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gaiathemexicanbeauty · 1 year ago

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Imagine: Mike is back at his mall security guard job, and reader works at the support desk, but more specifically; is in charge of the lost and found.

1st time was because he found an forgotten phone (or something), and was told to take it to the lost and found, where he first met reader.

Then he starts being extra vigilent when walking around, looking for any item that looks misplaced or lost, no matter how unimportant, just as an excuse to go to the lost and found to talk to reader

(Ive never done this before, so sorry if i did anything wrong!)

lost and found | mike schmidt x reader

word count: 1.2k

warnings: none! just a nice little fluffy piece about a sad sad man lol <3

to the asker, i hope you know that i saw this in my inbox and literally squealed, i was waiting for someone to drop a mike request

i hope that this is to your liking, i was going back and forth trying to decide how to start this off and coming up with tiny little ideas to add

also this probably goes without saying, but i have never worked at a mall nor interacted with mall staff if i can help it so if anything sounds off, feel free to correct me

to anyone who also writes on tumblr, pls tell me how you avoid using y/n, i tried to work around it as much as possible but some times just called for it

you hold your polite (albeit strained) smile to the blubbering woman walking away, unsure what to do with yourself as whoever she stands with rubs her back in comfortable circles. another lost wedding ring, gone to the test of time as long as the mall shall live: it's not that you didn't feel bad but after wedding ring #120, you kind of start to get used to the routine of things. lost and found wasn't your first choice when you first started working here but as long as you were getting a paycheck, you weren't going to complain. your side of the mall was rarely visited anyway, giving you the opportunity to do plenty of people watching when you weren't rummaging through piles of lost sweaters and purses.

you let out a quiet sigh once the customers are gone, sitting back in your seat and picking up the book you had once been reading; not like there was anything better to do. fully immersed in your book, you don't even notice the footsteps coming up to the counter. "um, hey." you jolt a bit at the sound of a voice, your gaze snapping from your book to whoever is standing only a few feet away. you have to hold back your reaction when you meet his eyes, tired but trying their best to look interested; it takes you a second to realize this is security and not another customer. "shoot, sorry." you mumble with an awkward smile as you sit up, resting your book in your lap to give the man in front of you your full attention. "how can i help you?" with a thin-lipped smile, he holds up a purse; from the looks of the logo on it, it's obvious this is designer.

you whistle as you take the purse from him, examining it with raised eyebrows. "well, you don't see this everyday. someone should come back for it, thanks." you say, flashing a grin at the security guard as he gives you a much more genuine smile. "no problem. if i had known lost and found got to see stuff like this, i would have put in to work over here instead." he says with a chuckle, folding his hands in front of him as he leans on the counter. "oh, we don't get interesting stuff that often, i promise you." you say with a roll of your eyes, putting the purse behind the counter; anyone in their right mind would come back for this thing. "enlighten me." before you can say something, the security guard outstretches a hand to you with a smile. "i'm mike, by the way. i work security." he says as you shake his hand, raising your eyebrows at him playfully. "(y/n). to give you some insight into how very little happens here, try and guess how many gachapon toys i have behind this counter."

and just like that, you've made a friend; not that you'd admit that mike wasn't sore on the eyes this soon. you just found it easy to talk to him considering you had never seen him around up until this point. after your first meeting, mike would regularly stop by whether he had something lost to leave with you or not: if you were lucky, he would even join you for lunch or walk you out at the end of a shift. little by little, you couldn't help but anticipate his arrival, the same relaxed smile always on his face much unlike the first time he'd approached you.

it's been almost a month by this point, you've had so many lost items deposited to you that after a while, throwing things away or reselling them (specific orders from your boss who was rather shocked at how many items you had in the back room) was required after a certain amount of time: not like anyone came back for them anyway. today was no different than the rest, the sounds of buzzing conversation in the distance from the more crowded areas of the mall. you pop the gum in your mouth as you paint your thumbnail a light-yellow color, scrunching your nose a bit at the smell of the nail polish. you blow softly on it, your eyes glancing up to scan your surroundings. what you see nearly makes you laugh. mike is walking over, seemingly at his normal pace before something catches his attention; whatever it is, you most definitely can't see it. when he stoops down to inspect it, he makes a face that you can only decipher as him being slightly annoyed. he catches you looking at him, an embarrassed smile on his face as he makes the rest of the walk of shame over to you when he realizes he's been caught.

"well, what is it this time? a broken watch? some cap with an unexplainable stain on it?" "what kind of person do you take me for? i'm just a faithful employee trying to do my job." mike says as he extends his arms with a playful smile, making you role your eyes as you abandon your nail polish to look up at the man in front of you. you close your eyes as you hold out your hand to him expectantly, waiting for him to drop something into your palm; after how often he came around, you made it something of a guessing game as to what mike was going to bring out. surprisingly, it's small, definitely plastic from the muted sound it makes when it lands in your hand. "it's a toy." "warm enough. you can open your eyes." you start to say something, opening your eyes and inspecting the item in your hand before you pause.

a small, plastic cat sits on a swing, it's paws holding on to the small chains attached to a brightly colored tab; it's obvious you could hang this off a shelf. your cheeks redden a bit as a sheepish smile grows on your face, pushing a piece of hair behind your ear as your other hand holds it up to inspect it further. you'd never actually stopped at the capsule toy machines yourself, starting your collection only a few weeks after starting your job when they popped up so frequently at the counter. "you like it?" you blink at mike as he smiles fondly at you, one hand propping his chin up; you swear you can see a hint of smugness in his gaze. "it's..yeah. it's cute." you say, unable to help the way you giggle a bit as you hang the toy on the edge of the counter. "good. better hope no one come's looking for it." he chuckles softly, his eyes dropping from yours for a moment as you stare in delight at the newest addition to your collection. "i wouldn't give it to them anyway. not knowing you got it for me." mike's lips part a bit in shock, a scoff of disbelief leaving him despite the smile on his face as you smile up at him knowingly. he tries to defend himself, stuttering to say something before you're called by one of your coworkers. "duty calls." you giggle as you rise from your seat, pretending not to notice the way mike is still trying to recover from being caught as you make your way over to your coworker, a smile tugging at your lips.

SECOND ONE SHOT IN A WEEK HOLY MOLY THIS IS NEW to the asker, i hope you enjoyed this, i tried to add my own little spin to things just to give it that little extra romantic flair lol BUTTT i hope that all of you are having a good rest of your day/night/afternoon and stay safe! :D

#mike schmidt #mike schmidt fanfic #mike schmidt x reader #mike schmidt x you #fnaf #oneshot #x reader #fnaf movie #five nights at freddy's #josh hutcherson #michael schmidt x reader #fnaf x reader #fnaf x you

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ravelqueen · 6 months ago

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Hello! I'm the anon who sent the last Dom!Kim ask (about the Pale) I'm glad you like it!!! I have, like, SO many thoughts on Dom!Kim (especially specifically your Dom Kim!)

So, I hope you don't mind if I share some!

I'm actually curious about who this au of Kim would defer, besides just mentally, from canon Kim. Like in canon Kim doesn't make that many decisions himself, and pushes you/Harry to do the talking/make the decision. Even when Harry makes a bad decision, Kim doesn't step in, and really only give his insights if you ask him about it.

I'm reminded of the scene where you can choose to go into the apartment that Mr Evrart gives you, and Kim lists both the pros and cons of doing either, before stating that it's ultimately your (Harry's) decision.

This actually led me to get a sub read on Kim (I didn't get the authority check because I thought asking Kim to give me a secret would be too personal/mean). Like, I kinda envisioned Kim as someone who needed/wanted someone to lead him and make the decisions (because Dom used to do that for him, and he feels so lost without him?).

But! That's not to say I don't vibe with your Dom!Kim headcanon/au, like, I can have multiple/contradictory thoughts about a character. I just wanted to share my thoughts on how I see Kim as someone who doesn't really make decisions.

Which could be taken in a sub way, or, following your au, maybe Kim is so hyper critical of how he acts in a controlling matter that he's trying to course correct. So he keeps saying that it's ultimately Harry's decision, and letting him take the led, as a way to combat his controlling Dom thoughts.

Also, I do wonder how a play through would go down if Harry was able to pick up Kim having this internal thoughts (probably through an Empathy, Inland Empire, Esprit De Corps build), and being like "actually, I would like Kim to make all my decisions for me" (Harry would probably need to have pretty low Authority and Physical Instrument, lol)

And because he's, well, Harry, he would absolutely be like "hey Kim, you know how you want to control my actions, why don't we do that? I'm kind of a mess here, and could use the help".

Though I still bet Kim would be like Absolutely Not, purely because out of principle (even though he really wants to), and because he doesn't actually know how much Harry is aware of BDSM, the life style, or if he's just asking because he's so much of a wreck and that he trusts Kim. Though I do think it's funny if the skills try to like, help you convince Kim you can be a good sub by telling Harry if Kim is displeased by a choice (like Visual Calculus, Empathy, and maybe Conceptualization and Inland Empire could help).

Though I do wonder how this version of Kim (with a Harry who seems to make it one of his goals to get Kim to Dom him/accept him as a sub) would react to Jean.

Like, Kim in the original game didn't seem to have much of an opinion on Jean. Maybe some respect for being a fellow cop, maybe some hostility for not being there during the shot out. But in this au/verison of this au, maybe Kim gets a little pissed off at Jean for scolding Harry at the end of the game?

Because at this point, maybe Kim has begun to dom Harry a little bit (justifying to himself that he's only doing it to further move along the case), and having someone else scold Harry gets his dom brain going because only *he* is allowed to scold Harry. He's the one whose supposed to publish Harry if he messes up, who does Jean think he is? Abandoning Harry and then coming back to scold him? That's not how this works!

Anyway, I also have a drabble idea after Kim and Harry find Harry's crashed Kineema, and Harry feeling guilty about it, and asking for a punishment from Kim, and this being the moment Kim steps more into the dom role. But! This ask is already getting WAY too long! So I'll just stop now, lol. Anyway, I would love to hear more of your thoughts!

