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Love Letters & Chocolates.

Characters â Diluc x Reader
Summary â You've always had a crush on your brooding yet undeniably handsome seatmate. With a little encouragement from your best friend, you finally mustered up the courage to write him anonymous love letters paired with his favorite dark chocolates. Unfortunately for you, his curiosity has been piqued and he's determined to find out his secret admirer's identity.
Author's Notes â I tried making this romantic. Hope you guys like it! And thank you so much for 3 followers here! Also, my requests are very much open so feel free to flood it with your ideas.
Content â High School!AU + Kabedon
"Ugh, Mr. Zhongli's assignments are so difficult!" a whisper could be heard as a female student passed by, clutching her friend's arm who equally returned the same sentiment.
"I know right! At this point, we're gonna fail his class," her friend gasped out loud.
They continued chattering as their voices faded in the hallway.
"Geez, Mr. Zhongli's been giving us a tough time," Amber pouted as you walked alongside her in the crowded hallway.
"Mhm," you hummed in agreement as you both slipped past people to go eat lunch at the rooftop.
Seeing as how empty the rooftop was, your best friend Amber squealed in excitement as she sat on the floor immediately.
"Come here!" she patted the spot next to her, urging you to sit as you both unpacked your delicious lunches.
You both rambled off to different topics, from Mr. Venti's fun music lessons, to your history teacher Zhongli's ridiculously difficult assignments, and finally to your crush, Diluc Ragnvindr.
"Ugh, Amber! I told you already, he's too... brooding to even like me!" you whined out as you covered your face with your hands.
"C'mon! As the gliding champion of Teyvat Academy, I urge you to write him a love letter!" your best friend Amber smirked, radiating smugness with her nose held high.
"What does your title of gliding champion have to do with writing a letter for him?" you sweat dropped as you glanced at her.
Her face bloomed in red after being called out, "A-Ahem! Still, did it never occur to you to send him a love letter?"
Her voice was laced with curiosity, and you couldn't help but admit the truth.
"I mean, I have," your words faded as you absentmindedly stirred your food, nudging bits of food around your lunch box.
"But, he makes me so nervous! And I think he's received enough love letters from other girls to fill up a whole classroom."
Throughout your school years, your eyes always seemed to drift towards Diluc. He kept to himself and rarely spoke, yet there was something quietly captivating about him. That stillness and distance only made you more curious. And of course, he was exceptionally smart, ranking just below your classmate Albedo.
At the beginning of the semester, your homeroom teacher had coincidentally assigned you as seatmates. You got the window seat, and he sat right beside you at a separate desk. You still remembered the heat rising to your cheeks the moment your names were read out one after the other.
You also remembered elbowing Amber in the waist after she teased you with such a smug expression on her face.
Each morning, you found yourself wondering if heâd show up to school. As the heir to a wine company, he was sometimes absent at school for a few days due to taking care of some family matters. You told yourself it wasnât a big deal, but the quiet space beside you felt emptier without him.
"Why don't you add his favorite chocolates then?" Amber suggested with a thoughtful hum, a finger to her chin as she thought of possible ways to help you.
You glanced at her curiously, your brows furrowing in thought as you silently urged her to continue.
"I think I remember him eating one during our meetings back when he was still in the Favonius Club," she trailed off as you stared at her in awe.
"It might help you stand out among the other girls who'd confessed to him! But I hope he doesn't find it creepy or something."
"I forgot you were both in the same club back in middle school," you chuckled. "I'll take your advice then, Amber."
Amber encouraged you with a smile on her face, "I hope it works out for you! The gliding champion of Teyvat Academy will always be here as your support!"
By the end of the week, you had finished writing a short letter, which was just enough to say what you needed. You also slipped the dark chocolate you'd bought from the nearby convenience store into the fridge.
By the time lunch rolled around on a Monday, the air buzzed with voices and movement. Students spilled out of their respective classrooms, their conversations loud and overlapping. The scrapes of chairs and laughter created a steady, energetic hum that pulsed through the school's cafeteria.
"Oh, my! Is that a love letter, Diluc?" Lisa asked with a small smile, her green eyes shining in mischief as she twirled her pasta on a fork.
She received a grunt in reply.
Diluc hadnât planned on joining the Favonius Club for lunch, not since middle school. But his classmate Amber had insisted, dragging him along with the usual energy she never seemed to run out of. He didnât really mind.
"Who's it from?" Jean asked as she stuffed her mouth gracefully with her favorite Mushroom Pizza.
"That's nothing new," Kaeya sat beside Diluc with a smirk, his gloved hand holding a skewer waiting to be devoured.
"It's probably from Donna," Albedo mused as nodded.
"But it had his favorite chocolates with it! There's no way she knew that unless she's stalking you," Amber, who was uncharacteristically quiet, finally spoke up.
Dilucâs red eyes lingered on the box of dark chocolates, then shifted to the letter. It was plain yet pretty, sealed with a teddy bear sticker. He knew it was clearly handmade with care.
However, it felt different. Not unfamiliar, but it was comforting. It was like the presence of someone who had always lingered just beside him, unnoticed until now.
His lips threatened to curve upward, but he caught the smile before it could fully form.
Amber only widened her eyes at his reaction, immediately whipping out her phone to secretly update you.
You let out a muffled scream into your pillow, legs kicking the air as your heart practically burst with flustered excitement.
A couple of hours ago, Amber had texted you your crushâs reaction to the anonymous love letter and the small box of dark chocolates youâd nervously slipped into his locker that morning.
You still haven't replied to her, only returning back to her message to re-read what she sent you. How could you? You were too busy spiraling.
Her messages had practically seared themselves into your brain.
teyvat gliding champion: HES SKILIGNGFJDHFHSHFHHWD teyvat gliding champion: SMILING* OMG
You groaned again and rolled onto your back, staring blankly at your ceiling full of glow-in-the-dark stickers as if it might offer you some form of emotional support.
"Why did I even do that? What was I thinking?"
You pressed both hands over your face. It was your first time ever writing a love letter. Your hands had shaken the entire time. You were glad you steeled yourself of your nerves and at least made your penmanship neat.
And the way you signed it off with a "Yours quietly"? What did that even mean? Were you trying to be poetic? Mysterious? Stupid?
You screamed into your pillow again. "Yours quietly" made you sound like some lovesick ghost haunting the back row of the classroom.
"Oh, my Archons! ( ááŁá )" you whimpered, kicking your legs harder.
"He's going to think I'm weird. Or a coward. Or both."
And yet the part Amber texted, the part where he smiled when he saw the letter, kept replaying in your mind like a scene from a dream you didnât want to wake up from.
He smiled. Because of you.
Even if he didnât know it yet.
"Big sis, stop screaming!" your little brother shouted from across the hall, voice muffled but clearly irritated.
You grabbed your pillow and screamed into it again anyway.
Dear Diluc, Itâs strange how two years can pass by so quickly, and yet some feelings only grow stronger with time. I donât know when I first started noticing you. Maybe it was the quiet way you carry yourself, or the way the sunlight always seems to catch in your hair when youâre walking down the hallway (Ë¶Ë á” Ë˶ ) Weâve shared the same classroom, the same air, and for the most part, silence. But even in that silence, youâve always made your presence known. I never had the courage to speak up, so Iâm writing instead! This letter probably wonât change anything. But even if it ends here, I wanted you to know; youâve been in my thoughts far more than youâll ever realize. Yours quietly, à«ź ˶ᔠᔠá”˶ á
Red eyes lingered on the letter held delicately between his fingers. The paper was light, almost flimsy, and the cute sticker decorating the envelope stood out starkly against the otherwise rigid world he lived in.
It was a strange contrast. Out of place, yet not unwelcome.
The letter had arrived early in the morning, tucked neatly inside his locker along with a box of his favorite dark chocolates. It had no name. Just a simple envelope previously sealed with a sticker of a chubby bear holding a heart.
He didnât open it right away. Not even when his former clubmates insisted he read it out loud to them.
It wasn't out of fear or anything, but something about it made him pause. Maybe it was the sincerity in the neat penmanship, the way it was carefully folded, or the fact that for once⊠it wasnât loud or demanding. It asked nothing of him.
And that was rare.
Now long past midnight, his room was dim and quiet. His phoenix lamp flickered, casting dancing shadows on the high walls. His textbooks lay open, ink smudging beneath his palm as he tried, yet failed, to finish his notes.
His gaze kept drifting back to the opened letter. He kept wondering who had sent it.
It couldnât be Donna. That was impossible. She was far too forward to do something like this. Besides, sheâd made her feelings obvious through the countless letters she had given him in person.
This felt different. The other girls heâd received letters from had always been upfront, brazen even. They wanted him to notice. To see them.
But this? This felt like someone who didnât need to be seen, just heard.
His thumb ran along the edge of the paper. There was something comforting about not knowing. About letting his mind wander, even just for a moment. He felt his lips twitch upward in a faint, almost unnoticeable smile.
It felt near, which was the strangest part. It was like someone who had always quietly lingered at the edges of his school days, waiting patiently and saying nothing.
A knock at the door snapped him out of his thoughts. This caused him to straighten immediately, slipping the letter beneath a stack of books with ease.
"Come in," he called, his voice returning to its usual calm cadence.
The door creaked open as the head maid Adelinde entered with her usual precision, carrying a silver tray with a single glass of chilled grape juice.
"Your evening drink, Master Diluc," she said, placing it gently by his side.
He nodded in thanks, "Appreciated."
After she left, he exhaled. The room returned to silence. With the letter now hidden once more, he reached for his glass, but his thoughts didnât return to his notes.
Especially not tonight.
They stayed with the letter and its mystery, as well as the person who sent it, whoever they were.
Week after week, Diluc found a box of dark chocolates and letters tucked into the corner of his locker. Most were easy to sort through. They contained grand declarations from bold admirers, dripping with perfume or sealed with glittery hearts. He easily skimmed past those.
But there was always one he lingered on.
It was always sealed with a cute teddy bear sticker. He found it odd yet endearing, for it was different from the others. It didnât scream for attention, but it drew his eyes all the same.
Over time, he began to look forward to it. And it was the only one he ever read.
In secret, at the quiet corner of the library, he would unfold the letter with a strange tenderness, his heart already softening before heâd read a single word.
The contents were simple yet sincere. It was different from the flashy confessions he usually received. Some days, the mystery writer would ramble about how her lunch had turned out.
I tried to grill some ribs this morning but burnt the first batch. Still brought it to school though. Iâll get it right eventually! (ïœĄâąÌïžżâąÌïœĄ).
Other times, she'd recount the smallest moments in her day.
There was a black cat that followed me to school yesterday. It was so adorable! It had a white pom-pom on its red collar. I think it wanted my rice bun. I named it Lord Meowth!
There were tiny musings about music she liked, complaints about the difficult history test, observations about the weather, and confessions so subtly worded that he had to read them twice. Sometimes three times.
I think I like Mondays now. Weird, right? Itâs probably because I see you more (,,>ïč<,,)
Despite the anonymity, each letter spilled a little more of her world. Of her. They werenât love letters in the usual sense, but there was love in them; especially in the way she shared her thoughts, her musings, as though she trusted him with her unfiltered self.
Diluc found himself smiling more often after reading them.
They wormed their way into his heart before he even realized it. It wasnât just curiosity anymore. No, it was something warmer, something that tugged at his thoughts throughout the day.
And now, he had to know who this person was.
Standing from his seat in the library, Diluc made his way back to the classroom, the love letter held delicately in his hand. His tall figure naturally stood out in the crowd, drawing shy glances from girls who whispered behind their notebooks or nudged their friends.
Sliding the classroom door open, he stepped inside. There were still three minutes before Ms. Furina would arrive, just enough time to settle back in.
His mind lingered on the thought that the mystery person who sent him those heartfelt letters are in the same classroom as his.
He placed the letter carefully on his desk, almost like it deserved its own space. As he pulled out his chair and sat down, his eyes flicked to his seatmate.
She looked... flustered.
As his red eyes darted to her desk, he noticed her fiddling nervously with the cap of her pen. Her cheeks were also tinged with a warmth that didnât quite match the room temperature.
Diluc blinked, curiosity quietly blooming beneath his composed expression. Had she always looked this jumpy? Or was it just today?
His gaze lingered for a second longer than necessary.
Diluc's patience had been running thin.
Even at breakfast, Kaeya noticed it. The way Diluc pushed his food around more than he ate and how he glanced at the clock one too many times. Something was definitely off. He thought to himself if it had something to do with the love letter sealed with that teddy bear sticker that he's caught his brother reading too many times.
"Youâre going to school early?" Kaeya asked, smirking behind his mug. His brother narrowed his eyes at him, almost as if he knew what he was already planning.
Diluc didnât answer right away. He simply stood up, adjusting his uniform jacket with unusual precision.
He nodded with a hum, "Just felt like it."
But truthfully, he had a mission.
He opted out of being chauffeured, deciding instead to walk to school for once. He needed the quiet atmosphere and the clarity it brought to calm his nerves. And he had to be early. Early enough to finally catch whoever was leaving those letters. The ones sealed with that familiar teddy bear sticker that had carved a permanent place in his thoughts.
Once at school, he headed straight to the hallway where his locker was. He saw it was empty and silent at this hour. He found a corner near the end of the corridor, tucked just out of view, and waited.
He felt like a stalker, and he grimaced at the thought of that.
Not even five minutes later, someone appeared. A jittery figure rounded the corner, looking around with obvious nerves.
It was her.
His seatmate.
She clutched a folded letter and a small box. It was faintly wrapped and unmistakably familiar. There, his eyes saw it again: that same teddy bear sticker on the envelope. A slow smirk tugged at the corners of his mouth.
"Got you."
He watched as she bit her bottom lip, fidgeting as she carefully opened his locker. With trembling hands, she placed the letter and the chocolates inside. She placed it so gently as if she was setting down something fragile.
He realized Amber mustâve told her his favorite chocolates. They are close friends, after all.
She lingered for a second too long, pressing delicate fingers to his locker's door. "Oh, my Archons," she whispered to herself, barely audible. "Iâm still nervous even after sending him so many lettersâ"
"You can just give that to me."
Her body jolted in shock as she squeaked, eyes snapping wide as she turned around, only to stumble right into him. He caught her before she could retreat, palm planting beside her head, pinning her lightly against his locker and preventing her from running away.
Her face was blazing red. And when he looked down, he felt the heat bloom on his own cheeks too.
"So it was you," he murmured, his voice low and warm.
The pieces finally clicked. The small, shy glances she threw at him the past few months, the way she froze that day when he placed one of the letters on his desk. It all made sense now.
You clutched your hands together tightly, eyes squeezed shut like you were praying to vanish.
"I-Iâm sorry!" you stammered. "I know this is super weird and everything but I just really wanted to tell you how Iâve feltâ!"
You opened your eyes and gasped.
He was closer now. Much closer.
His hand was still beside your head, and his eyes werenât just calm. They were gentle, curious, and unreadable.
"Are we gonna kiss?" you whispered in a daze, the question escaping before you could stop it. You clapped a hand to your mouth in surprise, chastising yourself for even uttering that question.
He chuckled softly, eyes flickering down to your lips.
"Maybe."
One hand reached up, fingers brushing a strand of hair from your cheek, twirling it slowly between his fingers. You stared up at him with your face on fire, heart pounding in your ears.
And just as you both leaned forward and the world seemed to freeze between the two of you...
"Hey! What are you two doing!?" came a shrill voice echoing through the hallway.
You both flinched.
Ms. Furina stood at the end of the corridor with her gloved hands on her hips, expression somewhere between scandalized and theatrical horror.
Diluc stepped back quickly, clearing his throat into his fist. You glanced up at his flushed face before looking down at your feet, clutching your hands behind your back and wishing the ground would swallow you whole.
"Detention for the both of you!" she declared as if she'd just witnessed a full-blown soap opera.
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â A Clueless Child & An Even More Clueless DJD
scenario: a group of psychopaths unwittingly become parents to an abandoned newly built found under mysterious circumstance
note: i also wanted to add that this fic not only centers around reader but also the DJD as a crew, like their dynamics and stuff. mostly because there's such little content about them as a crew and the DJD are my favourite Decepticon sub-faction.
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PARENTS MENTORS IN DENIAL 02
summary: breaking the news to their already stressed out medic, in short, how they decide to adopt you
âThey'll be awake within an arc, tops.â Nickel sighs out as she exits the medbay to see the team and they're waiting right outsideâ Vos sits down on the floor as Kaon, Tesarus and Helex lean on the wall; Tarn stands straight, looking somewhat impatient but it's hard to tell with the mask. It looks like The Pet noticed the commotion and decided to join in from whatever demonic activities that spawn of Mortilius was busy with when everyone else was minding their own business⊠laying down right by Kaon as he pets it gently. Thankfully, it seems to be very docile right now, tired maybe; its optics looked heavy as if it were going into recharge from Kaonâs gentle ministrations. Maybe Kaon hadn't fuelled the thing yet⊠They didn't take The Pet with them to Clemency, purely because they did not want The Pet to be anywhere near corpses and that place was basically a graveyard.
Nickel has to stop herself from gagging (she didn't even know she could) at the thought of how she had to get rid of a nasty rust infection the last time that happened with The Pet. Regardless, right now there were more pressing matters than that monstrosity.
The expert medic is done with her world class repairs (rated by Tarn himself), dusting off her servos as all five now wait outside the medbay. She feels somewhat⊠disturbed if anything. Odd considering she's been with the DJD for a long time now, long enough for such feelings to be usual but⊠From her examination, she could tell the sparkling was merely a few human months or so old. The wiring within its chassis was not worn or torn in the slightest, the interior of its frame was in relatively pristine condition, especially compared to some of her teammates.
And from the damage on the poor thingâs frame, she could tell that it had been on Clemency for a couple of months. The rust flakes and dried up energon solidified in the crevices of their frame's exterior, the result of a filthy environment. They were absolutely dirty, no wonder why Tarn hesitated to hold the little one himself. She ran a system diagnostic just in case for any chances of a virus affecting its programming only to find out they never had its firewall updated, ever. That⊠concerned her deeply.
It meant that someone had quite literally dumped this sorry sparkling into Clemency right after it was made. All by itself. All alone. New life left without guidance or resources in a planet ridden with Decepticon corpses. It was a harrowing thought. How did it survive? Who would do that? Why would they do that? What sort of sick frag does something like that?
Maybe they should run the little oneâs serial number in their systems to check. Then they'd have some sort of information regarding this mystery, she makes a mental note to ask Tarn but knowing him, there's a high chance he already did so.
The situation of the sparkling is rather mysterious and dire, Nickel couldn't help but wonder what they had to go through to end up so battered⊠so young and frail. She knocks the thought out of her helm as soon as it enters, she has a couple of idiots to address right now.
âNow, thereâs a few good things but there's bad news with it.â Nickel cranes her helm to look up at the five behemoths before her. The minibot is used to the pain in her neck supports at this point, craning her way to see their faceplates. All of their EM fields radiate curiosity and a strange sense of worry, anxiousness almost. It's not the typical aura but again, this situation was far from typical on The Peaceful Tyranny.
âGo on with the good news first.â Tarn commanded, he convinced himself that he cares little to nothing about the sparkling, he only cared because it was one of them. The anticipation from them all builds up tension at the moment.
âOkay, so the newly-built is fine, physically. Their motor systems are intact. At best, their stabilizers might feel sore. They can move fine. The large dent in their chassis from the compression is fixed. Vents are all cleared.â Nickel announces, there's an odd sense of relief in the faces of the DJD. A few sighs escaping some of them. Though, Tarn remains ambiguous, solely due to the mask.
â...what about the bad news?â Helex asks, not as relieved as the rest yet. Though his faceplates do not betray him, upholding up that ideal Decepticon stoicism his position required him to display. Tarn leans down a bit to relieve Nickel, considerate to the minibot and the others were leaning on the wall quickly follow suit but it merely serves to piss Nickel off, it felt somewhat insulting. She grimaces with annoyance but pushes aside her feelings for now as she continues with the sparkling. Her neck supports do feel a little better now that she doesn't have to crane half as much to the crouched down mechs so she's somewhat grateful. Not like she's going to comment on it.
âWell, the kids got a few firewall breaches. I've updated their programming for the most part so it shouldn't have too much of an impact. But most importantly, their vocalizer is glitched out. It'll take a while for them to talk.â Nickel huffs out in layman's terms, conveniently leaving out the fact that there's a solid chance the sparkling didn't know how to talk. If her hunches about the little thing being all alone for most, maybe even all their miserable life was true then it's most likely that their speech-development process was stagnant. Isolation at such delicate stages of life can repress speech protocols, it isn't unheard of. Cybertronian systems did throw out unused code. Unless the kid was talking to corpses and if that was the case, at least they'll get along well with the DJD.
â...so we can't interrogate.â Kaon mutters, inconsiderate to whatever sufferings the sparkling may have suffered. Looks like he and Vos will have to muse themselves with nothing more than their wild theories. So many unanswered questions about their mysterious little house guest.
âLike Pit you can, I suggest you don't speak of Clemency to them, at all.â Nickel mutters, whatever they endured on Clemency had to have been nothing short of traumatic. It would be best to not mention it at all, for a while at least. Kaon nods begrudgingly in compliance, though it's Vosâ compliance that Nickel truly sought. That little aft was as cavalier as they came.
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Vos asks, helm slightly tilted to the side in curiosity as he remains seated on the floor. Even then, he's taller than Nickel.
"Somewhat." She mutters. The newly built will without a doubt have some sort of issue, though it's a little too early to tell. But now, she could finally ask what she'd been thinking the whole time she had been working on the little one as none of the others seemed to have any questions.
âMore importantly, what are you planning on doing with âem?â Nickel questions their course of action, raising an optical ridge, her tiny servos on her hipstruts as she waits for an answer.
All of them are looking right at Tarn, of course Tarn has to be the one to say this to Nickel but a part of him wishes he didn't have to. But in the end, he's their leader and he can't disappoint their hopeful faces. As their leader, he has to be the one to hear a mouthful from Nickel. With a heavy sigh, he decides to break the news to her, she won't take it too badly⊠Hopefully.
âWe are going to keep⊠it.â Tarn says, his velvety voice lacking its usual confidence, as if he himself isn't sure about it. Nickelâs azure optics widen into dinner plates. The servos on her hipstruts immediately falling to her sides.
â...come at me again?â She asks, there's no fragging way. The minibot had to make sure what she heard was right, she had to make sure her audios didn't just glitch out or something. Tarn just grunts a little, somewhat annoyed at having to repeat himself.
âI said, we are going to keep the sparkling.â Tarn repeats himself, his voice with a more aggressive and stern edge though Nickel remains somewhat unfazed by it purely because of how utterly shocking that declaration was. He hadn't used âThe Voiceâ, perhaps that's why it lacked the usual immediate response.
âSo then⊠we're⊠going to fraggin'⊠co-parent? All six of us? Adopt? Or like⊠is it just your own?â Nickel speaks up what she felt it was like, astonishment on her faceplates and her usually aggressive tone somewhat softer. The following immediate aversion to the term âparentâ was almost comical and would've gotten a good laugh out of anyone watching; Vos looked down at the floor almost immediately, Helex just gave out a tired heavy ex-vent, Tesarusâ derma pursed into a thin line as one of his servos rests on the back of his neck supports, Kaon clenched his jaw hinges a bit from cringing as if he was trying not to recoil away and Tarn⊠Tarn just leaned back for a moment, baffled beneath his mask. Vos mutters something incoherent in Primal Vernacular.
Parenting or well, mentoring as it is usually called is not a very open-discussion subject, sensitive if anything. It wasn't exactly something mechs like them would ever partake in or even see themselves take part in. Not to mention, most of them likely didn't have the luxury of tender parenting back on Pre-War Cybertron. It isn't very common to raise sparklings; whether it was before the war given the economic situation or now, given there is currently a fragging planet tearing, genocidal war waging on in full force.
It sort of⊠did sound like parenting now that Tarn thought about it but as much as he wanted to deny it⊠It was literally what they were doing. They were basically adopting. The leader of the DJD quickly recomposed himself, clearing his vocalizer. Embarrassingly enough, Tarn realizes the sheer improvidence of his decision. He couldn't be blamed either, this wasn't the sort of thing he's dealt with. Heâs done heists with Orion Pax, lived as a fugitive in the Jhaxian Academy, worked as a warden in one of the worst prison camps on Cybertron⊠none of the aforementioned activities had ever brought him near something even remotely close to parenting. He would never take in a sparkling then or now, mostly because he didn't know the first thing on what to do with one but he would never admit that. He'd be damned if he had to take care of one by himself.
âNo⊠No, no, no, no! Dear Nickel, that is not what we intend to do-â Tarn gives out a wry chuckle, a thin veil for his clear uncertainty only to be interrupted by the understandably skeptical minibot. From his tone, it's evident he intended this to be a group project which makes Vos mutter even more incoherent curses in Primal Vernacular.
âThen what the frag are we going to do with âem?â Nickel questions, tone as confused as ever. Tarn can feel the weight of everyone's optics locked on him and for the first time, he genuinely finds it suffocating.
âWe are merely going to⊠guide the sparkling in its⊠Decepticon heritage. A future soldier.â He struggles to word it properly, to word it in a manner where it doesn't make it look like anything parenting related but fails in his desperation. In short; bullshitting his way through this. Tarn is more than well aware that's basically a part of parenting but he sincerely hopes by the name of Megatron that for once, his team is stupid enough to just leave it at that. Tarn is not a parent. His fearsome team are not parents either. Parenting is soft. He is anything but soft and The same goes for his team.
â...isn't that basically-â Helex hushes Tesarus with a glare before he could mumble the rest out, more than well aware that their leader is not exactly in a very good state of mind. Helex was quiet and so it paid him well. The signs of Tarnâs annoyance was something the crew had learnt; navigating through his outbursts and tantrums. The daggers Tarn stares at Tesarus is enough to make the walking talking shredder realise he would be making a mistake if he went on, going mum as he looks away in obvious fear of his Commanding Officer.
âI expect everyone to cooperate.â Tarn adds on to their dismay and from the painfully fake cheeriness in his tone, they could all tell he was not going to allow anyone to back off from this. The atmosphere is suddenly gloomy now.
So basically, they were going to be caretakers. Whether they liked it or not.
âŠyay.
The room is eerily silent now. Nickel feels it's unfair that she's roped into this. Vos is less than pleased for more than obvious reasons, Tesarus is not sure on what to feel, Kaon is conflicted, Helex continues to pretend to be nonchalant and quiet though heâs also pretty skeptical about this. Even Tarn himself is uncertain despite how he makes it seem. All of their EM fields are a fix of confusion, uncertainty, bitterness and trepidation however, they manage to keep it to themselves.
âOkay⊠but does any of you even know how to manage one?â Nickel asks, carefully picking her words. Anything that showcases softness might only rile Tarn up even more, avoiding the specific phrase âtaking care ofâ for her own sake.
Tarn again goes silent, looking at Nickel. Finally, a question he actually saw coming. A slight sheepishness behind his mask, concealed skilfully from his team who fails to see this as they surmise Tarn is in a terrible mood which he honestly somewhat was beginning to get there with this whole sparkling thingâŠ
âWell, I-... We were wondering if you would have some pointers.â
They're all looking down at the minibot with hope, except maybe Vos who still partially feels like they should just throw the little thing away into a landfill or something. A lot more economically feasible during wartime in his humble opinion. Tarn has a rather smug smile behind his mask though his body language tries to make it look like he's pleading.
"You guys think just because I'm a medic, I know a slaggin' thing about sparklings!?!?!?"
There's the expected outburst Tarn also saw coming a mile away. Vos continues to merely sit there, taking slight sadistic amusement in Nickel's frustration as he lets out a quiet dry chuckle, trying to be discreet in his attempt to mock the medic; he did not want to be her subject of tirade. Vos almost immediately stops when he sees Nickel glaring at him with a stare that could burn through ununtrium, pretending to clear his vocalizer as if he wasn't secretly getting a good laugh out of this.
"...Yes." So simple, straightforward, direct and eloquent; Tarn did hesitate but truly, what else could he have said? Nickel's helm immediately snaps back to Tarn's direction, she looks like how an Autobot would look like if Megatron got the Matrix of Leadership. As if she were about to explode from frustration and shock. The entire team prepares themselves to hear an explosive rant from Nickel, coloured with crass vocabulary and insecurity inducing takes. But to their pleasant surprise, she just... let's out a very deep ex-vent, a genuinely frustrated sigh. Of course she has to be the one to handle this mess⊠she always has to clean their messes⊠why do they burden her like this??? Inconsiderate slagging pieces of- She just looks down for a moment to calm herself and back at the DJD.
â...unbelievable. All of you.â
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oh my god in my theatre group thereâs this girl who thinks sheâs the leader bc sheâs the lead role. I-. I didnât think that kind of people actually exist
#I CANNOT STAND THAT GIRL HELP#ALSO I HAVE TO SIT NEXT TO HER IN SOME OF MY CLASSES#I havenât met most of the other ppl#but I know the male lead and heâs nice#also I know someone whoâs in charge of the lights and sheâs amazing and super nice#ziggy
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i am having the worst luck today and itâs not even 10 am yet
#i got some salad for lunch and a matcha drink#at lawson before class#it amounts to about P160#i gave P500 to the cashier#and i didnt really look at the change i got#i just put it in my wallet and then left the store#the moment i walked out#my bus arrived so i ran to catch it#and then when i got on#i only just realized then#that the cashier gave me the wrong change đđ#they only gave me P100#when there were supposed to be P300 bills đđđ#i was standing in the bus too because every seat was taken#so it was a bit crowded#THEN MY SHARK PLUSHIE KEYCHAIN FUCKING FELL#and i had to pick it up holding my matcha drink#my laptop case#while holding onto something cause the bus was moving#(+ also my shoulder bag for school which was heavy as hell)#i didnt get to say thank u to the lady who pointed it out#because i was too stressed about the P200 that lawson owes me#and then a seat opened up because someone was getting off at a stop#i got to sit next to that same lady but i think i brushed my sandals on her shoes while trying to sit down#BIT I WASNT ABLE TO SAY SORRY TOO CAUSE OF THE FUCKING P200#AND THEN ! my prof announced that we were asynch today as in we dont have class n i didnt need to run to catch the fckng bus in d first plac#uni diaries#grey txt#jesus christ i hope this day gets better cause its only 8am
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Lads i have Fucked Up Big Time
#somehow I just. Fuckin. Forgot. That if I wanna switch my major that I have to do a bunch if shit#and I missed the deadline for it because I didn't realize that I needed to do it and also forgot to reach out about it until WAY too late#so now I can't do anything until the spring#which is also bad because I don't know what the fuck my class schedule should be!!!!!!!#advisor told me that I can talk to her after the enrollment period and schedule a meeting and we can figure out what I'm doing from there#but like. ouggggggghhg#Im so worried there's gonna be some fuckup with my schedule and I won't be able to register for enough classes to be a full time student#which would be so bad#idk should I just wait until AFTER the enrollment period??? and just have no classes???#I'm gonna try and register for a few classes so I at the very least have Something in my schedule#mainly ones for my current (old) major and a few of the new classes#because multiple classes that I need to take I can Only take them IF I'm enrolled in that major. Which I'm currently not because I'm stupid#im just stressed now and unfortunately there isn't much i can do đ„°#i don't even know which classes I should be trying to take. I can GUESS but like who the fuck knows#so i can't even try and plan out a potential schedule i just get to sit on my ass and stress#sighh. im gonna try to not think about it bc its gonna stress me out#on one hand it's tempting to blame like. idk. literally every adult i talked to because none of them actually told me#âHey btw you actually need to go to this office and fill out this paperwork and submit it by a due dateâ#they were just like yeah okay u can take some classes. and then we'll figure it out later#like. i would have gone and done the shit if I knew I needed to do iT!!!!#but also I should have sat down and looked more into it to so#bleughhhhhhhh#I'm just stressed. and annoyed. at myself mainly because like. duh of course I'd have to go fill out paperwork but I just was like#âYeah I'll talk to my advisor laterâ and kept pushing shit off until it was too late <3#idk man im. so tired#hopefully it'll all work out okay and fine and i won't have the shittiest schedule on earth next semester#and hopefully the classes i need won't fill up!!!! :))))))#ahahahahahsh#im fucked man#lilac post
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Oh my god. Thank fuck for my dreams' inability to fit real life details into them because that was horrible. I was real scared for a minute
#had a dream that. i had a meet up with all my friends and all my online friends#and also gill and jay for some reason#i think it was someone's birthday#and it was great i got to meet everyone and introduce friends who didnt know each other and muck around with people#and then as we were leaving. my whole family was waiting in the car except my mum#and when she arrived she said she'd gotten into a car crash (for some reason we had 2 cars) and literally everyone had died#and then i fucking. went to school?? and walked in like nothing happened???#*pokes my brain* hey dude what the fuck#thankfully. i have never gone to school in a classroom that looks like that. that teacher moved away 3 months ago.#im not in a class with jay ferin (unfortunately)#oh yeah because i walked in anc they were doing the register and tye teacher was like 'hey lucky do you know where jay is' and i was like#'um. i think she's dead' and immediately broke down crying. slapping my dream self why would you gi to school???#anyway. back to things that were wrong with the dream#we dont own 2 cars#i am not friends with gillion tidestrider either#there was a computer screen in the old historic site which. no that doesnt make sense#there were crisps that for some reason had the details of ashe winters' appearance and location on them. and we were looking for her. but#but we kept eating the crisps like we didnt care about the writing on them. which is obviously insane#i dont sit next to that guy in class and obviously my parents wouldnt let me go to school if all my friends had just died#my mum seemed entirely unconcerned about the fact she'd killed all my friends. i was suspecting she was lying actually but i didnt check#but like again. my mother would not pretend to have killed everyone i know#i wouldnt plan a huge meet up day wjth friends at a place far away i need to drive to it anf have never been before#if i needed to go to school immediately after anyway#i havent been in school for over a month now anyway#it's just all round not real. great.#ok im good now but yhat was fucked. up. what the fuck#vent post#death mention#car crash
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When I was getting my associates degree I took a Mythology class that I loved. But one of the girls in class was absolutely off the rails conservative Christian which made things⊠interesting.
The professor started off the class by being like, âMythology is stories associated with religion.â
This girl. Haaaated that. She was like, âNo, Christianity is true. Itâs not mythology.â Mythology was delivered in the same tone as someone trying to spit excrement from their mouth.
The professor raised her eyebrows and said laconically, âYes, most people believe their religion is the real one, thatâs part of it, and the stories surrounding religion are referred to as mythology.â
The girl stewed in a hateful sullen rage. I truly donât understand why she didnât drop the class but perhaps it was court mandated education. We all expected her to drop the class but she dug in like a tick and derailed discussions as often as she could.
On a different occasion the professor was drawing a comparison between social constructs like gender. The girl raised her hand. The class hushed to hear her announce, âItâs just a fact that women like domestic work and even though men are awful and stinky we just have to love them anyway. Itâs biology, weâre just hardwired like that.â
I was sitting next to my friend a baby gay Jewish girl and our eyes met in mutual hilarity while the professor tried to pretend she hadnât just been stricken with a stress induced migraine while she steered the class away from that landmine.
The next sticking point was a week later when the professor informed us that many mythologies have overlapping events like floods but these didnât necessarily happen in such literal terms. It was a metaphorical way to process and understand the world.
This girls hand shot up. I watched the professor exercise extreme self control to keep her expression bland before calling on her.
âThe world did flood. And Noah saved all the animals. Before the flood all the water was in a dome outside the earth and then the dome broke and the world flooded. All of it.â
The whole class stared at her as if struggling to comprehend the overlap of her acceptance that the world was round while also firmly believing that there had previously been a barrier that held up all of the earths water before god smashed it in a fit of pique.
She raged under the attention, glaring balefully at our astonished faces.
The professor stared at her blankly, unable to form words to such a bizarre belief. I wanted to ask clarifying questions- what theyâd drunk before the dome broke, if there were rivers or lakes prior, or did the dome allow some rain in somehow, but then I really looked at her.
She had the eyes of a feral, cornered animal who regarded any deviation in worldview from her own to be a physical assault on her person. Like the professor, I said nothing, and after a wretchedly long pause class moved on.
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Steddie | modern au | famous actor Steve Harrington | 3.4k | ao3
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Eddie canât stop the laugh that comes out of him because of the video on his screen, Gareth snickering next to him.
âThis is great, I have to show this to the others later,â Eddie says. His fingers move automatically, pressing on the send icon and then on the profile at the very top, a move he has done hundreds of times.
âDude, did you just send that to Steve Harrington?â Gareth asks with a dumbfounded tone.
âYeah?â
âWhy are you acting like thatâs normal?â
âBecause it is? I just send him the posts I find funny to find them later.â
âYou know there is a way to save posts so that they are organized, right?â
âI donât like it and this is like way easier.â
âItâs literally not,â Gareth says, but Eddie doesnât pay attention to him or stop.
âLook,â he goes to the front page, slides to the dms and opens the conversation with Steve Harrington, always at the top. âItâs just right there.â He starts scrolling up to show him the long string of unanswered memes and videos, but Gareth interrupts him.
âWait, wait. Scroll back down, what the fuck is that? Does he read your messages?â He is pointing to the little icon with Harringtonâs profile picture just above the last video heâs sent. Eddie shrugs.
âItâs probably a bored media guy enjoying some memes on the clock or making sure Iâm not a weirdo, itâs not like Steve Harrington actually uses this account.â
âYou are a weirdo, Iâm surprised you are not blocked yet.â
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Eddie is on his phone, passing the time as he keeps an eye on the lonely customer currently looking through the new vinyls. Itâs a routine, a mindless action as he saves another post to show the guys later, preferring to see their reactions in person. Nothing ever happens, thatâs why he gets surprised to the point of sitting up when a notification appears on his screen.
Steve.hrrgtn: Dude, you just made me laugh in the middle of a table reading
Eddie freezes as the notification disappears. Did he see that right? He couldnât have seen that right.
He goes to his dms and surely, there at the top, is a message from THE Steve Harrington, or at least from his account. A table reading. It has to be him, right? Not an intern or a media guy. The one and only.
Eddie sends a look to the customer, still engrossed in the new releases. He is tempted to call her so she can check if the message is real or an hallucination provoked by his boredom. When he looks down, the message is still there. It is also still there when he opens the conversation. His fingers hover over screen.
He can picture him, sitting around a long table with his castmates, hiding his phone like a student in class but unable to keep his laugh in.
The vision is a bit surreal. He made Steve Harrington laugh.
Batking: why are you looking at your phone in the middle of a table reading
Steve.hrrgtn: new season boring af
Itâs Eddie the one that canât keep his laugh in this time. The girl sends him a look, but he doesnât care.
Batking: should you be telling me that?
 Steve.hrrgtn: I donât even care at this point tbh
Batking: you are the one that signed the contract my guy
Steve.hrrgtn: I didnât
Steve.hrrgtn: Never let your parents sign you into a multi season show when you are fifteen
Batking: Iâll keep that in mind for my next life
Batking: Sorry your parents made you a millionaire and famous
Steve.hrrgtn: đđđ
Steve.hrrgtn: but really, at the time I thought hey itâs only a contract for five seasons for a teen drama, how bad could it be?
Steve.hrrgtn: now here I am, almost ten years later, listening to the worst script you have heard in your life
Batking: that does sound awful
Batking: you are making me happy that my folks are not in the picture
Is Eddie about to vent about his life to Steve fucking Harrington? It seems like it.
In the end, he doesnât, because Harrington doesnât answer to his message, probably swept away into actually working, or maybe he realised how weird it was that he was talking so casually to a guy he didnât know.
Eddie doesnât have time to wallow on it too much, because the girl comes to the counter with a vinyl and a question. The interaction with the famous actor moving to a part of Eddieâs brain normally reserved to daydreams.
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Eddie thought that his interaction with Steve Harrington would be a one time thing, the guy looking at his phone because he was too bored and answering his message because, by some kind of cosmic coincidence, Eddie had happened to send it at the perfect moment. Just an impulsive action that he had regretted later. Thatâs why he is surprised when he gets a new notification after sending him the worst kind of shitpost ever, the ones that the algorithm feeds him at 2am â the current time â and send him in a fit of giggles with their complete absurdity.
Steve.hrrgtn: where do you even find these things
Batking: you are just jealous my algorithm is better than yours
Steve.hrrgtn: yeah everyday I dream about my instagram showing me a pig made with a sausage and sticks surfing some rotating meat skewers
Batking: It made you laugh though
Steve.hrrgtn: âŠ..
Steve.hrrgtn: It did
Eddie lets out a short, disbelieving snort. Itâs a bit crazy, knowing that somewhere out there a famous heartthrob is looking at his messages at 2am and laughing.
Unless this is the media guy.
Eddie prefers to believe that he is so funny he made a guy with millions of followers want to talk to him. Twice.
Batking: why are you awake at this hour anyway
Batking: shouldnt you be getting your beauty sleep
Steve.hrrgtn: we start filming the new season tomorrow
Steve.hrrgtn: today?
Steve.hrrgtn: and I canât sleep
Batking: nightmares about the boring script
Batking: I see
Steve.hrrgtn: you could say that
Batking: well, check this out, your nightmares will go away
He sends another stupid meme (of the best kind, the ones from accounts that write in Cyrillic) and receives a set of skull emojis in answer.
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Steve.hrrgtn: why have you stopped sending me memes
The message takes Eddie by surprise. Itâs been a week since he texted with Steve Harrington for the second time â which still feels a bit surreal-, and he had decided to stop bothering the poor guy now that he knew he saw his messages. Going to his saved posts was still a nightmare, but Eddie knew how to behave.
Batking: didnt want to bother you now that you are working and I know you see them
Steve.hrrgtn: they have been my main entertainment for months you canât just stop now when I need them most
Eddie blinks at the message. Months? The confirmation stuns him. The one that had been seeing his messages had always been him and not some media guy? Eddie remembers catching his name a few times on his Instagram stories. This is a bit trippy, if he is honest.
Batking: okay
Batking: as my liege commands
Batking: from now on I am your knight in shining armour your sole provider of memes
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Batking: *reel attached*
Batking: did you kill the villain today?
Steve.hrrgtn: This is a teen drama???
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Batking: *reel attached*
Batking: so, is the bad guy dead yet?
Steve.hrrgtn: Again???
Steve.hrrgtn: I told you like a thousand times that there is no bad guy to kill
Steve.hrrgtn: have you even watched my show?
Batking: I mean the scriptwriter
Steve.hrrgtn: lmao
Steve.hrrgtn: no, he is sadly not dead yet
Steve.hrrgtn: I think killing him would be a breach of my contract somehow
Batking: a pity
Batking: the way he insists on making your character straight? He deserves death.
Batking: donât worry joe from normal life, I saw the way you looked at dacre, I know what you are
Steve.hrrgtn: I think that might have just been the way I was looking at Billy, the guyâs fucking hot
Steve.hrrgtn: an asshole though, glad he is not on the show anymore
Eddie pauses, his eyes reading the last two messages time and time again. Did Steve Harrington, heartthrob and ladies man, just admit to being attracted to a male coworker? Eddieâs thumbs hover over the keyboard. He looks up at Gareth from his place in their couch. He is not paying attention to him, too focused on his laptop.
Eddie is having a bit of a crisis here and his roommate is ignoring him. Maybe itâs best that he is, Eddie doesnât really want to share this with anyone. Should he bring attention to it? Should he just ignore it and brush it off? The decision is not that difficult in the end. He needs to know. He knows that there is no way he has any possibility of actually bagging Steve Harrington. Exchanging messages and memes is one thing, a pseudo friendship is one thing, but something more? Not fucking likely.
He still needs to know.
Batking: did I just get exclusive confirmation that Steve Harrington likes men? Should I call tmz?
Steve.hrrgtn: you wouldnât get any money
Steve.hrrgtn: Iâve been out as bisexual for years, the media just chooses to ignore it
Steve.hrrgtn: wow look at these pictures of Steve Harrington with his new male best friend that he goes to dinner and all premieres with! Totally platonic! Oh now they have stopped hanging out completely? What could have happened to their friendship?
Steve.hrrgtn: he cheated on me, thatâs what happened
Eddie blinks at his screen. So, he had tried to avoid learning anything about Steve that the man didnât tell him himself. Just a chivalrous, treat the guy like a normal person gesture, but now he is wondering if he should have paid a bit more attention.
Batking: ah yes, the joys of compulsory heterosexuality and conformity
Batking: that sucks, dude
Steve.hrrgtn: did you really not know anything about it?
Batking: sorry to burst your celebrity bubble where everyone knows everything about your life
Steve.hrrgtn: no no, itâs⊠nice
Steve.hrrgtn: I have a question though
Steve.hrrgtn: why did you start sending me memes if you were not really interested in me?
Batking: well
Batking: I needed someone very famous that wasnt likely to really see my messages and seemed chill enough to not block me immediately
Batking: and dude, you are like waaay more famous than the show you are in, itâs ridiculous, thought you must be a douche for a long time
Batking: but an interview with you and your friend Robin showed up on my fyp and I saw that you were pretty chill
Batking: so it was between you and Timothee Chalamet
Batking: and it ended up being you because you are hotter
Steve.hrrgtn: of course I am
Steve.hrrgtn: thank you for choosing me tho
Batking: anyone would have
Steve.hrrgtn: the casting director of a complete unknown didnât think the same
Batking: well thats THEIR loss
Batking: you do a great job with the shitty script of normal life
Batking: you would have acted the fuck out of bob dylan
Steve.hrrgtn: I do a better job in my other stuff
Batking: you have other stuff??
Batking: Iâm going to be honest with you here, I only watched normal life so I had context to bitch about the boring new season with you
Eddie looks at the three little dots that indicate that Steve is writing appear a disappear a few times. Did he fuck up? Maybe he sounded too eager, maybe Steve thought it was a bit weird that Eddie assumed they would continue talking. But they have been talking for weeks now. Was it bad to assume?
Eddie closes the app, deciding to give the guy some privacy to write down what he wants to write down and heads to the kitchen to prepare his dinner. If Gareth senses the way his mood has soured, he doesnât say anything about it.
It takes a couple of hours for an answer to appear. Itâs simple.
Steve.hrrgtn: thatâs nice of you
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Itâs Steve the one that starts the conversation a couple of days after that. Eddie only sees his messages an hour after he sends them, too busy with customers. The group of notifications on his screen when he is finally able to look at his phone very welcome.
Steve.hrrgtn: so I just realised
Steve.hrrgtn: well, my best friend made me realise
Steve.hrrgtn: she basically said that itâs weird that Iâve been talking with you for weeks and donât know anything about your actual life and that you could actually be a stalker with a lot of patience or something like that
Steve.hrrgtn: so tell me about yourself? You are not living like down the street from me and waiting for the right moment to kidnap me like Robin says are you?
Eddie tries not to feel giddy at the thought of Steve talking about him to his friends. He has not done it himself, mostly because he tried once and they made fun of his âdelusionsâ as they called it. Whatever. He doesnât really expect Steve to still be online, probably already swept out to his own job, so he just sends his answer.
