#And acknowledging and representing that difficulty is okay

[itsnesss]

𝐰𝐞𝐥𝐜𝐨𝐦𝐞 𝐭𝐨 𝐛𝐚𝐫𝐜𝐞𝐥𝐨𝐧𝐚 | zara malik × fem!reader

summary | fights with zara at the Sekai Taikai, despite their rivalry there is great sexual tension

warnings | content +18, oral sex, rivals to lovers?

word count | 1.3 k

The Sekai Taikai was at its peak, and all eyes were on you. Not only because you were one of the youngest representatives of Cobra Kai, but because this competition was crucial. You had trained furiously, you had pushed your own limits, and now it was time to prove your worth. But there was something else, something that made you nervous, something you hadn't anticipated.

Zara, the champion of the Iron Dragons dojo, was right in front of you. His gaze was cold, confident, and did not leave your figure for a second. The glow of his green kimono made his presence even more intimidating. You knew what it represented: a fight you couldn't lose. But what annoyed you the most was his attitude. Like I'm waiting to see you fall.

"Let's see if Cobra Kai really has something to offer in this tournament," she said with a defiant smile when the two met in the center of the tatami.

They began with an exchange of quick, agile blows, each one calculated to the millimeter. The sound of fists and feet crashing into the air was all you could hear as you focused on combat. But Zara wasn't just skilled, she had that innate confidence that made every move seem perfect. You, on the other hand, couldn't help but feel irritated. Why did she have to be your rival? Why not someone else?

A roundhouse kick from Zara caught you by surprise, hitting you in the side and causing you to stagger backwards. You regained your balance quickly, but the smile on his face never disappeared. You paused for a moment, took a deep breath, and prepared to strike back. The fight was still a tug-of-war, but gradually, the advantage seemed to lean towards her. Every time you managed to take one punch, she responded with two. Your anger increased. Why was she so calm? Why didn't it fail?

The fight reached its climax when, in an unexpected twist, Zara disarmed you with a side kick, sending you to the ground. The scream of the crowd filled the air, but for you there was only the image of Zara raising her arm in victory.

"Welcome to Barcelona, bitch," she said in a mocking tone as she looked down at you, her voice full of arrogance that bothered you. The contempt was evident. Zara had won. And you... no.

You got up with difficulty, trying not to show how defeated you felt. Through it all, something inside you grew. A pure rage, the desire for revenge. But there was also something else, something more insidious, something you didn't want to acknowledge: a spark, a spark that spurred you on to do more than fight. To do something you had never considered.

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Why did the defeat hurt you so much? You could feel the pressure from your fellow Cobra Kai members, the expectations they all had of you. But it wasn't just for them, it was for yourself. You had let yourself win. You had failed her.

You walked out of the locker room, taking a deep breath, when you heard it. Zara was nearby. You recognized her by her laugh, that laugh that made you feel so small. The echo of his voice echoed in your mind, causing your body to tense.

"Everything okay?" He asked, approaching with that calm that overwhelmed you so much.

"I don't need your pity," you replied without turning to look at her.

"Compassion?" Don't worry, I'm not so nice," Zara said, smiling slightly. "I was just seeing if you're done lamenting yet."

Silence fell between the two for a moment, a palpable tension in the air. But it wasn't until you finally turned to her that something else broke loose.

"I'm not going to let you win again," you said, and though the words were harsh, what you really meant was, "I don't want you to beat me ever again."

Zara raised an eyebrow, moving a step closer. His gaze was fixed on yours, and for a second, something changed. The rivalry wasn't just competition, it wasn't just pride. It was something else. Something visceral.

"I'll see you in the next round," she replied, almost whispering.

And then, it happened. Your breathing quickened, your mind didn't understand why, but before you could think about what you were doing, your lips met hers in an unexpected and desperate kiss.

The contact was electric, as if the sparks of battle had moved directly to your skin. Her hands, once firm in their defiant posture, now held you tightly, as if she also felt that current that united them. At first it was just a touch, shy, but then it intensified, as if they had both been waiting for this moment without knowing it.

He pushed you aside just to open the door that was near you, you couldn't make out what place it was but it was empty, at least it was better than going back to the changing rooms where someone could see them.

She soon closed the door behind her and pushed you against the wall, her lips sliding down your neck, her ragged breaths mingling in the air. You felt trapped, but at the same time you didn't want to escape. The rivalry, the desire, everything seemed to collide in that single moment.

Zara looked you in the eye, and for an instant, everything stopped. "Don't get your hopes up," he said in a whisper, but his hands never left your body.

She moans as you deepen the kiss, moving her hands to pull the jacket off your shoulders.

"I really hate you," you say as she takes your breasts in her hands. Through your shirt, she can feel your nipples hardening.

"It looks like that," Zara says with a smile.

She takes off your shirt and kisses your chest. He kneels down and also unbuttons your pants, pulls them down and hides his face between your lips. He licks and sucks your pussy while you squirm on her.

"Zara..." you complain as she brings you closer and closer to your climax.

"Hmm," she moans at you.

You push her head further toward your center and she picks up the pace.

"Fuck, I'm coming now," you say as Zara's tongue brings you to orgasm.

Zara's strong arms keep you from falling while cumming. She stands up and you pull her to you for a hungry kiss.

"You know, I could easily hit you right now," you say between kisses.

"Then you couldn't fuck me," Zara says, "And I know you want to."

You sigh and push her so that her back hits the wall. You pull down her shorts along with her panties and bury her face between her legs. Her thick ones suffocate you while you lick her pussy.

"That's it, honey," he murmured

It was strange, but you didn't want to fight. You had a confused mind and it was difficult for you to form a thought that was not about pleasure.

You wrapped your arms around Zara's thighs and brought her closer. You alternated between licking her dripping pussy and sucking her clit.

You slid two fingers inside her and licked her like a kitten. Your fingers seemed made for her pussy. Its walls tightened around you and he groaned loudly.

"I'm going to." Zara stifled a scream with her own mao just as she came, her cum dripping from your chin to your neck. Its taste was addictive.

Zara grabbed you by the hair and pushed you into her pussy. Their hips stopped brushing your face and you moaned as jets of liquid hit your face.

You found yourself in Zara's arms when she came down from her state of euphoria. She stroked your face with the back of her hand with a smile.

"You know, if you changed dojo we could do this and much more," Zara says between kisses.

"And where is the fun in that?" , you ask him.

She rubs against your thigh as she kisses you. You let her go on until she's desperate to again.

"Why don't you change your dojo, baby?" —

"I would never do that," you say.

[mj-iza-writer]

winged whumpee learning to fly? it doesn't have to be a specific kind of flying animal (like I don't really care if it's a parrot or a bat or something) just.... wings. learning to fly. etc etc.

I imagined an avian/human hybrid. Hope that is okay. I love that hybrid so much.

I wanted to write this in the eyes of people who have disabilities, and how people may interact with them. I think the disabled community needs a lot of awareness. They are important just like everyone else. I wanted to represent the difficulties they may face in a world not made for them. Even people who love them and want to help may have a hard time with pushing too hard. I hope I did well in bringing a little representation to the community.

Whumpee wrapped their wings around themself and fiddled with their feathers.

Caretaker was in a different room preening a few of their feathers before Whumpee's flight lesson.

Whumpee had injured their wings at a young age. The damage happened before they could learn to fly with all of the other young avians. They were behind now.

Caretaker had adopted them after the injuries. Their parents left them after the damages. A normal thing amongst the avian culture Whumpee grew up in. A flightless avian didn't have much to work with. They wouldn't be able to follow the others' migratory patterns if they had to relocate. Even most jobs require flight. They would never survive.

"Are you ready Whumpee?", Caretaker called.

"I don't know, it looks like it's going to rain", Whumpee looked out the window. They were greeted with a beautiful sunny day.

"Does it now?", Caretaker chuckled, "I guess it's good thing we won't melt then."

Whumpee turned to them when they stepped into the room.

"I-I don't want to do this. I fell last time. I might hurt my wings again", Whumpee frowned.

"Your doctor said your wings are ready for flight. Your wings are strong and are able to withstand falling", Caretaker came closer and hugged Whumpee. They wrapped them with their bigger, stronger wings, "we all fall. It's important to get back up and try again."

Whumpee rested their forehead on Caretaker's chest.

"I won't always be here to help you Whumpee", Caretaker ran their hand through Whumpee's feathery hair and rested it on Whumpee's shoulder, "you'll need to know how to fend for yourself."

"Don't talk like that Caretaker. My parents already left me. I don't want to lose anyone else", Whumpee pouted.

"I'm sorry, but it's only fact. I don't want to leave you either, but...."

"I know, but can we stop talking about it", Whumpee interrupted.

Caretaker sighed, "okay.... let's go get into the air then."

Whumpee watched Caretaker get a running start.

Caretaker's strong wings snapped against the wind and they were up.

Whumpee sighed as they unfurled their misshapen small wings, "how am I going to fly with wings like this?"

Another avian flew by and waved at Caretaker.

"No one wants to acknowledge the disabled avian. Everyone believes I should be dead", Whumpee huffed.

Caretaker hovered nearby, their wings flapped slowly to keep them up.

"Then prove them wrong", Caretaker smiled, "prove to them that you have the right to be alive, and to continue living. Prove to yourself that you can do this. Prove to others who have misshapened wings that they can also fly."

Whumpee wiped their eyes and nodded.

"Alright come on", Caretaker encouraged.

Whumpee ran forward a little and worked to flap. They stumbled over some rocks and fell.

"O-ow", Whumpee cried out.

Caretaker hurried to land and help Whumpee.

"Yes that hurts", Caretaker knelt down.

Whumpee's legs were torn up from the rocks. Blood steeped out from several gashes.

"Here let's get you cleaned and bandaged", Caretaker started to help them up, "we can work on taking off later. Let's work on flapping. I'll get you in the air and you can practice flapping and gliding."

"Do we have to?", Whumpee winced, "it really hurts."

"Just for a little bit", Caretaker helped brace Whumpee as they walked back to their house, "I know you can do it."

"Ca-Caretaker, you're not listening to me. My body says no. It doesn't want to", Whumpee argued, "I can't do it right now."

Caretaker paused, "I-I'm sorry Whumpee. Uh, you're right. Let's get you bandaged. We can talk about this after."