(For anyone joining us/organizational purposes: OG Dom!Kim post and the first ask)

My dear lovely anon: I adore talking about ideas that's why i throw them into the world in the faint hope I get to talk about the more so you really made my day here! <3

(also never apologize for multiple headcanons/interpretations I think that's honestly the beauty of fandom that all characters exist in this sort of schrödinger's cat/multiverse sphere where as long as it's consistent with characterization it's valid)

And yes! In my mind the constant checking in and deferrals are basically two-fold: One Kim has a very dear love of Order and Structure and Rules Governing Interaction, especially in a professional setting - in this case Harry, no matter what, is the lead on this case and therefore gets to make the decision.

Second in this sort of AU version of him where he struggles with his urges, he'd be extra conscientious about not infringing on someone's agency in a way he's not been invited to. That's what the Structure is for: an outside hierarchy imposed on him, so he's not feeling resentful of someone aside from him exercising authority.

And normally that's not a problem for him, but Harry, because of his absolute level of fuck-up (and being pretty much his type overall) is crossing all his wires and fucking up his Very Carefully Created Systems, so he's like EXTRA deliberate in letting Harry call the shots in a way he probably wouldn't normally, course-correct as you say

Therefore he would probably absolute fucking FREAK OUT if Harry would be like "the city told me, you'd like to make decisions for me", because he'd be like FUCK I'VE TRIED SO HARD TO NOT BE OBVIOUS WHAT THE FUCK IS WRONG WITH ME and like double-down on fully suppressing any indication of his thoughts (making them perversely worse probably).

Not necessarily because of a SSC reason/Harry's amnesia and therefore unclear relationship to the scene (bc fucked up version of Kim here, he'd probably get a weird thrill out of being able to be the only one to show him/teach him about this) and more because the loss of control implied by being able to be read so easily by someone who - let's be clear here - is dealing with a lot of stuff and therefore should not be able to pick up Kim's internal struggle.

Jeaaaann oh Jean yes what an interesting thought.

Ok so Jean and Kim even in game have an interesting dynamic imo even though it is so heavily impacted by player choice, because no matter what you've done if Kim is there he defends Harry.

But he defends Harry in this really interesting way, because (at least in Good Cop runs) it's almost a conversation at cross-purpose, because they clearly aren't even talking about the same person.

That conversation to me reads weirdly aimless and strange, because Jean is talking to Kim about Harry the way he's clearly used to talking about him to people that also know him well - as commiseration.

Very "have a load of this guy" and "the things we have to deal with". Not getting into whether that's fair or not (I already know fandom is very divided on that point lol), it is very clear that this is almost rote to him and what is also rote is the way the other side responds: with equal levels of annoyance and pain and trash-talking.

Kim breaks this script.

To Jean, Kim is also someone who spent an extended amount of time with Harry so he expects the other side of his rote conversation to happen the way it always does, but Kim - someone he clearly respects both as an officer as well as his intellect and character - keeps refusing to engage, simply because he doesn't seem to have met the same Harry and that fully throws him for a loop.

In that entire conversation he keeps backtracking, apologizing, amending his aggressiveness at the slightest push-back from Kim.

So I think (to finally come back to your question sorry) that yes Kim absolutely would be annoyed - (idt that during the course of the actual investigation he'd ever let himself indulge in much, but he's certainly started smaller behaviour when it doesn't seem to concern the case - make Harry sleep, eat, dress warmly etc., so there is that kind of possessiveness about him for sure.) even angry at Jean for just coming in and sort of staking a claim on which behaviours Harry should even be scolded for.

But i don't think he'd lash out or anything, because really this is about control - both of the situation and of Harry's responses. And just by responding naturally - by pointing out how well Harry had solved the comprehensive, complicated mystery, how he had taken care of himself, how he'd comported himself quite well, how he'd been kind and capable - he's not just taking control of the conversation, keeping Jean always on the back-foot, deprived of his trusty protocol, but also control of Harry.

Because when at first his attention was fixed on this person who he only somewhat remembers and his (justified?) anger, simply by saying the truth, Kim manages to get him to focus on him, to accept his version of reality, of himself and his character - despite the fact that realistically, Jean's version of himself is probably more correct (simply by virtue of him actually knowing him).

Harry wants to believe that this person Kim is talking about is who he really is and to have someone who he respects say these things he desperately wants to be true, they start to become reality.

And isn't that the ultimate rush for Kim, a dopamine push the likes he's never experienced - to not just have someone accept his rules and judgement and decisions, but to have them accept his reality over their own.

#asks and stuff #anonymous #disco elysium #kimharry #kim kitsuragi #harry du bois #totally tell me about the drabble though!

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minggukieology · 2 years ago

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Happy FACE era and happy Jikook days to all!

I promise I'll write a few in depth reflections on the latest Jikook interactions and also will address 편지 in another post but I just wanted to get a few things off my chest so I wanted to post this first. (Sorry, this post will mostly include my reflections and no profound analysis so if you're not interested in my ramblings, you can skip this one)

*inserts these pics to catch your attention lol*

I guess I'll start off by this: I did make the conscious decision to lay off the petiness a few months ago though I can't help but think these few days (even weeks) happened for the sake of all the hateful trolls who have been making rounds even on here revelling in the fact both Jimin and Jungkook were mostly off-grid and Kook spotted having a social life, which somehow automatically discounted any possibility of him keeping in touch with/seeing anyone else for some reason.... but anyways... for the sake of keeping my karma clean let's move on.

Being an ARMY with a special fondness for 3J and Jikook I have to say my life is pretty easy, I just lay back and enjoy as their appearances happen and let things unfold without having to get angry or hateful. Mostly because my love for them doesn't hinge upon a never-ending need for validation for what has been a constant for the past 10+ years. And I hope by communicating and trying to explain more closely to you how especially Jimin and Jungkook interact, trying to help you bridge the language gap, I really hope you feel this sense of calmness as well. There is never anything to question, to fuss or argue about. (Not to stray too much off topic, but rest assured I deeply value and appreciate each and one of your replies and messages, despite the fact I am notoriously bad at replying to them 🫣)

Watching Jimin and Jungkook interact always feels like home, like you have been granted an insight into a familiar scene, with people that are so close they can't help but joke around or poke at each other yet at the same time can't hold back on their appreciation and softness for each other. (If you need a visual representation just take any moment Jimin talks about/with Jungkook and automatically gets all giggly and soft and Jungkook's last live where you could see the little goofball laughing at ex. the teasing scenes but at the same time couldn't hold back his starry eyed expression 🥹)

I have to admit though, I myself got proven wrong when I confidently posted about how they are both missing ARMY based on the Weverse interactions and then proceeded watching Jungkook turn on a live barely interacting with the comments (even remarking on the fact he isn't checking them yet people keep writing lol) just to watch over 1hr of Jimin content and admit to have been staying on top of all his promo releases...To then read Jimin's reply in which he left no room for debate. 국민 정말 미안해ㅠㅠㅠ

So what have we learned over the past few days?

Jimin and Jungkook are fine, in fact better than fine, and not seeing them in public proves absolutely jack sh*t (reverting back to a bit of my pettiness here)

Jungkook was involved with the album more than we could have ever imagined. (can't wait to talk more about 편지, I have to say not many songs have ever touched me as much as this one, for various reasons...)

Jungkook visited Jimin's rehearsal (and was really interested in watching him record for a music show too 🥺) and was also for that reason so confidently announcing that something "amazing beyond words" was coming before the teaser for Set me free pt. 2 dropped

As expected Jimin's latest schedules are recording/company-home-eat-sleep and repeat so he has barely any time left and Jungkook misses him a lot :(

Jungkook is as supportive and admiring of his hyung as ever- his words not mine (still a huge Serendipity stan though 🤭)

And once again highlighting: their communication feels very warm, friendly and familiar, there is no sign of them not knowing about each other or being distant

This was all I just had to write down before my head started spinning, I will be back with more of my nerdy language analysis posts, thanks for reading if you decided to! 😊

#jikook #민꾸기 #just my personal rambles #reflections

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beans-core · 7 months ago

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I finally got around to watching season 2 of Invincible (great show btw) and… oh my lord.

I need to ramble. I MUST.

spoilers after the cut! (If there’s still people who haven’t watched it lol I’m late to the game)

Oh my good god. There’s so much, but this is just the stuff that’s lurking near the front of my brain.

First off, Allen the Alien is the pookiest pookie to ever pookie. He’s so sweet and so determined. He literally risked loosing a battle on purpose to try and be taken to prison, a prison of the enemy, on the off chance that Mark’s dad would be there. And even then it was still a maybe that Nolan would even want to help the cause! Allen still trusted Marks word completely, even though it sounds crazy... “yeah dude okay I believe you, your mass-murdering Viltrumite father who totally tore up Earth and a bunch of other planets has changed his mind and feels bad. Good to know, I’ll make sure to find him and make sure he isn’t executed. I also understand you not wanting to ditch your planet and loved ones, and even though I’ll get in trouble with my commander I’m not going to force you to come to space with me. Bye now, sorry for breaking your bed, nice seeing you man!” And this was all in season 2. Even in season 1 he was still a bro. Allen is the Bro Code personified and I love him for that.

Eve and her family always makes me tear up. Because I can understand how her father, a hardworking man who was probably raised on the saying ‘money doesn’t grow on trees’ — who now has a daughter who can literally make money grow on trees— would feel so upset. It doesn’t make up for the fact that he’s yelling at his family like a dickhead, but it’s still a whole shitty situation. It’s always a grand ole time when Eve is back with her parents… ha ha. The little pep talk from Rex was an awesome little insight on their relationship through the years too.

Rex… my boy, how do I even begin. He’s been a reluctant fav of mine since season one, but he’s also such a douchebag! Sucks that it took being shot in the head and watching your superhero friends/coworkers die in front of you to realize that maybe the whole douchebag thing isn’t really the way to go. But yeah. Good for him! Want more of his backstory tbh, think that’d be cool. And yes, I know I could probably look through the comics and see if there something in there if I really wanted to. But what if I spoil something for myself :c

The Immortal grieving and confused on why he feels so much… the parallels to Nolan with that… not to mention the reveal of Kate being alive! The way he stood there stunned before hugging her was so beautiful. Ugh. Was a bit weary of their relationship until Kate said ‘he knows what it’s like to die over and over’ and then it was like bam they’re in love your honor new otp.

