#As a person who gets really sensitive to noise when I'm stressed

[iamthecomet]

Woke up with a great idea for some Swiss/Dew nipple play. But my turtle has not stopped attempting to escape his tank since I woke up. It has been so many hours of constant scrabbling (and me getting up to give him a look like "hey get your hands off the top of your tank right now stop that") and I am now flirting with actual insanity. This is the reason I will never have children. So, uh, that Swiss/Dew nipple play idea might end up a little more insane than I originally planned. You're welcome.

[theorahsart]

Hi!! So, firstly, I’m absolutely obsessed with your Robespierre comic, when I first learned about him I thought he was autistic, so I’m really glad to see I’m not the only one who has this theory!! Kinda leading on from that, Robespierre obviously had pretty bad health, and towards the end of his life especially, he took a lot of time off of work due to illness- do you think this was an actual physical illness, or a nervous breakdown, or burnout, or some kind of combination of all three?

Aaaah thank you 😭 That's so kind, and I love that I keep finding more and more people that agree with this theory. It's especially cool that some experienced historians also have considered this (such as Saintjustitude here on Tumblr!)

TLDR: I personally think it's a combination of all three- but when it comes to the physical illness thing, I personally think any physical symptoms were born from the other two factors. More detailed thoughts below :3

Autism affects you in such a physical way (or, it always has with me). I'm so over-sensitive to stimuli, that a normal amount of stress that most people get makes me feel physically sick (once when I had a stomach bug I didnt realise until everyone else caught it, cos the symptoms were the same as when I'm getting sensory overload 😅) When its really, really bad, I find it hard to regulate my adrenaline- I get ulcers in mouth, my tummy is out of whack for days. I definately have to isolate myself from others just to try and re-regulate my body, any conversation or noise just sets off my adrenaline again. I speculate on whether a similar impact may have been had with Robespierre.

We do know he had 'sores' on his legs during his last bout of illness. I've gone with the assumption that these sores were hives of some kind- since the only other kind of sores people get are either from an extremely rare immune disorder or from very poor circulation in the legs. I'll assume Robespierre at least didn't have poor leg circulation since he was supposedly walking Brount every afternoon and was known to stick very rigidly to his routines. Hives/welts also suggests extreme stress- or well, this is again the case in my personal experience.

Regards burnout- I think it's safe to say all CPS members present at the same time were probably dealing with burnout, its not normal in any time period to work for so long and only sleep 4 hours tops. They were human after all!! 😭

With Robespierre's inner-feelings, we have some accounts from ppl he knew and Robespierre himself saying he was deeply unhappy and stressed at the time. He became 'unwell' quite a few times after various emotional conflicts over the years in politics, and for situations much less stressful than what he dealt with in 1794. And Im pretty sure I could pull up numerous examples where he 'fixates' on something and will not let it go. So imagine being someone who obsesses over things to the point of acute anxiety, who is then dealing with all the impossible problems of 1794. This combination of factors suggests to me someone who could easily have been prone to a nervous breakdown during that time.

I'm thinking about all this from an autism perspective, but this is probably true of anyone under high stress, so I think you can easily consider this without speculating on Robespierre being autistic. Although he didn't seem to handle situations as well as the other CPS members. You could say this was due to health, I say it was due to autism. But as I said at the beginning, in my experience physical health and autism are connected closely.

I hope that's a satisfying answer!

[nickeverdeen]

Heeyy sweetie <3

I saw you were doing matchups, and i thought that was so fking nice and wanted to try too. I wanted to try with Arcane and Umbrella Academy.

My name's Meli, and I'm pansexual without any preference. I'm an introvert, and most of the time quiet unless I really trust someone. I had some trust issues, so, it does take me a lot to trust someone. I'm creative (or at least that I a been told), the mother like friend, and an overthinker. Most of the times I wear headphones because I have social anxiety and tend to get overwhelmed with loud noises very easily. I am very sarcastic and have a dark sense of humour and I curse a lot in Spanish (that's my first language,) and English. I'm also a people pleaser, and I just put everyone above me not matter what. I'm an observer and a very empathetic person. Most of the times, i match the other person's emotions without noticing, or if I not e they aren't feeling okay, I do try to make them feel better with subtle things (or at least I try to)

I love to write and read. I have many hobbies, like playing guitar, drawing, painting, sewing and cooking, among other stuffs. I mostly read thriller but I end up reading about everything tbh. I LOVE true crime, and that's why I ended up watching everytime I end up in YouTube.

I hate conflict (mostly angry yelling) loud noises (I said that before, but well), and people who just don't care about other people's emotions.

Feel free to not do this and take your time <3 I'm so sorry if any of this doesn't make sense, my English kinda sucks tbh.

PS: I’m absolutely loving the petname for me

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Your Arcane match is…

Viktor

Viktor would appreciate your quiet nature and find comfort in your presence

You’d both enjoy sitting in comfortable silence while working on your respective projects

He’d be fascinated by your creativity, often asking for your input on his inventions or sharing ideas with you, knowing that your perspective would add depth to his work

Viktor would understand your trust issues and never rush you

He’d be patient, allowing you to open up at your own pace, and when you finally do, he’d cherish that trust deeply

He’d find your dark sense of humor refreshing, often joining in with his own dry wit

Your shared sarcasm would create an unspoken bond between you two

Viktor would be very mindful of your social anxiety and sensitivity to loud noises, ensuring that your environment is as calm and quiet as possible when you’re together

Your ability to empathize with others would resonate with Viktor, who often carries the weight of the world on his shoulders

He’d find solace in your understanding and support

As an observer, you’d notice the subtle ways Viktor cares for others, even when he doesn’t say much

You both would enjoy late-night discussions about science, philosophy, and the intricacies of the human mind, often losing track of time in your conversations

Viktor would appreciate the subtle ways you try to make him feel better, like bringing him a cup of tea when he’s stressed or offering a gentle touch when words aren’t enough

Your love for reading and writing would match well with Viktor’s intellectual nature

Viktor isn’t one for grand displays of affection, but he’d show his care for you in small, meaningful ways—like fixing your headphones when they break or leaving you notes in your native language

Viktor would be intrigued by your love for true crime, occasionally joining you in watching documentaries or discussing interesting cases

Viktor would gently encourage you to prioritize your own needs, reminding you that it’s okay to put yourself first sometimes, even if it’s hard for you to do so

He’d be a steady, supportive presence in your life, always there to listen or offer advice when you’re feeling overwhelmed or anxious

Viktor would surprise you with small, handmade gifts that show how much he values your creativity and the unique bond you share

Your The Umbrella Academy match is…

Five Hargreeves

Five would absolutely love your sarcasm and dark humor

The two of you would engage in quick-witted banter that would leave everyone else around you struggling to keep up

Despite his tough exterior, Five would be incredibly protective of you, especially when he realizes how much you put others above yourself

He’d be the first to step in if someone tries to take advantage of your people-pleasing nature

Five would be drawn to your intelligence and creativity, often seeking your opinion on complex matters

Five understands what it’s like to have trust issues, and he’d be patient with you, giving you the time and space you need to feel comfortable around him

Five would appreciate your quiet nature, often just sitting in silence with you, finding peace in the moments where neither of you feels the need to fill the space with words

Your shared dark humor would lead to inside jokes that only the two of you understand, often leaving others puzzled or slightly alarmed by your conversations

Though Five doesn’t always show it, he’s deeply empathetic

He’d notice when you’re matching his emotions and would appreciate your efforts to make him feel better, even if he doesn’t always say it outright

Five would respect your need for personal space and quiet, never pushing you to engage more than you’re comfortable with

He’d also ensure that your time together is never too overwhelming

Five would be intrigued by your love for true crime and thrillers, often joining you in binge-watching documentaries or discussing the psychology behind criminal behavior

Five isn’t big on traditional romance, but he’d show his affection in subtle ways, like making sure you have your favorite snack or fixing something in your house without asking

You both would bond over your love for books, often exchanging recommendations and discussing your favorite plots or character developments

When you’re feeling down, Five would use his sarcasm to lift your spirits, knowing exactly how to make you smile with a well-timed, snarky comment

Five would deeply respect your ability to observe and understand others, recognizing how valuable that skill is, especially in tense situations

Five would be there for you during moments of social anxiety, quietly offering his presence as a grounding force, never making you feel pressured to interact more than you want to

The two of you would have dark comedy nights where you watch the most twisted movies and shows, laughing at the absurdity while enjoying each other’s company

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[shenanigans-and-imagines]

Hi! I'm a big fan of what you've written for Hawkeye and Doc, but I was wondering if you maybe had some ideas on something that Doc and Hawkeye do to eachother that can just really annoy them? Like we're in a high stress situation and you keep doing this thing that is so so so annoying? And how they would make up? If you want to of course.

