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I will have "learned nothing" from that because the amount of time it takes to complete a task once I have started it has nothing to do with why it takes so long to actually start doing the task. For me, it's usually not doing the task that is hard. Starting the work is what's hard.
Tactics I (a very extroverted person with late-diagnosed ADHD) have developed over the years that help with this difficulty include:
- doing the work in public places (e g. coffeeshop, university study lab)
- inviting friends over to talk to me while I work/work alongside me (either at the same task or at a task of their own)
- listening to music/audiobooks/podcasts/videos/TV (the visual media are less helpful for me in particular as I can get "sucked into" watching and stop working)
- talking to a friend on the phone while working (this can help even more with task initiation as talking with the person becomes associated with working; I was once recovering from a cold and sitting around complaining about how awful I felt when a friend called. I almost immediately got up and started washing the dishes out of sheer habit)
- setting a timer to trick my brain into starting for a short time (usually once I begin I don't want to stop even though the timer has gone off)
- working on a task while waiting on another process (e.g. putting away clean dishes while waiting for the kettle to boil)
- doing a completely unrelated activity, especially one that requires physical movement but not mental concentration, e.g. going for a walk (good for breaking out of a state of inertia and for helping the brain process information in a new way; less good for task initiation but sometimes coming back to the task after this kind of break helps)
- ADHD medication (genuinely amazingly helpful when one has ADHD; at first there were moments of "magically" starting tasks, but after having used it for a while it's more like I'm able to better understand the way my brain functions and begin to build systems that support healthy productivity - including task initiation without deadline-induced panic, but also including being able to notice when I'm getting less focused and need a break, and building the confidence that not doing something the moment I think of it does NOT mean it won't actually happen [this confidence does not, however, translate to waiting to add things to my calendar. That still needs to happen IMMEDIATELY]
- allowing myself to engage in a fun or relaxing activity when I recognize that I'm struggling to initiate a task, because giving myself a reward in advance of the work can, despite everything I was ever taught, actually make it easier for me to do the work (this can be tricky if the reward is a particularly time-sinky activity, so timers or other external prompts to stop are helpful here. Also ADHD meds)
- working on a task in service of another task (e.g. cleaning the kitchen because I want to bake bread and need the counter cleared and the bowl washed to do that; the bread may or may not actually get baked, but the kitchen will be cleaner)
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HII!!! I AM A BIG FAN OF YOUR FANFICS!!, I want to make a small request (if possible) I need one Quackity headcanons with a female reader who has TDA and who does very poorly in high school (preferably in mathematics and physics) WOULD BE THE PERSON HAPPIER IF YOU DO SOME HEADCANONS LIKE THIS!!😭😭😭
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♡⃕ Relacionamento} Quackity x TDA/ADHD!Fem!Reader
♡⃕ Summary} "Quackity helping you with school since you can't pay attention"
♡⃕ Notas} Inglês não é minha primeira língua, pode haver erros. Peço desculpas por qualquer coisa. Como uma pessoa que tem TDAH, eu realmente me identifiquei com essa fic, espero que gostem
♡⃕ Alex tem um talento especial para transformar tudo em piada, mas seu humor é uma maneira de ajudar você a relaxar. Se você estiver estressado com a lição de matemática, ele dirá: "Nós conseguimos! Se não, nós inventaremos nossos próprios números. O que é um 'sete', afinal?"
♡⃕ Ele é ótimo em dissipar sua frustração com comentários tolos, garantindo que você não se sinta sobrecarregado.
♡⃕ He knows traditional methods don’t work for you, so he comes up with creative ways to help. He might turn math problems into a game, like using songs to remember formulas or drawing goofy characters next to equations.
♡⃕ Se ele perceber que você está distraída, ele lhe dará pequenos "intervalos para o cérebro" e até contará uma história engraçada para manter o clima leve.
♡⃕ He’s endlessly patient with your struggles. When you say, “I can’t do this,” he responds with, “You can, but the universe just wants to make it a bit of a challenge so you can flex on everyone later.”
