#AND THE DECISIONS HE'D MADE

[aetherance]

the one thing i love and also hate about kerry, is his dedication to the craft. music has always been his everything- going from the days he played in little unknown back alley clubs with the hopes to scrounge up enough eddies to get a meal in for the night, to going on a solo tour to perform in front of millions in flashy clothes, cars, and venues.

and from getting a throat augmentation to enhance his voice (since apparently he couldn't hold a tune to save his life) (i have something to say about this too, but i digress), to signing corporate contracts at the risk of being labeled as a sellout in order to further his career and spread his noise- man has been slumming it from the beginning in order to be heard.

being called a sellout always stung, for kerry. being accused of going off on his own solely for money and fame was a shot to the gut because ker's dedication to his music was all he had, especially after the fall of samurai. he even signed away all the writing credits to johnny, meaning kerry rarely if ever saw a single cent for any samurai songs being used or performed. it helped and it hurt kerry when he finally washed his hands of samurai in the later years after finally stopping this on-again off-again relationship with the band.

years of composing and writing many of the songs samurai performed, there presented a theme of corpo-oppression that he'd seen and experienced and wanted to push a message to the masses any way he could. kerry wanted to be heard, and that's what he ever really cared about. and yes, there's plenty to say about how this clashed with johnny's motivations and use for the band that eventually led larger issues between them and the images they held later in life, but it's not ABOUT johnny.

except, silverhand still had a large part in how things turned out- whether it be for the worst, or the best with kerry. johnny was also the biggest reason kerry had to work triple time trying to pull himself from the dark pit that was samurai and silverhand.

"Free to sing until you're blue in the face, nobody hearin' a thing? It's just another kind of cage."

kerry fears irrelevancy. kerry has worked hard for decades to try and pull himself out of the shadows of samurai and of silverhand in order to be known as his own person with his own music and message. he constantly fears of being shoved into a box in order to be palatable for the public, and that he'd only be "another cog in the corpo machine". he deserves the best, he thinks- he deserves to be the best.

in these recent years, he's finally been able to stand on his own two legs with music that lasts. with music that's heard. all this because of the hard decisions and sacrifices he'd made that seemingly went against his code as a rockerboy.

this is why it didn't surprise me at all in the ending where v leaves NC, and kerry doesn't go with them. with everything kerry's built through the years, the legacy he's continued to nurse through his time in the spotlight, there's no way he could afford to leave. mainstream consumerism means staying relevant, because the second you're gone, people forget about you- and there's no coming back from it.

"i've finally got this city by the throat- and i don't intend to let it go".

yes, of course he loved v- but he loves his music more. it may go to say that kerry is inherently selfish. you wouldn't be wrong.

but he's worked so hard over the decades in order to create something that could outlive KERRY EURODYNE. not samurai, and sure as hell not johnny silverhand.

[gammija]

a nuance that gets a bit lost in martin 'murder' blackwood is that while he's definitely not against a good killing, it's more of a fun couple's activity rather than true heartfelt passion, you know?

i mean, twice he's had the opportunity to have Jonah get shanked, and he foils them, even though he wants the guy dead. Like, murder is always an option, but he usually tries other, less direct methods first - in fact id say that his trying to be clever and moral still leading up to the end of the world is exactly what drives him to say, ok well fuck it then, let's get our murder on

[nights-at-crystarium]

The fun thing about ViviEmet: they aren't there fully for each other. Emet's 100% selfish in pursuit of Azem, tolerating this thing meanwhile, Vivi's 50% actually selfless and empathic for Emet, 50% selfish in pursuit of his coveted freedom. In this essay I will-

[thesulkycroissant]

I love to give Bruce crap as much as the next person, but at least he's trying. Also Dickie's face in that last panel 🥹

[tubbytarchia]

