#Baby Benson Series

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I ALREADY HAVE A WIFE | Sebastian Vettel

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summary: seb messes up on a press conference while his pregnant wife is there, and he also has to face a journalist that wants to try have a chance with him

warnings: this is based on THAT interview you know all too well (what are YOUR plans?). curse words, pregnancy and everything involved in it, talks of abortion, mental health issues (fluff fluff fluff)

a/n: this is part of history series (coming soon as is being heavily edited). it was my maiden series so... look carefully between lines because there might be some details you don't want to miss out. let me know what do you think of this pleaseeeeee you know i'm always waiting for your feedback, as well as comments and chats on that anon button please! and also, don't forget reblogs are truly appreciated

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��Rose Benson, for The Times. A question for all three drivers: it’s just 102 days until we’re in Australia. What are your plans now between… What are you gonna be doing over the winter break? 

“What are your plans?”

Everyone in the room was no surprised by Seb’s answer. Laughter started to fill the room, spreading quickly except for two people: Britta and you. You noticed her gaze piercing your husband, as if she were mentally scolding him, like every time she did when he messed up. You, however, just looked at him with a look of disappointment.

She was unsure about what she had just heard, you knew it perfectly.

Seb face immediately turned pale, as if he knew he shouldn’t have said that. As Seb’s not also wife, but also race engineer, you were used to this kind of behaviour and jokes, but today… it just hit different. 

“Seemed to be counting the days,” he continued while starting to laugh a bit nervous. “Can’t wait.”

Max and Lewis, sitting next to him, joined in the laughter, making him laugh even more as the situation seemed to begin to slip out of his control. You were sure that he knew that having you just a few meters away, shaking your head constantly at the same time you whispered something to his PR didn’t bode well. 

“Seb, you go first,” a journalist said. “What are your plans?”

“Uh…”

“Another baby?” Lewis interrupted.

You knew all to well that he tried his best to not tell anything. Apart from your four years old little girl, both of your families, and Britta and Antti, no one knew yet that you couldn’t try for another baby because the baby was already on the way. 

You couldn’t take the risk of sharing the news and then telling people all over the world that you had an abortion, just as happened to you in 2016.

“Uh... well…” Seb stammered, not knowing what else to say. “Quickly done.”

Even though you were caught up in the laughter around you, you couldn’t control your growing nervousness, as well as your husband, and it kept getting worse every time you glanced at him. You crossed your arms, almost falling off your chair, and decided to rest your head on Britta's shoulder. You tried your best not to fall asleep, but the yawns continued leaving your mouth with no shame at all.

“If you need advice I know how to do it.”

Another mess-up.

Britta was already signaling with her hands to him so he stopped saying nonsense, totally overwhelmed not because she wasn’t used to it, but because she was maybe too worried about you. You straightened up as soon as you heard that, and instinctively placed your hands on your barely noticeable belly, thanking yourself for having decided to start wearing clothes a couple of sizes larger than usual.

“Keep pushing,” Max blurted out, immediately drinking from his bottle.

“Well... I don't know how long you two want to stay on free practice sessions, but... if you want…”

“I like free practice,” the Dutchman commented. “I'd rather stay there for now.”

Lewis and Max kept talking to him, but you knew he was trying his best to go along with the conversation.

After what felt like an eternity, the press conference ended. Everyone started to get up and scatter around the room, probably to chat with each other. The season was over, and they wanted to do the usual: say goodbye and wish each other a good winter break. Seb  did the same, with the difference that he headed straight towards you.

You were still sat, eyes fixed on the floor while you fidgeted with your fingers nervously, tears streaming down your cheeks.

You felt like a complete idiot because, even though he hadn't meant any harm and your really knew that, he should have thought before speaking because he knew all too well that you usually got overly sensitive. You had been through a pregnancy together before, and although it was a vast world full of unknowns, certain patterns did repeat.

The constant desire for sex and the hormonal ups and downs you suffered were the most obvious.

Slowly, he approached you and, with utmost care, knelt beside you, placing a hand on your thigh. You didn't pull away as you usually did when she was mad at him, and you saw in his eyes that he wasn’t expecting you to react that way.

“I'm sorry if what I said made you uncomfortable, especially that baby talk. The last thing I wanted to do was to upset you but I ended up messing up, like always.”

You lifted her gaze, meeting his. He knew you were not exactly sad, but a bit disappointed at the thought that someone might have discovered the pregnancy you were trying so hard to keep secret.

“I swear I hate you right now, Sebastian Vettel,” you said, being completely honest and letting the hormones act for you. “You made me feel so bad, I swear, but…”

Your words came out broken, and tried your best to keep your cool.

He knew you stopped talking because your eyes welled up more than usual: you were on the verge of breaking down but didn't want to do it in public. He leaned his forehead against yours, your faces almost touching.

“I never wanted to make you feel this way, my love,” he whispered. “You, alongside our girl, are the most important people to me, and you know that perfectly well,” you nodded, though he knew you doubted it. “You don't know how much I regret not taking care of my words…”

You looked at him, perhaps trying to find the obvious honesty behind his words. You knew he was being completely honest, but once again, your insecurity was consuming you and acting on your behalf.

“Seb, I hate myself right now. Quite a lot, actually,” you revealed in a nearly inaudible whisper. “I hate being pregnant because I feel useless! I'm so bipolar…” you tensed up, though standing and positioning yourself next to him to keep talking without anyone overhearing. “I want to hit you, I want to cry, and at the same time, I want you to take me to the bathrooms and have casual sex like we were teenagers. Do you understand me, sunshine?”

You said that but actually no, he couldn't understand you because he didn't know what it was like to be roughly eight weeks pregnant.

“Y/N, hey, listen to me love,” he said, holding your face in his hands and wiping away your tears. “You don’t have to hate yourself for feeling this way, alright? We’re in this together, and you’re going through a lot of changes. It’s completely normal to feel this way,” he repeated.

You nodded, and even curled your lips into a small smile. You didn’t waste any time and quickly started hugging him and leaving kisses on his right cheek.

But that ended abruptly when you both heard a throat clear behind you.

Britta was standing next to none other than the pink-haired girl who had asked your husband about his winter break plans earlier.

Rose Benson, that Italian journalist who had become one of the best, if not the most prominent, additions to Formula 1 journalism.

“Sebastian, as charming as ever I see…” her words made you cling tightly to Seb’s arm, a bit afraid. Again, your insecurity appeared. “Can I steal you for a few minutes for an exclusive interview?”

Her gaze fell with a hint of disdain on your, as if your were an unnecessary part of the conversation she was trying to have with your husband. Immediately, he wrapped his arm around your waist and started making faces at Britta so she could help him to get rid of that reporter.

As expected, she refused, letting him know he would have to face an interview he didn’t want to do but that it was up to him whether or not he did it. She knew better than anyone what it was like to deal with the media and, especially, with professionals like the one in front of you.

“I’m sorry, Rose. I’m busy.”

“Come on, Sebastian... we’ve known each other for years,” she persisted, getting a bit closer to Seb. “You know it would be an amazing interview... like so many we’ve had.”

You were starting to get upset again. The only thing he did was placing a hand on your belly, and it somehow calmed you, but not for long. 

“Benson, I’m serious. The only conversation I want to have right now is the one I was having with my wife,” he said, calmly rubbing your back.

“You’re disappointing me, Vettel,” she snapped, leaving you both in shock. WYou’re missing out a wonderful opportunity to be interviewed, in private, with someone like me.”

After hearing that, tears once again covered your face. You took a few steps back, slight pushing him and positioned yourself next to Britta, who didn’t know what to do other than wrap her arms around you while Seb was still watching the reporter start scribbling something on a piece of paper.

“Here’s my phone number, Seb,” she said in an overly suggestive tone as she handed him the piece of paper, which he took. “Are you sure you don’t want to reconsider? We could find a more private place, and…”

As she got dangerously closer to him, Seb kept your eyes on you.

You hated how polite he was even though people acted in such a stupid way. 

“Rose, I’m sorry, but that’s not going to happen,” you said again. “My answer, once again, is no.”

“Have you never wanted to explore curves other than those on the circuit?”

“Why are you such a fucking bitch?! The only curves he explores off the circuit are mine!”

The woman’s insinuations had pushed you over the edge. Several people were already looking at you, and you’d swear some were even taking pictures or videos, so it wouldn’t surprise you if you went viral on Twitter that night.

Benson didn’t know what to say or do after your insult, except to end the closeness she had created by moving away from your husband as much as possible, trying not to arouse suspicion from the onlookers.

“Y/N, I think it’s best if we go get some air, what do you think?” Britta suggested you.