And man. Amber and Mark were my old otp… I knew it was going to end sooner or later (I accidentally got spoiled bruhhh) but I really had hope for them. Sad but honestly Amber deserves the world and if Mark can’t give that to her (and he’s so sad about it too he just wants to go to college and be normal and love his bae) then literally no one can fault her for putting her needs first. That’s another thing I love about the show, there’s no shame when people put their own lives first, and the tough conversations are organic. Magnificent. Anyway Amber is amazing I’m going to miss herrrr T-T hopefully they stay friends and she shows up in other seasons!!

Have I mentioned that I love the gorey fight scenes? Because I really really do. It’s the whole reason I started watching Invincible. So the scene with Mark beating the life out of that slimy megamind with the name I don’t remember? AMAZING. For me, anyway. Mark experiencing the panic and mania right after was still not so great for him, but for me? Good soup. I like my soup seasoned with extra angst, morality struggles, and mental breakdowns. Yum.

Mark hugging his mom so so tight after he gets back to his dimension and curling up crying on the hospital bed next to her? Hitting a little too close to home. Had to pause to wipe my eyes. Also grape baby Oliver has all my love. If something happens to that child, I’ll want to burn the world down. Mark Grayson probably will.

Mark telling his mom he needs to get better so he’s leaving college. ouch. “I need to learn to control myself”… “I can’t be like dad”… gods above. And also “what am I going to do, become a dentist?” LMAO it sucks but he’s right, unless some crazy shit happens and his morality suddenly crumbles to dust, he’ll be a superhero. Because with great power comes great responsibility and all that. There’s usually a bonus savior complex included in the package, but everybody doesn’t learn about that until later womp womp. He and Amber talked about it too, she said something like “if you were the type of person who didn’t immediately leave to go save people, we wouldn’t be dating”. PERIOD.

Don’t even get me started on that last line from Nolan. Caught me by surprise, came out of nowhere. “I think I miss my wife.” STRIKE ME DEAD… I actually shed tears. After everything he’s done, after getting a new wife and having another child and seeing Mark again,,, this bastard is just now missing his wife?? He’s so fucked up fr. But the pain in his voice, BRO, he sounds so confused and heartbroken, like he’s wondering how after everything he’s done to earth and their family, how can he still miss his wife when he doesn’t even deserve to think her name??

Man. This show. So many different subplots and they come together like *chefs kiss* it’s amazing. This show makes me FEEL, even for the characters that I thought I’d always hate… the writers and actors and everyone make all of the characters so human it hurts. EVEN WHEN THE CHARACTERS ARE ALIENS—

#spoiler warning #invincible season 2 spoilers #I’ll be damned if I spoil something for someone #I will not become the enemy #lmao anyway #invincible #invincible show #invincible season 2 #this is an Allen the Alien fanclub #ramblings #got too silly need to ramble again

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idk-my-aesthetic · 2 years ago

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Spy x family 75 spoilers ahead!

So to start I like everyone else loved this chapter. Anya and Yor reuniting, tsundere Damian and all the kids getting stars! Plus more insight into the fucked up desmond family

But what I wanna talk about the most is Twilight’s reaction

We didn’t get a proper reunion or see Twilight get visibly upset, which is a bit disappointing, but in all honesty even if I want to see that big emotional reaction from him being protective over Anya I just don’t think we’re at that point in the story yet

Like from a meta narrative perspective the moment where Twilight finally snaps and fully gives into and accepts the protective/parental feelings he has towards Anya is going to be a HUGE deal.

It’s been built up since basically moment 1 when Twilight says he gave up hope of ever having a family, and his whole character arc feels like a slow climb to that moment. Like when he saves Anya from the initial kidnapping, when he tries to send her off, during the interview when he punches the table, etc etc. he’s fighting between the two sides of himself- the stoic spy and the family man. Even ditching his mission to run to the bus is an example of this inner battle.

I do think we’re going to get a lot more small moments like this, seeing that protective side slowly taking over and him trying to push it down for the sake of the mission. We’re also probably going to get moments of him saving Anya or Yor secretly or in disguise like on the ship. (Or secretly as far as he knows considering Anya’s telepathy)

But eventually the big moment everyone wants where Twilight stands up for Anya (and possibly Yor) as himself will come eventually. It’s just not going to be for a while bc that moment is quiet literally the culmination of his character arc

I will also say that when this moment happens his won’t be protecting his family from random terrorists. I actually think it’ll probably be against WISE in some way

*also I think him being kinda casual about it makes sense in universe. I think all three of the Forgers have a bit of a skewed perspective on what’s normal when it comes to danger and trauma. All three of them had decently traumatizing childhoods.

But Twilight specifically having spent so much time as a spy and so little time with civilians- I don’t think he exactly knows what is a normal amount of danger or trauma for a child to go through. Despite how good he is at reading ppl and all that I think to him once Anya isn’t in physical danger anymore he mentally classifies her as okay. Like once he got her out of danger with the kidnappers he was just like “alright let’s go home”. So I think to him now that she’s no longer in physical danger she’s basically fine (especially bc Yor is there to help her through the initial crying and panic)

Anyway uhhh that went longer than expected sorry lol

#spy x family #anya forger #loid and anya #loid forger #sxf chapter 75

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oh-my-damn · 2 years ago

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I am so amused and a bit drunk. I did a Tumblr and I clicked on something and you know how it goes, and now suddenly I am here in this fandom rabbit hole that concerns Chris Evans, and I know about fandom rabbit holes and feelings about PR relationships I am in them! A few! Myself! But then usually I have context and now I have no context and I have scrolled your blog trying to figure it out myself but I. Cannot. I understand that I cannot. Please help! Are we angry with Chris Evans? Do we like him? Has he disappointed us? He seems to have some type of girlfriend (PR?) with racist friends (and he is maybe mean to her?)? Is that why we are angry? Did we use to like him? I am so ready to take a side, but I don't know what the sides are! Is it possible to explain to an outsider? I understand if not! This is 100% not sarcastic. Despite not having any previous feeling about Chris Evans I am gonna read your fic now, it looks good. This just all made me so happy. Cheers and good evening!

LMAO you have no idea how much I chuckled at this message! It is so endearingly innocent and I adore it.

Okay, it is going to take WAY too long to explain, so I am going to need to direct you to some of my wonderful friends who also cover this topic: @imnotmaddybutiknowher @nancydrewwouldnever @annislittleshopofhorrors (and especially her library of receipts, @anneslibrary which covers the entire timeline, it's very very well done!) These blogs have vital information, I also have a few blogs in my little "mafia group" (that's what we've been labelled as by the people who don't like us calling out Chris, so we're rolling with it) but some of them are pretty over the entire ordeal now so I don't know how much is left on their blogs <3

Long story short, yes we are mad at Chris, yes we did use to like and support him, yes he does have a girlfriend (at least that's how its presented, there are definitely some PR aspects to it, some believe it's all PR some believe its a mix), yes she does have racist friends (you can find the pics in Annes library pretty quickly in the timeline posts), yes there is also a weird dynamic between them because she is only 25 and he is 41 and he first started "chasing her" on insta when she was 23. She is a portugese actress in the canceled netflix show "warrior nun" and is not established in her field but Chris flies her out to live her life adapted to his interests, hobbies and friends before sending her back home for however long. she still lives with her parents, by the way, that's how young she is.

So yes, lots to unpack! I think the timelines will give you the most insight at this point because right now on here we are analyzing the latest post he made for V-day as well as the announcement he will be going to a con in March/April and the entire situation as a whole, so not much explaining at this point, more of a discussion lol.

OH! And I appreciate you reading my fics lmao, I hope you enjoy! Which one are you reading? I have a lot but I wasn't sure which one you meant lmao.

Anyway I hope you don't get too overwhelmed!! Please check back in whenever you want, I would love to hear your thoughts after doing a little digging into this whole mess heheheheheh

#mandy answers #chris evans #fandom #introduction to the dumpster fire!#lmao

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DBH MODDING (4) - DOING SOME GROUNDWORK

Hello everyone and

Dear Diary

Here is my newest mod dairy entry! And here is my last one in case you missed it. As a warm welcome to this entry, here is a shot of tank!Connor that crashed my game:

I did this by going into the model swapper > Show All dropdown to [Not yet identified] > find the tank > copy it onto Connor model 2 > apply > save mod > copy the .IDX into the DBH folder. I talk more in-depth about the process in my first entry.

It's 19/01/2023 and I'm chilling out, but my brain hurt for like 2 days after trying to figure out hexadecimal bull-crappery. I looked more into the two types of Connor outfits I wanted to make, one being SWAT Connor and the other being bougie Connor. SWAT Connor is more looking into code and bougie is more creative and editing textures. I want to focus on the SWAT mod for a little bit.

For SWAT Connor, I needed to locate Captain Allen's model data.

Good ol' Captain Allen. N̸͐͂̅ő̵́̄͝w̸̑ g̵̉̐i̷͈͈̓̆̒͑v̶͋ë̶́̆ ̷͋m̶͚͋ë̸͑͠ ̵̹̲̼̠͊y̵̓o̴̧͉͙͎̲̱͊͜ǔ̶͖͖̳͈r̵̊̾ u̵̺̇n̴̦̆̕if̶̊ǒ̷̀r̵̈́̊m̴̋̈.̷̈̓͘

I also want the PC200 uniform as shown below, but that's not a priority compared to the glorious SWAT swap I desperately want to do.

I went into HxD and locate in the .DAT file Captain Allen's string. Here is a screenshot:

I mean, like, I got THIS far but I have no idea where to go from here. I found him at least. Then I thought that if I download his container from the texture tool, then I can maybe open up his specific data in HxD???? Anyway, so I opened up .data_container and .catalogue. Then I gave up and watched this which didn't help with what I wanted to achieve lol, but it gave me better insight into what I was messing with. I think I have to find which part of the data_containers/catalogues affect the uniform and somehow implement it into the Connor model? Like, which parts of the code do I copy and paste? Idk how coding works

You will not BELIEVE what I was told! To see all the QD files, I had to download a thing. Thanks so much @jamdbh! Here is the tutorial link and the link to the website. In response to my last mod diary entry: I'm SO glad I'm not going to work this shit out by myself sdkldsjdf.

Crying tears of joy over the loaded thumbnails:

Jamie explained a few things to me, including:

SWAT outfit Connor is not stable and not widely available.

Something something backpack and skeletons.