Caretaker silently cleaned and patched Whumpee.

"You're mad at me now?", Whumpee whispered, "I-I didn't mean to yell like that. You were only trying to help me. You've always tried to help me. I'm not doing much for myself."

Caretaker cleared their voice.

"I'm not mad at you dear. You were absolutely right in what you said. I was not allowing you to express your needs. I was so set on getting you in the sky I was missing what you were saying. I'm mad at myself for getting out of line", Caretaker set aside their first aid, "I am listening now. How do you want to approach this next attempt at flying?"

"I don't know. It all seems so hopeless", Whumpee sighed.

"It's not hopeless", Caretaker cupped Whumpee's face, "it's hard, not hopeless. We can do hard things. Let's go ahead and rest today because of the injury."

"It's not fair that it has to be so hard though. I didn't ask for this", Whumpee pouted.

"I know, just remember, no one knows how to fly when they start. I fell just as much as you when I first started", Caretaker smiled, "I fell on my face once and broke my nose even. That's why it's crooked. It will take time. I'm here for you and I want to help you."

Whumpee sat outside and watched others flying.

"I don't even know what it feels like up there. I've never gone that high", Whumpee sighed.

"Watching the others?", Caretaker smiled as they sat down.

Whumpee nodded, "I can't imagine how good it feels to be up that high. I was up there once, and didn't get to enjoy it much."

"Yes, you crashed pretty hard that day", Caretaker looked up.

"Do you really think I can fly. My wings are so ugly and misshapened."

Caretaker looked at them again, "I think if you truly want to, you can. You may not be able to get high up, but I think we have a good chance. I want to encourage you to at least keep trying. I know it's hard to see everyone else having an easy time. I can understand how difficult that feels. Your feelings are valid, my dear."

Caretaker stood, "come on. I have an idea."

Caretaker got themself up and hovered just above Whumpee.

"Hold onto my leg", Caretaker grinned, "hold on tight."

"I don't want to fly", Whumpee whimpered.

"You won't have to", Caretaker lifted up a little to keep their altitude, "I want to give you taste of what it feels like up there. You can open your wings if you want, but you don't have to let go of me."

Whumpee looked at them questioningly, but stood and wrapped their arms around Caretaker's leg.

"Woah", Whumpee gasped as they left the ground. They burried their face into Caretaker's leg.

"Doing alright" Caretaker called down as they continued to climb and build altitude, "I'm about to flatten out, so hold on."

"Okay", Whumpee mumbled into the pants.

Caretaker looked around a little.

"You know it's prettier to look. My pant leg isn't why you came up here."

Whumpee peeped up.

"I'm up?", Whumpee gasped.

"Your up", Caretaker chuckled, "this is about the elevation the others were flying at."

"Can we go higher?", Whumpee blurted out bravely.

"Hold on", Caretaker started to climb, "this is about as high as I willingly fly. I won't take you any higher."

Whumpee rested their chin on Caretaker's leg.

"Are you enjoy the ride?", Caretaker peaked back at them.

"It's amazing up here", Whumpee's eyes sparkled, "I can't believe what it looks like down there. The earth looks so different."

"Yes. The city is up ahead", Caretaker pointed out, "we won't go into the city because of how busy the sky is. I can't maneuver very well with you holding onto me."

"Okay", Whumpee watched the city for a few moments until Caretaker had turned away and started back to their home.

"Try to unfurl you wings", Caretaker lowered themself a little.

"Caretaker... I."

"You don't have to let go of me. Just practice a little of the flapping you've learned. Feel what it feels like for your wings to hit the air", Caretaker sighed.

"Won't I mess your thrust up by doing that?", Whumpee frowned as they opened their wings, "that can affect your flight patterns."

"Maybe a little, but it's fine. My wings will keep us up", Caretaker turned to see Whumpee's wings out, "they look good. Turn your left a little up... its lagging a little... yep perfect."

Whumpee worked to beat their wings against the wind.

"You've got perfect form", Caretaker encouraged, "you look great."

"Thanks", Whumpee frowned, "c-can I try something?"

"The clouds don't taste like anything. You can't eat them", Caretaker chuckled, "I've tried."

Whumpee suddenly let go.

"Whumpee", Caretaker yelled as they froze in the air and looked down.

Whumpee was dropping, but they were trying more than ever to stay up.

"Come on... come on", Whumpee cried as the ground came closer and closer.

They looked up and saw that Caretaker was chasing after them.

"Keep flapping Whumpee. I've almost got you", Caretaker yelled, "you have to keep up enough so I can catch you and not crash."

Caretaker needed to catch Whumpee with at least fifty feet space from the ground. That was their hard deck. Anything lower, they risked crashing into the ground and injuring themself and Whumpee.

Whumpee suddenly lifted a little.

"I-I did it", Whumpee yelled.

"Keep doing it", Caretaker yelled as they worked to catch up with Whumpee.

"Brace yourself", Caretaker yelled as they grabbed Whumpee.

Whumpee was grabbed.

Caretaker grunted, at the sudden jar of grabbing Whumpee.

"That hurt", Caretaker grunted again.

Whumpee looked up at them worriedly.

"I'm alright. I'm too old to be doing stuff like this. My rescue mission days are in the past", Caretaker sighed.

"I'm sorry Caretaker. I-I had a moment of bravery, and it was fleeting", Whumpee whispered.

"A little heads up would have been better. Let's try for that next time", Caretaker hovered just above the ground and dropped Whumpee. They landed right next to Whumpee.

Caretaker tiredly sunk to the ground, "ugh... I haven't flown like that in a long time."

"Are you okay?", Whumpee looked at them worriedly, "I'm so sorry."

"I'm alright.... just need a second", Caretaker smiled weakly as they took some deep breaths, "though that could have been handled better, I'm glad you tried. I'm glad you were able to keep yourself up."

"I'm sorry... I really am", Whumpee looked at them worriedly, "I didn't hurt you, did I?"

"Maybe a little. I'm alright. I promise Whumpee", Caretaker opened their arms to get Whumpee to come closer for a hug, "just be a little sore tomorrow."

Whumpee shyly hugged Caretaker.

"I don't want you to be afraid of flying again because of this. You kept yourself up... even if it was momentarily. You did it. This is exactly what we needed to happen. We can build off of this", Caretaker cupped Whumpee's chin gently, "don't lose the smile I saw up there. I think you fell in love with the sky. My plan worked."

Whumpee's lip quivered.

"It's alright", Caretaker smiled, "you were so brave."

Whumpee wiped their eyes and nodded.

"We can try again tomorrow. No promises if I'll be flying though", Caretaker stood up, "I have definitely tired myself out. Let's go get some food."

"Okay", Whumpee followed.

"You got yourself up", Caretaker stated excitedly as they followed Whumpee into the house.

"I did", Whumpee turned excitedly.

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[loki-us]

Okay I’m rewatching season 1 and I saw this lovely scene mentioned by mimisempai and I just needed to post an analysis of it because I think it’s such a pivotal moment in their relationship and it drives me crazy every single time.

Before putting Loki in the time cell, Mobius was unwilling to listen to Loki and thought everything Loki was saying was just a lie to try and manipulate him. Now, after discovering the truth on Renslayer’s tempad, Mobius is much more willing to listen. He’s still understandably wary though, and directly mentions that concern to Loki. On his part, Loki considers Mobius’ words, understanding his difficulty in trusting him and recognizing that Mobius thinks Loki is just trying to deceive him again. But now, Loki knows that their dynamic has changed beyond just analyst-interrogating-variant, that this is no longer representative of what they are to each other. Loki considers for a moment, then offers up a different interpretation, one that’s now more honest and meaningful to the both of them (“How about the word of a friend?”)

Recognizing that Loki now sees him as more than just someone he can deceive, Mobius explicitly and kindly offers Loki his help. Earlier, Mobius was clearly upset (and perhaps a touch jealous) about Loki’s concern for Sylvie, but how he seems to accept that Sylvie is important to him and puts all of that aside in order to help Loki save her. Mobius doesn’t want Loki to be in pain and is willing to accept his own disappointment and Loki’s attention being directed elsewhere as long as it makes Loki happy.

And then, despite Loki escaping from Mobius and betraying his trust in episode 2, Mobius delivers probably the most compassionate and affirming thing anyone has ever said to Loki. It’s gentle praise, it’s unwavering support, it’s an acknowledgement of everything Mobius sees in Loki that the God of Mischief never saw in himself. This is the moment where Loki and Mobius finally realize what they mean to each other and commit themselves to the importance, trust, and sincerity of that relationship. And Loki is forever changed by it.

[flacius1bombasticus]

hey Tumblr, today I will try to explain what the reading in the new chapter meant

So this is how the spread looked like from Anya's perspective

However, something that caught my eye is that Melinda sees these cards backwards.

She is looking at the cards from her perspective (which should be super confusing for Anya). To her things look like this:

(There's 7 cards. I googled 7 cards spread online to try to find one that has its cards arranged in this shape but didn't find anything serious. So I'll just provide the meaning of the cards and we'll figure it out together.)

"I wanna know how to be friends with sy-on boy!" was Anya's 'question'

Death: Death means an ending. And with that, a new beginning. Damian and Anya used to fight a lot, and this might mean that they must cease all that and begin again in their relationship.

Reversed Ace of Cups: Normally, the ace of cups is all about love and purity and new feelings. Its reversed meaning could signify that these kids still experience trouble in their relationship. This could also be coming from Damian, as he is hiding his feelings from Anya.

Ten of pentacles: The culmination of the way of the pentacles that's all about material things and wealth and happiness. This card is also about family. Maybe Anya will invite Damian to her place and he'll see what a happy family looks like and be like 😧😧😧 there is another way to live life

The star reversed (I commented on this at the bottom of this post): The star means hope. As this woman noted, it could also signify Stella stars. And it's reversed meaning could be that Anya doesn't get any haha. Well, regarding her relationship with Damian, one of them might lose hope along the way. Difficulty.

Three of swords: The infamous tarot cards, depicting a heart pierced by three swords. It represents heartbreak and suffering related to communication. This would only fuel the fire of their previous fight.

Three of wands reversed: Its upright meaning is about making plans, rapid growth and looking ahead. Because it is reversed, things only seem more miserable for these kids. The plan failed and Anya doesn't have the vigour that she used to have anymore.