♡⃕ Ele comemora até pequenas vitórias. Resolveu um único problema depois do expediente? “Amor, precisamos emoldurar esta planilha!”
♡⃕ He’s willing to learn alongside you if he doesn’t understand the math either. “Alright, let’s both be clueless. At least we’ll be clueless together!” He’ll Google explanations, watch videos, or ask others until he finds a way to make it click for you.
♡⃕ Alexis shares stories about times he struggled with something, making you feel less alone. “I once failed a math test so badly, I just wrote, ‘Pi is tasty,’ and handed it in. So trust me, you’re already doing better than me.”
♡⃕ Quando ele perceber que você está ficando inquieto ou distraído, ele gentilmente sugerirá uma pausa. “Vamos lá, a matemática pode esperar cinco minutos. Vamos dar uma volta ou fazer algo divertido — então vamos acabar com esse problema.”
♡⃕ If you’re ready to give up, he’ll make dramatic declarations like, “This math test thinks it can defeat my girl? Nope, not on my watch!” It’s cheesy but effective in lifting your spirits.
♡⃕ Ele nunca faz você se sentir mal sobre seu TDA/ADHD. Se você começa uma tarefa, mas esquece na metade ou perde o controle do seu plano de estudos, ele ri disso com um simples, "Igual. Meu cérebro é como uma máquina de pinball também."
♡⃕ After tough study sessions, he’ll surprise you with your favorite snacks or take you out for a fun activity as a reward. “You just battled algebra for two hours. Time to celebrate with ice cream. You earned it.”
Quackity is your biggest cheerleader. Whether you ace a test or barely pass, he’s there reminding you that your worth isn’t defined by grades. “Who cares if math doesn’t love you back? I do, and that’s all that matters.”
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#quackity x reader#quackity x you#quackity fluff#quackityhq x reader#quackityhq#tdah#adhd#quackity headcannons#headcanon#fluff headcanons
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if you've ever wondered why I got really obsessed with AZ seemingly out of the blue. Some time last year I was gearing up to finally replay XY for the first time and I was like "huh I don't think I've seen many fans of that AZ guy if any at all. I will become one then" and the rest was history 🫶🏾
#hope talks#Also I love Bronze Age and I love stories about the cyclical nature of time#And I love characters who have done genuinely cruel or awful things and are in a position where they just have to live with that#Essentially being forced to find a way to move on because there's no other option#And the struggles that come alongside that#I think Floette is like 'i want to live as a way of honoring those whose lives were sacrificed for mine' btw.#Xanthos got it a bit later... I think for a time he was very miserable and depressed#And it was partly because he was stuck in a rut always doing what he knew and was used to#But there is freedom to be found in a world where his obligations are long gone!#Not to say he doesn't love or miss certain people... But the shackles of his social obligations are something he can finally shed#Xanthos#<- since I ended up talking about him ....
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As I said I would, I drew my oc with yours my beloved @clawdouobit
My pretty girl likes to infodump your pretty girl about the smallest things. She's like a reel, talks a lot but most of it is meaningless.
Close ups and more info because I can't shut up ehtier under the cut <3
20 years old and engaged to a half-foot. They're waiting to gain some more money to get married and leave the dungeon. Note: they're best friends but idk if what they have going on is truly romantic love or just a very good friendship.
Quite skilled at upper levels, but wouldn't go to lesser levels. She isn't skilled enough to make her party survive there.
Her race is a mix between gnome and half-foot. Idk if that's possible but I don't think it's not.
If I had to guess, she's 13/14 on half-foot standars. It's unclear whether she's an adult or not, but she's preety mature most of the time. Most.
Flushed cheeks always. Also very pale.
She's 109 cms tall, a lot more than avarage on haflings, but lot less than avarage on gnomes. Since she hangs out mostly with haflings, she's a giant woman. This gives her some problems with traps so her BMI is 18 due to diet.