"Just when anyone gets a backpack that conforms to their skeleton or if there's some other model loaded on top of the first one like for Markus's stratford speech, he morphs into his android form" - Jamie

It's possible for certain scenes (Capitol Park and Spare Parts), but nothing else.

At this point I'm like wtf is a skeleton, so I glanced over this article.

However, I found videos of the SWAT uniform on Hank and Connor in Partners, so there must be something I can do to make it happen??? I don't know. Something something dragonbane0 (the dbh mod king himself)?

After hanging out for a while, someone approached me saying that they have their personal notes on how to achieve the SWAT Connor model. I promised not to share these notes around, so unfortunately I can't link/upload it. However, I will leave you with this:

Join modding communities and Discord servers!

Learn what you can from people with experience!

Read tutorials and learn any terminology you don't understand!

Be kind and try your best!

Don't expect to get everything right in the first go.

And don't panic if you screw up!

That last one is @ me because I can't edit QD files still, even after loading up stuff. I think I have to start that process again since I stupidly moved my detroit folder lmaoooooooo

Next time, hopefully, I will have SWAT Connor for you to stare at and maybe other texture-orientated notes. Hope this helps!

~ Trinity

#mine #dbh #dbh mods #detroit become online #mymoddiary

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I'm obsessed with the misatzu au and their kids.. Also I'm obsessed with saki and eunji but I'd looove to get some more insight into ai and yuna's relationship. Great job author!

sorry this took so long! i had a whole post basically typed out and tumblr decided to delete it before i could finish the draft 😭😭 anyway i feel like i don't talk about these two very much so i went a little ham with headcanons lol sorry

i might be contradicting myself a little here, but i actually don't think these two are very close when they are kids

lemme explain

ai is very high energy, and she's the type of kid to run around and rough house and all that stuff, she's especially not shy (to the embarrassment of her parents at times)

even when she plays with barbies, it always involves a lot of moving and running around, and jihyo and momo actually struggle to contain her for a while

yuna is the exact opposite

she is a lot more quiet and prefers things like coloring or reading (with her mommies help!) and video games

as you can imagine, this doesn't mesh super well for young kids

their parents want them to be close, as their ages keep them from being in the traditional "kid squads" i've talk about before

ai desperately wants to be in the "older kid squad" (seojun, hyunjun, sai, kihyun) but she's just slightly too young to really keep up with their playing

yuna aligns more with the "younger kids squad" (daehyung, eunji, the triplets) but again she doesn't quite fit in since she's older than them

so their parents were hoping the two of them could be close

but it never really works out that well due to their different playing styles

their parents don't try to force it or anything, but they stop scheduling them play dates when they notice the girls aren't having the best time together

honestly, despite being in the same grade, they aren't super close for most of elementary school

ai is the super super out going kid on the playground, who always is running around and leading various games, where as yuna prefers playing on her ds or reading

ai kind of struggles making lasting friendships, since she bounces around between people so much, but yuna gets more and more shy throughout elementary school

theres not really a turning point in their relationship until hina is born

when eunji was born, ai wasn't really old enough to really know what being a "good big sister" meant

and while she was a good big sister to eunji, eunji was always close enough in age to her that she never needed to be super mature and take care of her sis (especially because eunji is a very responsible and practical person)

but when hina is born, ai starts to feel this pressure to "be a good example"

people start telling her she needs to be more mature and calm, since her parents are super busy with the baby, and that she needs to be a role model for her baby sister (not mohyo, but just random people in her life)

this is exacerbated by the fact that eunji is naturally more responsible, and people start to whisper that ai should be acting more her age and it's sad her little sister acted older than her

anyway this leads to ai basically breaking down at school one day when one of the other kids teased her about her being immature

and who finds her hiding in the tree at the back of the playground crying? yuna of course

yuna immediately panics because ai isn't the type to cry very much

ai spills everything in her mind and yuna just sits there and listens, not judging her and trying to be an active listener

ai eventually stops crying, and yuna pulls her into a little hug and tells her that she's a good big sister, and she acted completely normal for their age and her parents didn't expect her to be perfect

and ai just kind of falls into yuna's hug

anyway, after that ai gained a bit of an appreciation for yuna's quietness

she finds herself running over to sit with yuna during recess when she feels overwhelmed or upset, finding a way to entertain herself drawing in the sand or swinging or something

and yuna finds that it's nice to have someone to talk to between chapters of her book

they learn to love and appreciate the differences between the two of them, and by middle school they are besties!

ai still is very sociable, but she always sets aside time to talk to yuna

around seven or eighth grade, ai spends the whole summer in japan with momo's family, and when she gets back, she noticed that yuna is different

not that yuna is actually different, but she just never realized that yuna was so pretty or that she looked really cute in her little reading glasses or when she got a new book

and she starts to feel really weird around yuna, and that actually makes her really upset for a while cause she doesn't know what's wrong

yuna on the other hand also notices that ai is different after returning from japan, and she also starts to feel confusing feelings towards her

ai handles them by just being frustrated with herself, and it only gets worse when yuna starts to shut her out

their parents of course know what's happening, but they don't meddle

jihyo and jeongyeon find them amusing, nayeon finds them frustrating, and momo tries to think of ways to get the two alone together

it takes them a while to figure out what happened, and even longer to get together

but eventually by high school, they realize that they actually both just had huge massive crushes on each other and then they got together

i mentioned once that they were the first couple of the kids, and i still think that's true

they were really really nervous to tell their families they were dating

but their parents are super supportive and encouraging of their relationship

ai helps yuna meet new people and see the world, and yuna helps ai slow down from time to time and remember to take a breather 🥺

they aren't a super pda heavy couple, but yuna loves being scented

and ai loves scenting her so it's a win-win

they would totally have some cute couple thing though like matching bracelets or phone straps

nayeon always squeals when she sees them cuddling, so they prefer mohyo's house for their dates

nayeon ships it okay? she loves that her daughter found someone to bring her out of her shell

and mohyo love that yuna helps ai take a deep breath and manage her life a little

their parents are super careful not to get involved in their relationship though, as they don't want the two to feel like they are forced to be together

tbh i actually feel like mohyo in particular would want to give them freedom to explore each other and their relationship

makes sure they are educated on safe sex/healthy relationships though!!! (much to their chagrin)

they aren't always necessary talking to each other on dates, some dates are yuna curling up with a book in ai's bed while ai plays video games or practices dances for her dance classes or something

they are happy with this arrangement though :)

ai is still outgoing even as they get older, but yuna is comforted by the fact that at the end of the day, ai will always make time for her 🥺

#twice #park jihyo #hirai miyo #mohyo #ai #yuna #aina #im nayeon #yoo jeongyeon #2yeon

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Hi! its anon again :,D I'm thinking about J&A again... as much as I hope for more material for them I wonder what they can really do story-wise... I've been pretty sad about them from jins birthday up until the cover song annoucement and while im deliriously happy that they're getting a cover song but it feels like everything we get about them is just out of pity or small font last minuite stuff, idk even the cards they use in the promo art is turning 5 yrs old this year.. sometimes i just think to myself "what can they really do with them storywise?" they've done the whole revival event thing and while i feel like theres a million and one things I want to learn about them I still cant help but feel a bit doomed about the future of their characters

hey anon! thank you for your ask!

i totally get you. all of your concerns have been mine as well for a pretty long time! and it’s so true that most of the things done for them are out of pity lol (they only got shinsekai cards because happyele didnt want sora to be the only 3* card). ever since es2 era, genuine relevancy has been scarce but there were Some good things that came out of this era.

personally, i believe theres still so much they can explore with jin and akiomi as characters and their past. some might argue that we already know so much about them, but really. i feel like thats only in the case of jin. and even then, there’s a lot we don’t know about what happens behind the scenes (see: good-for-nothing son and bad teacher 2).

there’s potential, especially with akiomi. portrait has provided so much insight of how she operated within the modeling industry, her perception of the entertainment industry as a whole, and her initial goals. as well as giving explicit information about her family and showing how she took care of model trio. but as far as the intricacies of akiomi’s idol career, we only have pretty vague information about it. yes, we know that akiomi’s career flopped horribly due to super idol sagami jin’s reign. we know that she wanted to stand by his side, but was swept away by the new unit system the idol industry adapted to. akiomi worked substantially hard to be where jin was at, but realized hard work was not the only factor that took into account of success.

but i think there’s more meat on the bones! what can we say about akiomi’s unit? what kind of unit were they? how did they treat each other? can we speculate that akiomi’s cold behavior towards her previous unit due to not only just it getting in the way of grasping the super idol status, but also because the other members outcasted her? resented her? that’s what i’ve been curious about the most. she also mentions a “friend” she has in the beginning of guilty of perjury. it’s most likely a detail that should be overlooked since it’s minor, but i wonder about akiomi’s social life or if she even has one that she has to balance with work.

i mean. they could still come up with some other shit for jin and akiomi, i believe they can. but, i’m focusing more on what’s been lacking for a while.

one thing i would like to point out though, before i talk about the next part, is regarding jin & akiomi as a unit. officially, jin & akiomi is listed as an unofficial unit. and this is easily notable that they have never performed with each other. “but what about in rainbow?” within project saga, jin and akiomi performed within rain-bows and ba-barrier, not as jin & akiomi. there were no mentions of the unit. and even though rainbow stairway IS the song associated with that event, sure we can assume that they performed it during project saga, but we all know that it’s merely for happyele’s real life marketing purposes. speaking of that, yeah. jin & akiomi is meant for real life marketing purposes considering they are the only adult characters with singing voices. therefore, happyele wants to capitalize off of what little fans they have. very… rarely i guess. anyways

here’s what i could imagine them doing if they wanted to do an event with jin and akiomi. firstly, i believe it would be extremely ideal to put them in a tour event. there wouldnt be a song happyele would have to worry about. this would also clear up anything about jin and akiomi not being an official unit within the canon enstars storyline. and typically, bloomed card illustrations for events show the characters in their idol outfits performing on stage right? they dont Have to make the bloomed illustration a current era jin/akiomi card. they Could use their younger selves. for instance maybe an illustration of young idol akiomi performing alone but the unbloomed is her current self. just like how the guilty of perjury cards are set up. it’s honestly not impossible. and not all tour events have to have paid mv outfits (ie. obbligato). they Could bring up things about their past still and give more commentary of how the previous system operated and how the transition affected hard-working idols like akiomi in more detail.

