#BUT I also really hope she won’t do it
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I feel like Crystal is going to have so much going on in season 2, and she is probably not going to handle it super well at first… just a guess
She’s trying to piece together her old life, coming to terms with who she was (not a very nice person) and who she is now that she has her memories again, her parents didn’t even notice that she went missing, Niko “died” saving her and I suspect she’ll have no small amount of grief over that, and David is buried in her mind and we already know he’s going to cause problems with the tree if he stays there too long. That’s. That’s a lot. Poor Crystal :/
#if Niko does somehow make contact with the group I bet you it’ll be through Crystal too.#you know because she won’t have enough going on with everything else fjdjxkcm#it’s also why I don’t see any kind of relationship with Charles progressing in s2 beyond like. maybe a few more kisses.#she just won’t be in the right headspace for that. also I suspect Charles will have some discoveries of his own to think about#*cough* ‘do I have feelings for my best friend’ *cough*#I do hope we see Crystal getting to talk with Emma. her ancestors more. Jenny.#I think it’s really good how Crystal healing from her amnesia and discovering herself involves not just support from the boys#but from a good array of other women who care about her#dead boy detectives#storyrambles#crystal palace
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ღ ⸻ just some ideas for Evangeline’s pjo verse !
Evangeline doesn’t live at camp half-blood full time. She comes back to her stepmother and stepsister’s house in New York at least once a year. Her father, Maximillian Fox, died to a disease when she was younger.
Silena, Clarisse and Annabeth are her best friends. Evangeline doesn’t really have any boy friends, she avoids talking much to the boys because of her “curse”.
She considered Silena an old sister and mentor. And she was the only one who Evangeline told the curse about.
Evangeline believes she is “cursed” because her very first boyfriend died in a mysterious way. That night, her mother Aphrodite came to talk to her and told Evangeline she would live “a love tragedy”. Since that conversation, she tries to avoid people and literally anyone who might fall in love with her because she doesn’t want them to die like her previous dead boyfriend.
Evangeline also has the charm speak. However, this ability is way different in my canon (we don’t really vibe with what r*ck created in the books). Evangeline’s charm works basically because of her beauty and how beautiful people think she is. She attracts people’s attention because of it but she cannot control them. Evangeline also has the ability to read people’s emotions and that she can control; but it takes a lot of practice, it also depends on the person’s will and it is very very very hard to control someone else’s emotions, so she won’t simple use this on people.
Evangeline is also skilled in hand-in-hand combat, sword fighting, magic and she is correctly learning archery.
She almost died during the Battle of Manhattan.
#tw parental death#ღ ⸻ metas .#i hope i made some sense with the charm ability#also emphasis on she won’t control people’s emotions bc it is truly hard#and very draining to her#and it is also something she doesn’t like to do / won’t do unless it is REALLY necessary
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I think Starlo makes a good sheriff in the way Martlet makes a good Royal Guard
They're not exactly good at their jobs, but they have strong emotional characters that drive them to do the right thing rather than convenient or injust protocol. Being in positions of authority, this is possibly one of the best traits you could possibly have imo.
This too is a Papyrus thing except unlike Papyrus I can believe they could actually be competent with some time
Yeah, when I say star and martlet aren’t good at their jobs I am referring to the one they are expected and try to perform. The Royal guard is full of rules and regulations which martlet can barely keep up with, as well as being at its core against what she believes is right in regards to the fallen humans and how monsterkinds freedom should be secured. The illusion of being an almighty sheriff breaks for starlo during his fight with clover, realising that apprehending them for simply being human as his role as a lawman of the underground would entail isn’t justice at all, and he’s not prepared to take a life. It’s not fair.
That doesn’t mean they have no leadership skills or strong moral character that they can put into other more useful/productive roles. I think they both show they can be great leaders when put in actual threatening situations in the climax of most routes. Starlo immediately forms a rescue plan for clover when he finds out about cerobas intentions (which would have worked if not for their own insistence to seek her out). Martlet is defined in every ending by her ability to try to achieve the most just outcome, whether it involves protecting/vouching for clover, trying to rehabilitate them, or having to take them down as a last resort.