Batking: a very reasonable fear, some facts to follow
Batking: I live as far from you as you live from Chicago
Batking: I am a humble employee at a record store where I have to deal with pretentious assholes daily that donât really care about music and just about bragging about their record collection
Batking: I also have a band with my friends
Batking: we have a whooping 1756 listeners on spotify
Batking: I know, I know, you didnât know you were talking with a rockstar try not to be very starstruck
The answer, to his surprise, comes almost immediately.
Steve.hrrgtn: 1757
Batking: what?
Steve.hrrgtn: what kind of friend would I be if I didnât listen to your band now that I know it exists?
Eddie would be lying if he said that that didnât make his heart skip a beat. Is this healthy? Probably not. Is he developing a weird parasocial relationship with the guy? Probably yes, but is it even a parasocial relationship if he is actually talking with the guy and he called him his friend? This should be considered a normal crush, a normal, hopeless crush.
Batking: a very shitty one tbh hereâs the link
Steve.hrrgtn: can I ask something else?
Batking: course
Steve.hrrgtn: you only have one pic in your profile and itâs with your friends
Steve.hrrgtn: which one are you?
Eddie taps the back of his phone a few times. Itâs only natural that Steve would wonder that. He could just tell him, or⊠Eddie opens the camera and takes a picture, too close to see his face properly but enough that Steve will know who he is in the group picture now.
Batking: *picture attached*
Batking: this one
Steve.hrrgtn: fuck
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Steve.hrrgtn: okay so the thought of you only seeing me in normal life is eating me alive
The notification comes when Eddie is with his friends, preparing for a night of DnD. Eddie was looking up some music to get the atmosphere going, but the music app immediately gets abandoned in lieu of the message.
Batking: canât get me out of your head?
He knows he has been unable to keep the stupid smile out of his face when Jeff tries to glance at his screen. Eddie immediately slams the phone against his chest.
âJeez, I thought you were looking at stupid memes again, who are you texting that got you smiling like that?â Jeff asks. He moves back to sit straight, so Eddie can look at his phone again.
âNo one,â he says as he reads the new message.
Steve.hrrgtn: so I have a couple of indie films that are very good
So Steve has decided to ignore his message. Okay.
âHeâs been like this for WEEKS now,â Gareth intervenes as he sits down at his spot. âHe said it was Steve Harrington when I asked him when he started and has refused to say anything else.â
âThe white boy of the month?â Jeff asks.
âWhite boy of the century,â Eddie feels the need to correct.
Batking: thatâs great and all but I canât watch your limited release indie films anywhere
Steve.hrrgtn: thatâs why Iâm sharing a link to the latest one with you
Steve.hrrgtn: donât share it with anyone though
Batking: aw breaking the rules for little ol me?
Steve.hrrgtn: yeah yeah donât get too cocky now
Steve.hrrgtn: canât wait for your reaction đ
Eddie stares at the winking emoji in confusion. What is that supposed to mean?
âCan you stop texting your white boy of the century now so we can start?â Gareth asks.
âJust a second.â Eddie sends a quick message back before he moves to the music app again, chooses the first song he sees and puts the phone down.
Batking: send it to me, soldier, I will watch it tonight and give you my honest opinion
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Eddie stares at the screen of his laptop, currently on his thighs as he was lounging on his bed, seeing the film Steve had sent to him. The film is currently paused, Steveâs face staring at him with eyes and mouth half open.
Okay, so Eddie just watched his famous guy turned friend have an orgasm â fake! Fake an orgasm, Eddie feels itâs very important that he makes that clear to himself â on screen after probably the most erotic sex scene he has seen in a non porno in the last 10 years. Fuck. How did he not know about the existence of this? How did this not make the news? Probably because it was with another man. Double fuck.
Maybe this is normal for Steve, for actors in general, to send their friends a link to a film where you have a soul shattering orgasm with a message about wanting to know their reaction with a winking emoji. It is not normal for Eddie. It is also not normal for his dick, who has not gotten the memo about this not being something it should be getting so excited about.
Eddie bites his lip. His finger moves on its own, backing the film a few minutes so the scene plays again. Eddie tries to convince himself that this is not weird if Steve was the one that wanted him to see this in the first place.
Eddie curses and takes a deep breath. He eyes his phone. Itâs late, nearly midnight, but he knows that Steve is normally away at this hour.
Maybe this is not normal for Steve either, maybe he did want to get some kind of reaction out of Eddie.
Eddie snaps a picture of his laptop screen, careful to get the tent in his pants just in the edge of the picture. Itâs very obvious on it what scene he is watching.
Batking: *picture attached*
Batking: you sure know how to get a guy hot and bothered
Maybe he can play it off as a joke if Steve didnât mean it like Eddie wants him to mean it.
Steve.hrrgtn: glad to see my acting is that good
Fuck, Eddie fucked it up, right?
Steve.hrrgtn: it did come out very natural
Steve.hrrgtn: but the real thing looks better
Eddie feels on the edge of a precipice, as if there should be a warning on his field of vision about how his choice here will change the trajectory of his story.
Batking: canât say
Batking: I havenât seen the real thing, so I canât really compare them, can I?
Steve.hrrgtn: would you want to?
Eddie canât get his hopes up, he canât assume, Steve is so out of his league, this canât be happening to him.
Batking: have you acted in a porno I donât know about?
Steve.hrrgtn: are you always this dense?
Eddieâs heart is dying in his chest, thatâs the only explanation to how itâs feeling.
He doesnât have time to type an answer, Eddieâs screen is suddenly filled with something else.
Steve Harrington is video calling him.
Eddie has never accepted a call so fast in his life before.
part 2...???
tag list: @steddiefication @tailsfromthecrypt @orionchildofhades @coralineinwonderland @theohohmoment (you didn't ask me to tag you but I guessed you'd want to see it?)
#i imagine steve as what dylan obrian is to teen wolf but even more#robin is of course the friend that was worried about the possible stalker murderer#steddie#steddie fic#my steddie#steve x eddie#steve harrington#eddie munson
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Freak On The Cam! - C.K.
Synopsis. Choso always loved watching you - his pretty lilâ camgĂrl - from behind the screen. Who knew heâd love being on-screen with you even more?
Pairing. Choso Kamo x Reader
Content. MDNI, fem! reader, camgĂrl! reader, spĂtting, Choso has rings and piercings, first times + loss of vĂrginity (Chosoâs), oral (fem receiving), exhĂbitionism, DOWN BAD Choso, cĂșmplay, use of âmaâamâ, Sukuna is a menace, vĂbrators, light jealousy (Chosoâs), some HEINOUS things, pet names, swearing.
Word count. 6.5k
A/N. Meant to post this last week but hehe here we are. Also Iâve GOT to stop using Unc-kuna so much lmao.

âWanna see a movie or do you wanna make one?â
Choso was screwed. Completely and utterly screwed. So badly, in fact, that he might as well just wipe off every trace of himself online and go into hiding - preferably forever.
All because he had been so stupidly careless as to leave his phone unattended for exactly 1 minute and 47 seconds around Sukuna.Â
In the time it took Choso to raid the kitchen for his favorite brand of cereal, his uncle had managed to open his Twitter (because âthatâs where all the juicy stuff isâ), stalk your pretty page at the very top of his last searched, and send a god-awful pick-up line that would probably get him blocked. Or worse.
Damnit, he knew he shouldnât have made his password Yujiâs birthday.
âYa should be thankful I didnât DM her myself, brat.â Sukuna chuckles, not even a shred of regret in his tone, way too amused with how Choso was frantically trying to tackle the phone out of his hands. âWhatâs the harm in asking? Such a pretty camgirl, nâ you look like you need some good pu-â
âSheâs also my classmate.â
âKinky. Even better.âÂ
No, not âeven betterâ. God, this must be some kind of cosmic joke, and Choso just wished the Earth would swallow him up whole right now - and maybe his phone along with it too.Â
It had taken him almost a whole semester to work up the courage to just sit next to you during your shared lecture. All gorgeous with your bright smiles, and your smart mouth. And Choso was very much content to admire you from afar - and from behind his phone screen, of course.
Never following, never liking. Never tipping you off as one of your hundreds of thousands of fans.
And now, not only had Sukuna revealed that heâd found your secret Twitter account - the one with those sinful little clips of yourself that had Choso opening the app way too much - heâd also propositioned you. Like some creep. Â
âUgh. This is why women hate you.â Still desperately grappling, he spits out more to himself than Sukuna at this point. âB-besides, sheâs never even gonna respond any-â
Ping!
And the Itadori household had never been quieter. Never, on a random Saturday during spring break. Never, as the two men crowd the phone, jaws dropped and staring wordlessly at the singular message on screen. You.Â
âLetâs make one ;)â
---
âSo sânot a stream this time, jusâ a video. Is that okay?â You hum from your desk, glancing at the man seated on your bed as he hastily nods along with whatever you said. Looking like heâd rather be anywhere but here.Â
Weird.Â
It had only been a few days of back and forth since youâd gotten that first text - the one that youâd honestly thought about blocking like the thousands of others. But there was just something about it that made you stop, something that had you clicking on the profile to delve a little deeper.
It hit you like a semi-truck back then - five of them, in fact - that this was someone in your class. Someone you knew. How the hell did he even find this account?Â
You knew Choso as that sweet - albeit slightly gloomy - kid that sat next to you, always quick with his answers and even quicker to look away from your gaze, no matter how hard you tried to spark a conversation. Youâd just guessed he was afraid of you or something.
So nothing couldâve prepared you for how ridiculously attractive he looked in that profile picture, all smug grins and dark locks falling effortlessly around his slightly smudged eyeliner. Shirtless, giving just a peak of- oh god, were those nipple piercings? Â
Could you really be blamed? You just had to have him.
But, here - it was like he was just itching to run away at the first chance he got.Â
âYouâre not held at gunpoint, yâknow.â you giggle at how he startles at the mere sound of your voice. The mattress dips as you stop fiddling with the camera to sit next to him, thighs flush against his muscled ones. âAre you sure you want-â
âYes.âÂ
It seems that both of you were surprised by the abrupt response. Too quick. Choso clears his throat, cheeks flaring as he tries to dredge up some semblance of dignity, he drawls lightly. âI mean- Yes.â
You study him for a moment under the dim lighting, noting the way his hands clench and unclench in his lap, the way his chest rises and falls rapidly as he struggles to control his breathing. He was nervous. Nervous and horny - nothing quite like the suave impression his pick-up line gave off.Â
But so irresistible just the same.
âWellâŠCho.â you bat your lashes, voice dropping to a seductive whisper - not too heavy, for now at least. âThen why wonât you even look at me?â
Alas, Choso was not a strong man.Â
Maybe at your words, maybe at that playful little nickname you gave him, heâs finally raising those dark eyes to look at you. Twinkling with- fear? anticipation? A flicker of something so dangerous as his gaze sweeps greedily over that tight dress you put on just for this occasion.Â
Choso tries to ignore how sinfully it hugs all your curves. Or the way it would look a million times better on the floor.Â
This was absolute torture.Â
And God he thinks he could pass out right then and there as you lean in closer. Too close. The temperature in the room suddenly increasing by about 10 degrees as you purr, tone careful and balanced. âMuch better. And nowâŠâÂ
His breathing becomes heavier, eyes flickering downwards. Once. Twice.Â
And you know youâve got him in the palm of your hand.Â
â...all you gotta do is touch me.â
Yeah, if Choso thought he was going to pass out before then he definitely wasnât ready for those dangerous little words. Ones that have him shaken right to the core - fighting that urge to just take you how heâs imagined all those lonely nights.
âYou- huh?â he lets out a shaky laugh, the sound strained as he crosses his legs with the subtlety of a sledgehammer, desperately trying to will away the blood rushing straight to his throbbing cock right now.Â
But how could he? Not when you only shift closer, barely even a hairâs breadth between you two - relishing in his strangled gasp as your tits press so enticingly against his arm. Such an adorable pout playing on your lips as you mutter, âDo you not want to?â
And he did. Oh, how he did - has been imagining it for the past five months, in fact. And Choso lets you know, a little twenty times, actually, as the words spill panickedly from his lips.Â
â-idiot trying to set me up and Iâve been dreaming of fucking you for so long but Iâm just-â Heat rushes to Chosoâs cheeks, as he abruptly shuts the fuck up. But itâs too late - the damage has been done.
You give him a wry smile, lips mere inches from his ear. âJust what?â
His breath hitches, muscles rippling so deliciously as he shudders beneath your touch. âIâm a-â Choking out - as if it physically hurts to admit - â-virgin.â
Oh.Â
Now, you mightâve expected many things - but certainly not this. Though, looking at the cute flush on the tips of his ears, all the way down to those big, needy eyes, you donât mind. Not one bit.
With one, quick glance at the rolling camera - your mouth is moving before your mind. âDo you want me toâŠdo something about it?â
And then itâs like something snapped.Â
You donât know who leans in first, just that Chosoâs kissing you. And youâre kissing him - how could you not?Â
Because goddammit it was always those pretty lips that you were staring at whenever he was spouting off answers in class. You just never expected heâd be kissing you back with such an infectious desperation.Â
No sooner are you thinking about how sweet his lips are before heâs pulling away with a soft sigh, pressing hot open-mouthed kisses down your jaw. Your neck. Back to your lips like he wanted everything and anything.
You gasp licks a long, languid stripe up your neck - maybe at how utterly obscene it felt, maybe at that sharp cold feeling that makes you flinch. Fuck - a tongue piercing? The noise makes Chosoâs mouth drop into a quick oh! surging forward to claim your lips again. Addicted.Â
Only to be stopped by your hands cupping his face, letting out a pained grunt at how he was so close. Just a hairâs breadth away from your lips.
âCho~ Open your mouth, baby.â you whisper, hotly.Â
And he looked so pretty - dark hair askew, lower lip swollen and quivering with need, brows furrowing because he wanted more of your taste. But he obeys, of course he does, Choso thinks heâll do anything you asked. And lo and behold, sitting right there in the middle of his tongue was a pretty silver piercing.
You just canât help but thumb open his mouth further, looking him right in the eyes as you spit in his mouth. Once. Twice.Â
âBet no one else has done this before, huh?â Grinning at how sinfully Chosoâs eyes roll to the back of his head at your taste, âKiss me proper now.â
God, you were so good at throwing away whatever was left of his poor sanity. And itâs all thatâs said before his kiss-bitten lips are crashing into yours again.Â
âNo. No oneâs hah- done that before. Only you.â heâs panting into your open mouth, swirling his tongue with yours. âF-fuck only you. Only you only you-â
You barely even realize the way youâre on his lap now, sitting so prettily there that Choso half-deliriously wonders whether he should take a picture. Mind spinning too much with his throbbing erection under your drenched panties, a damp little patch at his fat tip. So hot and heavy already.
âCho, do you want me to-â
âYes, maâam.â
You certainly donât have to be told twice - especially with that little nickname. Fiddling with his belt, youâre so hazy with want - the need to taste Choso, to see if the rest of him was as sweet as his lips - that you almost miss the look of confusion that flashes across his face.
You bat your lashes at him almost-innocently, âYou alright?â And Choso thinks he could cum right there and right now at the sight. If he wasnât currently battling for his life, that is.Â
âYeah, sâjusâ- what I wanted hah- was toâŠâ His hands sneak down, cupping your heated pussy through your drenched panties. â-taste her. â
âOh?â
âAre yâgonna teach me how?â
Oh. Fuck.
You know youâre fucked. Completely and utterly fucked.
Only moments later, Chosoâs wrestling you back onto the mattress, face-to-face with your sloppy pussy. So mean with the way he was pinning your hips down with one hand, all but ripping your panties off with the other.Â
You feel his piercing before his tongue. Both the hot and cold so maddening on your cunt as Choso licks long, lazy stripes up your puffy folds - dragging his hot tongue all the way from your base. Just grazing your swollen clit.Â
âTeach me- fuck fuck-â words muffled and slurring together, vibrations going straight to your pussy. âUse me. Use me how you want.â
Youâre threading your fingers through his dark locks before you even realize it, grinding your sloppy cunt all over his waiting mouth. âQuirk your tongue like- ngh-â Angling him close enough so he bullies his soft tongue into your tight pussy. Piercing massaging all the right places. âFuck-â
âLike this?â
âSh-shit,â you gasp, nodding deliriously. âSâtoo ngh- good.â
And by God, did you mean it.Â
âYeah? Yâlike this?â heâs groaning, wrapping his lips around your swollen clit. âCan feel you clenching around me. Shit shit shit, you love this, huh? So slutty on camera for it?âÂ
Getting wetter and wetter by the second as his tongue roams for that one-
âOh! F-fuck, Cho. Right hngh- there. Deeper-â
Ah, found it.
Choso grins as you tug on his soft strands, you can feel it on your throbbing pussy. Pushing your legs all the way till theyâre at your tits to hit that little spot each and every time. Again and again. Eyes glassy, torn between devouring that slutty expression on your face and how fucking drenched you were.Â
âShit, baby,â his words are so strained now, like his sanity was dancing away at each flick of his tongue. âYouâre drooling everywhere. See? Show the camera now.â
You donât have to look. Because you can feel it.
Can feel how wet his mouth is, just glistening with slick and saliva. Trailing all the way down his chin - to his wrist - only second to how sloppy your dripping cunt was. It was like he was getting messy on purpose, like a little reminder to himself that shit this was you and he was eating out your pretty cunt to insanity-
âOh my god, think mâhooked.â Tongue dragging all over your swollen folds, catching on his piercing. âThink your pretty lilâ pussyâs hah- driving me crazy. Ruined me, Fuck-â
And itâs so embarrassing how heâs talking you through it, grinning at every lilâ whine and whimper that leaves your mouth. You were acting all shy right now in a way that makes Chosoâs cock twitch so painfully. He barely even notices, though, with the way he was so drunk off your pussy.Â
So messy - unable to decide between rolling his tongue over your ravaged clit and dipping into your sloppy hole. Too much. In and out in and-
âFaster.â
He goes faster.Â
âH-harder.â
He goes harder.
Anything and everything for you - to keep those pretty moans falling from your lips, walls getting tighter and tighter around his tongue. And Choso might just consider himself a man addicted.
âCan you ngh- cum fâme, baby?â You flinch as he spits out the words into your cunt. Harsh. Fucked-out. Sounding just as delirious and breathless as you. âCum fâme please. Wanâ to taste yâon my tongue. Please. Fuck- need it so bad. So bad.â
Youâre so caught up in Chosoâs pussydrunk little babbles that you barely even realize when youâre cumming. Just that youâre letting out a strangled scream of his name, dragging your sloppy pussy all over his mouth.Â
And he has never seemed more blissed out. Long gone is that nervous little expression usually on his face around you, Choso looked like he could be suffocated in-between your legs right now and love it. Hope for it, even.
He tells you that, of course. As soon as youâre blinking back your vision, blood still roaring in your ears. Delicate strings of slick snapping where he parts from your quivering cunt, lips swollen and glossed so prettily with your sweet sweet juices.Â
âBaby, yâthink the video of lesson one came out good?â
Oh. Shit, what have you done?
---
That certainly wasnât the last time you saw Choso - or the last time you had him in front of a camera, either.
A few weeks later, you found yourself with an entire album for the man - a hidden treasure trove under the simple name of âCho <3â. Most of the videos favorited, all sorted so tediously in a way that showed you spent an obscene amount of time looking at all the ways he ruined you.Â
So filthy on camera that you always wondered whether it was the same person in the sheets and in class, texting Choso for later. Just to confirm.Â
But embarrassingly, only some of these videos made their way onto your Twitter account - with Chosoâs pretty face largely out of the frame. The two of you hadnât ventured into streams yet either, opting to hide him away. Because, okay, maybe you were slightly jealous of other people seeing him - but it was really hard not to be when he looked like that.
In spite of all that, youâd still gained a casual hundred thousand more followers since his appearance - ones who always commented on your solo streams asking where your âhot emo bfâ was.
Comments youâd pointedly ignore, because, hell, you wished he was here on-stream helping you get off, too. Yet despite the endless flirting and videos, Choso actually hadnât made it further than actually holding a full conversation with you. And you wanted more.Â
For all you know, you might just be one of his many trysts - and it was just for the videos, right? You get the content, he gets the experience? A win-win situation, so why have you never felt more like such a loser?
Such a loser the way youâve already lost count of the âlessonsâ but still havenât gotten to feel him - to fuck him the way you wanted just yet.Â
âSâalright if I take this, right, maâam?â He smirks during one such session, knuckle-deep in your dripping cunt. Dangling your drenched panties like a badge of honor, flimsy and soaked with your sweet sweet juices. âSâalright if I-â And he canât even finish the sentence. Your jaw drops as Choso raises the thin fabric to his face, breathing in your essence like a man possessed.Â
Bzzzt-bzzzt-bzzzzt-
âYouâre so filthy, Cho-â you manage to choke out once you find your voice. Squirming on his bed like such a slut for him. âWas the innocent thing just an act?â
âNope.â he pops the p, licking lewd little circles on your neck, thumbing open your puffy folds to watch in amazement at the way you glisten and clamp around his fingers. Eyes flickering briefly to the recording phone in his hand. âBut we gotta give âem a good show, huh?â
Right, youâd forgotten about the camera. But none of that matters anyway because-
Intensity setting 2.
âYouâre so mean, too.â
âAm I?â he grins, teeth grazing along your racing pulse. âI think you taught that to me, baby. Shit, lesson 8 it was?â
God, he was addictive.
Chosoâs having way too much fun playing around with the intensity setting of the bullet vibrator shoved inside your ravaged cunt. Sending quick, methodical vibrations all along your pulsing clit. In time with the breathless moans leaving your kiss-bitten lips, and itâs all you can to call out for- more? Mercy? Both?Â
Bzzzt-bzzzt-bzzzzt-
âGod, youâre so perfect. Shit, so messy fâme.â he groans, and you could tell that the video wasnât going to be uploaded anyway. Too shaky, focusing in and out of Chosoâs fingers. Knuckle-deep and pumping in and out of your filthy hole. Relentless. âAlmost makes me wanna show off to an actual audience.â
âMaybe I want to, too.â you muse, shifting at his heated gaze. Dangerously pressing your thumb over those nipple piercings youâve gotten to know so well lately - as if to support your point. God you wish heâd take off that snug shirt.
Intensity setting 3.
âThat so?â
And no matter how many times Chosoâs ruined you on camera - and watched the videos over and over afterwards - he always thought they werenât enough to capture your perfection.Â
âSuch a slut fâme, baby.â To capture the exact moment in which your wet lips fall into a soft little oh! when he massages your walls in time with the pulsing vibrator. To capture that absolutely sinfully excited little glint in your eyes as he ruts his clothed erection against your pussy. âYâalways this dirty?â Quickly turning into a look of slight panic at the sudden jingle of keys from the front door.Â
âYo, brat. Where the fuck are ya?â
Ah, there he was, the reason that Choso usually locked his bedroom door whenever you were over, even if he was home alone.Â
Intensity setting 4.
As the silence continues, so does Chosoâs abuse on your cunt. In fact, he only gets more erratic - like he wanted you to cum. Needed you to cum right now, right here in front of Sukuna, footsteps only growing louder. Nearer.
âCho-â you fight to get out the words. âHeâs hah-.â
Bzzzt-bzzzt-bzzzzt-
âCanât speak? Thatâs cute.â he coos, voice way too relaxed for someone whose mind was reeling with the realization that he couldnât remember if he locked the door this time, and how adorable you sounded. Enough so that it made some raw, primal part of him wanna pull down his pants and fuck you right here right now. Cockblocks and his own virginity be damned. âCâmon now, use your words like a good girl. Tell the camera.â
Cocky bastard.
Bzzzt-bzzzt-bzzzzt-
âClose!â you yelp, unsure of whether you were talking about yourself or the looming Sukuna. Jaw slack, tears springing into your ears as you look up at Choso. âSo close.â
God, you were addictive. And this video was definitely going in both your favorites.
âMhm,â he hums, movements getting hastier. More desperate. âI know, maâam.â
Intensity setting 5.
Thatâs all that it takes for you to cum, letting out a loud strangled moan of Chosoâs name. Or, you wouldâve - if it hadnât been for the way heâs shoving two, thick fingers into your mouth.
Silencing you - and in your hazy brain you think that if this was his way of shutting you up, then you really didnât mind. Because all you could taste was you and the cold, cold metal of his rings. Somewhat intoxicating.
âShhhhhh.â heâs breathing out, still mindlessly grinding his hips into yours. Though, you realize with a pang that today wonât be the day you get to feel that achingly hard erection straining his pants. âThese pretty moans arenât for him, hm?â
Pressing on the back of your tongue, smirking at the way you nod tearily up at him, moans still muffled. Hell, do you even know how sexy youâre being right now.
âMhm, all fâme. All for fuckinâ me.â
Knock! Knock! Knock!Â
âWhy the fuck are you locked up in here on a Saturday night?â Sukuna sounds impatient, but not surprised. Probably imagining all sorts of dorky things his nephew was doing to hole himself up in his room. âCome out nâ get this takeout- whatâs left of it anyways.â
And with that, itâs like the magic is over.
Your high only just bating before Chosoâs hurriedly ending the recording on a hazy still of your disappointed pout, cursing Sukuna for his impeccable timing.Â
Slightly concerned about the door being broken down and someone else seeing you in all your fucked-out glory, he hastily moves to grab the spare cloth by his bedside. Cleaning you up with hushed promises of âsending the recording laterâ, and âsâalright, heâll be gone soon.â
Close. You were so close.
A win-win situation - but youâve never felt like more of a loser.
---
âBy God, I never thought heâd get the balls to do it.â
You yelp in surprise at the deep voice from behind you, whirling with a defiant brandish of Chosoâs (your?) keys. Heâd given them to you a few lessons ago, saying it would make it easier for you to come and go from his apartment as you pleased. Which - to you - felt dangerously like something a boyfriend would say-
But that wasnât important right now.
What was important was the older man suddenly towering over you right outside Chosoâs front door. Big arms crossed over his chest, that leering smirk clashing with his pink hair. âI knew it was odd that brat had a pair of heels by the door.â
Shit. Sukuna.
Ryomen awfully-wingman-his-nephew Sukuna.
âSpill.â At your confused head tilt, he plows on. âSpill the tea. I need new blackmail on my lilâ nephew. How badly did he have to beg you to go out with him?â
You donât know what was more bizarre - what he was saying or the way he actually pulls out his Notes app as if hanging on to your every word.Â
âI-Itâs because of you.â you manage to choke out, unsure of what Choso has told his family about you. Eyes flitting between him and the door right behind you, sounding your very best not to sound just as guilty as you felt. âYouâre the reason we have this weirdâŠthing.â
A beat of silence passes. One. Two.Â
And just as youâre beginning to wonder whether youâve broken Chosoâs infamous uncle, he throws his head back and laughs. Laughs, right in your face, sounding like heâd just heard the funniest punchline in the world.Â
âOh thatâs hilarious.â he exclaims, wiping a mock tear. Cackles dying down as if he was suddenly aware that maybe Choso would hear and walk in on this impromptu interrogation. âDamn, that awful pick-up line is why you started fuckinâ? I thought itâd get that sap blocked so heâd stop stalking your account so much.â
âNo, weâŠâ you hesitate, mind reeling with what Sukuna just admitted, and how bad it would really be that youâre divulging your sex life to a relative of the guy youâre fucking. Before thinking fuck it, might as well confide in someone. â...weâre just doing stuff for-â putting up air quotes. â-content.â
âJust content?â
âJust content.â
âAnd you like that fool?â
Your face burns at how glaringly obvious it apparently was, â...Yes.â
This seemingly sets Sukuna off on another wave of uncontrollable laughter. âOhh, thanks for the blackmail on that emotionally-constipated brat.â Typing away on what you assume to be his Notes, he promptly turns to walk away, âSee ya around, doll.â
âWait!â you call after in confusion, making him stop and raise a brow. âArenât you supposed to like- I donât know, give me advice for your nephew or something - like a good uncle?â
Scoffing, âWho said I was a good uncle?â He leans in ever-so-slightly, âJusâ rock his world on camera or somethinâ nâ ask him out right in the middle.â Satisfied with being enough of a decent samaritan for today, he walks back with a half-wave, âHeâd listen to whatever you say anyway.â
Oh. Is that so?
And Sukuna probably meant it as some joke. Something to tease the both of you with - but itâs something that sets the gears going off inside your head. Something that had you ignoring Sukunaâs slightly panicked, âJusâ not too soon, I needa bully him with this first.â
---
You didnât listen to Sukunaâs little plea, of course. Because only a few days later youâd steeled yourself to finally send that one text you knew would change your relationship with Choso. For the good, hopefully.Â
You: 9pm my place. Get ready, cuz this time weâre gonna be live ;)
Cho <3: :0Â
And with that, youâd thrown your phone on the bed, jittery about later tonight. Browsing through your wardrobe for that one set of barely-there lingerie in his favorite shade of pink. Hey, you could never be too prepared, right?
Nothing couldâve prepared Choso for this moment - absolutely nothing at all.Â
He mightâve just died and gone to heaven the very moment he read that dangerous text - finally inviting him to join one of your streams. The ones that heâd always watch in the safety of his bedroom, lights dimmed, pants bunched around his ankles.Â
Cock just achingly hard in his fist while he wished he was with you behind the camera. Getting you off so much better than any sextoy would. Just forcing those pretty moans from your lips - and everyone else could see that. Wish it was them ruining you instead.Â
Alas, it was only a dirty little fantasy.Â
Until now, that is.
slvt4u: Holy shit boyfriend reveal, about time.
uniwhore: THIS is the hottie from Twitter?????Â
itsgenslut: idfc just fuck
âNervous?â you smirk, looking down at the man sprawled so prettily on your bed. âYou look just as close to an aneurysm as you were the first time. Though-â snaking your hand down, â-this is still the same as ever.â
You chuckle at the way Choso catches your lips with his, more to shut up those pathetic little moans threatening to escape him than anything. Because every glance at you in that sinful little pink bra gave Choso a mini heart attack.Â
âB-baby-â he gasps, grinding his clothed erection against your palms. âI wan- hah-â
âMhm?â
And God how youâve ruined Choso - run him so utterly dry of his sanity.
Because heâs angling your head down, piercing cold against your tongue. âSpit.â
It was like that first time had gotten him addicted. So you do - right into his waiting mouth. Jaw dropping at the way he tips his head back, back, back to let it slide so obscenely down his throat. Moaning at just a taste of you, âGod, I need to f-fucking ruin you.â
And if thereâs anything youâve learned after all these months with Choso, itâs that anything he says - he does.
The words have barely left his mouth before heâs pulling your bra off, ripping your panties easily off your hips. Each and every little regret about what a shame it was thrown out the window at the first sight of your pretty pussy.Â
It never gets old - and Choso could never get enough of the sinful sight - your cunt so sloppy and ready for him already.Â
âCho-â you whine as ringed fingertips coming up to circle your sloppy entrance. Cold. Stretching you to insanity. âS-stop teasing.â
âYes, maâam. But first-â shifting you around ever-so-slightly on top of him. âGotta show off how wet yâare fâme.â
uniwhore: did he just call her âmaâamâ?? Me when??
roses101: idk who i wanna be theyâre both so fucking hot ugh
âFuck, yâlook so sexy from this angle. Wonder if the camera thinks so too?â
Your face slightly burns at how he was seemingly taking over your own stream. Smug bastard, you think, glancing down at Choso, red-faced, hair untied, wearing a sly grin as his eyes slide over the flurry of comments. But two can play that game.Â
âCho~â fumbling with the hem of his underwear, âYouâve been holding out on me.â
A gasp leaves you involuntarily as you tug down Chosoâs boxers just enough for his throbbing cock to spring free, hitting his sculpted abdomen. Blushed your favorite shade of pink - to match your bra - so so angry and soaked in precum.Â
He was so intimidatingly long - longer than any of those toys you usually brought on camera. Thick enough that it had you wondering, shit, would you even be able to take it?
âSâthis a-alright?â and for all his previous confidence, Choso sounded self-conscious. Peeking at you through his long lashes.
You grin, pumping a hand up and down his swollen cock, letting his precum drip down your wrist. âSâperfect.â
âGod- fuck, baby. Oh-â Choso lets out breathless little profanities as you straddle his waist, dragging his weeping tip down your swollen folds. So fucking filthy as you sink down in by fucking in. Slowly. âToo- much-â
Apparently too slow because no sooner have you just taken in his fat tip, squeezing and clenching around him, that Chosoâs flipping the both of you over.Â
âMâsorry.â he breathes into your mouth as your back hits the mattress. âMâsorry mâsorry, fuck- just canât-â fingers immediately drawing frenzied little circles on your pulsing clit to take your mind off the dizzying stretch as he bullies his massive cock into your snug cunt. âCanât wait canât wait- waited too fucking long. Want this so badly-â
You felt too good. Too perfect around him.Â
âAh! Hngh- Cho, oh my god. Too- ngh-â you moan, as he starts grinding in shallow, mindless little movements just to fit himself inside. Pushing and pushing, you wondered if he even realized what he was doing.
Sounding like his sanity was dwindling away with each little thrust, âSâtoo big? You can take it. Fuck fuck fuck please. Need this.â Pressing all the way into your lungs. âHow do you wanâ it- how do you wanâ me?â
Honestly, Choso didnât even need to ask, because he just bottoms out - heavy balls smacking against your ass, cock swollen and throbbing inside you - that you think that you just wanted him to ruin you.Â
âR-ruin?â his voice breaks as he repeats - more to himself than you. Oh, shit had you said that out loud? Youâre speechless as Choso throws your legs over his shoulder, dragging his swollen lips lazily across your ankle. âYes maâam.â
Oh. You might as well have just signed off your will.Â
Because then heâs fucking into your sloppy cunt. Unforgiving. A man starved because he was. Jagged, quick thrusts, splitting you apart deeper and deeper on his rock-hard cock.Â
âFuck- fuck fuck fuck-â he pants into your open mouth, finding it so fucking difficult to find any rhythm when your tight cunt was milking him so good. âYou feel so good. So messy. Ya love it like this, huh? Being hngh- watched?â
âHngh-â you buck wildly into his body, reaching up to play coyly with his nipple piercings. Tugging and pulling lightly. âFeels too good- are- ah- are ya sure this is your first time?â
Honestly, it was a wonder Choso didnât cum right then and there.Â
Tojisslvt: need someone to fuck me like this the first time
22sabi: Typing with one hand is so hard.
DaStrongest: i could fuck her so much better than than inexperienced loser
Choso throws his head back in a cruel little laugh at that last comment, something that makes you tingle all the way from your burning cheeks to your stuffed cunt. Clamping down deliciously on Chosoâs unforgiving cock in a way that makes his hips and fingers stutter.Â
âYa think you could fuck her better?â it takes you a second to realize he was talking to the camera and not you. Thrusts getting sloppier, getting familiar. âIâm the one that got her so messy like this.â Purposeful. Calculated. Like he was aiming for that one-
âFuck!â you scream as he hits that magic spot. Once. And then over and over like a man possessed. Just so utterly ruining you the way you knew he could. âCho oh my god- I canât hah- ngh-â
The cold metal of Chosoâs rings dig into your cheek softly as he turns you head to face him. God, this was the stuff of his wildest dreams.
You - teary eyed and looking up at him like such a slut. Pussy getting wetter - tighter - as he teases you in front of the camera. Torn between running away from his relentless cock and bucking up for more more more-
 âFuck no no no- Keep your legs open, baby. Donât hah- run away from me.â his fingers dig into your hips, pulling you impossibly closer. âDonât- need this. Need this so ba- shit.âÂ
And he sounded so genuinely worried heâd lose the feeling of your heady cunt. Fingers bruising on your hips as he pulls you closer. Like he was trying to fuck out any and every shred of shyness out of your body.Â
slvt4u: Always the quiet ones.
DaStrongest: heh, fuck off. iâd make her cum so much harder.
Now, Choso was fucking you like he had a point to prove, and it was probably the only reason he hadnât passed out from how good your pussy felt wrapped around him.Â
Both of you were barely-lucid at this point - and he was out of control now.
Pussy drunk thoughts unfiltered, âNo oneâs ever d-done this- got me hah- feeling like this.â And you had the distinct feeling he just beat you to your original goal, letting out sweet little babbles into your open mouth - though his hips were anything but.Â
So hard that you were sure the creases of your sheets would leave marks for tomorrow - along with his balls on your ass, your ankles on his shoulders, lips searing against yours. It was like he wanted to prove something - to prove he was good enough to- the viewers? To you?Â
Knowing your body well enough to hit that one spot over and over until you were sobbing. Fingers erratic on your clit.Â
âCho-â you squeal, tears springing to your eyes as he only gets sloppier. âI-Iâm gonna-â
âCum?â he breathes, as if he couldnât believe it. And fuck if you werenât the gates of heaven spread wide open for him then he didnât know what was. âFucking cum. Please please- hah- fâme. Cum on mâcock nâ make them jealous. Fâme- Like youâre mine.â
You barely even realize when you are. Jaw slack, eyes rolling to the back of your head as you see stars behind your eyes, blood roaring in your ears. God, he was gonna have to go home and rewatch this stream all over again.Â
âNgh- mâcumming mâcumming oh-â
Not even realizing the way youâre dragging your nails down Chosoâs sculpted back. Marking up his milky skin - and he lets you.Â
Loved it in fact- the way he loved you.Â
Your eyes go wide, and Choso knows heâs fucked up. Realizing with a jolt that words were tumbling out of his mouth before he could stop them. But itâs the way you squeeze him tighter- giving him such a gorgeous little fucked-out smile that sends him over the edge.
Sharp canines digging into the crook of your neck like he wanted to break skin, holding himself back from breaking you while he cums and cums so hard it hurt. Over and over-
âLove you- love you love you love you-â heâs muttering into the skin, unbarred. âSince I first saw hah- you. Wanted this more than fuck fuck- air that I breathe.â
His seed was oozing out of you now, painting your ravaged pussy white, dribbling down your legs. So fucking full and debauched. Thick, hot globs that were sure to stain those overpriced new sheets. But did Choso care for the mess? Not at all.Â
Because you were holding him so impossibly tight, pushing away the strands of hair sticking to his forehead. Whispering little praises as he fucks you through his first time. Close. Warm. Everything he ever dreamed of.
âSâeverything I ever dreamed of, too, Cho.â
And he knows heâs won.Â
urfavslvt: Proudest nut. Want more.
uniwhore: does this mean couples content??? Pls say yes plsplspls
DaStrongest: invite me next time <3
âThought you were embarrassed.â he licks soothingly over the bite. Voice shot, piercing smooth against his tongue. Embarrassing little confessions leaving him with each spark of electricity running through his veins. âThought you didnât stream wâme cuz of that- but shit. Dreamed of this fâso long. So long-â
Oh?
âHey, Cho.â your voice rings through his hazy mind. Just enough for Choso to raise his head and meet your intoxicating, sultry gaze. Giving a sly, sidelong glance at the still-blinking camera.Â
âMhm?â
âWanna film a weekâs worth of âmoviesâ in advance?â
---
Sukuna (do not answer): Oi shitty nephew, where r u Jin made me come over with (half) leftovers.
You: Sorry, not home. At the movies rn.
Sukuna (do not answer): When tf do u go to movies??Â
You: Since now, on a date. You probably canât relate.
Sukuna (do not answer): Stfu nâ stop lying, a date with who? Ur body pillow?? Not like u had the balls to ask out that pretty lilïżœïżœ camgirl anyway.
Haha
Right?Â
You: *girlfriend
Sukuna (do not answer): Huh?
You: Girlfriend.
Sukuna (do not answer): THE FUCKINâ PICK-UP LINE WORKED??
A/N. This came out a LOT longer than expected.Â
Plagiarism not authorized.
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All up in Flames

Pairing: Firefighter!Bucky x Reader
Summary: You just want your toxic ex-boyfriendâs things to stop haunting your apartment. So you let your friends lit the match. But then the sirens come, and with them Bucky Barnes, who puts out more than just the flames.
Word Count: 9.4k
Warning: destruction of personal property; toxic relationship themes (not Bucky); mentions of an ex-partner; anxiety symptoms; fire; consequences of own actions; readerâs ex is an oc; mentions of ghosting and manipulation; Wanda, Natasha and the Reader are roommates
Authorâs Note: I'm not sure how this started, but I felt a strong urge to indulge my unexpected obsession with Bucky as a firefighter. This is ever so slightly inspired by a scene from the series friends. There is an, although fluffy, but also really angsty second part coming up to this in the next few days. The writing part is complete, but I still need to finish some editing. In the meantime, I would love to hear what you think. I hope you enjoy âĄ
Part two
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You are not okay.
You are so far from okay that if you sent a postcard to okay it would get lost in transit, eaten by a dog, and then set on fire.
Which sounds stupid. But thatâs about the luck you are blessed with.
The sun is setting and it might be doing you a favor with that. Spilling soft gold across the city skyline, painting your apartmentâs tiny rooftop garden in a glow so warm and gentle it almost feels like forgiveness.
But youâre not in the mood for forgiveness.
You are in the mood for revenge. The emotional, irrational, wonderfully dramatic kind. The kind that smells of smoke and fury and the remnants of a man who once claimed to love you but couldnât even spell commitment if it came with a free fantasy football draft.
Nolan Aspey. Even his name is a rotting corpse in your mind.
Youâre sitting on an old beanbag chair shaped like a strawberry. It squelches when you move. You suspect it might be leaking. You donât care. Your body is wrapped in a bathrobe that isnât yours. Itâs Natashaâs. Itâs also silk, red, and wildly inappropriate for rooftop lounging in May. Still, she insisted. Said heartbreak demands drama.
To your right is Wanda, perched on a rusted garden chair stolen from the community centerâs Zumba class. Sheâs nursing a glass of something suspiciously green and swirling it as though itâs a portion, legs crossed, eyes twinkling with mischief. Her nails are black and so is her soul. You love her for it.
To your left is Natasha, preparing your small setup. Sheâs wearing aviator sunglasses even though the sun is barely hanging onto the sky, and youâre sure sheâs doing it for the aesthetic.
You stare at the setup. There is a bottle of wine - half full, or half empty, depending on whether youâre crying or screaming at any given moment - and a Bluetooth speaker playing a playlist titled Sad Bitch Anthems Vol. 1
You donât feel like a bitch, though. You feel more like 73% pathetic and 27% rage.
Because in front of you, next to the trash can Natasha is placing - on a cracked terracotta platter that used to house a very unfortunate basil plant - is the pile.
Your ex-boyfriendâs stuff. A pile of heartbreak. The skeletal remains of your relationship.
One hoodie that still holds traces of his cologne - a scent that haunts your dreams and also your laundry hamper. Four concert tickets from that indie band he dragged you to. Two dozen Polaroids of smiles that now feel counterfeit. A necklace he gave you from a kiosk in the mall and claimed was real moonstone but it was plastic, who would have guessed. A series of agonizingly handwritten love letters he sent you after ghosting you for a week. A book you lent him that he never returned, except now itâs water-damaged and somehow sticky. You donât want to ask why. And a mug that says Boss Man.
Youâve always hated that mug.
You stare at the pile and the pile stares back.
âOkay,â Natasha starts, stretching the word out and flicking open a Zippo lighter with a casually pleasing look. âLetâs set this bitch ablaze.â
âI donât know,â you hesitate, like a woman who knows this is a terrible idea and is about to do this anyway. âIs this even legal?â
âIs heartbreak legal?â Wanda asks dramatically, putting on oven mitts and holding a fire extinguisher as though itâs a designer clutch. âIs betrayal legal? Is gaslighting-â
âWe get it,â you cut in quickly. âHe sucked.â
âOh he did more than suck,â Natasha exclaims, crouching beside the metal trash bin. âHe emotionally vaporized you.â
âAnd thatâs why weâre liberating his soul,â Wanda nods solemnly, her Sokovian accent making everything sound like a funeral dirge or a hex. âWith fire.â
âAlright, you freaks,â you chuckle a little weakly, something tugging at your chest. âI just- I feel like we should say something,â you continue, voice low. As though youâre standing over a grave.
Wanda lifts an eyebrow. âAn eulogy?â
Natasha, already about to strike the match, snorts. âA spell, more like.â
You ignore them. Or try to.
You reach down, pick up the hoodie. Hold it in your hands as though it still is something important to you. You hate that. And itâs ridiculous because he once wore this while spilling bean dip all over your white couch and didnât even apologize.
Still, you hesitate.
âI mean,â you go on, voice small, âis this crazy? Like, should I be processing this more healthily?â
Natasha tosses the match into the bowl with all the ceremony of a seasoned arsonist. âThis is healthy,â she says lowly. âYouâre purging. This is emotional detox.â
Wanda nods. âAlso, we brought marshmallows.â
You stare.
She lifts a grocery bag. âIn case the fire gets big enough.â
You want to protest. To say something sensible. Something like, this surely is illegal, or this is definitely going to attract attention, or rooftop gardens are not structurally designed for bonfires. But instead, you sigh. Pick up one of the letters. Hold it above the flames that are just beginning to flicker.
âI hope he can feel this from wherever heâs ghosting people now.â
The paper catches as though it was waiting for this moment. As though it has always wanted to be free of the nonsense inked into it.
Wanda claps softly. âTo ashes.â
âTo cleansing,â Natasha adds, sipping her wine while watching you in satisfaction.
You pick up the mug next. Look at it one last time, the painted letters mocking you with their ceramic certainty. Then you chuck it into the trash can. The sound it makes - crack, splinter, dead - is gratifying in a way therapy canât afford to be.
Your therapist would say this is unhealthy.
Your landlord would say this is grounds for eviction.
Your heart says burn all of it to ashes.
You sit back. Watch as the fire grows bolder, licking up the fabric of his old hoodie. The smoke rises in ribbons, curling around the string lights above and the half-dead succulents in your rooftop sanctuary.
The flames kill fabric, memories, and lies. For a few seconds, itâs cathartic.
You feel free, weirdly, relaxing in your seat. Powerful. Slightly unhinged.
Wanda lets out a feral scream and throws in a pair of his socks.
Natasha sips wine straight from the bottle, smirking.
Youâre laughing. Or crying. Or both.
Then there is a crackle.
A pop.
âIs it supposed to make that sound?â Wanda asks, a little too casually.
Natasha shades her eyes with her hand. âOh.â
âOh?â you repeat. Thereâs dread in your voice. A sweet, rising note of oh no I didnât sign up for actual consequences.
âThe candle wax spilled,â Natasha states, calm.
âWhy was there wax?â you ask, less calm.
âI thought it would smell nice. Vanilla coconut. Seasonal.â
Wanda leans forward. âUm.â
The fire gets bigger.
It gets way bigger.
The flames lap - ever so enthusiastically - at the rim of the metal bin and start talking to the wind and now the wind is flirting back and suddenly this has escalated into something biblical.
âUh,â you let out.
âDonât panic,â Wanda says, panicking.
âI am panicking,â you shout, slapping at a spark that just landed on your blanket as though itâs a bug from hell.
Natasha grabs the fire extinguisher from Wanda after she only fumbles around with the handle.
Wanda holds out her wine as though it might help.
