#AND finding a new one is overwhelming
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thelightofthingshopedfor · 2 years ago
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a coworker recently complimented me by saying I’m calm under pressure, which
a) thanks, but also b) lol. lmao, even
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inkwingart · 2 years ago
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bluehibiscusgarden · 5 days ago
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Love when people write Toji like they're in dire need of a dick me down but I love it even more when they write him all fluffy and soft. Give him the domestic life he was so ready to settle for. Give him the chance to be an actual father to Megumi and Tsumiki and not leave the fragmented hopes that died with mamaguro. Give him a path away from bloodshed after time and time again of having to wash his hands, his weapons, clothes, of crimson red--whether his, anothers, or both.
Let him find a new love, that while it might not be mamaguro, but helps mend the pieces he lets chip away, too tired to do it himself, he doesn't know how, he thinks he's a lost cause. That there's no point. but you can prove him wrong. It doesn't even need to be love, just someone who helps him see he doesn't have to be alone.
I love a soft Toji, where his inner child gets the care he deserved, and where he gets to truly live his life and not just survive or wake up for the next morning.
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enden-k · 10 months ago
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clearing my old desk for my new one makes me realize 1) minimalism is my greatest enemy 2) i love cute stuff 3) i might like al-haitham genshinimpact a little bit
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carnivalls · 1 month ago
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good morning. thinking again of juve and her dog
#oreste garifalle save me. save me oreste garifalle (he cannot even save himself)#i just.. man its so over. by the time they encounter each other juve is the worst shes ever been & oreste doesnt yet know he could be better#so. sure. juve needs to gather the pieces of herself back up and double down on her coping mechanisms but not thinking at all about whats#happened to her/how she was affected by it and by instead fixating on someone elses problems. she needs to offer drive and direction to#another in order to feel more in control of herself#and luckily for her unluckily for himself. by the time she finds him. oreste is only Just stumbling out of a gothic pseudoincest nightmare#in which all of his own wants and desires have been very deliberately placed on a shelf higher than he can reach and hes all too eager#to accidentally replicate previous dynamics (dog) with someone new#so. tldr. juve needs to control/'fix' someone and oreste as of yet only knows how to be controlled/molded in anothers image#which would already be so bad except to top it off. juve is steadily fucking losing it. due to the repression crimes#and even as she tries to distance herself from the emotional aftermath of what she went through. it bleeds into the way she treats oreste#instead. like.#her base level dehumanization of him would already be bad but. as is. in the way it finds her.#juve completely lacks the finesse or grace or awareness to approach it as she normally would#so she instead traps them both in this horrible codependent situation where her 'fixing' oreste mostly involves her going oh! i know!#your problem is that youre not in touch with your anger right? you should be angry about what those guys did to you but youre not rigjt??#so!! easy fix!! lets just get you angry!!!#<- girl who is not entirely wrong but has also never processed any of her own anger a day in her life and Will be projecting#<- girl who will treat you both as a metaphor/extension of herself but Also as a recreation of the previous dynamic she was in with an#excessively angry individual#<- girl who decides the best way to put you in touch with your anger again is by. repeatedly triggering you until you protest#essentially bending your finger back and waiting to see which will come first. you letting it break or begging her to stop#and oreste is always too deeply traumatized and overwhelmed to do anything but let it break. so.#notnow#juve mizani#oreste garifalle#one of my favorite scenes i have planned for them is her making oreste relay what his abuser (kai) looked like. in detail.#as a skinshifter herself.#you see where this is going.#you should send me asks about them btw. if you want. also if you dont
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bookwyrminspiration · 11 months ago
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while the sentiment behind phrases like “find something that works for you” and “find a/talk to a doctor/professional/etc. you trust” are good, they’re thrown in so quickly in so many things and it’s like…that takes so much time. I’ve spent the past seven years trying to figure out a routine that makes it so I can consistently floss after I got retainers. just for flossing. and i only started to get something that kinda works a couple months ago. not to mention the million other things I’m trying to balance and find what works at the same time
i don’t really have a point, just. finding what works and reliable people takes a lot of time. so if you see that as part of advice like a side note (not saying it’s done intentionally) and it feels like a huge mountain. that’s because it is. it’s so difficult sometimes. you’re not alone in that
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magnusedom · 3 months ago
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human resources guy just called me into his office and i was like ok finally i'm leaving this place. turns out they gave me a new position and a higher salary y'all
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suffercerebral · 6 months ago
