#Or the amount of reveal fics caused by the hero slipping up in some stupid way and getting themselves doxxed against their will

[phoenixcatch7]

I know 'person with secret to hide spots other person with secret to hide but doesn't say anything' is like. Thee trope in superhero crossovers, but come on! Some of these guys have been doing this for decades! There's tons of heroes that have gone to pretty extreme lengths to be Completely Imperceptible in civilian life.

Don't you think it's scarier, after all is said and done, to sit there and think I didn't notice a thing? I wouldn't have ever realised? I would never have known? To know that someone you were familiar with - close with, even! - had this whole other personality and skillset and powers and experiences and life just behind the curtain, and they hid it so completely you didn't even see it was there.

'I always knew there was something off' what if you didn't. How world shaking would it be to be so utterly blindsided? To know that this person had somehow learned to so deceptive?

[cucci]

It's You I Want, Part 2

Pairing: Bucky x Reader

Warnings: Angst, Insecurity, Arguing, Cursing

This isn't working, you think as you finish off your third glass of wine.

You and Bucky hadn't been on the best terms since the get-together at the Avenger's tower. For the past few months, he'd been spending an excessive amount of time with his friend from the party and that fact made had made you sour towards the super soldier. You couldn't help but feel jealous. Jealous that instead if spending time with you, he was with her. You started to feel like you paled in comparison to the shapely vixen.

Your fingers tightened on the wine glass, eyes clouding over with tears as you mentally deprecated yourself but before the tears had a chance to fall, your room door was opening, revealing Bucky himself.

You sniffle quietly, your arm quickly swiping at your eyes to get rid of your tears.

"Hey, Babe," Bucky greeted, a small smile appearing on his face.

"H-Hi, where have you been?" You inquire, sitting your glass down on the nightstand. Rather than answer he walks over to join you on the bed, slipping off his sneaker before shifting closer to you. He gives you a light peck on the cheek and replies, "Just out with some friends."

The vague reply makes your heart clench. You didn't want to seem doubtful of your boyfriend but morbid curiosity got the best of you, your mouth was working, forming words before your brain could stop it.

"Who?" You ask simply. It's as if time stops around you for a moment, a thick silence settling over the pair of you, it seems deafening almost. You swallow the lump forming in your throat, threatening to choke you, and ask again, "Who, Bucky?"

He scrunches his face and catches the bridge of his nose between his forefinger and thumb, letting out a defeated sigh.

"You already know who. Steve, Sam and- and-"

"And Edith," You say, completing the sentence for the man, a glower shadowing your features as your mind settles on the woman who'd been capturing so much of Bucky's attention as of late.

"Of course," You scoff. "Funny how she gets to tag along every fucking place you go, Bucky, but you can't be seen at all with your actual girlfriend."

"Doll, please," he begs as you stand up from your shared bed. "Just calm down. You know why we can't be seen together. I don't want to risk you getting hurt because of me."

‘Don’t tell me to calm down! And quit telling me it’s just so you can protect me," you yell. "You've been 'protecting' me for the past year and a half. When am I gonna have a say in you hiding us from the world, huh? When are you going to stop treating me like some embarrassment?!"

Your tone causes Bucky to rise from the bed as well. He begins pacing the floor, agitation clear on his face as his hands move to his hair, giving his chocolate locks a sharp tug.

"Shit, Y/N!" Bucky exclaimed. "I've told you this a million times, I am not ashamed of you. How many fucking times do you want me to say it? How many times do you want me to tell you I love you and only want to be with you? What's even the point when you always assume that I'm some cheating asshole like your ex!"

Your heart lurches at the mention of your ex. From the beginning of your relationship with the super soldier, you'd always been open about your last romantic endeavor. Your ex had been a cheating SOB who couldn't have cared less about your feelings so, of course, it was a bit harder to trust everyone you dated 100% now, the experience had taken it's toll on you.

"Why would you even bring him up, why? To make feel like an idiot? To make feel bad for accusing you? It's hard for me to trust you when you're hanging out with your gorgeous 'friend' all the time while I'm here chugging wine! I'm not blind, I realize I can't compete with her," your voice cracks slightly, moisture wells up in your eyes as the influx of emotions overwhelms you.

"You're acting like an idiot, Y/N! You're so goddamn insecure, it's hard for me even be around you without you picking a fight over something stupid!" He yells in response.

"Well, I'm fucking sorry I'm not like her! I'm not some hot, overly confident bimbo! I'm not funny and flirty, I'm not talented, I'm not a hero, I'm not an agent. I'm just a regular girl who can't hold onto her superhuman boyfriend anymore!"

You collapse to the floor, your hands cradling your head as you start to sob.

"I can't do this right now," you hiccup. "I-I can't be with you right now, James. Ever since you and Edith reconnected at that party i-it's like I don't even exist to you anymore. God, all we ever do now is fight."

Bucky makes his way over to you immediately, sinking down to his knees without hesitation to comfort you, engulfing you in his arms. Hearing his actual name spill from your lips in such a broken tone caused guilt to grip his heart since he was the one causing you so much heartache, even if it was accidental.

"Baby, hush," he coos. "Fuck, I'm so sorry I said that. I didn't mean it, okay?" He rocks you slowly from side to side, easing your stress a bit, helping the tears dissipate from your eyes.

When you'd finally calmed down, you slowly peal your body away from the super soldier. The brunette looked at you, confused as you stood up and stared down into his eyes.

"I meant it, James," You affirm. "I can't be with you until you decide what and who you want. I love you but your feelings have always come first in this relationship. I agreed to be a secret because of you, I put up with you leaving me for Edith but I'm not doing either anymore. You're going to pick what you want right now, James Barnes."

You rub the remaining wetness from your cheeks, your eyes boring into his intensely. "Choose."

"I-I," he starts but doesn't finish. He looks down at his hands instead then mumbles, "I can't tell about us, not yet, Y/N. I'm just not ready. And Edith isn't what you think. She-"

You scoff in disbelief. "And it's back to being about you. Know what? Don't bother, James."

Bucky stands as your words register in his mind, his hand flashing out to grab at your wrist. "Doll, don't go," He whispers. "Please, don't go. I love you, I love you so much more than you can know. I just-"

You snatch away, not giving him a chance to complete his sentence. "Save it, just save your bullshit excuses. You've chosen what you want and it's not me."

Without pause, you walk to the door and open it, you turn back curious to look at Bucky, icy blue eyes capturing your own.

"I'll be staying in Natasha's room until I figure out where to move. My stuff will be out of here tomorrow. Good night, Bucky." You say, your tone strained and defeated.

You walk out and close the door softly behind you. All of your emotions decided to bombard you once again, tears swimming in your eyes causing your vision to blur.

You flop down onto the floor, resting your back against the door as you start to bawl silently. Little did you know, Bucky sat on the bed of your his room and did the same.

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A/N:So some people suggested that I do a part 2 so I did! And of course, there will be a third and final part with a much happier ending 😊 And I'll be posting a masterlist soon so you guys can have my works in one place!

P. S. I'm writing a Natasha x Female!reader fic for my fellow bi girls/lesbians 💕💕💕