#And I don't wanna be going to a support group with people I can't relate to and who can't relate to me. sorry if that's controversial

[blue-banditt]

My therapist was telling me today to join trans support groups to help my bottom dysphoria issues so I can talk ab how its affecting my s3x life and get advice and help bc he's not able to empathize and help me and like

Soo Yeah. That actually would be so nice.

But I've joined trans support groups before. And I've talked about my dysphoria bc yk. They're support groups. But all I've ever gotten from them is; at best, someone sympathizing and telling me "just accept your body how it is!! :D your vag is manly and masculine bc YOU'RE a man" (IDC about societal implications of genitalia, i care ab the fact that I don't have a dick and balls, idc what society calls them, IDC whether or not they're masculine or feminine) and at worst, dirty looks and being outed to people outside the group.

Trans support groups these days feel anti dysphoric and anti stealth. And I feel like I can't relate to everyone else bc everyone else wants to be visibly trans and androgynous and already loves their body and has no problems having s3x and the only thing they worry ab is the government telling them they cant change their name and sex marker to X

So... Idk.. i don't really feel like there's anywhere for me to get help for my genital dysphoria. I'll prob end up killing myself over it wtv

[faetthorn]

Probably my only contribution to the Pathologic fandom

Some important words below, if you're a patho fan take the time to read them

TW: pedophilia, SA, grooming, racism, colonialism

So I got into pathologic in july and almost instantly got hit with a post about the allegations from back in 2021 against Nikolay Dybowski, game creator and founder of Ice Pick Lodge. He’s groomed several girls ages 15-18 and inclusively has used his position as a member of HSE University in Moscow to do so. 3 years on and people have all forgotten this and are happily cheering for the bachelor route like nothing ever happened 

Yes I know you all wanna forget abt the uncomfortable situations, after all "what can we do" right? I wish I could just pull a switch in my brain and forget too, but I'm a victim of SA and child grooming, and I can't play this game without remembering what its creator did. The worst part is that the characters mean a lot to me. I got into pathologic while suffering from ptsd related nightmares and Daniil, Artemy and Clara brought me a lot of joy and comfort. Even now they and some elements of patho’s story mean the world to me. It hurts to be constantly reminded that everyone is against you, no matter how much you appreciate their work, no matter how much time and money you put into doing it.

I'd properly join the fandom and start calling for a boycott and for these allegations to be discussed and reminded of again but I just know it'll never happen. I'd be ignored or get a thousand replies "oh but the employees, they have nothing to do with it!!" "it's just a game!" "it'll get you nowhere!" “age of consent is x y or z in this country!” "stop being a vindictive little bitch!" "*insert rape threat here*" I expect to receive 0 support on this post and I'll block anyone I need to. Just wanted to let this out of my chest even if nothing will change: Petitions don't work, they never did and they never will. Passivity and politeness never got ME shit, at least.

DOXA, the rus student newspaper investigating these allegations was raided by police (1, 2) and recently considered an undesirable organization by the government. The courts and police would never do anything about this and they’re clearly more invested in persecuting student groups that have even the most basic feminist goals. A victim of Dybowski's has allegedly tried to denounce him to HSE University and the charges were dropped so as far as we know Dybowski wasn’t even fired. Not only is he the creator and chief writer of the games but he's also the head of the studio. Spreading awareness and boycotting is the only way justice can be made (at least in a way non-russians can participate). If you’re considering playing pathologic i cannot recommend it and i don’t want to be the reason someone gives more money to Dybowski. You don’t need more harmful shit when you have 2 games, a dlc and wonderful fandom content the game would never make canon. Hell, PIRATE all the games if you really need to. When the bachelor route comes out the IPL employees will have already been paid for it. Also, let’s not forget that WE DON’T KNOW where the profits we give will go. They might go to CP.  

I wonder why it's so easy for you all to rightfully call to boycott anything related to zionism without making excuses but then when it's a pedophile with countless cases of grooming and very probably rape you all stay quiet and do nothing just because it's your precious little interests. It's almost like it's all performative

In the same vein, there needs to be a discussion about how violently racist this game is because this art came from anger and sadness. I’m not indigenous but i’ve followed native activism for years and i wouldn’t have the beliefs i have today without the opinions of indigenous people. I know feeling betrayed by the art you use to cope with how horrible reality is is tough. Not only does this game have extremely racist stereotypes and portrays natives as a monolith, but it’s also unsurprisingly misogynistic in an extremely colonial way (need i remind you of Willow, the entire concept of the herb brides and the way they are dressed or the fixation with portraying steppe people as woman-sacrificing brutes). Not to mention the extreme cruelty of patho 2’s endings. Which is way more insulting when it’s directly tied via the in-game use of Buryat language and inspirations to the native peoples of Siberia who Russia colonized and whose culture is still actively repressed, at a time when the weight of colonization (environmental catastrophe, poverty, sexual violence and more) makes indigenous people commit suicide at a way higher rate than any other ethnicity in many countries, and this includes the native people of Siberia who this game “pays homage” to (1). This fandom in general needs to start being way more critical and checking their own racism too. And to any native patho fans i’m obviously not here to tell you how to feel abt patho’s racism

Well, there it is. I have no hope left to ask anyone to boycott the bachelor route or the other projects Dybowski's created but if this makes you think about the things you throw money at it’ll be something

Edit: I apparently need to clarify something since certain people have been pestering me about it. I'll keep standing behind the part where I say the profits (not the money used to pay the employees, the PROFITS) might go to CP. We're talking about a guy who has been sexually abusing underage girls since allegedly at least 2012 with full impunity. And let me repeat once again: we are not responsible for the IPL employees' well-being and payment. Dybowski is.

[theink-stainedfolk]

Writer Questionnaire Tag

Thank you @drchenquill @the-golden-comet and @paeliae-occasionally for the tag

how long have you had your writing tumblr/writeblr? a fast and loose estimate is fine!

It's been at least 6 months or more I believe.

what led you to create it?

I actually had it from before but i never really posted anything. The thought that there might be people willing to read my works more than my own family and friends led me to create it. I was done shying away.

what's your favourite thing about the writeblr community?

I absolutely adore the supportive and inclusive nature of the writeblr community! It's a space where writers from diverse backgrounds and genres come together to share their passion for storytelling. I love how everyone encourages and uplifts each other, offering constructive feedback and celebrating each other's successes. The community's enthusiasm is infectious, and it motivates me to keep writing and improving my craft. I also appreciate the wealth of resources and knowledge shared within the community, from writing tips and prompts to editing advice and publishing insights. It's amazing to see how writers willingly share their expertise and experiences to help others grow. Most of all, I cherish the sense of belonging and connection that comes with being part of this community. Writeblr feels like a virtual writing group, where we can discuss our projects, share our struggles, and rejoice in our triumphs together

what's one thing you'd like your mutuals to know about you?

That i really love talking about my WIPs and OCs aand everything related to my story. I feel happy, seen and appreciated. If you like anything i woorte, please don't hesitate to ask or just tell me how you feel.

is there anything you'd like to see more of on your dash?

Uh..memes? More aisan drama related things? More HSR stuff everything about my interests etc.

which wips or writing projects are you noodling about, lately?

Very wrong question lol. I've been going back and forth between my WIPs. But the most recent one I've done, or am thinking about is The Masque of Murder .

how long have you been working on them?

Hahaha.... Since months, years and i still haven't even written a chapter for some of them. I hate myself for that. But since The Masque of Murder is recent, it's been a week or so.

do you remember what inspired them/ what got you started?

Yeah i remember reading a manhwa which had this crazy but mad genius doctor as a minor villan. It got me thinking that it was a waste of his abilities and damn good looks and he would have been surely protected by the plot armour had he been the main character instead. This forced me into making it lol.

how much time, in your best estimation, do you spend thinking about them?

🎵Every hour, every minute, every second. And night after night, I'll thinking 'bout you right, 7 days a week.🎶

name any characters you created. side characters, protagonists, antagonists, characters who've never been written, the first original abomination you ever pulled from your ass; whomever you'd like!

Uh... every single one of them? I created everyone, if that's what you're asking haha.. I'm not sure if i understand it correctly but i created everyone on my own. I'll mention the one that comes to my mind first then.

Side character- Emrys from In The Silence, Strength

Protagonist- Dr. Phineas Abel Thorncroft from The Masque Of Murder

Antagonist- Dante from Beyond The Pages (but he is also the protagonist)

And i can't really remember the last two.

when someone asks the dreaded, "what do you write about," question, what do you usually say?

Yknow, fantasy stuff with magic and murder mystery with actual murder and blood and stuff and all that hahah none of the stuffs that you like or understand or are interested in right? Hahah it totally doesn't have queer peoples. Just fictional stuff you don't wanna know hahaha.

Deadass.

who's the most unhinged?