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me having gone to bed at 6 am every day for the past week and generally spiraling mentally while rotting in bed waking up this morning: a 4 mile hike in the heat is a really good idea right now, and while we're at it let's start like 3 art projects
#maybe my mom was onto something all these years telling me i'm bipolar#no i don't think i am but i do technically have a bpd diagnosis so like. mood swings up the fucking wazoo are not new#but i am not one to be like 'exercise will fix me'#i've also just come to terms recently with the fact that i didn't kill myself already so might as well start thinking of the long term#so not being in constant pain when im older is something im actually thinking of now#so like. gotta move more which i was doing during this semester! walking like 3 miles a day which didn't help brain but#it's gotta be good for you anyway even if i don't get the endorphins everyone says you get when working out#that's neverrrr been me bc also chronic illness w exercise intolerance#so it's like. wah i have a desire to move my body more and know it's beneficial#but chronic illness + mental illness + trying not to think about exercise in terms of weight loss bc i'm trying not to make that the goal#although certainly wouldn't be mad if that was the result but if i prioritize it over just overall health it's gonna make me obsessive#i'm saying a lot of words. i have no one to really talk to so i once again come to tumblr as a public diary#ANYWAY. trying to find balance with wanting to exercise for overall well-being but dealing with other factors like chronic illness#which has actually been under the most control it's been in years i barely even consider myself (physicslly) disabled these days#and also balancing the fact that while my disordered eating has never recovered and i still have extremely bad relationship with myself#im in a relatively better place with that. i'm not starving myself and im not going through binge/purge cycles#but my relationship with food and eating is still very much unhealthy#and i don't think that will ever really change bc it's so ingrained in the everything about me#i don't really know what i'm talking ahout anymore or what prompted this#i can't simply just say 'i'm gonna go for a hike today' and be normal about. always gotta psycho analyze myself#im in a very weird stage in my life where i feel like i have control over nothing and i barely even exist in my own body#im just like a cacophony of voices trapped inside a meat suit but im not in the drivers seat im stuffed in the trunk and tied up#and the guy driving is an old blind mind who should have lost his license his ass is NOT road safe!#so it's like i have all these ideas and desires and feelings and ahh!! but hey i'm locked up here let me out please#and also the state of the world. so bleak and hopeless and paralyzing that i've just kind of shut my feelings off so i'm rapidly switching#between numbness and overwhelming agony#what the fuck am i talking about
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bootyful-seventeen · 8 months ago
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I am heavily contemplating on buying myself a dvd player soon and buying all the DVDs for a ton of movies and tv shows I grew up watching cuz I miss the magic of dvds
#hear me out on this one okay. but the Barbie movies were magic on dvd back in the day#and I do wanna see if stores are still selling the old strawberry shortcake dvds before I go online for those#I wanna snort that nostalgia so bad#and of course I’ll need to get the dcau on dvd#like all of it cuz I’m so bored with the dccu since we don’t get as much new stuff#it’s always Batman or superman and love them but I’m kinda bored from always seeing a new bman or sups movie#Wonder Woman I wouldn’t mind a new actor for her but I know she’s not gonna be a muscle mommy which I’ll be sad about#give me a Wonder Woman that is built like rhea ripely god damnit#the flash is eh cuz I found out this whole time I’ve been watching the Wally west flash#but yeah Wally is who I want and then there’s the green lantern like dude is so cool iams all we have is the 1 from 2011 I think#sure I could watch some of the tv series they have but I have too many shows on my watch list it’s overwhelming at times so I skip over lots#tho I will have to pray like crazy cuz some of the things I know I want are probably gonna be expensive as fuck even as second hand#saw a class of the titans season 1 dvd going for $81 cad 💀💀💀#the world is not kind to those who don’t love the digital age#I prefers my dvds cuz I own it and no one can take it away from me unless they physically steal it#omg I’m turning into my grandma cuz she still had the vhs player with some tapes too#just wish she never donated the tapes for swan princess 1-3 and Anastasia and ferngully and basically all my faves that she owned#like Ngl a part of me wants to hit up value village just to see if maybe they’re still there or if I’ll find other copies of the same things#cuz a perk about cities with older people is that you get so much older tech and other items it’s insane
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lizardkingeliot · 5 months ago
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the part of old school fandom days i miss the most on here is getting lots of really amazing anons but i've had anon off for years after a couple bad experiences of people being mean and now that i'm super active in iwtv fandom the urge to turn it back on is so strong but... i don't think i can deal with people being mean to me right now lol
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tonystarkfucksaround · 2 years ago
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So... something that I noticed: there’s a direct cut between these two scenes, and Erik’s hand is not where it actually landed on the second shot.