Things About the Other that Drive Hawkeye and Doc Crazy

M*A*S*H Masterlist

There are a number of both big and small things that can set them off depending on the situation

For the sake of fairness, we'll start with the things about Liz that drive Hawkeye bananas

She hums or sings to herself constantly

Now she can carry a tune, so while not torturous there are times that any noise from anyone will set him off

He swears she does it on purpose

Hogs the hot water; she doesn't even get cold!

Has been known to take Charles' side in an argument on rare occasion

Mouths the words while she reads; she also reads quickly so its just this flurry of motion and small breaths that can get really annoying under the right circumstances

Hawkeye is also a very emotional person, so Liz showing absolutely none at times makes him convinced she's heartless

While time proves that to be untrue there are moments he just wants to grab her by the shoulders and shake her until she emotes

Then there is her stubbornness

Yes, pot calling the kettle black, but when she decides to do something nothing will stop her from doing it even if that thing has a high probability of getting her killed

She's also extremely independent which means she does not ask for help and rarely accepts it when offered

Sometimes he just wants to do something for her and no, it's not because he think she can't or some other mark against her character, he just wants to be there for her

Honestly trying to get her to talk about her emotions or admit something is bothering her is like pulling teeth

Now for the things Hawkeye does that drive Liz crazy

Men have can have an opinion on most anything, Hawkeye manages to have an opinion about everything which he will voice loudly and often

She swears she can't just have an opinion sometimes without him making some comment about it

His inability to let her have the last word on anything

Constantly steals the blankets

Puts things on the highest shelf on purpose

He all but refuses to pick up after himself; she is not his maid

How it always seems to take her telling him same thing three times before it gets through that thick skull of his

Then there is his own stubbornness; she swears he'd rather face a firing squad than admit he was wrong about something

He is extremely sensitive to criticism which she has a low tolerance for considering all the shit she has to put up with every day by just existing as a woman in a man's space

There are also times he steps in to a situation with the idea of "protecting" her when she didn't want or ask for it and is shocked when she's not grateful

How they make up

It depends on how sever the argument gets

If it's about something petty, all it really takes is for one of them to make the other laugh to break the tension

These arguments consist of bickering, passive aggressive comments, using BJ and/or Radar to communicate with each other etc

It only last a day, two at the most and really is just them letting off steam; no true ill will from either party

Honestly all Liz has to do is stand on a bench to reach eye level with him for Hawkeye to crack and the pair of them to kiss as make up

If it's a serious argument it starts with a loud explosion followed by utter silence

Everyone in the 4077th knows it's bad when Liz and Hawkeye aren't talking to each other at all

Both of them hate it, but what else are they supposed to do?

They're two very stubborn people with hard opinions who have a very hard time admitting when they're wrong

Eventually though, they do have to talk about it

Sometimes it takes a third party for them to get there, but they do get there

More than once they've come together and admitted they were wrong at the same time

At the end of the day, despite appearances, they really don't like fighting each other

[light-wynd]

ANOTHER random Melusine info/headcanon dump

Previous one here

Everything under the cut once again!!

Canon random facts

There's a Melusine (called Manaia) in Natlan, and you can find her at the hot springs talking to a Koholasaur! She says Neuvillette told her to wait for the hot spring water to cool down before drinking it, even though she has no interest in tasting it at all. So I guess Neuvi is projecting his hobbies onto them lol.

According to one of Sigewinne's character stories, back when Melusines were hated by humans when they first tried to integrate into society, many of them - understandably - went back underwater due to how badly they were treated. We don't know whether all of these Melusines are still in the village or if they've tried again since, or if they even still remember what happened back then.

A lot of them tend to be named after fairies and other similar mythological or fairytale creatures/characters from around the world.

They might be known for their special eyesight in particular, but pretty much all their other senses seem to be different - and usually more sensitive - than those of humans too. For example, they can walk on slippery surfaces without any problems, and can hear subtle sounds that humans can't (such as Cosanzeana being able to hear noises made by Naku Weeds even when they're barely moving).

The descriptions for the Merusea Village teapot furnishings have some interesting tidbits - for example, one type of their houses is built in a way that amplifies sounds made inside, and if any Melusines in the village are too noisy, they get shut inside one of said houses for some time to talk to themselves all they want.

Melusine ergonomics need further study to this day, which is apparently why they still don't have specialized furniture made for them in the Court of Fontaine. Another reason is that actually developing said furniture would be expensive. Still, come on man, it's been 400 years, let them have some comfy chairs and stuff already :c

They make all kinds of bubbly/squishy noises pretty much whenever they move (even outside of water!). Thought this deserved to be pointed out just in case anyone hasn't noticed them in the game because it's the cutest thing ever.

Elynas, in his parting words to Mamere, refers to all the other Melusines as her sisters, and Serene refers to herself as "everyone's big sister" rather than the village head. Some other Melusines in the village refer to each other as sisters as well - though from what I've noticed, it just tends to be ones that look really similar to each other, such as Flo&Rufina&Virda or Sluasi&Puca. However, none of the ones living in the Court of Fontaine seem to refer to each other as sisters at all, just as colleagues (though Aeval does also say that Serene is like a big sister to them all, but not that she is her eldest sister). There seem to be like, different levels of separation between them (for lack of a better word) despite them all being born from Elynas, and I just find that really interesting.

Apparently, Aeval has never gotten the chance to personally speak to Neuvillette.

Aside from the fact that they came from Elynas, they don't seem to be very aware of anything else about their origins. They all seem to know different legends about themselves and Elynas, but not the actual story of them being a result of an explosion during a battle.

Melusine dolls exist in Fontaine and i wish they existed irl too - specifically, they're Marechaussee Phantom Melusine dolls, commonly given to children who are afraid of the dark.

Headcanons

Sigewinne can assess the health of her fellow Melusines just like she can do with humans, and pays very close attention to them whenever they visit her for tea. She tends to observe the ones that are prone to stress or overworking particularly closely, and does her best to help them relax.

From (probably reading too much into) her dialogue, I'm pretty convinced that Menthe is relatively new to the human world compared to some of the others. For one, she's only now seeming to realize a bunch of difficulties that come with living in the city. But what really made me feel this way is that when she asks if it's too late for her to change jobs, you get a one-time dialogue option to say "it's never too late to start" - to which she responds "Whoa, spoken just like Monsieur Neuvillette". My personal theory is that she might've gotten that response from Neuvi by asking him if it was too late for her to try living in human society, and of course he wanted to encourage her. There are Melusines in the village to this day who want to work in the city in the future, so it's certainly not impossible.

They generally like to sleep curled up in small, cozy places the most. Sleeping on their backs can be uncomfortable for a lot of them because of their tails (and wings for those that have them) being squished under them.

Some Melusines are actually quite happy to let humans pet them if they're asked first. They tend to like being stroked on the top of their heads and scratched behind their feelers and on their chins the most. Additionally, pretty much all Melusines love to be petted by Neuvillette and consider it an honor.

If you're reading this and have any Melusine headcanons yourself, please do feel free to share!!

[aceofbooks-creative-anthologies]

I feel like highlighting two relationships from the #hyoumace-verse:

Kunigami:

Kunigami does have a slight crush on me the couple of times we meet in the first round of Bluelock. But he knows that there's something going on with me and Chigiri, so he doesn't bother pursuing it. Other than to get my number before anyone else on Team Z, just because he can.

The nice thing about my extended Bluelock timeline is that I get to work with the guys for about two years and develop those relationships and kind of counteract some of Ego's ego building. So they are a touch more normal, at least off the pitch.

The bad thing is that Kunigami ends up in the Wild Card program for longer. I think he doesn't show up until after I've been at Bluelock for a week (so after the OG U-20 team loses the World Cup), just getting settled in.

And I had been sad about losing someone I considered a friend, especially since I was shutting Chigiri out. Even more so because he "left" Bluelock months ago and had never reached out while we were both outside.

So I'm very excited when Ego tells me that Kunigami is coming back. Someone I can have a normal conversation with! Sure there's Bachira, but it takes so much mental energy to keep up with him (I am fresh out of the hospital mind you), and there's Nagi who uses "training" with me as an excuse to escape Reo (the actual friendship with Nagi comes later) and play video games, and finally Barou who is suffocating me with protective older brother energy. Kunigami is just a normal ass, decent dude.

But he's not. He's cold and rude, openly hostile at times. I'm ignoring Isagi for his own benefit (and pettiness), but Kunigami is ignoring him just because he can. The only way that I can give him critique is through Noel Noa, because he tries to intimidate me otherwise, making me feel smaller simply through stature (he only has four inches on me!). I am ~sensitive~ to put it lightly at this time, and having a friend turn on me like that is too much. I can handle the intimidation and the rudeness from the others (especially Oliver, who I'll get to), but not Kunigami.

