#Am I really getting obsessed with tf2 again?

[komero-otus]

Get To Know Me Tag Game

aaaaa I was tagged by @t00obsessed !!! thank you!!!<3

Last song: Disease by Lady Gaga (it's a banger!!!!)

Favorite color: yellow and purple! idk why, it's just been like this since forever

(ok I lied I DO KNOW why yellow, because it was the colour of my favourite plushie when I was a baby kiddo. As a toddler I just decided that yellow is my fave colour for forever I guess. purple developed into a second favourite a bit later, but I do not have an origin story for that one. that colour just tickles my brain.)

Last book I finished: Hell Followed with Us by Andrew Joseph White! it was really cool and I enjoyed the horror aspects and the vibes. (Also I can't even begin to put into words how much it matters to me that I can finally nowadays read MULTIPLE different books with transmasc MAIN CHARACTERS. truly blows my mind. happy to see it.)

It was a nice breather while I had a break from reading Dracula by Bram Stoker but uhh... then I never got back to dracula after and just started reading Somewhere Beyond the Sea by TJ Klune. :')) to be fair I've been waiting for this one a while now. (though my reading has been on a break for a while. idk my brain just doesn't let me read currently but I'll get back to it at some point again! I probably won't be able to finish the books I'm currently in the middle of before the year ends but that's alright!)

Last TV show I watched: uh... Beast Wars: Transformers... (me n my friend have been on a transformers kick. their old hyperfixation is stirring once more and I am so glad to be along for the ride :3 )

Sweet/Spicy/Savory: I??? don't know??? I like sweet things?? but savoury is delish too??

Last thing I googled: Pancake recipe (I wana make a pancake to keep me and my brain busy and get a sweet treat while I'm at it)

Current obsession(s): UHHHH the strongest currently is probably Great God Grove since it FINALLY came out and I love love love that game so much it was definitely worth the wait!!! <3<3<3<3<3 also obviously Batman since it's the latest long lasting hyperfixation I've had in a WHILE. and the best thing is that there's.. A LOT of batman media I still haven't taken a look at or read or played etc. so never stop the madness or however that one meme goes.

(I also reblog a lot of stuff of all my other interests since like.. my adhd brain, yes gets hyperfixated on one specific thing for periods of time, but once the fixation period chills out the enjoyment doesn't fade. so like... Psychonauts, Pacific Rim, Mp100, Lupin the third, tf2, and SO MANY OTHER THINGS my beloveds. my blog is a mess of stuff I enjoy, but I try to tag everything so if someone gets sick of seeing a specific thing they can blacklist it!)

Looking forward to: I think winter get together/ christmas actually??? cant wait to spend a chill and calm and not stressful xmas with my friends,, not everyone in the group celebrates christmas so idk what I should call it but. its our little winter celebration thing. and the people there are very dear to me. I can't wait! <3

I'll tag uhhhhhhh @julletin , @mossitism , @radiant-sunlight-blueberry , @miduana , @enwie , @sateenkaaripieru , and I'll add more ppl if I have time! and if any friend or mutual wants to do this and I forgor, just poke me and I'll tag u!! <3

BUT LIKE NO PRESSURE TO PARTICIPATE IF YALL DON'T WISH TO!!! this is just for funsies!!! take care <3

[bartibit]

Introductory Post

Uhhhh... Hello! Greetings! and Salutations! random person of Tumblr! You've stumbled either on this post, or you decided to check on my Blog in whichever case, Hi, make yourself at home.

I am Bartibit, or Barti - A random internet person who wanders around the interweb, trying to find the place that suits them. Shy in person, Introverted from hell and back, trying to find non-toxic side of the internet. I've only recently stumbled on here, quietly watching to see if this site is to my liking after... whatever the fuck is happening on Twitter / "Nobody will call it 'X' Musk". Yes, I'm a Twitter Refugee (woe me). And from so far I've observed, I really like it here, so this post is more for me, finally breaking ice.

I actually have a lot of interests, so follow me at your own discression, I will be unapologetically me, I will vent, I will post about my interests, I will make typos, I will share my accomplishments, I will post random sketch once in blue moon. I will randomly fixate on some series, I will post about my thoughts. Maybe you'll find something new, I don't know. I will be fucking random because my mind does not know how to segue naturally. I will probably have reflex on liking instead of reposting which I'm sorry about, I will fight the demons of not reposting.

I am a digital artist, mainly doing some silly doodles and seldom full pieces. I drawed comics in my addolecense instead of studding, making me also interested in storytelling. I dabbled in flash cs6 animation, video editing, writing reviews/video essays (i'm kinda bad at them) and making source maps for TF2 and CSGO.

I also play a lot video games, like I am obsessed with this medium; I love it, it's my entire personality because it carried me through a lot of hardships. I mainly play on PC, as I find it the most comfortable, most flexible and I already have most of my hobbies be tied to computers.

Some of the games I'm obsessed over, in non specific order, more will be added probably:

Disco Elysium

Undertale & Deltarune

Hollow Knight

The Binding of Isaac

Ultrakill

Doom

Omori

OneShot

Bloodborne

Sekiro

Hi-Fi Rush

Persona 4 Golden

Lisa the Painful

Metal Gear Solid

Half Life 1 & 2

Silent Hill 2

Darkest Dungeon

Portal

Hotline Miami

Fallout New Vegas

Celeste

Wandersong

Pyre

Risk of Rain 2

I also have interest in computers and coding (I can do basic C/C++ stuff), currently studing computer science, I like math. Maybe want to make games one day; I am interested in game design, design decissions and discussion - I just find it neat!

I like stories, like everybody else lol Movies, Series, Animation, Anime, Webcomics, I even look after good unique stories in video games.

Movies or series I'm obssesed over? here they are, again, in non specific order:

Mob Psycho 100

JoJo Bizzare Adventure

Dungeon Meshi

Fullmetal Alchemist: Brotherhood

One Piece

Saiki K.

The Good Place

Arcane

Breaking Bad

Bojack Horseman

Adventure Time (currently watching)

Infinity Train

Amphibia

The Owl House

Over the Garden Wall

Captain Laserhawk

Knifes Out & Glass Onion

Spiderverse

Everything Everywhere all at Once

D&D: Honor Among Theives

John Wick

Atlantis: The Lost Empire

Emperor's New Groove

Hope you will find the stuff I do here at least interesting Here, have random sketch be upon yee:

Oh also, LGBTQ+ rights are cool. Queerness is cool as fuck and you're welcome here - bigots, get lost to the void >:)

[fabdante]

WIP Game

i was tagged by @thevampireauthoress (thank you friend!!)

