#BUT THE FUCKING SCENE IN ORION?
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Just finished orion and uuuh
#inazuma 11#inazuma eleven#inazuma eleven orion#LIKE#STOP DOING THAT#HAVE YOU SEEN WHAT HE DID#ATTEMPTED MURDER. MULTIPLE TIMES.#MANIPULATED TENS OF CHILDREN#AND YOU STILL TRY TO REDEEM HIM#In the og its bearable but i was glad he died#his role in galaxy was ok as well#BUT THE FUCKING SCENE IN ORION?#NUH UH#NUUUUH UH#STOP. TRYING. TO MAKE HIM. INTO SOME SORT OF MENTOR FIGURE#kageyama reiji#ray dark
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Good morning everyone I'm currently thinking about how Orion was the first person Megatron killed and crying into my cereal :')
#i keep watching tik tok edits of the i'm done saving you scene#it's just so fucking devastating#they spent the whole first act establishing that these men love each other#and in the second act when d's eyes go orange and he starts growing a little unhinged#you can see orion start to worry and he even looks afraid when d almost offs starscream#but he still puts everything he has into saving his friend from sentinel (in multiple ways)#in the end d-16 is overcome by his rage at sentinel and it causes him to accidentally kill his best friend#orion was trying to save d from becoming the thing that he hates and adhfhuwufusugurgjfk#they make me so upset#megop#transformers one#tf one#tf one spoilers
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I'm better than you. I'm better than you in everyway except you have hope. You always have; you went back into the mine to rescue Jazz, you snuck up to the surface to find the matrix of leadership. My point is that your instincts tell you to break protocol.. for a reason. This blind optimism that you have is why you make such bold, and courageous choices. That are also extremely stupid. You're inspiring. You can envision a better future, that no one else can see, and if we ever want to see B and D 16 again, that. that is the Orion Pax, that we need right now. Listen to me, we can do this.
#fact that I can quote this and the rant scene word 4 word#oh! my heart! it is collapsing in on it's self! I am experiencing cardiac arrest! send help!#“She's mean” um!#haha! giggles#the world deserves for elita-1 to be real#gngngngngbgngnggngn i love her#elita one#transformers#elita 1#transformers one#tf one#tf one elita#oplita#okay sure oplita it is we all know the choke hold and damage this scene did to the oplita fandom#orion pax#UGHHHHHHHH fucking dies#that's what this scene does to me#Elita-1
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Ok, thought ramble that's been brewing in my head cuz I'm seeing parallels.
I want to specifically focus on ep 16 17. The Mark death scene and Alux's panic attack. Because I feel like I can make connections between Orion (Righty) and Mark.
Right now, I can find at least 4 things that they both have in their character.
1. Lost their *Right* arm (obvious visual parallel)
2. Both first confront one of our co main character about a grievance they have for have observed
3. Then comfort our main co characters
4. Then are either already or have now become loyal to our co main characters
Both interacting essentially follow the same beat.
First, the confrontation, where both Mark and Orion seemingly point out a character flaw they have observed from Petro's and Alux's behavior respectively.
(Petro letting power get to him in Mark's eyes, and Alux running away from his responsibilities in Orion's eyes.)
Then Petro and Alux both lash out in a way.
(Petro becoming possessed and… accidentally killing Mark >_>, and Alux having a nervous mental breakdown.)
Then finally, after a moment, Mark and Orion comfort Petro and Alux. Both echoing the same sentiments of “Don't cry” “it's okay” “I'm here for you right now.”
The only few differences I can surmise from this is that
1. Mark was already loyal to Petro before this interaction while Orion *became loyal to Alux by promising to keep his secret
And
2. The reason Petro's case is so much more severe than Alux is because he's still in the cycle of abuse from the Wisp. Alux had already escaped from Cozen and had now found a support system for himself.
Now, it may be a far stretch, but there is a theory that Orion was actually a part of the “Cult” that is about the Wisp that Petro is currently in right now. That's how he would have lost his right arm. If he was a part of the Cult and tried to leave, he may have been punished to some degree for doing so before escaping.
I say this because…, Mark wasn't able to survive. He died on screen. If we go with the idea that Orion had survived and escaped the Cult of the Wisp, then with Mark's death. It implies that the Wisp has grown stronger. (Assuming the theory is correct to some degree and that the Wisp was the one who took Orion's arm away.)
