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Been thinking about idw1's outliers lately, and how sort of wild the whole concept is from a worldbuilding standpoint, and it struck me that most confirmed outlier abilities tend to be really useful, or flashy, or powerfully dangerous, and few to none tend to be like, really boring, or totally impractical, or even entirely useless? Which, doesn't really make sense when considering the fact that outlier abilities are seemingly random.
Surely not everyone who's born an outlier gets something useful?
And I don't mean like, "good" useful, but any sort of useful, even if that means you can kill people with your voice, or give a power boost by exploding yourself, those are still "useful".
But surely there had to be some with abilities that were totally impractical, or nonbeneficial, or at the very least just insignificant or purely aesthetic and pointless?
#mods. enhancements. and artificial outlier abilities are a different thing. with plenty of room for error and drawbacks#but being born inherently an outlier by the sheer whim of. idfk. primus or the planet itself. what's the chances there???#this definitely has to have been discussed before. i'm just too lazy to dig for it rn. but yeah. its a fascinating concept either way#idw transformers#tf idw1#mtmte#lost light#maccadam#maybe thundercracker's sonic booms count. but those have some use. also its funky. so he gets a pass i think#i had more thoughts about this earlier when i first jotted the thought down. but ive forgotten them now >:/#basically its just funny to think of like. shockwaves school and all. going around like ''what can you do?''#and you've got the group we see in the flashback. and then like. some guy whos like ''...i can change the color of energon''#or like. ''i can float! but only like... three inches off the ground''#i cant think of every example. but go down a list of useless superpowers and there ya go#omg. wait. if rewinds whole color changing deal was legitimately a outlier thing. i guess he would count#also. in a similar vein. its really funny to think of outlier abilities as like. stats and stuff? plus 1 to so and so but negative 1 to etc#so abilities had a sort of cost. this is smth ive seen here and there in fics and stuff. and its great.#but its sorta funny to think of working in the opposite way too#take misfire as an example. bcs its funny. negative boost to aiming. but positive boost to evasion#less of a chance to hit smth. but also less of a chance to be hit by smth#idk lol. sorry. ive been doing a lot of gaming lately bcs ✨️stress✨️. so ive got a lot of dumb stats rolling around in my head lmao#also its 4am. so... coherence has long gone to bed before me lol#struggling to sleep again tonight. but more so for anxiety reasons. all these federal job changes are hitting very close to home rn#it'll probably be fine tho. probably. got a lot of other personal shit to worry about anyways. like my fucking medical files being tossed?!#tricare when i get you. when i fucking grt you omg. i didnt even serve. why am i suffering omfg#sorry... thats off-topic. so its probably best i uh. put myself to bed. at 4am. so. goodnight and good morning 🥲👍#tf idw#tf worldbuilding
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sebastian failing a class because he's terrified of hunt is a good bit and this time it's not even that man's fault
#he fails not because his work is terrible. i don't even think hunt finds his work terrible. it's because he misses too many classes#but sebastian is so scared of the Prospect of hunt finding his work terrible he just doesn't go to class#<- genius. he then has to redo the class and see hunt again#i have dropped the lore before that hunt is one of sebastian's favourite directors right. i know i did because i remember mentioning#john cassavetes as well. anyway. sebastian looks up to hunt a lot and he's terrified of interacting with hunt and 1. hunt hating#him (conscious) 2. his idealised image of hunt being shattered (unconscious). this is kinda homosexual behaviour ngl#let's ignore that for a bit we can return to that later. point here is sebastian's avoidance of frustration and the unknown and of life#in general. sebastian does not have any kind of social anxiety. just want to clear that up. he's just an introvert but he has no issue#talking to people. when i say sebastian is a coward i mean he avoids frustration and/or pain to the point it immobilises him/makes him#apathetic to life. so he doesn't Do Stuff. because what if he fails? what if he's rejected? what if it doesn't work out? i do think there's#a level of anxiety/low self esteem here but i also think it's a very comfortable place to stay after a while. esp. when you have someone#else as your compass (claire. and later on donna a little i think). so he starts to believe he might never be able to do anything and that'#when the cult comes into the story. i've already written about this bit before. okay. so sebastian failing hunt's class is another example#of him being afraid of... stuff. life. putting himself out there. and he always thought film was his safe haven and that he had figured ou#this One Thing but he got to university and wow... i guess not! i like this fear being represented by hunt. actually two things:#1. i like how hunt acts as a Figure for both claire and sebastian in different ways given their different upbringings and#2. how both claire and hunt exist as these idealised figures in sebastian's mind representing different aspects of his life/perceived#failures/fears/whatever. and claire and hunt marry that's so fun! i wonder how that makes sebastian feel.#so returning to point number 2 from earlier: sebastian's fear of hunt being something else entirely (than what he had idealised) puts hunt#in the same spot as claire in sebastian's mind. if he were not in a cult he would have the realisation of a lifetime here#anyway there's a little blurring of things here. there's a little convergence of things here. things are superimposed i'd say.#he and i are so similiar claire says. i bet sebastian replies#oc: sebastian ballion#oh that last bit says a lot about huntclaire too but this post is not about them. but big fan of how enmeshed they are#hm... sebastian failing and redoing the class... putting himself in the same situation as before...
