#Because showing that amount of love to your friends? Doing everything for them in spite of it not being the best thing for anyone?

[mcyt-rarepair-tournament]

*walks up to the mic* Sashannarcy from Amphibia

tbh, sometimes the “platonic explanation for this” is the more interesting one

[shanastoryteller]

i've been rewatching psych (as i'm sure you could guess) and three things are really standing out to me on this rewatch

the amount of times gus and shawn have to literally go "no homo" in a situation that really can't be explained any other way is just like. at this point it'd be less gay for them to just have sex

obviously henry is sort of an asshole and a bad parent in a lot of ways, despite his best intentions, but in spite of that, even when their relationship is at it's worst in the show, it's crazy to me how much shawn and henry just like each other. yes we haven't spoken in over a year, now i'm in your house, taking your stuff, of course you're cooking me food, yes we're talking about cases but there's just a lot of - casual hanging out? i really do think despite everything that they had a good relationship until the divorce and falling back into that is easier than not. their relationship is actually the most insane, convoluted parent-child relationship on tv and i'm standing by that, but the undercurrent of like that it has is what i think makes it so interesting instead of just the classic love and hate

they did juliet so dirty by having her think that shawn was really psychic. that makes her the only one in the main cast that shawn fooled, which is just. uncomfortable. and doesn't even make any sense! she's better than that. the only one that should actually think shawn is psychic is buzz and only because he's thinks it's impolite to think that his friends are liars

[rupturedtaleblog]

Hi everyone, Tile here, under more ideal circumstances, you would have gotten everything I wanted to do for the anniversary all at once, but due to my personal life becoming far more busy than I'd like, the content for this year is going to be spread out over the rest of the month.

The following is mostly going to be a few thoughts of mine, over the history of this project, and about a few personal anecdotes. If you don't care about that, feel free to just look at the art up there, it was made by VeggieUTDR.

I would like to start things off by thanking those of you who have decided to still follow this project. What started out as a stupid joke made to spite someone had transformed into a project that is incredibly personal to me. One that I, come hell or high water, will see through it to its completion, one way or another.

8 years feels like an incredible amount of time. A lot of things happened to me, and some things stayed relatively the same. It's part of why I've decided to never really cancel this. By the time Rupturedtale started, it was during the boom of Undertale AU Sprite Comics, it was a project among many of those, and one that would surely fade just like a good chunk of them.

That never really happened, though, as I'm currently talking to you. As corny as this may sound, there is a part of me inside of this thing. And it's a part of me I cannot bring myself to hurt. This whole story is about hurt, really, it'd be cruel to put it out of its misery when it can become something truly beautiful.

If you're wondering why it's taken so long, besides my life in general being busy, it's because I've spent a lot of time developing some personal projects with some good friends of mine. Ones that for the time being aren't really meant for the public eye. Creating those memories is important to me, and they will also shape how some of the things in this project are going to be.

You might get to catch a glimpse at one of them.

There isn't anything of major substance that I can show right now, the Date itself has things that will be better off being shown in their proper context. And its overall script needs to undergo revision before it can be put into game form. In the event of complete and utter catastrophic failure, you can expect it to come out in comic form instead.

In general, for the projects that are made by my hand (and the very lovely people who help said hand), I will be publishing a roadmap of what to expect in the future. There are a lot of things that I want to do, and I'm very eager to show them to you. I just need to get to them first.

Again, I'm incredibly grateful for your patience, there's not a lot of you out there, I'm aware, but for the ones that still are, I promise you're gonna get what you've been looking for.

If there is anything I've learned the past few years, is that my love for this game will never truly die, I will be thinking about it for the rest of my life.

Though, that doesn't mean I will only create under its own shadow.

You can't just play with the same toy over and over again, you know.

You'd want something new.

Eventually.

[bird-inacage]

Only Friends: Why Ray x Mew is Doomed to Fail

This show is consistently catching me off guard and I LOVE that. I was not expecting this to come out of the fallout, mostly because I didn't see Mew ever choosing this. But here we are. As soon as the final scene of Ray and Mew dancing at Yo's bar came on screen, I was wildly uncomfortable. Something felt so inherently wrong and off-kilter with this image. So let's discuss why.

Resigned Acceptance VS Active Choice

Let's be clear firstly; Mew hasn't chosen Ray. The entire exchange between them is Mew doing calculations in his head. And what he concludes is if someone loves you far more, then you don't lose out. Logically it's a far easier and safer proposition to try. (Whereas with Top, who was supposedly so out of Mew's league, has now caused Mew a tonne of insecurity because of his betrayal). Ray can't hurt him because Mew has never regarded Ray as suited for that spot.

It's with an air of resigned acceptance (and an obvious lack of any enthusiasm) that Mew accepts Ray's pursuit of him. Like a lukewarm shrug, 'Yeah. I guess. I suppose. Why not.' Right now Mew needs a distraction and here is his perfect opportunity to appear as if he's 'moved on' already. That he's unaffected. Mew is only doing all of this because he's hurting. If Top hadn't cheated, his stance on Ray would still be unwaveringly firm.

This also serves as an ideal way to punish Top. Top's reason for cheating was thinking (wrongly) that there was something going on between him and Ray. So why not rub that in his face and actually have something going on now to spite him? Top's worst nightmare manifested.

Mew Playing Mew 2.0

I had a really strong feeling this episode that Mew was trying to emanate Ray, especially with his new look. Bit by bit, Mew is denouncing everything that once made him who he was. He's trying to embrace the opposite end of the spectrum and his closest point of reference is Ray.

Ray isn't responsible. Ray is impulsive. He has everyone else taking care of him. I think in some ways Mew may envy Ray at times. The luxury to be reckless, spontaneous and have people around you to pick up the pieces. To test run Ray's 'fuck it' mentality for a change and forego accountability is freeing, it's seductive.

However, Mew 2.0 is just Mew playing 'dress up'. It's a costume and a form of armour but nothing more. Mew is not coupling up with Ray as his authentic self (and ultimately the 'self' that Ray fell in love with). The man Ray loves VS the man Ray is now dating are two different people. There's already a layer of falsehood sandwiched between them.

Ray's Glorification of Mew

In Ray's eyes, Mew can do no wrong. The way that Ray sees Mew is faultless, blemish-free, almost saintlike. Mew is his saviour and Ray holds him on a incredibly high pedestal. This puts an enormous amount of pressure on anyone who is the subject of this adoration.

When we love someone, what we really desire is to be seen for all the things that makes us painfully human. The things we hate about ourselves; the ugly, the unsightly, the flaws - for someone to know us at our very worst and still love us despite all that.

Ray's opinion of Mew means he can never truly appreciate who he is as just another person who has his faults and shortcomings. It also means Ray is likely to look to Mew to have the answers, to share his wisdom and that's just not always going to be the case.

For now, Ray may be basking in the awe of living his ultimate fantasy but I don't think he'll be able to cope with the reality being less than perfection. Of Mew being less than perfection. You've set Mew up to fail, and you've doomed this relationship to fall short of the spectacular grandeur you may have conjured in your head.

This pairing is fundamentally not on equal footing. Mew is vicariously living through Ray like some rollercoaster ride to hedonism. Ray is a means for him but not a destination.

[eepop-stuffs]

Edit: made this when i was an uniformed CHILD. The youtube channel isn't reliable💀

Tobe is 14. Garu is 12. Which means if it was anyone, it would HAVE to be his father.