Fwens with Shahad. Who knows why tho. We gotta figure that out ;}
#dungeon meshi#dunmeshi#delicious in dungeon#dunmeshi oc#dungeon meshi oc#never thought i'd make an oc for a fandom again but here am i#shahad is so cool#she wears pretty jewlery#i love her design so much#but i hate drawing kobolds ooouugh i struggled but did it :')#they're so fwens#the divorced traumatized kobold and the little to-be braid she found while dungeoning#pimpacci can shut up when asked. for about 10 minutes at least.#i have 2 other dunmeshi ocs i made alongside her but i think Shaad would get along better with Pimpacci#because she's really kind and caring. but doesnt realizes her talking can get tyring/annoying.#while making her i noticed all haflings cover their necks on the dungeon. i wonder why. i gave her a scarf to match the thing#shaad#pimpacci lukes#i had so many trouble coming up with her name#i had to make it sound like two names mended together that don't tire the tounge because its too long to say it..#she gets really annoyed when someone calls her “Pim” because of cultural things.#also. she's often infintilized. many hafling don't know she's a mixed race. so she just looks taller and more childish than others her age#it doesn't bother her. she doesn't realizes most of the time. she doesnt infintilizes herself on purpose. she's just younger on perspective#yay#i need shahad and pim to have late night hours talks. it would be so interesting..#i should be asleep lol#my oc#my art#i've made a mistake on shahad eye colour... too late but... grr ...
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I know 'person with secret to hide spots other person with secret to hide but doesn't say anything' is like. Thee trope in superhero crossovers, but come on! Some of these guys have been doing this for decades! There's tons of heroes that have gone to pretty extreme lengths to be Completely Imperceptible in civilian life.
Don't you think it's scarier, after all is said and done, to sit there and think I didn't notice a thing? I wouldn't have ever realised? I would never have known? To know that someone you were familiar with - close with, even! - had this whole other personality and skillset and powers and experiences and life just behind the curtain, and they hid it so completely you didn't even see it was there.
'I always knew there was something off' what if you didn't. How world shaking would it be to be so utterly blindsided? To know that this person had somehow learned to so deceptive?
#Strongly inspired by the dp x dc where Danny knows what up IMMEDIATELY or a bat clocks Danny as super suspicious within mins of meeting#Or the amount of reveal fics caused by the hero slipping up in some stupid way and getting themselves doxxed against their will#Like come on!! Full time heroes like superman or batman or Spidey go to great lengths to construct an entirely separate civilian persona!#And yes I know they've had their idiot moments when it comes to their identities but they've kept their secret rock solid for irl DECADES#What's an identity reveal without drama!! Shake it up! Stir the pot! Not a slow and gradual build up of suspicion and stress#But two high speed trains coming at right-angles and the audience is the only one who can see the incoming crash#Twist the knife in if you want. Make it HURT. Make it completely rewrite what they believed.#Short ID reveals are great for this because you can SEE the ripple effects spreading out as the story ends. Just BANG.#But also no ID reveal at all. The main character goes through the story regularly interacting with and developing character right alongside#A hero in hiding and no one is ever the wiser. You're a worker in WE fending off attempts to steal your inventions and Bruce Wayne#Invites you to his office to discuss security and he walks you back to your office when you get nervous about a break in.#You're struggling with school bullies and getting into trouble over your photography hobby and Peter Parker is right there alongside#You complaining about rich kids and fiddling with the outdated finicky lenses you got from the school.#You're a reporter unpicking a mystery scandal and you ask resident tank Clark Kent if he's able to play bodyguard if you go somewhere shady#The reader knows. No one else notices a thing.#And besides focusing on the civilian side is a nice change of pace! Let's see how they manage leading double lives!#What do I even tag this#batman#superman#Marvel#Dcu#spiderman#secret identity#identity reveal#long tags#captain marvel#miraculous ladybug#I know I know#hero and villain
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i keep seeing news about a potential gravity falls reboot. as someone who very much despises reboots and who thinks gravity falls ended very well (it's something gf has been REPEATEDLY praised for,) do you think there's actually a chance they'd legitimately reboot it?