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Niche history ramble(also boy king mention at the end ofc) //
I was reading abt Maximillian I today, the second Habsburg emperor, bcs ive prev read about his father who I think is very interesting. But omg somehow this guy is even more interesting, but in a completely different way(I like his father Frederick III bcs I think his life is very funny ooc, but Maximilian I is genuinely really cool!) Also it's surprising to me that it took me this long to read about him, considering I very vividly remember seeing his portrait in a museum in Vienna. It's weird looking at it being used as the display pic for his wiki page bcs im like ...I've seen that in real life omg....
He's referred to as "The Last Knight"(as well as being nicknamed "Heart of Steel") And god I love now having random knowledge, cause I'm reading this like "ha, how very Don Quixote of him" and then the very next line in the biography was like, historians question whether he genuinely was like a knight or if he was a Don Quixotic figure 😭😭 glad to see I was on mark. Anyways, I wonder if Cervantes knew abt this, like I wonder if him being popularized as the last knight was a widely known thing back then. It's funny how Don Quixote was written at the end of the 16th century, but even back in the beginning of the century, being a knight was still kinda an outdated thing. I like how the two views on Maximillian I are either that he was the Last Knight or the first Rennaisance prince who had Machiavellian ideals. It fits into my weird obsession w those two works(The Prince and Don Quixote)
Anyways that being said. Boy King au Fernando is def like this, except he has literally nothing to back it up djfkkglg. Like at least Maximilian I was actually out there being insane. Fernando just sits in his cozy reading room, fantasizing while reading The Prince, and commissioning suits of armor as decoration(thats what he says. The real purpose is to dress up in them so he can feel cool.) I think this is honestly a reason he goes along with the marriage. He begrudgingly finds Seb's family history to be very cool and interesting, and he isn't opposed to being around it 🤭 Well, begrudgingly isn't the right word. He's very earnestly obsessed with it, but he can never tell Seb that bcs Seb will literally never let it go.
Seb just finds him staring up at paintings of Seb's ancestors, and Fernando, tears in eyes, hand on his heart, proclaims "I'll continue your legacy!!!" Seb is both mocking him like "he's not even your relative" but also has tears in his eyes like omg he's my family 🥺 he's accepted being my family 🥹
#suffering in silence: no one irl wants to hear my habsburg stories </3#im in an austrian studies class and im like omg right up my alley#and then all he talks about are sisi and franz josef SOB#this is very pretentious of me and ALSO a joke yknow#but he showed a family tree of the Habsburg. but it started at the top w maria theresa#so like. its not really a habsburg family tree. its the habsburg-lorraine tree :)#ik it goes back way too far for us to be able to meaningfully cover all of it or even a lot of it#but im like YOU KNOW THERES PEOPLE FROM BEFORE RIGHT??? 😭#as i said to my friends. if theres photographic evidence of this person then i am not interested#<- basically. pre 19th century guys are my favs :)#i mean i like josef ii and maria theresa but ideally my favs are early 1700s and earlier#well anyways#this comes hand in hand w my characterization of boy king stuff#like i read these and i am genuinely interested and want to regal it to other people bcs yay history!#but then my second thought is: okay how do i apply this to the boys#im getting deeper into fernando's characterization lately#i think hes the type to be like. i was born in the wrong century 😔#catie.rambling.txt#boy king au
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me trying to catch up w love and deepspaces new stories going 😰
#i forgot which bit im at#but its the second story they released w the underworld stuff. or whatever its called KFNDNDNSN#im reading in order idk if that matters so im reading the second zayne story and 😰 HUH.#bro....#i mean i already knew about the human experiments w mc but also!!!!!!!! why tf we reviving dead people now what the hell 😭😭😭#OK ALSO IM NOT CAUGHT UP W LORE 100% SO OBV IM MISSING OUT ON A LOT OF STUFF BUT IM JUST H U H ?????#avil plays lads#i come in here to smooch xavier and then i leave tbh i forget that theres lore JFBDJDJDJ#but its nice honestly to sit and read more of the lore#i still have some qualms about the storytelling in main story but#ill give it the benefit of the doubt that we just havent gotten all the pieces together juuuuuuust yet.#i also havent looked at all the myths stuff#(i have xavier and rafayels. im too scared to do either of them and come out crying)#(i did one of the little tender moment stuff w rafayel earlier this morning and i was crying BUCKETS so obv. i gotta chill ifdjjdjd)#anyways#ive missed playing this game#i need to shift my brain to just lore digging rather than grinding jgjdjdjd#also im trying so hard to see peoples thoughts on tumblr however!