Just some connections…
#favremysabre#alux rising#having those two scenes#put back to back from each other felt suspicious#like#mark losing his RIGHT arm...#like he could have lost any other limb like his left arm or a leg#but nooooooooooooo it was the right arm. a visual trait for an already existing character that has a fucking nickname for it#also more character parallels orion and mark are both stern but give unconditional love to Alux and Petro
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nobody fucking touch me rn i went to see tf one in the cinema and im shaking. they actually made a good transformers movie. what the fuck
#time to go home and read the entirety of jro's mtmte and lost light again ig#what the FUCK i was not expecting it to be actually fucking stunning. that's MY loser dumpster fire of a children's toy franchise how did t#ey actually make it . good#really good#five out of five stars. when elita said “you dont have the touch or the power” i fucking choked#obviously it is only going to mire the canon more because of the changes to megatron's backstory (no gladiators 😔) & lack of allspark plot#but i dont even fucking care. dont even touch me rn i cant ever get over this#broken friendships & corruption arcs are THE SHIT and they did this one better than i was expecting#when pax fell like a falling star... primus itself opened to him...#ratchet cameo! arcee cameo! jazz cameo! not to mention ALPHA TRION#i can see the war in this . i can see this . millions of years in the future they will still b fighting. orion mightve been a “pacifist” by#megatron's standards but he knows how to fight. he fights more than he should. and bee.... bee... THATS MY FUCKING NAMESAKE GUYS DONT EVEN#TOUCH ME RN. IM SHAKING. HOLY SHIT#bumblebee you are SUCH a dork. what the FUCK.#and the quintessons!!!!! i am LIVING for the art direction and the organic/inorganic imagery#those quintesson energon-hoover things reminded me of energon eaters too. & in that first shot of them entering the cave w the primes i#originally thought scraplets before i came back to myself. there's something to be said here tho.#they did a good job with the worldbuilding. suitably alien-like. exceeded expectations. that ginormous quintesson ship? i'm going insane#you can SEE the birth of the myth in this stupid fucking movie you can SEE how op becomes who he becomes. the way he grew. the way they bot#grew until they were the only person that could hold the other back . the way he is going to be irreversibly changed. d16's eyes...#that scene w starscream has a chokehold on me. i cant breathe. the way they all looked at megatron when his blaster emerged#the fight scenes#ELITA ONE !!!#AIRACHNID !!!!#honest to god though i must confess that the first coherent thought i had about this movie was “oh they made him so cunty” . abt pax. i#am so sorry#but okay okay okay i . they were amica endura at the beginning. at the least. i'm. AKHRERJGH#tf one#me when megatron ascended out of iacon & he was the only land vehicle amid a swarm of planes. me when the SYMBOLISM#🐝
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Have you ever gotten to a point in your outline where you're like "Whoops, my hand slipped and now I'm in sparkbreaking territory." ?
Because that just happened to me with my own outline lol
ahaha... well actually, out of all of the main characters in undertow, bee has surprisingly the most tragic story. that wasnt originally the case (that title belonged to sentinel for a while), but i kept getting bigger and bigger ideas.
anyway, it resulted in me having to figure out a rough system of something equivalent to a cybertronian sign language. poor bee. lol
#i just love throwing my favorite characters under the bus and running them over and over again!#ask peony#in all honesty the only one who has it easy is orion but also its not even easy#hes just got main character syndrome aka plot armor aka hes secretly my fav so i dont want to hurt him too bad#the only time orion gets hurt is when megatron fucks him up against the cell wall#but thats not until later#this might be weird but i plan sex scenes very carefully and so far megatron and orion have the highest at around 8-10#bee and sentinel are a close second with 5-7#and then hot rod and (redacted) follow up#along with longarm and (redacted)#er was that too many spoilers?
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Day 30: Written Apr 17, 2024
Part 19
CW: Major character death (not permanent), depictions of drowning, and water zombies (inferi)
“Go.” Regulus commanded. Kreacher disappeared and Regulus was alone. Alone and dying from the Dark Lord’s cruel potion.
He ached in every limb. The burning spread throughout his body and his head was boiling.
Where his eyes open? He couldn’t tell. Everything was so dark.
His throat. It hurt. It hurt. It was itching. No, it felt raw like a scraped knee. He needed something. What did he need?
Something cool and wet touched his fingers. Wet. Water.
He needed water.
Water.
