#BUT HE'LL NEVER WANT THAT FOR THEM
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this is a personal speculation/headcannon of mine (it’s probably extremely ooc so i apologize in advance); but i feel like king baldwin iv would never approach his beloved or confess his love willingly. though he views this illness as a blessing from God, i feel like there’s some part of him that will not allow himself to love his s/o like any other *normal* lover. because there’s still that part of him that views himself as nothing but a battered body- carried only by weak tired bones and ruined skin and polluted blood, and you are far too precious to be burdened with his suffering. he loves you too much for that. so he loves you from afar, and contents himself at the sight of your smile, bright and laughing and innocent, his blue, blue eyes cloudy with longing. and he aches, oh, he aches. (and the worst part of this is maybe the fact that he knows it has nothing to do with his sickness this time.)
#UGHH IT'D BE SO ANGSTYY#COS HIS BELOVED LOVES HIM BACK#BUT HE'LL NEVER WANT THAT FOR THEM#tbh this is the theme i tried to put in both of my previous works for him but i feel like i did a pretty bad job#but mehh#also#i feel like this is pretty ooc so im really really sorry#BUT I HAD TO GET IT OUT OF ME#I HAD TO EXORCIZE THIS OUT OF ME FOR HOW MUCH IT WAS HAUNTING ME ISTGG#but anywaysss#hope you enjoy!!#and please share your thoughts!!#leper king#king baldwin iv#king baldwin iv x reader#king baldwin x reader#koh#kingdom of heaven 2005#edward norton#i NEED HIM SO BAD 😩😩#and its not even romantically 😭😭😭
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going to look at houses with one of the boys because yall need a bigger one with more rooms now that ale and rudy have officially joined the polycule and the agent is really working the kids angle for "you and your... husband?" and ofc it's johnny who goes with you and he's feeding into it by only referring to them as "the boys" that by the time you've settled on a house and you get the agent to do one last viewing so they can all come see, her head fucking explodes first when she sees "the boys" and again after they all take their turns giving you and johnny your initial smooches, and the smile on johnny's face tells you this couldn't have played out as perfectly even in his dreams
#poly boys#it's honestly really cute that johnny considers it this secret little tool in his arsenal#because he never thought he'd be lucky enough to have a single partner to actually see him and love him. and to have this many???#man is fucking overjoyed#he's going to keep getting as much fun out of it as he can#and even tho yall grumble about his shenanigans you can't help but love how happy he is about it all#johnny's out here like “oh no this won't do this room will be too far for simon he'll want to be closer”#and the agent is like “oh is he your youngest? it's always so hard to get them to sleep in their own rooms at first”#johnny viciously nodding along as you picture simon in the mom i frew up pose
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ark aftermath
#being in the ark with knives who had gathered such immense power definitely fucked with vash's brain#their fight before the ark haunts me. what do you mean 'blackness of decay' jesus christ#it reminds me of 'youve got more of them...scars'#knives seeing that his brother is actively like. dying.#also what do u mean knives tried to merge with him. that definitely took a toll on both of them#anyway so vash has vivid hallucinations of his brother and whatnot#wolfwood hates himself for that obviously#just imagine the horror he would experience if vash called him 'knives'#vash literally spitting blood because 1) anxiety 2) hes so fucking tired and tortured and shit#he wants a break guys give him a break#but ooobviously vash (the man he is) he'll never accuse wolfwood of trapping him in the ark. of betraying him etc#so he'll just be happy to be there alive and relatively well and hope the same for his brother#at least for the time being before vash meets him and kills him#this is the longest comic ive made sorry if it feels a bit rushed/not well concluding#best i can do#its been kicking my ass for the past week and i just wanted to be done w it#trigun#vashwood#vash the stampede#nicholas d. wolfwood#trigun maximum#trigun fanart#my art#millions knives#<- for a fragment of a second#what else#tw hallucinations#tw blood#tw emetophobia
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i hate continuously reverting back to denial but dear fucking god i just CAN'T believe it
such an important part of my life for over 12 years and he's just gone
i was here for him when he was 17 and loved green beans and i was here for him when he was 31 and trying to get his life together and i have always loved him all the same
i'm going to be plagued by the what ifs of the rest of his life for the rest of mine
#i always really empathized with him because i also have a drinking problem and it is HARD to deal with addiction#if it makes any of you more sympathetic to addiction as one of your mutuals#i just always felt like. since i grew up with them i thought maybe liam and i would get to heal together and settle into our 30s#as kind of healed humans#and he'll never get the chance#and i think i will but it's so hard. watching him not be able to#i always wanted to talk to him about it one day#and i'll never get to#idk i'm rambling i just love him so much and i'm just. devastated#sam says shit#to keep
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"I was gonna say you're like a son to me.. but you're more than that."