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you can tell i enjoy what i create bc i make art less than once a month now 😎
#it's not about numbers it is about patience kjdfghg#i make one piece. i gather new followers. i do everything in my power to chase them away instantly#rinse and repeat until only the strongest remain#would like to draw more but My God I Am Tired#just like in general. all the time kjdfgh#art is EXHAUSTING. i only power through it if it's something i reeeeeeeeeally wanna make#would love to make a follow up to that last blood god drawing i did but the thought of that is also exhausting#bc i have this idea but it's gonna require a lot more planning than the first one did#the first one was actually RELAXING. but there was no sketch i just started drawing#this one would need to be sketched n stuff#and then i'll get too hung up on details aaaaaugh#that reminds me i did have a doodle idea but my ipad nearly killed itself earlier drawing the ancient pig#IT WAS ON FOR LIKE 5 MINUTES WHY DID IT LOSE 30%#it might happen who knows#chat
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okay I took painkillers an hour ago so I'm a little out of it but I just realised after how bad this month hit us with various stuff and how bad our depression's been, we have managed to start getting back on track with stuff:
changed our bedding (which was a big task we hadn't had the energy for in a while)
started getting the motivation to draw again
caught up on a bunch of journaling over the last few days
cleared off part of our desk
joined a party on Habitica which seems to be helping with getting the motivation to do stuff again
started getting back into language learning a bit more (we've kept up with it but only like, the bare minimum)
and probably other stuff I'm forgetting...
but anyway like, our mental health is still kinda fucked, but we're at least doing things, and that little burst of starting to do more after struggling to keep up with anything is usually a good sign for us
#personal#thoughts#🍬 post#happy posting#currently zooted#we've simultaneously vented about stuff and yet possibly not actually let on how bad our depression's been#but I've noticed that even while we were struggling more with not having much motivation for anything#we were still making to-do lists and trying to find things to keep us occupied and make sure we were busy and talking to people#which is probably a lot better than the thing we used to do where we'd start being less social and end up isolating ourselves#I've noticed we tend to get the urge to go and talk to people instead of isolating when we feel bad now#I mean we still get the urge to isolate sometimes but we end up going ''no that's unhealthy'' and trying to be more social instead#we've also gotten into the habit of going ''I need to do this so future me will have an easier time''#and then when we realise we did something earlier so we don't have to worry about it now we say thank you to our past selves for it#and that's kinda nice. like oh past me did this task so I don't have to do it now. that's very nice of hir
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unmixed untuned rikka ai on auto and rikka standard lite on manual default settings BUT THIS is what i was thinking about yesterday when i was talking about wild stars type covers with different versions of the same voicebanks, different engines/differe characters but same voice providers/etc..... i think it could be fun......
#vocal synth wip#guy who likes to make 90% of a svp and never finish it voice: so i started a new svp#THIS ONE actually this was easy as FUCK#i think theres a few notes i have off and i need to figure out how to order all the tracks for the overlapping bits near the end#and i havent thought about the harmonies yet LOL (im hoping they are a third up or down... please be a third up or down)#in my journey of learning how to make my own vocal data ive been learning why so many usts are like also vsynth songs#more likely to have consistent easy to translate to software timing... because it was made in software LOL#some singers in like ballads and shit do some crazy borrowed time ass stuff#and i get scared. i get scared. i dont know what a time signature is. passes away#but a lot of muse songs - especially some of the earlier ones - have simpler stuff going on that makes it nice and easy to figure out <3#i do want to do more liella songs someday but they do some scary harmonies in some and i get. scared :D#i will learn tho..... i will learn........