Water.
There. He was already touching it. His hand was submerged in the lake.
He scrambled. Desperate.
Water.
He felt it. On his face. In his mouth. Down his throat.
Oh the water. So lovely.
His wrists were wet. His head. The back of his neck.
His shoulders.
His chest.
It wasn’t just water. There was something else on him. Grabbing him.
Pulling Him.
He was weightless. No crystals pressing into his knees.
His lungs burned. He needed to breathe. He expanded his chest.
And water rushed down his throat, into his lungs. No. No.
He struggled. But something-someone stopped him. He tried to shake the hands off, but they wouldn’t let go. Then more hands joined. He felt their slimy skin against his.
This wasn’t exactly what he expected to happen, but this wasn’t any worse than the potion.
He stopped struggling.
There was a sharp blast of light and heat and the hands left him. Alone. Then he was gone.
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Notes/thoughts under the cut:
The formatting doesn't work on tumblr so imagine some really dramatic indents.
This was actually really fun to write cuz it's just Regulus' thoughts and nothing else. So I was kind of writing nonsense but I think it works.
I also want to mention that I changed my blog rules (? I don't know what to call it). When I first started posting it felt very personal and I didn't want to deal with any criticism whether it was good or bad. Now I feel a lot more confident with all the amazing interactions I've had. So I'd love to hear any feedback you might have especially headcanons or theories on this series (cuz I need ideas).
Also, if you want to be added to a tag list like @zn0v1a (my biggest fan tbh <3) just comment, reblog, etc.
Thank you all so much for the support!
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#creative writing#writing#therapy#mental health#fuck jkr#harry potter#marauders#regulus black#fanfic#fanfiction#alternate universe#regulus black and harry potter#dead gay wizards#dead gay wizards from the 70s#mauraders era#regulus deserved better#jegulus#freeform#sirius black#sirius and regulus#sirius orion black#marauders era#kreacher#the cave#death scene#major character death#for now
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So, about those storyboards, huh?
#i am vindicated in my interpretation of that scene#but oh my god the original dialogue was so good#i wouldn't trade the accidental shot and 'i'm done saving you' for anything#but couldn't we have just gotten a fragment of that original speech?#orion explains *why* they need sentinel alive *for now*#almost convinces d-16 to stand down and then fucks it up with the 'don't be like sentinel' line?#there'd be so many less bad takes about that scene#tf one#truck robot brainrot
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A thing I've been doing:
*everyone talking about Orion and Megatronus before the war*
Miko: "Wait were you Megatron's sugar daddy???"
Optimus: "What is a sugar daddy"
*old man googling noises*
Optimus: "primus"
Oppy: "so apparently I was Megatronus's sugar daddy when I was Orion."
*dying and wheezing across the room*
Ratchet: "yOU'RE JUST NOW REALIZING THIS???"
Oppy: "wELL iT WaSN'T exactly on purpose Ratty—"
Jack: "RATTY?!?🤣 Sorry dude but you're Ratty now."
Ratchet: "this is why your father left 'to get milk and cigarettes' jack"
Bumblebee, recording it all: [this is amazing, Blades is going to love it.]
Raf: "oh you need to show this to your boyfriend"
*indignant Bumblebee whirps and chirrs*
#crack idea#scene#tfp au adjacent but it can be literally any tfp thing#transformers#maccadam#am not tagging everyone lol#oppy thought he was just being a good friend/boyfriend#but no that's an accidental sugar daddy / sugar baby#the bots don't always get human phrases or references but when they do it hits like a fucking truck#i put wayyyyy too much thought into sugar-daddy!Orion and sugar-baby!Megatronus#especially in the case such as above where oppy is so entirely oblivious that he's the sugar daddy
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I need to get back into working on my hnk enstars au too now that friends are talking about it,,,might work on it with neptune if they're down or some others idk
THATD BE SO COOL i love seeing hnk enstars wahhhh............ive been meaning to draw something related to that but i have been SO artblocked for the longest time now ack maybe one day
#cryn rambles#orioncore#orion tag#fuck it *turns ur anime boys into sad androgynous rocks*#somethin abt enstars designs just work so well as gems idk#i had an idea to redraw that cinnaphos 'im gonna find you a new job thats way more fun!!!' scene as kohaai#aira is very phos to me. at least when phos was still a baby#is kohaku cinnabarish enough?#what if i made it midoai#many thoughts...............