Being in a position of power under asgores political regime doesnt go well for either of them bc they don’t get to use these qualities in a way that matters, they don’t get to follow their own idea of what ‘justice’ really entails. By post pacifist they both come to this realisation: star tones down the sheriff stuff in favour of focusing on the actual positives which his town brings to the underground. martlet quits her job and while we don’t see what she is doing with her life now, I think she tries to follow in the footsteps of her mentor (the one she knew, anyway) by making the world a better place through small acts of kindness. It’s the kindness of people like martlet that eventually allows for the barrier to break in the pacifist ending of undertale, after all :)
#GOD do you ever think about how in her diary she says she can’t relate to chujin being someone with big aspirations#meanwhile her arc throughout the game shows how motivated she is to do what’s right no matter what….#she DOES have big aspirations even if she doesn’t realise it yet#ALSO re: the papyrus comment#all three of these guys are on a really interesting spectrum (lol) in regards to how they deal with human encounters in nm#mart is able to put her personal belief in the goodness of humans aside when she realises what clover has done#papyrus is literally incapable of killing frisk in any route INCLUDING nm bc he holds onto the belief in their ability to change#and stars an interesting case where he can kill you in pacifist/neutral but falters when confronted with an actual danger like vr clover#tho I do like utybbs take where he takes the same initial approach as papyrus. still hoping he can convince them to surrender#but unlike papyrus he just starts attacking once he realises that won’t work
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slept maybe 4 or 5 hours this whole ordeal is really burdening me i feel so disheartened 😔
#i still can’t believe 2 grown people would act like this#one of them is even older than me#she always acts so nice towards everyone but talks behind their back#i always knew they didn’t like me much and talked behind my back as well but i never imagined it was to this extent#to go to the boss behind my back…. i’m just baffled#and i need to work from 2pm til 8pm today again#at least they won’t be there but work was already dreadful for me now it’s absolutely unbearable#having to work with people who talk so poorly abt me and are so deceitful just thinking about seeing their faces again makes me sick#a friend told me i should call in sick and i really think that’s what i’ll do next week#like this whole situation is burdening me to the point i can’t sleep this job is draining me both mentally and physically#and if they claim i don’t do anything anyways it shouldn’t make a difference if i’m there right#i know that’s not true and they will be understaffed when i’m not there and it makes me feel a little bad for my other coworkers but i have#to look out for myself and my own wellbeing#idk what i did to deserve all this sometimes it feels like my life is just one punch to the gut after another#i’m not your strongest soldier god…. i can’t do this#cried so much last night hoping i wouldn’t wake up again after finally falling asleep#and here i still am….#sorry for all the negativity to the few people who might actually read my tags but i’m really hanging on by a thread and it feels like it’s#about to break off any minute#also thank you to all the people who’ve reached out me i really appreciate it i’ll try replying soon but today will be another long day so#it may take a while#☁️
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cat will fix me. convinced of this
#i think of him every second of the day#in fact i think i need to think of him less because my intrusive thoughts are starting to twist it against me lol#but also… wah. ive been feeling for an eternity that all i really need is a little animal company#i think it’ll do me good to have another living creature in my home. especially one as cuddly as Him#(he wants all of the attention always)#some company. some comfort. something to give me smth to take care of outside my own disastrous body. something to keep me tethered#i hope im not too dissociated on the day we move. him being in my apartment is smth that could feel So fake and i want to process it.#i want to put him down and let him out of the cage and feel that it is real#z talks#i think itll do him good too. it won’t be what he’s used to but he loves me i know it. and i will spoil him with so much attention and love#and care#my mom is not good at having cats. in fact i don’t think she likes cats very much at all