I watched a bit of hana's interview with alex hirsch out of (somewhat morbid) curiosity and from what I could glean there, it seems less likely gravity falls is going to get a legitimate "reboot" any time soon and more that there's potential for spinoffs when alex's contract with netflix expires. my honest prediction is that the book of bill is a prelude to more if it sells well, as it's very possible they're testing the waters to see if gravity falls nostalgia-hype is alive and well.
as much as I dislike reboots- and I have some strong feelings about the book of bill as a concept- I actually wouldn't be mad about some of the concepts alex has in his back pocket, such as a miniseries set on the stan o' war, or potentially more comics. I criticize elements of writing and what's being done with the story now because, obviously, I love gravity falls dearly, and I do think it could be adapted or continued faithfully... in the right hands, under the right circumstances. reboots exceeding the production of new, director-driven stories is symptomatic of a larger problem in the entertainment industry, but I don't think they're the disease themselves. people love strong stories, y'know? I would be a massive hypocrite if I acted like there was something wrong with wanting more, I've been actively making art for this show since I was 12.
so, do I think they're going to fully reboot the show, take us back to the mystery shack for "summer 2013" or potentially something further ahead in the future? ...mm, probably not. the series ended at two seasons for a reason, and in the age of, yes, pointless cash-grab reboots in a time where the entertainment industry is hopelessly dependent on selling established IPs, I respect that decision a lot. but I feel like it's inevitable there will be more gravity falls in some form or another in the future, which I honestly wouldn't have guessed if not for alex's words himself and the release of a new book this july.
whether or not it's any good... I guess we'll have to wait and see?
#lab notes#lab discussion#sometimes I worry I come across like I just hate anything new that gets put out and I genuinely don't#as much as I bristle at the idea because I know it means attracting a lot of attention to something I care about a Lot#and I think the ideas presented originally do get distorted as time goes on...#but I can't tell you what my solution to that would be realistically. I'm not even involved in animation#I think what I would want for the future of any beloved 'IP' would be a collaborative effort between old and new blood#experienced writers alongside fresh minds and artists who may already be long-time fans who understand the characters#that seems like a no-brainer to me. but unfortunately the entertainment industry is spiraling down the capitalism drain hard and fast#and I think- like most things- we would need some serious restructuring before art can be made with a basis of freedom and passion#rather than struggling to be born in the first place and crawling forward with a boot on its neck#coughs. but yeah I don't think about it too much !
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Just a heads up that I’m going to be taking a break from making fandom content.
I’m at a point now where I want to express myself and fanart just doesn’t seem to cut it. At one point I’ll come back to doing it but as of right now, I can’t give a time frame for when that will be.
Be patient cause I know when ST5 comes out the Jancy brainrot will return, Trust me on this.
Idk about Scott Pilgrim stuff cause I’m very invested in two characters only and they aren’t very popular (ok Neil’s kinda in the middle tbh, Stacey though no). Also I feel kinda alone in my rarepair. I know there are others but even then I still feel lonely in it. It’s difficult making rarepair stuff and atm I don’t have the energy to continue doing it. Very sorry about that!
I will sometimes make text posts about random headcanons in relation to my ships if I have any cause it’s bound to happen. So fandom stuff won’t be completely gone.
Anyways expect to see some poetry and more original illustrations coming from me. Heck my ocs may end up becoming a big part of my art who knows!
I hope you all can understand. I must let my creative voice scream and give me a chance to figure out who I am more. This is something extremely important to me as a soon to be art major.
I do hope you will all support me in this new era of my blog. Original content isn’t as big as say fandom stuff I know but I do hope you’ll enjoy whatever I make :]
Ok bye! Hope you all have a wonderful weekend!
Sending hugs if you need one <333333
#btw I’m#also I’m tired of the fandom environment I just wanna vibe in peace with the moots#i know my main reason for coming here originally was to express my love for my many interests#but now I wanna use this blog to express myself in a more personal way#an example being illustrations relating to my intense interest in ocean aesthetics#and writing poetry about nature and things that make me happy (I will not be sharing vent poetry at all as it’s far more personal)#also my ocs story I want to develop it more#i might also start doing art studies on posing cause it’s something in struggle with a lot (alongside anatomy)#and also style studies on my favourite artists from history#anyways I’m going to stop talking in the tags now#the explanation is kinda messy and I apologize if it’s hard to understand#emily has a very important message to share!