this is very akiomi-centric since its objectively fair for her to receive more content in this era. (i’m jinP) but in terms of uncovering more of jin’s story i mean. same would apply. don’t have too many thoughts about it. mainly because jin already has a 5*.

but in terms of a song event. actually. even if we have all these plot holes such as jin&akiomi unit inconsistencies, anything could happen. a song event theoretically could happen whether it be their current selves or younger selves. how? SSVRS. it’s a virtual reality system that was created by switch i believe. they used it in the SS story, shinsekai with valkyrie. in which young jin and akiomi showed up. but, it was only their avatar models and it wasn’t jin and akiomi operating it themselves. natsume speculated that jin was the one that gave permission to some strangers to use his old super idol sagami jin model, but only under the condition that idol era akiomi would perform alongside his avatar as well. he concluded that jin wanted to see them perform as their younger selves since they were never able to and found solace through the VR system.

a pretty OP system within the story would be good news for us senseiPs, but happyele obviously isnt that great with implementing the senseis in anything, aren’t they? and this isnt even the last time they used SSVRS because the mv for believe 4 leaves takes place in SSVRS. so obviously, they are capable of making something like that for jin and akiomi. given maybe they want to make models for their younger selves or new outfits for their current 3d models.

there was one last thing that was the most important factor for me that left me delusional for so long and it’s the main reason why i still believe an event could happen. i’ve mentioned this many times on twitter (though i feel like i’ve mentioned these things in general a lot on that site), but it’s the lack of accessibility to jin and akiomi’s homescreen winter outfits. these outfits were officially shown in antique legend around the end of january 2021. normally, if they werent going to have cards to unlock these outfits, homescreen outfits like these would be unlockable through the ES coin shop easily. however, after almost 2 years, we still can’t unlock them. this is why i believe that eventually, they’ll get cards within an event so we can unlock them through their idol roads. a former delusion was also the fact that fusionic stars and surprising thanks official unit covers were typically released with new unit song album cds. and i assumed that jin and akiomi would eventually get one so their official mixes would come out (like the ensemble taisou album). but it’s been 2 years. i don’t know. but yeah. it’s these outfits that have been dictating it all for me.

“it could be the fact that happyele could’ve forgot!” sure, they forget the senseis sometimes. but you have to remember that when jin and akiomi’s old es1 teacher outfits were displayed in a story, they were immediately released in the ES coin shop. when the shinsekai cards came out, only their idol era outfits were unlockable. when portrait akiomi was released, only middle school akiomi outfit was unlockable. therefore, what makes the winter outfits an exception? we even have birthday editions for their winter outfits (bc they were born in winter) but not even the original ones? it’s strange. it drives me nuts. but its one of the shreds of hope i have for anything jin and akiomi related.

anyways, yeah. these are crazy mental gymnastics i go through on a daily. i am somehow hopeful for this year though. for sure, we are getting a new jin card so i’m looking forward to that. and i don’t think this will happen but i hope jin and akiomi get their own personalized outfits and mv for their new cover song. did you see that the song they’re covering is a gay pride song? i cried

here’s to 2023 being the year we could probably get something as good as portrait again

#ask #2023 #anon

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alwaysmicado · 10 months ago

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Hi!

Just wanted to say I love your writing ❤️

I love your series “you wanted this” read it several times and can’t wait for the next chapter!

As I was reading the last chapter, i could not help but think that Joel sees reader as someone to have fun with and not someone you settle down with, for the moment anyway, and that’s why he went on that date.

I can’t wait for him to explain himself!

I hope reader ghosts him a little bit, he kinda of deserves it.

Byyyeeeeeee hugs 🥰

Anon, this is the sweetest message ever! 🤍

I've read it ten times by now and it makes me so incredibly happy to know that you're out here enjoying something I wrote! 🥹 Thank so much you for your support, it really means the world to me!!

I LOVE that you're thinking about Joel's motivation and reader's potential reaction! My thoughts below the cut:

If we look at all of their interactions, it's obvious that Joel likes her a lot. We see him asking her to stay in pt. 1, he takes care of her in pt. 2, and then they have an honest and very insightful conversation in pt. 3:

“You remember what I told you when you asked me to stay over on our first night together?” You ask quietly. “I do,” Joel says softly. “You said you couldn’t and when I asked what you meant by that you said you didn’t wanna get attached.” “Sounds kinda mean now that I’m thinking about it,” you murmur. “You know it has nothing to do with you, right?” “I know, darlin’,” Joel reassures you. “And I’ve told you from the beginning that I’m not gonna pressure you into anything you’re not ready for. We got a good thing going and as long as you’re happy, I’m happy.”

It's Joel who wants more, but he respects reader's boundaries.

Reader seems to confront her feelings a bit more after that. We see her take care of Joel in pt. 4 and she even stays with him this time. Then we have pt. 5 where she's emotional and finds the polaroid and then opens up to Joel about her feelings.

Reader has good intuition, she totally knew I was gonna hurt her in pt. 6 lol.

Maybe he told her about the date because he wants to be honest and it's not a big deal in his mind? Just a date Tommy set up and he has no intention to go further with that woman anyway? Reader's been seeing other guys all this time, so why can't Joel go on a simple date?

Seems like someone's jealous 🫣. Plus the whole Laura/Simon trauma reader has doesn't help...

At this point, I feel like they both need to re-evaluate their feelings and communicate them honestly. But they're both human and will make mistakes, soooo we'll see if they can make up in pt. 7 😉.

As for the ghosting, I feel like he'd kinda deserve it a little. Telling her about the date seconds after coming inside her was such a dick move lmao. He better have a good explanation and/or give her the best orgasm ever to make up for that!!

Jump into my DMs if you wanna talk more about this or literally anything else... Thank you again for your sweet message!! ☺️🤍

#ask #series: you wanted this #fwb!joel miller #that man's got some explaining to do #thank you for reading!! <3

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yeonchi · 2 years ago

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2022 In Review

The first year of the post-pandemic era has gone fairly well, to say the least. I had lofty plans for this year, like the big instalments I have lined up for Kisekae Insights, Doctor Who 10 for 10 or getting back into the Koei Tecmo fandom with a new review series, but those things have had to be pushed back because for most of this year, I was working on my version of Kamen Rider Zi-O for my personal project, which was meant to have aired late last year. I initially thought I could have everything done in 4 months, but I ended up taking basically the whole year to do it.

One thing that I learnt after going through six lockdowns and my first year of full-time work is that I can only focus on one project at a time and I shouldn’t be obligated to run to my own schedule, so I decided to break the script and just release stuff whenever I felt like it, though I like to have a bit of a loose guideline to help build a sort of schedule. Anyway, despite being unable to complete most of what I wanted to do this year, I managed to achieve some other things as well.

I’m releasing this year’s review a little earlier because I want to get it over and done with, so let’s jump right into it.

Sea Princesses

So last year, I decided to embrace the Sea Princesses renaissance and even got involved with a few people in it as well. After covering Liamasterink’s Sea Princesses Iceberg videos and giving my own takes on them, I was asked by him to do a review of his fanarts. In that review, I decided to fully call him out for posting horny on main, which I held back on in Iceberg Part 2. Since then, a couple other people, namely VotrexGames (his video’s been deleted now) and VistaMacaw have called him out on similar subjects as well. To his credit, Liam has taken the criticisms well and over the past few months, he has been doing considerably less contentious content, which was mostly requested by a fan on his channel. On that note, I want to specifically point out that I never said that he shouldn’t be hornyposting at all, but that I wanted him to be mindful of what he posts considering the platforms he is on and the demographics of his audience; if he insists on hornyposting, then there are certainly other platforms out there that are rather accommodating of such contents.

After briefly joining MJZD Gaming’s Discord server for Sea Princesses and leaving after feeling like I was being a nuisance, I decided to come back for real, but surprisingly, the server’s dead most of the time. My correspondence with Liam, however, did move from Tumblr to Discord, which was a good thing since Tumblr’s asks don’t keep receipts if you reply privately and the chat system is a bit janky. Later on, I also joined a couple other Sea Princesses-related servers by invitation, but I don’t really do anything because they’re practically dead most of the time. I really should do something lol.

I spent a couple of months working on a Sea Princesses music video and the kid who inspired me to do it reposted the video, didn’t give me credit and deleted one of my fan’s comments when they called him out on it. I don’t have any other plans for videos like this relating to Sea Princesses, but in the future, I’m looking to post some other music videos and memes I’ve made over the years, possibly in relation to Kisekae Insights instalments.

Later on, I took a month’s break from writing Zi-O (after finishing the main series and just before writing the epilogue specials) to work on the v2 book transcripts and translations along with refreshed versions of the book and cartoon reviews as part of the Sea Princesses Refresh. I didn’t mention this when I made the post about it, but there were some things that I did manage to miss in translation. They have been fixed now, but I hope I won’t have to revisit any mistakes again because I’ve been a bit of a perfectionist and having to revisit things is admittedly taking time away from me doing other things.

September 2022 also marked the 15th anniversary of Sea Princesses premiering in Australia, which I celebrated with a special instalment of Kisekae Insights. On a similar note, I also noticed that 2024 will mark the 20th anniversary of the book that started it all. I brought this up with Fabio Yabu and he said that he would talk to his publisher about an anniversary edition or something. Since I also want to take advantage of this occasion regardless of whether Yabu will be publishing anything substantial, I would like to announce that just as Russell T Davies is writing three Doctor Who specials featuring David Tennant and Catherine Tate for the 60th anniversary, I will be writing a one-off continuation fanfic for Sea Princesses, currently titled The Conquerors of the Lost and Forgotten.

Here’s what I can tell you now. The story will be compatible with both the book and animated series continuities as the canon that this story is set in is one where both continuities are intertwined. There’s going to be quite a bit of meta-humour and I’m probably going to throw a few memes (mostly from mainland China) in there as well. The story doesn’t take place in the universe of my personal project, but some elements from it will be in there as it will be a condensed interpretation of the Sea Princesses storylines but without all the Kamen Rider stuff. In addition to this being a love letter to the series, it’s also going to be a love letter to the renaissance, so I’m unashamedly going to include shoutouts in the form of characters named after people who have contributed to it, along with Liamasterink’s original characters and storylines (because I only have like 1 or 2 OCs lol). I’m going to spend the next year writing it, then figure out how to release it when we get to 2024.