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i don’t really get why people wanna change the vocal roles of rv (irene rapper, seulgi main vocalist, wendy main vocalist, joy sub vocalist, yeri sub rapper) so bad. i personally think they fit very well + they vary depending on the song, which is what’s supposed to happen in a music group?? it’s just the general set-up for their songs, although it doesn’t inherently mean that’s how it’ll be all the time 😭
#a lot of people want joy to be a main vocalist and replace wendy or seulgi and i just. don’t agree really!#i love joy’s voice and it’s beautiful + her solo debut is amazing#but i think the vocal roles are the way they are for a reason#simply bc bye bye for example would lose flavor without joy Giving it energy in the backing vocals#like the vocals would fall flat without her support#and it also wouldn’t really be the same if she were always on main vocals because her voice gives a certain feeling to the song#so when it shows up it gives that feeling depending on the song . and the general mood for songs changes depending on what song it is#so when the arranger thinks her voice will add the most / a lot to a part she’ll be on main vocals!#like it’s not Set In Stone. and that’s why i don’t get why people complain about it tbh because that’s not how songs work#they’re not meant to have the same structure each time#so joy will be on main vocals too. she just also has another role she needs to fill but wendy fills it sometimes and so does seulgi#depending on what it needs!#like yeri will do that too#same w the rapping it changes#idk. idk#it seems like a very little thing to me because it already fluctuates the way most people who complain want it to…#plus i think there are worse issues with rv in particular so maybe that’s why im less bothered by this thing#🧸#hope this made sense Ummm#i do have my Thoughts on their treatment of joy (and yeri tbh) in particular but i won’t get into that bc it doesn’t necessarily correlate#to the topic of this post. But trust i am not blind in that regard. i actually talked w my sister about it for like 7 HOURS last night
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#okay one last thing I’ll say bc I don’t want to rehash it again and again but I need to get it off my chest#is that the reason I’m so 🥴 about the possibilities of this doc isn’t the fact that Louis won’t be telling 100% thruth about his life#or whatever like if Louis talks about e ams the break up and even if she’s in that doc I wouldn’t even bar an eye (well I would’ve 2 years#ago but times have changed yk🤪) like he can talk about his fake love life all he wants#I wouldn’t understand it and I’d think it’s completely unnecessary but whatever everyone’s a willing participant#BUT if the kid is in that doc#like actually the child himself#then that would make me really think about who Louis is as a person bc if it was literally anyone else doing that to an innocent kid for idk#entertainment or whatever reason I would’ve said they’re a pretty shitty person#and I really don’t want to think that about Louis🥲🥲#and also if he is in the doc that would automatically ruin everything else that would be in it#like if he trashes Sony etc etc#it’s not worth it but I know that’s just me#a lot of people will be excited about that and ignore the nasty stuff#so yeahhh I really hope he proves me wrong but🥲#anyway @anons I see you guys🫂🫂
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Very not excited to go to school tomorrow and have everything be different
#PLEASE PLEASE DONT HAVE RANCID VIBES PLEASE#ASAI SENSEI PLEASE STILL BE HERE I’ll kms if asai sensei is gone#I have a new VP and I’m sure it’s another very kind woman but I’m still not looking forward to it#tbh I’ll kms if jousei sensei or minato sensei is gone too#i think I’ll be fine at my other school for some reason#but I do hope taniguchi sensei isn’t gone either bc he’s my running buddy#extremely curious about what they’re gonna do with the 2 fifth graders for English#that graduation ceremonies gonna b really funny but I won’t be here for that#japan#also curious what they’re gonna do with the 4th graders who already went thru the 4th grade English curriculum#if asai sensei is still there I bet she’ll be the 3-4th grade English teacher again#she does not teach from the textbook in those grades lol
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I finished ASC: Sky last night and uhmmm whoa mama those cats can warriors. What I’m trying to say is this was hands down the single most enjoyable book published since the original series. Like don’t get me wrong the actual writing sucks ass but the plot is actually engaging for once. It’s predictable but still refreshing for warriors.