“No, I don’t want to go get some air, Britta!” you shouted again, breaking free from Roeske’s careful grasp. You were worried about you getting this upset, but you didn’t care at all. This wasn’t good for the pregnancy. “I want to tell this stupid journalist to learn to do her damn job properly and stop meddling in marriages!”

“Excuse me? Are you calling me a cheater?” she retorted, clearly offended. “You need to learn to control what you say, dear. You’re going to get yourself into more trouble if you keep this up.”

You were getting more nervous than hearing Seb during the press conference, you’d swear.

“Yes, you!” you snapped, moving further away as Britta tried to take you out. She must have noticed how pale you had gone. “Do you think Seb doesn’t have a girlfriend? Well, surprise! He married me last June and we’ve been together for nearly seven years, and we have a daughter, and...!”

The index finger on Seb’s lips was what made you stop from revealing your third pregnancy or who knows what else. Your expression revealed him that, although he had done the best to make you shout, at that moment you only wanted to kill him.

Britta began to guide you more quickly towards the door to get out of there, but your words still could be heard despite the distance with a frustration that was more than obvious. There was a point in your life when you started saying what you wanted, fought for what you believed was not fair, and you stopped being intimidated or afraid of anything or anyone.

That’s what probably made Seb fall in love with you more and more every day, even he actually thought it would be impossible.

When you finally left, Britta handed you a bottle of water and started to calm you down, but you just couldn’t relax. Now, you were still nervous and actually worried about what Seb could be saying to that woman. His body expressions, the ones you were seeing from distance, didn’t calm you as much as you thought, and when she handed him a piece of paper you completely lost it and, once again, started crying, leaning on a wall.

A few minutes, later, Seb approached you while you saw Britta leaving you two some space.

“Hey, Y/N, I’m so sorry about what happened there. I should’ve handled it better,” he started, his voice full of concern.

“Seb, it’s not your fault. She was way out of line,” you said, your voice trembling while trying to calm yourself down. 

He pulled you into a tight hug, your body relaxing slightly against his.

“We’ll get through this, together, like we always do,” he whispered, kissing the top of your head, hoping to soothe your nerves.

His gaze meets your tear-filled eyes. Gently, he took your hands and started caressing them with his thumbs, knowing how much it relaxed you in moments of distress like this.

"Thanks for taking care of her for me, Britta," Seb said, turning around to thank your second mother once more for looking after you and sparing you any trouble.

You wanted to say something to him, but as soon as Seb turned his back again you, he got closer and closed the distance between you two, pressing his lips to yours. 

You ended up forcing yourself to pull away not because you might get horny,because you're not used to showing affection in public unless it's a completely special occasion. The world knows you only hold hands lightly or maybe kiss on the cheek, out of respect for your profession and, above all, so that people see you as an engineer and not just a WAG.

Private moments were exclusively yours, and no one beyond your loved ones and yourselves needed to know about them.

"What's that about, Seb?"

You were too surprised, feeling a wave of emotions invading you. 

"The thing with Rose, or the kiss?" he asked innocently.

"Both," you replied shortly, then corrected yourself. "Sorry, it's just that girl made me feel like..."

You couldn’t continue. You put your hands over your face, but Seb pulled them away. There was no need for you to hide from him: he knew how you felt, and all he wanted in those moments was calming you and making you aware that there was no need for you to feel ashamed about anything.

"I only want you, Y/N," he brought you even closer and started touching your belly again, but now with more discretion. "In this, and a thousand more universes, and beyond life, whatever it is, and no matter what happens, I will always love only you. Just you, Y/N."

"Do you really love me? Even though I'm fat and ugly like I am now?" you wanted to know, doubting yourself as you focused on looking at your body up and down.

He chuckled softly at your comment. You weren’t not fat: your belly was just a slightly bigger than usual despite being in the first trimester because of your natural anatomy. 

"You're neither fat nor ugly, darling, but it's normal to feel that way," he comforted you. "You're experiencing changes, so don't overthink, Y/N. You’re a superhero: you’re creating a whole baby in there"

"But I just... I feel like a bomb of emotions. I feel so... so stupid and contradicting myself all the time..."

"It's the hormones," he interrupted you. "Don't press yourself for feeling that way. Do you remember when you were pregnant with Emily?"

Before he could say anything else, he made sure that, aside from Britta, you were alone in the hallway. Seeing that no one else was around, he kneeled down and brought his face to your belly. He placed both hands on either side and started kissing it, causing you laugh.

"Hello, my little girl. How are you doing? There's a long way to go, but mom and I are so excited to meet you, as well as your big sister, who really wants you to be born just to play with you."

You know the baby couldn’t hear you, but you felt so happy Seb was trying his best to make you a little happier.

"Stop, sunshine," you started saying, taking his arms to make him stand up. "Seb, seriously, get up. They're going to catch us!"

There was no one around, and he even double-checked to make sure. However, he decided to listen to you to avoid making you more nervous. At the same time, Britta nodded for you both to follow her. Seb took your hand and followed her steps.

"Seb..." you started speaking with some doubt.

"What is it, love?"

"Why did you say my little girl before?”

He turned hid head towards you. He saw you blushing and looking a little lost.

"Because I know it's going to be another girl," he confessed to you, leaving you a bit puzzled. "I don't know why, but it seems, and I truly believe, that making girls is our specialty."

"I think it's going to be a boy, but it makes sense: the other baby was also a girl..."

You forced yourself to stop talking. You didn’t usually talk about the miscarriage you had about two years ago, at sixteen weeks pregnant, and although you had made great progress after nearly making an irreversible mistake, it still hurted.

They say you learn from mistakes, but if you had seen the clear signs of the person who ruined your lives and had taken measures much earlier, things would have been very different.

"How about we make a bet?" he commented, trying to change the subject while now wrapping his arm around your waist. "If it's a boy, I'll take you on vacation wherever you want."

"And if it's a girl, like you say?" you wanted to know.

"Then I'll take you to dinner at your favourite restaurant. The one you always want me to take you whenever we go visit your family."

You looked at him strangely, knowing perfectly well that what he said wasn’t really a bet; in fact, it's anything but a bet. Adding to that, his voice sounded so calm that it might have surprised you with his passivity.

Britta and Antti look at you both as Seb helped you to enter the car, as if they wanted to know what you were talking about. You look that he shook his head at them and immediately started laughing.

"And what are you laughing at now, Sebastian?" you snapped at him again as he sat next to Britta. "Are you trying to mess with me, or what?"

"What's wrong with her? Is she okay?"

The whispers from his training coach, who clearly wanted toknow what was going on without appearing nosy, made him laugh even more. He didn’t even answer him and directly looked at you:

"Start thinking if you want to go to Cadiz or Mallorca, and if you prefer a McDonald's burger with pickles and ice cream with ketchup and fries or your aunt's wiener schnitzel."

Your eyes lighted up with excitement. You knew that he was making you decide, but in the end he’ll do all of that, and more, for you. Seb was the best partner ever and took care of you amazingly, especially when you were pregnant or struggling with your mental health. 

"I hate that you know me so well, Seb," you ended up saying, taking some candies from Britta's hand. "But I'm sure you don't know what's on my mind right now."

Of course he did, he knew you too well. You were just being horny, and your face showed.

"Y/N, I really appreciate you all," Roeske began to say as she looked at both of you, "but please: stop acting like you know what in front of us. Can’t you contain yourselves for ten minutes and then do whatever you want when you’re alone in your hotel room? Really, I’ll take care of Emily and I'll even stay all night listening to loud music on my headphones so I don't have to hear you moan all the time. Agree? But please: behave, kids."

[kookiesnerotica]

Harley quinn And Joker Syndrome.

Chapter 1 - It's all in the Chemistry.

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Chapter WARNINGS: Fingering, dirty talk, Underage drug use, Intoxication, foul langauge.

E N J O Y

You were sat at the bar of the country club, sarah sat next to you, sipping her fruity mocktail, and blabbering on about something you couldn't quite recall, truth be told you weren't paying any attention to her, you were off in your head. "Hello!" She brings you back to reality with the waving of her hand in front of your face. "Dude are you even listening?" She says, visibly annoyed. "No..I am. I'm Listening" You lied. She pauses for a moment looking at you, before she signs. "This is about ryan, isn't it?". Just by the replying look on your face, she knew that it was. Ryan was your boyfriend...now ex, He was the captin of the football team, he was your vice president, he was the love of your life, or atleast that's what you thought before walking in on him and Leah benson in his bedroom.

"Sweetie, you have to move on. Ryan's like an idiot, leah's a slut, and your hot." she says, you know she's trying to cheer you out, but it wasn't working.

