#Balance & Options

[kiivg]

.please please please please please pl.

[hawkeyeslaughter]

love that henry blake is genuinely just a normal guy . weirdest thing about him is that he’s obsessed with fishing and that isn’t even remotely as bizarre as anything hawkeye and trapper got going on at any given moment . he’s just some guy from illinois in a camp of people who are bonkers and he’s so fucking funny for it

[theadventurezoneoftruth]

I noticed that, in the Blupjeans community, there's a wide variety of interpretations of what Exactly the "do you wanna go talk for a while?" conversation meant. And I'm curious about what the general consensus is. So...

[acronym49]

Sunny Appreciation time

(rambling about my wof headcannons in tags below!)

[autisticgayplushie]

new post for sharing progress on critter the autism cat!! head still needs MEGA work so this time you get a tail preview :3c

[stop-breaking-my-heart-telltale]

What can I say? They're my favorite.

[deoidesign]

Thinks about my next series again... I drew the icon for it!

I'm planning to have it launched within a year! I'm hoping for summer 2025. I want to make a prelaunch page before Time and Time Again ends so people can subscribe if they're interested, but I'm worried the series return would be too early...

[ottosbigtop]

trying to iron out my minkovski design so it feels more right + testing out curly hair on my Eiffel design bc I rly like how everyone else draws him w curls

[anistarrose]

I was going to make a post saying "Lucretia told everyone the truth there were seven Grand Relics instead of covering her ass and saying there were six because she's a storyteller, and six sounds objectively less cool than seven," but then I thought about it and actually, if you look at the timeline, I think this was probably a very pragmatic or at least tactically safe decision on her part?

When Lucretia founds the Bureau, Junior hasn't been born yet. Lucretia obviously doesn't even know Junior will be born someday. So once she inoculates Bureau members with Fisher — a necessity to staffing the Bureau in the first place — Lucretia can't keep any more secrets from them, with only one Voidfish at her disposal. And crucially, while Lucretia is the Bureau's primary source of info on the "Red Robes," basically all her recruits lived through the Relic Wars.

Upon inoculation, they'll all presumably remember at least some details about the Grand Relics. Obviously no one but Lucretia would know anywhere near everything about each Relic and their properties, not least of all because of a high eyewitness fatality rate, but part of the reason the wars were so deadly was because word of the Relics spread. Everyone in the world knew a few things about them.

So, if Lucretia were to tell her recruits: "oh, don't worry, there's only six terrible artifacts we need to destroy, tee hee!" then it's very possible that assorted Bureau members — especially Seekers, for whom looking into the Relics is literally their job — could start comparing memories amongst themselves, and put together that there was a seventh, leaving Lucretia with no option but to admit that she lied. If I recall correctly, the podcast never explicitly indicates what/how much damage the Bulwark Staff did to the world — but I find it hard to believe that it didn't do anything an inoculated person could later find record of or remember. (There's an admittedly good fanfic premise, though, in Lucretia leaving her Relic in someone's care to make it stationary, like how Magnus gave the Chalice to Jack, or how Barry is theorized to have given the Bell to the Wonderland twins.)

I digress, but the point is, Lucretia may have necessitated a lot of little lies for her future self by admitting there were seven Relics, but trying to winnow it down to six could've easily bit her in the ass, and she was definitely smart enough to realize that. She acted accordingly at the time.

And by the time Junior comes around, then of course she could theoretically use them to erase the Bulwark Staff from her employees' minds — but by then, she's been hiding the Staff under everyone's noses for about a year, and no one has gotten suspicious. So if it's working, why change it? She's no doubt also smart enough to reserve Junior's power for emergencies only — because even if people forget information, they can still retain the feeling they're forgetting something. With people planetside, that's one thing — but with her employees on the moon, from whom she needs unshakeable trust? Probably not worth it.

Overall, it's a deceptively rational decision on Lucretia's part, honestly. And also, yes, seven Grand Relics still sounds way more badass than just six.

