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nova-rpv · 3 months ago

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a redraw of the first drawing i posted here to celebrate the fact that ive been in tumblr for more than a whole year posting my shit and havent deleted my blog in panic yippee \:D/ (mushy rant in tags)

#i realised too late that it has been more than a fuking year (august 9)#and for context: ive had 3 different intagram art accounts and i deleted all 3 of them a few months before creating them. anxiety amiright #here it has been so different bc people are so nice??? it has been a pretty plesant experience here w all of u really #im so glad to have found myself in such a wonderful part of the fandom and amazing mutuals that i never talk to bc im shit w texting #the atention has been overwhelming ngl. i have over 2000 followers which. holy fuck???#it doesnt feel like a real number and for my own sake im nnot gonna treat it as one #like i apreciate the support and ppl liking what i do but im not here to make number go big yk? im here to connect w other humans #and yall have been amazing humans ^^ thank u for all the wonderful tags and comments and the support overall #it has been so cool sharing my art and finding other artist whom i respect oh so very much. some of them even follow me back wtf #i hope to continue being here for as long as i can and keep growing as an artist and sharing that process with other without fear #also my amy redesign actually goes so hard idk why i forgot about it nxnfbcncb #sth #sonic fanart #sonic #amy rose #nov.aart #nov.junk

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lukellios · 2 years ago

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What a difference six years makes

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casualavocados · 3 months ago

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Learn from who? Learn from you?

Chen Bowen as CHEN YI & Chiang Tien as AI DI KISEKI: DEAR TO ME (2023)

#kiseki: dear to me #kisekiedit #kdtm #kiseki dear to me #ai di x chen yi #chen yi x ai di #nat chen #chen bowen #louis chiang #chiang tien #jiang dian #userspring #uservid #pdribs #userspicy #userjjessi #*cajedit #*gif #uh huh. mmhm. parallels and shit #OK LIKE. in nice words ai di essentially tells chen yi to go for it BUT bc hes a Lil Shit he says it like 'use force to PROVE how you feel.#followed by '.....OH WAIT YOU CANT BEAT HIM'. the way he rubs that in chen yi's face too like it isnt even 'youre weaker than him.'#it's you're LOWER than him. & thats why ai di calls him a coward bc therell always be a divide between chen yi & cdy that chen yi wont cros #and the point of this is - okay i know chen yi is literally picking ai di up and throwing him around here but also you have to remember #ai di LETS HIM. ai di doesnt fight back as hard as he could and that puts them on EVEN. EQUAL. GROUND. every time.#& yeah theres some comedy to it but you cant Ever forget that ai di wants chen yi to want him. needs it. he's faking sleep in the 1st scene #and once chen yi realizes what he wants he puts everything he has into keeping it - inadvertently taking ai di's advice by doing so -#& expresses it in every kind of way too. whatever it takes. bc between the two of them its not just 'bring him back' it's 'bring him HOME'#in a way thats based on the constantly being witness to the worst of each other & choosing it AND. years and layers of trust & love.#..ok only I would take a gifset of chen yi picking ai di up & make it abt how their relationship is perfectly balanced. but im right so idc #the last one ties it all together in my onion. chen yi got him home. and ai di's deliberately allowing himself to be loved. they won

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littlelightfish · 6 months ago

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Disliking Tallchuck is a MAJOR skill issue.

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blueskittlesart · 6 months ago

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in the nicest and most non-confrontational way possible. i feel like some of you think that anything that isn't directly openly spelled out for you within a story is "missed potential" or "unexplored." like. sometimes there are implied narratives. sometimes the point is that you as the reader are supposed to think and draw your own conclusions and participate in the story. the writers not directly spelling every little detail out for you doesn't mean that the story is poorly written or missed its own plot details somehow. PLEASE.