"Besides there is plenty of fish in the sea." She shrugs, guestering to the busy country club, " You are kidding right?" You chuckled, causing the blonde girl to giggle. "No i am serious, the worlds like your fucking oyster." You looked around the country club then back to your best friend. "Everyone here is either a ugly, or old enough to father my older brother!" You reported, she also takes a look around. "Right!" she says in a hushed tone. She ponders for a moment. The next moment, topper is walking up to you guys, "Hey babe!" he says wraping his arms around the seated girl, embracing her into a side hug, and planting kisses on her forehead. "Hi" she smiles.

"Y/n, how are you." he finally notices you. "Fine." you half smiled. Watching sarah and topper was like pouring salt on a fresh wound, memories of you and ryan flash rapidly across your mind. "What are your plans for today?" He asked his girlfriend. "Eat a tub of ice cream while watching netflix with y/n" she replies. "Sounds awesome, however if you ladies wanna swing by my house, i am having a little get together."

"So....a party?" Sarah corrects. "Same thing."

Sarah looks at you waiting for you to answer. "We'll be there!" She answers, you shoot her a questioning look, to which she smiles and winks. "Anways, i am gonna go finish setting up." Topper says, pecking his girlfriend on the lips, "Bye baby!" she says.

"See you y/n" he waves off.

"Hell no! i am not going to a party." You it clear. "Why not?" she scoffs. "Cause...keluce is going to be there." You make up a lame excuse, your older brother had nothing to do with why you didn't want to attend tonight's party. "Lame excuse. Try again!" she shuts you down.

"You are so going to the party!" she chuckles.

9pm:

You were on the coach, a tub of ice cream on your lap, 'Too Hot To Handle' playing on your tv, you were enjoying. Sarah had been calling you non stop, to which you resorted to swtiching your phone to silent. Suddenly the door bell rang, you ignored it, but then it rung again, followed by a banging on the door, "Y/n i know you are in there!" You heard sarah's voice on the other side of the door. You scoffed, getting up and heading to the door.

"Ew, you look gross." she says barging in. "Thanks, love you too." you said closing the door behind you. "Alright, hit the showers, while i pick out something from your closet." she sasses, her hands placed on her hips. "Sarah i already said i am not going." you said meekly. "Oh no! no. no." she scoffs. "Lemme me tell you something babes, ryan isn't becoming a coach potato, and drowning his sorrows over a tub of ice cream, he is living it up!" she pulls out her phone, to show you his instagram feed, which showcased him partying, clubbing, and having fun.

Seeing this made you furious, furious enough to say. "Fuck it! Let me take a shower!".

"Yay! Babes i am so proud of you!" She squeeled.

10pm.

It took an hour, but you were dressed, you looked in the mirror and you couldn't help but admire yourself. Sarah had picked out a short, red flowy sun dress, which suited you, it hung loose and short on your body. "You look hot!" she complimented you, the smile on her face so huge and childlike. "Let's go." You smiled at her.

10:30pm

You arrived at The Thorton mansion, crowds of teenage kooks swarmed the place, the music vibrated through you as you entered. Almost immediatley topper spoted you, he grabed two signiture solo cups and head staright towards you and sarah. He handed both of you a cup, As soon as you held the cup up to your face, the stench of alchol hit your nose, catching you off guard. You watched as your bestfriend chugged the liquid in her cup. "Y/n, i am gonna steal sarah for a moment." You'd been around sarah and topper to know what that meant. "Honey, will you be fine on your own?" She says with a look of concern. "Yeah..no you can go, i'll be fine." You nod. "Okay, have fun." she kisses your cheek, before grabbing her boyfriends hand, together they disapered into the crowd. You, and your solo cup walked around the house, looking at the many faces, some you knew, some you were just seeing for the first time.

You adventuring around the thorton house, led you upstairs, which seemed quiter, than downstairs. You found a quite room, and without thinking much, you opened the door. "What the fuck!" Called out a familar voice, which came from a familar boy. Rafe.

"Y/n?" He calls, as you tried to walk away. "Come in." he clears his throat. You debated on wheather you should go in or not, but in the end you decided to go in. Upon entry you noticed not only the people that were seated on the coach but heavy smell of weed, white powder arranged in neat little lines on the clear coffee table in front of the older cameron. "Have a seat!" he said, The only seat left was one directly opposite rafe, and next to some lightskin guy with dreads, whoose eyes wondered onto yours. You took the seat. "Guy's this is y/n lawerence, Keluces younger sister." Rafe introduces you.

"Hi i am lauren." The cute red head sat next to rafe says. "Nate." a raven haired boy sat next to lauren says. "Christina." A blonde haired girl introduces. Finally the guy sat next to you "What's up, I'm jack."

"We were playing truth or drink before you interputed us." Rafe says, as he exhaled smoke from his mouth. "Since its nate's turn, why doesn't he ask y/n." Christina suggests. "Alright!" Nate sighs. "So y/n, have you ever shoplifted?"

"Nope." You answered as you fiddled with your hands on your lap. "What the fuck are these lame ass questions?" Lauren laughs, It was at this point that you noticed Rafe's icey blue eyes were staring at you, his eyes scanned you. As soon as you realized this, you turned away, looking anywhere but in his direction. "Here" Jack passes you a lit joint. "Oh i don't smoke.", immdiately earning a laugh from everyone in the room, excluding rafe, who only chuckled. "Do it pussy!"Lauren says, you felt the pressure of people, how heavy their eyes felt. "It'll make you feel good!" Rafe says in a low, but alluring tone, you looked up to meet his eyes. You accpected the joint, placing it inbetween your lips, while not breaking eye contact with rafe, you exhale, feeling the hot smoke rush into your chest, you exhaled, feeling the smoke slightly burn the back of your throat. "One more hit!" Christina says amused. So you did the process again, Rafe's eyes still fixated into yours. This time when you exhaled, you felt your brain get fuzzy, the sound of the music downstairs seemed like the only sound in the world, warmth and comfort surrounded your body, your eyes felt heavy, you felt fucking euphoric, you passed the joint back to jack. "Good girl." Rafe says smiling at you, his eyes still burning into you.

Several rounds of Truth of drink were played, you continued to smoke, getting higher as the night passes. "We should play Seven Mintues in heaven!" Lauren called out, you could tell there was something between her and rafe, as his hands were wrapped around her waist, and they got touchy with each other as time passes. Everyone agreed, at some point your slurred you agreement." "Y/n should spin first!" Rafe says, smurking when your eyes meet, you spun the empty 'jack daniels' bottle, and it landed in between lauren and rafe. Lauren's facial expressions seemed to change when Jack shouts "Rafe!" and the rest of the group agrees that it landed on rafe. You felt your heart beat increasing.

You watched as Rafe got up, coming over to you. You crained your neck up just to contact his eyes. "Shall we?" he hold out his hand, you hesitate, but give in. You felt unsteady as soon as you stood up, rafe's hand rushing to your waist, to keep you balanced. "Thanks." You cleared your throat. Rafe led you to a seprate room. You sat down on the edge of the bed, whilst the dirty blonde boy sat next to you.

"We don't have to anything you don't want." he sniffled wiping his thumb across his nose. "Okay." You squeeked out, your throat feeling dryer than the saharah. You sat in complete silence feeling your high. "Lemme ask you something?" He licks his lips, "Sure."

"Out of all the parties thrown, why'd you attened today?"

"I am turning over a new leaf, learning how to live again." Words seemed to just flow out of you, it wasn't what you wanted to say, but it was the truth. "I understand, You've been just existing, not living." Rafe added, it's like he stole the words from your mouth. "Yeah, exactly like that." You smiled. You watched as rafe pulled out a small baggie of white powder, which you concluded to be coke, from his pocket. He scooped some out with his key, held it up to his nose, and snorted. He looked staright into you, "Want some?"

"I've never done coke before." you admit, your tone and the fact that you seemed inexperinced, sounded so lame to you. You took the bag and key from rafe, scooping some white powder onto the edge of your key, bringing it up to your nose, and without thinking you snorted it. It burned upon its first contact with you nose, but as it went further down your anatomy, the burning stopped, replaced by a slight bitter taste at the back of your throat. But all that aside, as you felt a wave of what could only be defined as beautiful energy. You felt powerful, devine, euhophric, like you hand the world on your plam. "Woah!" You whisphered out. For the first time in your whole life, you felt it. You felt alive. You felt fuzzy, and blurry, like the whole room was swaying at a constant beat, you looked at rafe. Who seemed so handsome, his sharp jawline, his blue eyes darkened by his sins, the way a peice of hair fell onto his forhead. "Are you okay?"

"I feel good." You noted, "Yeah?"

"Mmmhmm." You noded. You hadn't noticed that there was no space left between you and rafe, you felt his hand touching your thigh, pushing your dresser higher up. His touch ignited your body, several butterflies swarming not just your stomach, but the entire surface of your body. He used his other hand to cup your cheek, leaning in closer to you, forheads touching, eyes interlocked into each other. "Let me make you feel alive." He whispered against you, you noded.