At some point (after Raichi's birthday party probably? It was the first that Noa was able to talk him into attending) he does soften a little bit—just for me. I can talk to him without him trying to intimidate me—he still won't talk to me outside of noises of affirmation or rejection or disinterest, but it's something. And he gave me an inch, so I take a mile.

I get my therapist to convince Ego that I need to be reducing stress at work, which includes reducing the anxiety that I get from interacting with a few of my more difficult players. Kunigami is the biggest source of anxiety, so he's first in line.

Mandated talk therapy, once a week, with him in attendance. He won't talk at first, so my therapist and I just continue our sessions like normal, but with him as an audience. I think it takes until December when I'm starting to make plans for Bluelock for Christmas and the New Year and trying to still make birthday parties special in their own way, for something to just click for Kunigami.

And he offers to help. He still doesn't really talk. But he helps me make decisions, and is very helpful on the labor front. There's a light behind his eyes now, and while it's dim, I'm hopeful.

After the holidays, he starts talking more. And by the time his birthday rolls around, I finally earn myself a smile.

I can't fix how he is on the pitch, but he keeps going to therapy with me (that particular session now more for him than it is for me) and he's able to start having friends again. He's almost normal (as long as he's off the pitch) by the time the next World Cup rolls around.

Oliver:

Here's the thing about Oliver. I (IRL Ace) understand Oliver's approach to soccer. I was never fast enough, talented enough, to be on offense in team sports. So my options were often be benched or be on defense. And I have made defense my whole personality. I don't want to win necessarily at sports or card games or whatever. I want to make sure that my opponent doesn't win. I have injured myself protecting the jail in the Capture the Flag; a lot of my decks in Magic: The Gathering are based on me sacrificing life or creatures in exchange for making my opponent's game harder; I am not good at Catan, but I am very good at putting myself in the way and keeping you from expanding. I can't throw a ball for crap in Dodgeball, but I will make myself a target and dodge your throw, successfully, every time.

I can keep giving examples, but that's not my point. My point is that I understand him. Which makes our relationship in #hyoumace very different from how most people depict him.

I don't think I have to prove myself to him. I think he has a certain level of respect for me from the outset, not because I'm a coach or an Olympian (though the latter doesn't hurt), but because of how many members of the Bluelock Eleven specifically like me. Isagi is shoving people out of the way for an ounce of attention. Bachira hangs off my every word and jumps at the opportunity to follow an order. Nagi puts his phone down when I speak. Jyubei specifically is singing my praises (apparently he had been keeping up with my running career??) because he's been using my (my coach's) techniques for years. Oliver is confused about Chigiri until he overhears Bachira talking to Barou about it. Despite being a goalie, Gagamaru is very quick to pick up and adopt every suggestion I have for him and isn't afraid to approach me when he has questions or concerns.

Over half the team is on my side from the day I arrive, and the others aren't far behind. Even Rin comes around after only two weeks of exclusive endurance training. He holds the Bluelock players in high regard after the U-20 match, and if they approve of me so thoroughly, why shouldn't he?

That isn't to say that he doesn't try to push buttons. He does try flirting with me on a number of occasions, mainly hoping to get a rise out of Chigiri or Barou (for different reasons), but once I put my foot down (no flirting on the pitch), he does back off. He figures out that flattery does gain him some benefit (mainly me being willing to entertain his feedback about training as an equal), and so he makes sure that his "flirting" is more genuine than he might normally employ with other women. He does try to fight me on certain training decisions early on, particularly in regard to his team. But I recognize it as less of a power play and more of a concern for his guys, so I don't fight back. I stand my ground, and we manage to come to some compromises. I eventually turn to him more and more frequently about the training for the OG U-20s and the Ubers.

About a month in, he's one of the first ones to get between me and Kunigami when Kunigami tries to intimidate me, and does so consistently. About six months in, he stands up for me against Chris Prince because we were having a ~disagreement~ about the current training regiment for Manshine (no one on Manshine was willing to take that step forward against their coach, and the Ubers had been coming onto the pitch for a practice match when they heard the shouting). A year in, he's actually the one to take the initiative and plan my birthday party (he gets a lot of advice from Chigiri/Barou/Bachira, but none of them were confident about the actual party planning).

Very early on (like the first week I'm there), I have to have a ~conversation~ with Ego about my evaluation of the players (his expectations are far too high for where they are) and I actually take Oliver with me as back up. Not because we have any kind of relationship at that point, but because I know he's still kind of raw from the World Cup loss, and he's looking for someone to blame (he blames Ego for not getting his teammates up to snuff in the time they had, and he blames the U-20 organizers for putting the OG team on the pitch) so if I'm advocating for his teammates (which I am), he'll back me up 👍And I think it's that advocacy, knowing that I see the OG U-20 as equally valuable as the BLs, that I won't treat them any different just because I'm a BL coach, that really secures his respect for me.

I wouldn't call Oliver a friend, per se, and I don't think he would call me a friend either, but we do hold a lot of respect for each other, and we eventually work well enough together, have enough of an understanding of each other, that we're often on the same train of thought about training that we don't need to exchange actual words about it. At the next World Cup, he's keeping an eye on the players' endurance as much as I am, and he's nudging them to the sidelines just as I'm going to Ego to pull them off the pitch. I do have to pull him off the pitch at one point in the second half, but he doesn't fight me on it like the other players (cough Shidou cough) (most of them actually fight Anri about it because they know better than to fight me or Ego about it because we'll just bench them for the rest of the game). He grabs a towel and some water and closely watches the field until I give him the 'okay' to go back out.

[aurerue3]

Hi! I'd like to request for a romantic genshin matchup please. ^^

Male or female character: Both is good!

MBTI: INFP Enneagram: 4w5 sp/sx Zodiac big 6: Cancer sun and moon, Pisces rising, Cancer mercury, Gemini venus, Leo mars

Personality: Introspective and rational, terrified of conflict. I daydream a lot and tend to space out when I’m not talking to someone. I’m a true introvert, but I love to talk to certain people and about things I find interesting, like my fixations or a fun hypothetical situation. I observe people more than I want to interact with them. I'm also good at reading people (to the point where my brother thinks I can read people's minds). Purple represents me best as a colour.

I value my authenticity, creativity and emotional intelligence (I can’t say I’m really empathetic, but I listen to people when they need me to and I try to be there for them). But I am quite sensitive and emotional. I tend to remember events in which I was hurt easily. My friend would describe me as a jaded Disney princess because I daydream a lot and used to be idealistic as a kid but now I'm more of a realist/pessimist. They also say that I can be blunt most of the time.

I was raised by parents who are both thinkers, so I find that I tend to think quite logically (when I'm not stressed) compared to my feeler friends. When interacting with my feeler friends, I can feel a stark difference in the way we think, haha. Not easily influenced by what's considered the norm (I don't like conformity much) and by extension social media. Fun fact: I wasn't going to download Instagram ever but the college I'm at forced me to.

Also, according to this personality classification system, I am a mint (I agree, even the sadistic part). https://2-lines-and-a-circle.tumblr.com/post/692988945418633216/in-depth-description-on-flavors-mint

Likes: POETRY (I follow the web weave tag here and my favourite poet might just be Richard Siken), tofu (my favourite food), chocolate, books (the genres I tend to read are thrillers, fantasy or sci-fi), anime (mostly shounen, but I've watched some movies as well), manga, analyzing characters with many layers to them, personality typology (the closest thing I've had to a hyperfixation. my all-time favourite is enneagram, but I’ve had astrology and MBTI phases), action or comedy movies, visiting cafes, looking at sunrises and sunsets, watching storms (LIGHTNING), crochet flowers and plushies (I don’t crochet, I just buy them), phone charms, the colour purple, window shopping, video essays (marketing - celebrities, not companies, somewhat deep topics like love and philosophy, literature and film analysis - especially themes of horror movies, despite me being too chicken to actually watch the moves)

Dislikes: Exercising, studying for subjects I'm not interested in, being forced to interact with people, having a sudden change in plans that I don't like, many foods like anything spicy or really bitter (I am a very picky eater), bugs (beetles, bees, spiders. I don’t kill them and are fine with them as long as they’re a distance away from me. I get scared when they move about tho), noisy environments, construction noises, small talk (I actually don’t mind talking to people, I just need them to talk about something interesting or at least something they’re passionate about)

Hobbies: Reading, looking for fanfiction with amazing writing styles (descriptions, vibes, the closer it reads like poetry, the better), writing (fanfiction for now, but I plan to become a professional writer in the future e.g. movies, tv shows, manga), listening to music, psychoanalyzing people, analyzing fictional characters, watching horror movie summaries and anime/movie reaction videos

Traits I like in someone: Intelligence, common sense, the ability to listen, someone passionate about their interests. I've noticed that my two closest friends are passive and non-confrontational, try not to get upset easily, and sometimes indecisive (ex: choosing what drink to get, I make decisions for them when they can't). So I would say I tend to get along with people who are enneagram 9s, though I wouldn't say I would necessarily like their traits in other people.