#if i get one more comment referring to zelda's draconification as wasted potential im going to lose it for real #that's not unexplored potential that is THE ENTIRE STORY. JUST BECAUSE THEY DONT BEAT YOU OVER THE HEAD WITH IT DOESNT MEAN ITS NOT THERE #i get this all the time with just like. link's trauma in general too.#like people will ask me 'do you think they should explore link's trauma more' and im like. they do #that's what the games are about. it's all there. they just don't directly state that that's what they're doing because theyre expecting you #as a reader to ENGAGE WITH THE DAMN TEXT BEYOND SURFACE LEVEL. UGHHHHHHH #WHATEVER. whatever #like i feel like some of you would read the great gatsby and be like #'there was a lot of missed potential to talk about the failure of the american dream' GIRL IT'S RIGHT THERE. JUST THINK A LITTLE #personal #and yeah obviously its not that deep its a video game but like. i am not making shit up when i write my comics and analysis.#I AM ENGAGING WITH THE TEXT. AS IS GENERALLY EXPECTED OF A READER #ugh ok whatever. im done now sorry

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naggascradle · 2 months ago

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#asoiaf #a song of ice and fire #valyrianscrolls #i feel like i see people bring up this line all tje time to criticize theon and call him awful but its like.#the most blatant obvious line where he looks in the camera and says Haha My Dad Would Beat Me and Call Me Names. Fathers Do That!#and its like. oh my fucking god i knowww . I KNOW people think hes annoying or a piece of shit and he is atrocious dont get me wrong but #hes literally the most blatant metaphor of how abuse can affect a person into who they are #like no shit sherlock he desperately wants the starks to accept him. his actual dad would fucking beat him and he got taken outta that home #and placed in a new one where like one guy liked him as a friend but everyone else was kinda cold #<- WOAH! a metaphor about the foster care system and the way it affects a person.#like fucking obviously he bends over backward to try to get the approval of his peers or have fatherly approval #What else did you expect. Why do you think he makes all those choices ramsay suggests to him about trying to #get the respect of all of his men. he doesnt want to lose the respect. like.#Okay. Done now thank you #grace post

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lemongogo · 9 months ago

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#wyll #wyll ravengard #bg3 #baldurs gate 3 #my art #larian job openings but none for wyll fanartizt … hmmm….#.. change that and get back 2 me ok. …#anywyas . <looove saying anyways ~#rediscovering this brush and its kind of fun tbh.. i love the patchiness of the marker but this is soo round and full #and i like the opacity shift on the ends bc it looks so smooth .. like the subtle blending #do u see the mizora .i almost drew her w but i didnt want to make wyll scowl and you know he doesnt gaf abt her like thagt so.#aug.anyways . im soo soeepy .tired snzzz snorrkkmimi #MANN!!!! i havent played since they fixed the wyll glitch and i want to soosos soo bad (crying hamster pic)#k mneed to . draw more fomplete stuff again sry for headshot soft smile number 332 #this feels more him to me .. i dont like the first pic i posted . whichever one is colored #🫵🫵🫵 i cant render faces for shit w color .woe is me #on the right track though i do like this 1 more . not there yet but SOON.for wyll at least HELPPPP i drew a few astsrions and shadowhearts #but no1 else ..

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deoidesign · 2 months ago

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I met the me who made different choices

#idk what this means so dont ask #got the words stuck in my head and this is what I wanted to draw for it immediately #me at my desk. so.#I dont look exactly like this obviously. doesnt matter. anyways #hard time recently in a lot of different ways #lots of work to do!#given up on getting everything done I kind of failed at that. it was too much #so now I'm just trying to get anything done that will make the next 6 months not kill me again #ideally. 3 episodes. or the book #or like at least close enough to that that its basically that #I'm feeling really screwed LOL #I dont know how I've been working every day for so long and still havent done enough...#(its because the work load is way too much)#every time I take 1 hour for myself. to cook. or clean. or draw something else. or play a game. I feel so guilty auauau #I hate webtoon I hate this damn green app...#DOESNT MATTER!!!#what DOES matter is my art is good as hell... look at this shit...#the light. the colors. I love you red I love you green #I need to get more red pants I only have the one pair.#I saw this guy with red pants that had skeleton legs on them and I was like FUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUCK!!!!!!!!! I need them!!!!#I need to start sewing again. I dont have a sewing machine cause my apartment is too small so I havent sewn in years but I really want to..#I want to make clothes again... I need some vests I need some dresses..#I will not make pants or sleeved shirts because I dont hate myself #sketch #art #vent art I guess LMFAO its not #its just this fun little thing we like to call self expression #also this isnt how my desk setup actually is I scooted things around cause I didnt wanna draw anything twice. fuck it we ball #ok back to work

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atrophiedemotion · 5 months ago