You felt rafe's soft lips, smash onto yours. Tounges playing against one and other, His salivia introducing the taste of beer, weed, and mint into your mouth. His hands going further up your updress. You moaned into his mouth as you felt his fingers ghost over your clit. "Fuck! You are wet. All this for me.' He breathed out. The kiss went from your lips, to your jaw, down to your neck. "Open you legs for me." He whispered into your neck. You did as he asked, granting him more access to the wet mess, that was in between your legs.

you felt as he moved your panties to the side, his fingers warm, as they play with your clit, a moan fell from your lips. Rafe's finger slowly make their way into your entrance, you felt your pussy stretch around his hands, gasping as they entered. "Look at me baby!" He demanded, you opened your eyes, to meet rafe's lustful blue eyes. "Don't take your eyes off me."

"Fuck!" You moaned as you felt his fingers pumping at a slow and steady pace. "Mhmmm, you like that.?" "Mhmmhmm."You moan as you feel you core tighten, you felt your hips lifting and lighlty thrusting into rafe's fingers, which provided more pleasure. "Rafe." You called out, biting into your lip, your eyes still locked into his.

Suddenly the door burst open, lauren stood on the other side of the door. "What the fuck!" she shrieks. "Get the fuck out!" Rafe screamed, breaking eye contact with you.

Lauren's interpution brought you back down to reality. What the fuck were you doing, getting fingered by Rafe fucking cameron. Your best friend's older brother, Your brother's best friend, unagruably the worst guy on the whole damn island, he was bad, you knew that. You had got caught up, you were acting unlike you. You push his hands out from under your dress, "What are you doing?" he asks.

"I have to go." you clear your throat, rushing out of the room and past lauren who was still stood there. You needed air, you felt like you couldn't breathe, the air in the house was too stuffy, you couldn't think clearly. You had to get out.

The cool outerbanks air hit your face as soon as you managed to get outside, your thoughts raced, your head spinning, you felt dizzy, sick to your stomach. Waves of nausea suddenly crashed over you, you hunched over, vomiting everything onto the grass, the acidic taste of bile fill your mouth. You felt disgusting.

"Y/n?" You heard your brother's voice, you felt over sitmulated in the momen. "Keluce, I'm sorry." You slurred, you swayed at the lack of balance you had, you felt your brother hold you up. "Are you high?". You felt so digusting, like the most terrible person on the planet. "I'm sorry." you hugged him, tears spilling out of your eyes. "Okay y/n, please tell me what's going on." You opened your eyes to see rafe standing by the door way, he smirked looking at you. You brust into a sob as you watched rafe cameron lick his two fingers that had perviously just been inside you, a sick, twisted smirk painted on his face as he watched you. He winked at you before going back inside the party house. "Take me home." You sniffled on your older brothers shoulder.

"Get some sleep, y/n." Keluce says as he tucks you. "Good night." you walked out, he shot you a warm, caring smile, and turned off the light, closin the door as he left. As soon as the complete lonesome darkness sit in, you began to cry, hot tears streamed down your face as you come to the hard realization.

You didn't feel digusting because it was rafe cameron, you felt disgusted because you liked it, further more, that you liked Rafe.

Chapter 2.

Rikki

[voidvannie]

⋆˚࿔  ꒰ 𝗙𝗜𝗡𝗗𝗜𝗡𝗚 𝗢𝗨𝗧 ꒱  𝜗𝜚˚⋆

⋆✩⋆ ─── 🎶and i thank god every day for the girl he sent my way🎶 - beautiful things, benson boone

⋆✩⋆ ─── pairing: jamie drysdale x isabelle hughes

⋆✩⋆ ─── beautiful things masterlist main masterlist

⋆✩⋆ ─── in which . . . belle finds out she's pregnant & has to tell jamie right away!

⋆✩⋆ ─── feel free to send in any request for things you want to see in this series, or in any of the other series on my page. Or if you just want to share some thoughts about what you read, or if you want to talk about oc's!

𝙳𝙴𝙲𝙴𝙼𝙱𝙴𝚁 𝟷𝟽, 𝟸𝟶𝟸𝟻 . ┊

belle grins as she stands in her and jamie's shared bathroom in philadelphia, her camera propped up on the rectangular jewelry box resting in the middle of the two sinks.

"welcome to jamie and i's bathroom. today is. . . ," she trails off, picking her phone off the counter to check the date, "december seventeenth. so, jamie and i have been married for six months, and i think i may be pregnant. i've had pregnancy scares before, but i feel different this time."

"it is super early in the morning, jamie is at the gym with carter and cam so i thought it would be the perfect time to take a pregnancy test." she holds the wrapped test up for the camera to catch it. "i'm gonna pee on this stick and i'll be right back."

"okay, that's done." belle caps the last pregnancy test and sits it back down on the bathroom counter, "i'm really freaking nervous. jamie and i haven't really been trying for babies, but we also haven't done anything to prevent babies from happening. either way, we'll both be excited and happy."

"jack will probably be the most excited out of my brothers, and most likely will throw himself a party. he's always asking me when i'm making him an uncle and i'm sure he has a bet going on with trevor." belle nervously fidgets as she tries to think of anything to keep her mind from wondering. "why did i think this was a good thing to do on my own?"

moments later, the timer that she has set up goes off and she picks the first test up, her jaw dropping as she takes in the small 'pregnant' on the small screen, "holy fucking shit."

flipping the other test over, she jumps in place as they also read 'pregnant', and she holds them up for the camera to see them, "holy shit, i'm pregnant! i'm fucking pregnant! i wanna call my mom but at the same time i want to keep this between jamie and i until i can at least go to the doctor and confirm that i am a hundred precent pregnant."

"jamie should be home in a little bit so the next time you see us, we'll be telling him that he's going to be a dad! okay, i need to calm my nerves down."

the camera view now shows jamie scrolling through his phone on the couch, freshly showered from his morning at the gym with a few of the Flyer's players and with no mind that he was being recorded.

a sigh leaves his lips as he locks his phone, laying it on his leg and throwing his head down onto the back of the couch, "baby! come sit with me on the couch! we can watch a movie!"

a angelic giggle rings through the room before belle moves into the view of the camera, a view of the three pregnancy test tucked away in the pack pocket of her blue jean shorts. "hi."

jamie smiles widely, leaning over to kiss her softly, "hi."

"okay, i know we promised to not be those kinds of couples, but i got you a present for six months of being married." belle smiles warmly at her husband as her hand moves to the back of his neck, gently scratching at his scalp.

"hmm, that feels nice." jamie's eyes slip close for a few second before he opens them back up, turning his head to look over at his wife with a stern expression on his face, "what did i say about just buying me shit? it's my job to surprise you with stuff, not the other way around."

"this is a good surprise, i promise. now, close your eyes and hold your hands out."

"baby, i swear, if this is another one of your tiktok pranks, i'm sleeping on the couch for a week." jamie sighs before doing as she says.

belle takes the test out of her back pocket and places them on his hands, "okay. open."

"holy shit! no fucking way!" jamie jumps up from the couch, pregnancy test hitting the floor as he jumps around, "no fucking way!"

the blonde watches her husband run around their living room before he rushes back over to pick the best up from the floor, his eyes closing over as he made sure he was actually seeing what he was seeing.

"baby, holy shit." jamie sits on his knees in front of belle, forehead resting on her legs as he took the moment in, "you're pregnant. baby, you're fucking pregnant."

"i'm pregnant." she runs her fingers through his hair as tears fill her eyes, one falling from her eye as she blinked. "we'll, it says that i am, but i'm not a hundred percent sold. i made an appointment for the doctor for thursday."

jamie nods, lifting his head up from her knees and bringing his hand up to wipe the tears away from her eyes, leaning forward to kiss her on the lips a few times, i love you's between each one. "i love you."

"i love you."

the video ends with a silent moment between belle and jamie, their foreheads pressed together before the screen goes black and the worlds, "baby drysdale coming 2026" appearing on the screen.

[nothums-from-tj]

Benson Dunwoody: Upbringing Headcanons and Interpretations

From someone who’s only seen seasons 1-3, parts of 4-6 and none of 7-8 yet

Hi I’ve been rewatching Regular Show which I didn’t get to finish since I lost cable by the time I was like 13 or so (2014-15) so I didn’t really see the end of it and I started losing some interest by s4-5, so that’s why only parts of it. I’m older now and realizing I have sooo many similarities to him and his childhood from what I’ve seen/known this far and I’m having fun so ! Hope y’all do too :]

I’ll likely reblog when I’ve gotten further into the series!! If any episodes aren’t noted that are referenced I either haven’t watched them yet (saw a clip) or have been named previously!!