Doctor Who

After the disappointment that was Flux and Eve of the Daleks from towards the end of last year, the Thirteenth Doctor Reviews concluded with Legend of the Sea Devils and The Power of the Doctor, which honestly turned out better than I expected because my scores for those specials slightly redeemed the total score for Series 13. Although I said that I would continue doing reviews of new episodes with the RTD2 era and Ncuti Gatwa, I felt like I was rushing into it when it was announced that the new episodes would be exclusive to Disney+ outside of the UK and Ireland, meaning that the ABC no longer has the rights to them so I can’t watch them on ABC iView right after it’s aired in the UK. I know I’ll find a way around this, it’s just that the news did a number on my interest to do those reviews.

Last year, I promised that I would do Doctor Who 10 for 10 as a weekly series, but by June this year, I realised that I probably wouldn’t have time for it because I was so focused on Kamen Rider Zi-O. I did the heading for the first post in September last year, then worked on it occasionally in February and March. Barring minor changes, I only have 2 out of 10 points left to finish for the Series 1 post and given all the discourse regarding Noel Clarke and John Barrowman, I’m probably going to have quite a bit to say about it. Doctor Who 10 for 10 will be the first thing I’m going to work on in 2023 and each part will be released when they are done; it won’t be a weekly series.

Kisekae Insights

Like I said, I was too busy working on Zi-O to cover what I wanted to cover in Kisekae Insights, starting off with the My Little Pony instalments. I began working on some material that would be required for those instalments, but by the time I originally planned to do them, I thought that it would be better to work on some smaller topics, plus I haven’t really had time to finish what I needed for the MLP instalments. As such, the third run of Kisekae Insights was a short one, but the fourth run will begin sometime in 2023.

Koei Warriors things

After announcing my intentions to come back to the Koei Tecmo fanbase with my own lineup of content, including reviews of Koei Warriors games, I only got to do one or two things before I had to focus on writing Zi-O. At the same time, thanks to me building a gaming PC last year, I got to play basically all the Koei Warriors games I could play, whether it was their PC games, the Samurai Warriors games on my PS3 emulator, or going back to the classic Dynasty Warriors games on my PS2 emulator. Unfortunately, Dynasty Warriors Godseekers crashed while trying to play the first mission and I don’t think the Vita emulator’s polished enough yet because I can’t play the aforementioned game and Dynasty Warriors Next without significant glitches, which means that I am unable to review those games, however I might give my thoughts when I get to it.

As I gradually played through those games, my love for Koei Warriors games started to be rekindled despite my thoughts on them in the past - in fact, it’s mostly because of those thoughts (which I’ll elaborate when I get to them) that I play the Japanese/Asian versions of the games where possible (also because some games were never released to the West so the Japanese versions are the only way I can play them). However, when it comes to the Dynasty Warriors Empires games, I might have to play the English versions because of the nature of those games (and besides, the only version of 7 Empires I could easily get was the English version). Samurai Warriors Empires games will be reviewed with the Japanese version because the PS3 port of 2 Empires and 3 Empires were only released in Japan and also because I played 4 and 4-II in Japanese and I wanted to import my edit characters into 4 Empires. Right now, I’m beginning to have an interest in reviewing Dynasty Warriors 9 and Samurai Warriors 5, games that I originally never planned to cover given my thoughts on the post-modern era of Koei Tecmo (post-2016).

The Dynasty Warriors Weapon Moveset Power Rankings are still on and they will come before the game reviews, which will form a new Koei Warriors Rant Series from different perspectives to the original. This series will only cover the weapon systems in Dynasty Warriors 7 and 8; if I wanted to do those in 9 it would have to be a separate series after my review of that game. The redo of Warriors Orochi: The Recollective is still in the pipeline.

Responding to a couple of people

This year I made a couple of posts that got attention from a couple of people. The first post was about the ethics of reposting fanart which I made back in March. Five months later in August, an artist named Mazeru reblogged it to her sideblog and it was basically this:

I could have looked over her insults towards me and my fanbase and calmly made a rebuttal to that post, but she really hasn’t attempted to make any decent and coherent points that I couldn’t easily counter with anything from the post, plus I didn’t want to waste my time with someone who clearly won’t see reason. Right now, artists are banding against the rise of AI art and even I think that’s a better cause to support compared to people reposting art.

I will address a few things from her post, though. Mazeru says that sites like Danbooru tag their artists and link back to the sources, plus they also take posts down if artists request it, however she conveniently neglects to mention that booru sites are (arguably) the biggest source of art reposts. On top of that, booru sites are like wikis for art, so anyone can tag posts and add sources. If the poster won’t add the source, chances are that someone else will do it.

“bUt RePOsTINg oThEr PeOPlE's arTWORkS iS AgAiNsT The TOs” Social media sites haven’t been consistently enforcing their ToS for years now, on top of the fact that DMCA and copyright systems are broken because they’re either inconsistent or easily exploited by bad actors, so why would you trust them to do anything? People like you are the reason why Elon Musk bought Twitter.

Also, you’re one to tell me “yOU dOn't HaVE a faNBASE”. I checked your social media accounts. You’ve been on social media (or at least Twitter) for about the same time as me and you don’t even have half the followers I have, reposts or no reposts. As iDubbbz once said to RiceGum, “You have nothing to be boastful about, you fucking moron.”

Despite me disagreeing with like 80% (or thereabouts) of the reblog, never let it be said that Mazeru didn’t have a point, even if it was marred in ad hominems and walls of text (a line break doesn’t make it a separate paragraph). I made that post because people like the OP of the Twitter thread I was responding to constantly talk down to people who likely won’t be convinced by what they are talking about and I want to bring a dose of reality to the former. It was because of Mazeru that I decided to include artist credits to every Waifu Network post since October this year. If people like a piece enough, they’ll stop at no length to find the source and maybe even follow the artist if they care about them enough, otherwise they’ll just scroll past whether it’s a repost or not.

I’ve already said that abandoning the majority of my fanbase by not reposting art is not an option for me, so stop trying to convince me otherwise. Because I believe in ethical art reposting, I will make sure that artists are credited and sources are included (provided that the original source isn’t deleted at the time of posting), I will respect artists’ wishes if they don’t want their art reposted and as an extra, I will refrain from reposting AI-generated art in an effort to support real artists. At the same time, I encourage anyone who sees my posts to support the artists however they can (using the source links or SauceNAO as a starting point), but I can’t force anyone to do so.

You called me an ignorant twat, Mazeru, and this compromise is how I’m responding to you. If you or any other artist don’t like it, then you can cope harder.

The second post was the expected copepost I made following the Victorian election in late-November, where the Labor Party received another victory thanks to people who don’t understand freedom. Someone called pixies-chasing-white-dandelions reblogged my post to respond to one sentence and then blocked me so I can’t see what they wrote unless I go incognito.

If they had a blog behind her Tumblr link then I might have been able to see the post, but they didn’t and clicking into the link takes me to the dashboard where the post doesn’t load (like with the-archlich, who I had a couple of conversations about English dubs in Koei Warriors games before he blocked me for some reason because I can’t see his posts on the dashboard but I can see his posts if I go into his blog).

This is what they wrote below. For a comment that seems pretty benign, you sure are a fucking pussy.

On the day I made the post, I edited it a few times because I rushed it out and didn’t get all my thoughts in. The reblog was made just before I was about to make an edit that added “at least in the face of vaccines that weren’t as effective as people expected them to be”.

Look, I can get behind caring about our communities and banding together against bigots, but what I can’t get behind is people being forced to do it at the cost of our livelihoods or privileges. Getting vaccinated against the coronavirus has been marketed as something people should be doing for their communities when given what we would later learn, it should have been about themselves and possibly the people around them. The highlighted sentence was really me calling people who support vaccine mandates “entitled”. I was okay with the mask mandates. I was okay with the lockdowns even though I didn’t know the effect it would have on some individuals businesses. But when Daniel Andrews announced that the sixth lockdown would end soon and that our freedom depended on getting vaccinated, that was the last straw for me even though I supported people getting vaccinated (of their own volition no less). The fact that you thought this was about bigots shows that you missed the point of what I was talking about, though I can’t fault you that much for that because you reblogged the post before I made the clarification.

Unpopular opinion, but sometimes the people you call “bigots” might not be bigots and they might have had a point about some things all along. When you tell people that they have a responsibility to their community and then you threaten them with punishments or loss of privileges for not upholding that responsibility in a society that is supposed to be “free”, people are going to double down and think that other people are not entitled to their contribution to society.

In the end, only you are responsible for your own health, and if you decide you want to be responsible for the health of others by doing things like wearing masks, washing hands and staying home when you’re sick, that is a choice you can make on your own volition which extends from yourself. Basically, everyone else is collateral and they should not be expected to be responsible for your health.

Other current affairs

Unsurprisingly, the situation between Russia and Ukraine is still going on. Regardless of what you think about either country’s government, I think some empathy needs to go to the Ukranian people for what they are going through and as such, I would prefer to side with Ukraine’s plights even though I’m not one to virtue signal.

Sadly, despite all efforts and expectations, the Labor Party won the federal election and the Victorian state election, with freedom parties achieving little to no success, which only goes to show that Australians (and by extension the entire world) do not understand freedom. Together with Biden’s victory in 2019, Trudeau’s reelection in 2021 and Lula’s election in 2022, I feel that this world is experiencing a shift to the left, which is admittedly a problem in a world of people who do not understand freedom.

Around the time I did a follow-up post to How the world failed Chris-chan, Kiwi Farms was in the midst of a deplatforming campaign led by trans activist Keffals. Although the Kiwi Farms would weather the storm eventually (as they always do somehow), the campaign was largely successful compared to previous attacks (mostly involving DDoSing which is a crime) and as a result, I was unable to access the CWCki to do my research on Chris-chan as they shared the same servers as Kiwi Farms (though the CWCki would later move to different servers separate from them).