Oh my god. I'm gonna rant. OK. So previously I was ranting about this to some people on discord (I sent the same rant to three different servers, it's your guys' turn)

So basically, in one of the various licensed Pucca games, there's a cutscene that reveals that Tobe killed Garu's father while Garu watched. However, this makes absolutely no sense given their canon ages and overall dynamic.

Below is the big rant, prepare for me to speak absolute nonsense.

So according to the Pucca YouTube channel, Tobe is 16 and Garu is 12.

In the cutscene, the VERY oldest Garu could be is about 6 or 7. Which would make Tobe about 10. I personally don't believe that bro would be doing allat at 10 years old given the fact he's regularly represented as utterly useless on his own (at least compared to Pucca and Garu combined, which is admittedly like comparing a housecat to a tiger). Assuming they're a little older than my prediction, placing the cutscene a little bit before the show, that would make it a little more plausable with Tobe being in his earlier teens (but honestly not by much).

But considering the Pucca lore is so generally fucked up due to the amount of retcons (Pucca being listed as 10 before being changed to 11 later on being a good example), let's assume that Tobe is at least a little bit younger than Garu's dad and Garu is a small child. Everything makes sense considering the timeline now, but that would leave their dynamic.

Their overall dynamic is the key reason this cutscene makes no fucking sense whatsoever and I personally choose to ignore it.

So, Tobe and Garu are more like frenemies than anything. For one, the only real reason that Garu seems to engage with Tobe's very non-specific "vengance" is his own ego. (In season one and two of the show, at least) it's evident that Garu fights Tobe half because of his friends and family and half out of spite.

Like, Garu just can't let him win. In the episode The Sooga Showdown (season 1 episode 19) where they all have to race around Sooga with one of Master Soo's ladies, we're given a good example of how much their rivalry is just one big dick measuring contest.

Secondly, that nonspecific "vengance" Tobe wants seems more like Tobe was wronged. Which could just be his goofy ass POV of how things went, but that's sort of reaching given all the information we have.

AND MOST IMPORTANTLY;

In addition to all this, they are really just rivals. Like, when they aren't blinded by their little rivalry, they're shown to actually like each other's company. They don't seem to mind each other when they're forced to not be physically violent. If it wasn't for their egos, they'd probably be friends, probably have some sort of brotherly friendship. But they're both just little dillholes who can't take someone being better than them.

It's also important to note their rivalri is also toned down in season 3 for the point where Garu just seems to want to protect his friends and family, and Tobe just wants to beat his ass for no reason and make him miserable. There's not really any given reason for either of their behaviors because season 3 doesn't have much lore aside from the whole thing where Dandy is delulu about the Goh-Rong's """secret to martial arts""" and the stupid ass Dong King shit.

TL;DR

Tobe didn't kill Garu's dad, if he did their relationship would be much more volatile.

If anyone would like to prove me wrong, I would love to have such a conversation. I generally don't know ALL of the lore and don't trust the wiki for shit, so yeah.

I would also like to add that the yt channel can't really be trusted with any lore video posted within the past 4 or 5 months as of July 2024 since that channel is legitimately crumbling into dust. Some of the facts they give are a little cute, but for the bigger stuff I'd take it with a grain of salt unless it was stated somewhere before (like THIS video)

I'm so done with this channel istg🌚

Like gurl....gurl...

[themuffin2649]

Muffin! Muffin!

For the Haunted AU!

Let's say one of the LIs kill MC (either by accident or on purpose), and he comes back to haunt them.

Ranging from trying to make them feel guilty, making their lofe a living heck, to just pissing them off.

"Please stop hiding my stuff!"

*Ghost!MC knocks down a cup filled with water*

Here are some Scenarios:

1: Doll (Leon killed the MC in his Bad end 2)

After school and basketball practice, Leon returns to hang out with his best friend. They chat… well… only Leon talks. This is because his friend isnt really… alive. In fact, he and a classmate named Reme worked together to Taxidermy what remains of his body.

Creepy: Yes, but Leon didn’t mind, because his best friend was perfect.

Leon: “I love you dear.” He says, and he kisses the cheek of his Taxidermied friend.

They start watching a movie about haunted dolls (Annabelle or Chucky), but Leon’s not really entertained by it. He looked back at the doll and leaned on it like a pillow. As Leon was starting to fall asleep, he felt something hugging him.

Leon: “huh?”

When he rubs his eyes, he can see that MC’s Taxidermied doll is hugging him back, and Leon makes a scream loud enough to wake the whole neighborhood up.

Ghost!MC: “What’s wrong Leon? I thought you loved hugs 😈”

Leon: “not like this.” cries

…

2: Take care of him 🔫 (Vincent kills MC)

After learning that MC was dead, Vincent’s Uncle cuts off all finantial aid, leaving poor Newt without a family and in poverty. In pure rage, MC haunts Vincent.

Uncle: “Vincent! I just got your essay back, and the teacher told me you wrote something very innapropreate on the paper.”

Vincent: “What?!”

Vincent’s Uncle shows his paper, with vandalism that says “[Teacher] is a poopy head!” With a poop emoji drawn onto it.

Vincent: “That’s NOT my handwriting, or my drawing style! I’ll talk to my teacher tomorrow to see what happened.

Vincent thinks that Leon did it out of anger, but that wasn’t right, Leon’s form of revenge would have been a bone-breaking beating. Looking again, the handwriting was… familiar… It almost looked like.

Vincent: “Honey?!”

Ghost!MC: “Ahh, so you figured it out.”

Vincent: “Honey, y-you’re back!” He said, tears forming on his eyes in both relief and fear.

Ghost!MC: “Shut up, you wanna know what happened after I died. Your Uncle cut off all financial aid to my brother. He had no choice but to live with Jon!”

Vincent opens his mouth, but before he says another word, MC throws a glass vase on the wall out anger.

Ghost!MC: “Listen to me! You are going to take care of my brother in whatever means you can. If you don’t, then I’ll do everything in my power to make your life a living hell!”

Vincent didn’t even realize he was shaking, but seeing the fury behind his honeybee’s eyes, he could tell he was dead serious (pun intended).

The following days, Vincent used his parents money to financially support Newt behind his uncle’s back. Newt was suspicious and confused about the random financial support after “mom” and “dad” cut him off, but money was money.

Sometimes, as a reward for helping his brother, MC gifts him chocolates, roses, or good grades.

…

3: Love Letter (this can apply to anybody)

So whichever LI kills MC does not only feel a tremendous amount of guilt, but over time, their rival keeps receiving love letters from the dead MC. The rival thinks that Newt is giving these letters written from when MC was still alive.

Meanwhile, MC makes sure that the murderer sees that he is the one writing the letters after his death to spite him off. Even lets him see what he wrote before sending it off to the rival.

Leon’s love letter: “Leon, when I’m by your side, I always feel safe and protected. You have protected me for 8 years, and I have never regretted meeting you. Not only are you a great basketball player, strong and dependent, but you’re also very soft and sweet like a teddy bear. You’ve also care for an protected my brother like you did for me. Thank you for everything. 🩷”

Vincent’s love letter: “Vincent, you are so much more than your family’s money. Although we have only recently met, your determination to get the things you want has inspired me, yet, you still care deeply about me. Not once did you care about our financial differences, you’ve always cared for and cherished me. I love you. ❤️”

What better way to show your anger than Emotional Damage.