Four of cups: This card represents contemplation. (Done by twilight possibly, lol) This card is also about not being able to appreciate the things you already have. The world seems horrible to you, but it is only inside your mind. So I personally believe this means that the plan of getting these two kids all buddy-buddy will kind of fail and they'll have to try another way. (Have Yor befriend Melinda they already get along so well)

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(Also man I have no idea how her spread works like a past present future reading should look like this:

Yet she claims four of cups is Anya's present and the star reversed is her future?

It's weird. Can someone who uses this huge 7 card spread help me understand? I tried my best

Still, the manga pointed out this interpretation and so I will acknowledge it.

Fours of cups as Anya's present state: She's contemplating? Kind of delusional? Maybe. I don't know, she clearly doesn't realize he's into her. She's thinking about her friendship schemes...

The star reversed as Anya's future state: Hopelessness. As Melinda said, she'll probably lose another Stella star. It could also mean bad luck... Uff

Okay, that's the reading, thank you❤️

[rainydetectiveglitter]

🌟 Hindrances to Self-Expression and Clear Communication 🌟

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Much attention is given to the positive attributes associated with celestial placements, it's equally crucial to acknowledge the difficulties they may pose. One such area is effective communication and self-expression, which can be influenced by various aspects and planetary positions in our birth charts.

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Let's explore some astrological factors that might impede clear self-expression and communication:

🌟 Mercury in Retrograde: When Mercury is retrograde in your natal chart, it's like having a communication hiccup. While this is a common occurrence and happens for several weeks multiple times a year, its presence in your birth chart can make these periods feel more impactful. You may notice that during Mercury retrogrades, there are more misunderstandings or miscommunications in your life. Ideas that seemed clear suddenly become muddled, and conversations that should flow smoothly feel like swimming upstream. However, it's essential to remember that Mercury retrograde also offers an opportunity to refine your communication skills. It encourages you to double-check information, be more patient when listening, and find alternative means of expression when words fail.

🌟 Challenging Mercury Aspects: The aspects formed between Mercury and other planets in your chart can significantly shape your communication style. While harmonious aspects like trines and sextiles can bestow the gift of eloquence and ease of expression, challenging aspects such as squares and oppositions can introduce hurdles. For example, Mercury square Saturn may manifest as persistent self-doubt regarding your ideas or a fear of criticism. It could lead to perfectionism in your communication, making you hesitant to speak until you're absolutely sure of every detail. Overcoming this challenge involves building confidence in your words and learning that it's okay to make mistakes in communication.

🌟 Mercury in the 12th House: If Mercury is tucked away in the 12th house of your birth chart, your mind may be a treasure trove of profound thoughts and insights. However, the 12th house's ethereal and secretive nature can make it challenging to bring these ideas into the light of day. You might find yourself wrestling with a desire to keep your thoughts hidden, especially if they involve sensitive or spiritual matters. This placement often prompts introspection and a rich inner world, but it can sometimes lead to difficulties in expressing your wisdom to others. The key here is to find a balance between introspection and communication, allowing your unique insights to benefit those around you.

🌟 Retrograde Planets in the 3rd House: The 3rd house governs communication, and when a planet (especially Mercury or other communication-related planets) resides there in retrograde motion, it can influence your communicative tendencies. You might lean more toward introversion, finding solace in self-expression through writing or introspective conversations rather than large social gatherings. During times of retrograde planets in this house, you may notice that your communication style becomes more reflective or cautious. It's important to recognize that these periods offer a chance to delve deeper into your thoughts and express them with a unique, thoughtful perspective.

🌟 Strained Aspects to the Ascendant: The Ascendant represents how you present yourself to the world and plays a vital role in self-expression. When planets form challenging aspects (such as squares or oppositions) with your Ascendant, it can influence how others perceive you and, in turn, affect your self-expression. For instance, a Mercury square Ascendant aspect could lead to internal conflicts between your inner thoughts and how you outwardly express them. You might feel that people misinterpret your intentions or that you struggle to convey your ideas accurately. This challenge often pushes you to work on aligning your inner and outer selves, refining your presentation to the world, and finding ways to communicate more authentically.

🌟 Saturn in the 3rd House: Saturn's presence in the 3rd house of communication can instill a disciplined and organized approach to how you express yourself. You may carefully choose your words, structure your sentences meticulously, and take communication seriously. However, Saturn's influence can also lead to self-censorship or a fear of speaking out. You might worry excessively about making mistakes or saying the wrong thing, which can create a mental barrier to free and spontaneous expression. Overcoming this challenge involves balancing the need for structure and precision with the freedom to express your thoughts genuinely.

🌟 Moon Square or Opposition Mercury: These aspects can create emotional challenges when trying to articulate thoughts and feelings. The square or opposition between the Moon, representing emotions, and Mercury, governing communication, may lead to internal conflicts. You might struggle to express your emotions clearly, leading to misunderstandings with others. Learning to balance your emotional reactions with effective communication is key to overcoming this challenge.

🌟 Mars Square Mercury: Mars square Mercury can introduce impatience and impulsiveness into your speech. You may find it challenging to think before you speak, which can result in conflicts or misunderstandings. This aspect often indicates a need to develop greater self-control and mindfulness in communication.

🌟 Detriment or Fall of Gemini or Virgo Ruler: If Mercury, which rules Gemini and Virgo, is placed in detriment (e.g., Mercury in Sagittarius) or fall (e.g., Mercury in Pisces), it can signify challenges in self-expression. Detriment means that Mercury is in a sign opposite to the ones it rules (Gemini and Virgo), potentially leading to difficulties in adapting to the communication styles associated with those signs. Recognizing and adapting to these challenges can help you express yourself more effectively.

🌟 Limited Air Sign Presence: Air signs (Gemini, Libra, Aquarius) are associated with communication, intellect, and impartial analysis. If your birth chart lacks significant air sign placements, it may imply difficulties in approaching situations objectively and communicating ideas logically. You might find it challenging to detach from emotions and engage in rational discourse. Working on developing your intellectual and communicative skills can help mitigate this limitation

🌟 Mercury in Hard Aspect to Neptune: A challenging aspect between Mercury and Neptune, such as a square or opposition, can introduce confusion and misunderstandings in communication. Neptune's influence may cloud your thoughts and make it challenging to express ideas clearly. It's crucial to strive for clarity and ensure that your message isn't lost in a sea of ambiguity.

🌟 Mercury in Hard Aspect to Pluto: An aspect like a square or opposition between Mercury and Pluto can indicate intense and potentially secretive communication tendencies. You may have a deep desire to uncover hidden truths or delve into taboo subjects. However, this intensity can also lead to power struggles in conversations, making it essential to balance your urge for depth with open and respectful communication.

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These astrological challenges in speaking and self-expression are valuable opportunities for personal growth. They encourage you to develop self-awareness, improve your communication skills, and find ways to express yourself authentically and effectively. By acknowledging and working on these challenges, you can become a more confident and articulate communicator, enhancing your ability to connect with others and navigate life's complexities.

[amorphous-binary]

RE: Starscream

Everything below the 'read more' may be considered a spoiler for the batch of new episodes (season two, episodes 1-9) which dropped in June 2024.

Proceed with caution!

I. foreword

I recently went and rewatched the new episodes. I had seen a little bit about Starscream being a lil bastard and I was curious.

I did not watch everythin in chronological order though! I went based on my own interest — by how interesting the episode synopses sounded.

II. Season One of Earthspark

A large part of S1 Earthspark was the end of the Autobot-Decepticon War. The Terrans were positioned as a bridge between the two factions and humanity. There is fighting, of course. Lots of skirmishes and such. But by and by, there is no War. Only Autobots and GHOST. The Decepticons are not in a position to serve as an opposition for much of the season. Their forces, like the Autobots' own, are scattered.

Another big theme of S1 was picking up the pieces of the War — good and bad. There was a spirit of atonement. Optimus rounding up other Cybertronians on GHOST's behalf was part of his atonement. Megatron assisting was part of his. The Terrans, per Megatron, also have some part to play in this (and which Thrash is frustrated with). And likewise, Starscream represents another, much more difficult part of atonement: accepting that not everyone will be willing to forgive and forget what was done to them.

Season One went to great lengths to emphasise that Decepticons are not inherently bad, just as Autobots are not inherently good. It did not always deliver this message cleanly or without narrative difficulty, but it was obvious the main anatagonist in S1 was not the Decepticons, but GHOST.

That's why we had episodes which focused on the Terrans interacting with the Cons. On Swindle and his brother. On Bumblebee and Breakdown's friendship. On Hashtag emphasising with Starscream.

Thus far, Earthspark has been a bit greyer than previous television entries in the franchise.

And Season 2, despite being okay so far, has gone against that. The Decepticons, after just one year, are now back to being more villainous than ever. And all for a new motivation that was never hinted at (based on my admittedly hazy recollection).

III. Starscream

S1 Starscream wnated nothing to do with Megatron. His aspiration at the time was escape first from GHOST and then from Earth. Fine, reasonable, whatever.

His scene with Hashtag was very sympathetic; acknowledgement that whatever pain he suffered st the hands of Megatron was a real and valid experience. Heart-warming, yes, but that acknowledgement wouldn't be enough to turn Starscream over to the 'good' side. Fair enough.

I have seen some people say that the only reason some fans dislike S2 is because Starscream is back to being a villain. I have to disagree. People dislike S2 Starscream because his actions make no sense based on the themes and characterisation of S1.

For me, the callousness of his execution of the Chaos Terrans came out of nowhere. It would be fine in a series like Animated or Prime, but Earthspark showed Starscream to be a sympathetic character who is rightfully suspicious of any haven Megatron offers to him.

Starscream's execution of Spitfire and Aftermath suited Starscream as a general character.

I can see his interpretation of "Take care of yourself". That makes sense.

His wanting to reformat Earth into New Cybertron makes sense, too. The Cons' best scientist (Shockwave) was unable to even so much as confirm that Cybertron still exists. From what we see, no one (Bot, Con or otherwise) has the capability to travel through space. The reformat also makes sense if we presume that Starscream was corrupted somehow — either by assuming leadership (which has been a key part of his general character) or by working with Chaos Energy.