Even without his father teaching him that he needs to yell to earn things, he would’ve probably turned out to have a loud speaking voice anyhow as it seems the yelling was a common occurrence (“Think Positive”)

As the baby in the family, he probably saw so much shit his older sister had to deal with as far as “you did the littlest thing wrong so you’ve ruined everything” he probably did everything he could to avoid upsetting people

He’s def a people pleaser as we see how he is with Mr. Maellard and how hard he pushes the crew to try to fit Maellard’s standards (“Benson Be Gone” particularly comes to mind)

I think he used to be really similar to Mordecai and Rigby growing up and why he’s especially hard on them

Doesn’t necessarily count under this category whoops- I’d say he’s only like 5-ish years older than Mordecai and Rigby (his table hockey days were 10 years prior to season 2 where they would’ve been like 13-14, Benson could’ve easily been 18-19 or so though I’ll look into other flashbacks of him to calculate) (“Stick Hockey”)

He’s very emotionally neglected providing his father told him he’s not good at anything and his dreams are dumb or something along those lines

Growing up with OCD/other anxiety disorders is a nightmare and he checks sooo many boxes (as someone with OCD/a couple anxiety disorders since childhood), particularly how he often mentions that he has nothing left without his job at the park as if there are no options whatsoever (“Busted Cart”)

On top of that, the main reason he does stay at the park is for respect and control, something he’d never received at home (upon Hair to the Throne offering him his position back in the band and he denied saying he likes working at the park, despite referring to himself in s2 as “a no-good loser stuck working at a park for the rest of his life”) (“150 Piece Set”)

He used to try to reach out to his parents often upon moving away from home and it took him not being able to contact them for like a week and a half or so for. Idk whatever reason to realize they never reached out first or even really cared enough to know what was going on w him for him to stop reaching out and he hasn’t really heard from them since

Has had a gambling addiction since crazy young, seeing he’s claimed that he’s best at cards and the way he used to gamble his life at table hockey on a regular basis, enough so he brought in seemingly a family member to join him and it took said apprentice to lose his life in order for him to stop playing

Also since I say he was about 18-19 at the time of being a table hockey master, he had to’ve been playing either publicly or with the right person to get discovered especially as his father tried to tell him that he has no talents, and it must’ve started when he found either this or cards as something he’s really good at (“Fortune Cookie”)

He didn’t seem to grow up with many friends and he never learned how to be patient or even too kind, even trying his best efforts weren’t doing too well, though he did gain respect and appreciation from others in authority by going above and beyond or at least doing what was asked of him when his peers wouldn’t (noting his sensitivity to others believing he has little to no personal/social life) (“Weekend At Benson’s”, “Eggscellent”)

I’ll be sure to add on when I have more!!! Loving this silly little gumball machine rn

[pixiedane]

Rating: Teen And Up Audiences Warnings: No Archive Warnings Apply Characters: Olivia Benson, Odafin "Fin" Tutuola, Amanda Rollins, Dominick "Sonny" Carisi Jr., Terry Bruno, Kathryn Janeway, Chakotay (Star Trek), Tuvok (Star Trek), Tom Paris, B'Elanna Torres, Additional Characters in Minor Roles Additional Tags: Alternate Universe - Fusion, Crossovers & Fandom Fusions, Canon-Typical Violence, Child Abandonment, Dubious Consent Due To Identity Issues, Altered Mental States, Trauma Series:  Starfleet SVU Summary:

The SVU team have some questions about the warp ten incident.

Threshold 

Happy Threshold Day! Starfleet SVU is something I have been thinking about for a long while and I decided to use the holiday to kickstart it. This story takes place after Voyager gets home and features the current cast of Law & Order: SVU (season 25).

Star Trek/Lizard Babies fans, you do not need to know SVU to enjoy this fic (@liz-squids confirmed this for me). SVU fans, it would be difficult to follow without knowing Voyager and as hilarious as it would be for "Threshold" to be someone's introduction to Star Trek, I do not encourage that. If you know/like both of these very flawed series that I love very much, this fic is for you.

[essieuwu]

anywho still lost but guys...guys!! so happy to have started rvb with benson cuz I've been staring at it so sickeningly infatuated for so long but knew I'd be hooked immediately if I started it so I was like psshh I can't..I can't. I am a halo kid, literally babys first video game I cleared by myself was halo 3 and I still beg my mom and friends to play halo with me I'm so normal about this series (the game and show) and I'm only like 45 minutes???? I think, into season 1 of rvb and just AUGHHHH OOAHHAJAK??? eats them, tucker?? tucker!! hoping I still like him later on cuz I wanna hold him gently the silly, him and church the sillies, their gay little back n forth I love idiots and bullies sometimes guys I can't explain it. AND DONUT? omg I was in agony until benson said he was just deaf now like omg yay!! he didn't die!! L move church. AND CABOOSE? HES SO AAAYSGAH throws up, he's so cute and respectful?? him asking Sheila to stop was so cute and he's just...will die for him I think, I think yes I will. holds him gently. I'm so unwell. I wanna continue it but!! I must wait, gotta wait.

[quill-of-thoth]

Letters from Watson: The Cardboard Box

Crimes in Context:

Trigger warning for the whole story, since it's pretty much just spousal abuse, and we're going to cover that (briefly) here.

We have previously covered the inability to divorce in Victorian England, where you could practically separate, and be legally divorced under very specific circumstances, but it took an act of parliament to be allowed to remarry, and it was therefore de-facto impossible for many women to leave abusive husbands or to support themselves at the same level after leaving one. Reasons for a divorce to be granted included adultery and extreme cruelty. Yes, extreme cruelty. The bar for proving that to ecclesiastical court and being alive at the same time would be a high and thin one. (Historically: not being able to leave abusive husbands is a factor in MANY historical poisonings. This is not confined to the 1800's or 1900's either - Giulia Tofana, whose wikipedia entry is weirdly short, was famous, posthumously, for providing poisons to women seeking to end their marriages.) Reading between the lines of Jim Benson's tale, we have a more unreliable than usual narrator. Everything he says is through the lens of "she made me do it" which is both a very common pattern of abusers telling their story and prevents his final letter from being the good-faith explanation of events that we often see in other dead, dying, or condemned criminals in this series. The events are also not reconstruct-able by anyone else besides Sarah, and we have no knowledge of whether or not she ever recovers. He never has proof of anything he says regarding Sarah's feelings or what she may have said to Mary, and the only proof he has of Alec and Mary's affair is the custom that a married woman would likely NOT be going on a day trip to New Brighton alone with a male platonic friend.

(Its possible that Mary was not having an affair with Alec or even considering it, but Mary would have been well aware that absolutely nobody would have taken her word that nothing was going on - so I tend to think that either she was having an affair with Alec or she was engineering a plausible reason, i.e. her adultery, to leave her husband. She had two elder sisters with the means to live independently, if she tired of Jim's drinking and jealousy, she had some options.) We especially don't have evidence that Sarah loved Jim - at best, we have an awkward exchange where Jim interpreted a lessening of formality as love (or lust) and Sarah awkwardly backing out of the situation. It's equally ambiguous whether Sarah was attempting to put more distance between the two of them or if she genuinely felt vindictive about unreciprocated feelings. Whether Mary's suspicion had more do do with Jim's violent words and history of drinking than anything Sarah said, or if Sarah took it upon herself to, belatedly, vet her baby sister's husband's character. Hell, she could have been nitpicking their financial arrangements and Jim's career progression. In effect, we don't know anything about this case, and that, more than the gruesome clues and the murder, may have been why it was left out of the story collections for so long.

Why else wasn't it included in collections?

It's not the only story that contains abuse, spousal and otherwise, and it's not the goriest one. When it comes to abuse and very probable murder of a wife, not to mention abuse of his stepdaughters, we have Dr Roylott of the Speckled Band. When it comes to gore, we've had Rucastle getting his throat torn mostly out by a dog in The Copper Beeches, and we're about to have The Engineer's Thumb, which starts with Hatherley missing a thumb. We've also had the prolonged torture via starvation of Kratides in The Greek Interpreter. It is, however, probably the most hopeless story in the entire canon that deals with abuse. Absolutely nobody is saved, and absolutely nobody is given any closure - in fact, Susan Cushing is probably having a much worse time overall now that Holmes has solved the case. Yes, she would eventually know that her baby sister has been murdered by her own husband and it's absolutely broken her middle sister, who she clearly cares about even if she wants to never live with her, ever. But I posit that it's measurably worse if she has any access to Jim Benson's account - because at one point she approved of him as a match for Mary, and his account will make it very clear how wrong she was, and how Sarah, whose concerns or pessimism have probably been dismissed more than once among the sisters, was Mary's only resource.