Dr. Phineas Abel Thorncroft (from The Masque Of Murder), Acheron (from Legacy of Creation), Dante (from Beyond The Pages) and Eitenne Lumiere( from Wicked Games, Wicked Fates) from what i remember .

who comes the most naturally for you to write?

Vesperine, Cleo, Pareen

do you ever cringe at them?

Hahaha... sometimes..

how much control do you feel you have over your characters? do they ever "write themselves," refuse to cooperate, or do things you didn't expect? to what degree? are some less cooperative than others?

I feel like i have 70% control and 30% is something they do it themselves because i give them the freedom to do so. Because that is the story of my character and not of me, even if I am the one who wrote it. Sometimes the decision i make for them is not what they'd do.

do you enjoy people asking questions about your characters? and do you have a preferred means of receiving said questions? for example, as asks, as replies, as reblogs, as tag notes, as comments on ao3, etc.

Yes i absolutely love it please ask. Doesn't matter how just ask♡♡♡

what makes you want to follow another writeblr account? do you follow 'em as you see 'em, or take time scoping out the blog to make sure you align with its content? do you follow based on wips, or vibes?

I take time scoping out the blog to make sure i align with it's content. And i follow based on both, wips and vibes but mostly vibes.

what makes you decide against following?

If i don't align with the content or i don't fond the story interesting, i don't follow.

do you interact with non-mutual often?

Not often but i do.

do your mutuals' characters occupy space in your noodle?

There are so so many characters of my mutuals that i love love loveee but my memory rn isn't functioning at its best so i will just write whom i can remember rn.

The Madness, the lady and that guy from Foliè written by @drchenquill, my friend. Whose writing always leaves me with surprises and cliffhangers. She supports me so much i almost feel guilty 💕💕💕💕 i love you so much💖💖💖

@paeliae-occasionally Xanren, Marsh and Paeliae. I love their stories it captivated me. I hope you can tag me on their journey 👍, @cssnder, my first mutual whom i talked with so much courage that i almost didn't open tumblr the next day due to embarrassment and nervousness. Her works are like renaissance paintings, truly mesmerizing and beautiful. Thus Saith The Lord is truly a work of art and i hope i get to read it soon.😭 And also, @roarintheheavens , my new friend, I'm so happy. Vron Carson, he is very interesting and i can't wait to know more about him. And of course, @the-golden-comet, I'd very much like to read more about peter hart.

Just because i didn't mention everyone doesn't mean i don't appreciate your works, it's just that i haven't read them yet. I hope you all can send it to me. I'll definitely read it.

I'll tag @finickyfelix @willtheweaver @ascotwriting @agirlandherquill @leahnardo-da-veggie @illarian-rambling @winglesswriter @graveyardshift111

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something that constantly pisses me off about lov bashers is that they don’t understand that an explanation is not an excuse.

they can’t wrap their head around the fact that yes toga is a murderer but that doesn’t negate the fact that she was driven to that point by society.

if her parents supported her and helped her with the symptoms and urges caused by her quirk i doubt she would’ve become a villain.

she was literally driven to insanity not because she’s always been that way, but because suppressing her urges for so long caused her to snap.

twice became a villain because he had no other choice. he had no family, no job, and he was just a child. he had no where to go and no one to help him.

it really hits home for me because i have autism and several other mental problems, so some of my behaviors are because of those issues. but whenever i say that people say i’m making excuses when i’m not. i understand that some of my behaviors aren’t okay. that my mental illnesses aren’t my fault, but they are my responsibility.

yes toga should go to jail/juvenile detention because she’s killed several people, but we should acknowledge that the reason she became a murderer is because of how she was treated. BUT that doesn’t mean her being a murderer is okay or justified.

this also relates to how i believe spinner was right about how placating to their oppressors will do nothing.

the civil rights movement wasn’t all sunshine and rainbows. they had to *fight* for their rights. key word being fight.

yes peaceful protest are certainly effective but they won’t work 100% of the time. sometimes you just have to get your hands dirty.

for example, sit-ins and peaceful marches were extremely important to the movement. but sometimes you just need to throw a brick at a cop.

stonewall isn’t infamous because it was peaceful. it’s infamous because it showed the world that the lgbtq community wasn’t going to sit idly by and let themselves be brutalized.

but the thing is 100% of spinners ideology won’t work, and 100% of shoji’s ideology won’t work either. there needs to be a balance between the two.

tl;dr some of the mha community is allergic to nuance and it makes me wanna scream.

Tbh I wouldn't label myself a league of villains basher but Iam definitely anti against the lov fans that claim the league are completely innocent and haven't done any crimes whatsoever.

I have said this before and I will say it again all of the leauge of villain members are victims. They are victims!!! But they have also done bad things. They are victims and they are bad people. Two things can coexist at once.

One thing that I find interesting about some league members that I wish was explored more often was the hypocrisy they had. For example take toga who has stated that she doesn't want to go to jail for her crimes and has murdered but also simultaneously gets distraught over twices death. I love toga but that can definitely be described as hypocritical and it's something that I love about her and I wish horikoshi delved into this with the league a whole lot more.

Also one of my problems that I mentioned in another post is that the leauge don't actually have a viable goal. As of current their goal was to simply destroy and create carnage so they can somehow get a better world for themselves. Realistically that plan is incredibly flawed and would obviously backfire horribly so I wish that horikoshi could of made it so that they developed out of that plan and used the MVA to target groups like the HPSC and other parts of the government to prove their point without harming innocent kids and civilians.

Agreed shoji and spinners ideologies are both flawed but if combined there can be a common ground reached. Thinking about this I can't help but also wonder what if shigaraki properly used the MVA and their resources? What if there wasn't an outright war? What if there was more bonding between the villains and their heroes?

@mikeellee used to suggest that shigaraki would try and get izuku on board with the MVA and I can't help but think that's a great idea and would help the narrative while adding more nuance and development to izuku and other characters.

[artsyaech]

going into next year, remember to keep fighting for disability and mental health rights!

[PT: going into next year, remember to keep fighting for disability and mental health rights!]

remember to:

put image IDs and plain-text on posts

tag eyestrain and flash warnings (DO NOT use #epilepsy, that puts epileptic people in more danger)

remember to tag potential triggers! (very important, i hate it when posts include my triggers and don't tag it)

remember that hyperfixating on / having a special interest in a problematic thing does NOT mean you're a bad person, as long as you acknowledge the problems with it. also, i can't believe this isn't talked about more, but a hatred for a thing can also turn into a hyperfixation / special interest! example: i had a hyperfixation on harry potter in a way that i absorbed criticisms of it and knew everything about it, but only because i wanted to be able to articulate how much i hate it and why. hyperfixation / special interest in something does not mean you like it / endorse it! (rant over)

PLEASE stop clogging up disability tags with fanfiction. yes, it's good that you're representing disabilities, but instead try tagging it with #disabled character or #disabled reader or something of the sort.

something i wanna leave in 2023, but unfortunately don't think will be going away soon is ableist / saneist slang or slang that makes light of disabilities / mental health. examples of this include: "delulu", "letting the intrusive thoughts win", "psycho", "schizo" (when referring to something that has nothing to do with schizophrenia), "bipolar" (when referring to something that has nothing to do with bipolar disorder), "sociopath", "psychopath", "narcissist" + MANY more

please stop infantilizing autistic people. i'm so tired of being treated like a baby.

c-punk is NOT an aesthetic and it is exclusively for physically disabled people. and if you're not physically disabled, call it c-punk.

uplift disabled and mentally ill voices.

below is a list of disabled creators you can support!

@my-autism-adhd-blog. summer (she/they) talks about their life as an autistic individual who has ADHD. super cool blog!

@cripplecharacters. a group of mods help answer questions about writing disabled characters. learned a lot from them.

@mogai-transcriber. (nameless) (she/he/it) describes mogai posts.

@accessmogai. reign (she/her) is a great mogai transcriber too. high quality IDs for all

@cpunkwitch. super cool witchy blog. cassandra (it/he/her/neos/none) is super cool and it's nice to hear a disabled voice in the pagan community.

@crippledpunks. cool positivity blog that talks about disability and educates on cpunk

@accessfashion. multiple mods add image descriptions to outfits. super epic stuff.

@cane-you-dig-it. disability and cpunk stuff. also just a super cool and talented individual.

@autistic-af. i wish she was my aunt, she's super sweet and her cat posts always make my day!

@crippled-peeper. relatable posts tbh.

@crippled-dinosaur. dino (it/he) talks about physical disabilities and cpunk

+ many more! feel free to add to this list

[totravelasfriends7433]

Incorrect Quotes

Valkyrie: No, this is not a mess. You know what I consider a mess? Melissa: Your life? Valkyrie: I- well yes, but-

Valkyrie: I'm hot, I’m tall, I'm gay, and I'm on my theatre kid arc.

Murderer: Any last words? Valkyrie: Do you think I'm cute? Be honest.

