never have to be in that environment again

They call the police to inform them, and show up to your “home” without their gang uniforms on–their job is to take you out of there, not draw attention to themselves and risk the perpetrators running off before the police even arrive. The police could deal with everything else when they got there

It took everything in Toman not to take their anger out on your “caretakers”; it was now Toman’s job to take care of you and give you a new home with them, not get in trouble and leave you alone

Obviously, you needed a lot of support from all your friends, and professional support as well, which they all helped you out with

Mitsuya was probably the one you ended up confiding in the most–being as he was an older brother to his younger sisters, you felt especially safe with him

But aside from him, the boys all made you feel very welcome and safe

If they weren’t protective of you before, they definitely were now

Mikey had ordered someone to always be on guard of you at all times, if he wasn’t available to do it (he usually was, but in the rare case that he couldn’t, another toman member would quietly be keeping an eye on you from afar)

You’d most likely be living with Mikey and his Grandfather, who treated you with so much kindness and understanding after Mikey explained everything to the older man

You were Toman’s family now and they’d do anything to make sure you continued your life the way you were meant to live it; helping you with anything you needed in the process to recover and overcome everything that had happened to you.

REQUESTS ARE OPEN :D

Posted: 5/11/2023

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devilshills · 11 months ago

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So lately i've been curious on ways i can connect more with Lady Lilith in worship & involving her into my everyday life. I see that you're a Lilithian, so i'm just curious on how you do these things!

here are some tips and offerings you can give to her , but first a tw : slight mentions of abuse , kidnapping , child murder , food , wine , sex , a painting involving nudity , and religious trauma . btw , the underlined part is a link !

1. you can start by reading about Lilith in judaism , although her origins go back to ancient Mesopotamia . deities and other guardians love when we read about their myths as long as we understand that they are not their myths ( like in Greek mythology ) since the myths were written by humans who mostly feared the deities . however , you can always choose to believe anything from the myths . personally , i believe that there is some truth in every myth , and i believe Lilith was not allowed to be in the Garden of Eden after she refused to submit to Adam because she wanted to be equal to him

2. unlearn the bad things you might have been taught about Lilith . she is thought to be evil and many people think that she likes to kidnap and murder babies , but that is not the case , in fact , she is very motherly and she can help women who are in abusive relationships . i can confirm this for you , as she made sure my angel babies are safe and she is keeping abusive people away from my life for as long as possible

3. offerings : chocolate or dark chocolate ( you can eat it in her honor , i promise it’s not disrespectful ) , choosing yourself and stepping into your power , roses , the colors red and black , dark crystals ( such as obsidian , red jasper and / or ruby ) , apples , snake imagery , cinnamon , wine ( especially red dark wine but if you are not fond of that , you don’t have to give her a wine offering ) , figures of her for your altar ( if you cannot afford an altar , that’s okay , just remember that you are a living altar ) , self care / self love , sex magic ( same as the wine situation , if you are not comfortable with sex magic you obviously do not have to do that ) , shadow work , which is looking at the parts of yourself ( mind , emotions , behavior , etc ) that you avoid the most / are most ashamed of . while doing shadow work , you give those parts of you a space to speak . it’s going to be painful sometimes because you will be noting down the parts of yourself that you tend to hide from the others , but remember Lilith will not force you to do shadow work if you don’t want to or if you need to stop it . you can vent and / or rant to her instead . also , a couple of personal offerings i gave to her are on my discord bio i added the black moon Lilith sign ( ⚸ ) , which i think is more connected to astrology but she still appreciates it , the another offering is my pfp on my main tiktok being a painting of her by Dante Gabriel Rossetti :

4. Lilith is understanding , and she will give you space if you need time from your practice due to mental health reasons . if you struggle with religious trauma , she will reassure you that you don’t need to ask for her forgiveness . even if you don’t feel her presence , even if you don’t see her , she will be there for you . you can ask her for signs , and she will eventually deliver them ; for me , she makes sure to land readings with messages from her through tiktok on my fyp . the way she sends signs might be different for you , but she is not subtle when she wants to give you a message . she will also be honest and she will tell you the truth . you can talk to her about everyday things in your life to connect with her , and if you need , you can ask her for reassuring cuddles

i hope these helped ! ♥︎

#sumerian goddess #mesopotamian goddess #demonolatry #jewish mythology #mother of demons #mother lilith #daughter of lilith #lilithian #deity work #deity worship #chaos witch #devilshills

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xmalereader · 2 years ago

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Joel Miller X Male Reader X Simon Riley

|| Masterlist ||

Authors note: Sorry for the long wait on updating, I lost a bit of motivation and got busy with life and had some issues with work but I should be good for now! Also, wonderful request and enjoyed writing it out, was a little unsure of making this pairing either a love triangle or just make it plain poly and have them all love each other but, instead, decided to make it angsty as requested! Hope you enjoy and their is more to come soon!

Requested: Hey could I request a crossover between Joel Miller and Simon “Ghost” Riley? Reader is part of Task Force 141, and had met Joel before the outbreak, forming a relationship between the two of them, until they had a fight (could probably be since reader would leave for missions without having no contact with him and haven’t told Joel about his work and kept secrecy both of them hurt each-other with their words in that fight), after that they lost all contact and the outbreak happened, until they found each other again after reader got separated from the group, ghost and reader were having kinda of a thing (both of them would protect each others back but starting to feel things for each-other) sorry if this is long btw! maybe Joel and reader talk while Ghost looks for reader please take any liberties after that! (can you tell I like angst?) || @un-namedmalereader ||

Warnings: Slight fluff, angst, love triangle-ish, mentions of animal death, survival, FEDRA, slight last of us spoilers from video game, crossover between ghost and Joel. Ellie is protective, memories, past trauma, separation, closure.

Word count: 5k

He knew that the world would become dangerous when the outbreak happened. Being separated from his team and only finding Ghost who roamed the city on his own. The two stuck together during their time of the outbreak, moving from city to city, state to state, looking for safety or perhaps a place to stay? They’ve tried working along side FEDRA but, soon found out that FEDRA wasn’t a safe place and only cashed humanity to grow angry by the control FEDRA brought to the people.

It didn’t take long for him and Ghost to escape the facility and continue on with their journey. The outbreak happened when he was sent on a mission to Mexico when he heard the news of infected people going crazy and attacking others. Him and his team were sent to the front lines, helping as many people as they could whether they were good or bad they helped as many as they could. But, in the end many lives were lost and many that were saved were already infected. It was difficult saving lives when humanity was pushing away their own people from hiding behind walls. Giving the infected more people to create a bigger army to create trouble for everyone.