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kissed sergi <3
#catching up on if don't mind me#i haven't played any since last spring#no i still haven't played the third book of twc don't fucking ask#played the full version of blood moon though and officially kissed sergi. i like him#also the added sec scene was a nice surprise i didn't think we'd get one!!!!#sex* lmao#also played the infamous demo. and i'm going to kiss all the love interests in it#but especially orion and victoria#also got acquainted with apartment 502 and there should be a demo dropping like very soon 👀#excited!#💬 chatter#🎮 vilna plays games
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Ahhhhh I really didn't imagine it, I still dislike Barber's way of writing Orion/Optimus just as much as I did on the first reading and all it took was rereading a few screencaps from one specific scene.
Literally I don't know which part annoys me more: Jetfire existing in the background solely to go "ORION PAX FUCKING SUCKS AND IS A HYPOCRITE", Orion being written like an edgy asshole who hates everyone, or Soundwave talking like an unhinged terrorist and the narrative expecting me to see Orion as the hypocrite for using violence to arrest terrorists.
Soundwave is seriously like "You have no proof we assassinated the Senate, but if we did assassinate the Senate it would've been justified, but also totally trust us bro, just because we could've hypothetically murdered the entire reigning government doesn't mean that we're violent bro come on just bc we assassinated-- I mean could have hypothetically had the means and cause to kill like a hundred people doesn't mean we were gonna kill anyone else, come on bro why are you calling us violent just bc we think some murder is okay" while Jetfire is in the background like "WOW ORION I CAN'T BELIEVE YOU'RE WILLING TO BE VIOLENT IN RESPONSE TO OTHER PEOPLE BEING VIOLENT. YOU DON'T CARE ABOUT YOUR OWN SIDE'S FLAWS EVEN THOUGH YOU'RE LITERALLY DOING AN INVESTIGATION TO DECIDE WHETHER ONE OF YOUR COPS COMMITTED AN UNJUSTIFIED KILLING OR NOT. YOU HAVE DONE LITERALLY NOTHING TO TRY AND FIGHT THE CORRUPTION IN SOCIETY." (Jetfire had no way of knowing about OP and crew fighting the Senate's schemes in Shadowplay and Elegant Chaos, but as a reader it's very frustrating seeing Orion getting lambasted as never having done anything to fight society's corruption when he literally did, and by the time he was even working for Zeta Megatron was already evil and had the whole Senate assassinated.)
Like ughhhh oh my god I could have maybe enjoyed this story under a better writer but as it's written it's some "yet you participate in society, curious" levels of political commentary where at least one character seemingly only exists in the scene to shit on OP (something that happens a lot in Barber's works, like with Pyra Magna and Slide) and where OP is framed as a hypocritical asshole for a reaction that's very understandable given the context.
And also it's weird because Barber wants so badly for you to read Orion as some sort of hypocrite for being against terrorist activities but being willing to employ violence himself to arrest terrorists, yet... it turns out the big twist of the story is that the Decepticons WERE smuggling weapons and Soundwave DID lie to Orion (even if it was unintentionally), thus vindicating Orion's entire distrustful attitude? Like, it seems as if it was supposed to be an ACAB story showing how evil the police are for killing people and how Orion (as a cop) is evil for being a cop that uses violence on behalf of the state. Except uh. Then Barber wrote a plot where the Decepticons literally were smuggling weapons all along (and this is alongside lore from Megatron: Origin where we as the readers know for a fact the Decepticons/Starscream killed the Senate) so.... Like, it just seems to me that if Barber wanted to write an ACAB story about how the state monopoly on violence is bad, he probably shouldn't have written the Decepticons as actually being terrorists who literally did lie about smuggling weapons?