Melissa: WHOEVER CAUSED THIS MESS IS GOING TO- Valkyrie: It was me… Melissa: …Is going to be forgiven because everyone deserves a second chance.

Valkyrie: I am the most responsible person in the group. Melissa: …You just set the kitchen on fire. Valkyrie: Yes, and I take full responsibility for that.

Fletcher: Cronch. Fletcher: You hear that? That's the sound of me eating sticks. Melissa: No, don’t— Fletcher: Too late.

Fletcher: I love you. Valkyrie: I love me too.

Fletcher: Big day today, Valkyrie. holds up two shirts Mustard stain or ketchup stain? Valkyrie: Mustard– looks less like blood.

Valkyrie: I hope no one lowkey hates me. Valkyrie: Highkey hate me. Hate me with every fiber of your being. Valkyrie: Go big or go home.

Fletcher: ATTENTION: I HAVE BREACHED CONTAINMENT. Fletcher: DO NOT PANIC, I AM SIMPLY GETTING A SNACK.

Valkyrie: Ask me anything. Go ahead, I'll give you a straight answer. Fletcher: Why are we so fucking awesome? Valkyrie: That's the best fucking question anybody's ever asked.

Fletcher: Hugs Valkyrie from behind Fletcher: Tucks Valkyrie's hair behind their ear Fletcher, whispering: Eat all the frosted animal crackers again and they'll never find your body.

Tsu: Do you support gay rights? Shinsou: I’m literally gay. Valkyrie: He's avoiding the question!

Valkyrie, to Shinsou: You're starting to forget your Spanish. You don't practice. Shinsou: Lo siento. Estoy embarazada. Valkyrie: You just told me you're pregnant. Tsu: Congratulations Shinsou, you're glowing!

Valkyrie: FIGHT ME, YOU NERD ASS SLUT! Tsu: At least try to sound slightly more sophisticated when you threaten someone. Valkyrie: Oh, I'm sorry. I should ask; dost thou want to engage in a duel, my good bitch? Tsu: Somehow that's worse.

Valkyrie: I have to say, I'm a little embarrassed for you. Shinsou: This is a sports-related injury. It makes me look cool! Valkyrie: Tripping over a basketball on your way to the bathroom is not cool!

Tsu: Shinsou, Valkyrie, I love y’all and all, but can I ask what in the hell are you doing? Shinsou, trying to stabilize a tower of folding chairs that Valkyrie is sitting atop: Oh nothing much. Valkyrie: I love you too :)

Shinsou: I wanna sleep for 40 hours. Valkyrie: You know that's called a coma, right? Shinsou: Shinsou: That sounds so refreshing, I could totally go for a light coma right now.

Tsu: Isn’t it weird how we pay money to see other people? Shinsou: You mean movies? Valkyrie: Concerts? Momo: Prostitutes? Tsu: Wha…N-no, I mean glasses, what the fuck-

Valkyrie, dramatically: They called me a fool. Momo, sick of Valkyrie's shit: They weren’t wrong.

Valkyrie: falls down the stairs Momo: Are you okay? Tsu: Stop falling down the stairs! Midoriya: How’d the ground taste?

Valkyrie: I do two things and two things only. I devastate sorry motherfuckers, and get shit done as an awesome leader.

Shinsou: Eat shit and die, Midoriya!!! Midoriya: Eat shit and live, Shinsou.

Midoriya: Remember everyone, violence is never the answer. Valkyrie: You're right, Midoriya.. Violence can't be the answer. Midoriya: Correct, Valkyrie. Now, on to the next lesso- Valkyrie: Violence is the question. Valkyrie: And the answer is yes! Midoriya: Valkyrie, no!!

Hatsume: If there’s one thing I learned from Midoriya, it’s to set people’s expectations real low, so you end up surprising them by practically doing nothing at all.

Store Worker: Would a “Valkyrie” please come to the front desk? Valkyrie, arriving at the desk: Hello, is there a problem? Store Worker, pointing to Midoriya and Hatsume: I believe they belong to you? Midoriya and Hatsume, simultaneously: We got lost. Valkyrie: I didn’t even bring you guys here with me—

Shinsou: What do I get? Valkyrie: A night of fashion, mischief, mayhem, and possible death. Shinsou: Ooh, check, check, and check; not sure about that last one. Valkyrie: It won't be you. Shinsou: I'll get my coat.

Shinsou: walks into the kitchen, ignoring everyone Fletcher: Hey, Shinsou, how was your day? Shinsou: picks up an onion and bites into it, staring at Fletcher Hell. Momo, watching this unfold: whispers Who hurt you?

Midoriya, bleeding out on the ground: Blood loss? No, I know exactly where it is.

Tsu: Hatsume noticed only today that they can label their email inboxes, but they took apart their entire bloody laptop two weeks ago. Momo: This reminds me of the Hatsume who couldn’t turn on the coffee maker, but remembers about 500 digits of pi. Tsu: I’ll be delighted to inform you that this is the very same Hatsume.

Valkyrie: Is this about me? Fletcher: No. Valkyrie: Then I've lost interest.

[evilguywhoisevil]

harukAUTISM? its more likely than you think

he has not been formally diagnosed up until being in zool, as

kujo does not know or care much about autism.

neither does his grandmother, and she wouldn't be able to take him any specialist appointments either.

haruka only gets diagnosed in the first place because his PCP has seen him long enough to recognize his autistic tendencies (quick to frustration, difficulty with expressing emotion/communication, nervous avoiding eye contact, "immature" for his age, etc) and suggest he see a specialist.

he would ruminate on it for a bit, and would open up slightly after being prodded to because touma noticed he was feeling nervous. haruka doesn't state that its an autism diagnosis he's seeking- haruka isn't 100% certain that he even has autism in the first place (he doesn't know much about it), and he doesn't wanna look like an idiot if it turns out he doesn't.

so he goes to the specialist right. alone. which makes him nervous, and especially since he's the oldest patient there. (he can't seek an adult diagnosis yet, and the only doctors office within range is aimed at young children and toddlers).

by a stroke of luck, the doctor he sees actually can recognize autism in teenagers, and is easy to talk to. haruka still has to be probed a bit, as otherwise he wouldn't report traits that he has because he's autistic. ('huh??? most people can tolerate clashing fabric textures and temperatures *without* feeling constant discomfort and pain?? what do you mean teens my age don't cry so easily??? n-not that i cry *that* often!')

some sessions pass. they're kinda expensive but haruka is learning so much and is both relieved he has answers and is frustrated he just didn't know this sooner. ('it's his fault, right? i mean, the doctor mentioned a lot of people turn to online support groups if they don't have anyone else to talk to about autism... he could have done something like that and saved himself so much issues...')

he opens up about the nature of the sessions to touma- after a few sessions, zool would have known he has doctors visits *for something* but would not have cared enough to ask for more information. (before zool becomes real friends obviously). the thing is, touma talks loud. not on purpose. haruka tells him to keep it down (he doesnt want anyone else to know just yet). unfortunately, someone does overhear. torao. he didnt hear much, but he did hear touma ask haruka how long he's known about the autism. (not super long, haruka would reply). torao knows very little about autism outside of the times hes heard the related slur used as an insult. even then he hasnt heard that term much. what torao *does* know is that autism is a 'disease', and given how often harukas been going to the doctor for a while it must be at least somewhat serious... it is in these circumstances that torao makes a fatal error of assuming that autism and aneurysms are related in someway due to how theyre spelled and pronounced. he also doesnt know what an aneurysm is, only that its lethal. later that day, after zool is done practicing their choreography (which torao struggled with, distracted by the idea that haruka has some kind of fatal disease), torao talks to haruka in private. haruka does not know why this is happening or why torao is so serious for once. torao offers to cover any medications, visits, or hospital stays haruka needs. ('did he find out', haruka thinks, 'but how?! i was so careful to be quiet about it. touma must have told him, jerk... but why would i need a hospital stay...?') it is not until torao also offers to help haruka experience more adult things (alcohol and women mostly) in case he doesnt make it long enough to experience himself is that haruka suspects something is seriously wrong. 'gross! dont just bring those up for no reason', haruka begins, 'and im not- why are you acting like im dying??' torao frowns. sure, he doesnt know haruka well (at this point in time), and what he does know about haruka paints him as a childish, immature teenager, but hes still a kid. he hasnt even had the chance to grow up, and he doesnt have any guardians that hes mentioned that would be able to properly care for him. haruka is trying to navigate having a terminal condition (the deadly disease known as autism aka an aneurysm which is definitely a progressive illness and not something you die very quickly from) all by himself. hes not that heartless, of course torao would want to help him out. now more so since haruka seems adamant on pretending like nothing is wrong. torao just shakes his head at harukas response, tells him he doesnt have to explain the details if he doesnt want to yet and that he wont pry. haruka is still terribly confused and hopes that torao isnt doing some weird form of pity towards his autism... or that torao thinks hes dying. unfortunately, ryou, out of the goodness of his heart (and not out of boredom and desire to torment them in a group setting) was there to pickup his favorite idol group and invite them to a delicious dinner at his apartment! they'll come, right? its not like they have anything better to do, right? it's not like they'll be somewhere where he can't find them, right?