RULES: post the names of all the files in your WIP list, regardless of how non-descriptive or ridiculous. Let people send an ask with the title that most intrigues them and then post a little snippet or tell them something about it. And then tag as many people as you have WIPs.

So I have a metric ton of wips. Like a metric ton. I collect them. Ones from years ago I'll pick up and work on again. But some I like more then others and are more likely to be finished, and there are some I've tapped for posting later, so I'll focus on those (i'm also excluding all wow oc related fics) I am also including meta posts I've been clunking away on and I will separate them.

Fic:

Excerpts from :thing of a title of a book here: (the devil may cry grunge band au no one asked for)

The One Were Kat Gets To Yell At Vergil

Kat and Dante make a spread (jail food)

All the lost boys fics i saw mad me angry

Catharsis for Someone (this is a TF2 fic)

Retrospect (this is a Samurai Champloo fic)

Swan Song

Tales of Ba Sing Se redux (this is a Zutara fic)

The Mai/Jet dream captivated me (this is a Mai/Jet au)

The Jet Bit (this is a Zutara fic)

Sparring is good for her, she thinks (this is a Zutara fic)

The really long Zelda Fic

Playlist for a Three-way with Eve, Lilith, and the Serpent (this is an original poem?)

A bug flew into my ear (this is also an original poem??)

ATLA Champloo

Meta:

Eva, Sparda, and the boys

Verat and The Divine

V is Kat theory and some thoughts on Downfall

My Long Running Desire For A Good Sam Cham Essay (this is actually 4 seperate WIPs so if you want to get real spicy you can specify between: Take 3, An attempt at a conclusion, some points on Journey as Growth, Another misc unit of paragraphs)

Essay no one asked for on spiderverse and grief mostly because I'm obsessed with the black out kingpin causes

Essay no one asked for about why Channel Zero upset me

Now that I have presented you all with Too Many Wips, I must admit I don't know who among you are writers with wips you would like to share (as I know many of you do original stuff you may not want to share) so I will instead say: Consider Yourself Tagged If This Seems Fun Because I Genuinely Am Curious

[blubushie]

blu i just wanna tell you that your blog FASCINATEs me for some reason. what video games do you like. list

I actually just answered this but for a LONGER list:

Halo. I fucking love Halo. Massive Halo fan. Played it all the time growing up. My favourite is Reach (beat it on LASO) and NOBLE deserved better and I would die for Jorge. Also I might've gotten teary-eyed at the end of the Halo 4 (4 is still my favourite of the mainline games because of the Cortana story and I hate what they did with her in 5). I was that annoying bloke on mic with the fucking birds in the background that everyone yelled at to mute himself. And I never did.

I used Minecraft for pixel art. Also just for building shit. I liked building treehouses.

Animal Crossing on my Switch Lite (no clue where the Switch is).

Stardew Valley on my Switch Lite.

Doom. I played so much fucking Doom. I beat 2016, then beat Eternal on ultra violence over summer break before I left for Australia and never made it to nightmare because FUCK THAT. At one point I played Ancients Gods Part I and II on Jack's nephew's Xbox. I did pretty good for not handling a controller for two years!

World of Warcraft and I was addicted. I mained a Worgen Druid on Alliance and an Orc Shaman on Horde (now she's a Mag'har Orc Shaman but still).

Borderlands. So much fucking Borderlands you have no idea. My favourite is Borderlands 2. KRIEG MAIN, BABY!

All of the Gears of War games but I don't think I finished 5. I don't like Kait, she's kind of annoying. Also Marcus deserved some happiness.

Red Dead Redemption. I played the first game when I was a kid and then the second immediately when it came out and I was hooked. I cried at the horse scene and fuck you if you say you didn't because you're a liar. My favourite thing to do is hunt :]

Used to play Destiny before I went back to Australia but it's been a long while. I have one slot for every class. Main is a human void Warlock, her name is Calliope. I also have an Exo solar Titan named Syna and an Awoken void Hunter named Iris. They all have backstories lmao

Played a lot of Dragon Age back in the day. In Inquisition I played an elf mage Inquisitor. I also always ended up romancing Cullen despite wanting to try other paths? I just... like Cullen I reckon lmao

Mass Effect

Played a lot of Sims when I was younger? I OBSESSED over getting a pet unicorn you have no idea

Played through every Assassin's Creed game up to 4. Four is my favourite.

ENDLESS OCEAN BLUE WORLD ON THE WII. OH MY GOD. I LOVED THIS GAME SO FUCKING MUCH. IT GAVE ME A LOVE FOR THE OCEAN THAT I STILL HAVE TODAY. IF I COULD FIND A WII SOMEWHERE AND GET IT AND PLAY THIS GAME AGAIN I WOULD DO IT IN A FUCKING HEARTBEAT. IT BLEW MY 10-YEAR-OLD MIND AND IT'S THE GAME THAT INTRODUCED ME TO MY LOVE OF TELLING COMPELLING STORIES.

Portal 1 & 2. Gave me a love of puzzle games.

TF2 obviously but I only really played it a few times because I usually have to stick to training sessions on account of actual matches killing my laptop. It's not a gaming laptop and it cannot handle the chaos lmao. I was an okay Sniper main when I actually played with a mouse but normally I use a trackpad which relegates me to Spy (though sometimes I'll boot up a training sesh and chill as Sniper in my little tent for shits and giggles).

I am a GODLY player when it comes to Horizon Zero Dawn. My PS4 no longer works so I haven't gotten a chance to play Forbidden West but if I ever get it you can bet I'm devoting a week to it until I finish it.

Left 4 Dead. My favourite is the second one. I absolutely love Ellis. My dumbcunt with a heart of gold. Morosexual. I love him.

For Honor. I'm a shaman main and her name is Yrsa. :]

[obsoleteozymandias]

AHSJCHCF ok i had this idea I’ve become obsessed with its a tf2 prompt

Everything was normal. Scout had been talkative, laughing, annoying, normal. He had plans for the weekend. He had done just fine in battle. He didn’t have any fights with any of the other teammates, he hadn’t gone off on his own for any suspicious amount of time, he promised to help with dinner that night for god’s sake. Nothing had changed. Everything was normal.