I feel like a better way to write an ACAB/anti-state-monopoly-on-violence would've been to like, explore the way that states take advantage of catastrophe/using scapegoat political movements to gather more power to themselves and justify removing citizens' rights with "it's an emergency, we're taking away your freedoms to protect everyone." Like, maybe Zeta passes some law saying that officers can search citizens without a warrant, which he justifies with the fact that Decepticon terrorism is so rampant that officers need immediate permission to conduct raids/searches. Except this is obviously a problem because people have a right to privacy, and probably the cops are super overzealous and end up arresting innocent people without cause (like idk, maybe just being friends with someone who is sympathetic to the Decepticons gets someone landed in jail? Maybe Jetfire gets arrested bc he's critical of the state and has hung out with Decepticon sympathizers before). So then Orion has an actual "are we the baddies?" moment where he wants to stop the bad people, but he realizes that his side are infringing on people's citizens and justifying police brutality for the sake of a nebulous "greater good," and that even though he and his cops were given greater power to supposedly "protect citizens," in practice they're actually doing great harm to citizens by invading their privacy, creating a surveillance state, and imprisoning people without just cause? Basically "we were given this power to stop terrorists from hurting civilians, but now we're hurting civilians too so are we actually doing any good?" Because that way Orion and his cops would ACTUALLY be in the wrong and their state monopoly on violence would be an actually widespread institutional thing where they're clearly being allowed to do bad things just because they're cops. Not just Orion investigating one singular police killing.
But with the story written as "Orion suspected the Decepticons of murdering the Senate (he's correct about this) but still investigated one of his officers to see if he committed a wrongful murder (literally him paying attention to his own side's wrongdoings, Jetfire), and it turns out the Decepticons WERE smuggling weapons and doing terrorism (Orion was correct about this)" it's just.......... like, Orion may not be morally correct, but his hunches/investigations about the suspected criminal activity were literally correct. AND HE WAS WILLING TO DO THIS INVESTIGATION IN THE FIRST PLACE. But for some reason he's still framed as if he's an asshole for this? Even though this is a point in the pre-war lore where Megatron won't back down from violence and has lost his way from his original pure intentions, so it's not like Orion can just go "let's put down our weapons and be friends and mutually trust each other to not stab each other in the back."
It just feels as if Barber's intentions to write an ACAB story where Orion is framed as being too judgmental and quick to be violent don't line up with the actual events of the story. The story is desperately trying to call Orion a hypocrite, but he really just seems as if he's reacting understandably to the events that are happening around him, so there's a real dissonance here where I don't understand why the ACAB story had the cops be right about the Decepticons committing terrorism, and I'm also supposed to see Orion as an asshole for correctly not trusting the Decepticons???
#squiggposting#this is definitely making me very excited to reread barber's half of idw1. sarcasm#i can't wait to read more of my favorite character getting shit on by everyone and their mother#featuring shitty characters who basically only exist to be anti-OP mouthpieces#like idk i guess it's just really weird framing to me how OP is framed as some sort of hypocritical asshole#when like. idk if some guy i'd never met before from a politcal extremist group who i knew had assassinated the entire government#was like 'we're not violent bro trust me bro' i would also be like uhhh. fucking bet then#and the funny thing is even after all of that orion was still willing to believe soundwave that no weapons were being smuggled so like#idk it's just kind of weird to me to watch a scene where (poorly written edgy and angry) orion is understandably suspicious#while another character is screaming in the background OMG YOU'VE NEVER DONE ANYTHING TO FIGHT CORRUPTION IN YOUR LIFE#I CAN'T BELIEVE YOU'RE OKAY WITH USING VIOLENCE AGAINST LITERAL TERRORISTS YOU'RE SUCH A HYPOCRITE#like ugh lmao#just another in a long line of 'everyone in the story treating OP like shit for having normal reactions'#the vibes are just seriously off for the way Barber writes asshole OP. like i love asshole OP but for some reason not this version of him#it's literally the same critique i always have of Barber's writing which is 'i wanted so badly to buy into the concepts he's playing with'#'but the execution is so weird/contradictory/poorly done that it just feels stupid instead'#like idk. it's just kind of unhinged to me that SW is portrayed as the reasonable one and OP the rabidly angry one but like#i'm sorry but i feel like even if the senate were assholes. if the cons were willing and able to just murder the whole govt#literally what reason does OP have to think they would stop there. esp since you know. they're continuing to illegally traffick weapons#i'm sorry but OP is just like. completely understandable there. there's no reason to think that ppl will just#magically put down their weapons and go oh we only did a little bit of justified murder. but we're gonna stop there. promise#it also pisses me off bc orion literally did support the cons back when they were a widespread movement doing protests and stuff#it was only when Meg came to power and killed sentinel and zeta came to power that OP became a cop again#and by that point Meg HAD radicalized the decepticons and taken over and pushed them towards a militaristic direction#like sorry but the cons that existed b4 megs took over and the ones that existed after he took over as their leader arent the same#i rly don't think OP is a hypocrite for not trusting them lol. esp since in that scene SW was acting so shifty#'we didn't murder them but if we did it was totally justified. but we won't do it again promise :) ' ah yes so trustworthy#it just feels like the story could've achieved its purpose with a plot that made more sense#and didn't have jet/fire being there just to expound towards the audience how much OP is a hypocrite
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In retrospect, the scene of El going down the library stacks trying to get to Orion is so funny, because. She's doing such grim, survivalist, cold mental gymnastics to try and make sense of the school behavior. Over the course of it, El thinks the Scholomance is:
Trying to keep her from helping Orion so it can finish killing him
Accidentally loosing an invaluable, literally priceless, world-changing treasure to her in the attempt
Bribing her with an opportunity to show off, if only she lets the Mawmouth go devour all the little children
When in reality, what it was doing was:
Trying to keep El away from the Mawmouth, because its fucking job is to protect her.