You just stare at the roaring column of flame that used to be your dignity and think you should have just blocked Nolan like a normal person.
âShould I call someone?â
âI mean,â Natasha says, still somewhat calm, brushing ash from her robe, âprobably-â
Wanda does it for you.
You hear her muttering into her phone, giving your apartment number like itâs a confession while fanning the smoke with a pizza box.
And you sit there with that sinking, desperate feeling that comes only from realizing you made a terrible life choice, and youâre about to pay for it in paperwork and possibly a visit from the landlord.
The air is full of smoke and regret and singed hoodie.
At least his cologne no longer stings in your nose.
You fan the flames uselessly with a throw pillow and silently pray the neighbors of you three are too busy binge-watching reality TV to notice that the building might be on the brink of spontaneous combustion.
All you wanted was to burn some memories. Some manipulative words. A tiny, hoodie-shaped piece that saw you cry on two separate birthdays. The hoodie that watched you fall asleep restlessly on couches that werenât yours. The hoodie he left behind as though it meant nothing, as though you meant nothing.
So now you are holding a pillow with shaking hands and a mouthful of second guesses, standing over a metal bin on your rooftop, trying not to make eye contact with the fire as it gets uglier.
And Natasha doesnât seem to know how to use a fire extinguisher either, bits of foam leaving it, like tiny sprinkles.
You try to help with your blanket. The one with the flowers on it.
They start faintly.
The sirens.
Growing louder.
Like judgment. Or fate. Or the consequences of impulsively burning your romantic history without a permit.
That sound, loud and authoritative and promising rescue, bounces off the buildings and down alleyways like a soundtrack written just for your mental breakdown.
Somewhere in the distance, a car alarm starts wailing as though even it canât handle the drama.
You hear the brakes of the fire truck before you see it. Hear the way they hiss and groan against the street as though the truck is just as tired of cleaning up after emotionally unstable civilians as you are of being one.
You lean over the ledge of the roof, peering down like Rapunzel mid-crisis, and there it is.
Big. Red. Serious.
Three firemen step out. Their silhouettes are backlit by flashing lights. You feel, absurdly, as though youâre in a heist film. Or a rom-com. Or a public service announcement.
One of them is talking into a radio.
One of them is already unloading equipment.
And one of them is looking up.
At you.
He squints. Cocks his head slightly. Takes you in.
A moment later, theyâre clomping up the stairs, boots loud against the old steel.
The door to the rooftop bursts open.
You are trying very hard to look like someone who has not created a situation requiring professional intervention. But you know itâs not working.
You expect seriousness. Gruffness and unamused men, middle-aged with a mustache and a strong opinion on smoke detectors.
But the men walking onto your rooftop are none of that.
There is a blond one. Tall. Built like the worldâs most polite oak tree.
Another one is smiling. Smirking. Radiating fun uncle energy despite the full turnout gear.
And the last one. Heâs tall and broad and also wears the full gear - helmet tucked under one arm, soot-smudged gloves on the other - and still, he manages to look as though he walked off the set of a calendar shoot titled Americaâs Hottest Emergency. Heâs the one who looked up at you from below.
âEvening, ladies,â he says, voice low and a little raspy, as though he chews gravel for breakfast but politely wipes his mouth after.
His eyes are blue. Clear. Kind.
His gear fits him as though it was pressed in heaven.
Heâs calm. Collected. He glances once at the smoking bin, then at Natasha holding a fire extinguisher as though it might double as a weapon, then back at you.
âThis the source?â
His voice is deep and even and somehow gentle. He gestures toward the bin, thatâs now doing its best impersonation of a forge. The fireâs down to a few stubborn flames now, black smoke rising into the sky.
âYes,â you answer, after what is definitely too long a pause.
His name tag says Barnes.
His uniform is clean and neat and slightly smudged at the knees. His hands are gloved. His expression is unreadable.
âWe take it from here,â says the blond with the tag Rogers, already moving toward the bin.
âWeâve got a call about open flame, potential spread. You ladies okay?â Barnes speaks up again.
You open your mouth.
Wanda opens her mouth.
Natasha gets there first.
âIt was controlled.â
He raises an eyebrow. Glances at the still-smoldering hoodie, the wine, the melted candle that now looks as though itâs auditioning for a horror movie.
âIt was semi-controlled,â she clarifies.
Barnes exchanges a glance with his colleague, the one dousing the final embers. The patch on his jacket says Wilson.
âUh-huh,â he simply lets out, though there is a hint of amusement in his tone. He doesnât laugh. But his eyes sparkle as though he wants to.
You want the ground to open up and swallow you. You want to disappear, evaporate into smoke like the hoodie, the letters, the relationship, your pride.
You clear your throat.
Barnes already turns back to you. And oh. Oh.
His intense gaze is doing things to you.
And it doesnât help that your face probably is covered in soot and existential shame.
âJust out of curiosity,â Bucky says slowly, a small tug at the corner of his mouth. âWhat exactly were you trying to do?â
Natasha folds her arms.
âTherapy,â she responds, as though itâs obvious. âWe were doing therapy.â
âWith fire?â Wilson chimes in, skeptical and mildly delighted.
âHad a rough night,â Wanda offers suddenly. âHer ex. Real piece of work.â
You inhale sharply. âWanda,â you warn, wobbling with the effort to appear dignified while wearing fuzzy socks and an aggressively red bathrobe thatâs slowly coming untied.
âNo, he was,â she insists. âHe lied. Manipulated her. Ghosted her after a year of dating. Said he wasnât ready for a relationship, for commitment, and whatnot, and then got engaged. Two weeks later. To someone who doesnât even like dogs.â
You see Barnes wince.
âDamn,â Wilson lets out.
You close your eyes for a moment.
The rooftop is very still, save for the hiss of water on ashes.
Barnes doesnât laugh.
He doesnât say anything for a second. Just looks at you. Measures you.
âThatâs rough.â His voice comes low. Even. However, there is more to it.
You nod once. Youâre not sure what else to say.
He runs a hand over the back of his neck. He looks as though he wants to say something else. Something a little softer. But the blond speaks up.
âNext time you feel like getting rid of things,â he says, voice sympathetic, but firm, âmight want to try a donation bin.â
Natasha smirks. âNot as satisfying.â
Rogerâs lips twitch. Just barley. âWell, if youâre going to keep burning stuff, maybe give us a heads-up next time.â
You just want to be swallowed by something. The earth maybe while weâre at it.
Buckyâs eyes are soft. Subtle. Like watching an iron door swing open just a crack.
âDid it help, though?â he asks, seeming sincere.
You blink.
You certainly didnât expect a question like that. You might have expected teasing. Or mockery. Not gentleness. Understanding. As though he stood where you are. As though maybe he tried to burn his past too.
You nod, a little shyly. âA little.â
The fire has now been extinguished. Wilson and Rogers share a few words, poking the ashes with a metal rod.
And Bucky still looks at you as though you are not ridiculous. As though you are not ash-streaked and emotionally unstable.
Then he clears his throat. Smiles a slow, crooked, criminally charming smile. Itâs the kind of smile that makes you want to confess things. Dreams. Secrets. Your social security number.
âWell,â he starts smoothly. âFireâs out. No citation this time, but maybe go easy on the candle sacrifices.â
You feel something in your chest flutter. Or combust. Honestly, hard to tell at this point.
You want to thank him. You want to say something easy. But you are still a hot, melted candle of a person yourself.
So instead, you nod. âOkay,â you promise, voice rather small.
He tips an imaginary hat. Then turns back to his team. Taps his helmet once against his leg and gives the others a low command you canât hear.
The moment is over. Clean-up begins. The fire is out. The chaos is settling.
But for some reason, your heart is still making noise.
****
Time doesnât tiptoe.
It lumbers, loud and unbalanced, dragging itself across your days with all the grace of a wounded elephant.
But still, it moves. And you start to feel like yourself again. Piece by piece.
You sweep the ash out of your ribcage. You remember what it feels like to listen to music without flinching. To laugh and mean it. To make pasta at two in the morning just because you want to. To exist without waiting for the next disappointment.
Itâs enough for you to walk barefoot again without stepping on invisible landmines disguised as memory - his coffee mug, his toothbrush, his phone charger, his smell stuck to your pillowcase like grief with a cologne subscription.
But all of that is gone now. Burned.
Literally.
Charcoal in a rooftop bin. Ashes scattered to the wind like bad omens. The hoodieâs gone. Melted into memory. Along with the notes, the tickets, the Polaroid of the two of you at that Halloween party where he said he loved you for the first time with sugar on his lips and a lie in his mouth.
Youâre better now.
And on a Thursday, you find yourself sitting cross-legged on the couch, wrapped in a blanket that smells of Wandaâs lemon detergent and safety, your head in Wandaâs lap, legs draped over Natashaâs thighs, all of you filled with late breakfast and post-shower hair and the warm, sleepy glow of late morning.
Wanda is ranting about her dream journal. She always tries to analyze her dreams for some reason.
âBut I was a tree, Y/n,â sheâs saying, balancing a mug on your shoulder. âAn emotional tree. I cried leaves.â
Natasha doesnât blink. âThatâs tracks.â
You hum amused. âYouâve always been sympathizing with nature, Wan.â
Wanda points her spoon at you as though itâs a wand. âYou get it. Nature is screaming and I hear her.â
A worn novel lay on your shins on Natashaâs lap, cracked open. But sheâs been on the same page for twenty minutes. You think sheâs listening more than she lets on.
The apartment smells of roasted bread. The sun is slanting in through the windows just right - those lazy golden stripes that make even your chipped coffee table look cinematic.
âDo you think he knows?â you voice after a silent moment.
Natasha raises an eyebrow. âKnows what?â
âThat I burned his stuff?â
Wanda hums, carding her fingers through your hair. âDonât think about that. It doesnât matter if he knows. The universe knows. Thatâs enough.â
You glance at the windows. You wonder if the hoodie screamed when it caught fire. You hope it did.
âHonestly,â you say around a handful of cereal, voice lighter, âburning that stuff was the healthiest decision Iâve ever made.â
Natasha smirks. âAside from therapy.â
âObviously.â
âAnd cutting your bangs.â
âThat was a journey.â
Wanda lifts her mug. âTo combustion and personal growth.â
You clink your cereal box against her cup. âAmen.â
There were, of course, consequences. A polite but stern letter from the landlord. An eye-roll of a fine from the city. For future ceremonial burnings, please contact the fire department in advance, it read.
But it was worth it.
Every last spark.
Thereâs a comfort here, in the clutter, in the way time is moving again. Not fast, not smooth, but forward. Youâve started reading books again. Youâve stopped stalking his Instagram. Well, mostly.
âYou seem about a few steps away from writing a memoir called How to Set Men on Fire (and Still Make It to Brunch)â Natasha muses.
âIâd buy that,â Wanda immediately chimes in.
You snort.
Outside, someone yells at their dog. A siren shrieks in the far-off distance like an unfinished thought. Your apartment smells of burnt toast and coffee grounds, and itâs home.
Youâre okay.
Almost.
And then the fire alarm goes off.
It screams. A wailing, shrieking, banshee of a sound, as though the building is having a panic attack and wants you to join in. Lights flash. The walls vibrate. Your soul tries to exit your body.
Wandaâs spoon hovers in the air.
Natasha glances at the ceiling with an unimpressed look.
You feel your pulse do a little skip. Not in a full panic. But a creeping suspicion unfurls behind your ribs.
Natasha is already standing, moving, with the efficiency of a woman whoâs never been surprised in her life.
âIs this us?â Wanda asks, voice high and uncertain. She looks around your shared apartment. âDid we- was it the oven?â
You bolt upright. âNothingâs in the oven.â
âWell then who-â
âI swear I didnât light anything.â You raise your hands.
âWell, I didnât either,â Wanda insists.
âDoesnât smell like us,â Natasha says, sniffing the air like a human smoke detector.
But none of that matters because the building has made a decision and that decision is everyone out now.
Youâre still sitting. Youâre in pajamas. You all are. And not the cute kind either. The kind that suggests youâve been crying into a tub of ice cream while watching documentaries about whales. The kind with ducks on the pants and a sweatshirt thatâs two sizes too big and maybe has a mustard stain from Tuesday.
You hear doors opening. Feet on stairs. Someone is yelling about their cat.
Natasha grabs her phone and keys. âLetâs go before it turns into the Hunger Games.â
You move. Slowly.
Youâve made your peace with fire, sure - but only the kind you start on purpose. Symbolic. Controlled. Supervised by emotionally repressed firefighters with sharp jaws and suspicious amounts of upper body strength.
But this is unexpected.
This is the kind of thing that sends a hot flood of unease down your spine, because what if the universe is laughing at you again? What if you are, yet again, being punished for trying to let go?
You follow Wanda and Natasha out the door.
The hallway is bright with flashing lights - red, urgent. The sound is louder out here. So loud it makes your teeth vibrate. You canât tell if itâs coming from your floor or somewhere above, but thereâs a smell this time. Faint, sharp, ugly. Plastic and heat and something bitter curling in the air.
Thereâs a river of bathrobes and sweatpants and panicked neighbors. The stairwell smells like old takeout and anxiety. A toddler is crying. Someoneâs dog is barking. A woman herds two cats into a carrier with shaking hands.
Mr. Feldman from 3B is arguing with someone on speakerphone about whether he unplugged the coffee maker, and you think the fire alarm might actually be the least chaotic sound happening right now.
âWas this us?â you repeat Wandaâs question, a little unsure, as you file down the stairs like middle-class refugees.
âNo,â Natasha mutters coolly. âBut Iâm still blaming you.â
You clutch the railing and follow, ducking your head, trying not to make eye contact with any of your neighbors as your duck-printed pajama pants flap dramatically behind you.
You shouldnât care. No one looks good during evacuation. And Wanda and Natasha look the same.
And yet. Your heart is doing something strange again.
It isnât panic. It is expectation.
Your chest knows something your brain refuses to name.
At the bottom of the stairwell, someone holds the door open and you all spill into the daylight. The whole building is out now, buzzing like bees, people muttering and shielding their eyes.
You breathe in. Sharp. Cool. You try to ignore the knot forming in your stomach.
Smoke - real and thick - drifts from one of the kitchen windows on the fourth floor.
The crowd shifts around you - barefoot neighbors, a couple wrapped in matching bathrobes, one guy in boxers and cowboy boots holding a microwave. Someone brought their goldfish out in a bowl.
You stand near the hedges with Natasha on one side, arms crossed, and Wanda on the other, biting a fingernail and muttering something about how she definitely turned off the stove.
And then - like something out of a fever dream or a scene you didnât realize you were still starring in - you hear it.
The sirens.
Louder this time. Close.
You freeze.
Wanda gives you a side-eye.
Natasha is already smirking. Already watching the street like a woman with a secret.
Thereâs a rumble. A hiss. The low growl of something inevitable.
And there it is.
The truck.
Big. Glossy red. Familiar. Like a mouth ready to swallow your dignity whole. Lights flash, the crew leaps down, gear gleams in the late morning light.
Fife firefighters fan out with mechanical movements. Their boots hit the pavement.
And one of them is Barnes.
He swings out of the cab with the ease of someone who does this for a living, the kind of grace that comes from muscle memory and a thousand repetitions.
Helmet under one arm. Radio clipped to his shoulder. That same uniform hugging his frame beautifully, as though even his clothes know how lucky they are.
He doesnât see you at first.
Heâs too busy scanning the building, hollering orders. Wilson and Rogers follow behind, already moving. You watch them as though this is a movie.
Barnes is all lines and velocity. His body moves as though he doesnât need to think, as though instinct lives in his spine. The heavy jacket makes his shoulders look even broader, the suspenders visible where the coat parts, and everything about him suggests competence with a capital C. Heâs not just handsome, heâs horrifyingly capable.
Your mouth is dry.
His eyes sweep the crowd.
And then he sees you.
He stops. Only for a second. His face changes.
You wish you had the words to explain it, to bottle it, to pin it down like a butterfly under glass. Itâs not surprise exactly.
Itâs something softer. Smaller. Recognition.
His eyes travel down your frame like a soft inventory. Not lewd, not invasive. Just checking to make sure youâre still whole.
Your whole body wants to shrink into itself like an accordion. You are in duck pajama pants. You have mascara from yesterday smeared beneath one eye and your socks donât match and you have nothing to use as a shield against judgment.
Barnes doesnât say anything as he walks past your cluster, but his gaze brushes yours again. A flicker. Like a note passed under the table. You feel it in your spine.
And then heâs gone, slipping into the building.
The door swings closed behind him.
And your whole body forgets what it was doing.
The tall blond and another man whose name tag youâre not able to make out follow him, shouting something into the radio as they rush through the front doors. Wilson stays near the truck, communicating with a woman in a blazer. Another circles the buildingâs exterior, already unraveling the hose in a way that feels choreographed.
Wanda exhales beside you. âOkay but why do I feel like I need to sit down.â
Natasha keeps smirking. âGirlâs not even on fire and he still looked like he wanted to carry her out bridal style.â
You donât answer. You pretend not to hear them. Youâre too busy trying to teach your lungs how to work.
A woman nearby is having a loud conversation with her parrot in a travel cage. An older man keeps pointing at the sky and saying something about chemtrails.
Across the street, a woman with curlers in her hair cradles a barking Pomeranian. A man in flannel pajama bottoms is life-streaming on Instagram, offering uninformed commentary like, âYeah, looks like theyâre going in hot. You seen that one dude? Thatâs the captain. I think. Or maybe the lieutenant? I donât know, heâs got the vibe.â
But you are watching the front door.
Five minutes pass. Maybe ten. It feels like too long. You chew the inside of your cheek until it tastes of metal.
Then the door opens again.
Barnes steps out first.
Heâs holding a cat.
A full-grown orange tabby against his chest. It meows furiously but stays nestled against his jacket, one paw resting just under his collarbone.
The crowd parts for him as though he is Moses with a fireproof jacket.
âOh would you look at that,â Wanda whispers delighted. âA true hero.â
You inhale through your nose. It doesnât help.
You continue watching how he walks across the street and hands the cat to a sobbing teenage girl who is engulfed in a comforter and clutching the fabric with trembling hands. He squats in front of her. Saying something. Something soft, gentle, reassuring. And she laughs through her tears. You watch her nod. You watch her wipe her face with her sleeve.
You want to ask what he said.
You want to ask a thousand things.
But mostly, you want to stand still in this feeling a little longer.
Itâs something shaped like interest, tilted toward longing, balanced on the lip of something you never expected to feel just yet.
âJust smoke from a toaster,â one of the other firefighters calls out. His name tag says Torres. âNo damage. False alarm.â
The neighbors sigh. Groan. Someone claps.
You still canât look away from him.
He stands again. And then thereâs another glance.
His posture is relaxed now. The light hits the silver of his belt buckle and makes your eyes squint. A breeze picks up and he runs a hand through his hair.
God, he looks human in a way that makes you forget youâre made of skin and not glass.
People are filing back into the building, muttering about smoke detectors and building codes, their faces pulled into various expressions of relief, annoyance, and boredom.
Youâre still on the curb.
The sirens have stopped. The smoke has thinned.
And then suddenly, Barnes turns. Starts walking. Straight toward you.
Your pulse is pounding as though the building is about to fall.
You pull your sleeves over your hands because itâs all you can do with them.
Youâre staring at a crack in the pavement. One that branches like lightning across the sidewalk. One youâve never noticed before, though you must have stepped over it a hundred times. It looks like something trying to split open, as though even the concrete is tired of pretending.
You look up and heâs already halfway to you.
He is walking as though he means to. Not rushing, but not wandering, either.
Heâs got his jacket slung over one shoulder this time, sloppily, as though he forgot it mattered. The suspenders are still visible, stretched over a plain navy shirt that shouldnât be as flattering as it is. His gloves are tucked in the crook of his elbow. The radio clipped to his belt is crackling with static and shorthand codes, but he doesnât reach for it. A smudge of soot streaks his jaw like a shadow of what he just walked through.
His boots are heavy, but his steps arenât. His eyes are on you.
He walks like someone who isnât thinking too hard about where heâs going but definitely knows where he wants to stop.
You blink twice. Your heartbeat forgets what tempo itâs supposed to be playing.
Natasha says nothing, but you feel her lean imperceptibly to the side, just out of the line. Wanda pretends to scroll on her phone, though the screen is black and upside down.
There is still the faint scent of smoke in the air. But his scent cuts through it - soap, metal, something warm and masculine that probably shouldnât make your knees wobble, but does.
You consider digging a hole in the sidewalk and folding yourself into it like a collapsible chair.
But you donât. You donât move.
You donât breathe.
And then heâs there. Right there.
Boots planted on pavement. A hairâs breadth too close for casual, a hairâs breadth too far for intentional.
You look up at him.
He looks down at you.
âWell,â he starts, rough voice, but you see a twitch of amusement in his mouth that seeps warmly into his tone, âthis isnât gonna turn into a habit, is it?â
Your pulse makes poor decisions. You forget every single word youâve ever learned in any language, including your native one.
A corner of his mouth quirks up further. âBecause if it is, Iâm gonna start thinking you just like havinâ us over.â
You find scratches of your voice somewhere in your throat. âWasnât us this time, gladly,â you say, a bashful and breathless laugh fleeing your lips. You turn to Natasha and Wanda for a moment but it seems they expect you to lead this conversation.
âGlad to hear it,â he says, tilting his head. âHad me worried for a second. Fire call, same building. Whole lotta commotion. Coulda been you tryinâ to burn something again.â His tone holds a teasing edge. His eyes are glinting.
You cringe. âRight. Sorry about that, again.â
A smile breaks fully across his face - slowly, as if itâs deciding whether itâs allowed to exist. It changes his whole face. Brightens him, somehow. As though there is a light inside his chest and someone just flipped the switch.
âAh, no worries. Sâ what weâre here for,â he rumbles, amused but soft.
Heâs still smiling. Still watching you with that calm, unreadable focus that makes you feel as if youâre standing under a magnifying glass, but not in a cruel way.
âNameâs Bucky, by the way,â he says, like a gift.
You stare. âSorry, what?â
He smiles wider. âMy name. Bucky. Captain Barnes, technically, but Buckyâs fine. You know, in case you decide to burn anything again and want a direct line.â
Your mouth parts.
âOh,â is all that comes out. Brilliantly. Eloquently. Like a poet in the throes of emotional ruin.
Bucky chuckles softly, a little small. Then scratches the back of his neck.
âI, uh-â he starts, then stops. Then shifts his weight a little. âI didnât get your name last time.â
You study the smudge on his ridiculously handsome face. The square of his jaw. The lashes too long for fairness. The scar, faint and silvery, placed just under his left eye like a comma he forgot to erase.
You tell him your name.
His smile deepens when he hears it. Grows softer. He repeats it once, quietly, as though he is trying it out. You wish he wouldnât do that. You wish heâd do it again.
âWell,â he notes, glancing down at the pavement, then back at you. âNice to meet you officially. Under slightly less dramatic circumstances.â
You smile. âSlightly.â
There is a beat. A quiet one. His eyes flicker down your frame and back up - quick, respectful, but curious. You swear he clocks the fact that your hands are shaking a little.
He rebalances, a ripple passing down his spine to his heels. âYou okay, though? Really?â
You nod, heart hammering too loudly in your ears. âYeah, weâre okay. Itâs a relief that it was only a false alarm. And it wasnât us.â
You gesture lamely at the girls. Wanda waves with exactly one finger. Natasha stands there with the corner of her mouth tugged up smugly. She barely nods.
Bucky doesnât take his eyes off you.
Itâs not overt. Not predatory or invasive. But itâs not nothing, either. Just direct.
He nods slowly. As though your answer passed inspection.
âYou girls all live together?â
You nod again, teeth catching the inside of your cheek. âYeah. All three of us. Since last spring.â
He hums. Doesnât look away.
Doesnât look at Natasha. Doesnât look at Wanda.
Just you.
âGood,â he says finally. âThatâs good. Youâve got backup.â
You smile, tentatively. âTheyâre alright.â
âSure are,â Natasha deadpans.
Wanda throws a heart at you with her hands.
Buckyâs eyes crinkle a little at the edges. You want to bottle that look. Hide it in your drawer. Peek at it when the day is quiet and you forget what warmth feels like.
A pause.
You think maybe thatâs it. Maybe heâll tip his head, excuse himself, go back to his team. That would make sense. That would be the responsible, professional thing to do.
Instead, he points to your pants. âNice ducks, by the way.â
You stare at him. You absolutely, completely stare.
Natasha makes a pretty unattractive snorting sound behind you.
Wanda is suddenly very interested in retying her shoelaces.
âThanks,â you manage. âTheyâre vintage.â You hope you sound less embarrassed than you feel.
He lets out a rumbling laugh.
Then the tall blond calls his name. Rogers. Sharp. Quick. Business.
Bucky turns, lifts a hand in acknowledgment. âDuty calls.â
He takes a step backward, but his eyes stay on yours a second too long.
And then he winks. Itâs absurd. Itâs illegal. Itâs completely unnecessary.
âIt was nice seeing you again.â
Then he walks back to the truck. Climbs in.
The engine roars. The lights flash once more for good measure. The truck eases into the street, and he is gone.
But you donât move.
You just stand there, blinking into the smoke-tinged sunlight, your names still hanging between you.
You roll his name around in your head like a stone youâre not ready to skip.
Wanda steps up beside you, peering after the truck. She sighs like a Victorian ghost. âI love that you didnât blink that entire time.â
âI blinked,â you grumble.
âYou didnât,â Natasha confirms flatly.
You inhale deeply.
Wanda grins. âSo, what are we going to burn next.â
You exhale. Laugh, light and shocked and a little bit lost.
And you donât answer.
But youâve never wanted to set something on fire so badly, just to see if heâd come back.
****
You donât want to go.
Not even a little. Not even at all.
You say it with your whole chest, with your arms crossed and your face stuffed into the corner of the couch cushion.
Wanda is painting her toenails on the coffee table. âCome one. Itâll be fun.â
Natasha doesnât look up from her phone. âItâs good for team bonding.â
âTeam bonding?â you squeak. âWhat are we, a softball league?â
Natasha shrugs. âIâm just saying. If thereâs ever another toaster incident, Iâd rather not die because you were emotionally incapacitated by a bread product.â
You groan into the pillow.
Wanda and Natasha signed you up for a fire safety class.
And youâre terrified.
Because itâs been weeks since you saw him last. Weeks since the smoke, and the heat, and the stupid lingering eye contact. Since he said your name as though he meant to keep it in his mouth for a while.
And you know - because your spine told you before your brain caught up - you know Bucky Barnes is going to be there.
You know this because Wanda knows things, and Natasha forces things into being.
And yes, okay, you miss him. You do. You hate that you do. You met the guy two times and still, your heart folds a little at the sound of diesel engines, you started keeping your hair brushed and your lips soft just in case the universe decides to toss him back into your orbit.
But seeing him again would surely feel like touching a sunburn.
You donât want to burn.
You donât want to heal, either.
You want to stay in this in-between where you get to miss him quietly without having to do anything about it.
So naturally, you end up in a folding chair in the local fire stationâs multi-purpose room at 6:59 pm on a Wednesday.
There is a faint scent of metal and ash in the air. The kind that stays on walls no matter how many layers of institutional paint try to hide it. The overhead fluorescents are buzzing as though they are irritated by your presence. A series of old community flyers hang crookedly by the entrance. One says Stop, Drop, and Roll Your Way Into Preparedness! with a cartoon Dalmatian smiling as if it has secrets.
And although you would rather perish than admit it to your best friends, you came prepared.
Youâve been preparing for this moment the way some people prepare for court trials or emotionally complex family dinners.
You know the difference between a Class A and Class B fire.
You know the ideal temperature range from smoke detectors to function.
You know that a grease fire should never be doused with water and that lots of people donât find this fact to be obvious.
You even practiced saying pull, aim, squeeze, sweep in a tone of detached casual interest while brushing your teeth last night.
Because you thought maybe if he sees you as competent, as calm, as someone who doesnât panic around fire or men with broad shoulders, then maybe heâd-
You donât finish the thought.
Because itâs dangerous.
Because although you didnât agree to go here, you technically didnât say no, which Natasha argued was basically a signed contract in this household and Wanda only hummed from the kitchen while printing out the registration forms.
Because your stomach flipped when Wanda said his name earlier. Because it flips every time. It still flips now.
Because you think about him too much. And you know you shouldnât.
Youâve been doing well. Truly, objectively, almost scientifically well. You burned the things of your ex. You deleted his number. You ignored the last two texts, even when they got mean. You ignored phone calls from anonymous numbers because you knew he had his ways of reaching you. You told yourself it was done.
But it was Wanda who said it last night, curled into your couch with her knees tucked under your blanket and sympathy as well as concern in her eyes.
âHeâs going to keep trying, you know. That kind of man always does. The trick is to stop listening before he gets loud enough to convince you youâre still his.â
You didnât say anything then.
But now, sitting here, hands tucked under your thighs, ankles crossed awkwardly, the words feel like something still echoing inside your chest.
Youâre trying not to sweat through your light sweater, trying not to pull at your sleeves as though you are twelve again and back in gym class, trying very hard not to imagine what itâs going to feel like when he walks in.
Bucky.
God, even his name feels like a bruise you keep poking on purpose.
âJust relax,â Wanda eases from beside you, all calm and legs crossed and sipping her chamomile tea in a travel mug she smuggled in as though itâs not against the rules. âItâs just a class.â
âAnd not just any,â Natasha adds sultry, flipping her ponytail over her shoulder with the kind of confidence youâre not able to possess at the moment. âItâs fire safety. Youâll learn to stop, drop, and roll, and make eye contact with your future husband.â
You turn to look at her. âI hate you.â
She nods. âBut in a sexy, grateful way.â
You sigh. Cross your arms. Chew on the edge of your thumbnail and silently negotiate with god.
And then he walks in.
You feel him before you see him. Like gravity shifting. Like a magnetic field drawing your molecules to the surface of your skin.
Bucky Barnes steps through the doorway in a dark navy station polo, sleeves hugging his biceps with zero regard for your emotional stability. His uniform is not the big, intimidating, soot-stained kind with suspenders and the heavy boots and the sense that something is burning. This is the community outreach uniform. His dark hair is swept back but a little tousled, as though maybe he was in a rush. There is a clipboard under one arm, a radio attached to his belt, and he looks like competence in human form.
You exhale as though youâve been underwater.
The entire class - about twelve people in total - turn to look at him as though theyâve never seen a firefighter before in their lives. There are a few women in yoga pants, a very enthusiastic grandpa, one teenager who looks as though he was dragged here as punishment, and a few genuinely interested looking men.
He doesnât see you right away. Heâs scanning the front row, muttering something to one of the other firefighters - Danvers, her name tag reads, a straight-standing, no-nonsense woman with a kind smile. She looks as though she could carry a refrigerator up a mountain, and you sink further into your chair.
Wanda leans into your space. âI can basically hear your ovaries-â
âShut up,â you grit out, feeling as though you might melt into the fabric of the chair beneath you.
Bucky scans the room, nods a polite greeting.
And then he sees you.
You freeze.
He doesnât.
Itâs not dramatic. Not some cinematic double-take.
Itâs worse. Itâs soft.
His eyes catch yours and he smiles. Just a small curve of the lips. But itâs tender. Not performative. Not polite.
Your heart cartwheels straight out of the window.
You try to smile back but youâre pretty sure what happens on your face is chaotic.
Wanda makes a sound into your ear that can only be described as a squeal disguised as a cough. Natasha looks far too smug.
Bucky turns back to the room as though nothing happened. As though he hasnât just detonated something in your bloodstream.
But he does stand a little straighter. Taller. Composed.
Then he claps his hands once, enough to bring the room to attention. As though he didnât already have all eyes on him.
âAlright, folks,â he begins, voice even and low and warm enough to steep tea in. âThanks for showing up. Iâm Bucky, this is Carol. Weâre going to run through some fire safety basics tonight. Shouldnât take too long. Might even be fun.â
He grins now, looking around, landing just short of you this time.
You are a molecule. You are made of panic and possibility.
âBut,â he speaks up, adjusting the clipboard. His voice is still doing that low rumble thing, like warm honey poured over rock. âBefore I start throwing a bunch of information at you, I wanna know where everyoneâs at. What you know, what you donât, if anyoneâs set anything on fire recently - accident or otherwise.â
His gaze snaps to you for just a second.
Your face bursts into flames.
Natasha and Wanda both lean in sideways and you shut them both up with a glare.
Bucky paces slowly across the room as he talks, like someone stretching his legs, taking his time. He gestures toward the group with a nod.
âLetâs start simple,â he continues. âSay your smoke alarm goes off in the middle of the night. Whatâs the first thing you do?â
Silence.
A few people shift in their seats. One woman raises her hand. âGrab my purse?â
âPut on pants?â remarks one of the guys.
Bucky smiles. âValid. But not ideal.â
You raise your hand, heart thudding. Bucky raises an eyebrow, facing you fully and nodding at you.
âCheck the door for heat before opening it,â you say, voice clearer than expected. âUse the back of your hand. If itâs hot, find an alternate escape route. It not, open it slowly and stay low.â
Bucky grins. Itâs real and blinding. Pulling up slowly, tugging at the corners of his mouth as though he forgot how good it feels to smile that way. A glint sparks in his eyes.
âExactly,â he confirms, nodding. âTextbook.â
You smile back shyly before you can stop yourself.
Natasha exhales beside you as though she is watching a soap opera. âSheâs showing off.â
âIâm so proud,â Wanda whispers, misty-eyed.
You ignore them both.
Bucky keeps going, asking questions you mostly end up answering.
And he keeps watching you. Keeps studying you. And every time he does, something tightens behind your ribs.
A woman behind you mutters something about you being a teacherâs pet, but you donât care. Youâre not trying to be perfect. Youâre trying to show him you learned from your mistakes.
And his eyes - blue and gentle and a little too amused - sparkle when you catch him glancing again. He ducks his chin once, as if to say you got me, and moves on to demonstrate how to deploy a fire extinguisher.
When he picks one up with two fingers as though itâs a soda can, several women gasp delighted.
Your skin prickles.
Natasha takes a slow sip of her coffee and watches you as though she is analyzing battlefield tactics.
When Bucky explains PASS - Pull, Aim, Squeeze, Sweep - you mouth the words along with him without meaning to.
He notices. You know he does.
Thereâs this almost smirk on his face.
And you can see the softness in his expression.
He talks through the basics - smoke alarms, evacuation plans, kitchen hazards. There are visuals. Charts. A slideshow. Wanda takes notes. Natasha twirls her pen like a knife.
You try to pay attention.
But your eyes keep drifting.
To him.
To the way he gestures with his hands. The way his fingers touch the edge of the table when he leans forward. The way he makes everyone laugh when he admits he once set off a fire alarm in the station trying to microwave a burrito on one of his first days.
He glances up when you laugh.
Your hands are fiddling with the fabric of your trousers. Your nerves are a concert hall. Every thought sounds loud inside your skull.
And when you think your heart might climb fully out of your throat, he turns back to the class. âAlright,â he announces, ânow that weâve scared you enough with PowerPoint, weâre gonna break into small groups and run a few practice drills. Letâs get into the fun part.â
A few people chuckle. One woman near the front giggles, flipping her hair over her shoulder as though sheâs about to audition for a shampoo commercial.
You look down at your shoes.
Wanda leans in. âCan you believe how hard sheâs trying? Thatâs actually pathetic.â
âShh.â
âSheâs wearing heels. To a fire safety class. Who does she think she is?â
âWanda-â
âI bet she-â
âLadies,â Natasha interrupts, lazily observant. âWeâre moving.â
You watch the people file out of the room to move to the next one.
And you want to die. Or melt. Or somehow escape through the vents like a cartoon ghost.
But you have no other choice than to get up.
Prepared. Composed. A little bit on fire.
And the first thing you notice is how warm the training hall is. Not uncomfortable, but undeniably warm, as though the air has been steeped in sunshine and engine oil and the memory of things burning. The industrial lights make a low sound above, a metallic echo rolling across the tall ceiling. The whole place smells faintly of rubber, extinguishing foam, and steel thatâs been handled too many times.
The practice area is marked by orange cones and taped grids on the floor.
Bucky steps into the middle of it with a kind of slow-motion certainty that makes the floor feel as though itâs tilting gently toward him.
You watch the veins on his exposed forearms, mapping them like routes to forgotten cities.
He and Carol Danvers start with group demos. Together, they run through the basics again. People are listening, nodding, pretending they arenât mostly watching him.
You are watching him too.
But youâre also pretending not to. A lifelong skill, fine-tuned by heartbreak.
âNow letâs try hands-on,â Bucky decides, setting down the extinguisher and glancing around. âWeâll split into smaller groups. Carol and I will come around and help out. Just donât point the thing at your friends.â
Laughter, light and scattered.
People start pairing off. A trio of women - dressed as though they expected a photoshop - flutter toward Bucky with hopeful eyes and strategically slouched shoulders.
âOh my god, I donât get this at all,â one of them breathes.
The others are leaning slightly forward. âMe neither.â
Bucky doesnât even pause. Doesnât glance over at them. âDanvers, you good taking that group?â
Carol nods. âMy pleasure.â
And Bucky walks away without another word.
Straight toward you.
Your hands are clammy.
He stops in front of your group.
âSo,â he starts, eyes moving around you three before landing back on you and then on the prop extinguisher in Natashaâs hand. âWho wants to go first?â
Wanda elbows you so hard your soul might have been knocked out.
You step forward.
He hands you a fresh extinguisher, this one heavier than expected, and you try not to look as though it surprises you. He steps closer, one arm already reaching out to steady it when your grip fumbles. His hand brushes over yours. Warm. Firm. He doesnât move away immediately.
Heâs watching you. Smiling, slow, a little crooked.
âJust like that,â he mutters gently.
You are a marshmallow in a microwave.
âOkay,â he says gently, letting go slowly - painfully slowly. âNow Iâm gonna walk you through it, all right?â
You nod. Words are impossible. Language is a memory. Youâre not sure your legs exist anymore.
âP.A.S.S,â he says. âPull. Aim. Squeeze. Sweep. Easy.â
You repeat the words in your head another time.
Behind you, someone clears their throat - loudly. Itâs the shampoo commercial woman. You glance back and see her smiling up at Bucky as though sheâs already sewn his name into a couple of throw pillows.
âCould you maybe show me next?â she asks, eyelashes fluttering like a wind turbine.
Buckyâs expression doesnât change.
âCarol?â he calls over his shoulder.
Carol looks up from her own demo station across the room. âYeah?â
âGot one more for you.â
The woman visibly wilts.
Carol grins and waves her over.
Bucky turns back to you without missing a beat.
And maybe itâs your imagination but heâs standing just a little closer now.
âReady?â he asks.
You nod. Your grip tightens around the handle.
âOkay. First, pull the pin - here.â His hand finds yours again, fingers brushing over yours as he guides them toward the small metal piece near the top. Itâs gentle. Confident. His breath is warm near your cheek, and you wonder if he always smells this good or if youâre hallucinating.
âGood. Now aim,â he instructs, voice lower now, not for any reason you can define. âLow, at the base of the fire. Like this.â
His arm brushes against yours as he shifts the nozzle, touching the outside of your elbow, guiding your arm as though you are made of delicate machinery.
âThen squeeze. Controlled, firm pressure.â His voice is deep. Soothing. Lulling.
He glances at you.
You do your best not to break out into a sweat.
Foam spurts out in a satisfying arc toward the mock flame target. He grins.
âPerfect,â he praises, and your breath stalls. âLast one, is sweep. Just like that.â
And he guides your hands - both of them - side to side, mimicking the motion.
You finish the drill. Exhale. Your hands tremble slightly, not from nerves. From the startling thrill of his proximity.
He steps back. You miss the warmth immediately.
âNicely done,â he comments, and his voice is soft. Almost proud. âYou did great. Handled it like a pro.â
You look away, flustered. Your fingers are tingling.
Wanda is making a face behind him as though sheâs at a wedding. Natasha just raises one eyebrow.
âThanks,â you say, and it comes out rather quiet.
Something churns in his face. A kind of satisfaction takes place.
He opens his mouth to say something else, but Carol calls from the front. âBarnes, weâre starting the fire blanket demo.â
He sighs.
And steps back.
âAlright, well,â he says, winking. Winking. âDonât run off.â
As if you could.
As if your legs werenât still made of goo and your brain wasnât currently rebooting.
He walks away, and you feel every step like a loss.
You hadnât thought you could feel like this again.
Not after him. Not after everything.
But here you are.
And Bucky Barnes just taught you how to put out a fire.
Still, your heart goes all up in flames.

âI am made for fire, for breaking and bending and healing in all the places that used to ache.â
- Nikita Gill

Part Two
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oneshot in-ho x reader whos a player not bc of debt but because she was investigating with gi-hun? in-ho falls in love w her and protects her during the games (he knew abt her as he had stalked gi hun and his team duh)
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Summary: A private detective that Gi-hun had hired to investigate those games he participated in three years ago, is taken against her will without knowing that a certain man with power and money knew absolutely every detail about her.
Warnings: Just some harassment from this sexy man, violence and inappropriate language. Also, I made a modification to one of the games so that the reader could be with them
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Her job was supposed to be just to do some research, collect names, dates and addresses, but fate had other things in store for she.
ïżœïżœForm lines to advance! It will be harder for the puppet to detect you that way âGi-hun shouted to the players who were still alive after that massacre.
The girl was shaking uncontrollably. Unfortunately, she hadn't managed to get behind someone and now the doll was in her sights. Her hands didn't stop moving and clearly noticed how one of the weapons from heaven was pointing at her.
âPlease... âShe whispered shakily, yeah... maybe she was a coward but it's only because survival is not his specialty.
"Player 455" heard one of the guards through his communicator, he aimed directly at the head of the trembling girl but before pulling the trigger he heard the voice of his leader "Don't shoot, let her continue" and without protest he obeyed him order.
In a gilded room, with a huge screen in front of a single sofa and a small table next to it, rested the man who led and maintained order in these games.
Drinking a little more whiskey, In-ho kept his eyes on the screen and with the remote control he focused on player 455, the poor girl was terrified, it was not the first impression he expected from her after having read her entire file.
He had read that she was a great detective, top of her class, she was cunning, intelligent, and had a couple of master's degrees completed, but seeing her afraid of dying almost made him laugh.
It was amazing how being face to face with death changed people.
âNobody shoot her âhe added over the radio without taking his eyes off the screen.
He could see the girl's confusion at seeing thatwas still alive despite moving very slightly.
In-ho knew everything about her, he knew what she was weak on, her strengths, weaknesses, her way of operating, he even knew about that beloved cat she had in his childhood and died of old age.
He had taken the time and dedication to investigate even the smallest details about her, it was the least he could do after almost discovering his identity.
The detective was so close to discovering the entire empire of these games that he had to be her brought together with Gi-hun by force so as not to let her finish the task.
He twisted his lips as the whiskey vanished and the first game, green light, red light, was over.
He didn't want her dead, or at least not for now, until he knew a little more about her, one could almost say that she had the potential to be part of this if she weren't so correct.
He put on his mask and went to the control center.
[...]
Just as she thought, some players approached Gi-hun for advice for the next game, there were only those who believed in his words because some others called him a 'liar'.
Among them was player 001, whose name was claimed to be Young-il. He was no fool, he wouldn't say his real name without being sure how much information she had about all of this.
As night fell in the bedroom everyone was sleeping peacefully, except for the girl who was sitting in the middle of her bed playing with his pillowcase, folding it over and over again and then unfolding it and repeating the same act.
âAre you having trouble sleeping? â001 asked, approaching her, who shifted a little and made room on the bed for him to sit next to her.
âMy head works better at night... âShe murmured, looking at him and smiling friendly.
He looked down at her hands and how the moved on the pillowcase, her were precise and firm. âYou know how to tie good knots.
She had many talents and In-ho knew them all.
Or well, almost all of them.
Her ability to tie excellent knots was developed by her father, who was captain of a fishing boat that she also sailed on from time to time.
They locked gazes again in silence. In-ho considered that long-distance photos were nothing compared to being face to face with her. For two years he had been investigating her, he had sent several guards to follow her closely for one reason only. At first considered her a threat. Her intelligence and curiosity could have unmasked him, but then he started following her out of routine.
Afterwards he just kept his gaze on her out of habit and finally he had her face to face.
âWhat's wrong? âShe asked with a frown as noticed the intense gaze on his person.
âNothing, you should rest, we must have energy for tomorrow's games.
When he was about to stand up and go to his respective bed but she stopped him by holding his hand. The girl, seeing his inappropriate act and with more confidence than she should have, quickly let him go. âCan we keep talking? Honestly... I'm too distressed to sleep right now.
âOf course...
The two continued to talk about trivial matters for a couple more hours, they tried to keep it low so as not to wake up the other players but every now and then they received an annoying 'shhh' from someone nearby who longed to be able to sleep peacefully.
Until she finally fell asleep with head resting on In-ho's shoulder, he didn't move, instead, he let her sleep and settled down so they could both rest better.
The next day, during the next game, they formed teams of six people.
Once they were all together, along with a pregnant woman named Jun-hee with the number 222, they sat on the floor as ordered and shared the games.
The activity was to play a series of games and each time they won they could advance, all this with their feet tied together.
It would be simple, each one was good at something and that made it easier for them to continue, they were the last players to participate which was good for the girl, so she wouldn't get nervous under the gaze of the other participants and as if heaven conspired in his favor one of the games was about making a rhombus with a rope.
âI did it! âShe shouted euphorically showing the perfect rhombus in her hands made with rope and on the first try, the guard made a circle and the voice said "pass"
The others celebrated with her as they advanced, until now they achieved the games at the first opportunity and had plenty of time but when they reached the part where they had to spin a top on the ground Young-il lost his sanity after so many failed attempts.
As she bent down to pick up the top once more and wrap it in the string 001 began to curse and beat himself.
âWhat the hell is happening to me? I can't do anything right! I'm useless âShe looked at him startled every time he hit himself, until she interrupted him by slapping on the left cheek, managing to silence him and making his head turn just a little.
In-ho's fake drama to scare them was going great until this sudden blow happened, he didn't expect it but there he was, looking at her with surprise and astonishment.
âYou have to calm down! âShe shouted, handing him the already finished top. âTry it again and if we die I swear I'll kill you.
He nodded and took the toy, she used those words to lighten the mood and try to give him confidence (which of course she did) but eyes don't lie and her gaze begged him to do it, she didn't want to die.
Miraculously he managed to spin the top and they moved on to the last game which Gi-hun was about to lose if it hadn't been for In-ho, although the last move was not correct he shouted "he did it" this being a small order camouflaged for the guard to give the affirmative signal.
They didn't know it but at that moment they would have died.
She was ignorant of this, she didn't know that if it weren't for In-ho she would already be dead since "green light, red light"
Unwittingly, In-ho saved her at every opportunity, protecting her life without realizing that perhaps following her had already become more than just a routine.
Little by little she got under him skin, first it was in his mind and now...
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to weave my love â n. riki

â SYNOPSIS -âș Riki is good at many things- dancing, making fun of his friends, playing it cool (debatable.), Hell- heâs even good at saving people from falling buildings without getting whiplash. But the things heâs bad at? Well, itâs asking you out to prom, and trying to balance the shared assignment he has with youâŠwhile being Spider-man.