It also makes sense that he would kill others to achieve his goals. He's Starscream.

But for specifically Earthspark Starscream, it is just ... jarring. I would not be so bothered by it if this version of Starscream showed some hint of the sympathetic portrayal from S1. A moment of hesitance. Maybe deciding not to go through with the execution at the last minute because he saw Hashtag or something.

I dunno.

Like, if S1 Earthspark had not gone to such a great length to humanise the Decepticons, I wouldn't be as frustrated as I am now writing this.

Why bother humanisng them if you are just going to fall back on the "They are all actually 100% evil lol" schtick?

I am not saying that humanisation = morally good characters. Soundwave's affection with Ravage (feeding her energon treats and petting and holding her as one would an actual cat) are humanising details, but I have never once went "Hm! :) Redemption Arc! Soundwave!".

Starscream's sudden heel-face-turn was immensely disappointing, but I did enjoy a couple of this drop's episodes.

[sutille]

okay so like, yapping but in a VERY YAPPING SENSE. like, a lot. I'm doing this to discover how i feel about the whole s2 stuff.

let's start with saying i know nothing about lol lore, so i can't really analyse it from that point. I'll be doing this from the overall sociopolitical context cuz doing this from every relationship and character's pov was going to be hell.

l think this is super important to adress because 1)i love arcane because of its sociopolitical context, especially since i'm constantly educating myself in whatever i can to understand how to fight this awful system, and 2) it influences heavily every character and their relationships (note that i still have a lot to learn and other people could do this a thousand times better, and i assume the responsibility of adressing such themes, clarifying that i do NOT stand for fascism or capitalism bc fuck all that)

so, we started by watching the damage caused by jinx at the council. after the hopelessness felt after s1, it feels like a war was inevitable. we were seeing what came after a LOT of wars (direct source: uncle heimmerdinger), and we were just at the brink of another.

from piltover's point, they see Zaun/undercity as enemies. "they" have killed their leaders (which represent them) and made, time and time again, attacks to their commodities. we don't see much of the people who live in Piltover, only the families who have power and the enforcers (which i see fitting, since Piltover is, literally, built on the suffering of people and that requires a group of wealthy and powerful people to lead and make it work, backed up by an institution that enforces their ideals and needs to stay on top). we can only focus on them when there is something really violent happening and they are directly affected.

on the other hand, Zaun is portrayed with all its people. with a variety of groups which believe in something (power through money, a symbol of rebellion like jinx, community and alternative ways of life like the fireflies (still rebellion but with a different focus, the ideal of zaun)) and/or are sick from all the shimmer or gases created by the waste of Piltover. this leads to fragmentation and difficulty to organise, until Sevika, Isha and Jinx, become the core organisers (the last one unwillingly) of a resistance with a symbol with previous legitimacy and after the oppressive actions of Piltover have, undoubtedly, cornered them all.

as we keep going through the episodes, we see Ambessa coveting power through the fear and hate from people in Piltover, looking for weapons and understanding she can't do everything directly, lest she encounters resistance in this new wnd fragile space she needs to dominate. so, she funds and stages the attack at the speech thingy, then uses Caitlyn, someone who has lost a lot and is in a position of power and "trust" for "protecting Piltover".

so, we see war. full blown "peace-keeping occupation" (as caitlyn once mentions) on Zaun, using chemical weapons, enforcers (acab) and brute force in general. all because "they have to protect Piltover", on the false assumption that every person in the undercity is dangerous to them just by existing, refusing to acknowledge the conditions that would lead to a revolt, all because they are afraid, hurt and grieving.

then there's viktor. he serves as another symbol, but not quite as jinx, since he can cure and show some "divine" characteristics. he builds a safe haven for people, both from Piltover and Zaun (but mainly Zaun), where they can access everything, at the cost (they aren't conscious about) of Viktor inhabiting them. they are, essentially, a hive mind. also, his very existence infects life, making it all not really "natural", but something made to the image of what he deems "perfection". also, i think i don't need to mention the dangers of looking at anyone who is not in this hive mind as "less evolved".

this is really well crafted. this gives a lot to work with (i mean, i love how they portray the horrors of war in children and its effects, not only in s1, but here with some scenes, but mainly with Isha). what bugs me is that, even if people unite to fight a common enemy, this does not erase history, especially one as violent as the one between Piltover and Zaun. this had been portrayed with a lot of nuance in the first acts, but then it wasn't? i mean, with Vi and Sevika, heck even Caitlyn. it just felt, to me, that war was happening, but all this context was dropped to a secondary spot, so there was extreme violence - medium¿ peace - working on it but conflict resolved ✌️.

still, even if it is on a secondary place, it is addressed in subtle ways i really like. i guess i just really love how they show the pain violence causes, even if it is for the reason of dismantling the systems of oppression (which i can totally see and agree as "defending humanity"). in the final battle, all the people who died, so quickly, it is so realistic it hurts. how fragile we are and all those ones who we lose at the hands of an arrow or a bullet, that is realistic. and i hate it (the thing itself, not in the series). i hate how... disposable? human life can be to the eyes of people like Ambessa. we also get to see that they have lives, they are not just some random who spawned specifically to fight.

i left stuff like the black rose and others relevanfout bc i need sleep

other stuff

pacing? i mean, they did what they could ig. there was a LOT happening, so a lot of individual stuff got glossed over in favor of the overarching plot, and that is not cool. but i enjoyed it in general, was always at the edge of my sit.

caitvi. i love them, but i have to agree w people that their relationship was a bit rushed? like, they really need to talk a lot about the stuff they did that hurt each other. the sex scene just bothered me because i'm ace, but i know people fuck in really weird places? let the sesbians live ig

timebomb. loved it. I'm a sucker for aus where almost everything's better. jinx and ekko's relationship is really complex and i like that they delved into it.

mel's storyline left me with so many questions. it felt rushed really. don't like that, but love the concept of it.

jayvik. loved it. i think the writers gave them the spotlight and it was really satisfying how they ended up. i can totally see them in a qpr (my aroace ass projecting) for eternity.

singed storyline. loved it but i genuinely didn't understand how the heck did his daughter survived.

jinx. nah, she ain't dead. it would be really uninspiring? sad? to think that the only rest for someone who is mentally ill is death. but i could get it from a narrative standpoint. so I'm okay with it either way.

music. incredible. loved it. animation, majestic. it's awesome.

open endings are hard to get. i think i love just as much as i don't like how much stuff left unsaid or shown was so so freaking weird. so, neutral as in "both sides have a lot of arguments".

the thing with making arcane the canon? fuck them the fandom makes what is canon. i mean, it's a series, who's going to tell you that you can't take the other lol lore as canon? a random from the internet? look at the fnaf fandom, we don't know what's canon so anything can be so.

heimmerdinger was so different from having built a place from the bottom up and not viceversa:( love him.

in conclusion, i really liked s2. there were some really big things i have issues with, but i enjoyed the experience. I'm not some judge over if it was genuinely good or not, so i don't think i need to get on the boat of "it was trash" or "it was perfection"

[julie09tarot]

Q: I am disabled and my caretaker (my mother) is getting old. I'm really, really afraid of what I'll do once she dies. I manage to work part-time, I think I can financially support myself, but emotionally I am a mess. What can I do?

This reading doesn’t offer easy answers, but it does reflect where you are: caught between fear, effort, and the unknown. The Queen of Pentacles reversed acknowledges that right now, self-care and emotional security feel fragile. The Eight of Pentacles shows that you’re working—on yourself, on your business, on preventing future suffering. But then comes The Fool—a reminder that no amount of preparation can give you certainty, only the ability to take life moment by moment.

The Osho Zen cards, "Rebirth" and "Mind," bring two contrasting messages. "Mind" reflects the overwhelming mental noise, the spiraling fear, the exhaustion of trying to think your way out of something emotional. "Rebirth," however (and also The Fool), suggests that something new is forming, new beginnings—even within your pain. You are not static. The fear is not permanent. But to move through it, you will have to allow something in you to shift.

Breaking Down the Reading

Queen of Pentacles Reversed – Feeling Emotionally and Practically Unprepared

This card reflects the deep insecurity you feel about your ability to take care of yourself. It makes sense that your mother’s eventual death feels impossible to bear—you see her as the foundation that keeps you from falling.

Instead of trying to feel "ready" for a future loss (which isn’t possible), what small ways can you begin to build a sense of self-trust now? Not in some grand, "I will be completely independent" way, but in micro-moments:

When do you feel most stable?

What are small things you already do that support you?

Where have you handled things before, even when you thought you couldn’t?

Eight of Pentacles – You Are Already Doing the Work, Even If It Feels Small

This card is about consistent effort. The fear won’t disappear overnight. The emotional resilience you seek won’t arrive in a grand revelation.

But you are already building it—slowly, imperfectly, by showing up to your life even when it feels unbearable. Every day that you work, every moment you hold this fear and keep going, is part of your foundation.

You don’t have to have the answers right now. You just have to keep showing up.

The Fool – You Cannot Plan Your Way Out of Grief, But You Can Trust Yourself to Walk Through It

The Fool is not naive. He is open. He knows that no matter what happens, he will take the next step when it arrives.

This is what your future self needs—not a solution, not a guarantee that you’ll be okay, but a trust that you will continue to take one step at a time, just as you are now.

Osho Zen: "Mind" and "Rebirth" – When Thinking Becomes the Cage

"Mind" represents the mental torture of trying to think your way out of an emotional experience. Your fear of your mother dying isn’t just about grief—it’s about what will happen to you, who you will become, what life will feel like afterward.

But this is a moment where the mind cannot help. No amount of strategizing will remove the fact that loss is part of life. The mind wants a solution, but what it really needs is to trust that you will find the next step when the time comes.

And that brings us to "Rebirth." This card suggests that you are not as emotionally stagnant as you believe. You are already moving through this. Your ability to name this fear, to actively seek support, to keep going despite it—that is growth.

Reflection Questions to Gently Explore This Fear

Where in my life have I survived something I once thought I couldn’t?

What are small ways I can begin trusting myself to handle difficulty, even if imperfectly?

What if my future self is stronger than I imagine right now?

How can I engage with my mother in a way that feels meaningful now, rather than focusing on future loss?

How can I allow myself to sit with this fear without making it my entire reality?