#wc#asc#also I can’t believe I’m saying this but I don’t mind nightheart having feelings for sunbeam at all. BECAUSE! I think he’s just confused#not saying there won’t be a relationship#but I think he’s just putting all his hopes on her#but that’s like. very realistic young adult behavior and it is fun to read and watch unfold#and sunbeam also is just really realistic? her not being able to stand up to her mother and not knowing how she really feels about a#complicated topic#until she sees cats literally being wronged and punished for who they are#it’s good! it’s realistic!#moreover I gotta say. I can tell this was written/conceived of during a pandemic LMAOOOOO the green cough outbreak???#warriors#nightheart#sunbeam#also poor frostpaw that bitch is traumatized#if I were here I would be a loner after this#also LOVE splashtail#and MOTHWING <3#I get the Mothwing love now I really do#also nice to see the previous protagonists integrated in a much more natural way#also Omg squirrelflight and bramblestar messy as fuuyyyuuuuck I love it.#I’m predicting a new code that leaders and deputies can’t be mates#also she is totally gonna depose him <3#I do feel bad for his ptsd tho#but two things can be true#he’s traumatized he’s had a difficult life AND he sucks as a leader and as a mate#retire :)
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I am CHEWING on the new tears of the kingdom trailer! But at the same time—
Hahahahha yeah that’s a redead. I am crying sobbing in terror already. 🥲
#someone said a bit ago that Zelda sequels are always darker and scarier and my gUY—#I AM 32 AND IVE *STILL* NEVER GOTTEN FARTHER THAN THE FIRST DUNGEON IN MAJORA 🥲🥲🥲#did I miss puzzle dungeons? yes! did I miss bosses? NO!!!!#IM A WIMP!!! I DONT WANNA FIGHT THAT 3 HEADED DRAGON!!!#I JUST WANT TO EXPLORE SOME CAVES!!! 😭😭😭😭😭😭#also I am L A U G H I N G god I H O P E all the caves are just#under the bogs. pull the plug out of a bog. boom. cave. 😂😂😂😂😂😂#on the plus side. I’m super excited that he appears to riding epona! I hope she’s obtainable in the base game this time!!#I mean. I have lol the amiibo cards so I can get her anyway but I really hope she’s also in the base game!!#apple talks#to the tune of spam#I was just thinking earlier today that I wanna play botw again but I should wait until March—it won’t take me 3 months to do everything agai#even if I go after every korok lmaoooo#I really wanna know what if any data will carry over from botw to totk
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trying not to be dramatic but. i kinda want to start drama!
#like damn im really not gonna be in this wedding i guess#like idk i know my one friend already asked another girl to be her maid of honor but it’s a gay wedding. it can be all girls!!!#and i keep telling myself ‘oh she prob wants to ask you in person’#not even maid of honor but even just lower tier bridesmaid#but ive texted them like three times since ive been here and i feel like im getting blown off#i get it it’s thanksgiving we’re all busy u might not have time but at least TELL ME#i won’t be back on the east coast for a while !!!#which i guess maybe that’s a reason why they wouldn’t ask but THEY USED TO TALK ABT IT ALL THE TIME!!!#AND IVE BEEN LIVING ON THE WEST COAST THEIR WHOLE RELATIONSHIP!!!#it’s not like they didn’t know#idk im also a drama queen but. it sucks!!!#and i have these fucking. elopement presents i wanted to give them but maybe not if they DONT ANSWER MY TEXTS#anyways still slight glimmer of hope that i will get to be a bridesmaid simply because i will feel bad if i talked all this shit#and i do end up getting asked#also bc if im not what’s the fucking point of going it’s like ill be traveling to maryland to go to the wedding that hurt my feelings#ok that’s enough i think.#maybe im just so sleepytired idk how to act
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I was too shaken up to say it yesterday, and you probably don’t care but I need to vent
Yesterday at 12:30 at night some of my neighbours got into a fight, bottle of beer shatter, lot of noises like barels were falling down the stair to the point we had to call the police and they ran away… No idea who was fighting, but half the building was there (4 app out of 8) including a REALLY pregnant woman with twins and now my mom says they are giving use dirty looks and I can’t help but be a bit scared even if they are usually super sweet 😭