â PAIR -âș spiderman!nishimura riki x fem-pres!reader
â GENREÂ -âș fluff, banter, action â TROPES -âș classmates to lovers, idiots to lovers â WC -âș 17k (iâm sorry idk why either.)
â INCLUDES -âș SPOILERS FOR GREAT GATSBY, cursing, non-graphic injuries (reader discretion advised), yes i made the patching up with first aid kit trope SUE ME!! takes place in a busy city similar to new york never specified, reader is rich, jake and heeseung are seniors and rikiâs a junior, is riki stupid? yes⊠jake reveals stuff because he is also a little silly, reader wears a red dress!
â GREAT GATSBY -âș basically jay gatsby has this weird amt of money but no one rlly knows how he got it (nefarious reasons) and hes been in love with this girl daisy for five years but then she got married to tom buchanan but he gets rich so he can get the house across from her and wistfully watch her and he pines after her like CRAZY but he dies at the end
â REN SAYS...special huge fat kiss to thena @sensitively-taken you will be in the will when im a millionaire THANK YOU for helping me with so much of this I WUV U AND I WLL BE WAITING FOR UR HUENING FIC!!! | LIBRARY
NISHIMURA RIKI MIGHT DIE FROM PRE-ADULTHOOD STRESS, IF THATâS EVEN A THING.
What exactly does Riki have to worry about as a seventeen-year-old junior in high school? Right now, his most daunting responsibility is catching up on the chapters of The Great Gatsby because the only thing Rikiâs actually read from the novel is that the main character shares a name with his best friend and senior, Park Jay. His second most daunting responsibility is handling the fact that with the new seating chart in his Literature class, it means heâs sitting next to the object of his very subtle affections, you.Â
See, the problem with having a crush on you is that Nishimura Rikiâs committed to thinking that youâre way out of his league, and unfortunately, the boy believes that almost too well. Not only are you minted beyond his wildest dreams (having seen your posts on social media), but youâre hardworking, helpful, and dedicated to your role as student body treasurer. Heâs already understood that youâd never go for a guy like him. Maybe someone more like Park Sunghoon, whose parentsâ salary matches yours. If Riki lived in a rural estate with generational wealth, handling the whole âSpider-Manâ thing might be a bit easier for him, considering he wouldnât have to try so hard in school. It might even change the fact that Riki dealt with some alleyway criminals last night and is currently catching up on lost sleep, as your English Literature teacher goes on and on about a project on the book youâre reading.Â
In class, and even sometimes outside of the classroom, your small tendency to not pay attention to your surroundings has landed you in some awkward situationsâlike now.Â
âI donât really tell anyone this, but I hate Daisy.â And instead of getting a response, you glance over to see Nishimura Riki slumped on the desk. Without trying to make preconceptions about what could land him in a situation like this, you poke his arm, stifling a smile at how his eyes widen when youâve caught him rubbing the very obvious sleep from his eye.Â
âSorry,â he whispers, still fighting the post-nap grogginess, âDid I miss anything?âÂ
(Nope.)
Shaking your head, you return your attention to your teacher as he continues to answer questions. The second Mr. Yoo assigned a report, you wanted to die even more considering the work you had to do on top of the impending due dates. But for it to be partnered? And for you to get seated and paired with the one boy who's known for not caring about school? Maybe things are a little stacked against you, but there has to be a reason why Rikiâs somehow still passing all his classesâŠright?
Considering itâs the last assignment about the book, youâre glad that you already read it so many times to know what you want to put into words. And in retrospect, answering a few open-ended questions about it canât be that hardâthe hardest part would be getting your partner to stay awake in class.Â
A small tap at your side makes you turn to face Riki, who you see has frantically written a page full of notes about the project in the past three minutes and how he can succeed. âCan you go over the first part? SorryâŠI wasâŠyâknow.âÂ
âItâs a partner project. And weâre partners.â You wince at the awkward wording.Â
Great! Riki was caught sleeping and that was your first impression of him for your paired assignment? Riki feels so stupid in front of you right nowâin front of your meticulous notes with annotations and proper highlighting. He wants to curl up into a ball when he sees you glance over at his haphazard attempt to look like he was paying attention when, in truth, he was trying to remember the dream he had just ten minutes prior. When you offer him a small smile and nod, leaning over with your notebook in hand, he sighs in relief, thanking whoever it was that let him get away with his naps without the consequence of irritating you afterwards.Â
The bell rings when Mr. Yoo stops talking, and you pause, startled by the sound. Instead of leaving, however, you pack your bag and shuffle to his side of his desk, continuing to parrot details about your report in hopes that it all makes sense. You need to make sure he knows what heâs doing.Â
âI think one of the questions he mentioned was like âIs Gatsby a good person?â and do you remember how in Chapter EightâŠâ The rest gets zoned out and forgotten in the boyâs head, because he in fact does not know what happened in Chapter Eight. He doesnât know what happenedâŠin any part of the book. But he agrees anyway, pretending like he understands what scene youâre trying to explain. What he notices is how thorough and dedicated you are towards ensuring he comprehends what youâre explaining, and although it could be because you donât want him to fail you both, he chooses to believe youâre doing it because you tolerate him.Â
Youâre so engrossed in covering all the little details and telling him random tidbits regarding the book that you donât realize your feet have made it all the way to the cafeteria. âBut here, let me get your number. Iâll totally explain more over text.âÂ
Riki is definitely not freaking out when he silently grabs his phone and hands it to you with the contact page, staring a little longer than necessary at the cute smiley face you added to your name. âThanks,â he mumbles, forcibly tearing his eyes away from the ten digits of your number, âFor helping me with this, too.â
âOf course! The Great Gatsby is a fun read for me. A little hard to read sometimes because of some of the characters, but still easy to understand.â And Nishimura RIki realizes that he has to do well. Heâll read the book five times over if it means gaining your approval.Â
Jake notices something a little different about the tuft of black and blonde hair when his friend walks in. The first thing is that heâs actually here, and that youâre next to him, smiling. The boy rubs his eye to make sure heâs not dreaming somehow, but when he looks up again, youâre waving goodbye and joining your friends across the room.Â
âDid you get hit with something while fighting a villain that makes you more bold? I feel like I just saw you and ____ talking,â Jake starts when Riki finally joins him with his lunch.Â
Riki laughs, shoving Jakeâs head out of embarrassment and opening his chips. âItâs just school. Got some project in English and she says weâre partnered.â He looks over at his friend chuckling, rolling his eyes at how Jake pokes at his side and wiggles his eyebrows.Â
âI better hear you two are dating by next week.âÂ
âWhoâs dating by next week?â Heeseung places his bag of food in front of them and takes a seat, opening the fast food he got last period and stuffing a fry in his mouth.Â
âRiki and ____. Let me have one,â Jake answers, reaching inside the bag.Â
Heeseung looks over at his junior curiously. âYou asked her out?â And the two older students hear a groan from the boy in question.Â
âMe and ____ arenât anything, for your information.â He prods at the vegetables on his tray and takes a bite before a look of displeasure washes over his face. âYouâre both way too excited for two guys who do not have girlfriends.âÂ
âHey! You know the girl Iâm always fighting with is the reason why Iâm single. I have to focus on studying to do well in school to do better than her.â Heeseungâs whining falls on deaf ears as Riki smiles victoriously, seeing how defensive the former got.Â
Jake offers him a shrug of defeat. âI got nothing.â
The three of them fall into normal conversation and Riki finally explains everything that happened during English. âSo youâre telling me your plan to ask ____ out went down from 18 months to 6?â And with a nod from the younger, they both groan once more. Heeseung exclaims, âWeâre both going to graduate, dumbass. Make the plan go down to likeâŠtwo months? Please?âÂ
Jake cuts in before Riki has a chance to respond. âMake it one and a half, so we can see you with a prom date before leaving forever.âÂ
âYou act as if youâre going to die after graduation. Itâs like youâre begging to be a super senior.âÂ
And theyâre silenced immediately.Â
âDo you think the guy I was with earlier hates me?â you ask on the other side of the room. Minjeong stares at you blankly, waiting for your explanation. âI donât know if you saw when I walked in but I was talking to this really tall guy with blonde hair and black tips. He seemed really out of it, like he kept staring at me and nodding. I think I scared him off by talking about the book too much.âÂ
Sunghoon, who is also listening in, opens his neatly packed lunchbox and begins mixing his noodles. âI think you did scare him off, ____.â
âNot helping,â Minjeong interjects, âJust talk to him more and maybe heâll warm up to you. You two sit together in class anyways, so hopefully heâll talk more?âÂ
âI know him,â Sunghoon comments, âWell, sort of. Iâm friends with Jake whoâs friends with Riki, and it seems like all that boy does is sleep.âÂ
âMaybe heâs really good at subconscious in-class comprehension?â you try, taking a bite of your sandwich. âI just hope it doesnât interfere too much with treasurer stuff.âÂ
NISHIMURA RIKI MIGHT DIE IF HE SWINGS INTO ANOTHER WALL AT 100MPH LIKE HOW HE ALMOST DID TONIGHT.
All heâs had on his mind since school ended till now is how he should probably text you, if he really discarded the slimy acid monster from last week properly, and when the prom theme is going to be released, but thereâs something amiss that confuses his spidey-senses and makes Riki much more alert.Â
He snaps out of whatever train of thought he had before, focusing on the situation at hand and looking around to follow his instinct. Riki cautiously plants himself on the side of a random apartment building to get a sense of what's going on. A tingle of some sort of in the air permeates the material of his suit and leaves him shivering from the cold.Â
He doesn't like it one bit.Â
Moving to the side of the building to the top, the boy finally catches a glimpse of something when he gets a decent view of the city and highway systems. Riki knows somethingâs wrong with the bridge the closer he gets. He zips from one side of the tall, metal tower to the other, crawling down on all fours making sure he isnât caught. He feels the electric feeling once more, only amplified. It runs up his spine and he wants to slap it, almost like a frantic, summertime bug. The air around him is charged with something he has never recognized before. With a puzzled expression under his mask, Riki continues to investigate the surrounding area.Â
Riki finds a lone figure with some sort of attachment to his left arm, like a long glove made out of metal. The bulkiness of it seems to have no impact on his body as the man fiddles with the contraption, and the boy watches with bated breath as the machine fizzes and spurts with electricity. It begins to glow as power concentrates on his plated palm and the superhero sees it for the first time. Itâs like a fizz, like a match striking at fire only to produce a quick burst of friction, but it almost feels liquid when he watches the person play with the flickering blue ball of electricity. It dances in the dark in a hauntingly beautiful way, with bolts jutting out from the metal as it spurts and buzzes with a life-like manner.Â
A spark.Â
âHey, what the hell do you think youâre doing?â The sound of Rikiâs voice from the end of the bridge causes the stranger to look up with wide eyes. Although Riki fully expects it to simply enhance strength or block damage, the immediate strike of blue that flies straight towards him is anything but defensive. With a yelp, he jumps away, this time refusing to show himself.Â
What the hell was that?
He knows he should go back down there to change things and get the person and the metal pieces away before it escalates, but when he goes back down to watch, it's ten times worse. The bright blue illuminates the scarred face of the villain as heâs picked up the metal armâbut this time, itâs no longer clunky and sparking, but fused into his arm.Â
Rikiâs face pales at the sudden change before his body acts on its own and he shoots out a web to stop the man.Â
The villain is shocked by the intrusion, but quickly yanks free from the webbing and flicks another bolt of electricity, one that flies much faster now that the metal flows into the arm instead of simply resting on the skin. Itâs unlike something Riki has ever seen, something that is so controlled in motion and yet so erratic in nature, and it instills a deathly fear when it grazes his arm he hisses in pain. The sharp feeling springs Riki into action as he jumps away. Heâs lucky another bolt isnât sent his way, seeing how the villainâs too busy marveling at the power of his new gadget.
âYou know that fucking hurts, right?â He yells out, cupping his wound. âMaybe leave the gadgets to the kids!â
The man scoffs. âIt better have hurt. I sacrificed half my body for this to work.â
âBut why?â All Riki wants is answers. Some sort of explanation.
The man charges up yet another bolt, almost like a laser gun is built into the machine. âLess talking, more running, Spiderman.âÂ
That scared the shit out of him.Â
The boy doesnât have time to think as he jumps out from the dark tunnel to the bridge and up the metal towersâhe hates having to fight with people right below. The villain follows in pursuit, almost crumbling the metal with his engineered arm as he hoists himself quickly. Riki continues to jump between the structure to avoid the flashes, trying to get out and apprehend the man as quickly as possible. When he reaches the top, however, he feels death is near as he glances down at the villain below whoâs quickly gaining on him. He shoots out webs to slow him temporarily, letting himself fall and swing from the side of the tower to escape.Â
What he doesnât see on the way across the bridge is the flash that misses his cheek and hits his thigh instead. It burns, and mid-air, Riki gives the wound a quick assessment before he lands on the metal, immediately forcing his body to climb. While dealing with his wound, he fails to notice the villain swinging from the bridge support lines to meet him.Â
He needs to end this fast before he becomes burnt toast.
Riki doesnât often rely on instinct to carry him, but he can tell that the villain heâs facing isnât just a criminal.Â
âLand another hit, would you?â he tries to say, his voice strained from the pain in his arm and leg. It doesnât do much to deter the man in front of him as the arm continues to destroy and bend the metal on the way up. âWhat are you going to do now, Sparky?â
The man says nothing, charging energy into his metal glove again before aiming and focusing on the target: him.Â
Riki jumps off, not able to properly land his web in the right spot as he goes from one section of the bridge to the other. The man behind him looks enraged at the boyâs attempt to escapeâso much so that he reaches out with his normal hand to try to grasp the suit when Spider-Man swings past him. Instead of the feeling of fabric, the villain feels sticky spider fluid on his fingers. Riki shoots out a web, one that curls around the villainâs wrist and drags him off the tower. Instead of being able to launch him into the surrounding waters, the man slips from the poorly shot-out webs and falls from mid air into the sea of frantic cars, including one semi truck that collides directly with his arm. In the air, the boy winces when he hears honks and shouts from the impact, hoping itâs the last time heâll have to witness it.
With his gaze trained on the falling figure, the weakly attached web breaks, and Riki all of a sudden starts falling down as well. He curls up defensively before bracing for impact, curling into himself when he feels the metal dent and the truck driver scream from outside of the parked vehicle, the body of the villain right in front of it.Â
Riki staggers, holding onto his arm and thigh the best he can before getting up. With wobbly steps and a small jump, he lands near the unconscious man, whose metal arm is cracked and fizzlingâsomething that Riki knows is bound to leave more scars.Â
âCall the police. Iâll get rid of the pieces.â Although Riki wants to figure out who the criminal is and make sure heâs properly apprehended, the gashes in the boy's limbs leave him winded and exhausted. With hot metal scraps bound together by webbing in his hands, Riki swings out and dumps it somewhere rural, trying his best to cover the pieces with the pounding headache thatÂ
Riki revisits the secluded spot under the bridge, looking for clues to the manâs identity, and his expression falls when he notices a lanyard dangling near a trash can.Â
His name, his position, and the company. FLiGHT Corp. The company name caught the boyâs eye, and he pockets the item before leaving.Â
It seemed like he was a normal research scientist, but Rikiâs recollection of the scars and tattered skin leaves him retracting his last thought. He heard something about the failure of a time travel machine at FLiGHT, and if the mass of the incident was anything to go by, he was in the center of it.Â
No matter how many times Riki tries to get it out of his head, on the way home, all he can think about is the inexperience he displayed and the lack of response he gave Riki during the whole time. But Riki canât bring himself to really take away someoneâs lifeâand maybe for that, heâs a horrible superhero.Â
He knows he should stop the man before it's too late, and especially with how many self-proclaimed villains there have been, it's not easy to see so many innocent people ruin their lives chasing a power that inevitably consumes them. He knows itâll only get worse if he lets them run free.
And while the superhero has never been fully honest with himself, there are many times where Riki hates his role as Spider-Man, and wishes that he was just some teenage boy who didn't have the lives of others in his palm. He wishes he didn't have to sacrifice so much to stay behind a maskâand he wonders deep down if thereâs anyone else who felt the same.Â
His swings lead him across the city above hundreds of lives he has to protect, and he tries to find some semblance of peace. He thinks about how he has his homework due despite having just risked his life, he thinks about how your project is goingâand about you.Â
In the night under the stars, Nishimura Riki wishes for something just a bit normal. He wishes a good night for himself, but also for you, wherever you could be.
NISHIMURA RIKI MIGHT DIE FROM TRYING TO READ THIS BOOK IN ONE NIGHT.
The Great Gatsby is exactly like how you described it; a little hard to get through but fun with the plotâs eccentric characters. Heâs pretty sure he couldâve just used a detailed SparkNotes explanation for the book, but having a crush can make someone do weird things. And in Nishimura Rikiâs case, his infatuation has got him reading a novel about morally-skewed characters and rich society to impress you.Â
When you come into class barely on time, Riki gives you a confused look when you sit down, but doesnât comment on it any further. Instead, he takes out his book and tries to act like his eyes werenât closing shut from exhaustion by the time Daisy was finally confessing how she loved Gatsby.Â
The moment Mr. Yoo stops talking, however, Riki isnât asleepâmuch to your surprise. He has his book out, pages filled with sticky notes and a whole section of his notebook dedicated to characters (written in bright red to keep him awake) and their traits.Â
âI got it.â Itâs the first thing he says when you two are left to do in-class work. Itâs ominous, and maybe a little too enthusiastic in a high school literature class for a boy who doesnât even care that much for school, but youâll accept it with open arms if it means you get a helping hand on your project.Â
âContinue,â you tell him slowly, leaning back in your chair to listen to him. And you donât know why, but a small part of you thinks that the boy who sleeps every period the book was discussed wouldnât have much to say or contribute to such an open-ended prompt, but life is full of surprises.Â
What you fail to notice is how Riki is nervous and his stomach does at least twenty flips before he swallows dryly and starts rambling in hopes to impress you and redeem himself from his embarrassing slumber a few days ago.Â
âSo you know how our prompt is based on one character and basically all their actions?â he asks, and you nod, absentmindedly thumbing a sheet in your journal. âIâm thinking we should talk about Jay Gatsby because so much is revealed to us about him that we might as well use it to our advantage. Yâknow, talking about how the theme of exploitation and secrets is veiled under Gatsbyâs desire for Daisy.â
âYou donât think Gatsbyâs a good character?â Riki wants to tell you that Gatsby is more relatable than good or bad, but he shakes his head.Â
âI mean, not really.â He feels like with those four words, heâs completely changed the trajectory of his relationship with you from a positive slope to completely downhillâand a wave of panic washes over him. âShould I? I mean, I could see him as more redeemable if you gave me examp-â
You wave your hand to quell his worries. âTo be honest, I donât like him either. But heâs an interesting main character to write about, so I think we should go with your idea.âÂ
To win your approval feels like heâs won at least three fights against a villain in a row without getting any bad injuriesâit feels good. And for the rest of the period, you are able to finish a detailed outline of your work for the next few weeks, mapping out sections for each other, and he even gets to see a part of prom planning on a word document you had open. He considers your shared productivity a win when he packs up and bids you goodbye before leaving for lunch.Â
One wave doesnât catch Rikiâs attention from across the room. Not even two, or three calls of his name could get Nishimura Riki out of his thoughts, and Jake frowns before moving up in the lunch line.Â
âSomethingâs caught your eye again.â Jake feigns innocence and sighs dramatically as he places the food down next to Rikiâs plate. âCould it possibly be our school treasurer?â Jake laughs, leaning over to catch a glimpse of whatâs got his friend so entranced and non-responsive.
Riki scrunches his nose, annoyed, but never breaking his gaze from where youâre sitting. âWe talked in classâlike, a lot,â is all he says, paying his friend no mind. âSheâs genuinely so understanding.â
âGod, I donât think you can be any more down bad for her than you are right now.â Jake picks at his food, and despite his concentration directed towards the olives on his pizza, heâs able to dodge the flying loaded nacho that goes his way, even if he wasnât the one with superpowers.
âCan you shut up?â Riki grumbles, laying his head on his arms as he notices you smile and point to something. âI just got pummeled into a semi truck last week. Let me have this before I die tomorrow.âÂ
âVery grim,â his friend notes, ruffling the youngerâs hair, âI think this is exactly what all of those mental health assemblies that we get are for.â And Riki basically tunes him out, too tired to fight and too used to the teasing remarks to come up with anything useful in response.Â
Riki sits up a bit, letting his head rest on his propped elbow as he looks at the school food and touches another nacho gingerly. âYâknow, I read the book for English so she wouldnât think Iâm an idiot.âÂ
His friend snickers, successfully pulling out yet another sliced olive from the cheese, much to the disgust of Riki. âShe probably already thinks youâre an idiot.âÂ
The superhero debates throwing another cheesy nacho in Jake's face, before deciding to eat it instead. âDonât say that asshole! You make it seem like I have no chance with her.âÂ
Jake shoots him an exasperated look that makes Riki break eye contact. âThatâs because you donât.âÂ
âIâll prove to her that Iâm worth her time.â Riki says somewhat wistfully, still stealing glances from a few tables away. âMaybe Iâll ask her out to prom, show up in my suit. Do that cheesy upside down kiss shit people say Spiderman does.â When his friend raises an eyebrow at him, Riki shrugs. âI will! Well-maybe not the Spider-Man thing, but prom definitely.âÂ
Jake continues to look at him unconvinced as he takes a bite out of a slice of pizza with mangled cheese. âYou barely talk to her in class and you think you can ask her out to prom as Nishimura Riki?â And the younger grins, eyes still stuck on how your eyes crinkle and how your shoulders shake with laughter.Â
âYup.â And his fate is sealed, just like that.
âWhatâs your project about, anyways? Didnât you tell me last night that she gave you her number? Must be pretty serious if she wants to text you.â Riki furrows his eyebrows and shakes his head.Â
âItâs just tying the theme of the book to one character and writing about how they show it. So we did the theme of money and Gatsby, because itâs easy and mentioned so many times.âÂ
Jake gawks. âYou must really like her,â
âI was planning to read it regardless of who I was partnered with.âÂ
âOkay- thatâs debatable.â There goes another one of Rikiâs nachos.
âGross.âÂ
He thinks things are going pretty well for you two. The report is being written and your quotes are basically finding themselves, so Riki should give himself a pat on the back for pitching the initial idea for how to go about your assignment. Maybe reading the whole book offered him a few useful pointers, and he goes to sleep that night satisfied with your progress. Maybe Heeseung and Jake were rightâmaybe he could finally ask you out by prom.Â
NISHIMURA RIKI MIGHT DIE TRYING TO SAVE THE CITY FROM YET ANOTHER MONSTER TERRORIZING THE STREETS.
He wakes up the next morning, not expecting his alarm to alert his senses to danger. It rings in his head and makes him feel delirious, trying to shake sleep off as he looks out the window for any visible sign of what's wrong. If he could hear the danger in his head then that meant someone could be hurt, and he could go to school without a few hours of sleep if he worked fast enough, right?Â
Riki slips into his suit without much thought and goes to crack his window open, only to look back at his clock and read the horrific time of 6:23AM.Â
Who the hell picks a fight with a teenager at this ungodly time?Â
Then, he shoots from his wrists, once, twice, and suddenly, he's off, covering more ground through the air in just three seconds than he ever could while walking or running for minutes on end.
The source of his tingling spidey-sense is some large metal centipede creature that was setting off car alarms in a neighborhood near the market. Thankfully, no one was really awake to be caught in the crossfire, but he has to figure out how the hell he's going to catch that thing in...he checks his watchâŠtwenty minutes?Â
Hopefully, his instinct will help him win this timeâagain.Â
The web he shoots out does nothing to stop the monster, and considering how it connected them both, the threads only drag the superhero to the edge of the building he was initially watching from. With some yelling and pulling, he finally detaches, and realizes that the odd sizzling feeling in his bonds must be from the same source as a few days ago; Spark.Â
He had this gut feeling that a villain as strong as him wouldnât have been destroyed so easily, but his wounds were so deep and the blood loss so bad from a few nights ago that he couldnât have truly dumped him in the ocean without fainting or suffering something permanent, and although Riki hoped things in the universe would work itself out, the presence of the giant fifty foot insect alone is proof that things were not in his favor.Â
He jumps off the building onto another, working quickly as he strings up a few webs between the houses as a wall for the monster, watching it slide and knock over cars in its wild pursuit. The monster spends a few seconds breaking down the wall of webbing and climbing over it, the many legs easily breaking through. As the superhero jumps across buildings and keeps track of the centipedeâs movement, he has no idea why it isnât going for him, and that makes his job much harder without the attention of the monster. One glance at the direction the centipede is headed in sets off another ding in Rikiâs headâbut this time, it finally clicks why the centipede is headed away from the boy.Â
Itâs attracted to the power plant.Â
Riki immediately jumps and swings off of a lamp post, using the momentum of gravity and the force of his swing to propel him faster than the slithering creature. Squinting, he holds out his fist and points his pointer and pinky out, following the movement of the centipede as he aims.Â
Bam.Â
He sends clusters of silky white threads down precisely at the first pair of legs to pin it down. The webs stop the creature momentarily, and Riki doesnât have time to watch how the body shrinks up and fizzes out with blue shocks as it tries to wiggle loose and malfunctions. This fight would be over soon, and the boy smiles when he jumps down to shoot more webs to apprehend the centipede. It wiggles and sends electricity out through parts of its body, trying to pry itself out. He expects it to simply be a robot of sorts following a mission considering its avoidant behavior, but as he approaches the tail, the monster suddenly swings at Riki, and its mass and speed is incomparable to the boyâs reaction speed.Â
Riki lands into a tree and someoneâs garage, feeling the crumbling wall falling all over him and the sudden pain blooming in his lower back.Â
This fight will, in fact, not be over soon.Â
With his superhuman abilities, Riki grabs onto the metal of the car beside him to hoist himself up, coughing from the dust, and jumping over the rubble to see how quickly the centipede creature can get out, without regard for his current state. The sound and rumble of the giant monster is all he needs to know that the traps are effective, but not at the previous capacity.Â
The plan is simple: apprehend the legs and crush the head, where Riki assumes the decision-making and programming is taking place. But the monsterâs angry and erratic actions throw a wrench in his plan. Its legs move faster, digging into the cement and leaving ruin in its wake as it continues down the road. While both the villain and superhero are fast, the distance between the power plant is finiteâand only grows smaller and smaller. Â
Although Riki can feel the bruises coming, he runs and swings, hearing the wind in his ears as he catches up to the centipede in no time. He tries the same tactics againâaim, shoot, stick, all the while keeping his distance. Although the monsterâs body spans incredibly long, and should carry an immense amount of weight, the way it snaps at Rikiâs flying body and sends shockwaves through his core leaves him shivering as his body slams into the ground, coughing. It hurts all over, and it feels like thereâs weight on his eyes when he tries to open them and get up. His head is spinning as he staggers onto his knees, clutching his chest as he watches the centipede shrivel and crackle.Â
It seems like the voltage produced is a double-ended sword, one that burns up the centipede body as much as it deals damage, and with the way the mutant creeps towards the electricity of the plant, Riki gets the feeling thereâs a magnetic pull that forces the mutant to continue to crawl even against its instinct to stop.Â
Despite his waning strength, however, Riki knows better than to half finish the job like last time. He creates a net from experience, weaving together the thickest and most durable threads to trap the entirety of the slowly approaching creature. It seems to crawl slowly up the makeshift barrier, knocking its head against the white and spreading the bright blue waves of its energy throughout. The boy watches as the thin white mass absorbs all of it and clings to the creature. It works, finally, after his attempts to nullify its movements, and he knows that despite the ache in his every step, the almost mummified centipede that hangs between several roofs for all the neighbors to gawk at is his sure sign of victory.Â
All he remembers is hearing a familiar call of his hero name before his legs give out and his head hits Jakeâs chest.Â
Holy fucking shit is the first thing Riki thinks when he wakes up.Â
Heâs not out of his tattered suit and he feels grimy all over, but his body has done wonders in reducing the otherwise fatal injuries he got. No human body should be able to withstand two energy-filled blasts, but his suit and superhuman healing are of greater help than ever in alleviating the damage from his wounds.Â
He knows why heâs in his bed with bandages thrown over his open wounds. He knows that every time something like this happens, itâs Jake who shoos away the concerned civilians, telling them heâs a medic. Jake is not a medicârather, heâs a seventeen year-old boy who knows about his friendâs double life and with all the times heâs saved Riki, someone might as well dub him the greatest medic of all time.Â
The clock on his bedside table has only served as a bearer of bad news. He looks over to see how itâs practically midday, and heâs missed yet another day of school from fighting crime. Heâs in no condition to get up or get his bag, seeing how his hair is frizzy and his cheek has a cut that would warrant questioning. It seems only fair that he stays absent, and before he falls back asleep, he only prays you arenât too mad at him for leaving the seat next to you empty.
But you arenât mad, just worried. The soreness in his muscles doesnât go away though, and he groans when he sits up in his bed, with bandages around his arms and an ice pack discarded next to him.Â
Heâs most definitely not coming to school like this.Â
While you bore holes into the clock hanging off the wall, that doesnât speed up the time. Two minutes pass, then another minute. As your classmates find their partners and begin discussing, you notice how the room gets louder with the due date looming near. Itâs the first time youâre alone without the familiar boy beside you, and something hangs low in your chest when you put in a pair of earphones and open your laptop.Â
Rikiâs absence should have no effect on you. After all, youâre both just high school students whoâve talked once or twice, and yet you still look over at the empty chair. Staring doesnât make Riki appear, though, and you return to your edits. It feels empty without his insight, or without him asking you to help him with a passage. Riki was your solution to all things boring. If he wasnât doing his work, then you two were laughing at something on his phone. And if you agreed to both do something other than the report, then you could ask for an extra opinion when deciding prom details. There was something freeing about working with him that attracted you. Riki knew how to lighten the mood on days that werenât so good for you, but he also worked hard and let loose at the same time. There was a perfect balance in Rikiâs life that you aspired to have; it was a good mix of playful, dedicated, and fun all in the same vein.Â
The words blend together on your screen. Jay Gatsby this, Tom Buchanan that, it all looks monotonous the more you keep trying to read and comprehend what exactly youâre talking about.Â
Before class is dismissed, Mr. Yoo steps to the front of the classroom to gather everyoneâs attention. He introduces your new novel for the next month, explaining yet another large assignment associated with the text.Â
Truth be told, you donât pay attention to any of it.Â
The only thing you remember to do is to grab extra copies of the printed graphic organizers, as you get out of your seat and rush out when class ends in pursuit of one specific boy.Â
âSim Jaeyun!â The call of his name diverts Jakeâs attention from his phone to your waving arm as you weave through the students and finally reach him.Â
âYou can just call me Jake,â he explains, âwhatâs up?âÂ
You begin to reach into your backpack, trying to feel for your folder, and pull out a few sheets. âThese are for Riki.âÂ
Jake cheers internally for his friend whoâs busy recovering at home. âWhat, you got a crush on him or something?âÂ
He tries to play it cool by teasing you, but the smile you bite back leaves the boy questioning if there really is anything going on. Jake knows better than to tell you anything about Rikiâs feelings, and opts to instead grab the papers and to thank you for looking out for his friend.Â
âIs Riki okay?â You have to know, just to make sure heâll be here tomorrow to cure your boredom.Â
What Jake says is much different than the nonchalant wave and half grin he gives you. âHeâs just bedridden.âÂ
âThatâs pretty serious! Did he come down with anything?â He seemed fine yesterday, so whatâs the catch?
He blurts, âHe just got badly hurt.âÂ
Immediately, Jake knows heâs fucked up.Â
Your confusion and silence answers him far more than words ever couldâhe basically hears the gears turning slowly in your head.
Jake weakly defends, âHis parents had a fight with him because he hit his head or something. Heâll be fine by tomorrow. Just bedridden from sadness, yâknow?âÂ
The look you give him is unconvinced, but when Heeseung pats him on the shoulder and waves to you, the boy realizes that maybe staying quiet wouldâve been the better decision.Â
âIâll see you later, ____.â And heâs off, waving half-heartedly and dragging a very confused Heeseung out of the cafeteria.Â
NISHIMURA RIKI MIGHT DIE TRYING TO WAKE YOU UP AS GENTLY AS HE CAN.
Ever since March started and flowers began to bloom, your energy seemed to do the opposite, dwindling until Riki catches you mirroring his frequent in-class action: sleeping. And it worries him beyond belief, because youâre not the type to fall asleep like⊠ever. However, Riki does not have the heart to wake you up, even if itâs with a little nudge that you probably barely feel with how light he taps. It breaks his heart to have to ask you to review what he has done, because the bell is about to ring and the teacher might just send you to detention if he catches you off-task.Â
The allergies always make Mr. Yoo irritable, and Riki knows not to get on his nerves.Â
Your eyes flutter open to the pokes and prodding from none other than Nishimura Riki, who gazes at you softly when you adjust to the bright classroom setting once more.Â
Panic settles in. âWait- how long was I sleeping for?âÂ
He shrugs and scrunches his nose, not giving you an answer as he finishes scribbling something in his notebook.Â
âOh my god, Iâm so sorry.â Your hand squeezes into a fist at the frustration that youâve let your partner down.Â
And yet, Riki seems to be unfazed, frowning when he sees you stressing out. âDonât ever sweat the little things, yeah? If thereâs anything you ever need to talk aboutâtrust me, I know what itâs like to have a lot of pressure on your shoulders.â
Smiling at him, you respond with, âThank you, really.âÂ
Being treasurer is daunting in the spring. Itâs full of requests, forms, and small tasks that leave you spent by the end of the day. âBut,â you glance at the clock to see just how much time is left, âhowâd you know?âÂ
He motions to your open computer with a now dark screen. âI saw your document pulled up. ____âs tasks or else she will be kicked out of student government,â he taunts, snickering when your eyes grow wide with embarrassment and you lightly nudge his shin with your foot in warning.Â
âItâs not polite to snoop,â and although you say that, you catch something in your peripheral vision. Itâs a few drawings of a figure and gadget drawn, shaded from rigid shapes with small descriptions pointing to different places. You werenât sure what was more surprising; how good the drawings were, or the subject of his imagination.Â
Weird. Inherently, there was nothing wrong with Riki drawing a villain, and you chalked it up to him being creative. Nothing more, nothing less.Â
He puts his hands up in surrender at your last comment, his grin showing anything but. Just one look at the boy makes you realize that everything youâve just thought about is foolish.Â
Thereâs no way heâd have time to be a villain and a student. With one final thought, you let your raging thoughts rest and focus on the present; him. Youâve seen his hair messy, especially after his naps, but when Riki tries to style it like how he did today, you pay more attention to the streaks of blonde and how he often hides behind his bangs and scrunches his nose. Itâs cute. Heâs cute.
The truth is, you enjoy being around him like this, joking around and never worrying too much about your responsibilities and expectations. Itâs refreshing. Being around Riki gives you the feeling that things will be okay in the end.Â
You snap out of your thoughts to see that his desk is empty, while yourâs hasnât changed one bit.
âYouâre going to sell prom tickets now, right?â He makes small talk before leaving for lunch, closing the notebook you were suspiciously eying before slipping it into his bag.Â
âYup,â you answer, popping the âp,â âIâll see you later,â and you two part ways.
All the long lines and constant distribution of change doesnât allow much wiggle room for you to daydream. As time goes on, the ticket-selling line grows smaller and smaller, but the only thing you truly care about is eating the lunch your parents packed you. Your sandwich is probably sad and soggy now that there are only a few minutes of lunch left. When you finally sign off one last time after triple checking the forms are all correct, you let out a sigh, leaning back and finally getting a break.Â
Then, it hits you that youâre not even sure if the boy youâre fawning over is attending the biggest event of the year, and you feel stupid for forgetting to ask.Â
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Yesterday was a rookieâs mistakeâtoday, youâd make sure you get an answer from him.
âAre you going to prom, Riki?â is the first thing you ask when he sits down, grabbing his book and laptop with a little too much enthusiasm.Â
âIâm thinking about it.â Yeah, whatever confidence he had when convincing himself heâd ask you out isnât serving him well at this moment. Quite frankly, Riki feels lame as ever trying to be nonchalant around you. âYou?âÂ
âIâd have to set up, so I would be there, yes. But whether or not I have a date is another story.â You smile to lighten the mood, but Riki watches you and nods, focusing back on signing into his laptop and getting his notes for the new book youâre reading.Â
âWell, youâre not the only single one here.â And he wants to reprimand himself for saying something without thinking. âIf someone asked, would you say yes?â
You think about it carefully, really because you donât have anyone in mind when it comes to prom if Rikiâs not planning on going. âItâd have to be someone I knowâsomeone I talk to somewhat regularly. Iâd be nice to be with someone who doesnât make it awkward.â
Nishimura Riki might die from over-thinking if he keeps on wondering whether or not he fits that description to a tee.
RIKI'S TO-DO LIST BEFORE PROM
â talk to ____ regularlyÂ
â don't make it awkwardÂ
â be..cute?Â
The boy decides that his superhuman responsibilities might be easier to complete than any of those three things.Â
He switches the subject to stop his head from hurting too much. âDid you finish the report?âÂ
You still, and Rikiâs question reminds you of the report looming over your head. In your defense, you two hadnât brought it up much in the past week, and he didnât seem to worry over how much of your time was spent emailing teachers or making spreadsheets. Although caught off guard, youâre quick to respond with, âWhat did we have to finish? I thought we were done since last week, but if thereâs anything else-âÂ
âSorry,â he rushes out, biting his lip, âI meant, if you finished reading it.â And the answer is no, you havenât read it since your last edit on it three days ago.Â
Within a few clicks, you find the document and scroll to the bottom, seeing the small note that Riki left that said âlet me know how it looks.â Itâs sweet to know he thought about your input as much as you did his.Â
âWhile some can agree that Gatsbyâs rise into high society was sketchy, Gatsby still retains the same reserved character from years ago, and doesnât manipulate others into success or use his money for nefarious purposes. Itâs not like he changed after his wealth, and it could be argued Gatsby loved Daisy until his last breath and was willing to die as long as she was happy, emphasizing the theme of sacrifice.Â
So, is Jay Gatsby a good person? The question targets the morality of a character who many can empathize with. Those who are charmed by his overwhelming love for Daisy would say that heâs committed textbook crimes, but focus more on the intent behind it. To pine after someone from a distance isnât easy, but to pursue her after years of separation is even harder. Itâs universally agreed, however, that love as a driving force doesnât nullify what heâs done to others and the dirty schemes heâs enacted to gain the power he has. Therefore, Gatsby makes for an interesting main character, and highlights just how twisted a system around money can be.âÂ
The last page isâfor the most partâhis writing, and your admiration for him grows when you finish reading and scroll to hit your Works Cited page.
âItâs good,â you tell him wholeheartedly, âDidnât think you had it in you.âÂ
Riki cracks a smile at your light teasing, soaking up your praise.Â
âNow you know.â He shrugs. And he can only hope that you like him as much as you like his literary skills.Â
NISHIMURA RIKI MIGHT DIE WHEN HE COMES TO THE REALIZATION THAT HE IS EXACTLY LIKE JAY GATSBY,JUST WITHOUT THE MONEYâDESPERATE FOR THE GIRL OF HIS DREAMS, DYING YOUNG, AND A FRAUD HIDING BEHIND SECRETS.
Nevermind the last one, he has to hide when he has an identity to protect as the cityâs only superhero, but Riki feels his heart sink to his heels when he read a few weeks ago how much Gatsby simply adores Daisy. When Gatsby died, he scoffed, closing the book with a sudden disinterest. If he were the male lead, he wouldnât have been laying in a pool for target practice. Maybe being a superhero teaches you how to avoid being easy bait for all your enemies, or maybe Gatsby was too carried away with love to think straight.Â
Fighting crime gives you insurmountable experience with sneaking around, but it wasnât something he could just teach to anyone. When he gets this horrible gut feeling that somethingâs happened to you, he just knew something was wrong. He might not be easy to catch, but for anyone else? Definitely. Â
For everyone else, prom was a month away, but for you, it was three weeks of talking to your advisor and president, arguing with your other board members, and sitting behind that damn money box for another five days to sell tickets. For you, it was realizing that you were supposed to buy streamers and balloons yesterday on your way home from school. It was the thinly veiled disappointment in your board memberâs texts when they told you they were at a loss for words. âIâm sorry, and I know youâre busy, but how could you forget? Prom is so important for all of us. What if they donât have what you need anymore?â It all repeated in your head as you bit your lip in frustration and slipped on the first pair of shoes you could find. Although it was dark and dangerous, you could care less if it meant avoiding the passive aggressive comments youâd get tomorrow during your meeting.
There it is again: that little tendency to not pay attention to your surroundings.Â
You yelp when you feel someone grabbing your wrist and pulling you in, muffling your screams as he pulls you along. To see him on the news was worrying, but to see Spark in person with your life on the line is even worse.Â
Tears spring to your eyes as you struggle against the metal to no avail, and you curse every previous moment you spent worrying about balloons rather than your safety.
Spark suddenly stops, shoving you against the wall before his hand grabs a brick with his metal arm, beginning to climb. âDonât let go.â And you donât think twice before holding on.
The city view would be beautiful if you werenât hearing your heartbeat in your ears or if you werenât dangling from the railing of some company building, trying to wiggle yourself free of the rope around your wrists.Â
Spark speaks up, drumming his fingers on the railing next to you. âYou wouldnât happen to know where your friendly neighborhood Spider-Man is, would you?â And you furrow your eyebrows, genuinely questioning for a moment if he really knew how the superhero operated.Â
A voice from across the street puts a temporary hold on your thoughts, and you glance up to see a flash of blue and red soaring through the air, followed by a groan and a beam of light next to you. Seeing Sparkâs powers right in front of you spurs you into action, yanking at the rope and trying to take tiny steps away from where they were fighting.
âFrom what Iâm seeing, you wanted to hold someone hostage because youâre not feeling too good, huh?â Spider-Man shouts as he shoots out webs and blocks hits. You shake your head in partial disbelief of how unserious he is, but also how unbelievable all of this seems. âYou tried to take a potion or something? Iâm going to tell you this now, but these usually donât work.âÂ
Rikiâs assumption is right, and considering how Spark now has a leg and arm from metal instead of just the arm, the procedure for the additional limb couldnât have been easy. The superhero still proceeds with caution, making sure to pay attention to anything new as he dodges and fights back.Â
The villain immediately gets back up, stumbling for a moment before he regains his stance and runs towards the boy. You hear the clanging of fist hitting metal from their fight, and considering the difference in height and build, youâd expect Spider-Man to be easily flung to the side, but he holds his weight in battle.Â
Riki aims for around the left shoulder, where an abundance of stitches cover the skin and fuse the metal into muscle. He lands a hit, and almost another one, before a punch to the side knocks him from his momentum. The boy wheezes when his back makes instant contact with the ground, rolling and getting up before Spark has time to shoot.Â
He notices how quickly the gadget generates electricity now. Before, the beams took longer, and were easily predictable, but now, it glows bright for a moment before it fires directly in Rikiâs path. The boy dodges the first, but the second one almost hits the top of his head before he ducks and creates distance.Â
From the roof-top, Riki scans his surroundings before making the split-second decision to jump.Â
He swings to the other side of the building, keeping you in his peripheral vision as he works on apprehending the villain in front of him. They spring into yet another fist fight, with Rikiâs agility easily letting him avoid punches and land precise hits to make the previous injuries even worse.Â
You think Spider-Man has the upper hand in this, seeing as how none of Sparkâs punches seem to slow down the superhero, but you hear something loud before you can register it.Â
You figure out what happened after Riki stumbles and suffers a blow to the stomach, sending him tumbling to the edge of the building. Spark knew that Spider-Man was avoiding his left armâhe knew that one wrong move paired with the tungsten material would have a lasting effect on the superheroâs fist.Â
Riki coughs from the impact before his spidey-sense rings, pulling him back into battle as he runs as fast as his body can take him.Â
You. He still needs to save you.Â
With renewed vigor, he continues to avoid the flying sparks as he ducks between structures and uses the terrain to his advantage. He can tell, though, that the villain is slowing down. The shots are less accurateâa telltale sign that the enhancer Spark tried is working against him.Â
Between all of the chaos, Riki finally lands a proper web, yanking as hard as he can to pull Spark to the ground. He stumbles, grasping at thin silk before Riki lets go on his side. The villainâs balance is off, giving the boy an advantage as he closes the distance, hopping over a thrown slab of metal and landing a solid kick into Sparkâs ribcage. As he stays down, Riki continues to aim for muscle and flesh, his head spinning as he packs punch after punch to keep the villain apprehended.Â
Sparkâs bodyâcurled into itself to absorb the hits the best that he canâ hides the growing blue flash that heâs slowly charging up with his remaining power. The moment it escapes from under his abdomen, Riki directs his efforts towards avoiding the electric glimmer. The villain rolls over, his body tattered from the consistent injuries, and he fires what seems like an intense bullet of energy. It zips by the boyâs cheek, cutting the mask and leaving blood to run down in its wake. Time slows down as the superhero tries to process the unlocked speed of the burst, and Spark loses focus marveling at his new abilities. Never before had either of them seen power so concentrated, and it inflicts both fear and excitement.Â
He lifts his arm, the other holding it up for support, and Spider-Man notices the fizzle of bright blue. Rikiâs about to jump out of the way, preparing for yet another high-speed bullet, but before Spark fires, something clicks. The arm doesnât directly point to Rikiâbut it skews off to the right.
Except, heâs no longer aiming for Riki in the split second that the boy blinks. Heâs suddenly aiming at you, where your hands are tied to the railing and your feet are dangling from the bent metal that holds you precariously over the edge, leaving a fifty foot drop in its wake. When you see the blue energy in the villainâs palm growing slowly bigger, you pull at the rope desperately with zero regard to the tender rawness of your wrists.Â
In your attempt to somehow break the rope, your cry of fear snaps Spider-Man into action.Â
Riki pushes his sore body to jump as quick as he can, leaping across the rooftop to the building over. He easily avoids the metal railing, grabbing onto your arm as he yanks hard on the rope, the force of it separating a piece of metal from the railing. He immediately jumps, sending out a web to swing him back up. It all happens in a flashâfirst, you were bound to the edge about to fall to your death, and all of a sudden, youâre tightly pressed against Spider-Manâs chest with your bound wrists still attached to the metal. Shutting your eyes, you trust Spider-Man entirely, closing your eyes to avoid seeing just how far up you were. Wind rushes in your ears and leaves your stomach fluttering with butterflies until the superhero sets you down on a secluded rooftop.Â
âPlease,â he begs, âdonât leave. Iâll be right back.âÂ
Youâd be a fool to do anything but wait.Â
Riki checks on you one last time before diving down, springing himself back up with another web. The damage from the blasts is recognizable even from far away, and yet, he notices the reflective shine of a metal arm on the edge of the building before Spark lets go.Â
To Riki, Spark is dead after dropping from a fall having taken that much damage, but he hears no impact. Making haste, the boy fails to find any figure no matter how hard he looks, but Sparkâs laboratory has to be here somewhere. The badge from a week ago was stuck on Rikiâs mind, and he could only imagine the reasons why he pursued this life. Was he recreating something? If he needs to power some sort of machine, then the heart of the city is a perfect place to harness the electricity for any large scale project. As much as he wants to dedicate the rest of the night to searching the city for some sort of clue, the fact that youâre still stranded on that rooftop after having just experienced a life-changing event blares like an alarm in his mind.Â
He quickly leaves, returning to where youâre seated.