Affirmations for This Moment

I do not need to have all the answers. I only need to take the next step when it arrives.

I am not as fragile as my fear tells me I am. I have already survived more than I thought I could.

I can feel deeply without losing myself.

A Zen Perspective: The Wind Cannot Be Held

Zen does not deny suffering. It does not say, "Don’t be afraid." Instead, it says: "Hold the fear gently, but do not grip it too tightly. Let it exist, but let it move."

Imagine standing in a field with the wind rushing past. If you try to grab the wind, contain it, stop it from moving, it will only slip through your fingers. But if you let it flow, let it move through you, let it pass as it must, you remain standing.

Your fear is the wind. You cannot hold it forever, nor do you need to. It is here now, but it will shift. And you will still be standing.

A Final Thought, If I May

You are not waiting to become someone who can handle this. You already are that person. The version of you who will face the future is built by what you are doing now—by sitting with this fear, by showing up to your life, by trying.

The work is not to be fearless. The work is to trust that you will keep moving, even through the fear. And you will.

You already are.

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[mt-lowercase-m-derogatory]

I really love this post, and if I better understood why, I could explain it in shorter terms than I'm about to.

There is something pure about how well the idea of "failure standards" is separated out.

A part of me consistently tries to parse out what mood people feel is "right" for their recollections, and that part of me first just stumbled on "I can do all these really cool things" and just put a lil 🙂 (slight smile) in my mind.

There is the ghost of effort from people who would feel like they failed, but it feels like it's okay. Something was gained, and it might have been a better experience for everyone with a different understanding of people and goals... But the impression is that it turned out alright. It's like there very well might be relevant things "out of frame" that carry a very different mood, but that's not here. That's not this.

...

I've been experiencing some very different speech problems, especially in certain contexts and in the past few years, and reading this is making me realize a whole lot about them. I think the fact that I'm not actively parsing it as "not how I feel about it" makes it easier for me to compare and contrast it to my own difficulties.

(more personal stuff under the cut if anyone's interested)

I feel like I have completely opposite speech issues: I cannot do "automatic" speech tasks most of the time, but word-centered "conscious" tasks are easy.

Echolalia, single words that would communicate something important or direct attention well, singing along, or repeating/reconveying a meaning need complete focus for me.

I find it extremely easy to sensibly use complicated words and speech frameworks and keep track of all their implications and meanings.

I can hold the totality of a set of words in my heart and feel my mind racing the entailments and metaphors in them... But I find it very difficult to just... Not use them. To talk about something only in terms of signifiers already established in discussion, tracking "what gesture a word has been used and acknowledged to represent" without a framework of a thousand words.

It's not about needing to stick to dictionary definitions at all, it's about... "Semantic" meaning, the meaning that the actual significance of words represents, and not the fact that someone is saying them.

It's like if you pointed at a ball and an animal understood that you are putting the ball in focus, but not that it means you want to play with it/have it fetched/give it to the animal.

So I know this "Be careful what you say" post is an older post, but I just wanted to show you what making a lot of progress as a "nonverbal from birth" person can look like. Regarding speech.

I don't have regressive autism, my inability to speak was there since, well, forever.

So. I was put in a lot of therapies. Speech therapy to 1. learn sign language and handle an AAC device, 2. to understand spoken language (I didn't understand spoken language until I was 3), and 3. to get more conscious of what my throat does, etc. Music therapy because I always loved music and tried to hum along to songs even back when I didn't understand language.

At some point they checked if I could say single letters or words, etc. And so on. They/we tried a lot.

So, what's the result for me personally now?

I can sing along to songs as long as I know the lyrics by heart and don't have to think about what my mouth does.

I can sometimes say single words as long as I don't have to think about what my mouth does (it doesn't work if someone says "Hey, say [word]").

I can sing melodies using vowels (a, e, i, o, u), as long as these melodies don't contain words.

I have echolalia - which makes sense because echolalia is "automatic" too and not a conscious effort to speak.

So I can do ALL of these really cool things after years of therapy..........

But I still can't speak. At least I can't communicate via speech. After all these years where people tried so much, I still can't speak.

So much for learning how to do something if you just try hard enough ☝🏼

[silverfoxlou]

Okay so I have somewhat articulated some of my thoughts. Sorry in advance if I waffle or don’t make any sense or repeat what Ive said before lol. Also a disclaimer these are my thoughts and interpretations I am not saying anyone has to agree with what I think and I’m not saying what my thoughts and interpretations are fact.

Okay so my thought process regarding the ladder merch starts back in 2020 when we got Walls and we got OTB and to keep things shorter the lyric I’m going to focus most on is “It’s a solo song and it’s only for the brave” I think as a collective the majority of the fandom have accepted the queer connotations of the song, and to me the song is definitely gay I don’t see any other possible meaning behind it, and the lyric I mentioned to me is a reflection of how most queer people especially in the beginning of their journey as a queer person and accepting their feelings, sexuality and gender identity in some cases feel alone and feels like they have to go through the journey alone and you have to be brave to face any backlash, homophobia etc from the people around you, and also to touch on the lyrics “And they’ll say, I told you so, come on when you know you know” I think this part in particular is about speculation about people’s sexuality in particular and when someone comes out and people react by saying I told you, so and so is gay and I think “when you know you know” could also be in regards to young queer people and I’ve often heard people say you’re too young to know you’re gay etc, so I think that lyric could also mean that which links back to the lyric “it’s a solo song and it’s only for the brave”. I could write so much more about Only The Brave but moving on to LT:Live From London which happened December 2020 during lockdown and where Louis performed COACOC for the first time (still cannot believe it’s not on streaming smh), the lyrics I’m going to be focusing on is the lyrics “can’t get through the glass” and the entire second verse “I can hear you, howlin' 'til your lungs hurt so let this be your comfort you're not the only one, no. In a strange way, we're all in this together, been this way forever you’re not the only one”. To me the “can’t get through the glass” is pretty self explanatory and I think it’s in regards to a glass closet for anyone who doesn’t know what a glass closet is, it is when the sexual orientation or gender identity of an individual is known to many but not publicly acknowledged or spoken about. And what I have interpreted the entire second verse to me is finding a queer community who have/are going through the same things that the individual is going through and they are able to find comfort in the fact that they are not alone and there are people understand the feelings and emotions in the journey as a queer person.

Okay now finally getting to the merch we first saw the ladder merch during the 369 merch drop on 28th April 2021 - we got a few different designs during this drop there were quite a few pieces: one was the boy climbing the ladder and spray painting the iconic smiley, there was also the sweatshirt with what looked like an explosion and in the middle was the ladder and the boy surround by portals and shapes tbh I still haven’t made up my mind and put my thoughts together about what that could represent lol, there was a pretty pink hoodie that had a doorway and in the design there were multiple doorways in the door kinda like in cartoons where the character will open the door and there’s more doors but I related it back to copy lol and I also thought it could possibly be representing (idk if this is the right word to use) obstacles and difficulties in the journey that are slowing you down and preventing you to getting to the other side of the door and on the back of the hoodie it was once again the ladder and the boy, the iconic visual of the ladder and breaking the glass was also a part of this drop, and the first time I saw the merch it reminded me of the walls music video and copy because of the lyric “can’t get through the glass” and the boy is breaking through the glass and it reminded me of `Walls because it looks like on the other side of the glass was desert and in the walls mv there is a scene where Louis is just staring at himself in the glass walls. So I think that entire drop was kinda like a break through?

And to link all of this to the Queer x Design book that made my brain go in to overdrive lol it says in the book - “it depicts people climbing the ladder out of the well of loneliness” and my brain instantly went to All This Time in particular the lyrics “our eyes meet and I can tell that you’re the same as me” and also the lyrics “but the friends we make, the love it takes Is worth, is worth, is worth the pain. The friends we make, the love it takes is worth, is worth, is worth it all this time” which I think links back to what I mentioned earlier and finding friends in the queer community who have shared/ similar experiences as you and the journey you went on and all the obstacles you came across, all the hurt and pain you experienced was worth it in the end because you found people who are the same as you and understand and get you.

I haven’t included any links to the merch I’m referencing so I really hope you know what I’m talking about but this is what I’ve managed to articulate at the moment there’s still so much more I want to say but if I’m able to I’ll maybe share more :)

Oooh thank you, I enjoyed reading this.

I definitely agree with how you’ve interpreted the 369 merch drop. And the link between All This Time and the ladder in the queer design book. That idea also kind of permeates the whole album, about how finding community and relying on friendships is important.

[psychics4unet]

Hi

Could I ask you for a second guidance of Egyptian sand please ?

So every thing is going too shît, and money is the only thing that makes me hang on right now but I feel like professionally wise too is going to shite so could you advise me something with the Egyptian sand ?

Thank you

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As I read the sand, three symbols emerged that offer guidance for your current challenges.

The first symbol resembles a storm cloud ⛈️, representing turmoil and obstacles. This indicates that you are experiencing significant challenges in various aspects of your life. The storm cloud signifies feelings of uncertainty and frustration, reminding you that it’s okay to acknowledge these emotions and seek clarity.

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The third symbol appears as a seed 🌱, representing potential and growth. This signifies that even amidst the difficulties, there is an opportunity for renewal and transformation. The seed suggests that investing in your personal and professional development can lead to positive outcomes. It’s a reminder to focus on small steps toward growth, as they can lead to significant changes over time.

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[whatsinnelleshead]

It’s Raining in Quezon City

It’s raining in Quezon City and I am looking outside my window then I realized….

Life is a complicated path filled with ups and downs. Throughout my life, I've realized that the beauty of life may be compared to rain - soft and pleasant at times, stormy and powerful at others. Tears are a fundamental aspect of our human experience, just as rain is a natural component of the Earth's cycle. I used to assume that displaying vulnerability or crying was a sign of weakness, but I now realize that it is acceptable to weep sometimes. Tears may cleanse our hearts and provide solace during terrible times, just as rain does for the Earth.

Accepting the analogy between life and rain has helped me to accept the highs and lows of life. Rainfall may represent periods of restoration and expansion, much as pleasurable events in life offer us happiness and contentment. Stormy weather, on the contrary, could suggest difficulties and obstacles, like the difficulties we face on our own paths. Accepting the natural course of both rain and tears has taught me to value the complete range of emotions that makes us human beings, recognizing that it is through these various experiences that we genuinely grow as individuals.