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#personal#it feels like im not allowed to complain about my own life on my own blog#or at least that if im allowed to that it seems very firstworld problem very selfish very not appropriate with all thats going on#that people will and do think less of me for expressing my own sadness and frustrations because theres no way it compares#to a lot of peoples very big and very real problems#but im so fucking sick of being poor and small. all ive had to eat today is 2min noodles roughly 10 hours ago#and all ill get tomorrow is a bowl of 2min noodles but ittl be another 15 or so hours until its the most reasonable to eat that#thats the real girlmath and then thats the last of my noodles. that leaves me with one (1) small tin of tuna#which might end up being tonights intermediary food if i really cant wait 15 nore hours for my next noodles but is supposed to be#the one meal of the day after tomorrow. so if i eat it too soon then i have even more time that i just dont fucking eat#im so sick to death of being in this position. like its literally killing me and theres fuck all i can do to make it better#ive tried. and i try and i try and i try but i can never afford anything#my landagent keeps sending me textx asking when theyll see a patment for my $50 water bill#i have to stop myself from texting back every time. youll see payment when im not spending literally 75% of my pay on rent alone#when i can afford to buy food and bills at the same time. whn i dont feel like kms-ing would be better than paying you my rent every frtnite#i crave a burger so bad i cant make myself do any tasks. i cant start or continue any crafts or chores because all im thinking about#is a burger like a blorbo rotating in my mind alongside the background noise that i wont get a burger and will only get noodles but not for#hours. a whole days worth of hours almost#my shitawful roomate is back and i have to play nice but he gives me the same feelings my abusive mother did. im scared to leave my room#in the safeplace house ive spent the last two years building for myself. this feels awful. things were all going so right and now#all of a sudden theyre all going as wrong as possible and im struggling so much. with no one to help. no one cares enough to help#the few people i do have are wrapped up in their own lives. which i get. but it doesnt take away the hurt of dealing with it all alone again#lot of momma trauma coming up with the end of eclipse season and i thought i was handling it. now i just feel fucking awful all the time#like ik healing isnt linear but the roomate triggers so hard things i thought i had processed and was on top of#would a burger fix that? no but itd atleast give me something to emotionally lean on for strength though it. but all ive got is noodles#24 hour apart one meal per day noodles. and tomorrow is my last pack. my only solace lately is that ive been invited to my first ever rave#or my first real rave anyway ive only been to one other 'edm event' that was not really a rave of any scale it was like 25 people#but its a halloween rave so im hoping for spooky fun dancetimes at least theres that. im out of data and spotifyprem so i havent been able#to take my silly little mental health walks bc theres zero chance im doing that without music and so itll be noce to get outside fr the rave#anyway. im doing very poorly i appreciate you few who reached out while i wasnt active but i expect ill continue to do poorly for some time
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Guys, I know this sounds real childish but-- please properly cherish those that you call your best friends.