Y/n had been traveling with Ghost for years. The two getting closer every year to the point where they wouldn’t leave each others sides, wherever the other went they followed. They were skilled in military combat and knew how to survive the infected. Both he and Ghost took their time to actually study the infected, figuring out how to kill them faster and which infected they didn’t have to worry to much about. Whenever they moved at night they’d walk in silence, ears open as they listened for any clickers that roamed the dark streets.

They always made sure that where ever they went it was safe for them to stay a night or two. They didn’t know where they were heading at first and simply traveled anywhere that contained food and shelter for a few days. Y/n had wanted to return back to Texas, to see Joel and Sarah again. But, after the last time they spoke with each other it ended in an argument and a break up between the two. Joel was upset each time he was called off to his team, telling him that he wanted him home along with his daughter and to be a family.

Y/n couldn’t abandon his team who needed him and it became difficult for him to decide. Until Joel made the choice for him and made him leave. His eyes full of disappointment and heartache. That was the last time he’s ever seen Joel and once the breakout happened he had no idea if either of the two made it out alive or if they were even alive at all. He forced himself to think that they were long dead and that he was on his own.

Both he and ghost decided to head up West, nearing winter season the two suspect that the infected would slow down a bit with the colder weather approaching. Y/n had his own mask over his face, keeping his face warm from the cold winter air. His own rifle in hand as he walks next to Ghost who remained quiet. The sound of snow beneath their boots is heard as they continued to move up hill. The sun was out and bright but that didn’t do much with the cold.

“We need to find a place for the night.” Said Ghost as he stops in his steps and looks at his surroundings. “Where?” Y/n speaks up, puffing out some air from his mouth and looking around too. All they saw from a distance were trees but no signs of buildings near by.

Before Y/n could speak again he’s stopped by ghost lifting his hand, shushing him before he could say anything. Ghosts gloved finger points to his covered ears, telling him to listen. Y/n stood quietly, listening to the wind blow and waiting until he hears the sound of crunching snow from a distance, the sound of huffing. He looks over to his left to see a horse from a distance.

“Over there.” He whispers, nodding towards the distance while Ghost also watched. “Riders.” Ghost muffled, grabbing Y/n by his back pack and dragging him down to the nearest fallen log. Y/n stumbled in his step and falls onto his back, glaring at Ghost while the other smirks under his mask.

“Asshole I can walk.” He whispered harshly, getting his rifle ready and checking over the log they hid behind, getting a better view of the two riders. “I’ve got four on sight.” He whispered, breath hot whole ghost watched the small group of riders approaching them at fast speed. “Take the first two, I’ll take the others.” Ghost got his own gun ready as Y/n takes the first shot, shooting down of the riders as the horse shots up in panic, throwing off the dead rider from their back and running off. The fired shot gets the rest of the others attention as they frantically moved to get their own weapons but both he and ghost were faster, killing the three and watching them fall into the snow ground.

“The horses?” Y/n calls out.

Ghost hums. “Kill one, will use it for food will at least have something to eat tonight. I’ll round up the other three.”

Y/n nods in agreement, standing from his hiding spot, rifle raised as his eyes followed the horse and taking the shot. He always hated this part of surviving, having to kill innocent animals who were only trying to survive too but knew that they needed food and had to eat soon. He slings the rifle over his shoulder and makes his way over to the dead animal and gets to work in skinning the animal and storing some of its meat away in his bag while ghost piled up the dead riders on the side and tracked down the other horses.

The day grew dark, covering the sky in stars. Ghost had brought the horses back, tying them up near a tree and sitting down next to Y/n who cooked their food on a small fire. They knew that a big fire could get someone’s attention from miles away and they didn’t want to attract too much attention. When the meat was cooked well, he hands Ghost a piece and the two eat in silence with Y/n’s head leaning against Ghosts shoulder.

“How much further?” Y/n mumbled, chewing on his food and focusing on the fire.

“More miles than you think.” He hears Ghost mumble out, tossing the small bones into the fire and wiping his hands on his own pants before slipping the gloves back on. Leaning closer to Y/n and sighing deeply. “We should make it to a warmer area before another storm hits.” His companion reminds him. They haven’t faced any bad storms yet, but knew that a bad one could be approaching anytime soon.

The two are silent, listening to the sound of the wood cracking in the fire. The wind blowing on their faces while the horses moved silently, huddled together to stay warm. Y/n sniffles, tossing the bones into the fire and sitting up. “We should get some rest before daylight hits.”

Ghost hums in agreement. “I’ll take first watch.”

Y/n chuckles, opening his bag and pulling out a blanket, wrapping it around himself and leaning back against the log. “You know what to do if anyone approaches us.” Y/n mumbled, tiredness taking over as he lied his head back, closing his eyes and letting the darkness take over as he slept for the night. He was suppose to sleep for a few hours only and he woken up by Ghost in order to change shifts with each other but he wasn’t woken up by him.

He’d woken up with a hint of worry in mind as he looks around to see Ghost with the horses, checking the riders things. Y/n can’t help but be a little irritated at Simon for not waking him up. He puts his blanket away and approached Simon, crossing his arms. “Why didn’t you wake me up?”

“You needed the rest.” Simon had his back to him, rummaging through the bags and finding a few knives and extra food too. “You rarely slept.” Said Y/n while Simon chuckles. “I’ve gone longer with no sleep, besides—I found this.” Simon holds out a Map to show Y/n who snatched it from his hands. Eyes wide as he stares at the map before him. “There’s a village close by, probably abandoned but, it’s a few miles out in the direction we are heading. We can stay the night.” Said Ghost.

“Then let’s head there.”

The two pack up their things and mount their horses, riding up hill and through the snow. It took them a few hours to arrive at the village, guard up as they grew cautious of the place and looked around for any signs of infected people or people in general. Simon was ahead of him while he rode behind, other horse close to them as they hold their weapons close. Y/n checks his surrounding and finds no signs of infected only the sight of torn down homes and old bars that he took notice. His gaze is focused to his right that he noticed a deer dashing across the snow, causing him to come to a small stop before the deer is quickly shot down by an arrow, throwing the animal off and to tumble down.

