#And God I hate myself for it
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I wanna cry rn
#sam's talky talks#I was angry and then felt so damn sad thinking of my ex. Just...Idk. The way we broke up still clouds my thoughts#I feel like she should've just straight up told me she didn't like me in such a way anymore. Instead of saying we were going on–#–a break. It'd hurt but I wouldn't be as pissed at her as I am#But it's probably my fault. Being pushy. Really hoping it'd work out when I knew she wanted nothing to do with me in that way#It's my fault I probably made her lose interest in me#Shit. I'm mad I didn't trust her in those few weeks before things went downhill#But I was so damn jealous. I was angry. I lost so much trust in her. I still...can't seem to find myself trusting her#And God I hate myself for it#I really. Really do
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#girlblogger#girlblogging#girlblog aesthetic#this is a girlblog#just a girlblog#my girlblog#this is what makes us girls#girlhood#girlcore#im just a girl#just girly thoughts#just girly posts#just girly things#lana del rey#lana del ray aesthetic#hell is a teenage girl#what am I doing wrong#tumblr girls#gaslight gatekeep girlboss#girl boss gaslight gatekeep#gaslighting myself#lana is god#girl blogger#girl blog aesthetic#girl things#girl thoughts#i hate everything#i hate this#i hate it here#coquette
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only you.
#alt versions under the cut!#my art#arcane#jayce talis#viktor arcane#jayvik#these two have infested my brain like mold#oh god its yooouuuuuu that i liieeeeee wiiiiiith#sweat this out of myself in the brief three days i spent home (want to go backkkkk im tired im nauseous im in my hate everyone era againn)#i just want to feel better!!!!!!!!!#letting myself go a little bonkers with this helped a little but the guilt over not progressing with my thesis film is going to consume me#anyway. enough of using the tags as a confessional. bone apple teeth
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some of the head coms from recently <:^) indefinitely still open for these !
#my art#furry#anthro#illustration#oc#unicorn#hyena#look at this colourful bunch. this rendering style is a lot of fun (most of the time. lmao. sometimes it gives me road blocks)#neeed to fully open slots and make more examples but finding the time has been rough#lord give me the patience to make a website and the wisdom to make a website and the willpower to make a website and the#anyway it's gyoza for dinner tonight lads. gyoza and salad and my special homemade dipping sauce#being good and having something light because phish food changes me into someone i don't recognise and i consumed half a tub of it#effortlessly. could've had the whole thing. don't know who i am when phish food is in front of me#just kidding i recognised myself. i am ever allured by the love of a treat#of course i know her. she's me#ALSO god i do truly hate to say it. i haven't seen the movie but bye bye mufasa lion king. kind of slappy#kind of in my head forever. make you go bye bye. make you go. bye bye.#lion king villain songs man. will they ever miss? (ignoring the countless obscure spinoffs)
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text could never portray the scream i wish i could let out
#fuck#everything#fuck this#fuck me i guess#fuck this place#fuck this life#blow it up in fucking flames#actually bpd#actual bpd#bpd feels#bpd vent#bpd#bpd problems#bpd awareness#chronically ill#chronic illness#childhood trauma#chronically disabled#chronic pain#add all the trauma tags bc the trauma never fucking stoppsss!!!#trauma#killing myself#i hate everything about eveything and there is NOTHING I CAN FUCKING DO ABOUT IT#i suddenly understand those people kill everyone and then themselves#pleasseeee god if you can hear me now#it would be a really good fucking time not to laugh
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"Mistakes on mistakes until" (my speed of reading is that one day where every planet stands in one line)
2 chapter in nutshell
3 chapter in nutshell
#I keep falling out of world pffht also my hand hates me but I love it so my max is dead ugly doodles#BUT#3 CHApTER#I WOULD HAVE LOVED TO ANIMATE THE MOMENT WHERE JAZZ TOOK OVER#HE WAS SO BADASS AND PROWL JUST :“...Yeah I wouldn't be able to do so myself.... wow..” *and agrees with dying dude about his skill*#HEHEHFGEHGEHGWEW and the bickering starts#Prowl. Do you know what is the lie.#GAH#momu#transformers#jazz#prowl#jazzprowl#Also DAMN GOD YOU ALL WROTE ABOUT TWO VOLUMES OF FICS FOR JAZZ PILOT HUH WOW WHAT A CRAZY FANDOM#cockroachdoodles#Augh I need quiet rest
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i think more people need to realize that the circumstances of how jason todd died would make him deeply untrusting of not only other people, not only himself and his own instincts, but specifically other people's proclamations of what they feel about/for him and how he reacts to that in turn
