#Ana likes to play russian roulette

[asher-writes]

Character Views start vs end

writing neon glow in gold dust gives me so much lore its very tasty.

[jun-java]

Bodycheck with current hair [ 59kg ]

Sick, but going to dance practice anyways :L 

[ldss-interactive]

At Alter’s End: A CYOA Novel

Overview:

Trentworth, Maine. A town of ten thousand southeast of Ellsworth and North of Bayside. Its only bragging point since its conception in 1867 was being a shoreline city and cheaper than any of the other big tourist towns. Nothing ever happened here, besides the occasional drowning or fishing trip accident, until the killings started. They lasted five years in total and 48 people were lost to the killer’s sick desires. Robert Hall terrorized this small town, slipping under the radar by focusing on those considered “undesirable”; sex workers, orphans, drug addicts, and the like. Now ten years later, ten years after the killer has been put behind bars, murders have begun again. A copycat killer has come to Trentworth. And they seem to be targeting the ones left behind, still trying to pick up the shattered pieces of their lives…

You take the role of a highschool senior; your parents having died in a home fire shortly before the killer was put behind bars and now under the care of your workaholic aunt. Make allies of your classmates or attempt to go it alone, clear your parents’ name from their believed involvement with the killer or fight to put the past behind you, deal with the skeletons in your closet and mind or bury them deeper... Oh, and make sure your history project is turned in on time. With two young siblings depending on you and a whole host of problems a highschool student should never have to deal with, can you survive this nightmare made real?

Trigger Warnings: This game will go into very heavy topics including the following; murder, death, various mental health issues (such as PTSD, depression, and anxiety), abandonment, gambling, various types of drug addiction, self harm mentions (not happening to the MC or shown in graphic detail), suicide, sex work, child abuse (mental, emotional, and physical), and dangerous situations. This is a murder mystery/thriller, it is NOT intended for audiences below 18.

Hello! Thank you for showing interest in At Alter’s End. This is a Choose Your Own Adventure style novel in the Thriller and Murder Mystery genres. It would also fit nicely in the Drama genre as well, but Drama is not the focus. This will be a rather lengthy project, with fifteen chapters plus a prologue and epilogue planned.

You take on the role of a senior at Trentworth High. Join an after-school activity, take care of your younger siblings, prepare for finals, get a part time job, find a date to homecoming, and survive your worst nightmare come to life. The copycat killer is targeting the students of your school and no one is safe. With the police dragging their feet, no help coming any time soon from any higher up law enforcement, and the locals refusing to acknowledge the possibility of a copycat killer, it’s up to you and your classmates to find the person responsible...before it’s too late.

- You can play as female, male, nonbinary, or trans!

- You can be straight, gay, or bisexual!

- A highly customizable MC including hair color, eye color, skin color, hair length, height, and personality and interests!

- The ability to choose which mental illness the MC suffers from due to the trauma of their past from the following:

Anxiety, Depression, or PTSD.

- The MC is deaf in their right ear ear due to the way in which their parents died; this is not something that can be changed.

- Choose from 7 different official after-school activities! Trentworth Volunteers, Up and Coming Artists, National Debate Society, National Honors Society, Co-Ed Varsity Basketball, Creative Writing, and Trentworth Gardeners!

- Bond with your classmates, explore your town, and help raise your younger siblings!

- Rescue your parents’ bakery from corporate clutches or let it go!

- Find the killer, stop the murders, and put a stop to the rumors that have plagued your every step for 10 years!

Vanya: Oldest adoptive twin sibling to MC’s adoptive siblings, 6 years younger than MC. Strong-headed, intelligent, and always getting into trouble. She looks after her brother and MC in the ways she can.

Ajay: Youngest adoptive twin sibling to MC’s adoptive sibling, 6 years younger than MC. Nearly completely blind since birth, he enjoys painting and other artistic endeavors. Obedient yet opinionated.

Aunt Emma: The workaholic aunt that takes custody of MC and their younger siblings after the death of their parents. Well meaning but absent most of the time on business trips or at the office.

Kwan Hall: An adoptive relative to Robert Hall; aloof, intelligent, and completely ostracized by Trentworth as a whole. When the killings start again the town’s attention is immediately turned on Kwan. He’s the first to begin investigating the killings when the police prove their incompetence. He is of Korean descent, standing at 5’6” with dark hair and dark eyes. His most notable feature is the long scar that stretches from his forehead’s hairline, down his left temple, and ends just below his jawline and the constant disinterest on his face. He is asexual in that he doesn’t experience sexual attraction at all. He is also bisexual.

Alessia D’Agostina: Trentworth High’s school president. She’s clawed her way tooth and nail up to earn the respect of both the school faculty and her fellow classmates; she’s strong-willed, dependable, and always looks at things through a logical lens. When she sees her classmates dying, she takes it upon herself to try and stop this once and for all. With dark skin, deep brown eyes, long braided hair, and standing at 5’8” her confidence and sense of self always make sure she stands out from the crowd. Alessia is bisexual.

Georgiy Kuzmin: Twin brother to Anastasiya Kuzmin; he is, in the kindest way possible, not the brightest bulb in the box. Yet he always means well and is more than willing to offer a helping hand. As the co-captain of the basketball team, captain of the baseball team, and the star of the swim team, Georgiy is one of the most popular and well beloved students at Trentworth High. When he realizes his friends are in danger, he willingly throws himself into the investigation to do all he can to help. With fair skin, dirty blond hair, bubbly green eyes, and standing at 6’1” he cuts an approachable figure to anyone who knows him. Georgiy is gay.

Anastasiya Kuzmin: Twin sister to Georgiy Kuzmin: she and her brother are alike in so many ways apart from just appearance. Anastasiya, who goes by Ana more often than not, is head of the Co-Ed Varsity Basketball team, the Girls’ softball team, and the Tennis team. Just as popular and loved as her brother, Ana may not be the smartest but she makes up for it with passion and dedication. Like her brother, she has fairer skin, dirty blond hair, and bright green eyes. Also like her brother, she felt she couldn’t just sit around while her friends were put in danger and agreed to join the investigation. Ana is gay and demiromantic, meaning she only gains feelings for someone after having a strong relationship with them.

Lillian Triano: A quiet, withdrawn girl who mainly keeps to herself. Due to the fact that Trentworth High demands for every senior to be apart of an elective, she is mainly seen in afterschool reading club run by Ms. Habeeb. She’s MC’s closest friend, having been one of the only people who didn’t believe the rumors that MC’s parents were assisting Robert Hall in his murders. She has an olive complexion, brown eyes, a heavy dose of freckles, and stands at 5’1”. Lillian is gay.

Jasmine Abernathy: Jasmine is Trentworth High’s self proclaimed “Best news source!” After the school newspaper was disbanded, Jasmine took it upon herself to keep freedom of the press alive. She’s fierce in her pursuit of the truth and never one to back down from a fight, though her rash attitude can get her into some sticky situations on occasion. With vibrant red hair, dark brown eyes, and standing at 5’3” she puts the term “fire” in Fire Signs. (She’s an Aries in astrology!) When the copycat killings began, it was no surprise when she took the case head on. Jasmine is bisexual.

Asa San Nicholas: Asa is the oldest of a set of triplets; they’re the type to march to the beat of their own drum, often not listening to what anyone has to say about themselves or their interests. Asa is a firm believer in the paranormal and it isn’t uncommon to find them indulging in their interest in various ways. “The spirits are distrubed. These deaths aren’t meant to happen.” Asa’s reason for getting involved seems to tie directly back to their “connection” with the spirits of the town. Asa has black hair, most often tied in a ponytail, hazel eyes, and an olive skin tone. At 6’4” they tower over most everyone...something they seem to enjoy a great deal. Asa doesn’t see gender and is interested in people regardless of how they present.