“Shit, Ghost!” He calls out to his partner ahead. Who didn’t take notice of the kill, too focused on his own surroundings. Y/n watched the dead deer closely, waiting silently and watched as a young girl steps out from hiding. She’s focused on her kill that she doesn’t notice him at all. He watched her remove the arrow from the animal and tying it up to take with her, she was very young and possible alone. Y/n didn’t want to frighten her but also didn’t want to cause any trouble in case she was with more people.

The young girl frowns to herself and looks over her shoulder to see him on top of his horse, causing her to react and pulling out her bow with an arrow ready. Before she could shoot him he takes notice of Ghost appearing by the girls side with his own gun raised at her.

“Ghost!” Y/n shouts, cursing under his breath as he jumps off his horse and rushed over to him, not wanting to frighten the kid any longer. “Ghost lower your gun.” He hissed out, glaring at his partner who focused on the girl.

“Shoot me and I kill your friend.” The girl threatens, glaring at the two.

“We don’t want any trouble.” Y/n speaks up, holding his hands up in surrender. “We thought this place was alone, we’re only passing by.” His eyes shift to Ghost. “Lower the gun.” He orders.

“Lower your bow.” Ghost directs to the girl.

Y/n watched the two as they both lower their own weapons. The girl is tense, intimidated by the presences of two grown men covered from head to toe. “We won’t hurt you, like I said we were just passing by.” He says again. “Are you alone?” He simply asked, earning a glare from her. “And if I am?” She shot back.

“Then we won’t worry about you.” Ghost huffed out, putting his gun away and approaching Y/n, protective of his partner as he stood by his side. He continued to watch her closely, ready to attack if she decides to raise her bow again.

“What my partner said, if your alone will leave you alone.” He repeats, lowering his hands and taking a step backwards. The girl bites her lip. “Wait.”

The two turn to her.

“I need medicine, my—my friend needs medicine.”

“Are they infected?” Y/n asks.

She shakes her head. “He’s hurt.” Her hands shake from the cold, grip growing white as she held her bow. “I need medicine, give me the medicine and I won’t disturb you or tell anyone who comes through that you were both here.” She grits her teeth.

Y/n glanced at Ghost who stared back at him, the two communicating in silence until Y/n speaks up. “Take us to your friend and will give you what you need.”

“I’m not doing that.” She hissed.

“Come on, kid. I don’t know how old you are but it’s obvious that just you and your friend who is hurt and your alone trying to keep him and yourself alive and do you really think you can carry that back to wherever your staying?” He makes a good point, the kid hesitating at his words until she finally gives in.

“Do anything and I’ll kill you.” She threatens once more and side steps to allow them to help her. It’s Ghost who steps up first, bending down to throwing the deer over his shoulder and carrying it back to their horses while Y/n walked along side the kid. “We’ve got an extra horse you can ride along on.” He mentions, getting her attention.

“Unless you wish to ride with me?”

“I’ll take the extra horse.” She quickly says.

Y/n nodded and guided her back, he decided to take the extra horse in the back instead in order to make sure that the kid didn’t try anything funny while he wasn’t looking and pretends to tell her that their extra ride is the horse between them. He hoists the kid up and checks up on Ghost who’s strapped the deer and mounted his own horse. “Where too?” Ghost asks the kid who swallows nervously and nods ahead. “Up ahead, I’ll let you know which house.”

Ghost gives the kid a nod and a glance to Y/n who quickly mounts his own horse and began to move forward, keeping an eyes on his surroundings and checking on the kid every few minutes as they continued forward.

“What’s your name?” He finally decided to ask.

“Ellie.” She breaths out, pulling her coat closer to herself, trying to stay warm from the cold weather. “Y/n.” He responds back. “My partner here is Ghost.”

“Ghost?” She raised a brow, looking over her shoulder.

Y/n chuckles. “Long story, but he prefers to be called that.”

“Does he have a real name, at all?” She decides to ask.

“He does, but he doesn’t give it to anyone. Only those he trusts.” Y/n clarified.

Ellie frowns and turns back around to face ahead, staring at Ghosts back before spotting the house she was taking shelter in. “That’s the one.” She points over, bringing them to a stop.

“Check the inside.” Ghost orders Y/n who rolls his shed, hopping off his horse and glancing at the kid and heading inside. His gun is raised as he checks the place, both floors and finding no one. He’s starting to believe that the kid was lying to them until he reached the garage, pulling the door open and finding someone under a blanket. He moves down the stairs cautiously, gun raised as he approached his target, getting a better look at who it was.

His body froze, eyes widening as he takes in the man that lied under the blanket. His face is pale and looked to be in pain. He didn’t think he’d ever find him here thinking that he was long dead.

“Joel?”

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Ghost had grown worried by the long wait, tempted to rush inside and shooting anyone that got in his way in order to find his partner but, his worry quickly fades away when the garage door is pried open with Y/n standing on the other side and signaling over. Ghost helps the kid down as she rushed to her friends side, checking up on him as Ghost removed the deer from the horse and carried it inside while Y/n guided the horses inside, enough space for all of them before closing the garage door behind him.

“Hey, I’m back—you’ll be alright.” He hears Ellie’s soft whispers as she pulled the covers higher to his neck and watched nervously at his ragged breathing. “How long had he been like this?” Y/n asks, taking his pack and kneeling down by her side.

“A few days.” She answers, watching the other as he unzips his bag and checks the medicine they had and hands the kid a few pills. “Here, this should help him.” He also hands her some water which she accepts and helps Joel sit up, his eyes still closed and weak as he willingly takes the medicine and is lord back down. “Will help you with making the food, you’re cold and should rest.” He instructs the kid who gives a short nod.

“Thank you.” She sniffles out.

Y/n glanced at Joel and then back at her, nodding softly. “You’re welcome.” He comes to a stand and walks over to Ghosts side who was on his knees, skinning the animal and getting the meat ready. “You should start a fire.”

“I’ll make sure it’s low, it should keep us warm throughout the day.” Y/n walks further away from the three and gets started on a fire, collecting anything he could find in the room that was flammable and getting a fire started. The flames are small but good enough to warm up the space they are staying in for the night and cooking their own food, they make sure to give Ellie the rest of her food to stare away and letting her that they had enough of their own .

Ellie sat in-front of the fire, eating in silence while Y/n and Ghost sat back against the garage door. Ghost leaning back with crossed arms over his chest and head back as Y/n watched Joel from a distance. His partner takes of this and silently whispers. “You know him.”