Giving her a book that's already been paid for by her parents. It is literally just handing over her inheritance.
Asking for her help killing the Mawmouth, so it doesn't go devour all the little children.
It's. It's so funny. El is basically a cat trying to eat a piece of plastic, fighting against its helpless owner that just wants to help. She accused the school of trying to kill Orion whilst it was busy trying to save her fucking life. Herding teenagers: the world's most thankless job.
#The Scholomane#Scholomance#Naomi Novik#it is so endearing she's calculating the worst most evilest motivations the school could possibly have#and LITERALLY all it was doing was trying to keep her from being jumped by a fucking mawmouth.
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Prequel of sorts to this!!
Yapping under cut
I had this idea of wanting to mirror this ↓
with shattered glass Orion. I love my yuri toxic and fucked up though, so she went for Dee's arm on purpose! And then gaslights Dee about it. Ofc! She's just getting her girlfriend a nice gift, it's Dee's fault for getting in the way of it 🥺
They are androids in this btw! To explain the pink blood.
Anyway so uhm. I was listening to "The Fall" and a scene came to be in my head so now I'm gonna try to do an animatic. My first one! Wish me luck! I'll need it.. haha..mhm..
#maccadam#transformers#tf one shattered glass#shattered glass#transformers shattered glass#orion pax#orion pax tf one#sg orion pax#optimus prime#d 16#d 16 tf one#d 16 x orion pax#sg d 16#dpax#sg megop#humanformers#or rather Android formers but whatever#i'm going insane#!!! yippee!!#OH RIGHT#sentinel prime#he's there! in the background.. being murdered.. haha
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Swindle would…could…should visit. It’s not like before, when Blurr had been injured or in hospital racing and they were separated by living their lives in very different circumstances. Before, when the best Swindle could do was find out on the news like everyone else and maybe send a card, because he needed to be where he was told to be in mecha. Or find out about minor incidents that never made news some indeterminate amount of time later when his and Blurr’s lives met at one of their rare intersections. But something still holds him back.
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Swindle doesn’t go back to the hospital in the immediate aftermath of the mecha collapse. He tells himself that it’s because he’s busy. And he is busy.
There’s Shockwave looking to take advantage. Use the destruction to overwrite everything Swindle and Onslaught have been working towards with his own vision. Keeping him at bay is taking nearly all of Swindle’s resources on the public front and Onslaught’s time behind the scenes.
And then there’s the more mundane aspects of business that still need to be handled. Construction contracts for rebuilding. Recognition of emergency responders. Resources for impacted staff. Assisting the incident investigation. Redefining protocols for responding to attacks so that mecha can’t get caught by such a trap again. All that paperwork makes it’s way through Swindle – sooner or later – and he has to deal with it.
And finally there’s Blurr himself. Swindle is managing Blurr’s hospital bills. His publicity agents. The press conferences that were already scheduled. Advertising deals. The restoration of Blurr’s mech exterior. And all the while trying to downplay to everyone involved the severity of the incident.
So yes, Swindle’s busy. But even amidst his busy schedule, he’d found time when Blurr first called. Had found something in that brief conversation, in just knowing his friend was still alive – even as it was too short, as Blurr’s voice faded too quickly into exhaustion. He’s found time since – both to call Blurr about relevant decisions (even when it wasn’t strictly necessary) and to take Blurr’s calls. And he’s noticed how Blurr’s voice has gotten stronger, their conversations longer. The calls more frequent and now interspersed with hints at Blurr’s boredom.