Leo San Nicholas: The middle of the triplets. They are genderfluid, okay with any pronouns. Leo is, for lack of a better word, eccentric. A bit of an adrenaline junkie, you can often find them cliff diving or giving their siblings heart attacks by playing russian roulette with a chocolate gun. To them, it isn’t fun if there isn’t a little danger involved; naturally, an investigation into a serial killer scratches that itch quite nicely. Their black hair is clipped short, multiple piercings visible on each ear, and their heterochromatic hazel and green eyes are often stated to stare through a person. Although Leo is genderfluid, they are only interested in people who present as female.

The demo is upcoming! When it is available I will make a post announcing it! I will also update this post with the link! This game is written in choicescript; the demo will be published on Dashingdon and the final game will be published for free on itch.io. I am open for questions regarding this game/novel and once the demo is published I will also be publishing a link to my Ko-fi! Until then, please don’t hesitate to ask if you have any questions!

[existentialburden]

Nihonium, Niobium, Nitrogen, Nobelium, Oganesson, Osmium, Oxygen, Palladium, Phosphorus

nihonium: thoughts on the apocalypse?

I mean any event where a bunch of people die ain’t great!

niobium: you’re in a fantasy novel. who does your group consist of? who is which “character trope”?

I’m only gonna use my pals whose personal tumblrs I know but still oh boy uhhh. hmmm.... see the issue is in any story there’s always 3 people and it’s always The Protag, The Smart One, and The Comic Relief but I’m tired of that setup so INSTEAD: I’m the one always in danger for drama but who’s also necessary for the group’s survival for some reason or another (tHe MaGiC wAs In Me AlL aLoNg), @wolfa542 is the one who is conveniently prepared for so many scenarios, @deadcellsman is the only one who can actually fight (is this half because of our D&D session? yes but only half), and @aggrivating-thaumaturgist--ooc is the one who actually knows what’s going on and Plans Things Out.

nitrogen: you’re in a horror movie. who does your group consist of? who is which “character trope”?

same group. @wolfa542 is the sensible one telling us not to do stupid shit like wander around an abandoned house and use a ouija board, @aggrivating-thaumaturgist--ooc is the one who reads out the creepy lore, I’m the one who wanders into the abandoned house and uses a ouija board like a dumbass because I’m all over that creepy shit, and @deadcellsman is the one who gets the badass moment and saves our asses by figuring out how to kill whatever we’re dealing with (mostly mine because, again, I’m the Dumbass).

nobelium: which of the four temperaments are you?

melancholic. bro-

oganesson: mbti?

used to be INTP, now I’m INFP. huh.

osmium: last/most recent book you read?

fully? who knows bro it’s been a while since I finished a BOOK book. at all? Slaughterhouse Five.

oxygen: last book you finished?

oh. uh. yeah I’m still not sure. probably a Percy Jackson book though.

palladium: favorite number?

334 or 34. single-digits I like the look of 3 but I like doing things in 4s.

phosphorus: put your playlist on shuffle. what are the first 10 songs that play?

okay first of all which playlist- nah I have a playlist with all the songs from the other ones so let’s see here.

1. Famous Blue Raincoat by Jonathan Coulton

2. The Things We Used to Share by Thomas Sanders

3. Oh Ana by Mother Mother

4. Numb by Linkin Park

5. This Is Home by Cavetown

6. Kill the Rock by Mindless Self Indulgence

7. Rockefeller Street by Getter Jaani (this playlist is just Russian Roulette and this is the one that kills me bcause I’m used to the meme nightcore version so the normal version just hurts my head now)

8. The Anthem by Good Charlotte

9. My Evil Plan to Save the World by Five Iron Frenzy (this song fucks okay)

10. Sweet Bod by Lemon Demon

ALL VERY GOOD ONES.

[yeah-another-aesthetic-blog]

Goodbye to the Decade: Aesthetic Series

3) Songs

After the series and the books, in this week here are 9 fragments of songs that I liked this decade, since I know that there aren’t so many spanish speakers between you, here is a translation of what the central song says “If there is nothing left to talk about, if there is nothing left to shut up, how can it hurt so much?” is Diciembre by La Oreja De Van Gogh

Like the previous posts in the series a keep reading it’s here, because warning here is the full list of all the songs that I have from this decade, and when I say all of them I mean all of them.No Particular order in them. Congratulations if you make till the end, if not, well I can’t blame you xD