Y/n swallows nervously and adjusts his sitting position. “I thought he was dead.” He answers back, lying down on his side with his head on ghosts lap. “He looks like he is.” Said Ghost but Y/n wasn’t paying much attention as he focused on Ellie helping Joel and checking on his bandages and making sure that he was warm enough.

“It was twenty years ago, he was my neighbor. He was a single father with a daughter who were trying to survive on their own.” Y/n suddenly starts to explain, getting Ghosts attention. “I sometimes took care of his daughter whenever he worked and she’d stay over at my place,” chuckling he continues. “We’d cook together, watch a movie and I’d help her with her homework.” He remembered those times when Sarah would barge inside his home without knocking, holding her trophy from soccer and waving it around with excitement as she bounced on her toes and shouting that she’d won the game along with her team.

Y/n had only watched her play a few times due to him working or being called away but he enjoyed every moment and was happy for the kid when she first won her game. Even Joel was happy for his daughter and actually cooked for once as a celebration. A nice dinner for the three of them while they listened to Sarah ramble on about her game to him and how they won.

“You were his.” He hears Ghost say, causing him to snap back to reality and turn onto his other side, facing Ghost and grinning. “Once.” He clarified, nuzzling his face into his thigh. “Don’t be jealous, it doesn’t suit you.” He chuckles, sighing softly and closing his eyes to get some sleep while Ghost smiled softly under his own mask and gave the kid one last look before getting some rest too.

The next day started with Ellie remaking the fire again, cooking her own food and trying her best not to burn it while also checking on Joel. Ghost had left Y/n’s side and helped the kid out, taking over the cook duties while she smiles in appreciation and the two talk quietly. Simon listening to her questions and him answering with a simple hum while she continued to ask.

Y/n sat up quietly, listening to them talk.

“How many infected have you killed?”

“Too many to count.”

“Awesome.”

Y/n chuckles at her words, coming to a stand and stretching his arms. He looks over to Joel who remained asleep, hoping that the medicine would work with regaining his health and healing his wounds. He’s glad that he didn’t get bitten or get infected, things could have ended up worse. “How’s he doing?” His question startles Ellie, quickly relaxing and looking over her shoulder to check on Joel. “He’s getting better. The medicine is helping and his wound is getting better. I think the fire helped a little with heating up the room.” She tells him, sitting on her knees and watching Ghost finish cooking and handing her a piece of meat.

Y/n sighs deeply and takes one of his rifles, strapping it over his shoulder. “I’m going to check the perimeter, make sure that it’s safe.” He announced at the two as he looks out the garage door window, finding no signs of humans or infected before pulling the door open. He takes one of the horses with him and closed the garage door behind him, giving ghost a small smile behind his own mask and leaving him on his own with the kid. Most of the time Ghost would be the one to protest into coming with him but, today he knew that he needed some time on his own. The fact that he found out that his old lover is still alive shocked him to his core, not knowing how to feel about everything.

It’s been more than twenty years since they’ve last spoken and he didn’t want to be around when Joel wakes up. That’s if he wakes up.

Y/n takes his time checking the area, slow on his horse and quiet when checking buildings and for any supplies. He’s able to find a few things here and there but nothing too important that could be used in the future. On the ride back he makes sure to knock on the garage door, signaling the others inside that he’s returned. It’s ghost who slide the door up, allowing him inside and closing it behind him once he straps the horse inside.

“I only found a few things that can be useful—no sign of infected and people. Also checked a few house but they were already cleaned out.” He explains to Ghost, slipping his bag off along with his gun and setting them aside.

“Another friend of yours?”

Y/n froze, back facing the three as he takes in the familiar rough voice. His hands grip around the gun strap, lowering it down slowly as he looks over his shoulder to see Joel sitting up against the wall, no longer looking pale. He looked healthier and was eating while Ellie sat by his side.

“Partner.” Ghost speaks up, arms crossed and approaching the two.

Ellie nods. “Ghost and Y/n are a package deal, they helped me with getting you better and getting some food too.”

“Y/n?” That’s the first thing Joel questions, raising a brow and turning his gaze to him. The older man hums, wincing a little as he sits up straight. “I used to know someone with that name.” He mumbled out as Ellie urges him to stay seated. “You’re still healing.” She frowns at Joel glare directed to her, ready to argue with the kid until Y/n steps up. “She’s right, rest. Besides, we won’t be able to leave this place anytime soon. A storm is approaching and will be locked indoors for some time.” He informs them, turning to ghost who stood by his side.

“Will need enough food to last the storm.” Said Ghost.

“I wasn’t able to find anything while I was out there.” Y/n placed his hands on his hips, sighing deeply and glancing over to the horses, biting his lip and turning back to Ghost. The two already knowing what they’d have to do.

“I’ll handle it.” Ghost steps up to the task, approaching one of the horses and taking his time on removing the saddle along with the additional bags.

“Wait—your gonna kill it?” Ellie’s voice is small, eyes full of sadness.

Y/n gives a sad smile and a nod. “It’s the only way we can survive, that deer of yours won’t hold up and the meat we had from the previous one won’t last us long. These storms can last up to days, perhaps even a whole week and we need to be ready.” He instructs, reaching out to the kid and giving her shoulder a reassuring pat. “You don’t have to watch—“

“I want to help.” She says with determination in her voice, eyes stern and ready to do anything. Y/n chuckles. “You can help Ghost with the horse and look for more wood in order to keep a fire going every once an awhile.”

Ellie nods, before she can follow Ghost she stops in her tracks to turn around and face Joel.

“Go, I’ll be alright.”

Ellie hesitates.

“I’ll stay and take care of him.” Y/n bites out, taking notice of Ghosts eyes on him. “Go.” He nods to the two, letting them know that he’ll be fine as the two head outside and close the door behind them, leaving the two alone. Y/n stands in silence, taking a deep breath and exhaling as he focused on the small fire and keeping the flames from dying out. He works in silence, sensing Joel’s eyes on him as he worked.

“Need me to check that wound?” Y/n asks, glancing to Joel who winced when he checked his own bandages. “Think the kid missed up the bandages a bit.”

Y/n rolls his eyes and moves closer to his side, gloved hands lifting up Joel’s short to inspect the bandages and taking notice of how dirty and worn they were. “These need to be changed.” He whispers, standing up and getting his bag and digging out some clean bandages before going back to his side and helping the other unwrap the old ones and replacing them with new ones.