#(Admittedly I had to cut ties with someone I have known for nearly a decade-- someone I have given my heart to far too many times)#(Only to have it ripped to pieces over and over)#(Someone I made this blog alongside with and)#(Honestly it's gonna take me awhile to want to come back on here-- honestly it's already a struggle to be on my Basara blog because of this#(very reason since I also made that blog with them)#(Even though JJBA is almost like a way of life for me and one of the greatest loves of my life...)#(There's just too much pain right now)#tbd
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the vet today really tried to talk me into paying $600 for the same service they provided for my mom and her dog a few months ago for under $100
#they told me the urine sample i got from my dog at home for a uti test wasn't sterile enough#but it was not an issue in the slightest when my mom did it#THEY told me to get the sample and then i got there and they were like#'um actually 🤓 we'd prefer if you let us use an ultrasound to find her bladder and extract the sample with a needle ourselves'#'we only have to use anesthesia if she struggles too much' kay well she will struggle bc she hates being put on her back#and you can't give her anesthesia cause she's an old dog with cancer#and also im not giving you 600 fucking dollars when you did this exact same test for my mom a few months ago#using a sample she brought from home#what the fuck?#text post#and the more i denied it the more it was like 'well....'#'well we're really just looking for the presence of red and white blood cells alongside bacteria so it should be fine i guess'#'well we'd really want to do that test to find out the specific bacteria but since this isn't a recurring problem it should be fine'#'well if it comes back after she's done with the antibiotics then we'll know it's more complex but we don't have any reason to think that rn#THEN WHY DO YOU WANT ME TO PAY $600#AND WHY DIDN'T YOU PULL THIS SHIT WITH MY MOM?!#is it cause im younger? you think you can convince me bc im young and niave?#my dog is 12 years old and 3 years into a terminal cancer diagnosis#i just need to know if this is a symptom of her body finally shutting down of if she just needs antibiotics
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i just feel like i have more of an angle on things i mean i am aware of the perspective i have gained because it sticks out to me. now i can say "i like them because they're so different from my dad<3"
#girl........ anyways#i can't lie though that is definitely a big part of why i was here/why i latched on and why i am here again. cut me some fucking slackkkk#it's free comfort and reassurance‚ i think maybe i can't always afford to wallow in sfuff that makes me feel bad‚ it helps with#working through it but sometimes i have to take the other route. regularly maybe. like an alternating current#i gotta have the adventure times and the uhh (struggling to come up with anything that was ever important to me that was wholesome) uh#the other things. alongside the bad & the sad things#most things are sad. or most things make me a bit sad. i'm only interested in being sad‚ or disturbed‚ or weirdly aroused#and it's been good that way! i live for that and for freak shit! i just have limits here too ig#gotta switch it up man i gotta and then i can get back to bad & sad with renewed enthusiasm. literally#so again‚ forgive me if i become lame and act weird!! either i'm regressing or doing what feels right for me‚ we'll have to see#kata.txt#for organization's sake..#21p
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it's difficult at times, but actually very helpful to have a consistent and reliable relationship while going through the horrors of adolescence, mental illness and active trauma. i think all that stuff about not dating while you're in a bad place (figuratively) isn't really true. once you've established the trust necessary, it's much easier to suffer when you know there's someone out there loving you always.
#from tori#we haven't been doing the best lately. depression coming back alongside worsening anxiety+OCD#and a lot of new dp/dr symptoms we're struggling with#but we'll be okay. and it's a lot easier to remember it's temporary when there's someone there reminding you how good it can be
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what if nika and artoirel had each other's courtship tokens?? they already possess the same pair of earrings but what if artoirel kept one of nika's hats by his bed and nika had a little kerchief with the fortemps family sigil on it. and when asked about it, artoirel says yes, they're courting and doesn't give any details bc it's, well their thing. meanwhile, nika doesn't respond but his expression is proof enough.