Mirrors by Justin Timberlake 2013

Radioactive by Imagine Dragons 2012

Demons by Imagine Dragons 2012

Counting Stars by OneRepublic 2013

Really Really by Winner 2017

Russian Roulette by Red Velvet 2016

Troublemaker by Troublemaker 2011

Mean by Taylor Swift 2010

Better Than Revenge by Taylor Swift 2010

We Are Never Getting Back Together by Taylor Swift 2012

I Knew You Were Trouble by Taylor Swift 2012

All Too Well by Taylor Swift 2012

Shake It Off by Taylor Swift 2014

Blank Space by Taylor Swift 2014

Bad Blood by Taylor Swift 2014

Look What You Make Me Do by Taylor Swift 2017

You Need To Calm Down by Taylor Swift 2019

Paper Rings by Taylor Swift 2019

The Man by Taylor Swift 2019

Closer by The Chainsmokers & Halsey 2016

Sad Girls by Melo Moreno 2018

Ocean Eyes by Billie Eilish 2016

Bellyache by Billie Eilish 2017

Hostage by Billie Eilish 2017

My Boy by Billie Eilish 2017

Bad Guy by Billie Eilish 2019

You Should See Me In A Crown by Billie Eilish 2019

My Strange Addiction by Billie Eilish 2019

Ilomilo by Billie Eilish 2019

Pump Up Kicks by Foster The People 2010

Burn by Ellie Goulding 2013

Just The Way You Are by Bruno Mars 2010

Talking To The Moon by Bruno Mars 2010

The Lazy Song by Bruno Mars 2010

Grenade by Bruno Mars 2011

Locked Out Of Heaven by Bruno Mars 2012

When I Was Your Man by Bruno Mars 2012

Stronger (What Doesn’t Kill You) by Kelly Clarkson 2011

Stitches by Shawn Mendes 215

Treat You Better by Shawn Mendes 2016

Señorita by Shawn Mendes & Camila Cabello 2019

Born This Way by Lady Gaga 2011

Blow Me (One Last Kiss) by P!nk 2012

Elastic Heart by Sia 2013

Cheap Thrills by Sia & Sean Paul 2016

Up In The Air by 30 Seconds To Mars 2013

Gangnam Style by PSY 2012

Daddy by PSY 2015

Voodoo Doll by VIXX 2013

When Can I See You Again by Owl City 2012

Uza by AKB48 2012

Love Me Harder by Ariana Grande 2014

Into You by Ariana Grande 2015

Side To Side by Ariana Grande 2016

Thank U, Next by Ariana Grande 2018

Love The Way You Lie by Eminem & Rihanna 2010

The Monster by Eminem & Rihanna 2013

Hotter Than Hell by Dua Lipa 2016

Only Girl (In The World) by Rihanna 2010

Rude Boy by Rihanna 2010

All Of Me by John Legend 2013

No Need To Talk by C-Luv 2014

Papercut by Zedd & Troye Sivan 2015

Misery by Maroon 5 2010

Moves Like Jagger by Maroon 5 & Christina Aguilera 2011

Payphone by Maroon 5 2012

One More Night by Maroon 5 2012

Lucky Strike by Maroon 5 2012

The Man Who Never Lied by Maroon 5 2012

Animals by Maroon 5 2014

Maps by Maroon 5 2014

Sugar by Maroon 5 2015

Lips On You by Maroon 5 2017

Stressed Out by Twenty One Pilots 2015

Ride by Twenty One Pilots 2015

Heathens by Twenty One Pilots 2016

Chlorine by Twenty One Pilots 2018

Teenage Dream by Katy Perry 2010

Firework by Katy Perry 2010

Corazón En La Maleta by Luis Fonsi 2014

Lego House by Ed Sheeran 2011

Thinking Out Loud by Ed Sheeran 2014

Shape Of You by Ed Sheeran 2017

I Want You To Know by Zedd & Selena Gomez 2015

Burning In The Skies by Linkin Park 2010

Waiting For The End by Linkin Park 2010

Iridescent by Linkin Park 2010

The Catalyst by Linkin Park 2010

Lost In The Echo by Linkin Park 2012

In My Remains by Linkin Park 2012

Burn It Down by Linkin Park 2012

Lies Greed Misery by Linkin Park 2012

I’ll Be Gone by Linkin Park 2012

Castle Of Glass by Linkin Park 2012

Victimized by Linkin Park 2012

Skin To Bone by Linkin Park 2012

Powerless by Linkin Park 2012

A Light That Never Comes by Steve Aoki & Linkin Park 2013

Guilty All The Same by Linkin Park 2014

War by Linkin Park 2014

Wastelands by by Linkin Park 2014

Until It’s Gone by Linkin Park 2014

Rebellion by Linkin Park 2014

Final Masquerade by Linkin Park 2014

Darker Than Blood by Steve Aoki & Linkin Park 2015

Nobody Can Save Me by Linkin Park 2017

Good Goodbye by Linkin Park & Pusha T & Stormzy 2017

Talking To Myself by Linkin Park 2017

Battle Symphony by Linkin Park 2017

Invisible by Linkin Park 2017

Heavy by Linkin Park & Kiiara 2017

Sorry For Now by Linkin Park 2017

Halfway Right by Linkin Park 2017

One More Light by Linkin Park 2017

Sharp Edges by Linkin Park 2017

50 Ways To Say Goodbye by Train 2012

60’s Cardin by Glen Check 2011

Paint It Gold by Glen Check 2013

I’ve Got This Feeling by Glen Check 2013

Ain’t My Fault by Zara Larsson 2016

Oh Nana by K.A.R.D 2016

Solo by Jay Park 2015

Mommae by Jay Park & Ugly Duck 2015

Me Like Yuh by Jay Park & Hoody 2016

All I Wanna Do by Jay Park & Hoody & Loco 2016

Teardrops by Emmelie De Forest 2013

Calm After The Storm by The Common Linnets 2014

Tonight Again by Guy Sebastian 2014

Golden Boy by Nadav Guedj 2015

Goodbye To Yesterday by Elina Born & Stig Rästa 2015

Heroes by Måns Zelmerlöw 2015

Alter Ego by Minus One 2016

Occidentalis Karma by Francesco Gabbani 2017

Fuego by Eleni Foureira 2018

Bboom Bboom by Momoland 2018

Cool For The Summer by Demi Lovato 2015

Solo by Clean Bandit &  Demi Lovato 2018

Busted by Electroboyz & C-Luv 2013

MaBoy 3 by Electroboyz & Nana 2013

Lo Malo by Aitana & Ana Guerra 2018

My Songs Know What You Did In The Dark (Light Em Up) by Fall Out Boy 2013)