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Okay. So. As im leaving work tonight, it was like 9 and work crush was like "So what are you gonna do with this Friday night?" And I paused before finally saying "Honestly probably just watch minecraft videos" and he asks me "oh yeah? Who are your favorite minecraft youtubers?" And im like. Assuming that he's making fun of me because he's always making fun of me but I will NEVER say no to an opportunity to talk about mcyt. So I list people off, he keeps saying "Never heard of them. Never heard of them." Then finally he goes "You ever watch hermitcraft?" I say no but im familiar with a couple of the hermits, and he starts taking about hermitcraft and some other smp I don't remember the name of, and I come to the extremely amusing revelation that... this man is also an mcyt fan...... how did I NOT KNOW THIS
#i don't know what to do with this information#genuinely i thought he was about to bully me like normal but NOT THIS TIME!!!#we don't watch any of the same stuff but still#interesting information#he asked me if i play minecraft and i said yes but pretty much only on creative#he was like “yeah those mobs are scary man I'm not about it#“i always put keep inventory on” i was like THAT'S WHAT IM SAYING!!!!!!#and then another coworker comes up and the topic shifts to this guy and how his dream is to open a food truck#Alex says “anastasia's dream is to become a minecraft youtuber” and i was like “.....unironically..... kinda.....”#food truck guy looks at me and he's like “They make a lot of money!” which is. a really really funny thing to say in response to that lmaooo#also going back to my post from earlier#his gf showed up but didn't stick around#and i only caught a glimpse of her unfortunately#all i saw was they kissed and then she ran out and i didn't want to look like a crazy person and chase her down lol#so i just acted like i didn't see and later he shows me that he got his normal shoes and i was like#“she was here and you didn't tell me?? i wanted to say hi!” and he just goes “gotta be quicker next time”#i still don't know what she looks like#rip
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#minute rants#sorry for the influx of textposts we’re in a chatty mood sort of#Mm#good day today! It was raining and we went out and then we cleaned a bit so#Yknow#uh#continuing to not have fun in fam conversations because any time I say anything I have to go back and make sure it’s not something with#Context that they’ll judge me for#Uhm#we were talking about theme parks and how we didn’t like them as kids and stuff#And then that brought up the topic of cinema and#(We’re somewhat into cinema n stuff)#So I explained some of the earlier concepts and then the different corporations in the movie industry#(Before everything was owned by a few companies)#And then my fam started calling me out for being ‘too invested’ and becoming indoctrinated and#Yes sure partially true if you look at it from that angle but also#I-#?#It’s not the first time someone’s been invested in something random?#I know it’s not as deep of a topic as other things I’m interested in but#Not all of my topics of interest are going to be philosophical and vague?#I watched an animated movie once with a vague similarity to a kawaii style and#Then my entire fam made fun of me because they thought I was into anime and ‘distasteful’ and ‘immature’#I’m sorry have you seen the people of my age group?#I don’t know it’s#Complicated#i love my family but like#the judgement is a lot…#Delete later#anyhow
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I think, if I had someone be mean to me for mutual enjoyment, say things that hit insecurities and that I fear are true or how they really feel, but with the understanding that they don't mean it, and just let them do that instead of fighting back or making them stop or choosing to stop trusting them. I would probably cry. And I'm not sure if it would be good or bad for me. I don't tolerate it usually and I think making myself keep quiet and take it would make the things they say hurt a lot, but I feel like it might also make me realize that I don't have to defend myself for stuff to not affect my self worth? Usually if someone says something that hurts my feelings I feel like it's accepted as truth until I say something
#these thoughts are jumbled because I'm tired and also trying to recall what i was thinking while busy earlier#but like I dunno I don't like humiliation or the like usually. because people i care about have a lot of sway over my emotions#but i have half an idea that a controlled situation with aftercare and reassuranc might be good practice. help stuff not hit me so hard#maybe finally find a way to cry that's actually cathartic? whether theough this or another way that would be nice
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Honestly not even the last fifteen years — try since the 1990s. A lot of the language we use to talk about social issues today comes from academia, and it is language that has been in use in academia for far longer than it’s been in vernacular. “Social constructs” and the ways in which texts produce/subvert/question them have been, broadly speaking, the primary concern of literary scholarship since the ‘80s. The third wave of feminism started in the late ‘80s; Kimberlé Crenshaw coined “intersectionality” in 1989, and very soon after it gets picked up by a lot of literary critics. Edward Said’s Orientalism, which is pretty much the starting point of postcolonial theory, came out in 1978. By the year 2000 Queer Theory and Gender Studies are flourishing. Fuck, I was so busy talking about those guys I almost forgot to mention that Marxist lit theory has been alive and well since the fucking ‘70s!!!! If you go back and read a piece of literary theory from 1998 you will probably be surprised by how much it sounds like it could have been written yesterday. But that’s because many of the ways we now describe gender and race and sexuality were invented by academics — queer and female academics, academics of color, other marginalized academics — thirty-forty years ago.
Obviously, criticism from the early/mid-20th century is, to generalize a little, going to suck for all the reasons you think it will; back then, most critics had this idea that a text had one objective correct meaning, and the critics deciding on that meaning were overwhelmingly wealthy straight white men (that said, we even owe some things to those nerds — mainly close reading, looking at a paragraph or a sentence of a work and examining its form and content and using it to draw conclusions about the work at large, AKA what’s happening in 90% of tumblr media analysis). But since the 70s literary criticism has been primarily post-structuralist, and since the 90s that post-structuralism has primarily turned its attention to examining how a text understands structures of class, race, gender, sexuality, culture and society at large in very nuanced, intelligent ways. There are a lot of fantastic scholars doing a lot of fantastic work!!! Post-Colonialism, Gender Theory, Queer Theory, Feminist Theory, Critical Race Theory, and New Historicism are all doing quite well at the moment — within the past fifteen years or so you can start throwing Ecocriticism into the hat, if you want to see people talking about how literature treats the natural world. By dismissing “scholars,” you’re ignoring the fact that there are a lot of really cool literary critics you could be learning from RIGHT NOW!!