Conspiracies about the trans community having power over big tech and society aside, I kind of want to share my thoughts about people being “doxxed” by sites like Kiwi Farms which kind of runs into the topic of cancel culture. Personally, the way I see it is that having your personal details leaked isn’t as big of a concern compared to the ramifications of it, such as what people could potentially do with that information. Kiwi Farms runs on a platform that laughs and ridicules the antics of internet figures, which may or may not include highlighting or exposing the good and bad things that people do. Trolling plans are generally frowned upon and anyone dumb enough to brag about how they trolled someone is usually ridiculed because of an unspoken “look, but don’t touch” rule. Although Null may be the owner of the site, he is not responsible for what users do outside of the site, so he or the site as a whole shouldn’t really be blamed for anything, including causing suicides. That being said, let’s just say I’m glad I only discovered the Kiwi Farms after 2017.

If people who have threads on Kiwi Farms don’t do lolcow-ish things for a certain period of time, their thread may likely get buried and people will probably stop talking about them. If people keep bringing attention to the existence of their thread by constantly talking about it in an effort to get it taken down, then Kiwi Farms will just laugh at it. The site does not participate in systematic censorship like big tech sites have been doing nowadays, but they remove content that is unlawful in the US or under court order. DMCAs are usually laughed at because they are incomplete or they don’t actually break laws.

“When you tear out a man’s tongue, you are not proving him a liar, you’re only telling the world that you fear what he might say.” While people may want gossip about them taken down because they are complete lies, I feel that the main reason why people go on these “deplatforming campaigns” is because they have something to hide or because the gossip was actually the truth all along. Although I can’t speak for everyone, if you’re not a content creator with a large following and you get exposed on Kiwi Farms, my advice would be to stay humble and improve yourself, because the minute you react to these people, they’ll take the first opportunity to laugh at you and keep digging for hidden bones. Like I said, it’s not about being exposed on the internet, it’s about what you do after being exposed.

Moving on now. Elon Musk brought Twitter in an effort to bring free speech back to it. Aside from people on the left being butthurt over a private company doing whatever they want and enforcing rules on themselves that they continuously dodged while people on the right were being censored and deplatformed (thanks to government collusion), people became afraid that Elon Musk would destroy Twitter, to which I say, “Call me back when he actually does something on the scale of Tumblr’s NSFW ban”. However, I don’t know if Elon is serious about anything he does because he created a poll asking users if he should resign and a majority voted “Yes”. Then again, I’m not a CEO who pumps-and-dumps or thinks Taiwan should be a Chinese SAR like Hong Kong or Macau, so yeah. Tumblr updated their NSFW ban to allow nudity on the site (with appropriate community labelling), but when you’ve had your inactive NSFW blog deleted for the hilarious justification of “content involving minors”, you can see why I’m not interested in going back to it.

People have been moving to defederated social media sites like Mastodon instances as an alternative to Twitter. I would like to say here that I did create an account on a Mastodon instance last year to try it out. I was planning to put a link to it in last year’s end-of-year review post, but after one of my haters showed that he still lets me live rent-free in his head, I decided against it and I also won’t be putting a link here because I don’t want to give him the satisfaction of stalking me in the hope that it can help him move on. All I can say is that my Mastodon is basically just me posting links to the posts on my Tumblr like I do on my Facebook page, along with some reposts of old content here and there (tbf, this is what I’d do as well if I decided to use Twitter).

Although 2022 may not have been the year some people wanted, there are also things that are worth celebrating. Because I had to finish off my personal project, a few projects I had planned to do this year had to be pushed back, so 2023 for me will be catching up with the pipeline before I propose any new projects.

Since I’m early enough for it, have a Merry Christmas and a Happy New Year. See you all in 2023.

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Ok absolutely no hate but I thought this was a really interesting and well thought out take that I literally couldn’t disagree with more, so I figured I’d share my thoughts (I have a lot of them sorry). First of all I think bd gets compared to sxf too much, they're much more different than they seem.

Remember that Miri isn’t the main character, and the focus of the show isn’t supposed to be on her. We don’t have as much insight into her thoughts and behavior because we’re never shown her point of view. The story, and by extension the other characters, are shown through Kazuki and Rei’s perspective. Part of why we don’t know a lot about Miri is because they’re still getting to know her. BD is about K+R overcoming their own trauma, learning how to be parents and discovering the everyday struggles and joys of taking care of a toddler. We see Miri being annoying, causing trouble, and acting cute in kind of a cringy way because we’re seeing the way Rei and Kazuki experience being new parents and the impact it has on their lives. Her being annoying is kind of the point.

That being said, I still think the way you’ve judged her as a character is pretty flawed. I don’t think it’s fair to say she has no characterization. She’s shown to be very assertive, headstrong, outgoing and friendly. She likes to try and be helpful and responsible when she can, and she is very optimistic, which I don’t think is an issue, but it’s not like she’s never shown being sad or angry. And you have to remember that she’s 4. Kids that age are still in the very early stages of figuring out who they are and what they like. They tend to be childish and sometimes irritating (because they’re children). Their interests and hobbies change at least once a week. Is she smart or dumb for her age? She’s literally in preschool, who cares. When I was that age my interests and hobbies were “applesauce” and “painting on the walls with sparkly nail polish.”

“Can you identify any motivation at all for Miri that isn't short-term?” A lot of toddlers act entirely on short term motivation. There is a huge amount of variation in development at that age, so while some kids are already reading chapter books, others can’t even grasp the concept of “long term motivation” well enough to pass the marshmallow test. Why would a 4yo need some long term personal motivation anyway? Most kids in real life don’t have some specific and identifiable goal that motivates their actions. These are things a character needs if they’re the protagonist (like Anya), because that’s what moves the plot, but most little kids aren't like that and to me it actually feels less realistic that way. Yeah, kids are often more mature than we think and they’ve got a lot going on in their heads but they are still really young and a lot of them don’t know what’s going on half the time.

I’m gonna be completely honest, it feels like you wanted the show to go in a certain direction and because it didn’t, you decided it’s bad writing. Most of your criticisms make it seem like you’re just upset that Miri didn’t fit into specific character tropes you enjoy, and your concept of what makes a good character is based on an arbitrary checklist of traits that lacks nuance. Why would she be a better character if her optimism was only an act? Is the only way to make a character complex and multifaceted to make them wear a constant facade that hides that they’re actually sad all the time?

As for her being oblivious to all the gunshots and chaos in the show: It’s a comedy. The fact that she’s happily playing while her dads are scrambling to survive the gunfight happening around them is a goof. A bit. Sometimes parts of a show are written to be funny, even if they wouldn’t really happen like that in real life. Hope this clears things up lol

Ok so I will preface this by saying like whatever you like this is just my opinion.

I went into the show Buddy Daddies expecting to love it. I tend to be an absolute slut for the found family trope but i have a confession.

I find Miri absolutely insufferable. She's not a character she a prop really. She's supposed to represent a child but she is acts in the most stereotypical way possible with no characterization.

I'll go into this later. Why Anya from Spy X Family works and Miri really, REALLY doesn't in my opinion. I have a final to write but I want to get really into this

#buddy daddies

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just-an-old-blog · 2 years ago

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October Fanfic Rec Prompts (Tales Edition)

So, as it says on the can this is a weekly prompt list originally made by @piratejenna encouraging people to rec their favorite fanfic and authors.

I decided to spilt this post into two, one post for Tales recs and another for all my other fandoms but anyway, while it's a bit late Week 1 was:

“Fics you’ve read more times than you can count”

“Fics you’ve stayed up reading later than you should have.”

This is in no way a complete list and it’s only the first round of recs!

Mentioned Fandoms: Tales of Berseria, Vesperia, and Abyss. Touhou Project, Fire Emblem and Legend of Zelda.

Fanfic Recs:

Tales of Berseria:

The Crowd by vandesdelca: A flash fic that revolves around the overlooked NPC of Percival while painting an early game scene in a completely new light. I found myself repeatedly coming back to this fic because as mentioned it gave me a whole new perspective for the character of Percival as well as the impact the protagonist Velvet has on the cast around her even if she isn’t aware of it. For a fic with such a short word count it’s very thought provoking

Demons Never Sleep by XiroPaine: A Velvet/Eleanor fic that takes place after a very overlooked event in the game that tethers right before several heavy hitting plot points in the game and foreshadows what’s to come. As for the fic itself, it tackles Velvet’s insomnia as well as the disregard she has for herself while also showcasing Eleanor’s caring nature and how she can flip flop between not handling stressful situations well and having to put her foot down for Velvet’s sake. It’s a very insightful look into both characters and where they were at in the story plus it has some genuinely touching moments.

Chicken Crisis by Kyumika: Another Velvet/Eleanor fic and you know what if we’re talking about fics that I’ve come back to more times then I can count then this zany little piece about Eleanor being transformed into a literal chicken. A classic tale for the ages to come. Well it’s obviously hilarious, all the characters are written marvelously IC, especially Velvet who is pretending not to care about Eleanor’s little problem. Magilou actually being bewildered for once was a joy to see as well. Truly this was an out and out pleasure to read.

Tales of Vesperia:

Have You Met His Highness? by daphnerunning: I won’t actually get into what this fic is about because I think it ruin the experience for first time readers but this revolves around a HC for Ioder and Flynn. The slow revelation of this theory and how Flynn’s perspective is completely changed upon reading it a second time definitely makes it worth checking out. It’s a very intriguing read.

Embodiment of Elegance by melodiesofrigel: This is just a really cute fic about Rita getting anxious to see Estelle at a royal ball post-canon and Judith decides trying to dress her up might help (spoilers: she really just wants to screw with poor Rita lol). Judith and Rita played off each other so well in this fic like a pair of feuding sisters and the resolution was nothing short of adorable. Just a really nice “if you’re having a bad day fic”. Also in all seriousness because this fic is post-canon there are blatant references to endgame Vesperia spoilers.

Atop the Silent Mountain by Underwaternature: Another post-game spoiler ridden fic only this time it’s a Judith-centric character study. It paints a very melancholic atmosphere as Judith introspects on her relationship with Ba’ul, her fellow Krityans and how she feels about the events of her past in general. There’s definitely a distinct twinge of hope in it though and it’s something I come back when I want to see content that examines Judith and her complicated relationship with her own species.