Swindle would…could…should visit. It’s not like before, when Blurr had been injured or in hospital racing and they were separated by living their lives in very different circumstances. Before, when the best Swindle could do was find out on the news like everyone else and maybe send a card, because he needed to be where he was told to be in mecha. Or find out about minor incidents that never made news some indeterminate amount of time later when his and Blurr’s lives met at one of their rare intersections.
This is different. He and Blurr are not just friends, but business partners now. Have been working in the same place, at the same job. There is nothing and no one physically stopping Swindle from seeing Blurr during his recovery.
No one but himself. A part of Swindle finds it easier to sell the lies he has to go out and tell – that Blurr’s condition is overexaggerated, that everything will be fine – when he hasn’t physically seen any of the evidence to the contrary. Even as his mind also knows this is not true.
Swindle was a pilot long enough to see the results of enough mech crashes, particularly under the old safety systems, where the pilot couldn’t or didn’t walk away. It was never fucking pretty. It was more than Swindle had ever wanted to see or know.
Swindle had thought they were changing all that. The new safety systems should have changed that. They were designed to prevent deaths and injuries. Like Orion’s, Shockwave’s, Vortex’s. Blurr’s.
And yet. Swindle glances again at the report on the top of the pile on his desk. The report that does credit the newer safety systems with saving lives – with saving Tailgate’s life.
Only…it wasn’t enough. The only reason there weren’t any confirmed casualties didn’t come down only to safety systems, but to no small amount luck. Because what happened to Blurr – trapped, half crushed, in a burning mech – is a nightmare that’s haunted Swindle since the old days, the days before he and Blurr had ever first met. And Swindle knows as bad as Blurr’s condition was when he was pulled from the building, it could have been worse – could have been much, much worse. (Could have been dead.)
So, Swindle isn’t sure he wants to see Blurr. Is afraid of what he might find if he actually looks too closely at his friend. Is perhaps more afraid that despite the frequent phone calls, despite what Blurr says, he doesn’t really want to see Swindle.
Because, having now worked closely with Blurr and observed his interactions, Swindle is more certain than ever that Blurr knows how to act – how to say the part that he’s expected to say, and keep close the full knowledge of whatever else it is he knows. And if that is to act the part of a continued friend to his boss, would that really be so different from every other act Swindle’s witnessed since Blurr joined mecha?
And Swindle isn’t even sure he could blame Blurr if it was. Because Blurr is only here – was only ever here – because of him. Which means what happened is because of him, doesn’t it? But what would have happened if Blurr hadn’t been there? How many lives would have been lost? How much blood spilled? Swindle’s own? When now there had been hardly any. Hardly any except for that of one of the only friends Swindle’s ever had. Was it worth it, in the end? What they’ve gained for mecha pilots compared to what might now be lost for Blurr?
That’s a thought Swindle tries very hard not to think about. Because he knows there’s no good answers. There never were. There never will be. So, he tries to push those thoughts to the back of his mind under the sea of other tasks that need handling. But they always floats back to the surface no matter how hard he tries to keep them at bay.
A knock at the door mercifully pulls Swindle from his thoughts.
“It’s late.”
Swindle looks up to see Onslaught standing in the doorway, the hallway behind him darkened. Reflexively, Swindle feels himself relax slightly and realizes his hand is loosening a grip on the edge of the report on the mecha collapse. He runs a hand over the edges, attempting to smooth out the crumpled paper while Onslaught watches.
“You going to go?” Onslaught asks the question in the same manner he’s always handled information regarding Swindle and Blurr’s friendship – without judgement or condemnation.
Only this time – this time the neutrality stings. Stings because Swindle feels guilty regardless, guilty for staying, guilty at the thought of going. And perhaps he wants someone else to recognize that guilt too. Wishes it could be as easy as someone else telling him what the right thing to do is, when it feels like everything he’s done and everything he’s thinking of doing is wrong.
“I—” Swindle begins.
“Don’t tell me you can’t,” Onslaught interrupts. “Or at least, don’t tell me it’s because you’re too busy.”
Because we both know it’s not true.
Swindle tags the words on to the end even though Onslaught doesn’t say them. And he realizes, looking at Ons, that he knows – at least something of what’s going through Swindle’s mind. Swindle wonders whether Ons, as the leader of their group, felt the same responsibility -- the same guilt – when one of them was injured, when Vortex was lost (when Vortex died), when Blast Off and Brawl were taken away.