So when one of his teammates walks in on him trying to kill himself, everyone panics. Because they have absolutely no idea what could have been wrong.

And when Scout wakes up, he panics as well. Because he planned this so perfectly, he had absolutely no idea what he would do if he somehow survived it.

Okay, here’s where I’m at with this right now: I adjusted the request just a smidge, only including the aftermath conversation with Spy. Truthfully, I love Scout and Spy’s dynamic, and I have a bit of trouble doing scene depicting active suicide proper respect, given most of the gore and angst I write is senseless violence to make my friends upset. I did what I felt I could do. Hope you like it, though! 

Anon if you really want to keep this, DM me and I'll send it to you. I think I may archive this one if not.

(NOTE: This writing contains discussions of suicide and suicide ideation. DO NOT READ IF YOU ARE NOT COMFORTABLE WITH THESE TOPICS)

L’appel du Vide

The room was dim, but not dark. Scout would have preferred darkness, honestly. That way he wouldn’t have to see the twitching face of Spy in front of him, his hands folded in front of his mouth, and his eyes trained solely on the younger man. He wasn’t saying anything. He hadn’t said anything since Scout awoke to find himself in Spy’s room, in fact. It was an extremely uncomfortable silence that made Scout even more tired than he’d been before. 

For a long while, father and son (though one was unaware of this) sat across from each other in a ramshackle base deep in the New Mexico desert, staring. The son would have left already, cussed out the older man for interfering with his life and went back to his room to sit in his painful silence. The older man, though. He wasn’t certain what he would do. He wasn’t certain what he was doing now, given what he had just witnessed. He only knew that letting Scout - his son - out of this room would end in devastation.

And so they sat in that dreadful quiet until Scout spoke. 

“...What do you want from me, Spy?” He asked, his voice not reaching its usual timbre or confidence. He grit his teeth as he spoke, and though his eyes remained on Spy, it was a struggle to keep them there as the older man’s face stilled completely. He didn’t answer for a long moment, but then spoke with such certainty and authority that it made Scout flush with anger: 

“You’re not leaving this room, Scout, until I decide what I have to do.”

“Cut the shit, man!” Scout snarled, “You don’t get to tell me what to do.”

Spy’s face twitched again, this time briefly reflecting Scout’s anger: “In your current state, you pose a threat to the integrity of this team, though I am reluctant to call this horde of neanderthals a ‘team’.” 

Scout laughed dryly, his mouth more of a grimace than a smile.“Yeah, well if you let me out of here, I can make it one less neanderthal your stuck-up ass has to deal with.” 

Scout stood up from his chair, and began to stalk over towards the door to Spy’s room. His hand was on the doorknob, clutching it tightly, when Spy’s hand grappled around his wrist, holding it with a painful tightness born from his barely concealed desperation. 

“Get off of me!” Scout hissed as he turned around, shoving his elbow back into the door to try and pull away. He didn’t even feel the dull ache - he was too consumed with his own anger. 

Spy’s face contorted into a deadly scowl as he gripped Scout’s wrist harder, “Not until you tell me what made you act so rashly!”

Scout shoved Spy back, finally freeing his wrist and turning back to the door. There were indents where Spy’s fingers had been. He heard the older man grunt as his back hit the floor. “Oh yeah, of course you’d think that. Hey, why the hell do you care, huh?”

“Scout-” 

“You know what? Fuck you, man. You’re just thinking about how annoying it’d be to clean up the mess left behind, yeah?”

“Scout-”

“Well you can just pretend to be me, how about that? Just act stupid and insufferable and you’ll do just fine.”

“Scout!” 

“Besides, it’s not like any of you would miss me. You especially, right? I mean, you want me dead most of all-”

“Jeremy!” 

Silence. Scout was stopped dead in his tracks for the first time in his life. He spent a moment processing what he just heard - a name no one but his family had called him for years - and then spoke, his anger put on hold to make way for his disquiet.“...What did you just call me?”

Behind him, that voice, one which had always felt a bit too similar to his own, replied, “You heard me. Don’t make me say it again.”

Scout finally felt his emotions catch up to him in a wave, turning on his heel with such force it knocked him off balance as he launched himself at Spy, grabbing the man’s suit collar “No, no no no. How do you know that - my name?” 

Spy stood still for a moment, his body unmoving as he gazed at the boy before him. He had the same head of brown-red hair that Spy had had once in his youth, and those cheekbones that made him a lady-killer back in the day. Back when he’d met Jeremy’s mother. 

Spy looked his son dead in the eyes, and readied himself for the second-most painful conversation he’d had in his life. 

“We have quite a bit to talk about, Jeremy.”

[activistvictor-blog]

The final bell of the last day of summer school rang in Canterlot High, and in response, a crowd of teens stormed out the front door, eager to finally get on with a proper summer. Among the countless teens running out of the building and no doubt violating jaywalking laws were two siblings, a tall lanky male with yellow hair and green skin, and his sister, a white skinned teen with black hair and a blue bow atop her head. I could go more into detail about both of their appearances, but neither you or I will likely remember in a chapter  anyway so whatever.

“Oh thank GOD that’s all over,��� the taller one said. “I haven’t slept well in WEEKS with how early they expected us to get here! And I’m atheist so you KNOW it’s serious if I’m thanking something I don’t personally believe in!”

“Well Zephyr,  if you got to bed on time…” his sister replied with a snarky attitude.

“Oh chill out will you Drizella, what do you expect me to do? Go to sleep at 9 pm in July?” Zephyr replied. “It isn’t even fully dark yet then at this time of year. Secondly, you know how hard a time I have sleeping after a midday siesta!”

“Only loser’s take siestas you realize…” Drizella replied.

“Yeah well you try getting up at 6:30 am for classes every day when you’re a night person and see how you handle it!”

“I DID get up at 6:30…” Drizella replied snarling.

“Yeah and you’re a morning person so it’s easy for you.” Zephyr replied. “And regardless, it’s SUMMER, the one time a year when you don’t, or at least shouldn’t, have to get up super early and can just sleep in. There’s a reason they call it summer VACATION after all.”

“You would like vacations you lazy bum!” Drizella said.

“Oh come on, I passed all my classes!” Zephyr said, “I mean sure I sleep in the middle of the day sometimes after them, but it’s not like I’m doing it through classes or anything. Ain’t nothing wrong with sleeping differently as others as long as you do what you need to while you’re awake!” His sister just responded by rolling her eyes, something he noticed. “Oh come on! Are you really telling me you’d rather be in school than spending time with your cat Lucifer?