Traits I dislike in someone: Recklessness, lack of common sense, lack of maturity (when they're old enough to be a teenager/adult), self-deprecation/too pessimistic that it starts to drain me.

Thank you for your hard work!

Helloo sorry for taking so long! I hope you like it 🫶 thank you for the ask 🌼

I match you with…

Zhongli 🔶

⭐️ You and Zhongli have something in common and it's your ability to think rationally and creatively. Zhongli is good at observing your emotional thoughts and because he has an emotionally mature mindset he can help you especially when it comes to conflict. He will slowly guide you through the process, keeping you at ease as much as he can. Since he’s been an archon for a long time, he is very experienced in reading people so he will be able to understand you especially when it comes to your difficulties. Both of you together will help diffuse a lot of situations in a peaceful manner. Zhongli experienced a lot throughout his life so he has the tendency to be deep in thought over his past memories. He wouldn’t mind you being spaced out and loves your company whether you talk to him or not. Having a conversation with Zhongli will take a long while to end and once he starts talking he will be fixed into whatever topic one of you had in mind. (He also loves long talks with you because he gets to know about your interests while sharing his-)

⭐️ Zhongli will always be genuine and sincere with you and he isn’t the type to be pretentious so when he wants to spend time or share his feelings with you he genuinely means it. He loves having someone who is blunt about their thoughts because he knows that you care for him as much as he does to you. Being the Geo archon, he has a rich mind so he knows how to use his creativity to make his experiences as original ideas for different kinds of art (and to creatively make excuses to why he doesn’t carry mora like the other folk-). He has matured more and more throughout his life and because of that he can recognize different emotions. He is great at giving advice and will find ways to help others through their problems. Zhongli appreciates you having ideals and has a habit of being deep in thought or daydreaming about his past memories with his old friends and the future of Liyue. He understands having a realistic and/or pessimistic perspective especially with the future and he is willing to listen to you and offer advice. 

⭐️ Zhongli is curious about the way you think (it makes a great conversation for him-). He likes hearing your thoughts especially when they aren’t based on norms. He finds it refreshing to hear different opinions rather than the same one over and over again. He loves spending time with you so if he’s not busy he’d love to spend spare time drinking tea or taking a stroll in the harbor. Whenever you playfully banter with him he will tease you back nonchalantly (but sometimes it's hard to tell whether he’s joking or not-)

⭐️ Zhongli appreciates different forms of art. He'd love to hear about what you're writing and know about your favorite genre for books and music (so he can find some as gifts-). He’d love to walk around and buy trinkets while you two chat about what’s been going on in your lives. He’d let you try Liyue’s cuisine (and hope he brought mora-) especially the tofu dishes like almond tofu, chicken tofu pudding, and crab roe tofu. Zhongli would love to hear your thoughts about character analysis, personality typology, and video essays (like before, it makes a great conversation topic). Since Zhongli loves to spend his time drinking tea and listening to stories he’d love to visit cafes and try different dishes with you and check out different shops afterwards. (Bonus if you two are outside with a beautiful view of the sunset or if you’re indoors the ambience from the rain makes a relaxing mood while the two of you read the books he bought) 

⭐️ He puts a lot of thought into your quality time with him by making plans beforehand and having interesting conversation topics. If you prefer not to walk he wouldn’t mind sitting down with you while having a chat. He prefers quiet and peaceful places most of the time to help him clear his thoughts (and so he doesn’t have to struggle with construction noises whenever he wants to chat-). If ever you two end up eating at a restaurant or Wangshu Inn he’ll suggest you dishes that aren’t spicy and/or bitter. 

⭐️ Zhongli is an emotionally mature person, who’s been through a lot in his lifetime and because of his rich mind he has a wide variety of topics you two can be immersed in. Zhongli is a great listener and is able to diffuse conflicts (like Xianyun vs. that one NPC in her character quest-) while also giving you great advice whenever you need it. He is considerate to put a lot of thought into your preferences and will always remember them. To him, you will be one of his most precious memories he will treasure like how he cherishes his friends. 

Honorable mentions: Gaming, Thoma

I also match you with… 

Lisa 🌹

⭐️ Lisa is good at analyzing situations when it comes to her work and she makes a conscious choice to use her time wisely (so she can have more break time-). She totally makes excuses to take more breaks so she can spend time with you (or you would walk around with her while she’s handling work outside the office-). Lisa knows how to handle conflict especially with people (or other abyss mages-) who forgot or refuse to return their books to the library so you’ll be fine (but the people who are causing a ruckus wouldn’t-). Being a people observer, she’ll likely ask you about her patrons especially when it comes to how they handled being confronted about the books they borrowed. She likes it when you doze off during your breaks because she knows you’re probably as tired as she is but she will bring something up if it's important or if she wants small talk. She’s interested to hear more about yourself and loves hearing your fixations because she gets to relax while listening to you chat, one of her best ways to spend her leisure time. 

⭐️ Lisa knows how to be creative in terms of work and using her time (definitely looking for reasons to excuse herself for a cup of tea-). While Lisa tends to tease she will always be genuine when it comes to her feelings about you and she takes her relationship with you seriously. Because she’s been studying in the Akademiya she has sufficient skill in creative thinking (especially with the work she has-) so if you’re caught in an argument she finds ways to help you get out of it (good thing she's on your side anyone trying to pick on you is probably getting an earful and then some-). 

⭐️ Like Zhongli, Lisa likes a chat while having her tea and she’d be open to hear about your thoughts especially with what bothers you. She likes learning about your perspective and she finds it refreshing to hear your honest opinions on topics you two could be talking about. Lisa loves to tease you and call you cute pet names to see your reaction and she loves to banter with you (she makes sure not to go too far-). Lisa knows that you’re teasing her but in case things get out of hand she’ll tone it down a little and make it up to you (a dinner date or spending the day off with you-). 

⭐️ Considering Lisa came from the Akademiya, she’s been used to dealing with paperworks and reading a lot of materials. She’d be interested to read something not related to her work and finds your writing entertaining for her to read when she has spare time. Since she works as a librarian she’d be entertained to read what you write and she’d also give you book recommendations if you’re looking for a specific genre. If asked she’d love to give you feedback and suggestions on what you write. She’d be interested in analyzing videos and essays with you because she gets a chance to hear your thoughts about them and sharing her own afterwards. If you’re in a mood to go outside you two would have a lot of cafe dates, trying out different dishes and visiting shops to buy each other gifts (like her quest in the game-). 

⭐️ After seeing scholars and sages grow obsessive over knowledge she knew that she needed to leave Sumeru, preferring to live a life in Mondstadt. She has lots of intelligence especially after the work she went through before she became the librarian and the Captain of the 8th Company. She can manage her own emotions while also helping with yours especially when you’re frazzled over anything. The last thing she wants is you slowly growing mad over your work and she will urge you to make time for leisure. It's one of her ways of looking out for you. She is willing to make time to listen to your concerns and helps you feel better. 

⭐️ Lisa is a mature and intelligent person, who’s witnessed a lot throughout her life. She has intelligence not only from what the Akademiya taught her but also knows how to keep herself composed. She loves the quality time you two share during her leisure and she loves having long talks with you while having a cup of tea. Lisa loves to show her affection in different ways by teasing you, giving you cute nicknames, and helping you through your problems. Lisa wants to spend time with you as much as possible until the end of time.  

Honorable mentions: Navia, Kokomi 

[clangen-dadm]

I got permission to post asks about potential treatments for Warriors disabilities & disorders for those who want to write about them, this one's about autism (referred to as starwalker in-game, but I'll be using the name autism)

IMPORTANT DISCLAIMERS:

- Do not use the herb-related FICTIONAL treatments IRL AT ALL!! I am not a medical professional or vet. If you believe someone needs help, get them real help!

- I obviously cannot speak for everyone with any disorder, so take everything with a healthy pinch of salt because not everyone will agree with me. If you're one of those people, I am absolutely open to civil conversation and constructive criticism ^^

What is autism?:

Autism, aka Autism Spectrum Disorder (ASD), is a neurodevelopmental disorder that is characterized by many symptoms including (but not limited to): difficulties with communication and socialization, repetitive behaviors, sensory sensitivities, and difficulties with executive functioning.