And this is a little beside the point but I do really want to note that also: you’re neglecting the fact that YOU are doing scholarship, even if you’re not “scholars”!! Like, I hate the people who invented close reading, but holy shit close reading is the foundation of like every piece of tumblr media analysis ever!! Furthermore: Frankly, if you’re talking about the latent meaning hidden within the text you are probably also doing a little bit of psychoanalysis because that’s where we get that idea about reading literature (sorry, fellow Freud haters). If you’re talking about the emotional reaction the text provokes, if you’re interested in how the serialized nature of dracula daily changes the experience vs reading it as it was published — congratulations, that’s Phenomenology, the study of how people experience a text!!!!!! Plus there are (as previously mentioned) all the ways that we get our vocab on gender and race and class and social constructs from theory. Your blorbo analysis post is a form of literary criticism that is deeply, deeply indebted to both modern post-structuralist theory and earlier 20th century ideas of close reading and psychoanalysis, even if you don’t know it. In that respect, and in the fact that modern criticism is going to be working under many of the exact same methodological and ideological influences as you, I promise literary scholarship is worth your time.
since I'm paying more attention to drac daily stuff this year I'm seeing a lot of posts saying "scholars always get the book wrong" and guys, ya gotta read better scholarship. poke around on jstor and google scholar for publications from the last ~15 years. see if you can find queer / feminist / postcolonial centered journals with online public archives. find a writer you agree with and see who else they cite. I prommy that academics are not your enemy and a lot of them are in their line of work precisely because they're just as not normal about their blorbos as you are. hashtag don't turn this into another "historians will say they're just friends."
#Not sure if this 100% makes sense but as an english major i will go to fucking bat for lit crit#there’s so much great stuff out there and even the old shitty stuff gave the modern stuff a lot of essential tools that ppl take for grante#sorry i know I reblogged this earlier I just had a bunch of thoughts i needed to add#please seriously go read jstor or if you’re a student you probably have numerous other databases as well#Project MUSE usually has more recent criticism than JSTOR also#also. Libraries. I cannot stress this enough. LIBRARIES#Checking specific queer/feminist/postcolonial journals is good advice#thought honestly? Your boring ass broad genre lit journal is likely to have good interesting stuff that talks about those things too#My one maybe not readily obvious warning RE looking at old crit is that your pre-1990s feminist criticism is going to likely be second wave#And therefore a lot of it is gonna skew radfem-y. Maybe not explicitly but you get a lot of gender essentialism#That mostly disappears with the rise of gender theory in the ‘90s#Also as one last thing: if I got anything wrong pls feel free to correct me. I’m just an undergrad i’m not an expert or anything lol#Plus i havent read any dracula crit so i’m mostly extrapolating from broad trends#(But if you have any questions about T. S. Eliot’s “The Waste Land” HMU 💀)
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Sylv ended up deciding to front, took pain meds, put perfume on, and then filed and painted our nails, and now we feel significantly better. I always forget how much doing self care that isn't just handling our basic needs actually helps
#personal#thoughts#🍬 post#happy post#currently zooted#I mean I wear perfume a lot anyway and we had taken pain meds earlier but those had worn off#but also our nails were uncomfortably long and I'd just been repeatedly forgetting that I could do anything about that#this usually ends up being a thing where eventually Sylv goes ''okay time to fix this shit''#and we feel so much better for a while and then inevitably forget to do any of this self care stuff again for months
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was up til 4 writing last night woohooooo :3
#just me hi#and i FINISHED what i was writing ! ! ! ! :DD#happy happy happy abt that lol !!#i was only like half-conscience for the last two full thirds of it (that's certainly an Experience btw lmfvshg) but it's not too bad either#i finished another short thing a couple months ago i think and i'd thought that was insane#turns out if you wanna get things done you just add easily achieved checkpoints. a thing i already knew but had not applied to writing ever#for some reason hkfsvhjg#like i finished it !! i finished the thang ! ! !#i rarely ever finish writing things cuz i don't think i have the network for that lolll - but i Did and ! ! ! :DD#and i didn't feel too bad waking up this morning so this is nothing but wins dude ! ! :D#ofc i'll have to go to bed earlier now tonight but yippeeee#i'm just really darn diddly pleased about it. yeah hbghfhs#//and what else..#drinkin strawberry lemonade rn !!! i love you strawberry lemonade houh <33#oouhhh one of my fave songs just came on hbghfs#wow i Am having nothing but wins today !! sick sick sick :D#//oh and since it's getting cooler i wanna go skating ! !#gotta mention that every now and then. i also love my skates hfbsh <3#they're crusted in mud (i am so sorry skates) cuz of that one time i hit the ditch (lmao) and i forgot to clean them so they've just been#Waiting for that Lol#i'll prolly get those cleaned later! hopefullyyyyyy gfhshv#yea also since i got bigger wheels than i'm used to (cuz i can't keep up w/ my siblings w/ dying wheezing lmfhsvhjg) i have to relearn some#stuff like it's Brand-brand new#but i Did master that one hill that spooked me (i went Flying dude i think it looked majestic hgkfsj) so we're making progress !! :D#hyped hyped hyped for thatttt#i miss that big empty lot in belle isle for this kinda thing but that's alright. tiny sidewalk we must join forces now#//i'm running out of tag space n i'm sposed to be doin stuff Hfhkhfjsv - toodles tooooodles :D !!