“Well considering I bring Lucifer to school every day in my backpack I don’t see the relevance!” Drizella replied. 

“Oh come on, not the backpack smuggling thing again?” Zephyr said angrily, “I told you, that can’t be good for a cat to trap them in a dark backpack all day! You gotta let that cat out of the bag for goodness sake!”

“Oh, and you’re such an animal expert?” She replied annoyed.

“No, but it’s just…” Zephyr replied but was cut off.

“Hmm, then I don’t really know why you think you know better than me on this!” Drizella replied condescendingly. “Quite frankly I don’t think you know better than me on ANYTHING!”

“Rude much” Zephyr said.

“Cope and seethe!” Drizella said.

“You sound just like those insufferable morons on TF2 and Reddit.” Zephyr said angrily.

“Well I wouldn’t know because unlike you I’m not a loser who frequents them like you are!” Drizella said. “Honestly, and I can’t believe I’m saying this due to how annoying it is when you always talk about it, but why don’t you go back to your stupid useless hobbies instead of trying to school me on animal care?”

“Hey, my hobbies aren’t useless!” Zephyr replied.

“You think you’re going to be a professional poker player…. Tell me how that isn’t useless again?” Drizella said chuckling to herself 

“Hey, I won 50 bucks online last month!” Zephyr replied, “And that’s just playing for the few hours a week I feel awake enough to actually do well!”

“Oh please, like you’d ever be good enough to be pro… at any of that stupid shit you obsess over!” Drizella sneered. 

“Ok, you know what, that’s it!” Zephyr replied back. “If we’re going to talk about not being good enough to go pro, maybe we should talk about your singing…”

“And what’s wrong with my singing?” Drizella said glaring at him. “I’ll have you know I’m actually taking lessons and making progress unlike you Mr. I think winning fifty bucks is impressive!”

“Oh that’s not what I’ve heard.” Zephyr replied.

“And what did you hear then!?” Drizella replied smugly.

“I heard things….” Zephyr replied imitating Robert DeNiro” I heard things! Things that make 

Chewbacca sound like the New York symphony orchestra! Coming from your pie hole!” 

“…. Are you saying my singing sucks!?!” Drizella said angrily.

“Well I ain’t saying you’re Taylor Swift.” Zephyr replied back.

“How DARE you talk to me this way!?” Drizella said. 

“Oh come on, YOU started it!” Zephyr said angrily. “I’m being no more rude than you were insulting my passions, how do you like being at the receiving end of it?”

“That’s different, you’re being unrealistic!” Drizella said. 

“How is it different?” Zephyr replied angrily. “Being rude is being rude, end of story!”

“Not if you’re being realistic, sounds like you just can’t handle me!” Drizella replied

“Oh whatever, I’ll show you!” Zephyr said. “I have the rest of July and part of August to myself now, and I guarantee I’ll make a hundred on online during that time easy!”

“Ok Mr. Gambler, Wanna bet on it?” Drizella said.

“Yes, I actually do!” Zephyr said, “If I’m right you have to give me another hundred and can’t constantly put me down about my passions every time I bring them up. You have to actually support me on them, for once.”

“And if I’m right you have to give me a hundred and can’t bother me about those annoying passions of yours anymore and admit to the internet my singing is amazing.” Drizella said.

“Deal….. I’ll take that money in twenties by the first week in August thank you!” Zephyr said. 

“Oh no you wo-on’t” Drizella mocked.

“Oh yes I wi-ill!” Zephyrs pushed back. 

“Well good luck, since I doubt you’ll have enough time to even play soon enough!” Drizella responded.

Zephyr chuckled to himself, “Are you serious? I have an entire month of free time starting now, not having enough time…. LOL…. what the hell are you smoking because I want some of that shit!”

“Oh….. you mean you don’t know?” Drizella said.

“What’s there to know?” Zephyr said. “Summer school is over and normal school doesn’t start until late August.  Seems like a month of nearly free time to sleep in and be well focused to me!”

“Well I just assumed mom and Sludge had told you,” Drizella said amused.

“Told me what exactly!? Zephyr said, suddenly getting a bit concerned. 

“Well, since you would likely just spend the rest of the summer lounging about and sleeping in like a deadbeat as they put it, our parents have so generously decided you’re old enough to help out with the house cleaning business” Drizella said. “They’ve been needing the extra help for awhile ever since Cindershy went away to college and all!”

“WHAT?” Zephyr said incredulous. “Surely you must be joking? And here name is Fluttershy not cindershy.”

“Oh I’m dead serious…. About both Cindershy and the cleaning business…. And don’t call me Shirley.” Drizella said before chuckling at her reference.

“This is hardly time to be making jokes from movies Drizella!” Zephyr said angrily. “When the heck is this supposed job going to start?”

“You actually start this weekend, at ten AM, which is why I’m so shocked they haven’t told you!” Drizella replied feigning shock. .

“What!? No!  My summer….” Zephyr said angrily. “I’ve already given them through July! Now they expect the rest of it too!? I’m already running on fumes here as is!”

“Oh boy here we go again, the woe is me I’m at my wits’ end speech!” Drizella said annoyed.

“Stop mocking me and my mental health, this is serious!?” Zephyr said, getting increasingly stressed. “I’m tired as can be and NEED the rest of this summer. And how about how unfair it is to just spring a commitment like this on my at the last minute without discussing it first. You can’t just do this to me!”

“I’m not doing anything, our parents are!” Drizella said. “But hey, if you wanna talk to them about it feel free to when we get home.”

“Oh I will….” Zephyr said. “They are not hijacking my life like this again…”

[anonymous-harpy]

Queso I am now 100% convinced I am definitely high functioning ADHD

Why?

I talked to one of my many coworkers that have adhd and talked with them a bit about the consolation I had a few weeks back and they kinda opened up to talk with me about it, about their issues with ADHD

And there was just too many things that were similar or relatable

Like... I've read up on it and like... i definitely felt like I had a few of the behaviors but then there were other's where I went "No that doesn't sound right" and after off and on research and just listening to people who had ADHD I went "Wait a minute... I DO DO THAT"

like hyper fixation! I kinda forgot that all throughout my childhood I would not eat or drink except when my parents made me food or told me to eat and I would not go to the bathroom when I was about to piss myself when I was getting into my thing; playing videogames. I also did this with drawing when I was in my teens and did it a lot when I was writing.

