#ANYWAYS ILY LEA

[satoruxx]

popping in here again... CALEB BEING SO KRRR WHEN HE JUST POPS IN AT THE RIGHT TIME TO HELP MC (snake guy at the bus? stop) he is suspicious but USING HIS EVOL TO THREATEN THE SNAKE GUY AND ACTING ON IT TOO?? oml when he asked "what hand did you touch her with? was it this one?" and proceeds to snap it is soooooo YESS LIKE NO ONE IS ALLOWED TO TOUCH OR HURT HIS GIRLLLLL i love that before he went to follow the snake guy he just tosses a bag of apples like "babe, go chillax and eat an apple while i do business" PURRRRR

okok i do have to add one other thing, and it's at the end of that episode (7 or 8?) when MC feels a little guilty for suspecting him? (the fleet which he's a part of) she feels guilty and for a moment i was like yea... but then i remembered this guy made MC think he was dead for who knows how long, so any guilt i had dissipated LMAO

anyways, good night or good morning whenever you read this!! ily <3 and have the best dreams everrrrr >:3333

LMAO HI AGAIN LEA!!! PLS I WAS LITERALLY ON MY KNEES AT THAT PARTTTTT!!!!!!!! the "which hand did you touch her with part" actually had me ready to tie my hair up bc oh my god???? he fr is soooo protective and i'm eating it up... AND YEAH THE APPLES LMAOOOO even when he's pissed off he's making sure we're eating well i'm crying he's so boyfriend :33

random unpopular opinion but with everyone on twt and tiktok complaining that mc's reaction to caleb was underwhelming i kinda disagree?? like ok yes she had every right to be angry at him for hiding that he was alive for so long but i think her being more relieved and happy to see him again makes perfect sense?? like that's her only companion/family/friend so ofc the first thing she's gonna feel is happiness to see he's not dead?? i do think they did a good job showing how her initial happiness starts to turn into doubt the more time she spends with him tho... honestly that's how it would've gone down if it were me !!

but anyways sorry for rambling let's get back to your point !!

i think infold wanted you to go through that exact process !! bc at first mc feels guilty for suspecting him bc well... that's caleb !! that's the caleb who has always been kind and looked out for her. in mc's eyes caleb is the embodiment of perfection... she cannot see him as someone who can do harm or do "bad things" bc that's just not the caleb she was exposed to! only after the chapters continue progressing does she start understanding the fact that oh wait.. maybe there's more to caleb than i ever realized.. and that's why she starts getting more bold with her accusations and anger !!

but yeah your guilt going away is probably EXACTLY what infold wanted... they want you to feel like mc.. first thinking oh it's our sweet childhood friend caleb how could i ever doubt him?? to then going oh wait he's been hiding things and maybe i need to be more curious and cautious...

ANYWAYS TY FOR LETTING ME RAMBLE LEA I LOVE HEARING YOUR THOUGHTS!!! pls continue sharing them with me hehe :33

[cheriboms]

happy happy birthday @future-boi !!! :D for u: the most cringefail guy ever <3

[lesbianfakir]

I could write a three hour video essay on tutu and gender but I really love how a show in a genre that’s primarily targeted towards girls explores how expectations of masculinity can traumatize young boys.

This is shown with Fakir especially. While the text never explicitly attributes his behavior to his gender, his arc over the course of the show is quintessentially informed by toxic gender roles. This got long and I have a lot of thoughts so I'm gonna put it under a readmore:

Fakir has one unchanging goal for the duration of the show: he wants to keep the people he loves safe. But outside elements twist this motivation into an identity. He is suffocating under the weight of a person he has never been and can never be no matter how hard he tries to mold himself.

Much of his personality is likely a direct result of circumstance. We are shown multiple times that when he feels in his element he’s inclined to a gentle disposition (ie how he acts with Duck as a duck or with Raetsel). As a young child especially he appears earnest and naive, his already innate desire to protect blinding him to the cruelty of the world. However, this sweeter side is near overwritten by the cold, domineering personality that characterizes his early appearances in the show.

We can infer that without the trauma inflicted on him by the story Fakir would have retained much more of this gentler personality as he grew up. Instead, his desire to protect others is twisted and warped by fear, becoming a desire to control.

Even before having his life upended, Fakir wanted to to take the weight of protecting the entire town all upon himself. He sees a true hero as someone who stands on his own without help.

So how does this tie into gender? Fakir deliberately crushes his "weaker" side--the earnest, sensitive young boy in the favor of a tough persona. He particularly views emotions as a weakness. It's notable that in one of the most iconic scenes in the show, Fakir has a breakdown over someone seeing him crying. This simple display of human emotion is enough to completely shatter the image he has constructed for himself. Fakir's harsh, impossible standards for himself are rooted in toxic masculinity, in the idea that men--real men--are never visibly sad or scared.