(anyone who knows him knows he can count the people he likes on one hand, and he does mention artoirel often, so it's easy to piece it together. but still the idea of him being in love being so obvious that he doesn't have to say anything is just <3 to me)
#nero plays ffxiv#nika perseis#nika x artoirel#artoirel de fortemps#someone send help i'm experiencing wild levels of brainrot#i also think nika would legit struggle with saying he's romantically interested in men#idk how public this is but. that would mean he's saying to everyone he's bisexual in his eyes#background: all his life he thought all straight guys had the hots for their homies alongside girls. aren't all guys a little gay.#so he's fairly sure he's sexually attracted to men bc it's been that was his whole life#but romantically? nah that requires him getting comfy with a lot of things real fast and he isn't ready for that#so him saying he's exclusive with artoirel? it's like a coming out#he can't *verbalize* it yet but he sure isn't hiding it#nika is the poster child of toxic masculinity in a lot of ways and it's all negatively impacted him#one of the ways is this. he can't be honest to himself that he has a romantic attraction to more than just women#so this is actually a step in the right direction for him#sorry for the novel in the tags this didn't fit in a post and i felt stupid writing this in a post esp as someone who doesn't have that (1)#(2) experience. but it is what it is so in the tags it goes
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I have no idea how to phrase it but being on the older end out of the students in this class and seeing a lot of the ones that just left highschool struggling with very similar stuff than I did (because no one in this course is cishet and neurotypical) and then seeing them come to me for support with all that stuff just because I'm outspoken about my experiences and somehow signaled that I'm safe enough of a person to come to all in the third week of class is so much I don't know how I got here but I'm so glad I did
#like I've mentioned my cool genderqueer friend he's on the same age range as me but I am managing to interact#with like a decent portion of the class? which is awesome! it feels like art school all over again I actually understand people#and it naturally has a lot of freshmen#and today like idk probably because of how bad I had it yesterday that today just left such a big impact on me all of a sudden#it's important to me that I can be someone like that probably because it's how I remember being before trauma and stuff#but also I mean just logically speaking I know one issue I certainly don't have is with confidence and self esteem#so it's important to me that I can support friends who do still struggle with that self doubt#and something about that just coming across to others is getting to me#like I just make myself clear that it's a choice to be friends and listen and that I wouldn't hang out with anyone out of guilt or pity#and it actually makes people feel seen#like I don't think I've mentioned yet but I had at least three interactions that reflected this today so yeah#fellow autistic nb nerd asking for snuggly friend hugs so naturally I was talking to someone else#neurodivergent trans girl saying thank you out of the blue alongside her goodbyes when parting ways#guy with ocd I hadn't spoken to yet but that had a bad fucking time cause of the class incel being glad I reached out to him#after he had to walk out of class today#like idk#fuck man#I said I was trying to not infantilize or adopt anyone but still had the instinct to try and act all older sibling like#like almost joking and the girl genuinely said I was doing a good job at that though#Void fala aí
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sunflowers in our hair
#in a cathartic way. Children of the Sun came on and that was a Yahar'gul song and i need to get over - i mean no. i Am getting over#the fact that post-false-memories im going to have complex feelings about that place. especially meeting Agnus there and he showed me#his studio and i know it was mindspace stuff but it was one of my early post-cult spiritual experiences and like#his studio ITS NOT... REALLY ACTUALLY A THING. it isnt astral. BUT its been a big inspo to my art since i saw it and#like. idk. it may have been mindspaces... both Lull and Agnus' but it was a nice place when it was Agnus and also#im struggling against false memories by saying ''literally nothing happened none of it was significant'' i think its more helpful to say#that the story was important to me. the fiction felt like home. doesnt matter that it was fictional right now what matters is it felt like#home and ill go from there. i enjoyed the story. and. you two alongside other spirits saved my fucking life#agnus if you hadnt fucking come in when you did id be dead. that goes for multiple people but like. each individual experience#of saving my fucking life deserves to be honoured lmfao.#OC: Agnus#as in.#Spirit: Eastern Sun#Spirit: Red Sky#<- in fictional masks bc thats all i would listen to when i was a pc pagan#Primogenitor's Child#<- going to be my bb tag instead of brutally butchering the world. i wont be using it often but#Spiritual Art
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rising from the dead to announce that heart of trespia has breached the crown & the flame levels of emotional investment for me
#text#very similar narratives and the construction of each makes me feel like tearing my chest open irl#ellaire and kenna? BESTIES#absolutely adore the assembled cast like even reinhold's stupid ass has wiggled his way into my affections#early s2 struggled pacing wise but since then the plot has been *chef's kiss*#do NOT even get me started on the extent to which i am giggling kicking my feet twirling my hair over gisella#the MOST well handled female li in the entirety of rc by a wide ass margin#something something stories about genuinely kind and gentle women coming into rule#and learning to lead the best way they can in a fundamental cruel setting#alongside a group of friend who'd do absolutely anything for them#WAAAAAAAAAHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH
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