#ANYWAY WISH ME LUCK

[shiftersroom]

i feel like i’m gonna shift tonight, it’s maybe the first time i’ve felt like this properly, and i’m literally delaying my attempt bc i’m scared.

[sebille]

something mopey about how the love was there but it wasn't enough in the end

[cicaklah]

i've got a job interview tomorrow morning which in hindsight is my own fault for scheduling it then but it means i've had to look at a model instead of writing more fanfiction.

[mockiatoh]

My mother was a paranoid schizophrenic. Still is, I suppose. She was deeply convinced that dentist offices were secretly agents of (government) that would steal us away from her for nefarious purposes. She couldn’t help it. Anyway, I haven’t been to the dentist since I was four years old, when it first got Really Bad.

I had a checkup and X-rays a month ago. Today, I’m sitting in the office, anxiously waiting to be called back for a deep cleaning and scaling. The dentist was very kind when I spoke to him about it, after he asked what made me decide to seek care now, when I hadn’t for so long.

I’m nervous about the pain. I also have a weird secret anxiety that something will go terribly wrong, almost a reflexive fear. Like goosebumps from the arrector pili muscle. A vestigial anxiety, a muscle pulling at long hair that’s no longer there.

[kaesaaurelia]

I'm working from home most of this week because no one at the office wants to deal with DNC traffic just to be at an office and I'm so anxious because I definitely work better with other people around but I also can't go anywhere else to work.

(Also Herb was annoyed I didn't want to call clients on my cell phone. Cannot emphasize enough how little I want clients to have my cell phone, but also on a normal workday it's silenced so I can concentrate, so if they call back 3 weeks later they're just gonna get my voicemail.)

[tetzoro]

going to a wild west murder mystery party tonight >:3

[supervisormeero]

Not me outlining a Syril x Dedra gothic romance AU while having no experience with writing period dialogue or historical fiction

[orchidsangel]

on a plane reading stephen king with my squishmallow next to me

[tebarambles]

Here we go again.

[a-very-sparkly-nerd]

Oh yay it's time for Janaya wedding speculation angst. I will be dumbing this down for myself because I need to see it in baby-speak to process.

GoT: All the wedding attendees die. TDP: Everyone's gonna die. (if Gren dies, then so help me-)

GoT: Massacre orchestrated by a relative of the monarch for breaking a marriage pact. TDP: Janaya broke old laws, and we know Karim, Pharos, and Miyana are planning on rallying the Sunfire elves against her.

GoT: During the War of the Five Kings TDP: We know there's unrest in the Pentarchy (FIVE KINGdoms) because Viren sent Dark Magic assassins after the other rulers

GoT: The mother of the groom threatens to kill a traitor's wife and offers herself as a hostage to save her child. TDP: Gren or Corvus, I believe, might act as the mother in this scenario, threatening to kill Miyana in order to protect Amaya and giving himself up. Most likely Gren, given his and Amaya's closeness. (Please, strawberry bby, you've already been in a dungeon...)

GoT: Bride and groom die, wife of traitor is killed by the mother, and then the mother dies. TDP: Everyone freaking dies. Again. (Amaya and Janai, Miyana, Gren (probably), respectively)

GoT: The king's army gets destroyed. TDP: The Sunfire elves will be led to destruction by Karim (just like he thought Janai would do, because karma and irony are just wonderful like that)

GoT: The person who specifically kills the groom is given a relatively high status in reward. TDP: Pharos will probably kill Amaya, given that Karim would kill Janai. Then he'll become an advisor or confidant or something similar to Karim when he takes the throne. (Side note, he'll probably die the same way he killed Amaya, given that it's what happens in GoT)

KARIM, I'M COMING FOR YOU. COUNT YOUR DAYS.

(BTW, I've never watched/read GoT, so if anything is inaccurate, please don't come for me; go after for Google)

[anxiously-going]

I have taken one (1) benadryl and thus will be unreachable for the next 36-72 hours, good luck, lads

[corpsekiller]

dressing in my style at my workplace is so russian roulette..either customers are really sweet or they treat me like i just crawled out of the sewer and spat into their food

[yikes077]

On Monday (September the 9th), my parents are sending me off to a “short term residential mental Heath facility” in Vermont with no phone. Unfortunately, this means I won’t be here to plague everyone’s dashes with my random thoughts, useless movie reviews, and fan art I like.

I’m sorry for all of your losses, but I can’t wait to be back on my bullshit (but ideally less mentally ill) in 90 days.

[hellodarjeeling]

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I’m having LASIK done tomorrow and it’s a bittersweet occasion. I’m excited to have better-than-perfect vision and wake up being able to see, to see my feet in the shower! But there’s also a sense of mourning, bidding goodbye to a part of my face that I’ve had for the past twenty-something years

As a kid I would hate how my glasses got in the way of my Halloween costumes, how blurry everything became at water parks and at the beach. On the flip side there’s something very satisfying about taking your glasses off at the end of the day and being done seeing stuff. I think anyone who’s worn glasses would agree

I wish there was some way of capturing what I see with my natural vision, if only to remember what it was like before. This has been my existence for all of my life and weirdly, I’ll miss it; change is hard, change is good; change is inevitable

I’m going to have to get used to my face without glasses. I’ll have to learn to recognize the face in the mirror

[purgaytorysupremacy]

I would like everyone to know that I will be celebrating November 5th by presenting the draft outline of this paper to my graduate-level "uses and abuses of history" philosophy class

[feralsneeze]

My fwb has been going through some shit lately so we haven’t been able to engage in S&H (Sneezy and Horny) activities in a while, which is fine! I just want them to be good, ofc, so I don’t mind and just want to be supportive! But for the first time in months I got that “let’s do this” message and I’m basically that gif of SpongeBob from the first movie where he’s screaming YES! YEAHHHHH!!!!!