Centuries by Fall Out Boy 2014

Immortals by Fall Out Boy 2014

Closer by Oh My Girl 2015

Control by Halsey 2015

Graveyard by Halsey 2016

Don’t Go Breaking My Heart by Backstreet Boys 2018

Feel It Still by Portugal. The Man 2017

Venus by Hello Venus 2012

Do You Want Some Tea by Hello Venus 2013

I’m Ill by Hello Venus 2015

Wiggle Wiggle by Hello Venus 2015

La La La by Naughty Boy & Sam Smith 2013

Hymn For The Weekend by Coldplay & Beyonce 2015

Love Myself by Hailee Steinfeld 2015

Female Robbery by The Neighbourhood 2012

Sweater Weather by The Neighbourhood 2013

Cry Baby by The Neighbourhood 2015

Daddy Issues by The Neighbourhood 2015

Go Crazy! by 2PM 2014

Playboy by EXO 2015

Monster by EXO 2016 

One Woman Army by Porcelain Black 2014

Need You Now by Lady Antebellum 2010

Just A Kiss Goodnight by Lady Antebellum 2011 

Little Apple by Chopstick Brothers 2014

Handclap by Fitz And The Tantrums 2016

Hann by (G)I-DLE 2018 

Youngblood by 5 Seconds Of Summer 2018

Easier by 5 Seconds Of Summer 2019

Teeth by 5 Seconds Of Summer 2019

Pretty Woman by Hebe Tien 2015

Fiction by Highlight 2011

Good Luck by Highlight 2014

Impermeable by Ha*Ash 2011

Lo Aprendí De Ti by Ha*Ash 2014

Peligro by Reik 2011

Que Ganó Olvidándote by Reik 2016

Spanglish by Reik 2016

Ya Me Enteré by Reik 2016

Barbie De Extrarradio by Melendi 2010

Canción De Amor Caducada by Melendi 2010

Lágrimas Desordenadas by Melendi 2012

Cheque Al Portamor by Melendi 2012

Tocado y Hundido by Melendi 2014

Otro Lío De Melendi by Melendi 2014

La Casa No Es Igual by Melendi 2016

Sor María by Maná 2011

Mayday by Oran-G 2011

Mi Novia Se Me Está Poniendo Vieja by Ricardo Arjona 2011

Lo Poco Que Tengo by Ricardo Arjona 2014

La Niña Que Llora En Tus Fiestas by La Oreja de Van Gogh 2011

Cometas Por El Cielo by La Oreja de Van Gogh 2011

El Primer Día Del Resto De Mi Vida by La Oreja de Van Gogh 2013

Estoy Contigo by La Oreja de Van Gogh 2016

Diciembre by La Oreja de Van Gogh 2016

Verano by La Oreja de Van Gogh 2016

Camino De Tú Corazón by La Oreja de Van Gogh 2016

Intocables by La Oreja de Van Gogh 2016

No Vales Más Que Yo by La Oreja de Van Gogh 2016

Cuando Menos Lo Merezca by La Oreja de Van Gogh 2016

Mi Pequeño Gran Valiente by La Oreja de Van Gogh 2016

Siempre by La Oreja de Van Gogh 2016

Bang! by After School 2010

Love Love Love by After School 2010

Someone Is You by After School 2010

Let’s Step Up by After School 2011

Shampoo by After School 2011

Virgin by After School 2011

Play Ur Love by After School 2011

Dream by After School 2011

Are You Doing Ok? by After School 2011

Funky Man by After School 2011

Into The Night Sky by After School 2011

Hollywood by After School 2011

Wonderboy by After School 2011

Lady by After School 2011

Ready To Love by After School 2011

Love Letter by After School & Son Dambi & Minhyun & Baekho & Xiyeon 2011

Rambling Girls by After School 2012

Broken Heart by After School 2012

Just In Time by After School 2012

Gimme Love by After School 2012

Miss Futuristic by After School 2012

Tell Me by After School 2012

Rip Off by After School 2012

Flashback by After School 2012

Eyeline by After School 2012

Wristwatch by After School 2012

8 Hot Girl by After School 2013

First Love by After School 2013

Dressing Room by After School 2013

Time’s Up by After School 2013

Love Beat by After School 2013

Heaven by After School 2013

Crazy Driver by After School 2013

Shh by After School 2014

Rock It! by After School 2014

Week by After School 2014

Dress To Kill by After School 2014

Ms. Independent by After School 2014

Triangle by After School 2014

Yes No Yes by After School 2014

In The Moonlight by After School 2014

Spotlight by After School 2014

Lucky Girl by After School 2014

Shine by After School 2015

Magic Girl by Orange Caramel 2010

Aing~♥ by Orange Caramel 2010

One Love by Orange Caramel 2010

Bangkok City by Orange Caramel 2011

Shanghai Romance by Orange Caramel 2011

Close Your Eyes by Orange Caramel 2011

Funny Hunny by Orange Caramel 2011

Yashashii Akuma by Orange Caramel 2012

Bubble Bath by Orange Caramel 2012

Milkshake by Orange Caramel 2012

Lipstick by Orange Caramel 2012

Lamu No Love Song by Orange Caramel 2012

Dashing Through The Snow In High Heels by Orange Caramel & NU’EST 2012

Cookie, Cream & Mint by by Orange Caramel 2013

Tenshi No Wink by Orange Caramel 2013

Red Shoes by Orange Caramel 2013

Catallena by Orange Caramel 2014

So Sorry by Orange Caramel 2014

Cried Uncontrollably by Orange Caramel 2014

Abing Abing by Orange Caramel 2014

My Copycat by Orange Caramel 2014

The Gangnam Avenue by Orange Caramel 2014

Tonight by Orange Caramel 2014

Reminding Me by Shawn Hook & Vanessa Hudgens 2017

Lay With Me by The Phantoms & Vanessa Hudgens 2018

Y by MBLAQ 2010

One Better Day by MBLAQ 2010

Running & Running by MBLAQ 2010

Sad Memories by MBLAQ 2011

Stay by MBLAQ 2011

Cry by MBLAQ 2011

Wish You Hadn’t by MBLAQ 2011

Mona Lisa by MBLAQ 2011

I Don’t Know by MBLAQ 2011

Baby U! by MBLAQ 2011

Again by MBLAQ 2011

It’s War by MBLAQ 2012

Hello My Ex by MBLAQ 2012

Run by MBLAQ 2012

100% by MBLAQ 2012

Sexy Beat by MBLAQ 2013

Smoky Girl by MBLAQ 2013

R U OK? by MBLAQ 2013

Celebrate by MBLAQ 2013

Pretty Girl by MBLAQ 2013

Dress Up by MBLAQ 2013

No Love by MBLAQ 2013

Broken by MBLAQ 2014

Be A Man by MBLAQ 2014

Key by MBLAQ 2014

Because There Are Two by MBLAQ 2014

Mirror by MBLAQ 2015

Hey U by MBLAQ 2015

I Know U Want Me by MBLAQ 2015

Tea Party by Kerli 2010

Army Of Love by Kerli 2011

Zero Gravity by Kerli 2012

The Lucky Ones by Kerli 2012

Last Breath by Kerli 2012

Sugar by Kerli 2013

Savages by Kerli 2018

Legends by Kerli 2019

Oh! by Girl’s Generation 2010

Run Devil Run by Girl’s Generation 2010

Hoot by Girl’s Generation 2010

Mr. Taxi by Girl’s Generation 2011

Trick by Girl’s Generation 2011

Paparazzi by Girl’s Generation 2012

Flower Power by Girl’s Generation 2012

Animal by Girl’s Generation 2012

Mr. Mr. by Girl’s Generation 2014

Lucifer by SHINee 2010

Sherlock by SHINee 2011

Dazzling Girl by SHINee 2012

Dream Girl by SHINee 2013

View by SHINee 2015

Dark Star by Jaymes Young 2013

Two More Minutes by Jaymes Young 2013

Moondust by Jaymes Young 2013

Running On Fumes by Jaymes Young 2013

As Long As You Love Me by Jaymes Young 2013

Habits Of My Heart by Jaymes Young 2014

I’ll Be Good by Jaymes Young 2014

What Should I Do by Jaymes Young 2014

Sugar Burn by Jaymes Young 2017

Black Magic by Jaymes Young 2017

Infinity by Jaymes Young 2017

Paradox by Jaymes Young 2019

Bonamana by Super Junior 2010

Boom Boom by Super Junior 2010

My Only Girl by Super Junior 2010

Shake It Up! by Super Junior 2010

My All Is In You by Super Junior 2010

Good Person by Super Junior 2010

No Other by Super Junior 2010

Perfection by Super Junior M 2011

Off My Mind by Super Junior M 2011

Mr. Simple by Super Junior 2011

Opera by Super Junior 2011

Feels Good by Super Junior 2011

A-CHA by Super Junior 2011

Sexy, Free & Single by Super Junior 2012

From U by Super Junior 2012

Butterfly by Super Junior 2012

Break Down by Super Junior  M 2013

I Wanna Dance by Super Junior D&E 2013

Mamacita by Super Junior 2014

Evanesce by Super Junior 2014

Shirt by Super Junior 2014

This Is Love by Super Junior 2014

Can You Feel It? by Super Junior D&E 2015

Devil by Super Junior 2015

Magic by Super Junior 2015

Black Suit by Super Junior 2017

Love Song by Rain 2010

Hip Song by Rain 2010

Same by Rain & C-Luv 2010

Busan Girl by Rain 2011

30 Sexy by Rain 2013

La Song by Rain 2013 

Marilyn Monroe by Rain 2013

Baby by Rain 2013

Superman by Rain 2013

Face by NU’EST 2012

Action by NU’EST 2012

Not Over You by NU’EST 2012

Hello by NU’EST 2013

Beautiful Solo by NU’EST 2013

Sleep Talking by NU’EST 2013

Good Bye Bye by NU’EST 2014

I’m Bad by NU’EST 2015

Overcome by NU’EST 2016

My Heaven by NU’EST 2016

In Fact by NU’EST 2016

R.L.T.L (Real Love True Love) by NU’EST 2016

Love Paint by NU’EST 2016

Look (A Starlight Night) by NU’EST 2016

Just One Day by NU’EST W 2017

Where You At by NU’EST W 2017

Paradise by NU’EST W 2017

Good Love by NU’EST W 2017

With by NU’EST W 2017

I’ve Been Happy Till Now by NU’EST W 2017

Dejavu by NU’EST W 2018

Signal by NU’EST W 2018

Polaris by NU’EST W 2018

YlenoL by NU’EST W 2018

Gravity&Moon by NU’EST W 2018

Shadow by NU’EST W 2018

Bet Bet by NU’EST 2019

Bass by NU’EST 2019

Different by NU’EST 2019

Universe by NU’EST 2019

Shining Diamond by Seventeen 2015

Adore U by Seventeen 2015

Jam Jam by Seventeen 2015

20 by Seventeen 2015

Fronting by Seventeen 2015

Mansae by Seventeen 2015

OMG by Seventeen 2015

Rock by Seventeen 2015

Pretty U by Seventeen 2016

Nice by Seventeen 2016

Healing by Seventeen 2016

Simple by Seventeen 2016

Boom Boom by Seventeen 2016

Highlight by Seventeen 2016

My I by Seventeen 2017

Clap by Seventeen 2017

Sweet Dream by MFBTY 2013

The Cure by MFBTY 2013

Angel by MFBTY 2014

Buckubucku by MFBTY & EE & Dino-J & RM 2015

Bang Diggy Bang Bang by MFBTY 2015

Fly Like An Eagle by MFBTY 2015

Forever Love by Min Kyung Hoon 2019

My Everything by Han Seung Hee 2019

Take Out My Heart by Jung Dong Ha 2019

Empty by JYJ 2010

Be My Girl by JYJ 2010

Get Out by JYJ 2011

Mission by JYJ 2011

Only One by JYJ 2013

Back Seat by JYJ 2014

Letting Go by JYJ 2014

Baboboy by JYJ 2014

Valentine by JYJ 2014

One Kiss by Jaejoong 2013

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[imaginetonyandbucky]

Tony Stark’s Guide to Being a Functional Adult

Step 5: Get Married (??) (AO3)

A few weeks later, Tony was sitting at the table working on his computer while Bucky read a book on the couch, low music playing on the radio.  Then Bucky heard a sharp inhale. “Oh shit,” Tony blurted with a strangled sound.  Bucky’s eyes flew up and Tony looked at him nervously.  “I got an email from the school.”

“Okay,” Bucky said slowly, and when Tony just stared at him, he laughed in disbelief.  “What, are you afraid you didn’t get in?”