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i'm starting to realize this might be an unpopular opinion but i don't really see ivan as very possessive when it comes to till?? i think his self esteem is too low for him to think he has the right to stake any claim over him tbh jvbsdk. idk, but considering the way he was jealous of sua and not mizi makes me lean towards ivan mainly just being extremely obsessive

i think if they were to ever be in a relationship ivan would definitely be more possessive, but i kind of feel like till might end up being the more possessive one of the two •_•

#ivantill #alnst ivan #alnst till #i just think that as it stands ivan doesnt see himself to be in a position where he CAN be possessive if you get me #and if they were together he'd def be possessive but he'd also be like. smug as hell and the confidence from till liking him at all would-#reassure him a lot #meanwhile... i just think till would be shit at hiding jealousy #ivan is popular and it annoys the absolute shit out of him bc ivan is so fakely Nice to everyone #being so used to ivan's intense attention makes him feel off balance when anyone else gets that attention yk #alien stage #alien stage ivan #alien stage till #cast's analyses

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dykedvonte · 1 month ago

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Honestly I see Jimmy's refusal to put Curly out of his misery less about his weird feelings of envy or his delusions but the fact Curly is all but stated to be a shield to Jimmy from his actions and people seeing the worst in him.

The only characters that Jimmy really interacts with one on one before the crash are Curly and Anya, two individuals he has wildly different relationships with. It's likely that Curly really did most of the talking between them as the pilots and the rest of the crew as staff. They didn't know of Jimmy's more reprehensible behaviors cause they never really had the chance to and Jimmy is subconsciously aware. If they had disliked him more than Anya would have told Swansea earlier or even Daisuke when things got really bad.

It's why he takes the immediate opportunity to blame Curly; He's the shield. He's saved Jimmy's ass more times than he can count and more times than Jimmy would ever admit. Even when he can't really do it anymore, he mentally shields himself from his own faults by putting Curly between them. Letting Curly die puts too much on him because he doesn't know how to function without a safety net.

In the end Curly only lives because Jimmy needs the idea that Curly will inevitably make things better to stay alive, meaning Curly has to live, no matter how much it pains him to do so.

#in short Jimmy doesnt only care about Curly #he only cares about the securtiy that Curly provides him #and i headcanon that the reason he tried to kill everyone is because he knew it was only a matter of time befor Curly realized this wasnt #somethgin benign Jimmy did that he could smooth over but somethign that Curly would repremand and condem him for and take his security away #like yes Curly did not react fast enough or strongly enough to what Anya told him but you could see him showing more concern over it as I d #understand the psychology behind people and more specifically men like Curly as he is hearing something horrible his friend did to someone #he cares about but has less of a bond with. he feels the need to protect his crew as people first and sadly Jimmy is still the person he wa #closest too yet I still think everything happened too fast for Curly to process as would you not grapple with the fact your closest friend #is a monster you must personally deal with? or that he did something so vile to someone else you have become protective over? Would you not #think of the relative power that friend holds and how if you approuch this wrong it could end badly for everyone? He had all these thoughts #but not enough time to think about them. Also how Jimmy was one of the main people in his personal life he felt a need to protect seeing as #he got him this job. Like imagine the one person you are really trying to make good is still bad after everythign and now you have to be th #hand of judgment youve shielded them from for so long like I do not think Curly handeled the initial situation with Anya correctly I dont #think it was the case of him not believing but not really knowing what to do and feel about it as a friend of both parties the captain and #guy going through his own shit and it says so much that he was dealing with all that so well compared to Jimmy who got everyone killed cuz #he thought being captain would be like sitting on the thrown and not emotionally mentally and physically taxing like I cant say Curly is th #best person due to his inaction but he is a good person doing the best with the knowledge and shitty resources he has cuz like also Id just #be terrified that my suicidal and nilihst bestie who clearly has an inferiority complex around me is the copilot who has access to the most #to the most important parts of the ship and the means to kill us all if he feels like him or his security are being threatened like #Anya and Curly just deserved better because they get put through the ringer like just put him in a class to teach him to be less trusting #anya mouthwashing #curly mouthwashing #captain curly #mouthwashing #mouthwashing game #mouthwashing curly #mouthwashing anya #mouthwashing jimmy #jimmy mouthwashing #mouthwashing spoilers

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anethiawoods · 17 days ago

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playing slay the princess as intended (watching your friend stream it and then roleplaying as improvised ocs for each of ur runs)