I definitely feel like I hyper fixate a little less, but that's really only because I'm an adult who needs to work and when I'm stressed, especially since being put in the office, I kinda can't let myself fall into that mode. I mean i can and I do, but there's too many things happening for me to just ignore taking care of myself like that. Like... I usually get three days off in a row. The first day I'm distressing and I'm most likely to ignore basic needs on day one, then day two I'm taking care of shit around the house and stuff outside the house like shopping and day there I'm trying to relax and making extra sure I've feed myself properly.

But I'll forget to show or I'll think about it... And think think think about it and just not do it. That is partially the depression, because if I'm in a good mood for a week or two I'll usually shower on a proper schedule.

But then like the laundry. Unless I'm out of something or I'm going to need it REALLY soon I don't care about getting it done. And even then I don't fold it. I just put it on the dryer until the pile of clean clothes is either too big or again there's nothing in my drawer to wear.

Returning to the job thing I can prioritize certain things properly. The job is one of them, and like I just detailed, days that I work I HAVE to take care of myself properly, at least ib terms of eating and drinking or else I couldn't do it. As it is after three days I start getting mussybrained.

Buuuuuutt while I'm working in the office I'm "hidden" behind a one way mirror. I have no shame in admitting I write, doddle and watch/listen to YouTube back there. I have do my job. I stop what I'm doing the second I need to actually do my job. But I cannot spend seven straight hours just watching the cashier's in front of me and pretending like I'm doing something. As long as the books come up right and customers don't complain to corporate then there's not really any consequences to me keeping myself entertained back there. Of course I'm working in a small town versus a big city and that has a HUGE impact on things too.

Like there's tona more I could talk about and explain, but it's hard to express it all through text

The other thing with the like hyper fixation though. Cooler and Baby-Vegeta

EVERY GODDAAMN THING I GET INTO I WILL FIND A CHARACTER OR THREE TO OBSESS OVER

The last obsession was Metal Gear and Revolver Ocelot was the big bitch who had all my attention, then Venom Snake, Raiden largely due to MGRR, ducking Liquid and Solidous. TF2 I was WAAAAY to into Medic

And even my FNAF craze actually FNAF was my first official obsession I could tell you about. It still lingers... And thats the fub part, most of the stuff I get into LINGERS with me

FEEL FREE TO TELL ME HOW WRONG I AM BECAUSE THAT'S ALWAYS AN OPTION

I just needa BLLLLAG about this

[moonisagremlin]

2nd part :3

Ermmmm actually ☝️🤓 (I'm pretty sure that) In the descriptions of the action figurines, it is said that Spy speaks French, Spanish AND CATALAN (MY LANGUAGE :D), so this means he must be from somewhere where this 3 languages are all spoken or just really close to each other (idk if this makes sense). So you have different options (I'm gonna pull up a map because I am a big nerd)

Okay, so the cyan parts are were catalan is spoken. I am going to discard the small sicilian city of L'Alguer as it is in Italy and well, even if catalan is spoken, we need ALL THREE.

The perfect place where spanish, catalan, and french, are spoken and learned together regularly is in northern catalonia/andorra/southern france.

So... I just narrowed his origin to a relatively small region (marked in blue), didn't I? This is a perfect, flawless theory, right?

WRONG. Well, you see, there was this little thing called Spanish Civil War from 1936 to 1939 that made people, specially from the republican side, flee the country, usually to either France or South America. So this just ruins my first option, because well, even if he spoke catalan and spanish, he could have learned french while he stayed in France as a refugee.

"Are you implying that, if Spy was spanish, he would 100% be republican?" Well, you see, Valve already confirmed that Medic is, in fact, NOT a nazi, so by applying that same logic to Spy, it is impossible for him to be from the other side (the FASCIST side). So yeah, he would be republican, or at least his family would be (as he would have been a kid at this point, around 9 years old if we suppose he had Scout at 18 in 1945, making him around 45 in 1972).

Implying that he is republican not only would be the way of Valve not making a fascist character, but it would also give him a reason to later flee to the US. You see, the fascist side were really good friends with Hitler and Mussolini. And you know, good friends do favours for you, don't they? So basically, any republican refugee in France was going to have the same fate they would've had in the spanish civil war by the hands of the fascists when France got invaded by the nazis. So they needed to flee. Again. And this is were Spy would have moved to the US, more specifically, Boston.

And then something something he met Scout's Ma, they kissed a lot mwah mwah mwah and then Scout was born in 1945.

"Okay, but what part of Catalonia/Valecia/Baleares would he be from then?" Yeahhh there's no way of knowing. Honestly my bet is Barcelona mainly because it is the most known city in Catalonia and also the capital so... yeah. Also, I think that Spy might come from an upper-middle class/bourgeoisie family, mainly because he is just wayyyy to snobby to be from a humble family of- farmers, for example.

So yeah, this started as a small headcanon and it now is a whole theory on Spy's origin.

Let's continue with the sillies, shall we?

Honestly I once saw a fanart of the mercs showing photos from were they where kids and soldier just showed a newspaper that read "Human baby raised by eagles" and that has been stucked in my brain forever. But this theory is also really nice and it kinda reminds me of me and my dad (he's where I get my history obsession from).

This is what I was talking about earlier btw. Also item descriptions in-game are not canonical because they're made by the community (I'm talking about that one where they call him the "Bavarian Butcher" btw).

This made me laugh pretty loudly lmao. This is another screenshot to show to someone who doesn't know about TF2 and make them try guessing the story behind it.

Okay what the fuck.

...Huh

Finally it is completed:

THE TEAM FORTRESS UNIVERSE TIMELINE!!

with minimal theorising and guesswork.

(I made a new google account for this lol)

It's actually ridiculous how long this took me, but I'm VERY GLAD I perserveared and completed it! READ IT NOW!! if you have time. Hehehhehehehehe its 10pm.

(Oh ueah @shephardofthedamned you wanted to be @/ed on this back in like July HERE YA GO)

[tf2-recommendations]

Animation of the day: Heavy & Medic

This is a short Tf2 animation, based on a Simpsons joke, based on old soviet cartoons. Even if you did not watch the og material, this is still...interesting, to say the least!

[yanderes-galore]

May I request a yandere TF2 scout? Preferably, a Red scout who manages to fall for the Blu team's Blu Medic? Scout boyo notices how different they are from his teams own medic, kind n caring instead of being Unhinged and a total sociopath, this shows more when Scout gets kidnapped by Blu for an entire week and through that week instead of being tortured he enjoys pleasant conversations with their Medic, by the end of the week Blue Med lets him go but... Scout does not wanna go...