Neither talk to each other as he worked in silence, checking his work and letting him know in a soft whisper that he was good to lower his shirt and turns back to the fire, using some cardboard that he’d found to toss inside the flames.

“I thought you were dead.”

Joel’s voice is rasped, head tilting back while the other sat in silence. “Was it the name?” He questions.

“No.” Joel groans out. “It was your eyes.”

Y/n looked over his shoulder to see Joel staring at him with a soft look. “I remember those eyes anywhere.” He chuckles to himself as Y/n shifts his gaze away from him and looks down, slowly lifting his mask over his face and giving Joel a better look at his face. After twenty years not much has changed, he still looked the same since the day he left.

Joel stares. “How did you make it this far?”

Y/n’s gloved fingers graze over his mask. “I was in the military, all I ever did was survive. This was nothing new to me.” He mumbled. “My team and I were in Mexico when it happened, got separated when the infected started to take over by the third day and we didn’t have enough time to save everyone. Even though majority were infected already.” His eyes focus on the flames before him, refusing to meet Joel’s eyes. “We got separated while trying to get out of Mexico—I don’t know where the rest of my team is or if their still alive but Ghost and I were the only ones around and we stuck together for twenty years. We moved anywhere we could find food and shelter with no real destination of where we were heading.” He glanced to Joel. “Then we found Ellie, helped her and offered her medicine. She told me that you were sick and thought you were some random guy until I saw you—“

“You saw an old face that you thought died all of those years ago.” Joel added with a soft tone, eyes still focusing on the other who fidget nervously.

“By the looks of it Sarah isn’t with you…she didn’t make it did she?” Y/n whispers out the last part, refusing to believe that she was gone but knew deep down inside that she probably got infected or worse, killed by her own people. The silence from Joel was enough for him to know that she was gone and that he wasn’t going to see that girl again.

Before he could try to change the subject, Joel speaks up. “She asked for you when it all started. I never told her that things ended between us and when everything started she was scared.” Joel remembers that day clearly like it was yesterday. “She’d call your name out and begged me to call you while I was too busy getting her and my brother out of the city. I promised her that I would call you once we were safe but, we never made it far.”

Y/n eyes are wide at the new information. The bond between him and Sarah was strong and loved the kid very much, remembering the times she’s visit to watch a movie or invite him over to dinner since she was by herself and Joel was working late again.

“We had an accident and she got hurt, couldn’t walk and so I carried her and tried to get us across the river until we bumped into a soldier.”

Y/n’s head shot up in attention as he listens to Joel explain. “He thought we were infected and took a shot at us…I got grazed but Sarah took a bullet to her stomach.” Joel’s voice grows small, looking down as he goes through the memory of his daughters death, begging her to stay awake while she panicked full of fear.

“I’m…I’m sorry.” Y/n whispers. “She didn’t deserve any of this.” He wanted to reach off to him but knew that it was best to keep his distance, instead he comes to a stand and clears his throat. “I’m going to check on Ellie and Ghost, see how their doing.”

Upon approaching the garage door, Joel calls out in asking. “Ghost, does he take care of you?”

Y/n fidgets with his gloves, taking in his questions and going back to the first few days that they were alone together when the world ended. How they shared each others skills and tried their best to search for their teammates only to come up empty handed. The nights they spent together, curled up against each other in order to stay warm and the amount of times he’d hear Ghost crack a dad joke or two.

He smiles fondly and looks over his shoulder. “He always does.”

Joel nods. “Good.” With that, Y/n accepts the answer and proceeds to check up on the other two.

#male reader #Joel miller #Joel miller x male reader #the last of us #the last of us x male reader #Pedro pascal #simon riley x male reader #ghost x male reader #ghost mw2 #crossover #mw2 ghost

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puffyducks · 2 months ago

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DCRC Week #25

They said it couldn't be done. Haters said I would NEVER catch back up to the book club schedule. WELL GUESS WHAT SUCKERS!!! YA BOI IS ALMOST ON WINTER BREAK AND THEN I CAN READ AS MANY DUCK COMICS AS I WANT!!!!!! Anyways today is the second PKNA Special Issue: Zero Slash One which is another fun collection of short stories where NOTHING SAD HAPPENS! (ignore the thumbnail image)

Extra long post warning my dumbass hit the image limit

Shoutout to this special indented cover of PK's eyes that probably looks really cool in person but when scanned like this is just. White.

Literally only 3 pages in and I have no idea how I'm NOT supposed to read this dialogue like they're having a tragic breakup

HE'S JUST REALLY SMALL AND SCARED. AND SMALL. HE WAS BORN IN A WET CARDBOARD BOX ALL ALONE!!! AND ALIENS ARE SCARY.

Ok so the first time I read this comic I was like "who the FUCK is Archie" completely forgetting that Gyro's Italian name is Archimede Pitagorico (fucking insane name btw). Anyways imagine if this comic was about Archie from Darkwing Duck they should introduce him into the lore I think

Replacing the guy that builds robots with two actual robots is crazyyy

He thought he was gonna have to break up with Gyro but GYRO is breaking up with HIM, RIP bozo

First of all. I am so sad. Second of all, I know WHY it had to be done but I can't deny that it's kinda funny for Uno to enter Donald's life and then IMMEDIATELY hit up his other friend like "he can't hang out with you anymore" like DAMN 😭 and then his argument in the present that's basically like "you can't leave me you already left Gyro!" like I KNOW that Uno is just trying to explain to Donald that he shouldn't let his fear ruin all his relationships but if this story had taken a more sinister turn it could look like Uno is trying to cut him off from other people which is NUTS.

But we already have so many memories in common! Like that time we fought aliens together, that time we fought aliens together, that time we fought alie

THE SNOOZERRRRRR

THE SNOOZERRRRRR (part 2)

I love how they're acting so shocked that someone could have possibly become aware of the 151st floor when all you have to do to find it is just. count the floors on the tower. You think Everett would try to camouflage it or make it look like it's just one bigger floor at the top 😭

Again, should that not be active all the time? Like as part of the tower's design?

Plan B: Act like a fellow old person Plan C: Dress in drag Plan D: Stefan Vladuck cosplay Plan E: Give him head trauma

DONALD'S FACE 😭😭😭 I love this comic it's so stupid

HOLY SHIT TRIPLET SIGHTING!!!! In photo form but y'know

(walrus) Man.

dude he's fucking ascending

hrgnhghh.... burber

WELL THAT'S NOT HORRIFYING AT ALL

GOOOO DONALD PROTECT ALL THE PEOPLE THAT WE NEVER GET TO SEE IN THIS SERIES!!!!!