he has minami and touma but goes back with them into the dance room to get haruka and torao (he notes those two don't interact on their own very much, this must be something secretive? how fun!) and the three of them end up overhearing the entire conversation.

ryou is mad. its not like he cares about harukas health that much, but he put in so much effort into finding and training his guy to be an anti-idol and he's just gonna die!? asshole, how could he just leave like this. (at least when momo did it, he wasn't on the verge of death).

touma cannot hide his shock, and probably ends up barging into the room koolaid man style. 'HUH??? ISUMI YOU'RE DYING???' minami is considerably less emotional but is still visibly worried (as much as she can she's willing to show at least). haruka starts sputting out a defense, a clarification, an insult- his brain takes too long to decide what he will say and ryou cuts him off. basically blames haruka for dying and starts whining that itll be so hard to find another boar in his place and that he could have at least waited until they finished doing their upcoming music video. touma reasonably gets mad at ryou for this and asks what the hell is wrong with him and ryou threatens him with murder (again) and is getting the sickest side eye from minami and torao. haruka just blurts out that he ISN'T dying and he cant believe that everyone in this room is so incredibly stupid (minami will remember this) to think of something so crazy when all he has is AUTISM! and immediate regret. ryou gives haruka a distinct look, probably disgust and annoyance. minami is quietly relieved, touma is overtly relived, and torao doesn't feel any better until after ryou says 'that's it? but i was looking forward to seeing you in a hospital bed! you got my hopes up for nothing, all you idols are the same.' and his mood is sooo sour that he doesn't even want to torment zool *at that moment* (the plans he had for dinner wouldn't be good enough at this point for the level of disappointment he feels) and ends up ditching all 4 of them. torao, who is still somewhat unaware, asks why ryou was disappointed when haruka still has a 'disease' and then has to be explained by all 3 of his bandmates that autism doesn't kill you. ('and stop talking about it like it's contagious! ugh, you're so dumb sometimes you make touma look smart.' -haruka).

[katyspersonal]

i get what you mean, with the fandom being so slow and the in-groups being so tight-knit that it's really hard to get involved and you end up always afraid of stepping "out of line" and losing visibility that any breath of fresh air is good enough. and also most new people who seem promising seem to quickly join with the in-groups, too. i don't know if you can relate, but there are some people who just appeared a while ago who i wish i could speak to but since they already associated with someone who is already known for not play nice, i end up just keeping my distance...

Ahhhhh shoot yeah, sometimes I wonder if this image of the fandom is just my delusional hallucination... but then people that can see more than me sorta confirm it, and now you do too, so I guess I still have it in me to complete the correct picture from only small pieces. I can't really relate to the "fear of losing visibility" though as someone who occasionally does followers purge to prevent becoming popular, but I can relate to feeling the pit in my stomach when a new fan quickly latches onto the "bad guys" or their "sponsors" x)

It is also for this reason why our group of mutuals (the so-called Lore Council) and OUR "sponsors" (I just think this is a very funny word for avid supporters sorry xD) do whatever we can to look unassuming and goofy, as well as prevent possessiveness or control-freakery within our camp? We even almost never block people, ffs. Nobody should be forced to choose the covenant (in passive fandom state) or side (in active fandom drama state). And the interesting bit? Some people didn't! And you can only find out by coming forward! I am not sure whether by "not play nice" you mean starting pointless media literacy discource or really hardcore stuff such as slander, stalking and harrassing but in either case, you see a fan that interests you interact with 'em? Interact with that fan too! One or several of the people you wanna avoid sending asks to that fan or tagging them in a meme or even drawing their OC does NOT mean they have marked their territory like a dog or whatever! We are all civilized adults here, not animals. Show 'em that they did not "claim" this person by just interacting first, show 'em that you are not afraid and you will show interest and support to whoever you damn please! You will find that actually enough people do not consider themselves to be a part of the "covenant" and thus obligated to stick to some rules and blacklists- and heck, many will feel defensive if peer-pressured to play this ridiculous game!

Yeah yeah,, I knowww, easier said than done x) Still, many people who are sensitive to the conflict (active or passive) keep mistaking someone from "another camp" interacting with The Guy for the possessive boyfriend grab thing, which it isn't. If anything, any new fan will be the happier the more interactions they get, they just wanna discuss their ideas, no matter with who! And if they do decide to disown you... well, isn't it better to find it out for sure when it happens, instead of just assuming the worst from the get go?

[garbage--account]

Ladies, may i have your attention please ?

Reblog and share this post with the most girlies possible right now, because

👏WE 👏NEED 👏TO 👏START 👏AN 👏OLDER 👏VIRGIN 👏GIRL 👏SUPPORT 👏GROUP

(Lads, don't you effing start laughing like stupid, i bite fr! Love u if u support tho)

If you are like me, a 24 yo and + woman and virgin/never had sex/single, or can relate to, let's start this mf support group, reblog and share so that more ladies can follow us, 'cause i can't be the only one 😤

If you don't, reblog and share are still appreciated but DON'T READ THE REST OF THE POST FOR I AM GOING TO SLANDER 🌠Jennifer🌠 SO HARD, THE CHILDREN MUST NOT SEE AND U DON’T WANNA SEE THAT

Ladies, be a girl's girl and join the fight against 🌠Jennifer🌠 !!!

TW : abuse of the word "virgin" because it's not an insult not a compliment so we are getting used to hear it. If your uncomfortable with "virgin", get out ���🚶‍♀️

By the way, 🌠Jennifer🌠 is not a person : she is an allegory, she represents the people when i tell them i am virgin.

I picture 🌠Jennifer🌠 as female because in french, my native language, nouns have genders and society is female, i don't make the rules 💅 I don't personally know a Jennifer : i picked the name for the vibe.

Since i am adult virgin woman, she assumes that I :

Too pure for this world

Waiting for marriage

Religious

Traditional

No fun at all

Don't get sex joke

Blushing/outraged at anything even remotly intimate

Ugly/unattractive

Bad at flirting

A lesbian in denial

Aro/ace

Femcel

Shy/not assertive/doesn't dare anything

Childish/immature

Don't take care of myself

Must have something wrong in my body and/or my head

Aiming for someone not single (for example, her lame and uglyass bf 🤮)

Hate men

Too masculine/not womanly enough

A "nice girl" or a "one of the boys"

Scaring/disgusted the boys out

Scared of the 🍆

Don't know how it works

"Too much into politic" / too feminist

Set my standards too high

Have a trauma

Not interested in others/antisocial/sociopath/cavewoman

Don't masturbe

Need advice about the boys

Too romantic

Had strict parents

A lonely girl

Actually a minor

Cringe

Chronically online

Don't know life

Lying

Like STFU, stop. You don't even make sense !

We were talking, getting to know each other. We were getting along so far until i dropped "actually i am still a virgin" bomb.

And then 🌠Jennifer🌠 started to look at me funny and that's how i KNOW she will less respect me. Like she either babying or gaslighting me. She may not say anything but all the previous points above are shining through her sassy eyes.

I KNOW i may sound aggressive in this post but irl i am not like that, she just annoys me so much . Your girl have a job, friends, hobby, ambition, dreams, YOUR GIRL IS BUSY and doesn't have to put up with those bs.

The worst is : i am perfectly okay with me having reaching adulthood and still being virgin, but it somehow bugs🌠Jennifer🌠' for no reason and wanna make it my problem.

So hear me out, 🌠Jennifer🌠 :

what i put or not my coochie is not your effing business

I am 24, you thought seeing a dick pic would have me blushing ?

As if i'd want ur lameass bf 🤮 he doesn't even treat u right

All the men i know so far were nothing but wonderful with me

Do i need to show you my 139452 step self-care routine to prove you i am girly enough ?

If i scare the men, how come you are not scared of me ? (Fear me or i will harvest your kneecaps)

What if i wasn't queer/lgbt ? (Show them support pls)

I am fabulous 💅💅💅💅💅🖕

I don't have any sex related trauma, but i will be your worst nightmare if you keep going

Why would i be lying ? I don't have time for creating bs, unlike you

No i am not hidding it 🖕

I would love to do sex jokes for you. Unfortunatly i don't like you and will not joke around with u

Your standards are too low

Me and my bitches from the adult virgin women support group will put you down and we are not shutting up. Period 💅

[rametarin]

More grumblings about Werewolf: the Apocalypse and V5. And missed opportunities. (Settle in, because this is going to be a big screed.)

One of my biggest issues with World of Darkness is it's usually fine when you can separate the ideological hamfistedness and occassional diatribe by the authors that so DESPERATELY have wanted to use fun gothic punk horror as a recruiting ground for anarcho-communists, from the actual fun fanciful macabre and horror.