Important things to note from this description:

- Autism being referred to as a spectrum means no one person experiences anything the same, so symptoms vary a LOT. Imagine a circle--every autistic person falls somewhere on that circle. Just as symptoms vary, some may not need very much support in their day-to-day life, while others might need lots of regular accommodations. This does not mean anyone is "more" or "less" autistic than anyone else.

- Neurodevelopmental means all autistic people are BORN autistic and will ALWAYS be autistic. Nobody's entirely certain where autism originates from, as it's actually a relatively new diagnosis, but we do know that it is not something that can be prevented or cured.

- Executive functioning is tied to a lot of things--emotional control, flexible thinking, impulse control, self-monitoring, working memory, organization, task initiation, and planning and prioritizing.

I'll admit, I'm writing this late at night and a majority of what I've been planning on saying is already covered here: https://allwritealright.com/how-to-write-an-autistic-character/#Make_Your_Autistic_Character_an_Individual (Excellent post, definitely check it out!), so I don't feel a need to say too much more, but there are s few more things I wanted to discuss.

How would Warriors treat autism?:

Honestly, I don't have any herbal remedies for this (and frankly I don't think they'd be very useful or appropriate anyways), but there are plenty of ways to accommodate for autistic kitties in your Clans!

When a cat is having a meltdown:

1) Stay calm! They don't need more stress right now.

2) Remove any potential triggers.

3) Distract them (encourage them to use calming strategies and offer something else for them to focus on)

4) Give them time and space to recover.

To treat sensory sensitivities in a cat, first identify triggers. If they're triggered by loud noises, try to keep them in a quiet area. They could wear little mossy/feathery earmuffs to help when things are noisy! If they're triggered by touch, make sure everyone knows to ask before touching them (which should be pretty basic manners anyhow). If they're triggered by smell or taste, keep those specific smell/taste triggers away from them. You get the point :)

To help a cat who is resistant to change through a change, try reinforcing everything else being similar except for one thing so that they can ease into a new routine instead of being shoved into it.

For nonverbal characters, communication cards, while limited, are one option left unmentioned in the blog I linked that can be quite helpful, as well! Simple things like common emotions and phrases are a good idea for these cards :)

Ough I really wanted to write more but I can't think of anything else that wasn't covered in that blog post unfortunately :( but if anyone has any questions I'll be lurking around the blog now and then, and I'm sure the actual mods of this blog can help too!!

this is really cool!! thank you :)

To piggyback off this, personally one thing I’d like to see more of in autism rep is characters with negative stims or tics! When overwhelmed, I have really bad negative stims (hitting myself, biting myself, etc), which can make things even worse, but a good therapist and support group can help your character through! In real life this may translate to hitting a plushie or biting an orange peel, but I’d love to see creative ways warriors could come up with instead- maybe they could bite into a preserved pelt or extra prey! In the game we have some stim toys they can get from two legs, but I’m sure warriors could also come up with some creative ideas!

I also appreciate it when other characters help autistic characters work through their sentences without teasing them. I have a moderately annoying stutter and struggle to find my words, especially when my emotions are running high. The best people in my life will patiently wait for me to get it out instead of pressuring me or making fun of it. I’d love to see a community of cats around the autistic character!

I’m sure Song has more ideas as well, unfortunately I’m the only West Coast mod XD ! I’ll ask them in the morning

[inwintersolitude]

- May 27th 2025 -

This time last year, what was happening in your life? I was depressed, because we had just lost Apollo to an inoperable tumor, and it all happened very suddenly. I was also feeling overwhelmed by our recent move and getting everything unpacked, to the point where I kind of gave up on it for a while (because of feeling depressed).

Did you/will you have coffee or some other form of caffeine today? Yep, I had a cup of Irish breakfast tea.

Who did you last have a text conversation with and what was it about? My husband, but we were just sending some kissy face emojis back and forth lol. He only had an hour between flights and had to do his preflight soon so he barely had any time to text.

Are there regular trains in and out of your town/city? There's a small single-track freight line. This town doesn't have passenger rail service. It would be cool if it did, though, because I love traveling via train.

Do you bathe your pets regularly? I put a shallow dish of water in her cage about once a week. Sometimes she ignores it, but other times she goes nuts for it.

Do you have a mailbox or do you collect your mail from the post office? I have a mailbox.

What was the last animal you saw, and was it a pet? I can see my bird right now.

Have you ever had an ear infection? No.

If you could watch any TV series right now, what would it be? Lately I've been wanting to do a re-watch of The X-Files.

Would you have any clue when your best friend last got their hair cut? My husband is my best friend, and I've been doing his hair cuts for like 13 years now. I last cut it about 3 weeks ago.

Someone messages you just as you’re about to go to sleep. Do you reply? Only if it's my husband.

Do you grind your teeth, and if so, why do you do it? Yep. I started doing it in my sleep in 2016, probably because of severe work stress, but I've also read a few studies that found that acoustic trauma (which I had recently been subjected to) can irritate the cranial nerves and cause TMJ issues. I'd had TMJ disorder since I was around 18 but it was only ever occasional jaw popping. It wasn't til the acoustic shock injury and work stress that my TMJ got way worse to the point where I was grinding my teeth in my sleep and waking up with jaw pain and dislocated discs. And that teeth grinding never went away even after I quit the stressful job. It's 9 years later and I still do it, and I have to wear a custom made jaw splint.

Have you ever been hospitalized due to dehydration? Nope.

Is there anything you need to remember to do before the day ends? I need to bring a package inside before it starts raining.

When you listen to music with headphones, do you keep the volume low enough to hear surrounding noise faintly, or do you blast it? I don't use headphones anymore because of my hyperacusis. I'm extremely noise-sensitive ever since the acoustic shock injury, and if I were to accidentally bump the volume-up button on my phone while using headphones, it would cause horrible ear pain and it would make my tinnitus flare up.

What’s your favorite online radio site? I don't use any.

Do your parents have any authority over who you date? LMAO no I'm married and in my mid-30s.

How many different shades of nail polish do you have? I don't own any.

What did you have for breakfast this morning? Frosted Mini Wheats.

Are you lucky enough to have an ice maker in your refrigerator door? Yep.

Are you the type to wake up before the sun has even risen? No, not at all. I am very much a night owl.

Have you ever watched an anime series, start to finish? Nope.

Do you feel the need to rant about anything right now? If so, go for it. Nah.

Do you have a favorite towel? What color is it? No.

Have you seen any films with Judy Garland in them? Just The Wizard of Oz.

How did you feel when you woke up today? Why? I felt really tired still, but I'm not sure why, because I got over 7.5 hours of sleep. I'm just not good at waking up.

Who was the last person you messaged on Facebook? I don’t remember. I haven't messaged anyone on there since like 2011 or 2012.

When was the last time you saw them? -

Do you have a friend named Nick? What’s his favourite food? Nope.

What are you listening to? Nothing.

What year are you/did you graduate? High school, 2008. College, 2012.

Are you obsessed with anything? Not completely. I have passions, but not full-on obsessions.

Do you prefer waffles or pancakes? I like them both about the same.

Do you prefer non-diet or diet soda? I'm not a big fan of soda to begin with.

Do you like seafood? I like a few kinds.

Are you craving anything right now? No, not really.

Do you dress appropriately for your age? Sure.

If McDonald’s sold hot dogs, would you buy them? No way haha.

How long is your hair? Collarbone-length.

Do you like your neighbors? Yes, they're all very nice.

What’s your school motto? -

Has a bird ever flown into your window? Yes.

Which word did you say first, mama or dada? Dada.

How old were you when you learned to walk? I don't know. Whatever the typical age is for babies learning to walk?

What was your first pet’s name? Scamper.

How many kids were in your class in kindergarten? Probably around 20 kids.

Who was your best friend in elementary? Cristie or Lauren.

Who was the best athlete in your freshman class? I have no idea.

What teacher did all the high school boys/girls have a crush on? I don't know.

Where do you see yourself in a year? Still here.

If you were able to change one thing about yourself, what would it be? I wouldn't have ADHD. It makes life so much more difficult than it should be.

Are you content just blending in with the crowd? Sure.

[azalea-romanoff]

HAPPY AUTISM AWARENESS DAY!

First: happy autism awareness day to all my mun/mods with autism or who have characters with autism. (in my case, it's both!)

So in honour of Autism Awareness Day and month, I'd like to tell you all about my levels of autism <3

Tics and Fidgets: I'm on the spectrum such that I have a lot of tics and fidgets. Usually it's the repititions which feel nice, and it can often annoy others. I have a tendency to: click my tongue, snap my fingers, flap my hands, rock back and forth, and i make popping sounds. the more subtle tics are pulling my hair, picking my fingernails.

Poor Eye contact: Poor eye contact with me is only with people i don't know or during stressful situations. like if i'm in a meeting with Nick Fury, i'll be fine. but if i'm greeting new agents? hell no. (//ooc: i can talk to my class teacher just fine, but with maybe the delivery man, a cashier, i can't look them in the eyes.).