BLU Medic! Darling strikes again!

Hospitality

Yandere! RED! Scout Short

Pairing: Romantic

Possible Trigger Warnings: Gender-Neutral Darling, Kidnapping, Stockholm syndrome, Manipulation, Threats of murder, Obsession, Clingy behavior, Delusional behavior.

It was, disorienting to say the least when he woke up. Jeremy had no idea where he was and why he was tied up before he remembered something. Oh yeah...

He was kidnapped by BLU team.

Prepared to fight for his life, Jeremy grunts and tugs at his bonds. The rope was tough enough to hold him still. He just wondered why they wanted him here....

"Ah, so you're awake."

Jeremy turns towards the voice he heard, only to be met with the BLU team's medic. Expecting this medic to act like the one at RED team... he panics.

"Oh no... no, no, no! I'm not taking any kind of torture from you!"

You give the RED scout a confused look. Torture? That wasn't what you had in mind at all... you weren't like that.

"Huh? No! I won't torture you... I was assigned with keeping you comfortable while my team uses your capture against your team."

Jeremy stares at you with a blank gaze. He should've expected the reasoning behind his capture. Yet he wasn't expecting their medic to not torture.

"Really?" He laughs nervously. "Our medic would've totally done torture...."

Your face swaps to horrified and concerned at what he said. You really seemed better than the doctor.... So far you were really nice.

"I... unfortunately cannot let you out of this room, but I assure you I will make you stay comfortable even if my team is against it."

Your promise rings in his ears, although he can't help but look you up and down in interest.

"Well, it's not like I'm going anywhere, am I?"

------

He never thought he'd say it, but his stay here was pleasant. Instead of being interrogated for days on end, he was met with you greeting him for conversation. You always brought food, too.

You never let him starve, you never threatened to hurt him, you just wanted him unharmed until BLU didn't need him. Even when other BLU members came in to interrogate or injure him, you always healed him.

Safe to say, he was falling for you.

He wasn't sure if it was your caring personality or stockholm syndrome... but frankly he didn't care. Your voice was so pleasant to listen to. Your smile made him weak in the knees....

You even let him off the chair when he'd been here for half a week. Trusting him enough not to run. Why would he?

He doesn't want to leave when he can talk to you.

His team seemed so violent compared to yours. They never threatened his death and part of him thought it was because of you. Maybe you were looking out for him?

The longer he stayed in that room, the more he thought of you. Daydreaming of a time you two could be together, regardless of team. So many little thoughts of you....

Your first kiss, the dates you'd take, even the more intimate moments. The longer he was with you the more he fed into his delusions. He didn't even know his time here was up until you told him.

"Jeremy, I've been informed you can go now." You two had told each other your names. You thought of him as a nice friend instead of an enemy. While Jeremy was already thinking of marriage....

"What!?"

Jeremy's dreams cracked at your words. Leave? Leave and go back to RED where he'd have to deal with them?

"Uhh...No-"

"That's a strange reaction, I thought you'd want to go home."

"Not if me leaving means I'm leaving you!"

You pause, perplexed by his words.

"What exactly does that mean, Jeremy?

Jeremy breathes in heavily before sighing. It was now or never.... No need to hide it.

"I'm in love with you, (Y/N)! Like... MADLY in love with you-"

He feels himself shaking.

"Look, I just... I can't leave, okay?"

"... You need to go back, Jeremy. I can't keep you here."

"Then you come with me, (Y/N)!"

"I can't do that, either!"

You're surprised when you feel Jeremy slam into you, arms wrapped around you. You couldn't process what was happening. Did he really gain stockholm syndrome this fast?

"Keep me here!" He begs. "Make me your little captive, I'm not ever leaving!"

He pulls away ever so slightly, eyes dark.

"Even if I have to kill all of BLU to keep you, I'm never leaving!"

Who knew your captive would want to stay a captive, just to stay with you?

Maybe you should've been harsher....

[guppygiggles]

❤️ Newest obsessions: I've been really into art fight and Stardew Valley this month! Stardew isn't new for me, I've been playing for ages, but I'm excited about starting a new farm and playing the newest update (and Harvey, beloved... ////).

🎥 Last 3 movies I watched and what I thought of them:

Furiosa - A little violent, for me. I am not big on violence, but I found the story very impactful otherwise. Not a movie I would watch twice.

The Godfather - Late to the party on this one, haha. I'm not a film critic by any means, but I was very impressed by the way this movie was shot and found it supremely engaging. I also watched the second one. I would watch them both again, and pay a bit closer attention on a second watch, as I feel like I didn't absorb everything the first time.

Rockula - Favorite movie of a friend of mine, so we watched it for her birthday. I absolutely loved this stupid, silly movie!

🎶 3 songs I discovered recently and love:

Hozier - Too Sweet (you already knew)

Strawberry Blond - Mitski

Good Boy - ZEE MACHINE ( ///// )

💘 Newest fav ships: TF2 Heavy+medic (though, honestly, it's been going for a while... this is low-key my comfort ship. I have NOT played the game, please do not ask, lmao). SDV Harvey+farmer (I don't even care, just... Harvey), and, um. A lot of self-insert and Avery-related shenanigans dealing with OCs, shocking nobody.

📺 Currently watching: Star Trek Voyager (ugh...), X-Files, One Piece (though I will concede I have serious burnout on it right now), Laid-Back Camp (I love this show SO MUCH).

📖 Currently reading: Nothing, I really need to read more. 😭 I want to get into Discworld really badly, I just keep forgetting.

🎮 Currently Playing: Stardew Valley!

😍 Currently looking forward to: It will not be happening soon, but I'm anxious for the weather to cool down so I can skate again. I miss skating really badly. Also, Halloween!

✅ Recently finished: Art fight piece for Homunculuslover! I'm very proud of it, actually. /////

💌 Something to Share: I'm going to be revamping my pinned post soon, to improve the navigation for my blog!