[whatever-letmebe]

I just spent a solid thirty minutes trying to write a post about the conversation Shaopeng had with his parents in the hospital room and how it really touched me but it would take at least 3000 words to express all my thoughts and I am tired. What I want to do is show you how disabled children are encouraged to always work hard and do better and master new skills in various therapies (occupational therapy, speech and langage therapy etc.) and praised when they do well. and then we can look at each other in understanding because of course Shaopeng internalized all that pressure to be strong and of course he felt like he had to compensate for his deafness instead of asking hearing people to accommodate him and of course he learned that acting like he doesn't struggle is how he can make his mother happy. If you've been that kid or worked with that kid, you get what I'm talking about.

[carpethedamndiemdejavu]

Find your balance despite the absurdity.

[thegreatyin]

honestly the longer i go actively playing caeru's account (on some days, more than i play the scoundrel's) the more and more i realize the real reason why so many fallen london OCs are rampant hedonists is because the quirk system is broken and it's really hard to not raise your hedonism stat even a little bit

[doctahchang]

wish the revelation that janeway's choice led to borg assimilating a whole race in hope and fear had more weight. like idk girl stranded her ship because she wanted to save alien species in the first place. which led to the destruction of another one. maybe they shouldn't have ended that episode on an upbeat note. i like how chronologically the next episode after that is night, in my mind it also played a part in janeway falling into depression. would have been delicious if it was mentioned tho. she could have countered chakotay's argument that she saved ocampa with this one, making her choice to sacrifice herself even more obvious to her

[mleemwyvern]

what if tango was a snake hybrid. tangosnek

[thedreadvampy]

had a scooby doo moment in therapy today gang

I have this problem I call the Shoulder Lawyer. he is the horrible voice in my head that like, if I start to assert in my own mind that anything bad ever happened to me, starts to harangue me with demands for objective unassailable proof with no alternate explanations and accuses me of being an unreliable witness to my own life.

and today in therapy I basically had a moment where I turned around and went OK GANG LET'S SEE WHAT'S UNDER THIS MASK OF DETACHED OBJECTIVE ASSESSMENT. WOW IT'S JUST LIKE 20 TEENAGE RAPISTS STACKED UP IN A BADLY FITTED SUIT.

you're not an impartial analytical voice at all, Shoulder Lawyer! you're the internalised version of a bunch of arguments made by people with a specific vested interest in me not believing the evidence of my own experience!

and while we're at it, Shoulder Lawyer, your arguments don't hold water, you're treating highly circumstantial assumptions as ironclad facts, not one man on this jury would believe the conclusions you've drawn, and anyway this isn't a fucking courtroom and nobody's on trial????? I DON'T BELIEVE THIS MAN HAS EVER BEEN TO LAW SCHOOL!!!!! BAILIFFS TAKE HIM AWAY!!!!!

anyway I did great. I'm so covered in gold stars this week I'm like a tiny galaxy.

[miyamoratsumuu]

post may or may not be cringe, but we're rolling with it 🤙🏼

I dreaded having to do this (again) all year long, but guess who's going on a semi-hiatus!!!! hint: me ☝🏻 (I'll call it semi bc I'll prob be lurking around here and there still, lmao)

most of you may know, but I've been super busy with school lately given that I'm graduating this year, sooo I'm predicting it rn I won't be able to write anything for a while 😞

it's not that I don't have free time at all, it's just that everything that's been on my mind lately is shoolschoolschool, and I almost never think of anything else 😭 + I can't find it in myself to have the mental capacity to balance everything I have going on here and aiming to be at the podium once graduation comes around

though I will be posting chapter 6 of push & pull this week, AND maybe a teaser for score his heart?? but idk, we'll see! if I do end up posting both of those, I think that'll be it for a while

I'm so sorry to be letting anyone down, especially those who have been enjoying my ongoing series so far</3 I promise that once I make the time to write in between school and my social life outside of tumblr, I'll be back to writing/posting better than ever!!

I'll just take this opportunity to thank everyone for supporting me and my works this past summer vacation!! I truly believe I wouldn't have been able to survive the summer heat without you all 🤕

thank you all so so much, I hope you understand!! as I mentioned, I'll still be lurking around the app and answering asks/messages if necessary!! I LOVE YOU ALL SOOO MUCH, I'LL BE BACK BETTER THAN EVER, I PROMISE!!<33