#personal#jason todd#like personally if a major formative moment in my life was trusting someone when they said they cared about me#and taking them at their word on an important topic#only for them to be flat out lying and then say that it's MY fault for trusting them in the first place#which then leads into a series of events that are both physically and mentally incredibly traumatic#i'm not trusting anyone who says anything about how they feel about me ever again#and i'm not trusting my own reactions or my own instincts in response to people either#(also god i forgot what a victim blaming BITCH sheila haywood was i hate dc retconning aditf to try and make it jason's fault)#anyway i'm done batman posting for the day or i'm gonna start pissing myself off
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Hey guys I think The Last Unicorn is such a Scott book
#Hate Jimmy's anatomy here. whatever. throws it at you guys anyway before I stress myself into offing myself#quote is from The Last Unicorn ofc!! I drew unicorn scott and then me and my friend went insane about the book + Scott's character#flower husbands#scott smajor fanart#trafficshipping#trafficblr#need to reread that book desperately#so many moments and quotes I remember from it are SO Scott guys. I swear to god#it being a book all about this unicorn who is turned into a human and thus starts experiencing emotion. and flaw and love and and#and the unicorn is stressing but realizes that even if she were turned back into a unicorn. She has already felt. She no longer belongs#And I view Scott's character as tending to deny himself those kinds of feelings as if they were a weakness. As if they'd get in the way#He allowed himself to love and be loved in LL and then never again. Turned around and ostracized Pearl. Sorry going insane#and then ofc this quote made me think of Jimmy. I cannot get into my reasoning here though I will either die or get killed#tubby art
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guy who's been everywhere and knows everyone
#sonic the hedgehog#sonic#sth#god i needed to draw something different im stuck and i hate everything i draw#i dont have the the theee energy or whatever i cant get myself to work on my art and it sucks#and idk what to do about it#ughhh#im just making ugly doodles that i hate and i feel even worse please sonic help meee save meeee#art#fanart#digital art
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she cut her hair 😔
#BARK BARK BARK#george russell#alex albon#formula one#f1#rule 63#2363#yeahg... theres a long sequence in my head of george showing up one day w her haircut and everyone gets whiplash#which is understandable she had the longest hair for the longest time. noone expected this scenario#and alex is like what tha flip georgie... in a way that sounds negative (it isnt. shes just surprised. galex common miscommunication trope)#and george is like oh my god you HATE it im going to KILL myself#and alex is like youre so fucking stupid jesus christ. you look awesome. etc etc kiss etc etc#ANYWAY LOL i love long ass hair georgie and pixiecut georgie just the same 🙏#random eurotruck mention sharl helps her cut her hair 😋 needa bring that diva up more often#ok goodnight. dream of george yuri tonight#my art#AND alex going wrong scissor action LOL#girl drivers
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WHAT’S WRONG WITH CEO PARK?
p — PARK SUNGHOON x gn! reader. g — ceo! sunghoon and secretary! reader, humor, romance. w — swearing, sunghoon being a weirdo, a misplaced marriage proposal. 1.3k words.
requested by — anon: menace to everyone but you x the opposite of that.
note — i hate the cold angsty male ceo trope. so instead i turned ceo hoon into a weirdo that's a little bit too in love and doesn’t understand the concept of workplace boundaries which stresses you the fuck out!!
when you got promoted from being assistant secretary thanks to your ceo’s former secretary resigning, your co-workers did not throw you a celebration.
“you called for me, mr. park?”
instead, they threw you an advanced farewell party. it was nice working with you, said the cake dusted with stray confetti on the day of your promotion. they’re celebrating your inevitable resignation. they’re sure you’re going to follow suit after you predecessor within three months max because according to them—
“yes.”
your boss, park sunghoon, is the nastiest fucker in the planet.
“take a seat.”
you gulp, making cautious steps into your ceo’s office. he’s signing a stack of documents while you take your sweet time delaying having to sit in front of his paper-stacked desk, setting them aside the moment you sit down, sharp eyes immediately zeroing into your soul, and you start sweating.
there’s a bet on the line on when you’d eventually quit. today marks your fourth month here, and you’re pretty sure heeseung is going to win because you are in fact this close to sliding your pre-written resignation letter over his desk, adding onto his pile.
not because he’s terrible, like they all say. not because he’s temperamental.