[ishameless98]

Randy and Benson short stories: Part 1

(From the New Eyes universe/series)

"Hey baby, I found your favorite movie on the te-"

Benson was lounging on the couch, legs hanging over because he was too tall to fit comfortably, the remote resting on his chest and a cigarette between his fingers.

Randy had just walked in, slightly damp from the drizzle, and with grocery bags in both hands. His face was pale, and he stood frozen in the middle of the kitchen, looking mortified.

"Randy, what happened?"

Expecting the worst, no matter how much time had passed since the murders, was a habit they would never shake. They weren't normal people with normal lives, and they never would be. Thousands of scenarios raced through Benson's mind before he heard him speak.

"I ran into the building manager just now."

"Okay... and what did he want?"

When Randy was in that state, speaking to him slowly and patiently was the best way to quickly get information out of him. Benson's eyes locked onto his.

"He wants us to stop with the noise." Benson relaxed his shoulders and sighed.

"That lady from apartment B is going to hear me, I can barely blast my music, and if I do, it's at a reasonable hour." Randy closed his eyes and pinched the bridge of his nose.

"No, he wasn't referring to that kind of noise."

"And what the hell...?"

It took Benson a short while, between his boyfriend's flushed cheeks and his vivid imagination, to understand that the manager was telling Randy that the entire hallway could hear them having sex.

"The laughter that began to bubble up from his stomach was prolonged and loud. He nearly fell off the couch trying to contain it. Meanwhile, Randy hid behind his hands and shook his head.

"I can't believe you find this funny; you weren't there."

With a leap, Benson stood up, put out the cigarette in the ashtray and walked over to where Randy was. He moved his hands out of the way and held him by the hips.

Am I... loud?'

Oh god. How could he not know?

"Baby, when you're in the moment and let yourself go, you can get pretty noisy."

Randy opened his mouth in an 'O' shape and lightly punched Benson's chest.

"These are things you have to tell me, Benson. We live close to other people. Damn paper-thin walls."

Then he sighed again and gave up, resting his head on Benson's shoulder.

"It was embarrassing; you should have seen his face when he said it."

"I would have loved to be there while that idiot said it. Do you plan on listening to him?"

"What? Of course, I want to avoid another lecture."

"A shame,' he said, in a low voice. He ran his fingers through his hair, tugging at it until Randy looked up at him. 'Because I love hearing you scream my name and the sweet moans that come from you when I'm inside you."

Benson could feel Randy's skin prickling against his own, and his pupils dilating.

"You're trying to get me into trouble."

Benson smiled, looking at his lips.

"You want those troubles."

"I can be quiet, I know I can. I've been my whole life."

"No, honey, you're confusing yourself with a Randy who no longer exists. Now you're the guy who jumps into my lap and begs me for more."

Facing that obscene response, completely typical of his boyfriend, Randy tilted his head and distanced himself, escaping from his arms before giving in to his charms.

"I have things to do," he stated, with a frustrated expression.

"If you're going to the bathroom, let me tell you that it's connected to the Smiths' kitchen, so watch yourself."

"I'm not going to... you're an idiot."

"An idiot who turns you on."

"You're still an idiot."

Sometimes I write scenes that I don't know where to include or the inspiration simply ends there so I decided to take them out of my drafts and put them to use.

I don't know if anyone will be interested, but oh well.

Benson looks different because you have to remember that they both changed their looks. And he got the "dumb haircut"

[svu-bracket]

quarterfinals (round 8)

descriptions under the cut

season 12 -> final neal baer season. meloni departs the series. tamara tunie + bd wong final season. episodes of note: trophy, rescue, pop, pursuit, bombshell, smoked.

season 15 -> raúl esparza's first season as a main cast member. belzer + florek depart midseason. lewis arc. rollins gambling storyline. baby noah found in drawer! episodes of note: surrender benson, imprisoned lives, internal affairs, wendesday's child, spring awakening.

[alolan-vulpix]

Alright, since I did three random ones for you, it's time for you to answer these three questions, and I randomized three of your characters for it LMAO You can use any of them for any of the questions tho!

Okay, I lied, there's four, but that last question was way too tempting LMAO

You're so lucky because I randomized- Leo Cavallone, Xavier Armand, and Sebastian Armand ♥

Thanks love <3 I actually really enjoyed this!! btw I'm going down the list so Leo gets the first question, Xavier the second, Sebastian the third, and I'm answering the last one with all three ;)

What headcanons/theories do you believe fandom would invent about your character?

Leo is a philanderer with one too many pregnancy scares with his then-girlfriends. Though in Canon he doesn't have any random and/or unexpected kids, fandom probably headcanons that he does which then leads to people thinking he'd be a deadbeat father. Totally untrue! Leo is Dino Cavallone's son - a man who emphasized the importance of family. Leo loves his mom, dad, baby sister, and whatever future family he ends up having.

I'd have more, but I don't really do much with him!

What feelings does your character most instill in their fans?

Hoo boy. Xavier. If I'm being honest, when he's first introduced as an MC, people don't really think much about him - especially when compared to his rockstar brother and their grumpy father. He might have a small fan base in the beginning given his good looks (assuming you're shallow like me lol), but most people compare him as a younger, quieter and calmer version of his father. Xavier doesn't like to fight. He's kind of just there.

However, as the series progresses and our colorful cast of characters develop more, Xavier becomes more of a fan favorite. I think it starts after he and Mia break up when he ends up getting involved in a lot more action. Then, when he discovers his flame of wrath, more and more people look to him as some kind of badass. He's definitely a fan favorite, especially among the girlies <3!

What song is playing over an AMV/TikTok of scenes between your character and their loved interest?

Can I be honest? This was a very hard question LOL. I Googled popular TikTok songs and just chose from the list (after I listened to it lol). I really wanted a rock n' roll song to go hand in hand with Sebastian's aesthetic, but I couldn't think of anything.

Anyways, it's Beautiful Things by Benson Boone. NGL, when I heard the chorus (I guess it's called that idk, but you'll know what part I mean I hope) I thought this was Harry Styles LOL because that's the only part of the song I know. I never listened to it in it's entirety until now.

What is the wildest crackship(s) you can imagine for your characters?

Oh, this is definitely my favorite question lol. I also took into consideration what would be the most popular ships in the fandom.

Leo x Rhys, Leo x Mako, or Leo x Sei. I sort of considered Leo and Lucie, but there was no way I could see her tolerating his ass LOL. It's funny how all his crack ships are with guys considering he's the straightest OC I know LSDFJSDLFJ.

Sebastian x Addison, Sebastian x Celine, or Sebastian x Mia. Fun fact: Sebastian x Mia used to be canon. But, I had a difficult time with Seb because he hardly interacts with anyone. The only friends he has are lesbians LOL.

And now for my favorite (and the one who has the most)...

Xavier x Tali, Xavier x Tabitha, Xavier x Nina, Xavier x Salem x Bronwyn or Xavier x Salem, Xavier x Seiryo, and Xavier x Koi.

To those who don't know, the second pairing is a MAJOR red flag if anyone were to actually ship these two.

[nacrella]

Okay I just woke up into another chaos and I need answers WTH IS GOING ON ARE YOU SERIOUS SVU?? 

I've been crying since I woke up and I'll keep crying for some more time. Did Muncy actually leave? And your reason is that fans hated her?? Fans just started to like her!! Have you seen the hate for churlish? And what will happen to my dear veluncy 😭 I was expecting them to end up together. How could they do this to us? At the end of the day, all the bensler fans are happy... but we'll never get more scenes of our ship again. I'm sooo mad and sad at the same time. Veluncy was the only reason I kept watching svu but now I'm done with it. I didn't even watch the episode. And frankly, I'm not planning to watch it bc I know I'll cry AGAIN. The only thing they care about is bensler... I think bensler was Dick Wolf's tactic to keep fans hooked on the show for years. I thought that the fans would get what they wanted in the season finale and that veluncy would be paved the way. We didn't deserve this ending... I won’t believe it until Molly explains. I want muncy back! I want my veluncy back 🥺

And the terrible things don't stop there. Whelan's dead? Is he really? I can't get over how they write terrible endings to all my favorite characters. Duarte, Whelan and now Muncy... Whelan didn't deserve such an ending and so much hate. Most of the fans have so much hatred for the new characters and don't give them a chance. Then they say they're glad they're leaving and it drives me crazy. I think we would all be happy if a separate series for the bensler and a separate series for the side characters 🫠

What about those deleted scenes? I don't really care about the deleted scenes after Muncy's departure and Whelan's death, but they deleted the scene with Velasco working with Reyes. Everything I was excited about about this crossover has turned out so badly. Looks like I will keep crying for a while 🤧 Depression mode: on.