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Snow White and the Fae Co-Op
Part One: I Didn't Vote For You
Okay so like--
I get why people thought we were all dwarves. Or made us all dwarves. Something between that. Collaborative storytelling what have you. It makes things significantly simpler, and it's a much punchier title than "Snow White and the Troll, the Redcap, the Púca, and four gnomes." (Of course I get top billing--I was her favorite.) And, okay, yeah, none of us came up past Snow's ribcage. Understandable.
But still it's like one of those things you don't want to start correcting people on it because you know you're going to spend the rest of your life correcting and concordantly explaining shit to people. But now it's like, you're pissed when we are dwarves, you're pissed when we're not dwarves, seriously! Pick a lane!
But okay, it seems everyone's pissed about this right now, so let's get pedantic.
We aren't sexy fairies.
Okay I didn't start that out right.
I guess it's easiest to explain this as... think of the ocean. So like, there are the scary sexy fairies who have the whole Succession/Bridgerton/White Lotus Fae Court thing going and they turn you into a deer and hunt you for sport, that's the Deep End. Then you have humans. Humans, in this metaphor, are land.
Me and my guys? We're tide pools.
A lot of stories are all like "Ougggh the magic is dying from this world ouggghhh the old ruined kingdoms" but in my opinion I think that's overall a case of Immortals Being Very Weird About Change In General. Like the tide, magic in this world rises and falls, and in the course of that you end up with this kind of hardy subgroup of fae who can survive in both High-Fae and High-Human environments. We're kind of our own ecosystem, but we're also kind of intermediaries between the Deep End Fae Court and the humans. We actually tend to broker a lot of more like, working class deals between the magical world and the human world. Maybe we get compared to the mob a lot. Whatever.
I'm getting into the weeds. This story isn't about me and the guys. This is about our girl, Snow. And trust me, I'm old as balls so before you get all 'Oh, one girl and seven guys? wHAt waS gOinG oN tHeRE?" (And you're absolutely disgusting for that, by the way). You need to understand that, on a species level, Snow was basically like keeping a very beautiful (albeit kind of bossy) sentient duck in the house. We loved our beautiful sentient duck and were impressed by the many talents of the beautiful sentient duck. No one desired the beautiful sentient duck on a romantic or physical level because, one, romantic and sexual desire for our subgroup of fae is very tedious, nuanced, and species-specific, and two, she was a duck. I mean she wasn't a duck, she was a human, but for us that's basically like being a sentient duck. All of those shitty "One girl seven guys" jokes I can definitely say are a result of human projection. Like again, you need to understand that my guys and me have basically gone through Magic Carcinization.
Again, I'm getting into the weeds.
All you need to know about Snow is that she broke into our house, she scares the shit out of us, and we would kill for her.
Okay you should probably know more than that.
Okay, so remember like 12 seconds ago when I said me and my guys are more of the working-class brokers between humans and Fae? And remember that Deep End I mentioned earlier? So like, the Deep End does deal with humans, but that tilts heavily into the 'Royalty and Miracles' side of things. Swords in stones. Swords in lakes. A fish that gives you all of the cosmic secrets of the universe when you eat it. That kind of stuff. That's kind of where Snow came from. She's a Fae weapon forged in a human womb. Hence why she scared the shit out of us.
How do I start this properly?
Once upon a time there were three human kingdoms. An icy kingdom in the north, a temperate kingdom in the west, and a, let's be real, damp kingdom in the east. Icy Kingdom had a queen, a beautiful queen, and the Deep End of the Fae love beautiful things. Beautiful Queen wanted more, and she made a deal with the Deep End of the Fae. She gave them her heart, and they give her a mirror that gives her sight beyond sight, and she used that to conquer Damp Kingdom in the East. They fought, but she could predict every one of their strategies with her mirror, all she needed to do was ask the mirror what this general is doing, or that Lord is doing, and bing-bang-boom, she took Damp Kingdom in a matter of months. And for good measure she took their baby boy prince, a pretty but frankly useless boy who, as the years went on and he grew, she largely kept for cup-bearing and harp-playing and decoration and also threatening to cut the head off of if Damp Kingdom ever stepped out of line. Because Damp Kingdom loved their pretty pretty baby boy prince as the last remnant of their royal bloodline, they were now thoroughly cowed.
So now the Queen turned her eyes to the Temperate Kingdom.
And this is when the Deep End Fae were like, "Hey okay you've conquered a neighboring kingdom, which we don't super-care-about for nebulous Fae Reasons, but for equally nebulous Fae Reasons, we don't want you to conquer Temperate Kingdom."
And the Queen was like, "Whatever."