#I think they may think that if we tell the landlord she’s going to make them leave#so my dad is scared of telling the landlord cause he dosen’t want his ass beat even though my dad could easily beat someone up too bsbsbsbs#I pretty sure we are just stress and anxious about what happen#and my mom is the can of you look at her without smiling and she’s like “’’I see you are mad at me you hate me’’ 😭#so can I trust her#also not because they look at us because they are mad that they’re going to be mad a long time#I would be mad if someone called the police on my even if I deserved it#and anyway they were laughing and screaming next door listening to music (loud but not enough to heard it if it wasn’t total silence)#my dad wants to give up the job of janitor though he has enough and don’t wanna deal with them anymore 😭#so 50$ more for the rent 🤪#yeah that’s what she was paying 😐#I mostly hope they won’t do anything like that again#I slept 3 hours because I had to wake up at 6:46 woke up at 6:30 but couldn’t sleep cause I was too shaken up#we wear so scared someone would fell down the stairs or hurt themself (or even d*e if they fell down the balcony directly)#police found blood in the stairs but with how loud they were it’s probably from a broken nose or something 😭#also my dad saw a car leave so maybe non of them fought but their friend did we couldn’t see at all :/#it’s a whole mess I just hope it won’t make discord into the building 😭#that would be really bad :(#and they know it’s my dad that call cause he yelled police to them 😭#but some were already on their way so someone else call but stay hidden my dad is crazy he went outside to yell at them 😭 ckbsjsn#alex.txt
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#last nights dream hurt too much to wake up from#she wanted me back and even re-proposed with a new ring#said she tried to date other people but it never felt right#never felt like when we’re together#i of course accepted the proposal and welcomed her back w open arms#said i felt the same way#even got into explaining to her that i’d blocked her tumblr (i did irl) and (irl) why i had#i looked up her account and saw one post about being ready to get out and meet new queer girls#the wording didn’t seem like her tho and i’m sure it’s partly to do w her friend#my ex-friend who lost her shit on me#in dream love agreed and said that friend had really overreacted#she and i got back together and our cats reunited so joyfully (my one her two kitties)#hell i even miss her crazy rediculous family#i felt whole again#i could hold and kiss her again#could feel her love again and give her my love#waking up feels so cruel but i also can’t help but hope for these dreams#infinitely better than the ones where she still doesn’t want anything to do with me#won’t even talk to or acknowledge me#as one of her fav shows says#sometimes life’s a bitch and you have to keep living#or something like that it’s from Bojack Horseman idk
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Yesterday I had the realization that back in the early-mid 2010s, I had a pretty huge squish on my marching band section leader who I haven’t seen regularly in a decade and last saw probably 8 years ago. It’s like oh so that’s what was going on.
#no we never really became close#but we hung out in a larger group settings#both of us got the hell out of town once we graduated and never looked back from what I can tell#I hope she’s doing well#probably won’t ever see her again but that’s okay#tbh I don’t even know if she even wanted to become close friends#I also think a lot of people I knew in high school probably only remember me by my best friend and wouldn’t want to associate with me so#because of her#but to be fair#I have kept her at a distance for the past 4 years#which is sad because I’ve also distanced myself from my other best friend from those days as a result and like that was not intended#Erica if you read this it’s not me lol#I doubt she would ever see this though#also why the fuck did it suggest the names of the Columbine shooters when it typed in Érica#don’t do her dirty like that tumblr 🖕🏻
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See I bring stuff up and it’s like “ohhh someone to replace King/finally someone else” bc I do still talk abt King a lot and like I don’t think you get it it’s like this random guy I do not know much about is not going to eclipse my first serious relationship. Nothing ever will replace it, bc it’s one of a kind or smth. It was hellish. It was the happiest I ever was. It’s a duality. It was a mess of being sixteen. There’s never going to be anything like that again. That’s such a relief to know. It’s terrifying thinking about the unknowns after bc at least it was familiar. Idk. I also think King had a very unique position in my life and it was definitely an in the moment thing and it’s kinda stupid to think that someone will ever be able to Be That. Someone will be smth different one day, someone else who makes me say “I’ve never loved anyone like I’ve loved you”. I won’t love them like I loved King, it’ll be different (and hopefully less sixteen!!!). I don’t think it’ll ever be the same bc it’d be boring if we loved everyone the same. The intense emotion is gonna kill me early but idk. I feel alive rn.