Tales of Abyss:

Journey by vandesdelca (again lol): So, what stands out to me in this fic and the reason why I continue to return to it is it’s uniqueness, particularly the setting. This is a LukeTear Backrooms AU, yep, those backrooms. As mentioned the setting is quite unconventional but served to be perfect for rotating between several different situations which all bring out different aspects in the characters and emotions in the readers. Sometimes it felt a little eerie, sometimes it was quite sweet, and other times it really got into the characters’ psyches, especially Tear. I would definitely recommend this fic for fans of what I would personally consider to be psychological drama.

Stay with Me by @bibliophileemily: A fic about the relationship between Largo and his wife before uhhh…spoilers…still, it’s actually quite sweet and it was nice seeing their relationship fleshed out and the letter format added a special something to it. I definitely liked how this filled in for some missing gaps in Largo’s backstory and personally speaking it really made him feel more believable as a person to me which is why I always return to it when I want some Largo content.

Missing from You by lucifaron: This is the longest recommendation on this list with a total word count of 16.5k spread across 7 chapters. A post-canon mostly Tear-centric fic where she alongside Guy grapple with settling into a new world which is still plagued with issues and doubts about whether the Luke that stands before them is the same Luke they went on their journey with. A lot of confusing feelings and complicated relationships ensue. This fic is layered in multiple different ways from the character’s introspections on how much the events of Abyss changed them to confronting some the lingering political issues like Replica abuse. It's ultimately that complexity that has me returning to this fic time and time again as it truly offers a three-dimensional experience with every new chapter.

Crossovers:

Burn Your Doubts and Fly by Scarfinator: A Mileena Weiss x Velvet Crowe offering which is basically like putting the two biggest magnets for w/w ships in the Tales fandom together and watching them make an atomic bomb of femslash. The fic itself references several canon events and presents the idea that Mileena’s true feelings about them may have been more than meets the eye. It all culminates one night when...read for yourself. I liked the conclusion to this story and Mileena just accepting that hey, Velvet is hot and huggable and she wants a piece lol. It's a really endearing fic that I highly recommend if you are into crossover pairings.

Phew! That's a lot of fics but more recs to come soon!

#fanfic #tales of berseria #tales of series #velvet/eleanor #tales of vesperia #tales of abyss #LukeTear #fanfic rec #recs #fanfic reccomendation

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thecataclysmic6 · 2 years ago

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hihi!! sorry if this is weird kr whatever but I just realized I'm a system!! but the issue is I know next to nothing about roles and headspace(?) and everything. how do you find that stuff out? is there a beginners guide?? pls there's silly little people in my head and idk what to do about it -☁️🌱 (tag with ☁️🌱 so I can find this ask again pls? <3)

We can definitely try! Each system is different, so our experiences might also be very different. We're also still learning about what being a system entails ourselves (as we like to say, we're not a doctor, we're a patient lol).

Anyways! As we understand it, roles describe what part each alter plays in a system and can also just provide insight for others about that alter. They're not mutually exclusive or rigid, so they can overlap and even change over time.

An important distinction is between the ANPs and the EPs, that's a good place to start.

ANPs are "Apparently Normal Parts". Otherwise known as alters who take care of day to day life and usually have little to know recollection of trauma. They may have high amnesia and identify heavily with the body. A common alter type to fall under this are 'hosts'. In our system, I (Cat🐈‍⬛️) am the host and I have alot of amnesia around trauma. I'm an ANP.

EPs are "Emotional Parts". These are alters who hold onto trauma, are usually formed to keep the trauma hidden from the system, or alters who have been formed to handle specific experiences. A good example of this in our system is Ren✨️, who is a trauma holder and split to help with that specific trauma.

From there they can be placed into a bunch of other roles. Keep in mind, alters tend to be fully formed personalities and may not take to kindly to being placed in boxes. Assigning certain roles takes cooperation, communication, and time. All of which are difficult for some systems to form, don't worry if it doesn't happen immediately and don't try and rush it.

The headspace is generally what systems use to refer to the place alters exist when they are not fronting. It can be a safe place that became internalized. Each systems headspace will look different, and some don't have one at all! Ours for a very long time was just a black empty void, but over time it's changed to a black empty void but with a library.

At the moment, sysblr is very focused on endogenic vs. traumagenic. (Note we are neutral on this discourse and prefer to stay at minimum 10ft away at all times, please dont ask us our opinions on it cause it stresses us out) So alot of our sources will be outside of tumblr blogs.

Essentially endogenic systems are systems formed without trauma, while traumagenic is formed from either an incident or long term related trauma (very simplified). Keep in mind, systems are usually formed to protect from trauma and you should not go looking for evidence of trauma without guided assistance from a professional such as through therapy. Honestly, my advice is to avoid this discourse until you get a better grasp on being a system. (It can be kinda a cesspool and just not a safe place for new systems)

My best advice is to try and set up communication with your system. This can be a very long process for some but it's a good step.

Anyways long post rambling aside, I asked a few other systems to help me gather some good resources for you. I hope these can be some bit of help! Note: alot of these resources are dedicated to DID specific systems but can also be useful to other types of systems. CW: there may be triggering topics mentioned, please read with caution. Here's some that we all gathered together:

A Book about living with alters (explains headspace and developing communication):

Book describing dissociation:

Blog full of multiple coping mechanisms to help with being a system. (They also have a list of more resources on their blog)

An online list of common Alter Roles and Terminology (not conclusive and some are outdated):

#osdd #osdd system #ask #osdd 1b #did #system #hopefully this makes sense #☁��🌱#keep in mind we're not professionals and we dont claim to know you personally #🐈‍⬛️🐾 cowritten

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eloves-writes · 3 years ago

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stormy weather

[spencer reid x reader]

summary : reader doesn’t like flying in a storm & spencer distracts them

a/n : i wrote this whilst tipsy at a family bbq, talk about queen of socialising‼️ this talks about macbeth a bit & i’m sorry if that bores you lol the first draft of this had a huge long section of reader & reid discussing lady macbeth’s character development but i figured no one would actually want to read that💀 anyways hope you enjoy, requests open as always!

couple - spencer reid x gender neutral reader

content warnings - m*cbeth😩

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“did you know that flying in a thunderstorm is no more or less unsafe than flying in good weather, since most modern airplanes are built to withstand lightning strikes and harsh wind and rain, what’s interesting is-”

“reid, i swear to god,” emily complained from the seat opposite him.

the boy genius stopped his ramblings. “what?”

“emily’s far too busy for your science lessons today i think, spence,” you joked, looking up from your book.

as you spoke, lightning cracked somewhere in the distance, flashing through the jet’s windows. you involuntarily flinched, off-set by the sudden light.

“woah,” morgan remarked. “you sure about that science spiel, reid? that was pretty intense.”

“don’t set him off again,” prentiss moaned. “you’re a little jumpy today though, y/n.”

“i’m not jumpy,” you replied monotonously, not looking up from your reading this time.

“you sound like hotch,” rossi teased. that, of course, set off a not uncommon round of crude impressions of the team members. hotch glanced up disapprovingly but chuckled under his breath at emily and reid’s version of a morgan and garcia phone call. the jest was interrupted by another loud crack of lightning amongst the ignored rumbles of heavying thunder. you flinched again.

“you are scared, aren’t you y/l/n?” morgan inquired. he wasn’t trying to belittle you, but you were embarrassed nonetheless. it wasn’t like no one else on the team had seemingly childish fears; reid was scared of the dark, but everyone did take the piss out of him for it.

“i’m not scared!” you exclaimed stubbornly. “but, for unrelated reasons, i’m going to go and take a nap until we land.” you dog-eared the page of your book and placed it on the table before getting up to relocate to the jet couch. spencer picked up your book and began to inspect it; a harmless habit he had of being constantly interested in other people’s literature choices. sometimes he offered meaningless insight to the hidden metaphors of the story, or accidentally spoiled the plot before you could finish it yourself. you thought it was quite sweet really. today, you were re-reading macbeth- perhaps an odd choice for a bit of light reading as emily so often told you. admittedly, you were a fan of shakespeare’s work since you studied it for your linguistics degree.

you comfied yourself on the couch, curling up with a pillow under your head. you doubted you’d actually be able to sleep with all the noise of the storm but it was worth a try (and a break from the incessant chatter of the team). only a few minutes passed as you lay listening to the on pour of rain on the roof and distant thunder; the white noise in itself was quite relaxing, but the remembrance of flying through the tempest wasn’t so. it felt like it had been much longer than it had and you willed the time to pass sooner so you could get your feet onto some solid ground.

“heyy,” spencer purred, sitting at your feet with your book in his hands.

“hey,” you replied. “reading my book?”

“i was reading your annotations actually,” he smiled. you liked to take a biro to the margins of your books, but it was more for your own enjoyment of the story than for other people’s eyes. “i generally don’t approve of the defacing of classic literature, however you have some really interesting comments on the nature of the gender role reversal in the play. see here, act 2 scene 2, ‘my hands are of your colour but i shame to wear a heart so white’ you wrote that lady macbeth is calling him a coward. well, you didn’t write coward-”

“i wrote pussy,” you smirked.

he smiled back awkwardly. “yeah, you did. you also wrote lady macbeth is a ‘girlboss’, i’m not entirely sure what that means.”

“my notes aren’t exactly of academic standard.”

“content wise, i would have to disagree. i forget how smart you are sometimes.”

“smarter than you, dr know-it-all?”

“in some fields i’m sure. you should use that brain more in the field instead of messing around with emily.”

“mmm, i’m good on the messing around with prentiss but maybe i should offer some more of my,” -you gestured dramatically- “profound intelligence.”

spencer laughed, tucking his slightly-too-long hair behind his ear. “well if we ever need an analysis on lady macbeth’s ‘girlboss energy’ i’ll know who to call.”

“you sure will. so then doctor, macbeth- victim or villain?”

you sparked up an enthusiastic discussion about the writing, forgetting completely about the raging storm that had bothered you so much earlier. the conversation lasted the whole rest of the flight, spencer’s mission of helping you through it very much achieved. you somehow hadn’t clocked on that he only came over to distract you, despite the fact that he frequently slated shakespeare’s writing. to him, it was worth talking about even the most terrible book in the world if it meant he was talking to you. he felt a burning sense of pride for making you smile, catalysing the fire in his heart. of all the knowledge in his head, the knowledge that he had single-handedly made you feel just the tiniest bit better was all the knowledge the young doctor ever really wanted.

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