No comment I just think people should look at this panel

Hey look it's Daisy hahaaaAAAAH AAAAH GLADSTONE JUMPSCARE!!! I THOUGHT I WAS SAFE FROM YOU IN THIS SERIES YOU FUCKER!!!!! GET OFF THE PAGE

WHY ARE ALL THESE STORIES DEPRESSING I'M NOT HAVING FUN ANYMORE

Uno that is NOT the response you what to give to someone who just confided in you about a traumatic experience 💀

Nvm he ruined it by saying he cares about his car more LMAOOO

But I have a face :(((

DAMN DONALD TORE HIM UP

It's the PANELLL I hate this I hate them... affection for a duck. corny ass

Also does anyone else find it interesting that Uno can't understand how someone could feel affection towards a machine given. Y'know... like take a look in the mirror? (Though he did just refer to himself as THE machine so he probably just thinks of himself as above that status) ANYWAYS I'm going to choose to ignore that fact, Uno thinks he's not worthy of love this is so sad you guys

NEVERMIND THE DIVORCE IS OFF WE ARE SO FUCKING BACK BABY!!! 🎉🎉🎉

So we finally got some explanations for why certain Duckverse characters aren't present in this series and they're ALL sad. PK doesn't hang out with Gyro anymore cause he's worried about his safety bringing him into the world of aliens and time travel and shit. Also Daisy isn't dating him anymore because he has to spend all his time fighting aliens, not that SHE knows that of course. Like WHAT. THIS IS SO DEPRESSING I AM SO SAD!!! Like sure Donald has NEW friends now but :( and also the triplets are in AFRICA!!! Sometimes. I think they're home now but it's not like we ever see them.

At least he has Uno and Lyla and Xadhoom and the Raider and NOTHING BAD WILL EVER HAPPEN TO ANY OF THESE NEW CHARACTERS!!!!!!!

#dcrc #dcrc week 25 #paperinik

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puer-aurea · 1 year ago

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Etho's session 5 trauma

this literally just fanfiction that i felt like writing bc im obsessed w weeping angel etho. all

which, btw, if you decide to read my fic Gods are Obsessive on wattpad when i start postin it (which should be soon? i hope, i just finished the build for Safe Haven so i can move on to the builds for it then start writing) weeping angel etho will be a big thing when it gets to that point

all platonic btw!!

Etho knows he doesn't have to worry about it anymore. Well, he tells everyone he knows. Most of the other players haven't picked up on it, but Cleo and Grian notice the panic in his eyes and his frantic movements to shift into a less compromising position when someone looks in his direction.

Etho knows he's not a weeping angel anymore. But he can't help the anxiety when he feels eyes on him. He prepares for his joints to lock up like the stone statue the watchers made him into for that task. And then, when they don't, he has the shameful moment of rememberance that he passes off with a nervous laugh.

Grian picked up on the panic first, but both him and Cleo noticed how Etho felt embarrassed about forgetting he didn't have to worry anymore. Neither of them chose to mention it, they knew he was dealing with enough shame (though, they wouldn't say it's shame and they're pretty sure the other players would agree).

The other players haven't noticed the aftermath of Etho's task, but they're not around him much anyway.

Cleo always warns him when she's entering a room, subtly reminding he's not a weeping angel. Grian mostly keeps his eyes off Etho, only looking if it's an emergency.

Etho feels bad they have to walk on egg shells around him but he can't help it. Of course the watchers had to give the person who was figuratively stone cold the task that would literally make him stone. And of course it left everlasting effects. This anxiety ridden person wasn't him.

"Hey, Etho?" Cleo's voice came from downstairs.

"What's up?" Etho could hear the creaking of the stairs and he quickly shifted into a comfortable position at the enchanting table.

"Grian's tired after the warden-wither battle and asked for cuddles."

He could feel her eyes on him and he expected his joints to turn to stone.

"Etho, honey, you're not a weeping angel anymore." She places her hand on his shoulder.

He felt his muscles relax and he let out a breath.

"Yeah, I know. You don't have to remind me."

"I'm pretty sure we do." Cleo and Etho jumped at the new voice as Grian rounded the corner.

"Jeez, Grian. Don't scare us like that!" Cleo laughed.

"It wasn't intentional. Well, it might have been. I'm going to Bdubs' bed. Why don't we have any other beds?" Grian walked off into Bdubs room.

"We put all our beds in the bed shrine and didn't think about ourselves." Cleo followed behind him.

Etho watched them walk away, staying by the enchanting table.

"Come on, Etho! I know you're tired after being chased by the warden. The bed's big enough for the three of us." Cleo called for him.

He let out a small laugh and headed into Bdubs' room for a very much needed nap. He'd be dealing with the weeping angel trauma for a while, but at least his roommates and friends were there to help him cope.

why does this feel poorly written? im bad at dialogue

#secret life #etho secret life #grian secret life #secret life cleo #traffic life series #trafficblr #traffic smp #weeping angel etho #ethoslab #grian #zombiecleo #i forgot how to tag

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mamaporcupine · 5 months ago

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Hey Mama, are you okay? Not trying to be mean because you said that you never felt like being loved before and that it's hard for you to process it. Is everything alright at home? I think you also said that the character was from loneliness or something like that. Sorry if this came off as invasive but I hope your life currently is alright <3

You can talk to your fans about anything BTW ❤️ your feelings are valid.

If I'm completely honest I spent all day yesterday and today thinking about how to answer this question. There is an official video where it says why I deleted my story in the beginning, why so afraid of people seeing. The story I wrote was always a vent, a vent of a reflection of my life because of what I was going through at the time and what I endured for years, it was just my altered vision. I panicked and deleted everything about the stories I wrote just for fear that my family see it. I was really terrified, especially of one particular member of my family, I lived through a lot of abuse as a child until I was a teenager by this person who died... my family didn't know anything until after this person died and I was able to talk about it. For this reason I deleted my story and to see that now that such traumatic events have… love… is completely confusing to me. Sometimes I just automatically accept them as my role as an artist and sometimes I deny it. It's sad sometimes not being able to feel happiness fully, sometimes I cry because of this because I don't know how to feel happy without feeling sad. It's complex to feel that I want to erase everything again all of a sudden or to sleep without having rested, It's exhausting to live with a brain that does not rest. It's embarrassing to feel that no one understands why I feel afraid if I'm safe now and no one can hurt me, but I'm still hurt. My psychologist says that this story n Liam is a process of acceptance of the trauma… I say maybe? I do not know,,, Feeling supported by more people than just my friends makes me feel very strange. Sometimes I wonder if I really deserve it or not, maybe it would be better to run, perhaps it would be better to disappear or die All these things go through my head I have never said this publicly and it brings a lump to my throat as I cry, was 20 years in silence, suffering. I think I said it and it makes me happy… I don't know… I just want to say thanks to all those who are still with me <3 I love my best friends for being there, they really are the best thing in my life <3 I hope I didn't give too much of a spoiler of the story with this silly answer haha I'm shaking haha