Abnormal Posture: ...as an agent, this is a huge no-no. the only reason i got the job is because my abnormal posture is literally me just keeping my fists clenched at all times, and keeping my left foot a bit more in front of the other. a tense fighting stance if you will. Convenient!

Anxiety: Shockingly, it's low! I only get anxious in places which are too loud or too far from home. loud places make me really anxious because it means i have too many thoughts in my head and too many things to process at a time. and being deaf, too, with hearing aids, it makes it 100x tougher. Sorry, but Azalea Romanoff-Maximoff isn't the girl you take to a party or a club.

Social Difficulty: I have moderately high social difficulty. as in, i have trouble communicating my thoughts when in big groups, and making friends is a bit...daunting as a task. And sometimes i miss on non-verbal cues like sarcasm, subtle joking, even a few metaphors here and there. So iF YOU NEED A SPECIFIC BIRTHDAY GIFT, TELL ME TO MY FACE. DON'T HINT IT-? I WILL LITERALLY NOT GET YOUR POINT.

Noise Sensitivity: ...have you met me? i am VERY sensitive to noise. Vacuum cleaners, power drills, gunshot sounds (//ooc: movies, especially), someone typing loudly on their laptop, so many of these day-to-day sounds drive me to a meltdown sometimes because it's just so annoying.

Abnormal/Flat Speech: Nope. Most people can tell how i'm feeling by my voice, except in situations where i'm confused on how to react. like if someone says they're pregnant, i'll just say 'oh, nice.' like, are you happy or sad or like-? eH???

Fixations: I have plenty. But my biggest ones? Top Three: Animals, History, Space. iF i get bored, i will literally talk about this for hours, and dare you show even an iota of interest in the same, my friend you're gonna be there a WHILE.

Depression: only on sensory overload days, or on days where i randomly get sad. a result of the anxiety, honestly. i think wayyyyy too many 'what if' scenarios.

Aggression: And finally, I'm not a very aggressive person. Only if i'm very overstimulated, if i'm not being heard, or if i'm just having a bad day in general, i might break a pencil or two. maybe throw a few books down a shelf.

BONUS: soooo i hate the colour yellow or anything that is yellow. like, i haven't ever touched a banana. my favourite colour is red, and my favourite animal is the panda. i hate the feeling of shag carpets and i don't like the feeling of nylon on skin. i don't like the scratchiness of yarn and i don't like the sound of chalk on a chalkboard. i do like the hum of an air conditioner though, and looking outside a window helps calm me down.

SO that's all about my autism! I hope i made you all aware! Reach out to any fellow autistic people you may know, and do find out about their fixations, if they're non-verbal or verbal. accept them for who they are, don't try and fix them.

autism isn't a disease. our minds are just wired differently. if you can figure out how a complex video game works within 24 hours, how hard can a person be?

🤟 love you all!

bellow is my autism spectrum evaluation results (mod's) for people who are close to me, like @moongirlwidow @wandabug @supermilkshakebanana @nevaeh-daughterofvalcarol @capt-carter-mostly-official @esmerxyaugusta and @pietro-maximoff-official <3

[crueclown22]

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yk ive been thinking about it way too much lately but. I really don't know what to do with my relationship with my sister

I love her in a way. I do care if anything bad happens to her, I do support her, but god, it's just hard to most of the time. this is probably gonna sound really selfish but

whenever I think fo her all I can think of is what she did. all the abuse from her, all the screaming. all the threats and stress and just everything. so when we have those moment of being siblings, just laughing or joking with each other, it's just weird. unsettling in a way. because yeah, she IS a person underneath what she did. but I cannot let go of what she did and idk if I ever will

I love her, but I dread her getting home or not working that day because she might snap at any moment. I love her, but I don't feel safe and I haven't since I was like 6-7 because of her. I love her, but I haven't ever actually felt at ease and not like I've had to be a protector or therapist. I don't remember a time where I actually wasn't, even at like 7. I love her, but I can’t handle even the slightest tone change/harshness or else I’ll shut myself off completely no matter what.

I can't enjoy things because of her, because I'll do it and realize she likes it or does it, and because of that, it makes me a horrible abusive pos too, right? I can't actually be completely open about my mental health because all I'll get compared to is her. Literally. First thing my parents said when they found out I sh'ed years ago? "she did that too." okay. fine. whatever. make me feel worse.

and on top of that, I can't cry because of her. something my body does naturally in order to relieve all the stress I need to, I cant. Because all I hear when I cry is that I'm too sensitive and I'm being a baby and suddenly she's hitting my mom again. I can't started that again, I can't have my eating shit come back, so what am I supposed to do? I have no control over anything. I don’t get taken seriously.

It's not until I actually think about it that I realize, oh. things really aren’t supposed to be like this. like me and my mom casually mentioning I had a breakdown in the kitchen and hurt my hand purposefully because of it. we were fine (well not my mom. but guess what she does. not ask why’d you do that. she scolds me for it. okay ig.) and she was like, “yeah, that’s NOT normal” concerned. like worried.

idk. even when I type it out or tell others about it, all I think is that I’m trying to be special or ‘quirky’! that I’m doing it all for attention! then I actually think about it and realize, ‘oh. people who are doing it for attention don’t freak out at the number 3, don’t have to count literally every second of the day to the number 4, or else something horrible will happen, don’t have to fight thoughts every second of the day, can actually handle noises, actually feel safe in their own house, don’t dread waking up every day for the sole reason of if she’s going to start up again. they don’t have paranoia to the point where they can’t move and can’t breathe in the smallest every day things, they don’t stare at the corner of their room because god something is there, something is THERE. they don’t feel hopeless in everyday life and are actually able to focus and remember things and and and’

idk. and it feel stupid because I know I’m not rational. I know I need to break the generational thing of not getting help for mental health. but god it’s so fucking hard when every day of your life you’re getting told that this IS normal. that having those thoughts are normal, that having that type of relationship with food is normal. but then again being judged for literally everything (that’s a whole OTHER thing my mom does. I like a food, she hates it because she’s horribly picky and cannot eat most foods. I like a food, she says it’s gross, makes faces, gags etc. like okay I get that you don’t like the food. but now I don’t want it ever again. now I hate it, now I know i SHOULDN’T like it and that I’m weird and a horrible person that needs to be taken out back and have everyone relieved of my existence. no matter what I do it’s always that.)

idk. i didn’t mean to get myself riled up over it haha

[buntismz]

WOAH, you're also level 2??? i'm not professionally diagnosed with a level myself (i was diagnosed at 11 at around 2007, way before levels were established, with autism, pddnos, and "asperger's disorder" at various times), and i believe my level of social and repetitive behavior disability would qualify as level 2 (with my verbal and communicative sharing qualifying potentially for level 3 in an extroverted version because as you can see i literally do not understand what are proper boundaries to share with strangers aside from the obvious stuff like sexual things most of the time, and with everything except for schedules and sensory sensitivities being level 2, with schedules being level 3 and sensory sensitivities being level 1 because 1.) therapy helped me tolerate loud noises better and i don't scream as often as frequently at loud noises anymore, i can tolerate more textures though i still struggle, and i am in fact heavily sensory seeking --- i like touching different types of textures from tables to walls to fuzzy things to goo, and i like listening to music with weird amounts of textures which is why uk bass, hyperpop, glitch pop, glitchcore, and other music like that is VERY sensorily satisfying to our system) but i can't get a re-evaluation for my autism levels specifically because it'd be a burden on my mom's finances. all i know is that because i'm probably level 2 middle support needs, i can't attend in person classes because of my extent of my disability even part time, have to attend classes even with subjects i'm good at part time because more than one assignment at once stresses me out so bad i regress to a level 2.5 or 3 but hyperverbal type state, and i am...not trusted with most household appliances or even food (both because i'll gorge myself on anything tasty and edible, and because i have a tendency to either make a mess at the lightest or almost cause a house fire at the worst)

so yeah! i'm glad someone actually diagnosed level 2 can relate because...it makes me feel like i'm on the right direction with my diagnosis

im not offically diagnosed with level 2 actually my country has no where that uses levels so im not able to be assessed even if i wanted to, im just diagnosed with autism spectrum disorder.

my level also self assessed but ive had input from my gp, mama (carer) and therapist who agree i fall under level 2 because ive never had any idea how social interactions work, im an extrovert and would talk to strangers the same way i would with friends (tho i never had many in the first place, apparently other kids were scared of me) i make better friends online because irl its so stressful to try be aware of others, i used to be able to mask but i burntout and now im back at having very little awareness of others social cues like body language, facial expressions, tone or even like implied meaning to words idk how that works i never have. even when i masked my autism was extremely obvious but since im (hyper)verbal with a high iq (top 19%) i wasnt noticed as autistic until i was 12 then diagnosed at 16.

i cant go to school either, i can do online schooling okay since its all done in my pace and its subjects i really enjoy (psychology is my special interest and what im studying but i also wanna study biology or medicine, also spIns) i cant clean or cook, i do have chronic illness that stops me but even if i didnt that stuff would be extremely overwhelming, i could cook maybe once every few days and i can make basic stuff like instant noodles n cup snacks. my mama has to pick my clothes out and tie my shoes because idk whats appropriate or not to wear, id wear pyjamas everywhere and change clothes like once a week if i wasnt told to.