So I think my perception of Grian's reasoning for enabling the horrible Jimmy ecosystem and also my perception of his character as a whole has been turned on its head completely and I feel really bad for him after watching Kingdom of Valor and it's like bad roleplay but it's. it's done things to me and I've never ever felt this much for Grian not even in my sadboy Grian Desert Duo phase. I don't know what to do about this

SA word under cut

Episodes 6 and 10 (like the entirety of it) for context. :( . :(. But like major warning if you watch those episodes, especially 10, because um they didn't use any disclaimers

[the-way-astray]

what if i told you

i wish keefe had actually branded sophie

[transmasc-rose]

I'm all for killing characters when the plot demands it. And like. They could have killed Desmond in a satisfying way if they had tried to. If they'd done more lead up to the ending, instead of how rushed it felt. If they'd like. Put in effort.

They didn't though.

So an easy way to make Desmond survive imo is for his dad to take his place.

1. He shares all of Desmond's notable ancestors except Altaïr.

2. He continually goes "no Desmond I'm not getting in the Animus :/ shut up and get back in" and having him decide, at the end, to take the fall himself would be. Idk mildly satisfying.

3. This would probably result in Mentor Desmond. I don't even think that's a good idea, but the game world would because of his "decades of experience condensed into a few weeks/months".

[ekat-fandom-blog]

Ghost forms

I have this theory that a ghost's form (before they can change it) after they die depends on how they saw themselves before they died and halfa's are stuck with that form until after they die a second time. (Halfa clones were never truly alive so they take the form of their parent until they destabilize/melt)

Going with this theory, Vlad saw himself as a monster (at least physically) and the two biggest monsters he associated with himself were demons (his hair) and vampires (everything else). Dani never got a chance to live or die, so she took as much of Danny's form as she could. Danny saw himself as the reverse of who he wanted to be (hence the color swap).

Where am I going with this? Well a lot of people love halfa Jason (and halfa other dc characters to a lesser extent.) Instead of color swapping Jason, what if his ghost form was just him as Bruce's son? The same kid that Batman found trying to steal the batmobile's tires. The kid that loved going to school and thought being Robin gave him magic. Not a color swapped Robin or even being the age he died at, but an 11 or 12 year old ghost of Jason Todd.

[the-prima-vista]

I can't get over people going on about Solas' redemption ending as though it's the best outcome, like... he only agrees to "atone" because he's LOST. If he had won that fight, he would have gone ahead with exactly what he wanted. At no point has he ever considered what he could actually do to help all the people he's wronged, he just wants to fix his own mistake (the Veil).

And to say that his is the best redemption in Dragon Age? When Blackwall is right there? Blackwall gets less content and has a much better redemption arc than Solas could ever dream of. Blackwall makes the decision himself to accept the consequences of what he did, even if those consequences mean death, and he's angry with an Inquisitor who takes those consequences from him. But if he is allowed to live? He then spends the rest of his life making up for his actions. Solas doesn't even consider other options until Rook's holding a dagger to his throat.

[saturnniidae]

"I should've seen the signs" I feel like Stoick was basically reliving the way he lost Valka.

To him, after a lifetime of wanting nothing but to kill a dragon, Hiccup's suddenly and inexplicably changed his mind. To him, Hiccup saying he can't kill them is just like when Valka refused to and tried convincing others as well, then as a result was 'killed' by one herself.

To him, way Hiccup tossed his weapon and shield to the side then approached Hookfang while speaking about how dragons aren't what people think they are probably bares an uncomfortable resemblance to the way Valka put down her weapon and stared a dragon in the eyes and as a result was taken.

To him, attempting to do anything but preemptively defend yourself against a dragon will only end in tragedy, so he has to do anything he can to stop Hiccup before it's too late.

(And just like with Valka, he unintentionally escalated the situation by trying to protect Hiccup but only agitated the dragon, causing it to panic and react, inadvertently putting someone he loves in danger. again)

Stoick of course, wasn't acting rationally, but it makes sense when you think about how traumatizing Valka's 'death' must've been for him (and how much Hiccup reminss him of her); he watched her get taken, presumably killed, and couldn't do anything about it.