Without the fear of falling to your death from earlier, you were able to focus on undoing the knots from the rope. Red scratch marks and irritation bloom on your wrist, and the reality of it all happening still hasnât settled in. Despite not being harmed once, the fear and incessant pounding of your heart overwhelms your senses, and it leaves you heaving with confusion.Â
A pair of footsteps only become apparent as Riki walks closer, taking a seat beside you and letting out a large sigh. He stares at the stars silently as if he doesnât have a cut on his cheek and bruises waiting to paint his skin purpleâas if he isnât hiding his true self under a facade.Â
âYouâre not hurt, are you?â You shake your head, grateful that Spider-Man was the reason you got away without a real injury.
âThank you, really, for saving me. I donât know how you manage to do it.âÂ
Riki chuckles under the mask. âEh, you get used to it,â you hear Spider-Man say. âYou fight a couple bad guys, get over a fear of heights and eventually you get the hang of things.âÂ
Scoffing, you gently rub at your wrists to ease the redness. âEasy for you to say. I havenât been taught a crash course on how to avoid being supervillain bait just yet.âÂ
âMaybe you should learn it sometime,â Riki responds absentmindedly, âsomeone like you shouldnât have been out so late doing whatever it couldâve been.âÂ
Sighing, your mind drifts off to think about the balloons and streamers that are not in your hand. âI had stuff for my upcoming events.âÂ
He knew about all of it when youâd explain your cryptic reminders and notes on your computer, but he still feigns curiosity. âWhat upcoming events?âÂ
âJust prom,â and he hears just how strained it makes you.Â
Riki tilts his head in faux confusion. âWhat do you have to do for prom?âÂ
He notices how you immediately slump, as if the mere mention of prom deflates your happiness. âItâs only a few weeks away, and I was supposed to get decorations for our venue yesterday. I just wanted to slip out before my parents noticed.âÂ
Despite the fabric over his eyes, Rikiâs expression shifts from surprise to pity when he understands your stakes. âYou still need to be careful. Is your student council strict?âÂ
âNot strict necessarily, but judgementalâI ran for the position because I thought I could help my school raise funds and find more opportunities, but it just feels like no one truly wants to try anything new.â You wave it off as if itâs not that important, as if it isnât the reason why you find yourself stressed so often. âI just donât want to disappoint or give people something to talk about.âÂ
Despite not being involved with school the same way you are, the boy next to you resonates with the fear you currently face. The fear of letting people down was a large part of why Riki continued to put on that mask and step into the most dangerous situation of his life; he never wanted to sit down to hear the news that Spider-Man quit.Â
So he keeps doing his job, even if some days are harder and some fights arenât worth winningâjust like what you do.Â
âYeah, I get that,â he tries to console, âYou must be doing a lot for everyone around you, and Iâm sure a lot of people appreciate what youâve done. Donât beat yourself up too much, yeah? Youâll always have me.â He smiles, but he knows you donât see it. Youâre looking at the stars, trying to calm your mind and return to your life before everything happened.Â
You glance over at Spider-Man, wondering if heâll truly be around for you when you need it. âIf I need to talk to you, should I step out of my house past 8PM again?âÂ
Riki chuckles, watching clouds slowly dim the moonâs glow in their path. âIf Iâm not fighting crime, Iâll show up at a momentâs notice.âÂ
Thereâs no way he means it, but you grin, feeling a lot of the pressure and stress of earlier slowly wash away. After all, nothing happened to youâSpider-Man made sure of it. Maybe things really were going to be okay.Â
âLetâs get you home, yeah? Donât you have stuff to do anyways?âÂ
You shrug, nothing really coming to mind. As you get up, you remember having to run a plagiarism check on your work, and how Riki told you to text him when you got home after your student government meeting.Â
Riki. Spark. Spider-Man.Â
âWait,â you tell Spider-Man, sitting back down on the cement, âI need to talk to you about something else, too.âÂ
âItâs not like my dinnerâs getting cold,â the superhero mumbles quiet enough that you canât hear.Â
âThereâs this guy,â you start, paying no mind to how dirty your clothes are getting when you cross your legs.Â
Spider-Man scoffs, looking off into the distance, and it makes you believe he has to be your age or older. âYou have a crush on him, or something?â And a whole tidal wave of deja vu hits you in the chest.Â
âHe must be badly hurtâ isnât just something people say. People donât just draw insanely detailed drawings of Sparkâs arm and machines without notes to follow unless they knew. People wouldn't just randomly miss school without any impending signs. Youâre sure of itâthe tired naps in class, the random drawings of superheroes and superhumans alike, or how awkward he could actâit all makes sense.
Your classmate, aka Nishimura Riki, aka the guy who youâve questioned if you had a crush on for the past few days, might be a villain.Â
The swirling feeling of trepidation in your stomach leaves three words running around your head.Â
What. The. Fuck.Â
Although you tried so hard to stop thinking about it, Jakeâs comment from before rubbed you the wrong way. It was sometime last week where you couldn't get your mind off of the implications of his words, but that feeling was brushed underneath your responsibilities.Â
Until now.Â
âYeah, thereâs this guy,â you breathe, feeling your chest constrict, âNishimura Riki. I think heâs Spark.âÂ
His blood runs cold.Â
âYou think thisâŠwhy?âÂ
You take a deep breath, trying to organize all your thoughts. âWell, first, it was his friend, Jake. He said that Riki was badly hurt, and I was really confused at first, but tried to let it go.âÂ
Riki was going to strangle his best friend.Â
âAnd then, I was looking at him in class, right? And keep in mind, heâs pretty cute, and we sit next to each other, so I just noticed how good his hair looked that day, but his notebook was out, and I saw all these drawings of Spark. Like, the arms, the metal things, even the projectiles! Who would know the ins and outs of that thing if it wasnât Spark himself?â
He didnât know what to think about first; the fact that you gushed about him for the first time, or if he should even tell you that Spider-Man would know those things, too.Â
âAnd sometimes, I notice heâs a little awkward around me. I canât explain it. Itâs like heâs paying attention to me. That mustâve been why he captured me.â He wants to laugh at how damn close you are to figuring it out, but in reality, nothing is funny about the situation.Â
Nishimura Riki is actually listening to this, right now, as Spider-Manânot Spark. The awkwardness, though? It was his crush on you, and was not superhuman related in the slightest. Â
âI donât know,â he attempts to divert, pretending to focus, âI saw a badge for FLiGHT. You know the company thatâs been making time traveling machines? I saw a glimpse of his name and face. Itâs not that guy you mentioned.âÂ
You raise an eyebrow. âAnd you havenât gotten him caught?âÂ
âVillains arenât easy to find, yâknow. Itâs not like playground hide and seek,â Riki defends, crossing his arms.Â
You shrink in your spot, feeling sheepish for questioning a superhero so bluntly.Â
âPlus,â he continues, âSpark has never had a hostage. Wouldnât it be pretty mean of that friend of yours to kidnap a girl from his class?âÂ
âYeahâthat makes sense. Thank god,â you breathe, closing your eyes momentarily. âThen what do you suspect all that evidence leads to? Maybe heâs a secret agent?âÂ
âI think,â Riki continues to keep up his clueless facade, âYour friend might just be clumsy. Or creative. I mean, maybe he went through a break-up?â Nice one, Riki.Â
You shake your head. âNo, thereâs no way he has a girlfriend. Youâd think I like guys who are taken?â Scoffing lightly, you then remembered that Spider-Man really would have no idea who any of you are.Â
He shrugs and stands up stretching before motioning for you to follow him. âI have no idea what you high school kids do. Come on, letâs get you home.âÂ
As you hug him tight, the cold air whips around your body and leaves goosebumps in their wake. You barely open your eyes from the fear of seeing yourself inches from hitting a building or up in the air. Spider-Man only yells his confirmation after asking how to get you home, finally placing you on the ground outside of your large gate.Â
âThank you for saving me tonight.â
âAnytime. Figure things out with that friend of yours, and donât go out late, okay?â You nod and take his words to heart.Â
âGoodnight, Spiderman.âÂ
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Nishimura might die. One, because he has this horrible guilty feeling in his stomach, and two, because of a villain.Â
Yesterday, he ignored the salmon and rice bowl that waited for him back at home, choosing to follow the coordinates he saved on his phone after he took you home. It led him to a seemingly harmless auto-shop, with an arrow on his GPS pointing to a garage that was shut down completely with nails and blocked with boxes. The exterior pointed to it being abandoned, but Riki suddenly saw some light coming from a makeshift above.
The boy scaled the wall as quietly as possible, glancing into the source of the whirring. He caught small glimpses of somethingâmetal, glowing, blue.Â
Or at least, for a few seconds it was on until the power went out.Â
The voice that complained from inside the room sounded identical to the man Riki fought. Spark grumbled, turning on a flashlight and quickly waving it around. Riki ducked from the window and held his breath, waiting for the man to suspect something.Â
Nothing.Â
One lightbulb slowly flickered back on, and then the other dingy light followed. The space was cramped with the metal equipment in the middle, resembling what Riki had seen in the news.Â
He was rightâit was the same time travel portal that was ruined from a few months ago.Â
Spider-Man continued to observe the man as he worked and drilled, plugging certain wires or pausing momentarily to read from a journal. To anyone, itâd seem peaceful, like some sort of renovation project. But in reality, it was so much more than that.Â
Riki searched for any sort of information about the machine, trying to see what exactly was left to do until his gaze landed on something.Â
There was some sort of date on a bright pink sticky-note, and Rikiâs eyes widened when he finally comprehends it.Â
The machine was scheduled to be completed tomorrow.Â
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A street lamp next to Riki dies outâwhich was a clear sign that something was powering up. From the dark, he hears the metal from the same place as last night moving again, and he knows that Spark has left. His presence sends anyone down the street and immediately running, leaving the area for only them two.Â
Riki finally sees the completed metal build. Half of his body is wrapped in or replaced with metal parts as he sets down the metal portal, beginning to push it in the direction of the power plant.Â
A truck or car would make things much easier, but whatever.
Riki wants to cry from fear and run away. He wants to leave and pretend he never saw anything from last night.Â
Heâs going to die fighting Spark and he will quite literally a) never finish highschool and get that stupid diploma, b) finish explaining how Gatsby is not a good person and is naturally selfish, and c) heâs never going to tell you how heâs had a small crush on you ever since he saw your cute campaign video as to why you should vote y/n l/n for student body treasurer last spring.Â
âYou sure that thing works?â Riki asks, jumping into action as he sends webs to immobilize the machine.Â
âYouâre annoying, you know that?â Spark sends a projectile in the superheroâs direction, hitting the wall behind him instead as Riki jumps out of the way.
With another duck mid-air and the roof of a flying car dangerously close to his nose, Riki thanks the dance practice he does for his flexibility as he shoots another web and swings away.Â
Spark is uncontrollable by now, sucking the light from street lamps and fizzing wires in his wake. He has no idea how heâs supposed to get in contact with the villain like before. The body of his suit fizzes with bright electricity that sizzles and pops. It illuminates Sparkâs figure, making him easy to spot, but not so easy to defeat. Itâs an overload of power, causing the voltage to escape between the joints and gaps of the metal pieces in his suit. And Riki can feel it; the air is heightened and so are the stakes of this fightâand with how the man that stands in front of him looks upgraded and menacing, he knows only one person can make it out of this fight alive.Â
âYou injected the cityâs âGas and Electricâ into your system or what?â Riki calls out, making light of the situation. If heâs being honest with himself, heâs scared out of his wits seeing the six foot figure with blue and white shooting from every crack, looking like a nightmare to touch.
Riki avoids a few more angrily thrown objects, using the momentum of his jump from the side of the building to zip from the top of a yellow fire hydrant to go from one side of the street to the other. âYouâre slow!â He taunts, tucking in his legs to avoid a shot of electricity directed at him.Â
The screech of metal from the nearby hydrant can be heard as the top flings off, making Riki lose his anchor/ Before he can process it, instead of smoothly landing on the building, he crashes into it faster than expected, groaning when his back makes contact with the glass and he tumbles into the living room of someoneâs apartment.Â
âFuck,â he curses, fighting his aching limbs to get up once more.Â
And the solution hits him. Literally.Â
When he steps out and quickly attaches a web to the top of the building, heâs met on the way up with a splash of water from the hydrant to his face, and Riki splutters as he wipes his mask, regaining focus as he lands on the concrete and hides behind the ledge.Â
Water. If he can get it in contact with Spark and pour enough water on the right spot, the excess of electricity blazing from his mechanical body should work against him.Â
âToo scared? You should know better than to run away.â The superhero rolls his eyes, crawling away silently to avoid being seen by Spark. Riki does his best to look around for something, and finds a black flower pot in the corner, using a web to grab it before he scales the side of the building and runs away while Spark is distracted as the villain also climbs the wall to face him there. But when Spark climbs the ledge and scans the premise, Riki is nowhere to be seen.Â
Instead, Riki swings across the street and fills the pot with water, heaving the extra weight as he shouts out from the sudden pain in his side. He stumbles on the pavement, crying out from the injury as the pot falls with his whole plan.Â
Maybe this is where Spider-Man dies.Â
He sucks in a deep breath before rolling from his back onto his knees, ignoring the wound to pick up the flower pot. The hydrant still shoots out water, and the superhero rushes towards it, causing Spark to follow. He narrowly avoids another shot from behind him, reaching the yellow hydrant before dropping the pot on the ground. Spark is thÂ
While Spark has always been intelligent, Riki could tell that the man didnât fear the water, believing heâd be invincible to the elements now that his suit was perfected. There was something off, Riki could tell, and he would make sure to use it to his advantage. Spark was uncontrolled, and his powers drastically decreased the more he used them. Thereâs no way his body isnât in overdrive with how recklessly heâs been letting himself get hurt.Â
Riki uses a web to get himself on higher ground instead of fighting, waiting for the supervillain to follow. If he could get Spark off the edge and fall into the growing puddle of water, it should slow him down.Â
Spark scoffs. âRun away, then. Like you always have.â Riki hears the wall crumbling under the villain as he climbs within seconds, immediately preparing to fight when he makes it onto the rooftop. But Spider-Man was also prepared, jumping from his crouched hiding position and attempting to catch Spark off guard.Â
All he can focus on now is pushing him off. Thereâs no way itâd be easy, considering he had to focus on his touching any of the electricity off of his suit. Riki delivers a kick to Spark in the ribcage near his heart, where heâs fused metal into flesh. The villain coughs before taking a step back, his metal arm reaching for Rikiâs outstretched leg. He grabs it, twisting with anger before the boy meets the ground in a violent throw. Not only is the slam greater because of the enhanced strength, but the power seeps into Rikiâs skin, leaving it hot from the energy radiating off of his palm.Â
The boy groans, flipping to his side to avoid a fatal hit to the chest. He reaches for Sparkâs normal arm, swinging the villainâs body away with as force as he could to create distance between them.Â
Riki has been in enough fights to simply know when to run, even if he doesnât know whatâs coming. He could feel the tingle of the charge as it powered up, and with its energy so unrestrained and its user so unstable, the large attempt to hit Riki sends the villain stumbling back from the force. The more Spark uses his powers, the more likely heâs going to end up dead.Â
âYour skin can handle that anymore!â he shouts, getting ready to swing himself closer as a plan manifests itself in his head. âYouâll die like this!âÂ
Spark seems to know that too as he wipes his mouth and recovers from Rikiâs attacks.Â
âYou think I care?â He shouts, desperately pressing his wounds to stop the bleeding. âYou think I have anything else for myself?â The vulnerability of his character shines through as he clutches his bleeding wound without regenerative powers to help. âYou think I didnât know that when I did it to myself--what they did to me?âÂ
Riki doesnât respond, grimacing as he continues hand-to-hand combat. Although he takes a solid punch to his jaw thatâs forming a deep purple bruise, he manages to trip Spark onto the ground.
The man stumbles back from the head injury, the pounding from earlier not letting him to think straight. Riki doesnât try to injure him anymore, but he instead blocks an incoming punch and tries to force Spark towards the edge.Â
The villain barely notices how much space there is left, and the boy lunges with full force. They tackle each other into the ground, and Riki gets off after apprehending him once more.Â
The city's a mess, and Spider-Manâs eyes want to shut down so badly, but he takes a few steps in Sparkâs direction, pushing him off the side of the building as quickly as he can. Riki hears the thud before he peeks over the edge, seeing the water erode all of the engineering from the machinery. He slowly descends from the rooftop.Â
âYou were in the accident, huh?â Riki shouts on top of the plethora of sounds. Pain, buzzing electricity, splashes of water as he lands next to Spark; it all echoes in his ears as he pours the water from the pot on Sparkâs body. âWhy did you try it? Why did you want to go back so bad?â
âIf I could go back,â Spark coughs, trying to get away from the large pool of water, âI couldâve prevented the accident from taking the lives of the people around me. I couldâve saved them.âÂ
Spider-Man understands loss, and he understands the regret that comes with failure. He understands how the man in front of him feels after having everything taken away from him, but his emotions could never justify his actions.Â
âYou know you canât change things,â Riki responds, âYou tried your best, Spark.â Itâs the last thing Riki tells the villain before his body slumps and police sirens grow louder and louder. Itâs the last thing that he continues to think about, even if the medic quickly assesses the severity of his wounds.Â
âIâm fine- really,â he pushes away the hands of a concerned woman as she holds a roll of bandages. âThereâs something else I need to do.âÂ
Riki knew he had to tell you about thisâhe couldnât just let you confide in him about..well, him, without your knowledge. And Riki wasnât morally perfect, but he knew an explanation would be the only way to fix things.
Your house looks different when jumping over the fence instead of standing in front of it. When he realizes he has no idea what room belongs to you, he racks his brain, suddenly remembering how yours was the only one with a gray balcony over the pool. And so he climbs, slipping from the exhaustion creeping into his body.Â
Youâll understand after he explains everything, right?Â
â____, a little help?â And what the fuck is Nishmura Riki doing outside of your door? You go to investigate the muffled sound, inching towards the curtains and pulling them back to expect him there. When you hear a half yelp and a hissing sound that follows right after, without a person anywhere in sight, your heart drops to its stomach.Â
Do not say itâs true.Â
âRiki, where the fuck are you?â you ask, traversing out when you donât see him anywhere across the glass.Â
âDown here.â You run in the direction of the voice, and your eyes grow comically large and you gasp, staring down at the sight before you.Â
âHoly shit.âÂ
There Nishimura Riki is, with his mask half burned off his face and his blonde and black hair messy and matted to his forehead with sweat. The suit is ripped in multiple locations with gashes and purple replacing the healthy skin underneath. His face is in more of a grimace, as he holds onto the web with both hands and one foot planted on the stone of your balconyâread; the bottom of your balcony.Â
âA little help?â And you see his sheepish emotion through the tattered fabric, embarrassed after you had to find him in such a compromising situation. âIâm a little worn out and I think my webs are getting weaker.â
Youâre a little frustrated with him for being out so publicly, but more scared and worried for his condition. Your gaze narrows on the mask, tattered and covered with scratches, but clearly visible. It was Spider-Manâs mask. The material gives way to a familiar face, and your mind almost blocks you from putting the pieces together. Itâs impossible, almost horrifying to think of the implications of what it means to wear the blue and red suit.Â
Instead of being the villain, Riki is, in fact, the savior.
The harsh truth is that your classmate, who you spent the last month working on a project with and suspected was a villain, is the same superhero that went out and risked his life every night fighting crime. Itâs jarring to see him like this, breathing heavy and straining against the stone of the balcony, and his cough snaps you out of it. âWhat the fuck do I do?âÂ
Riki tries to put his hand up in surrender and shuts his eyes at your harsh tone. âOkay, okay, I get-â and he cuts himself off with a yelp as his footing slips.Â
He holds out his hand, and you immediately bend over the smooth railing to grab it, leaning back on the heels of your feet to help him up the most that you can. Youâre filled with confusion when the boy hobbles over the cool surface of the balcony and lets his head rest on the stone, not saying much as he catches his breath. You watch the rise and fall of his chest and how his right arm goes to nurse the left side of his ribcage, wincing and sucking in a pained breath as he assesses the smear of red on his fingers.Â
Sitting there with your mouth agape, youâre not really sure what to think about first; to check if RIkiâs alright, to think about how your cityâs greatest superhero is your English project partner, to yell at him for going to your house instead of his house to fix himself up, or to think about how good his side profile looks in the moonlight. Maybe you shouldâve just been relieved that the boy you started to like wasnât a fear-inducing villain.
âOkay, first of all, we need to have a huge talk. But Iâm not a medic Riki- Iâm going into accounting for fuckâs sake.â He hears the amount of curses flying from your lips as you ramble, and sees how stressed you look watching him sit against your railing.Â
âI donât know how to help you. And also,â you lower your voice and scoot closer, looking around at the large property to really make sure no oneâs listening. âyouâre Spider-Man?âÂ
The information all hitting you at once is worse than when your history teacher told you your essay was horrible. At least then, in her office, you could process everything. But here? Youâre about to faint.Â
âIâm pretty cool, huh?â And of course Nishimura Riki says such a thing, taking deep breaths as he shallowly presses on the blossoming bruises on his skin and wipes the sweat from his brow.Â
âPretty fucking stupid is what it is, Riki.â You cross your arms and try to take a look at where heâs been hurt, hoping that at least he has some sort of regeneration ability that helps him heal much quickerâbecause thereâs no way he could deal with all of this on top of school.Â
âI have my reasons,â he says, his voice quiet.Â
You pause. âFor being Spider-Man?âÂ
âNo,â he shakes his head. âFor coming here.â
âWhat could possibly make you want to come over to my house instead of the nearest hospital? Whatâs that important to you?â
âI really want to ask you to prom.âÂ
You simply stare at him, surprised.Â
âYou came to my house, even though youâre like, a punch away from passing out, to ask me out? And you couldnât have, I donât know, asked me anytime during the classes we have together?â
Riki somehow finds it in himself to frown and shrink from your angry piercing gaze. âI canât because talking to you makes me nervousâso yeah, Iâm sorry Iâm half conscious on your balcony in my suit instead of at your door with a poster.âÂ
Youâre conflicted, your mind still reeling from the recent discovery and your flood of emotions. Ever since you questioned his identity on top of your feelings for him, you had a hard time really knowing if you could like Riki if he turned out to be a villain, so to know that he proved both of your theories wrong leaves you quiet as you think. If possible, the color in the boyâs face drains even more when you go back inside, but the door stays open, and he thinks he hasnât ruined things after all. You emerge with a bottle of isopropyl alcohol, a bowl of warm water, and a pristine white towel.Â
âIâm not mad about that, you idiot,â you reprimand him, setting everything down as you examine the cuts on his face. You squeeze the towel and start to dab at his skin, avoiding the cuts as you clean it. âWho does this for you if not me?âÂ
âJake.âÂ
âSeems like a pretty good friend.â Riki nods in response.Â
 âIâm sorry,â he sighs, sitting up to properly address you, even if you werenât able to meet his gaze.Â
âFor what?â
âFor putting this on youâall of it. Not just the whole Spider-Man thing.â He knew heâd have to tell you at some point, or else itâd eat him up inside to know he kept all of it from you.Â
âLook at you, saving me mid-air and talking to me as if you didnât know who I was.â
You notice a flash of regret through his wince as you clean up a cut with antiseptic. âI meant it when I told you I knew what it was like to have a lot of pressure.â
âGuess I wasnât so far off, then. If we never talked, would you have told me?â Riki shakes his head, and the simple motion leaves you somehow disappointed.Â
âHow do you ever tell anyone youâreâŠyâknow, Spider-Man?â Even if itâs a hypothetical, you shrug, not being able to answer.
âHowâd Jake find out?âÂ
Riki chuckles and hisses at the same time before trying to remember. âI think I just kicked his window in after a nasty poison got hold of me. He was a little too excited to have Spider-Man on his bedroom floor, and less excited to know it was me. Iâm not really supposed to tell anyone, though.â
âThen whyâd you tell me? You couldâve just gone back to your friends.âÂ
âI felt guiltyâI know, I know, it sounds stupid. Iâd definitely get my identity revealed at this rate.â You shake your head.Â
âNot stupid. Keep going.âÂ
âI didnât care that you suspected me, or if anyone else did, because I knew it was never true. But I felt so bad knowing you were sharing to me how you felt without even knowing it was me who was listeningâlike I was holding something from you.âÂ
You admire his honesty, and when you look at his furrowed brows and his lip that heâs been gnawing from worry, you canât even imagine what heâs had to hide and do for this. In a way, you look up to him more, for trying his best even if heâs gotten all odds stacked against him. Rikiâs commendable in your eyesâhe always had been, ever since you woke him up in class.Â
âI like those things about you, Riki. That youâre honest with yourself and the people around you as much as you can be, and you try to help others when you can. Iâm glad we got to know each other more this past month.â Talking to him feels different than talking to Spider-Man from a few days ago; it feels raw, like youâre not just confessing something to a brick wall anymore. If none of this ever happened, you doubt youâd get the chance to tell Riki any of this properly.Â
The boy stays silent, taking deep breaths while processing what youâve told him. âIâm glad I could help you out.âÂ
You furrow your eyebrows. âI hope you know I donât like you because you help me out. I like you because youâre attractive, and because youâre genuine,â you blurt.Â
Riki laughs despite his ribcage hurting everytime he does so. Riki nods and mumbles a âthank you,â also glad to truly get to know you. While his crush was more of an infatuation with your hard work and amiability, the past few weeks really opened his eyes to who you were. You never wanted to disappoint, and even if your recklessness left you in some dire situations, Riki could see how much effort you really put into things.Â
There wasnât anything else he needed to tell youâyou were smart enough to see how much he cared about you.   Â
Youâre so close, your lips glossy with lip balm as you watch him carefully. You hear and see it all; the heavy, labored breathing from his body healing itself rapidly, and the way his hand is full of rough cuts and calluses as his fingers intertwine with yours. But your eyes catch a glimpse of his mask tossed to the side, the blue shining in the corner of your eyes as youâre reminded of who he is right now, and what role you play. You are still ____ ____, but heâs a superhero.
It makes you momentarily forget whose suit you're peeling away, whose skin you're cleaning. It reminds you that heâs just the boy in your English class that you fell for. âWhat does that make us?â
âProm-goers,â he answers with a slight nod.Â
You smile, wiping a cut before placing the towel back into the bowl for the last time and getting up. âWe can be prom-goers, yeah.âÂ
Youâre not sure if youâre ready for anything, and youâre thankful that he understands that, too. As much as it warmed your heart to see him again and hear his confessions, the blaring truth still hangs over your head. You grab his mask, finally looking at him before handing it back and grabbing your things. His secret identity wasnât something you could just ignore.Â
âGo home, Spider-Man,â you turn your back on him, and time slows when you falter before sparing him one more look. âI want you as Riki, not like this.âÂ
MAYBE NISHIMURA RIKI DOESN'T NEED TO DIEâOR ALMOST DIEâANYMORE.Â
He went home that night with his scars somewhat cleaned and his bruises miraculous healing on their own, and even if slipping through the window left him clutching his side in pain, Riki silently jumped up to celebrate his multiple victories before slipping out of his suit and finally getting some rest.Â
Rikiâs scared of how heâs affected your relationship. Heâs worried youâll avoid him in the halls, and heâs worried youâd never want to see him again after putting you through all of it. As much as he'd understand how upset you'd be towards him, he hopes he did the right thing by telling you.
But you see him on your way to English, and you call his name. His eyes search for yours in the crowds, and you two see each other before you crush him in a hug.Â
Riki isnât sure how to feel at first, but eventually wraps his arms around you as relief settles in his stomach.Â
âThank you for saving me, Spider-Man,â you whisper, loud enough for only him to hear.Â
He smiles at you, ruffling your hair as you go to English together. âAnytime, ____.âÂ
NEVERMIND, NISHIMURA RIKI MIGHT DIE WHEN HE SEES YOU IN YOUR RED PROM DRESS.
But first, he has to try something out.Â
He curses to himself when silently zipping from a tree outside your family property to the top of your house, staring past the ledge two and luxurious stories to your well decorated porch light and door. He just prays that Google Maps is right about how secluded the area is, so no one can see him pacing around your rooftop, with flowers elegantly wrapped in his hand (courtesy of your motherâs sleek envelope from a few days ago).Â
âFuck it,â he says to himself, shooting a web and dangling himself down. Rikiâs upside down figure watches swirled window frames and meticulously designed accents as he descends, and he wonders what kind of shady business your parents couldâve done to afford something so grand.Â
He faces your doorâhanging down instead of rightside up, but heâs still here on time like he promised.Â
The door opens at 6:00PM like he instructed you to, but what he didnât tell you what to do was shriek and slam the door. On his nose. With a loud yelp, Riki clutches his nose, rubbing the spot you hit and trying to apply pressure to alleviate the pain.Â
When the door slowly creaks open again, you face with the image of Nishimura Riki, aka your boyfriend, aka your English partner, aka Spider-Man, curled upside down in the fetal position as he cradles the sore spot on his face and swings slightly from the breeze.Â
âYou scared me, dumbass! How was I supposed to know it was you? It was so hard to see!âÂ
Although muffled, Rikiâs able to mumble, âYou have a porch light for this reason, _____,â and a jab at his stomach from you follows his sarcastic remark. Finally, his nose feels better, and he straightens out to finally look at you.Â
Pretty, pretty, pretty, and the boy wonders how you look even more stunning with a glittering red dress and perfectly done make-up. âI like the red,â he says, trying not to freak out over your beauty. âReminds me of a certain neighborhood superhero.âÂ
âI have some blue spider earrings to match.â With a beautiful smile, you turn to show him the little accent, and it melts his heart. âAre you okay, though?â
âIâm fine. I shouldâve probably put more thought into that.âÂ
You snicker, sliding into your heels and closing the door behind you.Â
âOne of us is better at romantic gestures, it seems.â It warrants a scoff, and Riki brings a gloved hand to poke at your forehead teasingly.
âLet me have a do-over, then?â And the way your lips curl up into a bright smile leaves him quiet and in awe.Â
âWhat, were you going to kiss me? Very original, Spider-Man.â With the way the fabric shifts over his features, you can tell heâs pouting.Â
âI thought girls liked this.âÂ
You shrug, pretending you arenât swept off his feet by the effort heâs put in. Taking a step in his direction, your hands reach up to gently pull the mask over his chin, ears, and then his nose.Â
Whispering quietly, you ask, âYouâve kissed other girls upside down?âÂ
Rikiâs quick to shake his head. âYouâre the only girl Iâd withstand a head rush for.â And god, you just canât stop yourself from grinning at his sweet, genuine words.
You lean in, placing a small kiss on his nose as a silent apology. Then, you close your eyes and lean into him once more, feeling his hands carefully holding the side of your head and his lips on yours. Your kiss with Riki is saccharine and slow, making you pull away when the urge to beam at him is too much. Your cheeks definitely hurt by how romantic heâs being, and you canât resist kissing him once more.
âIâm not gonna lie,â he starts, finally letting himself down, âIt feels weird.âÂ
âYou ruined the moment.â And he really didnât, but you enjoy his subtle reactions to your light digs at him.Â
âWhatever.â Riki laughs. âStay here, Iâll be right back.âÂ
You nod, sitting down on the porch and dragging a manicured nail over your lips with the ghost of his affections, thinking about how you literally just kissed Spider-Man.Â
Riki comes back, dusting off his suit and smoothing out the wrinkles, with a large bouquet of red roses and one blue one snuck in there. Your lips stretch into a grin and you accept the bouquet, keeping a mental note to read the card in there.
âYou never cease to amaze me, Riki.â Itâs the last thing you mutter to the air before you loop your arms around his neck, urging him to lean down as you kiss him once moreâthis time rightside up, but still as sickly saccharine as the one before it. Your heart is fuzzy with fondness and your eyes glitter with adoration.Â
âSo, which kiss was better?â he asks when you pull away, a little breathless and dizzy.
You swat his arm and walk past the gates, seeing the sleek limo waiting by the curb. âI donât know, Spider-Man. Maybe show up in your suit and weâll try it again.âÂ
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bothersome - james potter x gn!reader
wc: 1047
summary: you and james can't help but bother each other whenever you sit together in class
me: this was so sweet and fun to write i love having someone to annoy in classes <3 it's also 2:30am rn so if anything doesn't make sense its coz im delirious! i believe r is gn/no pronouns used by lmk if i have slipped up!
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âshut up!â you hissed, a laugh threatening to spill out of you. james shook his head with a devious grin.
âam i not entertaining you?â he pretended to be hurt, pulling puppy dog eyes as he leant closer.
âyou,â you pushed his face away with your hand, âare impeding on my education. i would like to listen to mcgonagall, thank you.â you really did try to focus on what your professor was saying, but james was making it exceedingly difficult.
james was twirling his wand between the fingers of his non-dominant hand, a habit you both found entrancing and incessantly annoying. you loved watching the muscles and ligaments stretching and transforming, jamesâ hands were endlessly interesting to you. however, it was really impacting your ability to focus on transfiguration.
âfive galleons for you to flick it on the floor,â you whispered, shifting even closer so only james would hear it. he looked over at you, momentarily surprised by the lack of space between your faces, then straightened himself out, pulling on his signature mischief-making smile.
âyou really should know better than to make a bet with me, love,â he chided playfully.
then you were watching it happen. the wand running smoothly between jamesâ long fingers before flinging through the air, halfway across the classroom. because james potter never did anything by half, the wand gained impressive velocity, flying over the head of marlene mckinnon and lily evans who sat in front of her, clattering loudly on the floor by lilyâs feet.
mcgonagall paused her lecture, eyes zeroing in on the wand. before she could ask any questions, james was up like a rocket, apologising loudly and dramatically to the whole class as you slapped a hand over your mouth to stop any mortified giggles seeping out.
âmister potter, may i suggest keeping your wand out of your hands when not casting spells?â
âof course, professor. honestly, i donât know what came over me â some sort of seizure, perhaps?â james was far too coy to be genuine, and everyone knew it. still, mcgonagall only gave him a long stare, then resumed her lecture as james made the humiliating walk of shame back to his seat.
âpay up,â james whispered, nudging you enthusiastically. you sighed, dramatising your upset. you drudged around in your robe pockets for a few coins, putting them silently in jamesâ outstretched hand.
you quickly redirected your focus to the lecture unfolding before you, naively believing james was done with your attention.
âdo you think if we asked really nicely, minnie would let us hex all the slytherins so their skinâs green for a week?â he asked in what was definitely too loud for the circumstances, affirmed by mcgonagall reprimanding him.
âmister potter, i hope this is not you trying to interrupt my class.â she stared him down as you covered your face with your hands beside him. âif you were creating distractions after your⊠medical episode, i would suggest that you were perhaps ill? perhaps unable to attend quidditch training this afternoon?â
that certainly got jamesâ attention and he shook his head vehemently, falling dead silent for the remainder of the lesson.
whilst you were safe for the remainder of transfiguration, in potions he was back in full force.
âwhy do you do this to me?â you sighed good-naturedly as james slipped into the bench next to you. âwhat if i was saving that seat for someone?â
âyou donât have any other friends. itâs not kind to lie, love.â jamesâ eyes twinkled in a way that distracted you for a moment before you came to your senses and huffed.
âi have friends, idiot. you just keep taking up all my time so i canât ever hang out with them.â
âyou love me,â james sang, throwing an arm around your shoulder. you shrugged it off, trying your best to look annoyed.
âi tolerate you, and even thatâs being kind.â you pushed him away as slughorn approached the front of the classroom to start his spiel.
you barely got through the first five minutes before james was getting restless, straying from class notes to writing dumb jokes and poking you until you caved and read them.
a particularly dirty one had you snorting down at your desk and praying no one would notice. james delighted in your breaking, grasping your arm and shaking you around as he laughed until you had to hit him.
âyouâre so annoying,â you hissed, your tone unfortunately lacking any bite.
you reached your quill over to jamesâ paper, scratching out a childish james potter is a huge idiot!
jamesâ mouth dropped open in faux despair, screwing his features and thinking up a reply.
youâre an idiot he replied.
so creative
shut up. youâre annoying
âare we having issues over here? does anybody need another piece of parchment?â slughorn surprised you both. you didnât realise youâd been so distracted writing stupid messages over jamesâ notes you hadnât even heard him approach.
âno!â you jumped away from james, inches between you. âi just wanted, uh, clarification on the, uh, application. sorry.â james did nothing to help you, just nodding serenely and relying on the charm of his smile.
âalright,â slughorn nodded as if he didnât believe a word you said, âif you need any help youâre more than welcome to schedule a meeting with me after class.â
âof course, thanks, professor.â you smiled meekly, embarrassment clear on your features.
as soon as slughornâs back was turned, you were hitting james in the bicep repeatedly, punishment for humiliating you. unfortunately, he took it in stride, easily overpowering you and manhandling you so you were facing back towards your paper.
âyou heard him,â james teased, âand if you have to stay back after class youâll lose all that precious time to hang out with your alleged other friends.â
âi literally hate you.â
sirius and remus sat behind you both, observing the class with identical disbelieving looks.
âthere is no way they donât realise,â sirius said, eyes wide and eyebrows raised.
âi really donât think they do.â remus shook his head, scribbling down the instructions slughorn was listing from his desk.
âare they stupid?â
âworse. crushing.â
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What's My Name? - R.B.



Bully!Regulus Black x fem!reader
summary: youâve befriended the emeralds and few other Slytherinâs. Regulus is drawn to you like a magnet, but knows you have no business associating with them or their families, so he tries to scare you off. It backfires spectacularly.
cw: MDNI 18+ Regulus tries to white fang you. degradation, bullying, toxic relationships and friend groups, future death-eaters, trauma, Black Family Angst, choking, dry-humping, p in v sex
an: Ik everyone has a different marauders!era slytherin group, so hereâs a quick breakdown of my personal headcanon:
Inner circle: Regulus Black, Evan Rosier, Barty Crouch Jr., Pandora, and Dorcas Meadowes (the emeralds)
Outer circle: Severus Snape, Avery, Mulciber, Emma Vanity, Charity Burbage, Aurora Sinistra, and Wilkes.
Circle-adjacent: Lily Evans, Marlene McKinnon, and the Marauders
There is also the much darker group with Rabastan Lestrange, Thorfinn Rowle, and the Carrowâs, who actively prey on some of the others for Voldemortâs Cause.
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No matter how hard Regulus tried, you refused to leave his orbit. You had no business affiliating with him and his friends, and had no idea what that affiliation truly meant. It meant darkness. It meant bloodshed. It met imminent and very real danger. A war was brewing right under your nose.
Regulus had been born and bred for this, as had most of his friends, but youâŠyou were an innocent. Intelligent, witty, trusting. As much as he tried not to care, he couldnât stand to watch your light be snuffed out for simply existing around them: metaphorically or literally.
But no matter how many times Regulus tried to run you off, spare you from what came next, you would not heed. In fact, you seemed to take his animosity as a challenge, leaving him in the predicament of being your unwitting adversary.
You were in the Slytherin common room now, curled up by the fireplace with Pandora, Evan, Barty and a few others, doing more gossiping than studying despite the piles of books and parchment on the floor around you. The greenish light of the lake contrasted with the glow of the fire against your face, creating an otherworldly halo around you.
You hair was pulled back, revealing the slender curve of your neck, the dip in your v-neck sweater where a silver pendant rested against your clavicle.
You laughed at whatever terrible joke Barty made and Regulus rolled his eyes, turning back to the spell book in his lap. He was studying alone, having told Evan a number of times to fuck off and let him work on his assignments in peace.
âRegulus!â Emma called suddenly, and he cringed, pretending he didn't hear his Quidditch captain. âReg!â She called again.
He closed his eyes, willing them all to disappear.
âRegulus fucking Black!â She hollered, loud enough for the whole common room to fall silent.
He clapped his book shut and stalked over to where you all were sitting, one hand in his trouser pocket, the other clamped on his book.
âYes?â He droned, leaning against the arm chair Emma was sitting in.
âCan you help me with this?â Emma asked, holding up her Defense Against the Dark Arts homework.
Annoyance prickled along his skin. âWhat good is a genius pet if she doesn't help with your work?â He asked, leveling you with his coldest stare.
You tilted your head, eyes flicking from his black, curly hair to his leather shoes, and didn't respond.
âShe said she wouldn't help me,â Emma pouted.
âI said I wouldn't do it for you,â you corrected.
âBarty, then?â
âNo can do, Reg,â Barty responded, coughing up a lungful of pungent smoke, waggling a joint in Regulusâ direction.
Emma waved the smoke from her face. âWill you help, Reg? I have to get a good grade in the class or I could lose my spot on the team. And you know these lot are useless at spells.â
He sighed and took the assignment from her hands, flipping through the pages. It was rudimentary work, things she really should know in order to defend herself.
âCan't help you,â Regulus said, handing it back to her. âIf you can't do this, maybe you should be demoted.â
The group oooohâd at his dig.
âReg!â Emma whined.
âIgnore him, Em. Not everyone takes to dark magic as easily as the ancient and most bitchy house of Black,â you quipped, narrowing your eyes at him.
Regulus resisted the urge to clench his jaw, feigning the nonchalance you wore like a second skin. The group swiveled to look at him.
âAll magic, really. But thank you, darling,â he purred, winking at you.
âYou should have seen Sirius in advanced Transfiguration last semester, he's a natural. Truly a gifted wizard,â you continued.
âHot as fuck, too,â Evan added, just to dig the knife in a little deeper.
Regulusâ blood began to simmer, his temperature rising beneath his dark robes. He tsked under his breath, shaking his head. âI thought you'd be smart enough to not fall for his clown act.â He shrugged a shoulder. âEvidently not.â
âI wouldn't touch a Black with a twenty foot pole,â you replied, leaning back on your hands, stretching your long legs out in front of you, your skirt sitting high on your thighs.
âWho said anything about a pole?â Regulus replied, mimicking your condescending head tilt.
The group snickered, watching your verbal sparring like it was a duel.
âYou sound a bit jealous, Reggie. Need a little attention?â
Reggie. His mask nearly slipped, he was so caught off guard by the nickname on your sharp tongue. âMay as well, since you give it out so freely.â He glanced down at your shapely legs, punctuating his point.
Your head fell back as you laughed, your chest pressing up and tits bouncing, and he felt an irritating kick in his trouser as the heat of his anger took a new, sinful shape.
âIt's the 70âs, love. Are you still so prudish?â You lifted your head, pining him with eyes fierce enough to cleave him in half.
He smirked. âFar from it. Just selective.â
âDon't see much of a selection to chose from,â you chuckled, earning another spike of laughter from the group. âWhat I see is a spoiled youngest son with nothing better to do than needle the people around him to fill the hole in his chest.â You got to your feet, shouldering your bag.
Regulus felt like he'd been punched clean through the sternum, your words never failing to cut to the quik.
âSpoken by a girl with nothing better to do than fish for a rich husband that might save her from her home in the gutter. Trust me, nothing can fill the hole of inadequacy, y/l/n.â
You stepped over Evan and Barty's tangled limbs and left without another word, leaving Regulusâ cruelty to echo off the glass and stone, the group silent.
Regulus turned on his heel and disappeared into the boys dormitory, guilt dogging every step.
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The Quidditch match was in full swing, Gryffindor versus Slytherin, and the score was neck and neck. It was up to Regulus and the Gryffindor Seeker now, since neither team could get a leg up through the rings.
You sat in the stands sipping hot chocolate with Marlene, Pandora, and Dorcas, Barty pouting to your left because he couldn't sit with Evan in the Slytherin stands.
Regulus hovered a few meters away, his eyes trained upwards, catching every falling leaf and ripple of air around him. You hated how handsome he looked in his Quidditch robes, his lean body relaxed on the broom despite the stakes.
That was Regulus, un-fucking-shakeable. And it drove you insane that you could never get a rise out of him, but he managed to needle one out of you time and time again.
He was as relentless as a northern wind, and you couldn't help but be swept away.
His dark curls framed his angular face, those perpetually sleepy eyes the most arresting green. Sure, everyone thought Sirius was hot, but Regulus was beautiful, ethereal almost, and he wrapped around your mind like a constrictor.
You watched as the other Seeker suddenly took off above the Hufflepuff stands, in pursuit of something, and the Gryffindor stands cheered. But Regulus remained motionless, watching his opponent like a cat trailing a mouse. Even as Slytherin urged him to take up the chase, he remained unmoved, bidding his time.
His bottomless patience would be awe-inspiring if it wasn't so damn frustrating.
You wouldn't have an issue with Regulus, maybe even could have been friends with him, if he hadn't taken issue with you first. You had no idea what his fucking problem was, whether it was because your family was poor, you had better grades than him, or what. He loathed you from the moment you showed up in the Slytherin common room, and you've yet to receive an explanation.
You'd been saddled with a one-sided rivalry, but you'd be damned if you let him defeat you now after a full semester of back and forth.
The other Seeker pulled up short, whipping his head around like he'd lost something, and you saw Regulus crack a smirk, his canines white and sharp.
Regulus turned his head suddenly, quick like a bird, and then he was off in a blur of motion. His opponent was all the way across the pitch, entirely too far to get there in time.
A moment laterâ âRegulus Black has caught the snitch for 150 points! Slytherin wins!â
The Slytherin stands erupted with cheers while every other house booed, including your own. But you knew a Slytherin victory meant a rager in the dungeons, so you kept your lips sealed.
Instead, you watched Regulus land at the center of the pitch, the golden snitch held lazily between his pointer finger and thumb above his head. Any other Seeker would have been parading around the field, or flying in wide circles over the stands, screaming their head off, but Regulus was silent. His victory spoke for him.
Although, you knew he'd still be smug as fuck later.
As soon as the stands began to drain, you, Pandora, and Barty caught up with the rest of your Slytherin friends, all of them buzzing about the victory, even melancholic Severus. By the time you all reached the dungeons, a party was already in full swing.
Music thrummed along the walls, so loud it caused ripples in the Black Lake, making the emerald-tinged moonlight shift and dance along the floor. You happily accepted a shot of gin, then another before letting Evan cajole you out onto the dance floor.
Sweat pooled along your spine as the music wore on, your hair wild and loose down your back as you danced, electric energy flowing through you.
A cheer came up from the entrance and everyone turned towards the commotion. The Slytherin Quidditch team strode into the room, black robes billowing behind them. Regulus stood at the front, of course. Even from several meters away, you could see the confident glimmer in his eyes, the arrogant tilt of his chiseled jaw.
Fucking Blackâs.
Like a magnet, his eyes found yours across the room, and you nearly tripped over Evanâs feet at the venom they held. But he looked away as quickly as he found you, getting swept up by the crowd and disappearing from your line of sight.