I just want to wake up again and see that it was all a nightmare. I’ll never be ready to watch these episodes. Unless Muncy comes back next season saying "hey I'm back", I won't be in a good mood. What will Velasco do without her? She was the only one who really trusted and loved him. As he said, Muncy was his “only real friend”.

I’m also sad about Jet and Jamie… they could make a cute couple 🥺 There might be an open door for Muncy but Whelan is gone forever now. I still don’t want to believe. He was baby Stabler. My tears will become a fountain when I watch the scene he dies (if I can watch it) Svu writers are really good at ruining good things…

I think it’s time for Benson and Stabler to retire.

Let's talk about what's on our minds. None of us seems to be able to get out of this depression for a while. I’m open to any comments 💔

[intohorizon]

Section A. The Rockstar

I. The name is Damien Jermaine, who uses masculine terms as his preferred pronouns. He doesn’t mind if anyone calls him by his first or last name, so anyone is welcome to address him with whichever name floats their boat, and with whatever nicknames appeal to their hearts. Who doesn’t love endearing special nicknames, right? Make sure it’s not something offensive, though. Also, he would occasionally change his profile picture between Choi San and Han Taesan since he couldn’t make up his mind.

II. Owns the earth astrological sign as his sun, he is an INFJ who has already attained the age of majority.

Section B. The Realm

His soul is drawn to music—say, an orchestra, to name one of his interests. Thus, he has a deep appreciation for Classical Instrument.

Tunes by My Chemical Romance, Laufey, Mitski, Nirvana, Steve Lacy, Frank Ocean, and The Weeknd dominate his “Liked” playlist. However, he has a wide range of music taste, so he won’t mind if you want to shove your favorite down his throat.

He has a special bond with the Oldies/Classical, likely due to his grandparents’ influence. Thus, made him start humming along to George Benson, Elvis Presley, Ricky Nelson, Dean Martin, and more musicians’ melodies. Group artists such as ABBA, Carpenters, Tears for Fears, and The Mamas & The Papas are among his favorites. He’s also a fan of rock bands like Oasis, Queen, The Smiths, The Daughters of Eve, The Beatles, and more.

Aside from what he had mentioned, he also listens to K-POP and finds himself drawn to ATEEZ, IVE, BOYNEXTDOOR, aespa, SEVENTEEN, Kiss of Life, NewJeans, and so much groups he couldn’t mention.

He enjoys watching Movies and Series, and action is his all-time favorite genre, but he would still write down your recommendations on his watch list—if you desired. He’s also into Anime such as Attack on Titan, Black Clover, Blue Lock, and many more that are still on his watch list. He could list all of his favorite anime movies, but Hello World has always had a special place in his heart.

He’s a proud papa to five fur-babies who likes to play gacha games like Genshin Impact (AR 60) and plays Plato in his spare time. Since he’s into games, his favorite YouTuber is Windah Basudara.

Section C. The Last

Before you decide to be in his zone, please pay attention to whatever’s coming.

Before You Follow.

His account isn’t attached to any labels. So he’ll mostly tweet about his interests, real-life content, and self-ranting. Sometimes he uses profanities when he rants, and just in case you’re uncomfortable; his account is FUB FREE.

As an introvert, he might be a bit slow on replying to mentions and direct messages, especially in situations where intense or private conversations could easily drain his energy. But if it’s urgent and you need an answer right away, don’t hesitate to re-chat.

He prevents problematic behavior from being around his zone. So he doesn’t tolerate those who send out hate speech, and tend to bring indirect satires towards others publicly.

Please do not follow if you hate his favorites, racist, zionist, homophobe, any religion-phobe, won’t interact, unnecessarily disrespectful and rude, and other basic DNI criteria.

If he ever does something wrong, he is open to accept reprimands and communicate it to you. Feel free to break the ties at any time, so make yourself comfortable. Let’s respect each other.

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Ooookay, I need to ask. I just watched Soy Luna for the 100th time and I realized that we never got the whole backstory about how it was with Ambar and Silvana. How did she give Ambar to Sharon? How much was Ambar? Because according to what she said, she gave Ambar to Sharon when she was basically a toddler BUT Ambar would have to adopt her before the mansion fire, which doesn't make sense. And Ambar also told Luna that she remembers something from her childhood, namely that she used to play in the pink room, not in the mansion. Am I the only one who is super confused about how it was? Or am I just stupid and others understand? Because it doesn't really make sense to me. I don't even know if I wrote it well and understandably, so I hope you understand me at least a little.

Aaaaand I'd also like to know what you think about Simbar's situation between series 2 and 3. Do you think something happened between them over the holidays? I don't mean in a romantic sense, but in general, because at the end of the second season, Simon told Ambar that she lost him, that she lost everyone and that she was alone now, but at the beginning of the third season, he is hired by a completely different person. I mean he basically went from 'you're full of hate' to 'do you want to dance with me?' . I know he told her at the end of the second series because she hurt him even though she didn't want to and he needed to get it out of himself somehow, he thought she lied to him the whole time, about everything, including her feelings for him, but I still don't understand what not giving up on her and trying to help her in season three made him do this, none of his friends liked her, she hurt them, and him, but he was still there for her in the end. So to FINALLY get to my question, why do you think it ended up like this?

And not to forget, I have to appreciate your work, you are very talented! I love your stories! ❤️

Hi!

So, as I understand it, Sharon adopted Ámbar after the fire (probably because she needed an heir and because she felt alone). If Ámbar has memories of her childhood, I always thought she must've been around 2 years old when she was adopted, which is still very little (my niece is 2, so I know). Or maybe she just has great memory (my best friend is like that, he says he can remember stuff from when he was even 6 months old). In that case, she could've been between 6-months-old or a year old. Who knows.

As to how Sharon came to adopt Ámbar, that's another mystery. Since Sharon is so rich, it probably wasn't 100% legal, since you can always bend the law when you have money. She probably would've wanted to skip the whole process of a real adoption (it can take years of psychological evaluations, home visits to make sure the mansion is a safe place for a child, different assessments and paperwork with a social worker) so she used her resources to find a woman who wanted to give her baby away, heard about Silvana, reached out to her, and after she agreed to the adoption, made her sign some document about how she had no right to Ámbar from then on: no visits, no conversations, no nothing. She registered Ámbar as part of the family in the Civil registration and that was that.

(Now, the reason why Ámbar's last name is Smith and not Benson has to do with the original idea for the script. In the original concept, Ámbar was indeed a foreigner (hence the last name) who lived in Argentina, but the producers liked Valentina so much that they changed it for her to fit the role. That's probably why in the first season Ámbar lied about having very rich, important, busy parents who worked abroad and that's why they were never around, but then it was disclosed that it was a lie and no one ever talked about it again or questioned why her last name is Smith. The script writers were lazy, but considering how much they get paid and in which conditions, I don't blame them. It was a kids show anyway.)

Moving on to Simbar between season 2 and 3. Why do I think it went like that? Because the writers didn't give a fuck about continuity, that's why 😂😂😂

I can't even come up with an answer with inside-the-show logic because it's very obvious to me that they needed drama around Luna, they needed to hinder Lutteo, so what did they think? Let's make her catch feelings for Simón. But since Lutteo had to be endgame, and Luna couldn't get what she wanted so easily or there wouldn't have been any conflict, they couldn't just make her get with Simón. So they thought "You know what? Let's write it like Simón had a change of heart during the summer regarding Ámbar. It's been a while, no one will question it."

And here we are.

Now, if I had to come up with an explanation inside the story... it would be simply that. Simón had a change of heart because he had time to think things through, and after learning that Sharon lied to Ámbar about being Sol Benson, of course he felt sympathy for her. He probably watched her from afar all summer, either being alone or with Emilia, and felt bad for her and about rubbing in her face that she was alone after the competition. At some point, he must've come to the conclusion that not everything Ámbar told him was a lie, that she did have a heart because everyone does and Simón has always seen the best in people, and the rest was just his feelings for her that never really died pushing him to want to help her and get close to her.

I don't think they had any particular interaction in Cancún apart from what we saw. At much they crossed paths and said hi to each other whenever Simón went to the mansion to see Luna and Ámbar was there.