In addition, experiencing life through the lens of rain has taught me the importance of emotional expression. Tears, like rain, assist in cleansing the Earth of pollutants and allow us to find consolation inside ourselves. Emotional load and pain can result from suppressing our sentiments. Permitting ourselves to weep when we need to allow us to experience emotional release, which leads to a restored sense of enlightenment and calmness. This revelation has changed my perception of tears from a sign of weakness to an important part of emotional self-care.

It has been a great discovery for me to compare the beauty of life to rain and to accept that it is okay to cry sometimes. Understanding that life, like rain, contains both happy and sad times. It has helped me understand the variety and complexities of human experiences. I've learned to acknowledge my feelings and emotional well-being by understanding the purpose of tears in our life. 

The beauty of life is not in the lack of problems, but in our capacity to accept and develop through them, just as rain maintains and generates the world around us.

It’s raining in Quezon City; I realized these things. :)

[aliceward]

Dream about Candle Flame

What is the Biblical Meaning of Dreaming of Candles?

If there is a candle in your dream, it suggests that you simply are on the correct path to grasp what steps you need to attain enlightenment. You have lit up the candle, which indicates taking responsibility for seeking spiritual knowledge. All it requires now could be an action or initiative forward. If pursuing spirituality through religion, talk along with your spiritual leader or guru about ways to move closer to finding that divine light within (enlightenment).

Dream about Candle Flame

If you dream of a cake with unlit candles on it, your subconscious tells you that something important has been missing from your life. It suggests that while things seem bleak now, they’ll restore eventually, so don’t surrender hope! You’re also afraid that it might be too late to make up for the loss that has occurred in life, but there is no need to worry - the journey won’t have an on-the-spot reward at the top of it all. However, if everything else is okay and feels good, then perhaps what was lost will return in time.

If instead one or more lit candles appear on a cake in dreams shared by many folks worldwide and across cultures alike, it might mean something else altogether.

If the candle in your dream is already lit after you saw it, it is not such a positive sign. It could mean that although these challenges are difficult to beat on their own, you rely too heavily on spiritual guidance or outside influence to go through them. Work towards independence so that if things do ever get tough again, you will be able to trust yourself and keep going with no help from others.

In dreams, seeing candles shining brightly represents hope. A dream where many candles are present foreshadows special ceremonies or happy events to return soon in your life! This symbol is indicative of the darkness inside you which will be overcome with time and help from others.

According to the book on dreams by Stephanie Clement, “However, to dream of candles burned down signifies the passing of our time. Our dreams are attempting to inform us we only have a brief amount of time here on earth, that is to say, things aren’t going to last forever — light has an expiration date. This can be because it is consistent with Freud and Jung’s ideas about this topic: “the candles in dreams represent an acknowledgment of our limited time here on Earth.” Furthermore, the flame on top of a candle is an appreciation for what was learned from either personal experience or lessons taught throughout life by events.

The candle in your dream can symbolize many things. As an example, the candle signifies wisdom and heat that you simply will find through spiritual growth. It also represents enlightenment and non-secular ceremonies where people show their faith in God by lighting candles during events like weddings or funerals.

Hidden meaning

The most obvious meaning associated with candles represents spiritual guidance and enlightenment. They’re commonly employed in religious ceremonies, which is why they’re symbolic of prayer from the depth of the heart - a genuine prayer.

In a dream, candles tell you that you just are seeking more spiritual guidance and enlightenment. In the past, people have used candles to guide themselves through dark spaces physically - in dreams; they are doing this by representing your life path and difficulties that you encounter daily. If there’s a candle in your dream, it means what quantity and quality of guidance or religious enlightenment are needed and available for yourself in that time segment of waking life.

Your dreams are stuffed with meaning and it’s up to you to work out what they mean. Your dream might be attempting to speak about your spiritual life, so study where you were within the dream for a clue on what this might be trying to inform you. If the place was beautiful or luscious, then perhaps there’s more beauty than is needed in your waking world for you to be able to aim for spiritual pursuits and fulfill them. If, in your dream, you are led through a crowd towards some unknown goal, then maybe something else awaits ahead!

Meaning of blowing candles in a dream

Have you ever had a dream of blowing out candles and wondered what it means? My research has shown that your deep wish for something will come true if you have the necessary faith after having had such a dream. On our birthdays, we make wishes when we blow the candles on birthday cakes. Therefore, these forms of plans don’t necessarily mean one is being negative to the slightest degree. Still, they also may indicate excessive worry about an outcome that probably won’t happen in time because peace will be available at every time with ease. So don’t fill your life with the anxiety of whether or not your wish will be fulfilled.

If the candles were blown out by some other person, it implies that they’ll attempt to influence your decisions and force you to act against your power. You can not allow this individual’s manipulations to change the equations between you and what’s best for yourself.

Dream about Yellow Candles

Dreaming of yellow candles is symbolic. It can represent many things. You may be attempting to find your fortune, personal power, or enlightenment, and therefore the yellow candle shows that this dream means you may find what you’re looking for. The yellow candle also represents tranquillity and harmony in your life because there has been plenty of activity within these areas recently, which makes them feel calm rather than chaotic like before after they were searching to achieve all their missing pieces back together again after falling apart with everything else around them!

Dream about White Candle

The white candles in your dreams indicate that you simply are on the proper path as you always have been. You’ll come to understand that sometimes it isn’t about where we find ourselves but rather what meaning our life experiences give us along the way. The good news is that I feel this dream indicates spiritual growth for you - white stands for balance, peace, and tranquility after all! It also represents inner healing moreover as protection from negativity, among other things.

Dream about Black Candle

In a dream, the black candle can have an unexpectedly positive meaning. It’s going to symbolize binding negative energies and destroying feelings of depression or illness.

Dream about Candle Wax

Dreaming of candle wax that drips in our dreams symbolizes that a problem or separation is coming soon. This can also signify family strife, loss, and a demanding situation to come. Candle wax dripping indicates strong relationships, mutual understanding with your loved ones will be working out well for you at this time despite these troubles ahead!

Dream about watching a Candle Drip

According to old dream lore, there is a tricky situation in your life, and things may not improve quickly. But everything will change for the better within days. Perhaps you’ll find yourself facing circumstances that are similar to what you need right now? Also, dripping wax from a candle means your hidden passionate emotions might be bubbling up from your subconscious mind soon!

You can’t permanently hide who you really are or how much something affects someone else because it’s said that “the truth shall set them free!”

Dream about melting wax Candle

According to old dream lore, the dreamer will receive money, if he has dreamt of a melting wax candle. This is because melted wax predicts success in financial markets and risky ventures (Old Dream Lore). However, it also warns that there may be losses ahead, so you should avoid these activities if possible (Melted Wax Warns of Losses). It can suggest that you find roads in life to take; perhaps this means a job or someone offering something beneficial for your situation? Generally, seeing wax dreams implies: your character is too soft and can easily succumb to extraneous influence - often about loved ones who are constantly given way to what others think, say, and feel rather than what their mind, body, and intuition guide them to do.

Dream about Lighting a Candle

In dream lore, a lighted candle in your dreams is thought to signify the coming of a deep and reliable relationship. It can be a strong friendship or marriage. Dreaming about lighting more than one candle foretells fulfillment of cherished desire. To an unmarried girl, such a dream forecasts conjugal happiness down the road for her! In old dream books, colors were connected to different interpretations:

yellow - you will be deceived;

white - robust health for the next couple of months;

red - secret passion;

blue - inner harmony;

black - is a heavy focus in life.

Interpretation of Dream takes into account what happened with wax:

buy - avoid confusion in business;

sell - loss or losses;

sculpt figurines - will suffer from gossip;

rub them with something - life changes for the better;

crumple your hands with wax on them - your spouse will be complaisant;

to melt - there is a severe illness;

to wash it off one’s hair - a lot of hard work ahead, but your efforts will be appreciated;

from the mouth, you blow out a candle - you will analyze your feelings and relationships with others.

Dream about an Ulit Candle

In your dream, an unlit candle signifies that you’re lost in life. You think you don’t deserve to be happy, but the truth is everyone deserves happiness! It’s okay if things didn’t go as planned in the past because it doesn’t mean they won’t become perfect at all in the future. Overall, this dream shows there’s also an opportunity waiting ahead of us, which we should act on with no hesitation whatsoever! Have a second chance and light up this candle for guidance through meditation, so everything will work out perfectly fine.

Dream about Candle Flame

In the Dream, a candle flame is one of many symbols that can indicate your search for the truth about yourself. This might be shocking to you because it has been some time since this happened in real life. You may also feel like things have changed or started anew, which only means something unique lies ahead! Maybe now’s the perfect opportunity to look within and gain insight on who you are beyond what others perceive: someone special with potential and unique abilities.

Dream about a Room of Candles

According to old dream lore, seeing a room full of candles is associated with protection from evil spirits. It also means that someone special will protect you in real life as well! If single, maybe this is where the one person who’s been on your mind all along has finally appeared! As it may seem romantic and celebratory, your dreams are hinting at the presence of pure love around you or you being near to it right now.

Dream about One Candle

If in your dream, there is only one candle then it represents the enduring hope and strength that you have inside of you. It’s something we all possess but often forget to acknowledge in our daily lives. You’re not a quitter – if anything, this means finding joy even during hard times instead of wallowing in self-pity and negativity!

Dream about Two Candles

Did you dream about two candles last night? If so, it could mean that there are some secrets you’re hiding from yourself. You might be avoiding admitting something to yourself or someone else. The two torched candles also represent your determination and desire for success - you surely have the potential for it, but low self-confidence sometimes keeps you back. Trust in your intuition more! According to dream lore, “The world can be yours” if this secret isn’t holding you back any longer!

Dream about Three Candles

When you see three candles in your dream, it means that everything will go well for you. There are positive things to come, and there’s no need to worry about anything anymore because success is on the way! Three represents growth, so this could mean an increase of wealth or even a new project at work if seeing yourself working with a lot of money counts as growing up financially. To be seen by others burning intensely indicates their belief in “divine protection.” This can be interpreted as people believing more than ever before they’re not crazy when trying something brand-new like starting an art studio or writing books instead of sticking only with what pays off right away like a job that requires working long hours only because it pays but doesn’t fulfil the yearning for the soul’s growth.

