#AND IM TIRED OF PRETENDING THAT I DONT OK .

[spacedlexi]

"sounds nice... having a partner"

[triglycercule]

killer being like "yeah i know every single little thing about horror and dust" (because he watches them as a part time hobby (freak) (find something better to do)) and then he acts surprised when they do something that he wouldnt expect them to do in his little predetermined absolutely perfect concept of them

like what do you MEAN horror licks spoons clean when he's using them so he doesn't have to get a completely different one for the main course and the dessert. what do you MEAN dust has a lisp even though he speaks fluently and uses even more complex words than killer himself. horror knows how to sew and he often patches up their things without either of them noticing?? dust always wears oversized and clothes that cover him up just because he finds it comfy?? what??? out ra geous???? these guys have small little quirks to them that killer doesn't already know about???? killer immediately wants to know more. so he can expand his internal profile of them of course. not for any other more endearing and sweet reason. not at all,,,,,,,, (:3)

[skepsys]

they put some shit in that new space marine game that had me like "ok fine i'll start actually reading about 40k lore after yrs of putting it off" and now im sitting here making ocs. as usual

[rattkachuk]

some of u know this already (and would probably encourage me NOT to post this at all), but one of my deepest desires is to see matthew with a slutty lil stache someday

[aratakatism]

i cjant be the only one that likes nearlyall ships containing their favorite chafcser when they get into a media right ?? Pls

[snekdood]

make your mean spirited jokes about men all you want but byeeeeeeeeee

[animentality]

i support bisexual rights as a bisexual, but i hate y'all insisting every straight ship is technically bisexual because it technically "could be."

if the creator hasn't said either character is bisexual, you have to call a chicken a chicken.

[orion-archives]

I'm tired. Of all of this.

Every fucking day feels like the same, yet it gets heavier. Things get worse, nothing gets better and the few things that gave me security, happiness, where I thought I could escape and be free for some moments, are getting corrupted, forgotten, stained forever, never to be the same refuge they once were.

I'm tired of living sometimes. Of existing on this world.

I know how dying feels; it's calming, the darkness eats you and you feel without worries for the first time in your existance. You know it and that frees you.

But I don't want to die. I'm a coward. I want to continue living on this earth just because I think I can do something in the future, something that will fix everything, something that will give a purporse to everything I've done and lived through.

But we all know that is just a lie to make us feel better, don't we?

Because, at the end of all, do we really matter? What can assure us that?

I'm tired. Too tired.

I want to go somewhere else, but there is nowhere to escape. I want to say that I want to go home, go to the park, go to a forest and be happy. But this is something that will haunt me, haunt me forever and everywhere until the end.

Because you can't escape yourself.

I'm tired...

[mukuberry]

I still think its kinda funny how Es told Shidou they think he killed braindead patients and Shidou was like "that's not really right but ok" and everyone was like "🙂 oh so he did kill braindead people ok 🙂" meanwhile he has been explicitly compared to atleast 2 child serial killers in folklore and almost no one has talks about it

[todayisafridaynight]

ik i just beat infinite wealth but i also just remembered aoki got new lines and i need to hear his eng dub delivery NOW

[luvxiem]

hi i hope ur all doing well ٩(｡•́‿•̀｡)۶

lil life update below cut:

so hi! i turned 22 ^_^ it doesnt feel any different LOL i dont drink or go clubbing or anything... my license is still vertical too cuz it hasnt expired yet (╥_╥)

currently on midterms week and i have my final portfolio review coming up before i graduate which i'm really nervous for.... but the prof i have my review with is cool i had him before and i like him........ and the only studio class im taking this term im making a book which im excited for i think its coming along well and im super excited to see how it will look printed and bound (๑>◡<๑)

im also super excited for anime expo WOOHOOOOO im going w my boyfriend, my bestie and her boyfriend we all got 4 day passes and im gonna go fiend AA like i always do (♡°▽°♡) maobabie im coming for you.