You tracked down another shot and rejoined Evan and Barty on the dance floor, squished between them in a tangle of limbs. Impossible to tell whoâs hands were where, just a mess of sensation and touch. The temperature in the common room was rising expontentially, so you shed your sweater, leaving you in your skirt and a white camisole, sweat making the fabric cling to your skin.
A few songs passed like that, and a blonde guy you barely know, Rowle, you thought, took your friends place when they tapped out to smoke. You rolled your body against his, enjoying the way his thick muscles felt beneath his robes, the hungry way he was staring down at you. But you were about ready to take a break yourself, the musky smell of weed calling your name from across the room, when the hair on the back of your neck suddenly rose.
You looked around, searching for the source of your bodies response, when you locked eyes, once again, with Regulus.
He was sitting in a circle of couches against the glass wall with your shared friends, a halo of smoke around his head, a girl perched on his lap, sucking at his neck while he took a drag off of a cigarette. But his eyes were glued to you, tracking every movement you made with the same intensity he tracked the golden snitch.
Confidence wafted through you, and you wrapped your arms around your dance partners neck, letting him dip you so low your hair pooled on the floor, your tits nearly falling out of your shirt. You rolled back up slowly, articulating every vertebrae in your spine until you were chest to chest with your partner, sharing the same breaths.
From the corner of your eye, you saw Regulus choke on the smoke, dislodging the girl from his skin, and you smirked.
You let your partner turn you, showing every angle of your body, and you dropped low, circling your hips in time with the resinous goth song as you rose back up.
Regulus' cigarette hung limp between his fingers, his perfect jaw a little slack.
Emboldened, you broke away from your partner, letting yourself get lost in the sensuous, thrumming beat. Your arms rose above your head, your shoulders and hips swaying in time. It felt like you were hypnotizing him, his eyes glued to every undulation of your hips, and you couldn't recall a time where you felt more alive.
Too soon, though, the music changed to a more electro-pop vibe, and you slipped reluctantly off the dance floor, the taste of smoke beckoning you across the room.
You sauntered over to the circle, pointedly ignoring Regulus as you approached.
âThere she is,â Even cooed, extending an arm to you. âYou looked amazing out there.â
You smiled, sliding into his lap and taking a drag from the joint between his fingers. âThank you, lovely.â You smiled sweetly up at him, and you could have sworn he started drooling.
âFeels even better,â Barty teased, sprawled out on the couch beside Evan, clearly a little too inebriated already.
You winked at him, and he flushed a deep scarlet. Pandora, who was resting on the floor between Dorcasâ legs, chuckled at his expense.
Regulus was quiet, per usual, watching as the group chattered around him, turning the golden snitch he caught over and over in his long fingers.
The smoke made your mind a little hazy, your tired muscles from dancing going loose, and you sagged into Evanâs side, leaning your head on his shoulder.
Regulusâ fingers tightened on the snitch, his jaw feathering, and your stomach swooped with nervous excitement. Youâd never been able to rattle him before. Had you finally knocked the monolithic Regulus Black off of his axis?
âReg, why so quiet?â Evan asked, nudging his leg with his boot.
Regulus raised a brow. âWhat would you like to talk about, Rosier? Fucking Junior? Or eye-fucking y/l/n?â
âWe can talk about eye-fucking y/n.â Evan winked down at you, and you rolled your eyes. Avery barked a laugh from his spot on the other side of Regulus.
âYes, let's,â Barty added, raking his willowly fingers through your hair draped over Evanâs arm. You hummed under the attention, knowing it was all in good, hedonistic Slytherin fun.
Well, almost all in good fun.
As always, Regulus couldn't let your ego inflate too much. âIt's hard not indulge in a little novelty, no matter how ineffectual.â
Ouch. His words landed like barbs on your skin, but you ignored him, leaning into Bartyâs attention with light moan.
Regulus shifted a little in his seat, his hands falling over his lap, and you nearly smiled. Regulus may act all high and mighty, but he wasn't impervious.
âLook at you,â Even purred, blowing smoke over your heated skin, your decolletage exposed as you stretched towards Barty. âPrettiest girl at Hogwarts, stretched across my lap.â You flushed, squirming a little in his lap, and Evan groaned. âYou're torturing me, baby.â
Barty tugged on your hair, sending a skitter of pleasure down your spine and craning your head back even further. âOh, keep doing that. He loves being tortured.â
âWhat a good girl,â Regulus hummed, and your pussy throbbed, soaking through your underwear. It was a rush, being admired by the heirs of some of the most powerful families in the magical world. But hearing those sweet words from Regulus, twisted into degradation, did sick things to your mind. âShe's on track to graduate with her perfect, filthy-rich husband, and spend the rest of her days as mindless, fertile eye candy.â
You flinched, not that the boys noticed, and sat up a little, suddenly self-conscious in your barely-there shirt.
âWe volunteer,â Avery and Wilkes said at the same time.
Evanâs arm tightened around you. âYou'll have to pry her from my cold, dead hands,â he replied.
Claustrophobia clawed at your throat, but you couldn't let Regulus know how thoroughly he'd flipped your night upside down.
Wilkes drew their wand, pointing it at Evanâs head. âThat can be arranged.â
âA no-name isn't worth it, children,â Regulus sneered. âSave your Azkaban trips for nobler pursuits than cunt.â
That's it. You swung your legs to the ground and rose, stalking towards Regulus. The group whistled and hooted, excited by the oncoming storm of drama.
You climbed into Regulusâ lap, straddling him and stealing the golden snitch from his hands. He was warm and solid beneath you, his expensive, amber cologne swirling with the smoke to create an addicting combination.
His hands immediately fell to your bare thighs, the cold of his rings biting into your heated flesh. His green eyes darkened, lids growing heavy as he looked up at you, his ebony lashes casting delicate shadows over his cheeks.
âRegulus Black,â you murmured in his ear while loosening his tie. His hands tensing on your thighs for a split second before he relaxed them. âYou will never find someone that can withstand your thorns the way I do.â
He loosed a breath, chin lifting a little closer to your face like a wilted rose tilting towards the sun.
âYou will never scare me off.â You brushed your nose along his temple, feeling his heart rate increase, his breath turn shallow. âI will ruin you, and you will thank me for it.â
Before he could respond, you slipped away, taking his prize snitch with you all the way to Ravenclaw Tower. Unreachable, even for the boy that had everything.
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Regulus turned your words over and over in his mind, an endless, torturous loop. The others seemed obvious to his torment, prattling on and on while he burned through cigarette after cigarette, his tongue raw and throat scratchy.
Nothing would numb the ache on his chest, the pulsing strain of his cock beneath his robes. He'd already been painfully hard watching you move, watching you stretch across Evan and Barty like a contented kitten, preening under their devoted attention.
But when you climbed into his lapâŠfuck.
He was a heartbeat away from coming in his pants. One roll of your hips and he would have been done for, and you had no idea.
Or, maybe you did.
I will ruin you.
It was a miracle that you'd climbed off of him and stormed away, because the only thought he could formulate was please.
Eventually, he couldn't fucking take it anymore. He didn't even say goodnight to his friends, just disappeared into the dormitory and locked the door behind him.
He shirked his robe and grabbed a spare Slytherin scarf from his drawer. He flopped onto his bed and freed his aching cock, the head and angry red and shiny. He wrapped the scarf around it, squeezing hard for a semblance of relief.
âFucking hell,â he groaned, pumping his cock slowly as your voice filled his mind again, the feeling of your weight on top of him, your sweet breath on his neck, your perfume rewiring the synopsis in his brain.
His hand started to move quicker, breath coming out in desperate pants. He imagined licking across your dewy chest, tasting the salt on your skin, gin on your tongue. Blowing his cigarette smoke over your naked body, into your open mouth. So eager and flayed open for him to ravageâhis innocent lamb to ruin.
âFuck, y/n!â Your name wrenched itself from his throat as he came hard into his scarf, imaging it was deep inside your greedy cunt. His whole body shuddered with the force of it, his jaw hanging open as he pumped himself through the orgasm until he'd milked every drop from himself, wondering if your pussy, your mouth, would do the same.
He slumped back onto the pillows, completely exhausted, and shoved the scarf under his bed.
You were right, you would fucking ruin him, ruin his plans. And he wasn't sure if he hated or loved you for it.
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Regulus avoided you for two weeks after that party, going so far as to skip your shared Potions class entirely. It was for the better really, you still felt a little raw after that night, the dull ache of his words combined with the unresolved arousal has left you out of sorts, to put it mildly.
If you ran into him, you werenât sure if youâd throttle or fuck him to death.
Your friends were beginning to grow suspicious of his absence, and your squirrely behavior, and, unbeknownst to you, they set a trap to bring this stand-off to a finish once and for all.
Pandora chatted animatedly beside you as you walked together down the stairs to the dungeon, ranting about something Aurora did to piss her off. When you arrived to the dungeon, she suddenly paused to tie her shoelace, waving for you to go on ahead of her into the common room.
You did, and the large green door swung shut behind you.
âNo! Fuck, Dora!â Regulus was right there, banging his fist on the door.
You looked around, bewildered, only to find the common room completely deserted. Except for Regulus, of course.
âMove,â you hissed, withdrawing your wand.
âI tried everything,â Regulus huffed, a hand raking through his dark hair.
âI said move,â you repeated, pointing your wand at him.
He rolled his eyes and stepped aside, walking back into the common room. He dropped onto the couch by the fireplace, retrieving his book.
You threw every spell you could think of at the door, but it simply wouldnât budge. âWhat the fuck!â You shouted, nearly throwing your wand across the room out of frustration.
âThey left us a note,â Regulus said, not looking up from his reading.
You stalked over to him, finding an open piece of parchment on the coffee table. Immediately, you recognized Pandoraâs loping hand.
âJust bone already.â You read aloud, and scoffed. âWhat the fuck does that mean?â You glared at Regulus, as if he was somehow responsible, but he still didnât look up.
âI suspect theyâre tired of our bickering,â he replied, turning the page.
âAnd what does locking us in the dungeon together accomplish?â You couldnât believe this was happening. Couldnât believe theyâd lock you in a dungeon with your fucking nemesis. Your school yard bully. The bane of your goddamn existence.
Regulus shrugged. âMaybe they think youâll kill me.â
You let out an exasperated sound and stormed away from him, trying the door to the girls dormitory.
âLocked,â he called a millisecond after you tried the handle.
âMaybe I am going to fucking kill him,â you muttered to yourself. Resigned, you sat on a chair by the glass wall, as far away from him as you could possibly get, and sulked.
You had no clue how much time passed, the only light filtering in through the murky lake. The cold leeched through the glass, chilling you to the bone, but you refused to move closer to him. Youâd freeze to death in here if you had to.
âY/l/n,â Regulus said after the fifth full body chill wracked through you. âCome sit by the fire.â
âGo fuck yourself,â you bit back, and he snorted.
âFine, freeze.â He returned to his book, not sparing you another glance.
Your hands started to ache from the cold, your jaw sore from your teeth chattering together. With a sigh, you got up and crossed the room. Regulus still didnât look up, though you could feel his attention shift to you as you sat directly in front of the fire, holding your hands out to it.
âYou really think theyâll leave us in here all night?â You asked, staring at the dancing flames.
âAbsolutely,â Regulus answered, lowering his book to his lap.
You sighed, resigned. The only way out is through. âIâll start.â
He tilted his head, dark brows drawing together in suspicion.
You cursed under your breath, and dove headfirst. âI donât understand why youâre so shitty to me,â you blurted, refusing to look at him. âIâve never done anything to you.â
He was quiet for so long, you finally caved and glanced over at him, only to find him staring back at you, expression unreadable.
âRegulus,â you huffed, frustrated.
âY/n,â he mocked, and your stomach flipped despite his attitude. Heâd never used your first name before.
âJust fucking talk to me.â You straightened your spine, folding your legs on the ground underneath you, the fire at your side.
He stared at you for a few more moments, his eyes dancing back and forth, before he leaned back against the couch and picked up his book.
âYouâre a lot of things, Black, but I didnât take you for a coward.â
His eyes flickered with anger, but he didnât bite.
âReg,â you murmured, softening your voice, and he rolled his eyes, the most unbelievably bored expression on his face. You shifted your weight, placing your hands on the ground, and lifted to your knees. Slowly, you began to crawl to him, being careful to not sway your hips too much, and he broke after only a few seconds.
âOn your knees already, darling?â He teased, but the casual tone didnât match his eyes. The fire in them, the way his hands tightened around the cover of his book, betrayed his true feelings.
Once you were directly in front on him, you sat back on your heels. âBe honest with me, Reggie, did it turn you on seeing me with Evan and Barty?â
He blinked, clearly taken aback by your question. In his lap, you saw his cock twitch, a small pulse along his right thigh.
Men are so fucking easy.
âWhat about when I was dancing with them? Sandwiched between their bodies?â You rolled your head on your shoulders, mimicking the way you danced and revealing the fragile plains of your throat, your hair falling around your face. âWhen Barty pulled my hair? When Evan blew smoke over my tits?â
Regulus swallowed hard, his eyes like melted jade.
âWhat about when I crawled into your lap?â You took the book from him and set it onto the table. Then, you placed your hands on his lean, muscular thighs and pushed yourself to your feet, straddling him the same way you did that night. His entire body was rigid beneath you, muscles coiled tight with tension. âDid you like when I whispered in your ear, Regulus? When I told you that Iâd ruin you?â
âY/n,â he rasped, breathing hard.
âTell me the truth.â You were so close, your lips brushed the shell of his ear as you spoke. You committed to the contact, brushing your lips along his racing pulse, down his jugular vein. You fought to keep your thighs from clenching together, your own body responding to the feeling him slowly unraveling beneath you. âDo you hate me because you want me?â
âI don't,â he hissed through his teeth.
âIf you say so,â you hummed, moving to slide off his lap.
He grabbed your waist, his grip bruising. âDon't you fucking dare."
âI thought you didn't want me?â You taunted, sitting back on his lap to look at him, a hand braced on his sternum.
When you shifted your weight, your pussy accidentally pressed against the hard outline of his cock. You had to force your hips to stay still, your pussy practically begging you to move when you felt him throb against your warm heat.
âThatâs not what I meant,â he said. All the malice had drained from his voice, his eyes locked on yours.
Then what the fuck did he mean?
You rolled your hips, biting back the moan that crept up your throat as pleasure snaked through you. Regulus was less successful, a broken groan falling from his pretty mouth.
âIt would be so much easier to just tell me the truth,â you purred, slowly rocking your hips over his twitching length, allowing a hint of breathlessness to bleed into your voice. âIt would feel so good, Reg, to let it all go. To lose control.â
âShit,â he crushed under his breath. âWhat the fuck are you doing to me?â He grated, sliding his hands down to feel your thighs flex with each movement, his fingertips dimpling your flesh.
âWhat did you mean by âI donâtâ?â You asked, tilting his chin up with a finger.
His jaw went a little slack as he stared up at you, his eyes heavy-lidded and shining. âI donât hate you,â he answered, his voice barely above a whisper.
âThen why do you say such awful things?â You stopped your movements, and he made a small noise in his throat, nearly a whimper, but didnât answer. âRegulus,â you prodded, lifting yourself from him entirely.
âN-no, please, fuck y/n,â he stammered, lifting his hips to grind against you. Another moan threatened to spill from you, his body felt so fucking good against yours, but you managed to restrain yourself. âI did it to try and push you away, Iââ
You lowered back onto him, your hips grinding in tandem, and his head fell back against the couch, releasing a throaty groan. You couldnât hold back a small squeak of pleasure when the hard head of his cock grazed your clit just right, and a wave of pleasure crashed through you.
âWhy did you want to push me away?â You started undoing the buttons of his dress shirt, revealing the pale expanse of his chest, lean muscles flexing as he thrusted up against you.
He shook his head, picking it up to look down at where your bodies met, a pool of your slick dampening his trousers. âGetting me all wet, lamb. You like toying with me?â he rasped, moving one of his hands to press a thumb against your clothed clit, his long fingers splayed across your pelvis. âIs that why I couldnât scare you off?â
You nodded before you could stop yourself, a full moan finally breaking free with the added pressure. You were embarrassingly close to coming, to banter combined with the friction between your bodies was a lethal cocktail, a drug you werenât sure youâd be able to quit.
You wrapped your hands around his throat, applying enough pressure that he gasped, the sound vibrating your hand. âWhy are you trying to push me away?â You leaned closer to his face, his strained pants fanning across your lips. He was so beautiful like this, ravaged by lust and desperate.
âYou know why,â he growled, grabbing your wrists. He rolled suddenly, flipping you beneath him and pinning your hands above your head. âWhatâs my name, y/n?â His free hand slid under your skirt, palming your soaked panties.
âRegulus,â you gasped, arching into his chest.
âRegulus what?â He started rubbing the heel of his palm over your clit, electric pleasure burning through you.
âRegulus Black.â You were on the brink of coming, teetering on that torturous edge.
âTell me then, my clever little Ravenclaw. What does that say about me and mine?â He leaned down and dragged his teeth along your pulse point, pausing to suck a mark under your ear.
âFuck, Reg, Iâm going to come,â you whined, fighting against his hold as the feeling started to overwhelm you.
His hand stopped suddenly, ruining the orgasm you had just begun to crest. You cried out in frustration, tears springing to your eyes as the pleasure bled out of you, leaving you desperate and humming with tension.
âAnswer me,â he demanded, grabbing your jaw with his slick covered hand.
âIâm not an idiot,â you snapped, eyes blazing into his. âI know what the fuck it means. And I donât care.â
He fell still, eyes searching your face. âThen maybe you are an idiot,â he murmured, eyes softening now that the truth was finally out. âBut so am I.â
He closed the final inch between you, connecting your lips in a searing, devastating kiss that you felt all the way to your toes. He released your hands and you tangled your fingers into his curls, finally feeling their softness for yourself as you pulled him closer. Your mouth parted for him, his tongue delving in to taste you.
âReg, please,â you whined against his mouth, pressing your hips to his again.
âTell me what you want, lamb.â He kissed down your neck, one of his hands sliding down to grip your thigh and draw it over his hip.
âFuck me, I need you inside of me.â You clawed at his belt, flipping the clasp and tugging down his zipper.
âMerlin, yes.â He finished undoing his pants and freed his cock, pulling aside your panties to glide the head through your slick folds, lubricating himself. He notched the head at your entrance, hissing at the warmth already kissing him, and eased himself in.
Regulus wasnât overly large, but the stretch was still divine, filling you until you went cross-eyed, an unholy cry ripping from your chest. He drew his hips back and slammed back into you, over and over again until your were in shambles, a moaning, shaking mess, on the precipice of coming for the second time.
âCome for me, love. I want to feel you break.â He cupped your face, kissing you as he finally pushed you over the edge, an orgasm ripping you apart at the seams. You screamed into his mouth, your cunt clenching around him as your body convulsed. âGod, I love this fucking cunt. So perfect for me,â he growled, his hips losing their rhythm as your walls bared down on him, sucking him back in every time he pulled out.
âReg,â you whimpered, sagging against the couch as the strength bled out of of you.
He pulled out suddenly, pumping his cock in his fist, your honey coating him. âStay just like that, pretty girl. All fucked out and used. All mineââ a guttural groan broke the final word as he came in his hand, spraying ropes of cum over your rumpled skirt and Ravenclaw sweater, his head thrown back. He looked gorgeous milking himself for you, his muscles flexing with the effort, sweat beading along his skin.
He slowly relaxed, chest heaving, and looked down at you, ruined and covered in his cum. You stared back, completely starstruck by what just happened.
âIâm sorry,â he said, draping himself over you and pressing ksises to your forehead, your cheeks, your neck. âIâm sorry for everything I said. I didnât mean any of it, Iââ
âMe too,â you interrupted him, wrapping your arms around his neck. âI know how hard things are for you, at home, I mean, and I shouldnât haveââ
âNo, no. I deserved it. I shouldnât have brought up your familyââ
âBut I keptââ
âI never meant tooââ
You both exhaled, laughing softly at your rushed confessions, the sudden, giddy nervousness that bloomed between you where there once was glacial wit and razor-sharp banter. He sat you both up, removing your stained sweater and straightening your skirt, then righted himself.
âWhat now?â You asked when he finished fussing, studying his flushed cheeks, his tousled hair.
He sighed, suddenly looking grim, and your heart gave a nervous thump. âWe find a way to keep you safe, lamb,â he said, meeting your eyes. âBut until then, we should act like nothingâs changed. Okay?â
Uncertainty coiled in your stomach, but you nodded. âOkay.â
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You Are Also Like Me
pt.1 - pt.2 - pt. 3
cw: incest (uncle/niece but there's some faux dadcest idk how to explain... either way it's only between reader and sukuna), age gap, dubcon, freudian elements, reader's daddy issues are explored in depth, reader has family issues, fluff, angst, mutual hurt, dry humping, kissing/making out, unprotected piv sex, creampies, loss of virginity, degradation/namecalling, dirtytalking, humiliation, sadism/masochism, slight blood kink if you squint, pussy eating/ass eating, blowjob, deepthroating, spit play, cumplay, fingering, mdni, DDDNE wc: 21k a/n: im sorry the if the formatting is ass, apparently tumblr only allows "1000 blocks in a post" so i had to go through and cut a bunchhhh of paragraph breaks D: it might read better on ao3

âI want you to take my virginity.â
Sukunaâs eyes flit to yours as he takes another bite of his food, not answering right away, just watching you.
Annoying.
You put down your chopsticks and refuse to take another bite until he gives you some response.
Finally, he smirks at you, speaking lazily. âThatâs a big step. You sure youâre still not just worked up from the other night or something?â
âThat was like four days ago,â you hiss, âSo noâ itâs obviously not that.â
âI donât know.â He shrugs as he chews. âMaybe you got all horny remembering it.â
You lean forward, teeth clenched, scowling at him hard enough to kill. âCan you please just give me a useful answer, for once?â
His eyes flicker down to the chopsticks laying across your plate of food. âEat. I donât pay Uraume as much as I do for you to throw a tantrum and waste your food.â
God he can really be insufferable sometimes.
âIâll eat when you answââ
âEat. Now.â Sukunaâs voice drops to a stern command and he stills, watching you expectantly until you finally pick up the chopsticks and shove a bite of food into your mouth, angrily.
âGood girl.â He resumes eating, and you swear he waits a beat longer just to piss you off before finally adding, âIâll do it whenever you sign up for classes.â
You stiffen slightly.
Classes. Six months.
You know damn well what you agreed to. Logically, it's the right moveâand yet, any mention of it makes your chest tighten with a dull, anxious ache. Makes you want to think about literally anything else.
But Sukunaâin the most ironic wayâis actually good at getting you to do things. You know he wonât bend on this, not when it comes to your future.
âYou know Iâll have to ask my parents about that, right?â you point out flatly. âEspecially if youâre financing it.â
âAlready spoke to them,â he says, casually.
âWhat?! When?â
âNone of your concern. But your momâll probably call you later today or tomorrow to confirm, so might as well start prepping now.â
You stare at him for a second, then just huff. âFine. You promise?â
âOf course, princess. Youâll have to show me proof, though.â
Reluctantly, you nod.
Just like he said, the call comes later that eveningâyour motherâs voice neutral, if a little relieved, as she runs through application deadlines and housing options. She doesnât say it, but you can hear it in her toneâanything to get you back on track. Back to your degree, to who you used to be.
You tell her youâll look into it.
And you do, sort of. You open your laptop that night, click through your old student portal and check a few deadlines.
But the tabs sit there open and unanswered. Because youâve always been like thisâavoidant, stubborn when it matters most.
Maybe itâs fear. Or maybe itâs something deeper, some twisted logic that if you never re-enroll, never hit submit, then the end of your six months here wonât come, and that staying will stay possible.
That Sukuna won't actually make you go.
But as the days pass, your need for him grows heavier. Hungrier. Harder and harder to ignore. Sukuna promised you ruin and while you waited expectantly for the next three days, on edge and feeling like a fool, he gave you absolutely nothing, leaving you out to dry.
His way of messing with you, probably. Making you really beg for it.
Just like now â dangling himself just out of reach, so youâll cave and sign up for those damn classes. The day after he told you his condition, heâs definitely started playing with you more â not cruel, but deliberate.
Close touches, subtle innuendos, intense eye contact.
In the evening, when you come out of the bathroom with your hair still damp and dressed in pajamas, Sukuna calls to you from the dining table where heâs nursing a glass of whiskey.
You expect a lectureâmaybe about forgetting to empty the dishwasher againâbut instead, he catches your wrist as you pass. You let him pull you in, straddling his lap, pleasantly surprised.
His fingers skim your cheek, tilting your face up to meet his gaze.
âMake sure to dry your hair before bed. Donât want you catching a cold,â he murmurs.
You snort under your breath, but donât bother saying anything. In your experience, explaining to anyone your parentsâ age that cold wet hair making you sick is nothing more than a myth, is a futile endeavor.
But then his lips are on yoursâsoft at first, then deeper. All tongue and teeth and the faint bitter taste of whiskey melting into your mouth.
Your hand slides into his hair as you tilt your head back, letting him in, sighing when he nips your lip. Your hips shift instinctively, seeking frictionâpressing down against the bulge in his pants in a slow, barely-there grind. His hand slides to your lower back, holding you steady, letting you move just enough to feel it.
Ever since he taught you how to kiss, itâs secretly been one of your favorite things to do with himâmaking out at odd, quiet moments until youâre breathless and aching without even realizing how far you've gone.
But then he pulls back, leaving you flushed and involuntarily chasing after his mouth.
You blink up at him, frowning, your thighs still tight around himâand the smirk tugging at his lips tells you everything. Abruptly, he pushes you off his lap and stands, tossing back the rest of his drink before looking down at you, smug.
âWell, Iâm off to bed. See you in the morning.â
You shoot him the dirtiest look you can manage as he turns away, clearly trying not to laugh.
âOh, and dry your hair. Iâm serious.â
And with that, heâs goneâleaving you alone, warm, aching, and seriously considering banging your head against the wall.
Two more days pass, still no progress.
You want himâcrave him in the way your body always doesâbut your mind keeps recoiling from the one simple task that would make everything easier.
Instead, you take the long way around it.
Late at night, you drift to his room like itâs nothing, one of his shirts hanging off your frame soft and oversized, paired with the smallest pajama shorts you own. You donât knock, as has become habit lately.
Heâs seated in his bed, glasses on, looking at something on his phone, not even bothering to glance up when you speak.
âCan I stay here tonight?â
His eyes stay on the screen, reflecting on his frames. âYouâve got your own room. Whatâs wrong with it?â
You pout a little, speaking softly, âI justâŠdonât feel like being alone.â
Thereâs a pause as he scrolls, and you step a little closer, the air thickening.
âYou said youâd do it if I signed up for my classes. I did.â
You didnâtânot yet, at least. But maybe if you keep him distracted, heâll forget about that part.
Sukuna just cocks a slitted brow. âThatâs funny. Donât remember seeing any proof yet.â
You hesitate, but decide to push on anyway, hoping you can soon make him forget about the proof. So instead of answering you climb onto his lap.
Sukuna stiffens, jaw ticking slightly, but he lets you. You lean in, pressing a kiss to his jaw, shaky fingers coming up to unbutton the top of his shirt â in nervousness, frustration, need, you donât know.
He doesnât react, just watches you quietly, face impassive before quietly asking, âWhat are you doing?â
You swallow, trying to sound as confident as you can. âWhat do you think?â
His hand finally moves, up your back, till the nape of your neck, and you finally think youâve won. You lean in slightly, but then he tilts your head up, forcing you to meet his narrowed eyes.
âYouâve gotten pretty braveâŠâ
You gulp, and he smiles â all teeth, no warmth.
âYou think this is how it works? You crawl into my lap, bat your lashes, and I forget every condition we laid down?â
Your throat tightens, despising how smug he sounds.
âItâs not like that,â you protest defensively.
âNo? Then what is it like?â
You donât answer, as his thumb brushes your lower lip. âI know what you want. Youâve made it very clear.â
Then he pulls away, leaving you sitting on his lap flushed and frustrated.
âYou donât get to change the rules just because youâre impatient. Desperate girls donât make demands.â
âIâm not desperate.â
Your second lie of the night, and both of you know it.
He snickers. âWhatâs this little show then, hm?â
You bristle, and he leans in, speaking softly, just a little cruel. âShow me proof, princess. Otherwise youâre just pretending you want it.â
Youâre not given a chance to retort before he lifts you off his lap, deposits you onto the bed like a doll, and goes back to whatever he was looking at on his phone.
If he was trying to get through to you, it certainly worked.
âI did it.â
As usual, he barely looks at you. âDid what?â
âMy application. I signed up for classes. Check your email.â
Heâs quiet for a beatâthen his phone buzzes, and he opens the attachment. Your name, bold and official. All real.
He exhales, something unreadable flickering in his eyes. âTch. Didnât think youâd actually do it.â
âYou said youâd stop dodging me if I did,â you say, voice taut.
Sukuna sets the phone down, gaze cutting toward you like a blade. âAnd you followed through,â he murmurs. âGood girl.â
Your breath catches, pulse quickening.
Then he rises slowly, deliberate, until heâs standing in front of you. His voice drops; quiet, amused almost.Â
âSo thatâs all it takes to get you to commit to your future,â he says, brushing your hair back. âOne fuck from your uncle?â
You tense, but he just leans in to whisper near your ear, âI bet your parents wouldnât be so proud of you for going back if they knew the real reasonâŠâ
You flinch, heat and humiliation mixing in your chest because of course he has to make this as vulgar as possible.
But you refuse to back down.
âYou promised.â
âI did,â he says simply. Then he cups your jaw, forcing you to look at him.
âJust remember,â Sukuna adds, gaze dark and steady, âYou signed up for this.â
You donât look away, not even as the air grows heavier, as you feel a certain thrum starting up between your legs.
âI know,â you whisper, throat dry.
He watches you for a long beat, eyes roaming over your face like heâs searching for hesitation. But you donât give him any â you want this more than anything.
âTake off your clothes,â he says finally. Itâs not a request.
Youâve done this before, youâve done worse than this before, and somehow youâre still not entirely used to the feeling of undressing in front of someone â certainly not in front of him.
Your fingers tremble as you reach for the hem of your shirt, but you do it, breaking the silence with the soft rustle of fabric, the whisper of cotton slipping off skin, revealing the expanse of your skin.
Next your pants, pulling at your ankles before you step out of them. His gaze darkens with every inch of bare skin revealed but he doesnât move to touch you, not yet.
He watches, waiting, expecting as your hands reach around back to unclasp your bra. It falls to the ground, exposing your tits, your tightening nipples. You stand there, bare under his eyes that roam your curves, heart thudding, trying to ground yourself.
And still, he doesnât touch you.
âAre you scared?â he asks, voice quieter now.
You swallow. âNo.â
âLiar.â
You step forward anyway, closing the distance between you, resisting the urge to cross your arms over your chest. âDo it before I change my mind.â
His hand slides into your hair, firm but not cruel, tilting your head back. He looks at you like something he wishes he didnât crave as badly as he did. Something he wants to leave his fingerprints all over anyways.
âSix months,â he murmurs against your lips. âThatâs all weâve got. Then no more of this.â
âThen stop wasting time.â
Thatâs all it takes. He kisses youânothing like the last time. Thereâs no pretense now, no power play. Just heat, and want, and something else buried beneath it all, something like the night he told you he wants to ruin you.
He lifts you like you weigh nothing, carrying you to the bedroom. Thereâs no hesitation in him, just intent.
You feel it in the way he throws you onto his bed, peels your underwear down your legs, the way he tilts your chin back to bare your throat to him, kissing it like something he owns. Kisses turn into something harsher, sucking, biting, and the rough scrape of teeth that stings enough to make you suck in a sharp breath. You know now thereâll be marks of his claim littering your skin for days after.
But when he pausesâjust for a secondâeyes meeting yours again, itâs not just control you see there. Itâs restraint.
A question, silent but real. You answer it by pulling him down, mouth meeting his again.
And then thereâs no more waiting.
Thereâs a sound that escapes you when his mouth finds your throat againâquiet, startled, and helpless. He drinks it in like itâs what he wanted all along.
Warm palms roam slowly, like heâs mapping out every fragile inch, learning you by feel, by the way you shiver under his touch as his he trails open-mouthed kisses down your neck, along your collarbone.
You wonder if this is what sex is supposed to feel like - being worshipped and ruined at the same time. His hands make their way to your tits, tweaking one of your hard nipples between his fingers, before he bends to capture the other one in his mouth.
You whimper a little at the feel of his tongue tracing wet circles over the areola, then sucking hard enough on the bud for it to sting just a bit before he releases the pressure again.
"You really went and did it,â he mutters against your skin. âAll that pouting, all that begging... just to get fucked like a slut.â
You swallow, your own trembling hands making their way to the hem of his shirt, tugging at it, craving more of him, the feel of his bare skin against yours. Sukuna takes the hint, pushing off you with a low chuckle, just enough to pull his own shirt over his head. Dark markings crawl from over his shoulders, along his chiseled abs.
All muscle and sinew rippling under his flesh.
It occurs to you that youâll never want a boy after this, not after youâve been with a real man.
âItâs rude to stare,â he comments, arms flexing as he tosses his shirt aside.
âGive me some more to stare at,â you mutter shamelessly.
Eager to see him again, all of him.
Sukuna smirks, an arrogant gleam flickering in his eyes as he steps even closer, his body hovering over yours.
âMm, youâre getting impatient again. Weâve got all night sweetheart.â
His eyes roam down to the apex of your thighs, where theyâre clenching together, trying to relieve some of the ache.
âSpread yourself.â
You take a shuddering breath as you part your legs as wide as you can, heat flowing directly to both your cheeks and your cunt. He lays on the bed, and you leak more arousal in anticipation of his face right in front of your folds.
âI said spread yourself, girl. Do I have to show you how itâs done?â
You frown at him, trying to keep your voice steady. âIÂ d-did, canât spread my legs any further than thisââ
He clicks his tongue in annoyance, before taking your hand and using your fingers spread your inner folds open.
âLike this. Hold it.â
The flesh inside is softer, more sensitive, and you cringe when you feel it cool from air brushing against the slick skin.
âWhy? Itâs notâŠcomfortableâŠâ you mutter nervously.
âItâll feel better,â he states simply, large hands wrapping around your thighs to pull you in closer while you try to breathe and stay calm.
You trust him and hold yourself open as he leans in, and in a moment you understand what he means now â his tongue hot and insistent against not just your clit, but the surrounding areas of your sensitive inner labia.
You can feel everything, every stroke of his tongue, every small nudge of it against your clit and your sticky flesh. Bolts of pleasure light up your spine, as he works against your dripping cunt, lapping with increasing fervor. You whimper and quiver as he licks inside every crevice of your cunt, sucking on your clit, eating you out greedily.
You pant, feeling hot from your cunt all the way to the backs of your watering eyes as you twitch and tense, feeling yourself come closer and closer.
âMmh, j-just like that, donât -ah- fucking stopââ you whine desperately tilting your pelvis into his mouth for more, and soon youâre cumming all over his tongue, his hands keeping your thighs pried apart as they threaten to lock in around his head.
You finish, muscles laxing into a trembling mess and he intentionally gives you one last, harsh lash of his tongue right against your overstimulated clit, making you flinch in pain. He pulls away, inspecting your sopping hole, humming in approval before standing up to slip off his pants.
Down they go, and you canât help but watch the large bulge in his boxers straining against the fabric, a wet patch already formed. They slip off and you ogle unabashedly at his large, leaking cock, his hard length swaying slightly as he steps forward, crawling onto the bed.
His mouth latches back onto one of your tits, suckling and licking gently as he strokes himself a few times.
âYouâre shaking,â Sukuna murmurs, almost amused.
âIâm not scared,â you breathe, though your voice wavers.
He smirks against the slick mess on your breast. âMaybe you should be.â
His hand trails down your waist, rough palm against skin, as he finally rests his cock between your thighs.
Warm, with a dizzying weight. Soft skin against skin.
Just the sensation of his bare cock on your folds feels oddly vulnerable and intimate, enough to make your ears burn hot. Your stomach does a flip when you peer down, finally able to gauge the sheer size of him when his length is laying across your mons like this, his swollen tip reaching all the way till your navel.
Despite it, you could stare at his cock for hours.
And then it occurs to youâ
âWait, do you have a condom? IâmâŠIâm not on the pill.â
The words come out like a choked gasp, as though something inside you finally gives way. Your mind stutters, the fog of desire lifting just enough for the ugly reality to sink in. The heat that was rushing through your veins turns cold, a creeping dread that coils tight in your chest.
A terrible realization of what youâre actually doing. How real this all is. Because the chance of conception would be horrible enough on its own, but with a family member?
Well, thatâs what the natural revulsion to incest was supposed to prevent, right?
Your bodyâs response is instantaneousâan involuntary shiver that starts deep in your gut, an icy feeling that spreads outward, stiffening your spine. You thought youâd come to terms with this, but perhaps you hadnât â not all the way, at least.
âI do, but I wonât use them,â he states coolly. âI have more than enough money to afford a plan B pill if needed.â
Heâs right, but stillâŠ
Sukuna looks up at your face, taking in the hesitation written all over it.
âHaving second thoughts?â he asks, voice too smooth, too knowing.
Were you? You donât know.
Because in spite of the cold, you want this, and maybe the perversion of it all makes you want it more.
âYou knew there wouldnât be any holding back if we did this, didnât you?â He drags his cock languidly along your glistening folds, the head of it catching on your clit over and over, as he speaks.
Cruelly slow. Like heâs savoring every inch of your hesitation, every stifled breath, every twitch of uncertainty you donât want him to see.
You can feel the heat in your cheeks, the hesitation still curling in your chest, but itâs fading. Slowly, so slowly.
Your body betrays you, the cold tightening in your stomach transforming into something deeper, more urgent with every drag of his swollen head across your clit, pre smearing with your own slick.
Your hands, trembling but eager, make their way to his chest, pressing against his skin. A part of you wants to pull back, to stop this madnessâbut the other part? Itâs begging for more. The thrill, the perversion, it warms you.
You want to feel him completely.
âI did,â you whisper, âSo donât hold back. Even if you think you should.â
âSo youâre really gonna let me do this?â he asks, his mouth brushing your collarbone, tone low and mocking.Â
He wants you to want him, but he also wants to test how far youâll go â and that contradiction is Sukunaâs affection.
You should say something. Anything. But all that comes out is a soft gasp when his fingers ghost over your inner thigh.
âDonât worry,â he whispers. âIâll make sure it hurts just a little. Youâll remember it.â
You hate how that thrills you. That you want him more for it.
His hand slides beneath your knee, hitching your leg up around his waist. You feel everything in that momentâhis breath, his warmth, the coiled tension under his skin as he presses in closer.
âBreathe,â he says, right against your lips. âItâs just me.â
He finally pushes forward to part your lips, slow and deliberate, and you gasp. Building pressure gives way to pain, sharp and acute as you feel your walls stretching to accommodate him.
It burns.
âUncle,â you gasp, hips reflexively trying to pull away from the intrusion in your virgin cunt.
But he holds you in place, murmuring against your panting lips, âAlmost there, sweetheart. Itâll get better after this, I promise.â
You believe him, but your body reacts of its own accord â walls clamping down, trying to push out the invading length.
âIt w-wonât fitââ You start to panic a bit as you feel the burning stretch.
He hisses through his teeth at the tightening of your cunt, fighting the urge to simply slam in all the way as you wince and tremble.
âFuck, you need to breathe, Iâm serious â take deep breaths.â
âIt hurtsââ
âBreathe.â
You swallow and nod, forcing a deep inhale all the way into your belly. As soon as you do, he slides in all the way in one final push till heâs bottomed out inside of you.
Thereâs a moment of stillness, where it all weighs down on you. The feel of him sheathed inside you, the stretch, his breath mingling with yours, the gravity of what youâve let happen. What you wanted to happen.
He presses a quick, light kiss to your lips. âGood?â
âUh, y-yes, I think soâŠâ you reply unsurely, trying to get used to the feeling of something inside you. âFeels a little weirdâŠâ
âMm, well we can stay like this till youâre ready for me to move again.â His lips pepper your face in gentle pecks. âI donât mind having you cockwarm me.â
You stay there for a second, basking in this rare show of affection from him, as twisted as the circumstances might be.
And then, another deep breath. âOkay, Iâm ready.â
âYou sure?â
âYeah.â
âItâs gonna hurt.â
You pull your face back to glare at him, finding his lips twisted into a smirk. âYou fucking sadist, can you just do iâ ahh!â
You wince in pain as he abruptly pulls out, till only his tip is left inside and he grins down at you wickedly.
âOkay w-wait not so fasâ Uncle!â
Your sentence once again ends in a yelp as he slams back inside of you, hard enough to make your nails dig into his back as you jolt.
He groans obscenely in response at your heat enveloping him again, clenching down on him.
Your face is contorted now as you grit your teeth. âWhat is your problem?! I swear youâre doing this on purposeââ
âI told you I was going to make it hurt. Or do you not listen to the things you agree to?â he snaps back too quickly. A bit too sharply.Â
âIââ Your face crumples and you swear you see his eyes soften ever so slightly in response, like something akin to pity. Maybe realization that heâs being a bit too mean right now. Especially given whatâs actually happening here. You trusted him to take your virginity, after all.
You must look upsetâmaybe even a little scaredâbecause something in his face shifts. That awful grin fades.
âOkay, okay,â he murmurs, his hand coming to cradle your cheek, slow, almost gentle. And then, as if to make up for earlier, âYouâre doing so good for me, you know that?â
You blink up at him, breathing uneven. You donât trust the softness, not from him. But you donât pull away, despite your trembling. His other hand strokes the inside of your thighâtoo gently for someone who just made you cry out a moment ago.
âIâll go slow,â he says, quieter now. âBut itâs still gonna hurt.â
You bite your lip, nodding slowly. He watches your expression, like heâs testing how much of your fear youâre willing to swallow for him.
âBut itâll pass. It always does,â he says, brushing your hair back. âYou just have to take it. Be good, breathe through it. Iâve got you.â
He grips your hips, and slowly pulls out again.
It burns still, but less.
And back in his cock goes. You try to keep your breathing even, but itâs true, he shows restraint and goes slow enough for the pain to begin subsiding.
Sukuna watches you carefully, your lip still held between your teeth in slight discomfort, though your body starts to relax.
The pain might be fading, but youâve heard itâs supposed to be replaced by pleasure. Except you canât really feel any â you think his fingers felt better.
You look up at him. âMore. Go harder.â
âMore?â
You nod.
âFinally ready for me to actually start fucking you now?â
He smirks at the slight pout forming on your lips, soothing the slight sting of his teasing with another kiss to your lips as he begins to thrust faster. Youâre not sure when but soon your fingers are digging further into his muscle, anchoring yourself there as he begins fucking you with short, shallow thrusts, and soon your mouth parts around a sound you donât even recognize.
He groans softly in response, and itâs not mocking now. Itâs something raw, something real. âThere you are, my pretty girlâŠâ
His praise goes straight to your gut, coiling in with the heat slowly building there, more of your arousal lubing your silken walls making it a bit easier for him to slide in and out.
And then he stops.
You look at him confused, as he pulls away, standing on his knees, cock slipping fully out of your raw hole. It glistens in the dim light, flushed and turgid.
âJust wait,â he says as he grabs a pillow from besides you, and drags it under your legs. âHere, put your butt on this.â
Youâve heard something about pillows making penetrative sex feel better â you figure thatâs what this is as you shift downward till your ass is cushioned, pelvis raised slightly higher. He kneels a bit to the side, positioning one of his knees under the crook of your bent one, and grabs your other ankle, lifting your leg straight up.
You just canât help the snarky words from falling out of your mouth, âThought we were having sex, not doing yoga.â
He gives you a warning glare, the same disciplinary kind whenever you purposefully annoy him, or try to protest against some mundane chore heâs assigned to you.
And then heâs positioning his cock against your entrance again, the other hand coming to toy with your clit, making you sigh at the sensation.
âYouâd better shut that mouth while Iâm still trying to play nice, sweetheart.â
You want to say something but you feel the round head of his cock breaching your entrance again, and instinctively you tense up as he pushes inside.
Thereâs still pain, but itâs tolerable now.
Sukuna starts fucking you again, harder now, and this new angle makes you moan, back arching slightly off the mattress.
âHnngh, m-more Uncleââ you whimper.
âWhat was all that you were saying about yoga, earlier?â
He punctuates his words with a sharp thrust, a high-pitched noise coming out of your throat as you savor his fat cock massaging that spot in your swollen walls that makes you feel utterly gone.
ââM s-sorry, I didnât mean it,â you babble mindlessly, eyelids dropping as he fucks all the attitude right out of you.
His pelvis snaps forward, dark pink hair brushing against your burning skin, as he tightens his grip on your ankle, pulling your leg taut with ease.
âSilly girl,â he chides you, though his lips are pressing kisses along your ankle, down the length of your calf. âYou never learn, do you?â he mutters against your skin. âGood thing Iâm here to teach you your lesson over and over againâŠâ
âHaâah!â you mewl when he abruptly bends your leg a bit, placing his lips to the back of your knee to suck and lick at the delicate, sensitive skin there.
âU-Uncle!â You moan and gasp in ecstasy, shivers running down your spine all the way to where his cock is thrusting into your drooling cunt.
And then you take a look at him, a good look at him, in the faint warm light of the bedside lamp falling over his features.
Heâs familiar. Very familiar.
The broad shape of his muscular chest, the veins that run down the forearm gripping your leg, the set to his angular jaw as he fucks you, slight crinkles at the corners of his eyes.
You pull your leg from his grip slightly, moving around a bit in discomfort at staying in this physical position.
âStop squirming,â he says authoritatively, like heâs talking to some petulant, hyperactive child.
âMh, w-wait lemme justââ Soon youâre pulling your leg from his grip, planting your foot on the other side of his body as you stand on your hands and feet, arching your back, panting in desperation to feel more of him.
Sukuna lets you change positions, wrapping his arms to support your lower back as you grab his neck with one of your hands, undulating your hips so that his cock hits you in a new place â deeper than before.
âF-Fuck, greedy fucking girlââ he grits out and you can tell heâs losing his restraint now too, slowly focusing more and more on taking his own pleasure from your body rather than just giving. He thrusts into you harshly, kissing your cervix with each squelching movement, watching your tits bouncing on your splayed out torso.
âYes, yes, fuck yesââ
The musky smell of sex, the salty tang of sweat-slicked bodies now permeates the air as you move sensually, trying to feel him deeper inside you.
âGood girl, keep going baby, just like that,â he rasps, voice rough with arousal as he ruts into you.
The furrow of his brows, the smell of his skin, the warm, steady weight of his hands holding you, supporting you.
Familiar.
âAh, a-again, say it again, that Iâm goodââ
He slows down for a millisecond, eyes flicking to yours, at the needy look all over your face as you look up at him with pleading eyes, clouded and hazy with lust.