Except, the problem arises because the socio-political people seek to browbeat and reinterpret what is allowed or acceptable in horror, and by extension, literature and culture. So anything that deviates out of what they want to be acceptable cultural messages gets removed and suppressed. No room for questions, they don't even want the possibility that you may answer anything but what they want you to come away with.

No horror monsters or mythological creatures that they ideologically disagree with, either.

So if your culture has a mythological creature that amounts to the ghost of a stillborn baby haunting it's mother, or any mother, out of revenge? "That's misogyny and punishment against women! Such patriarchal myths perpetuate an anti-woman view in culture and society, and so they shouldn't exist!!! It also perpetuates the idea you have to be female to be a mother, so THAT is a problem too!" So they simply make that problematic mythological creature disappear into omission and edit it out of the folklore canon as if it's not there, and stigmatize the retelling as something only a stinky evil monstrous male chauvinist would do. While they'll hem and haw and hoot about being sooOOoO Inclusive, for the credits, if your culture and community has any elements it finds an issue, it will 1.) avoid mentioning that out loud, because contradicting the Oppressed Minorities while giving them a platform means they may be gunshy about being voices against "the mainstream," or supporting them as they selectively browbeat white people as oppressive or ignorant. 2.) try to get the young people inside those communities themselves to be the ones to argue such mythological or folklore figures should stop being talked about and stop being considered part of the culture, because they, "perpetuate bad thoughts and sentiments."

They love folklore for the fact it's a window into a culture, they just hate that these aspects of culture and folklore exist, and their definition of, "folk" is very specific and one they demand everybody else exclusively adhere to, no questions, no alternatives. They just say it indirectly and often through force, when they can enforce it.

So why did I go on this screed above? Because it's padding to talk about an example of this in gameplay and how our species works. The monkey babble and rules and perceptions of human beings, as we relate to the horrors of our own biology.

Biological exclusivity and inclusion into how we determine culture. Birthright. Maternal and paternal exclusivity and privileges based on whom your biological parents are, somehow mattering on a legal, biological and spiritual level.

The problem is they ideologically disagree that biology should be destiny and that ethnicity should be based on biology. They argue that the ONLY important factor should be culture and nurture, and that elements such as the state can embody and lead said cultures, not individuals from said in-group. That you shouldn't be allowed to have a group based on characteristics that can't intellectually or socially just be appropriated and majoritied, because that's some sort of social evil and oppression.

So how do they characterize people that believe birthright and heredity play a role in culture and society and family are the devil?

Why, they do what they always do. They treat you like a child and antagonize you, loudly bringing up, "OH. OKAY, NAZI. SURE, NAZI. THAT'S SOMETHING NAZIS BELIEVE. YOU BELIEVE THIS IS TRUE, THEREFORE YOU MUST BE A NAZI, NAZI. WANNA EUGENICALLY CLEANSE ME FOR BEING NEURODIVERGENT, NAZI?" as a way to shame you if your culture treats hereditary connection to a community as a qualifying characteristic.

However, they do not levy this weapon equally against all cultures. They will absolutely invalidate any claim to validity from any white ethnic community and argue, VIOLENTLY, that there's no such thing as any cohesive European ethnic group, or any kind of coherent 'whiteness' at all, for that matter, treating Europeans as some sort of cultural anti-culture that are just incoherent static of human beings. Not individuals and cultures unto themselves, not a valid community, not a valid People.

They will not, similarly, say the same things about capital B Black people, or Asians. To them, Black and Asian are demographics.

But it has become out of vogue to refer to black as a race. Races, it's believed, are, "social constructs," and not real. This argument isn't had directly between Black ethnonationalists and Black identitarians or Black separatatists and the social constructionists in the far-left, because that would represent a skewing schism in the allyship. So, one seeks to constantly circumvent and go both over and under the others' heads in just whom tells whom what to do and define the other and the parameters of how they're defined.

So they started capitalizing the B in Black to refer to the social group of Black people. Whom is black? Anyone with sub-Saharan African phenotypes and hereditary characteristics unique to that part of Africa.

Can a person without that ancestry thus be capital b Black? If Blackness is culture and not subject to heredity, can a person be a fair skinned, red freckled ginger and be certifiably black as Wesley Snipes?

No, they argue, because the characteristics of being Black necessitate a level of racial pur- I mean, "passingness", that unless you grow up characteristically resembling a person of that ethnic group, you don't get the valid "experience" of growing up Black. Thus, capital B Black people are left as the only vaid "culture" where you have to be born from a Black mother or father in order to be Black.

Cultures can be joined or left and have no biological necessity, so the thinking goes, and surely no uprigth person would dare entertain something so racist and bioessentialist as a culture or community exclusive to a certain hereditary line.

But surely you aren't suggesting that these rules apply to Capital B Black culture, right? Because if you were, that poses an existential threat to Black peoples' existence! That would mean that defining Black as anything more deep or ingrained or exclusive than a Jazz band or a basketball court or a big Christmas dinner or Muslim family gathering, would be bioessentialism and share characteristics with Nazism. Right?

Hm. Sure are a lot of competing points of view here. Irreconcilable differences and immovable objects as different views vy for dominance in what is right and wrong. I wonder which values will pan out the winners in the argument, or if there'll be some sort of division in the narrative. Or hypocrisy.

So anyway. This is Rachel Dolazel.

Rachel got in trouble relatively recently. See, she's a white woman. She has no immediate Capital B Buhlack racial heritage. She falsified her ethnic identity and took selective ambiguous photos with older black men that she passed off dishonestly as potential dads in order to get a career speaking up about the oppressions black people face in Academia, where due to the way she did her skin and hair, it could be assumed she was mixed. She spoke on behalf of black people and their problems and her proposed solutions. And she, "considers herself Black."

Now, competing schools in progressivism have been arguing internally about this for a long time. Because on the one hand, they really want black allies and narrative in their struggle for narrative and social dominance of values. And those values are, biology should not be a legitimate determining factor in any social culture or community. That you should be able to join any group without the biological necessity to inherit those characteristics or birthright.

And the other side that says, "if you aren't born from our in-group, you are not of our in-group, and thus, not entitled to our love, compassion, resources, or social organization. You are an outsider, you are an enemy, and our culture is closed to your input."

They really want those oppressed ethnic and social groups to be on their side as allied communities to use as collective democratic vehicles of social organization, but they don't want those groups to be autonymous and structurally exist outside of the control of society. So it's a careful dance of saying and not saying things until those groups have no choice by law or by the grass roots values of their children, to change how they can validly define themselves.

They vehemently disagree that any validity exists to any culture or community that uses paternal or maternal heredity to define and distinguish itself as true and valid. And they don't just want that to be opinion, they want to be in a position to tell said people, "you are not valid, your culture is not valid, and you do not exist. You will not be treated as a distinct culture or community if your culture and community use hereditary birthright as sacred things."

So, surprise surprise, modern folklorists and urban fantasy, gothic punk horror writers choose not to have fun with the tropes of "harmful" culture, but to argue against the participation of it at all in society or pop culture.

In Werewolf: the Apocalypse, that game departed from the conventional pop culture folklore where a werewolf was not the result of being infected or baptized into darkness by the bite of a werewolf, but through biological heredity. W:tA Werewolves were this hereditary community of shaman and spirit workers that were fighting an attritional war against an overwhelming for.

The Garou as a culture in the old games existed as a kind of anomaly. Only 5% of the children a werewolf would have (male or female) would be a werewolf. The rest would be either normy human beings, or spiritually aware but unchanging humans called Kinfolk that could relate to the were-wolves and serve as go-betweens for the more supernaturally inclined monster folk and basic humanity. Often taking the roles of a support system. They were the Alfred Pennysworths, the Lois Lanes. Kinfolk drastically raised the potential of a werewolf being able to produce another werewolf.

And this problemed, bizarre biology that fought so hard against large losses against their adversary was one of the horrors of the setting. You had to balance modern sensibilities about how your horrible supernatural biology functioned, how new members of your group are made, vs. just how dehumanizing that could be, all in the face of the grind of the enemy at the front gates and time itself threatening to destroy your community.

W:tA set the werewolves up as having screwed up bigtime in the past, treating humans like chattel and breeding stock. This was their history and something they had to come to terms with. It was part of the body horror that is synonymous with werewolf and the knowledge of horrors of things groups inflicted on others in the past. All because the only way you get more of your in-group is due to biological heredity, and that without that component, the pacts with your spirits, the traditions that make your group's magic function, don't work.

This unchangeable facet of existence, this immutable, static part of you, that you just have to live with and even if you can transform and change some parts, cannot change around by yourself, was part of the horror. That some social structural changes are beyond one person alone to change. That no matter what you do, you cannot change heredity and the choices that people preceding you have made. You can only live in the environment and time created by circumstance and inherit that culture and history. For better or worse.