[redphlox]

I noticed the ask about why you like Toya's character, I love edgelords with a heart of gold too.

I also love that he's petty, like he didn't have to reveal Hawk's family lineage. He did that out of spite because the video of him killing Hawk's would have been enough as well as him exposing his dad's ass in the middle of the war while on top of Gigantomachia.

My boy Dabi is petty and I love it.

What was your favorite thing about Dabi's dance?

Mine was how he planted seeds of doubt onto the heroes and single handedly broke hero society psychologically.

I mean, he didn't only do it just to be petty. Hawks's lineage was the piece that tied everything together. He exposed Hawks's roots with the intention of pointing out that Heroes can and do lie. They can be as corrupt as villains. He was trying to use to his advantage the fact that Japanese society extends capability to family members of criminals in a "birds of a feather flock together" type of way. "Endeavor is fundamentally a bad person, and he's a hero. Hawk is so drawn to him because he's also a bad person... and it makes sense because his dad is a villain, too" type of way. This information was supposed to completely tear down people's belief and trust in heroes.

Except, nothing came of this reveal because the narrative has a double standard that only applies to certain characters. For example, the Todoroki family, with well-to-do members of society like a medical welfare student and a teacher and a future hero, is being drug through the mud and living through hell because they're related to a criminal. Fuyumi felt forced to quit her job, and Shouto felt like he couldn't be around the rest of his classmates while UA was being used as a shelter because of who his father and brother were. The story tells us that the public does not view them favorably. And while many readers explain this away with cultural context that Japanese society tends to ostracize family members of criminals and praises the story for being realistic, then isn't it unrealistic that Hawks doesn't face any skepticism or fall from grace for being related to villains? It makes no sense that he wouldn't face at least a little bit of backlash. This is where the themes and messages of BNHA fall flat and we end up right where we started at the beginning of the story - people are not all born equal.

The revelation about Hawks's father - and even Dabi's reveal - all amounted to nothing because Horikoshi set up a double standard in the story that favors the Heroes. You have a license to kill and act in criminal ways if you have a hero license. Even Endeavor benefited from this to a certain extent because the narrative shows us a few civilians stating that they don't care what Endeavor has done in his private life as long as he does his job as a hero. Yes, the majority of the public hates him, but he still has his supporters - Hawks, his sidekicks. And yes, My Hero Academia is a story about giving people second chances, so I'm not saying the support is inherently bad. But the fact that only Endeavor is being supported and not Touya only reinforces the fact that certain people get second chances. People are not all equal.

What do I mean by this? Well, it's like when you have a friend whose family you haven't met. Your friend tells you that their aunt is dying in the hospital. So you're like, "hey I'm here if you need me." You're supporting your friend, and technically not the aunt. That response makes sense because you don't know the aunt and you are nurturing your relationship with your friend. But in the Todoroki situation, society does have an obligation to Touya because he is a part of society. Turning our backs to criminals AKA villains only exacerbates social problems and forces people to turn to crime in the first place.

Anyway. In the end, yes, the reveal video planted seeds of doubt, but those seeds did not come to fruition, and the status quo did not change. But I did enjoy Dabi's dance immensely. It's one of my favorite moments not only in the story but also in any media I've consumed. The video reveal was fascinating, but I really enjoyed that he had the chance to speak his truth to his abuser.

[seriousbrat]

>>I mean mostly the fact that he never shows any real remorse for it. I'm not saying that he didn't feel guilty for hurting Remus, I think he did-- and I also think that academically, intellectually, he understood it was wrong. But in SWM we see it doesn't really change anything about his behaviour. And why would it? There weren't any real consequences for what amounts to attempted murder.

this this this. sirius is a fascinating character and imo a big part of what's so fascinating about him is the disconnect between the morals he academically and intellectually holds (judge a man by how he treats his inferiors, die rather than betray your friends, etc.) and the instincts he follows when he can't/doesn't check himself (...how he treats his inferiors, that one time he betrayed lupin's secret for a fun prank, etc). this sounds really anti-sirius lmao but it's not, he's such a good take on the "it's our choices not our nature that define us" thing and is possibly the first adult we see in text genuinely engaging with this theme in a real world-adjacent way rather than transforming into a feral ragemonster each month or having his evil boss growing out of the back of his head or something. i do love me some metaphors but the relative realism is nifty.

exactly!!!!! the girls that get it, get it. honestly i feel like a lot of analysis by people who genuinely love Sirius reads as anti-sirius just because my boy's got a lot of flaws and I think anyone who rly loves the character for who he is (same goes for Snape) actually loves him because of those flaws, not in spite of them. so we love to talk about them lol

it makes him so interesting! the kreacher thing, the way he directly contradicts his own advice from the previous book, is such a clear example of this. I mean, again Sirius has been conditioned to view house-elves as inferior, and not only that but Kreacher is the last living reminder of everything he suffered at home and everything he hates-- it's understandable why he'd react that way to Kreacher, but it's also what proves his undoing.

In a way there's something admirable about it, like Sirius has had to overcome MUCH more than someone like James in terms of challenging his own beliefs. is it any wonder that being thrown in azkaban at age 21 and then forced into a different kind of prison would stunt his growth and understanding about the world? despite that he was still able to be a great godfather to harry.

[opinated-user]

LO just doing her usual verbal abuse to her audience on the form of guilt tripping and acting like a dissapointed emotionally abusive mom. "i had great things to show you, i think you'd have loved it, but since i know you won't appreciate them i had hidden them away and it's all your fault. you should have thought it any better!" taking out of the way that this is 1. likely a lie, she doesn't have that kind of self restraint, and 2. her new TSR documents includes things like grooming and even more erasing of Rey's as an actual character so whatever else she wrote about would probably be more of the same... did she seriously said that anyone should pay her for writing fanfiction? artists who want credit for their pieces of art being used are entitled divas, but waiting to be paid for using a universe already made with character she didn't create is not? is LO that disconnected from fandom that she lost the memo that everyone in fandom is doing things for free, simply because they enjoy it? MO's illustrating her pokephilic comic for free, pressumably to make her wife happy, but LO somehow doesn't understand doing anything just because, there has to be some compensation in the end. but just for her! everyone else should just give her free labor out of the goodness of their heart and if they expect compensation then they're the divas, not LO who exploits people without giving them nothing back. i'm... so grossed out by this. you'd think that with everything i know about her i wouldn't be surprised by this anymore and yet, here i'm. it's not just that some of her audience is going to read this and actually feel guilty even though they did nothing to deserve, or that at least some portion of them are going to bite the bait and give LO all the attentions she craves, but LO plainly said that just artistic expression can never be enough, the normal amount of positive attention she gets is never going to be enough. she'll always want more and more and it's the fault of everyone around her for not giving it to her. just for the record, LO treats her friends the exact same way. there's no difference between innocent audience members who watch her casually or friends who have their own lives to take care of. everyone should drop whatever is they're doing to give LO what she wants without even expecting a thank you or any reciprocation afterward. on top of that... there's nothing for the friends or fans can do about "let me be buried under a deluge of harassment"! that's is an extremely unreasonable point to make at all and to use against them, as if they had any power to "let it happen" or stop it in the first place. LO could block the people who harass her. LO could not respond to their messages. LO has the absolute control over what appears on her blog or not, not her audience, but she'll blame them regardless of it because she's that spiteful and emotionally abusive.