#anethia collectibles #slay the princess #so ...#run 1 is i think the witch/thorns where we chose to be very stoic and silent throughout #run 2 is the paranoid/nightmare route (fav) bcus i wanted to get to ask more qns that round and somehow that ended up leading to my poor #little curious guy getting so broken and fractured :3 #run 3 is the hero/deconstructed damsel route ....#run 4 is the tower! and being a little shit who is by hell and highwater NOT kneeling down #run 5 is the spectre ... roleplayed as guy who is for reasons he doesnt understand just wants it to be over #and MEOW anyway #nobody told me this game was an rpg .....#but its cool ! i love romances :]#i think its awesome ... the way the hero and the princess are . changing over time . over with each reset #the way they find each other in the long quiet ...... its something so #i love it ...#the hero is so guilty for hurting the princess that he loves and he is scared of hurtign and he wants peace and he doesnt want the eternity #of it .... he loves the . shifting mound (?) is it (?) as much as he hates the work she makes her do as much as he loves todo the workforher #like a blank slate knowing nothing . except that broken wounds can be healed . and then he meets her. and then he meets her over and over #its a million meet cutes for the hero and the princess snd a sweeping tale of love and devotion and salvation in the long wuiet #how many more vessels do you need .....#and its fun to. at least how i played it . the things the hero picks up on #knowingly or unlnowingly with each run #its soooo #every 'remain silent' feels like a callback to the first libe #telling the voices 'itll be okay' after the brightness of the damsel snd that 'ill be okay' after the selfishness n suffering of apotheosis #or after the deconstructed damsel route . and then to the last run. becoming the damsel. seeing it throughcher eyes #and its so . this culminating ammassing of allcthese voices .... and it comes to it all being reflected at eachcother #spectre posseses hero and shifting mound and player becomign whole #anyway i like this love story i find it very tender and swet #... anyway ! this is . none of this is analysis these are just my ocs and the story i made up whilst playing

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sehrgefaelltmir · 13 days ago

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an draoi gramadaí my most beloved <333

#‘grammar wizard’ for the uninitiated #which like. ok. i know they mean like a software wizard. like the thing that helps u install things and stuff #but the word draoi just doesnt go with software idc they have to come up with a different word for that #when i see draoi i feel like im summoning an ancient druid to help me with adjective declension #like i need to make him an offering or some shit #gaeilge #irelandposting 🇮🇪

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oceanwithouthermoon · 3 months ago

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maybe its just me but i cant stand when people are like "it just doesn't sit right with me how teruhashi thought about aiura 🥺" like yes... its not supposed to ??? because her thinking badly of other girls and prioritizing male validation over everything is one of her main flaws ??? can we talk about that WITHOUT making it seem like shes not allowed to have a single actual flaw without suddenly becoming an awful person? nobody can handle complex female characters at all and its so fucking annoying

#you guys all missed the point of her development AND her and saiki's relationship development #like did you miss the parts where the only times he genuinely seems to not like something she does is when shes mean to other girls #and he still understands that she isnt a bad person for having bad thoughts in the private comfort of her mind #and besides... in this case she was literally just being a dramatic and insecure teenage girl LMAO #like dont fucking lie to me and tell me when you were her age you didnt have similar thoughts #youre worse than her if you lie about it while judging her for it #sorryyyy #she shouldve been MORE unhinged youre all just cowards #AND ALSO ? how can something even be 'mean' if its just a thought #thats like if u opened ur friends private diary without permission and then unfriended them over something they said in a random upset vent #and in this specific situation if u found out ur friend called someone a bitch because they liked the same person as her ??#LIKE THATS ?? its bad but its not as crazy as you guys make it out to be #shes allowed to be angry and insecure in the privacy of HER OWN MIND #idk if this makes sense but i just feel that her thoughts are more of a concern about her wellbeing than anything else #like she canonically is extremely kind to others even when she doesnt want to be so why are we worried about how she treats others.#theyre fine. im worried about HER.#and WHY her mindset is so negative... but u guys dont give a shit because u cant handle even a spec of complexity #sorry ive said all this before i just like to rant #saiki k #tdlosk #the disastrous life of saiki k.#teruhashi kokomi #meows post

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fadeintoyou1993 · 2 years ago

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i can't let go when something's broken it's all i know and it's all i want now — sun bleached flies by ethel cain

songs from my nancy playlist

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blusandbirds · 3 months ago

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eli moskowitz - "am i making you feel sick?"