These were themes in werewolf that were very heavy and their own source of terror.

So how did W5 decide to play off these deep, juicy source of not just body horror, but social horror?

Take the entire thing and put it in a dumpster and start fresh, actively and intentionally refusing to even touch them.

They determined that werewolf tribes would not directly grow out of existing folklore or pay homage to cultures and communities with their own were-wolf myths, incorporating those folklore stories and their origins. Not just because, "that would be cultural appropriation," on behalf of Native American or African stories of people turning back and forth between animals, but because acknowledging the different narrative traditions and cultural tales of say, Greek werewolves Vs. Roman werewolves Vs. Irish werewolves would necessitate acknowledging that there are cultures within white European people that are themselves indivisibe, distinct and didn't just exist, but are currently alive.

And we've already covered, they do not believe to be white or European should be considered a culture in and of itself the way they feel being Asian or Black are cultures with valid racial characteristics that are endangered by whites when mixing.

So naturally they do not want to include an Irish tribe of werewolves.

Then we come to the most reviled tribe of all to these new guys.

The Get of Fenris are a tribe in Werewolf: the Apocalypse that borrows heavily from Norse mythology, as the name implies. The Get of Fenris are a viking werewolf culture that claim to descend from Fenris the Wolf, whom they venerate most.

They use old Norse runes, weapons and iconography, and are a result of Neo-Pagans in the anti-Christian revivals of culture that were popular throughout the 60s-00s. They were fun, cheesy, deathmetal and axe slinging motherfuckers. Fucking viking werewovles! What's not to love?

But as you well know from the tone of this post, there's no room for fun in the hamfisted ideological platform that is modern World of Darkness. The 90s "everything's good, lets just incorporate everything equally" gave way to further editions trying to wag a finger at Werewolf: the Apocalypse fans and reminding them that white supremacists existed that were taking the Get of Fenris and just using them to validate the idea of white genetic supremacy, or, gasp, the idea a 'white' culture exists or existed at all. Not like those noble oppressed ethnically homogenuous demographics, whom are definitely cultures unto themselves.

They exaggerated the number of actual W:tA players supposedly unironically trying to play out their nazi Werewolf fantasies of blonde haired, blue eyed Norsemen, and so by the Revised (third) edition, set up the Get as having an internal racism and sexism problem that the players had to punch. They set up lore about the Get fighting on both sides in World War 2 and the Nazi get losing by, you guessed it, getting punched. And overall just browbeat and negged Get players by attaching this stigma of "suspected Nazi" to them just by virtue of the Get being Odinist themed.

They went out of their way to emphasize the number of Get that themselves were either Asian or blacker than the Ace of Spades, took great pains to acknowledge horrible and disgusting Get existed and had their own political group within the tribe that all the right thinking Get hated and marginalized and wanted to go away, and overal just made the bad guy Get the mincing racist, sexist, patriarchal stereotypes for protagonists to punch. Just, so, y'know, you get the message.

But that STILL wasn't enough contrition and self-flaggelation of the Get for them.

So by Werewolf, 5th edition, the Get of Fenris are no longer the Get of Fenris. Right out of the gate, the CULT of Fenris are no longer playable characters. The Cult of Fenris are radical white supremacist snarling ultra-radical militarists that have charged down the mouth of the Wyrm and become an unplayable lost Tribe. They just simply took them off the table in the most mean spirited "fuck you" to Werewolf fans of the past, just to do that limp wristed solidarity fist and say, "no platform for Nazis," in a room with no Nazis in it.

Now compare and contrast this to what they did to the werewolf clan that took Irish werewolf myths and made them ethnically Irish; they just made them Hearth Keepers and excised the Irish from them, so being descended from Ireland had nothing to do with your attachment to the tribe. No mention of Shileleighs or guiness or bardic stories.

They did not turn the Irish tribe into god damned evil monsters, they just removed the Irishness from them save for some vague, ghostly nods to some fragments of folklore of werewolves originating in Ireland, but kept the rest of the tribe somewhat valid.

They did not decide arbitrarily that the celtic cross wielding tribe decided to just become raging lunatics and throw themselves down a fairy circle to fight Satan, thereby becoming demons themselves.

They structured the entire basis of the Cult of Fenris not just to make them unplayable, but make them cursed corpses and read any of the people that wanted to play them as assholes. Not just reinterpreted out of the game without mention, like the Fianna, but made examples of. That isn't just, "I hate this group and don't even want to mention them in my game," this is, "fuck your group, and fuck you." That's active hostility. The Get could've just been reimagined. Instead, they were pilloried.

No matter how much they tried to expand upon the concept of werewolf tribes to make them racially inclusive, acknowledge sexism and paternalism as tragedies in the past to overcome, try to underline what role the players had in trying to become part of the solution to restructure or reform these tribes and their cultures to be something else, it was never enough. Just being a culture that necessitated coming from Europeans was enough to get something characterized as, "inescapably Nazi," the more it necessitated European origins instead of flavorless homogenuity. Europeans are not allowed to have culture, merely exist, and folklore isn't allowed to come from recognizable and distinct "folk."

They also took issue with the hereditary nature of being a werewolf. Because, as stated above, they do not believe culture and literature should perpetuate the idea that birthright and heredity plays any role in destiny or group affiliation, and don't even want to perpetuate myths and folklore of such things operating that way. You know, because, "then the little people may get ideas about perpetuating it in culture and literature."

So in V5, there's absolutely no hereditary tribal structure that passes down the tribe. It's all arbitrary, postmodernist, "how much do you vibe with these spiritual characteristics that all individuals possess." Nothing unique to a bloodline or hereditary group, nothing that is a unique mutation that only members of a certain group possess or you have to marry into to perpetuate.

Kinfolk are not distant cousins and fellow descendants of these shamanic tribes, they're individuals who resonate with your supernatural values that can come from anywhere, and it's the virtue of their beliefs and feelings that matter, not their blood.

And the fucked part is, the actual lore, if they bothered to even fucking read it, ALREADY SET UP for stuff like this to happen! They could very, VERY easily have worked these changes into the franchise, if they wanted. By the end of 3rd Edition, they talked about mysterious humans appearing that had NO biological, hereditary attachment to tribes like the Get of Fenris, that had the Pure Breed Tribe spiritual characteristic of 5/5, as if they were sired by a famous Get of Fenris themselves. They previously SET UP the modern era to start having people that weren't the byproducts of generations of grooming and in-culture to authenticate their tribal affiliation.

And then these new people took the meta of progress towards these changes to not just the game, but the meta, and said, "No platform for Nazis and TERFs," and just.... threw it all in the trash. Because, "we know better. :^)"

Every single issue they had a problem with could've been addressed and solved and the integrity of the game maintained. And they chose the most flavorless, bland way to just reset the game possible in the interests of homogenuity and modularity and "intersectional inclusion."

And congratulations, you took what was interesting and unique about the game and how it approached body horror, social horror and social issues, went, "I'M RIGHT, YOU'RE WRONG, WE TALKED ABOUT IT AND I'M RIGHT AND YOU'RE WRONG!" and tossed it in the trash.

I won't even get into the overcorrection involved in stripping the Native American tribes from their roots and overcompensating by treating the Wendigo as too sacred of a figure for even non-Natives to mention the name of. These people would use this same argument to scream Christians shouldn't even be allowed to write God because some Jews refuse to reference them by name, and it's sacred to them.

The level of bad faith that went into this edition of the game means I'll still be playing 20th edition and basing things off 20th edition lore. This ain't it. You couild've warded away the fash/naz players in so many better ways, could've done more with "inclusion and cultural sensitivity" with the Native American tribes using the tools of the setting, could've done so much more

And you fuckers chose the laziest, most ideologically masturbatory ways to do everything, right down to sticking obligate MAGA hats on the, "white supremacist tribe," and roasting them in a pot as a middle finger to imagined strawmen.

[idlingworship]

I'm Huh Jihye, a member of FUTURE/FEMME, singer-songwriter, producer, and a fan of pineapple on pizza. Ask me anything!

Hi, Reddit!

I'm Huh Jihye, a member of K-pop group FUTURE/FEMME under Culture Creative. We just made our comeback with 'Kitsch', and I'll be here to answer a few of your questions about what it's like to be a member of FUTURE/FEMME and about K-pop!

How do you keep your head high? Idols often have to deal with lots of criticism, and I can't imagine it's easy dealing with that day in and day out.

good question! i'm extremely lucky to have wonderful people around me, such as my group members, that act as my support system. i don't get hurt easily, so i like to see if it's constructive, then i'll take the criticism and work on myself. if not, then i don't care! if i'm secure in myself and believe i'm the best version of me, then it doesn't matter what others think of me. it only matters what i think of me! you're you, and i'm me!

jihye girl i love u!!! i'm such a big fan of f/f!!! can you share more about 'kitsch' and how you came up with the song? love u miss producer huh x

thank you! i feel like when i was creating it, i wanted it to be really representative of what future/femme's whole message & what we stand for, so a very carefree, youthful, 'i don't care' vibe! there are lots of references to social media platforms and what it's probably like to just be existing in the now as a gen-z. i wanted everyone who listened to be able to feel like they're a cheerful, confident main character in a high-teen movie with no worries! if you're walking down the street and listening to kitsch, you really have to become the main character!