And it just striked me how close he actually was to cupping Charles’ face in that moment, or stroking his cheek, you can see it--
I don’t know if it was a deliberate decision to make Erik move his hand away so as not to make the gesture too intimate, but you know what? Either way it makes it even better. It means that Erik didn’t just hold Charles still, he grasped at him, either stroking his chest or just trying to clutch at him tighter, making sure that he was still there, still alive, and that maybe, just maybe, he didn’t quite dare to touch Charles’ face.
This heartbreaking scene just became a tad more heartbreaking for me, wow.
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secretscones · 4 days ago
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Ask Game: List 5 things that make you happy, then put this in the askbox for the last 10 people who liked or reblogged something from you! get to know your mutuals and followers :)
Hm, there are a few things here and there i really enjoy indeed i think, so here we go.
🎶Music
🎮Gaming
🌧Rain
🍂Fall/Winter
🧁Cooking/Baking
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vigilantejustice · 7 months ago
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need to dust + declutter my room in a major way but have not been able to come up with even a crumb of motivation to do little else but bed rot :(
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bmpmp3 · 9 months ago
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man in his mid 20s who says tee hee
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jasmancer · 2 months ago
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spent too much time looking at the logistics of webcomic publishing this evening and now I feel. something.
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angel---eater · 17 days ago
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weird ranting about fandom is done now lol i just care a lot abt jake as a queer character. hes mentally ill and traumatized and has brain damage and is most definitely also neurodivergent bc lets face it all HS characters are some kinda ND, and he makes terrible decisions and burries his head in the sand for months instead of talking to his own boyfriend bc intimacy is simply too new and overwhelming and hes GREAT. i wouldnt have this fucker any other way
#our t#the best thing about dirk and jakes relationship in hs1 is that a lot of their problems couldve been solved if they just bucked up#and talked to e/o#but theyre 16 and werent raised by. well. anyone. i mean jake was for a little bit but dirk had idk. seagulls. and robots. and then hal#but you see dirk being so more than willing to talk to jake like all the time but hes just left to have his messages pile up#which understandibly makes him feel like a clingy overwhelming monster when hes just..............**16** and really into#one of his best friends. and yes jake is dirks only option but you cannot ignore the fact that they *like* each other#jake likes dirk so much he made a whole new dirk that just lives in his brain#they like e/o so so so much. jake keeps calling dirk his boyfriend for pages and pages after dirk breaks up w/ him#and after being jerked around for so long by jake i dont blame him for giving up#meat!dirk's 'youll never hurt me again' in the epilogues is from a place of truth. jake DID hurt him. jake didnt have to ghost him#for that long. dirks clinginess scared jake which got them both hurt. both sides of this are extremely understandible and real#i dont think either of them did anything majorly wrong to e/o im ngl. its just being 16 and traumatized#<- reasons why i find the cannibalism dirkjake trend jarring and massively ooc#like if i want some HS cannibalism-as-metaphore for overwhelming attraction stuff my first thought is actually vrisrezi but okay
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