🏷️ Tagging: Anybody who wants to do this, please feel free! I would love to know what you're up to, especially if we're moots! 💙

🔞 Minors DNI! 🔞

Catching up (Tag Game)

Trying to get back into using tumblr more again~

If you wanna do this, consider yourself tagged! I don't want to tag someone who might not want to do this lol. So if you see this and you want to I tagged you~

❤️ Newest obsessions: Criminal minds, Dungeon Meshi, STardew valley

🎥 Last 3 movies I watched and what I thought of them:

your name- (again) probably my all time favourite movie, I love makoto shikais movies

Sous la Seine / Under Paris- yeah uh I don't recommend this one lol, love agot shark movie but MAN they went OFF the rails

Avengers- (again) what can I say I am a Loki simp and sometimes I need my fill lol

🎶 3 songs I discovered recently and love:

Lucy~ by Corbon Amodio

Honeypie by Jawny

Good luck, babe! by Chappell Roan

💘 Newest fav ships: Mainly self insert stuff haha, really not engaging in a llot of fandom/shipping anymore

📺 Currently watching: The mentalist, criminal minds, bunch of youtube stuff, haikyuu (again xD)

📖 Currently reading: Yotsuba, JJK, MHA, Spy x family, My Dress-Up Darling and a bunch more-

🎮 Currently Playing: Stardew valley, Unpaking, A little to the left, Animal crossing, Portal.

😍 Currently looking forward to: Long term the new nintendo console lol, bunch of anime stuff :3

✅ Recently finished: Nothing really lol, the closest thing I finished has been the Loki show.

💌 Something to Share: I'm working on a list of tickletober prompts and I am thinking about opening art/drabble requests for this blog :3

[whaleofatjme1920]

Imma request a TF2 matchup.

I’m 24, biologically female, and use she/they pronouns. I’m an avid gamer. I’ll play the mainstream stuff like Mario Bros and the Half-Life series (and TF2 of course), but I’ll also play really obscure games that like three other people have heard of. Lately I’ve been obsessed with Animal Crossing (like the rest of the internet).

I’ve studied three languages, none of which I’m close to being fluent in. I’ve studied French, German, and Japanese. If I had to pick one that I have the most knowledge of, it would be German. Ironically, I’m uncomfortable speaking it out loud since I feel like I’m involuntarily speaking it with a really bad German accent, as if I was mocking actual native speakers.

I have ADHD which makes things like reading difficult unless it’s something I’m extremely interested in. I’m also autistic and don’t require much support, but I still experience sensory issues and social awkwardness. I also have PTSD from childhood trauma and depression that I’m slowly but surely getting under control.

As for NSFW, I’m far from vanilla. I’ll try most things at least once, as long as the thing doesn’t risk someone or myself getting hurt or sick from it. I’m definitely a sub since I’m a couple inches shorter than average, and also really shy. The easiest way to turn me on is to whisper in my ear, bonus points if it’s in some sort of accent.

To close it off, I’m a huge animal lover. Whenever I see someone walking a dog when I’m out I simply HAVE to ask to pet it. I get super excited when I get to visit any place that has animals. I’m also a vegetarian out of compassion for animals, and for my own health.

Hope this wasn’t too much. Or too weird. 😅

Your matchup is... Medic!

[Disclaimer, if you're coming from the tags, this is part of a special event I am holding from November 17th to the 21st where I am accepting matchups from all fandoms I currently write for. Feel free to check out my 1K celebration masterlist here for rules during the window this event is open! If it's past the 21st midnight USA central time, do NOT send me a matchup. I will have to politely turn you down. Sorry </3]

NSFW below

In General

hm, I almost feel this was too easy but no I actually really like the two of you together.

Things He Likes About You

SO, Ludwig likes that you're into video games despite him not understanding them AT ALL. You gotta get him into Animal Crossing though lmfao. He loves that you're into languages, especially German but ofc I will circle back to this. Y'know what? Let me just catapult into you two as a couple.

You Two as a Couple & NSFW

So, when it comes to languages, this man has such an ear for them. He misses speaking in German as often as he'd like, mostly because, he hates translating things in his head all the time. But you speak German?? Oh my goodness is he going to speak with you!! Ludwig doesn't mind your accent, and if you want, he can further your skill! It's the least judgmental he will ever be lmfao. He wants to know about Japanese and French as well, he knows a bit of French so plz-. He'll only help you whenever you ask, so if you need him, he's there but he won't baby you. He likes when you're interested in things which make him happy. Sensory issues? He'll help if you're out of your element. The man is never socially awkward, so he can cover for you. He's also supportive of you with your PTSD and depression, he knows what those are like. Ludwig is a pretty supportive guy when he's not fronted as some giggling mess that steals skeletons. He likes birds - that's about it. Maybe dogs?? Cats he can tolerate better. He's not a vegan or a vegetarian but will make you food that suits your eating habits and to respect your health.

He's a kinky mf, I've said that once and I'll say it again. He's mostly a dom, sometimes likes subbing but like, he will use his voice to his advantage. Will probably speak dirty in German in your ear. Ofc he has a nice voice and we all know it. I think Ludwig more likes pain inflicted on him, but with you he's a lot more gentle because he doesn't want to put you out of your element. But he's happy you'll try things at least once because he ALWAYS wants to try things.

Closing Thoughts/Other Things

Hi love bug, you sent a great amount and nothing is too weird at all. I hope you enjoyed!

[lucci0la]

If you're still doing pendulum readings uh I really need some help figuring myself out. Could I get a reading for the scout (tf2), cat kin, ghost kin, and demonkin? I'm fairly new to the kin community and often have trouble identifying who or what I am. The only things that I'm somewhat solid on are the scout and the fact that I shouldn't be in this reality but idk if that's an actual kin or mental illness talking.

ENDLESS RAMBLING IN ORANGE, SKIP AHEAD IF UNINTERESTED🧍

I totally get how you feel, I just sort of let it float around in my head until I know for sure. I trust my pendulum, but I tend to question it after regardless. It could always be the mental illness talking, but then again, many things are deemed to be “the mental illness talking,” especially when it comes to spiritual beliefs. My therapist is a spiritualist and something she said when I said that I was worried about something being just a plain delusion, she told me “delusional or not, there’s an entire community of people who feel the same as you do.”

Not feeling aligned with this reality isn’t a feeling that goes unnoticed to many, and with that I can identify with you. There are infinite realities and you are currently experiencing a singular conscious- while I personally don’t know if I believe a “mistake” is possible in the universe, I do believe that your misplacement was done on purpose. Not everything has a likable meaning or purpose behind it, but everything has its own explanation whether it be short or long.