"It ain't that complicated!"
How quickly that shoulder pat of comfort turned into a condescending one.
#he makes me feel so emo#this life was never meant for you but your fate was forced#the way dutch (and hosea) talks to arthur like he's stupid will never sit right with me#like they've been by his side over 20 years they KNOW he isn't stupid because if he was he would have been gone a long time ago#not only is arthur incredibly emotionally smart but he's a trained conman vault breaker gunslinger horse rider you name it#the fact that his own adoptive parents break him down like that hurts#it's a manipulation tactic on dutch's end - break your victims self esteem to make them chase your praise and approval#hosea I believe has just gone along with that kind of attitude but in a different way he just likes to jest lightheartedly#arthur doesn't see the difference though and it's understandable but he takes it to heart#the worst part is that hosea sees through his tough guy act and has called arthur out on it#his act is a defence mechanism to protect himself from being too vulnerable - in arthur's mind#and it isn't a sudden thing it's very likely something that has built over the years given the life he has lived#and hosea notices he knows this#but they still jab at arthur#oh it hurts#is he your son dutch? or is he your guard dog? your personal workhorse?#playing through the second time is opening my eyes more and more#rdr2#red dead redemption 2#mick squeaks#mick rants#mick gifs#arthur morgan#dutch van der linde#liveblogging#you guys gotta understand - arthur seeks and longs for dutch's approval he'll never say it but it's the key motive behind his loyalty#and arthur *rejects* dutch's comfort#he doesn't *want* dutch to pat him on the shoulder because he knows dutch is digging them an even deeper hole#he doesn't want that touch he craves#it's so insanely monumental for such a small scene because it shows us how arthur feels without telling us
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"His little pet Wolverine."
"Tell me somethin'. Are you pissy because I left, or because I'm with him now?"
#emotionally secure logan who never denies being wade's pet kitty#it is a need that wade is not within hearing distance. get that bitch out the room#this dialogue needs to happen when wade is Not There#emotionally secure in a “I trust him in ways none of you could dream of comprehending”#i want them still in that stage where logan is reasonably uneasy to express his devotion in ways like this.#because it is ways like this that wade would understand. it'd dawn on that mf and he'll never let logan live it down#poolverine romantic#poolverine platonic#deadpool and wolverine#deadpool#wade wilson#poolverine#wolverine#deadpool 3#logan howlett#deadpool 2024#deadclaws#god help us if wade hears this and hears logan NOT protest#“damn fucking RIGHT he's my BITCH bark for me pookie”#logan's going to stab him lol#“his little bitch” correct! Logan stabs you#“you're his pet” “and?”#“his wolverine” “yeah the folks at the tva agree”#“his little pet” “hello pot im kettle go fuck yourself”
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He'll make it back.
Loki 1x05 // 2x01
#mobius#loki#lokius#mcuedit#lokiedit#marveledit#loki spoilers#owen wilson#tom hiddleston#dianagifs#owenwilsonedit#marvel#for the anon who asked about my fav parallel this is it!!#for now anyway... 👀#forever a cautious optimist lol#the way loki finally isn't running they WANT to stay they WANT to come back to the only person who's ever grounded them...#in s1 mobius has already accepted he'll probably never see loki again that they'll be on to bigger better things#and mobius always wanted that for them so he makes himself move on then loki not only appears again physically fighting to be with him#but also making clear to everyone there's mutual respect and care and trust in being able to make things better including themselves#fun fact no one in their entire lives has ever put either of them first but each other so please enjoy thinking about that for eternity 🫠#loki s2 spoilers
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Experimentation (Patreon)
#Doodles#UT#Handplates#Sans#Papyrus#Continuing the theme of memories and what Gaster ruined for them haha#He doesn't even have to be here and he's making their lives harder! Par for the course#Lots of things have the potential to trigger their memories - a familiar smell or a food they recognize#But there were so many things they never experienced and sifting between them is very difficult!#Especially considering most of what they ''remember'' is actually just their Reaction to Something - like the smoke smell making them tense#Sans here getting a Reaction for sure tho - being questioned and experimented on does Not feel good#It's Papyrus doing it so that's one thing but even still - not having fun with this#Papyrus is so curious! He wants to know! He always seems to be a bit left out on finding things out haha#Sans being the more science-minded of the two probably has an impact there - ask your brother he'll help figure it out#Unless he really doesn't want to because it feels weird please stop (lol)#Still tho being asked to eat things as an experiment? ''oh hey bro maybe going to grillby's will remind me of something'' ''SANS'' lol#Papyrus didn't mean anything by continuing to ask questions he's just curious!#Sans goes to write down the results and then feels Even Worse so scribbles them out#''don't tell me what to do!'' directed nowhere in particular#Tries really hard to put it out of him mind A Lot#This remembering business sure is uncomfortable!#Look what you did Gaster you took a perfectly fun data-gathering session and turned it into something they'll need therapy for!