âDo you deserve that?â he breathes lowly, taking lead and fucking you harder with an intense pace you canât keep up with. âMy dumb, needy little niece. Wonder which side of the family you got all that desperation from, because it certainly isnât mineââ
The sound of his heavy breathing, the shape of his smirk, slightly lopsided.
âP-Please!â Something claws in you, something desperate and vulnerable to hear it from him, to hear that praise and validation, god, why canât he just give it to youâ
To your dismay he sneers, too far gone in that side of him that needs to degrade you, hurt you, control you.
âGood? Youâre bleeding all over my cock like a dumb piece of meat.â
âH-Huh?â You open your eyes, realizing theyâre blurry with tears as you look at where youâre connected.
And itâs true, his cock is covered in streaks of red every time it pulls out to slam back into you again. Maybe the sight shouldâve alarmed you, or made you feel more cautious or whatever â what it shouldnât have done was make you moan lewdly, clenching down on his length.
Sukuna notices your reaction, and it only sends him into more of a frenzy, gripping you so tightly heâs practically holding your nearly limp body up like a doll, as he fucks your hole.
âYou like that? Sick little slutââ he growls, before leaning in to whisper in your ear, âYou think your dad would still call you his daughter if he saw you like this?â
Your watery eyes widen, all the air sucked from your lungs as the words hit like a punch to the gut.
Thatâs what it is. Who he reminds you of, why he feels so oddly familiar.
Did you forget you were fucking your dadâs brother?
The similarities are undeniable now, a physical reminder of the genes you share.
Something twists in your gut, like a writhing serpent with the realization, yet your cunt leaks more and more, waves of shuddering pleasure only growing in their intensity.
Sukuna grins at your shock, before abruptly dropping you onto the bed, cock slipping out from your abused hole.
âStraighten your legs and turn on your side a bit.â
You obediently do as he tells you, and then heâs straddling your bottom leg, folding the top one and hitching it over his waist. You watch him, spine twisted so your torso lays supine on the mattress.
His other hand grips your ass, before he thrusts himself back into the warm, wet heat of your tight cunt, stretched perfectly in this position so that he hits you even deeper, like heâs in your lungs. He watches the pout on your lips, the crestfallen expression on your tear-stained cheeks as he fucks you so good that heâs forcefully pulling moans from you.
âStill gonna look at me like that? Well cry if you need to â Iâll still be here, fucking you through it.â
And even as heâs fucking you, losing himself in your pussy, Sukunaâs mind is sharp â he knows the reason behind this change in your demeanor. What it is thatâs bothering you. It's the same reason you need him, need his validation right now, his words of praise and reassurance.
You donât care if theyâre fake.
âMm fuck, p-please,â you pant incoherently between moans, crying out when he hits another spot that makes a rush of warm liquid drip out of you, coating his cock. âB-Be good to meââ
Sukuna snickers, reveling in the way you beg. âWhy? Iâm not your fuckinâ dad, slut.â He slaps one of your tits, making you jolt.
âSâkuna!â you cry his name, slurred with the weight of your tears, at how cruel he's being when you feel most vulnerable.
âIâm not him,â he repeats, hand grabbing your ass, digging his nails in till it hurts. You barely notice that pain amidst everything else right now, with the way heâs fucking you stupid. âBut we are blood. Thatâs why you fit so perfectly around me. Your cunt was made for this, sweetheart.â
He grinds his cock inside you, making you squeal in both pleasure and shame and disgust at his downright disturbing words.
âDonât say that! Youâre gross-â
âOh please. You fucking love it.â
âI donâtââ
Your words are cut off as a large hand wraps around your throat, pressing down onto your esophagus as he picks up the pace even more, heavy balls slapping against your skin.
âSay it and Iâll tell you all the things you wanna hear,â he whispers darkly.
You donât have much resistance in you, not when heâs ruining you like this, when your cunt is simultaneously aching and sore but screaming in pleasure.
âIâŠI love it.â
âLove what?â
âHowâŠfucked up this all is. That weâre related. And that..â you hesitate, and the grip on your throat tightens, making you wheeze a bit, the words coming out as barely more than a whisper from your strained throat. âAnd that youâve been like aâŠfather to me.â
âThere it is,â he breathes triumphantly, loosening his hold on your neck though his hand still stays collared around it. âMy good little girl. Finally being honest for once.â
His thrusts turn sloppy as he leans down to kiss you messily, and murmur against your skin.
âYouâre so perfect, you know that? Smart, capable, pretty...â
You moan at his praise, feeling your pussy clench tighter and tighter around his pistoning length. The words go straight to your core, building and building, melting with the pleasure into something that threatens to swallow you whole.
âIâm so proud to call you my niece.â
You cum instantly, wet noises spilling out at you gush slick and kiss him messily, a thin droplet of drool running down the corner of your mouth. And then with a twitch of his cock and a guttural groan, warmth is spilling inside you, the most heavenly feeling, as he fills you with ropes of his hot seed.
A few euphoric moments of him emptying his balls into you, and then the cum stops flowing and he stills his thrusts. Warm breaths fill the silence, then heâs collapsing on top of you, careful not to put the majority of his weight on top of you. Your damp skin sticks against his, and he grabs your body as he spoons you from behind.
âYou feel that?â He rolls his hips, slow and deep, his softening dick squelching inside the mess of fluids heâs plugged you up with. âThis is what it means to be mine.â
You take a deep, shuddering breath as he pulls out of you, cock exiting your hole with a wet pop.
And then stillness. Too much of it.
The only sounds are the hum of the lamp and the uneven rhythm of your breathing. Your body curls in on itself instinctively, sheets tangling around your legs. You half expect him to push you away as you press your cheek to his chest, listening to the slow steady thrum.
He doesnât. And the sound of his heartbeat is the only constant you have in the chaos still blooming inside of you.
Sukuna doesnât speak. One arm lies draped lazily behind his head, the other wrapped around your waistâpossessive, but not tight. His thumb strokes the small of your back, lazy and unthinking, like heâs petting a sleeping animal.
You donât know what you expected after â a sharp word, a joke, indifference, maybe. But not this. Not him letting you hold onto him like this. Not his lips brushing against your temple like it means something.
âYouâre quiet,â he says finally, voice low and almost too soft. âRegret already sinking in?â
You don't answer with words. Just shake your head a little against him, like you're refusing to answer something you can't explain.
Numbness. And the physical need to feel him next to you. That's all you feel.
His hand moves up to your hair, fingers threading through it. âHn. Didnât think youâd cling like this.â
âIâm not,â you mumble, even as your fingers curl tighter in the sheet between you.
He chuckles under his breath, the sound vibrating through his chest. âLiar.â
Thereâs no malice in it, no mockery. Just a strange, patient warmth that makes your throat ache. And when you finally dare to glance up at himâat the faint cut of his jawline in the soft light, at the familiar cruelty in his eyes dulled by something quieterâit aches deeper.
Not regret. Something else, something softer and more tender that feels like it shouldn't hurt.
And yet it does.
But then something shifts â imperceptible, but there. The slightest stiffening of his body under yours.
âYou good?â you murmur, sleep-heavy, cheek still pressed to his chest.
He doesnât answer right away. His hand lingers in your hair, then stills. His breathing changesânot relaxed, not calm; more like heâs suddenly aware of something he hadnât let himself think about.
The silence between you stretches, no longer warm. Youâre already half-asleep when you feel the mattress shift, his voice cutting through the haze a moment later.
âDonât get comfortable. We need to get you cleaned up, and more importantly you should go pee.â
You groan, dragging the blanket over your head. âAre you serious? I donât need to go.â
He tugs the blanket down with one hand, unimpressed. âYeah, well youâre still sticky, bruised and probably bleeding a little. Get up.â
You scowl. âSo romantic.â
âIâm not trying to be romantic. Iâm trying not to let you get a damn infection.â
âIâll survive,â you mumble, rolling over.
And thenâbefore you can reactâhis arms are around you, and heâs scooping you up like you weigh nothing.
âHey!â you yelp, squirming in his grasp. âPut me down! I can walk!â
âYou had your chance,â he mutters, already heading toward the bathroom. âYou made your choice when you started whining like a brat.â
âI am a brat,â you snap, arms crossed, glaring at his jawline. âAnd you like it.â
âRight,â he replies sarcastically, âOr maybe I just donât feel like explaining to your parents why their daughter has a goddamn infection.â
You let out an exaggerated sigh, but despite your annoyance, you canât help but relax a little into his chest, finding some strange comfort in the way he holds you. Maybe itâs the fact that you know heâs rightâheâs always right about these things, even when itâs irritating.
âWell actually youâd be the one explaining, in that case. Donât want Mom and Dad to know the kinda things youâve been up to, huh?â
You glower at him as he tries not to look too pleased with himself, dropping you clumsily to your feet in the dark bathroom. You suppress a grimace as you feel his cum leaking out of you, sliding down your inner thighs.
Itâs an odd, slightly disconcerting sensation.
âCan you at least try?â
âThereâs nothing!â you snap, slightly embarrassed that the topic of you peeing is still being brought up. âI wentâŠ.before, okay?â
Sukuna just sighs. âMake sure you do it next time. Donât wanna deal with a UTI.â
You make a face but heâs already pushing you with a hand on your back to step into the shower. The warm water hits your skin, and you shiver before it starts to soothe. Youâre still sulking, arms crossed under the spray as Sukuna steps in behind you like itâs just another chore he has to handle.
âYou gonna stand there pouting all night, or do I need to wash that attitude off first?â he drawls, already grabbing the wash towel like youâre completely useless.
You try to snatch it from him. âI can do it myself.â
âIâm sure you can, sweetheart,â he replies condescendingly sweet, though he holds the wash towel up and away. âBut I can do it better.â
You glare at him, but heâs already starting to lather your arms, completely unbothered by your glare. âYouâre so annoying.â
âNo,â he says, deadpan, âYouâre annoying. Iâm just responsible.â
You let out an exaggerated scoff, but your shoulders relax under his touch. You hate how smug he is when heâs right.
âYou know I hate it when you treat me like a kid.â
âYou act like one,â he replies, adding more of the fragrant bodywash onto the towel, before forcefully spinning you around to face him. âEspecially when youâre tired. Or hungry. Or pretending youâre not clingy.â
You sputter a bit at the sudden spray of water in your face, before finally giving him another cold look.
âMe? Clingy? Are you out of your mind?â you reply, genuinely a little offended for some reason.
He just snorts, clearly unconvinced, and drags the towel down your back with a slow, deliberate hand. âYou literally cried the last time I left for more than two days.â
âThat was once,â you bite back, jaw tightening. âAnd I was on my period.â
âYou called it a âseparation-induced emotional collapse,ââ he quotes flatly, then dips the towel just beneath the curve of your ass like heâs cleaning you, though you know heâs doing it just to get a rise out of you.
You swat at his arm, but he grabs your wrist and pins it lazily against your side, still holding the towel in the other hand. The motion isnât aggressiveâjust practiced, smooth, like heâs done this a thousand times before.
âLet me go.â
âNo.â
âIâm going to push you and youâre going to fall in the shower and not be able to get back up because of how old you are.â
He huffs out a short laugh through his nose, clearly amused. âSweetheart,â he says, still calmly lathering your skin, âif anyoneâs breaking a hip in here, itâs you. I saw you nearly sprain your knee trying to climb on top of me last night.â
âOnce again, that was one time.â
âThat was this week.â
You squirm against his grip, which only tightens slightlyâenough to keep you still, not enough to hurt. He lathers the soap with the cloth on your chest, then squeezes it till the foam drips lewdly down your breasts. You only notice whatâs happening when he smirks, eyes trained on the bubbles traveling the curve of your chest.
You swat half-heartedly at his chest, cheeks burning. âYouâre disgusting.â
He grins, utterly unrepentant. âYou say that like itâs new information.â
âSometimes I forget how unbearable you are when you get your way."
âAnd yet, you keep letting me have it.â
His eyes flick down againâlanguid, slowâwatching the water and suds slide down your skin like itâs a show meant for him alone.
You roll your eyes and try to pull away. âMaybe Iâm just too tired to argue.â
âLiar,â he murmurs. âYou like it when I take care of you like this. Even when you pretend to hate it. Especially then.â
You stare at him like you're about to challenge him, but no words come out.
âTell me to stop,â he says, his voice low, fingers dragging just slightly along your waist now, âand I will.â
You look at him. Heâs still holding the cloth, still waitingâfor once, serious.
So you cross your arms to give him another stubborn look. "You forgot to get behind my ears, by the way."
His mouth twitchesânot quite a smile, more like a warning.
âDonât push your luck,â he says, but the way he tosses the towel over his shoulder and leans in tells you heâs taking the bait anyway.
You hold still, stubbornly proud, even when his hands bracket your jaw and tilt your head just so. He uses his thumbs first, rough pads gliding just behind your ears, then switches to knuckles as if heâs mocking the gentleness of the gesture.
âSince when you got so bratty?â he mutters. "This definitely can't be the same girl who showed up on my doorsteps a few months ago."
You glare at him, lips parting for a sharp retortâbut he beats you to it, voice dipping just low enough to make your stomach flip.
âShe used to be quiet. Timid. Didnât even look me in the eye.â
You scoff dryly. "Iâve always thought you were unbearable. Difference is, now I say it out loud."
He huffs out a laugh, more breath than sound, the corner of his mouth twitching. âAnd here I was thinking youâd just grown attached.â
âDelusional and smug. Impressive combo.â
He doesnât rise to the bait. Instead, his fingers slide from your neck to your collarbone, slow and measured like heâs mapping you out again.
âKeep talking like that,â he murmurs, âand Iâll start thinking you enjoy mouthing off just to see what Iâll do.â
âMaybe I do.â
Thereâs a pause. A taut little silence between youâcharged, waiting, thick with steam and something heavier than heat.
Then suddenly his grin widens, wicked and boyish all at once.
âAlright then,â he saysâand then, without warning, he twists the shower handle.
A blast of cold water smacks your skin like a slap, and you let out a shriek, practically leaping backwards into him.
âUncle!â you gasp, teeth chattering as you try to scramble out of the spray. âAre you insane?!â
He laughsâreally laughsâarms effortlessly catching you as you flail, pressing you against his warm chest like you arenât soaking and furious.
âYou looked like you were overheating,â he says smugly, completely unfazed by your glare. And the ice cold water, for some reason. âJust trying to help.â
âYouâre a menace,â you hiss, shivering as you try to reach around him for the handle.
His hand closes around your wrist before you can reach the knob.
âEasy,â he says, voice low but firm. âYouâll throw off your system if you change the temperature too fast too much.â
You blink at him, teeth still chattering, but he doesnât budge. Just calmly reaches past you and adjusts the water himselfâslowly, carefullyâuntil it warms again, just enough to stop your skin from prickling.
âBetter?â he asks, like nothing happened.Â
âYouâre lucky I donât have hypothermia.â
He raises a brow, unimpressed. âYou were flushed and bratty and needed cooling off. Donât make me explain the logic.â
âThere was no logic. That was violence.â
âSoft violence,â he replies. âTherapeutic, even.â
You open your mouth to argue again, but heâs already guiding you gently under the warm spray, his touch firm and no-nonsense now. Not serious exactly, but steadier.
âHead down."
You sigh, complying, letting the water run through your hair as he works shampoo into your scalp with methodical handsâfingertips massaging a little too well for you to keep up your grudge.
âYouâre ridiculous,â you mumble.
âMm. Probably.â
He finishes rinsing you off in silence, hands steady and impersonal nowâguarded, almost, like the line between teasing and responsibility has been redrawn.Â
Soon youâre out of the shower, wrapping yourselves in towels, drying your hair. The bathroom is silent as Sukuna brushes his teeth.Â
That feeling, in your stomach again. Something bitter and unpleasant. Fear? Youâre not sure of what.
âCan IâŠsleep with you here tonight?â you suddenly ask, voice smaller than youâd like.
Sukuna pauses, eyes flicking to yours in the mirror, and thereâs something unreadable in them.
Uncertainty, maybe?Â
You donât want to think about it â the thought would only make you spiral. If he regrets this, if he sees you differently now. Maybe heâs even disgusted by you.Â
He spits into the sink, rinses, and sets his toothbrush down with a clack. For a second, he doesnât say anything, and your chest tightens.
âTch. Youâre clingier than I thought,â he finally mutters, avoiding your eyes as he wipes his mouth with a towel.
But itâs not biting , itâs hollow. Deflection.
You flinch slightly. âSorry. Iâll justââ
âI didnât say no,â he cuts you off, voice quiet but firm, still not looking at you.
You freeze. âSo⊠I can?â
He finally meets your gaze in the mirror â and for once, thereâs no smirk, no mockery in his eyes. Just something tired, maybe even resigned.
âItâs your bed too,â he says after a pause. Then adds, almost too low to catch, âAt least for now.â
Your eyes flit over to his toothbrush, and as quickly as you can, you reach for it. But Sukunaâs faster. He grabs it out of your hand, squeezes the toothpaste, and tilts your chin up with two fingers.
âWhat are you doing?â you mumble, brows furrowed.
He doesnât answerâjust shoves the toothbrush gently between your lips and starts brushing your teeth for you, slow and deliberate.
âAre you serious right now?â you try to say around the bristles.
âMm-hm,â he hums, condescendingly calm. âSince you probably canât do anything without me, apparently. Mouth open.â
You try to pull back, but his hand is firm against your jaw. âUncle.â
âShh,â he murmurs. âOpen your mouth wider.â
You glare at him, cheeks puffed up, while he carefully brushes in exaggerated little circles, way too pleased with himself.
âThis is so demeaning,â you mutter.
He grins. âIs it? I think itâs adorable. Youâre like a spoiled little cat. All hiss, no bite.â
When he finally pulls the toothbrush away, you shove him lightly in the chest, scowling. âI hope you donât do this with your girlfriends.â
He smirks, not missing a beat. âWell, youâre not my girlfriend, youâre myââ
"Do not," you quickly cut him off, shooting him a venomous glare.
You expect the usual smirkâthat smug, needling grin he wears whenever he knows heâs gotten under your skin.
But it doesnât come.
Instead, thereâs a flicker of something elseâa beat of silence that lingers just a second too long. Then he looks away, the moment slipping like steam through fingers. âGo put on your pajamas,â he says quietly. âI need to change too.â
Your chest sinks. âWhat? Why?â
He doesnât look at you as he turns away. âBecause weâre not animals.â
That gets under your skin. Deeper maybe, somewhere more sensitive. âYeah, except we just fucked like animals, soââ
âItâs not about that,â he cuts in, too quickly, too quietly. âItâs just⊠better this way.â
You watch him, frustration rising like heat under your skin. âYou said you wouldnât do this.â
He pauses, back still turned. âDo what?â
âDraw lines.â Your voice comes out sharper than you meant it toâbrittle, breaking around something you didnât expect to feel. âYou promised. Said you'd give me all of you. Until I had to leave.â
Heâs quiet. His shoulders rise and fall with a breath that sounds heavier than it should. Youâve hit something, and you both know it.
You press. âWhatâdid you think I wouldnât actually take it?â you sneer. âAnd you were the one accusing me of pretending to want it.â
That makes him turn, just slightly. His eyes meet yours, and for a flicker of a second, there's something raw in them. Frustration. Guilt. Or worseâfear.
But he doesnât argue, just exhales through his nose, tension bleeding from his shoulders.
âFine,â he says. âGet in bed. But donât complain if you wake up with my elbow in your face.â
You roll your eyes, but move, letting the towel fall from your body. Youâre bare, except for your pantiesâthe liner catching the faintest trace of blood and whatâs left of him. You donât look away as you straighten the blanket and peel it back, sliding under the sheet. Itâs cool against your skin, kissing your chest where youâre usually too shy to sleep uncovered.
But not tonight.
Out of the corner of your eye, you catch him glancingâunsure, maybe even uncertain where the lines are anymore. You donât say anything. Just wait, still and quiet, as he kills the light and lies down beside you. The space between you feels fragile, thick with everything neither of you is saying.
At first, neither of you moves.
You lie on your side, facing the wall. Heâs behind you. Not touching, not close.
You shift slightly under the covers. âAre you really gonna sleep all the way over there?â
You meant it to sound teasingâbut it comes out... needy, almost.
A heartbeat passes and then the bed shifts as his warmth touches your skin, his body fitting behind yours. Not quite touching yet, but itâs much closer than before. Tentatively, you push back, your back brushing his chest, careful not to let your ass brush up against his groin. He doesnât pull away, just lets out a long breath, like heâs been holding it this whole time.
âYou donât have to pretend it didnât mean anything,â you whisper.
But you know thatâs not the real question. The real question is what this is, now, why heâs gone distant, why the warmth of his body doesnât quite reach the space where you needed it to.
Guys pull away after sex â youâve heard that. But he isnât just some guy, and this wasnât supposed to be just sex. Thereâs something more to his silence than that, youâre sure.
Or at least you hope.
That maybe the twisted, complex nature of your relationship would count for something here, where it matters more than ever, perhaps.
He doesnât reply but soon his arm is slowly wrapping around your waist, pulling you into the expanse of his broad chest, fingers resting right beneath the curve of your breast. They caress the underside so softly it almost tickles.
And then, softlyâso quietly you almost donât catch itâhe murmurs against the back of your neck,Â
âI donât want to miss you.â
The closest heâs ever come to a confession.
You wake up to the smell of grilled fish and miso.
Sukunaâs here this morning. Youâd half expected him to fuck off to wherever he goes for work, just to avoid seeing you after last night.
And not necessarily the sex partâbut the part after, where you slept tangled together, limbs knotted, his body curled around yours. You swear that at some point during the night, between dreams, you felt one of his large palms gently cupping your breast. Not sexually. More like the way a kid hugs a stuffed toy in their sleep. Something unconscious.
Possessive yet soft.
But now, thereâs nothing in his place except rumpled sheets and an empty stretch of mattress. You get dressed in your pants from last night, then pull one of his oversized shirts over your head to cover your chest. Youâre not in the mood to cross paths with him in the kitchen half-naked, just to grab clean clothes from your own room. Finally, you make your way to the dining table and slump into a chair.
Sukunaâs standing at the stove, hair still damp from a shower, sleeves rolled up as he plates breakfast like itâs any other morning.
âYou need to talk to your counselor today. About the dorms.â
You blink. âWhat?â
âFor school,â he says, like youâve asked something stupid. âNext semester starts in a few weeks. You still havenât put in your housing request.â
You frown, slowly sitting up straighter. âOkay, wellâgood morning to you too.â
He finally glances over his shoulder. âMorning. Now eat.â
You study him carefully. Thereâs no trace of last night in his expression. No warmth, no softness, just that familiar sharp-edged irritation, like youâve already done something wrong. âYouâre being kind of a dick this morning.â
âIâm being realistic,â he replies flatly. âYou want to finish your program, donât you?â
Itâs trueâyou do want that degree. But something about the way he says it now digs under your skin. âYeah, butâwhy are you suddenly on my ass about it? Youâre acting like Iâve been slacking or something.â
He doesnât answer right away, instead sets a bowl of rice in front of you with a little too much force. âThatâs not the point.â
âThen what is the point?â you challenge, looking up at him. âWhy are you suddenly breathing down my neck about this stuff?â
Sukuna dries his hands with a towel, leans against the counter, and stares at you. His face is unreadableâannoyed, yes, but thereâs something else under it. Distant and resigned.
âYou said you wanted to go back,â he says simply. âIâm making sure you do.â
âYeah, but why now?â Your voice rises before you can stop it. âWe literally justââ You stop, cheeks burning. âYou know.â
He doesnât flinch. âThat doesnât change anything.â
You push the bowl away. âRight. Of course it doesnât.â
The silence that follows is thick and bitter. âIâm not hungry,â you mutter, standing up.
âYou need to eat.â
âOh my god, can you stop acting like my dad for five seconds?â
He freezes. The words land in the room like something dropped and shattered. You hadnât meant to say it but there it is, ugly and raw. He stares at you, jaw tight, eyes sharp. âIâm not your fucking dad.â
You cross your arms, scowlingâbut your insides are trembling. Embarrassed. And you donât even know why. âI didnât meanââ
âYes, you did,â he says, voice going cold. His expression twists, sharp and mean. That look he wears when you push him too farâwhen he lets something rotting and cruel crawl to the surface just to watch it burn you. âAs if your dadâs ever seen you naked. Wrapped around hisââ
âOkay, stop!â
He doesnât stop. Instead, his voice goes low, flat and weaponized. âDonât pretend you donât like it when someone tells you what to do. You melt for it. Like a fucking pet. Tail wagging the second someone shows you attention.â
He steps forward, slow and deliberate, letting the silence stretch between each word. âYou want someone to feed you. Dress you. Tell you whatâs good for you. Praise you when you behave. Punish you when you donât. Isnât that right?â
His smile is wrong. Thereâs no humor in it. âYou donât want a dad. You want an owner.â
Your stomach drops.
âAnd youâd rather it be me than anyone else. Thatâs the sick part, isnât it?â
You clench your jaw, knuckled white around the chopsticks you grip so hard youâre surprised they donât snap. âDonât fucking talk to me like that,â you hiss, eyes burning.
His voice is equally low, gaze equally cutting. âThen sign up for your goddamn housing and make sure youâre out from under my roof in six months.â
Sukuna had almost forgotten what you were like before all this. Before you let him in.
But over the next few days, he remembers. He remembers how cold you can be. How distant. How easily you can withdraw behind those walls of yours, quiet and unreachable.
Polite, even â thatâs the worst part. Not cruel, not defiant. Just... cordial. Impeccably so. With that measured tone and perfectly impassive face, like heâs a stranger you owe civility to and nothing more.
You donât sleep in his bed anymore. Most nights, youâre behind the door of your own room. You wake up early, make breakfast before heâs even down the hall. You greet him with a sterile âGood morning,â eat when youâre supposed to, excuse yourself without fanfare.
And through it all, not once do you snap at him. Not once do you cry.
Itâs this version of you â competent, composed, independent â that reminds him, with aching clarity, that you donât need him.
You do the things he used to remind you about before he even opens his mouth. You fold your laundry without being asked. Clean your space, your dishes, your bathroom. You eat, on time, like clockwork. When you struggle with a jar, you donât ask him. You run it under hot water, twist a rubber band around the lid, and open it yourself.
At first, it annoys him. Then, it sinks in.
Youâve always been capable. Always sharp, always resourceful. You could take care of yourself. You did, before him â before he inserted himself into your life. But now he sees the truth, that all those moments when you leaned on him werenât signs of helplessness. They were choices.
You let yourself rest, let yourself be cared for, for once. Gave up the exhausting self-sufficiency because, for the first time, someone was there â and you wanted that someone to be him.
No it was never incapability; it was surrender.
And now youâre showing him that you can go back to holding it all again, alone, if you have to. And that, somehow, is worse than any screaming match, any slammed door. You even inform him one evening yourself â perfectly neutral â that youâve talked to the counselor. That youâve applied for housing, and the results should get back in a few weeks.
In many ways, you are certainly much more tolerable than before. And at the same time, in the most ironic twist of fate, he canât stand it.
He canât stand those guarded, polite smiles you give him. The way you clean your own dishes without being asked. How you only come to him, or speak to him, when itâs necessary. How you seem unfazed by his longer hours, how you barely seem to even care or notice.
Sukuna only realizes then how much youâd opened up to him, how much of you youâd let him see. That the clinginess, the neediness he used to tease you forâthose werenât flaws. They were the soft depths youâd chosen to reveal beneath that armor he now remembers all too well. The quiet trust behind it, the way youâd let him in. And heâd taken your vulnerability and used it against you.
Vulnerabilityâsomehow your greatest strength. Because he doesnât know how to show it himself. Doesnât know how to be soft without destroying something in the process.
He knowsâas your guardianâthat whatever this is between you has to stop. That itâs fundamentally wrong, that you deserve a future untouched by this, by him. That you should go to school, finish your degree, meet someone your age, live clean and normal and free.
But as a man who wants a womanâwants youâhe doesnât want any of that. He wants to keep you close. Keep you his. Make sure no one else ever sees you the way he has, touches you the way he has, ruins you in the way he already has.
And gods, it would almost be easier if you didnât look at him like thatâlike heâs worth everything. Like heâs still someone you want, even now. And thatâs what makes it dangerous. Which is why he had to draw the line and set the goddamn deadline. Force you to take control of your own life, even if it hurts you. Even if it kills something inside him.
And the worst part isâitâs working, isnât it? Youâre moving on. Maybe not willingly, nor gracefully, but youâre moving on.
And heâs stuck somewhere between what he owes you as your uncle⊠and what he wants as a man.
He doesnât say much these days to you.
But he starts showing up in small, quiet ways.
A freshly folded towel left outside your bathroom door. A full cup of barley tea placed by your laptop while you study. Groceries restocked with your favorite brand of yogurt.
Little things. Nothing dramatic, nothing direct.
You ignore them all. Not because you donât notice â you do. Every single one. But acknowledging them would mean softening, and softening would mean giving in. And that strange, ugly ache still swells inside your chest every time you see him. So instead you harden.
When he knocks gently at your door one night, a quiet âYou eaten yet?â slipping through the wood, you pretend you have your headphones on. He waits a few moments, doesnât push. Eventually, you hear his footsteps retreat. You stare up at your ceiling and feel the guilt press against your ribs, dull and stubborn. But you donât open the door. Not yet.
Because some part of you still wants him to feel it. That you were hurt and that youâre not just going to pretend like it didnât crack something open. And until then, you keep that distance. Even as it eats at you too.
A few days later, Sukuna finds you on the balcony.
Youâre small in the dark. Knees pulled to your chest, sleeves tugged down over your hands. Itâs cold, but you donât shiver.
He leans in the doorway for a long moment before stepping out. Doesnât say anything at first, just pulls out a cigarette, lights it with a quiet flick, exhales a slow curling stream of smoke into the night.
You donât look at him, but thereâs that familiar ache in your chest. A tightness.
âYouâre freezing out here,â he says eventually, like itâs casual.
Nothing.
He tries again. âDidnât touch your dinner.â
Still no response, not even a shrug.
A longer pause this time. He shifts his weight, running a hand through his hair.
âYou remember that stray cat? The one you used to leave food for down the block?â His voice is low, rougher. âHavenât seen it in a while.â
You donât respond but your fingers twitch. Sukuna stares at the side of your face. The line of your jaw, clenched tight, the blankness in your expression.
But inside, youâre fracturing. You donât know what it is â this urge to hurt him, to dig in the knife and twist, even if it hurts you too. Some side of you thatâs simultaneously sadistic and masochistic, that wants to sabotage everything good, that enjoys the mutual pain.
You suppose that like your uncle, you have a cruel streak somewhere within you as well.
It's been a full week now.
Sukuna lingers in the doorway of your room, like heâs debating whether to say something or leave. Hands stuffed in his pockets, eyes low. He doesnât look like himself, not in the way youâre used to â no sharp smirk, no biting comment ready to tear into you.
Just that annoying silence again. Heavy and hesitant.
âYou doing okay?â he asks, eventually.
You donât look up from your notebook. âFine.â
â...You eat anything?â
âNo.â
A pause. You let it stretch out, wanting him to leave. Or maybe, secretly, you want him to stay and try harder.
âI made soup,â he says. âYou couldâve justââ
âI didnât want it.â
He tenses â not a lot, but enough that you notice. It makes you feel that rush of power, laced with bitterness. With hurt. And somehow you canât stop yourself.
So instead you flip a page, scribble down a word you donât care about.
He exhales sharply. âLook, I didnât do it to punish you. I thought... if I didnât give you a push, youâd never try. Youâd stay here. Get stuck. With me.â
Now you glance over your shoulder, barely. âSo you thought hurting me was a favor?â Your voice is flat, almost bored. It stings.
He clenches his jaw. âYou know thatâs not what I meant.â
You finally lower the pen, clipping it to the side of the notebook to close it and keep it down. Then, you turn â calm, composed, lips pressed tight.
âNo,â you say coolly, âI think you meant every word. That Iâm a burden. That I should get out of your hair.â
âThatâs notââ
âYou donât have to explain,â you cut in. âItâs fine. You want me to move on, right?â You smile a bit. âI have a date tonight, by the way. Donât wait up.â
It lands exactly where you intended it to. Sukuna goes still. A slow, bitter kind of stillness, the kind that simmers behind his eyes. You walk past him without another word.
And behind you, he doesnât follow.
Your date is forgettable.
Some guy from a dating app you downloaded on impulse a few nights ago, during a moment of defiance or loneliness â you canât tell which. He talks about cryptocurrency the entire time. You nod along, barely listening, more focused on finishing your ramen than the words coming out of his mouth.
When the check comes, he glances at it, then at you. "Want to split?"
You donât even bother sighing, just slide your card forward and nod.
On the way home, the silence in the train feels more like relief than emptiness. You realize it then â the whole outing was a quiet attempt to prove something. To yourself, or to Sukuna, youâre not sure. All it proves is that heâs still the one you think about, even when you're sitting across from someone else. He would never ask you to split the bill. And for reasons you donât want to examine too closely, that thought makes your chest ache more than it should.
You unlock the front door quietly, out of habit. The home is dark except for the low flicker of a lamp. You toe off your shoes, slip inside, and pause there for a moment â unsure why.
Heâs not in the living room. Not in the kitchen. You glance toward his closed bedroom door
You expected to feelâŠsomething. Triumph, maybe. Validation. Or at the very least, distraction. Instead, thereâs only that dull, familiar ache settling back in your chest as you wash your face, brush your teeth, change into pajamas..
You should get to bed, sleep it off. Pretend the date meant something, that it helped.
But you donât.
Instead, like some quiet pull you canât resist, you drift toward his door, knock once â barely audible â and let yourself in without waiting for an answer.
Heâs in bed, half-asleep or pretending to be. The soft glow of the lamp beside him casts shadows over his face. He doesnât say anything when you approach, just watches you through lidded eyes.
You hesitate at the side of the bed. Then, without a word, you crawl in beside him â careful, uncertain.
His body is warm, solid. You donât touch him at first. Just lie there, facing away, the space between you sharp with tension. Then, slowly, you feel the mattress shift. A hand brushes your back, barely there.
You don't speak; you don't need to. Eventually, your hand finds his, and holds.
Not an apology. Certainly not a resolution. But something.
You wake up before him.
Itâs still dark out, just the faintest grey bleeding into the corners of the sky through the window. His room smells like sleep and the faint woody aroma of whatever soap he uses. Youâre curled toward him, one arm tucked under your head, the other resting lightly near his chest.
Not touching. JustâŠclose.
For a while you just lie there, heart aching and quiet. You hadnât meant to come to him last night but now, in this slow, blurry moment, you realize it was the only place you couldâve ended up.
He shifts a little in his sleep and a quiet sound escapes him, the kind that makes your throat tighten for no good reason.
Finally he speaks, voice low and groggy. â...You came home late.â
You donât answer. Just breathe slowly, carefully.
His arm shifts, hand brushing your back again tentatively. âWas he any good?â
You let out the smallest breath of a laugh. Not amused, just tired. âNo,â you whisper. âHe was boring as hell.â
A long pause. You donât look at him, and he doesnât press. âGood.â
Another beat. You almost laugh again, but it catches somewhere painful in your chest. So instead, you let your eyes fall closed again and say nothing. His fingers linger on your back, warm and uncertain.
Still no resolution. Still no answers. But somehow, the silence between you feels less like distance â and more like a thread slowly weaving itself back together. You fall asleep like that, side by side.Â
A couple days pass.
Things donât go back to normal, not completely, but the ice isnât as sharp as it was before. Youâre both still circling each other, careful, cautious. But the air between you is a little less brittle now.
Itâs late morning. Youâre in the kitchen, halfheartedly eating some toast, still in your sleep shirt. He walks in, dressed and ready to head out, keys in one hand, phone in the other. He says nothing at first, just grabs a bottle of water and downs half of it.
You keep your eyes on your plate, but then, casually â maybe too casually â you ask,
âYou working today?â
His brow lifts, ever so slightly though he doesn't turn to face you right away.
âMmh,â he hums, wiping his mouth. âI am.â
You nod once, like that was all you wanted to know. But the smallest flicker of something akin to disappointment flashes across your face, and he catches it. He leans against the counter, watching you for a beat too long. ââŠYou gonna miss me or something?â
You roll your eyes without looking up, cheeks warm. âDonât flatter yourself.â
He grins faintly â just a hint of smugness there, but itâs gentler than usual. Almost soft. âMm. Thatâs not a no.â
You snort under your breath and finally glance up at him, just for a second. Heâs already turning toward the door, but thereâs something lighter in the way he moves now like maybe your question meant more to him than it shouldâve.
And maybe your asking it meant something to you, too.
You donât say anything else as he leaves. But when the door closes, you sit there with your half-eaten toast and feel the quiet press of his absence in the apartment. And this time, it doesnât feel like punishment.
It just feels like⊠missing.
You donât plan to wait up. At least, thatâs what you tell yourself. You clean up the kitchen after dinner. Do a face mask, scroll on your phone. You even get in bed at a decent hour, lights off, pretending you're tired enough to sleep. But you don't; instead you just lay there, staring at the ceiling, wrapped in too many thoughts and too much quiet.
You hear the front door open sometime after three in the morning. The soft shuffle of his shoes being kicked off and keys landing in the bowl.Â
You could stay in bed. You should. But before you can put thought into it, you're getting up and padding out into the hallway quietly, not sure what you're doing, until you catch sight of him in the living room â jacket off, sleeves rolled up, rubbing his neck like itâs been a long day.
He hasnât noticed you yet. You hover a moment, then casually speak up, your voice quieter than you intend. âLate.â
He glances up, just a little startled. But his gaze softens when he sees you â rumpled from bed, arms loosely crossed like youâre pretending this is some kind of ambush and not the result of waiting for him for over three hours.
âDidnât mean to wake you,â he says.
âYou didnât.â
He doesnât say anything right away. Neither do you. There's a quiet tension that mightâve been awkward once, but now just feelsâŠcareful â like both of you are trying to speak without saying the wrong thing.
Then, after a moment, he gestures with his head toward the couch. âWanna sit with me for a bit? We can watch TV or something.â
You hesitate but only for a second. ââŠYeah,â you murmur. âAlright.â
You curl into the corner of the couch, and he sits down beside you â not too close, but close enough that your shoulder brushes his when you shift. You just sit there silently, some late night talk show on the screen that neither of you are really watching, the clock ticking on the wall.
Neither of you says it, but youâre both thinking the same thing. That this⊠is better. You missed this.
The room is dim, the air thick with the remnants of the night. You can feel the weight of his presence even without looking at him. Itâs strange, how the space between you doesnât feel empty tonight.
You sit, stiff at first, then relax, just enough for the warmth in the room to seep into you. You can hear him breathing â slow, steady, and soon the quiet becomes comfortable. Heâs the first to break it, his hand still lingering in the air, hovering above you, before he drops it to his lap.
âGo to bed if youâre tired.â His voice is low, almost absent, but thereâs something in it â a softness you donât expect from him.
You donât answer at first. Instead, you just feel the weight of your own exhaustion settle in. The events of the night, the day before, everything elseâall of it starts to catch up. You never realized how much you needed this quiet.
âNot sleepy,â you mumble.
âYou look like youâre about to pass out.â
âThen just let me.â
Your eyelids flutter, and the weight of sleep tugs at you, slow and irresistible. You try to fight it, but your body betrays you and involuntarily you lean back, just a little, and your head slips sideways.
His presence is warm, familiar, an anchor that you canât seem to pull away from. Before you realize it, youâre not just leaning against the couch anymore. Your cheek is against his shoulder, your body curling slightly in towards him.
You donât move. His hand is still resting near you, just close enough that you can feel the heat of his skin if you shift an inch. You want to move away, to keep that distance, but youâre too tired. Too drained. And, despite everything â despite the fighting and the sharp edges between you â you feel safer here.
You donât notice when you finally drift off, your breathing evening out in rhythm with his. Sukuna watches you for a moment, his gaze lingering on the top of your head. He doesnât move, even as you shift slightly in your sleep, closer to him.
His hand hovers for a beat before he rests it on your head, just a light touch, like heâs afraid of waking you. Or maybe afraid of needing you. He doesnât let himself think about it too long. He shifts slightly, adjusting his own position to make you more comfortable, but he doesnât push you away or force you to go back to your room. For the first time in a while, he simply allows himself to be in the moment with you, even if nothing is fixed.
Slowly, your odd relationship begins to rebuild itself. Almost like nothingâs changed. Which feels good, but you know is probably ultimately bad.
There isnât much left for you to do regarding your college application now other than wait, which works in both your and Sukunaâs favors since he doesnât have to ask you about it. And for a little while, you can both pretend like it doesnât exist, like there isnât a definitive end to all this.
You once again start bugging each other in that way, where it becomes a game to push each otherâs buttons. The subtle jabs, the teasing remarks â it feels familiar, like slipping back into an old pair of shoes. Comfortable, easy.
One morning, you deliberately make a mess with the breakfast dishes, leaving them in the sink just to see if heâll say something. He doesnât disappoint.
âSpoiled,â he mutters, eyes flicking to the unwashed plates before he grabs his coat to head out for the day. Youâre about to say something snarky back, but he catches you off guard when he pauses by the door. âIâm leaving. Donât forget to eat. Donât make me come back here to check on you.â His voice is sharp, but thereâs something behind it that catches you off guard.
You donât even reply, just raise an eyebrow as he walks out.
The day stretches on, and as usual, you find yourself stuck between the feeling of wanting to be left alone and the pull of his presence â a silent, strange comfort.
A few days later, youâve had enough of your own thoughts spinning in circles. Youâre lounging in the living room, scrolling through your phone when Sukuna walks in, the air shifting the moment he steps through the door.
âMade yourself comfortable?â he remarks dryly, nodding to the mess of books and papers scattered around the coffee table. You shrug, not bothering to answer, but he continues, his voice cutting through the silence. âYouâre avoiding me again. Good to know Iâm still that important.â
You roll your eyes but a tiny smirk tugs at the corner of your lips. âOh? And how am I avoiding you?â
âYouâre still keeping your distance. Donât think I havenât noticed.â He leans against the doorway, his arms crossed, but thereâs something different about the way heâs looking at you today. Less guarded. Almost vulnerable, though heâd never admit it.
You donât respond immediately, the tension in the air thick. For a long moment, neither of you speaks. Then, the game kicks in. You look up from your phone, tilting your head with a feigned innocence. âAnd what about you? Still not asking about my college stuff? Youâd think youâd care by now.â
His jaw tightens, but he doesnât rise to the bait. Instead, he smirks in that infuriatingly smug way. âYouâd like that, wouldnât you? For me to care? But Iâm leaving it up to you. All of it.â His voice softens just a bit, and for a second, the tension fades. âJust donât waste the chance.â
It stings. Not because of the words, but because you know theyâre true. And deep down, youâre not sure if youâre ready to make that choice.
Sukuna wonât admit it, but heâs secretly thrilled at the way youâve started to cling to him again.
It begins with you sometimes crawling into his bed at night, asking if you can sleep with him. He agrees, and soon the asking eventually just turns into you announcing that heâll be sharing the bed with you.
And then the casual, domestic bickering returns full time to your daily life. One morning youâre sitting at the breakfast table, innocently eating leftovers from last night as he opens the fridge to grab some milk from his coffee.
The carton is suspiciously light, but he tries his luck anyway, unscrewing the lid to pour some into his glass.
A single drop falls out.
He catches you trying not to look at him, clearly hoping to escape the reprimanding thatâs about to come your way.
âSeriously? Can you just throw away the damn containers when theyâre finished?â
You sigh. âOkay, Iâll do it next time.â
âYou say that every time.â
âOkay what do you want me to do? Go back in time and throw the carton away? I just forgot.â
He narrows his eyes. Maybe heâd buy into it a bit more if he didnât see how well you could really do things, when you werenât talking to him. Weaponized incompetency - thatâs what this is.
If youâre not acting like some poor womanâs kind of shitty boyfriend, youâre acting like a spoiled pet.
You stand in the doorway to his office, arms crossed over your chest. Sukuna is bent over his desk, scribbling something on a piece of paper. He doesnât look up at first, but you can feel his awareness of your presence, as always.
âIâm bored,â you announce, breaking the silence.
Sukuna barely glances up. âDo I look like your entertainment?â
âNot really,â you mutter, stepping closer. âBut Iâm here, so I thought you might want some company.â
He doesnât respond, and the silence stretches until you canât stand it any longer. You move behind his chair and sit down on his lap without asking. He freezes for a moment, but doesnât push you off. His hands remain on the paperwork, not acknowledging the shift in your position.
You lean in slightly, eyes flicking to the paper in front of him. âWhatâs this? Planning to buy something else you donât need?â
âShut up,â he says, his voice rough but not unkind. âIâm working.â
You roll your eyes, shifting your weight a little to grindâbarelyâagainst his thigh. âIt must be hard to focus when youâre this uptight,â you say, deliberately lazy in your tone.
He glances at you sideways. âIâm not the one climbing into someoneâs lap uninvited.â
âDonât need an invitation. Itâs my birthright as your only niece,â you reply with a half-smile.
His gaze sharpens, but he doesnât bother responding. Pen scratching against the page like heâs willing himself to ignore you.
You want his attention, maybe something more â to get a peek into his head. But you know him; he never gives anything away when asked outright. Thatâs fine, youâll go for the side door instead.
After watching him for a moment you lean in a little, voice laced with provocation. âLet me guessâyou think this is annoying. That Iâm clingy and that youâd rather be alone.â
He pauses just for a second, but you catch it. Still, he doesnât say anything. Push a bit further.
You tilt your head, feigning thoughtfulness. âOr maybe youâre just trying not to care too much. Wouldnât want to make things messy, right?â
Thatâs when his pen stops moving. His jaw tightens, just enough to make you smirk.
âYou donât know anything about whatâs going on in my head,â he mutters, low and sharp.
There we go.
âWell, maybe you should share then,â you respond casually.
He leans back in his chair slightly, bringing his face closer to yours, and you feel your breathing quicken. Your pulse stuttersâGod, youâve missed this. Missed him like this. Sukuna grins slowly, in that way that tells you heâs up to no good as his hand finds its way to the curve of your hip.
âYou really wanna know whatâs going on in my head?â He shifts beneath you, just enough for you to feel itâhard and rising under your weight.
âGuess I do,â you breathe, feigning calm.
âIâm thinking,â he says lowly, brushing a stray strand of hair behind your ear, âThat the shipping clause in the new procurement contractâs gonna screw us if customs get nosy in Kobe again.â
You blink before your face settles into a scowl of irritation. âGod youâre fucking insufferable,â you mutter, looking away.
âWhat, did you want me to say I was thinking about you?â
You give him a dry, biting, pointed look that makes him smirk even wider.
âWell I was thinking about you tooâŠ.â
You freeze for half a second.
ââŠAnd how you still havenât bought the milk you finished without telling me. Or taken out the goddamn trash.â
You turn away, trying not to let the dejection get to you. Sure maybe youâre horny but it was more than that too â you wanted him to want you like that again. To feel that he still desires you in the way you know he shouldnât.