Immediately after losing everything as a child, Fakir was given a new source of hope and pride: the role of the Knight. He, of course, built his whole identity around this role. The Knight, like the Prince is expected to protect others without fear. This can be read as analogous to how men struggle under the expectation to be the protectors and the breadwinners, expected to take pain and hardship upon themselves so those under their care may live a comfortable life. However, the story's knight is doomed from the start: a failed protector. Fakir is growing up under literal impossible standards. He's meant to give everything and crumble under that weight without achieving anything.

It's worth noting that the Princesses' roles are meant to revolve seeking affection from men while the men's roles are colored by violence. Contrast the Knight and Princess Tutu who are both destined to accomplish nothing and be forgotten: while Tutu gracefully dissolves into a speck of light, the Knight is gruesomely torn apart. Here, masculinity becomes inextricably linked to violence in Drosselmeyer's world.

For as long as Fakir tries to be a knight worthy of the story he is confined by a toxic gender role. A protector relies on the idea of a weaker subset of person--the protected. Even without malicious intent, this strips agency. Fakir ignores Mytho's wishes all for the sake of "keeping him safe." Likewise Duck doesn't' want Fakir's protection. In several episodes she begs him to give up on fighting and search for peaceable solutions.

Even though neither Duck nor Mytho ask for Fakir to fight for them he feels personally responsible for their safety to the point his entire self esteem rests on his ability to protect them. Despite his guarded exterior, two of the three times he breaks down crying are because Duck got hurt --due to his own incompetence in his eyes.

Fakir can only grow as a person when he stops placing everything on his own shoulders. For all he clings to the sword his real strengths are found outside of battle. He only saves Duck by opening up to her in his first display of willing vulnerability.

By the end of the series he has entered a genuine partnership with Duck. Rather than a one-sided relationship where he sees himself as her protector, he writes her story and trusts her to guide herself through it. This is in direct opposition to the masculine ideals he clung so hard to. The knight and the prince --his role models--are both meant to be self-sufficient in the original fairytale. Instead, Fakir is able to be a vulnerable boy who gets scared and hurt--and doesn't need to hide it--but has friends he can rely on when times are tough.

Fakir's arc doesn't involve him becoming more feminine, necessarily, but it does show him breaking free of the standards placed on his shoulders by toxic masculinity. He was never meant to be a fighter; that was an unfair role he was forced into. At the end of the show Fakir was achieved his freedom. He isn't a knight. He isn't a protector. He isn't personally responsible for the lives of those he loves. He's just Fakir.

[vibinsane]

daily lea is too damn precious for the world post

[raisy-archive]

ooh, you make me live now, honey

for @slightlymad <3

[lea-andres-dolls]

Was anyone gonna tell me Tokyo Disney had the cutest Haunted Mansion doll or was I just supposed to just find that out stumbling around on eBay super late at night?

[acesammy]

i miss drawing elton john so much man

[bradshawed]

okay, I've seen it happen to other people, but it wasn't till just now that I experienced tumblr just making you unfollow people. it made me unfollow you and I didn't even know till right now!! how dare it try and keep us apart :(

they’re honestly so mean, trying to keep us apart and break our bond like that. shame on you tumblr, for doing it to us and so many other innocent people out there :(

[vibinsane]

GUESS WHAT ITS BEEN 24 HOURS (goddamn finally)

daily "lea is so damn precious" post

daily "i love cathy btw"

[thyme-in-a-bubble]

lea you remind me of the little witch in the cottage of the village that people go to for fresh herbs (and bread!) and remedies or fun stories. like those are the vibes you give off to me anyway ily

okay, OKAY, stop the music, everybody calm down (I'm the only one freaking out), do we know each other irl? because that's literally me! I am shocked. you are spot on, babe ♡

also, super crazy but that is literally the description of the main character in the novel I've (at the speed of a snail, but still) been working on for nearly two years now (it's a romance novel, duh, so the other one is a sailor. gentle and worldly seaman x reclusive and adorable witch? yeah, that's the vibe.... damn, I should really work more on it soon...)