[worstloki]

Loki probably had to deal with Frigga's 'subtle' attempts to get him to apologise and reintegrate into the family through the entire jail time :/

[bu-blegh-ost]

Hey, hi.

Sooo, I've been rewatching Riptide as you do right? And so I finally got to the episode in which Chip makes his deal with Niklaus and after refreshing my memory on that I do believe that we are entering the point in which Chip has to fullfill his end of the bargain and I'm so fucking worried actually. So first things first let's look at what Mr. Hendrix actually requested from Chip.

So in exchange for returning lost years back to Ollie Chip Has to:

-First: Make the right decision in the hole in the sea.

Arlin is supposedly still trapped below and in great pain. Niklaus for some reason NEEDS Arlin to be kept alive and he wants Chip to keep him alive no matter the consequences which worries me so fucking much. Cause first I was just worried that they are gonna go to the Black sea and find out that there is no way to save Arlin, that he'll die and this will break Chip beyond repair, but now what I'm dreading is that Arlin can't be saved in a way that matters. That Chip will have to make a decision between killing Arlin to let him rest or keep him alive and let him suffer, or even doom the whole world for the sake of preserving his painful existance and that...shit guys, just saying, we're in Black Sea now so brace your fucking selves, we're gonna C R Y. AND THE THING IS if Arlin dies SO DOES CHIP, so he really fucking Has to survive. Cause Chip promised Nik that Arlin survives so even mercy killing Arlin will be breaking a deal and Chip will turn into goop and that's just so damn bad jejdjdjsi

- Second: Supposedly there is an Orb at the hole and he can't touch it. I don't like the way he said it. Nik said sth like "not YOU at least". So what worries me is that he wants someone else to touch it and sth nad will happen because of it, but who then? Gill? Jay? I mean if they find a room with a suspicious object we can kinda count on Gill to touch it immediately, so I'm hoping that Chip doesn't get the chance to interact with it, even if he doesn't remember that he wasn't supposed to. Or maybe sth would happen if Chip touched it? Sth that Nik doesn't want to happen? Either way Chip can't do that now cause if he does he breaks the deal and fucking dies probably, so well shit.

- Third: When the time comes and Nik requests his favor from Gillion, Chip can't interfere. Whatever Nik will have Gill do, Chip can't stop it. He cannot and that of all things I fear will be the hardest thing to do. See, Nik never expected Chip to even come to him. But he was clearly glad that he can use him to shift things in his favor. I feel like whatever dark force turned Sakura into the Black Sea is connected to Alrin's life force and Nik wants the Black Sea to stay. It is messing with the world and unleashing twisted magic into it and I feel like he needs it to stay that way until Gill's time to fulfill his prophecy comes. And whatever Nik wants Gill to do Has a potential to be catastrophic.

Black Sea is definitely not the last chapter, but it's gonna be full of anguish and sorrow. Buckle the fuck up lads, we're in for a ride

[headcanonsandmore]

M*ffat's coming back to write Doctor Who episodes, apparently.

[slimeandsadness]

It's funny that there was chatter about Becoming YouTube and Benjamin Cook yesterday. I almost mentioned in the tags that Ben Cook is also relatively well known in the Doctor Who fandom (mainly for his work in Doctor Who Magazine and being RTD's correspondent in the book The Writer's Tale), then in The War Games in Colour (released today) he's credited as the editor.

[bookshelf-in-progress]

Maybe the truth at the heart of Shadowstruck is the importance of family. Because the most compelling stories in this universe are about what happens when you tell parents that some of their children have no right to their love, care, and protection. It destroys what should be the strongest and most natural bonds of love, and that simple horrible thing leads to all the complicated problems in their oppressive society.

[cuteniarose]

The consequences of my poor financial decisions are here!!