[emeritus-fuckers]

I would like to think I'd be a ghoul, but I'd be a rather gentle souled ghoul. My reasoning is mainly because I've been called the Raccoon Demon for fun and the title just feels right. There isn't much behind it, but that's my reason I can think of.

Out of the Papa's my favorites (if I had to choose) are Copia and Secondo, but realistically I see myself as a handful at times so I don't know it Secondo would like me very much. Personally, Primo and Copia would seem like the easier ones to work with, so either of them. I'd say primo because the thought of helping him with the garden or at least accompanying him would be nice. I'd definitely try to take pictures of the flowers, butterflies, and maybe even spiders the plants have by them. Or even Primo if he would like. The photography part also stands for Copia, who I feel like we'd both be close due to my love of rodents and his albums being one of my top ones. I definitely give off raccoon energy. Either way, I'd try to make lots of memories.

I'd definitely say that I'm ambiverted. It depends on my mood and how I wake that day. If things are going well, and I'm feeling very positive energy/I'm energetic, I definitely fall into extroverted mode. If I am tired or have had a physical, emotional, ect strain then I usually feel more introverted and less social/quiet. Being around people I love/trust is helpful, though. Additionally, I am either the type to fake it and force myself to interact to make a better impression/avoid conflict. I force it, but then I get more tired.

When it comes to chores I'd enjoy, I know that anything is more enjoyable if I have music to the point I need it to function a lot. I'd be best at acts of service as simple as running errands to making a meal for the ones I love. Besides that, I am neutral.

As for some information about me? Well, I really enjoy the outdoors and I took a hike yesterday and I really enjoyed it for the most part so there is that. Adventures in the woods! I well, I like Halloween, Fall, and Haunted Attractions. I'm short (5'1). I can end up figuratively bouncing off the walls if something related to my hyperfixations excites me. I'm rather emotionally sensitive/need positive reassurance plenty of times, though by being helpful and fed positive words, I could probably do anything. Or at least try.

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This post is part of the 1000 followers role in ministry event. Entries for the event are now closed.

Your role in the ministry is...Wildlife and landscape Photographer for the Clergy

Your boss is Primo but you often work for Copia.

You take photos of Copia’s rats, for their birthdays or for special celebrations/holidays. Also just day to day photos. Copia puts all of them in an album and hangs some up. He'll also give you a copy of the group photo at the end of the year.

You also photograph Primo's garden throughout the year.

Primo will also invite you to help in the garden if you have time. It's more something you do for pleasure. As you work you both share some stories and gossip. Primo will always make you a cup of tea in thanks. In summer and autumn sometimes spring if it's warm enough you sit outside his shed in the evening round the fire pit.

Copia will often join you both and bring some of his rats, one of his rats particulary likes you and sits on your lap. Copia also brings marshmallows to toast in the crackling fire.

You get to be outdoors a lot with your job and on your time off. Copia also will sometimes join you for a hike. It's mainly when he is stressed, you kinda have to drag him out at first as he makes protesting rat noises. But he really apprecaites it nand cheers up as soon as you are away from the Ministry and all the stress of his work. You also take Primo tea on days he is more tired and can't do as much as he wants to. You'll tend to the garden and make sure he has a good meal.

Copia and Primo both love your work. They also think you are awesome and amazing so you get plenty of postiive feedback and assurances from them (they are more than hapy to).

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Written by Nyx

[lady-laureline]

I want to get to the bottom of neurodivergent burnout. I feel like there are a lot of people that have no context to take it seriously in, so they don't.

As with a lot of these posts, writing this is my way of ironing out my own understanding - take it with a grain of salt, I'm not a professional. I've tried to keep it general but as I'm speaking from a late-diagnosed audhd experience, it will lean in that direction.

Also, depending on how much you relate, this may warrant a mental health trigger warning? There's self-talk that isn't very kind.

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The precursor to burnout is survival mode: a state in which the body doesn't allow itself to fully enter a state of rest, as it is perceived to be "unsafe" by the nervous system. Neurodivergent symptoms aren't always a cause for stress in and of themselves, but people displaying them quickly learn that symptomatic behaviour rubs others the wrong way, even if they lack the intuition to see why.

☁️ People don't like the way I behave.

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This is compounded by miscommunication.

Say a divergent child says something that sounds neutral to them, but rude to everyone else. They might get reprimanded for hurting someone's feelings, but they don't see how what they said was hurtful. Say this child's requests for an explanation are seen as insolence instead of curiosity.

The adults might come away thinking the child needs more discipline. The child might come away knowing they did something wrong, but unsure as to what that was or how to avoid it in the future.

☁️ I can't trust myself to say good things, even if my intentions are good. If I say a bad thing, it's my fault even if I don't know why it's bad.

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The more these situations crop up, the more the emotional takeaway morphs into low self-esteem and constant vigilance (to catch mistakes before they happen). As the child grows older and responsibilities increase, they are also faced with a more nuanced picture of society that they're already lagging behind - demanding more nuanced masking, which is already a separate workload - on top of battling those good old sensory issues.

To those who don't know what the fuss is about: you know when you have a fever and your skin is super sensitive? If you separate the tingliness from the discomfort, and then apply that discomfort to the rest of your senses, you'll get a pretty good idea of what sensory overwhelm is like. We don't all experience this the same way (for example, I'm generally fine with food textures but really sensitive to noise) or with the same frequency, but it tends to be both unpleasant and consistent.

These additional energy drains inevitably lead to feeling the effects of hard work without anywhere near the same results of our peers. The easiest explanation, and the assumption most uninformed make, is one of personal shortcomings. Laziness. Selfishness. A "bad attitude".

☁️ No matter how hard I try, it is not enough. I haven't earned my pain. I haven't earned my rest.

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It's a frustrating experience, and all those feelings need to go somewhere. We learn skills such as silent crying to hide our "overreactions"; we use our anxiety as a driving force for productivity. Many disabled people have the dissociative method down pat. And then there's the assertive emotions.

Displaying anger out of bounds of the neurotypical context is a whole other kettle of fish. When the nervous system is cortisol city, things will boil over eventually. Any witness is likely to be unaware of the extent of the stressors that led up to this outburst, so it can seem to happen out of the blue. Plus, if the inciting incident appears insignificant to the onlooker, they'll probably think it's all a bit childish.

Say what you will about neurospicy social skills but we have a killer radar for cringe. Raise your hand if you smush down irritation on the regular. Better yet, raise your hand if you "never get angry".

☁️ My frustration is misplaced and out of proportion. If I show it, I lose the respect of people I care about.

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Maybe we've been afraid to feel what we feel our whole lives, but there comes a point where something's got to give. We might even be making a conscious effort to get in touch with our emotions after years and years of ripping them down and sealing them away. It's a Pandora's box situation: once the seal is broken, there's no getting the horrors back inside.

That's usually the beginning of what is widely recognised as burnout. There is so much to sort through, life effectively gets put on hold, at least for those of us lucky enough not to crash and burn the moment we let go of the wheel.

Recovery isn't a matter of a little vacation time: it can take months or years, and it may not look like work but it very much is. The trauma runs deep and we have no choice but to get to the bottom of the trench if we don't want to be stuck in a permanent state of exhaustion. It can be isolating as there's not a lot of energy left for much else - overextend and your body will slap you back in line so fast your head will spin. And no, you do not get to choose what overextending yourself entails.

To anyone actually going through this, try not to keep yourself in check, at least when you're alone. Your psyche does not want to pretend anymore. Pretending has repercussions now.

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It may come as a surprise that a lot of people don't take kindly to healing. A person in burnout recovery is (by necessity) less accessible, more self-centered, taking up more space and drawing new boundaries. Unmasking may reveal a person your friends don't understand like the contorted version of yourself they got to know. Furthermore - change, when seen as a threat, can cause people to lash out.

☁️ Healing is a punishable offense. It hurts those around me. They don't want me as I am, but they don't want me to change, either.

One of the things I've had difficulty accepting is that there are good, caring people in my life that don't deserve an explanation of what I'm going through. They might have a space in their hearts for the person they think that I am, but the capacity to truly get to know me isn't there, at least yet.