Thank you so much for reading my stories <3 I don't think I'm talented, I just try my very best 😂 Have good weekend ^^

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What I've Been Working On Today: 24/1/2023

Wake Up Call - Terry Bruno x Reader - Terry and you share a moment when the alarm clock goes off. (Redrafted & Booked In)

LemonTrees! Series Part 2 - Twelve Weeks - Benny Miller x Reader - Companion Piece to Lemon Trees - You have some news for Benny (Redrafted & Booked In)

LemonTrees! Series Part 3: Night Terror - Benny Miller x Reader - Benny knows there's something wrong when you wake him up in the middle of the night (Redrafted & Booked In)

Between A Rock & A Hard Place - Will Halstead x Reader - You realise Will's career is at risk when pills from the clinical trial go missing. (Redrafted & Booked In)

Go - Peter Stone x Reader - Companion Piece to Hate Sex and Weak - Peter can't stand the sight of you. (Redrafted & Booked In)

Complicated - Nick Amaro x Reader - Nick makes some admissions when Benson questions him about your relationship. (Redrafted & Booked In)

FluSeason!Series (Part 1 of 2) - Flu Season - Jimmy Lanik x Reader - Jimmy knows you're a terrible patient. (Redrafted & Booked In)

FluSeason!Series (Part 2 of 2) - Sick Day - Jimmy Lanik x Reader - Jimmy resorts to negotiation tactics. (Redrafted & Booked In)

Maybe Baby - Joe Velasco x Reader - Companion Piece to Take Your Pants Off and Blue - Joe and you discuss the prospect of children. (Redrafted & Booked In)

Come Home - Jimmy Lanik x Reader - Jimmy hasn't been home in a few days. (Redrafted & Booked In)

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This UTMV is inspired by Studioverse (I need help with the AU name)

In this multiverse, there are actors and actresses who come from different regions to act in different tv series, web series, movies and many more.

Here are the following actors and actresses:-

Skylar Andrews- The actress who plays as Sun Frisk

Maggie Andrews- The actress who plays as Moon Frisk

Myrtle Fukushima- The actress who plays as Corrupted Moon

Arianna Levine- The actress who plays as Corrupted Sun

Nella Benson- The actress who plays as NeedleDream.exe

Jonathan Carter- The child actor who plays as eight year old James

Hannah Carter- The child actress who plays as six year old Hermione

Celine Carter- The child actress who plays as four year old Clara

Daniel Carter- The baby actor who plays as one year old David.

Arnold Carter- The child actor who plays as eight year old Alexander/ Nightmare Jr

Mara Carter- The child actress who plays as six year old Midnight

Tyra Carter- The child actress who plays as baby Twilight

Jerry Richardson- The actor who plays as Dreamlevel James

Helen Richardson- The actress who plays as Dreamlevel Hermione

Chloe Richardson- The actress who plays as Dreamlevel Clara

Denver Richardson- The actor who plays as Dreamlevel David

Aaron Richardson- The actor who plays as Dreamlevel Alexander or Nightmare Jr

Merlina Richardson- The actress who plays as Dreamlevel Midnight

Tanya Richardson- The actress who plays as Dreamlevel Twilight

Sonya Jackson- The actress who plays as Dreamlevel Star Sofia

Tamara Jackson- The actress who plays as Dreamlevel Twyla Sofia

Dreamlevel belongs to me and @sofiathehooman

Studioverse belongs to @zu-is-here , @jann-the-bean and @help-im-a-gay-fish (I have 0 knowledge about who owns this utmv so pls correct me if I'm wrong)

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Law & Order Special Victims Unit Season 22 Ep. 14 "Post-Graduate Psychopath"

After serving eight years in juvenile detention, Henry Mesner is released. Rollins and the SVU team are concerned that his behaviour may pose a danger to others.

If you want to watch the series for yourself, stop reading! This post contains spoilers to the storyline.

In March 2013, Henry Mesner was sentenced to a secure facility. Currently, Henry claims to be rehabilitated, and a psychiatrist confirms that he is working hard in therapy and can now control himself. Henry's parents wish to have him live with them and his new baby brother, but his mother has passed away. Henry has learned that his actions have consequences and that other people have feelings. The judge will make a decision before the holidays.

An unconscious woman was found naked, bound, and gagged, causing distress to her roommate. Kat is also disturbed by the sight of blood.

Rollins is distracted on the phone, and Jesse wanders off. Later, Jesse returns with a stuffed animal named Snowball, given to her by a kind stranger. During the interview with Libby, Rollins and Benson discover that the perpetrator stole a stuffed animal, which happened to be the one that Jesse owned.

Rollins informs Benson about Jesse's situation. Benson is confident that Henry is still in custody. A debit card transaction is traced to a homeless individual who claims to be afraid someone coming after him. A man forced him to go to the hardware store to purchase zip ties and a blow torch.

Rollins is unable to obtain any information on Henry. Libby's mother arrives, who is the psychiatrist that initially treated Henry but has not seen him in five years.

The police visit Henry's residence. The house has been ransacked, and there is a bloody body and blood everywhere. The perpetrator is still at large and moving quickly. Both the stepmother and father have been killed, along with a five-year-old boy. The family was murdered on Friday morning. Ruby was missing, but she has been found alive. She is at her friend's house. The friend's mother is nervous. Will Henry come after them? Holly was scared of Henry but thought he just needed love, according to her. Ruby is upset about Arlo and mentions that her dad and Henry had a fight. According to Ruby's friend, Henry refused to get a job and spent hi time playing video games and talking to someone. It is unclear why he was allowed to leave.

The psychiatrist stated that Henry's actions were her worst nightmare, and she believed he had turned his life around. Her entire staff had never been fooled like this in her 30 years of practice. According to the psychiatrist, Henry had only one friend. The police interviewed a teenage boy named Connor, who claimed to be Henry's friend but denied knowledge of his whereabouts. The police went to Cora's apartment after receiving a suggestion that Henry had hooked up with her. Upon arrival, they found Cora and instructed her to lie down on the ground. She stated that Henry had left earlier that morning and insisted that he was a gentle person, not the person the police were looking for. The police took her into custody and learned that Henry frequents the water and the park. She also mentioned that he had been to Morningside Park the previous day, as evidenced by the geotagged photos.

Rollins discovers photos of Jesse and Ruby at the house where she is staying. They quickly rush over to the house, but find that the police guard has been attacked and the other officers have left due to a bomb threat. Meghan is still alive but has been assaulted. Kat finds Charlotte tied up in the bathroom, who reveals that Henry has kidnapped Ruby and taken her to an amusement park. Rollins realizes that Ruby is in danger and they must act quickly to save her.

The car was discovered at a closed amusement park. The police officers entered the park and searched the funhouse, suspecting that something might be there. Despite agreeing to wait for backup, Rollins ignored Fin's advice and proceeded to search the darkened funhouse for Henry and Ruby. Henry has a gun and is refusing to let Ruby go, despite her pleas. He comments on the appearance of Ruby and her daughters. Henry also mentions Jesse and Rollins denies being angry with him. Meanwhile, Rollins expresses concern about the situation and tries to prevent the involvement of the SWAT team. According to Rollins, he was locked up because of Ruby, but he believes it was actually her fault. In a fit of anger, Henry points his gun at her. The police arrive at the scene, but Benson is unable to reach Rollins.

Rollins later calls to report that Ruby has Henry's gun, but does not answer when Benson tries to contact her. Eventually, she reveals that she and Henry are conversing.

Henry inquires if Rollins is in trouble. He explains that he came here because his childhood was robbed from him, devoid of beaches or amusement parks. At six years old, he was given a playmate who tragically drowned. This was the first time he realized he was different because he didn't feel upset or worried, just disappointed that he didn't witness the drowning. Benson inquires an immediate update. The Nassau police department plans to enter the location in five minutes.

Rollins questions Henry if he wants to get shot, to which he responds that he is unarmed and therefore won't be shot. Rollins assures him that she can protect him if he leaves with her. Rollins remembers Henry as a little boy eating strawberries. She was worried about him and doesn't want him to die. Benson announces that Henry is coming out and he appears in cuffs. Rollins believes that wherever Henry ends up, they need to throw away the key.

Henry speaks with Benson's former psychiatrist, expressing his longing for Dr. Wong. He informs the psychiatrist that the state has deemed him no longer a threat to himself or others. However, the psychiatrist is uncertain of Henry's competence. Rollins argues that the situation is unfair. Doctor points out the lack of mental health resources in prisons. Carisi states that the focus should not be solely on Henry's competency. The question should be different. Rollins and Carisi step outside for some fresh air. The doctor inquires about her well-being and her relationship with Stabler. He is pleased that she has scheduled an appointment.

Dr. Lindstrom discusses mental health and psychiatry. He admits that the defendant is competent. The judge determines that Henry is competent. The defense lawyer states that she will claim insanity. Suddenly, Henry attempts to stab Carisi with a pencil and screams that he wants his daddy. It is unclear why he was not cuffed.

Rollins is upset that Henry will likely go to a mental hospital again. Carisi says that if Henry's not crazy, no one is, after what he's done. Rollins goes to a jail cell and stares at a comatose Henry. She asks how he is and tells him that she knows he can hear her. She admits to lying when she told him she didn't want him to die. If he ever leaves or threatens her family again, it will be his last day on Earth. She will take matters into her own hands and end him.