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We only see each other at funerals
(On Jason, Thalia, Nico, Bianca, and their parallels/connections)
The Titan's Curse (Rick Riordan), @/anxiousmaya_, Right Now (Gracie Abrams), The Battle of the Labyrinth (Rick Riordan), Joan of Arc (Mary Gordon), The Lost Hero (Rick Riordan), Episodes Toward and Elegy for Halley's Comet (Lindsey Drager), Jason Grace (Riordan Wiki), The Gods Show Up (Michael Kinnucan), The House of Hades (Rick Riordan), What the Living Do (Marie Howe), The House of Hades (Rick Riordan), Planet of Love (Richard Siken), The Blood of Olympus (Rick Riordan), Tangerine (Nolune), The Blood of Olympus (Rick Riordan), The Blood of Olympus (Rick Riordan), I Bet On Losing Dogs (Mitski), The Burning Maze (Rick Riordan), @/abhorarchive (Twitter), The Burning Maze (Rick Riordan), Seventeen (MARINA), The Burning Maze (Rick Riordan), @/rollercoasterwords, The Tyrant's Tomb (Rick Riordan), @/the-overanalyst, Where Things Come Back (John Corey Whaley), Grit (Silas Denver Martin), Softcore (The Neighbourhood), The Tower of Nero (Rick Riordan), Frost (Mitski), @/moonbends, I'm Your Man (Mitski), Sun Bleached Flies (Ethel Cain), The Tower of Nero (Rick Riordan), Three (Sleeping At Last), My Art
#nono you don't understand it's about the siblings#it's about how thalia lost jason once only to get him back and lose him again#it's how jason and bianca both walked into their deaths with their eyes wide open#it's about zeus trying to kill nico and bianca and him doing nothing to stop jason from dying#it's about thalia being in the hunters and nico hating her but he knows how to grieve with that kind of loss#so he'll help her. for jason. for bianca. because no one deserves to mourn a sibling alone#like these four barely interact but they're soooo connected i could go on forever#i'm so sad thalia and nico never actually got a scene together after the burning maze#and ALSO#it's about the fact that reyna is one of the most (if not the most) important people left in their lives#LIKE#do you think thalia found out how close nico and reyna were and started watching her more closely#because every person the two of them have shared has ended up six feet under#so reyna gets annoyed with how protective thalia is but she doesn't stop her bc part of her can tell thalia needs it#and nico constantly checks to make sure reyna's life force is still strong#bc he never wants to be caught off guard by a death again#ok im done now i promise#the trials of apollo#trials of apollo#nico di angelo#reyna ramirez arellano#reyna avila ramirez arellano#web weaving#fanart#my art tag#thalia grace#jason grace#percy jackson#percy jackson fanart#bianca di angelo
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There’s this deep possessiveness at the center of Luffy’s chest whenever he looks at Sanji.
Come with me. Be mine. I want you.
But he can’t take him by force - no matter how much he wants him. Sanji has chained himself to the Baratie with ropes made of grief and guilt, and he’s hard-pressed to let go, even now.
People don’t stay for Luffy, but he’s hoping Sanji may stay with him for the sake of his Dream. That’ll be enough - to have Sanji by his side while they accomplish their dreams together.
Or maybe, he’ll stay with him for the sake of Nami. Luffy knows the way the others have written Sanji’s flirtations off, but there’s a depth to Sanji’s feelings, visible in the way that he looks at Nami like she’s the prettiest thing he’s ever seen, like he’s blessed to have her near him. Maybe Luffy’s not worth staying for, but Nami is. It's why he’s going after her despite everything she says.
No matter the reason, he just needs Sanji to stay.