“It’s a competitive school,” Tony said defensively, hunching his shoulders.

Bucky put his book down to throw a pillow at him.  “Just open it, you nutcase, you know you got in.”

Tony clicked the button on his touchpad like it was pulling the trigger in Russian roulette.  Bucky watched his eyes move over the screen, and then the fear turned into confusion.  “What is it?” Bucky asked.  “You’re making a funny face.”

“I’m not sure I understand.  Listen to this: ‘This isn’t a proposal, this is a finished thesis,’” Tony read aloud. “’The idea of a proposal is that you aren’t sure if it’s going to work or not.  This is a fully completed schematic.  I would suggest submitting it to the patent office pronto and think of something else to study.’ That’s from the dean of the engineering school I applied to.”  He lowered the lid of his laptop and met Bucky’s disbelieving gaze.  “Whoops.  Now what do I do?”

Bucky bookmarked his page and sat up. “Well, what were you going to use it for?”

“I don’t know. Anything that needs energy, really.  I mean, it will be about the size of a coaster but thicker, so not like a cell phone but a car, or a house, something like that.”  Tony scratched his chin.  “I guess it could be fun to design a car around the arc reactor.”  His eyes got wide as another thought occurred to him. “I bet I could make it fly,” he whispered to himself with awe.

“There you go,” Bucky said, smothering a laugh.  “Just try not to design the whole thing until after you start.  You know, to make it look like you actually need this school,” he added, voice so heavy with irony it probably made the air magnetic.

(More after the break!)

Tony stuck his tongue out and went back to the email.  “Do you know what FAFSA is?”

“Yeah, it’s the application for financial aid.  I think the website is like fafsa.org or fafsa.gov or something like that, it’s pretty easy to do.”

“Did you have to do this? When you went to college?”

“No, the military paid my way, one of the perks.”  When Tony just nodded distractedly, Bucky went back to his book.  There were long minutes of Tony typing and muttering to himself, frowning at his computer, then Tony made a sound of frustration.

“Goddammit,” Tony cursed and stood to pace around the kitchen.  “That just fucking figures.”  When Bucky looked up at him curiously Tony said, “I can’t get financial aid because of my father.  He makes too much money.” Tony jerked open the refrigerator and stared moodily into the contents, then slammed the door closed and started pacing again.

“I’m sorry, Tony, that’s one of the big drawbacks to the system,” Bucky said sympathetically.  “Unfortunately there are only a few ways to get around that.  You can go through a long legal process to emancipate yourself, which would be kind of weird because you’re over 18.  Or you can join the military – not the best idea, but they would eventually pay for you to go to school, no loans required – or you get married.  They don’t ask for your parent’s income if you’re married.”

“Great.” Tony sat back down at the table and rubbed his eyes. “So I’m screwed.”

“You might be able to get a personal loan from the bank,” Bucky suggested.  “I don’t know how much they would give you, but it’s worth a shot, right?”

“Sure,” Tony said, blowing out a breath.  Maybe the Stark name would be enough collateral for a bank loan, then it would actually be good for something.

It wasn’t.

“Thank you for your time,” Tony said with as much of a smile as he could manage when he was screaming internally out of frustration.  He stood and shook hands with the apologetic banker and left the bank, seething.

No luck, he texted Bucky as he walked back to his car.

Oh no that fucking sucks I’m sorry. Y?

No credit history, not enough income, wanted my dad to cosign. Then Tony put a series of angry emoticons and got back in his car.  He rested his head on the steering wheel for a long time, pressing his palms to his eyes and concentrating on breathing.  As he’d figured, the banker had looked puzzled at the very idea of Tony Stark asking for a personal loan, and Tony’d had to grit his teeth and swallow his pride when reporting his income and assets.  All for nothing, in the end.  He knew there were others that he could ask for help – Aunt Peggy would be more than happy to cosign for him, if only to piss off Howard – but he could just imagine Howard’s reaction to that.  It didn’t count as making it on his own if he just went begging to someone else for the money.

“Scholarships,” Tony said to himself as he turned the engine on.  Maybe it’s not too late to apply for scholarships.

When he got home, Bucky already had a beer opened for him and a pot of spaghetti on the stove.  Tony smiled tiredly but gratefully and let Bucky pull him into a hug and then gently push him into a seat at the table.  Tony didn’t try to make conversation while Bucky puttered around in the kitchen, he just sat in a companionable silence and sipped at the cheap beer as Bucky put their plates on the table.

He had barely picked up his fork when Bucky took a deep breath and said, “Look, I know you are really disappointed about today, so maybe this isn’t the best time to bring this up again, but...” Tony cocked his head in confusion while Bucky fiddled with his fork.  “Remember what I said about the FAFSA, and ways to get around that income thing?  This might sound crazy, but what if…we got married?”

“Got married?” Tony echoed, staring at him blankly.

Bucky shrugged with unconvincing casualness.  “Yeah. I mean, it occurred to me today that I would actually get more money from the VA if I were married because they would consider you a dependent, so…Win-win, right?”

He stared at Bucky and thought about the fact that if he would just go and apologize to his dad, agree to work at SI and forget about this degree, he could pay off Bucky’s entire mortgage and make sure that Bucky never needed to worry about money again, wouldn’t have to work again. Instead, Bucky was sitting here suggesting more ways that he could help Tony and making it sound like Tony would be doing him a favor. Tony buried his head in his hands, fisting his fingers in his hair.  “Bucky, that’s…” Insane. Way too much. “It just seems like a – a big step.”          

“But it’s not, really,” Bucky said earnestly.  “We just sign the paperwork, you can fill out your financial aid application, and in like a year or so we file for a no-fault divorce.”

Sure, he made it sound so easy, but that’s just because he didn’t know the truth.  Shit, Tony thought, tugging on his hair until his scalp stung, and cleared his throat. “Look, Bucky, um…I haven’t been completely honest with you.”

“Okay?”

“My name isn’t Tony Edwards.  My real last name is Stark.  Tony Edward, um, Stark.”  There was a long silence and when Tony looked up he saw a look of polite confusion on Bucky’s face.  “Stark as in Stark Industries,” he explained, and then he saw a cascading series of realizations move across Bucky’s expressive face.

“Oh,” he said as he put two and two together and got a net worth of billions of dollars. “Oh,” he said with a frown when he remembered Tony’s story about being kicked out of his home. Then there was a third and final soft “oh…” when he realized what that meant for himself.

“Yeah,” Tony said and then it was quiet for a while.

“Well,” Bucky said slowly.  “I can’t say that I’m not…feeling…surprised. And…maybe, a little, uh, upset. But, given what I know about you and your, um, situation, I can understand why you would hide…that.”

“Yeah.”

“So does that mean you want, like, a prenup or something?” Bucky said after another long moment of charged silence.  “Because, unless I’m missing something, it doesn’t really change your situation right now, does it? I mean, your asshole rich dad is, uh, a lot richer than expected, but…still an asshole.”

“No, I didn’t say that because I wanted a prenup,” Tony protested. “I trust you. But I, um, wanted to make sure you knew  what you were getting into with this whole marriage idea.”

“I get it, it just doesn’t change my mind.” When Tony didn’t say anything to that, Bucky started digging into his spaghetti.  “So just think about it and let me know, ok?”    

Tony blinked and stared down at his plate.  He could do this, he thought.  They would get married, he’d get his degree, and when he made his fortune with the arc reactor he would pay Bucky back for everything he’d done for him. “Okay,” he said. “Yeah, we’ll give it a shot.”

*****

After everything, filing the paperwork was pretty anticlimactic; Tony felt like he’d had more drama getting his driver’s license.  There was some signing, a stamp, and a polite “congratulations” and then they were walking out of the courthouse technically a married couple.

“So,” Tony said as they stood out on the sidewalk. Bucky kept looking at the paper in his hand as if he felt a little let down.  “Pizza?”

