#Augh!!!!

[wellcollapse]

it still makes me sick to think about how there's an entire history between eddie and shannon that we've never seen onscreen and never will because it's been lost to time and distance and grief and now only exists in eddie's memories....because although it is true that the way eddie talks about his marriage doesn't line up with what we saw between them in seasons two and three, the thing is....we can't ignore that we were only introduced to shannon long after the magic between them was crushed under the weight of everything that they both had to carry. because they were just kids when they met!!! they were just kids when they fell in love!!

they were just kids who thought that they had all the time in the world to have fun and be young and dumb and carefree (and for eddie, she was likely the only person he thought he would be able to have that with at the time given the responsibilities that he was facing at home) until it all came crashing down around them and they were forced to take on the roles of wife, husband, father, mother, soldier, none of which they were equipped to take on. and yes, we got a few flashes of the magic that eddie mentioned here and there in canon — the post-sex scene in season two that was steeped in history and familiarity and the scene of them both laughing at the beach over how incredible their son is (right before shannon dropped the pregnancy bomb on eddie) — but almost all of that happiness, that magnetic feeling that eddie's been chasing ever since, only exists in the past. and it's a beautiful past that only he remembers because the person that he once shared it with is gone forever.

and the worst part about all of this is that he thinks that past is all he can ever have!! @captain-hen mentioned to me once that eddie approached his relationships with both ana and marisol (stick it out, make it work) in a way that makes it clear that he doesn't really believe that he can truly move on and give his heart to either of them. because the thing is, he doesn't want to be alone forever, he wants to find that magic again, he's been told that he's allowed to move on, that it's the right thing to do, but he still thinks he's broken. he still thinks he's eternally doomed to mourn what he once had with shannon, to never move forward into a life where she's gone, even though it's the only life that he has now. even though it's the life he's been living ever since she showed him that positive pregnancy test. god. it's so tragic that eddie is so steadfast in his belief that she was the love of his life. but he still doesn't know that she was only the first love of his life. that the kind of love he's been looking for — the safety, the trust, the partnership, the laughter and tears and romance and magic — already exists, in the present and in his future. he doesn't know it. i'm going to be sick!

[1tbls]

you ever think about how disco elysium made homoerotic partnership literally enshrined into the structure of the RCM. RCM: "our ranking system is based upon the revolutionary lovers julia dobreva and jean abadanaiz. don't read into that tho"

beating the desk. sexuality is an inextricable theme of DE!!!

[sqrkyclean]

You know the manga is good when it’s over 150 issues deep and the love interest just now calls the mc by her first name for the first time and it hits so hard that I’m shaking and pacing and I feel like I did an actual line of coke

[kazz-brekker]

thinking about how claudia has been a vampire longer than santiago but everyone at the theater still treats her like a kid

[smokestarrules]

Darius’ confession to Brooklynn is such a rough scene to me. because like obviously he never means to say it in that moment and while Brooklynn understands the implications she’s also Busy and In The Middle Of Something and that is Not Something She Has The Time To Worry About Right Now and the two of them have almost always been on the same page about stuff but it happens in such a specific way that neither of them really hear each other.

Brooklynn can’t afford to think about what he said. She doesn’t have time. And Darius doesn’t want to face her again so soon.

…Oops.

[intotheelliwoods]

TAPA-

[itstimeforstarwars]

On the one hand I could let the death watch kids escape and grow up mostly functional and have a happy life down the line and probably end up meeting kix at some point

On the other hand i could also have them end up back in death watch and then when ben ends up getting captured during the mandalorian civil war...well :)

Decisions decisions.

[spinetacks]

the bucks cbf [curly boyfreinds as my sibling and me call them] drives me INSANE cuz its such a showing into allll their characters, im pretty sure its this match where you kinda hear nick go "its just wrestling." to his brother, almost like hes pleading with him that its JUST wrestling, that theres still love there...that the bucks are always gonna love kenny

you also have matt pushing kenny away at the start the way that kenny pushed matt away YEARS AGO when he rejoined his lover

how matt and hangman fit together before the match has even started

YEAH!

YEAH!! yeah 🥺 it’s so awful and so good. I don’t want to spoil it for anyone who might want to watch, but there’s a few interactions between the bucks that are so unlike them and KILL MEEE. kenny’s reluctance and trying to moderate hangmatt so they can just have the match and not make it something they can’t come back from..SO much bad feeling going into this but kenny and nick 🤝 from the outskirts augh..what an event t___t

[salemwazowski]

Wags tail I love being masc and femme and I love men and women and

[skellytonsandstars]

eepy

[cak3o]

no cleaning, only fireman

Yes! No cleaning, only fire- WAIT!!!!

[iamthemaestro]

it is with deep regret that I block the hades game tag because for my own health I CANNOT start playing this while the semester is still in session

[lamentablesbian]

just absolutely losing my whole mind over the soup battlemap… this is the sickest shit i’ve ever seen

[mamawasatesttube]

Clark and Kon bonding over being op and all that it brings would be so TT_TT it’s about someone having gone through the same thing. Going through the same thing. Hearing exactly what you need. Saying what you wish someone had been there to say to you. It’s about not being alone

YEAAHHH PRECISELY!!! YOU GET IT!!! YOU GET ME. it's about being family. it's about seeing someone you love growing up and facing their own versions of the same struggles you went through. it's about growing up and having someone to lean on when you're scared. it's about the isolation but the understanding within it.

i think clark would tell kon that he's proud of him, and that part of him is, in a sense, relieved to know kon is so op too, because it means there's one more person (other than, like, diana) who can keep an eye on him, watch his back, or take him down if needed. and he's so sorry kon has to deal with these fears and this loneliness too, but at the same time, it's... kind of nice to be able to share the weight with someone.

and kon is just so blown away. bc he's always idolized clark and seen him as better than himself. and here's clark saying all this like they're on the same playing field. he needs a minute. he needs to sit down. (they're flying. they're like a thousand feet in the air. he sits on a cloud. it's kind of wet. but that's okay babey he's got ttk so his hair doesn't get messed up.)

[kamil-a]

pregrief for someone who could theoretically live the next ten years OR die at any moment X minigrief for someone who is still fine and alive but incapable of thinking clearly or giving you anything approaching advice or guidance .