“I don’t know,” Swindle says.
But that’s not entirely true either anymore. Because Swindle suspects he does know the answer. Has felt it in the hand on his shoulder, the weight settling on the end of his bed, that carefully neutral tone every time Swindle took a risk – even if he hadn’t ever realized at the time what it was.
Swindle grabs his coat from the hook in his office and makes for the door. Onslaughts hand rests briefly on his shoulder as he passes. And Swindle knows. When he reaches his car, it’s the hospital that he sets for the destination.
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The few steps it takes to go from the hospital desk, where they’ve assured Swindle that yes Blurr’s awake and receiving visitors, down the hallway to the door of Blurr’s room feel like some of the longest Swindle’s ever taken. Swindle forces himself through the doorway before he can change his mind and – Blurr, the side of Blurr facing the hospital door…. If Swindle’s being honest with himself, much as he doesn’t want to recognize it – Blurr looks terrible, like he should be dead. Swindle’s worst fear, in the flesh.
But then Blurr turns. And he looks…alive. As alive as Swindle’s ever seen him. A light gleaming in his eye as he recognizes who it is that’s standing in the doorway.
“Swindle!” Blurr exclaims, pushing himself up so that he’s sitting more than lying against the pillows stacked behind him.
“Come in. It’s good to see you!” Blurr waves one hand enthusiastically towards the side of the bed. Maybe not as fast as the gesture once would have been, but still fast, still Blurr.
It’s been too long, Swindle thinks. As it always has been between their meetings. But maybe not too late, this time.
Swindle smiles as he pulls a chair up to the bedside. And as it always has been, Blurr's equally bright smile beams back at him.
AH FUCK THIS HURTS SO GOOD KFKFKFJNFHFHDGDGDOUFHF. I LOVE HOW MANY LAYERS THIS STORYLINE IS GETTING ITS LIKE A FUCKING ONION THAT WE ALL CAN COLLECTIVELY CUT AND THEN CRY
………..anon when I get you. When I geT YOU ANON
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Looking back on, D-16 always had a violent side he suppressed, but Starscream is the one that planted the idea that violence gets you somewhere, technically tfone's equivalent of Whirl's role in IDW
Sorry this is not going to touch on SS or Whirl at all lol
I will write maybe an unpopular opinion, but it seems to me that many people have latched onto the idea that D16 has "always had a violent side" and I really dislike it. The point of his character was that he was meek, remissive, careful and/or fearful of authority. That's not because of any deeper meaning other than 'I was born in this society and that's just how things are'.
I have seen times where the fact that he is 'violent' in his words with Orion is a smoking gun to point SEE! SEE! THAT'S MEGATRON, but it isn't. Megatron is born out of violence in a world that has completely destroyed the character's, D16, own framework of reference. The seeds of Megatron exist as soon as D16's worldview is completely destroyed: he has lived a lie his entire life, and he has been a good stupid boy the entire time. It is an insulting feeling; it is complacency. So, he stops caring because nothing makes sense anymore. Then, if nothing makes sense anymore, you might as well set it all up in flames, right?
D16's main characteristics are frustration and escapism. His quick turn to violence is freaky to Orion because he has never been violent before.
Coming from a culture that is very vocal and direct with friends/family, the way D16 speaks to Orion is very similar to how I myself talk to my friends and family: I do tell my friends that I might just beat them up for a stupid joke. So do they to me. That's normal, that's not seen as violent at all, it's just cathartic. It's just... whatever really. I didn't even think that could be picked up as a "this guy is violent!" because he doesn't do anything else that is intrinsically violent in how he acts with other people: sure he can be sassy, mistrusting, a bit rude but he is not violent.
The "punch" scene, if analysed, is 1) comedic, as the punch is the literal punchline 2) D16 is doing it to protect Orion from worse repercussions, because he knows how hard he is going to punch his friend lol 3) D16 punches Orion and the guy isn't angry, or upset, or even cares at all about that, implying that's just how they behave with one another. These dudes are two jocks. Jock on jock violence is just communication babyyyy 4) he literally gets punched for his friend lol????
The thing with implying that D16 has always been violent and/or 'evil' (fucking... fucking hate the word... kills character analysis tbh uugh) removes the focus of his character besides him being this guy from that franchise: anyone can become Megatron. Because anyone can be D16.
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