*****

“So I guess this is technically our wedding night, huh?” Tony looked around at the half-eaten pizza and empty bottle of wine as Bucky scrolled through Netflix trying to find something to watch. “Is it everything you imagined?”

Bucky snorted a laugh.  “I have two sisters, so I always figured I’d be the crazy bachelor uncle,” he said. “The one that brings the cool presents and lets everyone stay up late. You?”

“Never really thought about it," Tony said lightly, which was a lie.  He'd watched Jarvis and Ana together and dream about having the same for himself one day, and then he'd have dinner with his own parents and wonder if it was really possible.  "My parents didn’t really give me a good opinion of marriage, so I kinda figured it wasn’t for me.”

Bucky made a face at that.  “My parents always said that a marriage is what you make of it, so just because your parents’ marriage sucked or whatever doesn’t mean that yours would be the same.”

“Clearly,” Tony said dryly, gesturing around him. “For one, I think my parents would rather die than drink wine out of plastic wine glasses.”

"They don’t know what they are missing,” Bucky said as he gathered their empty cups and dropped them into the trash.  “See? Dishes are already done.”

“A man after my own heart,” Tony said with a smile as he stood to help Bucky clean.  “You know, it’s kind of funny,” Tony commented as he wiped down the counters and Bucky filled up the dishwasher. “Now that I think about it, what we have is already better than my parents’ marriage, and we’re just roommates.”

Bucky’s smile at that was rueful and a little sad.  He closed up the dishwasher and turned it on, then leaned against the counter.  “Come here,” he said with a gesture, and then when Tony was close enough he pulled him into a hug. Tony was stiff for a second, surprised, but he hurriedly brought up his hands to return the hug before Bucky pulled back.  “You deserve better than this,” Bucky said softly.  “Better than a sham marriage and shitty parents and a shitty childhood – “

“It wasn’t that bad,” Tony started to protest, drawing back, but Bucky shook his head.

“Hey, you can grow up with money and privilege and have a shitty childhood, Tony.  Didn’t you tell me that you got sent to boarding school when you were young, and that most of the time your parents just paid for you to stay there over the holidays instead of coming home?  Would you say that your dad yelled at you more than he hugged you?” Tony’s eyes cut away from Bucky’s and he shrugged, uncomfortable with how true all of that was.  “I know this has been hard for you, but really, you are doing great.  One day you’ll be back on your feet without your dad’s money and you can find someone to marry that you love and then you can have a marriage you can be proud of.”

"I'm not - you know, not proud of this," Tony said, and swallowed thickly. “Everything I have is because of you,” Tony managed around the tightness in his throat, staring at Bucky's collarbone intently and trying not to cry.  “You’ve helped me so much-“

“Hey now,” Bucky said, clucking his tongue and cradling Tony’s chin in his hand as the tears spilled over his cheeks.  “Everything you have, you've worked hard for. and we’ve been helping each other, yeah?  I teach you how to boil eggs and you fix up my car so I don't crash trying to use the windshield wipers. I know we started out as roommates but I think we make a good team.”

Tony nodded and swiped at the wetness on his cheeks, embarrassed.  “Thank you,” he said.  “I promise, one day I’ll pay you back for everything, I swear, I owe you so much-”

“Don’t you dare,” Bucky said. "That's not how this works."

"Right." Tony nodded again, smiling wetly. Because we're a team."

"Exactly."  As Tony turned away to find a tissue for his nose, Bucky said, "But if you're really feeling like you're not pulling your weight around here, you could take my turn cleaning the bathroom."

[damn-agi]

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[fqtoxicity]

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So, You Want to Take A Fluoroquinolone Antibiotic?

Every once in a great while I am contacted by someone who, for one reason or another, insists that they must take a fluoroquinolone antibiotic.  Because of this quandary, they inquire if there are ways to mitigate the risk of having an adverse event.  If this describes you, then this article is for written for you.

Caveats

First, I have to throw in the disclaimer that I am not a doctor and any concerns regarding prescription medication needs to be discussed with your doctor.  Second, you also agree to the obligatory disclaimer list on this site.

A Word of Warning

Now that we have the legal caveats out of the way I need to add one of my own.  In my opinion, I would do everything I could to NOT take a fluoroquinolone antibiotic and try to opt for a safer alternative.

Obviously, my opinion is biased, but you need to know that taking the fluoroquinolones is much like playing Russian Roulette. Many people when they pull the trigger are fine, but you never know when the hammer is going to contact a loaded chamber and disaster will strike. 

Another Warning

One thing is for certain, apart from a few exceptions, most individuals have no way of knowing ahead of time if they are going to have an adverse event to this family of drugs.  Also, these drugs are cross-reactive, meaning if you have an adverse event to one member in this family of drugs, you will have an adverse event to another.   There have also been cases of cross reaction between the quinolones and certain antimalarials (quinolines) which are chemical cousins so-to -speak. Additionally, once an adverse event ensues, there is no turning back the clock and reversing what has been done.

And Another Warning

Also, if you have already taken previous courses of fluoroquinolone antibiotics and believed you have been fine, cumulative toxicity is another factor that you must consider.   Please read the article, Cumulative Toxicity of The Fluoroquinolones.  Many people have taken multiple courses of the fluoroquinolones with seemingly no problems, however cumulative toxicity is a very real threat with these drugs that can rear its ugly head.

Hedging Your Bet Against An Adverse Event

Having covered the warnings, I realize that there are many different scenarios that could arise that would lead to your doctor recommending a fluoroquinolone.  Far be it from me, or anyone else for that matter, to contradict what your doctor has deemed necessary for your medical care.  My goal is to inform. 

There are many, many variables that go into a person having an adverse event. Perhaps your genetics and environment make you an unlikely candidate for an adverse event because you are a genetically good metabolizer of chemicals and you live a fairly clean life with low toxic exposure.   Also, short doses may well be tolerable for your body if your metabolism is favorable.

So if you are required to take a fluoroquinolone, or have made the personal choice to take a fluoroquinolone and have been educating in the risk/reward ratio, there are certain steps you can consider during a treatment to reduce the risk (not eliminate) of an adverse event.

1 Adjusting the treatment

Make sure that the dose is adjusted according to your weight. In other words, makes sure the doctor is not giving you a dose that is strong enough to treat an elephant.   We have had many reports of people receiving much larger doses than would normally be deemed correct for their weight.  Bottom line, why take more than what is needed (1).

2Take Magnesium

There is good scientific literature that Magnesium (or the lack thereof) can set the stage for an adverse event.  Conversely, magnesium taken at the same time as taking a fluoroquinolone, interferes with the absorption.  So, to keep your intracellular magnesium levels optimized and to avoid interfering with the fluoroquinolone dose, take magnesium at a separate time during the day.  Many people in our society are deficient on magnesium and this is believed to play a part in adverse events in some people, plus magnesium has a protective role over many tissues (2).

3Drink Water During Treatment

It helps to maintain an adequate hydration of the tissues and facilitate the elimination of the drug and the metabolites through the kidneys, so drink plenty of water to remain properly hydrated.

4Avoid Steroids

Steroid use while taking fluoroquinolones is contraindicated. In other words, do not take any steroids during the treatment with the quinolone family of antibiotics, unless your doctor has deemed it completely necessary. There is research literature and plenty of anecdotal information that steroids dramatically increase the risk of adverse events. I understand that in certain circumstances your physician may have determined that taking a steroid while taking a fluoroquinolone is necessary (combined therapy).  If this is the case, this advice is not to contradict your doctor’s medical advice.  So, disregard this advice if you cannot avoid steroids but maybe discuss this concern with your doctor (4).

5Avoid Non-steroidal Anti-inflammatories (NSAIDs)

They amplify the negative effects of fluoroquinolones, specially the risk of central nervous system occurrences, and neuropathies.  Many people unwittingly take these two together and combining these two dramatically increases the risk of an adverse event (5).  You can also click here to read about Dr. Mark Noble of the University of Rochester, NY who had disturbing findings when researching Levaquin and NSAIDS. 