[billieconway]

Full name: Sybil "Billie" Alba Soto-Conway

Nicknames: Billie

Age: 34

Star sign: Leo (August 5th)

Hometown: Macon, Georgia

Occupation: Paramedic

Pronouns/Gender: She/her, cis female

Time in town: 10 years

@aurorabayaesthetic

(trigger warning: this intro contains mentions of wildfires and spousal death, proceed with caution)

-born Sybil Alba Soto, birthday August 5th, Leo to a fault

- goes by Billie (rarely tells anyone her given first name)

-raised in Macon, Georgia and has a distinctive southern accent to this day in spite of the fact that she’s been in Aurora Bay for seven years

- has four brothers, is the only girl, big loud family (mostly republican, she doesn’t wanna talk about it)

- her mother, excited to finally have a daughter, put her in several ‘toddlers in tiaras’ sort of pageants (but got freaked out by the JonBenet Ramsey case, and never put Billie in a pageant again)

- had a very normal and happy childhood, was kind of a tomboy in her earlier years due to the amount of brothers (she is grateful for it, it made her very tough)

- was very miss americana and popular in high school; cheerleader, homecoming queen, most likely to suceed etc

-originally pursued a career in nursing, moving to los angeles to complete the nursing program at UCLA 

- during her final year, she veered into paramedic training after doing a week-long shadow of a paramedic for a research paper (she moved to Aurora Bay after graduation)

 - she met her future husband, Logan Conway (who was a firefighter), on a call during her first full week of work

- after two years of dating, the two of them had a small wedding in los padres national forest (billie was 26 at the time)

- by the time they were married, logan was working as a hotshot firefighter, specifically working in wildfires across the state

- almost five years ago, in a dry california summer filled with wildfires, logan lost his life while fighting a blaze in the los padres national forest after a freak wind shifted the fire and he was overcome by it 

- widowed at 30, billie remembers very little of the immediate aftermath of logan’s death -- only that she started laughing hysterically when the funeral director asked if she wanted him cremated (she did, but god, the irony)

- she took a year off of work after logan died, spending some time back in georgia with her family and spending some time in montana with his

- once she returned to being a paramedic (roughly 3 years ago) she joined the team at aurora bay fire department as their resident paramedic/ambulance driver, so she’s usually out on calls with them 

personality

- georgia peach all the way, billie is sweet but takes no bullshit (whiskey in a teacup sort of gal)

- feels and cares deeply from the heart, which is why she’s so good at her job (but can also be a downside because everything becomes personal)

- once you’re in her life, you’re there for good. she’s the kind of gal who remembers birthdays, your mama’s name, and what kind of dessert is your favorite and will always send thank you cards and read that book or watch that show that you told her about 

- she’s done a pretty effective job at trying to move her life through the loss of her husband, finally feeling like she’s making headway and going forward. has a morbid sense of humor about the whole thing. her heart still seizes up when she sees fire fighters running towards a blaze. very tough, but absolutely has her vulnerable moments and can be caught crying in the back of her ambulance from time to time

wanted connection:

- for the love of god this girl needs friends and people to lean on when she needs it, someone come drink wine on the back deck and look at the stars with her 

- maybe someone she met through a grief support group? 

- the one poor guy who has been/will be her first date since “getting back out there” 

- friends of her late husband (he was a Montana native but lived in Aurora Bay from the ages of 20-32)

- people she’s met from her college days 

- hiking buddy

- baseball game buddy

[kiss-my-freckle]

It pisses me off that Vicki gets more hate for dating Jeremy from hypocritical Stefan fans cause of their age difference and her being a senior but they make so many excuses for Stefan. They say things like Vicki wasn't a vampire when she started dating Jeremy so she can't be held to the same standards in a fantasy show as Stefan. They say that Stefan dating Elena is fine even though he's 163 years old at the start of the show because he turned a few months before his 18th birthday even though Stefan has referred to himself as 163 years old or more multiple times in the show, especially when he celebrates his birthday. He may be physically 17, though he definitely looks older than that, but he is mentally older based on his life experiences. He's been in love and slept with more people than Elena did before and after dating him, has held numerous jobs, studied at Ivy League schools, traveled the world, lived independently for a long time, served in the military, etc. His best friend Lexi turned in her 20s. Some of their conversations show the gap in the eras they were born in so why can't they ever hold Stefan accountable for anything. When Stelena were making out in bed an episode before Elena found out Stefan was a vampire they couldn't escalate things further because of Stefan's bloodlust. I've also seen people argue that Stefan hiding his vampirism from Elena, Ivy, and the other women he's been physically involved with in some way or another isn't a big deal and they compare it to cheaters hiding their martial status which is a dumb argument since he's inherently a predator as a vampire regardless of his beliefs but nonethless he personally has two extreme personalities as one. I feel so bad for Ivy and how he preyed on her for a long time to make himself feel human and once she turned into a vampire due to his negligence and found out about his truth too late he basically toss her aside and Caroline had to try cleaning up his mess. Many Stefan stans infantilize Stefan and say Katherine was 400 years old and preyed on a 17 year old even though she was about 19 when she turned but don't hold him accountable for him sleeping with Elena and other high school girls. Stefan stans say shit like stan Stefan for staking Vicki, though most of them completely blame Damon for it. I've started stanning Vicki out of spite.

Fans are really ignorant to the truth of the matter. I don't know where Mystic Falls is supposed to be located according to the show, but if it's in Virginia, the age of consent is 15 and Vicki is still in high school.

Age isn't just a number. It's about how that number differentiates two people. Stefan isn't 17, his body is. As far as I'm concerned, a mere shell holding everything within. Knowledge and experience in EVERY aspect of life. A common question older people are asked. "If you could give your younger self advice, what would it be?" That's what age gives. Not your body, but your actual life experience. Stefan has an insane amount as you've stated. He's 163 years old, not 17. I have a son with autism, so I speak from a parent's perspective. Age works both ways, so while a 16 year old could act like they're 30, a 30 year old could act like they're 16. I'm gonna tell you the one thing Stefan has that his 163 years gave him. Power over Elena. His education alone, like a teacher dating his student. Worse (by far) for Stefan to date Elena than for Vicki to date Jeremy. Fans like to act as if Stefan was 12 when he paired with Katherine, but no. He was older than Jeremy when he met her.

Damon and Stefan have a lot of shared blame. Vicki's death is one of them and they do it on purpose. Stefan starved Damon. I don't think fans realize just how close he was to being a living corpse. He was so weak that he collapsed in Vicki's arms. Damon tells it like it is. Stefan wanted to stop Elena from learning their truth, and because Damon was locked in the cellar and couldn't give her that, she got it from other characters like Logan and the old man. That's why Damon flat-out said, "Stefan finally fessed up." Their vampirism wasn't a truth that Elena deserved to know, but actually needed to know because their secret literally kills. The writers have done everything they can to hammer in the fact that vampires are predators. They're never truly safe for humans. I honestly don't know what I feel about Vicki, but I do know she has a huge parallel with Elena that I plan to put together sometime soon. And you're right, Stefan didn't have to kill her. I believe he chose to because he was afraid she'd be a ripper like him, and he didn't wanna deal with that.