i also started birth control for my acne but ngl i dont think its working too well (눈_눈) it did get rid of a lot of redness but i still get frequent pimples which sucks I WILL SAY THO it did lighten my period noticeably which im not gonna complain abt LOL i didnt get cramps either which is so slay. ignoring my acne tho another like beauty thing is that i perfected my lash routine to make my lashes stay up legit ALLLLL day... the trick is to curl them like normal but make sure to take ur time curling them so its a nice C curl, then use mascara (i use the etude house curl fix mascara) and THEN after mascara u use a heated curler. boom. the lashes stay up ALLLLLL day i was genuinely so impressed and im so happy how well it works teehee

i also finally got new purses which im so happy abt one is a pink bag from stand oil and the other is this cunty black silver bag i also got on musinsa but im so happy cuz theyre both shoulder bags and i only have 1 shoulder bag LOL everything else is a crossbody which i dont hate but the shoulder bags feel more mature which i appreciate

last thing but i kinda miss writing LOL the thing is idk what i would write for.... im not rlly in any fandoms rn.. i have 100% fallen out of vtubers and the only game im still playing these days is animal crossing new leaf (i found my 2ds lol) and paper mario ttyd..... i still like bhna a lot but idk if i wanna write for them :/ the only char i rlly like is shouto anyways hes been my crush since i was in highschool lol

[bombshelllblonde]

just in case anyone was wondering

i am an outlaw

thank u for ur time and the end <3

[whenfatecollides]

maybe I’m being overly pessimistic, but I feel like I have to put down these thoughts, and just let them be.

I feel like dcc is making a very clear choice of what kind of people they want to attract and maintain to support dc, from the content they’ve shifted to on their notes, to now this new app where you pay a subscription fee to “chat” (because you don’t even actually chat with them since they apparently see all fans messages like a group chat??) privately with the members... yes capitalism and what not, but there’s a lot of other options dcc could go for (*cough* reprinting albums, hell even investing on an app like superstar sm but for dc only, even if it’s a big investment at first would totally pay itself off and profit given the time), than this type of thing that does nothing but feed even more delusional fans.

also while it’s cool dcc wants to collaborate with smaller companies to also help them grow (even tho a lot of stuff has been shady as fuck but whatever), they kinda need to actually look at what the big companies do right and idk try to copy the things they do right? how is it possible that there’s been no brand deals, or mc spots, or even acting opportunities for some of them? I’m not saying these opportunities are easy to come by, but at this point they’re a six year old group, and it doesn’t feel like any of them have enough experience to have a career outside of it? like what’s going to happen to them when inadvertently they can’t pull comebacks or go on tours as often and tirelessly as they do now? like yeah it’s good to live in the moment but dcc really needs to start working towards their future too.

and honestly since deja vu that dc have been losing their signature horror concept and I get that things can’t stay the same forever or it gets stagnate, but for a group that was so praised during nightmare era for their narrative and world building, it really sucks that we haven’t had that built properly since then. I gave the benefit of the doubt for dystopia era because it was the first since nightmare and it could just be that they needed time to adjust (music wise the concept was pretty solid for scream and boca at least but there really wasn’t much of a narrative on the mvs like nightmare era had), but apocalypse era is being even messier. from where I’m standing it feels like dcc doesn’t really care anymore about giving them interesting concepts because they know the fandom is gonna buy into it regardless. but it sucks that even on simple things like photobooks and season’s greetings, the horror concept that set them apart from other groups just isn’t present anymore. even if they kept the lighter and fun versions, the og fandom at least are still people who appreciate darker concepts so I don’t get why they’ve completely started to dismiss that.

it’s just getting tiring for me. I love their music, and I think I’ll definitely keep coming back to see what they’ve released, but everything else genuinely isn’t fun anymore. and it hasn’t been fun for a while now. I still care a lot about the girls and dc, reason why things being like this bothers me so much, but I also don’t think dcc will change anything in the future and actually do something right so

[scaredofmyocs]

I love it when i accidentally stay up on the night im supposed to be catching up on sleep it totallly doesnt make me feel horrible all week long

[seithr]

rl chatterin in tags, dont worry about it just feel like talking about recent stuff. for those who dont care look at this birdthang i won on xiv then. my silly big bird..

[star-ocean-peahen]

im so tired so tired and im bored and i need some easy reward chemical for my stupid brain but i dont know where to get it