So you begin to get up with a sigh, when he pushes you back down abruptly before casually adding, âOh and how I want your pretty little lips wrapped around my cock right now-â He grabs your hips, grinding your throbbing cunt right onto where his bulge is straining against his pants, âSo I can fuck your throat till you choke on it.â
Your eyes widen, breath hitching a little in surprise. Exactly the reaction he wanted, clearly, considering how it makes him smirk.
âIs that the kind of thing you wanted to hear? Huh?â he teases.
Yes, it is, but youâre feeling a bit more bratty after the way he just messed with you.
So you purse your lips, trying once again to climb off him. âNope. Not anymore at least. I think Iâm gonna go take out the trash actually since you were so concerned about thatââ
His gaze darkens and before you can even catch the movement heâs gripping your wrist. âKnees. Now.â
You shoot him a glare. âAnd give me one good reason I should do that after that shit you just pulled?â
Of course the thought of getting to feel his cock in your mouth for the first time is more than arousing, but your penchant for demand avoidance proves to be just as stubborn.
âBecause you waltzed in here practically begging for my attentionâand now youâve got it,â he says smoothly, thumb brushing along your lower lip, hand cupping your jaw. âInterrupting me while Iâm workingâŠâ
His eyes drag over your face. âMight as well make yourself useful. Help me burn off some of this stress...â
You donât respond, but you donât pull away either. He watches you, waiting. When you still donât move, his hand trails lowerâfingers wrapping around your throat with deliberate pressure.
âGet on your knees.â His voice drops, grip tightening just slightly. âI wonât ask again.â
You swallow hard, eyes locked on his. Then you move. He releases you as you shift, lifting yourself off his lap and lowering to the floor between his legs, gaze never breaking from his. Sukunaâs eyes follow you, widening his thighs a bit more so that you have better access to the bulge now at your face level.
And before he even has to ask, youâre reaching forward, unzipping his fly to expose the swell in his boxers. He exhales softly when you finally pull down the waistband, freeing his erect cock, already flushed and leaking at the tip.
You swallow again, this time louder, the sound exaggerated in the quiet between you. He hears it, clearly, and lets out a low, amused snort.
âNothing to say now?â
You give him another half-assed scowl, before returning your attention to his dick. His skin is tan against the dark pink of his hair, a contrast that draws your eyes before anything else. And when your hand finally wraps around him, the weight of him is undeniableâsolid, warm, real.
His cock is just as imposing as the rest of him. No wonder he acts like that.
âWhat do you want me to do?â you murmur, giving him an experimental pump of your fist, before bending forward to lick the pearlescent bead of pre gathered at his slit.
A little salty, maybe even sweet, ever so slightly.
Sukuna breathes a bit sharply at the touch, though his voice stays composed, condescending and arrogant as ever. âSuck it? Give me a blowjob? Want me to say it in another languagâ ah, fuck,â he hisses when you deliberately stiffen the tip of your tongue, firmly prodding into his slit.
Not hard enough to hurt, but certainly enough to probably feel uncomfortable. You lift away, stroking his length gently with a small satisfied smile.
âWas that good?â you ask innocently, knowing few things annoy him as much as your weaponized incompetency.
âJust open your mouth and let me fuck it since you canât do it right yourself.â
You place one hand on his thigh, the other bringing his tip back to your lips to give it another kitten lick. âIn a moment.â
You tease your tongue around his frenulum, sliding your tongue up and down with soft, almost curious licks. He lets you explore dick as you borderline inspect it, lifting his shaft to peer at the heavy balls sitting below before running your tongue along the seam with almost reverent carefulness. Sukunaâs breath deepens, as you feel his hand coming up to knot in your hair.
âWhatâs this all about? Never sucked a dick before or something?â he murmurs, though he stays patient, letting you go at your own pace.
âI have. Just not yours,â you mumble, as you bring your lips back up, rubbing it against his sensitive glans just to see what it feels like.
Soft, so soft, almost satin-like.
Youâve sucked dick before, yes, but never felt the need to get so familiar with another manâs intimate areas, to take your time like youâre trying to permanently imprint the memory of it in your brain. You find yourself wanting to memorize every vein you trace with your tongue, the smell of him, the taste of him, the feel of him in your mouth.
Perhaps you understand now why he was so adamant on wanting to see every inch of your own pussy. Not to mention no other manâs ever leaked as much precum as he is right now, oozing from his slit as you coat your lips with it in a slick sheen. Sukunaâs muscles are visibly tensed beneath you, you can tell heâs reaching his limit from the steady tightening of the hand gripping your roots. Good.
But you want to push him further, just a bit. So you look up at him as you collect spit in your mouth, before parting your lips to drip it obscenely over his tip. And then, you blow on the wettened skin, ever so gently.
A notch forms between his brows, jaw clenching as it does when he gets irritated. Suddenly your head is yanked back, scalp stinging from the harsh tug.
âEnough,â he growls. âStick your tongue out like a good slut.â
You do as youâre told, and soon heâs taking his cock and rubbing it against the flat of your tongue as you gaze up at him.
âThatâs it.â He slides cock off your tongue, and onto your face, slapping it against your cheek with a wet noise, your saliva sticking to you skin. âNow open up.â
You widen your jaw and take a deep inhale through your nose right before he slides his girth in, inch by inch, feeding it into your throat. Immediately your gag reflex kicks in as he goes deeper than youâd expected, sooner than youâd expected.
Sukuna only snickers meanly when he hears you choke a bit, your throat convulsing around his cock. âToo much?â
You narrow your watering eyes in defiance, inhaling again through your nose before remembering a trick youâd heard somewhere about squeezing one of your thumbs so you donât gag.
So you ball your left fist around your thumb as hard as you can, and strangely enough, it works. With that you hollow your cheeks and push your head down until your nose reaches the coarse hairs on his pelvis, taking in how tight your throat feels around his cock sheathed fully inside.
He smiles as you still a bit, the grip in your hair loosening so that he can stroke it instead, as he murmurs pleasantly surprised, âOh, good girl. You learn fast, huh?â
Before he can do it himself, you begin moving your head back before sliding back down again, feeling the velvety skin of his shaft brush along your tongue as you bob your head up and down. Slick, squelching noises fill the study, your throat making wet clicks as it moves around him. You can feel your saliva starting to drool out, dripping down his shaft, some smearing on your lips and chin.
It feels sloppy, even more when you hear him groan in pleasure as he grips your hair again, the noise sending an unbearable warmth down to your core while you try to focus on keeping your teeth out of the way and breathing through your nose.
âMmh, just like that baby, your throat feels so fucking good,â he rasps.
His praise goes right to your head, feeling much better than it had any right to. Itâs enough to make you push away the aching pain flaring in your jaw from holding it open, just to hear more of it, to show him how well you can please him. You unclench the fist you were squeezing to fondle his balls, caressing and massaging them delicately while you work your throat around him, rubbing your tongue along his length and letting more of your spit drip out and onto his cock as you swallow around it.
You know Sukuna. You know beyond a certain point of pleasure, his lust will morph into something worse, something vicious that likes to ruin.
And you know it's what compels him to abruptly grip your hair so tightly it stings, and thrust his hips so hard into your mouth with a guttural noise that you make a muffled squeak of surprise, losing your rhythm and feeling you gag reflex claw up your chest, trying to push him back out of your throat. He grins wickedly, cock only twitching in excitement when he feels you struggling to take him, only encouraging him to go harder, fuck your skull till tears are streaming down your face and spit froths at your lips and dribbles down. Strands of your hair stick to the mess, but heâs too busy bruising the back of your throat to care enough to peel them away.
âHah, I think this is your birthright as my niece,â he sneers between pants, as you try and regain some semblance of control, fingers trying find some purchase on his thighs to steady you a bit. âFinally putting that fucking mouth of yours to proper use.â
Youâd be annoyed normally, but in the hazy mess your mind is in right now, with nothing existing but the wet heat of your throat engulfing his cock, the musky scent of him and the stiff pain in your jaw, youâve been reduced to a primal need to devote yourself to his pleasure. So you relax, and let him use your throat, gazing up at him through teary eyes, drinking the sight of his face contorted in pleasure, brows pulled together, bottom lip sucked in between his teeth.
Surrender.
Maybe he can sense the moment you finally do so because then his face is crumpling and you feel his hips stutter as he pulls back so his tip rests heavily on your tongue.
âOh, fuck-â
Spurts of seed spread across your tongue as he fills your mouth, warm and viscous, as he fills your mouth. He finishes finally, pulling out his wet dick from your mouth with a satisfied sigh.
You donât swallow; instead you keep his semen in your mouth for a bit, tasting it, feeling it, as he tucks himself back in. The texture is somewhere between saliva and diluted syrup, and under the saline taste thereâs a strange sweetness â warm, earthy, almost like the smell of skin after sex. You chase it with your tongue, savoring the taste not because itâs objectively good, but because itâs his.
And then, an idea comes to mind.
Before Sukuna can react, youâre getting to your feet and climbing onto him. You tilt his jaw towards yours, muffling his surprised grunt as you abruptly kiss him, pushing your way through his lips, guiding the slick taste into his mouth with the tip of your tongue
You more than half expect him to push you away, but he catches you off guard when he kisses you back instead, deepening it and groaning softly as sucks the cum off your tongue, some of the white fluid leaking down the corners of your lips. When you no more is left, you pull away, breaking a thin strand of fluid connecting your wet lips.
You sit there for a moment, flustered and out of breath, before wiping your lips and face with your sleeve, scowling when he smirks at you completely unfazed.
âWas that supposed to be revenge? Because it kinda turned me on instead.â
âSorry, I forgot youâre a fucking freak,â you comment dryly.
âGuess you got it from me.â
You glare at him again, pushing against his chest. âIâve had enough of you.â
But Sukunaâs hand is trailing up your waist, coaxing you to stay there.
âAw, and here I was thinking about rewarding you for your good work,â he purrs.
âRewarding me?â you repeat, suspicious but a bit intrigued.
âMhm,â he hums. âGet on the desk.â
Your brow furrows as you peek at the desk behind you, still covered in documents. âWhat?â
âYou can move the papers to the side.â
You donât move yet. âFor what?â
Sukuna sighs. âJust do it. And take off your pants.â
And for some reason you comply, getting off him to hastily swipe the papers to the side before shrugging your pants down your legs and sitting on the desk in front of him.
He clicks his tongue. âNo, I want you to turn around. Iâm gonna eat you out.â
Oh.
Youâre certainly not going to fight against that. Sure heâs never eaten you out from the back before and the position makes you a bit nervous, but then you remember you only get him like this for a few more months and soon youâre climbing up all the way onto the desk.
You feel a bit more vulnerable like this with your cheek pressed against the cold hardwood, your ass presented to where you canât see him.
âPerfect. Just stay still now.â
You hear him moving and a warm palm squeezes one of your cheeks, kneading the pliant flesh before his second hand joins on the other side.
âOkayâŠâ you mumble, âJust donât try anything âŠweird.â
He doesnât respond, but you think you catch a light laugh under his breath. Not a good sign, but youâre too far in now.
And then your panties are being pulled down your ass till right above your knees, and you can already feel how wet you are just in anticipation.
Sukuna doesnât waste any time, and immediately his tongue is caressing at your damp folds, before slipping in and gliding through them till your clit. You moan softly as he begins lapping at your pussy, tingling heat building between your thighs as he licks you firmly, suckling on your clit in between.
Sukunaâs certainly talented at eating a woman out, youâll give him that, because not even five minutes later youâre whimpering and shaking as the pressure in your clit builds till you cum on his tongue.
A few breathless moments and then you feel yourself loosening up again, coming down from your high, feeling much better now than a few minutes ago when you were sure he had some devious plans in mind.
âShit, that was good,â you mumble as his tongue pulls away from your sopping cunt.
The relief you were basking in is ripped away when suddenly you feel him gripping your cheeks and spreading them apart.
Uncomfortable.
âI said no weird stuffââ Your words end in a squeak of surprise when you feel something warm and wet press against the tight rim of your asshole. Heat quickly rises to your face in indignation as you shift, trying to get away from the ironclad grip he has on your ass. âOh my god, do not do thatââ
A sharp slap to your ass shuts you up as you wince in pain instead. âYou should really try new things, you know that? Itâll get you a lot farther in life.â
âUncle!â you cry out in mortification when you feel his tongue back on your hole, prodding at it. âDo we really need to do this?â
âYes,â his answer comes between small licks at your hole, making you flinch when he abruptly spits on it. âHow else will you take my cock up here if you canât even take my tongue?â
âWhat!?â You squirm, twisting your head to try and look at him. âNo, no, that is definitely not happening.â
âWhy not?â
âWhy does it have to!? Is my pussy not good enough for you?â You can barely see him behind you from the way heâs holding your ass firmly in place, but that wonât stop you from trying, even if it makes your neck hurt a lot.
You hear him audibly sigh. âDo you always have to fucking argue with me?â
And then maybe as punishment, or just because he likes to torture you, he presses the tip of his tongue firmly enough against your puckered hole that it actually breaches through. You yelp at the odd, visceral sensation
He pulls it back out just to laugh at you. âIf you can go three minutes without moving around or fucking bitching, Iâll let you go. How about that?â
âYou better put a goddamn timer.â
Sukuna sighs, but he agrees, setting the time on his phone before putting it back on the desk. âNow shut the fuck up.â
It is still far from comfortable, this strange new sensation, and at first youâre still fighting to try and not squirm, especially when his tongue presses teasingly into your entrance again, before probing a little deeper. Youâve never done this before, not even with your own fingers, really.
His tongue feels delicate and invasive at once- even though heâs barely in deep, itâs somewhere untouched. Yet somewhere along the way you stop tensing and just let him play with your hole, and when his tongue pushes a bit more insistently against the tight ring of muscle, a quiet whimper falls from your lips.
Then his fingers are joining by pushing into your wet pussy, and the feeling of him massaging your walls as his tongue works diligently at your other hole is enough to make you moan and melt into the touch.
You hate it. Thatâs he always right. That he really, definitely, knows what heâs doing if heâs actually able to make you enjoy this despite the discomfort and your initial reluctance. And fuck, it feels good- dirty and sinful enough to make your arousal drip down his fingers and your hole clench around his tongue. But then the shrill ring of the alarm cuts through, startling you and yanking you before you can fall deeper into the haze. You donât even realize youâre panting till he pulls away and you turn to look at him, feeling a bit conflicted.
âYou canâŠkeep going,â you mumble. âIt felt kinda good.â
And to that, Sukuna looks at you with amusement as he licks his lips.
âOh, would you look at that? My dirty little niece actually likes getting her ass eaten,â he coos as you stare at him venomously.
âBut,â Sukuna leans back into his chair, grinning lazily. âThe timer rang, and I promised I wouldnât go longer than that remember?â
Irritating, infuriating man.
But you did say that, so this oneâs a bit fair, even if you always feel like heâs setting you up on purpose every single time. You donât say anything, just huff and roll over to pull your panties back up before sitting and getting off his desk, putting your pants back on.
Sukuna stands and stretches with a low grunt. âIâm gonna wash my hands. Then Iâve got work to finish.â
You nod, shifting a little where you sit, and watch as he disappears into the bathroom. The sound of running water fills the quiet room for a moment, then cuts off. When he returns, drying his hands on a towel, his gaze flicks to youâstill lingering where he left you.
He drops back into the chair, spreads his thighs, and pats one. âCome here. Sit.â
âDo you always have to talk to me like Iâm a dog?â you mutter under your breath, though you quickly move to make yourself comfortable on his lap, resting your head against his chest as he gets back to work like you still canât taste the faint astringent aftertaste of his cum in your mouth, or the dampness on the gusset of your panties.
Your relationship not only returns to what it used to be, but becomes something even moreâevident from the fact that you now regularly sleep with him at night. Hours of tossing and turning trying to fall asleep turn into minutes as soon as youâre next to him. But with him next to you, the restless ache that builds in your body each night has nowhere to goâand you canât exactly handle it the usual way with him lying inches away.
After a few nights, Sukuna canât take it anymore. You crawl into his bed again, barefoot and sleepy-eyed, and he lets you in without a wordâagain. You curl into him like you always do, seeking the warmth and safety he pretends not to offer. And as always, he runs his hand down your back, lets you rest your head against his chest, even pulls the blanket up over your shoulders without complaint. But then it starts- the shifting. The sighing. The squirming.
He can feel every frustrated twitch of your body, every little exhale like your skin is too tight to hold in whateverâs stirring inside. He cracks an eye open, jaw clenched. Youâre on your back now, eyes open, staring at the ceiling like itâs personally offended you.
He waits. One minute. Two. Thenâ
âYou done?â he mutters.
You glance over, sheepish. âSorry⊠I justâcanât sleep.â
âNo shit,â he says, voice gravelly with exhaustion. âAnd youâre making it my problem too.â
You try to apologize, genuinely feeling kind of bad. âIâm sorry, I donât know what it isââ
Sukuna just sighs and then his hands are sliding to your hips, pulling you closer against him.
You donât say anything. Words are never needed with him â he understands what you need, even before you do. How to offer you some relief. He notices how your breath hitches, thighs shifting as he slips his fingers under your top, skimming along your skin. He notices all the things you try to hide.
âWhatâre youâŠâ Your voice trails off as his fingers dip lower, beneath the waistband of your pajamas.
âShut up,â he murmurs gently, hands slipping fully into the waistband of your panties.
Lower and lower, till they brush against your slick folds.
âYou really need me to do everything, huh?â he muses, his voice low and lazy. âCanât even get yourself off like a big girl?â
âSukuna,â you whisper, flustered now, but your legs shift againânervous, needy.
âWhat?â he taunts gently, like heâs scolding a pet. âYou want to toss and turn all night like a brat, or do you want to cum so hard you pass out?â
You glare at him, cheeks flushed. âYouâre such an asshole.â
He smirks, leaning down, mouth brushing just under your jaw as he deliberately dips a finger into the arousal collecting at your entrance, before puling it back out to smear your slick across your folds. âYeah. And youâre wet for it.â
You let out a breathy sigh, just giving in, relaxing your body into his and letting him take over. One of his fingers slips inside you at first, and he presses it right against the spongey part of your wall. He can feel a throbbing under the sensitive, swollen flesh there, like your heart is literally beating in your cunt.
It makes blood flow to his own cock, but he ignores that for now.
He fingers you under the sheets, your juices spilling and dampening your panties, though you donât really care. Soft, wet noises are audible from under the blankets, amidst your small whimpers and mewls, grinding into his hand for more.
Finally you cum with a small cry, and when Sukuna pulls his hand back out his fingers are covered in a glistening glaze. And just like he predicted, your body stays lax, satiated, no longer restless and squirming, and he can feel you starting to doze off against him.
But heâs Sukuna, so right before he lets you fall asleep he sticks his cum-coated fingers into your mouth abruptly. You make a muffled noise of surprise, and agitation.
âClean them,â he says plainly. âYou made a mess.â
Youâre too drowsy to really fight back anyway so you lazily suck his fingers clean, tongue licking at the crevices in between , the taste of your own arousal coating your tongue before you swallow it down.
And when you decide youâre done, you pull his fingers from your mouth with a soft pop, turning your head away in quiet defiance. He snorts under his breath, wiping the damp fingers on your cheek just to get a rise out of you.
You groan, muffled against the pillow. âCan you not?â
âShhh,â he murmurs, unbothered, like youâre the one making a scene.
You try to swat at him half-heartedly, but your arm's too heavy with sleep, and he easily catches your wrist, pinning it lazily to the mattress.
âSuch a brat,â he mutters, voice low and warm near your ear.
You donât bother answering, just sigh, turning your face into his chest instead, letting the steady rhythm of his breathing pull you down. His hand lingers at your back, a quiet weight as you fall asleep and neither of you realize it's the first time you've addressed him by his name of your own accord.
Thereâs something about growing up with very little family. No bufferâno siblings to confide in, no cousins to rely on, no grandparents to balance things out. Every relationship carries extra weight.
In your case, itâs your parents. In an ideal world, this wouldâve drawn you closer. A small, tight-knit family. But in reality, emotional absence from either parent creates a gaping voidâwhether you name it or not.
For you, itâs a paternal wound. One that only becomes glaringly obvious when Sukuna slips into your life, uninvited, into the role of a pseudo-guardian.
It isnât some clichĂ© Freudian desire to date your father; itâs something deeper. What draws you to Sukuna isnât the simple need for a father figureâitâs how he fills a hollow space inside you. And the quiet resentment that he wasnât there to do it sooner.
But there are downsides to filling a wound. You havenât forgotten that momentâthe horrible, embarrassing moment the morning after he took your virginity. When, raw and vulnerable, you snapped, calling him "your dad."
Neither of you ever brought it up again. And maybe thatâs for the best, because the implication was too real. Because while the sense of protection from him draws you in, it also comes with expectations you never asked for. Sometimes, when Sukuna acts like he cares, it feels like a leashâan invisible tether you never wanted, but canât escape.
You donât look too closely at it. You donât ask questions. You donât dig into why it feels this way, because deep down, you know that if you did, youâd start trying to excuse it. And that feels worse.
So you let it haunt you quietly instead. You let it settle in your bones, a constant undercurrent of discomfort that youâve learned to live with. And you donât question it.
Not even when, one evening, in the middle of one of your usual bickering sessions, Sukuna announcesâout of nowhereâthat heâs taking you on a date. Especially since, according to him, your last one was pathetic.
Youâre pretty sure itâs just his way of proving a point, another game to pass the time.
But still.
Your stomach flips. That giddiness bubbles up, childish and bright, almost shameful in its intensityânot because you crave male attention, not just because someone chose you.
But because he did. Because itâs Sukuna, and everything he represents.
The one person who never had to care, who didnât owe you anythingâbut still chose you, regardless. And even if his gesture is wrapped in sarcasm and ego, it feels surprisingly pure. Like something tender buried beneath something cruel.
It disarms you.
Especially when he adds, almost carelessly, that youâll need a new dress, proper heels, maybe even a little makeup.
âIf Iâm doing this,â he says, âIâm doing it right.â
Of course, you try to laugh off the part about him buying you things. Youâve been trained to never take from others, to never be the one who gets lavished with attention, and you donât know how to accept it anymore. Or maybe itâs deeper than that. Maybe youâve never known how to let yourself be spoiled.
Sukuna, however, just gives you that lookâa sharp, unamused stareâand tells you to shut up.
So you do. You nod, face flushed, trying to hide the way your chest tightens. Not just from excitement, but from something heavier, something sharper. The ache of being cared for in a way you were never shown how to care for yourself. Something dangerously close to wantingâno, needingâto be wanted in a way you never learned how to ask for.
Sukuna means it when he says if youâre doing this, youâre doing it right.
Which is how you end up at the store that weekend, standing in front of an employee assigning you a changing room. You hold out the dresses draped over your armâfour of themâfor her to count.
âOoh, those are great choices. Whatâs the occasion?â she asks, smiling.
And then Sukuna appears behind you like some large, intimidating shadow, and you swear you can see her recalibrating behind that smileâtrying to figure out if heâs your dad or an older boyfriend. She definitely lands on the worse conclusion when he smirks and rests a hand on your shoulder.
âShe has a date tomorrow night,â he says.
You force a small smile, shifting under his touch, laughing nervously. âYeah.â
âLucky guy,â she repliesânow clearly convinced heâs your father. "You can take that big stall at the end,â she adds with a knowing look.
You blink, eyebrows knitting as you glance between Sukuna and the girl. âOh, heâs not coââ
âThank you,â Sukuna cuts in smoothly, steering you away before you can finish your sentence.
The second you're out of earshot, you twist out of his grip, shoving the door to the stall open. âThere is absolutely no need for you to come in with me. Just stay out here. Iâll show you each one when I try them on.â
Sukuna tilts his chin toward the bench inside the stall. âSee that? Thatâs for uncles supervising their bratty nieces. Tradition.â
He gives you a grin so filthy you nearly combust.
âOh my godâshut up.â You glance around, mortified. âDonât say shit like that. Peopleâll get the wrong idea.â
âMore like the right idea. Hope they all know you suck your uncleâsââ
You slap him before he can finish, cheeks blazing, and yank him inside by the wrist as he laughs.
âYouâre the worst,â you mutter.
The door clicks shut behind you. You hang the dresses up one by one, studiously ignoring him as you grab the first one off the rack. Sukuna sprawls on the bench like he owns the placeâand you. Legs wide, arms folded, eyes fixed on your reflection in the mirror.
You peel off your top, then pause at your waistband. âCan you, likeâŠclose your eyes?â
He opens his mouthâno doubt ready to say something disgustingâso you cut him off before he can get the words out.
âUgh, never mind. Forget it,â you mutter, yanking your pants off anyway.
Now youâre hyper-aware of the mirrors. Of the lighting. Of the man sitting behind you who doesnât even pretend not to stare. âCan you not ogle me like some creep?â
He doesnât blink. Just watches, then slowly palms himself through his jeans.
Your mouth drops open. âSeriously?!â
You yank the dress down over your chest, catching him trying not to laugh, which only infuriates you more.
âNeed help?â he drawls.
âNo.â You drag the dress into place and turn toward the mirror.
At least heâs stopped groping himself. But his gaze still drags over you like heâs memorizing every inch.
âWell?â
Sukuna tilts his head, chin resting in one hand. âCute. But the next oneâs tighter, right?â
You roll your eyesâtrying to ignore the flutter in your chestâand grab the next dress. The tightest one. Black, short, zipper up the back. You strip off the first dress without looking at him and step into the second.
It hugs you like a second skin. The zipper, of course, sticks halfway up. You grunt, trying to reach around.
âSure you donât want help?â he murmurs, smug.
âI said no.â
Thereâs a pause. Then you hear the soft creak of the bench as he stands. Your breath catches, as you feel him behind you before you hear him. His fingers brush your spine lightly through the fabric.
âStop squirming,â he murmurs. âYouâll jam it.â
He tugs the zipper upâtoo slowly, too deliberately, the gliding motion grazing your skin like a tease.Â
âThere you go,â he murmurs as you look up.
The dress is black silk, soft to the touch and sinfully tight. It hugs every single curve without shame, the fabric catching the light in a way that makes shadows dance across your body. The neckline plunges just enough to make your pulse quicken, and the back dips scandalously low, exposing the gentle curve of your spine.
It stops mid-thighâshort enough to tempt, long enough to tease. The sleeves are off-shoulder, barely clinging to your upper arms, adding that extra edge of vulnerability, like the dress could slip just a little too far with one wrong move.
Sukunaâs gaze is unreadable as he takes in this one, but youâre too focused on one small detail to even worry about that.
Your hands pause at your lower stomach, fingers brushing the slight bump that feels more noticeable in this lighting, in this mirror, in front of him. You tug the fabric subtly, trying to flatten it, your face twisting with discomfort.
Sukunaâs eyes catch the motion immediately. âWhat are you doing?â
You donât answer, just keep adjusting, suddenly wishing the lights were a little dimmer. âIt fits weird here. Makes me lookââ
âDonât finish that sentence.â His voice cuts clean and low, that stern, irritated tone.
You glance over at him, and his gaze has shiftedâno longer teasing, no longer just looking for fun.Â
âYou look good,â he says simply. âThereâs nothing wrong with you. Stop pulling at it.â
You try to deflect with a shrug, suddenly warm in the face. âWhatever. I just donât like how it fits right hereââ
Sukuna steps closer, towering behind you as his hands slip down to rest at your waist. His fingers settle exactly where you were trying to hide, pressing just enough for you to feel it.
âThis part?â His voice dips. âItâs hot. Not sure who put those silly ideas in your head.â
His eyes meet yours in the mirrorânot looking at you, looking through you, like he wants you to see exactly what he sees.
âWear this one tomorrow,â he says, already deciding.
âWhat about the other onesââ
âNo. This one.â
You try to argue, but the words feel thin. You just nod.
You make it out of the changing room aliveâbarelyâand he lets you breathe for a while.
The next stops are easier. He picks out a pair of heels you actually like, lets you test them with a spin, and even hums approvingly when you twirl for him. Then he lets you drift toward the makeup section like itâs no big deal, arms crossed while you test swatches on your wrist. He even pays for everything without blinking, which should annoy you more than it does.
Itâs... almost domestic. Almost.
Too domestic. Which is exactly why the second your guard drops, he grabs your wrist again.
âWaitâwhere are we going now?â
Sukuna doesnât answer. Just smirks and steers you with that same annoying confidence youâve learned to hate. And then you see the store sign. Lace everywhere. Soft light. Satin mannequins. Entire walls covered in things no sane person wears unless they plan on not wearing them for long.
Your stomach flips. âNo. No, no, noâabsolutely notââ
âYou owe me- I sat through the whole makeup segment like a saint,â Sukuna says, voice low and lazy. âBesides what do you think weâre gonna do after I take you out to dinner? You didnât think it was just that, did you?â
âWhâ First of all you were on your phone the entire time! Second of all, thatâs not what I thought,â you stammer, heat crawling up your neck. âI meanâI didnât think anything! And you couldïżœïżœve warned me, you psycho!â
It doesnât help that the saleswoman gives you a courteous, knowing smile.
âWhereâs the fun in that?â he murmurs, already plucking something red and lacy off a nearby rack.
He starts picking things out way too fastâlike heâs been here before, like he already knows exactly what he wants to see you in. A red lace set thatâs mostly straps. A black sheer bodysuit with strategic cutouts. Something so small and silky youâre not even too sure what it actually is.
Your mouth opens. âAre youâseriously?â
Sukuna doesnât even look at you. âYou said youâd try something on. Donât get shy now.â
âI didnât say Iâd try on whatever sadistic thing you pulled off the wall,â you hiss, snatching the red one from his hands. The thing barely weighs anythingâitâs just lace and suggestion.
He finally glances at you, eyes flicking down to the scrap of fabric in your hands, then back up to your face. He smirks. âYouâd look good in it.â
âYou donât know thatââ
âI know your size.â He grabs another hanger. This one is deep wine-colored and... crotchless? You choke on air.
âIâm not wearing that.â
âNo,â he says easily. âYouâll keep that one for later.â
Your entire face burns.
But thereâs that spark againâthe one he always knows how to strike. A tiny thrill under your ribs, curling somewhere low and secret. You hate how easily it lights up around him, how much worse it makes everything. Your parents would skin you alive if they saw you come home with things like this.
And sure, maybe the lingerie is scandalous. Obscene, even. But itâs also⊠beautiful. Beautiful in a way that makes you nervous. Erotic in a way that feels like it wasnât meant for someone like you. This is what people wear when they want to be seen. Worshipped.
Adored.
Youâre not used to that, not sure you believe itâs something youâre allowed to want. Maybe thatâs why it unsettles you so much. Why you keep glancing away from the mirror, like youâre afraid of catching your own eyes. Why you deflectâtell him heâs a total perv for wanting to see you in all that stuff, pretending to be offended with each skimpier set he picks out.
Sukuna doesnât seem to care. He ends up with half a dozen pieces slung over his armâlace, mesh, satin, straps.
âYouâre disgusting,â you mutter, trailing after him as he heads straight for the fitting rooms.
âThank you,â he says, unbothered.
You glance around the store like someone might save you. The girl at the register doesnât even blink as you pass by. Clearly, sheâs seen worse.
You make it to the fitting room and tryâagainâto shake him off.
âIâm going in alone,â you say, palm flat against his chest, blocking the door. âYou donât need to supervise everything, freak.â
He doesnât budge, just glances over your head toward the row of fitting rooms, eyes flicking until he finds the one he wants.
âThis one,â he mutters, guiding you toward the end of the row. You start to protest again, but heâs already turning the handle and nudging the door open with his foot like he owns the place.
âThereâs a seat,â he says plainly.
You freeze. âThereâs what?â
He gestures inside. And sure enoughâtucked in the corner like some kind of luxury upgradeâthereâs a little bench. Padded and polite.
Utterly unbelievable.
âWhy the hell is there a chair in here!?â
Sukuna shrugs, completely unfazed. âProbably for men like me. The ones who pay.â
You scowl. âYouâre not coming in.â
But itâs already too late. He steps inside before you can close the door, brushing past you with that arrogant ease like this is just his natural territory. The lock clicks behind you, and suddenly the space feels smaller. The room is too pink, the lighting too warm, too sensual. Too many mirrors.
You stand awkwardly in the middle of the room, lingerie in your arms, staring at him like maybe heâll take the hint and leave.
He doesn't. Instead he sprawls on the little bench like itâs a throne, legs spread wide, one arm casually draped over the backrest. His gaze is lazy, almost amused, as he watches you, and it grates on your nerves more than it should. You yank a hanger free, desperate to get this over with. You donât even look at the tag, just grabbing the first thing that catches your eyeâsomething black and sheer, satin and silk, its fabric soft but undeniably revealing.
You take a closer look. A chemise.
But not just any chemise. The front has an open bust, leaving little to the imagination, with two thick ribbons dangling at either sideâmeant to be tied over your breasts. You can't help but cringe; the ribbon looks thick enough to cover just your nipples probably, leaving everything else exposed.
âIâm not doing this,â you mutter, voice barely above a whisper.
âYes, you are."
You sigh, a mix of frustration and resignation, and take off your top, holding the chemise against your torso, trying to get an idea of how it might fit.
âYou need to take your bra off too," he adds smugly.
Your face burns, and youâre almost certain you can feel the heat creeping all the way to your ears. You hesitate, the chemise still pressed against your chest, the weight of his words settling heavily in your stomach. You can feel the faint pulse in your throat, and despite the sharp burn of embarrassment, your fingers move to undo your bra, almost without thinking.
Sukuna watches you, the air around him thick with that same, unreadable calm. The amusement never leaves his expression, but it feels like thereâs something more beneath it, like heâs watching a very private performance.
You pull the bra off, leaving you bare chested as you pick up the chemise to put it on. Your nipples stiffen in the air, and you try not to look at the way his eyes are drawn to them, how he licks his lips.
You slip it on, the fabric soft and delicate as it caresses your skin, till the underwire sits right below your breasts. Heat prickles all across your skin, and somehow you feel even more exposed with the lingerie outlining your nakedness.
With another swallow you lift the ribbons to your chest, across your nipples, whenâ
âLet me,â he says, voice low and smooth.
Intense, but not biting. Soft, almost, though the look in his eyes certainly is not â closer to something much hungrier, instead.
But your beyond bound of arguing, not when you feel so vulnerable, so you turn around and timidly walk up to him till your breasts are in his face, holding the ribbons out for him. He takes them from your hands without asking, holding them gently across your bare nipples. The fabric brushes your skinâsoft, deliberate, teasing. Then he slowly begins to tie them.
He pulls the satin taut until the soft weight of your breasts spills out around it, obscene and almost delicate, like a gift heâs unwrapping in reverse before finishing it with a bow, neat and centered. You stare at your reflection, heat blooming across your chest, your neck, your face.
âI look ridiculous,â you murmur, voice barely audible.
âRidiculous,â he repeats, like the very word offends him. His tone turns low, almost lazy. âThen how comeââhe takes your hand, guides it lowerââyouâre doing this to me?â
He presses your palm against the growing bulge in his pants. Firm, heavy and real. Your breath catches as your thighs tense. Your panties grow damp as your mind short-circuits, shame and arousal folding over each other like waves.
âGonna call me a creep or a perv again?â he teases, almost gently. Almost fond.
No. Because those were only reflections of your own discomfort with yourself, werenât they? Because right now you feel desirable, so his arousal makes you want more.
Surrender.
You give in, not caring that youâre in a public changing room, as you straddle his lap and settle, guided more by instinct than thought. Your lips find hisâhot, searing, desperateâand he kisses you back with that slow, claiming hunger that always makes you feel like youâre being owned.
But even in that closeness, something twists under your ribs. A voice.
Not loud, but constant, like pressure behind your eyes. It always shows up when you're too close to him like this, when it stops feeling like a game and starts feeling dangerous.
It reminds you, as it always does, that this isnât forever. That it canât be, even if there wasnât that goddamn deadline.
Because what you have isnât just complicatedâ itâs illicit. Unnatural. Wrong.
Something that canât have a future, not with what he is to you and what you are to him. Because of that twenty-five percent. That shared part of you that ensures this can never become love, only shame and ruin.
It aches, sharp and splintering, like a thorn working its way deeper into your heart. You know you should pull back. That you should start untangling yourself now, before you sink too deep into something youâll never escape cleanly.
But his mouth is like a sedative, his touch a kind of sweet anesthesia that dulls your self-preservation into a low, useless hum.
And so you donât stop. Because in this moment, he makes you forget. Forget whatâs right, whatâs wrong, who the hell youâre even supposed to be.
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and they were roommates pt. 2
pairing : Spencer Reid x fem!student!roommate!reader summary : the BAU team works the case, you get to help word count : 2.3k warning : canon-typical violence, mention of violence and sexual violence A/N : thank you all so much for all the love on part 1 of this !!! I love getting feedback, it's incredibly motivating ! I will probably do a part 3 :)) Also, my cat is sitting next to me as I write this, which I find quite funny
part 1, part 3, part 4
Back at the police station, Spencer had trouble focusing on the case. His mind kept wandering over to you, wondering what you were doing, how you were doing. He was on edge and the entire team could feel it. Hotch pulled him to the side to ask him if he wanted to give you a phone call. Reid refused, but settled on sending you a text, something he never usually did while working. Something he never usually did because he wasn't the biggest fan of technology and also because he couldn't decipher how you were actually feeling without hearing your voice and all the quirks in the way you spoke which gave away your real feelings.
Sent by Dr. Ironed Socks : < Hey. How are you doing? > Sent by You : < Ok, I'm having a tea on the couch. Geoff is in REM sleep on my lap. Thx for checking <3 >
Your text was followed by a pixelly picture of your slightly overweight (Spencer couldn't use that term to describe Geoffrey around you or you'd get upset) orange cat sprawled out on your lap, legs and arms askew, fast asleep. Spencer felt a small wave of relief spread through him. You were okay for now. Geoffrey was looking after you. Later, he'd help you process and give you all the tools necessary to get over such a traumatic event and move on. It was almost as if that was in his job description.
Returning to the room where the BAU team had settled in, Spencer sent Hotch a grateful nod. Hotch moved his lips in what resembled a small smile, Reid couldn't be sure. "Okay," Garcia's voice resounded from the speaker sitting in the middle of the round table, "I've contacted all of Mary Goldman's professors and it turns out she didn't go to class today. Her first class was at 11:30 but she never showed up." "None of the students we interrogated on campus had seen her after 10:15," Emily spoke up. "Spencer's roommate saw her between 10:30 and 11:00," Rossi intervened. "Okay, we'll get her to come in," Hotch affirmed. Spencer's whole body tensed. You had been the last person to see the victim. His mind was so busy reeling, thinking about everything you'd have to go through as the most promising witness, that he missed Morgan's question.
"Reid?" Derek raised an eyebrow. "Uh, sorry, what did you say?" "What was the time of death according to the coroner?" "14:30," Rossi answered. "It was 14:26, actually," corrected Reid. Rossi rolled his eyes. "Okay, so the unsub has his victim between around, let's say 11:15, and 14:26," Rossi shot a pointed look at Spencer, "that's about three hours and 11 minutes. In those three hours, he had time to take the victim someplace where neither of them would be seen or heard, beat and sexually assault her, and finally dump her in smack-dab in front of the university." "He's definitely organised and wants to send a message," Emily thought aloud. "But what is he trying to say? Look at what I can do? You can't stop me?" "Friends," interrupted Garcia, "I'm going to need at least some information before I even try to get anything out of a search. He's taking and leaving them on campus, so I'm guessing he doesn't necessarily need a vehicle. Does he live in the area?" "Yes, he's local or knows the area, he knows these women and he most likely knows the campus. Search for white males, early twenties with a record of violence and sexual misconduct. Cross-reference that with victims of reported abuse and sexual abuse in the last twenty five years. Run background checks for all university staff. Also have a look at similar victims and MOs in this area in the last five years. This may not be his first time," spoke Hotch. "On it, I'll get back to you when I've found something." "Thanks, Garcia."
You'd taken a shower as soon as you'd arrived home. The water was too hot and you'd scrubbed your skin too hard but getting out, you felt a slight bit better. Heavily disliking the way you still felt, you opted for a cup of Earl Grey tea with milk and sugar. Settling on the couch with a steaming cup in your hands, you tucked your legs beneath you and sighed.
Images of Mary's dead body were printed onto the inside of your eyelids. You still couldn't believe it. Your mind reeled as you tried to think of an explanation for it all. Whichever path you followed, you came up empty. You could not comprehend or imagine any reason of taking the life of an innocent person, especially in such a violent way. Luckily for you, you still didn't know the extent of the violence.
A familiar noise pulled you from your dark thoughts. Geoffrey had just jumped down from his cat tree. You watched him stretch and languidly walk over to you. He meowed once before jumping onto the couch, right next to you. You moved your legs so that you were sitting cross-legged and scratched his head. He purred in delight and pressed himself against you. He sniffed at your tea with an unimpressed look before climbing into your lap before letting himself flop down on his side, stretching out his appendages. You cooed as his pink toe-beans stretched too and laid a hand on his belly, scratching gently. The vibrations of his purrs had a calming effect on you. "Are you trying to make me forgive you for biting my ankle the other day when I wouldn't give you any more treats? You know Spencer says you're a bit overweight, I was just trying to get him to stop body-shaming you, my love..."
A few minutes later, you get a text from Spencer. About thirty minutes after that, you get a phone call from him. "Hey, would you mind coming to the station? It turns out you're the last person to have seen the victim."
"I'll do the cognitive interview." "Reid, I don't think that's a good idea." "Look, yes I'm invested, I know that. But I also know her and-" "Reid, no. This is the reason we such have procedures." "But I-" "Reid." Hotchner's tone translated finality. Spencer's shoulders sank in defeat. He had figured that if he had been the one conducting the interview, maybe it would have been less traumatic for you. He hated the idea of not being there for you, with you, during such a trying moment. He bit his bottom lip.
"I'll do it," volunteered Morgan. Reid felt slight comfort at that, Morgan was one of the few people he would entrust his life to. He could entrust you to him for the interview, even if he didn't like it. Hotchner nodded. "Reid, you work with Garcia, focus on finding other victims with the same MO to help build the profile." Reid nodded and went to find his colleagues.
When you entered the police station, it was almost like he could feel your presence. He came to find you straight away, not wanting to leave alone even for a second. "Hey." "Hey." Reid immediately pulled you in for a meaningful embrace, burying his face in your hair. The smell of your shampoo, conditionner and body wash were bliss to his nostrils. They were a promise that you were here, you were safe, you were okay. Morgan watched from afar, a small smile playing at his lips. He knew Reid, and the hug you exchanged was both too hasty and too tight to be anything casual. "Are you okay? I'm so sorry to have to make you come in, but they're going to do- well I wanted to do it but they wouldn't let me, so it's-"
A slightly older, very muscular and gentle man stepped forward, holding out his hand to you. You shook it. "I'm Agent Derek Morgan. I'm one of Spencer's colleagues. I'll be the one conducting the interview, seeing as there's a conflict of interest with you and Spencer. I hope you can understand that." You introduced yourself and looked at Spencer before answering Derek. "Yes, I understand, it's- it's not a problem." "Great, if you could just follow me, please?" You licked your lips and sent Spencer a look, which he answers with a nod of reassurance and a small smile, before following Derek.
"You can close your eyes if it makes you more comfortable." You were sat in an uncomfortable plastic chair. The light above you was ticking at uneven intervals and the room smelt of worry. You didn't know how you could get any more comfortable, but listening to Morgan's even, alto voice helped a bit. "Okay." You closed your eyes. "You told Agent Rossi that you crossed the victim somewhere around quarter to eleven. Is that correct?" "Uh, yes." "Where did you cross her?" "In the main hall." "Where were you going?" "Um, I had just been to the bathroom and I was heading to my Anglo-American Literary Survey class." "Okay, can you describe to me everything about the moment when you crossed the victim? What you saw, what you felt, smelled, heard? Was anything out of the ordinary?" You opened your eyes.
"Um, I'm sorry, but could you stop referring to Mary as the victim, please? She has a name, which is Mary Goldman, and a victim wasn't the only thing she was." Derek was slightly surprised at your comment but understood where you came from. Separating from the name was a way for profilers to gain some distance from the horrendous violence. Personally knowing the victim, you didn't have such luxury. "Of course, I apologise. What did you feel when you crossed Mary? Was anything out of place?"
You nodded in thanks and tried to bring yourself back to that moment. It seemed unreal, how such a small interaction suddenly held such importance. "O-Okay, uh, my hands are still a bit wet. There weren't any towels in the bathroom. I saw her after she saw me and we exchanged a smile. I thought she looked really pretty today, but I didn't tell her. We really don't know each other that well." "Okay, that's good. Was she wearing anything out of habit for her?" "Uhh, no, she was wearing a pleated skirt and a sweater vest. She often dresses like that, I don't know exactly why I thought she looked pretty. I guess she just looked happy. Nothing was out of the ordinary." "Good. Could you hear or smell anything?" "Yeah, well, there were the voices of other people in the hall. I can hear girls laughing. I smell Mary's perfume when she walks past me. She always wears the same one, it's Chanel, Mademoiselle Coco specifically, she told me once at a party."
"Okay, do you know where she's going?" "I- yeah, she's heading for her Behavioural Neuroscience class." "Is she walking in the right direction?" "Uh... Yes, yes, she is. She's not in too much of a hurry, though, she doesn't like the teacher." "So why is she heading there already, then? The class only starts at 11:30." "She likes to reread the material from the previous week before the class starts." "Why doesn't she like the teacher?" "No one does, all he does is read off his slides and he's a jerk when it comes to grading."
Morgan suppressed a smile at your comment. "Okay, thank you so much, Y/N, this was very helpful." "Was it? I didn't feel like-" "Yes, I promise you've just shared some crucial pieces of information." "O-Okay, if you say so."
All eyes were on Morgan as he entered the briefing room. He put his paper coffee cup down on the table and looked at Hotch. "Nothing was out of the ordinary. Mary was wearing habitual clothes and the same perfume she always wore. She was heading to the same class, as she did weekly, at the same time. My guess is this guy knew her routine and did a blitz attack. Y/N gave me the number of Mary's best friend, and according to her, Mary didn't have any guys in her life except for her dad and brother."
Hotchner nodded. Spencer couldn't help but feeling proud of you for being able to go through with the interview and to provide such useful information, too. He'd have to congratulate you when he got home. "Pretty boy and I found three similar victims in the last three years. They weren't connected to this case because they were in another university, just on the other side of the state line. Last year, three girls, university students, were killed, same MO, all disappeared for about three hours before being found dead in front of the university, they attended," Garcia spoke from the speaker. Spencer nodded in agreement to her words. "What did the police find back then?" asked Emily. "Nothing, they- uh, did all they could during the month that the three murders happened but after the third victim, the unsub stopped," Spencer answered. "Stopped?" Emily repeated, brows drawn together in confusion. "Yeah, he just- stopped killing and disappeared. Our best guess is that something triggered him then and that the same thing triggered him now."
"Oh, another thing," Garcia sounded reluctant to share the information she had, "I looked at all the victims' pictures and... well, I'll just send them to you, that'll be easier."
Spencer's blood ran ice cold as he stared at the four girls on the screen. They all looked exactly like you.
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