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mot-hesbian · 19 days ago

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Y'all ready for Bridgerton sexualities? Cuz here we go (these are modern day hcs btw if that wasn't obvious)

Anthony: straight with a capital S (somehow) and cis. He takes a second to understand his queer siblings because of ingrained bias but after a while is supportive. At which point he goes into overdrive and buys them pride flag everything.

Kate: bisexual and cis. I can't explain it but she's definitely thought of kissing a girl. Anthony didn't find out until after they were married because she didn't feel like it was something she had to broadcast.

Edwina: sapphic and a demi-girl. I don't know where she is on the fruity spectrum, I just know she's into guys and girls.

Benedict: Pan (obviously) and cis. This is canon.

Sophie: straight and cis, but thought about experimenting at some point.

Posy: bisexual and cis. It's a vibe that I can't let go of.

Colin: straight demisexual and cis. This might as well be canon.

Penelope: pansexual demi-girl. It's a feeling. Thinks it would be funny to come out in a chaotic way (think her engagement announcement in the show).

Felicity: she's *something*.

Phillipa: pansexual and probably some type of genderqueer. Not out because she's not sure how her family would take it. Is considering telling Penelope and Felicity tho. Finch knows because they don't keep secrets.

Albion: straight but definitely genderqueer. He was so excited when he realized they matched due to not being cis. They had a very nice charcuterie in celebration when she came out to him.

Prudence: I wanna say lesbian who's attracted to non-binary people as well (I know some of them identify as a sub category of bisexuality so I wanted to clarify) but cis gender. Also closeted, out to her spouse.

Dankworth: some kind of fruity and definitely genderqueer, probably more in the non-binary persuasion than anything close to the binaries. He's deffo androgynous and they use basically all pronouns. Very supportive when her wife came out.

Daphne: I mean, she's probably bisexual, right? And definitely cis (I'm not willing to give up her eldest daughter trauma for trans!femme Daphne. As awesome as she would be). Is just vibing tbh.

Simon: straight and cis, but extremely supportive. Offers a safe space for all the queer youth he knows that aren't supported or wouldn't be supported by their families.

Lady Danbury: also something. Is unlabelabled.

Eloise: she's either straight or pansexual, who knows at this point? And still figuring out her gender. If she's genderqueer she's probably Demi. She is insufferable about queer rights regardless and everyone else is tired. They're all for it but making it her whole personality in her teenage years is certainly a choice she made. She mellowed out as an adult and realized it's okay to have a life outside of her political causes, partially because of her best friend and later her husband. She's still passionate about queer rights but in a way that won't eventually burn her out.

Philip: straight trans man. Didn't realize he was trans until he was well into adulthood and it took corresponding with Eloise to be able to embrace it. They are very in love and almost kind of obsessed with each other. They like yapping about their passions to each other at all times of the day. They both find this equally hot (for their spouse actually listening) and absolutely endearing (when their spouse is the one yapping).

George & Marina: straight cis.

Francesca: bisexual cis gender. She's so quiet it took her bringing home a wife before anyone realized she was queer.

Michael/Michaela: pansexual cisgender. Do I need to explain?

John: bisexual demi-boy. It's just his vibe I can't explain it.

Gregory: pansexual either cis or demi-boy I have no idea.

Lucy: bisexual cis. She's too busy pumping out kids and enjoying it to be genderqueer.

Don't know enough about otwttw to say anything about the other characters.

Hyacinth: bisexual and has transcended the gender binary.

Gareth: I mean, from what I know of him he and Hya sound bi4bi. Transmasc transfemme???? Who knows.

What do y'all think?

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miwaqrsp · 2 years ago

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A hell of a ride (Ghost x AFAB!Reader)

A/N: I just read like moments ago a pregnancy fanfic abt König and now I wanna write one abt Ghost since I’m a Ghost girlie. So yea

Summary: Reader gives birth. That’s it thats the summary. Btw heavy on swearing and details so if ya don’t like that, go read the original creators post and follow ‘em <3

Warnings: heavy language, slight gore, pregnancy bs, childbirth, mentions of slight trauma

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Simon was having a nightmare. A vision, to be exact. He had a dream where you were in labor. Screaming on top of your lungs begging for the child to come out already. He had a dream where you finally after so many agonizing hours gave him your first child. His first child. The doctors said that you were too exhausted. And there might be a 70-30 ratio of your survival since you exhausted yourself too much. He dreamt of you dying at childbirth. Leaving him alone, with his newborn child in arms.

When he woke up in a pool of sweat. He quickly turned around to check your side of the bed hoping you were there. You were. Except for you were sitting up on the edge of the bed. Softly grunting. “3:47am”you said softly. “W-what” your husband questioned. “Around 3:47am I think my water broke. You still got good timing. You’re not late” you said slightly turning around and softly smiling at your husband. Simon quickly turned over to pick up his watch to loom at it. Exactly 4am. FUCK. He scooted over to you and rubbed your back slowly while looking at you with a very worrisome look on his face. You gravitated along with the movement of Simons arm on your back. Rocking from left to right slowly. Gripping the side of the bed and grunting ever so slightly with slight sheet of sweat covering your face and body.

Simon knew, it was time. He bulleted out of bed and quickly got dressed. Helping you slowly with every step. Sooner of later he would get impatient seeing how with every step you would moan in agony and tremble a bit. He picked you up carefully and hurried his way to his truck. Placing you in it like as if you were made of porcelain.