And the Deep End Fae were like "Okay, then here's the part where we use that previous thing you gave us against you." And they tried to use her heart against her, but basically the Queen used the Mirror to circumvent the heart magic through a whole bunch of... jury-rigged alchemy shit? I don't know. This stuff was already way out of my pay grade. But what I do know is, the Deep End Fae realized they couldn't use the Evil Queen's previous deal as a failsafe against her, so they needed a new approach to stop her.
Temperate Kingdom was ruled by a kind king and queen. They also didn't want to be conquered, but things weren't looking good. Their capital city was under siege. The Kind Queen was pregnant and ready to pop--scratch that, currently popping. The king was mortally wounded while defending said Capital City. They dragged the mortally wounded king back to the bailey and he's all delirious ranting about his wife and the not-yet baby.
And then a figure in a mossy cloak appeared. They loomed over the mortally wounded king and they said very gently "Your blood will outlast you. Do you permit our assistance in this? Do you permit the cost?"
And the king was dying and he only understood like 40% of what was going on right now. He knew what was talking to him right now wasn't human. He knew you don't refuse a gift from the Fae. And he knew he was kind of safely in the 'fucked-up miracle' territory of Fae gifts though he didn't really understand the full extent of what that meant (and that's fair--no one does). He kind of assumed it would just be his own life as the cost of whatever the hell was happening here. So he's bleeding out and he nods. "If it will preserve the Kingdom," he says, "If it will save our child."
So we cut to the queen. The royal birthing is... okay it's going rough. Giving birth under siege will do that to you. In ideal circumstances you would have this hardcore butch midwife stick most of her forearm up the birth canal to reposition the baby and both the mother and child would live but... you didn't have that here. Instead, once more, the figure in the mossy cloak loomed over the Queen as she screamed through agonizing contraction after contraction. They touched two fingers to the queen's forehead and they gave her a flood of visions. Snow. Fire. Blood. Blackened earth. A little sapling growing from the body of a great and noble felled tree. And she looked to the figure in the mossy cloak. And she saw their face was kind.
The kind queen died in childbirth as the Evil Queen's forces overtook the capital city. The king was dead before he knew what deal he had made. The Evil Queen and her troops marched into the grand hall, only to see a figure in a mossy cloak seated on a little stool next to a wooden bassinet. The Evil Queen made that anime villain snort-scoff sound.
"So kind of you to offer your blessing in my victory," she said.
"This is not a blessing we offer," said the figure in a mossy cloak, "You have abused the gift given in our previous trade. The trust between us is breached. We now give you back that which you gave us. All you have won for yourself will rot. And as with all rot, new and rightful life will spring from it."
And the Evil Queen almost laughed at this at first, again, like "Whatever," but then after a few seconds she begins to do the math. In exchange for a mirror that gave her sight beyond sight, she gave the fae her heart, and then she jury-rigged a whole bunch of magical alchemical bullshit to protect herself from basically being shackled to the fae's will through her heart, because hey, if you can, that's what you do.
But what happens if your heart is no longer your heart?
What happens if the Fae bind your heart to someone else?
What happens if your heart is now wrapped in different royal blood from the kingdom the Fae told you specifically you're not supposed to conquer?
And that was Snow.
The most beautiful, weirdest, most uncanny-ass baby you've ever seen. AND she had that weird undercooked look all human babies have. A semi-formed little beast. Can you imagine looking at an infant and knowing it's going to burn down everything you've ever built? Can you imagine knowing that trying to smother this threat in its crib will burn everything down, too?
But you think, "It's okay. I can manage this. Plants can be molded in to bonsai and topiary. I can shape this to suit my needs, too. It just takes care. It just takes maintenance."
And that's when Evil Queen declares, "As a symbol of healing between our kingdoms, I will raise this child as my own." And she gives a sharp glance to the figure in the mossy cloak, and they give an assenting motion with their... probably head? Probably.
And she awkwardly takes up the baby in the crook of her arm. Wow awesome, she already has an amazing propaganda tool. There's no way this is going to backfire on her in like... 17 or 18 years.
Except you know it will. Because this is the "Fucked up miracles" side of shit we're talking about. And the Evil Queen is not on the side of miracles.
Fucking hell, that's all a mouthful, and Snow hasn't even met us yet! Look, I'm gonna take a smoke break and I'll get back to you in a minute, okay?
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itoshi rin - “ lost ? “
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your boyfriend, itoshi rin, always looks a little lost whenever he’s out with you. he doesn’t really get your antics, but he’ll follow you anyways ♡
warnings ɞ
loverboy rin lol, reader is described as pretty, beautiful, etc, oh oh and reader buys a dress , not much else , and ummm just lots of fluff and cutesy stuff and yeah !
“are you looking for something, sir?” a store attendant asks, a kind smile on her lips. she looks back at him— the man you love— who is also known as your boyfriend, rin. itoshi rin.