#thinking of this AU where luffy is immediately heads over heels in love with sanji but sanji is in love with nami#so luffy just has to deal with unrequited love and jealousy because he wants sanji so much but sanji is straight#he's also just more insecure and thinks he isn't worth staying for so he'll take sanji in any way he can get him#meanwhile sanji has a love at first sight thing for nami#and nami definitely has feelings for him too#but she's also pretty messed up with the whole arlong thing so she's just not in the right headspace for a relationship#she buries that shit until after the ts#HOWEVER by the time that wholecake rolls around sanji kind of moves on with luffy after realising that he unconditionally loves sanji#and like finally sanji allows himself to be loved back#and luffy who never thought that hed ever have sanji romantically is just soo happy its insane#and nami's happy the two of them are happy#could maybe be lusanami or sanlunami now that i think about it#but anyway#monkey d. luffy#black leg sanji#fanfiction#one piece#sanlu#lusan#sanami
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cannot believe in book 7 draco somehow found the audacity to look straight at ron and hermione who were entirely undisguised and pretend not to be sure who they were
#he probably didn't want to be responsible for their deaths. for all his talk he's known them since they were 11 after all#and also maybe part of him knew that harry would never forgive him if he let anything happen to them.#not that he thinks harry will forgive him anyway for his role in everything. surely he thinks harry must despise him now#but still. he can't do it. plus he can't let harry die and if anyone tries to murder his friends draco is sure he'll try to intervene#right there on the spot no matter the risks.#Harry Potter#Draco Malfoy#harry potter and the deathly hallows
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I understand why it wasn't possible, but it's such a shame we couldn't get Jenny back for The Wish. She and Giles fighting a losing battle side by side and being hardened from it, but remaining each other's solace. Them piecing together the puzzle Cordelia presents to them and having faith in a world better than this, only for Anyanka to try and throw them by hinting at Jenny's death should they return. Giles faltering at the thought of losing her and Jenny, once again, sacrificing herself and destroying the necklace. The way she sees it: she'll either be dead by The Master's hand or by her own, and only one of those inevitabilities gives the man she loves a chance of survival. She kisses him as she plunges herself into the abyss, wanting the last thing she experiences to be his love.
Giles waking up the following morning, the pang in his heart he always feels whenever he remembers Jenny accompanied by a newfound feeling of emptiness, and he's not quite sure why.
#buffy the vampire slayer#calendiles#jenny calendar#is doomed by the narrative i fear: and the writers will never be forgiven for that#rupert giles#he chooses her this time around#he can't go through with losing her even if it will save the world#he endured because he had jenny how on earth can he lose her now? and it certainly won't be by his hand#but jenny also chooses him - she refuses to allow him to remain in a world where meeting their maker in the Master feels inevitable#and she knows he knows she's doing the right thing and she can only hope he finds a new happiness in the world from which he came#which he never does - but he constantly dwells on the happiness he could have had with her.#they could have ran the magic box together. it would have been perfect for the both of them.#he likes to think she'd enjoy england but knows she'd last about three days before wanting to leave (and that's a generous assessment.)#and when the kids are leading their grown up lives away from him he longs for jenny to be curled up in his arms#he'll never know he briefly had her back#but the life he wanted them to live wasn't possible in the world in which they made it#something to potentially write one day#if anyone does know any fics with this concept though please let me know!#meg.txt
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I love fandoms, especially witnessing what fans take away from source material and how fans interpret it based on their experiences. Not to mention the stark difference of interaction between new fans, casual fans, experienced fans, and long-term fans.
I say this because the SVSSS fandom has continuously fascinated me in insisting in discussions that there are parallels between Shen Jiu and Luo Binghe (tell don't show), but in their fanworks, I just see parallels between Luo Binghe and Yue Qingyuan (show don't tell).
And it's not even (fully) a case where they're blending character personalities because they want what the other dynamic has, it's just how the characters are based on canon in two different timelines.
All of this to say, perhaps original draft PIDW (NOT original!PIDW nor pre!SY PIDW which are completely different) was supposed to revolve around the dynamic between SJ and YQY vs SJ and LBH. Perhaps YQY was to be the last hour mastermind, the true foil to LBH.
And fandom is just circling this idea without realising it because, once again, the unreliable narrator that is SY has already convinced this fandom that any version of SJ has to be a/the villain, regardless if it's through his own actions or baseless rumours.
Warning, run-on sentence ahead.