[googoojeu]

i'm on my mark lee hours

[bitter-sweet-coffee]

a fic where shadow & infinite get milkshakes at a retro diner B)

OKAY FINALLY IT’S HERE! i posted it on ao3 but i am linking here for people to leave gratifying notes if they reblog 👉👈

@woven-song drew art for this which i will link HERE when it is up AND FOR ALSO BEING SO FUCKING PATIENT OH MY GOD. LIKE. SORRY DUDE DKDKDKDK BUT AT LEAST IT IS HERE YOU CAN POST NOW LOL

the diner dogs are @authorleaandres ‘s ocs. hence the canon joke. thank you lea for giving me comments on the og draft to keep me motivated :”)

@the-reaplet edited for me and pspsps’d with motivation the whole way through, bless you ily i owe the premature ao3 drop to you for giving me base level confidence that this doesn’t suck

anyways, hi dog&hog nation i’m back 😈

[kiyelle]

introduce your mutuals in a sentence <3

ok SO they’re not really introductions they’re more just me rambling about how much i adore them <3

@delehosies gracie, my actually soulmate me thinks! makes my world a thousand times prettier even though she’s annoyingly good at imessage games, I LOVE U ANYWAYS

@sunkeiji sayu, my 4lifer! she’s such a beautiful person gosh i just want to give her endless hugs and watch her become a hot doctor bc she deserves everything <3

@tetsuphobia hannah, if the beauty of pluto projector was made into human form you’d be left with her <3 i’d be lost without her and her writing

@yutari sav, i’ve said it once and i’ve said it twice! i’m a brunette gemini with a name beginning with i PLS KISS ME SAV - seriously though such a gorgeous person inside & out

@veenxys aelin, THE ABSOLUTE SWEETEST <3 we only interact briefly but the smallest things warm my heart so much!! a lovely person and such a talented writer

@melin-oe jasmin, my bestie bc the law says so!! we were shipped once and i think it was the best decision ever made she’s the sweetest ever MWAH!

@0jiro pat, MY WIFEY! i just want to listen to kali and dance with her <3 she’s actually one of my favourite people ever and if we knew each other irl we would be unstoppable #patelle supremacy

@mysterystarz nova, my luvr!! i keep the lil kiyoomi drawing she made me as a widget on my phone so i see it everyday- she’s a true angel!

@uxavity amora, oh my gosh she’s everything!!! funny n cute n kind i can’t wait for us to finally meet and go to the mall and listen to conan omg </3 AND WE HAVE THE CUTEST SHIP NAME AMORELLE

@01-02-1991 miwa, she’s so hot!!1!1! i love her and i love going into her inbox like 5 minutes before going to sleep so i totally forget to reply in the morning and i end up annoying her again a week later heheee <3

@ohmiyaa lea, the cutest ever!! i’m so grateful she had decided to come into my inbox and become a regular anon she make’s me smile sm <3 and her writing is so cute too :(

@sarose milo, i don’t have the words for how much i adore her- and when she calls me isabelita MY HEARTSVVSJAVS <33 just want to give her lil kisses

@theyluvmegan megan, pretty girl with pretty music! I HAVE A WHOLE PLAYLIST WITH JUST HER RECS <3

@chatsu chelsea, i would fight anyone for her >:( she’s so funny and kind and her themes are also on POINT- i think we should kiss tbh

@solaxena athena, my pretty girl. i could finish the sentence there because it’s the perfect way to describe her, pretty inside and out

@sugamintchocochip maia, gonna steak her and make her MY handsome wife <3 i love interacting with herrrr :( i need to hop into her inbox more

(i hope i didnt miss anyone :( ily all!!)

[ethereal-engene]

hi ash!! <33 how are youuu? i’ve been crying in the club since yesterday’s caratland 😭 i also saw that you also got tickets to power of love?? i’m so jealous 😭 no cinemas near me are showing it!! aaaa but anyway i hope you’re doing well and taking care of yourseeelf. ily 💗

swear to god this is always me whenever I get to talk to you 😭💗

I’m doing okayyyy! I’m about to finish a book :)) but also I should be studying 💔 ALSO UNDERSTANDABLE CARATLAND CONTENT HAS BEEN 🥺 & 😩 & 🤩 me

especially uhm their unit covers BUT MINGYU BRAINROT SHEOSBSSOSB crying

IM CRYING I WISH THERE WERE CINEMAS NEAR YOU THAT WERE SHOWING IT 😭💔

i hope you’re doing well too Lea 💗 I’m mf losing it over this book! I’m ngl I might have been reading to finish this book so I could start my next book 💀 but no regrets, this book is panning out in a very interesting manner

Quite scared but excited for the ending!! Oh oh and before I forget, ily too 💕

I ALMOST FORGOT WAIT HOW ARE YOU DOING?!? I really had to edit this 🤕 n e ways

[acesammy]

fr why does dropout have a more functional user interface for their app and website than like 90% of streaming services

[chewsdays]

🙋🏼‍♀️.