What does a typical day for FUTURE/FEMME look like?

there really is no one typical day! even if we're preparing for a comeback, we all have different schedules and things to work on outside of it, and come together for practice after. for me, it's working in the studio 24/7!

what's your birth time queen

i'll never reveal this.

what's your favourite song you've ever written?

this is so hard to answer... but i have a special soft spot for love u twice! it's sooo personal to me, and so many of you guys have said you relate to it which makes it extra special!💖 i find it so wonderful when you make my songs yours :) it's why i also love good parts, because i want to encourage self-love!

what's your favourite taylor swift era?

off the top of my head, midnights!

what's a song you like to listen to to get your energy up?

antifragile!

top 3 must-haves in your bag? and a tmi!

probably... my phone! that's really a must-have! my headphones, and chocolate! for my tmi, i stayed up til 5am yesterday/today!

[sliding $20 note] any new music in the works...

;) forever n always

your favourite lyric you've ever written, and why?

omggg so many. probably: the bridge of impurities, 'power stronger in adversity, i'm not afraid of the overwhelming shadow, i'll have it all what i desire' good parts' 'i don't wanna blame my weakness, i'll love myself the way i am'! polaroid's entire verse 2. that's it that's the tweet

what's something you'd like to say to you 5 years ago, and you 5 years in the future?

keep going because you'll be glad you did! i hope the 26-year-old jihye will be happy, too.

thanks for all your questions & support, reddit! this has been so much fun, but unfortunately, this is all the time i have. please give lots of support to future/femme's latest comeback, 'kitsch'! 💖

[seancamerons]

i really dont like the fb fandom for degrassi. i regret joining. its not fun. i just got desperate for community and like this was like a mistake. im done with this kind of behavior this girl had.

In one of these stupid ass groups, I think I've met the mosts meanest nastiest bitch in the world, can't relate. How dare you? Come bullying people who like to joke and have fun? Ew. Nasty writing indirectly like fu, don't get cocky with me. I'm not cool with people poking fun at others. I'm aware im friggin ugly as hell but you know what? I don't care she don't live anywhere near me but now she's nothing but a memory bc shes blooooocked.

here is the scoop, this one girl tried to be rude to me that i was 'weird' bc i wore a stupid friggin character costume with my bf, unorthodox bc its not a popular show or film franchise or whatever but like ugh shaming people? what is with you, boring bitch?

tell that to all the moanas, disney dressed, superhero, queens and kings, Harley Quinn and Barbie's walking around this week! Just because I made my costume kind of out of odds and ends doesn't mean shit. If you got nothing nice to say leave me alone, your opinion is invalid I don't care, but that was out of line. Blocked. I have half the the mind to contact the moderator to get me out of that nasty group of stupid ass people. Ugh I hate being mad about stupid shit but c'mon. i really am starting to be like super hurt and bent outta shape bc i worked really hard and like i was just trying to have a teeny bit of fun. I don't even know. I hope she ain't on here. She seems more casual bc whatever.

I been around this for 84 years, half of my life (exaggerated) but basically i know shit, you don't and it shouldb't be this serious but shaming people isn't nice. I'm trying to be a nice person keep the piece she is disturbing my peace and i just wanted to show off a fun thing I did. Ugh people. I do not wanna be in a group with this girl bitching about something so ridiculous and making me all hot and angry maybe this is why I almost never do shit or open up about anything I'm about to blow a gasket over a basic bitch!

She got blocked hope I don't see nothing, even if she did like semma/sean/emma or whatever i don't wanna know. Leave me alone or I'll report your ass. I had to block 3 people today, 3 I do not care. Don't push me I will.

I am done with people who do not give a fuck about me, pardon my french. Do me a favor and lay tf off or you're blocked. I will not respond. You will be insignificant.

I am very pssionate about things i like. Do not make me an enemy. I will go to literal war. I do not care. Understand? Ughhhhh I hate this.

so you're blocked if you say anything neg, i have no room in my life for people being nasty for the sake of being nasty. stop being mean girls, this isn't 2004. support ladies, don't be a bitch bc you don't have fun, and shit on others parade.

that is a double negative, you are a double negative and you're raining on my love parade. or something like that.

[ashestoashis]

Hey!!!, I hope all is well with you.

I was wondering did you find yourself longing for sisterhood as you enter your 20s, wanting to find women that you connect with and love. Where you can genuinely be yourself or did you feel like you didn’t fit it or you just didn’t find the type of people for you. Like people would say you have a friend for everything and for me personally I don’t like that. I feel like if you’re my friend you can call me on me if you wanna go out, try new restaurants, go hiking or even in your difficult times. I also want to know did you find your sisterhood/ people.

thank you for this - there are so many potential threads in this question so i'll do my best to stay on topic!

one thing that has oddly worked in my favour is that i don't fit in anywhere lol. even at times around that age group and even slightly younger, when fitting in seemed vital for survival, i always stood out. looking back, i think other people admired me for this in ways i was totally oblivious to; because those closest to me always shamed me for the ways i was different, it never occurred to me that anyone would value those differences. and as a result i always felt very distant from almost everyone in a way i thought would never change - i wasn't sad about it, i just accepted it. the cruelty of those 'close' friendships meant that sisterhood was not something i ever put on a pedestal - my friendships with other women always required me to shrink, hide or sacrifice some part of myself, and those tendencies are something i'm still unlearning even now.

therefore, being myself isn't exactly something that's been supported/promoted/enabled by a collective - it's something i've had to grow into, to then give me a basis for relationships/friendships with others, rather than the other way around? i think it's beautiful that some people have consistent friends/sisters who help them embrace who they are - i wasn't longing for those connections at that age, but i was definitely done with the bullshit and knew i would not tolerate any more highly toxic women in my orbit - i think that was the point at which i truly learnt what toxicity was! and that i deserved better. so there was definitely a shift in standards.

overall, i would say i've had seasonal sisters; i have found my people in line with finding new parts of myself, and that's an ongoing continuum that i don't think will ever end. i have felt deeply understood and seen at different points by different people, yet i now recognise the amount of ourselves we have to share at any given time is always changing, and in my case, every time i have discovered a new part of myself, become too invested in someone's opinion of me (positive or negative) or died to an old belief system or dynamic, relationships have ended and made space for something new. sometimes that gap isn't filled instantly with new people, other times it is. i guess my perspective is to pay attention to what i'm learning about myself through my connections with others, and the losses of those connections also - how does the saying go? 'we don't have relationships with people, we have relationships with ourselves through people.' i think i believe that.

i also recognise that people relate to each other in totally different ways - like you, i don't necessarily have friends for different purposes. i more focus on who i am and what i bring to others than assigning roles to people - however i see patterns in how/when people come to me, the types of things they want from me and who they think i am. i now deliberately remind myself to keep some distance from who people think i am, so i don't end up sleeping on all the parts of me they don't/can't see, if that makes sense. i want to know the difference between connection and projection, and even the most well-meaning of friends/sisters/brothers/others can unwittingly make a caricature out of you in the name of love. incidentally, the friend i feel most genuinely seen by at the moment is a dude - as he's the least judgemental person i know - so i'm really open about where that true friendship can come from.

the other side to all of this is noticing how receptive i am at any given point, as the love and connection we have access to also depends on what we are willing to let in. plus - the way we love others can tell us something about our own needs; being all things to all people can mean we want someone to love us in that same all-encompassing way, for example. or longing for people to love can mean we're longing to be loved. we communicate what we want through demonstration a lot of the time. i've learned a lot about my true wants by allowing myself to be still with whatever is coming up - i used to be a pro at making everything about others, until i realised i did so because i didn't feel worthy of my own attention. now i'm teaching myself how to receive from me, which is changing the way i relate to others entirely. i hope this helps and answers your questions, thanks again for your ask 💕

[whatudowhennooneseesyou]

HI HELLO, I've never written before 👋 but I'm a fan of your writing (🫶) and this type of convo always got me feeling things 💀 The "higher than thou" attitudes around smut needs to go! Read smut without shame. Or don't. It's ok to like different things. We're all different in many ways, and that is okay 👌

To judge others based on their sexual preferences or smut reading, or where they are on the rough or kinky scale, IS SO SILLY, IMMATURE, AND SAD 🧐

YES on "not being into rough sex doesn't equal not kinky" (or not more kinky than your BDSM/rough-loving moots/friends). There's one of 'em right here 👋 as you I am, sadly, also traumatised by bullying and can't handle being roughed up or degraded, but I'm kinky and sure as f not prude, boring or bad 😇

I don't remember who, but a fic writer said something like "I hope you know you don't need to deep-throat to make someone feel satisfied 👀" which is 100% true, like don't underestimate how easy it can be to please a person with a dick lmao (/ said affectionately and respectfully). Don't ever force yourself to go rough/read rough smut if it's not your thing and don't feel bad about it 🩷

Reading smut can really be helpful for people traumatised by bullying, shame culture or w/e. I too almost "flied off the edge" as you said, and various life experiences and upbringing made anything related to sex and intimacy in any form was ruined, traumatic and shameful until adulthood 🙃

Luckily I found some good peni- I mean peeps to help me open up. BUT SMUT?! Literally work therapeutically for me, and has been more rewarding and effective in some areas that irl experiences has or could not be 🤷 I'm sure others can relate. 100/10 stars, recommend.