6Watch for other Drug Interactions

Some drugs cause dangerous interactions with quinolones. All are included in the package insert so read the insert, check with a reputable website, or check with your pharmacist. There is quite a great chance that your doctor does not know or has not read it, seriously. (Levaquin, Cipro)

7Avoid Grapefruit

Grapefruit inhibits the actions of the liver enzymes that degrade the fluoroquinolones, so these antibiotics can reach very high concentrations in the blood. As a good preventive measure, eliminate grapefruit from your life, especially if you take other drugs on a regular basis.

8Watch Out for the Effects of Coffee (Caffeine)

Caffeine is a canary in a coal mine forewarning of danger. If caffeine starts to cause you problems such as restlessness, nervousness, disturbed sleep, etc… then it is time to consider that your liver is becoming overwhelmed by the fluoroquinolone you are taking. Some people have used this poor man’s test: Drink some coffee during treatment and watching out for changes.  This supposes that you drank coffee before the treatment and were familiar with the normal effects that caffeine has on your body.

9Ask for Some Tests During Treatment (Especially Long Treatments)

Although what would consider long treatments is kind of subjective, for sake of discussion we will consider in this instance, those that last more than two weeks. You could discuss concerns with your doctor and ask for the normal tests plus the following:

Liver panel, especially bilirubin

Pancreas panel

Muscular enzymes (CPK, aldolase)

Immunological markers (sedimentation rate and ANA specially, and also IgE to the drug)

Cholesterol and triglycerides

Coenzyme Q10

Thyroid panel, TSH, free T3, free T4, PTH

Obviously not all doctors would be copacetic to allowing such tests to be run during the course of treatment, but in an ideal world it would be wise to monitor for subtle (and not so subtle) changes to your metabolism that would indicate a larger problem. 

10Avoid Strong Sunlight (Ultraviolet Radiation)

Wear appropriate clothing and sunglasses to protect yourself against the photocarcinogenic action of fluoroquinolones.

11Perform Daily Provoking Tests

For example, do some repetitions of raising a weight like a box with the tips of your toes (resting the heels on the floor), or raising a bottle of water with the arm extended. If in a few days a strong tendinitis develops, it is time to bring the concern to stop the fluoroquinolone treatment to your doctor, right away.

Detoxing – After the Fact, Yet Another Warning

In order to bring complete gravity to the decision to take a fluoroquinolone antibiotic I would be remiss if I did not bring up one more point.  I have also had people contact me who have taken a fluoroquinolone and started having an adverse event or a negative set of symptoms.  They have contacted their doctor and he/she has told them to stop the medication and switch to something else.  Their next question is, “how do I get the fluoroquinolone out of my system?”, “Can I detox it out?”  Well unfortunately the answer is no. 

While it is true that there are several substances that can interfere with the absorption of fluoroquinolones such as such as aluminum, magnesium, calcium, iron, and zinc (6), they must be present while the drug is being taken, which would defeat the purpose if you were taking it for its antibiotic properties. There is nothing that I am aware of that can chelate fluoroquinolones, or their metabolites, from the body if you want them removed in haste.

Fluoroquinolones are widely distributed throughout the body with high tissue penetration; that is what they do, and that is what the are good at.   They are a synthetic product that does not ‘detox,’ at least according to the detoxing paradigms of both allopathic or alternative medicine.   I have more about detoxing fluoroquinolones list in my FAQ section, you can read it here. 

Since the fluoroquinolones are manly eliminated by the renal route (non-renal routes to a much lesser extent), staying well hydrated as to flush the remaining drug and its metabolites our of the body though the natural process of elimination, is about the only thing you can do, besides wait and see.   

Conclusion

Obviously if you got this far you certainly read my warnings near the beginning of this article, so there is no reason to rehash them again.   The main purpose of this website is to inform.   Many people in our world today do not have enough information to make informed decisions when taking pharmaceuticals. It is best to have all the information available so that it spurs meaningful discussions with your doctor about the risk/rewards and safer alternatives.  

The choice to take or not no take a fluoroquinolone antibiotic is a personal decision that is based on many factors.   I, nor anyone else, can make the decision for you.  The only thing I can do is to tell you that many, many people have taken these drugs and have regretted the decision.  Many were not informed beforehand.  Knowledge is power, use it wisely.

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[iminhellxxx]