#rian’s slay compilation#really hoping y’all get it this take pisses off my irls#‘Cal you’re stagnant’ thx I’m unmedicated#I actually have made consistent progress throughout the year btw. it’s small stuff but also yeah 👍#this sounds like a regressive take but it’s not in my head? if that makes sense.#I’m definitely not in a crazies headspace tous les temps maintenant and that’s nice#comes and goes but goes more frequently. that’s nice#are we as a dash ready for ‘this is not going to be a great marker of progress this is me being more invested in my Astro class’#I’ll definitely fall in love again sometime. college I’m assuming. I’ll get to know someone real well then boom smoochin#and I will tell you all a secret. I cannot fathom it. I just know it’ll happen and it’ll be ok when it does.#even bigger and more embarrassing secret sometimes when my head gets locked up I picture King telling me how wonderful I am and how one day#I’ll make someone so happy or more importantly someone will make me happy too and how it just won’t be her. and that’s okay. and she’s sorry#bc in another universe where we were totally different people it could’ve been something nice. just nowhere here.#if y’all bring that up ever again I’ll kill you ok. just feeling vulnerable on the dash tn.#was able to think of myself as a complete person earlier and I CANNOT do that a lot woowee it wiped me out.#good news is I found a field to frolick in I just need sugar cubes
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my mother got me a carry on suitcase but little does she know …. i alrdy ordered the one i actually wanted 3 days ago ALSKAKSKALSKLAKSLAKSLAKS
#stream#like thanks queen the thought that counts hope u kept that receipt so u can get ur money back#like she also got me raycons … girl ALSKALKSLAKSLAKSLAKSLAJS i’m having her return them too#i don’t even get the money it’s just. i already know - she always gets the ‘cheaper xyz’ bc ‘it’s a deal’ but like a) it always breaks or b#i never fucking use it & honestly i just always make her return most of the shit she gets me like#it’s like how they always get me scratch offs that don’t win. my brother gets the same ones but his always win EXHIBIT FUCKIN A TODAY - WE#BOTH GET 2 & MY BROTHER WINS 75$ RIGHT OFF THE BAT#like girl#ALSKALKSLAKSLAKSLAKSLA i think i hate christmas not bc i hate giving things i just hate getting things#bc all i’m getting is garbage & i HATE it id RATHER GET NOTHING like girl why are u giving me this 😭😭#like even i’ll get deodorant … ain’t my brand won’t be using it WHY#i just give it to my brother literally everything - i got aftershave today; never have i ever used aftershave. shaving cream ? both to my#brother immediately i just think its funny like im NOT UNGRATEFUL its just#WHY ????? i got 2 packs of socks though & im ELATED#truly the best shit i got 😍😍😍#my aunt got me scarves but they’re acrylic so i won’t be wearing them ALAKALSKLAAKALKSLAKALA#i love it it’s really funny i always just make a pile of shit to give back to my family like yes take it i do not want it love u stop it#my mother gave me a crochet santa earlier like kit like girl. i am not making this but thank u u can return it too#BUT THIS SUITCASEEEEE ALSKALSKLAKSLAKSLA THE HANDLE IS ALREADY WOBBLING AROUND LIKE GIRL I AM NOT USING THIS
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