“sunoo told me you were sick,” sunghoon starts. “why did you come to work today?”
but because you fear your boss might be a little bit in love with you.
“is...is that the only reason you asked for me?” you hesitantly say, picking on your cuticles and trying to avoid eye contact because the concern drowning your boss’s expression is just enough to drown you as well.
“you don’t look well,” he avoids your question. of course you don’t look well. you’re very, very uncomfortable right now and the main cause of that discomfort is him. “you should go home. i’ll tell jay to drive you.”
you’re pretty sure jay isn’t going to be happy with that.
“mr. park—”
“i thought i asked you to call me sunghoon.”
your mouth is left hanging open. you’re flabbergasted. you take a second to recollect your thoughts. “...mr. park. sir,” you emphasize. you should at least be the one reminding him of your hierarchical roles at the moment. sunghoon looks upset that you’re not abiding by his request, but says nothing in protest so you continue. “i ran out of sick leaves. and there’s still so much work to do, i can’t just go home.”
“you ran out? well i’ll just give you more.” sir, that’s not how it works. “and jungwon can take care of your work. you should go home and rest.”
jungwon wouldn’t be too happy with that either. you feel your stress levels rising, headache incoming, because he’s just not listening to you. this crazy bastard, you think to yourself.
but maybe you were thinking a little too loudly.
“can you say that again?”
you slap a hand over your mouth with a gasp.
“say it again.”
you’re fucked. you just called your boss a bastard right to his face. “i’m—i’m so sorry, mr. park, i didn’t mean to—” but maybe that’s a good thing because that means you wouldn’t need to debate about resigning if he’s gonna fire you. “i apologize. i’ll accept any punishment you’ll give me.”
“no, say it again,” he hums, sounding a little too happy after being called crazy and a bastard, and you get a bad feeling. a really bad feeling. “i felt like we just got closer because of that. swear at me again.”
there’s a smile playing on your boss’s face.
“i— i don’t think that’s appropriate, sir.”
jesus christ, he’s a bit more in love with you than you thought.
“why not?” when sunghoon gets up from behind his seat, circling out from behind his desk to lean back against it right in front of you instead, you start fearing for your life. he looks at you, arms crossed in disappointment, and he looks a little too good with rolled up sleeves and slim-fit slacks.
crap, were you just checking out your boss?
his crazy is rubbing off on you.
“you have no trouble with swearing at and laughing around with the others,” he says. “why can’t you do the same with me?”
he is not normal, you think. thankfully not out loud this time. “sir, you’re my boss. i’m just your secretary. there’s a big gap there. i can’t just treat you the same way as i do with my co-workers.”
your boss takes in your words. he remains quiet with a stoic face for a few moments, and with each passing second of silence, you feel half a year of your life being shaved off. “ah,” he finally makes a sound after a good minute and a half. “should i give you a promotion, then?”
oh my fucking god, he’s nuts.
“boss, there’s an urgent thing you need to—”
“did i permit you to enter my office?”
your eyes widen, slapped in the face by a whiplash when your fellow secretary jake suddenly pops into the office, only to be cut off by the sharp glare and icy tone of your boss. jake’s hand doesn’t leave the doorknob when he nearly stumbles in shock with a stack of papers pressed to his chest. you see the look on his face. it’s the face of someone who’s about to get royally fucked over.
“n—no, sir. but these documents are—”
“then why are you in my office?” holy shit. so this is what they meant when they said ceo park is a bitchy demon from hell. jake looks like he’s about to piss himself. you’ve never been on the brunt of his temper— likely because he’s biased and has feelings for you, which has always felt burdensome. but now you’re a little thankful because you’d probably cry if he snapped at you like that.
“i’m sorry, i’ll leave now. i apologize.”
with that, jake makes his hasty retreat, and you’re once more left alone with your crazy boss.
“where were we?” he says. “oh, right. your promotion.”
you’re starting to feel dizzy.