“no.” he’d respond, shaking his head at the woman. short and simple, as always. in all honesty, rin’s not too sure what he’s doing here. he watches as the lady leaves, his eyes immediately shifting to the dressing room. you told him to wait out here while you try on some outfits, but he feels like you’ve been taking a bit too long in there. are you hurt?
the thought alone is enough to make him feel a bit skittish, his foot tapping against the floor. he peers inside, glancing back at the endless stalls of dressing rooms. he eyes the one you stepped into— number thirteen. thirteen, thirteen, thirteen. are you okay? he feels a bit sick. what if something happened to you?
he spots you walking out after what felt like hours of nervously chattering his teeth, and he relaxes immediately. shoulders slumped and the crease from his eyebrows furrowing smoothing over, he finds his feet just barely grazing the little fencing of the queue. he knows he shouldn’t, it’s the women’s dressing room— but you’re right there, approaching him with that happy smile on your face.
“riiinn,” you draw out, and he feels his knees going weak. you’re so beautiful he’s almost sure he could cry. but he remains stoic, his hand reaching out to take some of the clothes for you. “look.” you say, holding up.. some sort of dress. he thinks he recalls you showing him a picture of something similar earlier today.
“you’ll look beautiful. let’s go pay now.” he’d say, his tone just as gentle as ever. he’s always like this with you. his hand reaches up, cupping your cheek and brushing aside your hair as he presses a sweet kiss to your forehead.
he reaches for your hand, leading you to the register. it’s usually you leading him, but he feels sort of bad for trailing behind you like a puppy.
the next time you both go somewhere, you’re bringing him to a cafe. your favorite one. yes, rin remembers these things. how could he not? he’d never forgive himself if he were to forget anything about you.
“mhm.. yes, can i please get (favourite order)?” you ask, expression bright. rin thinks you’re like the sun sometimes. shining so prettily. he wishes he could take a picture— but he’d feel like a creep pulling out his phone in the middle of a cafe and taking photos of you like some stalker. but you’re the absolute love of his life, why should he care?
probably because he knows you’ll get all embarrassed and flustered if he does pull out his phone like he wants to. as much as he’d love to capture your beautiful smile in a picture to admire when he misses you, he would much rather have you happy.
but, don’t blame him when he ‘sneakily’ snaps a picture of you. the tips of his flush a pretty shade of red when his flash goes off, and rin is so embarrassed that he feels like that reindeer with the red nose when he watches your lips part.
“rin!” you exclaim, practically dropping your drink as you look back at your boyfriend from across the table. “did you just—“
“i didn’t.” he mumbles, gaze shifting away from yours. his pale lips curve into a subtle pout, and you really can’t bring yourself to be upset. you just flash him a knowing smile, which only makes his heart beat faster and spin the stars around his head a little harder. have you put a spell or something on him?
rin likes going out with you.
he feels a little confused sometimes, especially when you’re walking down the sidewalk, eyes bright as you look at the stores lined up. rin knows you like shopping, so he’s more than happy to come with you on your little trips to the store. even if he has no idea what he’s doing.
all he knows, is that you look so gorgeous when you smile. nothing could ever compete with you and your undeniable beauty, the absolute joy that radiates off of you like some sort of angel’s aura whenever you’re happy.
he feels a little proud, knowing that he’s contributing to your happiness as you tug him along, your fingers interlocked with his.
he likes it when you smile, he likes it when you’re happy.
on your next date, your boyfriend has no complaints standing with you in a line for some sort store. you told him it was a new one, and that you’re so excited to look inside. he’s just happy to be with you.
when you’re both finally let inside, he follows after you, eyes focused on your form as you excitedly look through everything. he has to physically hold himself back from falling over. you’re so, so, cute. he lives for that smile.
“rin, rin!” you wave your hand in front of his eyes, a small giggle escaping your lips at the dazed, or more like, lovestruck expression on his face. “are you listening?” you ask, tilting your head and leaning closer to him.
“of course.” he says quickly, feeling just a little ashamed for getting distracted. “…i’m sorry.” he says after a few moments. should he drop to his knees?
“don’t apologise.” you smile, cupping his cheeks and squishing them slightly. if you both weren’t so caught up loving each other, you could almost hear someone in the background.. something about.. ‘why can’t that be me?’ single people, these days.
“what were you saying?” rin prompts, nose scrunching slightly as you pinch at his cheek. he loves you more than anything, but this is a little embarrassing. he feels like a child. yet, he somehow likes it. maybe because it’s you.
“oh, right! have a look at this dress!”
and that’s how rin finds himself standing in the middle of yet another store, looking like a little boy who’s lost his mother after you ran off. he sighs fondly, eyes sparkling as he watches you look through a shelf. he doesn’t care about anything in this store. as far as he cares, all of it is just a bunch of little things that will bring you joy.
your dates are always fun, rin thinks. but he likes it when the two of you are together at home, too.
you’re curled against him, scrolling through tiktok with your head resting on his shoulder. yes, he loves this. even if he has no idea what the video you’re showing him is supposed to mean.
“your humour is interesting, love.” he mutters, nuzzling his nose against your hair. a playful jab watered down by his love for you.
your boyfriend, itoshi rin, loves you more than anything.
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