I don't know, mans, but it's gotta mean something that LBH and YQY have such similar life beats of being orphaned and having a tough life but remaining kind/compassionate because they had someone to live for until they didn't which left them empty until they found (or refound in YQY's case) one (1) man to obsess over in an uncomfortably intrusive way with no regards for his feelings and rejections, eventually reaching a position as the most powerful being in existence with a huge caveat that their sword is 83% of that power and is slowly killing them which did nothing to soften said man of their obsession's into showing them kindness leading to the ultimate confrontation between the two in which only one could survive and keep their obsession, not that it mattered because neither of them got to experience his feelings reciprocated, except in another timeline where the same things are happening until their obsession suddenly stops rejecting their (still intrusive) advances even if he is acting a bit silly, but hey take advantage while you can and take advantage they did because now they have that reciprocated feeling (except one still "won" as he gets to keep him for himself) and be thankful that all it took was, in their perspective, a near death fever that drastically changed his personality and most likely left him crippled in some other way, preventing their obsession from not NOT needing them anymore, all-in-all fulfilling their desire to be relied upon again, hooray! 😋😁✌🏽
In all seriousness, at the end of the day people are going to draw connections between characters that fit whatever narrative they understood from the story. SVSSS fandom just seems to be trying to convince others of one narrative while believing on a deeper level of another narrative. It's amusing and makes following the fandom fun.
#the hippo speaks#shen qingqiu#shen jiu#luo binghe#mxtx svsss#svsss#svsss fandom#yue qingyuan#i am never going to get over that the fix it for the pidw!timeline proposed by svsss#was to put its titular character through traumatic brain injury that changed his personality and scrambled his memory#all so these two overly attached men could have their feelings returned#i know that's grossly simplifying it but sometimes you gotta do that#to understand the sheer horror of what actually occurred#sj: I hate men because they've ruined me to get what they want. i will never again give men what they want.#system: well that's not gonna fly buddy so we'll just replace you with someone who will give men what they want#also system: but the kicker is your replacement won't know he's giving them what they want because he doesn't understand your trauma 😁#system cont.: so it'll actually be super romantic and just a hint traumatising here and there for when he doesn't give in#system cont.: but thats ok because he's soft so he'll bre- ahem fall for one of these men soon enough#system: and then all will be saved 🥰 just like the replacement sqh accepting his man's abuse instead of fighting it teehee 😋#telling y'all the system is a reference to ill advised fans who think being stalked is a complimemt and being abused is protective#and being gaslit is just how people talk 🥲#the hippo tags
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committing to each other on a park bench in a GAY park while wearing a comically large, film noir heroine-esque hat with the rain falling. ROMANCE.
(source 1, source 2)
#i want you more than anything in the world#one of the most romantic lines in that show#everything about this scene was pure romance#esp when louis tosses the lighter away bc he now knows he'll never need it again#ahhhh i love them#louis de pointe du lac#armand#loumand#interview with the vampire#iwtv
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another Bacara after sparring and a little headcanon featuring a very tired Cody and Fox
(I also like to think that if you pissed off Alpha, he'd make you fight against Bacara. Ponds and Gree are like the two people that aren't somewhat terrified of her)
#commander bacara#commander ponds#commander cody#commander fox#look. i like thinking up friendships and all that between the clones and their batches and how they love each other well enough#but i saw the opportunity and went full-send#ponds and bacara fucking h a t e each other#others generelly search for a safe space faaar away from them whenever they end up near each other#cody and fox as the second oldest each have to deal with it most of the time. which. theyre so done with this bullshit#main reason why cody and fox actually sorta get along. suffering together and not wanting to give their older sibs any more reason to keep#this bullshit up#and yes. ponds was the one that bit off a chunk of bacaras ear. shes never forgiven and he'll never regret#theres one thing they're willing to agree on and can hold a somewhat fun convo about#its that jango fucking s u c k s#fun all around#ajekyllsart
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my oldest bro donnie!! he's doing his best 🥺💜✨️ some things about him:
his bo staff has lights that blink whenever his family is in danger or in distress
splinter has a day job so donnie is left to look after his siblings a lot
a little detail about him is that he pulls up his glasses whenever he's focusing/thinking about his family. when they're down, he's on full donnie mode. when his glasses are completely off, it's serious time.
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#tmnt#my tmnt#tmnt donnie#tmnt raph#tmnt leo#tmnt mikey#tmnt splinter#tmnt fanart#my ert#am i just pouring all my oldest sibling shit onto donnie? we may never know#also this donnie is VERY affectionate towards his fam#and equally as protective#he'll go through hell just to get them out of trouble#bless his lil heart#wanted a very emotional and very loving donnie for my iteration so <3
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