What’s deemed mental illness and sanity by those who don’t experience or explore these feelings are all in all irrelevant- if we’re aware of these feelings and believe in them, why is it that someone who’s entirely disconnected from it and prefers conformity to the built perception of what this world and humanity is “supposed to be,” allowed to be the judge and juror of what’s sane and insane? A lot of what we know as humanity has to do with perception and the influence of such, but we’ve essentially been built up from animals to animals with too much confidence and the thought that we’re not in the construction of society. So if we’re grounded in those rules, we can surely see from that perspective and feel as you do in doubts or accusation that feeling disconnected from ones current reality could indicate what we call mental illness. On the other hand, abandoning that, we can fully acknowledge that there’s much more to our consciousness, universe, and the overall existence of the multiverse, and that it’s way beyond what a bunch of animals that’re capable of learning how to drive could ever begin to fully understad.

I’m not saying that you need to become unhinged from this reality and/or anything similar, but I personally believe that you shouldn’t doubt what you feel or believe in just because of a construct made by others. On another note, if you’re interested in exploring the whole reality thing more and aren’t very fond of this one, there’s always something called reality shifting that you may want to look into. I highly suggest that you look more on amino and join discord servers to learn more though- while I began my research on tiktok, just let it be known that while there’s a LOT of info and help, there’s also more than enough misinfo. Not to mention that on there it tends to cultivate a negative/overly obsessive mindset that prevents anything from occurring. If you decide to do so, just remember that there are no failures and that you don’t need anything but yourself.

ANYWHO, so sorry for going on that huge tangent, I just figured you’d like to know. If you didn’t, I’m sorry, but I could‘ve probably gone on about it forever. I got a moderate yes for Scout, weak yes for catkin, and a weak no for demonkin.

Please keep in mind that you know yourself best

Feel free to come again

[askborrowermedic]

Am I back?

Kind of. I’m thinking more and more of this lil guy but I have some thoughts and would like some in return.

When I started this blog in 2016 I was really excited to finally have a muse that was a combination of two things I really like and hyperfixate on. Plus drawing him is still a v big comfort for my anxiety during the rough parts of my young adult life. Not sure if I can fully open up but there was one part where I really was in a dark place for a bit. A long bit.  I really loved the character I was developing and creating as a guy who’s just trying his best in the situation he was given with a cutesy aesthetic that had tf2′s dark/whacky edge. Or at least that’s how I felt about it (though it’s totes possible that wasn’t conveyed that well asdf)  However as time passed a few problems came up not just in my personal life but also somethings with the blog that I wasn’t really satisfied with anymore. For one I noticed a trend of drawing the same thing constantly and Patches started to flanderaize a little bit. Had this whole story and events planned with hints I’ve dropped into the asks but well- I never got to it. :( 

Second and more disturbing trend was people becoming actually *obsessed* with Patches. Note that i’m not saying all fans of this blog were weirdos- I really like most of ya’ll I swear. But when people started to dm me pretending I was patches, getting a ton of asks from the same people saying how cute he was to the point of infantilizing, having a vore fanfiction written with him without my consent and by golly I got so many bad vibes that I just slowly walked away from the blog. It also didn’t help that fellow ask blogs have basically nearly disappeared and tumblr literally nuking itself with the big ban.  It’s just been hard to conjure inspiration but, oh man when I draw Patches sometimes it makes me miss coming home in the late evening to come up with gags, do fun stuff with asks, roleplay with my friends, and just being involved with a community.  

With covid i’ve been busy working my butt off in my day job and getting ready to graduate college while writing my book and making a video and doing my art profilio and asdjkfhskhfkhKJHFJKHEF- Yeah. Alot.  So with my vomiting my thoughts on a tumblr post- Should I try on this blog again and give it another shot? Was thinking either cont. where it was left off or rebooting. Or both. I’ll see.

Final thing; I think the thing that made me write this and consider having a come back was people telling me how they were inspired by my work and STILL reblog/like my content here because it’s something that makes them happy. It’s honestly made me cry because that’s kind of the thing that drives me in life you know? Idk. Nonetheless, thank you all for supporting me all these years and being a pleasure to rp with and filling my inbox. It really pulled me through a very uncertain time in my life. Honestly. Thank you. <3 Now I that I think about it I think we need a tiny medical professional to fight COVID19 stress and fears right about now. rip

[air-tuna-art]

Crap

So I think I might be getting back into tf2 again... after 4 whole years

Problem with that? I dont just get mildly interested in shit. I GO FULL BLOWN OBSESSIVE. (Cant really help this because Asperger's; yes I'm autistic)

This is kinda what happened before I left tf2. I was obsessed for nearly 6 years of my life but it burned me out in the end. But here i am years later... I just gotta hope I can also like dont starve without this taking over entirely.

Oh well just gotta get that off my chest. Thanks for just letting me rant

[allthepandasintheworld]

21 questions game. Answer 21 questions and tag 21 people you want to know better. Tagged by: @deathtothecrows Nickname(s): Ren, pandas, donnez (from my main blog URL) Zodiac Sign: Gemini and proud of it Height: too short Hogwarts House: Slytherin (and proud of it) Last thing I googled: b/nha uniform Favorite Musicians: a... Lot..... But most notably Ed Sheeran Song stuck in my head: currently? Bad apple but in English, but I've had Every Time We Touch (metal cover) stuck in my head all day Following: I'm on mobile so idk but somewhere in the 300 range Followers: again, on mobile, but somewhere in the 400 range on my RP blog, somewhere in the 100-200 range here, and... I'm not sure about my ask blog tbh id put it as somewhere around 200-300? Do you get asks: depends on the blog. On my RP/ask blogs? Often enough. Here? Almost never. Amount of sleep: less than I need, unfortunately, which is a lot Lucky number: 5 (bc I was obsessed with Artemis Fowl as a kid and it stuck) What are you wearing: great beards of classical music t shirt and jeans Dream Job: concept artist Dream Trip: back home :')))) being out of state for college sucks sometimes Instruments: violin, a little piano Languages: English, Mandarin (speaking), French (from high school) Favorite Songs: it varies?? But I gotta say that space jam/tf2 mashup is pretty high on the list Random Fact: I'm doing this at 1 am Aesthetic: Blue??? I??? Black????? Blue and black????? Trans men wearing fuckboy fashion?? Fashion in general???????? I'm a hot mess of a lot of different aesthetics. If it's generically pleasing, I probably like it I'm really bad about tagging people for these dash games so like... Consider yourself tagged if you see this. I wanna get to know y'all better!!