#blu edits #cobra kai #eli hawk moskowitz #demetri alexopoulos #hawkmetri #binary boyfriends #binary brothers #sorry randomly got bonkers about their dynamic in my head again #i love when demetri is spiteful give him edge give him that streak of pettiness he's always been secretly proud of #hes 17 his only sources of true joy are schadenfreude and free food #he humiliated eli at that party and he enjoyed it and yea they make up but he gets his licks now bc he's owed and eli lets him bc he's owed #and eli's approach to redemption is all roll over puppy eyes im sorry i'll do anything 'just tell me im yours' like thatll make it better #like thats productive. but he cant build demetri a sparring deck out of this so if demetri says jump... if demetri says join my dojo...#and so demetri will run him through his paces ragged for penance but it doesnt make it better and he looks at hawk and still feels sick #(and yes he loves him ofc he loves eli but that just adds to his turning stomach every time he sees those eyes looking up at him like that)#(its worse bc its eli making him feel this. not hawk doing something evil but eli trying to do something good and demetri still feels sick)#(because who does that shit and then comes back belly up like letting demetri claw his guts out makes them even)#(because who can claim to love someone and still get a kick of satisfaction out of making eli bleed <- verbally emotionally metaphorically)#(not physically. never physically. obviously. that's eli's thing. and so demetri's a leg up on him.)#^ im promise im a fan of interpreting them where theyre happy too #this derailed from the edit #if ur for some reason reading this then however you first interpreted this is prolly correct. i went a little rogue here in the tags

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relaxxattack · 1 year ago

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every time someone calls moirallegience just an alien qpr i wilt a lil like YEAH thats more or less the CLOSEST human thing but its also Literally Not That. like a qpr is fundanmentally not romantic and thats not even going into moirails whole Actual Purpose of calming ppl down. its just. aughhhhh pisses me off i see the confusion but, as aformentioned, aughhhhh

OH MY GOD THIS HAS BEEN BOTHERING ME TOO.... but i don't want to get petty at the people in my notes always saying "moirails are QPRs!" because in some ways that is the closest human thing so it's hard to be mad...

i think there's definitely some overlap in some ways. but NOT because moirallegiance and qprs are the same at all really, but INSTEAD because both relationships have unconventional boundaries defined by the people within them.

you know... like every relationship.

like the only reason the two have overlap is because they are both partnerships that emotionally care for each other but can choose to not bang (which is true for any romance anyway, even if it's considered abnormal). they're both just romances* that are unconventional to human norms, which makes people view them as the same thing when they're not.

i think the REAL issue here is that humans insist on using human words to understand things that are just, fundamentally, alien. can't we just appreciate alien romance for being... alien romance?

no, it's not platonic, it's romantic. it's just romantic in a way you aren't quite wired to understand, is all.

*in generalization, most QPRs are not romantic, because they are made up of aroaces who are life partners in a non-romantic way. however i want to disagree with you that none of them are romantic, because that is up to the partners in question.

#quadrants #homestuck #moirallegiance #BEEN THINKING ABOUT THIS FOR SO LONG OMG THANK YOU FOR THE ASK #its just i USED to think they were the same #and then recently i kept getting pissy when people said they were the same so i was like. okay let's unpack this #what's the overlap here and what's the differences?#and really people THINK theyre the same because they think theyre both like. 'im gonna platonically marry my friend!' ^w^#(which is obviously not actually what either of them are like. lol)#when REALLY what they have in common is 'hey you're a person i want to have a committed partnership. but potentially not sex or tradition'#and it's not really fair to compare them because they come from totally different places and have totally different standards #QPR was created as an ALTERNATIVE to allonorms. its about saying 'hey lets make up our own rules. my life partner can be platonic if i want #whereas moirallegiance IS a norm and its not counter any culture. it's just 'trolls have biological romantic feelings/needs in This way.'#idk idk how to explain it any further because ive spent a fucking hour on this post and i have a massive headache so feel free to ask me--#more specific questions if the shit i said here doesnt make any sense (；￣ー￣)..#<- wow haha the troll fictive autism really jumped out with this post huh. whoops #hsmeta #long post #op

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