On the way to the hospital he would glance at you to check on how you’re holding up. He saw how people lost their lives, arms, legs, limbs, organs even on battlefield. He saw and went through some of the worst things imaginable and yet, this is the moment where anxiety was eating him whole. The entire time he was thinking about his dream, about you and the kid, what would happen to you and the kid. Would you survive? Would the kid? What if both lives were put to a line? He would definitely choose you to survive since he’s known you longer and loved you way more. But at this moment. These questions were eating him whole. The grunts, moans of agony, hearing how you gripped the fabric of whatever your hands could latch onto, slight screams, huffing, seeing how much you sweated and in how much agony you were was killing him. He tried to take his mind off the situation at least a bit so that you two could get safely to the hospital. It somewhat did.

When you two, technically three, got there. The nurses refused to let you in saying you came “too late” and that “there isn’t anymore space left for another patient.” Simon had enough. He threatened them to take you in, begged them, whatever, just to let you give birth to his child safely. Eventually after what seemed like forever. They did. They hooked you up to the monitors and whatnot. Gave you an epidural and set you up for giving birth. The epidural somewhat made the pain loosen up a bit. But not much. At this point you were in tears from the pain. You were sore yet relaxed, tired but adrenaline was pumping through. You felt like you were on drugs. It was all but 29 agonizing hours in this state of fucked up euphoria that you were going through. Your baby was taking its sweet precious time with this birth. Your husband ignored any request from anyone apart from you. Staying constantly by your side, massaging your back and legs when you asked for, bringing you food and water every so often, helping you with whatever. Whilst his phone was going apeshit. You see. Today Simon was supposed to spend the entire week on base. Since the team was getting ready for a months worth long mission. He could honestly give less of a fuck about 141 and that mission when his wife was giving birth to his child. Who decided a month early to come home.

The nurses and doctors came in every so often to give you a bigger dose of pain medicine since the epidural was wearing off every so often. At this point you’re already going through a lot of bullshit. The pain from your baby kicking you and from your vagina ripping itself and now you started to feel immense pain in your lower back due to how much they were filling you up with that stupid epidural dosage. At some point you asked them to stop. Since you couldn’t take it anymore. After the 30th check up on you, the docs finally decided it was time you start pushing. They hooked you up again and started the procedure. With the breathing techniques and whatnot. You were clenching onto Simons biceps and hands that were hugging you. Squeezing them hard, whenever you felt like you needed to push. The pain was agonizing. It was killing you. You were screaming like a wounded animal, crying, begging for it to come out. At some point you started cussing. You didn’t knew what you were saying anymore. All you knew was that you wanted that thing, that child, that baby. Out. Of. You. Now. Every now and then Simon would wipe the sweat and tears off of your face and take all the hair away from your face. Silently and weakly nodding to assure that you’re thanking him for his kind gesture, you tried to look around. But you noticed your vision was blurry. Slowly rising your hand silently gesturing that you need a little break. The doctors brush it off. This went on until you snapped.

“For fucks sake! You’re not the one giving birth are you doc! Let me have a moment! Please”

You plead. The doctors calmed down a bit as the nurses came to your side to help you a bit. Bringing you to sit up right, wiping sweat, and overall trying to help. While that was happening, Simon was being told that he couldn’t be in the room anymore. Which was the exact thing he feared. He refused, ordering that he needed to stay by your side at all times. The security even intervened in order to calm him down, but they were of to no match for him. While he was outside fighting, literally fighting to get to be by your side. He was forced to hear your agonizing screams, pleads for the child to be taken out of your belly. He started to cry. Hearing his wife in such agony he couldn’t help but collapse, cry and wait for the inevitable and unfortunate reality to hit him yet again. Hearing your screams made him think about his past, when he was young, a little lad. Having to see and go through hell his dad was doing to him and his family. Then thinking about the time he met you at the old base. Thinking about the time he swore with his whole heart when his old team retrieved you back from captivity that he would sacrifice anyone in order to see you live again, even himself. He thought about the time when you were walking down the aisle in your beautiful wedding gown. Finding out you two were going to become parents. And now. Thinking about how he’s going to lose you.

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About two-ish hours later. He was sitting on the bench in the waiting room outside of the operating room. Waiting. With his palms pressed together and the side knuckle of his index fingers resting on his nose and the tips of his fingers on his forehead. Cheeks still red from a couple of punches and tears from before. He was anxiously waiting for the bad news.

Eventually the doctor walks out of the room. He proceeded to stand in the middle of the door frame and signal for him to get in. Simon was shocked. The doctor didn’t have his face facing down or looked at him with a disappointing face. Simon bulleted into the room, before being stopped by the same doctor who grabbed him by his forearm “Congratulations Sir.” That’s all that the doctor said before walking completely out and closing the door behind Simon.

Simon was standing in the corner of the room where the door was just looking at you, checking just in case if you were alive. You are. With your arm extended slightly forward with a babies tiny hand grabbing onto your index finger. Simon as silently as possible got closer to both of you. Sitting by the edge of your bed where he could see the left side of your face which was leaned in the babies direction. You were glistening with sweat, hair messy and eyes tired. You were quite exhausted. No wonder why you were asleep and the doc warned him to be quite. He looked over at the babies class crib. He guessed that it was a girl since the baby was wrapped in a pink blanket. Simon slowly got up but not before kissing your forehead and moving some more hair out of your face. When he got closer he carefully picked the babe up into his calloused arms. Holding it. He chuckled softly before kissing the babe on the forehead as well. His two angels soundly sleeping after a long long night.

He slowly sat down on a couch near your bed and was still holding the babe in his arms. He started to cry. He couldn’t believe it. His two little girls alive and well. He blamed his nightmare for the source of his worries. He kissed his newborn daughter on the forehead and just cried silently.

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Simon was long gone asleep. Still holding his daughter in his arms. Both of them were sleeping. You and the nurse were looking at them with awe. She came to check up on you and bring you some food. While you were eating you talked with her a bit “How are you feeling love? I know the labor was not so great.” The nurse sat by your bed and looked at you with worry while you were eating “it was one of my worst experiences ever to be honest. Y’know its not that beautiful and dandy when your child is constantly kicking you and demanding to come out” you said slightly chuckled through your sentence while you looked over at your daughter who was sleeping in your husbands arms who was softly snoring and drooling “Hm little gremlin” you turned back to your delicious food as the nurse giggled a tad bit.

“I’m sure you will make an amazing mother” she said

“Hopefully.” You signed looking at your husband and daughter again “…I hope”

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A/N: if anyone wants me to make a part two I will <3333

I’ll definitely make a part two huehehehe

Btw here’s the original creator of the idea for this fanfic @lathalchiralium

Edit!!!

Here’s the link to that fanfic in question!! Please support the original creator! <333

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