Fans comparing Stefan hiding his vampirism to hiding his marital status is absurd, and only goes to show how inexperienced they are. The real truth of Stefan hiding his vampirism from Elena is shown in the show itself. He might as well have compelled her into a relationship with him, and he was gaslighting her while he did it. Unknowingly inviting a blood junkie ripper vampire into her bed is a million times more dangerous to Elena than unknowingly inviting a married man into her bed. Stefan's secret is like a deadly plague. He put Elena at extreme physical and emotional risk, put it that way. Ivy was an insanely gorgeous repeat of the truth. As Cade kindly pointed out, never meeting her was protecting her. That would be Damon, and the reason I point out his every action in the pilot episode.

[alittlebitgoofy]

lovesick melody (luxx/spice)

i am so obsessed with these two it's not even funny so ofc i put them together into a fic bc i'm what? biased and gay for them. also it's a fun dynamic (tw for drug usage)

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Despite what she told herself, Luxx would be lying if she said she didn’t get lonely from time to time when seeing couples. They didn’t need someone else to feel confident, relationships seemed so draining from everything she’d seen in highschool. So why did some ditzy girl who could tell her the entire history of bratz dolls, but couldn’t do basic math make her head spin this much. 

That didn’t stop the onslaught of feelings that were waiting round the corner though, no matter how much denial there was. The amount of times that damn feeling crept up into their chest made Luxx want to scream, though confessing this to anyone would be the worst of all. 

No matter how many times they told themself this would pass, it grew deeper just to spite her. Luxx swore she hadn’t had this intense of a reaction to feelings before. Crushes happened; she just pushed forward because no one was like her and it would’ve caused more pain than it was worth to explore those feelings. No, this was different. A sickeningly sweet smile that only ever seemed directed to her. That was what broke her from denying it any more. 

Spice wasn’t the most aware person, they were thankful for that. She never noticed a change in behaviour and never questioned why Luxx would go quiet occasionally, usually when she took personal space to be a mere suggestion and pulled them impossibly close. 

Unfortunately Sugar made up for her twins lack of perception, raising an eyebrow whenever she walked into their shared dorm to see Spice curled up against Luxx, the most calm she ever looked, smiling serenely up at her friend like she was the only person to ever show interest in her.

She was too loving for their heart, anyone else would at least limit their feelings but Spice never faked her feelings, the affection in her actions was obvious to anyone but it felt different when she spent time alone with Luxx. She didn’t hesitate as she did in any social situations without Sugar, even with Luxx by her side.

That was another thing that both warmed and hurt their heart, Spice seemed so on edge in any social situations without her twin. The way she always stayed at Luxx’s side and would fall quiet as soon as someone said she was talking too much, throwing an occasional glance to her friend with a weak smile. Getting her to open up after one too many people jokingly told her to shut the fuck up wasn’t too hard. She wore her heart on her sleeve, no matter how much she didn’t want to. 

Seeing her cry was one of the most heart wrenching things Luxx ever experienced, swearing they could feel everything Spice described, crying her eyes out as all her pent up frustrations became too much to bear. That was the first time she knew she was whipped, unable to say no to Spice’s pleading eyes when she asked if they could hold her for a minute. That moment turned into a few hours, the brunette curled her way into Luxx’s arms, head leant against her chest and sat in silence until her emotions calmed. Even after she had come down, Luxx couldn’t find it in herself to let go, letting Spice put on a film and stay put in their arms. Spice was intoxicating in a way she didn’t know another person could be. Her mind seemed to short circuit whenever she got close, which was difficult when she was a koala in human form, always pulling Luxx in for a hug and lingering as long as she possibly could. Spice’s affectionate ways got a few side glances, mostly from mutual friends who knew Luxx did not like to be touched, unless you were an emo brunette with heels bigger than your iq.

That was what had led them to where they were, too many thoughts circling around their head as a stoned Spice had curled her way around them, arms circled around Luxx’s waist pulling her so close their bodies were practically one entity. Her head sleepily leant against their shoulder, occasionally letting out a content hum or zoning back into the conversation when her name got called. How Jax had managed to sneak in enough for the four of them they didn’t know but Spice was already there when they came back with Marcia so she got to join in. 

Luxx’s attention was brought to the phone buzzing next to her, Spice seemingly unaware of the fact her phone had been vibrating on and off for the past ten minutes. She got brought back to reality after as Jax threw a balled up piece of paper, Spice letting out a small whine a solid ten seconds after it hit her. 

“Spice, your phone.” They spoke after Spice turned her attention to the direction the paper came from. “My phone?” She blinked, glancing around to try and find it and failing miserably. “It’s been buzzing for like the past 10 minutes.” 

“My phone?” She spoke slower that time, as if questioning if she even owned a phone. How could she be sure it was hers?

Jax shook their head, Marcia poorly concealed her amusement and Luxx just stared at the girl in awe of how few thoughts were in her head. “Yes your phone, who else’s phone-” Jax grumbled, frustrated at the sheer lack of processing power in Spice. She took a few seconds, nodding thoughtfully at them before opening her mouth to speak again. “...your phone?” She questioned, tilting her head to the side as she spoke. “No my phone is over here, Luxx’s is on charge. It’s your phone that’s going off.” Jax let out a long sigh, Marcia full on cackling at Spice’s antics. Luxx just continued to watch, curious as to if she’d finally get it or continue to question what a phone was. “Oh! My phone!” Spice’s brain finally shifted into gear, picking up her phone from beside Luxx and scrolling through before turning back up to Luxx with a pleading look in her eyes. 

“Luxx, what does it say? My brain isn’t braining.” “You really shouldn’t have had another brownie,” Luxx muttered, taking the phone from Spice and beginning to read through the barrage of texts she had received. Of course they were all from Sugar, informing her of every thought, broken by the occasional minute or an addition she realised she wanted to make after the original message had been sent. “It’s Sugar. She’s asking if you’re coming back, said she’s gone out so she won’t see you.” “Who’s she gone with?” “She didn’t say.” 

“Maybe she’s going with a ghost.” Spice’s eyes went wide and it took all of Luxx’s self control not to burst out laughing then and there. 

“I don't think- maybe she is actually you never know.” They shrugged, unable to suppress a smile when Spice squeezed their hand in thanks, smiling sweetly as she pocketed her phone. 

“Are you not going to reply?” Spice blinked a few times, before pulling her phone back out of her pocket and sliding it into luxx’s hands. 

“Yes?” “I’ll tell her you’re coming back, and get you back to your dorm cause you’re too fucked to do it by yourself.” Luxx responded to the text, not hesitating to include how it was her texting on Spice’s phone because she was too stoned to string a coherent thought together. 

“I think I ate too much.” The brunette spoke up suddenly, her eyelids fluttering as she leant forward to go back to leaning on Luxx. 

“You think?” They couldn’t help but be soft with Spice, stroking her hair as she burrowed into their shoulder. 

“Tired.” She let out a muffled word, quickly followed by a yawn. Luxx felt relief trickle into her as she realised Spice was too out of it to realise how much she was enjoying this. Her reflexes were slow, all she really could do was be affectionate and speak occasionally. The intimacy was something Luxx would always try to avoid but god damn it Spice was too cute to say no to. 