“i’ve never liked how seojoo handled things. you can take his spot as the sales department head.” you have to stop him. you have to stop him before he actually fires a competent employee and gives you their spot as a courtship gift. “wait. i think you’d prefer working in HR actually. it’s a shame ms. kim is going to lose her position, but i can just—”
“mr. park—”
“sunghoon,” he cuts you off. “call me sunghoon.”
you look at him, exasperated. “sir,” you say. “i don’t think this is right.”
sunghoon raises a brow. “you don’t like HR? which department would you prefer then?”
you can’t. you can’t do this anymore. you make the mistake of letting your eyes wander out of stress, because they inadvertently land on the shiny gold glint of his nameplate, which is a terribly bad move following after his question because sunghoon notices, and sunghoon gets the very, very wrong idea.
oh, no. oh, no no no no no—
“i see.”
he doesn’t! he doesn’t see! you aren’t coveting his seat! you just want to go back to work and stop dealing with your insane and far too in love with you boss!
“i’m afraid i can’t give away my position as ceo,” he tells you. you swallow, shutting your eyes because you don’t want to acknowledge the mess you’ve just accidentally made, but your lack of vision definitely doesn’t interfere with your sense of hearing.
what you hear next sounds clearer than you’d like it to be.
“how about the position of being the ceo’s fiancé instead?”
that’s it.
“i will be getting back to work now, mr. park.”
there is something very wrong with your boss. it’s not in your job description to fix him.
WHAT’S WRONG WITH CEO PARK? © hannie-dul-set, 2023.
#i spent 30 minutes of my study time writing this bcs i got the genius idea while in the shower. god i hate myself.#park sunghoon x reader#sunghoon x reader#enhypen x reader#enha x reader#park sunghoon fluff#sunghoon fluff#enhypen fluff#enhypen scenarios#enhypen x you#park sunghoon x you#sunghoon x you#enhypen fanfic
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oh wyll
(quote from not another d&d podcast)
#wyll ravengard#bg3#bg3 wyll#baldurs gate 3#god i spent so much time on this. i tried some new things and i’m really proud of myself!#the character this is said to in naddpod is 15 and thinking about wyll at 17 selling his actual soul to save his city is just. aaaa#i think i could fix him on god my love we are gonna solve your savior and martyr complex#hearth art#also to be clear in this house we hate mizora#was cursing her name the whole time i was drawing her
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#girlblogger#girlblogging#girlblog aesthetic#this is a girlblog#just a girlblog#my girlblog#girl blogger#girl blog aesthetic#girlhood#im just a girl#this is what makes us girls#just girly thoughts#just girly posts#just girly things#girlcore#hell is a teenage girl#i hate this#i hate everything#i hate it here#i hate it#gaslight gatekeep girlboss#girl boss gaslight gatekeep#gaslighting myself#lana del ray aesthetic#lana del rey#lana is god
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#spiderman#deadpool#spideypool#comic#I did this for a class#an ENGLISH class#but we're learning about comics as literature and for the most recent paper we had an option to make a comic#and the main theme we're studying this semester is power so i made this#anyway I forgot how goddamn hard these two are to draw#I hate how complicated their costumes are like its so unnecessary#but I also think this is the most accurately I've drawn them#and they looked consistent through this whole thing#so I'm really proud of myself#and yes this is gay but i'm imagining that in this scene they don't realize they have feelings for each other yet hee hee#some of these were fuckin hard angles too what was i doing to myself!!! this was hard af!!! wtf!!!#and to be honest i drew all of this yesterday and today!!! that was so much drawing!!! og my god!!!#but it was fun he he#except i will always hate the webs on spideys costume. hell world#they have to look such a specific way and it is not easy#enough rambling. enjoy#also sorry im reuploading this because i had accidentally colored in one of spideys speech bubbles as yellow
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"After all we've been through you keep doing this Why? Why do you want to die so badly?" - 🦊
this started as a sketch with no defined context and ended in a complete drawing that reminded me of a conversation I had with a friend about serene's personality. there's nothing really written or thought about it, I mean, it's something I know orion will say, but I'm still not sure of the context or how it will get there
#my friend keeps saying I'm jumping between making a shonen and a seinen#god I hate my teenage self yelling at me that I'm cringe#my worst enemy is myself#anyway! the tags#sky: children of the light#sky cotl#sky children of the light#sky cotl oc#sereneskykid#serene
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You know what, fuck you
Give your Pebbles gigachad sigma skibidi rizz
#rain world#shitpost#gigachad meme#rw five pebbles#rain world five pebbles#rw fp#rain world fp#fp#five pebbles#rain world iterator#rw iterator#iterator#dear god someone kill me for this#both the art and saying these words out loud#i hate myself for this so much#rw meme#rain world meme#rw shitpost#rain world shitpost#meme
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