Spiritual meaning

Dreams of candles can be highly symbolic spiritually also. To dream about a candle means to contemplate secrets, prosperity, and calmness through beautiful memories and hope. The romantic side of your personality is also illuminated by the light that dreams provide you with - are you an eternal optimist? Candles in churches symbolize finding one’s path towards the realization of your hopes! To be a habit creature means having the motivation and dedication needed to achieve goals in life. Still, it also makes you less likely to experience the happiness or excitement of exploring the new. For this type of person - a creature of habit - to feel happy and excited, they must become creatures more inclined toward adventure instead.

In your candle dream, you may have:

Encountered a candle.

Made a candle.

Lit a candle.

Blown out a candle or candles.

Seen candles on a cake.

Used a candle to light something else.

Used a candle for something other than its purpose.

Used a candle to guide you through the dark.

Used a candle to drive you somewhere even though it was light out.

Seen a woman in a white saree holding a lit candle as in the song “Noorie.”

Positive changes are afoot if

The candle was handed to you, and it gave off a gentle light that lit the entire room. You could see what had been hidden in the darkness just before, but now there is no darkness left anywhere. The path ahead of you became clear as day because this unique candle led all other lights away from your way until only one source remained for both sight and warmth near or far. However, instead of leading through familiar paths like home or school where people would be expecting you at different times throughout the year - you felt favoured by these moments. The candle guided you right through unknown territory: dark areas with uncertain footing over unseen terrain where every step required more courage. An endeavour that required more strength than you could imagine while breathing mindfully along the course that you walked.

This dream is associated with the following scenarios in your life:

Spiritual guidance and enlightenment. Love life and overcoming relationship difficulties. Career development and life goals.

Feelings that you may have encountered while having a dream with a candle in it:

Love.

Acceptance.

Guidance.

Fear.

Discovery.

Adventure.

Hardship.

Strife.

[beardedmrbean]

Hi this is about that racist dev would working in the black panther game.

But this statement

https://x.com/salvoghost/status/1767889986777436478?s=46

This ring true line

Pan African Americans Activists: Africa is our home! We are all connected-

Me: Don Cheadle did a movie about the Ramada GENOCIDE. And we recently pulled a “Jews Lionizing the Nazis” thing with women king

With my Yoruba ideas is that I would like to show what my potential direct ancestors were doing prior to the Dahomey kidnappings but I acknowledge that I’m from a DIFFERENT culture from the modern Yoruba as if white Americans and British treat each other like aliens

I don’t expect much connections with black Americans and Yoruba

Also why act like those entitled Indian Americans that believe they know everything about their heritage…when in reality Indians can recognize a American born desi a mile away

*le gasp* Almost like environmental factors play a role or something

Okay this guy is racist, but if I can tell a Midwestern rapper (Kanye, grew up in Chicago) from a a southern rapper (Andre 3000 grew up in Georgia) by their music alone

Why you guys think how obvious a black American is in Africa? Especially given we grew up on the pan Africa bs and we never left our 13 year old mindsets as adults?

I been thinking about making a steampunk fantasy country called the Chimera Republic. It basic the USA after we got industrialized (what that period where Matthew Perry and Teddy Roosevelt came from again? I think I’m using that as a basic)

But the reason why I’m calling it Chimera to represent what most people in the Americas are in reality

My tongue is Germanic, I grew up in a mostly Baptist environment, yet the religion came from the Middle East. Our government structure is Hellenist, our main culture root is Anglo Saxon

We stole the gods power(Atomic bombs) and we seek to live in the heavens (interstellar travel)

Sorry my writers side acting up, but the Americans are basically Frankenstein monsters come to life with the multiple different characters and roots that make us.

I just don’t understand this idea that black Americans are automatically connected…didn’t that lead to Nazis Germans empire or no when Hitler tried it?

We made all kinds of jokes about it, but it's also still true the elon musk has more experience being African that most every black American out there, Kenyan Hippies husband probably comes out ahead of most of them too.

as if white Americans and British treat each other like aliens I don’t expect much connections with black Americans and Yoruba

Been a bunch of cultural shifts in the centuries yes, the various US communities that would likely have the least difficulty looking weird in the old country would be the various religous ones. Greek Orthodox, Coptics from Egypt, Armenians, ect. because they can at least all relate to that.

I been thinking about making a steampunk fantasy country called the Chimera Republic. It basic the USA after we got industrialized (what that period where Matthew Perry and Teddy Roosevelt came from again? I think I’m using that as a basic)

That's the Victorian era, you might look up the movie "Sky Captain and the World of Tomorrow" it's set mid 1930's but it could give you some ideas to work with.

Sorry my writers side acting up, but the Americans are basically Frankenstein monsters come to life with the multiple different characters and roots that make us.

Never apologize for that, let the creativity flow like the dark side through darth vader.

I just don’t understand this idea that black Americans are automatically connected…didn’t that lead to Nazis Germans empire or no when Hitler tried it?

Not quite, he considered Germans to be superior to others, aryans specifically which is dumb since it's a linguistic group and it's Turkic but nazis be dumb.

I think goebels was working on something like that but they were doing this whole mysticism thing, since despite what anyone who hasn't looked will tell you that they were Christian.

Which they weren't, that may have been a vicious rumor started to discredit Catholics or something by drawing a parallel to the inquisition, but that's just a wild guess.

[zaceouiswriting]

The light of the senate

Character: Anakin Skywalker x male reader

Universe: Star Wars

Warnings: None

Walking through the vast, prestigious halls of the Senate on Coruscant was already a challenge, with only two guardians of your homeworld, an even larger one. Your eyes wander once in a while. You saw other nobles there had entire entourage of dozens or hundreds of people, while you had only two. It didn't make you uncomfortable, but you knew others saw you as poor or foolish.

Your guard's armor was forged from golden crystals, able to reflect every type of laser weapon, including the Jedi's lightsabers. These armors existed only for your Royal Guard, as the metals and crystals needed for them were rare and almost disappeared from all the planets your people had colonized. Which at this point reached into the hundreds if not thousands.

Despite the disapproving looks, you wandered further. The Senate was exactly as you remembered it when you came there with your father for the first time almost ten years ago. At that time, the Senate offered your empire to become part of the republic. Until then, your empire was neutral and fought against the Republic and the Separatist Alliance simultaneously. Your forces could easily keep them both out of your vast empire.

Your father declined the offer, reminding the Republic that your people would destroy anything sent to your borders. After that day, they never returned. But things changed. Not that your people could no longer protect themselves. But something external had changed that forced you to shift your thinking.

Something your people thought had long been lost returned to your kind and brought a different perspective.

Even deep in thought, you could feel a distinct change in the force. A smile crept onto your face as your dazed eyes refocused. You lifted your gaze to meet striking blue eyes.

„Master Obi-Wan,“ you greeted the older man before your eyes laid upon his apprentice. 

Looking into the blue-gray eyes of the younger Jedi next to Obi-Wan awoke the butterflies in your stomach again. It wasn't long ago that you met under the cover of a dark moon on a border planet between your Empire and the Republic. But you two didn't part that day on a good note.

“Anakin.” You nodded slightly at the younger man, barely acknowledging him.

Taken aback by your distant and cold greeting, he opened his mouth to say something, but he just looked like a fish out of water.

“It is so good to see you here, Your Majesty." Obi-Wan bowed respectfully. “But without your father?” he asked worriedly.

“My father rules our empire while I am here to represent us in the Senate,” you told him, a gentle smile crossing your lips at his concern, “perhaps forever. Unless a Jedi kills my father, he will not vacate the throne at any time.”

There was silence for just a moment until the older Jedi Master remembered about your people and why you would say such a thing.

"I forgot that your kind cannot die naturally. I'm deeply sorry, Your Majesty."

When the older man bowed apologetically to you again, you hastily pulled him up. 

“Such things are not necessary, my friend. But we should get going. Master Yoda is waiting, I assume?”

Once you received the confirmation, your steps became faster, so much so that even the Jedi had difficulty keeping up with you until you finally arrived at your disk. 

In your disk, you suddenly turned around before closing it. Your gaze was fixated on the younger Jedi, his expression solemnly even as he caught your gaze. You gently reached out and touched his soft cheek.

"Anakin, remember that I love you, and everything I do is for your good, okay?"

A soft smile graced the younger Jedi's lips as his eyes began to shimmer.

“I almost thought you were mad at me,” he whispered breathlessly.

His voice was silky smooth, as always. His slightly longer hair framing his face suited him perfectly. Before Obi-Wan could intervene, you grabbed the back of Anakin's head, pulled him towards you, and kissed him.

At first, Anaking was hesitant, aware that his Master was at his side, but as he lost himself in the kiss, he became more forceful. He pulled you out of your disk, one of his hands on the back of your hand while his other gripped your waist harshly. Completely forgetting that you two weren't alone. But that quickly came back after you separated.

"Did I miss something?" Obi-Wan asked his student in shock. "Anakin, you know this is illegal!"

Before the older Jedi could even begin to argue, you stopped him.

“It only became so when Yoda became Grandmaster,” you told him, “He’s a wise man but bitter. He could never leave his feelings of pain behind him. For this reason, he forbade all Jedi to feel anything. Yes, love can be hurtful and completely destructive, but it can also be enlightening.”

At the sound of the Senate starting, you quickly looked back up at Anakin.

“We continue to talk after this meeting. But you can't leave here Anakin. I don’t want anything bad to happen to you after what I have to do.“

Under normal circumstances, Anakin would have told everyone that he could read you like a book, but not at that moment.

After the Senate began and you stepped back into your disk, your guards stood beside Anakin, almost holding him prisoner.

Chancellor Palpatine talked endlessly until he finally realized the reason for the meeting: he wanted to gain full power over the Senate. You could hear clapping and cheerful voices. It made you feel disgusted. Before the vote began, though, you came forward.

“Good people of the Galactic Republic,” you called out, all attention turning to you. "My name is (Y/N), I am the Crown Prince of the Numerian Empire."

The entire room with its thousands of disks, represants of endless planets and systems, went in disarray. Many were involved in the negotiations to incorporate your great empire into their midst, but they never believed that you would actually speak at one of their meetings.