Luxx glanced over their shoulder to the sight of Jax in Marcia’s lap, kissing them as if no one else was in the room, letting out a groan at the display of affection. “Get a room.” “Didn’t you say you were going to take Spice back to her dorm?” Jax shot back, focusing their attention back on Marcia as Luxx scoffed. “I am, have fun being gay.” “Oh, we will.” 

Keeping Spice upright as they walked was a difficult enough job as is, even in their hazy state Luxx could be the responsible one when needed. The taller girl had leant half her body against them, shuffling after as Luxx led the way. The walk was quiet though not uncomfortable. Luxx wondered if Spice could even string a sentence together in this state, the fatigue in her obvious from the way her eyes were already starting to flutter before she shook herself awake.

“Luxx?” Spice spoke up in somewhat of a whine, a pleading tone that coming from anyone else would be grating, yet from her was somehow endearing. 

“Yeah?” “Stay, I like you.” 

Her hands lightly tugged at Luxx’s shirt, inching them closer to her. Another thing she could get away with that no one else would. They stared her down in faux resistance, relenting when Spice’s pout became too hard to resist. Her arms immediately wrapped around Luxx’s waist, leaning her head on their shoulder. Spice let out a content hum, dragging Luxx into the bed with her. They couldn’t help but stare, watching as Spice’s lips curled into a smile, her eyes half lidded as she glanced over to Luxx with a sleepy grin. 

Luxx could have sworn time slowed for a second, they became painfully aware of every feeling in their body as Spice curled around them, listening to her breathing even out. She fit perfectly into their side, her arms sprawled out on top of them. Half in a spooning gesture and half just so she could spread out. 

Fuck. She was down bad.

It wasn’t enough Spice had practically been a weighted blanket for the majority of the night and Luxx had no complaints. It wasn’t that she had asked nicely for them to stay with her while she fell asleep and of course the answer was a yes. It was this, the affection, the pure love in her eyes every time she smiled at them. God damn it, why was this absolute bimbo taking every shred of feeling inside of Luxx and turning it to 11 just by existing. 

This was going to create problems tomorrow, namely both of them sober, realising the situation. Sugar would no doubt see this and grill the pair until she got a decent answer. It could strain things, it could be awkward but the nervous joy that bubbled up as Spice slept next to her was enough to make Luxx think it was worth it. 

This feeling was sickening, though no matter how much they tried to resist it came crawling back. The world had it out for her, but maybe Spice was worth the pain of feeling all these things.

[skaz-wolfman]

Halfling Appreciation Post

Literally my first time making an original post, let’s flapping go.

As those of us who love roleplaying games and have a healthy amount of self-respect distance ourselves from Dungbats & Dickbags, (and just so we’re clear, I’ve been a fan of the world’s most popular RPG since I was a kid, so my anger here is not a mild, petty thing, it’s an absolute Balrog of betrayal) I just want to take this moment to make sure we’re appreciating one of my favorite fantasy races.

Muhfuggin’ halflings, yo.

Why are halflings great, besides the fact that Samwise Gamgee is the single greatest supporting man in the history of fantasy adventure? Well I’ll happily tell you. Over the years, I’ve heard woefully misinformed people say “Oh, they’re just skinnier dwarves” or “they’re just gnomes but boring” or “eww, halflings are pedo-bait”. That last one has made me scream obscenities, not gonna lie. But sadly, reductionism is all too easy. So please, lend me a moment of your time to outline what halflings actually are.

1. Halflings Are Friends. This really doesn’t require me to explain it, to be honest. The world’s most comprehensive essay on why halflings are the best friends anyone can have already exists, it’s called The Lord of the Rings. But then, that’s still being reductionist, isn’t it? Everyone in the Fellowship was super friend-shaped, not just the Hobbit Squad. That was kind of a big theme in that whole saga. To flesh this point out a bit, the same way human beings possess an absurd capacity to pack bond with ANYTHING, halflings tend to possess a charitable disposition, generosity of spirit, and natural inclination to help that makes them damn-near optimal buddies. Sure, they might not adopt you on sight like a human, or swear a lifelong oath of friendship like a dwarf, or check in on their favorite human’s descendants every so often like an elf, but once you earn a halfling’s friendship (which still isn’t terribly hard) you have a ride-or-die homie for life. Sure, we all sing Sam’s praises endlessly, but let’s be real, if Sam had been the Ring-bearer Frodo would have been his rock too and you can’t convince me otherwise.

2. Halflings Are Brave. Contrary to what some may think, halflings are not fearless, but they do embody the saying that “courage is not the absence of fear, it is the will to act in spite of fear.” Halflings know fear, of course they do, they average around three feet in height. But when a halfling comes into danger, it’s usually either because they’re in the middle of doing something important, or because danger showed up to threaten their home. Either way, a halfling’s gotta do what a halfling’s gotta do. That doesn’t mean every halfling is a Leeroy Jenkins; most of them aren’t that hot-blooded. But every halfling knows in their bones that fear just isn’t important enough to stop them from helping. A halfling is more afraid of their community or their friends getting hurt than they are of getting hurt themselves.

3. Halflings Have Wonder. Halflings are often compared to children, even called “child-folk” sometimes. Hence why some people seem to think of them as “pedo-bait”. Yuck. They’re just short, people, they aren’t lolis or shotas, they grow sideburns for Pete’s sake. The other big reason halflings are considered childlike, besides their height, is that the have that indelible sense of wonder that us humans often associate with children. Halflings don’t grow tired and jaded, they know the endless potential that comes with each new day, with each new person they meet, and each new place they go. You know that meme where Marge Simpson holds up the potato and says “I just think it’s neat”? That’s a halfling about literally anything. Not everything, they have personal interests of course, but a halfling can find the “neat!” in literally anything. No matter how many people they meet, they’ll still be excited to get to know someone new. No matter how far they travel, a new vista can still take their breath away. No matter how much pain they have to endure, they’ll still be grateful for a new day to find new wonders in their life.

4. Halfling Are Modest. Why are halflings so helpful, brave, and always looking for the new no matter how much they experience, good or bad? Because they don’t think too highly of themselves. That’s not to say that they have low self-esteem or that they lack pride. A halfling knows, without self-deprecating, that they’re only a small part of the world, but they also know, without ego, that the world would be less without them, and that the same is true of most anything in the world. Sure, there are bad things that probably no one would miss, but most things in the world have some value to someone. Most people might be terrified of spiders (yours truly included) but there are also people who think they’re the coolest, and regardless of how you feel about them personally they have a valuable place in the food chain. Halflings never lack for wonder because they aren’t afraid of how vast the world is. Halflings are great friends because nothing they want for themselves is more important than supporting the people they care about. Halflings are courageous because they know there are too many precious people and things in the world to only be worried about saving their own skin, otherwise they wouldn’t have left the comfort of home! Halflings aren’t easily overwhelmed, but they generally know when something isn’t to be taken too lightly, either.

5. Halflings Are Lucky. I know that “lucky” isn’t really a personal quality, but it’s nevertheless an essential part of what makes halflings so Neat™. This is, in fact, the converging point of the halfling traditions of Friendship, Courage, Wonder, and Modesty. As much as I feel burned by the Wizards, they did introduce me to a concept that I really, really like, and I don’t believe in throwing away good ideas just because I’m mad at the people I got them from. That the reason halflings are so lucky is because they’re such wholesome and kind folk, beset by danger on all sides, that in a world where Good is a fundamental force, the universe itself looks out for them every once in a while. And if the very universe appreciates halflings that much, I think we should too. Plus, you kids wanna talk about cryptid characters? What’s more cryptid than a happy-go-looking chubby homebody with a name like Bernie Teakettle who goes out to check their mail, gets swept up into High Adventure, and Mr. Magoos their way through stopping an apocalypse? King shit, that is.