The ff community is such a big spectrum of people in the sense of why or what we read or write. We got many late bloomers figuring shit out, experienced ones, poly's, married monogamous ones, asexual-spectrum and everything in between who may not engage in anything like it at all outside of this space.

We have a space where people can enjoy things on their own terms, talk with each other freely about things they might never be able irl, and have moots/community with purely smut reader/writers!

And I think that's really neat actually, and if anybody wanna fuck it up for us I will woop their ass 😤💖

(this was a lot, I beg your pardon 👉👈)

Hello @ddeonghwassimp

Firstly, before I respond to this lovely ask (thank you for sending this ask, it's beautiful. )

But I read your Bang Chan fic and it was so soft and beautiful, it was really sweet and comforting to read and you wrote such a great piece for your first ever fic.

You did really well *clap clap*

The audacity for you to take my words and use them as ammo (I'm kidding, I forgot I had written that so thanks for reminding me).

I don't remember who, but a fic writer said something like "I hope you know you don't need to deep-throat to make someone feel satisfied 👀" which is 100% true, like don't underestimate how easy it can be to please a person with a dick lmao (/ said affectionately and respectfully). Don't ever force yourself to go rough/read rough smut if it's not your thing and don't feel bad about it 🩷

But srsly everyone, you don't need too deep-throat and it can be very dangerous if done incorrectly.

I was at support group and expressing my insecurity in wondering if my 'performance' is going to be good on the first go.

And one of the ladies said that if you are enthusiastic, enjoying the pleasure and are vocal about what makes you feel good, then that's all you need to make the experience a great one for both of you.

Which I feel was great advice and helped me feel better about worrying about my performance.

Luckily I found some good peni- I mean peeps to help me open up. BUT SMUT?! Literally work therapeutically for me, and has been more rewarding and effective in some areas that irl experiences has or could not be 🤷 I'm sure others can relate. 100/10 stars, recommend.

Smut is so therapeutic but also so educational in understanding what you enjoy, even just physical things like putting a pillow under your hips will help with g-spot penetration and putting a drop of lube in the tip of a condom can create less friction and heighten the sensation with a barrier.

And this will gives us late bloomers more confidence when we experience our first time because we know our kinks already.

I completely agree with the rest of what you're saying and the smut community is such a tight-knit group and I have met such cool people.

Hate comments absolutely offer no solution when the easiest thing you can do is scroll.

[the-missann]

So, this is to my followers and anyone else who fits the bill.

After reading a post about the chance of Google using google docs in their AI learning, I had a large urge overcome me and I really want to do something as a small ant.

As much as I don't like bugs, ants aren't very strong on their own, but we all know the damage they can do as a group.

So, I've decided to make a writing group and if you're interested keep reading. This also isn't just a writing group, it's a group for anything related to writing. So that can be an artists who draw character concepts.

Again, read more if this piques your curiosity...

The Unserious Writing Group

Writing is a serious craft that needs some fun brought back into it. I've been inspired by several people in the last few years and I want to try something to contribute to my favorite thing to do: writing. I've tried to join other groups and it simply doesn't work since my writing doesn't fit into a neat category, so I feel isolated from the group rather quickly, in order to avoid that feeling I'm making as many of the things I do a part of the group's core. I'll also be considering my anxiety into this knowing how tasking it is for me to interact with a group I'm being overwhelmed by.

Plans: I'm better at organizing than actual execution, so I'm making this list of things I want to expand on (06/15/23)

Monthly (or weekly) Prompts

Shameless sharing

Friendly Discussions

Writing Assistance

Review Swaps

Editing Help

Projects

Book Club

Check-ins

Venting about writing

I don't want this group to be just for writers or just for poets, I want to include everyone that I can because I write in almost every genre and include almost every interesting element I can. As long as it's related to writing in some way, you're more than welcome to join!

This includes:

Novelists

Short Story Writers

Poets

Artists

Fanfiction writers

Avid readers

Editors

Critiquers

Playwrights

Song writers

Publishers

Hobby writers

And more!

Every aspiring author or published author knows networking is important and with how little accessible support there is for writers, I want to try and create a space for writers to feel as everyone else does in their field. I can only speak for myself but my journey to publication has been nothing but dead ends and it's very discouraging. Nothing I've tried works and I can't find the exact source to the problem and therefore can't fix it—I don't know if I'm a bad writer or if it's just my cover that's bad.

I want writers to feel like they're heard and supported no matter if you're writing the next Star Wars or a story about pieces of paper thinking they were trees in a former life. I want writers to be acknowledged for giving the world their fandoms.

Despite my ambitions, I obviously have some concerns I feel will come up:

I get overwhelmed easily (and guess what I already am overwhelmed and no one has even joined yet 🤢) and I would need someone to assist me as a co-leader essentially. If anyone would be interested in that role, DM me.

If this moves to Discord or some other platform, I will have no idea how to set that up. For now, I was considering just having a large thread.

Unfortunately, until I can get moderators or any other form of help, I can't have the group open to minors. It would be 18+ only until then, I wanna allow people a safe space to discuss anything.

Activity is a big issue in most writing communities. It comes with it, but I want to have something going on whenever possible.

[cutest-big-dragon]

Friendly reminder to content creators that if your subscription to view count is low, or viewer retention is poor, you don't need to beg people to subscribe or finish the video. But first, let's talk about reasons: 1. You're making references only a specific community will understand, that isn't even related to any of your previous videos. (ahem all of the jojo references I have to sit through in a video about tf2, despite never having watched jojo, or really cared about it in general) 2. You say things that might seem fine to you, but may insult your audience. (I can't tell you how many youtubers just call people slurs ON VIDEO, like, I remember having to click "don't recommend channel videos" because they won't stop insulting groups of people) 3. You're trying too hard to get something out of it. Max ads, in-video sponsors, constant begging to buy merch, support patreon, subscribe, like, and suck your dick after we buy you a coffee. Personal note: Nobody likes being BEGGED to give you money. If you're homeless? Its another thing, but like, 90% of youtubers are sitting in a studio apartment being like "please if you don't like or subscribe I have to work a job like most people" or "if you don't subscribe I can't buy bread". Maybe yt isn't the career for you then? People subscribe to things they like, and want to watch or hear about, people will sub if they want to, and if they don't, don't pressure them? Especially with the guilt tripping I see 24/7. 4. You have no passion about the things you talk about. (pretty self-explanatory) 5. Unnecessary politics, religion, controversial things. Activism is a great thing, but I'm just gonna skip over most sections where a dude compares a game to how "liberals, republicans, communists, capitalists, are destroying the country" or whatever. I just want to watch a dude play a game, it's my coping mechanism. It's where I sometimes go to avoid all of these things. Please make a separate video for it, especially cause you can go more in-depth there, and I would probably be interested anyways! Just not if I'm already having a mental breakdown about the world's problems.

6. Blatant clickbait (the obvious one) You don't need to make the title "Best country in the world" and then spend 90% of the video giving filler. You got a random idea you wanna share? Post it in a non-video format, if it's too short to be a real video. You don't need sexualized depictions of characters in the thumbnail, you don't need to do anything like that. (a good example of not needing to do that is Daily Dose of Internet, where rarely do their videos not cover what was in the thumbnail/title) There are real, interesting things out there! If you just wanna make a gameplay video? Name it so! I'd be much more interested in watching something titled "TF2 Heavy Gameplay, with commentary" than something like "BRASS BEAST IS BROKEN??? (GLITCH)" My point with all of this is VIDEOS ARE AN ART FORM, THAT IS MEANT TO BE ENJOYED. ART CAN BE A CAREER, BUT ONLY IF YOUR ART IS WORTH LOOKING AT. OTHER THAN THAT, PLEASE MAKE VIDEOS WITH LOVE, NOT GREED, OR FAME BEING YOUR ONLY OBJECTIVE. Btw if you read this, thank you. It means a lot <3

Oh and finally, take what I say with a grain of salt, you don't have to do any of it, I just, as a content consumer(?) would enjoy it. The youtubers I sub to are the ones who don't ask.