Once I'd been burned enough times, I made a decision to settle for nothing less than sincere interest as a prerequisite for any attempt to make myself understood. From there, it wasn't not far to the bittersweet realisation that the only person's permission I need to grow is my own.

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I'm not sure how to wrap this up, which might mean future edits (there are always more edits), but the thought is complete enough to post.

I suppose there is no end to becoming one's own person, and even though the line between recovery and living can be blurry a lot of the time, existing with purpose is a decision each of us has to make.

I'm sending a telepathic hug to anyone who needs one right now. Take care of yourselves.

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The self-talk of some weird kid:

"People don't like the way I behave. I can't trust myself to say good things, even if my intentions are good. If I say a bad thing, it's my fault even if I don't know why it's bad. No matter how hard I try, it is not enough. I haven't earned my pain. I haven't earned my rest. My frustration is misplaced and out of proportion. If I show it, I lose the respect of people I care about. Healing is a punishable offense. It hurts those around me. They don't want me as I am, but they don't want me to change, either."

(I've included this depressing subconscious narrative because I think it's important to show how little unresolved rejections add up over time. One can put on a dazzling performance to meet social demands while believing all of that, and we desperately need community support that is informed and equipped to help them pick up the pieces once the show falls apart.)

[beckyg1016]

So, I thought the Brave Thing was disclosing my Autism at work for the first time and being willing to talk about it with others. And I guess that was a brave thing - it was scary and I did it.

But, turns out THE brave thing is actually being vulnerable when I'm not okay - when it's more than just "loud noises startle me" - when it's the dysregulation of rapid-fire change and deadlines I wasn't expecting.

I've worked so hard to be the person who gets things done. Need it done on time? Give it to Becky. Need it done right the first time? Give it to Becky. Did someone else do it wrong and now it needs fixed? Give it to Becky. But the last few weeks it's been too much, too fast, for too many days in a row and I've finally let my boss know that I'm struggling - not "hey, this is a lot of work and I'm feeling stressed" (which is what I would have said before) but "hey, this level of change, so quickly, is really hard for me to process and it's put me in a bad place mentally. I'm on edge and overwhelmed and I might be extra-sensitive to everything for a while because I have no time to transition or decompress"

And as hard as it was to say it, it's just as hard to sit here and wonder if all the work I've done to prove myself, all the advocating for normalizing asking for help/accommodations...is it all just talk and they'll stop seeing me as someone who is capable of doing the job at a level of high quality and start seeing me as "the person who can't do the job as well as we thought - she just can't keep up with the pace of corporate work".

That last paragraph is 100% the fear that kept me from disclosing at any previous job. So, I've named it. And it's either my brain lying to me about my self-worth (a thing it does - hello Depression, you bastard), or childhood trauma rearing its ugly head, or a serious concern and I've just F'ed up my work relationships and career advancement prospects. Guess we'll wait and see.

[gilbertscocteaus]

why strawberry crepe cookie is very autistic coded

by: yours truly, an autistic person who happens to like the pink cookie a lot! 🌸

the chart above is what i will be using as a base for some of the behaviors they express. though i'm letting you guys know beforehand that autism looks different in everyone (obviously) and that some traits might be influenced by traumatic events in your early years of life (like what happens with Crepe.)

most of the information has been taken from canon events and stories, and some other things are just based on my own interpretation of their dialogue and the few things we know about their backstory!

we will go in parts, describing each tab in as much detail as i possibly can ...

that being said, sit the fuck down, grab some snacks, and listen to me ramble about the little pink cookie, because that's what autism made ME do. some people solve math problems, i talk about my little pink thing while i rotate them around in my head like a microwave.

before i start: spoiler warning for pretty much everything regarding Strawberry Crepe Cookie and cookie odyssey.

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i. fixations -

the fixations tab is the easiest thing to explain from this mess, since it's most of their character: robotics!Crepe shows a high interest in wafflebots! being pretty much one of the few things they talk about freely (and something they're very passionate about as a whole) and being something that takes up most of their day and routine.

there are many parts where they start rambling about the bots, being most noticeable during the cookie odyssey (they have many of these moments during their parts of the story! 🎶)

(they also seem to be messy as mentioned by Clotted Cream Cookie at some point in odyssey, unless it comes to their tools! which is. something i relate to deeply lmao. i find organizing my clothes and things pretty boring, but i enjoy organizing my art supplies for example. relaxing activities ~ i'm not sure if it IS part of a fixation but i still think it deserves a spot.)

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ii. noise sensitivity -

this is also easy to explain: they don't like noise. one of their "default phrases" is. just that. them complaining about the noise (and mentioning that their bots are more quiet, once again tying things back to their special interest/hyperfixation.)

and this new comment from the spring 2023 event.

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iii. aggression -

while also having canon arguments to back up this one, it can't really be used as a way to say "oh Crepe is autistic". why? because crepe has gone through trauma and was exposed to violence as a fairly young kid, specially since it wasn't really explained to them that what they did was wrong.

they are aggressive, having threatened others before ... but is it an autistic thing, or just a trauma response of some sort? i can't really tell, honestly. so i'm going to replace it with:

🦄🌸 the inability to properly identify their own emotions, something i've struggled with since i was just a little guy !!!! 🌸🦄

(or, in proper terms, i think it's called alexithymia! if this is wrong i will correct myself.)

when Pure Vanilla mentioned the time period they were alone (or with DE) they responded with: "well ... it WAS boring!"

boring, a word that seems to be quite common in their vocabulary and mine (especially as a kid, we're talking a 5-8 y/o child who struggled to properly identify their emotions and was pretty disconnected from them)

i remember always complaining of boredom, and i sometimes still mix boredom with sadness, understimulation ... you call it.

and the fact that they used the word "boring" to describe a (definitely) traumatic period of their life is. quite interesting to me!

were they truly bored, or were they sad? anxious? scared ...?

and then, once again, in the spring 2023 event, we get more of that:

it happens after the group of kids they're playing with don't listen to their attempts of communicating their discomfort and stress over the situation they're in, Crepe was trying to communicate that they weren't happy with the noise they were making and the fact that everyone was walking in different directions. (and one of the kids was being particularly hyperactive too)

so, they lashed out.

pretty self-explanatory. Crepe also isn't very good at expressing and controlling their negative emotions.

so yeah! back to the ACTUAL chart now ...

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iv. social difficulty -

yeah, another obvious one. they struggle with socializing and seem to prefer the company of their robots and small crowds. (or older people, they seem to be a lot more nicer around Espresso. like in the christmas 2022 story)

not much to say, their socializing skills may also be affected by their trauma. (they were frozen for years as a child, abandoned by their village and then by Dark Enchantress, leading to a pretty lonely life before the events of chapter 9 and odyssey)

but i do think they're genuinely just an awkward little kid, and that's fine! they're learning at their own pace as i've mentioned in another post :)

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v. speech pattern -

... it may be me, but their way of speaking is different of the way kids around their age express themselves usually, so i say they got an abnormal speech pattern.

they use big words and know what they mean, end of the speech tab. i don't know how a normal person speaks so i can't really say "this was supposed to be abnormal speech? but I speak like that!"

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vi. depression / anxiety -

the depression and anxiety tab are mainly based on headcanons i branched out based on their backstory, but they may be enforced by their crunchy dreams story and their fortune: "you're not alone: love surrounds you."

it's probably not related to autism, though. it's probably because of their trauma and abandonment issues. either way it's there.

to need reassuring in something like this means that they probably cling compulsively to certain thoughts/beliefs.

which, if i remember correctly, is a thing that sometimes happens with autistic people according to other autistic people. it's like a weird fixation of sorts, i'm not 100% sure ...

the only time(s) i've seen them have some sort of anxious behavior is during their battle speech, where they panic after losing to Gingerbrave's team.

then during the spring event of 2023, where they say that they "can't think straight" because of the noise Pancake Cookie is making.

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i'm not sure if they got any tics and fidgets, i haven't noticed anything that can classify as such, so it's one of the lowest tabs.

same with the abnormal posture. and if they got it is probably because of the being frozen thing weakening their body to an extent.

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in conclusion! after tumblr deleted part of my post from my drafts ... _(:3」 ∠)_

i wholeheartedly believe Crepe might be an autistic coded character, whether or not is something the writers intended to do isn't clear to me, but they show SO many traits that i wouldn't be surprised if they canonically were! most of the things i mentioned are also based from my own experience and the bits i can remember form my own childhood as an undiagnosed kid, but yeah!

i hope you enjoyed this painfully long rant <3 i might make one eventually about how i think Crepe might also be physically disabled (implied), but for now, have this.

okay bye i can't post more pictures because the app sucks.