So in summary, much like the potatoes they cherish, halflings are just really neat.

Fuck the kender tho, tbh. All my homies hate the kender.

[bellitenzin]

Power of walking away!

This article is all about why walking away is so powerful and attractive at the same time. There are few reasons why when you decide to walk away from anybody in your life, it actually comes across extremely powerful and attractive. So please stay tuned. Welcome to belli article. This is going to be my first article here on tumble. If you are here, please like, share and follow.

Walking away works on anybody, your family, your friend, your boss, your wife, absolutely anybody. One of the greatest superpowers one can possess in the real world is the power of walking away. It is one of the amazingly simple yet powerful things any person can actually do regardless of your background, ethnicity, religion etc. Why waste your life for people who never support you, who genuinely never want the best for you, why spend the money and time with a person who is not sure about dating you or going into business with you etc.

Now, how is walking away so attractive? Very much like no contact rule, which essentially implies cutting complete contact with someone, going silent and sticking to it. It is all about regaining or having the upper hand and choosing yourself over another person and seeing your worth. It is not like playing some psychology game at all & it isn’t similar to that by any means. There is a significant difference between manipulation and removing yourself from a person, a group of people or a social situation. And life is too damn short to waste it with idiots. Therefore, getting up & walking away is an incredibly brave & powerful method. Couple of months back only, I walked away from a toxic relationship of over two years. In spite of investing so much in that relationship, it ended up taking me for granted. I felt so disregarded & finally it hit my absolute bottom. Enough is enough, I said it to myself and walked away. Also, everybody can walk away from anyone if your worth is not valued regardless of genders difference, social status and so forth.

Now, how is walking away powerful and attractive?

Well, I will reveal all in the following four ways, why walking away is not only attractive and powerful but also utterly irresistible too.

No.1 You become a challenge.

The primary reason why walking away is incredibly powerful & attractive is because you immediately become a bit of a challenge. The vast majority of people are so uncertain nowadays that even the smallest amount of pressure or absence of clearness can send them to spiral of chaos. How accessible are you when it comes to dating & relationships? Could it be said that you are always at the end of a phone call, a little text and you promptly answer? Do you drop everything just to see that person even when you are really busy? Do you prioritise that person over everything, your hobbies, your work, your friends and so forth? The problem initially here is, you are not likely to be a challenge and as a result, you have found yourself almost utterly obsess for the attention of that other person. You love them so much that you don’t want to lose them & take all the necessary steps to keep them in your life and make sure you have no mistakes or make no mistakes whatsoever. Most likely you are kind of ripped. We have all been there though. For a man who give gifts, who show the affection to the smallest things, and ensure they are okey all the time and to the point where it gets irritating. And sadly, these usually brings most of relation to the cross streets and almost to the points of no returns. So, what is the solution? Indeed, walking away. By doing so it shows that you are not in that frame of mind games, uncertainties or any types of nonsense. It shows you have dignity, pride and an amazing amount of self-respect. It shows that you have that healthy boundary which need not to crossed. And now you are a challenge. The other person is stunt that you got up and walked away. They arrogantly believed that you will be with them regardless of how treated you. And just how wrong were they?

No.2 They miss your attention.

Another reason walking away is so attractive is the other person will immediately miss the attention you had given them. People are so predictable these days. You give them an inch; you can guarantee they will take a mile and take advantage. People are constantly taking advantage of other people, you name it, they will happily let you call them first all the time. They will let you chase them, they will let you treat them to nice things. They will make you put all the effort and all the work. They let all the effort; all the arrangements lie with you. You are the mouse, and they are the cheese.Ultimately you are trying your hardest to make sure that they will stay with you and make sure that they are always going to like you. You check on them constantly, you ask them how their days are going and so on and so forth. You are initiating the attention with them every single time and they know this. They think I have got him/her. I have wrapped his/her around my little finger. If I call, they will come running, if I say jump, they will say how high? However if you walk away, what happens to that wonderful attention that you were giving them? Obviously, it stops immediately. It comes to an abrupt end and suddenly they are at a loose end. They crave you more than ever. They will become obsessed with you because you have starved them of the very thing that they arrogantly assumed were entitled for eternity i.e., your attention. No.3

You are mysterious.

Human beings are always curious about the unknown. When you’re constantly available and everybody knows what you are up to, what you want, who you are. Then your mystery is non-existent. By walking away and remaining no contact ignites excitement and fear within their subconscious mind. By the person constantly knowing where you are, what you are up to. You show that you are way excessively available. However, suddenly you walked away and following anxiety clicked their mind. They start to question themselves, what are they doing? who are they with? Who are they spending time with? What are they thinking? and so on. Walking away and remaining silent makes you mysterious and mystery is very attractive. No.4

You regain your power

Yes, walking away regains your power. Having the strength to get up and walk away from negative and toxic individuals is hugely underrated super power. It is of course not easy to walk away from the person whom you have loved more than anything but it is the only right thing to do. The greatest power you can ever possess is the power of walking away. By tolerating abuse, negligence, mind games, toxicity, dramas, stress all the time, would only affect your life making it considerably worse. The upper hand lies firmly with you. What you have to do is walk away silently. There is no power in butting heads and continuing arguments with a fool. There is no power in butting heads and continuing arguments with a fool. There is no power in chasing and flogging a dead horse. There is no power in begging and pleading. However there is power in walking away. You are portraying the confidence and self belief that you will not tolerate anything or anybody that does not abide by your standards. This is not about being arrogant but for the right reason, which is your own self respect. It needs to be about yourself, not the other person. Thank you for your attention.

[late-to-the-fandom]

Character Relationships Tag

THANK YOU @spuddlespud for tagging me in this! I have always wanted an excuse to do this for Renathal’s various relationships. And fair warning I took this so serious so it is long (I hid it under the break, you’re welcome 😂)

Tagging: @shipping-through-eternity @mousterian-writes @diaryofomellas @scourge-lover I would love to see your character’s relationships in a nice bullet point list where I can keep track 😂

Denathrius - Renathal’s relationship with Denathrius is a mix of father/son and God/creation. Without meaning any offense, I drew a lot from my experience watching Protestant Christians describe their relationship with God - where it’s supposed to be both reverent and familial/personal all at once. Denathrius is his guidepost in everything, his confidante/confessor, his father he’s sure loves him, and his god he’s certain can do no wrong. When he initially discovers what Denathrius is doing, he’s almost certain it’s some sort of test, a way to see what Renathal would be willing to do in the event of deep seated corruption in the realm. Obviously, Denathrius’ actual betrayal and careless disposal of Renathal is catastrophically traumatic to him. (Also, important note for me: I don’t give this relationship any sexual aspect whatsoever)

The Maw Walker - Renathal’s relationship with the Maw Walker originally starts as a replacement for the hole left by Denathrius. In the midst of this trauma, the Maw Walker shows up and rescues him, his friends, his entire realm, and, what’s more, supports his rebellion. Obviously, he latches on to this person for comfort. But over time, this relationship evolves into something I consider more mature, and less one sided than his ret with Denathrius; based on mutual trust and respect, an understanding of the other’s flaws and limitations, and a realisation they both have something to offer the other for their greater health and happiness. It’s a relationship that makes them both the best version of themselves.