Life Update February 2019

So, I just wanna vent real quick because I’m going though kind of a lot right now, and everything is just overwhelming and stressing me out. You know that feeling when you want to cry so bad but you hold it in because you also just don’t want to cry and make everything worse. But anyways, this is what I initially made this account for, because I feel like I need a place to be all the things I feel I “can’t” be. Sometimes people follow you for your Alfred coffee posts, and sometimes they follow you for your depression posts, but usually people eventually leave when they find out that I have this other side, I’m like a million people in one, and I can be both people, so I don’t really know who’s real that’s why I don’t really respond to messages or anything. But anyways, this is just for me, I use Instagram as a diary and I’ve had friends unfollow me because I’d post crying pictures so I try to private a lot of stuff but in reality, I really don’t post things for likes, (not that people like my stuff anyways. People will literally send me messages telling me they like my posts in hopes of a possible nude in return, instead of actually “liking” my post and double tapping. It makes me sick.) So sometimes I archive things and just bring them out later because I’m not here for likes, I just like to document what’s going on, I have little “eras” on my page where I go back and I can remember when I felt what, or what I was feeling or “I was sick here” or “this was my manic depression era” and instagram just helps me because it has the dates for when I need to try to figure myself out. So I made this page, and then I actually got a literal handful or less of followers and I got scared to post stuff so I’m just going to go ahead now and vent myself an update on my life because I’m feeling lost at this point and I want to see if it gets better someday. So around December 2018, I put all of my band tees and black clothes in a bag and I watched makeup tutorials and started wearing girly things, and more pastel colors, and pink. (I have always been girly but also really dark and the complete opposite of girly, I just go by how I’m feeling. For example, in hs I liked pink and black, and then for a good four-ish year’s I absolutely HATED the color pink, and I liked blue, now I like baby pink. So it’s not like I’m not being myself, it’s just that I’m being another part of myself, and I usually go to the less toxic version of myself.) anyway, I think out of it my mom slightly likes me more, or hates me less. I think Lando likes it more because when we met I was very girly and would send him pics in Victoria’s Secret nighties and it was around the time I was transitioning into basically a twelve year old goth boy. Not that that’s not cute, it’s just I was kind of messy and careless and more like a dude and I think he’s treated me better since I put on a fucking dress. So I did this for a few reasons. One being him, because he’s said so much in the past that made me feel insecure about myself to the point where it gives me anxiety if I see him, because I want to be “perfect” to him, but all I see in my sick mind is self hate and when you love someone, I think they’re supposed to make you feel like you’re “perfect” to them so you stop caring about how you feel about what you see in the mirror, because beauty comes from the inside and especially people who suffer from extreme BDD like I do, you can never really trust the distorted reflections you see of yourself, so feeling loved and beautiful to him was what I was hoping would save me from that issue. And then my mom obviously, doesn’t like my music taste or the way I dress in black band tees and men’s clothes so I just wanted some peace for the winter being home. Also, I did it because I felt it’s what was best for me mentally. I felt like it was time to pretend I was happy and it worked for a while, everything was a little brighter, even if it was just my outfits, which sometimes honestly, if I’m not wearing black, like if I’m wearing pink I feel more like I’m playing dress up or like the Easter bunny, but I’m trying to be comfortable in colors, it’s something I’m working on. So that’s that. Also what’s really affecting my life right now are my health problems. So in the past, I was born premature with a heart murmur and then I was kept out of sunlight as a toddler so I was really pale. I was okay as a kid, and then I suffered childhood obesity because my parents were gamblers and my mom never made homemade meals, so it was always fast food, and they’d leave my brother and I home with large pizzas and burgers and fries and I would be so depressed that I would eat all of it, and then also eat some of my brother’s pizza on top of all my food and it makes me sick to just think about it. I had attempted to go vegetarian two times at that time. My mother completely disagreed with it and had anger management bipolar issues, so she would say things like “I’m going to fucking shove McChicken nuggets down your throat” and just mean, unsupportive things like that. So when I eventually did go vegetarian at 7, I felt more like I was “lucky” and grateful and should kiss the ground my parents walked on for “letting” me go vegetarian, that I didn’t ever want to make it a bother to them. So I wasn’t eating meat anymore, but I was still eating really bad because i didn’t want to feel like a burden, I wanted to show them that they wouldn’t regret it, so I was still eating the fast foods, processed foods, I just wasn’t eating the stuff with meat, so like at Taco Bell, I would get like everything off the menu that didn’t have meat. So when I turned 18 I stopped eating fast food, cut it out completely and started cooking for myself and dropped about 70 pounds in about 6 months, it happened so fast I remember, too fast, that it fucked with my head and depressed the shit out of me because it was like a rebirth. Getting to do things you couldn’t do before, wear things that wouldn’t fit before. My grandma all of a sudden “loved me” and I became the favorite, when she used to favor my brother. So I was healthy up until then, but then there was like a plateau. I wasn’t really losing anymore, In fact, if I wanted to enjoy things or reintroduce pastries back into my life, I would gain and my mother would call me names and “fat shame” me even though I was healthy now, no thanks to the way she raised me. What was in it for her this time is that she could “show me off” to her sickly competitive and wealthy family. So I think that’s when life gave birth to my eating disorder. This is where it all started. I wasn’t being healthy anymore, I was “skipping dinner to wake up thinner,” and c/s’ing my food and just restricting all together. I had gotten so good at my illness, I learned every trick in the book, and had my safe foods and to this day the pro ana site has been like my bible. If I’m unsure of a certain food or need advice, I go to that site and it’s always there. I do my homework on everything, grocery shopping is a long process because I’m always comparing labels and I’m just so fucked up in my head, but back then it was a high because my mom would call me “pretty” but it’s fucked up because I was actually dying and taking 20 laxative pills a day, and always saying I was “sick” which didn’t mean a cold or the flu, but it was just harder to explain the sickness in my head and the cramps I would actually put myself through to be “empty.” Now I can’t look at a laxative pill without wanting to throw up. I was excessively abusing laxatives, mixing them, having rituals, I would take 10 pills in the morning with a bottle of magnesium citrate right after like a “water back” and then I would do the same thing at night, every day. I was miserable but I was sickly and since I’m being honest here, I liked playing Russian roulette with my life, I liked wasting away because let’s face it, I wanted to die anyway. I was miserable and I remember being in a public restroom right now topless and bent over the toilet trying to vomit out the pills because I had excruciating bad cramps that day and a woman walked in on me somehow, I must’ve been too sick to lock the door and I remember just feeling so ashamed. So then the suicide attempt that’s too long of a story, but I was rushed to emergency, they saved my liver and threw me into the psych ward and I was smart about eating because I wanted to get out, so I would just hide my food and spread it out and wouldn’t open my lid all the way so they couldn’t see that I tossed the bread and just ate most of my vegan pattie. They are watching your every move, so I played perfect and sane because I wanted to get out in time for a Manson concert. Then I get out and Lando and I exchange numbers at the concert, we’d met July of that year, and it was October now, so that’s when I found my second rebirth. Leaving the psych ward and falling in love with someone who gave me life, at a time I was so dead inside that I tried to kill myself on the outside. Since then it’s been a roller coaster of emotions and eras with us, but ultimately he brings out the best and worst in me. I survived manic depression when I tried to leave him, but I also survived my eating disorder because I just wanted to be normal for him so he wouldn’t be embarrassed of me when we went to restaurants. So I’d say I’ve been pretty normal with eating since then, but now I am suffering from other things. Even though I don’t abusive laxatives to that extreme anymore, I have severe digestion issues now and hashimotos and I’ve been trying to deal with that but it’s been bringing back BDD because my body is always changing now and it’s hard to maintain my healthy self because I’m constantly bloated and it’s painful and i would have to extreme exercise just to bring down the bloat until the next day. I would literally hike Culver City stairs and then walk down La Cienega and then up to Sunset and make my way to Runyon canyon, hike that two ways, then walk to the train and take stairs and gym at night for an hour, like my feet are SO bad. It was exhausting and I was depressed. So now I’m just trying to beat the thyroid and digestion issues, it’s really hard, but I also feel like because I’m not happy right now, depression is slowly coming back. Orlando is taking some time to get his life back on track and by doing that, he disappeared from my life again. I know I should be using the time to get my own life back on track but instead, depression is coming back, I stopped wearing colors and bronzing the shit out of my face, so I’m just pale and dark and putting blue into my hair and I’m just feeling down again. But I feel more like me when I’m pale and dress like a “guy.” Not that I don’t love my designers but I also love my bands. I’m just a Barney’s and Hot Topic girl, there’s no in between. Anyways, I want to be good for him, but I’m also feeling very depressed again, very alone, very ptsd. I just feel like every time he leaves, the life in me leaves with him and my body my shell is just pale and lifeless and layered in black clothing because that’s what I feel safest in. But with him, I feel like I can potentially be my best self, I just kind of hoped that he would love me enough to help me stand again and everything else would fall into place again because he’d make me feel like a person, but without him I don’t feel like a person, I feel like an illness. I pretty feel like I cheated death. I took a bottle of pills and was rushed to emergency and they saved my body to breathe again, and they thought they saved my life, but In all reality, I was already dead inside, and it had been too late for too very long. So he put life into me and when he takes it, I have nothing again. I know it sounds fucked up, and it is, and I can’t change it. He’s also the last person I let so close to me before I developed a severe “social anxiety” which for me is just more like “I’ve been fucked with too many times so I just want to keep to myself and I put up walls sometimes even with the people I love, and I wish I could be a better friend but I’m just not emotionally okay right now.” So now it’s just me and my head and eating habits are coming back and I feel like, honestly for the first time in a very long time, I’ve been thinking about wanting to die again. And deep down, I know I really don’t want to, but inside I’m just so tired of this spinning wheel of deja vu, I feel like there’s just no way out once you fall in, you’re here forever. And trust me, I’ve tried to reply to messages and stuff, but people taught me that the world is trash, no one really cares about you. If I message back and say that I’m sick, they’ll disregard my thoughts, hobbies and opinions, to say perverted things and ask for nudes. So no, I don’t miss “chatting” with you because I actually liked you as a person, but you showed me that you don’t care about who I am as a person, you just miss sexting me. This applies to so many people, honestly, I just don’t open my messages anymore. So yeah, that’s almost all that’s going on right now, I’m dealing with serious health issues, BDD, depression, loneliness...and I know I do have my like one or two friends since hs who know I love them with all of my heart and want to be there for them but also don’t want to be there as a sick person so my mental illnesses isolate me. And I just want to be okay and get things done so that when Orlando comes back, if he comes back, we are both good and could move forward together because I’m hopelessly in love him and I know that I will never love anybody like that again, it’s just a gut feeling in my heart I know he’s the one for me. And I know a lot of sweet guys get mad at me for not giving them a chance to be in my life and stuff but it’s not my fault it’s just a feeling from the heart, because I think everyone is handsome and beautiful and I constantly think to myself “oh he’s cute, or she’s cute, I could see myself living with that person” but what sets Lando apart is that he’s the only man that I could never see myself living WITHOUT. And I’m just scared of losing him, because I wouldn’t have motivation to breathe without him in my life. He’s my happiness, he’s my life...my glow, my color, my everything. I miss him. I miss me.