“After long discussions and negotiations, we entered this republic as observers a year ago, and what we found is catastrophic. Corruption at every level, mismanagement of ships and troops, but worst of all: a Sith Lord right under your noses.”

There was a murmur at the beginning of your speech, but when you mentioned the Sith lord, the room fell deadly silent. The force around you moved erratically, angered at what was happening.

"I accuse Chancellor Palpatine of being a Sith Lord."

A loud laugh broke out of the deadly silence. Even the Chancellor smiled at you. He knew the truth as well as you. But he was confident that no one would believe someone like you, as you and your people were known throughout the Republic to be hostile towards them.

“I see you can’t just believe my words,” you said out loud, rather sadly, "then let me show you!”

To prepare yourself, you took a few heavy breaths, already feeling the force rushing through your body.

“Master Yoda, would you come forward?”

The old Jedi Grandmaster appeared in a disk of his own along with two other high-ranking members of the Jedi Council. 

"You wonderful people of the galactic community may not know this, but my species once had a special ability gifted to us by the Force. It is called "The Numerian Light of Truth," it reveals a person's true self. Let me demonstrate this on Master Yoda.”

You formed your hands into a ball, your eyes shimmering gold as a ball of appeared as you opened your hands. As you send it to Yoda a sudden light completely engulfed you, enveloping your body in gentle warmth. When the light reached Yoda, it showed his past, thoughts, and everything that had happened to him. Visible to everyone. When it came to the present, your eyes glowed, and the yellow light around you began to change color to a bright white. Which means he was on the light side of the Force.

"Now you have seen the ability for yourself, I will show you the truth about the Chancellor."

Once again, you formed your hands into a ball and sent a similar ball of light toward the Chancellor a moment later. Before it could reach him, his guardian aggressively destroyed the ball of light.

"Either you stop, or I will force the light on both of you and sever your connection to the Force forever!" You warned the guard. It was just a bluff. It's almost impossible to separate someone from the Force.

But even after this threat, he seemed determined not to let the light reach the Chancellor. But you used the light on yourself to put it on the path to the Chancellor and force him to submit to it's judgment.

Just like what happened to Yoda, it showed the Chancellor's past. Where he willingly became the apprentice of a Sith Lord and later became one himself after killing his old master. And when the last part came, the light became black as night.

The Chancellor, now angry at being exposed, tried to force choke you, but to his shock, it did not affect you. Instead, going even further, he shot lightning bolts in your direction, which did not affect you either. They just rolled down on you like rain. Even Yoda was flabbergasted by that.

"A Sith Lord, so old and powerful. Yet still ignorant of the Force and its children," you mock the man. "I suppose I can leave the rest to the Jedi Order?" I asked Yoda as he was already on his way to the Chancellor. You saw Anakin's eyes widen, which amused you a little. To see the fear in his eyes was enough to force the corners of your lips upwards into a shy smile. But instead of falling into the gap like Anakin expected, you landed gracefully right in front of him, safe and sound. He was shocked, but you didn't give him much time to wonder before you grabbed Anakin's hand and walked out.

"What happened?" Anakin asked in a panicked voice. His world was falling apart, something you didn't want for him.

“Your friend, the Chancellor, wanted to use you to make the most powerful Force wielder his apprentice. I had to save you from the dark side. Just like I’m going to save you from the light side now.”

“Why do you have to save me from the light?” Anakin asked. Your words didn't help his confusion. They only made it worse.

He pestered you even as you walked to the ship's landing pad. When you got there and stood right in front of your ship, you finally snapped, "Because the restrictions of the light side are the reason you turned to the dark side after the Chancellor killed me!" You screamed in his face, angry at him for his annoying persistence. "You wanted to avenge me, and the Jedi wanted you to forget about me. It began to split you until the chancellor or Lord Sidious showed you another way." "What?" he asked in shock. He staggered back, his face turning pale. Your guards had to help him not to fall. The entire time, he hoped he misunderstood you.

“The Force showed me the future, or at least the one I had to prevent. If the Chancellor had still been in power three years from that day, with all the power the Senate once had, he would have launched an offensive against the Numerian Empire, only to get to our homeworld and completely eliminate my family. He would’ve ripped out my heart and eaten it to gain my Force powers."

You desperately wanted to protect Anakin from everyone who wanted to use but. But you knew he sensed there was more, and he wanted to know everything. So you told him before he could ask, "My death broke you. The love that once brightened your being was gone. Left was only bitterness and hate. You turned to the dark side, fought against Obi-Wan, lost half of your body in a volcano, and were built back up by Darth Sidious, who took you in as an apprentice. Which you accepted, not knowing that he was the cause of your dismay.”

“Then why do I have to leave the Jedi if there is no longer any chance of me going to the dark side?”

Eventually, you softened as you watched him trying to convince you to continue being a Jedi, what he always wanted to be. So you cupped his face with your hands.

“Not only because our love would be illegal, but also because the light is already suffocating you.” You emphasized that part by stroking his cheek. "You are a being in need of both sides. Only my people can show you the way, as we have done to many former Jedi and even former Sith, just as we are currently showing Ashoka her path: as a Gray One balancing light and darkness. You are both similar, although Asoka's light is much stronger. While both light and darkness are equally strong within you.”

“Ashoka?” he asked out of breath. You knew from their shared past that she was his padawan, a trump card you didn't want to play.

“She’s still angry with you. But I think with time, even that could be healed. Though we have to leave now before anyone can follow us.”

Finally, Anakin had no further questions. He kissed you one last time before taking your hand and pulling you closer to your ship.

“Does this mean we can finally get married?”

"Whatever you want, Anakin, whatever you want, as long as you stay by my side."

The smile you received lit up your whole world. You were sure that with the help of your people, he could become Grandmaster of the Gray Ones and build a new, better order. One that doesn't stand on one side but keeps the universe in everlasting balance.

[Masterlist]

[lastoneout]

Context, I got called the other day by a company that SAID they worked for my health insurance offering to like, come to my house? and asses if there's any resources they think I need and help me get them, and that sounds kinda nice upfront but they immediately asked when I was avaliable rather than asking if I was okay with that or if I even wanted this sort of help which...yeah, bad vibes. When I said that they couldn't come to my house(I said it was because my fiancé works from home but in reality this was throwing up some scam red flags and I wanted out) they offered to meet me at a nearby coffee shop, and tbh I was really tired when they called annd I have a bad history of fawning so I said sure.

However, later I got a call from a representative who I've been in contact with for a while that I know for a fact does indeed work directly for my insurance and helps me access resources I need for an update on something she'd helped me with before, but while I had her on the line I asked her about it she was like "uh yeah I have no idea, I've never heard of them" and internally I was like "haha SUSPICIONS CONFIRMED" and decided to call my insurance on Monday and ask what was up and/or potentially inform them of this scam. In the mean time I googled the suspected scam company and their website was not only kinda broken and full of the kind of corporate jargon word salad that means nothing, but the two most recent google reivews said they were a scam and one of the only good ones was from an employee who worked for them?? which I don't think should be allowed, talking about how great it was to work there, so I was like yeah no this is weird, I'm not meeting up with them, and now I'm kinda worried about them having my personal information, how tf did they get it.

I forgot to call my insurance until today because I'm an ADHD disaster, but I did and was like hey, have you heard of these people or is this legit a scam? And the lady I spoke to said that they did contract with the company, but that if I was uncomfortable with them at all I didn't have to agree to their services or even talk to them, and said she'd put a note of that in my file. I was like, okay well at least I don't have to worry about scam artists having my personal information but being contracted doesn't mean they can't be predatory, so I called them and was like "I don't need this service, I'm canceling my appointment, goodbye" and to their credit the person I spoke to was chill and said everything was handled.

BUT THEN a few hours later, I got ANOTHER call, which bothered me because I figured the note the my insurance put on my file was a "don't call me" one, and the convo basically went like:

Predatory Company Employee, fake concern dialed up to 500%: "I heard you canceled your appointment and declined services out of nowhere so I just wanted to make sure you were okay, is everything alright?

Me: "I'm fine, I just looked into what you guys offer and I don't need any help getting my prescriptions or transportation to appointments or anything like that, I do have health problems but all my needs are met."

PCE: "I understand, but we don't just do healthcare stuff! We can help you get appliances for your house or with rent and bills if you need that."

Me: "I appreciate it but I have stable housing, the appliances I need, and my fiancé can more than cover our rent and bills."

PCE: "Well, just so you know, the enrollment period is ending so if you do change your mind and need help later we won't be able to do anything for you, like if you need help with applying for benefits?"

Me: "I have never had any difficulty applying for food stamps or health insurance, I can more than handle it myself."

PCE: "Okay, well thank you for your time, [Generic Polite Parting Message], goodbye."

And like WHOO boy that was SCUMMY AS FUCK. Like refusing to acknowledge that I have repeatedly declined their services was bad enough, but putting time pressure on me?? That's scam shit. Idc if you're a legit company, pulling the "well this is a limited time thing..." card is the fastest way to get me to bail. They might be a legit company, but I do not trust anyone pulling that shit with me. Predatory as fuck, goodbye.

So I called my insurance back and was like "Hey so this company you guys contract with is being really pushy and weird and I would really like to remove my information from their records if possible, or just have some guarantee that they will no longer contact me" and the person who answered—who was super sweet, this wasn't their fault—did their best to look into everything, but eventually let me know there isn't anything they can do from their end, and if I want to be put on a "do not contact" list or have my information purged I would have to call the company themselves.

Which is bullshit but not surprising, and tbh I am probably going to call my insurance back later and be like "Okay well can I at least file a complaint with you about this company because the way they're treating people IN YOUR NAME is fucked up and I think y'all should reconsider working with them" but for the time being I just want my info OUT of their records but I ALSO do not want to call them again and have to deal with a someone ignoring me and pressuring me to join their program, and tbh I don't think they'll remove my information from their records if I ask anyway...

So yeah. Gonna be looking into it myself, but if anyone knows if there's a way to get my stuff out of their hands or am I just fucked I would love the input. Cuz this is bothering me a lot. I didn't consent to them getting ahold of my info, and I don't trust them with it.

Eugh. I hate capitalism.

Anyone know a way to get a scummy ass company to purge your information from their database, preferably without having to speak to them over the phone again?