The Curator - I think of all Renathal’s relationships with other Venthyr, theirs is the closest. Not best friend close, but siblings close in age close. It’s based on my own relationship with my brother, a year younger than me. We can not talk for months, but when we do we pick right back up as if we never stopped. We have a million inside jokes and shared history that our other younger siblings don’t have, and fights come and go pretty meaninglessly because we’re just such a permanent fixture in each other’s lives. That’s how I see this relationship.

The Accuser - I headcanon the Accuser as relatively young in Venthyr terms and somewhat recently ascended to her position (talking hundreds of years rather than thousands). Renathal is used to commanding a certain amount of basic respect from other harvesters, and she’s the first one in his memory to just say fuck that noise 100%. She can’t stand Renathal and only puts up with him out of respect for chains of command. What’s worse is Renathal actually respects her more than any Harvester in a long time, and so it bothers him that she doesn’t respect him. The only time they’ve ever seen eye to eye is when Renathal started his rebellion (which was more shocking to the Accuser who thought Renathal would put loyalty to Denathrius over paltry things like right and wrong). I think by the end of my story they’ve come to a tentative respect for each other but they’re never destined to be friends (it’s going to take a few more eons as a Venthyr before the Accuser can see the merit in the decadence and frivolities she thinks Renathal values too highly).

The Countess - what’s the word when you fuck each other occasionally in spite of or specifically because you hate each other so you know you’re safe from catching any feels and also you can use it against other sometimes, but you feel gross afterwards and you hate seeing each other pretty much any other time? Bang enemies? Fuck foes? That’s Renathal and the Countess.

The Stonewright - You know the sibling that’s technically younger than you but is taller, tougher, and could clearly beat you to a pulp so you make a point not to mess with them in order to maintain the illusion that you’re superior? That’s Renathal and the Stonewright.

Other harvesters - I don’t have many set headcanons for Renathal’s relationships with other harvesters, because in my world they come and go fairly regularly. Only the Curator and the Stonewright are close to Renathal’s age and the ones he considers his true siblings. The rest he’s polite enough to (as long as they stay on his good side) but he never lets them forget he’s their superior and he never fully trusts them or is close to any of them (since most of them are actively try to usurp his position, hence why none of them ever last long).

Theotar - Ok. Here is my personal headcanon for the relationship that is the darling of so much of the Renathal fandom (and which I fully admit is coloured by my dislike for this character). They were relatively close friends before the rebellion, with Renathal attracted to Theotar’s hidden sincerity, a trait rare in Venthyr. But, in an effort to spare Theotar from Denathrius who likes to sabotage Renathal’s relationships in painful ways, he keeps this relationship from going anywhere too intimate and in the end they’re two friends that know they might have enjoyed a romantic relationship in a different timeline but the circumstances just never worked out and they’re perfectly content with how things landed.

Draven, Chelra, and Vorpalia - I think Renathal’s greater friendships would come from these three, each of whom is somewhat out of Denathrius reach (more so than the Venthyr). He doesn’t confide in any of them as totally as he does with Denathrius and then the Maw Walker, mostly because he still feels he has to maintain a semblance of Princely decorum. But he does trust them in ways he doesn’t trust other Venthyr because they’re outside Venthyr politics, and the likelihood they can be turned against him, even by Denathrius, is small.

I think that’s all the major ones! Although if I missed a major one, let me know!

[onlyposersfallinlovee]

10 steps forward and 3 steps back is still forward progress.

But you never saw it that way, did you?

To you, any amount of steps in the wrong direction was the end.

Even if those steps in reverse were your fault.

Was a little reassurance too much to ask? Or because of my past, were all of my problems irrelevant until yours were gone? I always thought we'd work through both of our bullshit together. Especially last time. I thought you had my back finally. That I could let my demons out and you'd help me slay them while I helped you slay yours. Go to battle together, not alone.

And I damn sure didn't think that me needing a turn on the therapy couch was grounds for you slaughtering me like you did. I didn't think I wasn't allowed to have demons.

But, as always, my problems had to take a backseat and boil on the stove until it was too much and it boiled over. Yet, you can justify what you did by saying your problems built up until they exploded like a frag grenade.

Why couldn't we just take turns taking care of each other. We both did damage. We both have to be selfless. Not do shit like make excuses for why we can't help one another. Not sit there and say "After your last episode, which started because of something I did (that you claim didn't happen but it did, I have the screenshot), I'm so apathetic that I can't give you love and care and reassurance."

What the actual fuck is that and how did we get there and why can't we just flat out drop and kill that mentality? Regardless of who was right and wrong? Why can't we get in fights about "no it's my turn to care for you," and compete for who can be the most loving instead of competing for whose turn it is to be a mess and lash out?

You've always wanted the better days, while walking away during the hard times it would've taken to get there.

I think that's what killed me the most.

We could have and should have.

But you were always looking for a reason to leave instead of reasons to stay.

You were creating those reasons to leave because you were scared it might not work out.

Creating the end of us by your own hands so you wouldn't feel guilty for running back to what was safe, but will never be as rewarding as the future we could have built together.

You wanted to be vindicated and absolved of blame, even though, at the end, it was all on you anyway.

I hope, at least, that you take comfort in that false notion. For a little while, anyway. Until the day comes when you realize you were wrong. So wrong. About everything.

You couldn't see what I saw in our future. Or you didn't want to. Or your ego wouldn't let you.

You couldn't trust my eyes and what I saw in spite of your blindness to it.

And for a while there, I'll admit it was me. And the biggest realization I've had in all of this, is that it no longer is and that I was right. All along. You were exactly who I thought you were, who I was terrified you secretly were, in spite of all your pretty words telling me otherwise, all along and none of your defense mechanisms will ever change that truth.

There was no self-fulfilling prophecy. Just a failure on both of our parts, to foster an environment in which healthy conflict could take place.

But, I guess, it's irrelevant at this point. I'll never slow down enough for you to catch up, and you'll never speed up to try to match the pace at which I want to fix this.

Even now, not even as lovers, but as a friends; the best friend I've ever had in my life, if I'm being honest. If it's a shit-show when we're deep in romance, why can't we be honest and say "ok, fuck that. Let's not try again," but still love one another anyway as two humans who genuinely still enjoy almost everything the other has to offer? Because I know that, minus the love we shared, every other part of us just clicks, and I don't want to miss out on that for the rest of my life. When I marry her next year, I want you to be there. I want to be able to thank you for getting me to her. I want to dance with you on my wedding day too, as two people who loved lost and found the best kind of love there is: unconditional and without strings. Without sex, feelings, anger, love, sadness, or happiness. Just love.

Am I just supposed to be content having known you and lost you the rest of my life and miss out on a wonderful friend simply because we tried love and it didn't work?

Yeah, I wish to God that the story didn't end this way, but it did.

The ending we pictured for ourselves will never be a reality. But that's ok. We could, if you'd let us, make a different one.

So why can't we write a new ending? One where we never love again, but still end up happy together at the end.

Why can't we drop all the other shit and just fix a goddamn wall together?

Is that really such a tall task for you?